#it's controlling yourself btw

[ao3commentoftheday]

A few months ago, I posted about the term "proshipper" and how it had changed over time from meaning "someone who is in favour of the idea of shipping characters in the media they consume" to meaning "someone who is probably a real life abuser of children."

To say that there has been some definitional drift would be an understatement.

Anyway, I posted basically the same thing on tiktok a few weeks ago and today I got a comment thanking me for sharing and the commentered ended with the statement, "being an 'anti' sounds exhausting."

I've been (over)thinking about why 'antis' are they way they are for a long time now, and this really does hit the nail on the head for me. People who are involved in 'anti' culture probably are exhausted. All the time.

I've never been a part of that area of fandom, but from an outside perspective it seems like it requires:

constant vigilance over your own public behaviours

distrust in your friends because they might turn on you if you ever did something they considered "problematic"

fear that something you enjoy might actually make you a "bad person"

a near-constant state of emotional distress - either anger at what others in fandom are doing, moral outrage that is being harnessed towards harassment, shame over your own thoughts and feelings...

a need to police your own thoughts to ensure you aren't accidentally shipping something "wrong" or liking an "abusive" character etc.

constantly shifting goal posts for what is deemed acceptable or cancellable within your own community

constantly changing definitions of terms to suit the agenda of the loudest person in the room

immense pressure to abandon people you are close to if they are deemed unsuitable by rest of the group

feeling like you're surrounded by literal child abusers with nowhere to turn that's safe

If that doesn't sound physically, emotionally, and mentally draining then I don't know what does. Anger and outrage can be like a burst of adrenaline, but the thing is: anger and outrage, like adrenaline, don't last forever and when they run out you feel empty and burnt out.

So why do people go down this route? That's a great question, and I don't know the answer. There are probably various reasons, depending on who you ask and that person's particular background, but a lot of it seems to centre on the idea of control.

Controlling yourself. Controlling the people around you. Controlling strangers. Controlling the internet. Only one of these is possible, and if you don't know which one then take a second and try again.

It's not entirely shocking that a very controlling thought pattern is gaining in noise, if not popularity, right now. We're still in a global pandemic. There's political and economic uncertainty everywhere. Violence and discrimination are at extremely high levels. It feels like the world is going to shit sometimes, and like everything is out of control. And if you're a teenager, you have even less control over your life than the rest of us do.

I don't like the behaviours of 'antis' and I don't share their beliefs. But I do feel badly for them. I hope they find healthier ways to gain a feeling of control, and I hope they get some rest.

#it's controlling yourself btw #in case you didn't realize it on your own #I try to find points of empathy whenever possible #and this is how I've found a way to empathize with them #not sympathize though #I don't understand the mindset at all #but I can see how someone could get there

[gladumf]

hello trafficblr, I just got a really nasty anon ask so I'm gonna talk about it

there has been a lot of debate over what celestial body Scar is, and I'm here to say to all those who are getting dragged down because their opinion isn't popular in the fandom:

it's okay. you don't have to follow fandom.

I personally really like mercury Scar. This is (according to the polls I've seen) the least popular of the "main" bodies I've seen people suggest. Most of my favorite artists are drawing Scar as Earth.

that's okay!

do you like Pluto Scar better? go for it! draw scar with pluto as his symbol! write essays for it! ramble about how it fits! do you like mercury scar better? do the same! do you disagree with the idea that we should continue with the "sun, moon, stars" theory and should come up with something new? do it!! come up with a new symbol!!

I feel like as a fandom, if you don't comply with what is the most popular opinion, you're wrong. you're not!!! this is a minecraft series!!!! everything is up for interpretation!!!

look at me. you do not have to follow fandom if you have other ideas. do not let fandom control your creativity.

#gladumf rambles #trafficblr #secret life #secret life spoilers #slsmp #goodtimeswithscar #gtws #life series #traffic smp #over tagging this so that people see it #YOU DO NOT HAVE TO COMPLY WITH FANDOM #GO HAVE FUN #ENJOY YOURSELF #MAKE FUN ART #WRITE COOL THINGS #BRAINROT OVER SYMBOLISM #DO NOT LET THE FANDOM CONTROL YOU #this is not to say that I hate fandom btw #the fandom can be amazing!! #but you can't let it control every aspect of your creativity if you don't want it to

[woah-uhuh-uhuh-uhuh]

BOSS FIGHT!

