#if only it happened in real life too

[twinstxrs]

in light of recent canon academic conversations, riz adaine gorgug study sessions have never been more real to me. gorgug helps riz + adaine get out of their own heads when they’re overworking themselves, riz + adaine help gorgug with alternative studying methods because he learns best through visuals + experience. fabian’s there occasionally when he has a particularly difficult assignment/test but he makes them all swear never to speak of it in order to protect his “image.” kristen has shown up exactly twice: once for advice on a group project that was two months overdue & once to just lay on the floor and relax for an hour before leaving. fig didn’t know the study sessions were happening until sophomore year & now keeps getting monthly bans because every time she shows up she ends up accidentally distracting riz + adaine. also, sometimes after/in the middle of really long study sessions riz adaine & gorgug go to basrar’s together to unwind but fabian kristen & fig Are Not Invited (they do still text to ask if anyone wants something brought back from basrar’s. they’re not heartless, after all).

#anyways that’s the post. study trio u r real in my heart #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #kristen applebees #fig faeth #the bad kids #riz adaine gorgug trio who actually care about academics u r so dear to me. only bad kids who regularly do homework #adaine & riz both ‘ditch’ but adaine asks for her coursework beforehand + riz is usually getting rogue extra credit for sneaking out #gorgug has never ditched school in his life except for Urgent World Saving. he was doing his hw on the sig figs tour bus <3 #i’m convinced fabian also cares to a degree but not enough to genuinely try hard. except out of spite. hence the study session visits #fabian both regularly cheats on homework & thinks getting a hard assignment & not doing well is ‘losing’ #kristen has probs had a gradual academic falloff through high school due to just the amount of stuff that happened in her life. #like who has the mental energy to care about school when Literally Everything Else was going on… me too kristen me too #i think middle school fig didn’t care about school but still showed up + tried but immediately stopped giving a shit once her horns came in #& so here we are… anyways bad kids i love you

[icarrymany]

the mh comics open up such an interesting narrative for our few surviving characters. to them, what happened in the videos was real, but to everyone else its a cool creative web series. when all of that is viewed as fiction, fans have a freedom to speculate about and invade the lives and privacy of real people. and that would be so uncomfortable and terrifying. imagine someone irl having headcanons about YOU. writing fan fiction about you and your real friends. assuming things about you PUBLICLY ! IN MASS!

wouldnt it be so cool to see a character grapple with that in like a self-reflective way? fans asking questions the muse is too afraid to ask themselves. of course, theyre the only person the answer matters to.

#like wouldnt it be so strange not only to see the terrible things that happened to u have a FANBASE #but also people wondering about the intricacies of your personal life (they view you as a character and have no idea it was real) #and youre disgusted and afraid of prying eyes #but at the same time #you never think about yourself much anyways (too painful) and realize you might HAVE TO if ur gonna be okay with what happened #spoilers um this is about. jam. #tim never took the time to deconstruct how he felt in the moment because he was trying not to die #even if he concludes he harbored some feelings (like people online suspect) what would he even do with that? #he can never go back and change it. but he can say it to himself. its something for him that nobody else NEEDS to know #but now he can understand himself a little better n form new connections #its like a culmination of my hatred for some fans NEED for things to be canon when its much more fun to leave stuff open-ended #and also my love for media adressing this in a way that actually says something abt the way we consume it #yall seen the craig and tweek episode of south park? yeah.

[aropride]

u can literally talk abt ur own experiences with transphobia and people being violent or bigoted or cruel towards you because you're a trans man and people will compare you to deranged conspiracy theorists for daring to say you might experience discrimination. it's fucking crazy like what level of internet brainrot do you have to have to think it's helpful on any level to deny someone's experiences and call them conspiracy theorists because they're a trans man and "men aren't oppressed" or whatever

#text #and also telling transmascs to shut up abt our experiences w transphobia In Conversations Abt Transphobia is crazyyyy #we are trans too. #i see a lot of trans men/transmascs echoing this out of i guess like ??? #idk i think it comes from combination of self doubt + being Online + wanting to not be transmisogynistic but like.. #its not transmisogynistic to talk abt ur experiences with transmasc oppression #& like ur experiences are 'valid' i know thats a stupid word but yknow what i mean #inb4 'wow tmes only problems are people being mean online shut up cuntboy' -__- This post is about a specifically online problem #people generally do not act like this in real life bc theres some level of needing to be decent to other people face to face 😭 #there are also other offline problems. lots of them. & im not saying this doesnt happen offline either but . YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYING #WHY AM I ENTERTAINING IMAGINARY BAD FAITH INTERPRETATIONS OF THIS POST #anyway this is about the term 'transandrophobia truther' do not derail ❤️ #transandrophobia #transphobia #discourse

[larphis]

Sometimes I think “God, I am just like Ed” and then I start putting him on a pedestal and make big paragraphs to say that he never did anything wrong in his life and how he’s actually just a very soft person that is hurting deep inside and needs a forehead kiss and then I look in the mirror and realize that I am in fact Stede Bonnet.

