#if you come from the west like me

[bottombaron]

you know, i can handle a little bit of fun "Nandor is dumb" talk, but i have a net-zero tolerance for any implication that Nandor is not educated.

Nandor would have been incredibly educated in his lifetime.

even (or especially) as a soldier in the Islamic World. being a soldier was more like getting sent to boarding school that's also a military camp. they weren't just concerned with creating loyal fodder for war. they were building the next government officials, generals, accountants, advisors, etc. it was important that young men knew how to read, write, speak multiple languages, learn philosophy...sometimes even studying art and music was mandatory.

if he was nobility (and its most likely he was), take all that shit and multiply it exponentially. Nandor would have been reading Plato at the same age most people are still potty training. he would have been specifically groomed in such a way to not be just a brilliant strategist and warrior, but also diplomate and ambassador of literally the center of scientific and cultural excellence of the age.

so like yeah, he can be a big dummy sometimes, sure. but that bitch is probably more educated than any of us will ever be.

#wwdits #nandor the relentless #Nandor #what we do in the shadows #i think its obvious by how much Nandor loves to read that he grew up educated #it's one of my favorite character traits of his #anyways #this was just your local psa abt the depth of Nandor's character and intelligence #and how the medieval islamic world was like - so much more advanced than it's western counterpart it's hilarious how ppl mischaracterize it #(by hilarious i mean it makes me want to break something) #this was in my drafts lolol what did i read that made me vent this? idk #also 'islamic world' is just a term some historians use to describe a specific geographical location and historical age #kind of how 'western world' is used today #it doesn't mean it's specific to one religion or nation but the broader time and location #meaning that Al Qolindar or Persia or Ilkhanate or w/e you want to call where Nandor came from #the same expectations of education and it's vibrant social/cultural world remain an accurate image of the middle east in the medieval age #if you come from the west like me #think The Forum + The Library of Alexandria + Paris/Florence + and idk anything else u think of when u think of 'Western Excellence' #and then imagine of all of that in one place at one time and then u might get close to what the world Nandor was living in as a human

[alyona11]

Ok time for my big Hadestown hot take and that’s that West End Hadestown doesn’t give you a 100% Hadestown experience. It’s still ridiculously good and 100% worth seeing, don’t get me wrong (I used my opportunity and saw it twice and will likely see it again if I’m in London), but it kinda made me realise a couple of things about OBC production that will always be my Roman Empire and make me deeply upset Broadway is too greedy to give us an OBC proshot.

So, here are some of my thoughts and reflections based on seeing Hadestown live on West End + seeing different versions (including London National theatre proshot) in boots. I think you can pretty solidly say that in Hadestown there are 2 main stories: Orpheus/Eurydice and Hades/Persephone. And even though arguably Orphedice is the main most important story, it my opinion it also wins from Hadesphone story being strong. Which works perfectly in OBC due to Amber Gray and Patrick Page delivering a very deep nuanced performances as their characters.

I think part of the success of Hadestown when it works on its fullest is how it creates a very deep emotional journey. And I feel that regardless which pair of Orpheus and Eurydice you have (if we take Broadway/tour/West End take on the characters) it’ll still work! Like you need to try really hard to mess up orphedice the way people wouldn’t root for Orpheus or wouldn’t empathise with Eurydice because they are so relatable and cute. You instantly love them, they are so so lovable. So orphedice part is one thing in Hadestown that imo works if not always then in 99% of the cases.

Hades and Persephone’s part of the story in the contrary is VERY hard to nail on 100%, in my opinion, and this is literally driving me crazy. Maybe seeing Amber Gray and Patrick page in professional recording awoken some feelings in me, I don’t know. I will state straight away that I also do enjoy other actors’ takes on characters and I do see some very interesting character moments there and there. However, I keep returning to the thought that Amber/Patrick’s characterisation works SO WELL for the main narrative. I’ll try to explain why I think so. Consider it my love letter to the OBC.

First and foremost, I feel like Hadesphone story has a very fine dynamic that the actors have to nail, so you would feel that: 1) these two still love each other; 2) these two are buried under their problems and see no way out, only a miracle (aka Orpheus and his song) can save their marriage.

