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eunkitarot · 27 days

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Enhypen Jay ideal type please

Hi sure lets see the cards i pulled are:

6 of cups: for Jay, he seeks someone that is comforting to him. Someone when he is together with them he feels healed. Someone that has a youthful energy to them. A carefree vibe. This person may have a warm smile. He likes people who are kind-hearted. Jay also likes people who are simple all around. Maybe in the way they wear or their routine is simple. He likes someone that is not so picky or complicated.

I think this make sense with my tarot read of him as bf where he is fast in resolving problems. He likes to deal with it and move on. So if his ideal type is complicated and very nitpicky its going to make it difficult for him. So someone that is simple and understanding is what he likes.

The hanged man: i feel like his ideal type might be someone that is in the creative aspect when it comes to career. Anything that involves art ,design or crativity. With this card , Jay may find someone that is willing to stand apart from a crowd attractive. Maybe because not everyone have the courage to defy social norms. So when someone dares to stand out it shows bravery and having a backbone even when their own views can be unorthodox /unconventional.

Judgement: so again with this card , similar to the hanged man, Jay finds people who stand out attractive. Someone that is the catalyst for change in society. Their actions may impact people in a good way and inspire others to confront truths they may have ignored. For eg someone like Greta Thunberg or Malala Yousefzai. Someone that is brave to voice out and take actions so that other people will follow suit and not be a blind sheep.

Tbh im kinda shooketh that these eg are coming out but ofc this is jay, he is someone that is knowlegable and have this kinds of facts on his fingertips. While channeling his ideal type, a lot of fun facts kinda pop up in my head so yeah...

Eight of pentacles: Jay finds people with great work ethics attractive. Someone that is educated and have skills that they master in their craft. He likes when his partner is absorbed in their work and focused. Someone who commits wholeheartedly to their endeavors, constantly seeking to improve and perfect their skills is very admirable for Jay. So his Ideal type is someone that is a professional in their field of interest. I am getting like scientist or reaearchers could also be his type of people.

9 of swords: with this card his ideal type may be someone that works in high-pressure environments or deals with crisis management. Where stress and worry are prevalent. Their job may demand constant vigilance and problem-solving, which contributes to their state of mental overload. A profession where the stakes are high and the pressure is constant. So if his ideal type is someone that is about to change the world, obviously its going to be heavy on their shoulders.

So overall, he likes someone that is career oriented. And if that career influences people and able to change others lives for the better , thats is even more admirable to him. He feels that if everyone is a blind follower, the world could be a disaster. So once in a while humans should take control of their lives and find ways to make the earth a better place.

Help the ending is just taking me out. But honestly i understand what he meant.

Anyways i hope yall love this reading and dont forget to like💗

#enhypen #enhypen ideal type #kpop tarot #enhypen tarot #jay tarot #kpop

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theminecraftbee · 6 months

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ok so idk if you’ve answered this before but anyways,, i really love the way you write horror!

i read stuffed bird for the first time over a year ago now but i still think about the world you created on a regular basis. i rarely read au fics and it’s even more rare for me to remember them for an extended period but seriously, no joke, this is about a stuffed bird might genuinely be one of my favorite fanfictions of all time.

anyways, shameless fanboying aside, i actually wanted to ask if you had any good tips with writing horror? im a huge fan of the genre and have always wanted to create something myself but i have no clue where to even start. i feel like every idea i have is either weirdly cheesy or just unauthentic. so yeah, do you maybe have some pointers on how to get over that first threshold of not being “good enough”? or maybe just sharing what goes into your creative process when you write your stuff?

anyways i’m sorry for rambling, you’re really cool and i hope you have a good day. happy halloween!

oh goodness, thank you! i'm so glad you liked stuffed bird, and read it despite not normally liking aus! that's a big compliment!

as for the "how to write horror" tips. okay so first: it's gonna feel a little cheesy. the thing is that when you're writing it, it's gonna be less scary to you. you're going to go "well this is just silly/inauthentic/absurd" and you're going to feel like "well surely this can't scare people" and you've gotta push past that. you've gotta push past that to "well what about someone who DOESN'T know i'm trying really hard, what will they think of it?" and that can help you out a lot.

my second tip is... you've gotta know when to show the monster and not show the monster. like okay you're going to hear that things you don't show the audience can be scarier than those you do. and that's TRUE, but sometimes also you do really want to show the audience the thing. it's all about "what will cause the correct kind of impact in this moment". so, uh, example, most of the stuffed bird monsters i only describe a few aspects of, not the whole monster, and that's because the audience can fill in a scarier description than what i can come up with. however, i still describe what i personally think are the scariest/most impactful parts of the monster! because in order for it to do the thing i wanted i still NEEDED some of the gorey/horror description, i just couldn't try to perfectly describe every inch. this goes especially for horror that relies on physical description/gore actually; if you know when to show the gore, you can make it have impact. if there are certain things you describe in detail and certain things you don't, it will tell you stuff about your characters, AND it will make both of those things have more impact for the audience! so i guess that's one of my big horror tips.

my other big horror tip is that a lot of horror is emotional. doing things that reflect your character's mental state can really help sell whatever you're trying to make scary! this can both work in the "if your character is scared" sense and in the "if your character is NOT scared" sense--for example, if you are describing something scary is happening, but your character has a very happy/lighthearted emotional tone, that's one kind of scary, but if you're describing something scary and your characters are terrified, that's another! and it's useful to know when to use which.

okay and the last tip: don't worry about being "not good enough" just write what you write and post it! you will never get better without practice. the main way my horror ends up working is that i keep writing it, i think; if i never wrote horror, i'd never get used to writing horror, and it would never get scary. plus, you will be your own worst critic. get yourself some friends to help cheer you on, and then just go for it!

this is a lot of paragraphs ;-; but i HOPE IT HELPS!

#answered #clownthejester #and then my other writing advice is that so much writing advice is stupid #probably including my own lol

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dearweirdme · 4 months

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Regarding the 2020 discussion, I do understand what anon means and how someone could watch some of the content during that time and come to a similar conclusion. At one point, I was really considering it myself. However looking back, I don't think it can be specifically applied to Taekook.

Between the period of 2018-2020 (with a couple of outliers during late 2017 and early 2021) there were moments where Taekook appeared sometimes distant and different on screen. I remember being so confused because I'd see these moments and wonder if there was a problem but then there were also more 'hidden' and off screen moments where they seemed just as close, if not closer than ever so a lot of things weren't making sense.

And even within the same content (like Run eps for example) Taekook could seem to blow hot and cold (though we've all, I'm sure, seen clear cases of editing when it comes to pre-filmed content)

As a Taekooker, my thinking at the time was that there might have potentially been a break up but even that didn't make sense because those moments of closeness we did see contradicted any on screen distance and awkwardness. It didn't make sense how they'd be so awkward on screen because of a break up or shipping yet manage to drop that awkwardness in their private time.

