#im just so goddamn tired

[angelboybreakdowns]

im so tired

#its exhausting living here #im the bad guy in every situation #every time i dont accomodate her stupid bullshit whims im evil and creating conflict #dean you arent allowed to get lunch for yourself bc she wants to do a baking project &youre too Disgusting to be in the same room as her fo #*food #dean you arent allowed to listen to music out loud in your room but she can play her music in the living room while you have a migraine #dean you have to ask her what food she wants from town bc she doesnt feel like texting mom herself #dean you have to stop laughing because she thinks your laugh is annoying #dean you arent allowed to eat the bread that was bought for you because she decided she wanted it #dean you arent allowed to wear the one piece of mens clothing youve ever gotten to buy apart from plaid shirts bc she thinks youre too fat #dean you arent allowed to correct her when she says things about you that are objectively untrue #dean she wants to hang out in the living room go back to your room so she doesnt have to be around you #dean she wants a book for english class you have to give her one of yours #dean you arent allowed to be angry at her for ripping the cover off one of your favorite books & nrver apologizing that was years ago #dean you arent allowed to make plans with your friends this weekend bc she might want to hang out w her friends & wants to keep moms schedul #schedule open to drive her #dean you arent allowed to eat until she serves herself #dean if youre making food & she refuses to eat bc you were in the kitchen thats your fault #dean how dare you say her hair looks like sam winchesters #dean you cant be angry when she calls you fat & ugly & disgusting & tells you to kill yourself you shouldnt let it get to you #sui mention #dean you cant get new pants bc she wants to buy this dress that she’ll never wear #dean its not a big deal when she misgenders you she waa just joking #dean shes not ableist bc youre the only autistic person she thinks is faking it for attention #im just so goddamn tired

[luxwing]

Ough

I'm so tired of so many things

And mad at myself for not doing more with my life while also feeling like I'm literally unable to just fucking exist in this world

And sad that I can't do more about everything

Fuckin shit shack man

#this is a personal post therefore no you may not reblog #ive been beating myself up a lot recently over my life situation and theres literally fuck all i can do #im just so goddamn tired

[chellyfishing]

I think im just done with gender discourse tm. patriarchy is real. it hurts everyone. it hurts people who aren’t cishet men more, but it still hurts people who are cishet men. we should talk about how patriarchy hurts men, but insisting they be centered in the conversation is part of patriarchy. everyone is lonely. everyone is disconnected. everyone is struggling with mental health. it’s not women’s fault. it’s not feminism’s fault. our world just sucks. saying all men are evil is gender essentialism and part of the problem. saying that white cishet men have often unexamined privilege isn’t misandry. anti-trans and anti-queer movements are part of patriarchy and it doesn’t matter if you dress it up as feminism because it’s not. feminism means equality. feminism is intersectional. race is a component. disability is a component. none of us is free till all of us are free. i’m tired of being told i’m too mean and not mean enough. i just want to live my life with my friends.

#deep thoughts #i just don’t even know what to blacklist at this point #im just so goddamn tired

[queeranddepraved]

😔

#im so tired of these bad nights #tired of feeling so awful all the time #im tired of fighting for a life i dont want #im just so goddamn tired #i knew tonight would turn out this way...

[babyboybuckley]

Haha it's happened again the other day when I got home from work it was super windy and as I was eating dinner I noticed my blinds banging a lot, I got up and checked and my window was about 15cm open. I've never opened that window ever, so someone tried to break into my apartment. I think I'm cursed. This is the 5th break in or attempt I've had in the last 3 years, all across different properties. I'm honestly not even scared any more I'm just so fucking used to it. God next building I move to better have security entrance fucking hell

#IM ON THE SECOND FLOOR #FUCK OFF #about me #my stuff #im just so goddamn tired #of being afraid #of my own fucking house

[why-the-heck-not]

Trying to listen to podcast to calm down to sleep -> loud as fuck ad. Trying to check something quick from a youtube tutorial -> first gotta watch 2x 30 second unskippable ads. Trying to go to a website -> 2 popups and an ad video automatically start to play. Trying to listen to the radio while driving -> 7 minutes of uninterrupted ad time. Every single free app with those shitty game ads with the stupid annoying ass king. I’m tired !!! I never wanna buy anything ever again !!!!!!!

