#idfk what this post is about

[todayisafridaynight]

'tumblr if you snipe the quality of another post of mine im going to break into your cellar and ruin all of your wine' translation: click for better quality

80's version

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #masato arakawa #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #almost finished the line art of this during stream but had to run before i could complete it !!!! sad !!!! #anyway. this was supposed to look sillier- or at least jo and arakawa were supposed to look dumbfounded #idfk what happened during sketching for me to change it but this isnt terrible either i dont think. s'alright #ill mourn that alternate version tho... i wanted the vibe of a gag manga if we know what i mean #but again This Is Fine. i also havent drawn in about ten days so i should post SOMETHING to remind people i draw LMAO #maybe if i make an 80's Version of this i can go with that idea... hm....... might fit better too... we'll have to see don't quote me #you CAN throw a brick into my inbox and say you'd like to see that tho. if you want. #anyways im done looking at this i need to be consumed with existential dread again byyyyye

[fatherentropy]

overly dramatic storytelling about Lily’s grandma because that’s what I do and also Autumn is here

#CWart #The Elder Scrolls #Altmer #long post #Autumn tbn #me. holding up a new fucked up child OC: 'hey what if I made her tangentially related to my other fucked up child OC' #Laughing Lily #I'm suddenly so nervous about this idfk why dsafweo #anyway. testing Tumblr's new long post shit

[rbtlvr]

if you look in the dictionary under the definition of '(derogatory (affectionate))' you see a picture of him btw

(Totally Not Leo jester guy belongs to @liketheletter-l)

#rottmnt #idfk what to tag this as WHEEZE #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #like okay im putting it in the tags bc who is going to stop me. its TECHNICALLY rise fanart its fine dont worry about it #[posts art at 11:30 at night. like a normal person] #anyway he needs to stop being so fun to draw #eye strain #probably. idk but better safe than sorry #good lird my tags are all over the fuckin place #my art #i think thats everything. probably #anyway sets him loose in the wild. be free #<- hes an invasive species hes going to eat all the plants and wildlife #this is the worst idea ive ever had

[oscconfessions]

the ship name for mephone4 and dr fizz (mefizz) is cute n all and fizzphone is ok but i want another alrernative.... hmmmmm.

like. uh. digital drink???? soery i have no ideas i want them to have another ship name i just like them a lot

-🥤

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#im so bad at these names what about uhhh pixelated pepsi or carbonated connection idfk #fizzphone will be my favorite forever and ever though-📻 #confession #/ii #/ii/dr fizz #/ii/mephone4 #/ii/dr fizz/mephone4 #ALSO SORRY I WOULDVE POSTED THE RESPONSE ON MY ACRUAL ACCOUNT BUT IM SO WORRIED ILL FORGET SO

[wundrousarts]

Morrigan's Dream

In Chapter 29 of Hollowpox, Morrigan wakes up from a dream:

Morrigan woke the next morning with a start, her heart racing. She’d been dreaming of something strange and awful—broken glass and plumes of black smoke and a distant cry in the dark. Two button-black eyes shining at her from the shadows. A snatch of song she couldn’t quite remember. A feeling of something precious, slipping through her fingers.

There are two prevailing theories on what this dream could mean.

It's related to what happened with Morrigan's mom

It's related to the Courage Square Massacre

I think there's equal evidence for both, I'm going to tackle this from the Courage Square angle and then the mom angle, because why not. Both are very plausible.

Let's take it step by step.

Possible meaning if it's related to the Courage Square Massacre:

broken glass and plumes of black smoke and a distant cry in the dark

Whatever this is, this is clearly a scene of destruction. The broken glass bit is pretty straightforward. The black smoke could be from fires, or it could be from some Squall creations, like the Hunt of Smoke and Shadow or his "army of monsters." The distant cry is also fairly self-explanatory, and could be people crying out as they're killed, or outrage at the betrayal.

Two button-black eyes shining at her from the shadows.

Squall. That's it. Who else has been explicitly stated to have the same "button-black eyes" eyes as Morrigan?

A snatch of song she couldn’t quite remember.