Then after rewatching a lot of content at a later date and with less of a hyper focus on Taekook, I realised that Tae was, at times, coming across as a little disoriented and disconnected in general. Anon has only picked up on Taekook and Tae and Yoongi (which personally I don't see as the greatest example of what I'm talking about because unless im getting my timelines mixed up, I think they had some of their closest moments during that period) but Tae's relationships with the others also didn't seem to be running at peak either.

And I'm not alluding to anything malicious or speculating about major fallouts because we saw the guys trying to rally around him. We saw Jimin trying extra hard to make him laugh and put a smile on his face, we even saw RM ask him in a live to reach out to him more and hugging him and talking him out of negative self criticism, we saw moments of concern from members about Taehyung potentially bottling up his feelings, we had the guys so desperate that they even used an interview format to practically beg Taehyung to come to them and offload on them when he felt burdened and was suffering. We saw moments of JK being hyper alert to his moods (which is one of the things that confused me when put up against the 'not close/breakup theories)

It was clear to me even then that Taehyung was going through something seriously with his mental health though I didn't like to speculate openly at the time. However, he's recently spoken about it hinself at this point so I feel comfortable in saying that I think a lot of that awkwardness and disconnection we were picking up on was him struggling to get through his duties, emotionally numbing as people do during depression, disassociating etc.

For a long time, it seemed like only JHope and to a lesser degree, Jin, could crack that shell a little during content and I really do think it's by force of their personality alone and easy going nature. While probably even closer to Taehyung, JK is one of the most easily affected by the others moods and Jimin is a natural problem solver.

If we're hyperfocused on Taekook then we're only going to see a distance between them compared to the fun and mischief and boundless energy we used to see between them but if you look at the bigger picture, you can see Taehyung being withdrawn, reserved and having moments of disconnection in general---not just with the members but with himself and whatever he's engaging with at the time.

As a fan from very early on in the group the change in Taehyung's emotional state was jarring, concerning and pretty drastic. I also saw the impact on his interactions with the other members. Again, I'm not claiming that anyone did anything wrong or anyone was to blame because we also saw how loved he was, how hard they tried to lift him up, build his confidence back up, put a smile on his face, keep an eye on his moods etc. It's just that sometimes what you need isn't what you want when your mental health is suffering.

And he got through it because as surely as I saw the change in his mood back then, I started to see it positively shuft again by 2021 and, not coincidentally, we had people talking about how open and bubbly and energetic and engaged he seemed again, how he seemed more like 'the old Tae' (though I loathe that saying) and how he and JK had never seemed closer and how Vmin was rising again etc.

I know we rely a lot on the timeline as a counter in some of these discussions but that because whenever there's a moment where you could make a valid arguement that Taekook broke up/aren't close/are distant/fell out etc---there's something in the timeline that completely contradicts that idea.

I've been caught out and surprised myself a few times thinking I knew what was going on only to see it countered in black and white when seeing the timeline.

I've been so sure on a Tuesday that their relationship is broken only to have my eye wiped by Thursday's post that shows them being as close as can be.

So while I do understand anon, I also think some Taekookers, including myself, are more susceptible to being a little narrow minded and tunnel visioned when it comes to their relationship and that sometimes, it's best to take a step back from Taekook and look at the bigger picture overall.

Hi anon!

I absolutely agree with what you’ve said here. It’s a tough thing to talk about, because it’s such a delicate matter and we really have little knowledge about all the reasons why and the full extent of Tae’s mental health issues.

Standing by and watching a loved one struggle with depression is so hard. It’s not comparable with how the person actually suffering feels, but the feeling of powerlessness and constant worry is huge. I recognize what you have laid out here from situations in my own life.

There’s so much more to a person than the relationship they’re in. Yes, we do look at Tae and Jk’s interactions a lot, but to understand them we need to understand as much about their lives as we can. People aren’t static and the way they interact and respond to things may vary from day to day and from moment to moment even.. it just depends on so many things.. we will never be able to deduce what exactly went on.

To me Tae and Jk also make sense in the bigger picture. At times the ‘greatest love story’ comments irk me a bit, because yeah.. I think their love is of the greatest kind, but at the same time I would have wished things to have been so much more easier for them. I think Tae’s mental problems must’ve been so hard on Jk and your ‘jk being hyper alert to his moods’ definitely rings true for me.

#taekook #tae #Taekook analysis

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se1f · 5 months

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Hi! i don’t know your ‘name’ but, i love your blog and have been only lurking on it for a while lol. How did you overcome anxiety and fears? i suffer from chronic anxiety, and it’s been so hard.

"i am formless, nameless, unsoiled, timeless, dimensionless, and utterly free."- Robert Adams.

but on a less or more serious note, i am looking to change my name. im just so indecisive, that's why there isn't any name plastered on this account lol. but thank you for sending in this ask, anon!! chronic anxiety can be debilitating, and i empathize with you. firstly, i would like to state that your diagnosis is valid, and i hope you are receiving all the support, and care you need <33

How did you overcome anxiety and fears?

this "ego" has also been diagnosed with a certain type of anxiety disorder. it got to where i was popping pills left and right (prescribed omg). i was even attending weekly therapy/psychiatrist appointments. i understand (to a point) of what you must be feeling. honestly, in the beginning of my discovery of advaita vedanta/non-dualism, i still did experience symptoms of fear and anxiety. but that is only because i took seeming appearances to be true. (going beyond all concepts has done more for this illusionary body's mental health, than years of professional aid!)

the anxiety/fear only subsided when i realized who i was. for some time, there was this belief i held- that the ego was a part of Self's "power" (not too sure what word to use). only when i realized, that the mind could do its worst, and not impact the trajectory of THAT, anxiety subsided. of course, THAT is still observing a human body, so there will be times of fear/anxiety but the knowing that it is not truly "me", provides bliss. now i find it a bit fun when i am nervous. it is why we are all here! to experience life , and all of it's complex emotions while "waking up".

i am very sorry to hear that it has been hard for you though, anon:( anxiety really does feel like a thorn in your paw. just take it one day at a time, and do not put so much pressure on yourself to understand everything. remember, the mind cannot truly understand THAT. whenever you feel bouts of anxiety, let yourself feel it all. but know that it is not you. there is only the seemingly observed. the more you realize the body-mind are not you, the less you will seemingly feel bothered. if you ever wish for more in depth advice or just someone to talk to, please do not hesitate to reach out!! <3 you got this!!

