#idk if i phrased that bad

[genderfeel]

yes i ship valvert. yes i am anti-javert. we exist 🫶

#will probably delete this lol i can get randomly mad about these clowns #anyway if u don’t think valvert people don’t know and think javert is a bad person idk what to tell u…….. #em posts #just the phrase ‘anti-javert’ is so fucking funny

[hotasfahrenheit]

My Dear Gangster Oppa [Episode 3]

#i am CRYING #the little headshake #the self awareness #the translation of this line #whoever the translator was for this set of subtitles deserves a gold star PLS #i don't know any thai so idk how close to this phrase the thai actually is but it's SO FUNNY #but he really is so down bad it's not even a joke #i already did a big set of gifs for an avatar trailer post tonight i was NOT going to make more gifs today then this line happened #these are kinda potato quality compared to some of my other gifs but my video source wasn't great and i couldn't NOT make these #my dear gangster oppa #mdgo #tew x guy #mdgo tew #mdgo guy #mia gifs things #mia gifs drama things #mia gifs mdgo things

[commsroom]

the "big picture" - whether that refers to some detached, calculated greater good; ruthless ambition and progress for the sake of progress; or even the dear listeners' cosmic indifference - as an antagonistic force in wolf 359 is so fascinating to me because of the way eiffel as a protagonist is set up to oppose it, just by nature of who he is. eiffel retains his humanity even under the most inhumane circumstances. his strength is in connection, and with that he's able to reach others who share his core values, but he's operating under a fundamentally different framework from the show's antagonists. he can never understand where they're coming from or be swayed by their points of view because, for better or worse, he can only see the world through a close personal lens.

it's an ideological conflict he has with all of them, but notably with hilbert: "you talk about helping people, but what about the real, live people around you? [...] that's your problem. you're so zoomed out." eiffel will never, ever see that "big picture" because he is so zoomed in. at his best, he puts things into perspective and grounds the people around him. at his worst, his perspective narrows so drastically inwards that he becomes blind to everyone and everything else. his failings are deeply, tragically human - they're personal, they're impulsive, they're self-destructive. they're selfish. no matter how much he might try to narrativize or escape from himself, he's still left with doug eiffel: "it's taken me this long to realize that running from everyone else means that you're alone with yourself." eiffel could never be convinced to harm others on purpose, but he has hurt people, and it's never been because he didn't care. the very fact that he cares so much, that he's incapable of reconciling the hurt he's caused with the things he values, is what keeps him from real growth for so long. where many of the other characters in wolf 359 will justify their cruelty in service of something they consider more important, eiffel is so caught up in vilifying himself and the fear that he's always going to harm the people he cares for without meaning to that he shuts himself off from the people who care about him and perpetuates his own self-fulfilling prophecy.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #someday i'll finish my essay about the big picture as an antagonistic force. it's only been on my list of things to do for uh. ever #eiffel really cannot be convinced by Big Picture ideology in any form because he's so. unambitious and inwardly focused #he's not self-reflective at ALL but he is self-centered #and in some ways that's genuinely a good thing #but it's interesting. that he vilifies himself and tries so hard to. externalize his redemption and see some humanity in others #as proof he might be able to be better. when if those people consider themselves villains at all then they consider it necessary #i'm not sure if i'm phrasing this the way i want to but his worldview is just. fundamentally incompatible. #when i think about eiffel i think a lot about. how self-loathing is also a kind of exceptionalism. considering yourself uniquely bad #is its own way of avoiding accountability. #idk. it's complicated. it's a lot. it's interesting that lovelace talks about the 'big picture' when she's briefly a sort-of antagonist #but her 'big picture' is personal and emotionally driven in a way no other use of the phrase is #and then of course you have hera in am i alone now. such a big big universe etc. #when she betrays that perspective immediately and directly by talking about it through such a narrow personal framework #one of the most direct examples of 'big picture' thinking vs. personal connection in that contradiction. but that's another post maybe.

[good-beanswrites]

My lyrics for Double!! I really loved this song and became like a thousand times more impressed by Deco27 and Natsuki Hanae after working with it for so long 😅 I chickened out of recording this one in the apartment but if anyone wants to cover it... lmk.... 👀 I can definitely put something together to help hear how the rhythms work, because I got it all to line up very nicely! (Lyrics under the cut and my little commentary in the tags)

(I’ve got you, leave it to me!)

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Not a smile in this mess, you're doing your best, you say (wake up)

"Don't need a break" as you proceed to start breaking, both sleeping and waking makes you bleed

And now, reborn anew -- I'll take in on for you

Not your plan? Who gives a damn, I'm here and here is where I'll stay

It's just the two of us, nothing left to run from. You're safe now, your hero's come.