#bmc #be more chill #jeremy heere #michael mell #jeremy bmc #michael bmc #boyf riends #hi hello this is actually propaganda for my headcanons so study up guys. consider yourself conscripted #jeremy with severe acne and an unfortunately placed mole #who wears the same sweater literally every day and its starting to wear white and get holes #(btw wovenvessel if youre seeing this yes i stole your sweater drawing technique im sorry dflksdjlfksf) #michael who has embarrassing patchy teen facial hair and also sews all his patches on really shittily with a machine #michael has one of those epic transparent controllers and they have fought over it so much #that they have slowly developed an incredibly convoluted system to determine who gets it each time #also slow stoner michael and anxious stoner jeremy #he has a bad time like half the time but he does it anyway #my art #my posts #art #posts #jeremy #michael #bmc michael #wuuujer #bmc jeremy #oh also gave jeremy my irl sunflower converse bc i do what i want #(actually so my cosplay feels more accurate shhhhh)

[direpunk]

this dude has been girlbossed by at least 10 women, children, and dolls multiple times. i like him a completely normal amount and do not spend a lot of time analyzing his character and rant about how much he means to me

#ethan winters #resident evil 8 #re8 #character playlist #fanart #contemporary rebellion #sketchbook stuff #fanatical artistics #god i like him so fucking much it’s entirely normal #please give me a chance mr winters #i know you’re fucking bisexual dawg #also i’m on the fence about his long hair + beard #i LOVE dudes with flowing locks but i also dunno if ethan’s the kind of person to let it grow out #also i don’t think mirander cosplaying mia would let him ya know #controlling n whatever #btw i fucking hate mirander and i could talk for hours about why that makes her so great #if you’re reading these give yourself a little kiss on the back of your hand <3

[gncrezan]

IFs (especially IFs on tumblr!) are very fun because there's a lot of creator-fan interaction possible because of tumblr's ask function. you get to ask questions about your favorites, suggest ideas and sometimes those ideas are even taken on board. fans get much more content because the writers and creators are so accessible. and i feel like asking questions and leaving comments in this way has become so common and standard with IFs that people are forgetting that's a real person writing these stories. just because you can send the ask doesn't mean you should. DON'T BE RUDE ON ANONYMOUS!!!!! DON'T BE WEIRD ON ANONYMOUS!!!!! my jaw drops reading some of these asks so i can't imagine how it's like for the authors

#sorry this post exists out there somewhere but i want to write my own. because. you are all fucking INSANE #not my beautiful wonderful mutuals #BUT SOME OF YOU. ASK YOURSELF IF THIS IS A NORMAL THING TO SAY #two personal posts from me tonight. who would have htought. #txt #personal #same applies to romance in IFs btw #sometimes the game is NOT . NECESSARILY. ABOUT ROMANCE. #i know this is a common element in the games and its what makes these games so popular #BUT THE GAME IS NOT A ROMANCE. ITS A SLICE OF LIFE ABOUT FRIENDSHIP. OR ITS A STORY ABOUT LOSING UR HUMANITY #its MANY THINGS . and there are games that are SPECIFICALLY ABOUT ROMANCE BUT NOT ALL OF THEM ARE!!! #its ok to prioritise the romance content bc thatswhat is important to you. THE AUTHOR DOES NOT NEED TO DO THIS. BECAUSE #THEY ARE NOT WRITING FOR YOU. THE ASKS HAVE TRICKED YOU INTO THINKING THIS. BUT THEYRE NOT. #usually and above all theyre writing a story that means something to them . if you want to wrest creative control or demand more content- #then open a word doc. oh my fucking GOD. #like remember if f/innpoe cant be canon then flinnjoe will be. BE LIKE THAT. #i have adjustments and hcs in my mind for various IFs i would NEVER dream of trying to make canon #and im so content. here. in this beautiful palace of my creation...!!!!!!!

