#idk i'm probs thinking too hard about it when it was just supposed to be a quirky lil quip to appeal to modern audiences

[codenamesailordarillium]

Realizing a bit after the fact that 13's comments on the lack of pockets in women's clothing is bothering me like. Just a bit.

Obviously nothing can compete with Gallifreyan bigger on the inside pockets but like, they did have pockets. Actually bigger than the ones we get with modern women's jeans. They were just detachable since historical garments went on in separate layers.

#not something i'd expect jodie or even the writer of the ep to know #not really even smth i'd expect most ppl in the entertainment industry who don't specialize in historical costuming to know tbqh #but like .. it's a show about time travel that's been on for 60 years now bruh (okay 55 at the time of this ep's airing) #idk i'm probs thinking too hard about it when it was just supposed to be a quirky lil quip to appeal to modern audiences #zima watches dw

[fluffypotatey]

Yeah, the Knights of the Round Table are cool, but what about the Squires of the Round Table? I want to know about the pack of hapless adolescents that are supposed to be learning the finer points of knighthood from THEE most chaotic bastards to ever share a braincell.

(Merlin unknowingly becomes, like, the patron saint of squires bc if he can handle Arthur, they can handle their respective masters as well)

no ok i'm in love with this. the squires of the round table is the spin off i didn't know we needed, but by GOD am i glad you told me, anon.

(you are a GEM, anon, i'm in love with you)

the squires for knights are the round table's adopted children. oh, sorry, was that kid the son of such and such??? he's leon's boy now. they all have youngest sibling syndrome so sorry i don't make the rules and yes they do treat merlin like he's a mob wife.

anyway,

these squires would get up to so much shit omfg. if you're the squire to gwaine, have fun upsetting your noble father (because most squires come from the nobility and since arthur took down that rule when he became, then there became this influx of squires who were from the common people) and learning that doing illegal shit is the best thing and you've only tasted a sliver of what gwaine has been doing since he was 13 but you LOVE IT---

squires of sir leon are trained into how to become the mom friend. it's not much, but it's hard work. sometimes the little squires pity their knight because he is not paid enough for for the antics his other knights and king get into ("poetry??? seriously, is that what they told him???" "idk that's roland said" "maybe we should gift him some more moisturizer?"). yes they do treat sir leon with the respect they would give an older cousin.

sir elyan is very new to all this...squire business but he's not one to let his little men (little brothers tbh) be caught slacking. he has them run drills everyday and they complain about it all the time ,but then you'll find them in an empty room perfecting their forms, and making sure it's perfect because sir elyan deserves the best. and he called nathan's form "superb" but nathan's a bitch and you just think that if you get this form right---

elyan teaches his squires moves that were taught to him by tristan and isolde because they totally worked together while elyan was away and he respects them so much and misses them and wonders if they ever got the chance to settle down and breath like they had dreamed

sir percival is second on the list of knights who teaches his squires the more traditional way (first is leon obvi) but that does not mean he let's them fall behind with dirty tricks. listen, this man was friends with lancelot (honorable, noble, dreamed of being a knight since he was prob 15) so he knows the intricacies of knighthood; however, he is also besties with gwaine and elyan both of whom are a chaotic combination if put in the same room. the squires are granted the perfect balance of swishy swordplay and body slamming a bitch. sleeves??? don't know her. the squires beg percival for them to cover their arms and he is offended.

sir lancelot, the epitome of honor and loyalty, is a force to work with. the squires think that he'll be the one whose teaching will lead them far off adventures and gain cool ass scares. lancelot is actually the old coot who grants wisdom like an old man who's lived two lifetimes. his training is unusual but somehow it works. the chores he assigns aren't demeaning, nor are they used as punishment. you are lancelot's squire for a week and you immediately understand that this man is a man who has his heart on his sleeve and you watch as he gazes at the king, the queen, and the manservant. his eyes always fond and full of...something. you are too young to pick up on a deep and unconditional emotion like that. not yet.

#WHOMST DO I HAVE TO PROPOSE TO???? #like the ring is right here i am on my knees please will you give me the great honor of taking my hand?💍🥺 #all the squires have a designated night where they go to the tavern and just talk about their knights #some nights it's a competition to see who's knight is the best or who's knight is the most difficult #'oh you scrubbed the floors for hours :)))) how about shoveling horseshit out of stables until and i am quoting sir gwaine on this: #'the smell resembles more of hay than that pigstye' #'oh gwaine gave you tips on how to pick locks??? well sir elyan taught us how to shoot arrows while riding' #just the most petty and heated competitions ever #if you insult their knights??? you dare insinuate that one was being treasonous or unworthy of their knighthood because of status???? #prepare to face the wrath of of about two dozen adolescents who's mentor figures are the most feral bunch of men to ever walk the earth #please this is beautiful #anon thank you so much imma give you a kiss *mwah!* #Anonymous #bbc merlin #camelot knights my beloved #knights of the round table #sir elyan #oh yeah sir elyan also converts his squires to the hoodie agenda #sir leon #sir percival #sir gwaine #sir lancelot #headcanon #long post #i could add more about arthur and his squire pre/post merlin but i think that's already discussed so yeah #ask #squires of the round table

[coeluvr]

idk why i'm so weirdly into food in this IF but the fact that Lancelot tries his best warms my heart. Also can't help imagine another scene where maybe MC never really could stomach or be comfortable with the cuisine in Rosea and never finished their plate (I always find it quite hard to be comfortable with cuisine very much different than your owns especially if you also add the fact that MC is probs in a very traumatizing/stressful environment too and adapting may prove difficult), maybe Lancelot or the RO's (adult or kid not sure) would notice it and maybe try to make more native dishes for them in hopes they don't really starve themselves anymore.

The second they present it to MC god just imagine their faces seeing MC crying softly while finishing their plate for the first time since the yknow. I just imagine the MC laughing when presented with like burnt food too lmao and then proceeds to just break down almost immediately after they tell them what its suppose to be, cause what the hell kind of life have they been dealt with to be so happy, relieved, or god knows what at this point that someone even cares enough about them to provide them something from their own culture that everyone else seems to despise. God how cruel must it be to deny a child a part of themselves, may it be their food, their culture, their family.

Maybe I'm looking into this a tad much but honestly damn your IF is way too depressing, and I'm just making it worse for myself lmao with imagining this scenarios that has nothing to do with the actual story. Sorry about this long ass ask lol 💀💀💀

Help 😭 it's okay, anon!

To be honest I did pay a lot of attention to food in chapter 1, I'm always hungry so I tend to be like "food scene after the depressing one" 😭 I held back in chapter 2 because I got self-conscious about the way I kept adding food scenes lmfao wait actually I did add food scenes to chapter 2 but there was no describing food part so doesn't count?