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #Edward teach #ofmd fandom #I feel like deep down every ‘he’s just like me’-Ed apologist is just a Stede Bonnet in disguise #because let’s be real this is such Stede behavior #I am in fact such a soft person but I always wanna appear tough and cool #I have an avoidant attachment style and am dating the man of my dreams but am rarely spending time with him #because my instinct is to run away once something good starts happening to me #I am such a Stede and honestly perhaps that is one of the many reason why I relate to this show so much #like yes babe I wanna kiss Taika Waititi too only to get a panic attack and run back to the life I hate #sigh

[skunkes]

#talkys #delete later #(this is a meme redraw) #ruined my life is a strong word. and of course theres lots of self blame and obvs ive probably wronged lots of people before #and i dont deserve unending torture for it. right. like part of me doesnt even actually feel ill will toward the other party #because whatever! normal human experience! #the other part is like ohhh okay you lied to and kinda used me + treated me badly then lied again to the point where i found out the truth #from another party so you didnt even have to fess up yourself and now you're back to being happy as if nothing happened #i was just a stepping stone i was just a distraction. ok! #like for real actually ok ^_^ it literally happens to ppl all the time... #<- he keeps experiencing waves of horrific sense of self worth that already wasnt Too Great as a result #ugh. and thats nobody's fault but my own right.... but idk. i cant believe it...! i cant believe someone treated me dis way #and i let it happen... and i would have let it keep happening if an end hadnt been put to it by someone else.... #but still. at the end of the day i was the only one left with these thoughts. ykwim. other party has forgotten. got happy ending. #doesnt deserve ''consequences'' but still feels horrific to see and think about. you know? #i literally got all the bad. throughout and after.

[rungian]

Oh boy oh boy they're finally done, and just in time for the 78th anniversary too!

Pride of the Furness Railway, the K2 Larger Seagulls will get you where you need to go come hell or high water. Why not steam down to Barrow, or take a relaxing summer trip up through the hills to Windermere?

Featuring Edward in his original livery alongside the brothers he would leave behind.

#wagahai wa train de aru #TTTE #TTTE OC #TTTE Edward #Edward the Blue Engine #Thomas the Tank Engine #Furness Railway #Marker pens #They're all scrap except Edward #I have too many things to say about these lads I love all of them unconditionally #Yes even you FR-22 #FR-38 (Edward) is the only number not accurate to real life #Oh yeah and happy 78th to RWS! #What a coincidence I happened to finish these lads today I hadn't even realised lol

[foldingfittedsheets]

For me your trademarks are

1. Absoluetly gorgeous queer comics with fantasy elements

2. Stories that remind me of hanging out at a cookout and by chance listening to that one family member just start such an amazing story that your not quite certain its real, so you ask and they reply with 'ah thats not important, is it? The important part is telling a good story' and they certainly did do that so you applaud and nod and make sure to sit closer next time to hear more stories

Sorry this got rambly, i hope u and ur wife have an amazing day!

It’s gonna be a long trademark application, but thank you!

#ask ffs #they’re all real #the only embellishments are to make spoken words more succinct #I feel like a lot of people think my stories are too absurd to be true but life is weird #I did find out I wrote about the ass story right after it happened and the only thing I misremembered was the last guy but the new write up #was much more compelling so I didn’t change it

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[skitskatdacat63]

I meant to write more for a pt 2 lore post earlier but didn't end up doing so, so pls take these AU sketches(Mark & Jense and then some assorted sketchies)

#i should never have drawn them as catboys bcs now they appear as catboys in mind half the time 😭😭 #its only on paper but i drew more catboy sketches of them than whats included here 😭 #seb reminds me of my cat where hes being all nice and cuddly and then will bite you out of nowhere #seb in his frilly nightgown is very important to me!!! #i meant to draw both of them in nightgowns but brain wasnt worked too well tonight #so thats why these are mostly half finished #the bottom seb is too remind myself i have a regular art style 😭😭😭 #mark in this au is so funny to me. bro is tortured by having to be with seb like practically every waking moment #he basically is a offically provided live-in bestie 😭😭 #*based on real life thing. i think its funny how you can be royalty yourself + #but bcs youre not part of the imperial family you can still be reduced to the job of having to dress the emperor 😭 #^ so thats mark in this au #seb promoted him to an important role when he became emperor but still makes mark do his old duties 🤭🤭 #jense is in charge of all the horses and transport and things. thus: ye olde horse girl #im sorry but in historical AUs all f1 drivers are legally obligated to be horse girls. its literally canon #so sorry for the catboy sketch. it will happen again. #but ig i dont wanna go too deep into lore stuff in these tags cause yeah. another post in the works!! #i think about it and have talked about it a lot. but its hard to like contain all of it to bullet points and such #my brain is not built for writing fic i think so idk of youll ever get that from me. but lore yes i will deliver #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #jenson button #mark webber #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #formula 1 #boy king au

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

i have a lot of thoughts on minos in relation to pasiphae and the minotaur (both greek mythological and in ultrakill) but i dont really want to make a lot of posts abt it considering. the topic is generally hard to talk about.