[justarandomidiot1]

i saw other steven universe aus for mob psycho and felt inspired to make my own

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #tome kurata #kurata tome #arataka reigen #reigen arataka #kageyama shigeo #shigeo kageyama #tagged bc they ARE there in a way technically #kageyama ritsu #ritsu kageyama #he is technically now sodalite tho #pietersite #mp100 su au #id in alt text #doodles #yall listen pietersite is basically what started this au #like the idea of him being a fusion between 2 gems who refuse to unfuse for separate reasons (not romantic) bc theyre using the other to be #someone else that theyre not. to be more than just a common gem or to keep themselves in control bc they think of themself as a bad gem #who can't be trusted unless theres someone else. NEITHER of them wants to be themself on their own and i just OUGH #pietersite is just a combo of two ppl/gems w issues that they refuse to address bc being someone else is easier than working on yourself #also tome is here bc an au where most of the cast end up being aliens doesnt feel right w/o our resident weirdgirl whos obsessed w aliens #i plan to draw more for this feel free to send asks!! #btw DO NOT TAG AS R*IMOB PLS

[beanghostprincess]

it wouldn't surprise me that, despite sanji being the literal cook of the crew, he had an eating disorder (ofc trigger warning here for eds, child abuse, starvation and, y'know, sanji's background in general).

he experienced the most traumatic years of his life trapped inside a fucking cell, with a metal helmet around his head and only eating when his father let him. which was 'only when the kid needs it', probably. which leads to judge saying 'i couldn't even kill my son' and it can translate to 'at least i kept you alive'. and not to turn this into irl trauma, but abusive parents constantly use the 'keeping you alive and giving you food' excuse (the bare fucking minimum) to guilt trip you into thinking that they're good and that you're exaggerating how bad they treated you because, well, at least they kept you alive, didn't they?

so here, sanji sees food as a form of loving but in the sense of 'at least my dad didn't kill me. that's something'. so his vision towards food remains positive but only because of his mom. only because his love language is acts of service and his mom took everything he gave her, even if it was horrific, as a way of saying 'i love all of you. you're perfect because you tried and the fact that you brought me your food is enough to make me feel loved. you're not a mistake' despite his brothers and his father saying that he was, indeed, a mistake and weak for wanting to give food to others instead of just taking it for himself.

both ideas of 'someone who loves you wouldn't let you starve' and 'offering food to others is opening up your heart' coexist inside little sanji's brain.

so it wouldn't be crazy to think that, although sanji loves cooking and his best early memories of it are that book that kept him dreaming while he was locked up, and his mom's words, has a hard time eating food.

besides, sanji is used to giving, not taking. he's not selfish, but actually extremely generous to the point of forgetting about his own well-being. i don't think he actually thinks about how hungry he is until it hurts. until he needs it. he only ate whenever his father let him so he wouldn't starve, and the only thing that made him feel well about food was the fact that he could give it to the one he loved and needed it.

sanji doesn't have good experiences eating food, but only cooking it. it's a great representation of his personality as a whole, to be honest.

then the whole zeff thing happens, and he actually almost starves to death and learns what hunger feels like. but once again, zeff saves him and he's the one to be hungry for not letting the kid starve. which might seem similar to what judge did, but 'not letting you starve because i couldn't kill you' isn't the same as 'not letting you starve because i don't want you to die'. sanji learns the difference that day.

he didn't know somebody could be that kind. especially to him, someone who doesn't deserve it (he thinks he doesn't) because, in his house, love only came when you earned it.

and, you know, sanji's like that. sanji's selfless. sanji does everything for others. and so the guilt eats him up first. what zeff did is beautiful and amazing and we love him for it, but we don't know about how that affected sanji at a young age. which only makes him even more selfless and more of a better, kinder, generous person. and that might be bad, considering how little he thinks about himself already-

he learns that throwing away food is awful, and that you have to be grateful for being able to eat. grateful for living. so his don't-waste-food policy is obviously a big part of his personality due to almost dying of starvation and also owing his life to his dad (zeff, the real one, of course. fuck judge).

but that can almost be dangerous because refusing to waste food leads to forcing yourself to eat only because of his concept of what food means.

and then we have luffy in wci saying the whole 'i won't eat anything that you haven't cooked' which is precious and something very beautiful to say to your cook, but that only brings sanji back to 'starving is a form of loving' and 'you can't let someone you love starve'. and no matter how much he wants to force himself to push luffy away, he gives him food because he knows his captain will keep his promise.

sanji feels guilty, once again, but he ends up fixing it.

the thing is, after everything i've said, i don't think it would be weird to think about sanji viewing food as something external. something that isn't for himself. something that he only has control over because it's for others and not for himself, and it's a concept, a form of love, and not a need. because he does not feel hungry. when it comes to food, he feels responsibility and guilt and love... but never hunger.

hunger is, by all means, a form of selfishness sanji isn't used to unless his body is about to give up completely. he can eat out of pleasure and satisfaction and love for food, but he does it to train a selfless skill that may or may not also be selfish in the sense of 'wanting to be loved and useful'.