And if the first one usually works at least due to Epic 3, the second one, imo, often (at least partially) falls victim to acting/directing choices which can cause troubles with point 1 as well. I think one big thing I’ve noticed is that often Persephone’s alcoholism gets forgotten in the acting performance. Like yeah sure her choreography includes drinking from a flask but in comparison to Amber you never get a feeling that she is absolutely wasted. Which, is in my opinion something that you should feel when you’re watching the show and something I was constantly forgetting about when I was watching the show on West End. I feel in Amber’s performance you can constantly see that her Persephone’s feel good attitude is a façade of a broken person who knows that her marriage is going to hell in front of her eyes yet she is too passive and hopeless to try to make an active change (well, she does try in Chant and nothing happens), so her only way is to chase the sense of normality that the “medicine” gives her. But when she is alone, if you get to catch a moment when people are not looking at her, you can see a deep sadness under her positive front and her memory of the old days when everything was more simple. Nevertheless, the main point that the lyrics literally say is that Persephone is blinded by the river of wine. And this is crucial to her character and her relationship with Hades because the story states that even though Hades is a problem and he is an active actor in creating more problems, he is not the only failure in this relationship. Persephone needs to be woken up from her apathy almost as much as Hades does and this is something that we see during If It’s True.

From Hades’ side I feel like it’s not a good decision to make him a total villain because when he is irredeemable you don’t feel like the whole “song that will fix the world” has any chance of working long term. I think Patrick nailed a deep antagonist very well. His Hades is weird and lowkey creepy and alien. He does objectively bad things but when you look at him you can’t stop thinking that he doesn’t operate in regular human logic or morality. When I look at him in Chant, it feels to me that his words about building stuff to impress Persephone are absolutely sincere, and I can absolutely see that his Hades doesn’t understand why she is so upset about it when his intentions are so so clear. Maybe it’s my vision but even before Epic 3 when he is so far gone and buried in his projects and messed up ideas I don’t have a single doubt that Persephone is a single motivator and goal of Patrick Hades’ life and that he literally doesn’t need any other being to care about. And tragically this fixation is what makes him blind to all other things he does even if those things ruin Persephone’s life (and other people’s but tbh I don’t think he cares).

I feel like by removing Persephone’s Chant 2 verse Hadestown created more problems for Hades and Persephone part of the story making it a much harder job for the actors to prove to the audience that Hades and Persephone have a chance to make their relationship work. Like I get that maybe it was a necessary things to do (even though I think the show is much better with it) but it made it so much harder to empathise with this particular part of the story unless the actors use the choices that work in the narrative. Because for example when I was watching the show on West End part of me was wondering “what is Persephone’s deal in all of that, what does she win by staying with Hades?” With the verse, and with Broadway Previews or London 2018 in particular this part was clear: Persephone still loves Hades and believes that he has the opportunity to change and become a better man he used to be. Without the verse, however, the actors should give you the same idea during the show which is a hard task considering Hades and Persephone have only 2 big conversations together (Chant and How Long). So apart from those songs there are only subtle mostly silent moments they get together through which the actors have to convey the same thought which is hella difficult and probably hardly will be appreciated by anyone apart from the people who sit closely.

So, maybe because in the actor combo I saw (Zachary and Lauren), I got a feeling that even though they were great separately, I didn’t feel much chemistry between them as a pair. I think, Persephone seemed pissed and tired of Hades all the time until How Long and I didn’t feel that she still believes in his willingness to change. And Zach Hades despite being entertaining, kinda gives the impression of Hades who has other options, he is not into Persephone enough. The only sparkle appears between the two in Epic III which is still cute but I’m not sure if it works just as well if that’s the first time you see the show? Also considering Zach Hades gives more malicious intent in His Kiss, The Riot it seems that he is not even slightly interested in Orpheus having any opportunity to succeed with his quest. Which is not bad, don’t get me wrong! But in comparison to Patrick who is deeply self projecting into Orpheus to the point where you could see that even though he doesn’t want to let him go, part of him does because it would prove he too could succeed in his challenge of waiting for Persephone, this take seems a bit lacking. And overall because of His Kiss, their promise in Wait For Me doesn’t seem as giving much hope that the story won’t repeat itself next Sunday. Which in its turn makes Orpheus’ sacrifice feel a bit… worthless. If on Broadway, when Orpheus turns, but spring comes again you feel like it is the start of something new: hopefully a kinder and softer time. On West End the show also wants you to feel it but when you think about Hades and Persephone you feel…less certainty that this sacrifice will have a long term effect?