#watched youtube and skipped the ’’this video is sponsores by’’ only to get hit with 2 30sec unskippable ads and I just deleted the youtube #app from my phone with pure rage I’m fucking tired of ads everywhere all the good goddamn time #nYx PLuMpIng GLoss pLumP yOurSeLf Up BabY go fucking die #(also im tired so im unreasonably mad at every minor thing rn but like this has been the sentiment for months) #(should’ve gone for that walk I was thinking abt would’ve been much calmer) #(bc now rage deleted all the ''fun''' apps from my phone it's now just the essentials in there (tho did keep podcasts & Spotify bc those I #refuse to give up) like idk this better stick I want phone screen time of 1-2h per day) #april 2024 #2024

[whysopasta]

a mildly out-of-context comic from my au

[ > ] / [> (digital alt)]

#was not planning on this being this long #or being something that i even post #i was just trying to get an idea down but then it turned into a Thing #whysopasta art #whysopasta otherworld au #creepypasta #marble hornets #tim wright #eyeless jack #comic #fan art #sketch #sketchbook #angst #? #i dont actually know what constitutes angst #mh #was fighting for my goddamn life trying to get this uploaded adkjflksadjf but i DID IT #YAYYY (imagine the last pic of tim w his head in his hands but theres party poppers and confetti all over it) #im so tired

[naamahdarling]

I'm about to hit a really rough patch, since my psych is adjusting my dose of something and it is load-bearing but also will require a PA for a controlled substance, so who knows how long that will take, and in the meantime, I will have nothing. I'm going to be restless and bored and depressed for anything from a few days to a whole month. I don't even get to know how long.

My boyfriend is in the same boat, just more indefinitely, as his insurance has REEEALLY fucked things up and his clinic is...not hostile, but definitely unhelpful. The pharmacy, which used to be really good, has gone downhill recently. So we have to prompt all three to do their jobs as each step is completed and sent along. Multiple times, since insurance keeps fucking up. As a result, he is acutely miserable and unable to do much of anything, and we don't know when that will end.

I'm...having a hard time with this. Facing down an uncertain length of time with diminished support from both sides and unable to help my boyfriend through the same issues. It's really painful, I miss doing the fun things that made life marginally more tolerable, and I don't have much going on that I am enjoying. I'm riding a temporary hyperfixation that is winding down, and once it's gone, I'm at the mercy of hoping another one comes along. This sucks.

I hate. I tried to qualify that statement but I just can't boil it down. I just...hate.

#im honestly just so tired of living with this while also living under the bootheel of this country's goddamn obsession #with making life miserable for disabled people #i

[scattered-winter]

there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.

#hi sorry i just rewatched the lord of the rings trilogy and im in A State #its just. the concept of leaving your home with your 3 friends to go on a quest for something you don't understand. #you're all plucky and full of life and hope. #and then you're beaten down and nearly killed and you don't know if anyone's still alive or if you're the last of your friends left. #and you suffer. oh do you suffer. #and when the battle's over and it's time to come home you don't recognize the person you were when you left. #you're too traumatized and haunted by everything you've seen; everything you've suffered; everything you've done to survive #and you're a ghost in your own home because nobody from your hometown can understand. #and it's so painful and you're so so tired that when you have a chance to move on to leave your friends behind #for the sake of getting some goddamn peace ... #well what else can you do but take it? #im just oughoughoughoughough #this applies to both frodo and bilbo i think #the dichotomy of the scene where bilbo is Leaving the shire (running and shouting for joy because he's going on an ADVENTURE!) #and when he returns (beaten down and grieving and lost. a stranger in his own home.) #literally makes me gnawwww #im feeling some kinda WAY #winter speaks #tropes #on knights #<- rich inner world

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

NOOOOO I FUCKING DROPPED MY LAPTOP & NOW THE SCREEN FADES INTO DARKNESS ON THE SIDES-

#i am. so tired lmao #im totally keeping it together rn. not at all despairing #its always something.... #and today of all days... smfh #i mean at least the screen is fully functional #the displays just Fucked #thats gonna be hell when writing in my docs #technically i can adjust to anything but oh my GOD AGH #its always!!! goddamn!!! something!!! huh! #took my laptop too deep into the minecraft caves & now its got a vignette #absolutely unprompted #for a split second i thought it was gonna be fine.... #i opened it and it was working... no visible problems... then i unlocked it and BOOM #devastation... no breathing... this is my chocolate bar...