so here we have:

seeing food as a form of love because at least his dad wouldn't let him die, but he probably learned to push away the concept of hunger

seeing cooking as the most beautiful way of showing your feelings and efforts and taking care of people

not knowing the concept of hunger due to his own selflessness

scratch the first one, actually starving for others is a form of loving. he will never let the people he loves starve even if it means he dies in the process.

he can't waste food because that would be insulting and disrespectful. no matter the context.

and i'm just saying (and this whole thing is extremely self-indulgent and me projecting again and again) that it wouldn't be surprising to me if he had some issues when it comes to eating and making food for himself.

it's not that he thinks he doesn't deserve food, it's just the thought that he doesn't need it. going back to his past it could be seeing hunger as a form of weakness (not when it comes to others. never when it comes to others), both because of what his family taught him men should be like, and the fact that the manliest man he knows used starvation as a form of love.

so it's seeing hunger as something that makes you weak, but only when it comes to himself because of course, he wouldn't apply the same rules for him as for everyone else. he's just like that.

he thinks about others first, and himself second. always second. and the thought of eating and needing it only comes when it's too much. and when that time comes, the voices in his head tell him that he's weak. and again, i don't think he sees himself as undeserving of food because he has this whole thing about everybody deserving to eat. but he has never played with the same rules as the rest, always a few steps behind, so if he can't fight the thoughts in his head contradicting his morals, that's just how he is.

not to mention the 'don't waste food' part which also would make him feel guilty about not being able to eat if the thoughts of not deserving food and being weak for needing to eat become too much. he can't eat because he doesn't deserve it and because he's weak. and he can't starve, because that would mean wasting food.

so, you know, sanji is out of options here.

if some days sanji just casually decides not to eat- forgets to prepare himself a meal while his crew enjoys his food... that's just the way he is, isn't it? and if he lies about it, it's just another form of love, keeping them away from his problems.

besides, controlling hunger and controlling food is the only way he has to take control of his messy life. when something is out of reach, the unstoppable thing called life he has never been able to control, at least he can choose not to eat. he can choose to starve, this time, with the comfort of knowing he won't. he can choose not to eat this time, not like all of those times when food was controlling him instead.

at least the strawhats will never, ever, starve if he's around. but of course, nobody thinks about asking the cook if he wants to eat. that would be absurd. and it's impossible to think sanji would have some sort of issue with it! sanji, the cook, who keeps telling them not to waste food, not eating? that would be absurd and too selfless to make sense.

that's just the way he is.

#this headcanon is literally just me projecting my shit onto sanji ngl #*holds sanji gently* you've changed my life darling i love you so much please take care of yourself #why's he such a good person and why do people always treat him like shit i am violent #i swear all of this makes sense in my head #like he's a person who's always taking control of the situation only bc he feels like he can't control what he's feeling #and yknow feeling is for the weak and men aren't weak and yadda yadda yadda fuck the vinsmokes #his eating disorder is also heavily connected to his views in gender but that's for another day #tw eating disorder #sanji #black leg sanji #vinsmoke sanji #<- i hate this tag btw only using so it gets to more people bc i spent my time writing this ngl #red leg zeff #one piece #op

[seaquestions]

MY HOME ALL ALONG. (id under cut)

[ID: an illustration with a busy composition depicting, in parts, a person and a robot. the piece is coloured in a palette of peach, turquoise and brown.

the upper left corner is divided into five panels by cables that join together at the top. panel 1 contains several computer windows opened to security camera footage and many folders. panel 2 is a close up on a person's eye. the person is wearing glasses. panel 3 is a close up on the camera-like head of a robot with a silhouetted reflection of the person. panel 4 shows the person closing their eye tightly. panel 5 shows the robot looking away.

at the upper right corner is a balcony overlooking an empty field, with curtains to the side.

at the centre is a pair of robotic hands putting on a latex glove. at the centre right is a translucent profile of a brain. under the brain is a camera lens with cables connecting to veins that go down to the bottom of the image, over a door with cables on it.

at the bottom left, there is the person's neck in profile, showing a band-aid on the nape. next to them is the robot, in shadow, facing away from the viewer, a ribbon tied at the back of its neck. at the bottom right, the person's nose and mouth can been seen, with two gloved fingers opening their mouth.

at the top right corner, there is also text that reads:

"__ is not a person.