I guess the creators wanted to concentrate on Orpheus and Eurydice more and forget about Hades and Persephone by making them more secondary story or maybe there was a lack of director’s involvement to give the cast some hints on how to make this particular part of the story work better, but it feels to me that in its current state the show works in its 85% power which is still great but once you know there is something missing you can’t stop thinking about it and wishing the show would give you those 15% you crave.

#me being me #hadestown #thanks for coming to my ted talk #I still immensely enjoyed the production and would come see it again #but when you know the show at its fullest you seem to miss some parts that worked better #also I was able to appreciate the same cast from different angles the second time I could see them from the first row so I could #get a clear view of their acting #and don’t get me wrong Zach and Lauren are really interesting to watch and I liked them #but also I started thinking if it was my first time to watch the show would I understand the appeal of Hades/Persephone line? #and I can’t stop thinking about it #hades #Persephone #hadestown broadway #hadestown west end #it’s also not about WE only but just about some characterisations I saw from different actors in different productions #I just felt like it would be fair to compare to the production and cast I saw life because obviously bootlegs even the greatest are not #the same #thanks for reading this long post

[heynhay]

perchance, klance as a crimefighting cowboy-esque gunslinging duo?

well since you asked so nicely

#klance #voltron #vld #i gotta be honest i almost never draw au. #i respect au. i love au. i partake in au. but i do not create for it #like if youre gonna come in my inbox with an AU just know the odds are....not in your favor #but honestly? it was the cursive for me #and the font change #blearily as i awoke i registered the weirdest fucking way to send an ask. and it tickled me so. so here we are. #art #my art #i think in the wild west here everyone would be like 'ooooo its those guys!! keith is so scary!!' #bc keith would have a Reputation for being. well. his usual self #but lest we not forget who the sharpshooter is. #woe be upon criminals who focus too much on keith and then get fucking dinged with millimeter precision from a mile away by lance #anyway i put on one of my cowboy hats to take a reference pic and just ended up drawing like half of this while wearing it #do with that what you will

[weepylucifer]

what in the world is steban even doing in martinaise tbh?? he clearly has family elsewhere who love and support him, and he seems to be struggling to get by on his own in martinaise (since he's being threatened with eviction bc he can't pay his rent) and it's not a convenient place to live either, like i can't imagine he has a shorter commute to college from the ass-end of revachol where no one goes. so why tf is he there? you know i can construct a miasma of abstruse headcanons around this

#posts by me #you can't tell me he has nowhere else to go he literally could just live with his mom #and i also won't believe a place like revachol (west) has move-out-at-18-or-else-culture #like... who can afford it?? #titus said no one comes to martinaise who isn't running from something but what would a sheltered kid like steban even be escaping from #nothing has ever even HAPPENED to him

[skitskatdacat63]

Lone Ranger Gunslinger! Fernando (context)

#this would probably be more fitting for COTA but for ME it is very relevant and important #thank you DC for inciting this from me i guess 😭 #the only correct way to draw any Wild West art is to: #listen to Marty Robbins' Gunfighter Ballads and Trail Songs #and cry when El Paso comes on 😭😭😭😭 #so yeah if anything is mentioned over the course of a weekend that could be turned into an AU + #be assured that I can and will draw it >:) #if people like this maybe i wil draw some more for cota 🤭 i just wont have a lot of free time around that wknd tho ah #though i will say ive already discussed this possible AU with C a lot already 😭😭😭😭 #you already know what ship it would be......hehehe.... #anyways if youre ever curious where i get my ref photos. its called i play dress up in my room LMFAO #the outfit ref for this was a banger ngl. maybe ill wear it to school sometime 🤭🤭 #its almost kinda a shame hes wearing the coat in this bcs god damn the waist was absolutely snatched! #i love 3 piece suits sob sob sob #okay anyways hopefully fernando will continue to be a sharpshooter this weekend!!!!! #he should shoot for....a podium 🤭🤭🤭 he should shoot for....a win! 😮 #oh also i love how both c and i looked at clint eastwood pics as ref for this 😭😭 same brain 😭 #if i ever draw more of this au i def gotta draw him with that look! #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14