All I did was dream, is that a crime? Is that enough to name me guilty by?

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

Ah, I'm the one that saved you, don't you see? So tell me why the hell you cry to me!

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- oh, sing to me.

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Too late, your limits passed. Too late, yourself has cracked (goodnight)

If you persist I'll assist with releasing, keeping your peace is why I exist

And now reborn anew -- I'll take it on for you

(Oh, hello? Mom? It’s been a while. Yeah.. well, I mean, some days are hard but I’m doing alright, don’t worry. How’ve you been? I’ll go home next time I get some time off...)

The reason I'm alive, must be making sure that you survive

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

All I did was dream, did you forget? Go on and forgive me, I'm no threat.

Listen to me confess, honest. Eat your words and I bet, regret

Ah, I just tried to help, tried to be strong. So tell me why the hell it's all gone wrong

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- don't sing me this song

Lost my memory

I'm double, it was unavoidable

Living painfully

I'm trying, as hard as possible

Tell me, tell me.

If I wasn't born, maybe this trouble --

Tell me, tell me.

It's all my fault

#milgram #mikoto kayano #lyrics #i feel bad it cut in front of the other milgram songs but it was a lot easier than the others #(not that it was easy by any means but the other ones are giving me even more trouble asdfsdf) #but yeah!!! im so happy with these!!! #i will forever be jealous of the rhyming in the original refrain -- #nante itte/natte nande/datte sugatte/utatte tatte IS SO WONDERFULLY SATISFYING #it makes me crazyyyyyy #i know i dont get half that fun in mine but im still really satisfying with the rhymes/phrasing #wtf is going on in the rest of the song 😭 i came for the incredible refrain and had to deal with all That...... #the 'dont need a break' and 'if you persist' lines gave me so much trouble 😭 he just keeps on going..... #i took a bit of a liberty with the 'sing to me' line because every version of 'thatd be good' sounded so lame 😅 #trying to do some kind of play on sing your sins while its john really wanting to communicate but idk if that worked #an unintended but exciting detail is 'you say' sounding like 'you say wake up' rather than 'you say dont need a break' #since thats right when he wakes john up so to speak #any milgram pals who want to sing -- these are always open to use >:3

[gay-impressionist]

i love how "on est pas à l'abri d'un coup de chance" (we're not sheltered from a stroke of luck) is initially a good omen but can also be used to warn about bad luck

#like. idk how to articulate this #but i like how we reverse uno-ed it #i think i just like sarcasm #but 'chance' is such a positive word in french‚ unlike chance or luck in english #it's not ambiguous and we don't really have an antonym #but the universe is so uncertain that sometimes you can only doubt your good luck is gonna last #so this phrase is both a way to keep off bad luck and to mentally prepare yourself when something eventually goes wrong #idk how to explain it #bc it sounds silly when i try #but yeah. language my beloved #upthebaguette #languages

[furryprovocateur]

ok i want to ask this in a nonjudgmental way and space but how do we feel about people who are literally living off of tumblr donations? like i'm not saying people who signal boost "oh a medical expense happened out of nowhere", but like specifically people who are living on their own and openly admit they have no income besides donations from tumblr users. before anyone accuses me of making up a person to be mad at: i am thinking of a specific situation that i've seen for months if not years now.

#and i'm not necessarily saying this is a bad thing but i do think it's something worth discussing because like. idk about that! #edit: something i forgot to mention is that this does not apply to disabled people. afaik the situation involves able-bodied people. #at least it's not disclosed if they are disabled ykwim? it's more phrased as “i need money to fund my situation” rather than that

[moe-broey]

This is so fucking goofy to me (derogatory)

Also to be clear I'm joining Nintendo's war on piracy on the side of piracy. Btw. Hack your 3DS (do NOT update your 3DS if you haven't hacked it yet 🫡)

#article was goofy too like. 'nintendo is well within their legal right to do this bc piracy is against the law' #like. yeah buddy. that's how laws work. now is there a gun to your head rn or are you a cop #also like come on. beyond who gives a shit. it's about preserving media that would be lost otherwise #like article touched on that too like 'oh too bad. that some media will be lost. only accessable to pirates' like. #girl what do you want us to do. what's the solution. if it's such a tragic bummer like what do we do about it #idk LMFAO the phrasing of this is really what got to me tbh. 'illegal access'.... stupidest phrase i have ever heard LMFAOOOO #3ds #3ds modding

[writeouswriter]

If I ever have a character mention a modern app like Tiktok or something in one of my stories, please assume I’ve been bodysnatched or am being held hostage somewhere.