#like i dont wanna go around claiming that the myth went 1:1 in ultrakills lore #because for example sisyphus was more based off a book rather than his mythology (thank god) #so minos might be only loosely based on his mythological counter part as well #but like. the fact that with the introduction of the minotaur enemy we KNOW the minotaur thing actually happened? jesus fuck #like we KNOW ultrakill minos thinks that the people of lust are only punished for loving eachother.... #while his real life mythological counterpart got mad at his wife for essentially being raped by proxy and she had to defend herself saying #why would she want that. she was cursed/forced to do that because minos didnt sacrifice that bull to poseidon #like i KNOW why that was never really brought up in ultrakill that would be. a weird topic to bring up in a funny robot shooter #and i dont think you could accurately handle the themes of rape through lore books you find in levels of the game #but theres just. something about minos willfully thinking his wife did that of her own accord and him refusing to think about how lust #carries more than people who had sex a lot in ultrakill. #again the myth MAY be different in ultrakill. maybe he never even accused his wife of that. maybe he was more understanding #but theres a non zero chance he did #he could be willfully ignorant and think his wife willingly cheated on him. he thinks everyone in lust is innocent/only had consensual sex #because the alternatives are too gross/immoral for him to think about #it might be because i sympathize a lot with greek mythology women but finding out that the thing with pasiphae happened in ultrakill #DID happen made me lose respect for minos. #... also towards a lot of the fandom for joking abt it. #rape tw

[jimmyspades]

Once I finish this complete rewatch and I feel the right amount of crazy I will rank all of Alan's girlfriends/flings/flirty unconsummated situationships. Because I have strong feelings about almost all of them

#top 10 the usual suspects. #then every human being on earth in the boston legal universe. #and then at the bottom. below the entire population. sally #I like Tara I like Kerry Washington's character I like Vanessa in her yellow dress #I love his thing with Denise even if it never happens #the judge idk she might grow on me this watch. I DON'T like phoebe 🔪 #the british redhead I don't remember her name..... mixed feelings like the judge. kinda sweet but she made him too.. unsettled #parker posey was fun #none of them are truly good enough for him. or right for him I should say. only me and my mutuals in our self-insert daydream universes <3 #or me in real life. <- embarrassing

[introspectivememories]

My fear is that DC makes Bernard such a beautiful well written character that mixs his old asshole personality with his newer tamed personality and people start actively liking him because he is own person with his own hopes and dreams and then fans want more of this Bernard only to be met with a shitty shell of a character and starting back at square one by forcing him just to be Tim’s love interest

this too actually

#a well written bernard... but at what cost? #sometimes the more popular a character is.... the worse they get treated by both the fandom and the editors #bernard getting popular and then the fandom flattens him into one personality trait? im literally quaking #a good writer other than fitzmartin gets their hands on bernard and we finally get a well rounded character? #and then more people start coming for bernard #and then they see this and they fuckin idk reboot the universe again #and now we have to start over from scratch #if real life had fear toxin i think that's what i would see #he's already only 'tim's bf' to them #every bit of character info on him is like inferred #or from like throwaway lines #like when he's patching up tim in tdr3 and tim goes 'but you're okay now right?' and bear says 'some days' #or the holy grail of bear info tdr7 #and then a little bit of urban legends 4 #all of the rr run from way back then is like a good starting point for bear but like he was 16 and the worst thing that ever happened to hi #at that point was his parents being shitty and when we meet him again he's like 20/21 #so i don't really enjoy it when people say he's lost his flavor or whatever because he's clearly been through some shit in the last 5 years #but like tdr7 when bear tell tim to 'have a great piss!' that was fitzmartin briefly being possesed by the real bernard dowd for a sec #these tags are getting too long #dc #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #asks

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say..... #it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me. #i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable. #bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there. #dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH???? #my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way. #Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer. #Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this? #For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this. #why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness? #What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...? #hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!! #i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful. #but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting. #I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing. #I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come. #Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

