#im not gonna lie to you

[animentality]

Watched an action movie where one guy pinned another guy to the ground and gingerly swung his leg over his hip so he was straddling him and then he gently leaned down so they were chest to chest, face to face, as he pressed his elbow on his throat and intently watched him die.

And I was like....hmmmm.

Hold up.

Maybe that's how I want to die.

#im not gonna lie to you #i had a durgetash hallucination again

[higurehige]

So texas just declared rebellion against the united states ....I live in Texas.... Not really sure how that's gonna go down but, alright, guess we're just fillin out the square that said "civil war" earlier than I expected....

#im not gonna lie to you #i live in san antonio and it's a haven for immigrants - it doesnt get along with greg #they tell greg to go fuck himself at regular intrevals #wich is great bc gregs fuckin stupid most of the time #so I'm a tad worried we may be on the targetted list but....i guess we just see how this plays out #maybe nothing will come of it besides texas just doing whatever tf it wants law wise #wich its always done anyway #gregs just being dramatic about it

[kitamars]

don’t look

#when he’s feral ❤️ #oh when you don’t want your angelic bf to see you at the depths of your sin #i need to draw more shapy wolfwood its so fun #also the punisher is weirdly fun to draw im not gonna lie lmao #wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #peep the #vash #vash the stampede #vashwood #vash x wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #ok bye

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)

[heartorbit]

WHEEEEEE

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #i drew this insteabd of payong attention to class. Sorry. #And am posting it while i wait for the bus. I ha e sleey disease #SLEEPY. #emu otori from um . fortntie #Rhebusihesjehr THE BUS IS HERE BYYE #edit ok im back waiting for my transfer BROTHER. THE ANNIVIERYUAEYH it got me so fucked up prsk you crazy son of a gun #I THINK THE NEW OUTFITS ARE RLLY CUTE MIKU SOOOO KITTY #im almost done with all of my commsni dont think i will open them again this semester. or next. summer. Im sho tired #my assignments r fun but theyre like big. Theyrbe large #my prof said he was gonna make us make fur/sonas for an assignment hut didnt want to get fired. dont be a coward #proseka autism is killinng me i cant lie WHY IS DARKNESS FESTA TIERING SO FUCKING CRAZY #IVE NEVER EVER SEEN THE 10K CUTOFF REACH A MILLION POINTS ON EN. USUALLY WE SLACK SO HARD. COME ON #im so sleepy and have things to do please sotp it AND CURTAINCALL IM GONNA BE SICK I CANT TRHJNK ABOUT IT

[loopnoid]

more mash nonsense i've been accumulating. yes i can draw things that are not bj and hawkeye sometimes. that being said nsfw(?) beejhawk under the cut

#tho im not gonna lie most of these were requests for friends/thank you sketches etc. sorry for being beejhawkpilled 😔 #mash #m.a.s.h #m*a*s*h #beejhawk #bj hunnicutt #hawkeye pierce #trapper mcintyre #margaret houlihan #maxwell klinger #father mulcahy #NOT writing down his full name. we're not close like that. #henry blake #and his asscrack

[satans-knitwear]

I don't suppose you guys would want.... Some gifs?? Perhaps?? 🥺

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

#Treat me (amazon wishlist) ~ Tip(pypl) Me(cshpp) ~ More of me(Free OF) #I'm not gonna lie I'm a lil tipsy rn bc im trying to avoid sleeping bc anxiety. #But it's okay bc my hands are so cold rn it feels rly nice on my tiddies. And I rly wish you guys could feel that through a post. #Any tips or treats would be massively appreciated right now bc i wish to sprinkle more lingerie upon you #cheeky #bi girl #uk girl #wlw #satans knitwear #girls with piercings #alt pinup #pinup girl

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I imagine barnaby trying to be all cool and flirting with howyd subtly but his smoke gives him away fjsns

he thinks he's smooth smh...