[dylanconrique]

i feel like if any one person had the privilege of knowing about chenfords secret relationship it no doubt would have been jackson. i mean, there’s honestly no hiding it from him, not with the way lucy comes home smiling like a lovesick puppy after every date she has with tim.

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #jackson west #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #in my perfect world where my favorite boy is still alive during their secret dating era... #he has cataloged their every interaction together at the station and deeply analyzed their every gesture and movement #he's 99.9% certain he knows it's tim that lucy's dating but keeps it all to himself in case of that 1% chance he's wrong #i imagine he found out while he stepped out of the apartment to make a quick run... #only to come back to find them kissing outside their door when tim is dropping lucy off after one of their dates #surprising them with his hyena like cackle like murray from stranger things #he just strolls between them into their apartment hysterical like 'oh man i knew it! i knew it!' #lucy would follow behind him frantically like 'you can't tell anybody!!!' #and of course he respects his best friends wishes and knows that this is a big deal for them both and assures her he'll keep his word #god i just miss my boy so much he would be so over the moon about them it's not fair that he's not around to see this 🥺💗💗

[tianshiisdead]

Japan shaves just about everything. He doesn't think more hair=more manly. He infact has a whole different idea of what is manly compared to western countries or most countries in general. He also likes flowers and floral patterns.

everything?!

#ask #anon #hetalia #hws japan #sorry anon! live your truth but i can’t see it 😅 i know you probably meant like… his face/body but #like i agree he wouldn’t think more hair = more manly but… honestly #I don’t really see him deviating much from japanese masculinity. personally #east asian men don’t really shave their whole bod tbh (thats MENA men - wrong orient) #like i think foreigners get the wrong impression because we’re kind of less hair-ful in general than a lot of ppl. particularily white ppl #but its not really done… if anything japan is the most likely to leave facial hair haha considering how its more acceptable in japan #than in china or korea #of course #my view of japan is biased as a fellow easian #I was a little wary to depict the full extent of your ask (sorry anon) and thats bc #of how easian masculinity in general is problematized and fetishized in the west? #like the idea of ~smooth japan kind of speaks to the whole wawah hairless babyface femme easians~~ trope that is so common #and it brings me pause when it comes to japan because tbh japan is probably the east asian country with masculinity that is #historically speaking #the most ‘coherant’ to the west #<- again Im speaking as another easian so i recognize my bias but #anyways sorry about that! ik this likely isnt what u were expecting 🙇‍♂️

[s0fter-sin]

being on twitter and seeing 18yr olds with “minors dni” in their bios is the weirdest thing ever

#lets be real #what the difference between and 18 yr old and a 17 yr old other than voting #youre probably still in high school #still live at home #dont have much if any real world experience #what happened just the day you turn 18 youre suddenly so far removed from someone whos a day before their 18th? #the amount of pro dead dove but with proshippers dni is concerning too #no one over there knows what proship means #which is weird bc i think it came from there to begin with #proship doesnt mean you like ‘problematic’ ships #its not an abbreviation #it means pro as in for #the same way anti means against #you could only ship the most wholesome canon thing in the world and still be a proshipper #it just means youre for shipping #i shouldnt have to explain this #im ship and let ship #i truly dont care what other people do in their private time #that by default makes me proship #but you cant just say that bc people dont believe you bc they think it means something else and you get death threats #its the wild west out there #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt

[ghoulishautism]

its pretty interesting seeing everyone's opinions on certain AUs or Fanon concepts in such a fanon-heavy fandom

