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alpona · 1 year

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Geats episode 13 liveblog:

- Has Ace reeeally not suspected Giroli being the game master yet, I wonder.

- 'just the concierge', yah right.

- 'Why save the world for so long, and still be hated?'

Yeah Ace-kun, why?

Why do we turn out as the bad one even after everything? Why are some people just meant to be the antihero protagonist? 🙂

(I'm sorry, having way too relatable existential dread right at the start of the episode... Excuse me. No wonder I get Ace.)

- obviously scared that Ace is trying to unravel DGP's secret. You've got a lot more to worry about game master-san, pretty soon many more riders will figure out how suspicious DGP is.

- hmm but eliminating and erasing Ace's memories should'nt be the solution, Ace made a wish to participate in every game, so unless DGP just ignores the wishgranting rule or whatever, their only option is murder.

- Tsumuri's saga of not being fully on board continues. So, let's guess which episode is she gonna go against game master? When is she gonna henshin?

- Keiwa back in the opening lineup, and his demeanor changed a lot from the first arc, more matured. Ah, sweet character development!

- his uniform's shirt also changed to cyan instead of the previous green.

- Ooo finally game master talky talky to the mad botanist! And sure, strong monsters do create interesting action, episodes, he's talking like a viewer 🤣

- Neon's father answering just like a typical father.... Or at least what I've known. Man, too much relatability this episode!

- congrats to Keiwa's temporary job, and his love for tanuki soba! If this is a food commercial, I'm sold!

- mystery about this red hat girl, interesting.

- punkjack directly attacking geats now. So they removed no fighting each other rule for him? Sure, that's what they'd totally do!

- This is probably the most vulnerable we've seen Ace.

- Even punkjack isn't spared from driver hijack, haha

-how do you keep doing this 'teleport stealing', kid? But thanks to this, we get to see rare n awesome unmorphed fights!

- Neon using her fanbase for info, of course, very useful, Misora says hi. Good thing she didn't get lost with misinformation.

- lol, using zombie so much made you do zombie gestures normally too, Michinaga?

- I like how the tables have turned here, the weaker players, Neon and Keiwa are in a stronger position than the stronger ones, huhu!

- And Keiwa's return re-establishes the status quo (Michinaga not acting so heroic again, hehe)

- teamwork? Overconfidence? Your keiwa-fied dialogue makes me cry, Ace-kun!

- but you're gonna trick Keiwa and take his driver now, right? No? Ok....

- More unmorphed fight yayy! Ace getting more beaten up yayy... Err I mean oo nooo...

-the world's against you Ace-kun....

- now Tycoon protecting unmorphed Ace, thats a nice parallel.

- New DGP staff, interesting. Are they the board/council kinda member, Game master's senior?

- Wait, they're NOT against Ace?? Ehhh?! Woah!

- aha, so you're gonna nicely ask for Keiwa's driver now, such improvement.

- Keiwa-kun and I both: just the face? Well well, this is what you'd call minimalist design lol

- And the full command twin buckle debut. I personally found the sword action much cooler.

- Ace-kun too nice these days, returning the driver exactly within few minutes, plus giving away the new buckle too.... At least secure the driver before being nice!

Am I the only one left being the antihero protagonist of my own story.... Er... Umm.. ignore the last line. Sorry.

- new DGP guy seems like another interesting character. And he does seem to have more authority than game master, once again, I'm eager to know how they work. And it's very interesting how even they're not on the same page, wow.

I miss the sly fox, not-so-nice Ace! And next week, game master henshins and possibly reveals his identity?

Well, I've been waiting for Ace to 'die' at least once pretty soon, (wow I say that so casually) and Christmas episode isn't too far, with how things are going, so....? Hm? Can we assume that?

