#it's why i think i write better at home than at uni bc home was obvs where i was for lockdown

[siarven]

QUESTIONS FOR 15 FRIENDS

It's been ages since I got tagged in sth like this?? Thank you very much @zbdragons :DD (Also I want to see your dragon arts??) (also sorry I forgot this in my drafts for a hot second dklldk)

ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

I don't think so? My parents chose my birth name bc they liked the sound. My chosen name chose me lmao. I want to keep the masc version of my birth name around as second name, but I think it's less bc it's related to my old name and more bc I like the sound of it, and it makes Mama happy :>

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

Not sure! It was probably at a fictional story? ive managed to fix my mental health enough to no longer have regular crises :') <3

DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

nope, don't ever want any either

WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?

started out with gymnastics when i was ~6 (probably bc baby me started climbing street lights bc our trees were too smol xD), then switched to tennis due to external circumstances and stuck with it until I moved for uni. Here the distances are all much bigger so going everywhere by bike was enough daily sports (30-40km/day), but then the pandemic happened. Now i have dumbbells and a yoga mat in my room and do stretches and (body)weight things most days bc all my 'things why i need to leave the house' are 25+km away. i am ok with going 20km one way but not more than that xD

DO YOU USE SARCASM?

sometimes! depends on the people. i did it sooo much around my brother when i still lived at home, but these days i think it's gotten pretty rare

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?

vibes, i think? Are You Potentially Friend Shaped? :333

WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOUR?

hazel/somewhere between green and brown depending on the light

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

happy endings... i like scary things, but i dislike most horror films. they have the wrong horror vibes xD

ANY TALENTS?

i am good at learning music by ear + play flute and piccolo very well (this is prob bc Mama taught me how to learn music at a young age). It's so nice to have One Thing I am not self conscious about, esp bc it isn't tied to money or anything. These days it comes fairly effortless and I love playing and learning new pieces, and bc my orchestra appreciates me I get to play piccolo + solo parts too. I also used to be very good at singing but i am on hrt now and idk how that's gonna develop xD

I also write stuff and draw things and I do the drawing thing professionally/plan on doing so, at least (rn it's just small things on the side and wouldn't pay the bills). But neither feels like a talent bc everyone I started out with was better at it than me when we were kids. They just stopped doing it. Idk. Success through persistence and spite... both my art and writing feel extremely average (derogatory) most of the time, but I guess we will see if i manage to succeed anyway dklldkd

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Hannover (Germany); moved away for uni

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

flute/piccolo in my orchestra; going for walks with my camera; wildlife photography; hiking; learning about nature and the names of animals and plants + trivia; writing/reading fantasy books; watercolour painting; reading and watching good stories of any genre tbh; reading/watching nonfiction things on nature/history/paleontology/humanity. Wanna learn ALL

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?

no :( but my flatmate has a snake! his name is momo and i love him!

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

173cm

FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

history (bc of the teacher); english (the years my teacher was good); art (surpriseee /j)

DREAM JOB?

concept artist for stories with heavy (fantasy) worldbuilding; illustrator (I do that already as a freelancer but it would not pay the bills). Also I would love love love to be a published author but in my head the art and writing side of things are kinda deeply related, so both pls

tagging @ettawritesnstudies @corishadowfang @lady-redshield-writes @raiswanson @kittensartswriting @monika-in-wonderland @tundra-tiger @unfocused-overwriter @big-urchin-energy @antignocchiphase @mando-ah-damn if any of you want to (no pressure), and also anyone else who wants to, I don't remember anymore who is doing tag games xD

#tag game #tagging game #about me #i guess

[airenyah]

You know, my day started really shitty and the weather is all gloomy, so I put all my hopes on a JD show in GMMTV p2. I was cautiously optimistic. So as soon as I got home, I checked Twitter and the first post I saw was Joong and Dunk kissing next a car. And I was like OMG!!!!! So I watched the trailer, and I actually squealed, because the concept is amazing and they are with FirstKhao (who GMMTV loves), so the script will also be great, and I feel like my whole day is made. (I actually had a stray thought about this leading up to part2, like if JD and FK get a series together, JD will finally be in a quality production. Maybe I should invest in lottery tickets 😂). I finally completely understood the etymology of the word 'fan', because I'm the "unfollow me right now" meme. I'm an adult with an actual job and I still squealed and flailed like Ongsa because JoongDunk finally get a chance to shine.

But, that's not everything. Because then I logged into Tumblr and I saw that you posted an essay about Dunk to my ask from last week, and now I'm close to tears with how overjoyed I am. Thank you very much for taking the time and writing this manifesto that I'll use as a guide to better understand performances in the future. I love you too, you made this day way better than it already was 💜

P. S. As for the DMs, maybe when I'm less shy 😅

anonnnnnn i'm sorry it took me so long to reply to your last ask!! but yeah, i think you see why and i'm glad it made your day even better 💗💗💗

edit bc i forgot to mention: take your time about dming me, the links won't run away 😌💕

re: "I finally completely understood the etymology of the word 'fan', because I'm the "unfollow me right now" meme." I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING I LITERALLY MADE THIS POST THIS AFTERNOON:

so yeah, me too. me too. i too am that meme. i was already close to posting it hahahaha

as for the new JD show....

