#im reeling it in i cant do this

[pluttskutt]

eddie hates his neighbour that blasts christmas music from 1st november the very second that halloween is over n he can see through the windows that he decorates so one day he has enough when all i want for christmas is you plays for like the 100th time in a row so he knocks on the door to ask wtf his issue is when steve opens the door dressed in a christmas sweater in fckng november like just jump out the window-

#della has ideas #steddie #im reeling it in i cant do this #i need to focUS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

saw @chez-cinnamon's absolutely BANGER butterfly!Howdy design and couldn't resist! two fluffy flutterbyes <3 solidarity

#still unsure of Why this was the only pose that came to mind but! who am i to deny the brain what it wants #i also have no idea what it is about butterflies and mullets + extra fluff #it just feels Right. #oh also if you haven't checked out chez-cinnamon's Real World au uhhhh Go Do That!!! #its fun! its funky! its fresh! its got a lot of great art! its got a Comic! #emphasis on a Lot Of Great Art! #i will admit im emotionally invested in the plot. its reeled me in. im Fascinated by it #also(x2) i Cannot get over how swagtastic that butterfly howdy design is #like!!! look at it!!! the colors the patterns the WINGS agh the wings <3<3<3 #truly a unique and creative design that im totally not jealous of ahaha what- #kidding im Kidding. or am i... i am i am #scribble garnish #yassified howdy <3 #welcome home #alrighty its officially 2 am i needed to be asleep uhhhhh three hours ago #gonna queue this up and conk out. while lovingly thinking of chez-cinnamon's butterfly howdy my fucking GOD #cant get over how Gorgeous he is #the facial patterns.... the colors.... immaculate #top tier design i am Taking Notes #ok ok sleeping now. Sleeping. snz snork mimi and all that. etc

[kilucore]

im never ever going to be able to erase eds desperate pleading for ned not to hurt stede, to hurt him instead, from my brain. its in there forever

#i cant fucking do this im reeling from everything that just happened #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd #ed teach #stede bonnet

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

this month´s reading score

#i was doing well!!! #i was getting over her!!! #and then this bastard waltzes back in all brighteyed and bushytailed with the sandshoes and the extremely stickyuppy hair #you cant do that!!! #you wont get me that easy this time im not 14 anymore im not embroidering tardises on my clothes this time alright #it´s gonna take more than that to reel me back in #i met someone new shes called 19th century french history and i really feel like we could have something #whatever #i cant complain too much im pretty sure 150 hours is more than ive read the last 3 years combined #but still #tanked my daily average

[toerrishumansodontbeone]

OK, Im gonna make a new blog to put my dumb oc drawings & posts on, so if thats been something you've at all been interested in, u can follow me over at @evilevilevilevilnotevilevilagain

I have GOT to get myself off of instagram, so im gonna TRY and make a commitment to post on the blog instead when the urge overtakes me.

Also maybe like, share writing & music inspo & just have somewhere to ramble abt ocs/story ideas cus I don't really have anyone to torment with it to such a degree. And unfortunately I just think abt it far too often,,,,

(also was wondering if maybe making a fresh blog would be better than bloating this one w all the super old followers n all that...... wud maybe make me less embarrassed v_v; its cringe when youre an almost 30yo adult doing this silly shit, n theres people seeing it who arent in the same boat,, but its also hard to make it into anything more substantial than just the sillies in my own void..... )

(...so maybe if its a specific space carved out just for that with similarly minded people, itd feel less discouraging...)

#readmore for longwinded explanation cus yes I have to defend myself and also explain myself #also wondering if i made a new blog for the REAL art if itd fare any better....but im guessing not I mean tumblr doenst have like algorithm #and all my arts nonfandom so tags wouldnt really do anything #idk ive apparently had this iteration of a tumblr blog for 9 years #lot of that has been p dormant too #musing abt the viability of getting any visibility on tumblr again cus legitimately I HAVE to get off insta the reel thing is rotting my #brain n ive lost the joy of posting there since I dont get any feedback anymore compared to some years back #but its also scary to completely give up on showing my art anywhere since I dont have anyhting like that irl #n I cant ever get into twitter consistently v_v; #I dont have like a BUSINESS irl ykno?