#kamen rider geats #kr geats #ukiyo ace #geats liveblog #geats spoilers #sakurai keiwa #kamen rider punkjack

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cookiescr · 11 months

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Goodness, they are both mad at me and ignore me now. Instead of just telling me I went overboard with my tantrum, like they always do with others. Like we play an online game together and it’s been hard for everyone in the past weeks, I lashed out and had my stupid tantrum bc some ppl just couldn’t follow directions or read in general before they ask the same question for the 100th time. Lmao now I don’t even feel bad about the whole stuff, I don’t deserve to be treated like that if they don’t even ask or tell me before. Like when they had their super low phases, i took always time to check and tried to distract from the pressing matters. But when it’s me who is bad off, then it doesn’t matter and they get mad at stupid act outs.. Sorry I had to vomit my feelings on that haha. Had to find out over someone else telling me, it got me kinda mad. Pff „friends“

Are you ill?

When’s the trip planned btw?

You mean what I prefer to use for myself or for you? I’m confused lol. What about girlbro just fused for u lol

Yeah I’ve already been in Disneyland there! Loved it. This time I’m planning to do more of a museum and culinary visit, plus some clubbing probably. And my friend wants to check out the city, bc she prob will do some overseas Semester there at university

They didn’t like let you know that they were mad and you only found out through someone else?? No worries and also like are y’all cooling off rn

Oh hmm we’re still monitoring it but i might have some kinda hyperthyroidism which may be the cause why i can’t gain weight and also my fast af beating heart

It was supposed to be a few weeks ago but i kept getting postponed and now i have no like specific date

Oh i mean what you prefer sorry for the confusion ksjksm also ye I’m cool with girl or bro or girlbro

:OO hope ur able to try lots of tasty cuisine and go to really interesting museums. How’s the clubbing scene in hong kong? (Idk if im using this phrase right i don’t really go clubbing) oh like some kinda exchange student program?

#I’m ngl I would be upset too if they favor other people and give them more passes like it seems a bit unfair #tho idk the whole context like #what do u okan on doing #osa #thanks for the ask #anon #also kinda funny i originally went to the doctors because i thought i might have experienced heart attack #because chest pain and neck hurting and shit #but i most likely was just paranoid

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beecherdrysdale · 3 years

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Hehe yessss some screaming will be going on here!! Oo yess we live to make people jealous lol. Plus this group has some cute guys ;). Okkk we will not bring the megaphone I promise!! I don’t want you to be mad at us hehe. Is it weird that I am imagining all of this in my head, just all of squeezing each other and hitting each other lol. “Lexi, I can’t feel my hand” “suck it up” and I would squeeze harder lol. Poor quinner is suffering hehe. I’m sorry I just get nervous. Lmao who would be the person who would look away and ask is it over yet because they are to scared to look lol.

Yessss we love Jamie but Dylan is way more solid, Oo he can grab your thighs 😏😏. I think I might go on Braden cuz he’s also solid. Are you sure you want me on your shoulders?. You can go on mine too:) yesss a festival would be so fun ! Like my brother went to Coachella w his friends and I was so jealous because it looked so fun . We can all wear cute fits, lol the boys would be in like sleeveless shirts and shorts and wearing backwards baseball hats or visors hehe. We would dance and all of that!!

Okkkk so Dylan and Jamie are on distraction duty!! Gotta make sure that you don’t over think your race. Dw you are not the only one who overthinks lol , literally before a match I’m crazy. Hehe yes all they wanna do is please you so they don’t wanna get you angry. Ryan and I will also not chirp you, so take this as a gift hehe. We love chipotle and applesauce. Idk I always eat an omelette before I play and then an energy bar. Costco is funnnn.

Are you sure you don’t wanna wear it? Jkjk it’s up to you :) look Canada has some good restaurants that are only in Canada but I don’t like a lot of them. Other than that we have some good restaurants that I can take you too:).

I want this jump hug to happen please. Yayyyy A team jump hug!! It would be chaotic and I can see you being squished in the middle.