ok ok ok so i lucked out completely bc usually tuesday is my uni day but this week i don't have classes, so i was able to watch the entire stream live. and i was already mentally prepared for no JD bl again?? first of all because as i explain in my manifesto, i do want to see them in more solo projects (esp dunk bc out of all the series he's had or will have a major role in 3/4 are with joong which... as a fan i'm absolutely not complaining about but from an acting perspective it would be good for him to branch out)

and second of all, because i'd been talking and speculating with @moonkhao and a couple of days ago joong tweeted something about "this year i will get to play with that phi"?? and @moonkhao mentioned that win had recently followed joong and how it seemed like the two of them were gonna be in a series and we were all like "oh it's gonna be a het show for sure" (HA HA LOOK AT US NOW @moonkhao 🤡🤡🤡🤡) (ive never been more happy to be wrong tho fjkdfkkjdsg)

anyway so i went into the stream fully prepared for them to be in solo het-projects, right?? and when the trailer came on, in the very first shot it's joong and khao, right? but i totally didn't notice joong at first, bc i was too distracted by khao and the fact that first appeared right after and i was all "oh that's gotta be the rumored p'jojo FK mafia show"

and then joong appeared and i finally saw him and i went JOONG??????????

my eyes went big and my jaw dropped on the ground and my head was spinning with thoughts all "is joong gonna be just a side character in this?? or will dunk be there too?? holy shit what is happening????"

AND THEN DUNK CAME ON AND BY THIS POINT, IN ADDITION TO SITTING THERE WITH MY EYES AND MY MOUTH WIDE OPEN I ENDED UP SLAPPING MY HANDS ON MY MOUTH TRYING NOT TO SCREAM AND I WATCHED THE REST OF THE TRAILER AS WELL AS THE PRESENTATION/INTERVIEW AFTERWARDS LIKE THAT

i was literally shaking oh my god dfjkjdfkjdfkjdfjkdsjk

anyway. i'm not gonna be normal about this thanks

#i'm actually anti-firstkhao bc i dream of seeing first kiss all the gmmtv boys at least once #this is another one of my missions/agendas jkfjkdfg #HOWEVER. when it comes to pairs that joongdunk could have collabed with #i think FK are quite possibly the most ideal option that JD could have been paired up with #like they could have been paired with a couple i personally don't care about or worse. they could have been paired with [redacted] #i don't mind watching joong and dunk share a screen with the love of my life first kanaphan kjdfkjdsfjkg #also JD in a p'jojo show?? yes please?? #i was hoping they'd get to do a show either with p'jojo or p'aof some time #i really hope it's gonna be a quality script!!!!!! (i wasn't super into only friends and nlmg kinda bored me) #bc i really hope that maybe then more people will finally see that dunk IS in fact a good actor #or else i'm gonna have to write another 7.5k words as a part 2 for my acting manifesto next year dfjkdfkjdf #asks #anon #the heart killers #gmmtv 2024 pt2 #adrm #i think i need to go rewatch the trailer again now that my thai class is done dfkdfkdfgf

[violentdevotion]

Okay “gossip” ask: This didn’t happen to ME (it technically did at one point) but this had me so annoyed. Right okay quick background check: in uni we’ve these little group ‘classes’ for certain skills and the one I’m talking about has 8 students 3 of whom (including me-self) are from the same country (instantly brought demise). So anyway we’re doing role-play with patients so we can practice taking history and what not and everyone else is supposed to (KINDLY) offer feedback to the person who’d done the interview.

Anyway we get to P (who’s 1 of 3) and it’s K’s (who’s 2 of 3) to offer her feedback. I cannot begin to explain the sheer audacity this woman had when she opened her mouth and started spewing words like “okay-ish” and “not good at all”. When I say that everyone got so awkward so quick. None of the other 5 members have spoken to any of the 3 of us nearly all year beyond a question or two or a quick hello but looking around everyone was either making a face or tapping on their phones as a distraction. But at that moment even THEY felt compelled to subtly come to the defense of P, who at that point honestly just wanted to go home lol (it was the end of the session she was the last to go).

Anyway P’s not that upset bc she’s used to K or whatever but I am NOT. Truly a bonding moment for the group I feel like because WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE SAYING “not good at all” when you’ve barely done better yourself!!! And it wasn’t even fair K nitpicks the stupidest things to call out!! Every time it’s her turn for feedback you could see the person who’d done the interview pull a face and immediately block her out cause nothing she says is truly relevant, especially when neither the tutor nor the patient (I should clarify they’re actors) had any issue. She tried it with me once and my saint of a patient said whatever she called me out on as ‘not good’ was something the patient actually LIKED and thought made her feel better. I went home smug that day but anyway that’s my gossip other than that I’ve nothing I don’t do much and talk to oh so few people.

I did a creative writing course while in uni and part of it was having to give people feedback and we had the opposite problem where nobody felt comfortable enough to say to anyone that they didn't like their work, even if it sucked. so the THOUGHT of giving UNWARRANTED feedback to anyone is INSANEEEEE. also yeah if the roleplaying patients are okay with it then why are YOU bitching about it. how were you all when it come to critiquing K?

#ameeras.got.mail #gossip #ask #kourtgreene #academic beef is soo crazy bc its the moet annoying people who think theyre smarter than you and you hate them so so so so kuch and then a #after the semester ends you never see them again #good on p for not taking it to heart k just seems ANNOYING #also i didnt know you studied medicine thats well interesting do u enjoy your course?

[wave2tyun]

pillow talk was so hot omg?????? gotta love tyun with messy hair and shiny lips mhm mhm

anddd his (ex) gf texted me and my friend! She somehow knew something was off?? And she started talking with my friend and we decided to tell her ofc. I was not the one who told her bc she was already engaged in a conversation with my bestie

She didn’t believe her(us) and didn’t even questioned him as far as I know……..but this week I found out they already broke up so good news I guess??

Anyways how was your day my beautiful Alex?