#i think ghost king danny is funny on principle but you also have to understand that ghosts having a king overall makes zero sense #I prefer the ghost zone to be a wild west where everyone has their own stupid rules and territories #like Walker's rules are literally Made Up and ghosts only follow them to avoid him #I also forget phara dark or however you spell his name exists sometimes he just wasnt. a very compelling villain to me #I do like ghost obsessions though only because it doesnt make sense for only SOME people to become ghosts when they die like- they have- #-to be bounded by SOMETHING. #ghost obsessions come from 'real' ghost lore- unfinished business and whatnot #having a goal you can infinitely chase until the literal end of time is horrifying to me. A restless spirit that can never cease #Id like to hear the reasoning behind ghosts existing without obsessions though

[goldentigerfestival]

honestly the basic way I can say it about Vesperia's dub is that like... it doesn't sound that bad when it's all you know for context, but then when you just hear it in the original context (not even also having the original context, but hearing it), you realize just how much tone they changed.

it all makes sense in the dub because of the context they changed to make the tone fit with it, but when you hear the original tone, suddenly the dub context starts losing its foundation. basically the only way, in some cases, the vocal tones work in the dub is because they changed the context itself, and changing context/meaning/the message of what's being said is just a HUGE no-no for me.

I've probably mentioned this before but most of the contextual changing happened with Yuri. in a lot of cases for me like with Raven and Karol I much prefer the original delivery and that's a preference, and in some cases there were little to no changes (primarily the first and second visit to Dahngrest were mostly the same). a lot of them just center around Yuri and given that he's my baby boy, I'm just naturally set off by it lol.

#GTF Vesperia Localization Woes #mainly posting this in response to some followers' interest #but it's like. I can't even go back now. and I'm really sad that they did this bc #obviously that's what ppl in the west will play. it's only reasonable that they'd want to play dubbed #so when a dub deliberately changes stuff it just comes off as malicious to me #especially in the case of Yuri and Flynn where they make Yuri so randomly angry at him for NO reason #when they met at Nor Yuri was just... super casual and relaxed. he wasn't even angry #for some reason the dub went from having him talk constantly about Flynn to just ??? being so angry? #like the idea is that they start at 100 and wane and get back to 100 #but the dub was like... zero to a hundred. angry and then Hypionia happens #and I think BECAUSE of the way they changed the context it makes sense #and I know I said I'm working on my post(s) about the JP run but let me TELL you #I am making the Nordopolica port scene ITS OWN POST bc that was to me the worst case of context editing #it was framed as Yuri being aggressive and angry and not utterly heartbroken with a shaking voice #and honestly? I think that was what truly cemented me hating what the loc did with Yuri

[wild-at-mind]

I feel like tags like these were inevitable on the post about people traumatising themselves for the greater good or w/e... There is SO much emphasis on posting on tumblr and other social media being so important and so useful and we must never stop. But I would like to counterargue with the idea that posting on social media (especially tumblr) constantly does very little/nothing. If that was true then the point here becomes meaningless.

#i guess i must be broken according to this person because i don't seem to feel emotions the way they feel helps palestine #activists in palestine are also calling for a general strike where no one goes to work and that has yet to materialise in a meaningful way #because people keep watering it down by saying 'oh it's ok just post constantly/about nothing else than palestine on social media' #yeah awesome great- look i'm sure there are people in palestine saying get the word out about our suffering etc #but they are also calling for more meaningful symbolic gestures like strikes which as far as I know no western country has delivered #because that would take a lot of organising and much less guilt tripping and people spending all their time posting #and comfort always comes up- comfort and discomfort- what even is comfort? #is feeling ok in your own mind an insult to palestine? #are there people losing everything in wars feeling better because someone in the west feels really really bad about their pain? #like sorry to be facetious but what on earth does any of this rhetoric accomplish #i spent years thinking like this and it made me so sick and now i'm better i am DONE with it- i cannot go back to this thinking #i can only live if i bend away from this kind of thinking like a plant to light- and i want to help others but people just won't stop #please- post on social media if you like. it doesn't help anyone to view the depths of their pain and feel bad #it is better to look towards hope a ceasefire and a resolution and end to the killing of palestinians for good #that can happen!!! #i think avoiding misinformation and dehumanising rhetoric about either side is also very important #i fully believe you can only understand geopolitics and war if you see everyone as human

