#if you love MO so much why do you only ever post about her to criticize this one line???

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

I love Mary Oliver but unfortunately I do have to be good because if I am not I am very very bad and I don't care for that one bit

#Grace #you say #if you love MO so much why do you only ever post about her to criticize this one line??? #because it's funny to me and the rest means to much to post about yknow?

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Random BL Superlatives: 2023

Well @lurkingshan did it, so I must do it. So here are some random, WKA themed superlatives for the 2023 BL selection.

Best Hands: Mhok and Day, Last Twilight

gif by @singularities

Listen. I know. I KNOW. There are so many incredible options, and I have written at length about a number of them. I mean come on, La Pluie is right there, I Feel You Linger in the Air is right there, Sing My Crush, Moonlight Chicken etc. etc. etc. But

But, Last Twilight came in with the steel chair right at the end of the year here with that FUCKING HANDSING SCENE. Can you blame me? The handsing scene is shrimply too powerful.

Best Lighting: Playboyy

You know, it's funny cause I don't usually end up writing about lighting in shows, despite the fact that lighting design is absolutely one of my favorite things in film, stage, and television. Chains of Heart has really interesting lighting too, but Playboyy is an objectively better show, and it is doing some absolutely gorgeous lighting design.

Best Sex Scene: Olive Oil, I Feel You Linger in the Air

gif by @pharawee

THE OLIVE OIL SCENE, WHY ARE THERE NO GIFSETS OF THE OLIVE OIL SCENE? WHY IS TUMBLR SUCH A FUCKING HATER???? They didn't even fuck in that scene, but holy mother of GOD it was the best thing I've seen all year. I Feel You Linger in the Air has some of the most inventive and beautiful intimate moments, and spreading the olive oil as a stand in for arousal and masturbation was absolutely goddamn brilliant.

Best Faen (Non)Fatale: Porjai, Last Twilight

gif from @khaopybara

I know Last Twilight hasn't finished yet and will take us in to 2024, but Porjai and Mohk's relationship is absolutely my favorite lovers to friends dynamic I have seen this year. I was showering praise upon them all for this in the tags of a reblog today, so I have to give it to them. Massive shout out and extremely close call to Nara from La Pluie.

Best Emotional Roller Coaster: What Did You Eat Yesterday? Season 2

Ok there were quite a lot of shows that I think would have applied here, but man oh man this entire season has just run me through the wringer with how much Shiro has grown over the course of the last two seasons. Episode 11 had me laughing my ass off, and then absolutely sobbing by the end. So it's going to Kinou Nani Tabeta?

The Shirt I Want to Steal Most from Wardrobe: Blue and White Button Up, The Sign

gif from @ohshinytrinketsmine

I know this will be contentious when the Fart Proudly shirt is right there, but I really loved the blue and white button up shirt that Phaya wore I do not know what is in the water at IdolFactory, but they have hands down some of the best shirts I have ever seen. When I watched Secret Crush on You I wanted the entirety of Sky's wardrobe, now I am having shirt envy for this sexy little blue-with-white-lines-that-are-vaguely-rabbit-shaped (wka do not write a post about rabbits, do not write a post about rabbits-) button up.

The Character Who Most Changed my Opinion of Them: Phupa, OS2 x BBS x ATOTS

gif by @alexshenry (double PhupaPat whammy for @waitmyturtles)

Okay, so to tell you the truth, I made new superlatives cause if I took the superlatives from @lurkingshan's post it would have been at least half the same if not more (because as always, Shan is right about everything). But, I will put an overlap here because I absolutely could not let this year go by without applauding Aof, Earth, and Phupa for really putting in the work to help me understand this man better.

The Show That Most Surprised Me: Wedding Plan by MAME

gif by @wanderlust-in-my-soul

Okay not only was this show that I absolutely was not planning to watch or initially interested in actually one of the best of the year, but it was also a MAME show. And a lot of us have our critiques of MAME's writing, but this was so outside of her typical MO that I am shocked it came from the same writer. Love Sailom, love a Lavender Wedding, love Nuea, love it all.

The Trope This Year That Most Accounted for the Fact These Are Gay MEN: Boxing! Sing My Crush, Wedding Plan, The Sign

Sing My Crush did this the absolute best, but I really genuinely loved that multiple shows this year let men fight in controlled settings to get out some of their frustration and to process their feelings. Han Ba Ram crying in the gym? One of my favorite scenes of the entire year.

And yeah sure, Phaya and Tharn are fighting for the intricate rituals that allow men to touch the skin of men, we get the horny vibes, but fundamentally this fight does occur because Tharn is angsty and ignoring Phaya and that cannot stand. I like seeing Phaya sparring with the punching bag at the end of the most recent episode as well because he's fucking furious about Tharn telling the doctor about his dreams. I love it, I love it so much.

#bl superlatives #last twilight the series #playboyy the series #i feel you linger in the air #what did you eat yesterday? #kinou nani tabeta? #the sign the series #our skyy 2 x bbs x atots #a tale of a thousand stars #sing my crush the series

[strawbeerossi]

Heartless

Pairing: Unsub!Fem!Reader x Spencer Reid

Part Description: With an old foe breaking out of prison, there are complications when Y/N is left alone with them, exposing her secret to Spencer about just who she is.

Content Warnings: Coarse language, there’s spoilers for season 12 and prison Reid, mentions of drugging, mentions of death, use of a knife, use of a gun, violence, death.

Word Count: 4.4K

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Confusion had set in the minute that Y/N had gotten to Spencer’s car, watching the clumsy man nearly trip over his own two feet as he was pulling open the passenger side door, his tender touch against her lower back as he was so lovingly nudging her so she’d get in the car. “I thought you said this killer killed men. Why am I going to the office? Her MO isn’t women.” She tried, her boyfriend’s head shaking.

“Just listen to me!” Spencer snapped, bringing his hands to his hair while drawing in a breath. Trying to compose the very overwhelming emotions that seemed to be taking control. After prison, Spencer became more irritable. It was harder for him to control his emotions, he had major tunnel vision, and he was in a post traumatic stress state that wouldn’t ever leave him. Sure, things got better, in spurts. Therapy did so much for him, his girlfriend could only do so much, it was like his mind was against him.

“We need to get to the office now, okay? I promise you that I will explain everything in vivid detail but I need you in the fucking car! You’re gonna get hurt and I can’t lose someone else. Please just get in the car..” Watching Spencer panic and grow fearful was enough to make Y/N’s heart shatter. Her poor baby. In order to fulfill the man’s wishes, she was pressing a soft kiss against his cheek before climbing into the car, the seatbelt being snapped into place as soon as she was settled. “Please tell me what’s going on.”

Who the fuck was trying to take Y/N’s position? To claim all her hard work as their own? There was no doubt those men, no, those dirty pigs deserved to die. However, she was the one doing it. She was delivering justice to women who were failed by the system, by the courts, even by their spouses. What she did was vigilantism, doing what the law couldn’t. Even if her boyfriend was part of that same very law and would look down upon her choices. She had to keep it under the radar. She knew what would happen if her boyfriend was to find out.

She’d have to kill him.

It was almost a little laughable how naive Spencer was with the whole situation with his girlfriend, the way she would come over at all hours of the night, the way she’d always be tightly wound up. However, working in customer service for all shifts was a good excuse for that.

Spencer, the genius FBI profiler who had so much under his belt, had no idea he was in bed with a woman who he wanted to strangle. She’d like to think that he loved her, that he was overlooking everything just because he found solace in her arms. It was something that he told her, saying he needed her, that she made him sane after all the hell that he’d been put through.

Deep down, she knew that he was one of the good ones. The ones who deserved a loving relationship, a woman willing to take care of him, willing to deal with the long nights, days, even weeks when Spencer was off on a case. That was why she was there. To give a man who was the most deserving of love the very thing that he craved, needed. It wasn’t even just the sex that kept her there. It was that studious, lovable dork who always had so much to say, so much to teach her.

“There’s this woman, a woman who has been messing with me for years. I outsmarted her.” Spencer answered, one hand coming up to rub his right eye, the tunnel vision setting in as he was growing more overwhelmed. “Cat Adams. She-“ He let out a low sigh. “She drugged me, she framed me for murder, had me incarcerated, she.. She..” He was taking in a shaky breath while Y/N was reaching over to let her hand rest on his upper arm.

“You don’t have to say it right now, okay? I promise that it’s alright. I’m here for you.” Y/N assured her boyfriend, a weak smile on her face. Oh, she was gonna kill this bitch, for sure. She felt like this was going to be a bigger fight than it needed to be. Way too big.

Spencer was pulling in the parking garage soon after that, sitting in a deafening silence while he tried collecting himself the best that he could. He had to think clearly. Not only was he at risk but his girlfriend was too. Cat had so many people to do her dirty work outside of prison, he knew that. This was her handiwork. He didn't know how he didn't see it before.

Cat made the most sense. She was a 'Black Widow' killer. She used her seduction and charm to lure men in. She saw all men as threats, considered them all as evil and dark as the next. She never spared a thought for most of them. Spencer though.. Oh, Cat was infatuated. He was the only man to ever outsmart her, to arrest her while winning the game that she rigged against him. That woman wouldn't ever leave him alone, not until she was dead.

Being locked in a maximum security prison didn't deter her. Instead, it fueled her. It drove her to dig up every piece on Spencer that she possibly could. Hell, she had him drugged and imprisoned all the while blaming Mr. Scratch.

Emily Prentiss, the unit chief of the Behavioral Analysis Unit, was the one who greeted Spencer and Y/N by the elevator. "I'm glad you could make it. I know you've been busy with your personal investigation." She hummed, turning her attention to Y/N. "I had a suspicion our beloved Dr. Reid had a secret girlfriend." She joked, holding a hand out. "I'm Emily."

Y/N did her research on the BAU leader. She was strong willed, determined, and loyal to her work family. However, the mommy and daddy issues were apparent in her work ethic. The way she took on a more demanding tone, the way she looked at Y/N with that hint of mistrust. It was enough to make the other woman almost respect her. Emily was definitely going to make things difficult if she didn't play things smart.

The leader gets suspicious, and the team turns against her. No thanks.

"I'm Y/N. It's nice to meet you. I've heard a lot about you." Y/N greeted, a smile gracing her features while her hand was reaching out to hold Emily's, the two shaking hands before their hands were falling back to their usual places.

"Spencer. If you wouldn't mind taking Y/N somewhere she can get comfortable, everyone else is waiting on us." Straight to business.

"I know it's not really work appropriate," Spencer began, his gaze falling on his girlfriend before he was taking her hand. "I'd really appreciate it if she came in too. She's been my rock throughout all of this and I don't think I can even talk about.." He paused briefly, making Emily look at Y/N before letting out a sigh.

"Alright. If you would feel more comfortable with her there, she can sit in. However," Now her attention was on Y/N. "I don't know what Spencer has told you but this is a violent case. We are going to be talking about a lot of dark subject matters." She spoke, a warning to the very woman who was behind every single murder except the most recent one.

"I understand. I think that I can handle it. If I can't, I'll quietly excuse myself." Her tone was soft as she offered a gentle smile.

Following close behind her boyfriend and his boss, Y/N was looking around the bullpen. There was a lot of structure and order, yet a hint of chaos judging by the piles of files and other papers on certain desks. She could already guess which one was Spencer's, which made her smile.

Inside the conference room though, the talking was coming to a halt when a new woman was stepping in the room, hand tucked in Spencer's.

There was a blonde woman that was speaking up first, a wide smile on her face. "Who is this?!" She asked, the case at hand almost being forgotten by the woman with purple framed glasses, a dress that was littered with unicorns amongst other fantasy style items. She didn't look like someone who would willingly choose this career, seeming very overjoyed and kind, too kind for the world.

"I'm Y/N. You must be Penelope." Y/N spoke up, the woman perking up even more if it was possible. "You've been talking about me!" She laughed, putting her hands together. "Is this your girlfriend? Oh! Spencer she's so-"

"Garcia."

Emily's voice was bringing the woman back to the heavy reality of the situation, making her smile fall as she nodded. "Sorry, sorry. Um," She began while grabbing the remote on the table. "We have Matthew Thornton." She began, clicking a button on the remote to pull up the crime scene.

Whoever was trying to take Y/N's thunder didn't even do it right. They stabbed the body about seventy times, which was far too much work for her to even attempt. Besides that, she'd never think to leave behind a note taunting anyone. However, this wasn't her. With the way she could feel her boyfriend tense up, she knew this was the work of the woman he told her about in the car.

"She ended up being a part of a well coordinated prison break." Tara was speaking up, her gaze looking over the files in hand while frowning. "How did the guards not notice?" She asked while Matt was looking over at the woman's direction. "Guards were in on it. It doesn't help that some of those same guards were killed while on their shift once the break happened and their clothes were stolen. Makes it easy to scan an ID and open the doors for everyone."