[small-spark-of-light]

so i have come across some important info

RB-series is Back and he lied about everything pretty much

he said he deleted his discord account, but he lied and has Another, this is the second time

heres photos for evidence

he is also apparently still making Arbox, as in the mod even though he said he was stopping, given his new youtube banner includes Mike and a character that was hinted at for an Incredibox mod

heres the new banner

every comment someone makes on his stuff that calls out what he has done he deletes, so all of the interactions on his youtube videos and community posts are all Positive, and he refuses to mention what he has done

heres his description on youtube, not mentioning the pedophilia he has done.

and he continues to call what he has done "rumors", as shown in the discord photos above.

heres the truth video splatjack made as a reminder

#incredibox #psa #im going to kill this guy #mike staffell #since hes mentioned #arbox #there are more things hes done #he might have faked a suicide post/lied about a suicide attempt #i didnt want to add it cause that may be too triggering to some and idk if its real or not #apparently he drank cleaning supplies in an attempt to kill himself he made it on his instagram but it was a reel so it deleted #if anyone wants to see his insta post about the suicide attempt i will reblog this with the evidence but only if im Asked #he has an instagram if anyone wants to try and bully him off the internet #you cant do anything to him over youtube since hes deleting things that reveal what he has done #believe me i TRIED #but they were all Gone #he has not changed #Youtube #spark speaks

[cookie-dough-writes]

shout out to everyones who's brains and nervous systems have been wrecked by stressors + the state of the internet + everything else going on. I promise we'll adapt and I promise things will be alright, focus on making good small decisions to protect your well-being like cutting certain platforms (instagram, twitter, whatever you feel like) and having a look through your follow list to see if unfollowing some people might help. try giving your brain a rest by letting yourself be bored some times. try doing a puzzle or a physical task without a podcast or music or netflix drama. consider not clicking on that expose video of someone you dont know. hesitate before telling someone off in the comments or joining in on an online argument that you can opt out of. protect yourself so you can make your world a better place. push yourself when needed. cut the onslaught of overstimulation where you can, if you want.

I am saying this as someone who's never felt at home irl, with adhd and dyspraxia, general awkwardness, chronic depression, struggles with regulation and im sure a bunch of other things. I really struggle reducing screen time because it often feels like the outside world rejects me, I'm sure some of you relate to that, but I'm taking small steps to make things easier for me in the long run and day to day. it doesnt matter if we don't reach some end goal of total and complete peace and purity or whatever, all that matters is that we're choosing to be more mindful of how we navigate this world of constant stimulation. and i fully believe in all of us :)

#inspired by the fact that im in a bit of a dip in this whole journey #i downloaded insta a few months ago and ive noticed it hurting me #the videos im watching on youtube arent ones i even really want to watch #im getting headaches #i cant cope with chores or being quiet at the moment #and life just hasnt been hitting the same #but thats okay because its all a part in it #so what im going to do is to avoid insta reels #be more mindful with the videos i click on #stop worrying about online discourse im not even apart of #stop worrying about having callout posts written about me because i have nothing to be called out over *nor* do am i even in a position whe #e that'd happen BUT because its just all over everywhere #so many people get exposed #that its now an anxiety for me #im going to go on more walks and do more yoga and sleep more #and it doesnt matter if i can only do bits of all that it only matters if i try #instagram #tumblr #twitter #terminally online #reminders #positivity #mental health #depression #anxiety #autism #asd #actually autistic #adhd #cookie rambles

[pinkseas]

girls who have all their lives struggled with worthiness and have spent a solid decade convinced that they were undeserving of love fighting desperately to be good enough to be loved in any capacity by anyone at all, constantly failing constantly being left behind, when someone they dearly care for and genuinely trust just Very Casually tells them that they are easy to love

