#i'm speaking it into existence

[ddarker-dreams]

Unique Burdens.

Enver Gortash x F Reader.

Warnings: Dark themes™, unhealthy relationships, implied kidnapping and major power imbalances. Word count: 1k.

Where there are sparks, there can be fire. 

Concentrate. Hone your thoughts. Refine them, sifting through any impurities. Ichor is woven into your flesh like threads through a hallowed loom. These threads contain arcane energy that some spend lifetimes pursuing, their noses buried in esoteric tomes. 

For you are a scion of a being most high — the Lady of Love’s darling daughter. 

Sune’s always had a soft spot for you, fickle as her favor may be. Whispers carried by the wind offered encouragement at the beauty your artistry brought into the world. Your mother may be distant, but so is the sun, both of which provide satisfactory warmth regardless. This distance never bothered you. So long as you were free to wield a quill, lyre, or rapier, you were content. 

Indeed, her distance never bothered you, until you realized that just like the sun, celestial bodies must give way to the night. 

Focus, focus, focus.

The faintest hum of the Weave resonates within. It reaches out to you, incorporeal hands longing to touch. This is it. Your chance. Your spark. It’s tentative at first, a shy reunion— 

—And then it’s gone. Silenced. 

Extinguished. 

Your shoulders droop as yet another failure joins your ever-growing resume. 

Your shoulders droop as yet another failure is jotted down.

“I never took you for a masochist,” tyranny incarnate muses from behind. “That must be it. Why else would you torture yourself so?”

“I’m no more a masochist than you are a worthy ruler.” 

You try to keep your tone steady and indifferent. Regrettably, of all your artistic talents, acting is not among them. The bitterness seeps out like blood through thin gauze. He must’ve sensed a fluctuation in the ‘connection’ you share. You thought yourself subtle with your tampering, but your sentimentality betrayed you. 

“Ah. That’s where you’re mistaken. There are no ‘worthy rulers,’ only rulers who make their reign worthwhile.” 

“That’s your intention?” 

“That’s my intention,” he mimics your cadence. 

Unwilling to withstand further provocation, you whirl around, ready to slink off. Your abrupt motion proves to be a mistake. The world loses its sharpness, the outline of every object smearing together as your balance falters. A wicked throb blasts through your skull — your reward for this little rebellion. The black fabric fastened around your throat greedily swallows the meal you just offered. 

Its creator steadies your body as if he isn’t the source of your malaise. His hands, covered in golden gauntlets, slither around your bicep. You’re vaguely aware of the short journey to an outdoor table set. Water rushes from the garden’s ivory fountain, the sound crescendoing into something unbearable. The evening sun feels too hot, the summer air, too humid; and the deceptively delicate-looking choker around your neck too tight. 

Gortash barks out orders toward the maids here to serve ‘you.’ They scurry about, their hurried gait like that of a discovered rat colony. You sit at his behest. Commanding others is second nature to him, he enunciates every syllable with the confidence of a man who knows he won’t be challenged. No good comes from fighting it. You panic, you struggle, and then finally, you sink, succumbing to a riptide you never had a chance against. 

He holds a crystal vial to your lips, which you part without prompting. It’s syrupy on your tongue, an artificial sweetness intended to make the tonic more tolerable, owing to your many complaints. Whether he adjusted the formula for your sake or his, you can’t say. 

The viscous liquid stubbornly sticks to your esophagus. Eventually, you force it down. 

Gortash’s elixir circulates throughout your body and soothes the tempest you incited. There’s little you know about the magic that siphons your divinity, but you do know it’s volatile. The insidious inventor sat aside his pride to explain that much. He foresaw that you wouldn’t sit pretty while he sapped your celestial power. An accurate estimate, considering your current predicament.  

He recognizes your lucidity returning before you do. 

“Foolish girl,” Gortash sneers. He takes your chin in his hand, forcing eye contact. The bags beneath his eyes appear darker than when you first met. You suppose you’re to blame for that. “Are you so eager to undermine that you’ll put yourself at risk?”

“What does it matter,” you reply, your glare communicating what your weary voice cannot. “Pain is all I know around you.” 

Gortash releases you as if your skin scalded him.

“Pain? This? You know nothing of pain, aasimar. The word is lost on you.” 

Righteous fury churns your stomach in on itself. 

“Then show me!” You demand. “Show me, if that’s what it takes for you to stop flaunting your godsforsaken ‘benevolence.’ A benevolent warden! Can those two roles coexist? Or are you the one ignorant of words and their meanings?” 