–Lia<3

hehehehe i am so glad you think so🤭🤭💞 i really wanted to write something inspired by the pics tyun posted yesterday and one of my friends quite literally opened my eye to something😳 she suggested that i wrote the makeout session from the pov where taehyun is the one like receiving all the kisses rather than kissing the mc and that made me realise??????? most of the fics i've written are with txt being the givers rather the receivers???????? i had to do something about it cause why have i not changed that up before??😳😳 so BOOM!!!! pillowtalk!!!!!!!

omg it's so weird how she texted you out of the blue PLUS proceeded not to believe you when you told her everything????????😭😭😭😭 but uhhhh just like you said good news that they broke up at least??!!!?!? i don't think i want to know what exactly went on between the two of them i just hope they won't come to bother you anymore😵‍💫

my day was good my beautiful lia!!!!😔🩷😔🩷 recently i received a very high grade on a project from uni so i celebrated today🥹🥹 this is my best grade so far and it was on something that i had no prior experience with AT ALL (the whole thing was so stressful) and i am so proud of myself i still can't believe it honestly!!!😭😭😭 so today i ate such good food including a divine lemon tart.....and besides that, i finished up "pillow talk" and just played some games ambdjdn this week i need to start preparing to go back to uni and tbh it's a bit hard and i'm nervous cause i got pretty used to being home + my uni schedule is a mess once again:( but i try to keep telling myself that if i was able to survive the 1st semester i'll probably do even better in the 2nd one?? i don't know.

i'm gonna go to sleep rn because it's getting a bit way too late for me but how was your day my lovely lia??<33

#wave2tyun answers!! ☆ #lia!!<3

[gingerbreadmonsters]

1, 3, 32? How did your uni even mess up your schedule so badly? I thought schools here were chaotic, but yours is just 💀

Hope your week gets better though. Congrats on getting into that dance society btw! Stay safe and relatively sane~

rainy!! hi sweetie 🤩🥳 my god there were MORE developments in the timetable saga today and it's literally making my blood pressure rise in real time 🤡🤡 but fingers are crossed!! and thank you hehe - i have my first proper class to teach tomorrow and i'm tentatively excited, plus i'm excited about this year's comp dances bc they seem REALLY cool 🤩💕🎊

rainy's talking about this ask game (still open)!

1. What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?

i'm a google docs girlie bc it's just really convenient, so it's arial 11 for me 😎😎 i don't think i cared that much in the past, but now i'm so used to it that i can't do anything else lmao

3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?

this.... may not come as a shock, considering that i talk a lot about music as an inspiration, but i HAVE to listen to music while i'm writing - that's not cursed, but if the fic in question is centred around one song in particular, then i'm required to listen to THAT song over and over again until i'm finished 😭😭 when i wrote motion capture, i listened to 'you are the sunshine of my life' (a two and a half minute song) for literally five hours straight as i bashed my face against the middle section and i genuinely thought i was about to lose my mind 😵‍💫😵‍💫

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

there are many, but here are a few off the top of my head:

"It was the milk, wasn't it?" she said. "All those years ago."

from This Melody Calling You by @mochibun23

i read this fic a long time ago when i was deep in the LU sauce, and i genuinely think it changed me as a person - the author has the most incredible, beautiful way of writing, and this particular fic always felt like the epitome of that fairytale, folk-tale-y style that hits so so deep for me. i cry every single time, without fail, and i love it more than anything - even if you know absolutely nothing about the legend of zelda, i cannot recommend this highly enough. it does that speed-up-slow-down music-swelling final-spotlight ending that i've always wanted to be able to do, and the author absolutely nails it 😍😍😍 an honourable mention to another of their works, this is the recipe of life, which for me is THE hyrule-centric fic and i won't hear arguments to the contrary!

They walk past him to get to the cooler in the trunk, intentionally bumping him with their hip on the way, and he follows, hopelessly charmed.

from refractions by @solclaw

i don't think there's anyone left on the face of the earth who doesn't know about my everlasting love for rowan and their writing, but just so we're all clear - it's very very true 🤩🤩 the description of gavin as "hopelessly charmed" - that little phrase has stuck in my mind ever since i read it, and i'm not sure i'll ever be over it, just because it so perfectly sums up how i imagine gavin to be. this whole fic (as well as my other favourite of rowan's, bring me a dream) is just immaculately done, but seeing as i can only choose one line then this is where we'll stay for now 💕💕

this is getting very long, so a quick-fire round to finish off:

She has a smile like the sun. I would do much to feel it's warmth upon me once again.

from the legend of zelda: breath of the wild

Imagine you were dying. Imagine you were afraid, and a long way from home, and in terrible pain. Just when you thought it couldn't get worse, you looked up, and saw the face of the Devil himself. Hello, Dalek.

from doctor who s6e13, The Wedding of River Song

She could not survive... but nor did she entirely submit. Just as he found it impossible for a prisoner to travel instantly from a Japanese prison cell to Paris, just as he proved it impossible to draw a face one cannot envision, Yagami Light unwittingly, unknowingly proved that it is impossible to stand still and calmly burn to ash.

from Resistance, or Another Case: The Death of Naomi Misora by @/JPlash on ao3

(a word of warning: that last one is VERY graphic and describes someone burning to death in quite severe detail - please please PLEASE bear that in mind if you choose to read it, and please don't read it if you're sensitive to topics of self-inflicted injury, death, and the like. reader discretion is DEFINITELY advised.)