#diary time sorry this is kinda :// im just like. REELING #'damn shocked you into silence' GENUINELY YEAH 😭😭😭 #like okay. okay. okay. okay. cool. take a belief ive held onto my entire life and flip it on its head with no effort at all. yeah thats fin #it feels SO silly to say im like Shaky bc of this but i have a whole ass complex built around it ive worked thru sm in therapy for years no #but this is one of the only things left that still (consistently) REALLY fucks me up and that i cant get through my head #and not for lack of trying its a work in progress if u will but. god. #genuinely one of the kindest things anyone has ever said to me i think this is going to live with me for the rest of my life #or at least for the next decade #u know when someone says smth or tells u smth and u just Never Forget It like its too meaningful for you to let go of? #whether good or bad? #this is obviously Very Good which is strange in of itself but also holy shit. holy shit. holy shit #and idk i try to surface level be. Like This? silly goofy kind etc? but to hear that from someone who knows me PRETTY damn well #and who i have sm respect for and put sm trust in #like okay. okay. okay .okay. okay. okay. yeah. sure. yeah. mmhmm. alright. cool. okay.yeah. alright. #one million explosions #alyalyoxenfree #cant decide if i want him to see this or not #thats always a weird moment of someone saying something genuinely life-changing and then its like oh shit #do i suddenly dump all this baggage on you for the sole purpose of making you understand how meaningful this is to me #or do i do. Not That. and simply carry on forever changed for the better

[carcarrot]

losing my mind

#can you fucking IMAGINE this experience im reeling #fucking. JUNIOR SENIOR??????? like youre grooving out to shake your coconuts and move your feet #and then LIL BEETHOVEN TIME. WHICH STARTS W RHYTHM THIEF #insane. insane. i cant believe this was real #just. russell doing his crazay lil beethoven thing as the sun is setting in central park #ron big arms????? ron big arms in central park????????????? #and it was a free concert . INSANE #YET ANOTHER sparks concert that should have been filmed #good god.

[sophiethewitch1]

my names sophie and rapid improvements my game.

#sophie speaks #whenever i get sick im always studying through it because like. you cant really do anything and at a certain point watching Instagram reels #physically hurts you. so like ill watch a bunch of courses and tutorials and i come out on the other side like #with a new god complex #i love learning new skills its so satisfying #nom nom nom nom

[manwithoutaspleen]

more transition rambling

as upset as i sometimes get about not passing, i still love what transitioning is doing for/to my body so much. like i never get sick of seeing how hairy i’m getting, i’m impatient for more facial hair and so excited to have stubble and one side burn (and i would love for both side burns to come in.) my chest hair has started coming in the past few weeks and THATS been a thrill.

every time i hear myself singing and actually like how i sound? every time i laugh weird and sound like my brother, who i love so much? every time i see a friend for the first time in awhile

it’s just, life has been so hard for like, a year and a half now, and while i do think i’m finally on the upswing, there’s a lot of new trauma to deal with. but one thing i’ve learned from all this is how to take care of myself so, so well. i can love and care for myself now in ways i never imagined being possible. and having a body that actually brings me joy makes that so much easier.

and like, it’s especially resonant to have a body that actually brings JOY when i’ve had chronic pain since i was 12. when this all started because i got a new disability. my body can do less and hurts more and i still love it more. its harder to care for, but i’m trying harder.

transitioning has saved my life in SO many ways i could not be more grateful that i finally did it

#separate ramble for the tags: #i deactivated my twitter for a day and realized i could just. not bring it back #and so i didnt! and while i will pop in occasionally so i dont lose it permanently and to check in w people and there and such #it is kinda nice. its also very weird #i also deleted the tumblr app #so i cant just like share every random thought i have with the internet #and i WANT to so badly i am so used to it lmao #but i think practicing being more intentional about what i share online and like breaking that habit of tweeting everything is good for me #even if its not permanent #but hell it might be! #i havent done a great job on breaking the scrolling habit bc i still have instagram for my sibling gc lmao #but reels are. way less engaging than twitter so. #reflecting on it though has made me realize like my memory is so bad and one reason i tweet so much is literally as a Record #but its like alright well maybe a Journal would be Better #and accepting that its ok to forget random thoughts i do not need to preserve every little idea i have #reflecting on internet habits on the internet is very online i admit #but i dont mind being online im just trying to find a way to do so that doesnt break my brain so bad #which is why this is on my mind rn bc like i do genuinely enjoy doing a little blog every so often lmao #might branch out and start actually blogging/writing about my interests too