It's really sad for MC because I think they won't be able to feel as if they belong anywhere. They are Vesphirian but the truth is that they grew up in Rosea and by the time they are an adult they will know more about Rosea than Vesphire. Maybe the food will seem more foreign than the food in Rosea which they will grow used to as they have it every single day.

The depressing comment made me laugh 😭 I appreciate every bit of your depressing headcanons! 💗

#coe answers #coaaf if: mc #crown of ashes and flames #crownofashesandflames if #crownofashesandflames #interactive fiction #interactive story

[aceofwhump]

Ik this has prob been asked before, but as a fellow ace in whump comm, i'm kinda curious as to how your asexuality affects your perception or preferences in whump? Thanks!

That is such a good and interesting question and I'm so sorry for how long it took me to respond to it but I had never really given it that much thought before and trying to put it into words proved to be challenging. I've written this like 8 times and I'm still not sure I got it. I hope this makes some kind of sense.

Disclaimer: I am only speaking of my own experiences and feelings and how they relate to one another. I am in no way speaking for every asexual, whump lover, or ace whumper. Also my aromanticism and my asexuality are very much connected at times and I sometimes have trouble separating them so some of this is also related to my aro-ness.

There's been a lot of talk in the community over the years about how maybe whump is our way, as asexual whumpers, of making up somehow for our lack of sexual attraction and that whumperflies are our version of sexual attraction and I think there's definitely some truth in that. There's a lot of overlap and similar feelings between the two (as far as I know as someone who doesn't feel sexual attraction) but I don't know how much I personally relate to that theory. It does make some sense I admit that but something about that theory never sat right with me. It's too close that thing that people say that we're missing or lacking something. I've never felt like I was lacking something by being asexual because lacking something means I'm incomplete somehow? And I'm not. I'm just as complete and human as any allo. So the idea that my love of whump or my whumperflies is my brain making up for missing something kinda makes me feel idk weird? I don't know. It's hard to explain sorry.

For me, whump and my enjoyment of it has absolutely nothing to do with my sexuality and in a way I suppose that is how my asexuality affects my perception and preferences. What I mean by that is that when I go in search for whump, when I experience whumperflies, when I like a specific trope or scene or character, there is absolutely nothing sexual about any of it. It doesn't affect who I want whumped. It doesn't affect what trope I enjoy more. Whumperflies are not my version of sexual attraction. In my head, whumperflies just mean I really enjoyed that whump because it made me feel things emotionally and I am reacting to those emotions in a physical way. That's it. Whump is just a genre of fiction I really really enjoy. It's not my kink. It's not sexual for me. It is for a lot of people and that's totally cool and valid but it just isn't for me. Is that because of my asexuality? Yeah probably. More than likely. If I experienced sexual attraction it might make me perceive whump and whumperflies differently. Because I am asexual, whump is just whump.

In terms of my preferences of whump I had a sort of epiphany about this. My favorite kind of whumps are all non whumper whump. By that I mean things that occur not because they are inflicted by another person but more like things that happen to him. Things like nightmares, accidents, natural disasters, sickness, etc. The closest I get to liking whumper whumps are things like gunshots or being chained up. Occasionally kidnapping or torture scenes. All things that don't involve multiple people or someone intimately doing it to another person. And I've started to wonder if that's related to the fact that I am a semi touch averse asexual. If I wasn't asexual would I enjoy whumper/whumpee more? Do I like non whumper whump because I'm asexual and don't like physical intimacy? I don't know. Maybe.

I could also love a trope but if it's not happening to a character I connect with emotionally then it means nothing to me. I need that emotional connection 99% of the time or I get nothing out of it. It's not just the trope, it's the context of it and who it's happening to. Physical attractiveness doesn't really come into play all that often. I need an emotional connection to the character in order to enjoy their whumps.

It also affects the character dynamics I prefer. This is where my aromanticism comes into play as well and gets kinda entangled with my asexuality in a way that I can't quite distinguish between the two so I'm sorry if I get a little confusing here. My preferred character relations are platonic and familial (found or bio). I actively avoid romantic whump mostly because it turns sexual soooo fast. It's become so difficult to find AO3 fics that are not focused on a romantic pairing and are not smut. If that gets into my whump it almost always turns it sour for me. Sex and most of the time romance sours my enjoyment of whump. That is directly related to my aroaceness for sure. 100%. So I seek out friends, siblings, found families, parental figures and their grown "adopted" manchild, mentor/mentees, etc.

The best way I can think of to explain it is the difference between Wednesday Addams and Morticia Addams and their enjoyment of pain and blood and violence. I'm mostly thinking of the Netlfix show right now with this comparison btw. So Wednesday when she's enjoying blood and violence it's because she's just enjoying it for what it is. But Morticia. Morticia's love of pain and violence is much closer related to it turning her on. It's definitely more sexual for Morticia. it is NOT for Wednesday. I am Wednesday (hence why I headcanon Wednesday as aroace among other reasons).

Does that make sense? Does any of this make sense? I'm having such a hard time articulating all of this mostly because I've never thought that hard about it all before. I'm asexual. I enjoy whump. That's as far as I'd thought about it before. Hopefully this all isn't too weird or whatever. It's a good question.

#mod replies #ask #anon #asexuality and whump #about me #whump

[demonsfate]

like yeah... the thing is... dj hospitalized hwoarang, it was nightmares that triggered the devil gene in jin. and not only that... but like, clearly the original devil (devil kaz) was bad and trying to get kaz to do bad things. it was angel that was the good part - there was never any good in devil. and plus you know, it's probs noncanon/has been retconned, but they even go outta their way several times to say dj enjoys eating people in tk6. it's why i actually did kinda scream when jin said "you've always been protecting me... haven't you?" KSNDFJSDF. dj always, to me, felt like the original devil and just tried to get jin on the wrong path - but unlike his father, jin just doesn't listen.

which, i guess i don't entirely mind them making up as a conclusion or whatever. but like everything else in the series, i did wish it was done a lil better i guess. if i'm gonna be honest, i had no intents of writing them making up or giving dj a "redemption arc". in fact, i just thought that jin was gonna finally stand up to dj and say no. have his alice liddel moment where he'll say "you've used and abused me, but you will not destroy me." but no... instead we get dj saving him and apparently was always a guardian devil or something - jin's just only been denying him when he shouldn't have LOL. hell, i've written drabbles where jin does get rid of dj.