This could be a Wunder-summoning song. From who, is the question– by Squall, or someone opposing him?

A feeling of something precious, slipping through her fingers.

Life and it fading (or also possibly Wunder as well, but also in the context of dying).

Possible meaning if it's related to Mog's mom:

broken glass and plumes of black smoke and a distant cry in the dark

Again, a scene of destruction, with the same possibilities as mentioned above.

Two button-black eyes shining at her from the shadows.

Still likely to be Squall's eyes because of the "shining from the shadows" bit, but I do wonder if Mog gets her eyes from her mom, or if the black eyes are a uniquely Wundersmith thing.

A snatch of song she couldn’t quite remember.

The classic trope of a mother singing a lullaby that the child barely remembers. Maybe, if Squall is here, this is connected to how he recognizes Mog's Nocturne song? (I think that's at least partially due to it sounding like his song, but that's a theory for another post.)

A feeling of something precious, slipping through her fingers.

Mog losing her mom or her mom losing Mog. Or, again, just an abstract way to talk about death/life leaving someone.

Surrounding context in Hollowpox

I think it's interesting to note when in the story this moment takes place. It takes place immediately after people are chanting at Mog once they've found out that she's a Wundersmith, and immediately before Mog wakes up with her Inferno imprint. I feel like, regardless, it's related to her being a Wundersmith.

So, perhaps it's a memory of the Courage Square Massacre, passed down from those who came before her? If this is the route, perhaps she'll uncover more to the moment as she masters more Arts.

Or perhaps it's a memory of what happened to Mog's mom? If this is the route, perhaps it's an early manifestation of Mog's powers. Additionally, though, it raises the question: was Squall there, and if so, why?

#nevermoor #nevermoor theory #hollowpox #i love making theories while also being super indecisive and having several simultaneous concurrent theories about something lol #hopefully this is coherent enough. its like 80% a solid crosspost so. #as usual if anyone has any questions or ideas of their own just send me an ask 👍 #I desperately need to rework and update that theory nav post of mine. idfk what I was thinking with that. ugh. #I feel like i had more to add to this but then got distracted and forgot anything I was gonna say so. whatever lol. #wrote this last night and then proceeded to forget to send it out of my drafts 🤦 #unfortunately still do not remember anything related to this theory? these theories? that I suspect I may have forgotten. oh well. #'more to the moment as she masters more arts' bars

[gummy-axolotl]

I love multigender people they're so cool it's wild

I'm jealous of their ability to not be misgendered like "yea I am a boy and a girl and a moss-covered-rock. She/It/He/They/Any Neos idc"

I'm over here stuck with they/them anything other than that is like :(

I don't have a gender I simply cannot comprehend their power it's like trying to decipher an angel or something idk

#what the hell was this post supposed to be #idfk i was thinking about autumn #hi autumn! #gender #lgbtq #nonbinary #random thoughts #rambling

[anidealistatbestburntoutatworst]

fukuchi: “i’m so sick of you two fighting it is driving me crazy,,, so you’re going to sit here and say five things you like about eachother.”

jouno: “i think it’s really cool how you are always so useless unless we’re directly involved in combat.”

tecchou: “i think it’s really neat how everything about you is just a collection of false promises you make to yourself to excuse your actions.”

jouno: “i love that despite being a terrible partner you can’t be single because being alone would force you to acknowledge how unbearable you are!”

tecchou: “i love the sound of you viciously sobbing and hyperventilating when you are experiencing severe emotional distress.”

jouno: “i really like how statistically you will probably die before me!”

fukuchi *shocked at the twos responses*: “oh my god you two where did you learn to talk about eachother that way?!”