"So, wait," Y/N interjected herself into the conversation, however nobody seemed against her speaking her thoughts out. "With the break and how it flew under the radar for so long, do we know how long they've been out?" She asked, her eyebrows raising in curiosity. Maybe blaming this on Cat Adams could potentially get her fully off the suspect list.

"According to reports, this went on months ago." David responded, making Luke nod. "Meaning, Cat has been fighting for Spencer's attention in the only way she could. It looks like the killings led up to Spencer's apartment at one point but they stopped, now they are back on track."

Oh. Blessing in disguise maybe?

"What do we know?" Spencer finally broke his silence, his hand reaching over for one of the files before he was opening it, although it was almost like he had it to where Y/N could see too. Was she unknowingly getting signed up to help?

"She was seen in a convenience store security footage." Penelope answered, quickly pulling up the files. As they went through the footage a couple times, the blonde was pausing it on Cat's face. There was no doubt about it being her. Why was she playing the long game though? When Y/N found someone she wanted dead, she got on with it. There wasn't any doubt going through her mind.

"She's taunting us. We could be walking directly into a trap." Emily pointed out the obvious, her hands resting against the tabletop while keeping a sharp eye on the screen ahead of her. "I think it's time for us to go off of our leads. Garcia, send us coordinates for her last known locations. Judging by how recent this footage is, she's close. I’m pairing all of us off. We need to play this safe.”

Emily just didn't know how close Cat really was.

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Cat had successfully evaded police capture for months now, keeping her eyes on one specific person. She saw Y/N approach Spencer in a bar a few months ago, getting cozy with him before going back to his apartment. So.. Cat did what she did best, digging.

She followed Y/N around on her nights of leisure, watching her use her intoxicating voice and seduction to lure unsuspecting men back to shitty motels and other discreet places just to kill them. Yet, after all that, she’d made sure to not leave a trace of evidence behind before she left.

Going straight home to her boyfriend, an FBI agent who would no doubt kill her if she found out.

That was when Cat decided to make her escape known, attracting the attention of the BAU in order to throw this woman under the bus. Cat’s obsession with Spencer knew absolutely no bounds. She would do what she could to make him suffer, all the while managing to keep him all to herself.

He didn’t deserve to be happy. No, he deserved to be with someone who was meant for him. She knew from the moment she met Spencer that he was an evil person, harboring a dark side that only she had managed to bring out after being part of completely breaking him down, making him crumble into a form of himself that he would never fully recognize.

She knew they’d be catching on soon. The BAU never disappointed her, she was going to one place where they wouldn’t be looking. In fact, it was the place where Y/N was sent after Emily was making the woman leave due to the fact that no normal civilian needed to be part of this. Spencer was against the idea entirely but at the promise of an agent going to guard his girlfriend, he had to deflate and accept she needed to go home, where she was safe.

So, as she was being ushered home by some big agent to keep her safe, Y/N could help but frown. They thought she needed a man to protect her?? She knew what she was doing. If Cat even showed up on her radar, it’d be easy to kill her. No guard would be able to hold her back either. She’d pieced together every horrible thing that Cat coordinated against Spencer, the way she pulled the strings in an elaborate plan to completely break him.

There was going to be a long, painful death in store for the notorious escaped convict, that was all she knew.

“You don’t have to be here you know.” Y/N murmured to the man beside her, her hand reaching in her purse so she could unlock her front door. “Sorry, ma’am. Orders.” He wasn’t gonna let up. It was enough to get under her skin, wanting to grab her blade tucked away in her bag and slit his throat. However, she wasn’t going to fully incriminate herself after seemingly getting away with murder.

As soon as the door was unlocked, she stepped inside and closed the door behind her. Thankfully, the man outside would just be standing guard, which was a shitty decision if Cat was as good as they said she was.

Y/N had gotten her shoes off before heading to her kitchen, flipping on the light before raising an eyebrow as she saw Cat Adams, the woman the whole team was looking for, at her kitchen table. She had a folder resting on the table, labeled for Spencer. “You’re home! Thank god, I was worried I’d have to go find you!”

“What the fuck are you doing in my apartment? How did you get into my apartment?”

“I have my ways! Now, why don’t you sit down?”

The way that this woman was talking to her had Y/N rolling her eyes. “I think I’m gonna have to ask you to leave before I shove a knife in your throat. I mean, it would be self defense, after all. You broke into my home, you’re a convicted murderer.”

“Ah. You’re a murderer too though.” Cat stated, opening the file in front of her to reveal the prints linking Y/N with each victim. The same bar where she met Spencer, the same drink, the same body language. “I mean.. This is plenty of evidence. The cameras may not work there but people have their eyes open. Always. I know so many people around here, you’d be surprised.”

Cat didn’t give Y/N time to ask any questions. “Now, what I wanna know is, what are you doing with Spencer Reid? Your whole crusade is to kill men who have gotten away with violence against their partners and/or their children. Men who are violent, harboring dark thoughts and using their strength to either take life away, or to try and end it.”

“I don’t see what that has to do with Spencer.”

“You don’t? You do know that Spencer murdered a woman, correct? In cold blood, might I add. She was trying to help him and he returned the favor by stabbing her to death.”

“Because you drugged him, Cat. I’m not fucking stupid, I’ve already been made aware.”

“Were you aware that after his release from prison, he came to visit me? He had to talk with me about my involvement, which I’m sure you know that I had his precious mommy under my lock and key. Do you know what he did to me? What he said?”

There was silence from Y/N’s end. That was something she hadn’t heard yet.

“You see, I was pregnant in prison. Spencer had come to question me, asking me all sorts of bullshit questions. So I answered. He got impatient with me. Started yelling, threw a table out of the way, and slammed me against a brick wall. He was going to choke me to death, Y/N. I had bruises for months after that. I even miscarried. If JJ hadn’t been there, I would’ve been dead.” The story wasn’t as tragic as Cat believed it to be. She deserved it.

“You fight for women and children who have been fucked over by the crooked structure of law enforcement. The same law enforcement that your sweet boyfriend is a part of. Killing all of those men was a waste of time. If you truly cared about those people who you claim to be fighting for, Spencer would’ve been dead a long time ago. I respected your choices leading up to that moment. The moment that you grew weak. The moment you betrayed every single thing you were fighting for.”

As if right on cue though, there was the sound of banging right outside the front door, Spencer’s voice being muffled by the front door as he called out to his girlfriend. He willingly sent her home, thinking she’d be safe. All the while, Cat left plenty of clues as to where she was. “Right on time! I knew Spencie wouldn’t fail me.” She grinned.

“Go be a good girl and unlock the door. I think you and him need to have a long talk about what you did.” She spoke, leaning back in her chair while nodding towards the front door, where Spencer was still yelling for his girlfriend. If she didn’t open the door soon, he’d have to pull a Derek and kick the wooden door clean off its hinges.

This was where Y/N’s heart fell into her stomach. Realization was setting in. Spencer was going to know. He was going to see the incriminating bullshit that Cat had in front of her. Everything was going to fall down to Y/N killing Spencer. This was what Cat needed her for. What she used her for.

She quietly approached the front door, unlocking each individual lock before pulling it open. “Oh thank god!” Spencer croaked, his arms wrapped tightly around his girlfriend while he held her flush against his chest. The comfort of knowing she was okay was enough to have him sobbing in her arms, unaware of what darkness was looming in the kitchen. “She’s on the way here.” He spoke, him against her shoulder while his eyes were closed.

The moment was gone in an instant. “I’m already here, Spencie. It’s so nice to see you again. I bet that you thought you were doing justice here,” Cat smirked, body leaning against the kitchen archway as she let an eyebrow raise. “I suggest you come inside, sit with us in the kitchen. We both have a lot to discuss with you.” She began, causing the couple to break apart from the hug as Y/N grabbed her boyfriend’s hand. “Come on.” She whispered, tears rolling down her pale cheeks as she led him into the kitchen.

“Now, I think you guys should recruit me into the fbi. Because I solved this case for you!” Cat grinned, pushing the closed file to Spencer. “Your killer, the one you’ve been searching for, has been right under your nose this whole time. It’s not even me!” She had a wicked smile on her face. This was another shot to Spencer’s heart, making him go through pain all over again. As long as she was alive, Spencer wouldn’t ever escape her.

You could hear a pin drop the minute that Spencer opened the file, his eyes staring at the pictures inside while his mouth ran dry. That was Y/N. His girlfriend. With the men who were murdered, the same bar they met in and everything.

“What the fuck is this?” There was anger in his voice, betrayal. “You’ve let me nearly kill myself from lack of sleep and bringing me to near heart attack level because of you?!” The venom in his voice had Y/N flinching upon impact, her eyes squeezing shut. “You don’t understand-“ She began, though it wasn’t long before Spencer was throwing the file down and standing.

“Was I another victim?! Were you playing the fucking long game with me? You wanted to catch me fully off guard?” He growled, the woman being backed up to the wall. Y/N felt powerless, her heart beating out of her chest as the man she loved was towering over her, keeping her trapped between himself and the wall.

However, once his back was to Cat, it was almost like something else flashed in his eyes. There was anger but now there was something else. Encouragement? She didn’t think much about it until Spencer was reaching over to take a knife out of the knife block, holding it out to his girlfriend. “Do it then. Go for it.” He growled, though there wasn’t fear behind his eyes. No.. There was a fucking smirk on his face, egging her on to make a move.

Y/N was slowly taking the knife once Spencer backed up, this time sitting in a chair. There were a few moments of silence while Y/N was looking at her reflection within the blade of the knife, something ticking inside of her. Something she’d been waiting to act on for a while. “I’m sorry.” She whispered, looking over at her boyfriend who seemed unbothered. “I don’t wanna fucking hear it. Just hurry up. We don’t have much time.” 

The way she was encouraged made her face Cat, then everything went black.

The first thing she did was charge the other woman, knocking her out of the chair. The air was thick with adrenaline as the woman was wrestling the other to the ground. This was a long time coming. However, cat put up one hell of a fight, the woman ending up getting a good hit on Y/N and knocking her to the ground, which had Cat be the knife wielder.

As the woman was climbing on top of the other, she was pushing the knife deep into Y/N’s shoulder, the woman letting out a loud cry. “You’re pathetic, you know that? All that promise? All that strength. He was going to take it away from you anyway. You never loved him and he never loved-“

BANG

Blood was splattered all over Y/N’s face, the sound of a gunshot echoing through the apartment. The deadweight of Cat falling on top of her was enough to shock her. Did Spencer just.. There were a few moments where Y/N used the adrenaline coursing through her veins to shove the dead weight off of her.

“How dumb do you think I am?” Spencer asked after a moment, using a lighter to light up the incriminating evidence in the sink to let the pictures burn completely. “I’ve known the whole fucking time. You’re not exactly subtle. Be real. I was in that bar on a stakeout.” He continued on while looking back at Y/N.

“I was supposed to go in, do my job, and get out. However, you sat beside me. The way you were talking to me, touching me, and your body language gave you up immediately. However.. Against my better judgment, I had some sort of trust in you. I took you home with me.” He began while turning on the water to put out the fire from the burning evidence before grabbing the unidentifiable pictures and throwing them in the trash.

“I fell in love with you. Even if you didn’t deserve that love. Quite frankly, you still don’t.” He was taking off the purple scarf around his neck, wrapping it around her bleeding wound while he was moving to grab his microphone, putting a finger up. “Prentiss, send up medics. Cat’s down and Y/N is wounded.” He sent off the message while letting his arms cross as he looked over his girlfriend.

“I’m not gonna say a word about any of this. I told you that I refuse to lose you and I mean that. You’re not going to be locked up in a jail cell the rest of your life or mine. But you have to promise me that you’re not gonna fuck around and keep doing this bullshit. I mean it, if I feel like you are killing anyone else..” He was grabbing her chin by making her look up at him.

“I’ll kill you myself. Now, go get stitched up before you bleed out.” There was a soft kiss pressed against her lips while he was standing straight again, walking out of the apartment to greet the other team members downstairs.

He left Y/N to stand there, mostly in shock.

What the fuck just happened?

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[charmedreincarnation]

My shift to Bnha

I’ll start with the basics. For starters my reality is a bit different. The legal age is 25, so therefore school duration is longer, and our ages are different. I start UA when I was 19 years old, which made me a year 1 student. my parents are both prominent figures in hero society, and I was an only child to them. I only add this because I think it’s important to acknowledge background information because it shapes your experience and your placement in society, especially in a world filled with heroes everything is ranked and merit based.

UA .⋅ ۵♡۵ ⋅.

Contrary to popular belief, at least in my reality school is very much emphasized and just as important as hero work. For me a typical day looked like, getting up at 7:45 to prepare for classes that started at 8:30 and ending at 5. We do have a one hour lunch break, and a specific period to work on our specific quirks alone any way we see fit. A lot of people do use that time to slack off and hang out with friends, but they’ve recently become very strict about it. Credits to to Tenya Ida for informing the board of what people were really doing ! A lot of people were mad but honestly I am a teachers pet in this reality so I kind of appreciated it.