You fight for each breath. It’s been some time since you’ve snapped at him like this. For good reason, you think, noting the murky abyss in his eyes. Lord Enver Gortash isn’t to be spoken to in such a discourteous manner. People have had lips sewn shut and fingers unnaturally contorted for less. His cruelty isn’t random, there’s a methodology behind each stitch and snap. 

Yet here you sit. Physically unharmed, adorned in fine garments, aureate bracelets, onyx earrings, and his favorite shade of rouge upon your lips. You don’t know what to make of this, you didn’t want to know for the longest time either. Should he confirm what you dread, well… at least you’ll have clarity amidst the revulsion. 

He studies you like he would a defective construct he’s one adjustment away to fixing. You loathe how vulnerable you feel beneath his scrutinizing stare, that he has the means to take you apart and piece you back together. 

An eternity passes before Gortash speaks again. 

“... You’re frightened,” he surmises. “Frightened over what it means to be the subject of my affection.” 

Your pulse quickens as the cool metal of his gauntlets brush against your hand. 

“You want my wrath. The sting of a riding crop, the indignation from the welt it forms.”

The gauntlet’s tips dig into your flesh. It almost hurts, until he lessens the intensity of his grip. He’s mastered applying just the right amount of pressure to leave indents behind without breaking skin. He could break you, but he wants you whole, as proof he could conquer you at your best. 

“Keep wanting, you won’t ever receive it. No,” Gortash smiles, the skin beneath his eyes crinkling from mirth. “Endure what it means to have earned my affection instead.” 

#2024 is the year of objectifying old men #i'm speaking it into existence #this is just a lil something so i can get a feel for what it's like to write bg3 .... #gortash x reader #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 x reader #enver gortash x reader #my stuff

[ginaporterr]

haven't made anything in years 😭

#IT'S BEEN WAAAAAAAY TOO LONG #think i'm gonna finally do a full binge this weekend and then get around to at least one of the ideas i've been plotting forever #so many ideas still rattling around inside my head so little time to execute them 😭 #and also celebration sets......... #gonna make a newer idea then hop into the celebration #and then eventually get back to the other things i've been planning since the show ended! #it's a plan #i'm speaking it into existence #LET'S GO #txt

[lesbiankiliel]

manifesting sweden flop in esc 2023

#erina's irrelevant babbling #esc #esc 2023 #i'm speaking it into existence

[xanthezhoupropaganda]

Welcome, Redditors! Important things to know about Tumblr:

You've probably seen this, but add an icon and create or reblog some content before you follow people.

Pay attention to your grammatical style and language use. People find it offputting if it changes a lot from post to post, and you'll probably end up in a social cluster with people who communicate in similar ways.

People like to ramble in the tags. This is the equivalent of whispering to friends (followers). If you really enjoy what someone said, copy the tags and add them to the main post.

There's a lot of fandom content on here. You should pick a few favorites you can talk about in case someone asks, especially a favorite character and what you like about them.

It should be Xanthe Zhou. Everyone here loves Xanthe. You need to go read the Spirit World comics right now.

#reddit migration #reddit #reddit survival guide #reddit blackout #xanthe zhou #most popular character on tumblr #I'm speaking it into existence

[wolfanddragon98]

5 more pages and I will complete this joke of a dissertation. So close yet so far away...

#I'm almost at 70 pages #I WILL SUBMIT IT THIS WEEK #There is no other option #I'm speaking it into existence

[tuliptiger]

Oh my fucking GOD i hate economics "[insert company here] experienced largest quarterly loss in history" whatever who gives a fuuuuuuck. Does that mean they ACTUALLY lost money or does that mean they're back to making NORMAL profits. I hope they lose more, I hope they all go bankrupt or burn or lose more or any number of terrible things.

#words #I'm speaking it into existence

[amlovelies]

so close to getting the things I’ve been crying about wanting for years and I swear to god if this falls through I may never recover

#purple walls a kitty cat and a stained glass window #I'm speaking it into existence #we are so close I can taste it #just as long as someone else doesnt slide in with a better offer #I'm literally shaking with anxiety #I just want my purple walls and a kitty cat #that might fix me #please please please please #sky speaks

[lightasthesun]

manifesting to meet tumblr friends in the next 3 years

#I'm speaking it into existence #Mutuals #internet friends

[ofdinosanddais1]

I am being presented with an opportunity to see my best friend I haven't seen in a long time. I am supposed to be entering a new chapter cycle in my astrology. My dad has agreed to take me to do this and he deserves the world for this. The only answer I am waiting for is for tomorrow because that's when I have the money to pay for it.

And it's all because of Melanie Martinez

I know the Universe has something planned. It's laying this at my feet. I have the resources to accept. And accept I shall.