#i didn’t know what color to use for the other character flame me if you feel so inclined #i quoted this but idfk where the original is from #oh my god i posted about characters i’ve never posted about before (dances cringely) #the hunting dogs #bsd tecchou #bsd jouno #bsd fukuchi #heyyy fandom sorry to disappoint you again #bungo stray dogs #ship post and shitpost #bungo slay dogs #under all that angst surely there’s some homosexual love #bsd season 4 #bsd anime #i love them sm #i’m surprised i haven’t posted them before #this is so them #hello silly little gay people reading this tag #bungo stray dogs manga #they’re both so stupid #they’re both gay and they’re both sad #i feel like my tags are losing their sparkle #bsd hunting dogs

[stick-named-figure]

Thinking about how Purple's the only other stick we see actually use King's staff while it has a Minecraft block inside of it. Like Yellow tried to use it but couldn't even get the command block to work it seems when they had it in e25, but Purple managed to call some of that... shadow energy?

Like bestie what is that. That'd kill someone. Oh man.

#self post #avm #musing #idfk felt like capitalization i guess. lol #im exaggerating about the death but we also havent seen anyone else get hit by that kinda stuff i think? #and like #it seems to be more... intent based on how the staff works. So what exactly was purple feeling here?

[woundedheartwithin]

Bubblegum

Lost Judgment | Sugiura/Tsukumo

Tsukumo takes the last piece of bubblegum. Sugiura has an idea on how to share it.

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“Are we out of gum?” Sugiura asks, rummaging through the candy bowl they keep on the coffee table, and he hears Tsukumo’s chair squeak as he turns around.

“Sorry, Sugiura-shi, I think I just took the last piece.” He says, a stricken look on his face when Sugiura looks up at him. “I can give you some money to buy more if you want.” He offers, and Sugiura straightens and puts his hands on his hips, tilting his head and humming thoughtfully.

“What flavor is it?” He asks after a moment, smirking at the perplexed look on his partner’s face. “The piece you took, what flavor is it, Tsukumo-kun?”

“Um… watermelon?” Tsukumo replies, fidgeting in his chair as Sugiura studies him. “Why?”

“Hm. Watermelon’s my favorite.” Sugiura sighs, stepping forward and leaning a hip on Tsukumo’s desk. “That’s a shame.”

“Well, I’m sorry, Sugiura-shi. Would you… would you like me to go buy some more?” The other man says, cheeks flushing as he hangs his head. “I can—“

“That’s not exactly what I’m getting at.” Sugiura chuckles, then leans over him, bracing one hand on the arm of Tsukumo’s chair and grabbing his chin with the other. “You don’t mind sharing, right, Tsukumo-kun?”

“Huh?” He squeaks, and Sugiura kisses him, just the softest brush of lips at first before he deepens it, tasting sweet watermelon as he presses his tongue into Tsukumo’s mouth. Then he pulls back, blowing a bubble and laughing when Tsukumo spins around in his chair with a giddy little squeal and covers his face with both hands.

#yakuza #lost judgment #Sugiura fumiya #tsukumo makoto #Sugiura/tsukumo #my writing #what’s the ship name? #tsukusugi? idfk lol #anyway just a cute short little idea I had and wrote in about 10 minutes #very lightly proofread #I’ll give it another once over before I post it on AO3 tomorrow

[homiro]

WARNING FOR LONG POST THAT WON'T GO UNDER A BREAK. FLICK IT UP OR SCROLL PAST IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ A MESSY FUCKING RANT ABOUT FANDOM BEHAVIOUR, ABUSE, TRANSPHOBIA, ANTI RADICAL FEMINISM AND MORE SHIT. THIS IS NOT COHERENT.