Hehe okkk I’ll be looking for you in the stands!! I won’t be as fun tho, I’m probably doing my 30 min warm up lol . Please swear it’ll brighten up my match hehe. It would probably be Ryan who gets hit in the face because we gotta keep up being chaotic. And it would be really funny. I’ll give quinner a kiss later ;)).

ok yes i love all of this, and it’s going to be another long post lmao. also i’m kind of trying to organize it and put stuff that goes together by each other so i didn’t respond to the paragraphs in order just a warning

lmaooo i can just hear it, all of you guys screaming in the stands. like before my race when i’m behind the blocks you guys better be screaming bc once i’m in the pool i can’t hear you lol. and i’ll make all the other girls on my team jealous bc i have a lot of cute guys there cheering for me. lol i can just imagine looking up in the stands at you guys and you’re just all pushing each other around and hitting each other bc you think the other people are squeezing too hard. hehe poor quinner, i’m sorry that he has to suffer so you can watch my meet lmao. ok i feel like dyl acts so tough but then once i’m swimming he doesn’t want to watch bc he’s like what if she does bad and he’s actually really nervous lol

hehe yes i need dyl and jamie to distract me so i’m not thinking too much about my race. haha they have to be extra careful to annoy me bc i need to be ready to swim. haha thank God, i’m finally getting a break from your and ryan’s chirping lmao. yesss chipotle and applesauce slap honestly. ooooh i love omelettes too. yesss costco is the best, i literally told my mom i want to go on a costco date one time bc free food and they have the fun massage chairs lmao

ok yes now we have to make this jump hug happen. and then the whole team would join and it would be so chaotic lmao. and i would just be squished in the middle and i would just be like ok you guys have to let me out now i want to go take off my tech suit

lmao nooooo i will never wear a canada jersey i’m sorry. you have to learn to seperate the boys from the team lmao. please take me to canadian restaurants, i don’t know how different they’d be than american restaurants but i want to try them

hehe yes look for us up in the stands, i’m sure we’ll be easy to find lol. it’s ok that you have long warmups, for swim we have 30 min warmups too but there are usually 2 or 3 groups so it can take up to like 1.5 hours. yesss we’ll definitely be swearing in the stands, the other people there will probably hate us lmao, but they can suck it. lmaoooo i can just see ryan getting hit in the face, i would just die laughing and jamie would probably have to take me out bc i would start choking from laughing so hard lmao. yes quinner deserves a kiss from you later for watching the whole time instead of getting nervous and looking away lmao

sorry jamie i love you, but i’m going on dylan’s shoulders for this one. hehe he can grab my thighs so i don’t fall off 😏 but then if you’re on braden’s shoulders quinner will get jealous lol. yes ofc you can go on my shoulders, i promise i’m strong lol. bruhhhh your brother is so lucky, it would be sm fun if we went to a festival together. me you and kesh got to dress cute, but the guys will be wearing their sleeveless shirts and backwards hats lol. and ofc we all have to dance together

#ask answered #anon answered #skating anon

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sscoup · 4 years

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til our paths cross

+ pairing: wonwoo x reader (gender-neutral) + genre: fluff + warnings: none

+ word count: 1k ,, give or take xd

+ an: this is so self indulgent so apologies if some things dont make sense,, its also the first fic ive posted for seventeen so im sorry if wonwoo is ooc.. ive lost inspiration and motivation to draw as ive been sick recently so ive decided to spew out my thoughts into words instead.. OKAY ENOUGH FROM ME PLS ENJOY <3

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may comes in like a storm. that feeling of helplessness, of despair. a common theme during this time of the year. more often than not the feelings are inexplainable and usually come and go with no warning. although you’ve survived all the days you thought would be your last, this doesn’t stop the negativity that clouds your mind. recognising this, you decided to take some time for yourself to heal.

on the other side of town another person finds themselves in the same predicament. may comes in like a storm so he spends most of his time inside. the same routine, day in and day out. eat, read, game and sleep. over and over again. this simple routine had taken its toll on him and as much as he hated to admit it, he needed to go outside to refresh.