I can’t speak for the other classes, maybe it’s because of everything we went to, but we are not a class we are genuinely family. I am closest to Izuku, Sui, Ochacho, Mina, Todoroki and MoMo! Not in any particular order. I’m not going to talk about everyone but here are some of the reasons I love them <3

•Mina is just as extroverted quirky and bubbly as you would expect. Shes one of those people you meet and you can’t help but adore because they energy is so welcoming and they’re so loving. She’s kind of a prankster and a rumor starter and I find it hilarious. You can’t keep anything from her, though but once she has a narrative she has narrowed upon, you have a better chance of changing the devils mind.

For example i talked about this in a different post, but she started a rumour that bakugo is in love with izuku and that’s why he’s mad all the time. It got back to bakugo and he threatened to turn the cafeteria into a live bake oven. It’s honestly hilarious how she can make a whole room laugh. Or make anyone mad.. I guess it’s a talent regardless.

•Sui is the sweetest girl ever. She kind of keeps to herself but she’s honest and what you see is what you get. She’s also kind of emotional and I am kind of a cry baby too there so we get each other. We really just want to do our best and see everyone succeed. I would say both of us made friendships are bigger priority than hero training and we have both been called out for it too.

•Ochacho is very similar to Mina but she can also get down to business when she needs to. Everyone loves her, and her powers are super helpful in any situation, like for sneaking out quietly… but I wouldn’t know anything about that. I vividly remember having a conversation about our hero progress and she’s deeply insecure. She grew up impoverished and Monterey compensation is one of the reasons that really encouraged her to be a hero. I remember one time she was telling me how impressive I was during the first few weeks of school because I had a better handle on my quirk than her. She said something of how I was meant to be a hero. It made me sad because I admired her will and determination more than anyone. I had so many factors that put me ahead in some of my peers. My mother is a pro hero and I went to a profound middle school that molded me to be ready. I told her she was born to be a hero and I was made to be a hero. I was being honest and I didn’t think it meant anything but she always reminds me of how she thinks about that anytime she’s in a situation where she needs help. Nothing made me happier

•Momo and my quirks are very similar. My quirk is called clairvoyance somnium, and my hero name is dreamer. Kind of what she can do but I visualize whatever I need. I can also do more things that I won’t get into but a lot of it, I was inspired by my shifting methods ! Anyways she’s the sweetest and we live pretty close to each other so I’ve seen her around for a while. She’s honestly very gorgeous and we both struggle with insecurities and anxiety, so she really is someone I relate and rely on. Maybe it’s because our quirks or so similar or we have similar backgrounds and personalities but… she’s probably the person I am closest with! But I really do love everyone equally

Bakugo .⋅ ۵♡۵ ⋅.

Ok lots of people ask about him so let’s go.

Yes he’s so loud and always angry. You know I thought i would be scared of him but I honestly even I even give him snarky remarks sometimes (in a nice way because I am so nice in this dr) but wow he is the loudest person I’ve ever met in any dr but his powers are amazing we all respect it

Contrary to popular belief..no one is scared of him. As angry, loud and aggressive as he is he has proven time and time again all he wants to do is be a hero. Honestly it surprised some of us but everyone knows he has kind of good intentions under his wrath ??

He also makes everything a competition and he’s actually good at eveything. He’s good at school I’m pretty sure he placed after me in mid terms ! I got third and he got fourth. He’s a great cook and baker. We had a baking competition and he placed after sato. We made ramen and he made the best ramen ! Like he’s not as dumb as he looks. He’s also in a one sided competition with Todoroki but as we have all noticed he doesn’t give a fuck.

Powers .⋅ ۵♡۵ ⋅.

This may be egotistical but I could not imagine not being a hero in a world with 80% hero. Don’t let the league of villains hear this it will fuel their fire. 🥲 in all seriousness we are lectured that we are not better than anyone, and we are simply stronger than other people and that is it so we shouldn’t let it conflate our egos. The only way we would be given the green flag to pat our own backs is when are abilities begin to save millions of lives. But then I guess if we’re only being heroes to look good then would that really make us heroes. At least that’s what I wrote about in my English essay. Present mic did in fact eat it up, I got an amazing grade on it. But that’s not the point. The point is it’s easy to get a big head but we were simply genetically lucky, not better, smarter, etc.

Now that philosophy is behind us, having powers is so cool and coming back here the limits of other realities having no bounds never fails to amaze me. Our quirks are an extension of ourselves and literally are us. It’s not second nature, it’s first nature after having these abilities for so long. Especially my quirk, if I wanted I could “dream” 500 million yen, and well I wouldn’t be able to put it in the bank but I digress. Finding out what your quirk can do and how far your cbs push your limits always allows us to be going through moments of self discovery. Having a quirk is honestly it’s own life alone, and I genuinely could not be happier.

My favorite classes .⋅ ۵♡۵ ⋅.

As a student in this incredible universe, I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to pursue many amazing topics of study.

One class I took was Hero Studies, where we learned about the many different hero theories and methods of justice, as well as what it takes to become an effective hero. We also discussed the history of the hero world and its evolution throughout the years. It was a fascinating subject and definitely one of my favorites!

The next class I took was Quirk Studies. Here we learned all about quirks, their effects on people and how they can be used to help protect civilians and stop villains. We even discussed how to best work with a partner with a different quirk, and how to combine two quirks to create a unique and powerful attack.

Finally, I also took a class called Combat Training. This class taught us all about combat techniques and how to use the environment and our natural abilities in order to survive any situation. We learned how to effectively dodge and block attacks, as well as how to use our quirks to create powerful attacks.

We of course also had the general classes of math, English, science, math, and music

The classes at UA High were some of the most interesting classes I have ever taken and I am so grateful for having the opportunity to explore them. Not only did I learn a lot about the world of My Hero Academia, but I also grew as a person and as a hero.

Random funny story .⋅ ۵♡۵ ⋅.

I’m going to tell you one of the funniest most embarrassing things that happened during the UA sports festive. This happened during the third event, when we were in teaams.

I was with Izuku, mei, Ochako, and fumikage. Everyone is trying to steal the headband from us because Izuku has all the points ! Everyone was targeting us and it was so unfair. during the last few seconds I started running to dream us a tower so we can hide and to grow into to the skies. Then someone came so they threw me the headband and i I was waiting for them but then they got attacked and they told me just go without them !?? I was literally shaking and my anxiety was at an all time high time so I quirked my tower or whatever and made it grow and then the time ran out! I had the headband and we thought we won and we were cheering but umm no. I was the only winner technically because I wasn’t with my team. BUT because that took away FROM the point of the team work part I was deducted points from my own Individual points because that wasn’t the point of the challenge. Honestly you win some you lose some. It was a fun experience regardless.

Also honestly i shifted here around the time of the World Cup, which I could not care less about, but I get the hype of sports witnessing Izuku’s fight against Shinso (manipulation guy.) it was so awesome !!! I was at the edge of my seat the entire time!!! So I guess Now I understand how some people feel about sports lol. By the end of the festival, I got third place overall and my mom was so proud of me. It was the honestly a great feeling.

Random dump with no correlation

my mother (Uwabami’s) Quirk gives her a trio of live snakes growing from her head. One of the snakes have acute senses, allowing her to locate hidden criminals and disaster victims.one snakes also has a scent that can make her victims mindless slaves, one snake produces poison and attacks her victims.

my father who also attended UA with my mom has Squirmy Fingers (can precisely bend and control his fingers, giving him great dexterity) As well as a High Scientific knowledge Skills IQ in engineering. I found this interesting because usually children are a combination of their parents quirks or either or, and mine has nothing to do with either lol.

Todoroki’s pretty smart though he places after Bakugou in the mid terms. he also loves to read ! He’s also politically educated and actually had profound knowledge on the history of heroes and how and why he believe hero’s and villains came to be so.. surprisingly he is more philosophical than I would think. He doesn’t really talk about it or bring it up because if you have a good conversation with him and get him to open up it is always worth.

Food

Tbh to no surprise the food options were eclectic and varied. There was something for everyone! I had everything from traditional Japanese dishes such as ramen and sushi, to western and American-style dishes like pizza and burgers. I even had access to a variety of international cuisines like Indian, Chinese, and Korean.

One of my favorite places to get a good meal was the school cafeteria. Every day it was full of delicious options, from freshly-cooked dishes to the convenience of pre-packaged items. There were also lots of drinks and snacks available. On certain days, the cafeteria also served special meals such as curry or tonkatsu.

If I was looking for something a bit more fast-paced, there were several food stalls and restaurants around town. I could find an assortment of things like ramen, takoyaki, and okonomiyaki. There were also locations that offered more unique dishes such as Japanese-style hamburgers or omurice (Omelette Rice).

Although I often ate at restaurants, I also cooked meals in my dorm room. I could make simple dishes with ingredients from the local grocery store, like fried rice, or make something more complicated with ingredients from the nearby specialty grocery store. I even tried my hand (well with sato as well) at making dango, the traditional Japanese dessert.

Tbh No matter what type of food I was looking for, UA had it though. With all of the different options available, there was something to satisfy whatever cravings I had.

I also write and speak in English so don’t ask any language questions because I do not know

#law of assumption #manifesation #manifesting #reality shifting #shiftblr

[ghostoffuturespast]

Works In Progress 2023: A Cyberpunk 2077 Year In Review

I thought for a hot minute about doing one of those snazzy templates that’s been going around, but editing photos just ain’t my MO and rather than going by month I picked 12 favs that I’ve posted in 2023. Some of them were popular, some of them weren't. Overall, I think I did pretty good for just doing vanilla photomode on console.

You might be wondering why there's a picture of a sticky note. I don't remember when I started doing this, and I'm horribly inconsistent as you can see by the dates, but I'll jot down my word count for my wip chapter and then jot it down again when I remember to later.

I write slow. A lot of times I sit down to write and it feels like the wheels are spinning in place. My minutes and hours don't stretch very far, typically don't add up to much. But days, weeks, months. That's when I can at least measure the progress.

Fic: So It Goes 40/44 - 438,946 words

My V x River Ward and tinfoil hat conspiracy theory long fic. I've spent way more hours on this then I have on any of my VP.

I got tagged by @just-a-cybercroissant @therealnightcity and @wanderingaldecaldo to do some WIP Whenevers. I post my VP pretty regularly, so it’s always seemed silly to do work in progress posts for them, and I don’t know when I’ll have any new writing to share since in between work and the holidays, I haven’t had much time to sit down with anything since my last chapter update. And I've been feeling very... stingy, lately. Especially when it comes to mine and other people's writing. So take this WIP/Year In Review as my offering. Both these series, as am I, are all very much still works in progress. 

I confined my reflections for this year below the cut. If you don’t want to read my long-ass essays, you can admire the pictures, maybe check out my fic, or just move along and have yourself a lovely day.

We’ll start with the easy one.

VP

After at least a year of multiple playthroughs (I’ve played all the lifepaths, done all the endings), it only occurred to me at the beginning of this year to start taking VP. Part of the reason I never did before was because I didn’t realize it was a thing and then by the time I did, I figured I didn’t have much to offer. I play on PS5 and only have access to vanilla photomode, so seeing everyone else’s high-fidelity, ultra ray-tracing, modded, posed, full on virtual photo shoot photos, I was like there’s no way. (Not that I’m hating on PC modders, it’s just not everyone has access to mods or a PC capable of running the game, and I’m all for making art and creative endeavors accessible.) On top of that, all I’d ever heard from most other folks was how much vanilla photomode sucked. In the glamorous world of VP, I didn’t think there was any room for me.

But I started snapping pics anyway. And sure, there are a lot of limitations with vanilla photomode. But what that really translates to is opportunities to get creative. I am also a hoe for subverting people’s expectations, and very much believe when there’s a will, there’s a way.

Environmental and landscape shots were my first subjects before I started branching out into portraits and then capturing story moments. Through VP I found an entirely new way to enjoy a game that I’d already played a ridiculous number of times along with also finally being brave enough to share my V with other people too. I’d always worried about that before, if people would like her. Granted, I know Grandpa’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but whether you like her or not, I certainly think she’s made a name for herself over the past few months. Even if most people haven’t really gotten to know her the way I’d hoped. 

I’ve taken hundreds of photos this past year. Most of which I’ll never share. There’s a lot of flops, a lot of weird experiments, ones that didn’t quite turn out the way I’d hoped, but I’ve learned something from every single one of them. I know how to spot good lighting, frame shots to create optical illusions, get a very limited toolkit to work in my favor, parkoured on all of the things, and heck, I even figured out how to make Grandpa smooch other NPCs. I’ve done atmospheric, mundane, down right goofy, as well as things that most people probably thought weren’t fucking possible.