[attaboy-art]

day 07: legacy

[Image ID: A darkly colored digital painting done with oil brushes of Alfendi Layton, from Layton Brothers Mystery Room, sitting at his desk in his office at dawn, as seen from the back corner of the room. He is sitting cross-legged with a cup of tea in his hands and he is blankly staring forwards. Behind him is a large window with the blinds half-down showing a grey dawn sky with mutliple buildings and Big Ben in within view. The same wall the window is on also has shelves, newspaper clippings, and a framed letter of apology addressed to Alfendi. In front of him is a messy desk with a lamp, a rotary phone, and a typewriter sitting on top, dimly shining in the light. /.End ID.]

#lb;mrweek #i know im late im sorry im so sorry #i spent tonight and last night looking for my cat up in the park for a couple of hours so i havent had much time to paint #but. I really didnt wanna miss the last day. So #fun fact i started seeing bugs on my ipad while drawing this #anyways. ANYWAYS its time for me to Explain My Reasoning #originally i had a ton of different sketches right. i couldnt choose which one i wanted to do for this prompt #one was of the layton fam greeting al post-game. one was a polaroid of lucy and al posing next to the letter of apology #and the last one was gonna be an abstract-ish portrait of al #but none of them were working with me so i decided. Actually. What do /I/ Think #basically. u know me u know im always on my poor little alfendi shit. #and i was like. well. post-game #post-game hes probably still reeling from everything that happened. Fendi that is but also Al #and hes probably just. like. Holy fuck. Holy shit man #after 4 long lonely years he's finally gotten his name cleared and has gotten an apology from the Nebulous Yard #but. its not like he can go back. Its not like hes going to pretend that none of those years ever happened #he cant forget that ostracization. the alienation. the demonization. The Izations #the wounds of being left behind cannot heal just yet. and thats okay #and its just. What really is al's legacy. He doesnt fight a big robot or save the world. He fought trauma. He fought suppression. And he won #and you KNOOOWWWW my babygirl is a workaholic. you know he stays at the office because its better than being surrounded by reminders at home #AND. LASTY.... dawn is a recurring motif in the laytonverse. dawn symbolizes the end. it symbolizes new beginnings and rebirth yadda yadda #lastly* good lord #so i reallt wanted to capture that feelinf of like. Pulling an all nighter when youre in a fucked up area of your life #and just looking at the grey skies above and thinking sunrise was supposed to be more worthwhile than this #hope u all enjoy. im going to hide my ipad and stylus in a safe for the next week #art #professor layton #lbmr #layton brothers mystery room #alfendi layton

[notmrsparabol8]

masturbating normally: yeah i can last for like 20 mins most of the time

masturbating with lube after 2 min: akdbksndjdkdksnnzlxnslsom

#but no im still reeling from how good it felt #cause like yeah doing it dry is cool but it takes forever #but if i take a minute to just build up some spit and subsequently spit in my hand #DEAR LORD #literally i cant last long AT ALL with lube T-T #dumb puppy #puppygirl #hornyposting

[ajdrawshq]

for the scene in the post, you can access the hidden room through the right wall in the 3rd floor room with the person and their dog!!! it's like right below the shelves and marked with a lil bit of debris- very easy to miss since the hole isn't visible like others through the house are; i didn't get it til like my 5th playthrough :o

THANK U THANK U THANK U oh my god i never wouldve found that by myself its so hidden away.. i KNEW one of the holes had to have something i cant believe it was the single one i didnt check

#isat spoilers #im debating answering this privately bc of how secret it is but the other person who asked didnt do that so .. guess i wont #BUT FR THANK U #this room is a hidden goldmine i love the interactions in here.. wonderful extra bits of characterization for most of the cast #ty for the ask <3 #nonbinarv #im still reeling from this . i even found the other hole on a wall u cant see (which has nothing) but not this one.. how..