so i find myself slightly disillusioned when writing them right now. because the way i've written dj, i had mostly written him as an entity who's gained some sentience, is an overall mess, but mostly incapable of actually loving somebody other than feeling like he does. (by that i mean mimicking jin's feelings and believing them to be true). dj was a very vague character when i write him - writing that he does seemingly miss jin (after "killing" him LOL) - but made it unclear if he actually cared for jin, or if he was just uncomfortable by change. as the original intention when i wrote their relationship was supposed to reflect an abusive or toxic relationship of any kind. as i was inspired by how the comics wrote them - with dj being highly manipulative of jin. putting him down at times, but then supporting him at others. that means there is a lot of hatred in mind when writing these two.

therefore... that's why i find myself a bit scrambling when writing what tk8 did. which i guess that itself isn't a problem of tk8. but it is hard for me to write that jin and dj made amends when dj has done nothing but been absolutely horrible to jin, and also whose actions led to thousands of deaths. i have a hard time writing it without the fear that it sounds farfetched or unconvincing - kinda like how it's unconvincing for people to just be buddies with canon jin all of a sudden in 8. but like, it just kinda feels weird writing it this way, too. i know i can just discard tk8. but like... there are indeed things i enjoyed about it, and i do want a conclusion for jin. it's just that his and dj's relationship is def the weirdest and hardest thing to incorporate about it into my canon.

and really like, my dj was very pissed at jin, too - just as upset as jin was with dj. like they were both at a point where they just absolutely hated each other and felt wronged. so that makes it harder for them to be like "okay. we're cool with each other now. :)"

the easiest explanation i've got for this so far is that jun's powers or jin's kazama powers within "purified" dj. so instead of getting rid of him, he's still around - only as a more angelic being. because he's different and wants to help, jin finds it hard to totally hold the past against him. because it does feel like, in a way, he's talking to a new or changed person. i guess i changed it that dj did indeed care about jin but never admit to it or wanna accept it until now. so yeah.

idk thinking about it, it does remind me a lot of kingdom hearts 3 and why i was so critical about that game's story (altho i found myself less bored with TK8 than i did KH3). the scene where jin says "you've been protecting me all this time yadayada" felt on par with riku just joking he's gonna miss ansem. y'know... these dark entities that have been terrorizing these hosts and making their lives hell... but now they're all acting friendly toward each other. it's weird. IT'S WEIRD! KH3 was filled with fanfic like writing (by that i mean little conflict and everyone's just friends or back from the dead for no reason just to be Happy)

#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc) #// i was gonna write my thoughts on the other parts of the story - #// but instead i went to talk more about dj and how it affects my writing #// bc this got long enough itself #// prepare for a pt2 where i just talk about the story itself and not much regarding my blog lol #// (other than to say *i* am right about retconning tk6 and that's what they should've done LOL) #t8 spoilers

[plutobutartsy]

omg stella btw i have two new ocs they’re called beatrice ardovini & atlas caron & here is their premise;

dria goes to work at a magic school in the us in her ‘season two’ after the main vsor plot. this school is run by beatrice & atlas, two very argumentative individuals who have extreme differences of opinions on the regular. dria’s aunt stella recommended her for the teaching job to the two of them, so she’s a little bit in nepo baby fashion closer to the two than the rest of the teachers. so, dria is the first to discover

that beatrice and atlas are, in fact, married

and they have two twin five year old daughters, lætitia and honorine.

they have an AMAZING marriage. like their workplace arguments are dumped at the door and then they get home and have the most insanely loving marriage and are incredible parents. then they get to school again and are fangs bared #evilface towards each other!!! their separation of work & home is truly unmatched.

but idk what i want them to look like do u have any ideas lmao beatrice is a fire mage & atlas is a dark mage :3 no prob if not my mind is just completely blank and i wanted to yell about them anyways

OMG I LOVEEE RELATIONSHIP DYNAMICS LIKE THAT SQUEALING "hate each other in public, doting and affectionate in private" UHM. TOP 5 RELATIONSHIP DYNAMICS EVER??

okay design ideas!!!

for beatrice you could really lean into her being a fire mage but in a way that isn't neccessarily just RED COLOUR PALLETTE!! RED RED RED!! you know

fire is dangerous so i associate angular shapes with it. this could translate into beatrice being rather thin and bony. sharp cheek bones, narrow nose, bony fingers etc. piercing gaze. thin, well defined eyebrows but!! fire is also strong obviously so i think her being really big and buff could work just as fine, since there's still a harshness to defined muscle.

now fire is also warm and nurturing and has kept humanity alive for millenia!! so there's a softness to it. this could be reflected by giving her big, soft eyes. maybe really voluminous hair. or make her muscles not quite as defined, maybe they're partly hidden under a layer of fat. so she'd still be super strong physically but her sillhouette would appear softer and combine both these aspects of fire.

uhmmm what else. fire is wild i suppose? so you could give her not only voluminous hair, but make it wild as well. tough to manage, hard to style. this could tie in with her being a (pressumably) stressed academic. you could have that wildness reflected in her style as well!! maybe have her wear punk or goth clothing? i think that would be a fun contrast to how most academic characters dress in media :3

for atlas maybe some name symbolism? i'm sure you know the greek myth. something something atlas forced to carry the sky (uranus) for all eternity to keep the earth (gaia) safe something something. so i think an earthy brown colour pallette with some light blues (sky -> air -> blue).

either like. a flowy wardrobe? clothes lightweight and long. thin scarves. long cardigans or coats or whatever. uhh long skirts and dresses maybe? or wide pants. FLOWY!! LIGHT!!

or OR

a really solid wardrobe? when i say solid i mean like. hiking gear lol. (because like. earth=rocks=mountains=hiking in my mind). secure shoes with thick soles but not heavy. maybe even boots. pants with lots of compartments. like cargo pants or sth similar. uhhh rain coat lmaooo. listen you could make atlas a walking fashion disaster i think that would be funny.

maybe you could even find a way to combine the two? or of course you could always go with more of a hippie style too? definitely ties into earth and sky

for body you could again go with somebody physically strong because that's just associate with earth (in my mind at least) but i'm not sure. for hair you could go either long and (i'm trying not to say flowy again but arrggghghgg). flowy. again, because air. lol. ORRRR idk if you have a race or ethnicity in mind yet but if you make atlas black you could have him wear it mostly natural to be reminiscient of clouds :3

yeah teehee this is what i came up with on the fly so if it sucks or doesn't make much sense! i will drop off the face of the earth directly into the sun (kidding ahahaha)

#i did NAWT proof read this and i'm eepy #anyways i love them :3c #cosmic communication #keeping up with di's blorbos

[em-writes-stuff-sometimes]

Hiii I’m so happy it’s the weekend, I’ve opened tumblr like twice this week? So here are random thoughts and questions that suddenly occurred to me while I was zoning out in class and playing 2048 or disassociating from writing lol.

- If one of Daemon and Babey’s kids (early teens age) came back to the castle after losing a tavern brawl what would their reactions be? I feel like Babey would be disappointed but mothering and Daemon would either be mad at his kid for losing or find it hilarious.