#writing #writeblr #writer things #this also counts for Snapchat or tumblr #personal pet peeve hearing characters say the names of modern apps it dates them so bad 😭 #makes my eye twitch?? #I’m not bitter about Wednesday what nooo haha #unreality #tw unreality #just in case #doesn’t count for things like YouTube #at least not quite as much because it’s longer established it feels a little less strange? #I still don’t really want it mentioned by name?? #Facebook is on thin f—king ice #i realize tumblr is old enough but it feels wrong rules of tumblr same as fight club or whatever #there’s just this trend that reeks of show creators or book writers trying to be hip™️ with the teens™️ and it feels forced as hell #steve Buscemi hello fellow kids vibes except I like Steve Buscemi #not that it can’t be done okay in moderation but grr argh something gaaahh #modern slang in books and shows too is eye twitch because it’s idk how to describe it #it’s phrases that go in and out of style in months so it’s dated before it’s even debuted and it’s used unironically #like an adult thinking kids still use old style text speak and junk and !!! idk okay! #it just bugs me leave me be 😭 #textpost #writing humour #if it’s integral to the story I begrudgingly submit to you #but petty as I am I closed a book preview for a gothic horror book when they mentioned Spotify instead of just said listening to music

[loveletterworm]

I swear this whole time i’ve seen nobody else even so much as mention this one picture in the side order trailer where pearl and marina clearly have what i’m almost certain is entirely different outfits from any of their other ones  and it’s a bit strange to me that nobody brought it up. So i attempted to draw the easier to interpret of the two just to like   point it out or something.  I dont know However i don’t know if i ever drew pearl before ever and i’ve never been that good at drawing splatoons so it looks a bit crap. But did you know? Pearl is green now. Maybe? She looks like she has a burger

#splatoon #side order #i don't know how to tag side order. it seems like too generic a phrase to just tag it by itself but i hate being even slightly redundant #in tags it makes me feel like i'm trying to get clout which is embarassing. #also idk if i want to put this in my art tag because it sort of looks bad...um...well... #splt

[slasherscream]

really wish people would read blog rules more, it makes running blogs like this very low reward and you feel like a machine if people aren't commenting and aren't even abiding by one of the, honestly, very few and politely phrased rules i even have

#then i'm left trying not to respond like a bitch when the rules are there in the first place so i don't have to have negative interactions #with the people who come to this blog #like keeping it 100 you write for yourself but you write for ENGAGEMENT and COMMUNITY #and these days in fandom there really is no community #for any fandom across the board #people see something and move on #that's bad enough at killing fandoms #but the fact that a creator can have really only one super hard rule and it gets disregarded every day #day in and day out! and i really mean it this rule gets broken in my inbox DAILY man! #i write for a lot of small fandoms or smaller characters i love the characters i'm happy to do it #but i have an adult job. college. friends. family. my own original creative projects #and even if i don't respond to the asks where people are blatantly violating /again/ #one of my FEW rules #it's exhausting to even see it !!! #it makes me not feel like a person #who cares what the girl behind the screen asked me not to do? right?? but i'm about done #i'm only at my breaking point because i've had this blog now for what three or four years?? #and no matter how i phrase the rule people break it #no matter how many reminder posts #it's exhausting because it's an every day daily thing #idk maybe i'll feel better abt it in the morning but i'm getting exhausted tbh #exhausted as in this blog might be going BYE BYE i wont delete i think you'd have it up until tumblr goes away but i am getting pissed off #TRULY pissed off bc it's been years of me asking cmon now

[godsfavoritescientist]

I will die on the hill that ford's paranoia is not a character flaw

#godsrambles #like would you call anxiety or depression a character flaw? maybe people out there are doing that too idk. but that would be equally false #one of these days i'll give in and make a list of his actual character flaws since its apparently so hard to figure out #obviously every character is open to interpretation and personal readings. but man #no wonder this guy didnt trust anyone. people take his every action in bad faith even in the real world </3 #no i will not say why this is on my mind right now. im simply having a moment #edit: I made a follow-up post with better phrasing since character flaw and moral failing are not actually interchangeable words lol

[aeoris4lovers]

thinking about verin having a little bit of paladin in him alongside being an echo knight.

his sense of honor and justice being his defining traits. his willingness to walk into a town that’s fighting a fight where a stalemate has been the best case scenario for as long as anyone can remember and saying “we’re going to win this.” him swearing to protect them and refusing to let his conviction be shaken even as the mounting threats weigh on him. his faith in the luxon being more based on ideals than religious belief, and how his commitment to those ideals must be genuine and not just blind faith, given that he can question them enough to understand why essek doesn’t feel the same. him being a “beacon of hope” for the people of bazzoxan, a light cutting through the darkness they’ve grown used to.

thinking about him, in the heat of battle, rushing to the side of a fallen soldier under his command, and a light suddenly reaching out from his hands to touch the soldier, closing their wounds just enough to keep them from fading away. him not knowing where it came from, keeping the powers close to his chest until he needs them most because he knows that people will talk, that they’ll make a big deal of him being “chosen” by the luxon when he doesn’t want to be a chosen one or even know if he believes that’s where they came from, and all he wants is to do his job well and protect the people under his care. thinking that maybe one day he can show them and get the respect and approval he craves, but not until he’s sure it won’t mean being whisked away from people who still need him.

i don’t know, i just think it would be fitting if he had a touch of paladin in him.