#the recs at the bottom are all very very good and i thoroughly enjoy them all for various reasons #but please GOD beware the warnings on that last one because it's VERY graphic #it goes into quite... visceral detail shall we say #ooh a game! #thank you for sending me an ask babes hehe #rainy beloved <3 #ginger speaks to lovely blogs

[addison-dykegomery]

greys anon back again👋uni was kicking my ass but the semesters over and im caught up now! didn’t really care for the finale/season but i loved reading ur thoughts! im also giving the show an out this season because ik the strike messed things up but how uneven things were made me long for the end tbh😭 bc if this is the writers running on empty it’s kinda embarrassing and cliche and they need to get all the OGs back for s22, give everyone closure and wrap it up on a high note. i need greys to end with dignity lmfao like that’s the bestie

& so is bailey, who was the best part of this episode (saw ur tots about her and simone and although i don’t go there—they had cute tender moments but i rly wanted simone and maggie to smooch last season & im loyal plus ive always been partial to bailey & callie lezzing out together) and amazing in the end. the fact that they’re did all that for lucas tho, laughable—simone needs 2 let that mf go already my god! ik she won’t but im choosing 2 believe they’ll free her next season bc im over it. she’s better than this) as is the fact that lucas is staying and yasuda is leaving. just nasty and cruel and lesbophobic to me specifically. hers and jules’ almost kiss moment was so intimate and convincing i almost looked up fanfic of them but i don’t think there would be any at least not yet. greys non canon lesbian ships are so under-appreciated tbh 1/3 (this is so long sry in advance!)

hey greys anon bestie <3 finally replying to you!! (same here, this one comp sci class i'm taking is like. consuming my life. but in a good way)

aww thank you ^^

girl, i've thought about this SO MUCH like from a writing/showrunning standpoint I have literally no idea how the show could end. imo it has to be some kind of a full circle moment with meredith and ellis and carousels and alzheimers, and probably derek and just as many OGs as they can get to come back. kind of like what they tried to do in season 17, only way less shit. but they would need dempsey&co back for that not to mention ellen (which btw i do not get like is she back or is she not back? wasn't she supposed to leave? like wasn't everyone freaking out that meredith was leaving? So much ado about nothing smh) so i kinda doubt that will happen

it would also be a slay if the last scene of the show is zola visiting meredith in the nursing home (a parallel to meredith and ellis) and meredith has alzheimers but there are photos of derek, lexie, cristina etc beside her bed and zola is telling her how her surgical internship is going and meredith is like "i think i used to be a surgeon once" and zola is like "yes, mom, you were" SDFGHJ or however it went in s1. but ik everyone and their mom has this as their theory for the ending so i doubt it will happen also.

AND something that would be a huge wig in orbit moment is if they already filmed the ending back in 2004 and it's meredith waking up after her one-night-stand with derek in the pilot and it's like woa.. it was just a dream.. and then derek is like hey i'm derek and meredith is like cool can we skip to the part where your wife struts in bc i wanna marry her. which might happen tbh ! we will see 😌

anyway NO I DO NOT WANT IT TO END SOON i need it to get me thru my bachelors at LEAST (which is gonna be a long time bc i'm not the brightest candle on the cake 🤠)

anyway.

Simone and maggie is also intelligent 🙌

omg yes literally after i posted my finale yappings i was like oh shit wait yasuda is leaving 😭 why would they do this to us. i don't super care about them but i like them better than helmika just bec i don't get what helm was trying to do at all, it was funny when she was all about having a crush on meredith (like, same) but she can emigrate to paris with levi now that's ok

i fully block out the fact that simone/lucas is a thing (their scenes are usually my tea breaks tbh) like i feel like my brain isn't entirely processing that info even tho i know it is technically true. i mean simone is a full on dyke in my mind because you expect me not to project onto her? with THOSE mommy issues? when she had that scene with addison in the nicu... i was like 🤔🏳️‍🌈❓ ok now kiss

#also i love reading your asks it's okay!! #asks #anon bestie

[prtfrmhrtbrn]

hello i write every now n then… this is the intro to a fic i am still going to write but it’s from regulus pov and i’m scrapping this to make it james pov so… here i guess? it’s very much pre slash it’s just a little regulus scene really (please read that & acknowledge that James Is Not In This Scene. it is just regulus. sorry) but uhh Yeah 😊

fyi i’m working on other fics right now so this probably won’t be rewritten & posted anyyytime soon but i’m just posting this excerpt for funs really!

a little note on it firsttt which u can feel free to ignore (skip to the indented text to do that)! regulus uses he/they pronouns which is why there’s a mix of those pronouns in there. also: there is a moment where it implies regulus has issues with food. he doesn’t, he just forgets to eat, and doesn’t like the social aspect of the situation, but keep yourselves safe xx

(fun little fact that won’t be obvious in this part bcs… no james… but james also got hit with my pronouns beam… he has he/she days! not all of them but some. it’s indicated through wearing a necklace effie bought him when he came out Just wanted to drop that bcs i love it so much)

the general premise of the fic (u dont need to know this to read this excerpt thing!) is that jegulus meet on one of those train tours of europe. bcs regulus needs to get out more (well it’s a bit more than that but i dont go into it in this excerpt bcs… it’s the intro… why would i have put all the fun stuff in there!) & is struggling to cope with the fact that he really doesn’t want to go to uni (on his fourth/fifth gap year by now) and james has a bit of a breakdown at work (general stress along with other things but they’re not touched on in this bcs. again. i have robbed you of james 😢) and effie, monty and sirius ALL get together to be like ‘GO ON HOLIDAY’

okay that’s enough waffle. reminder that there is no actual jegulus in this its just a little intro to what the fic might have looked like if i’d gone with regulus pov. james would have come in like 6 lines later after this ends icl but i was running out of steam. anyway here!!!!

Regulus doesn't like trains.

It's not some thing. They're just not comfortable. Call him a rich boy; he is, after all- he doesn't like them. This one isn't the worst they've been on, slightly more comfortable, but that's mostly because he's currently on some holiday train across continental Europe- ie, it has beds, because they're on the train for long periods at a time. So he's not sitting.