[egg-on-a-legg]

dont make me tap the sign [sign that reads no one in 2001 a space odyssey was a villain everyone was acting under flawed information, assumption, and/or orders and this was a tragedy that could have easily been avoided had it not been tied up in bureaucratic red tape]

#2001 a space odyssey #2001 aso #hal 9000 #david bowman #dave bowman #frank poole #hal aso #dave aso #frank aso #honestly fuck the movie for being so goddamned poorly written that it actively fucking guts the main themes of the story #i love the movie visually #but god it so utterly fails from both a storytelling and thematic standpoint #sorry for being so vitriolic im just #im so so tired man

[spiderwarden]

If Larian takes away the breakup argument before I even get a chance to explain why it’s IC, because the shits can’t handle bad press, I’m going to be very mad.

Heaven forbid the woman with a lot of emotional issues isn’t sunshine and rainbows like people want, and will snap at your character the moment things aren’t going right because she’s projecting on Dark Urge for so many reasons and already has an unhealthy attachment to them right away and so many other reasons. (And YES it’s in character.)

There is no realistic way that we can know what the writers have in mind. People make fun of being able to kiss her after, but who knows it might be just a couples fight we don’t know. None of us work for Larian on this blasted website or know Emma Gregory. And it’s too early to tell in terms of this because they’re literally FINALLY putting in previously inaccessible scenes and it’s a slow process. We might not even have the full picture yet, we don’t know.

#[ 🕷️ ] —— out of character #negativity / #rant / #[ this is a genuine rant I am so tired of seeing the negativity all over in my feeds non-rp related ] #[ it’s not ooc god forbid she’s not a child she’s not an indecisive 20 year old ] #[ but lar*an can’t handle bad press and if they take it away before we can see the full vision im gonna be mad ] #[ there’s literally nothing I can personally do but goddamn I will rage and bitch about it ] #[ IF MY NUANCE IS TAKEN AWAY IM KEEPING THE DAMN ARGUMENT-BREAK UP SNAP ON THIS BLOG ] #[ just be mad about her bugs goddamn ]

[princeinsomniavoid]

For the love of fuck please make more gender neutral/masc x reader head canons/fics please I'm fucking tired of seeing like 5 million fem/afab fics when there's little to no gn/amab/masc content for my f/os im fucking starving over here for the love of god! :]

#void's immortal musings #x reader #Please ive had enough of straight cis women writers #Trans women this does not mean you #Keep it up queens <3 #im so tired #I just want one (1) decent Simon “Ghost” Riley fic #It doesnt even need to be masc ill settle for gender neutral #Just the bare minimum here people #Please make your fics more accessable for transmascs and nonbinary people im on my fucking knees #Also PLEASE fucking tag fem reader in the tags for your fic if you're not gonna put it at the start of the post #Im sick and goddamn fucking tired of finding a seemingly gn alligned smut fic and then getting jumpscared by fem described anatomy #The spike of dysphoria it gives me is unreal #Anyways #This has been a PSA please be more inclusive

[toaster-fire-art]

been drawing an obscene amount of these two as school eats me alive but hey! I got a job on my uni campus so I am so happy I get to quit my miserable one. This is now my little treat in celebration.

#my art #toasterfireart #my oc #my ocs <3 #art for a novel that doesn't exist yet #i want to write so bad... #quit your job join my emo band #im so tired <3 #images that make my friends question my well being #don't pay attention to their title #i can explain #sometimes you just have to get obssessed with your own characters #not the main characters #the villians #i love my antagonists wym #obsessed with them #poor valentine he has to put up with them #pov your lackies make out every goddamn second #what did I tage them as before #talen thornhill #thallen amaranth #talen and thallen are like my bbg that are just so mentally ill #valentine foxglove #the song on there is entomed by deftones #dont judge me i #ok you can #tw blood #tw scars

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

the way izzy was received by this fandom rlly is the worst combo of how fans responded to kylo ren and how fans responded to, like, tyler durden or walter white.