-How would Daemon and the other more blood purity centered members of the Targaryen dynasty feel about modern day hair dye? ✨For only $5000 you too can have Targaryen blonde hair ✨

- What’s the weirdest pregnancy craving Babey had?

- Since the dragons are essentially the equivalent of nukes but better cause the damage range is more controlled, do you think that Dorne and the other enemies keeps track of how many available fighting dragons the Targaryens have at their disposal? If a bunch of dragon eggs are suddenly hatched by the Targ kids, do you think that’s when other kingdoms suddenly start subtly prepping for war in the future?

-Aside from flying around and setting fire to everything, why haven’t they developed more concrete war tactics with dragons? Also, in war times can they just feed their dragons the bodies of dead soldiers instead of animals?

-Finally, if two dragons flew around each other really fast while breathing fire, can they make a fire tornado? 🤩

I saw the post about the discord server and the bullying in the fandom and I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. Unfortunately decorum and decency is not something that comes with age 😞

I’m doing good! Uni here is kinda like drowning but swimming so hard to barely stay up? Idk but I go to an academic uni and not a party uni 😭😭 Thank you so much for offering essay help but I don’t wanna bother you with long boring essays especially since you’re an English teacher and you probably read way too many essays already. I hope you enjoy the break you get after the semester ends! 🫶🏻🫶🏻💖💖

-💎

Hey, 💎! Lol, I totally get disassociating from writing, sometimes I stare very very blankly at my screen like 'whut is word? whut is type? whut is?' They're all squiggles.

Here are the answers to your questions insofar as I can actually respond, lol:

I think Daemon would laugh his ass off behind closed doors, and completely shit-stir while Babey scolds the kid. "But did you at least get a good hit in? I'll not have my son walk from a fight without at least bruising the other lad, for fuck's sake!" While Babey's all "how dare you make such a poor showing in such a public place! That poor tavern owner will have lost business because of your antics!"

Daemon would be fucking outraged by the ease (of course, relative to past eras) in which people could just bleach their hair pure Targaryen silver-white. Like, sorry ya wanna be us, but you can't. We're built different. Stay mad, bros.

I'm actually going a little into the pregnancy cravings this chapter, so I won't spoil this one!

I've never actually thought about this before, but I suppose that's right. I absolutely reckon other kingdoms and territories monitor the number of dragons claimed by the Targaryens in case they need to prep for war; it'd probs be really unnerving for the number to suddenly spike (which it kinda does in the Dance era, it's the largest number of dragons possessed by the family in Targaryen history).

I don't actually know if there are concrete war tactics with dragons; perhaps there were, but a lot of the knowledge was lost after the move from the Freehold to Dragonstone and the Doom followed. Perhaps there are, but it's not really discussed. It has been quite a long time since those of Valyrian blood would have needed to use dragons to wage war, so perhaps that information has died out. Or, maybe it's just instinctive; dependent on the dragon and their rider. Who knows?

I'd actually like to know if a dragonfire tornado could happen. That'd be wicked cool!

We're all recovering from the spate of hate anons in the community, it's been pretty messed up but things seem to be cooling off a bit. Unfortunately there are some really unpleasant people hanging about, but hopefully we've scared them off by calling it out.

AAAAAH, I hope that you're coping okay with uni! Lol, I don't mind proofing stuff, I've got a general offer out on my Discord to help edit when needed as I like the automaticity of it (I like to consider myself a grammar nerd, but I might be overstating my abilities there lol). Three days, and the term ends. Three days. Then I get a two-week break, thank FUCK. YAYYYY!

#fanfiction comments #fanfiction asks #random asks

[xmoonlitxdreamx]

4, 5, 12, 27 for the artist asks! ✏️

4. Fav character/subject that’s a bitch to draw

Overwatch: Probably Roadhog, mainly because of his mask. I'm also just not used to coming up w poses for him yet. Alternative answer is every overwatch character because their canon outfits are too much.

SWSH: Leon used to be the hardest, but I kinda got used to him once I stopped making his hair wings so round. (?? idk how to explain.) I guess honestly Kabu still has the hardest hair for me to draw of my SWSH favs, even with the many degrees of separation my version of his hairstyle is from his canon hair……..;;;;;

OCs: Dmitri's face shape confused me for a long time and made him the hardest to draw but idk maybe I could draw him more easily now…. (tbh i would prob just draw his face a completely different way from my original intention if I started drawing him again)

General topics: I so wish I could draw pictures of characters singing/performing in a dynamic way (mainly for Lafayette or Piers I guess) but I'm so bad at it. Also jewelry never looks expensive when i draw it, which is annoying.

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

I used to post almost 100% of my art online, but I'm trying not to do that as much bc fsr it's making me feel kind of weird and anxious to post every little doodle I do;; (????) I'd say I still post 95% of my drawings online tho & the only things I don't post are really sloppy things that I don't feel like are presentable or interesting.

12. Easiest part of body to draw

Tbh probably hands but only when I'm doodling and only when they're in specific poses that I draw a lot… other than that, I guess. faces. but I'm also terrible at understanding heads from different angles.

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

Sometimes, but my "warm ups" are usually just excuses to draw something other than what I'm supposed to be working on LMAO;;; Usually my warm ups are just sketches of whatever characters I like drawing at the moment in some pose that I don't need to think too hard about. (eg: that lifeweaver dress wip I posted the other day was actually a "warm up" to working on new ovw stickers…. but then i ended up spending longer on that than on stickers dlskfjsdlfj)

#replies

[space-blue]

okay first of all how does anyone bear to do asks i need to keep switching between two tabs trying to figure out what questions i'm trying to ask, there's got to be an easier way-- BUT right, Behind the Scenes asks: 1, 5, 12, 18 PLEASE, and 23. (PS am i supposed to ask so many? prob not. screw it, i'm greedy (PPS am i supposed to be anon rn idk if that's correct etiquette)) THANKS!

I jot the numbers down somewhere if I'm getting overwhelmed. You did great though! And no, there is no etiquette on how many to ask, don't worry. If there's a double I'll just send you to the other ask. More means I get to talk about fic more, which is great! :3

What was the first fandom and/or pairing that you wrote fic for?

Star Wars, Thrawn x OC. I was pretty sauced. I think I have some great moments in there, and I was free to create all the banter I wanted, etc. But it suffers a LOT from me being completely new to multi chapter work. I go into meandering tengeants and don't know when to stop on the world building. It had its fans and really dragged me into the whole fanfic universe though. Maybe one day I'll finish it, but I had no idea which way to go. I feel like I wrote myself in a corner, somewhat haha

5. What is the perfect environment for you to write in?

I don't mind loud spaces like cafes or pubs, so long as the music isn't obnoxious and I can hear my own. I just like places where nobody is going to come to me to interrupt me. Sadly I live and work in a backpacker hostel, meaning I have 50 odd housemates at any given time, without counting the 250 guests. I get interrupted a LOT. So right now, hidden in my bed or hunkering down at my fav cafe, would be my answer.