#asks

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heymacy · 12 days

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hi! i haven’t seen mickeyless seasons so i wanted to ask if ian ever has issues about being bipolar like he did with mickey? like him breaking up in s5 for not wanting to see mickey hurt and s10 when he asks if he’s crazy for wanting to be with him! i think i read somewhere that caleb? maybe had a talk about self love or whatever to ian but that dude was horrendous ( not that trevor was best for what ive seen ) so im not sure that counts ahah

hi anon!

yes, ian grappling with his disorder is a very very big theme throughout seasons 6, 7, 8, and 9. in fact i would argue that aside from him becoming an EMT, the bipolar storyline is his most significant one (i typed out my response and it got very long so i'm going to put it below the cut 💛)

in s6 he is fresh off of the diagnosis, the breakup, and coping with mickey going to prison (and he was definitely trying to cope, he still loved him and seeing someone you love locked up is immeasurably hard. i feel like we don't talk about this enough). he feels very aimless and it isn't until an incident (he's a bystander to a car crash and rescues a woman from a burning vehicle) that he finds his new path (becoming an EMT, which he does by the end of s6). caleb was absolutely awful in so many ways but the one good thing he did do was encourage and support ian in finding a new life path, which is the only credit i will give him. there's also a deleted scene in s6 that is so, so important re: understanding how mentally ill people are viewed and treated in society and of course ian's monologue about how he's good at his job because of his illness, which is one of my favorite scenes in the entire show.

in s7, he's getting healthy again and taking his meds, but it isn't without struggle. there's a very poignant and important scene (part one, part two) with lip where he expresses his struggles with his disorder and how hard it is for him to cope with taking his meds and listening to the warning signs for episodes (he was behaving in ways akin to a hypomanic episode/showing signs of slipping into an episode just before the conversation happens). by the end of the season, after he leaves mickey at the border, he's still relatively stable, but the emotional triggers of leaving mickey behind + monica's death start to take a toll on him, which we see in s8. there's also the trevor of it all in s7, but that's a whole other issue. trevor did not have a positive impact on ian's self-esteem whatsoever and even went so far as to demand ian forgive monica and "move on" after knowing 0.1% of the history between the two of them. that scene in particular makes me unfathomably angry and i just know it was deeply, deeply triggering for ian to hear that from someone he cared about.

in s8, we have the gay jesus storyline, which i absolutely detest and hate to discuss, but it's part of his story and it needs to be acknowledged. he's taken advantage of a lot this season, propelled towards some sort of fucked up end goal with very little control over his circumstances, and it quickly spirals out of control. while the writers never explicitly state that ian is hypo/manic during this season, you can watch the progression happen if you pay close enough attention. despite not being given a lot to work with, cameron did a great job at playing the nuances of bipolar disorder this season, showing ian's descent into hypo/mania as the gay jesus movement grows and warps.

in s9, he's in prison for the first time and is noticeably manic. after being released, he starts seeking out meaning and purpose in religion. eventually he's forced to face the consequences of his actions and pleads not guilty to arson by reason of insanity, not only defying the wishes of the gay jesus followers (they feared him going public with his diagnosis and pleading insanity would delegitimize the movement) but also finally choosing to really acknowledge his disorder, reckon with it, and make peace with it, in a strange sort of way. it's a very important and pivotal moment for his character and cameron absolutely delivers during his plea monologue.

if you've see s10 you know how his self-worth takes a hit regarding the marriage storyline, and how he's so terrified of marrying mickey because 1) he doesn't know if he's capable of being a good partner because he doesn't feel like he had good examples of healthy marriage standards growing up and 2) he isn't sure mickey knows what he's signing up for re: his disorder and everything it entails. which, of course, is not the case, because mickey doesn't love him in spite of his disorder, he loves him completely, and his disorder is just a part of that. he wants all of him, always, and that's a huge plot point in s10 and s11 ("i gotta worry, you're my husband" scene my absolute beloved).

anyway. the short answer is that yes, ian spends a lot of time grappling with his disorder and the realities of life as a bipolar human. he deals with issues regarding his self-worth, his purpose, and his relationships. speaking as a bipolar individual, i can say with absolute certainty that coming to terms with your diagnosis is a long, arduous process that takes many years and a lot of commitment to achieve. it's not easy, and though the writers dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines in the show, they did a pretty damn good job of showing how hard it is to cope and live with the realities of bipolar disorder and everything that entails.

if you ever want to see more of his journey, gallavichscenes on youtube has playlists of all of ian's scenes in season 6, season 7, season 8, and season 9. i highly recommend watching the show in its entirety but if you don't want to do that, i recommend at the very least watching the rest of ian's storyline. it colors so much of his story and mickey's and it's hard to fully comprehend the extent of their relationship without understanding that storyline. i hope this answered your question! sending tons and tons of love 💛

#i hope this provided some clarity on his mindset and storyline!#if you have any other questions feel free to drop in any time 💛#macy babbles #anons

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mysisters-bike · 3 months

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not sure if this was asked yet but could dylan or eric possibly have been showing traits of bipolar disorder? (be it type 1 or 2) especially with dylan im curious

thanks for sending in an ask! i would say no to both. highs and lows are very normal for all human beings. the reason i say no is that neither of them were ever remarked as having manic episodes, which is a requirement for a bipolar diagnosis. TW: mentions of su*c*dal ideation

a reminder of my qualifications: i have a BA in psychology in MS in forensic psychology and work in a program for at-risk individuals.

for bipolar I, according to the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders 5 (aka the DSM-5, which is also accessible to any person interested in reading it), the patient must have a mood disturbance that causes social impairment or functional impairment. this can be categorized for both manic and depressive episodes. neither eric nor dylan had crashes this bad despite suicidality. even then, dylan was really the only one who mentioned suicidal ideation. eric’s desire was more for everyone to go, himself included. his writings are angry at the world rather than himself. the other criteria for bipolar I is full manic episodes, which are more extreme than bipolar II, which are defined by hypomanic episodes.

in addition to this, manic episodes for bipolar I diagnosis must last a minimum of 7 days.

for bipolar II, the patient must have had at least 1 hypomanic episode and depressive episode. hypomania is the diet version of mania, honestly. it shares traits with mania, but is less severe and still causes an impairment. again, neither eric nor dylan have a record of mania or hypomania. i am sure one would argue against me that eric and dylan talking about being “gods” are definitive of a manic delusion, but i would argue back that it was symbolic imagery more than it was delusion. neither of their personal reflections suggest a true belief of this, thus not indicating a real delusion/state of altered reality (in my opinion). while dylan’s writing is a little more mentally disturbed in this regard, his writings indicate desire more than they do belief. or perhaps, even more philosophical yearning.

in my opinion, again, neither of them have a record of demonstrated mania. that’s the biggest takeaway here because you cannot diagnose bipolar without the presence of both mania and depressive crashes. the reality of mental health and psychology is that it’s such an intricate science; so many mental illnesses share symptoms with one another that we need to do very precise work to ensure we’re not misdiagnosing patients. our biology, neurobiology, and life experiences all work together to form the ultimate impact we have on our personalities and thoughts. many small factors contributed to their violent conclusion.

based on the information we have regarding their environments, i feel more confident attributing their behavior to emotional neglect, attention-seeking, and falling victim to the egocentric teenage mind.