[bisexualamy]

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#it actually makes me sick like physically ill how much praise is heaped onto goyishe american leftists #people who could not point to gaza on a map six months ago. whose knowledge of middle east history comes from outdated textbooks and twitte #for being anti imperial activists and well educated anti imperialists with all the right buzzwords and all the right opinions #meanwhile nothing i say will ever be good enough bc i'm jewish and palestinians are tokenized by people who care more about appearing #like someone who Listens to Palestinians as opposed to 1) doing anything material to help them (like donating money) #and 2) not spreading obvious misinformation. something that does material damage to the cause of liberation #AND further fuels the most insidious of zionist propaganda which relies on the antisemitism of ignorant western goys #this propaganda banks on their antisemitism bc it's that fucking reliable #every white western goy that harasses jews or spreads misinfo about jews or is straight up just racist towards random israeli immigrants #ppl living in the west like running coffee shops that are now having their windows smashed bc that what? supports palestinian liberation? #makes it that much easier for actual zionist propagandists to say 'see. this was never about imperialism. they want an excuse to harm you.' #'you are only safe with us' #i grew up in a cauldron of this kind of propaganda and i was playing on hard mode i got it from the orthodox #it took years of dutiful unlearning. of wrestling with some really difficult realities. of realizing that i'd been not only lied to #but information had been deliberately kept from me to keep me from knowing the true depths of the horror happening in gaza #i did not get the luxury of starting to care about this six months ago during a concerted effort to correct the record #i had to put in the effort to unlearn two decades of propaganda given to me so young i don't remember a time when i didn't know it #and i am by far not the only jew with this experience #i have put in way more effort to care about this than every white western goy with a megaphone posting palestinian flags on IG #but none of that matters bc i am a jew and for the last 5000+ years we don't get to decide how we're discussed or how we're remembered #never mind how many jewish voices (and yes! even israeli voices!) have been supporting liberation efforts in palestine for years. #who've done an amazing job reaching more people who need help seeing through the propaganda they were raised on #i can only be a token who speaks only in protest chants or i can be an evil zionist. the anti imperial work doesn't matter. #bc anti imperial work is hard and none of them actually want to do it they just want the protest photos #anyway this is why i don't discuss this on the piss on the poor website. tbh i don't trust y'all

[adhdslugcrimes]

Hal: listen, my beautiful blonde speedster, what if we kidnapped the kids and take them to Disneyland. How long you think Bruce and Ollie noticed.

Barry: enough time to get through space mountain.

Hal: put 60$ and a dinner if we can go on the teacup ride before they noticed.

Barry: 70$ if I win and you got a deal.

Hal: deal!

#hal jordan #roy harper #dick grayson #wally west #barry allen #halbarry #also they kidnapped #donna troy #garth of shayeris #technically its not a kidnapping when the kids come willingly #wally was on getting Dick because Bruce won't catch on #hal took roy because besties with Ollie and so bestie got a key #they got through space mountain but never got to the teacups #hal still wine and dine him but still #Oliver was sad he wasn't invited #Bruce had banned wally from gotham #it wouldn't last #wally be like to the no mete in gotham rule: i can't read so it's not going to stop me #Bruce: why did you steal my son. #barry: to go to Disney world duh. #hal: and they call him the greatest detective. #Dick: can we bring commissioner Gordon and barb? #Barry: you got it. wally you get Barbara. #wally: ay ay uncle! #commissioner gordon deserves to haveva good time #and Dick is manipulative so hes a sweet little angel and not a fucking gremlin who bite Bruce over chicken nuggets #wally knows the truth because he saw in 4k #roy record it #hal saved his screams as his ringtone for Bruce #Bruce was shaking a 10 year old off and Alfred not helping

[moregraceful]

Heavenly father, can I call you daddy?