[kraviolis]

i can tell when the author of a fanfic im reading had a peaceful childhood

#krav talks #not to pull the 'i have actual ptsd from a traumatic childhood' card but im gonna be real #i dont think some of y'all understand exactly what hunter's childhood was like #belos also most likely was not the verbally abusive type of parent. he was physically and emotionally abusive FOR SURE. ABSOLUTELY #but theres no shot he'd just yell at hunter. he doesn't get angry like that #case in point: What Happened To Caleb #hunter isnt gonna start crying from someone yelling at him out of anger. he'll get triggered MAYBE #hunter gets fighty if he gets triggered by ANY older authority figure. kikimora and lilith werent exactly kind to him either #the only way hunter cries is when his friends are around bcus he feels so safe with them #you know who would cry over being yelled at like that??? amity. #sure later in her life she probably got into screaming matches with odalia #but if u think even she wouldnt burst into tears if she got yelled at by any older female authority figure in her life #then u r wrong. sorry #hunter was not allowed to be vulnerable. it was too dangerous to be. he also had NO ONE while under belos's thumb. #amity had her siblings. they probably gave her safe spaces to cry it out after getting verbally abused by their mom #if lilith lost her patience and raised her voice at amity (not in a mean way bcus lilith would literally Never but no one is perfect) #amity would start crying for sure. and then lilith would feel like the worst person in the world. scum of the earth. #and god forbid hunter sees this exchange. he'd rip lilith a new one even if she'd already apologized #he wouldnt stop chewing her out for even daring to speak to The Amity Blight so disrespectfully unless amity physically pulled him away. #and then he'd threaten lilith and flash step amity away and immediately call luz #now if a MAN tried to yell at amity she would be three seconds away from throwing hands #but she wouldnt even need to worry about getting her hands dirty bcus hunter would already be shoving the man to the fucking ground #and threatening to end his entire life if he even stepped foot into hunter's field of view ever again #this is why its hard for me to imagine hunter living with darius post-belos... darius wasnt kind to him at first either. #and i think hunter living with someone who had actually had a role in his traumatic childhood would make him. regress #he'd fall back into old behaviors without even noticing. im not entirely sure darius would notice either #i love darius and i love darius & hunters bond so much #but it makes so much more sense and would be so much better for hunter to live with the nocedas for a while #not permanently. camila did great with paying for 6 kids under her roof but she was one emergency away from financial devastation #and i dont think hunter would want to live in the human realm permanently either

[firestorm09890]

hey it's that anon from the other day about meursault. I am also an autistic individual with low empathy and can therefore only partially sympathize with Meursault. I think that you've done a reading of The Stranger that is very sympathetic and that there is value in that, but I've always read The Stranger as both a story about the absurdity of connection and a story about a Frenchman in colonial Algiers who doesn't understand himself or his own biases. You mention heat stroke but I think it's worth considering: is Meursault's perception of events realiable? Could he be unconsciously struggling with his complicity in oppressive violence against a colonial subject?

You raise very good points. I will be considering this. It’s a bit late to change the wording on that og post though

#that’s about all I have to say #you’re right my reading is a bit skewed #up til now the only commentary on race id really considered was the way the life of the murdered man #was so thoroughly swept aside #nothing but an epithet #and that’s about as far as i got on that angle of analysis #why am i still talking i said i was done #never expected to have a real literary analysis discussion on tumblr dot com #l'etranger #meursault #ask #i guess i could edit the wording but any version already reblogged is gonna have the original #okay yeah it didn’t spread very far so i’ve changed it #oh oh oh also if youre wondering how i can simultaneously be low empathy and empathize way too much with meursault it's because #the amount of empathy i have likes to swing from not enough to way too much at random #it's as irritating as it sounds #lol there are probably people following the meursault tag just for limbus company who will see this #hiiiii #i wonder what sort of crime that meursault committed #looking forward to finding out when his chapter happens in uh #two years #probably a doozy if they put him right before the likes of outis and faust

[ahaura]

not to jinx it but :-) it's july so that means this is the longest i've had a blog since i first remade (8ish months) <3

#ahvañe #this may seem like an insignificant detail but if you know my lore then you KNOW 8 months is CRAZY!!! #i have been described as 'remakes like she's on the most wanted list' on multiple occasions n #that has to do with neurotic tendencies that come out when im in a bad way and the only way i can cope and exercise #a modicum of control in my life is on the digital end of things. hence remaking blogs #im not sure if its bec the therapy is finally kicking in or if its bec im getting older or What #my neurotic tendencies may have been curbed by getting nerfed out of the blue HOWEVER #my blog tends to reflect how im doing IRL and this year has definitely been brutal in different ways #some better some worse than last year but these things happen. n idk. it feels nice to be comfortable w it. #it's v v easy to not see progress w urself especially when ur dealing with shit in real time and shit piles on #but things HAVE changed and i think im getting better at. like. life? idk. but anyway #ive lost contact w some ppl over the years but ive also met some wonderful people too #n im jusr grateful to be in a better place than i used to be. especially compared to [counts on fingers] 7 years ago. #NYway if ur reading this! i love u. im glad i exist<3