12. Is there a trope you haven’t written yet but really want to?

Yes! There's this Tarkin & Ahsoka fic I mentioned in this ask. It focuses on the amnesia trope. I really, really like to write sort of mind fucky things from character PoV. So Tarkin struggling with shattered memories and having to rebuild himself while trusting this total stranger… Hard. Especially when WE all know she's lying to him to try and use him for her side, because the rebellion just needs the help that badly. I do need to make better research on real amnesia before I apply scifi logic to it... And I need to not be hyperfixation on Quaritch's blue ass. His own trope scratches a similar itch, since he's a clone with implanted memories. So identity crisis as well...

18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.

OK ok I have this entry from my Hannibal ficlets that focuses on a secret inside the "mind palace" Hannibal Lecter has. I've read all three relevant Hannibal books, watched the films, all TV series… And then I read the book Piranesi by Susanna Clarke. It's excellent and I recommend it. It focuses on a man living inside an enormous house that has three levels going in all directions, with clouds in the top level and a sea with rushing tides in the bottom. There are statues everywhere… And birds… And it's very WTF and it takes you a long time to understand what's going on. It's in this man's pov too which thickens the mystery.

I love the works of Piranesi. He's an italian architect and archaelogist who once got sick. 22 yo and delirious with fever, he sketched a series of 'infinite prisons' which you can see here!

So I'm writing this tiny daily ficlet, trying to stick as close to 200 words as I can, and I was folding myself into a piranesian pretzel trying to FIT THE DAMN EXPRESSION in. Making Hannibal's mind palace into a piranesian thing.

There is a corner of his mind always plagued by snow. It is a torturous journey there, through labyrinthine passages, down echoing stairwells and across bridges arcing over the piranesian landscape of his palace. It is easy to lose one's way, to be distracted by the vaulted ceilings of a chapel, the confines of well used hideouts, or the familiar outlines of his Baltimore office. But if he keeps walking, fingers brushing against all the door-frames of all the halls of his mind, eventually they alight on damp wood, cold and brittle. 

[he's off to visit his baby sister, who he keeps in there. He was forced to eat her by soldiers as a child, yeah it's dark]

23. If you had to remix one of your own fics, which would it be and how would you remix it?

I'm not super hung up on this idea. I write and move on. I have 151 works currently and I've been on ao3 for not even 3 years. So as you can imagine I have a tendency to create a new work rather than worry about remixing.

This being said I'd probably completely retool my very first fic, as per answer 1. I'd change the OC, shorten the plot by A LOT, get the action started sooner, completely drop a lot of worldbuilding… It's a slog, which can be very sweet in a fanfic when you're enjoying the slog content, but dear lord, it makes for awkward re-reading. I'd make the OC an alien instead of a human raised by aliens. Too much going on.

#ask #anon ask #thanks a lot anon!

[1d1195]

I am in California! Specifically southern California so yeah it's always warm lol but that's the problem, it's been cold (cold for me which is 50-60sih) and it's very confusing since this isn't our usual weather! Plus it's also been really windy and the wind is cold lol And yeah sadly the timing was THE WORST!!!

It's okay that you chose to not go! like you knew your limit, you knew that it was something that wasn't going to be too enjoyable for you. especially if you had other things on your mind. It's not right that she made you feel bad about that even if you expressed that you were busy/didn't feel up for it. and even if you didn't say something about feeling off, respecting your choice is a MUST and knowing you, you probably declined in a nice way! So being upset that she couldn't respect that is valid! And being an independent person is good! like the fact that you can do things by yourself is something that a lot of people struggle with! there's nothing wrong about that.

I swear I listen to other artists and not just Paramore/ Paramore adjacent music HAHA like aside from that lyric, Ive had Good Luck Babe! by Chappell roan, Lejos de Ti(away from you) and Run Your mouth by The Marias and Bewitched by Laufey and like many more stuck in my head and I just cant seem to get it to stop lol

I kinda liked that they didn't have sex right away! I think her mentioning that "he ruined it" showed how sometimes the healing process is tricky and never linear! either way I always trust you and the process so Im excited!

I try so hard understand it like i have taken those quizzes, read articles and even watched videos! But I simply cant lol Nad you are very sweet!!! also sort of off topic but do you think Belle was disappointed once she saw the Beast in his human form?

Im glad your week was better! I hope that you rest this weekend my love!! thank you so much! ILY!!!-💜

Okay, it's coming back to me, when we talked about ideal temps a while back and I mentioned that 50/60 is my ideal temp 🤣 DEF the worst timing though :( I'm sorry!

She didn't make me feel that way per se, but I can read between the lines of course. Idk it's frustrating. I never say no and then I feel extremely guilty when I don't (have I mentioned Dolcezza before?) I even suggested she go herself and she was like "well, no. I won't go alone." Which I think is really tragic. It's freeing to do things by yourself, in my opinion. I don't mean to sound like 'she should just do it' but you kind of have to start somewhere with it. I'm an early bird so I used to get breakfast by myself in college, go for walks/runs, and honestly I had a whole day by myself in the mornings when no one else was awake. It was either eat breakfast on my own or I wasn't eating until like noon when everyone else woke up and that wasn't what I wanted. Anyway...

That's so cute! I'll have to give them a listen :)

They will definitely be sexual in the next part hahahahahaha

I've seen a lot of memes and tik toks about Belle and her disappointment of Beast HAHAHAHA I'm not sure, honestly! I had to google before and after images to remember what I thought at the time. Not sure if we're talking animated or live-action too, but either way, he's pretty cute in human form. I'm sure it was probably an adjustment for her, regardless. I personally don't like long hair on guys all that much (except Harry obviously because he can do no wrong, ever) so I struggle with that in general but it was a reflection of the time, I suppose. I want to know why they didn't call him Adam. Like it already sucks he's a transformed monster and hates himself already. like why are they calling him The Beast? ESPECIALLY when they know he's a d-bag to begin with? Like why make him MADDER? That would certainly make me mad and I would probs throw Lumiere and Cogsworth out a window (sorry I'm apparently really passionate about Beauty and The Beast).