I have two hangster fanfics started but I don't feel like finishing them especially because I just keep writing and writing and making them longer and longer and like if I ever finish either of them I won't even leave the comments open if i post them and I probably would post but yeah the last piece of shit i wrote was met with nothing but insults and animosity so im like still very angry about that. like the least horrible of the THREE assholes who decided that insulting me was something they had the right to do instead of just saying 'your tags are wrong, fix them' tried to go on about oh you leave comments open so you're open to criticism uwu and girl criticism is basically tearing someone to shreds so if i don't want your damn critiques what makes you think that I want to be insulted? where did i say that i had a degradation kink? so yeah, i have a very bad impression of this fanbase. it seems very clique-y to me and it's funny because it's a minuscule fanbase no matter what this user tried to say I'm not stupid and making a single fanfic a series to crank up the number of fics isn't as sleek as yall think it is. like you can do it i'm not judging but don't tell me 'um akshully this is a super popular shipppp' like yeah within a fandom with maybe 1000 active users maybe lol and I'm just in a I want to fucking speak up about EVERYTHING mood and I'm tired of always being shut down, lectured, insulted, and treated like shit and expected to just be 'the bigger person' motherfucker no. i am 166cm tall that's 5'6'' or some shit I don't know american, that's not very big is my point so i won't be the bigger person and ignore and delete and blah blah. WRITING IS MY HOBBY AND WHEN YOU COME FOR IT, FOR THE THING THAT HAS KEPT ME MILDLY SANE SINCE I WAS FUCKING 7, WE HAVE A PROBLEM. no, i don't care that i write like shit. it's free. i do it for free because i like to do it. it's the only way i can express myself and even there i get shut down and mocked because im mediocre in everything i fucking do, thanks for the reminder, it's not like my abuser didn't remind me of that for well over 20 years lol /sarcasm/ if you don't like someone's shitty writing, you have the option to click the fuck back and not being a massive piece of entitled shit. i don't know what's wrong with this fanbase honestly i have gotten hate before but never this fast and never to this scale on a stupid fucking fanfic that was very fucking clear for anyone who had taken the time to read it before telling an abuse survivor what abuse is and absolutely getting it fucking wrong lol i am proficient in 7 languages, and my preferred writing style is simple because i understand the value of being understood for more than one reason.

why do people think it's acceptable to be cunts to strangers online? if you wouldn't say the shit you say to people online to people in real life, THEN DON'T FUCKING SAY IT. and yes, i would say all of this here in real life and that is why I am typing it down. i'm literally a chronically depressed dysphoric motherfucker with generalised anxiety, cptsd and semi-functional autism, you think i wouldn't lash the fuck out in real life? you're wrong. i'm actually much worse in real life. i'm the sweetest fucking pie if you respect me but if you treat me like shit expect to get the dressing down of your fucking life or punched in the nose because sometimes i become non-verbal when angry and that's bad because i am reactive to abuse. and online that translates to not shutting up, in real life it translates to violence. but the thing is that in real life people are aware of dos and don'ts. online people just become their fucking regina george wet dream of a school bully.

and i've had fucking enough of being treated like shit. i've had enough of people thinking that being a cunt is cool or edgy. i've had fucking enough of the yes queen slay culture that sees women displaying disgusting, abusive behaviour and applauds it as something good. because 'socking it to the men'. i hate radical feminists for this reason and it's funny that their fascist ideology is spreading like a disease and nobody seems to notice, especially because the pipeline from radical feminist to trans exclusionary radical feminist is an archway not a pipeline. before you know it, you'll see trans masculine people and trans men as 'traitors' and 'wanting male privilege' and 'still women deep down' and 'still has a vagina so she's a woman'. and i'm not pulling this out of my ass, i watched this happening in real time more than once. god i'm so fucking angry i'm just vomiting all the shit that's been pissing me off for months. and i'm talking about this because this shit is so prevalent and commonplace that i, who have been sure that I want to go through with fully transitioning, have been reconsidering because of the insidious hateful comments from terfs/radfems and casual sympathisers with the ideology of those people and the dysphoria i've been feeling has been making me want to wear an actual literal mask outside and carry a fucking fake sword in a scabbard so that nobody will approach me. i have isolation tendencies that are very strong and have been with me since i can remember and i can remember as far back as 4 years old. and then i have to see these fuckers try to find 'articles' to support their hatred and bigotry when they are the literal reason why we fucking kill ourselves and just put up with feeling miserable and don't transition. i don't want to be even more ostracised and treated like shit. i don't want to be even more treated like i'm holding an unpinned grenade just because i don't want to put up with people who insult me and make me feel bad and react to that and fight back. i don't have self-esteem, i fucking hate myself, i feel like ripping my body to shreds every damn day and then i have to work from home the shitty jobs i can do that barely pay for my meds and definitely don't pay for therapy because being around people and too much stimuli makes me shutdown like to the point where i can't speak. So you see the issue maybe idfk that I come online to unwind and write shit as a hobby and mind my damn business and take the time to say look I have these issues and people see that list as 'oh look an easy target for my being a cunt wet dreams because this one will react and I'll seem like a saint! UWU'