anything i could say comparing izzy fans and kylo fans was already said in this fucking incredible post by @chuplayswithfire. but basically: izzy is a huge cunt to everyone in this show but fans take him at his word when he talks about being hardworking and competent, they minimize and excuse his actions and act like he's an innocent traumatized baby, and they focus on him, a shitty white antagonist, instead of any of the other interesting characters of color they could be paying attention to

but imo the thing that rlly makes a difference between izzy and kylo, and the thing that makes me compare him to those other two white dudes i mentioned above, is that unlike the movies kylo ren is in, ofmd is actually well-written

the first movie in the star wars sequel trilogy was pitched, written, filmed, and literally released with no ending for the trilogy in mind. the writing for the next movies was adjusted based on fan reactions, and major plot points were decided by studio executives deciding which events would make the movie more profitable. i should not have to explain to you that this is a terrible way to write a movie series. or a television series. or literally any kind of fucking story in the world.

our flag means death, or what we have of it so far, is not that. there's fully developed characters with given realistic motivations, instead of one-dimensional props that are jerked around by a constant tug-of-war between writers, directors, and studio executives. there are narrative plot points that are woven expertly throughout the story, not hints of storylines that are completely forgotten about by the next franchise, or storylines that were finished that are getting dug up again. there's a central theme to ofmd, unlike the new star wars movies, where the theme seems to be "how can we milk this fucking franchise for all it's worth." there's no goddamn queerbaiting

i'll admit that i've never actually seen breaking bad, and everything i know about it i've learned via tumblr osmosis. but from what i can tell, it's actually a very well-written show, and the whole point of the show is that walter white is the epitome of entitled and abusive white man who thinks he's super tough and badass and that everyone should listen to him and do whatever he tells them to do (lmao, sound familiar?). he ruins his life and the lives of everyone around him and idk he might die in the end. anyway dont do drugs.

fight club i have seen, and i can confirm that this is a fantastic movie that features, you guessed it, an arrogant white guy who represents the classic violent male power fantasy. the narrator, deeply depressed because he's a beta male, watches jealously from the sidelines as tyler durden starts seeking violence, first from just meeting up with random guys for consensual beatdowns, but it escalates as more and more men start joining the fight club (wow! the title of the movie!) until the club morphs into a terrorist group. also if you haven't seen it there's a Big Plot Twist that i haven't mentioned and it's pretty good. love that movie.

anyway the point is that both of those men are very obviously. shitty fucking guys. classic macho men (even tho tyler durden's fashion sense is fantastically fruity, for some reason) who crave power over others and respect in the form of fear. the whole point of their fucking characters is that in any generic action movie, they would be the heroes

and so many fans just. completely fucking miss this. there are hoards of dudebro fan guys who relate to these characters and go "wow, he's just like me!" and absolutely do not get the point of the thing they're watching. it is fucking baffling to see

anyway that's izzy stans!! an truly groundbreaking combo of your classic female fans who woobify evil white men and classic male fans who miss the entire point of characters who are written to subvert the expectations of what kind of role a character like izzy hands, walter white, or tyler durden would be expected to play!!!!! izzy hands is written to be an antagonist and the personification of toxic masculinity that ed is trying to escape from, and yet people are acting like he's the show's third protagonist.

because izzy would be a protagonist, in a different and much shittier story. and even though we all watched the same show where he very clearly is not the protagonist, people are applying that role to izzy and not actually looking at what role he plays in this show.

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd meta #izzy hands #dizzy izzy #obligatory not all izzy fans disclaimer #if this post is in the izcourse tag no it isnt u just dont know how to use tumblr #izzy critical #og #meta #txt #mine #ofmd fandom crit #star wars #fight club #brba/bcs #im so tired. im so tired. im so tired #i need to go to bedddddd #this is gonna be the last big meta post i make for a fucking while. im taking a goddamn break #from tumblr. like in general #i will say more on that tomorrow but for now #*donald trump deepfake voice* good byebuh

[shuhwaa]

me just trying to find some aespa fics to read and all i find in the tags are the most toxic tropes ever??? are y'all okay???

#if i wasn't so goddamn tired i'd immediately write some things myself instead...... #im a softie im barely ever in the mood for degradation and that stuff 😭 #i mean if that's what you enjoy reading then you do you.... it's just really not my thing #also all the gp.... which... isn't my thing either djbdnxnx #shut up salty