Hope this week starts off easier for you 💕

xoxo

#💜

[chocolate-failure]

Man, the shrink has been so fucking hard like goddamn. I feel like my resolve can only last week or I go too hard and get sick and gain a bunch of weight back. And I don't think it's due to Ed though I suppose it could be. But I'll get an HS flare or covid flare and can't get out of bed. A couple of those days in a row followed by my period really fuck up my progress. It's like every week there's a fucking crisis and I just don't have the energy to keep at it or I'll have one day where I gain weight in the tub. Like of course I have times where I just overeat or overdrink during the night but a lot of the issue has been being sick because I can always purge, I can't keep however make up for a day where I can't hit the gym or do my extra long baths.

I usually lose about 2 pounds in 2 hours of bathing but if the water is real hot like at hotels I can lose 3 or 4 in the same amount of time. I refuse to do cold baths even though I know they help with weight too. There's just something's I can't give up and my comfort in the bath is one of them.. and having the water scalding hot isn't necessarily comfortable 🥴

But yeah progress has been fucked up mostly because I'm having a hard time acclimating with changes from week to week as far as my physical health goes. It sucks.

I also had a migraine last week (prob Feb 22 or smn) which is the reason why I'm making this entry. I don't have a lot of insight into my triggers or well... When my triggers become an issue. I definitely know what they are with humidity and heat exhaustion being the biggest one but I've gotten migraines after a 2hr walk and not gotten one after a 5hr walk where I'm on the brink of passing out and lost several pounds. Idk what conditiins must be in place along with the heat exhaustion for it to culminate in a migraine. I've had a flash from a camera cause a migraine but have had several encounters with flashing cameras that resulted in nothing. I once ate one of those Louisiana sandwiches with olives in it and got a migraine almost immediately after it but I've eaten olives several times and never got sick. So I end up for the most part not really avoiding my triggers because they more often result in nothing than a migraine. But I still have 2 or 3 a year.

So instead of concentrating on my triggers I try to minimize stress because it feels like that's a common denominator for a lot of my ailments. And the next best thing for migraine management after tigger avoidance is early detection which is only marginally more trackable to me. Unlike some diseases show the symptoms of migraine mean the migraine is happening. Once the symptoms start there's nothing you can do to stop it. You can take meds to take some of the edge off but it's not going away.

A hallmark symptom of the prodrome phase is jamais vu, the opposite of deja vu which just means the world you've come to know feels unfamiliar rather than feeling like you've been here before. But of course this is very similar to dissociation, an experience I have in some capacity nearly all the time. So it's hard for me to discern the difference between premigraine jamais vu and my daily experience of jamais vu. I also experience the confusion and agitation but those things happen directly before the blindness and aura which isn't particularly helpful for predicting a migraine cuz like when I say directly I mean the pain will start within the next minute or so. As the aura expands the headache gets worse but once it's done the headache typically doesn't get worse from that point. Sometimes it's debilitating whole other times it's a dull ache. The headache hat and exposure to cold is helpful. Pain meds are a little helpful if I take them early enough.

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Idk who Naoya is I’ve never seen that show but I love how you write for him! He’s such a bastard and he seems like the kind of misogynist that I could trick into doing stuff for me like “oh I’m just a little lady you can’t expect me to mow the lawn🥺 that’s a big strong man’s job” and he would just eat it up

NONONO BC HE WOULD

Alright babe, you gotta bear with me, i gotta talk about my favorite sexist piece of shit sksksk

Ok listen: I 1000% agree with you sksksk LIKE? IDK MAN HE JUST LIKES FEELING LIKE A BIG STRONG MAN AND THE EASIEST WAY TO DO THAT IS TO HELP A CUTE LITTLE LADY LIKE YOU!!

Tbh Naoya isn't even around for 20 chapters of the manga, he's a v one note arrogant misogynist and he has no other purpose than to be an antagonist for the plot, which is fine! You do you Gege, but also there's little to no room for his character to develop so I've come up with like a dozen headcanons for him that probably make him too ooc but he's MY blorbo from MY shows and i will categorize him however i please 😤

Anyways lemme talk about some of my headcanons sksksk

To start, he LOVES feeling like a big strong man

He loves when his pretty little girlfriend comes to him all helpless and needs her strong capable boyfriend's assistance 💕

You can't get a jar open? It's okay princess, he's got it for you

Can't reach the top shelf? No problem babe, he's tall enough to reach

Literally any stereotypical "man" job you can think of, he's gonna take care of it bc that's what men are supposed to do, DUH

And in return he just wants you to be his pretty little doll sksksk

Obvs he's an annoying sexist pig, thinking that women are incapable of doing anything other than have kids and take care of the house, but that also makes him soooooo easy to manipulate

"Naoya 🥺 there's too much snow in my driveway and i can't leave 🥺 would you please come clean it up for me bc I'm just a little lady and can barely pick up a shovel?? 🥺👉👈" BABE, he is THERE, he is cleaning up your driveway and putting down salt and making sure you can tap dance on top of it without so much as slipping sksksk

Idk how to explain it but feeling like a "man" just makes him so happy like he's so fulfilled after doing something "manly" for you and making your life easier

He also likes knowing that he's the only one who can help you with these things. Makes him feel important sksksk

Probs feels this way bc of childhood trauma but who fuckin knows

I headcanon that his mom either died when he was young or just left the family

Like i imagine her getting divorced and Naoya's dad fighting tooth and nail so he could get custody so Naoya just never saw his mom bc she didn't have access to him, and then dad started filling his head with sexist shit and since his momma wasn't there to defend women he just grew up with that

Lowkey has mommy issues as a result sksksk that's why he looks down on women! I mean his mom abandoned him so obviously all women are awful and worth mess than men 🙄

But as long as you stay submissive and act like a pretty lil doll he'll be satisfied 😌

He also gets a lot of satisfaction out of taking care of you sksksk

He complains about how you're a spoiled brat but he's also giving you his credit card so you can go to the salon and get your nails done

Like? Sir if you're that mad about it then stop feeding the flames sksksk

He expects your love and affection in return

Like he paid for your nails so now you gotta jerk him off with your pretty new manicure sksksk

This feels all over the place but yes please manipulate him into doing all the hard work, take his money and lounge around the house being pretty while he brings home the bacon sksksk

#ask #smut #naoya zen'in #naoya zenin #fem reader #im so sleepy and I've only been awake for 4 hours wtf 😪 #☀️ asks

[lebrookestore]

I'm glad I was of help, I can completely relate to getting hyper fixated on something related to school (which sometimes has been just having to go back to school after a 2 day holiday) and feeling like my life will be forever ruined when I have to finally face the school related situation but nothing actually ends up happening