Let it be known that, based on current experience, he's not massively on board with holiday trains across continental Europe, either. Their cousin Narcissa, though, didn't give him much choice- apparently sitting at home, alone, all the time, is sad, and, Regulus, you're filthy rich. If you've got it, spend it. Regulus hadn't massively approved of that philosophy, but when she'd followed up with, well, if you've got it and you don't like where you got it from, squander it, he'd been a little more amicable towards the idea. It doesn't mean he wanted to sit on some continental tour, but it's a little nicer to stare out a train window at canals and open countryside than to stare out the window of a horrid posh London townhouse at other horrid posh London townhouses.

They fall back on their bed and try not to think of who the dramatics of that are inspired by- not important, not here, doesn't matter at all. There's no bunk above him, because, again, filthy rich, so he's got a single room, and the train roof looks at them and seems to ask him is any of that true? So he shuts his eyes and pretends it's an open air carriage. The window is open a sliver and he pretends that the wind coming through from it is coming in through where the roof should be. It doesn't feel that much better.

A text comes through on his phone.

Narcissa: Have you eaten anything?

Regulus: ...In what time space?

Narcissa: I thought so. Go eat.

Narcissa: No point being on holiday to stop you moping if you're just going to mope on holiday as well.

Regulus: Fine.

Narcissa: Xx.

Alright. Well, if Narcissa's going to play it like that. Not that Regulus acknowledges that he's moping. There's nothing to mope about. They're not moping. They're a normal 22-year-old man, with abnormal amounts of money, and the same sense of purpose as everybody else. He swears.

Regulus has been avoiding the dining carriage. (And wow, does acknowledging that there's a dining carriage make him feel like a 1920s businessman.) It's not because they don't like eating, or because he's picky, but he just doesn't want to have to socialise with people. Ordering at restaurants is one of the worst things, maybe ever, and it always- always- feels like everyone is looking at him. Room service would be a blessing, but that's too much to ask of a train, no matter how fancy, apparently. So, to the dining carriage. Avoidance is over.

(But god damn it, Regulus loves avoiding things that scare them.)

#hi #i dont have a god given clue how to tag this i will be fr #regulus black #regulus arcturus black #fanfic #writing #thats all i got i dunno #snippet #pre slash #starchaser #jegulus #thats the overall fic #but theres not any jegulus in this #bcs its just the old intro…! #yeah <3 #tagging on tumblr is even harder thsn on ao3 #and i reaaaaally hate tagging on ao3

[wafflesfromtheuniverse]

I'm hearing my mom argue w my dad

I feel too old to be hurt about this but i can't help myself

I'm 21 attending uni from home

It wouldn't really make sense to rent an apartment: it's expensive so i would have to work and study at the same time, and I'm not sure i could manage all that rn, and we don't live so far from the place anyways

Anyways I heard her voice going kinda wobbly

She sounded like she was on the verge of crying

It's bc my dad has a lover, and she dropped him off infront of our house

Mom was upset bc they spoke about her a lot

About the other women

I hated my dad for it, but my mom told me a few things that made me just sour about the whole thing

I won't make excuses for cheating, like ever, but i know my mom isn't really well either and it took a toll on my dad

I'm only writing this because i feel like i believe in love less and less

The more i know about my parents, the less i believe in true love

I guess I'm the romantic type, i just like to deny it

You will never catch me admitting it, unless i really feel like i want the other person to know

I kinda believe in acts of affection (or idk how u write it xd) rather than words

Words still mean a lot to me tho, it's just not the usual stuff I guess

Random things hit me harder or make feel warmer

I'm trying to be hopeful

But I'm avoiding people

I fear rejection

I fear hatred

I fear that I am unloveable

I am afraid of being insufferable

I am afraid that people see a lot of wrong in me and they just don't tell me so I am going around clueless

I don't expect everyone to love me

I don't like every person I meet either

I don't like to be the enemy tho

My head makes be believe sm bullshit

I'm fighting myself everyday

I am actually better at it

I started to like my face better

Like my body too

I still want to exercise

Not for a summer body

But for the childish dream i still have: being cool girl

Cool in the means of looking cool

Idc what counts as cool in the matter of personality

My personality is annoying to me but i still love myself a little bit or like moderately

I'm trying

I have the headphones i got for christmas from them on

It's kina funny

They are noise cancelling so i can't hear them

I liked to listen to them when is was little

Like is not a good word, more like i felt it was neccesary

I wanted to know what was happening around me

I don't know if other familes are like this

In highschool I liked to joke around in my head, calling them rommates (not room but living mates or how do i say it...ppl u rent an aparent together with)

I saw my dad at night coming home from work (or as i got know later, maybe from the woman) and my mom was home working always

I didn't think of my parents badly

But my mom once said that "i probably don't want to end up like them"

I don't remember when was the last time i really thought about what i want to end up as

Like seriously

I somehow felt i don't have a future

I had this belief that I will die in some accident like in a tiny one

Just whoosh erased from earth

I don't know why i felt that way but i believed it kinda and i wasn't uncomfortable with it

I thought about it matter of factly, calm, neutral

I will not get old

I will die before 30 for sure

Like that

It wasn't a decision or anything, just felt like that was my fate

I hope I will see more clearly in the future

I hope I am able to love

To give love and to recieve it

To have a healthy relationship

I really really hope i can manage to be in one once

I fear love because of (1 rejection and hate like I said before)

2 because when i lose a friend my heart breaks really hard

I can't get my head away, and I'm anxious without a stop

I have the blackhole in me

If love breaks my hearth more than that

Idk if it's safe for me

Yet atleast

I'm trying to strenghten myslef

I have too much fear in my

I hate fear

But i also hate the absence of fear

When i give up and there is nothing

At times like that fear atleast motivates me, moves me

But when emptiness fills me

I have a hard time afterwards

I probably misspelled a bunch of shit but

It's not cryptic so it counts

I am working on myself

Even when it feels like I'm stagnating

Atleast I can mever be clueless about the things i learned so far

So I'm trying:)