I can’t say how long I’ll keep doing this, I’m sure I’ll move on at some point, but for now I’m still enjoying myself. There's a lot to explore in this game and I just can’t stop digging Night City.

Now, for the more complicated thing.

Writing

So It Goes… My peace, my war, my greedy and most ravenous of ghosts.

I’m operating under the assumption that most people following me here probably haven't read my fic or aren’t all that interested in reading it to begin with. It’s fine. But you need to understand this fic, my writing, is the main thing that brought me here. This is also Grandpa V’s story. Most of you have met her, but unless you've been reading, most of you do not know her.

I wrote around 185,000 words and posted 10 chapters this year. 2022 was about 253,000 words and 30 chapters, along with several unrelated one shots. However, I don’t think I’ve done a single chapter this year that was less then 10k, and my longest managed to hit 27k. As of the last update I posted, the fic is currently sitting at around 439k words, 40 chapters, and still isn’t done.

I have four more chapters to write. I have written a metric shit ton of words. This is, by far, the longest and most intense creative project I’ve ever endeavored to complete.

When I started writing, I was expecting this fic to be around 100-150k. That seemed to be the average for most long fics. I did not plan on being an outlier. I'm not sure you can ever really plan for that, but I guess I enjoy subverting my own expectations too.

For those of you who are reading my fic, it is my sincerest hope that it shatters every expectation of where you think it’s going. It’s not a joke that I tagged my fic “#an ode to my tinfoil hat”. An ode it has turned out to be. I’ve been sitting on this theory for two years. I have told no one about it. I hope it sticks the landing and hits the way I want it to. I don't know if it will. But fuck, I just want to be done with it so I can move on with my life, take a break, and give myself the opportunity to make and focus on other things before I have to get back on the damn horse.

I wrote less this past year then I did in 2022. I had a lot of life changes, most of which were good, but with times of change come times of adjustment. Along with some realizations that maybe you don’t understand as much as you thought you did. Looking back, I’ve been in a state of unsettled, kuzushi, for a really long time. Which is not a good place to be. It’s how your ass ends up on the ground with a knee knocking out all your teeth. I thought I knew better. Thought I had enough practice to get away from it. But bad habits have good memories.

I think given the circumstances, I accomplished a lot with my writing this year. I don’t know if my writing is exactly where I want it to be. I doubt it every will be, but it’s evolved, grown, and I wrote a pretty hefty stack of words considering I started working full-time again, bought a house with my partner, moved, and have been dealing with the millions of other beans that life tends to throw one’s way. That being said, and for full disclosure, I’ve also been dealing with some of the worst cases of jealousy and envy I’ve had since I was a teenager. 

Frankly, it sucks. They walk with me every fucking where I go, hold my hands to whisper back all my doubts. Try to persuade me to my baser instincts, to be cruel and lash out. But that's not aikido. Luckily, I’m not 16 anymore so it’s at least been easier for me to identify the problem. Though I’m still coming up short in terms of actually being able to do anything about it, and will be for at least a few months more. 

Yeah, I keep talking about it because I don’t know how many people know that I've been feeling this way. And I’m tired of not talking about it in a room full of creatives, because yeah, I know I’m not the only one that feels this way. And not talking about it just makes all that pent up resentment worse for everyone.

Don’t get me wrong, I love writing. But with the way I work and think, it’s a slow, tedious, and incredibly time-consuming art. With how much my fic has snowballed over the course of writing, it’s left very little room for the other hobbies in my life. And as my fellow writers probably already know, writing is an incredibly insular craft. And unlike a picture or an image, which only requires a glance, reading a bunch of words requires time and commitment.

So, when you put yourself out there and share what you wrote, it’s a lonely feeling not knowing whether or not anyone connected with what you put on the page. Especially, when the people who do read aren’t compelled to voice anything and when the people you’d hope would read don’t. And then you're stuck in the dark, not knowing, because neither of us says a goddamn thing.

I started writing this fic prior to actually joining the CP2077 fandom. And I joined the fandom because I felt alone. I’ve been here a while now, albeit in a few different places, and that feeling still hasn’t gone away. I’m still trying to find camaraderie with my fellow writers and carve out something that kinda sort of resembles a home or a sense of community. I watch my peers around me as they seem to build that with each other, except me.

I’m envious of the things that people make and jealous of the relationships those have created and fostered between said people, because for the life of me, it’s been a struggle to cultivate that since I got here. I know it’s selfish, but I also don’t know what about me makes people so hesitant. There have been a handful of strangers that have shown up for me regularly, but as far as people I call friends in this fandom that have shown up and actually stuck around, I can only name one right now. (I know we're all busy. And I acknowledge my writing's not for everyone. I know maybe some of you are quiet, or shy, or probably a thousand other things. I get it. But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less. People will never know unless you say. Never know unless you take the time to interact or engage. Be brave. And that's true for a lot of things.)

The propensity is for the negative to outweigh the positive. I've got a lot of numbers on my fic, so you would think things would be fine, but at this point they just feel empty. They don't bring me any comfort or real satisfaction. And I hate feeling like the people I know don’t care and that most of you are just talking around me. That I’m some kind of annoyance not fit to interact with. Which may or may not be the case. I don’t know. Again, most of you have never said anything. And maybe I need to accept the fact that most of you never will.

But this is me trying to start conversation.

It’s really shitty, knowing that the thing I want the most is also the thing holding me back. I know how to work on it too, not that it’s any guarantee. The problem is I’m still writing and in a needy state of greed. And because I’m slow, I don’t have the time or the energy to be generous. I can only take right now. I can’t give. 

Relationships require both.

I can’t bring myself to read other people’s writing. I can’t comment, or like, or share if I haven’t read anything. I'm desperate for conversation, but I also don't have the time or assurance to facilitate it with other people right now. And for some reason people never seem to want to talk to me, especially when it comes to writing. I want to be part of conversations, talk deeply with other people. But I can’t speak right now, I'm not in a place to offer generosity without someone first giving it to me.

And generosity and grace is what we all need.

Four more chapters and I hope my ghosts will finally let me read in peace.

#cyberpunk 2077 #2023 year in review #year in review #virtual photography #writing #from the top #fic: so it goes #long post #i can't guarantee a safe space but i can guarantee a brave space #if anyone's been feeling similarly and wants to talk about it my dms are open #the door's always open

[moiraineology]

Hi ❤️ I was wondering, how did you like New Spring if you've finished reading it?

Personally I think it was a great choice to read it even before getting into the Eye of the World and I enjoyed all the details about Moiraine, Siuan and Lan's backgrounds/relationships. It made reading EotW even a little easier to me. The only complain I have is that it was too short 🥲

BTW do you have any favorite parts that you'd like to see as flashbacks on the show?! I would love to get a scene of Moiraine and Lan meeting for the first time or their first bonding!

Oh no! I am so, so sorry for not replying sooner. I really didn't mean to leave you hanging. I was excited to receive this question, and then neglected to respond for...two weeks? Oh boy. I apologize.

I did truly love New Spring. Ripped through it in a couple of days over my reading break (a highlight!). I actually totally agree with you re: reading order. I'm not particularly stringent about that in any case, but I say, if you most ardently adore enjoy a character, just dive in and read everything ever directly written about them :D

It has now been a while since I read it, but I think that most of all I appreciated these very flawed, smart, and funny characters it brought to life. I've mentioned this before in a post, but I'll say it again as many times as possible: I love (love! LOVE) Mo's social ineptitude. Or at least that she treats most social interactions like a dramatic performance, where she has to put on a certain face based on her training and her upbringing. I find the part of the book where she learns about power structures in the Blue Ajah, and the fact that she picks up on this complicated dance of deference and authority that someone (Eadyth?) must then explain verbally, to be incredibly moving. Who among us hasn't felt the temperature of an intricate web of social relations, not natural but cultural (or maybe a combination of the two, where difference is felt and ostracized accordingly, sometimes in a very insidious and subtle way) and been utterly confused, and wished that someone would just explain what the fuck is going on between people? All of this says a lot about her background: culture, class, and also her particular brand of neurosis. I find it very endearing and more relatable than I care to admit (outside of this space). Yeah, also I think she's autistic. I'm nd as all hell and I think so, so it must be true.

Also, I love that we get mean Mo. Impatient Mo. Stubborn, obstinate, and immature Mo. She really did grow up with Lan. I think that's gorgeous. These two are actually kids when they meet, and then it's just them for 20 years on the road, and they learn to be PEOPLE, and to not communicate, and to fulfil the roles that are required of them/all that their duty really entails/how to navigate the politics of their world. Just the two of them. I would kill for flashbacks to times after they initially bonded, and how they were able to grow so close after a rather sticky beginning. I think the answer lies in the empathy that is inherent in a bond. Lan sees Mo as a stubborn child, but when he finally feels the fear and doubt and uncertainty she struggles with every day... a child doesn't normally feel those things. She struggles with the weight of the responsibility that has suddenly been thrust upon her, a responsibility that, to her great credit, she approaches bravely and willingly. Mo, too, can't stand Lan at first (I personally think she is jealous of his gravitas and his calm: we know she wants to be that way, but can't yet. Not until she grows up a little more), but she will soon meet the man who has been raised from birth to be the king of a nation that no longer exists. And what that does to a person. And exactly why Lan must be the way that he is (and how much she can learn from him). Also, I actually cried laughing and just gleefully clapped and giggled when Mo was pranking Lan and her inner voice was just...so conniving and sneaky and clever. "He would meet the wasps in perfect health." I genuinely think it's the funniest line ever written (perhaps that says more about my dumb sense of humour than RJ's comedic ability, but to his credit, he is really fucking funny sometimes).

And I can't end my little rant without talking about Siuan. I so appreciated the chance to get to know this character, who is introduced so beautifully to us in the show at the height of her power. As someone who is more than a little bossy, strategic, and clever, and who is very accustomed to being in control of a room. I love seeing what that looks like in a young person. She has the confidence, personality, and work ethic, but not yet the experience to be an effective leader. However, she leads Moiraine. And Moiraine likes it and she lets her. Again, relatable. More than I care to admit outside of this space. I also am fascinated by the cultural and class differences between the two women. The qualities they share (curiosity, drive, ambition, and so, so much integrity) are almost outweighed by those differences (Siuan is measured where Mo is impulsive, Siuan is frugal where Mo spends lavishly, Siuan is irreverent and unconstrained by the expectations of her rank, while Mo is and has always been bound by them). It's cool to see how they change one another. And the ways in which they remain unchanged into adulthood. Right up until we meet them together in the show. Also I think it's really fucking cute that Moiraine wanted to sugar momma Siuan so bad that she tried to buy her a horse. Who?? among us?? hasn't lived that fantasy?? No? Just me? (I would love to sugar momma my baby girl, if only I had the means).

Will you tell me what you thought about it, too? I would love to hear all of your thoughts. What would you like to see explored in the show?

Thank you so much for your thoughtful asks. I love answering them, even when I take too long.

#wot book spoilers #moiraine damodred #siuan sanche #lan mandragoran #fishwives #siuanraine #wot on prime #moiraine x siuan #moiraine and lan #new spring spoilers #wot meta #i guess?

[greypetrel]

✨Self-Rec Tag Game ✨

Thank you very much @shivunin! ✨✨✨

Rules: Share five of your own fanworks (fic, art, etc.). Then, tag five more people to share the things they've made. e.g.: 1. Something you absolutely adore 2. Something that was challenging to create 3. Something that makes you laugh (or smile, if that fits more comfortably) 4. Something that surprised you (in how it turned out, how much other people liked it, etc.) 5. Something you want other people to see

Soooo... I'm actually one of those people who can't just tell you ONE favourite thing. If you ask me about my favourite movie, I'll shorten the list to ten and will cry because I left something I love outside. Oops, I guess.

And I also really love colour coordination. 🌈

1. Something I absolutely adore.

I don't absolutely adore any of my works ahahahahahahah.

Beside some self-deprecation, I'm still very please with this fanart of Aisling and Dorian looking outside the window.

I know you don't appreciate much Crossovers, Mo and way too many people around, but the chance to put together two things I love... I would never tackle fanfiction if I didn't have something mine to put it (that's why I started writing fic with Dragon Age, which is based on the "Create your own character" basic), so this was my chance at tackling Tolkien lore which I absolutely adore and has been part of my life ever since I was a little bean.

There's also a fic which is basically LOTR... But with Dragon Age Characters (taking advantage of the fact that in the book nothing much is seen of Mordor... I slipped everyone there and I promise it makes more sense x°D)

2. Something that was challenging to create

Everything concerning Raina, which you can now find in this convenient folder I'll fill little by little on AO3.

I... Accidentally tackled too many things that strikes close to home with her, and writing her is basically something similar to a therapy session. The current thing I'm working on is proving difficult.