#cracking up thinking about this ngl #like howdy continues on with work #and whoever's at the table with barn - lets say uhhhh idk julie #is like 'awww your smoke turns pink when you talk to him' #and barn just freezes a la 'excusemeitfuckingWHAT' #aaaand Slam that panic button #bbg didnt know.... #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #anyway i think ill never draw a better howdy #i squandered my Him points on an au scribble- AN AU SCRIBBLE #ive peaked ill never get any better! #< lie. there's always room for improvement and reaching new heights #on the flip side i had such a rough time with barn #its always an exchange - i can either draw a good howdy or a good barn Never both smh #still though idk How this came out as good as it has i have not drawn in days #nary a line nor doodle to be found... #but covid is wearing off and babey i am BACK! #slowly. it beat me up pretty good ngl #it took me tf out im gonna be extra tired for a while... #but since my congestion has cleared up and im not Hacking and Sniffling anymore #stream soon probably! Normal Stream To Get Back In The Swing Of Things #it feels like ive been sick for a thousand years but i think its been like #three days??? i really dont know... #i hope everyone is doing well and Not getting covid. wear your mask #i wore mine but my stepdad didnt and Look What Fuckin Happened

[lilybug-02]

Any more random Soul or other such Lore you’d like to share with us that you’ve come up with but can’t fit in the comic anywhere?

GET READY TO READ. Chara Timeline Lore!!!

Also take all of this as soft cannon. Most, if not all, will not be showing up in the comic (or at least in this amount of detail). And the comic does not need this information to make sense.

These book entries are from an in-universe source.

I hope you enjoyed the world building :> Again this is mostly all for fun!

4th Wall Break Time! - Humans are completely oblivious to the fact “soul entities” are humans themselves. Their little heads would probably pop if they truly knew. So don’t tell them! - Monsters are still made of dust in my AU, but they are more physical than their Undertale counterparts, only slightly… - Both Humans and Monsters cannot do magic freely. They would need to go through extensive training to get…a Wizard license! :O - It’s strange, but the Monsters seem more human than the actual humans in this world…huh…

#Hope you enjoyed me info dumping about this insane universe I've been cooking up for the past 2 years :D #if I spelled anything wrong here...Im not gonna lie I may be too lazy to edit it -W- #bread #ask stuff #deltarune chara timeline #my art #art #deltarune #deltarune au #the player #soul entities #soul entity #world building #there are probably other tags I should add. But im kinda tired. I'll do it later :) #byeeeeeeee #ct lore #ct q&a #the chara timeline

[knorrentitiez]

I DID A SMTH-

I would like to share - my beautiful au...

Overboard AU!

Here is the first batch of design concepts.

Sea General Howdy Pillar

Cartographer and Scholar Frank Frankly

AND NONE OTHER THAN

Captain Wally Darling

I'll be posting the rest of the gang and some info soon. For now...

Welcome aboard, neighbour...

#welcome home #welcome home arg #welcome home fanart #welcome home fandom #welcome home au #wally darling #frank frankly #howdy pillar #welcome home puppet show #I CANT WAIT TO DEVELOP THIS IM NOT GONNA LIE- #If you guys wanna ask stuff you can once all the gang concepts are finalized #:] #Muppet treasure island got me to do this #partycoffin #Welcome home Overboard AU

[sourtomatola]

There they are. @spaciebabie

#not gonna lie #i love little projects #so this was fun #despite the shame #fnaf moon #moondrop #fnaf sun #sundrop #art #my art #embrodery #clown butt earings #earings #for real though spacie #if you want these ill send them to you #lord know im not wearing them XD

[midkarma]

geto pretending to be all sweet just to tear down your walls and make you cry? yes?

he is your safe space from gojo, who is much more outward with his teasing and bullying. however, his best friend is worse, he’s manipulative. geto lets you cry into his shoulder, holds you when you’re scared to go to class, and whispers soothing words into your ears.

“i’m sorry, doll, satoru doesn’t mean it. he’s just got a lot going on. you probably just caught him on a bad day.”

as much as gojo is jealous of the time geto spends with you, he is also grateful for the words he says about him. when geto manages to convince you to forgive gojo with his honeyed words, it makes you more susceptible to his bullying.

after a night of being comforted by geto, you would see gojo again on the way to a lecture. deciding to be the bigger person, you wave at the boy, even try and smile a little bit. geto said he has a rough home life, which isn’t untrue, he also said to forgive him and that he’s really not that bad. but he is that bad. he laughs in your face and shoves you into lockers, pulls your hair, and makes rude comments about what your “mouth is good for”

you cry and cry, and after class try to find geto, only to see him laughing with gojo while looking at his phone. you feel your stomach drop as you get closer. they’ve set their home screens as pictures of you, teary eyed and not looking at the camera. oblivious to the photo being taken.

gojo’s was taken earlier that morning while you were picking up your books, but geto’s was a picture of you crying into his shirt. he looks at you, nothing but amusement behind his eyes. “sorry, sweetheart. you’re so pretty when you cry.”