#behaving normally abt arkells coming to san francisco!!!!! #i was gonna fly to VANCOUVER last year to see them at rogers arena and then my passport got fucked due to the name change #so i just gave away my ticket for free on twitter lol. they should play ''all roads'' for me specifically for being nice #big conversation in the leafs gc about what to wear. ''i have a hyman leafs jersey and dermott leafs shirsey. which do i wear?'' #''does he even like the leafs anymore? max was a traitor at the asg. dermott shirsey'' #''HYMAN JERSEY!!'' #''too bad i don't have a raptors his jersey'' ''I MEAN THEY FIRED HIS BOYFRIEND THERE TOO'' #''mlse hates max'' #''the fact that his boyfriends were fired in the offseason ;('' #are you normal or do you and your friends have an intricate au in which max from arkells is dating kyle dubas and nick nurse #''intricate au'' it's not an au it's just a fact #the running joke is that is bc nick nurse ended up with the 76ers and kyle is in pitt bro is just moving to pennslyvania #is it a joke....we don't know.... #the amount of kyle dubas/max arkells twt fic i've written should get me put in a home i think. there was more than one #dark days...i think my friends are glad i am off twitter frankly #i'm missing the cuda homeopener which sucks but i see the cuda 500 times a year. this is the first time the arkells have come to sf #in like. SEVERAL years. they never come to the usa west coast they only ever go to new york when they come to the us #biggest band in canada that no one has ever heard of in the usa lol. i'm not missing this shit #posting too much bc i. do not want to edit my fic #beryl gave me their beta edit notes and i melted into a puddle and rolled into the sewer drain and floated out to sea #me: ''this fic SUCKS i need HELP'' beryl: ''here are my beta notes so you can edit'' me: 😨😨😨😨 #fuck around (write a bad fic and send it to your trusted beta for help) find out (receive beta notes and now i have to edit) #(in two days)(help)(it needs so much editing) #they said i could go up tot 12-15k if i needed. small mercies. ''10k limit was so you don't write 30k again'' ok fair!!!! #fresno oilers.txt

[mchiti]

i'm taking 5 minutes of my precious studying-crying-shaking-and-throwing up time to just say I'm so sick of this haram police narrative against hakim. sometimes people show up on anon and just ask the weirdest questions around about the extent of his faith / his past / or if it's true that he did... [insert an haram thing here] like why are you projecting your needs onto someone else? why are you shaming another muslim? why don't you sometimes can think bigger and, I don't know, realise that's something between you and Allah and Allah loves us and it's not up to you to judge anything and anyone.

Plus there's nothing / and I repeat nothing / that I dislike more than haram police + classism conjoined. bc that's literally the reason why you are saying stuff, because you're also classist on top of it.

#it happens too many times and it really bugs me now? #bye i'm off studying again #like sure Islamophobia is real but it's Islamophobia + poverty the real struggle #and when this comes from other muslims? you should know better my friends #but thank you for allowing the west to mistreat your brothers and sisters even more. weirdos.

[fandom-space-princess]

spent the morning tentatively constructing an essay in my head about the differences between Golden Age and New Wave science fiction and their conflicting approaches to the concepts of utopia and cultural perfection. and then realized that it's yet another thing I'm happier daydreaming about than actually writing. alas.

#old sci fi is a lifelong special interest for me and i am full of feelings about it #anyway the tldr of that essay would have been that the cold war transformed the broader cultural ideal in the west #of what a perfect future should look like and how it should serve the people living in it #there's this sense in a lot of the really popular scifi pre-WWI that the future is perfect bc as a species we've perfected ourselves #(*pre-WWII. 2. typo) #but coming into the 60s you notice that change dramatically #there's this odd background mixture of hope and dread. sort of a feeling that the species might be one foot in the grave already #but also a refusal to accept that. the way people dreamed about how they should live started to shift. you can watch it happen! #there's this feeling that our stewardship of the future must be possible-inevitable even-as imperfect people. imperfect societies. #that we can't achieve utopia but we can find a way to keep going anyway #i don't know. i'm emotional about it. it's a time capsule for an era of radically shifting desires on an international scale #you read stories from that time and you can feel people not wanting to give up. you can feel how badly they wanted tomorrow to include them #i think it's beautiful #fsp speaks