But I'll say this official portrait of her, just for the fact that I tried a new way of colouring (thanks to @ndostairlyrium forever and ever for the tips and tricks) and everything was new and challenging. The amount of times I cursed myself for putting a background! xD

3. Something that makes you laugh

You see, Mo, I am very unable to choose just one thing. If you ask me what's my favourite movie, I can shorten my list to 10. I'll give you three.

The Bi Cullen series. I should do another one, I just have to finish it, but this is close to my heart. Because bi panic and science bros.

This little exploration in the Mythal Temple, full with very necessary Indiana Jones and Emperor's New Groove quotes.

And last but not least, the one and only Haunting Queen, Doris the Rage Demon who lives in Cullen and Aisling's stove and is deeply in love with Cullen... And also very jealous. It's jealousy, it's not Aisling that doesn't know how to cook.

4. Something that surprised you (in how it turned out, how much other people liked it, etc.)

Ok, for this I have 2:

Home Was Never on the Ground aka the Monster fic. It's my first attempt at fanfiction and the first prose I had written in YEARS. I thought of an anthology of moments missed in game, or expansions of scenes I liked. I am honestly surprised by the amount of hits it got and even if I see flaws, I like my baby.

One for the Road. Aka. Fenris/Lavellan 2 chapter fic. I wrote it as a divertissement, it ended up to be extra angsty... And I sincerely thought I had totally misinterpreted Fenris here. I remember being so nervous when posting it that I actually considered keeping it for myself. And instead, it was received well?

5. Something you want other people to see

On this I'm more sure! (well.)

My little joy is the DadWolf AU which you can find here. Basically, a Modern AU following the events of DA2 and Inquisition... With something changed.

Namely, Solas woke up 30 years before, and he and Varric were roommates. And they co-parent my Inquisitor, Aisling, and Dorian who are actually science bros. It's something that brings me joy in doing, there's nothing written as per yet save some prompts but it will be!

Also one fanart I'm very very attached to is this one which was done in collaboration with @ndostairlyrium (I drew it, she coloured it), and which now guards me from my wall when I work in my studio.

In case you all were still wondering yes, I'm wordy. I know it's a surprise.

I reckon that I forgot to tag, OOPS. @rosella-writes @oxygenforthewicked @cullenvhenan @cao-the-dreamer @transprincecaspian and for the rest I think everyone was already tagged...? Send me a word if you were not and would like to!

#self-rec tag game #tagged #dragon age fic #da fic #dragon age #da fanart #that's such a sweet thought ;_;

[lenteur]

random thoughts about tell me that you love me, episode seven

(the rest is under the cut because i'm worried about your eyes having to read ALL OF THAT and this post might contain spoilers)

Putting mo eun's confession at the start of this episode? They did this FOR ME :D

Biting my hand so hard right now because look at mo eun's change of expression when she finally realizes she has feelings for jin woo ❣️

If mo eun's confession doesn't win confession of the year award, i will riot!!! I think it's so cute how she's stumbling with her words, both spoken and signed. She's taking the first step and it's really courageous of her because she doesn't know if he will return her feelings and also she doesn't know what it's like to live with a deaf person. So yeah, I find it incredible that she was confident enough to know the only thing that matters is she likes him and she wants him to know that.

And jin woo's reaction! You can see how shaken he is. Just like he mentioned earlier, he's always been torn between wanting to be found and not wanting to be found. So, to have the person that has triggered such ambivalent feelings in him is like a big wave crashing down on him.

Add on top of that all the conversations he's had with his best friend and how jin woo always mentioned being scared of being in a relationship because he doesn't want to be a burden, he doesn't want his partner to sacrifice too much for him and his well-being. Jin woo has a hard time understanding that people are willing to love him no matter what. I can understand where he's coming from though because we all want some independence (at various degrees depending on the individual but still) so, as a hard of hearing person he knows he won't have as much independence as able-bodied people. He'll always need help and that's something difficult to process. I know I've said this enough time already in all my random thoughts about tell me that you love me posts but each episode brings us a new depiction of what it's like to be in jin woo's shoes when it comes to relationships so yeah I needed to write that down.

A feeling that hasn't left jin woo is guilt. He feels guilty because he's always had to rely on his friend and classmates and now he feels guilty because mo eun is making efforts to learn sign language for him when he can't speak her language. It's so sad to see that he's feeling this way because it's not his fault. He has accumulated years and years of guilt and feeling bad for others that now I don't think he's able to fully comprehend that he can still get into relationships despite him being hard of hearing. I'm just sad man

But then we have jin woo wanting to start anew and only do good things with mo eun. He wants to do things SHE likes and SHE wants to do. That's so thoughtful!

"Please don't be so considerate of me" Mo eun's behavior towards him might have added to the guilt jin woo has felt ever since they met each other. She's been so considerate and that has weighed jin woo down. He knows she didn't have any bad intentions but sometimes being too considerate or walking on eggshells around someone might make that person feel even worse than they originally felt. Important note: It's not because you're taking care of someone that you have to forget yourself. Don't get lost in taking care of other people. You should take care/think of yourself as well.

The sunrise was stunning 😍

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH THEY KISSED AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKNCFVEHBJ.HKFJ/.ZKJNE2HBAJFNCBNZ?

THE CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :3

Okay so we're starting eating breakfast/lunch at each other's place I see 😏😏😏

(Why do I sound like that annoying nosy friend?)

Girl stop interrupting him! He's trying to eat his watermelon in peace lol

THEY HELD HANDS!!!!

Ji yu running on the treadmill. I relate. You relate. He/she relates. We relate. They relate. Everybody relates </3

"She found me when i was hiding" AJSHGDFAZJKXKKJFHVGCBN I CAN'T

Seeing them get so close to each other and having all these little dates makes my heart beat a little bit faster than usual 💓 I'm so happy for them :(((

Just because we've had so many main couple scenes, I'm giving this episode a 9.5/10

The preview for the next episode makes me both curious and fearful. I want them to be happy together but I know they'll have to face obstacles on the way so yeah, I can't wait to see what happens next.

#i think the more their relationship will grow the more they will learn from and about each other #that's all i could hope for #the reason why i call these posts random thoughts is because i could make a 'deep dive' about a sentence/moment #and two minutes later commenting on how pretty something is (ie the scenery an outfit etc.) #if you see my comments becoming less and less understandable it's because i became more and more sleepy the further i got into the episode #random(al) thoughts #kdrama #tell me that you love me

[majaloveschris]

So I'm on team PR. But I do get why so many people are thinking its real because of the photo dump the other day. It's like all the fans said they weren't together throughout the year and now here they are everywhere during 2022, they proved the team PR people wrong.

But....and this is the thing that people have to understand this is the whole point of a PR relationship, it's designed to get you to believe it's real and its with some people its working...HW does arrange PR marriages too even involving the couple have kids. To me looking at everything that's occurred since that Portuguese article was posted late 2021 about them dating (when we didn't even know about her) I had my suspicions, especially when she miraculously appeared in Mass over NYE 2022, that really raised a red flag, then all the breadcrumbs from Chris and her, his friends, family etc. That atrocious pap walk and disney trip, the cringe articles, the scare video and now the photos it's just too much in your face for such a private guy. I don't know what agreement was or is in place or who's driving this along but its possibly the worst PR relationship I have witnessed, its embarrassing and uncomfortable to watch play out

I don't have an ounce of doubt there is any genuine affection or love there, its all a business transaction and they're actors after all, they can act as a couple, it looks bad and I can see in his eyes he looks unhappy (not that I feel sorry for him).

Unfortunately, I see this playing out for a lot longer yet. We won't get a break up story, not yet, not after the lovebirds posted their album to the world on Tuesday. I wouldn't be surprised if he carries this on out of spite just to prove the fans wrong as he knows we're expecting the break up because it's his MO that his relationships don't last beyond 18 months.

Sorry for the long post,just wanted to put my views down, but just wait, they will be more I guarantee it, there will be more videos, photos and articles, this is not going away yet, I'm sorry to say

I mean, I also understand on some level why the general public thinks this is real, because if you don't analyze the pictures, the backgrounds, and this whole thing, you just see two people spending time together and they say they are a couple. However, I still think that even if a stranger looked at them, they could clearly see how uncomfortable they were around each other.

I've also heard about PR relationships and even googled pictures of those who were rumored to be in them, but I don't think I've ever seen such a bad one like this. They look uncomfortable and weird together. At least other couples looked like they were friends, or at least like they were okay with spending time together, but here...

You could definitely be right; maybe this won't end as soon as we would like it to. But I find it so hard to imagine that this whole relationship would still be going on during Comic Con and Ghosted. But it's only something we want, not something we will surely get.

#majaloveschris #chris and alba pr #cevans-love

[cutiedwaekki]

GOING CRAZY

when both are so in love with each other that they go beyong the limits without knowing the other do the same

Or more like a yandere x yandere

Warning : this fic content weight gain content , mention of killing, obssessive behaviour

Honestly i'm not proud of this one , i love the idea but i didn't know how to turn it out so my bad if you don't like it ! Tell me your impressions in comment i'll be glad to hear it ^^

Btw check up my ao3 i'm now starting to post my fics also there :D

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Have you ever felt in love at least once in your life? In love to the point of wanting to give everything for that person? In love to the point of being able to commit the worst just to have that person look at you?

If so, you should understand Felix's feelings. He worked from home as a translator of English books and translated them into Korean to make them accessible to everyone.

Spending almost every day at his home allowed two important things:

Number one: he could stay in his pajamas or underpants all day long and get up at the time he wanted (he tried to defend the fact that he was not the typical gamer but unfortunately he checked all the boxes)

Number two: spend his days watching from the window of his living room his handsome and seductive neighbor Seo Changbin.

Let's face it, Felix had fallen under the charm of the brunette, he liked everything about him. His muscles giving him an impressive and tall build, his curly hair that he often hid under a cap or a bob, the little laugh he had when he teased someone. In short, he really liked everything about himself....

He even liked it a little too much ...

Let's just say that he sometimes did things that bordered on morality or even on legality just to observe him from afar or to get to know him better. He justified this mostly by shyness and his fear of approaching him as if following him around and threatening the least person he spoke to was simple shyness.

But until now he had never gone that far...

He had seen the brunette leave early this morning, leaving the blonde the opportunity to infiltrate his home with his material in hand. His goal? Enter his house and visit his house. He saw from far the warm light that emanated from the living room, sometimes he also saw his room but since he installed curtains he sees almost nothing so it was the opportunity to see what was missing right?

He had watched dozens of tutorials on youtube to learn how to pick a lock and had even bought the necessary adhesives!

- "Huh...why is it so complicated?! The videos showed that it was simple though" he cried before miraculously the door was unlocked allowing him access to the oldest house.

He slowly entered the room and looked at it with admiration as if it were a masterpiece. He knew that the poor brunette was a busy music producer and it showed in the look of her untidy living room, although compared to the house he had inherited from his parents, his was more like a pigsty than anything else. He chuckled as he decided to do the housework for himself, picking up the sheets of paper on the floor to organize them and put them on the coffee table. And then picking up the many food wrappers scattered throughout his living room. It's crazy how a gym rat like him could be addicted to junk food! But now that Felix thought about it, he was sure he had noticed that Changbin had recently put on a lot of weight, his hips were much wider and no talking aboit his butt that he kept staring for afar , enough to notice how he started to waddle with all those fat he was caring and although he was wearing oversized tops, the Australian could definitely make out a soft belly pushing against the fabric or his chest that no longer look like a muscled or tone one but more line a women B cup chest.

-"Oh my little dwaekki ~ you're only getting more beautiful by the day, I'm going to have to start taking care of you soon" he hummed before traveling to the equally messy kitchen to find more and more junk food, but at least the dishes were done "You're filling up like a little piggy, aren't you? No wonder you're getting fatso quickly" he added before chuckling and inspecting his fridge which although it contained, he even allowed himself to take a small box of strawberry milk which he sipped as he went upstairs with a feline walk.

He quickly came upon his room which he inspected from top to bottom without forgetting to take from his dirty laundry basket one of his sweaters whose smell he sniffed like his beloved. "It's like you're hugging me," Felixen added, hugging the piece of cloth to himself before walking over to his desk and finding a small black notebook that he decided to inspect out of curiosity. It was like a kind of diary except that here it listed the weight gain of the brunette which seemed quite voluntary. The first two pages were happily glued together so he couldn't read the beginning but the rest was still funny.

It kept daily records of the weight, measurements and calories consumed by the brunette, sometimes accompanied by a few photos of her bare chest to show the evolution (which he did not hesitate to take one or two for his future solitary pleasures). Ir was so cute to see how his tummy started to hang out from his pant , my god if he keep continues to read one more sentence from this notebook , Felix will definitly need some help down here.

So after closing the book a bit dazed , Felix hung around Changbin's place for a long time before going home proud of everything he had recovered from the brunette.