that same day he found you. sitting alone in a quiet cafe, reading a book with a half eaten dessert on your plate. your legs crossed and casually swinging back and forth to a tune only you could hear. the sun reflected its light on the puddles from the day’s recent rain, casting a soft ambient glow through the window and onto you.

he released a breath he didn’t even realise he had been holding in. an angel, he thought to himself as he watched you from the sidewalk.

he felt that he had fulfilled his life in that moment. a single second in your presence and he was content. but he was feeling selfish, he wanted more, and that day he decided to act on his selfishness. he found himself inside the cafe, his feet automatically carrying him to your table. he had moved completely on impulse, his heart making decisions before his mind could even think about catching up. he stood stock still as his soul returned to his body, completely speechless as you looked up at him from behind your book.

you felt a chill run up your spine as you had just read a sweet scene from your novel, or maybe it was from the fast approaching figure headed straight for you. looking up, you snuck a glance at the guy. he had this goofy but endearing expression on his face, his mouth agape as if he was about to say something. his dark hair stuck out in a windswept way that made your heart skip a beat. his nose was slightly pink from the cold as it held up a pair of silver frames. behind his glasses were his eyes, cat like eyes that you swear held the stars in them. he was breathtaking.

may comes in like a storm and in a split second a flood of emotions passes you both. each unknowingly stirred by emotions that could only be described as hope. hope that for the first time in that month, things seemed to be looking up.

finding courage, he introduced himself as wonwoo and you introduced yourself in turn. not wanting to intrude and overstay his welcome, he kindly requested for the two of you to exchange numbers and he left, just as soon as he had arrived. you watched as he walked away, sharing one last smile and a wave as he disappeared around the corner.

try as you might, you found that you had completely lost focus on reading as your thoughts continued to drift and think about wonwoo. never in your life had you felt an immediate attraction to a complete stranger. it was a conflict of emotions as although you had just met him, at the same time you felt like you had known him forever. the soft smile you shared with him never left your face as you continued on with the rest of your day.

in his mind, wonwoo felt a flurry of giddy emotions pass through him. all he could think about and want to do was to spend all his time with you. yet the only thing he knew was your name. for the second time that day he let his feet take him wherever as his mind continued to think about you. smiling to himself he replayed the scene from earlier letting it burn and etch itself into his memories.

as he got settled back at home, he stared at his phone dumbstruck on what to say for his first text. you had beaten him to it. you sent a simple greeting and he jumped from the notification. for some reason he was comforted by the fact that you texted first, his anxieties about his introduction possibly creeping you out melting away from a single message.

you: hey there :)

ww: hii! i just realised it was kind of weird for a stranger like me to approach you at the cafe and ask for your number xd sorryy!

you: haha, it kinda was hey

you: all good though! i didnt get any weird vibes from you,, i think <.<

ww: not as weird as the book you were reading if im being honest :oo

you: hey! whats wrong with my book >:(

ww: nothing!! its actually one of my favourites lol :’)

ww: sooo, what else do you like to do besides read?

and from there the two of you stayed awake for the rest of the evening, excitedly awaiting for your replies. as the two of you talked you found that you shared similar interests in reading and occasionally playing games. it was actually comforting to talk to him as your conversation flowed into familiarity, both of your humour and sly teasing was easily understood and reciprocated by the other and it made your heart soar. after realising that your conversation had continued deep in the early hours of the morning, you both reluctantly said good night with an arrangement to meet for coffee the next day.

may comes in like a storm as you lied in bed thinking about the future and the hope that the kind stranger, wonwoo had miraculously brought into your life. on the other side of town he thinks of the same as he watched the early morning breeze gently sway through his curtains, looking forward to seeing you again.

#wonwoo x reader #wonwoo imagines #wonwoo scenarios #wonwoo fluff #svt imagines #svt scenarios #svt fluff #seventeen fanfic #seventeen #seventeen wonwoo #kpop imagines #kpop scenarios #also this was based off a really old interview that svt hiphop unit had with cosmopolitan about their ideal types #and wonwoos answer was smth along the lines of #i have this fantasy #a girl who reads by the window sill as the light shines against her #if i see a girl like that i think i would fall in love #when i read this it was the sweetest thing ever #i think wonwoo would lowkey be a romantic hmmm

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pacificwanderer · 5 years

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Super Salacious B. Crumb Sunday Headcanons!