I actually like this one better nowadays:]

[rrxnjun]

IM SORRY FOR ANSWERING SO SUPER LATE LIFE GOT SO HECTIC ALL OF THE SUDDEN☹️

STILL WITH THE TAKE THE STAIRS FIC U GAVE ME LIFE WITH IT ACTUALLY IT WAS SO NICE TO JUST TURN MY BRAIN OFF AND READ IT SO I THANK U FOR IT!! and like actually need a jaemin in my life istg!! AND THE SAME GOES FOR THE TEASER OF UR NEW CHENLE FIC!!! IT ALREADY SEEMS SO FUN!! SO EXCITED ABOUT IT!!! 🥳🤭

I AGREE I WOULD ALSO RATHER JUST GOOGLE THE END OF THE SHOW!!

AHH I HOPE U FOUND SOME ARTISTS SINCE THEN!!! AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR TAKING TIME OUT OF UR DAY AND TRANSLATING FOR ME!! IM SURE U ARE VERY BUSY AS WELL SO THANK U SO MUCH I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!!🥹🥹💝💓 and my god the lyrics are so☹️☹️☹️ it's just such a great song and now it even got so much better with understanding it!!!🥲

WELL IF IT DOES HAPPEN I WILL BE HERE XD parents smh /j (but like actually i understand them cuz traveling alone can be risky☹️) thank u i hope we will figure something out if it does happen🥹🥹

IM GLAD THAT U ARE DONE WITH ONE OF UR ESSAYS ALREADY!! AND I HOPE SINCE MY LAST ASK U STILL ARE DOING GOOD WITH UR SCHOOL WORK AND STUFF🥳

I LOVE UR POSTS THERE LMAO SO DONT BE SORRY and ofc i agree!!! zach was my fav from the why dont we boys🤭 OH MY I HAVENT HEARD ABOUT THE VAMPS IN AGES damn now i'm gonna go and listen to them😵‍💫(also saw that u turned into a treasure stan🫣 and ur take on jikjin!! it's such a great song glad u listened to it!!!)

(liebestraum anon💕 and sorry if i disappear again and for writing a lot i swear i will try and keep it short for once☹️)

AHH ITS TOTALLY OKAY!!!! cant say i didnt miss you but i ofc understand that u have your own life and responsibilities and such,, so dont worry about it🤍🤍 AND THANK U SM AGAIN!!!

DJDJSJ MY CHENLE FIC IS FUN BUT THEN IT GETS DEPRESSING REAL QUICK SO UHHH HOPE YOU'RE READY FOR SOME ANGST ;-; (also i started rewriting liebestraum. just thought i'd let you know<3)

im super glad u enjoyed my translation!! the lyrics are really screamable in my opinion,,, and i also hope i did them justice however i bet i did a better job than all of the ones i saw online :p its not the best artistic lyricism but i like it nonetheless DJSK sometimes u need simple songs to jam to.

travelling alone COULD be risky </3 me and my uni friends randomly travelled to vienna last week because it was warm out and we thought our seasonal depression was finally over and i love me some spontaneous decisions but also it was so anxiety inducing bc it was my first time going abroad with no supervision 😭😭 we had SO much fun but also the stress we were put through to find the bus platform back home ??? never again. was so bad that i broke my 5 month streak of not smoking bc i had to calm myself down somehow and then i was put through the stress of buying cigarettes in german when i caNT SPEAK GOOD GERMAN but 10/10 i would do it again and it made me more confident abt travelling with friends so i WILL drag my equally spontaneous uni friends to budapest as soon as i can. (please tell me they speak at least a little english there)

I AM ACTUALLY DONE W 4 ESSAYS NOW WHOOP WHOOP ‼‼‼ 4 MORE TO GO BUT IM DOING WELL NO STRESS SO FAR. HOPE YOUR SCHOOL IS GOING WELL TOO!

wait do u rlly bc i think im so annoying on there sometimes like girl chill😭😭 but ZACH WAS ALWAYS MY FAV TOO altho i did have a daniel phase. I havent listened to the vamps in ages either i should catch up or sum ;-;

omg dont mention the teumefication of bar i wont admit it to myself yet DHSKSK however jikjin is now my fav song and i fear seeing my 2023 spotify wrapped bc of it now. ive also been watching a concerning amount of treasure map and finding myself in love with jihoon but thats...not important rn.

ill be waiting for u liebestraum anon!!! dw abt sending long asks i always look forward to them🤍 hope your days are filled with joy mwah

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

[hella1975]

only good thing about this bullshit housesitting is that im in a totally new environment with nothing to do but go on my laptop. PRIME writing time

#whenever i have writer's block it's actually a thing of mine to just Move #like go to a coffee shop or sit on the floor or at my desk #it's why i think i write better at home than at uni bc home was obvs where i was for lockdown #which was where i wrote about 200k words of taob SKDGKJSHG #so i have HEAVY connotations with writing in all of those locations #but even then i always write better in a totally new environment #so im hoping this'll do the trick #what if i just banged out the entirety of ch40 tonight purely out of stress and anger #what then #taob updates

[if-music-be-the-food-of-love]

Loving your headcanons so far. Do you have any others you're sitting on? Like about the future, maybe after college. <33

Hi, anon, sure. And thank you!! 🥰 Here you go:

I definitely agree with most people who say Robbe and Sander don't move in together right away. It's just not practical. Robbe wants to be there for his mom. They're young, and it makes way more sense to save the money for when they're ready. That being said, I think they do move in together maybe around Robbe's last year of uni. Sander has a job and wants his own place. Of course, Robbe comes along when Sander starts looking around, and when Robbe asks why they're only looking at places with two bedrooms, without batting an eyelash, Sander says, "My studio has to be in its own room, so there's enough room for you...and your things. So you have your own space to work." Then he lifts an eyebrow, eyes slightly nervous, and asks, "Move in with me?" Robbe gasps, his eyes widening, and looks around the flat they're in. A squeaky "Yes," tumbles out of his mouth, and he throws his arms around Sander. So it's in that kitchen that Sander teaches Robbe how to cook; it's on their couch that Robbe studies for his exams; it's at the desk in their bedroom that he writes his thesis; it’s in their home that he applies to grad school; and it's in their bed that Sander distracts him when he has to be reminded to take a break.