And if only he knew that during this time across the street someone had broken into his house, that someone had also cleaned his living room, nibbled on the few brownies on a plate in the kitchen table and waddled over to his bedroom to take a nap in his bed. Pretty similar, right?

Have you ever hurt someone for love? Hit a guy who was a little clingy with your crush? Or intoxicated the meal of that neighbor who was a little too intrusive in your crush's life?

If so then you'll understand Changbin'q feelings

He'd had this huge crush on Felix ever since the redhead moved in, ever since he rang his doorbell with a plate full of brownies to make a good impression on the neighborhood.

He loved everything about him. His angelic smile, his attire, his deep voice, his slim body. When he found out that he was translating books, he just checked out the books that Felix had translated, and when he was in the studio with Chan, he sometimes asked him to teach him English or Australian slang.

But one day he had made a great discovery... It was a day like any other, a thursday afternoon when Fleix had gone shopping, giving the brunette about 45 minutes to infiltrate the blond's garden and with a router with access to his internet history in order to discover if the little sunshine was as pure as he looked. He discovered a great passion for the group twice, tutorials to learn dances, makeup tutorials but especially a lot of videos around the content feederism and related to weight gain.

He smiled that day when he discovered that his beloved loved fat boys and that's when he thought that he might have a chance. For a few years since he had started to build muscle, he had been looking for a way not to be thin, he was advised to build muscle and that's what he did but on the other hand he liked to eat too much so that at 25 years old he had a body covered with both muscle and fat. Maybe if he stopped going to the gym and ate a little more, he would become beautiful in Felix's eyes?

That's when he decided to take a notebook and write down all his accomplishments. It's a pity that Felix didn't take the first pages when it was written in big letters "WEIGHT GAIN DIARY FOR SEDUCING FELIX ♡♡♡".

In fact, he hadn't even noticed the brunette lying on his bed as he seemed to fall into a semi-food coma after indulging earlier in bulgogi with his friends. He was so full he could barely stand, yet he continued to nibble on Felix's brownies, which were his second obsession after his sunshine. He didn't even notice the crumbs he was leaving...

And he didn't even bother to wake up until Felix returned...

Speaking of Felix, here he was coming in.

He was surprised to see his living room tidy when he was sure he hadn't touched anything. The surprising thing was the little crumbs of what appeared to be brownies that seemed to form a path to the floor.

So equipped with a knife to defend himself, Felix climbed calmly as he suddenly became stressed. As he approached, he heard a faint but loud noise as if someone was firing a trunk gun, still freaking out the blond. But once he entered his room his pressure was quickly relieved when he saw that it was only Changbin sleeping on his bed. The sounds were only him snoring softly. Despite this Felix could not contain his joy at the sight of this scene, his belly was exposed as it seemed the oldest one had outgrown his shirt.

- "So you're in love with me too? Oh Binnie you don't know how this fills me with joy" he whispered before caressing her cheek before kissing her and adding in a semi inaudible voice "I promise you that you won't run away from here" before giggling and wooing the brunette before going downstairs in the direction of the kitchen assuming that when he woke up, Changbin would be a little hungry.

And he was right, although before thinking about his appetite, which had made him gain such a big and wide belly that rested on his thick thighs, he had to realize that he was locked in Felix's house and at the sight of the noise and the delicious smell of chicken, the blond man had returned.

His heart suddenly began to beat wildly as he thought of a way to get out without alerting Felix. He had thought about going out the window but a quick glance at his stomach and ass made him realize that it was not a good option. But he had no other choice so he opened the window and was about to do so when the door of the room suddenly opened leaving Felix in a yellow apron with a very full tray in his arms.

-" Jagi what were you trying to do?" The blond man shouted in amusement, leaving a confused Changbin to face him.

- "J-Jagi?" he repeated, "What's wrong with that? Would you like me to call you something else? I also have, my love, sweetie, honey, Binnie, hyungie-" "No no Jagi is fine I'm just... confused" he cut off, standing by the now wide open window.

- "About what? I should be the one surprised to run into my hot neighbor sleeping in my bed! So either we play this scenario for a long time or you let me feed you all the good food I've prepared for you" Felix smiled widely letting all the love he carried at that moment for the brunette who had his heart beat so fast this time for the blond before aquiesser to sit on the bed as if he was bewitched by him.

-"Well, good dwaekki ~ good thing I got there in time, you could have been hurt really bad trying to get out you know? I think my window is way too small for you" the blond added with a pout as he took a piece of chicken and gave it to Changbin who didn't hesitate to bite and chew hapily. He was quite amused by his words, so it was the window that was too small and not him who was too fat with his 118 kilos of muscle but also definitly pure fat.

-"You're right, I could have missed a very good service by the best maid" he teased, making the main man concerned gape and blush and hide his blushing cheek with one hand while continuing to feed the brunette "Stop or I'll make the front door too small for you" he threatened in a tender voice, although deep down the two young men were not against the idea

Besides, the meal was done calmly and for the first time they talked as a normal conversation would be done when they met in the house of the other.

In the end, their obsession with each other had driven them into each other's arms and before they could even say it out loud, they were already owned by each other.

And then finally after a few years, they lived a perfect life as a couple, well definitely out of the norm but perfect for them. Felix was managing his work from home, the housekeeping and a husband who was too greedy to go around the house to find where his "adorable and precious Boki" had hidden his package of chocolate filled cakes.

In just three years, Changbin's weight had doubled dramatically, his whole body was covered with fat that hung and shook with every step he took. He waddled with every step he took, having to support the weight of his rear end, which was getting heavier every day, not to mention his gut, which made a good pillow or sofa for his beloved Felix.

But he had succeeded, he had made him too big for the front door, and then the day he saw him come out and turn to the side, He had not ceased to praise him for "letting himself get so fat" while the brunette only said in a romantic tone "I did it so that I wouldn't have any reason to stay away from you" when the main reason was that he couldn't resist his food, he was far too greedy for that.

With the years he knew how to be less violent with those who approached Felix but he remained nevertheless sticking to him while Felix allowed himself some acts of violence towards those who treated his Binnie badly so beware because Felix would be able to kill for the love of his Binnie!

#weight gain #my fics #pls i need more yandere wg content #my fic

[princesspastarave]

all i’m looking for (from you.)

if i have learned anything it’s that you do not need to put yourself in danger for “character development.” your life does not need to be ruined for you to grow and bleed. you can surround yourself with positive stability and still learn and feel deeper than you ever could in the familiarity of the chaos and that’s all i want you to do with me.

i am not here to hurt you but i also have bills to pay and am really fucking scared of the lengths i’ve had to go through to convince others of the safe space i can hold for them before so i do not have time to keep proving this to you. do NOT put me through your hell in attempts to get me to break myself or you “for your plot” I’M TIRED !!!!!!!

it’s easy for me to show you the past versions of myself because i want to get to know and care for as many versions of you as i can. i share my day so you’ll do the same. but it’s really hard for me to do that when you don’t give me much to work on. however i learned the lesson of if they want to go let them go YEARS ago so i promise if you can’t share any authentic space with me someone else will i don’t want you to worry about me.

if you say you need space i will do my best to give you that. i really like you which means i want you to get everything you’ve ever wanted but i’ve been in therapy since i was 15 years old and i work really hard physically/financially/mentally every day to pick up the mess i was trapped in for years.

if you want a crazy girl to hurt you or chase after you or a forever thing or some casual body i’m gonna say go get it !! they’re out there and i promise you you’ll find whatever you need

i’m rooting for you because before you are who i think you are you are or who i think you could be you’re who i know you are which is my friend and as your friend i’m here to support you at whatever stage you’re in :>

i don’t think anyone is ever asking too much i think they always ask the wrong people

an alcoholic of many years asking a fresh 20 year old who just had her first glass of wine to essentially be a sponsor / lifeline.

a no feelings idgaf type asking a raised-catholic only child diagnosed with giving af disorder to be a casual one of the girlies.

a bare minimum bummer asking a post on a platform watch us grow and make silly fancams / date vlogs for us to be hidden away on their rebound like a shameful little secret.

a jaded soul on their last love ready to settle down asking to build a forever life with a girl who moves wherever she finds love.

whoever you are wherever you go i’m always gonna think you are deserving of everything you ask for. but i’m not who you think you are or what i know i look like so if i don’t live up to your ideal i’m gonna let you go.

right now i’m in a place where i can always be a friend and a silly girl in your phone. i would love to “complete my rep era” as it were but being perceived in real life and as a physical present human being takes a lot out of me and i don’t know how to make it not but i really like you so i’m figuring it out i promise !

i like you so bad but i’m really scared and you can put two and two together don’t make me say why i have issues about my body being perceived and people raising their voice at me and being seen in real life out loud ok you are a big boy you are very smart and intuitive and have pisces placements like me you should know :(

please don’t take my silences or shaking or outbursts too personally i promise it’s not your fault and i’m always doing everything i can to stop it !!!!!

i want to let myself be okay. and i want you to feel with me at the end of the day. it can be anything. whether it’s anger or hurt or hope or love or loneliness, through the screen or in real life. it can be yours or mine or the story we make together. as safely as it is for both of us. if you let me i want to be right there for you and heal and feel and sit with whatever you think you’re going through alone. because i’m not allowed to ask for more. i learned the hard way if they want to go let them go. so if you want to go i’ll let you go. and should our time ever come to a halt i want us both to be safe and happy and healthy all the way through.

and that’s all i’m ever looking for from you.

#🥭 #ppl find it hard to believe i haven’t been asked this whole time #i have but it’s always been too soon or by the wrong person or in the wrong way #the problem isn’t finding a relo it’s finding the right kind #i will indirect and yap and cast all the little love spells but i will not initiate or ask anything first #you can though #you’re so sweet and salty i’m not gonna say no lol #🩸 #🍺 #🫚 #🗡️ #🩸🍺🫚🗡️ inspo but this is mostly for 🥭 #everyone else go away >:(

[ronance4everbrainrot]

Stranger things incorrect quote generator (feat. My new AU, +Max and then Max and her Moms)

Pt 8

Murray adopting Robin

Murray: Remember, Robin, don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Robin: I think I crossed that line when I got a date.

(well he just got roasted)

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Robin: *running towards Murray with open arms*

Murray: *moves out of the way*

Robin: Hey, why'd you move?!

Murray: I thought you were going to attack me.

Robin: I was going to hug you!

Murray: Why would you hug me?

Robin: WHY WOULD I ATTACK YOU!?

(Honestly the "why would you hug me part" is the best and also sad 😂😭)

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Robin: Thank you for not saying "I told you so."

Murray: When you’re as right as I am, you don’t have to say it.

(After Ronance started dating and Robin didn't believe him that Nancy liked her)

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Murray: Do you have any idea what you’re doing?

Robin: Why start now?

(when he tries to help her with the Nancy situatio lol)

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Robin: I'd roast you, but my dad says you can't burn trash.

Robin: *slow-mo walks out of the room*

(I just imagine her and Steve doing that old tik tok trend🤣)

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Robin, to Murray: You're not Mario. Lets get something fucking straight, you're Luigi at best.

(I don't even know how to comprehend this)

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Murray: When was the last time you cried?

Robin: Uh 15 minutes ago, why??

Murray: really? That recent?

Robin: Yeah *voice crack* is that a issue? *starts crying again*

(if you saw my recent post about this AU, you should have an idea of why she's crying)

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Murray: What’s the straightest thing you’ve ever done?

Robin: *sighs*

Robin: I killed a man.

(She finally is in this quote ✨)

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Murray: Pick a card, any card.

Robin: Fine.

Murray: Wait, that's my credit card!

Robin: You said any card.

(Ye Murray, you said any card)

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Murray: You believe me?

Robin: Murray, you’re the last good person on this planet. I‘d believe cartoon birds braided your hair this morning.

(This is so funny and wholesome. I love it, but it's also sad 😪)

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Murray: If I ever had a child, I imagine they would be a lot like you.

Robin: Aww, thanks—

Murray: Which is probably why I’ve never reproduced.

(Cute but also oof)

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Murray: I’ve only had Robin for a day and a half but if anything happened to them I would kill everyone in this room and then myself.

(now this. This is adorable)

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Robin: I made tea.

Murray: I don't want tea.

Robin: I didn't make you tea. This is my tea.

Murray: Then why did you tell me?

Robin: It's a conversation starter.

Murray: It's a horrible conversation starter.

Robin: Oh, is it? We're conversing. Checkmate.

(She would do that with everyone so they wouldn't just sit in silence)

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Robin: I sort of did something and I need some advice, but I don't want a lot of judgment and criticism.

Murray: And you came to me?

(Well you're her dad now, so yes)

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[+Max]

Murray: I hate you sometimes.

Robin: Well according to this picture Max drew of us holding hands that's not true.

Murray: Robin, you drew that.

Robin: It doesn't matter.