In my case I don't really cry but I end up feeling pretty uncomfy and sick(sometimes puke) with all the anxiety, and similar stuff is the case for a lot of my friends which is just really sad :(, it's just a mixture of asshole parents/relatives that we will forever end up defending because it's just ingrained in our mind to defend adults and people who'll say school performance doesn't matter when we panic but then get inredibly upset when something goes slightly wrong (ie passive aggresive bitches :cough: teachers :cough: parents) what makes me feel grounded these days though is my brother who's a decade older than me and he seems to be living pretty satisfactorily despite being not being the best at school and recieving the same shitty remarks from my mom as I do, he has good friends, enjoys video games like he did when he was my age but still is also a responsible adult which makes me realise how insignificant all of this is and I'm more than capable of getting through it, all of us are

these set of exams I have prob done my best job avoiding the anxiety and I'm happy that I have and I assure you they will be barely an eighth of the difficulty of a typical written exam, most kids will do good and if you've done most of the prep already you'll barely have to do any revision, after you give the first one you'll prob get what I mean

as for my username, I changed it to the one I use on other social media because yes it's hard to remember (literally a keyboard smash because I didn't think I would be using Tumblr often when I made the account)

these are the sample paper links

https://cisce.org/publicationdetail.aspx?id=96

http://cbseacademic.nic.in/SQP_CLASSX_2021-22.html

(idk why writing asks on the web version doesn't allow links), these are how your forms are going to be because they are the official ones(well depending on whatever board your school is under)

and ik how exciting it is to wait for exams to get over so you can do something creative you're into, for me it's drawing and I have so many fanart ideas with all these comebacks and my new flaming passion for resident evil (idk how this happened), let's get this bread!

also, I too, am an averagewelcome to the playground enjoyer (｡•̀ᴗ-)

good night!

#fuck school

this ended up being quite a long answer but i actually enjoyed answering it!! the answer is under the cut hehe

gosh i get hyperfixated on every little thing like today school sent out a revised time table?? with new dates for the exam??? when our exams were supposed to start on thursday this week?? which would be fine tbh its extra four days to study but at the same time i was mentally prepared for the exam on thursday yk?? and now math is my last paper yall-

my anxiety gets triggered like that too!! i tend to get panic attacks or sort of blank out in stress because im so anxious and then it refrains me from functioning like a normal human being😭 i just sort of short circuit and then pray for the best lmao, and yes!!! i totally get the need to defend your parents/adults because they are at a level of superiority to you?? its like some sort of twisted duty?? honestly good for your brother, and I'm glad you have an example of the sort!!!

unfortunately im complete opposite this is the exam i am the most stressed out and anxious about rip💀💀but honestly that confirmation you've given me as someone who has gone through it is really comforting, mine start on Monday and i am in full on study mode

!! i didn't mean you had to change your username bby i just meant you could have given me a nickname for the tags but if you're more comfortable with this one that's great!! i think its cute<33

AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR THOSE SAMPLER PAPERS YOU ACTUAL ANGEL ✨✨✨ I SHALL TAG THIS FOR RESOURCES FOR LATER

i am actually always on the web oversio nf tumblr for the most part because my asian parents refuse to let me have control over anything and have put a timer on my phone so that it konks off the moment an hour is up🤡😭 the life of an indian student 💔💔

and omg you do fanart??? is that where the suggestion of people doing fanart for my fics for my milestone event came from?? in that case i would absolutely love to see what you'd create taking inspiration from my fics but don't feel pressured to do so!! and you have a flaming passion for resident evil, while mine lies with genshin lmao

📢WELCOME TO MY PLAYGROUND SUPREMACY 📢

good night! I'm sorry i answered this so late i was studying all day rip, but thank you for this ask it was a lot of fun, I'm going to study a little more before i go to bed and yes #fuck school

#asks—◌ #resources.room #melonadeski

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

#brio fic #brio fanfiction #good girls fanfiction #fic recs #anon #asks #gg disk horse #i feel like i had jokes i wanted to make in the tags but now that im here i've totally forgotten them #ANYWAY the important takeaway here is #tell me what you like and why i want to know okay #send me recs #ME ME ME #hahahahaha jk #sort of

[rheawritessometimes]

Ooh matchups!! I am here lol 👀

May I get a romantic matchup w one of the adult male characters?

Personality:

I come off as very friendly and sociable bc I'm too socially awkward to gracefully turn down a chat lmao. Don't get me wrong I do like talking with people but bc I'm too anxious to interrupt people when I have my own thoughts I often end up listening to the other person go on and on and it feels like they're just talking at me :/ I would very much appreciate someone who realizes this and actually pauses to ask for my opinion to make me feel included in the conversation

On the other hand, if the other person is willing to listen, I will ramble for hours about my own interests (and also go on like five tangents before I inevitably lose my original point lmao). I'm a biologist so point out any living thing to me and I'd probably have several fun facts ready to share

I almost always have a smile on my face when I'm out in public or anywhere I'd see another person. I just really don't want to come across as rude so I smile at everybody lol

This unfortunately has the side effect of making me hide my negative feelings from my friends. It's not that I'm actively trying to — if they caught me in the moment I'd at least be honest about my feelings — but I tend to push all the negativity to the back of my mind whenever I'm out with friends and only really address it when I'm alone at night. I also have a hard time showing any sort of weakness to anyone, despite my philosophy of "always talk to your friends about your problems." It's just that I'm supposed to be the one who has it together, so I feel like I have no one to go to when I need help. I'm trying to change this habit but it's been difficult lol

Likes/Dislikes:

Communication is so important to me. As someone who's very nonconfrontational I try to do all I can to avoid an argument. And honestly, being honest with each other will solve like 99% of the misunderstandings that people regularly have anyway

I love pretty much all creatures (tho my favorites are cats and also dragons even though they're not real) prob bc as a biologist, I have an appreciation for all living things and the roles they play in the world. I'm the type of person to trap the spider and bring it outside. These little critters are just trying to live like the rest of us!!

As for dislikes, I'm not a fan of jealousy in a partner. I guess some people find it hot when your s/o gets possessive of you but I'd rather just trust my partner and have them trust me? And when you do feel jealous like,, talk to your partner about what's making you uncomfortable?? Idk maybe it's just me lol

Hobbies:

I love drawing, writing, and piano!

I also love learning new things. Idk if it's really a hobby but I do enjoy adding to my collection of random trivia

Extras:

My love language is quality time and physical touch

I tend not to pay attention to my day to day life so I end up forgetting a lot of details about what happened the past few days. If someone brings it up I'd be like oh yeah that happened!! But if they were to ask me what I did last week I'd draw a blank lmao

I'm pretty sure all the tall boys in Genshin are a good head taller than me so do w that what you will lol

I absolutely make kissy faces and baby talk at cats and dogs

I tend to be pretty awkward with kids bc I don't know how to communicate with them. I can't even talk to adults who can articulate their thoughts you think I'm gonna understand children??

Dskgjsjd okay this was,, very long I'm sorry ;; but I hope it gave you a lot to work with haha!! Thank you in advance :D

I match you with...