In my mind Robbe continues to grad school right away and possibly to a PhD. He strikes me as the type who will choose a field that requires years of education and training (that's why he's a chemical engineer in my last fic). Sander, on the other hand, likes to be doing things. He finishes his degree and immediately looks for work. He wants to be out there, observing life, experiencing life, and he knows that he'll only get better by continuing to practice. So he supports Robbe through grad school, either working freelance or finding a steady gig that gives him the free time to work on his own projects. Robbe always feels a little guilty, though. He spends his day studying and teaching undergrads, and then he comes home and sees how tired Sander is or how draining it is for him to balance several projects at once. He can’t help feeling like he’s the reason Sander has to work so hard. Sander, however, disagrees, always reminding him with a hug and a lingering kiss that his job is to study so that he can be his “sugar daddy” later. He really doesn’t mind because he’s so proud of Robbe, and he has unwavering faith in how successful he’s going to be. And Robbe is focused, sometimes too much, so Sander takes his distraction job seriously. The first few times he forces Robbe to stop working/studying, Robbe is upset. In his mind he has to succeed to even things out with Sander, to make all of Sander’s sacrifices worth it, but once he realizes why Sander is doing it and that it actually helps (and is a lot of fun 😏), he gives in and doesn’t complain. Sander only does it when he thinks it’s necessary…usually…mostly...Robbe’s not complaining anymore, so…yeah.

Several people have written about how they think the proposal will go down, but I’ve always thought it would be like this. Sander, being the one who likes grand gestures, will buy a ring and have everything planned out to the last detail. And then, the week before he’s going to do it, Robbe will roll on top of him in bed, or look up at him at the dinner table, or poke him in the ribs with his toe as they’re watching a movie on the couch, and just blurt out, “Marry me?” Robbe will look all shy, slightly embarrassed that he couldn’t control himself, but he couldn’t help it. He loves their life together, and he wants it to always be like this. It’s the little things that make him happy, make him feel loved and safe, so it just came out in a moment where he felt overwhelmed with the rightness of it all. Even though he hadn’t planned it, he doesn’t take it back. He means it and looks at Sander with glowing, nervous eyes. Sander is dumbfounded, his mind processing the change of plans. Without a word, he leans over and pulls a black box out from its hiding place under the bed (for this scenario let’s pretend they’re in bed). In answer he hands the box to Robbe, saying, “I was going to ask you on Saturday, but...you beat me to it.” Robbe looks at the ring in wonder, his eyes shiny. Still focused on the box, he whispers, “So which one of us is supposed to say yes?” His question breaks the tension, and their eyes lock, their lips lifting into crooked, dopey smiles. “On three?” Sander asks, and at Robbe’s nod, he counts, and they both say “Yes” at the same time. A moment passes while they both exhale and then Robbe throws himself at Sander, tackling him to the bed. Neither of them can decide whether to laugh, cry, or kiss, so they do all three at the same time, and eventually Sander berates him for ruining his romantic proposal, though he’s not really upset at all. Robbe apologizes with a kiss, but says, “I prefer this. It was sweet. We can still go on your romantic date, and if you want to ask me again then, I promise I’ll say yes.” Sander hugs him closely and murmurs into his neck, “I’d happily ask you every day.”  Robbe kisses his ear and whispers back, “And I’ll always say yes.”

(Okay that one got really sappy...oops)

Do they adopt a kid(s)? Probably, but I don’t know when or how. For canon Robbe and Sander I can’t guess when they’d be ready. I don’t see them being nearly as young as they are in my fic, but I do see it. Sander would be such a fun dad—playful with lots of ideas. Robbe would probably have to rein him in and be the more practical parent. And here’s the one thing I am so sure about and don’t ask me why bc I don’t know: they NEVER use a stroller. Sobbe with a stroller just doesn’t compute for me. One of them wears the baby in a carrier, and the other one wears the backpack full of crap. They take turns, and both of them would rather carry the baby.

Okay, here’s the last one, and I’m kind of embarrassed about it, but I also think it’s a very Sander thing to do. If that wtfockdown clip bothered you (as it scarred me), maybe stop here. It’s not bad or graphic, but it’s based on that clip. So we know how Robbe took his shirt and belt off in that clip, and we can assume it happened more than once (bc those two were such a disaster during quarantine, Sander especially). Well, it all happened around Sander’s birthday…now Sander associates Robbe stripping with his birthday, so it’s the only present he wants for his birthday, that Robbe give him a little strip tease. Every year. Robbe’s all blushy and shy at first, but he grows more confident; and they end up having a lot of fun with it.