Here’s my weekly roundup of headcanons and other fun stuff. Send me your happy SW thoughts if you’re interested in having a little fun with me (either anon, or off, whatever you’d like). This week, we’ve got some rumors and spoiler head canons, some speculation about Ben’s role if and when he leaves the FO, and more!

What amuses me the most about the supposed 0G scene is that everyone assumes it will be a Rey vs Kylo scene and no one ever thinks what if it is Kylo vs KoR for example? Or the supposed bounty hunter Keri is playing? ;) those two options would make that scene soo much more interesting than just another rematch between Rey and Kylo, they will have one of course, they need to 'talk' and clear a lot of things, but i see that happening on the ground ;)

I’m on the fence concerning a rematch between Kylo and Rey. On the one hand, lightsaber battles are cool af and I get why people would be down for a rematch, on the other, I have a really hard time seeing them fight each other. Like, you’re telling me Mr. Holding you on the edge of a cliff and imploring you to be his student is going to be hardcore into fighting the girl he cries a lot over? I just... Have a hard time with it. And similarly, you’re telling me Ms. Shipped myself into enemy territory after crying over you, prettying myself up, fighting for you, and then crying some more about you is going to be super into it too? ReallYYYY? Lol I mean, people can imagine/headcanon/want whatever, but this is what I struggle with. But I feel you, nonnie, lol I see most of their “discussions” being on the ground naked. I’d love to see Keri kick some ass in 0Gs, so I’m down for that too! OO kick some KoR ass! Lol.

Cheers!

What plot do you think can involve poe finishing at the same time than 3po? Friend told me that just that day Joonas was returning to work, and then the next week was it R2 or BB who finished? So the last ones standing to the last day were Ben, Rey, Finn, Rose, Chewie and maybe Naomi's character, double date and chaperones?

Depends, Nonnie. There wasn’t much seen of Oscar on set after Jordan, so if they were doing some sort of pick up, or out of sequence shooting, it could be from anywhere. According to Oscar, he and Anthony had a lot of scenes together, so it’s possible they were finishing up whatever work they needed to film for 3PO and Poe.

Hi! So it's pretty common to compare Rey and Kylo to Beauty and the Beast, but I just realized something -- in Disney Channel's "Descendents", the son of Belle and Beast is also named Ben so... coincidence??

Haha, probably? I mean, Harrison’s son is also named Ben and, iirc, there was a name switch at some point, possibly with his input. Though, it also does tie into “Ben Kenobi,” aka, the reason Ben’s parents got together in the first place. But that is a fun coincidence!

What do you think Ben will do after he leaves the FO? Because I doubt he’ll go to the Resistance even though Rey is there. Even if Rey leaves the Resistance, I’m not sure if he will go to her since maybe he’ll think she would not want anything to do with him. Also do you think Rey understands or realizes that maybe the one of the reasons why he would not go to the Resistance is because maybe he thinks they would not accept him or they will persecute him? (A lot of ‘maybes’, sorry)

I don’t see him joining the Resistance either, Nonnie. I don’t see him dumping one cause only to take up another (and one that he seems to have a problem with, if his opinion concerning senators and the New Republic is anything to go by). I think his journey, like Rey’s, is with the Force and not so much being a part of the Resistance. They will bring balance and peace in their own storyline, while characters like Finn, Rose, and Poe (among others) will work towards their goals. I don’t really think that Rey will be that present in the Resistance, either, but I think their Force connection will help fill in the gaps between where they were and where they currently are at. These two need time and to talk to resolve their issues, and to take steps towards claiming their own happy endings, whether that’s together or not (though I think it will be together).