#dylan klebold #columbine #eric harris #true crime #true crime community

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alstroemerian-dragon · 27 days

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theres something that really bothers me about the way a lot of people talk about and write peko re: her place as fuyuhiko’s “tool,” especially when it comes to like. despair. and i feel like it stems from a few different places and one of those is definitely uh. distance from the source material. because. w. did we play the same game

like. the second trial is a lot of things. annoying. about the death of a character i dont really care about. kind of confusing. Very Sad At The End. but the one thing it shows beyond any shadow of a doubt is that peko Does Not Want To Be Fuyuhiko’s Tool. she leans into it a lot in that trial, past the stupid. serial killer shit. which is literally just desperation and quick thinking on her part (and non diagetically meant to parallel the first game but whatever). but she does that because it is the only option she thinks she has if she wants to keep fuyuhiko alive. because thats her ultimate goal, right? sure, she’s his tool. sure, theyre Badly and Unhealthily codependent. sure, she was basically groomed to stay at his side no matter what. but…

she also cares about him. genuinely. she loves him. for all that teenagers can properly conceive of love in all its forms, but she at least think she does. but she does truly care about him.

did anybody do her free time events other than me? genuine question. because i dont think someone who wants to ask the guy shes sworn to protect on a date would be content being just his tool. that sure sounds like someone who wants to be on equal footing with him.

like. look. say what you want about the anime. take it with a grain of salt. cherry pick what you like and toss the rest of it out. that sure is what i do!! but even if you do that, youve got to take the text of the game itself into account if you want to have any semblance of regular characterization, and the game makes it clear that she hates this!!! she doesnt want to be his tool! she will fight him on things if she has to! she will disobey him if she has to!!! thats the whole point of the trial!!!!! he told her to run and that he would take the fall and she told him no!!!!!!!!!

and you cant ignore the fact that the time between them starting at hope’s peak and the tragedy hitting the ground running was two whole years. people can change a lot in two years, especially teenagers, and especially high schoolers. idk how long its been since you were in high school (unless you currently are in which case. dear gd im so sorry. good luck) but your mental state in high school is so fucked. you have no idea who you are and neither does anybody else and can you even imagine the kinds of pressure the ultimates would have been under?? again, taking the anime with a grain of salt, but even if you go along with it and think the school was barely a school at all, the pressure from society, from family, from peers still has an impact. everyone was telling them who they were and that thats who they were going to be for the rest of their lives and i doubt ANY of them felt like it.

and even if you subscribe to the idea, like me, that their second year was a downward spiral because of junko’s presence and influence, they still needed somewhere to fall from. the idea that peko was uniquely comfortable being quiet and violent and doing whatever fuyuhiko wanted so she didnt need despair to be his tool is ridiculous. i see the argument of “well watching her friends fall into despair and spiral made her spiral in turn and grow numb to it and retreat into herself until she needed to become fuyuhiko’s tool again as a coping mechanism” but. buddy. That Is Despair.

sometimes i feel like the only person who thinks about despair complexly and maybe thats its own post because this ones too long already but. despair isnt just Being Brainwashed Into A Monster. ignore what the writers told you. okay? look at me. Look Into My Eyes. The Writers Are Fucking Idiots And Dont Know How To Write Good Drama With Genuine Stakes. despair as a nuanced concept is so much more horrifying. different post. sorry. peko.

if peko had not been pulled down by despair just like the rest of them she would have fought tooth and nail to keep fuyuhiko above it. she would have demanded he explain to her why he was doing what he was doing. and she would have told him no.

and of course heres where i get into the accusatory part because the other place a lot of this comes from is, and im sorry, an unwillingness to write complex or nuanced women. not pointing fingers, but reducing peko down into “fuyuhiko’s tool” and “she does whatever he says without question” completely destroys any minuscule amount of agency she has. shes a fucking person. yes, shes pixels on a screen. yes, shes a representation of tropes. but diagetically, within the fiction of the game, she is a human being, and if you want to write her, and not be puppeting around a gddamn cardboard cutout, you have to think of her as a person with agency who makes her own fucking choices. sometimes those choices are taken away from her. but they shouldnt be taken away by you.

#personal #long post #peko pekoyama #danganronpa #meta #okay thats it #sorry this is so fucking long. was thinking about this for the past hour and a half #AGAIN. NOT POINTING FINGERS. NOT STARTING SHIT. IM JUST SAYIN.#1) revisit the source material 2) think about women as people…#thats all i’ll say. the post about despair as a concept will have to wait for another day #i will talk about metal gear solid in it. im sorry.#okay gnight

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feathers-feathers · 8 months

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Bug Fables' deep lore is engaging in open warfare with my mental helath i swear to GOD I CAnt figure this tHE FUCK OUT IM GOING INSANE

Context: I'm trying to make a timeline. Bug fables took this personally.

The big question here that got me to break is what the fuck is the deal with Flower Gods? So I was writing an essay of sorts to try and figure it out as I go, then clean it up and post it when I came to a few satisfying conclusions, and maybe make a poll to see what others would prefer.

I have now lost at least a decade of my lifespan, and will be seeking reparations in the court of law. I'll post what I wrote below the cut, just be aware that it's not finished, will not be finished if I have a gun to my head, and jumps places every now and then because that's just how I roll in the drafting stage.

I hope to all the gods above that some of you can find sense where I have failed.

Beware: Here be dragons. (Also, it's quite long.)

BEGIN

Currently doing timeline shenanigans with Bug Fables. I learned something in the lore that will have a major impact in how that timeline manifests. The problem is that this lore detail isn't exactly straight-forward, and has multiple interpretations. I'd like to see some other thoughts on this matter before I make a decision. The lore in question is regarding the creation of the Flower Gods.

A reminder: There is a secret room in Snakemouth Den that displays information regarding the 3 Flower Gods. Prior to seeing this room, most I think didn't even know there were 3 - only knowing of Venus at the time. The other two are Mars and Pluto. These displays tell us a few things. Some information on the gods themselves: Venus is

Guardian: M-001 "Mars" Age: 361 Status: Stable

Guardian: V-012 "Venus" Age: 358 Status: Stable

Guardian: P-183 "Pluto" Age: 34 Status: Stable

This secret asks a whole bunch of questions and answers exactly none of them.

The first thought I see many people go to is that this, of course, confirms that the Roaches created them. However, there is dialogue from Venus herself stating "Ah, it still feels like it was yesterday when they were scurrying around the land trying to get stuff together!" Which doesn't say much, but sort of implies that she was around while the Roaches were still figuring things out.

But what about those designations, what do they mean? For something like this - and considering they all start with the first letter of the Guardian's name - I think it's, like, a version number.

If they were all created by the Roaches, then… wtf? So with Mars, they got it right on their very first try - congratulations, a fucking GOD is born - but their next Guardian took 12 attempts? What? And then Pluto took 183 attempts. And the time discrepancy is just…. weird. Wtf does this mean? The Roaches started off as the best scientists ever, getting everything correct on their first go, then suddenly dropping the ball off the face of the Earth and getting nothing right? For centuries? And after all of that, they consider the Sapling to be their greatest creation. Not any of the Actual Deities they supposedly made. And then they place two of these gods in… just… entirely different territories. Mars is in the Eastern lands. Lord knows where Pluto is, but not Bugaria, that's for sure. I do find this rather unpalatable.

If they weren't created by the Roaches - they were just studying them, trying to replicate their power - I think that fits some of this better. Especially that above quote by Venus. If she was around before the Roaches developed what they have now - the Roaches being the first bugs to awaken - then did she awaken before even them? If she - and, perhaps, Mars - were the first to awaken, then was the Day of Awakening only around 370 years ago? That would probably be the best case scenario for developing a timeline. It'd be the only True Date that can be nailed down, and make it a lot easier to place other dates around it by comparison.