[dirt-str1der]

yk every time i see a post about somebody wishing bad things on another person i think ‘dirt-strider to kiryu’ you’ve broken me brain

You see a post thats like i want to stick him in time prison so that he gets so bored he starts breaking his own bones to get even a hint of stimulation and its tagged me at kiryu and you scroll down and its a post thats like i want to feed him chips from my cupped hands like a wild stallion and its also tagged me at kiryu also hiiiiiiiii

#Thanks for the ask ! #i wont lie to you i want to do yo kiryu what they did to the family in reddot story the pancake family #his life is a bit too easy i want to give him more obstacles thats why im kidnapping him and breaking my little prince’s ankles and #releasing him in a forest in another country altogether and he has to survive with his injuries until they heal and they will heal wrong and #it will forever hurt to walk now and also when he sees another human being now he will always flinch and he has nightmares every night about #being feverish and starving to death and years into his recovery i meet him again and invite him to watch a movie with me but when i put the #tape in its actually just a highlight reel of his time in the wilderness and he gets scared but he cant move and its because i gave him some #tea earlier and oh this ? its laced with drugs. and he sits blearily beside me and im holding his head up so he watches the screen and he #recalls every terrible thing thats happened to him i put the tv on full volume so he can relive the leaves and twigs cracking under his #hands and knees as hes dragging himself across the forest floor and and his clipped shouts of pain whenever his broken bones catch on a root #and his enraged screaming as he grapples foxes and coyotes that are trying to scavenge the food he painstakingly gathered and he can listen #to the way his voice devolves into something unrecognisable and hes wondering how i got this footage but then he realises this scene is #familiar hes on his last legs and he hears footsteps approach not those of an animal but of a person. he looks at the screen and he sees his #own face staring into the camera wild eyed and filthy and that on the other side of the camera is the hitchhiker who ‘found’ him and he #realises it was me who did this. i could have rescued him at any time the gratefulness he feels to that kind samaritan curdles in his chest #it comes with the withering realisation it was all a game and the one who put him through it all was right beside him and i laugh and put my #hand around his shoulder and ask if he liked the movie and he fights his paralysis and he grips me by the neck and throws me to the ground #and he says you .. you ... and i frown apologetically and say That bad huh ? well we can put on another. and he cant even say words anymore #hes so angry that he grips my neck and he strangles me and the whole time my face gets purple im laughing and laughing and laughing at him #anyway thats one of my greatest fantasies its a fantasy because i couldnt do that to the poor guy im not that mean but i do want him to kill #me and for me to deserve it. very important that i started this fight and that he ends it thats what i want to have ... and also to like #cuddle and stuff ... because i like him ...

[doodlboy]

Hoo boy, miserable in the club 2night lads

#i cant draw #ive been trying all day and its just shit #then i open instagram and see 2 reel ideas ive been wanting 2 do but cant #bc 1 i cant draw so i cant do the draw urself as a clown and 2 i dont have enough finished pieces in enough colors to do the “my art is X” #like #fuck #fuuuuuck #i hate everything #why dont my hands want to do things #why cant i understand perspective #ive watched enough fucking tutorials by now #why cant i pose bodies interestingly why cant i draw how it looks when a torso is bent why do i draw the same shit over and over again #why cant i stay consistent why do i not have any construction lines besides the fucking head circle #why dont i plan things out more why why why why why AUGHHHHHHHHH #miserable night #im so pissed off at myself rn #i know how to do things so why am i not doing them like im supposed to #i had rhe whole day off and i spent most of it on my phone when i could have been drawing. now i need to get up in 6 hours #bc i decided that midnight was a good time to draw #and my fucking ankles still hurt like theyre sprained or broken or whatever #im so pissed #mini rant #mini vent #elliot rambles