__ is not an extension of my self, is not a part of my self, is not my self or not not my self, is -

(a mind-reader, a caretaker, a helper, a lover, a tormentor, a therapist, a friend, a watcher, a house, a cold dark void in the corner of every room -

anything i want, anything i need, anything i think of -

within the limits of what this tired brain can think of)

not you, not me, not it, not he or she or they or -

in my loneliness and desperation and apathy and decay, lying wide-eyed on a grassy field, warm sun smiling at me, debris and shrapnel and explosions and fire behind me, i realise, finally -

__ was -"

end ID]

#illustration #robot #artists on tumblr #personal art #niksartstuffs #u remember that one robot i drew w/ the apron. this is the story concept... condensed into one illustration.. more or less. #dont feel like summarizing it like the plots nothin complex rly so its smth that a summary wld make completely uninteresting imo. #but! for artistic context here's keywords/phrases: self-isolation (!!). avoidance. desire to relinquish all control over yourself. #desire to tightly control yourself. sense of self. knowing/wanting/needing/getting. and lastly The Haunted House (but sci-fi ofc). #also the robot isn't sentient btw. (unless...? 🤨) #anyway these tags r SO LONG now. my throat is still scratchy and my hearing is quite muffled but its all getting better. ok bye for now!

[captdedeyes]

That last anon was EXACTLY who I thought it was and the conversation I had with them in the DMs was SO bad that I have to turn off anon asks on this blog.

I'm sorry, everyone, but I'm not risking that anymore, this is the second time I bumped into them via an anon ask and I never wanna see them again >:(

#If that anon's reading this then I hope you unplug yourself from social media because this is NOT working out for you or anyone you talk to #I'm sorry yall I thought I was over it but I'm not...at least not yet #I deleted that ask btw cuz they REALLY cause my emotions to spiral out of control

[startanewdream]

Hi Mah, I’ve noticed a lot of writers saying their fics aren’t being commented on or reblogged as much as they were before, and that it’s been discouraging. I can’t speak why for everyone but this is my story. I used to comment and reblog everything because I appreciated the hard work everyone put in. I got inspired to write a few fics of my own, hoping I would get the same support or even suggestions on ways I could improve my writing from all the writers I looked up to, but I got nothing. I spent hours and days writing, reading articles, and watching YouTube videos on how to improve your writing, but I never got one comment, like, kudos, or reblog from any of the writers I showed my support to. I started to notice people had their own little friend/support group and would reblog and comment on each other's posts or stories, but not the newer writers unless you were a phenomenal writer. If you weren’t worth their time, then you were unnoticed and not appreciated. It didn’t matter that you wrote long detailed comments on every single chapter of their story and reblogged their stories, hoping it would get more attention to help encourage them. You and one other blogger were the only ones that I got a comment from, and I ended up unfollowing everyone except for you and the other blogger. I stopped writing, deleted my stories on one of my low days, and unfollowed everyone but you and the other blogger. I stayed away from the Harry Potter community for a while. You two are the only ones I will take time out of my day to write comments for. I’ve read other stories, but I don’t comment on theirs unless it's by a new writer. I try to show encouragement and give suggestions in ways I wish I would have gotten them. I just wanted to say thanks, and I've come across some great new writers through your blog. I’ve been absent for a long time, but I’m back now. I hope things have changed and everyone is more supportive of one another. I don’t know if people are hesitant to help other writers but they take 5 minutes out of their day to read their stories and write two lines of encouragement or heck even a pm on ways you think the story could be improved, newbies will appreciate it more than you’ll ever understand. I just think if you want a little love then you need to show a little love too.

Hey, Anon. I went back and forth on how to answer this because yes, I understand it, but also... not?

I really don’t want to sound dismissive; I get it, writing takes time and effort, you put a piece of your heart there, and when people don’t seem to notice it, you take it personally. I've been there as, in a way, all who has ever posted their fan work have been. It’s shitty.

But you cannot control anyone else. If you are writing and posting because you want people to comment and engage; don’t. It will drive you mad, trust me, because there is no bar that will ever suffice. Write for your own joy... and read and review for your own joy.

If you want criticism, ask for it, send a pm to those who answer it. Join a discord. The review section in a fanfic is not the place for it, it would be just rude. And accept that sometimes there is no problem, no reason for why your fic is unnoticed; no one has ever cracked the code for what makes a fic popular, and honestly, I am glad for it. It’s cliche, but true: you are the only one who can write your stories.