#karma is mid #geto #gojo #satosugu #bully satosugu x reader #bully satosugu #geto x reader #gojo x reader #geto suguru #geto suguru x reader #gojo satoru #gojo satoru x reader #hehehe yesssss they’re so silly #i am so fucked up im not gonna lie #i need to write more abt how obsessed they r w you though #bcus rn it’s just me writing their bullying #EAT UP #i love posting before i go to my classes

[gremlingirlsmell]

queer tme ppl when they see an extremely transmisogynist TERF movement in a different country: "this is so punk rock" "based" "heck yea" "faith in humanity restored" "this is so cool to see" "literal history happening there right now"

#im not gonna lie seeing that post has almost 30k notes makes me not feel any safer here #i can just hope that most of these are ruisa's addition #but just going through the notes theres SO MANY tme queers cheering this shit on like ??? #so you hate trans women. cool #transmisogyny #jeady rambles #these are all from the tags and reblogs of that post #the version without the edition the one that says 'no this is definitely not a terf movement just ignore them literally saying transfems ar #male spies and checking new members for adams apples and shit'

[mispelled]

I've been meaning to draw this for over a year

#it was my first thought after finding out duncan trussell voices ron james #which was right after watching midnight gospel and finding out pendleton ward worked on it #ron james is actually so important to me but im not gonna lie its 90% because duncan's voice calms me down #thats what you get when you listen to the dtfh podcast to fall asleep every night. i guess #mispelled draws #misp draws #i have been drawing a lot #and maybe normal people would use a queu or whatever but im not a normal people so we're posting as soon as im done drawing it lolll #also background practice with adventure time screenshots is so good #adventure time #adventure time fanart #the midnight gospel #the midnight gospel clancy #clancy gilroy #adventure time ron james #adventure time wizard cops #the midnight gospel fanart #crossover #duncan trussell

[suburbanbonfire]

me as an intermission sports reporter: hey so like what the fuck

#what happened out there #can you tell me in simple words what the fuck im looking at #ouughhghhhhhhhhh didnt even watch overtime i knew where we were heading #gonna lie on the floor with my cat #while i question the existence of god and he tries to figure out what a washing machine is #we are the same #rambles

[deep-space-lines]

Full-Size / True Color Version

Sometimes I think about the fact that first living being to orbit the Earth couldn't understand what was happening to her, couldn't understand the history she was making. Laika wasn't a volunteer. The technology to bring her back alive didn't exist. They sent her up anyway. She died, scared and alone, in a malfunctioning spacecraft hastily built to meet a political deadline.

When her heart rate tripled from the stress of acceleration, did she understand the magnitude of what she was experiencing? When she saw the stars outside her little window, did she believe the world had gone dark? In her final hours, did she feel wonder, or just fear?

"The more time passes, the more I’m sorry about it. We shouldn’t have done it. We did not learn enough from this mission to justify the death of the dog. When you understand that you can’t bring back Laika, that she perishes out there, and that no one can bring her back…that is a very heavy feeling." Oleg G. Gazenko

For me, there's some small consolation, at least, in knowing that although her death was unnecessary and cruel, Laika will never be forgotten. I love you, Laika. May you find peace among the stars.

Prints are available here.

#my art #laika #laika the space dog #i ugly cried while drawing this im not gonna lie. she was a good girl. she deserved better. #my dog was sitting next to me the entire time i was drawing this. i wish we'd given laika the love she deserved without killing her for it #if you don't know about laika- i WOULD recommend reading about her but the story is rather upsetting. #also apologies for the print site showing a bunch of weird options. i turned off phone cases but it keeps insisting i want to sell it as on #i thought it would fix itself overnight but apparently not. its not actually available if you click on it. should be just prints. #space art #space history #artists on tumblr #stained glass art #art prints