But still… what's the deal with the version numbers? Perhaps the Guardians do not have true immortality, but ressurrective immortality? That would sort imply that Pluto might in fact be the first, and he's on his 183'd life. It would also mean that Mars would actually be the youngest of the gods. Despite being the oldest current version, he is still only on his First version - no deaths, no resurrections. This would also mean that Pluto died around the time the Roaches vanished. But also - if Pluto died 182 times prior to his current iteration… what the fuck kind of life is this guy living? Is he stuck in a death loop, wtf?

This is honestly just another discrepancy, to me. Lets be as conservative as possible and say that most of Pluto's lives were all around 30 years in length. This is so conservative as to be ridiculous, but let's just ignore that. 183 x 30 = 5490. That's Fucking Old - and I'm gonna say, just as ridiculous. Why, then, would the other two gods only have a few years of an age gap? This feels like a strong point towards the idea that the Roaches created them??? that the designations are version numbers before deployment and not ressurrective iterations???

Oh My God. What the fuck am I supposed to believe?

BREAK

This is where I officially gave up. I hate all of these ideas none of them are satisfactory. Bug Fables why do you hate me so muchae dsafsafgfghrdsgrdfeignbreoiatghnbfrabgifrhdfhdfghdfsghdfizghsregtbdfsgfcuigh

#bug fables #dear god help me figure this out #i havent slept for weeks #i missed so many calls #what year is it?#is silksong out yet?#long post #unfinished essay

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onlyplatonicirl · 1 year

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Errink word waterfall for no reason

I think when you really analyze just how absolutely fucked Errink can be, it becomes a very interesting dynamic

I know a lot of people who write them in super healthy nice relationships, and there's nothing wrong with that, fluff heals the soul.

But let's assume we're going off their more canon-ish personalities, and see logically how that plays out.

(This may lean a bit into personal interpretation so if you don't think its accurate, remember im not comyet or CQ and errink isn't canon anyways lololol. I just love my hypotheticals.)

Ink is driven mostly by his drive to stay alive, to feel emotion, and to not be forgotten. He wants validation, he treats emotions and feelings like a drug, and will seek them out anywhere he can find them. This state of soullessness can occasionally drive him to make morally unethical decisions in his pursuit of feeling and entertainment. It is not out of bounds to call him selfish at all. He is extremely selfish, whether he wants to admit it or not. His emotions can impact who he is as a person. Most of his life he's aroace but if he downs a vial of pink stuff then he'll have love hearts in his eyes because he doesn't work the same way people with souls do. He is at the whim of his paints, and while he can keep himself stable, he can also mentally alter his state of mind however he pleases, which is an incredibly scary ability.

(Side note: When i wrote the tcoti chapter when ink was acting like a lunatic over error, I had a few people be like "Lorel this feels out of character, Ink wouldn't behave like that." YES!!! That is extactly the point!!!! He has full control over his own emotional state, and therefore his mental state. He can manipulate himself into a wildly different person if he so chooses, and he literally chose to douse himself in pink out of guilt to the point he could no longer think straight anymore and his whole thought process was clouded with an extreme, unnatural, and manic sense of obsessive love. Him being out of character was precisely the point, and something I absolutely love about Ink.)

Now moving onto Error:

Error is a manbaby, Error is incapable of a lot of empathy, and has this absolutely insane murderous mentality that literally results in mass deletions of entire universes and civilizations. His actions are absolutely monstrous, and I feel like a lot of fans overlook just how wildly evil a lot of his actions. Does he have an excuse? Sure - he's completely insane. Spending so much time in an anti-void that corrupts whatever's in it past repair can definitely have some ill affects on your mental health and world views. He cannot be touched, he cannot socialize with others without trying to intimidate them, and he does not have any friends. Well, anyone that he genuinely has a friendship with anyways besides generally tolerating. For the most part, he is alone, left to knit and watch TV. Despite his actions being abhorrent when it comes to his disregard of other character's lives, he's clearly not without feeling. He is shown to care about others on occasion, he does genuinely like a few people enough to not want to kill them, and he enjoys trash tv. He has a very distinct personality. He's not a complete monster, but is not really the most friendly and approachable guy either. Plus, not to mention what being alone for years and years on end can do to your social skills. Now put the two of them together.

Ink would find Error to be absolutely fascinating. Ink, when on a default emotional palette, is a pretty friendly guy, and really likes making connections. (Again, for selfish reasons of entertainment? Very possible.) Why wouldn't he want to make a connection with such an utterly unique character, one who's personality and morals are unlike any other he's come across? Error would hate him, of course he would - Ink directly interferes with his plans of absolute destruction, and Error interferes with Ink's. The two cannot coexist peacefully. They are each other's antithesis.

But imagine time passing. Years, decades. How long do you think Error can continue to sit in a white void of silence before it starts wearing him away? It's already sandpapered his mind into a mangled mess of what it once was, but no one can be alone for so long. Error never seems to make any progress destroying the universes. More pop up than he can destroy. Not to say he doesn't try - what else can he even do if not that? Even with his narcissistic and temperamental behavior, would it really be a stretch to say that he may eventually start to fade, to become lonely, to start rethinking the ideologies of destruction he's had since he can remember waking up in this blank space? Would it be out of character for him to begin to feel a gnawing at his soul, wondering what will become of him one day? a deeply subconscious craving for any type of positive presence in his life - a friend, a family, someone who loves him whether that be romantic, platonic, familial. Those with souls naturally wish to seek affection. There is only so long one can go spending their whole lives alone and without any type of affection or anything. How long can you spend knowing you are utterly despised by so so so many?

And Ink? He's found that spending time with Error has been emotionally fulfilling him in a way he never thought possible. new experiences combine emotions into something new, something more diverse and broad than simply "happy" or "sad" or "mad", like a elementary schooler's mood chart. He's found a comfort in someone who's outcasted and unique for it, just like he is. While they don't have the same problem, Error has no qualms with his lack of soul, just as Ink has no qualms with is horrid crimes. Ink gets hooked on this feeling of new emotional bonds. They're like the connecting of neurons that had not previously been attached, lighting up an entirely sperate pathway in a brain. It's addicting. So Ink wants to try something new. Something he's never tried before, and something he thinks will utterly shake the course of his world - an brand new form of enjoyment, to fill up the emotional void in his chest and fall back on his endearing opposite.

And Error, maybe Error's willing to go along with it, after spending so long alone, maybe he's just happy someone genuinely cares.

Ink promises him a happier life, one where he can be truly happy instead of truly being miserable. Error isn't entirely sure about it but agrees anyways. They both take it slow.

But underneath their relationship lies two extremely flawed, manipulative, and selfish creatures, sucking the life out of one another to stop the leaks in their own boats. And they're not quite sure if it's even working.