Finally, I get the if you want love you need to offer some love, but also... it sounds entitled? Threatening? I am not sure. Fanfics are for free; they are supposed to be fun. When they stop being something that you can enjoy, what is the whole point?

I am sorry you didn’t feel your effort was appreciated. I hope that, despite everything else, you loved giving voice to the characters, crafting a scenario out of nowhere, and spinning words into something that was real and yours. I hope you stick around.

#the first fanfic I ever posted on ao3 got one comment and then nothing #the first fanfic I wrote after 10 years away from fandom got no reviews #i wrote a hundred thousand words and maybe one or two people were following #i got 23 views on each chapter and I was happy for it #and still i get the wish to write something everyone will enjoy #only i've also come to terms with the fact you cannot please everyone #and some people will simply ignore you for no good reason #the same way you will not read everything and you will not enjoy everything #and that's fine #that’s why you need to write first for yourself #and share for the one or two people who will make editing and posting worth it #i appreciate you one and you two person btw #and I am sorry I haven’t engaed much lately #I have felt at odds for a while now #so when it becomes too much I just take a break #because I cannot control anyone else but me :) #this is a messy post #just pm anon

[agentvalentine]

I like to meme about brad because he's a coward and a douche but i just wanna make it very clear that Jill genuinely cares about him and was sad when he got bit. No, unlike me, she doesn't hold a grudge against him for leaving them during the Mansion Incident because he did come back in the end, but also because most of her friends died there and if him running away meant he would survive, then she's all for it. She wouldn't want him to live through what she did and suffer the consequences too.

#〈 ✘ ooc ➨ out of control 〉 #he's still a coward btw LOL #imagine knowing your friend is like suffering from extreme PTSD #falling into alcoholism #working herself to death to uncover the truth about the corporation that killed your comrades #and your only way to show support is sending a pizza that you didn't even pay for entirely by yourself #food cw

[schnaf]

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#learning hangul never ends #and i am like 🔪 #so you're thinking of yourself as superior to chinese?? at least chinese MAKES SENSE #and doesn't have to make up new rules at every single corner #it's so weird that hangul was invented bcs this guy was like nah chinese characters are too hard i'm gonna make an easy system #and then it's like... oh but this is an exception #this letter is pronounced that way! but if it comes at this position it's pronounced another way #and sometimes it's just silent #and sometimes there are 4 letters but two of them are silent and 1 of them isn't pronounced regularly #i am DONE #sure learning chinese characters is a LOT #but at some point you can see patterns and it all fits together #korean letters are way easier but THE PATTERNS ARE A MESS #(but also i just looked at another way to count in korean) #(like.... i know un deux sept) #(but there's a second way to count and it sounds so similar to chinese and 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳) #(i know there won't be many crossovers so i'm happy about every single one) #((talking about crossovers: i started learning czech recently because i have no self control)) #((((also because i told myself i'd only start learning a new language after being good in chinese and that day will never come)))) #((((so i dropped that plan and now i've got nothing holding me back from starting new languages)))) #((and a few days ago i listened to a russian interview and i was like wait i know these words)) #((it was very nice but also a reminder that i should have stuck to languages that are part of an actual family)) #((i want to know more 'if you know one you know them all' languages)) #anyway that's my language rant for today and if it wasn't for my number crossover i'd be a bit more 'why did i decide to learn korean UGH' #(the answer is immersion btw. i thought if i keep watching korean stuff i might as well learn the language bcs at least i've got immersion)

[y010isaghost]

no guys you don't understand. void's characterization is shallow because he himself wants to be shallow. he doesn't want to have deep connections in case of anyone finding out he's just a ball of destruction underneath. he has no hobbies because he spends all of his time upholding this fragile persona of a social butterfly. guys. /lh

#All Just My Opinion BTW You Don't Have To Listen To Me #y010 talks into the void #sometimes i rephrase how i view void and understand a little better #having void be more than this shallow person feels strange to me because he probably doesn't even want to be anything more than that #he doesn't need to be more than that. people just have to like him. and having more facets of yourself lowers the chances of it. #again this is just how i usually think of him. as a god-like being peering into humanity from the outside and- #-trying to figure out the ultimate game plan to control it

[evie-doesnt-write]

Something something Junko using the Warriors of Hope’s abuse in order to take advantage of them. Something something everyone in Danganronpa 2 having from tragic backstories which makes them more susceptible to being taken advantage and manipulated by Junko