(She drew herself with her dad and her daughter 👍)

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Robin: Hey, Murray. Why did the chicken cross the road?

Murray: To get to the other side?

Robin: You were supposed to say “I dunno, why?“

Murray: Uh... fine. I don’t know. Why did it cross the road?

Robin: To get to the idiot’s house.

Murray: ...Ok?

Max: Hey, Murray. Knock knock.

Murray: No.

Max: You were supposed to say “who’s there?”

Murray: Fine... let’s get this over with. Who’s there?

Max: The chicken.

Murray:

Max:

Robin:

Murray: Listen here you little shits-

(He secretly loves them, but he hates it just as much)

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Max: How high are you?

Robin: Mm, I don’t know how to say it in feet.

Murray: No, they’re asking what drugs are you on.

Robin: Oh, antidepressants, why?

(She would definitely do that tik tok with that achievement thing and then "I don't take birth control, I'm a lesbian")

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*Something crashes*

Max: Shoot-

Robin: *running into the room in a panic* WHAT FELL?!

Murray: *walking by the room calmly* What died?

(panicked Mother, Calm Grandpa)

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Robin & Max: *accidentally set the kitchen on fire*

Robin: We need an adult!

Max: Robin, you are an adult!

Robin: We need an adultier adult! Get Murray!

(She is, but she isn't)

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Murray: When you work at lush and a customer comes in and bites the soap because they think it’s cheese... this happens way more frequently than you think.

Max: If you stopped literally presenting soap as deli food this wouldn't happen.

Murray: Who goes into a bath store and thinks something covered in glitter is cheese?

Robin: Who goes to the store and just takes a bite from the cheese?

(No, she got a point. I mean if it's a full on block of cheese and not those samples, than what the hell 😂 i mean I'd love to do that but I wouldn't)

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Murray: I have the sharpest memory here - name one time I forgot something!

Max: You left me and Robin in a Walmart parking lot at 2am a day ago.

Murray: I did that on purpose, try again.

(Grandpa and Granddaughter bonding✨)

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[Max and her Moms]

Nancy: *yawns*

Robin: Yeah, being that pretty must be tiring.

Nancy: Then you must be exhuasted.

Max: Will you two shut up? Some of us are lonely.

(well then go ask out El or Lucas)

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Robin: *gets a text* Oh! It’s Nance.

Max, excitedly: Did they get me the stuff?

Robin: Yeah, they say they got you the clown costume, the power drill, and 12 gallons of blood.

Max: Wow! Where’d they find 12 gallons of fake blood?

Robin: You wanted fake blood?

Max:

Robin: I’ll go call Nance.

(Nancy, a Vampire??👀)

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Nancy, about Robin: They're covered in blood again. Why is it they're always covered in blood?

Max: Well, it looks like it's their own blood this time.

(Robin, a werewolf??👀 Who is hurt🥺)

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Max: Nancy, I know you love Robin. I mean, we all do, they’re a very nice person and I respect them immensely.

Max: But I think they might be a fucking idiot.

(What did she do this time)

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Robin: Goddamn it, the printer broke while printing out Max's birthday invitations.

Nancy: Well, what are they supposed to say?

Robin: "Max's birthday".

Nancy: So, what do they say instead?

Robin: "Max’s bi".

Nancy:

Nancy: Works out either way.

(It does)

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Max: Hey, Joe said he's coming over this afternoon.

Robin: Cool.

Max: Do you know who Joe is?

Robin: JOE MAMA!

Nancy, not even looking up from their phone: Damn, that backfired.

(It did)

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Robin & Nancy: Surprise! We're having a baby!

Max: What?!

Robin & Nancy: *pull out adoption papers* It's you!

(I've finally got it.. unless it's in one of the others already I don't remember lol)

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Robin: They can't make me admit France exists, right? Legally, that's not allowed.

Robin: Sure, if France was REAL I'd say I liked it.

Robin: But who's to say.

Max: I think France isn't real.

Nancy: Max, you've been to France.

Max: And???

(I don't know what going on, but it involves France so I kept it)

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Max: When will Ted himself...finally show up to the talk?

Robin: The final boss.

Nancy: You guys know TEDtalks stands for technology, entertainment, and design talks, right?

Max: I will not let Ted hide behind these lies any longer!

(Honestly, they just make fun of her Dad)

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Nancy: Someone take me to art museums and make out with me.

Robin: But they said not to touch the masterpieces.

Nancy: Well somebody's got to pin the artwork to the wall.

Max, on a walkie talkie: This is Max, those idiots are fucking around in the East wing again.

(Sometimes she hates her Moms)

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Max: There was a motor close to where I am right now.

Nancy: A motor- a motorcycle?

Max: Oh sorry, a murder.

Robin: That escalated quickly.

(if they had phones and Max texted her Moms in S4 after Chrissy died)

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Max: I will find us a covered wagon and horses.

Max: If you two can manage to not kill each other while I'm gone.

Robin: Oh, please. We're not children.

*Max leaves*

Robin, casually: ...Eat shit and die.

Nancy, also casually: Yes, fuck you.

(enemies to lovers ✨)

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Robin: Guys, I didn’t memorize my lines!

Max: Just use your lack of common sense! Everyone knows the characters in plays are dumb as fuck!

*During the play*

Nancy: Hey! You finally made it! Did you get the donuts?

Robin: W-what’re donuts?

(not that dumb)

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Robin: I like to think of myself as a semi responsible adult here.

Max: Nancy is 70% of your impulse control and you know this Robin.

Nancy: I feel like Robin is the more responsible one of us two though.

Robin: We are both 70% of each others' impulse control.

Nancy: Just two lil beasts in pinwheel hats spinning on the merry-go-round at dangerous velocities, holding each other’s hands so the other doesn’t fall off.

(🥺)

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Nancy, at Max: Would you like to stay for dinner?

Robin, from the kitchen: Would you like to stay forever!?!

(Ronance lives together and Robin wants to adopt Max)

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Robin, to Max: Look at you! All cute and small! I could just eat you up!

Max: *proceeds to kick them in the shin and run away*

Nancy, walking past: Rule number 1, don't call Max cute or small.

(Big mistake, only El is allowed to say it)

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Max: *sneaking in through their window*

Robin: *turning in their chair and flicking the light one* You want to tell me where you've been all night?

Max: I was with Nancy?

Nancy: *turning in their chair* Wanna try again?

(dum dum duuuu)

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The next one is gonna have Dustin and his Dads (idk when I'm gonna post it tho)

(I love that the first letter is the same, Dustin and his Dads, Max and her Moms 😂)

Also Sapphic Senate while be in the next one.

#long post #robin buckley #murray bauman #Murray adopting Robin #max mayfield #nancy wheeler #ronance

[guildtree]

EXCEPT IT'S WEDNESDAY BECAUSE I DO WHAT I WANT

Anyways, this is meant to be an opportunity for writers to do a "behind the scenes" look at one of their fanfics, something I've wanted to do for a while. I'm choosing Left Behind, my story about Taimi and Marjory becoming friends while recovering from Balthazar, because not only is it my first posted fanfic and one I still love, but because GOOD LORD does it have a story behind it.

So here's the tale: I wrote this thing in October of 2022, shortly after essentially dropping out of college. COVID had knocked me flat on my ass both mentally and physically, so I was still recovering from a pretty severe health crisis/depressive episode and had very little to do with my life. I'd started writing fiction again after a few years of not doing it at all. And then my uncle calls me up and says, "Hey, I'm going to Europe for three weeks, I know you're not busy, would you like to catsit my two kittens while I'm gone? I'll pay you." Obviously, I jumped at the chance to cuddle cute fluffy animals and earn money for it. Easy, right?

WRONG. First off, these kittens were not tiny fluffballs, they were five-month-old former-stray terrors that hadn't been fixed yet and still had tons of nervous energy. They caused chaos whenever I wasn't watching. Second, it took all of half a week for them both to somehow get sick with gonorrhea (honestly, they'd probably had it before and the symptoms just hadn't shown up yet). If you've never had to deal with two hyperactive, aggressively cuddly kittens with diarrhea ... be thankful. It was a disaster. Between taking them to the vet, giving them medicine regularly, cleaning up after them, and making sure they didn't break anything important, I wound up over at my uncle's house way more than I'd expected. Eventually, I just started dragging my laptop along so I could sit on the couch and write for hours while keeping the little fuzzy troublemakers in the corner of my eye.

I'd had the idea for Left Behind for a while - ever since I'd heard that little achievement line where Taimi mentions that Marjory's been calling her a lot and, "it seems like she's kinda lonely." (Which like, Marjory? Lonely? What? But then it clicked for me that she's not only alone, she's alone and injured, and she's probably feeling frustrated about not being able to do anything, much like Taimi has felt over several arcs, and ohhhhh... I can make them friends.) But I'd also be deluding myself if I said that nothing about my situation while writing bled into my work. I mean, I certainly had a good perspective on how much medicine sucks, and how hard being a caretaker can be, especially when the people (or cats) you're taking care of aren't cooperating! There are references to Taimi and Marjory being up at ungodly hours because I was up at ungodly hours trying to find the very small, pitch-black kitten who was hiding in the house somewhere because she really did not want to take her medicine. Some of the more out-there comedy is definitely influenced by that sleep deprivation as well.

But on a more serious note: I think the reason why my first posted story is at it's core about recovery and finding camaraderie in that recovery is because those were the things I needed at the time too. I mentioned that in October I was just starting to come out of a nasty depressive episode? I do mean just starting. I didn't feel good, I merely felt not terrible, which was a significant improvement but still didn't feel like enough. I think, consciously or not, I put a lot of my own hopes, wants, and frustrations into these characters. Hidden in Marjory's rage at feeling useless are a lot of my own frustrations about how my depressed brain simply wouldn't let me do things sometimes. In Taimi's fear of being forgotten are my own anxieties about how in taking a break from college I'd ruined my whole future. And their entire story of healing, growing closer, and finally moving on was what I wanted for myself most at that moment: a way out, a new start, and people who could understand and help me through all of that.

I wrote that entire fic over the three weeks I was catsitting, fending off kittens who wanted to step on my keyboard and chew my laptop wires the whole time. I finished a few days before my uncle was due to come home from Europe, and I was so exhausted and annoyed at that point, I was just like, "You know what, FINE, this is pretty good, why don't I post it." So I did, and then I went to go give the cats their meds and fall asleep, and when I woke up the next day there were 11 comments waiting for me, and I learned that people actually might like my writing and what I had to say. And now here we are 8 months later, I'm in a much better place, I've got a little community of friends and people who like my stuff, and writing has been a valuable hobby that brings me accomplishment and happiness. All because of my uncle's sick kittens xD

This got long, but it was a story I've wanted to tell for a while, so as always: thank you for reading.

#my writing #trivia tuesday #on wednesday #behind-the-scenes #gw2 #guild wars 2 #taimi #marjory delaqua #gw2 fanfic #gw2 fanfiction #cw depression #cw mental health #cw illness

[lonesomedreamer]

SNW Liveblog: “Among the Lotus Eaters”

In which they’re mean to Spock for no reason, but Spock helps save the day anyway.

In its own way, this is scene just as staged/cheesy as anything in TOS…it’s also giving NBC Hannibal (not a compliment from me).

Look: I just don’t care about the supposedly corrupt bureaucracy and chain of command in Starfleet. When I watch Trek, I want to escape into a post-scarcity utopian society, and nuTrek can pry that out of my cold, dead hands!!!

Other things I don’t care about: Pike’s on-again, off-again relationship with Batel. Sorry. This show already has too many characters vying for screentime with too few episodes to develop them to be wasting time on this.

Love that Pike makes sure to put out the candles before he leaves…meanwhile his quarters has a huge, open fireplace that burns 24/7.

Not that everything they do on the Enterprise isn’t science-related, but… “science specialist”? Do you guys even WATCH the show??? Gold is for the command division, red is for operations/engineering, and BLUE IS FOR SCIENCE! At least pretend to give a shit about your show’s own universe. (Oh…wait…)

“Most of the time I fly the ship, which is cool, but can get boring.” Speaking for all the kids (and adults!) who have fantasized about flying the Enterprise for the last 55 years: kindly fuck off.

“Can’t you just say ‘two moons’?” / “We get it, Spock.” Spock is the science officer (and ALSO Vulcan). Get off his back!!! His SNW crewmates nitpick him worse than Bones ever did.

I don’t like Ortegas much—she’s still written like garbage, no fault of the actor—and her perpetual bitchiness towards Spock is NOT helping.

“Doctors love being tasked for a mission because of their combat skills.” Maybe you should’ve thought of that three episodes ago when you were LARPing Wolverine in slo-mo against the Klingons for like ten minutes, M’Benga…

This line might have been okay by itself—McCoy-esque, if you will—except they’ve been giving Spock shit for Doing His Damn Job for the entire episode so far.