#errink #errorink #this is my personal analysis of their relationship #and why i think it can work if you take the time to understand #the relationship two characters with these personalities may have #again im not cq or comyet so if you want to disagree with me more power to you lmao #this is how i envision their relationship in tcoti btw #they're both so fucked up and then they make it everyone else's problem

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What’s the list? I also have trouble with telling the difference between needing to isolate or needing to clean my room

my mental health checklist for when im in the thick of it

- am i physically taken care of (for me this is 3 catergories. hair (is it brushed / detangled), skin (have i washed my face / do i need to wash it again), general shower (when was the last time i took a good shower)

- is my space taken care of? (room cleanliness basically. can i see my floor? do i have more than 6 bottles or cans in my room? are my bedsheets dusty / do i need to vaccum? does it smell etc.)

it doesn’t have to be an indepth clean every time, but usually the state of my room will greatly effect what im going through so little life changes are important for me

- have i eaten in the last 3 hours? and if i have has the meal had any protein or fat/fibre? sometimes you can only manage ramen but like throwing some egg in there is more than enough to make sure i dont fall through the floor

- subcategory but also hydration. but i actually do a decent job of that 🙏🏽

- do i need sensory stimulation / suppression ? the above often interacts with this category to some degree. but sometimes i need to stim or be in a low sensory room. soft blankets, noise canceling headphones, low lights and chewlery / fidget. sometimes its noise and vibrating my vocal chords or tearing up cardboard. depends on the day

- do i need fresh air? for me thats sitting on my balcony for 15 or talking a walk. you need vitamin d and outside time. related but physical activity (pilates is low energy and gets me out of bed)

- have i masturbated recently 🤞🏽 it is just something that quells the agony and such

- have i spoken or interacted with anyone other than myself today etc and have i taken my meds

it’s important to understand that this list isnt like. i need to do all of this to be mentally okay. but if ik really going through something in the moment, it is indefinitely going to be worsened / exacerbated if some area of my life is especially riddled with neglect. its not usually possible for me to do everything to completion

but my mental breakdowns impact can be softened if i smell okay and ive slept a bit. if ive put on good lotion and charged my vibrator. they’re not fixes

but you can only approach your problems if youve taken care of your base needs and can view yourself with some humanity and not as a shadow monster. which seems counterproductive because thats often the hardest thing to do but unfortunately doing these things with all your remaining effort is the only way to rebuild your stamina for being alive. if ive done all of the above and im still in the throes- then i know i need to step back from everything

but almost always everything is more managable when im able to tackle one of these small tasks. sometimes it takes me days if not weeks but it gives me answers or a distraction. its my full proof system lol

#return to sender

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mikokiara · 1 year

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Taco and mic have always been interesting to me i remember this certain post made by this person that atleast its name in discord is petra

And i respect it so much because the way it sees taco and mic relationship its just amazing and i have a huge admiration for it

So im just gonna start quoting this

"Do you ever think snakes regret being snakes?"

Absolutely

Obviously im not talking about literal snakes but more likely to taco

Do i think taco regrets being who she is right now? And my answer is yes, her regret is clear as the water itself

Taco had everything, an huge chance of winning, a 'friend' the viewers liking in her words she was made to win, for then everything crumble down making her show her true colors

And then. . .isolating herself in the forest for presumably two fucking years,two years without somebody, only herself alone in the woods,having to carry with regret and guilt of her own actions and then something happened

Maybe. . .a second chance?

-taco & mic's relationship and how important mic was for her

Now lets enter to their relationship and how mic had an slight impact to taco, let me explain

Taco and mic started not really good, taco saw mic as nothing more but a pawn somebody who had to be 'guided' but mic changes that vision of her rather quickly as she showed her manipulation skills thing that taco respected making her start to get more comfortable around taco, she didn't saw her as a pawn anymore she started to get along with her and even tried to cheer her up in her own strange way in short words she was slowly getting attached to her allowing herself to get comfortable around her and starting to slowly act more like actual partners

And then here comes, 'mine your own bussiness' now this episode was important for their relationship, 'why?' you may ask and its simple. This was the point where their relationship got stronger before the disaster

And its because mic's reaction to taco's past, she wasn't really concerned about her actual past or pickle situation, she was concerned for taco because she knows how much she regrets her actions, all thanks to the portal scene, she finally started to connect the dots, she started to understand the story and started being sympathetic with her she saw her as more, she didn't saw her only as some kind of greedy unredeemable person, she saw more in her she trusted her and taco

Taco saw that

And appreciated that because

No one did that to her in a long time, nobody standed up for her before in a long time, she for once after so long finally had somebody who apreciated her like mic did

Thing that makes mic leaving even sadder for her, because after so fricking long she had somebody by her side for then everything being thrown down the bride like nothing

Only one mistake

And that was what doomed everything

That clearly leave an impact on her

Mic leaving hurted her im pretty sure even more than pickle

Because mic got her, mic took the small time for understand her and her behavior and see through her rough shell (pun intended)

Somebody for first time after so long inside her life wasn't inmediatly pushed away by her real self

For then that person to go away leaving her alone isolated and hurt

-taco and her obsession with inanimate insanity + how the show fucked up her mental state

Now one of the parts i wanted to get in the most

for show how badly fucked up this woman mental health is

I had this thought for a long while that taco had this so called 'obsession' with the game, which is one of the reasons of her behavior

And i feel this obsession comes from the fact that she had and has nothing else, inanimate insanity became her entire life, inanimate insanity its the only thing she have left add that the fact that mic left

She has nothing to lose anymore, her only purpose is to win, that's the only way she feel she could get her happy ending, the ending that was never there for her, inanimate insanity now is her only chance, the only chance she got for fix her fucked up life and mental health, despite those ways clearly not being the solution

I might be overthinking this? Yes but if you think about it makes sense

After all, the show again is the only thing taco has left in her miserable life, she had been living in the woods for presumably 2 years

she already lost everything

She cant lost the only thing she has left

And if you think about it, the entire situation its really fucked up, inanimate insanity screwed up her mental health

Just like everybody, she suffered as much as any other contestants in this god forsaken show

This game has been ANYTHING but healthy for her

But there she is, still sticking to her plan hurting everybody including herself in the process for the only chance she probably has

And the situation becomes even worst if we consider the posibility that theres no prize

-possible 'retirement'

I really hope taco gets a redemption arc, this show hasn't been healthy for her and she really needs a rest from it but i feel this might also be hard

Taco is a pretty big sturborn and i dont think she'll be really wilding to listen to anyome at all EXCEPT for the only person that could possibly care about her

Dont get me wrong i would love see tacobulb interactions in ep 15 but it makes sense mic being the only one that taco will be wilding to listen to, because again, mic saw taco as more than some greedy unredeemable person, she thought she could change she gave her a chance

So it wouldn't be a surprise if she actually listens to the only one who gave her that chance, the one that didn't inmediatly pushed her away the one that means something for her the only one who listened to her

And that person is mic

Hopefully taco will finally leave the show for good because then again the show hasn't been good for her own mental healt, and she seriously needs to leave it if she really wants to become better

She needs to move on to the next stage, the stage she never could reach, she will have a chance for reach it

And even though im 99% she'll do one final mistake before finally move on, i hopr she can take that opportunity and finally have her happy ending because honestly she deserves a break

#ii microphone #inanimate insanity #tacophone #ii taco #taco inanimate insanity #ii lightbulb #inanimate insanity lightbulb #microphone inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity spoilers #inanimate insanity season 2 #taco ii #please ignore my horrible grammar

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let-us-meet-aga1n · 9 months

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100 questions about tremolo (my platonic tc) answered!!! PART 2!!!