I think that Ben also thinks that the reason Rey didn’t killed him when he was unconscious was because she is a good person so it’s natural for her to show mercy but he doesn’t give thought that she also ultimately wants to be with him as a partner and lover. And Rey will probably think that she isn’t a good person but a selfish one because she went to Ben wanting him to leave with her not solely because it’s for the Resistance but because she wants him.

I think you’re onto something, Nonnie. I agree that their issues right now come from the fact that, instead of talking to each other about what they saw and what they want, they jumped to conclusions and made assumptions (that they both saw and wanted the same things, when they clearly didn’t). I think that, once they sit down and talk through their issues, it’ll be gravy.

How long do you think Ben will last as the Supreme Leader in IX? Do you think it will last until the 2nd act? Or he will be out of the FO very early on? Because based from the leaks, it seems his reign will last longer...? I am not so sure

For a hot minute lol. Someone on twitter stated that Ben had to become the Supreme Leader in order to realize that was never what he really wanted. And even Leia, in the Bloodlines novel, says that she doesn’t think Ben would be interested in retaining a title (as prince), which I think is true. I don’t see that much of his story taking place outside of what’s going on with Rey, but that’s just my speculation. I think he’s been told for so long what his destiny is meant to be that he’s never actually had a moment to sit and consider what he wants. It’ll be interesting to see what happens concerning this and the conclusions he draws in EPIX.

I am pretty sure that if Rey and Ben do reconcile and she sees that he finally becoming more balance like letting the light in and being more Ben Solo, she’ll defend him even against the Resistance if they are hell bent on killing him. If they give her the choice to either kill him and stay with them or be kicked out and marked as a threat for fraternizing with the enemy, she’ll gladly leave them.

I agree, Nonnie. I think a great aspect of Rey’s character (and one that, incidentally, Padme also shares), is her willingness to believe the best about people, but also the fact that she’s not afraid to call them on their bullshit. I agree that, if she sees him taking real strides towards righting the wrongs that he’s committed/coming to the Light, etc, she’ll go to the ends of the galaxy and back again to keep him safe. I’m interested to see how their Force Bond plays out once people in the Resistance know about it and whether that causes any tensions within the organization (I HOPE IT DOES MWAHAHA).

I am not afraid of discourse after what we went through in pre-TLJ days. Of course they are going to try to continue to sale Rey Finn and Poe as the trio just as they did with both TFA and TLJ to try unsuccessfully hide what truly is going on. We do know at some point in the film Rey goes off on her own for some reason. Personally, I think it only PARTLY has something to do with trying to hide her bond to Ben. Imagine how awkward it must be for her? lol. Looks like she's talking to herself.

Haha man, do I ever want the fanon thing where Rey is talking to Kylo with their bond and then someone walks in and sees like her or him talking to thin air LOL. I wonder if anyone else can see it? Doesn’t seem to be the case, if Luke’s reaction on Ahch-To is any indication. I definitely think her bond/and the scar she got defending him, will be some source of drama in EPIX and I can’t wait!

Cheers all! Thanks for chatting about SW with me and for your input!

#sundayheadcanons #epix speculation #epix rumors #star wars epix #epix spoilers #sw asks and answers #anonymous asks #ask pacificwanderer #reylo

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letmenotbeseen · 7 years

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Gained nothing.

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a ringing gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have absolute faith so as to move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and exult in the surrender of my body, but have not love, I gain nothing.…

1 Corinthians 13:1-3

I don’t want to sound so preachy and annoying. But on the past few days, i gained nothing. Pagbigyan mo na ‘tong kaartehan ko...

It is so hard when you thought you have done everything you have to do but still nothing good happens (of course, my own definition of good). When you are so tired of reaching out, so tired that you started building your own wall so that no one can hurt you more. When the emotions and pain inside of you is too high you will just decides to move forward without reconsidering others feeling and conditions. These are the thoughts at the back of my mind ever since you started to be aloof with me, with us in the office. I guess it was after your Hongkong Adventure?