and why did this have to involve this ship from top gun? well, because i liked the ship, i wanted to write for it, because writing is my hobby, and what i got was abuse lol and then gaslit into thinking it wasn't abuse and that i had to accept being called names lol 'oh there are no victims uwu i will concede that insulting you was not very nice uwu' but i didn't get a single fucking apology i had to apologise because i was triggered since i couldn't actually do anything and im always ALWAYS on my own even if i cry for help, it never comes, no matter what's fucking happening. even friends just say oh well i didn't see that so oopsie daisy sorry you felt bad and nobody defended you as as been the norm your entire life' like i'm just fucking TIRED. i'm tired of never being good enough. im tired of my friends never having my back. i'm tired of only being told oh actually you weren't wrong when it's already over and i'm already feeling like shit mentally and can't cope with the ruminating feelings of being perpetually misunderstood, mediocre, and alone. 'oh having to stand up for yourself makes you stronger uwu' fuck you a million fucking times. no it doesn't. it makes you paranoid, it makes you isolate, it makes it hard for you to maintain friendships, it makes you a loner, it makes you depressed because you're not supposed to be alone because humans are social animals. and i guess that's the bottom line lol i feel utterly and completely fucking alone. the only person i regularly see and talk to is my brother who also has cptsd and is autistic like me lol obviously we grew up in the same shitty environment and these things tend to be hereditary so yeah i have to mask even with him because he's almost 11 years younger than me and is going through that early 20s phase of your life where you're just lost and don't know what you want and feel bad and as the older sibling i feel that it's my duty to try and pretend not to feel as bad as i do but it's getting harder and harder and im not putting this under a read more break. happy fucking mental health awareness day. enjoy your nothingburger posters and yellow pins of performativity.

rant over.

#homiro said some shit #long post #text #rant #vent #anti terf #mental heatlh #fucking gonna tag it and if you don't like it feel free to prove my point #hangster #yeah that's fucking right #this is what triggered me and i haven't stopped thinking about it because it's my fucking hobby #abuse mention #actually autistic #actually cptsd #trans #fuck it let it show up on all the damn tags lol block me and filter my url tho i don't think i'll ever post anything like this again #i'm just tired of my drafts being full of unposted vents because im scared of more abuse because people online are fucking insane #and have wet dreams about being cunts to maybe cope with having been bullied in school idfk #but i wasn't a bully so why do i have to take your abuse #the answer is i don't.

[justanotherfanartist]

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#back on my super personal posting bs #last basketball game for the band tonight #augh and misery but at least it’s at Cool Big Semi Circle. Two hour drive at least tho. sigh. #if u from my state you know what I mean. actually wtv it’s obvious idfk Tacoma Dome moment lmaooo #man. last thing of band for the whole year kinda sucks ngl #our band is fucked don’t get me wrong but a part of me still loves it with a lot less cynicism than most of my friends n other band kids do #part of me is like yeah there’s stuff that sucks. but also this is where I’m meant to be and I’m having a good time #the reality is that our director sucks our band sucks nobody practices and we don’t really play well #but in my head #I’m doing well #i practice. a lot. because I like it #All my friends are here #I’m doing what my dad did in Highschool and being like him makes me really happy #which is especially why I’m switching to drumline next year to hopefully be on snare #I’m actually gonna kill myself if I get cymbals i fucking HATE cymbals I will fight my Director on this actually so hard #cus I don’t know shit about percussion #but my dad is a drummer and so is one of my senior friends who is sticking around after they graduate this year #and they’ve both agreed to teach me over the summer #so I’m gonna go fucking crazy hard into practicing so I can do percussion ensemble next year and do drumline too #I’m literally gonna dig in my trenches and fight tooth and nail to get what I want #and I’ve never really done that before #It really feels like I’m determined to prove myself worth of being a snare #not cymbals #not bass #snare #I feel like I was kind of always meant for this; I’ve just been putting it off yknow? #I’m the child of two divorced music majors #my dad is a drummer who was in band his whole life #he loves it. he loves it so much. #my parents moved to New York to chase their dreams and become musicians