50. Do you think your feelings for them will fade once they’re not your teacher anymore? i think he'll always be someone who i'll remember. he's made a huge impact on my life, so i genuinely don't believe i could forget him.

51. Have they ever complimented you? YES. SO MANY TIMES HE'S THE SWEETEST-

52. Have you ever hugged them? YEAH SO MANY TIMES AS WELL IT'S LIKE THE MOST PARENTAL HUG EVER TOO IM 😭

53. Have you ever given them a gift? If yes, how did they react? well, i wrote him a valentines note, and before you go off on your merry way it is NOT the valentines note you're thinking. our school had us write one note to a teacher for valentines day as an appreciation kinda thing. you could only do one. i chose tremolo. BUT BUT BUT he gave me a gift heheheheh- well, technically not a gift, but oh well- i had a really shitty bow in 7th grade and he was all "you are too good of a violinist for that crappy of a bow. here, you can borrow mine" and i just??? never gave it back???? HE ACTUALLY COMMENTED ON IT LAST YEAR (9TH GRADE WAS THE FIRST TIME HE NOTICED LMAOOOOO) AND WAS LIKE "wait is that my bow?!" AND I SAID "yeah 😭 you told me i could use it in 7th grade and i didn't know if or when i should give it back so i just kept it 😭" AND HE WENT "OH MY GOD- you know what? you just keep it. it's yours at this point..."

54. Do you ever dream about your TC? i've had a few dreams, but they were all really sad or weird

55. What is your favorite dream you’ve had so far regarding your TC? bro took the orchestra to his house to meet his mom for some wacky reason and made up put on an impromptu concert for her 💀 (his mom lives 6 states away from us)

56. Do you ever daydream about your TC? If yes, what do you daydream about the 2 of you doing together? hm, not really??? i mean, i've pictured in my mind what he'd be like as a father but that's it.

57. What is your happiest memory with them? OKAY ALL OF THESE ARE REALLY SAD WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT BUT IT SHOWS WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH- IT'S A THREE WAY TIE 1. this one was in nashville and i'll never forget it. it was like 10:30 at night and we had all just gotten back from dinner. in fact, i was the only one still up in my room (there were 3 other girls besides me). i had gotten a text on my phone, and guess who? tremolo. i had no clue why he was texting me until i saw the content of the text. (context: my friends had been concerned about me committing sui in nashville, because i had lowkey implied that i wanted to) he was like "hey, how are you doing? be fr with me... mental health and whatnot is important and i just wanna make sure you're okay." i then said "this is an obligation text, isn't it? did *the name of our principal* text you about my friends?" he had no clue that i knew that happened, but my parents already chewed me out on the phone for it, so there's that. he replied with "not obligation. in fact, they told me to not say anything about it and just keep an eye on you, but i know you better than they do, and you're pretty honest when someone's concerned, so what's going on?" me and him stayed up until 1 am just back and forth texting... it was... comforting to say the absolute bare minimum. it was nice to know that someone genuinely cared about my life. he never left my side during that trip. he was so determined for me to have a good time and NOT die so it was nice...

THE LAST TWO ARE RELATED TO WHAT THAT SON OF A BITCH DID TO ME (clover) 2. so, after she completely cut contact, i was having the biggest breakdown of my life. like, a 3 hour cry session. in the middle of school. it was bad. luckily, tremolo let me stay in his class for the whole time, and was always checking in on me. all he did was offer me a place to go, sit and listen, and make me feel less shitty, and that made such a difference... like genuinely, the best thing in the world, and the thing i needed 3. (TW: SUI DO NOT GO FURTHER IF HEAVILY TRIGGERED BY IT) so after the whole clover thing, we all know what happened. i attempted suicide. i was going to call my therapist as a last resort, but she was in the middle of a session, so i couldn't. i then decided my final call would be to the only person who was on my side through all of this, tremolo. i told him i was sorry, and i thanked him for everything he had done for me. he started getting panicky going "cas, where are you. i need to know, now." i hung up when he started asking and started climbing up the ladder to the school roof, and about halfway up, i heard a voice shout "GET DOWN HERE!!!" it was the vice principal and the school counselor. i got down the ladder as the counselor walked me to her office. on the way there, i saw him pacing the hallways anxiously, and when he saw me, his face lit up as he ran over to me and hugged me. he went "THANK GOD YOU'RE OKAY..." apparently, he called the counselor and vp in a panic. he was the one who saved my life that day. thank you so much, tremolo...

58. What is your least favorite memory with them? WILL NEVER FORGET THIS ONE. HE NEVER YELLS AT STUDENTS, BUT BOY WAS HE PISSED THIS DAY. my 8th grade ass decided to go against being a second for once in my life. i wanted to play the 1st violin part to one of our songs, but he wouldn't let me. he never said why, he just wouldn't let me. i assumed that he thought i wasn't good enough, so what did i do? i memorized the first violin part and played it instead of the second. i carried the second violins, because none of they were accurate or loud enough to make a difference, so i was basically the entire second section. he was already pissed that day, and i didn't know that. he handed us the sheet music, and i started playing the first part. at the beginning of the song, while conducting, he said "SECONDS?! LOUDER." and then he realized why they were so quiet. because i wasn't playing second. in the middle of the piece, he screamed "AND SUDDENLY, WE HAVE NO SECONDS. THANKS, CASPIAN. SCREWED UP THE WHOLE PIECE" i bawled my eyes out in the bathroom after that, and couldn't even look him in the eye when i left his class. the next time he saw me, he apologized profusely, because it was not what he intended to do or say at all. yeah i hate that memory, but hey, he said me being so eager to take first was what got me moved up in 9th grade, so good job for being a rebellious son of a bitch, 8th grade me.

59. What’s your favorite thing that you’ve heard your TC say? "with all the love in my heart, shut up."

60. Has your TC ever yelled at you? If yes, why did they yell at you? see question 58

61. Has your TC ever made you cry? If yes, what did they do? see question 58

62. Have you ever dressed up just to impress your TC? no, but i did put on a taylor swift cardigan with him in mind! he commented on how every free dress day we had i wore taylor swift merch, so the next free dress day, i wore taylor swift merch. (i go to a private school, so we wear uniforms)

63. Have you ever done anything to impress your TC? If yes, what did you do? How did your TC react? oh, yes. i've done a bajillion things to impress him as a violinist, although, the biggest thing is yet to be done. i'm composing music for our school's fall play, and hopefully, it'll impress him a lot...