Diluc!

Diluc is the type to regularly ask for your input and opinions when talking with you. He’s very aware of the fact that if it’s just him talking, it’s not a conversation. Even with other people, if he feels like you’ve been ignored he’ll divert the conversation to you as smoothly as possible.

Listening to you is a way to get to know you better, he’s keen to store details about your interests in his mind. Will he write them down in a hidden journal to make sure he doesn’t forget the most important parts? Maybe.

If you’re just looking to ramble about your interests to someone, he’s happy to listen to you talk while he’s doing paperwork and similar activities. His full attention may not be on you but he retains some of the details and will perk up and comment on anything that he finds particularly interesting.

The juxtaposition between smiling you and broody Diluc as you walk down the street together is *chef’s kiss*. It’s not that he’s necessarily unhappy, it’s just kind of become his neutral look over time.

I’m gonna be honest, it takes this man a while to figure out that you tend to hide your feelings. But! Once he does figure it out he regularly asks you how you feel. He just wants to check up on you and if he can help you with something that’s bothering you, he absolutely will. He doesn’t think you should rely on each other, but you should absolutely support each other.

Diluc is a very honest man, but sometimes he can be a bit blunt in expressing himself. He doesn’t mean to come across as rude or anything, but he’s not always the most delicate when using his words. Diluc would say “This is bland.” rather than, “I think we can improve this by adding some spices. :)” He usually means well, though.

Entirely indifferent to animals but if it makes you happy he will move spiders outside instead of squashing them. Even when you’re not around.

Diluc isn’t exactly the jealous type when it comes to other people giving you attention but he does absolutely take notice and is paying extra close attention if someone starts flirting with you. He gets a little more annoyed if you’re actively interacting with him when it happens, but when you’re more on your own he can’t really blame anyone for taking interest in you. Diluc won’t do anything about it and will let you handle it yourself however you see fit unless the person starts getting pushy. Mostly just concerned for your comfort and safety.

This man absolutely knows how to play the piano. If you’ll let him, he wants to listen to you play and if you play the piano with him? Makes his heart so happy, his smile will be so soft. Absolutely thinks about proposing when you play together.

Something about being in the same room as you when you’re writing or drawing and he’s reading or doing work feels so right to him. Even if you’re not interacting, peacefully spending time together while being productive is time well spent, he thinks.

You being smaller than him isn’t something he really pays much attention to. It doesn’t make much of a difference. His thoughts on it are pretty much just, Well, it does make it easier to pull you out of danger. That’s good.

Diluc feels conflicted when you’re babying animals. On one hand, he finds it very adorable. But, it is one of the only times he feels moderately jealous over the fact a cat is getting your attention and not him. He doesn’t get jealous when you spend time with other people or even when you interact with animals in any way other than this. Why does he feel like this? Nobody knows. But it’s true, I feel it in my bones.

Equally awkward if not more so with children. Luckily for him, he’s ‘weird and grumpy’ so kids don’t really seek him out much. It might even keep kids away from you when you’re with him, unless they really like you.

It wasn’t often Diluc wore a pink shirt, actually, you were pretty sure he had never worn one. You don’t recall ever seeing one on him and it was hard to imagine him going out and making the purchase. The sight was unusual enough that when you saw him wearing the pale pink button-up while looking over a few papers in his study, you couldn’t help but ask about it.

“I didn’t know you owned any pink shirts. Is it new?”

Crimson eyes flicked up from the papers in his hand to you. He placed the papers down, leaning back in his chair. You could see his cheeks turning a bit pink, too. The pause he took and his flushed face made you think he was embarrassed about it.

“One of… There was a mixup and one of your red items got mixed in with my white clothes. I don’t have any other clean button-ups at the moment,” he told you bashfully. The bit of color was different from his usual black attire, but you didn’t think it was anything for him to be quite so embarrassed about.

“It looks good,” you assured him, “Maybe you should wear pink more often.”

#.rhea mail #genshin impact #genshin #gi #genshin impact diluc #diluc #diluc ragnvindr #genshin matchups #matchups #there was so much to work with #i love it #the blurb is unrelated to anything #but i couldn't think of anything else #sorry

[tartagliaxx]

hiii lei :3 how are you? do you feel better from your hangover? i'm not doing as bad as i thought i would after sleeping for like 3 hours probably because i had relied on snacks but i did end up taking a break and took a nap i'm glad i feel okay but i looked in the mirror and yeesh my eyebags look bad

also i don't know if it's just me but something about diluc's model feels off like he looks good in the manga and that kfc collab i can't help but think he's kinda ugly and it doesn't help that i think he has the ugliest outfit too maybe i am committing diluc slander but maybe diluc should try to look less like a 30 year old that uses 3 in 1 shampoo/j don't you think he feels kinda off? it can't just be me can it? 😩 but if you don't think that who do you think is the ugliest or has the ugliest outfit? and who has the prettiest outfit to you? for me it's xiao and ningguang most of the characters have beautiful outfits but they stand out more because of their fighting style they both have flowy outfits and i know xiao jumps high so players like to use plunge attacks so his extra layers look elegant in motion and when ningguang attacks she spins making the slits in her dress look prettier diluc's jacket looks heavy on him i think its supposed to referance the burden of his dad's death and how he's covered from neck down is i think showing how guarded and unvulnarable he is i'm prob reading to much into it and i'm hoping he doesn't come home cause i'm near pity in the standard banner and really want keqing- 🍰

yea it faded off after i ate lunch yesterday and now it’s officially gone.

sometimes you feel ok but you’re not actually ok? idk but that happened to me once. i was functioning normally but i felt like i shouldnt so i laid down and slept for a while and when i woke up, i felt different. like the ‘normal’ was ‘natural’. anw get some breaks and rest in you!!

LMFAO the diluc slander i cant— i laughed so hard at the shampoo bit that it shouldn’t be legal. i want to defend him as a diluc main but hey, im not a liar yknow? i think it’s bc in-game model diluc’s hair is so rigid and flat? so like he’s robbed of a lot of character and charm. his face is also in a perpetual -_- and it’s a little unnerving. idk if you’ve seen it but the high pony tail and fluffy hair edits of diluc just *chef’s kiss* perfection.

uhhhh i wouldn’t say it’s ugly but i don’t rlly vibe w lisa’s outfit. i agree tho. xiao and ning’s designs are top-tier. i specifically love running around as ning and watching her pretty hair and clothes do those waves. special mention to zhongli tho. i really love how his hair moves and his color scheme and everything about him. he looks very sophisticated. love that diluc analysis tho. i see it very well.

i’m at 47 pulls in standard banner and i also want to get keqing as my five star. here’s to hoping we both get her when the time the shimmering gold comes out.

#lei.answers #withlove.🍰