Okay bakit may letter na gnito? Kasi andami kong gusto sabihin baka mawala yung composure ko at maiyak na lang. Haha. Mahaba ‘to, may dala akong hard copy para mabasa mo rin pag-uwi. Hehe. Soft copy na lang ng link ng blog ko.. Haha. And I’m not sure if this thing makes sense, sana nga meron.

Sobra akong pre-occupied ng feelings and emotions ko, nakalimutan kong sundin si Lord ng “buo”, paunti-unti lang kasi sa bawat pagsunod ko sa Kanya ang sakit-sakit.Hehe.

Bakit nga baganun?

Kasi I did what I did (nung lumalayo ka na) unconciously eh out of duty and hindi out of love. Naubos eh, nakalimutan kong kumonekta sa tama at unlimited source ng love, si Lord.

Oo, sobrang na-rebuke ako with regards with my pride for my struggle with you through God’s word, God’s people and a bunch of circumstances .

I have to do this and do that kasi yun ang tama. Pero wala na palang love lahat ng actions ko kaya pala ang bigat sa heart at walang joy puro lang pain. Ang selfish pa rin pala kahit feeling ko ang selfless nung act. Akala ko ang bait bait ko na.

Pwede mo pala talaga akalaing ino-obey ang Lord pero ang totoo eh, hindi kasi walang love. Hindi mo malalaman agad yun, mahirap malaman.

Writing this letter is not so me.. Haha. But I have to do it and open up to you, showing the worst side of me.

I want to apologize with you for teaching you God’s grace and love but the first one who fails to show it consistently. I’m sorry for letting you know what accountability partner means but fails to let you know what it feels like to have one. I’m sorry for all the lip service I told you that I’ll stick with you no matter what but again, fails you to be around when you needed a friend. I’m sorry for forgetting that you are in a situation where you needed someone para mapadali ang lahat pero seems like lagi akong walking stress sa life mo. I’m sorry if I’m one of those people who judged you silently when you needed understanding and comfort. I’m sorry if mostly fear ang na-impose ko sayo instead of a loving relationship. I’m sorry if I was so shocked when you told me before na you don’t feel at home with me anymore pero baka nga yun ang naparamdam ko sayo. Madami akong dapat ihingi ng tawad sayo mga bagay na ginawa ko that stressed you out at sa mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa, sorry sa mga yun. Sorry talaga.

(Sana hindi pa ko umiiyak sa part na ‘to. LOL)

I truly trust God with His way on your life and I just let it that way, I prayed for you.. just prayed for you but I miss to pray with you. Unconciously I decided to step away to your life and silently tells you, “bahala ka na sa buhay mo, friend”. I forgot to take my part because I’m too afraid to be rejected over and over again and really, I tried to control things. As you know me, control freak ako. Haha. Akala ko iniisip ko yung kapakanan mo pero God made me realize at some point na yung ibang actions ko, sarili ko lang talaga ang concern ko.

It hurts me when may nangangamusta sakin tungkol sayo but I’m clueless pero wala akong ginawa to know how are you na nga ba talaga? Sana man lang kinamusta talaga kita. I have given too much attention sa iilang bagay at nakalimutan kong may ibang struggle ka pa.

Nakalimutan kong may pinagdadaanan ka rin nga pala. Naubusan ako ng pasensya at tinamad na kong intindihin ka when you needed it the most. I’m so sorry.

I’m not sure if after this, we’re gonna still be friends or the best buddy just like before. I hope that every wall that has been built (intentional and unintentional) between the two of us will slowly break, only God knows when. After all He is a God of new beginnings.

I hope and pray to God that you will forgive me and give a chance to really make it up to you and try again to be a good friend and real discipler to you with more loving relationship at hindi puro do this and don’t do that.

I’m so sorry ngayon ko lang kinayang gawin ‘to.

I miss you and I love you my dearest friend, I really do.

Sincerely yours,

Ruan

PS:

Again, need me or not. I’ll stick with you and by this time with lots and lots of love from the Lord. ^__^

#RGCF2017

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