64. Have you ever created a TC playlist? no, actually! i usually do, but i haven't yet.

65. Have you ever wrote a secret love note to your TC? no

66. Have you ever written a poem about your TC? about him specifically? no. about the orchestra? yes.

67. Have you ever written a song about your TC? yep! nashville will never be forgotten.

68. If known, is your TC left wing or right wing? I GENUINELY CANNOT TELL WITH THIS DUDE. HE IS AS CHRISTIAN AS IT GETS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IS SO LIBERAL ABOUT IT?!?!??! LIKE BRO WHAT ARE YOU THINKING LEFT OR RIGHT 😭

69. If known, does your TC support gay marriage? yep!! he supports lgbtq+ rights in general (INCLUDING TRANS RIGHTS LET'S GOOOOO (he uses preferred pronouns and names for students which is so, so good))

70. If known, does your TC support abortion? don't know

71. If known, what does your TC think of cannabis use? he hates drugs!!! so no!!

72. If known, what does your TC think of age gap relationships? don't know

73. What is a film you’d love to watch with your TC? not necessarily a film, but i'd love to watch twoset violin with him some time just to get his reaction.

74. What is a TV show you’d love to watch with your TC? none?? not a huge tv person.

75. What is a band or singer you’d love to listen to with your TC? we both have a thing for 90s rock so really any of it

76. What is a country you’d love to visit with your TC? EUROPE. TO PLAY IN LONDON. AHHHHHHHH. I'D LOVE OUR ORCHESTRA TO PLAY IN LONDON BUT YK IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN. A KID CAN DREAM THOUGH

77. What is an event that you’d love to be with your TC for? any sort of orchestra concert

78. What is a video game you’d love to play with your TC? I WANNA SEE HIM PLAY A RHYTHM GAME. SPECIFICALLY PROJECT SEKAI.

79. If you were going to have a picnic with your TC, where would you like to go for it? is no an option? that sounds romantic and no <3

80. If you were going on a date with your TC, what would you like to do with them? no <3

81. What famous person reminds you of your TC? hmmmmm... honestly, he reminds me of brett from twoset if he was younger and a 'cellist 😭

82. What movie character reminds you of your TC? i don't watch movies that often, so idrk??

83. What cartoon character reminds you of your TC? also, don't watch cartoons that often

84. What game character reminds you of your TC? UGH I CAN'T THINK OF ONEEEE

85. If your TC was an animal, which one would they be and why? dog, because of how sweet and caring and loyal he is.

86. If your TC was a fruit, which one would they be and why? strawberry. sweet, and everyone likes him

87. If your TC was a candy, which one would they be and why? laffy taffy, and only because they have all the really corny bad jokes on the back 😭 he makes those all the damn time

88. If your TC was a drink, which one would they be and why? honestly, not sure-

89. If your TC was transported to a fictional world, which world do you think would fit them best? your lie in april. don't ask why, i just think he would be really good there...

90. If you could say one thing to your TC, what would it be? thank you for all you do... you have no clue how much you've impacted my life for good and you're genuinely the best mentor i could ever ask for. i will never forget you

91. If you could ask your TC any question, what would you ask them? have you struggled with mental illness because you seem to know so much about it without ever showing signs of it.

92. If you could give any item to your TC, what would it be? there was like a huge rosin we found in nashville that was like $300. but we joked around and said we should buy it as "communal rosin." if i had the funds, i would get the communal rosin. maybe that's a senior gift i give to leave my legacy on our school's orchestra! ykw now i want to...

93. If you could choose your TCs outfit for the day, what would you pick for them?

94. Have you told any of your friends how you feel about your TC? mhm! all of my friends know that i see tremolo in a father kinda way

95. Have you told any of your family how you feel about your TC? ABSOLUTELY NOT

96. Does your TC know how you feel about them? yes, actually! i told him how he was like a father figure to me and he's like "everyone that grows up in our orchestra... i feel like i'm their parent in a way, like, you know, when i watch them walk across the stage i cry as if they were my child..." WHICH IS SO SWEET AWWWWW

97. Do you enjoy being part of the TCC yes yes yes!! it's very comforting knowing i'm not crazy

98. Do you feel that being part of the TCC has impacted your life? If yes, how so? it's made me find people who support me and don't tear me down at these kinda thoughts. thank you guys so much!!!

99. Are you scared your TCC blog might be discovered? oh absolutely! and if he does, uh hi tremolo hope i've driven home the point of *PLATONIC* well enough for you to not be weirded out or something. anyways, thanks for being there. i appreciate you tons!

100. If you could give people in the TCC one piece of advice, what would it be? please please please... never be afraid to let your tc know how much you care about them. if they hear how much they've impacted your life, it'll mean the world to them

#🎼.mp3 #tc blog #tc community #tcc feelings #tcc tumblr #tccblr #tcc struggles #tcc thoughts #platonic teacher crush #platonic tc

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emperornero · 1 year

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combining the two ask games ive been tagged in recently so everything is in one place 👍👍 anyone who sees this can do it and tag me as the one who made you do it idk thank you for tagging me ^_^

1 - tagged by @evecc

are you named after anyone? - i assume this question is more of a ‘are you named after your grandparent or some famous person’ but im in this weird place where YES all of my names come from other “people” but its not in the traditional way lol . ive been using axel as a first name for about 5 years now and it comes from my old original character. yes im named after an oc. nero is obvious. theo is more of a joke than something i would consider going by irl but its from a video game character

what was the last time you cried? - today yayy

do you have kids? - no and i never want to be a parent if i have the choice

do you use sarcasm a lot? - no and i dont understand it and i often struggle with obvious jokes both through text and irl. my brain is fucked and even if something has been stated before to be a joke i usually dont remember it

what sports do you play/have played? - i used to swim before hitting puberty. now im not comfortable with anything and once again my mental issues dont make it as fun as it could be

whats the first thing you notice about people? - if its a physical trait its probably clothing. i will look at the colors and try to remember what someone is wearing to remember them better

eye color? - dark brown

scary ending or happy ending? - depends on the media but happy is nice :]

any special talents? - i dont think i have any .

where were you born? - small random city in poland

what are your hobbies? - digital art and ancient rome are my main . i also like learning about pokemon [the competitive scene and its changes more specifically]. other than that i always enjoyed studying biology

do you have pets? - a kitty named kefir and a dog named toro. the latter is unfortunately very old and is having health issues caused by that. ive been preparing for his death for the last weeks but i think im more calm about it now. hes doing ok but i know it will happen soon..

how tall are you? - 6 feet / 180+ cm. i slouch a lot due to my chest so its not always visible.

favourite subject in school? - biology and latin

dream job? - i used to really want to be a dentist but honestly i dont know. mental problems impact my view of the future a lot and im not sure what im even capable of doing anymore

2 - @theromaboo

relationship status - taken :]

favourite color - all shades of purple and tyrian purple

song stuck in head - pizza tower ost unexpectancy part 3

last song ive listened to - scatterbrain by radiohead

three favourite foods - mcdonalds nuggets . salmon. garlic bread

last thing i googled - its literally all just polish to english translations for words i dont remember lol

dream trip - ancient roman sites in italy again but this time i actually have some time to see stuff instead of being in a group aaghfg

anything i want right now - freedom ?

#tagged #sorry for this taking a while

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