#random #melanie martinez #melanie martinez concert #also kind funny how it's because of her album about rebirth #universe don't fail me now #gonna see my best friend #it's going to happen #i'm speaking it into existence #i'm channeling all of my witchy powers into this opportunity #i'm usually a go with the flow person but this is important #portals

[sarakipin]

I'm replaying Dragon Age Inquisition 🧍

#dragon age #dragon age inquisition #dai #varric tethras #cassandra pentaghast #solas #I'm speaking da4 into existence #my art #sara kipin #sketches

[seventh-fantasy]

圣人有情而无累

dihua + 情 | 莲花楼 mysterious lotus casebook

#莲花楼 #mysterious lotus casebook #asiandramasource #dailyasiandramas #cdramasource #asiandramanet #cdramagifs #cdramanet #gifshistorical #cdrama #cheng yi #dihua #lhlgifs #jielin's edits #my posts #情 sentiments (not romance or love) / 圣人有情而无累 a sage possesses feelings but is unburdened by it #sgm lxy was described to be cold and unfeeling to the extent he's likened to a ''dead person'' #not bc he was above feelings. bc clearly when he was made to face it...it went very badly #so llh ending at the point where he's so composed and at ease despite having to leave everything he cared about behind. yeah. #one would think llh would have been dead from bicha by then. but he's never been more alive tbh #very much a xianxia/cmyth narrative. by the theoretical definitions of xianxia/cmyth #it's a dihua thing to me also since it is them that evoked in one another each of their own ordeals with 情 #dfs said to lxy that 你的弱点就是喜欢当英雄. what is good pretending your motivations are so noble #bc dfs had lived his whole life for himself and only himself. he does not pretend to be more than that #and the interesting thing is when it's followed by 一个剑客不该有弱点 as if he's speaking as the 理 of wulin. #being weak is bad and it means you'll lose. that's just the rule of wulin #he is that sort of paradoxical existence... #lxy goes on to prove otherwise as llh. while existing to bring to surface the 情 in dfs #-> just know i do not know what i'm talking about anymore i just have lots of convoluted thoughts about these two im incoherent about #uhhh enjoy some nice gifs!

[spittingspite]

Y'all don't understand I didn't think they'd do it

I didn't see the leak. I'm assuming it was about the kiss but I didn't see it I just knew it existed and did my best to avoid it. I went into season 2 blind, fully expecting Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship to be similar to season one: small romantic moments, a few puppydog eyes from Aziraphale, soft little glances, something undeniably there but never stated or named. I was ready for a season where they loved each other but loved each other in their own way, a way easily read as romantic but a way that many, many people would also easily read as not romantic at all. I was ready for the extent of what we got to be something similar to season one and Neil and the casts' word that they love each other

I didn't think we'd get a kiss. I didn't think we'd get a confession. I was ready to not get those things, I was okay with not getting those things. My main worry was people getting their hopes up about a kiss and then being disappointed, or even angry, when it didn't happen. I was like "it would be nice, but I doubt Neil and the rest of the team will want to take that route, which is fine it's their story after all". I cannot stress enough that I did not think they'd do it

And then they did it

(While ripping my heart out but they did it nonetheless)

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens season 2 spoilers #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 #go2 spoilers #go s2 #go s2 spoilers #oh look she speaks #you don't UNDERSTAND I WASN'T READY #i dropped my tablet. i stared in shock for like at least a minute #i rewound it and watched it again all the way to the end of the kiss #paused again #sat in shock again #sent a voice note with a choked off scream to my irl #rewound AGAIN. stared again. rewound one last time then kept watching in absolute agony #it's been like. 4? 5? hours and i'm still in absolute disbelief #scrolling back up the tag to see gifs and videos of the kiss again. like if i don't keep looking at it it'll cease to exist #asking myself if i really saw what i thought i saw. if somehow my dumb shipper brain is misinterpreting it #but it's not. they did that. they really did that. they really really went for it #don't get me wrong i wanted it!!!!! #i wanted it very much!!!!!!!!! #i just. didn't think i would get it. and i was okay with that #i've already told my irl and my discord friends about this but i just. #i can't get over how much they did the EXACT THING I NEVER WOULD HAVE DARED DREAM THEY'D DO #i'm torn between being so full of emotions i'm gonna explode and lying on the floor as a shocked emotionless husk #i really really did not think we'd get this. i didn't think they'd commit like this #holy shit

[reallilystuff]

places him gently in ur palm and scutters away.

part 1 of just drawing the dca in outfits I'd like to yoink for my own wardrobe | part 2

my friend showed me the wonders of actually using a stylus on ibispaint instead of my fingers so I will be drawing moon too since I got the energy. in a skirt. because why not. we ball