I love Christine, and SNW!Christine has grown on me, but…she’s not even the Head Nurse on this show. Why is she running Sickbay solo? Am I supposed to believe that the Enterprise doesn’t staff more than a single doctor??

“As long as it stays isolated to Uhura” Since they don’t know the cause and therefore whether the condition is infectious, shouldn’t they at least isolate Uhura? (They experienced a similar outbreak just a few episodes ago!!!)

Speaking of Uhura, seems pretty shitty of the writers to have Uhura be the first one to lose her memory: TOS already did that. (If it’s an homage, it’s not a good one.)

I adore Ethan, but sometimes his line delivery is weirdly stilted.

:')

There’s literally no one else left on the Bridge apart from Spock and Ortegas? Okay…

“It’s not the Spock show!” but it should be.

Whatever’s affecting the rest of the crew should affect Spock differently and/or belatedly due to his different genetic code. Then again, the only thing these writers seem to know about Vulcans is that they talk about logic a lot.

Not the computer having a ghost-of-Mufasa moment with Ortegas… (“Remember who you are.”)

“I feel like I know how to do this. And I’m the only one who can.” * Put a pin in this.

“Abso-friggin’-lutely.” Awful.

I didn’t think you can block a phaser blast with like...a physical shield?? Especially one (presumably) set to kill???

Kirk was involved in a lot of fights, but watching the captain of the Enterprise repeatedly kick/pistol-whip a guy who’s already laying prone on the ground is…surreal and horrible.

Trek’s always been two parts morality play, one part scifi, but can I get the scientific part of the reveal again? Something about radiation from an asteroid?? It sounds kind of interesting—but they’re just gonna gloss over it, aren’t they??

Also, the Enterprise is designed to protect its crew against all kinds of radiation—we know that because it was built to fly in SPACE, which is radioactive as fuck. So what’s special about these asteroids (and if the planet’s atmosphere is too thick to be penetrated by the Enterprise’s scanners, why can’t it protect the planet from the radiation coming off the asteroids that surround it)??

Please stop showing Pike punching this guy over and over again. It’s actually upsetting, I can’t see the point, if there is one.

Pike: “[Rigel VII] shows us who we really are…” Pike 30 seconds earlier: kicking and punching an unarmed man who’s sprawled out, bleeding, on the floor Pike: “The lives of my crew mean everything to me.”

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Look…TOS could be really unsubtle and on-the-nose about its messaging. It still did it with so much more grace and flair than THIS. “He was right. Not having a past…it can be nice for a while.” “I know what you mean. But maybe some memories are worth the pain of others.” / “The story of your life, the details…they matter!” Wow, what do you guys think is this episode trying to say?!?

*“No one but you could pull this off.” In “Mirror Mirror,” a visibly nervous Uhura hesitates after Kirk issues his orders; he then reassures her by earnestly saying “You’re the only one who can do it.” It’s meaningful because it’s true—Uhura is the only one both with the necessary skills and whom Kirk can trust in the mirror universe. Here, it’s just Pike stroking the ego of an officer who’s already an arrogant smartass…plus, while Ortegas might be the best pilot on board, the episode repeatedly makes it clear that she is NOT the only one qualified to “fly the ship.”

“I don’t blame Spock. He’s still got a lot to learn.” Why the fuck would anyone blame Spock for anything that went down here?!! The man was trying to analyze the asteroids—the very same ones that robbed everyone of their memories—at the beginning of the episode when everyone was rolling their eyes and saying “not now, Spock,” and look where it fucking got them!

And in the very next line, we learn that Spock came up with the solution that SAVED THE SHIP/CREW.

“It feels logical to me.” This is the kind of shit y’all should be angry about re: Spock, not him smooching Christine. It FEELS logical. Retch.

I know I sound really critical here, but I actually found this one a lot easier to watch (almost) straight-through than some of the previous episodes, i.e., without having to stop and scream in frustration. It was less mundane and plodding than the previous one (and left SNW!Kirk behind, thank God). That said, I did find myself tempted to fast-forward through some of the scenes on Rigel VII, and I did skip around during the Pike/Batel scenes. I also saw a lot of comments that this episode is very TOS...I guess so? Imo the resemblance is surface-level only, though.

The Good: Hey, they're on a STRANGE NEW-(to-the-viewer) WORLD! Imagine that! — La'an's costume and the way she's styled for the away mission. — Boring subplot aside, Batel also looks really nice. — The vibe, planetside, is trying to be like TOS. Gold star for effort? — A few funny lines. — Ethan gets a lot of flattering shots in this episode. :3

The Bad: A lot of time wasted between Ortegas' repeated “I fly the ship” mantra (both early and later on) and the Pike/Batel scenes that bookend the episode. — Almost everyone being critical of what Spock says and how he says it; it borders on unprofessional and mean and is ESPECIALLY bad since Spock then uses science to restore their memories (off-screen, of course). — Making Uhura the first one to get amnesia. — Failing to develop Ortegas at all in what I assume is supposed to be an “Ortegas episode.” — Christine's hair. My poor girl! — Spock forgets how to READ?!?? (I missed this while I was watching because it's just Too Stupid for me to believe they actually went there.) — Gratuitous violence from Pike that seemed to serve no thematic or symbolic purpose.

There better be Spockstine in the next one, because without it, Ethan’s face is still worth it…barely, though.

#i think i had more to say but then I just ran out of steam lol #this episode was better than the kirk one ('kirk'... ''''kirk''''...) #but idk not by a huge margin #luth liveblogs snw

[b00inazkaban]

Hello!! Could I please get a matchup? (I am following would just prefer to remain anonymous <33)

Fandom: Stranger Things or Harry Potter (preferable marauders but idm) whatever one you think fits best!!

I dress in a cottagecore and/or chaotic academia style depending on the weather and where I’m going, my favourite item of clothing is my Anaheim Ducks hoodie, I wear it even in the boiling sun

I’m not not shy?? But I’m not very confident. I’m quite insecure about how I look so I’m quite reserved unless I’m with my friends who I literally never shut up when I’m with, backstage one of my friends told me “you don’t always have to be talking u know” while laughing, I like to think I give off a sweet approachable vibe. My friend told me I give off Chaotic Neutral vibes if that helps, I really like dragons. I think they’re very cool.

I play D&D!! I play as an Eleven Bard and I adore her, never shut up about her ever my poor friends are sick to death of hearing abt Willow. I love the ninja turtles. Like I absolutely adore them, my favourite is Donatello, I read comics and books. My favourite book is The Perks of Being a Wallflower, I collect crystals, Funko Pops, posters, stuffed animals, books and D&D dice (I have 13 sets and only started playing in February) I cant sleep without a stuffed animal and cannot sleep unless there’s a light on in the room. I’m AFAB but use He/It pronouns <33

A character from Stranger things I defo wouldn’t want to be shipped with would possible be Eddie and Harry Potter Tom Riddle

TYSM!! <33

MatchUp! :)

I match you up with Remus Lupin for marauders era!

(I hope you enjoy!!!)

☆ I think he doesn't care too much about style but he likes cottagecore

☆ I think your personality's match up well. I think he'd try to help with your confidence as well because he's that kind of man

☆ I think that Remus would either already play DnD or he would he into DnD because you like it and you play it

☆ H love reading all the time that's why he does in his when he has nothing to do mos of the time, I think he likes more older books not as much comic books bu you could probably get him into comics by talk to him about them

☆ I don't think he will have any problem with that you having stuffed animals or having a light on while you sleep. I think he would buy you stuffed animals on the week ends when he's either not working or the weekend trip to Hogsmeade.

(Also anyone would like to remain anonymous you could just DM me so I could let you know when I've posted your match up, an if you still wanna remain anonymous that's fine)

[sword-dad-fukuzawa]

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#5

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551 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

#4

i dunno, there’s something about la signora coming to love snezhnaya the way she couldn’t love mondstadt after rostam died for it. something about her hellfire butterfly journeying all the way across the sea just so some part of her could go home. something about her comrades calling her “rosalyne”

603 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#3

Alright, let's talk vampires.

I think the question currently on everyone's mind is "How the fuck did they get Chuuya?" He's one of those characters that seem borderline invincible. When has anyone ever really been able to touch him? Even Shibusawa's magic bullshit fog in Dead Apple couldn't affect Chuuya, so how did Fyodor manage it?

My current theory is that the clue is his clothes.

Akutagawa gets an outfit change in the Jouno gets hatrecimed chapter, sure, but that makes sense considering he was wandering around in a torn up shirt and the vampire epidemic was a stealth takeover. The chapter where the Black Lizard gets bitten basically shows the vampire MO: one member of a squad gets bitten by someone they trusted (Higuchi by Akutagawa) and then goes to infect the rest of their squad, who is taken by surprise. Absolutely no one expects a member of their elite assassination unit to be a vampire, obviously.

And it seems that the PM operates in squads, which presumably makes the communication between squads kinda...difficult. This is great for a black ops organization like the PM because it makes information warfare that much more difficult, and terrible if there's a stealth enemy taking out entire units at a time.

However, at some point, news of the outbreak is going to make its way up the chain of command. It only takes one guy making it to the phone.

But if you were Grandpa Warcrimes attempting to get rid of a powerful enemy, this is the opposite of what you want. What you want to do is take out the most powerful players first--infect the top of the chain of command, because they're the only ones with the knowledge, authority, and communication ability to fight back against the vampires. A Port Mafia redshirt can't quarantine squads or distribute the knowledge that there even is an outbreak, much less figure out a way to defend themselves without, you know, murdering their squadmate.

What you really want is to infect Mori, Chuuya, and Kouyou: the three executives (and any others that we haven't been shown yet). Kouyou's fate is currently unknown, so let's talk Mori first.

As of that chapter where he gets Tachihara to fight Fukuchi, he's fine and uninfected. I would absolutely speculate as to his plans and motives if he wasn't, you know, playing 5D chess at all times. But if I were Mori and my plan to have Tachihara stab Fukuchi failed, I would take my executives and hole up in a bunker somewhere--where I could presumably issue orders to what PM operatives were left. But I'm not sure what other moves this man has left. Pre-BSD98 I would have said he's looking to play the Chuuya card, but, well.

And that brings us to the fandom's favorite alcoholic. This motherfucker disappears for three years of BSD updates and shows up wearing an updated, less campy version of his Fifteen outfit, looking like he's caught Akutagawa's undead strain of rabies. Why isn't he wearing his fancy gangster outfit and how did the vampires get him?

My thought? Fukuchi got him first.

Before news of the vampire outbreak got to the upper brass, before anyone really knew that the vampires are a thing--hell, maybe even before Higuchi got infected. Chuuya is the PM's ace-in-the-hole, the one you want to take out of commission before launching a coordinated biological attack on the rest of the organization. Do you want your plan to succeed? Yes? Then you need Chuuya out of the way.

This handily answers the question of "sir where the fuck have you been," by the way. "Being a vampire" is a pretty good excuse.

He's not in his usual snazzy outfit. This suggests they took him out while he wasn't on duty. Maybe he was going home for the day, or it was a weekend and he was shopping for groceries. Maybe he was just clocking in and hadn't changed yet. We know Akutagawa doesn't wear his dramatic cravat-and-coat ensemble 24/7 and wears a tracksuit when he's not on the clock, so Chuuya having an updated version of his teenage outfit makes sense.

Of course, there's the possibility that Harukawa just wanted to change things up a little and I am, as per the usual, overanalyzing. But think about it--it's a stupid idea to try and bite Chuuya while he's on the job. First of all, you would need to know where he is, which probably changes daily. But if you stalked him for long enough, you would know what his usual hours are, and where he goes after work.

Secondly, he's going to be on edge while he's working. You do not want Chuuya "My Reflexes are Good Enough to Stop Bullets" Nakahara to be alert and aware when you're trying to get within neck-biting distance. He's going to have his guard down if he's in his civvies, walking home.

Thirdly, if you get him while he's off duty?

No witnesses.

And then you can take over the rest of the PM with your funky vampire soldiers in peace, bar Kouyou and Mori. And Kajii. Isn't it funny that we don't know what the lemon guy is doing?

TLDR, Chuuya was probably one of the first people to get infected and they got him while he was off duty.

635 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

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this takes the cake for my favorite fyodor panel ever.

1,030 notes - Posted May 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Rereading Scum Villain and there’s a part where after SQQ shoves LBH into the Endless Abyss, (and lemme tell you, that scene still hurts) he comments on how everyone thinks he’s mourning his favorite disciple. And in his head he corrects them: he’s not mourning Binghe. He knows Binghe can’t die, the narrative won’t let him (and isn’t that a fun concept to play with). He’s mourning white lotus Binghe. He’s mourning the disciple who smiled easily and shone like the sun. He’s mourning that child’s innocence and naïveté and brilliant, blinding trust, and damn if that doesn’t hit like a truck.

1,089 notes - Posted June 11, 2022

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