#someone pointed out that i got a timeline thing wrong here and you are absolutely right. im bad at real history and fake history #my understanding of the passage of time is 90% vibes based and ‘as long as anyone can remember’ is a fun dramatic phrase yknow?? #anyway #specifically a paladin with the tenets of the oath of the ancients #idk if the ancients would be fitting mechanically but the tenets? absolutely #i can see him mechanically being an oath of the watchers if its being in bazzoxan fighting demons that brings the powers out of him #obviously he’d still mostly be a fighter bc being an echo knight is what he was trained in and its the job he does every day #but i like the idea of him accidentally picking up a bit of paladin ability through his commitment to being a protector #cr meta #cr headcanons #verin thelyss #c2 #the mighty nein #critical role #echo knight #paladin

[tamiisnthere]

Normal person: *creates OCs and AUs from their favourite franchises* Me: *creates OCs (and my self-insert) from my favourite franchises, puts them all together into one universe and household and watches them how they will interact*

#yes I am a weirdo and cringy; sorry 😅 #just a random thought that came to my mind #bcs I think I am one of the weirdos who wants all their OCs be together lol #sorry for bad english bcs idk how to phrase it correctly #tamiisnthere's thought #TaE Family #oc #ocs #original characters #original character #cringe

[josephtrohman]

that fuckass 8ball really won’t let me live in any capacity bc my 8ball tattoo is being a nightmare with how it’s healing already (compared to my keyhole tattoo). cursed object

#it’s peeling so bad/so itchy/etc. probably partially bc it’s so much ink in the tattoo #gets me out of taking pics of it which is good bc i got it kind of impulsively and idk how i feel about it 😭 #ugh i feel so silly i should have just waited to see the same girl who did my keyhole cuz she fucking killed it man 😭 #not that it’s a bad tattoo at all it’s just not my preferred style lmao #anyways nobody judge me lmao #please don’t laugh at my horrendous phrasing it’s 2am

[anti-dazai-blog]

credit where credit is due, the anime does make Dazai look a whole lot worse in Portrait of a Father than the manga

#I’ll re-read the chapter to see if there’s something I missed #but it’s definitely not as bad as I remember it from the anime #Like in the anime it seemed like Dazai orchestrated the whole situation (not the headmaster’s death but Atsushi discovering it) #but in the manga Ranpo sent him there and Dazai has very little involvement up until the end #Yeah it was probably his doing having Akutagawa be the informant #But for once he’s not intentionally traumatizing Atsushi just for the power trip #Idk if that’s the right phrasing but you get what I mean #Doing it just because he CAN. to show that he can and that he controls everything. #He gives pretty bad advice/encouragement at the end but honestly that was a tough situation #and I don’t know what the RIGHT thing to say would be

[agueforts]

sometimes i think when some of u talk about gorgug u forget zac isn't white

#aspen tag #it's not like a concrete thing i just get the vibe sometimes #like sometimes ppl phrase things abt his heritage and relationship to his rage #or how he fits with gnomish culture n stuff #in a way that kinda frames it as like..... passive #when there's obviously very deliberate themes being explored #or like. idk. #talk about him in a way that gives the impression they've never thought about it from the perspective of race #i'm having an autism moment or smth and the tone machine is like fully offline rn #but i guess i just don't get how someone could just. not consider it at all #it's not like it's a stretch it's very much like. baked into him #his parents don't understand his rage or how it's a part of him #their house isn't made for someone his size #he shies away from anger because he already knows the world wasn't made to fit him #he spends s1 looking for his bio parents-- people who'd be like him. who he could connect to with this part of himself #digby & wilma don't talk to the rest of their families because they thought adopting gorgug was a bad choice! #their parenting (well-meaning as it may be) is all about redirecting rage #and gorgug's teaching himself not just how to channel it constructively #but how to be comfortable with it at all #because the environment he's in doesn't offer security in expressing it. not for people like him #and so he's learned to control it and distance himself from it #in a way that he has to dismantle to fully engage with his barbarian class #it's just. it's there #i can't convince of a world where someone could look at him and just. not see it #idk how to end this. yeah 👍 #d20