#listen I think sun deserves the joy of hello kitty in his life. someone get this guy a plushie asap #also hide ur kids hide your wives and malewives I'm finally getting good at actually rendering!! #im like so joyful rn #oh yeah tags. fuck I hate tagging so much help me #dca #fnaf sun #fnaf daycare attendant #sun fnaf #sundrop #fnaf #fnaf sundrop #hi guys am I done yet. probably not #fnaf dca #fnaf sb #dca fandom #fnaf security breach #im done no more im practically laid out in the family guy death pose as we speak #hey hello kitty has crossovers with fucking everything what would a fnaf crossover look like. genuine question #or does that already exist? #reallilystuffart #my art #cw eyestrain

[smokestarrules]

Paper Girls. First Kill. The Wilds. Gentleman Jack. Batwoman. Teenage Bounty Hunters. The Owl House.

Warrior Nun. 

#why am I even surprised at this point #fucking hell #warrior nun #you know what actually I'm tagging these #paper girls #first kill #the wilds #gentleman jack #batwoman #teenage bounty hunters #sapphic shows aren't allowed to exist #toh #the owl house #smokey speaks #500 #1k

[sun-marie]

Like as a self-proclaimed fan of romance in video games (including dating sims my beloved), it really feels odd when I hear people say a game isn't worth it because it lacks romantic options. The first Pillars of Eternity game doesn't feel empty when it doesn't allow the Watcher to smooch someone, bc that's not the focus of the game and the depth of the character writing and world building are so rich even with the absence of romance. As a Kaidanmancer ME2 is my favorite Mass Effect even without romancing anyone because the characters are wonderful regardless and the atmosphere is immaculate. Is Fire Emblem Echoes a lesser FE game bc I can't choose who Alm loves? Or are they trying to tell a story of two bound souls connected across a continent?

In my mind when it comes to RPGs, romance options are and always have been a luxury. Role Playing Games have a story to tell, first and foremost, and sometimes romance doesn't always fit with that story. Again, I love romance options in RPGs, but the absence of them shouldn't devalue a game. And trying to force games that aren't focusing on romance to do so, while there are many many dating sim-type games out there explicitly CENTERED on exploring romantic options, is a losing battle with a lesser end.

#idk it's late and i'm pretty sure this is a non-issue #but sometimes it's frustrating to hear people dismiss games like Avowed bc they have no romance before they've even played them #and like with some people i just want to sit them down and be like. You're looking for a Harvest Moon game #the games that have what you want exist and are out there #and it'd be way more productive to just play those than try to bludgeon every game you play into being them #anyway if ur someone who feels like they're missing some lovey-dovey games #i got some great recs! ask me sometime! #anyway idk what this is #marie speaks

[nikkoliferous]

after reading the one hundred and one millionth inane quote about how Loki is such a pRiViLeGeD pRiNcE while Sylvie is just a poor baby who had no real childhood and had to learn to fend for herself from a young age, I feel the need to point out that even the ONE thing we know about Sylvie's past, the thing that's supposed to be her mAjOr tRaUmA and set her apart from him somehow, was literally stolen from Loki.

this is how Tom described Loki's experience post-suicide attempt back in the day while doing press for Avengers:

“I think he went, like with everything else, to a sort of… it was just like, the worst place imaginable. I think he went to all of the darkest recesses of the universe. I’m sure he had a brush with—several brushes with death. I think he ran into the shadiest characters you can find in the Nine Realms. I think he had to rely on his wits to protect himself. It was really, really, really unpleasant, I think. I don’t have any frame of reference for that, except for imagining what it might be like to be kidnapped by a terrorist or something and have to survive a very, very frightening and precarious existence. But whatever it was, it was important when Loki came back for The Avengers, that whatever compassion he had left was absolutely shriveled to a minimum because of the experience that he had. Harrowing, I think, and scarring for life—in a way that Thor and Odin and Frigga find very, very difficult to understand.” [source]

and now the show pretends that Loki teamed up with Thanos completely of his own will, even though Marvel had JUST confirmed that the sceptre was influencing him throughout Avengers, and they hand that traumatic backstory that was Loki's off to their precious OC.

#i'm so tired of talking about this stupid show #i really just want to forget it even exists #but i feel like this is an aspect of the show (and the narrative being pushed relentlessly in interviews) #that doesn't get talked about much if at all #we talk about her stealing his clothes and his spotlight and his history of trauma generally-speaking #but even the *specifics* of her trauma (that's allegedly soooo much worse than loki's!) #were literally copy/pasted from him #it's pathetic and insulting and i will evidently die mad about it #into the larryverse #loki (2021) #loki tv series #sylvie laufeydottir #mcu salt