[orcelito]

OK so I have an inkling of an idea for a trigun ficlet. A one-shot, really. Not really any plot, but I just have the urge to write my own interpretation of Weird Plant Shit. Like for how much ppl tag this stuff as xeno, most of it's honestly pretty tame. Which kinda makes sense, considering a lot of this is being based off of the plants in stampede, which While uncanny are not NEARLY the amount of inherent horror of the plants in the manga. There's some FREAKY shit going on there. So like. You know. What if I took more inspiration from That for Vash's freaky shit?

#speculation nation #YES this is for a smut idea. dont judge me #ive never posted smut b4 bc ive exclusively been writing akeshu & theyre teenagers #im not interested in writing smut of teenagers #but i have my interests 😭 and i am an undeniable monster fucker. we been knew. #just. vague idea. ppl have run with the plant idea. & id wanna too. but in a different sort of way. #thinking more. venus fly trap kind of situation. NOT easily translatable to human biology #the kinds of shit that may trip even the most adventurous man up. but we all know he would take it in stride in the end. #idfk so much of the allure of this pairing to me is the inherent inhuman nature of vash's physical form. and how that manifests everywhere #the human and the angel. for all that entails. #i dont have an idea for an actual story for these characters yet. my brain is spinning them but it hasnt come up with that yet #but a lil smth self indulgent to just play around with Fun Ideas? i reaaally wanna go for it. #we'll see if i end up writing this. & if i end up posting it. #im both somehow Very solidly kinky and VERY solidly shy about it. aka why i barely post about that kind of stuff. #face in my hands just talking about this here. who knows how i'd fare with posting it. #but if i go thru the trouble of writing it you BET id go thru the trouble of posting it #and you B E T itd be angsty. the inherent longing and unsaid words. what am i if not an unrepentant angst writer lol #thoughts & ideas r spinning. i will have a merry little time. #uhm. do i need to tag this as anything. is this too tmi? i dont even know #WELL if u read the word 'xeno' and keep reading that's on U. sorry #here just in case if ppl r worried i will tag this as #tmi/ #sorry lol

[backseatloversz]

got told by a whole doctor the health issue i likely have thats causing my constant abnormal levels of fatigue and i still catch myself going "im probably just being dramatic"

#MF!!!! YOU DONT HAVE ENOUGH B L O O D !!!!!!! #caved and dropped a class because 1. i am not interested in the material at all 2. i would much rather focus on finding a primary healthcar #provider & finally addressing the health issues ive just been muscling through for aaages while im still young instead of forcing myself to #idk struggle to focus on classwork due to said unaddressed health issues to work towards a degree idfk what im gonna do with #im not gonna drop out of college ENTIRELY but i am. going to focus.....right now.....I think. on 1. getting my physical + mental health to #better place and also 2. finding a full/part time job w way more hours than my current job. so i can make some MONEY while i figure out wtf #i wanna do with the rest of my life #this is reasonable THIS IS REASONABLE!!!! this is reasonable................i will not let capitalism & the expectation of what young #adulthood SHOULD look like consume me #addressing health issues & getting a job feel very. very reasonable I'll worry about the whole career thing when i am not so. fucking. #spaced all the time!!!!!!! #cowboy posts

[strangecryptid]

someone tell me why people would rather just not talk to me for the chance i might talk about something i like

#vent post #ig??? not really its funny but tagging vent just in case #but no like fr it feels like no one could give a fuck less about what i life and each time i talk about something i like #ppl either change the subject immediately or just ignore me/go silent lmao #i kinda wanna just like stop talking about things i like would that make me bareable to be around? #ok ig this is a vent idfk i don't actually vent often #anyway back to youtube and popcorn