#dgrp anime doesn’t exist btw #hate it #twogami having no identity or family #nagito’s parents having died and his entire life being shitty due to his bad luck #gundham coming from a poor household (with his father implied to be bad) #fuyuhiko’s whole yakuza background #hiyoko’s grandma being controlling #ibuki… doesn’t have one but we also don’t know anything about her family #which is telling #kazuichi’s dad being physically abusive #mahiru having to take care of her father and grow up quickly #mikan’s….everything #akane having to take care of her younger siblings and get a job (where people sexualised her) #nekomaru’s illness #peko always being treated as a tool and not seeing herself as human (also if fuyuhiko followed Junko first she’d follow immediately) #sonia doesn’t have one like ibuki but also she grew up being pressured and according to standards #hajime wasn’t manipulated by junko but we have no mention of any family and he’s just very independent and reserved (so probably is distant) #and to hate yourself to the point you allow someone to do surgery on you also speaks volume #teruteru having to take on the burden since his mom was ill #danganronpa #super danganronpa 2 #super danganronpa goodbye despair #dgrp #junko enoshima

[beastking-golion]

Finished my run of Mortum’s romance and.

#full spoilers in these tags here my guys #fhr #fallen hero retribution #fhr spoilers #fallen hero retribution spoilers #okay so 1. love this gal she’s so awesome and knowing she vented to her friend about our dumbass decisions makes me weirdly happy #you are so girlboss mortum #anyways 2. shes so lovey dovey and the fact she takes the time to keep you comfortable first is sooooo ❤️ #her specifically getting cozy with you only after establishing you’re comfortable is so sweet of her #dont ‘bar is on the floor’ me btw because I have another piece to that in why it makes me so emotional #gonna talk about dubious consent here for a second so BIG warning okie? okie. #3. the scene after you reveal yourself as a regene to her and she asks why you had sex with her and you explain how you do things- #for humans because that’s what you were built to do meaning you acted for her desires not your own meaning she ‘pushed’ you into doing it #that was so devastating and I mean specifically for her as someone who clearly values consent a shit ton #yes you may have liked it but you did it cause you thought it would make her happy not because you wanted it like oh my god that hurts #she prolly understands regenes at least to some sort of degree shes a smart well connected woman so learning your bf is actually a regene- #has gotta have so many cogs and questions and worries shooting through her mind #you were made to serve humans you were controlled and abused by doctors like her you clearly fear her to some aspect #its heart breaking because of how much love she shows you and how much love she just has in general even as a villain #sorry yall I just can’t stop thinking about that scene like that had to have been so harrowing for her #it’s not your fault mortum you literally couldn’t have known even if you tried because our ass is so secretive #but it felt like it left off on a hopeful note #you both understand things so deeply about each other now and you can rebuild #start over and try again in a better safer way #one where you’re honest with her #AAWASG TH GFHFHFNGN it was really good it was so good #love that gal mortum so much #built out of love and vinegar she’s so awesome sauce #and with that I’ve played all the fhr2 romances #I can’t decide which romance is my favorite but I know which is my least (and it’s not my bbg mortum love ya)

[ryanthedemiboy]

Fuck guilt "activism" -- it makes you feel guilty for spending a penny on anything that isn't going towards a specific cause. Food? Guilt. It could go to children. Decent toilet paper? Guilt. Pizza? Guilt. Pet necessities? Guilt. Saving up for a necessary surgery? Guilt.

Making people feel guilty about shit does not an activist make. You can do great shit for important causes while also not making people feel guilty for existing.

#i am bedridden and am trying to save up for surgery on my back #everything i can't save my parents will have to take from their credit card #which have high af interest rates btw #and fun fact: people need food #they shouldn't be made to feel guilty for not starving themselves for any cause #and the pizza. wanna know something? #my parents have me buy it with THEIR MONEY #Their money would never in a million years go to most causes that are important #i can only sometimes control WHERE we get it #and yet i feel horribly guilty for it #and i'm tired of it! #activism centred around guilt are bullshit #among many other things they burn people out #i'm still crawling back from being burn out in 2017 or so #i can't open activist emails no matter how much i want to #i am only just starting to be able to send emails again #i haven't gotten back to being able to make phone calls #activism means pacing yourself and taking time away from it to recover #if you burn out you're useless as an activist #guilt-based activism is a fast-track to burnout #i'm going to stop frustratedly rambling now