Thanks for asking! This was a lot of fun, and I’m always up for more if you’re interested. Have a lovely day!!💕

#wtfock #wtfam #sobbe #headcanons #my asks #I kinda wanna hide now bc of that last one 😳😳 #I hope this was what you were looking for!! #thanks for asking 🥰

[dawnsociety]

best friend!rowoon

hello everyone, I decided to start my writing work for sf9 with a bullet scenario for rowoon. the tall man has been bothering me a lot recently, idk why but I felt the urge to write something about him being y/n’s bff. I think he’d be an amazing friend, always there to support you :(((((((( okaY ANYWAYS, HERE IT IS.

lemme know if you like it, my ask box is always open!!

best friend!rowoon

okay SO

i think he’s be the most supportive friend you could ever have in your life

no matter what you’re doing, what goal you’re trying to achieve, HE’LL BE THERE FOR YOU

studying hard for an exam? he’ll bring you coffee, trying not to interrupt your study session. working on a very difficult project at work? he’ll send you a text in the morning cheering you up for the day that has just started, or at night, telling you how hard you worked that day.

honestly, you have no idea how he always finds the right words to make you feel bettere but hE DOES!!!! 

you’ve been friends for years yet sometimes you’re amazed by him

he’s the friend you’ve known the longest, and you’re pretty sure you two will get old together

“my friend, it’s time to look for a lovely nursing home where we’ll spend the rest of our lonely lives together”

“who told you I am not going to get married and that i’ll die alone?”

“you won’t, you’re too tall and don’t understand memes”

dsjklfjdlkfd you love teasing him for his height, bc he sulks when you do so and it makes you laugh (evil)

(he’s not the type to sulk easily, but when you call him a hag for not knowing the latest memes his lips turn into a lovely pout)

you’re glad to have this gentle toll man by your side tho!!!!

after all, your friendship started off thanks to his unexpected grow (when you were in 3rd grade and went to his place after school once, you’d ask his mom to cook you what she would usually make for rowoon so you’d grow as tall as him)

(his mom got all flustered and promised you to cook the both of you a delicious meal for dinner)

ANYWAYS, you were in kindergarten, coloring the drawing that you teacher had asked you to make for Mom’s day

you were really proud of it, and were coloring all happily when suddenly this little kid came to you and took the yellow colored pencil from you

you asked him to give it back to you and when he said no, you started crying (ofc, you were a little kid)

before your teacher could intervene, rowoon came to you

the kid who stole your pencil got scared as soon as he saw rowoon, due to his height (he was taller than all the other kids in class)

rowoon told him kindly to give the pencil back to you, and he quietly did so before running away

in the meantime, you had stopped crying. to thank him, you gave him half of you snack

from that point onward, you became besties!!!

always by each other’s side

you basically grew up together, always being at each other’s house

your parents became friends as well, thanks to you

what you love the most about your friendship is how you’ve always given each other space to grow: even when you opted for a different major at uni (which meant moving to a new city) he did not budge, and gave you his unconditional support

(even tho he was dying a little inside, the thought of not having his best friend by his side made him sad but didn’t want to show it so to not upset you)

time passed quickly tho, and you two soon reunited when you found a job near him

he spends most of his time at your place, stealing your food helping you taking care of the house (since you often get back home late from your new job)

as an acting major, he doesn’t have a typical 9 to 5 job so his schedule allows him to adjust his life accordingly

(which means that yes, he’s always at your place)

when you moved, he rented a pick up and came to your old place to help you move

you complained abt it, telling him he didn’t have to but NO!!!! everything for his bestie

when you started showing interest in boys and got into dating, you’d often ask him for advice

and he would tease you, telling you how clueless you are when it comes to love and romance lololol

you’d defend yourself saying how it’s men who aren’t used to communicating (unlike him tho, he was an open book and viceversa)

sometimes you think you don’t reciprocate his affection for you as much as you wish/he deserves, so you get all silent

once you were watching a movie at your place and this thought occured to you

so you got all silent, and rowoon could sense the tension immediately

“hey, is something wrong?”

“uh? uhm no, why?”

he knew you so well he could almost read your mind. “c’mon, tell me. is something going on at work?”

“oh, no no. it’s just... you do so much for me...”

he was looking at you with his big, doe eyes, waiting for you to continue

“...and i don’t do much for you. you helped me move, you’re always there for me when i need to rant, the other day your friends from uni asked you to hang out together but you said no bc of me”

“you were sick, how could i leave you alon-”

“it was just a headache, i took a painkiller and it went away”

“yeah but what if it got worse?”

you paused the movie and turned to him, his gaze fixed on your face

“i don’t want you to get overly worried, or put your life on pause bc of me”

“but i don’t”, he laughed. “to be honest i wasn’t in the mood to hang out that night, but this doesn’t mean i’ll never do that. besides, you do a lot for me, don’t be silly. remember when i injured my back and you halted your schedule to help me? this is not something anyone would do”

you two then hugged (HIS HUGS ARE THE BEST!!!!) and he promised to take you with him the next time he’d hang out with his uni friends

he introduced you to all of them, especially this guy, youngbin, who was older than both of you (he was really cute)

did i mention how he makes the best gifts?

like, you mention something once and he’s like “here!!!! :D for your bday!!!!!”

all in all, rowoon is the bestest of friends you could ever have 

please love him a lot, he deserves nothing but the best :(((

#writings #my writings #sf9 scenarios #sf9 imagines #sf9 reactions #sf9 requests #sf9 fanfic #rowoon scenarios #rowoon fanfic #rowoon ff #rowoon imagines

[springtimeinthemuseum]

okay so this isn’t anything food related so my apologies hey. i just don’t really have a space to just go mental and write nonsense; so i’m doing it here. so disregard if you’re here for food content, but stay tuned for a bit of wholesome shit.

i am the middle child between two boys. my oldest is 1 year apart from me and my youngest is 5 years. so generally people think i’d be closest to my oldest. not the case. growing up, he really majorly sucked. would bully my youngest every day after school because we were home while my parents were at work. he told me to kill myself many times and once told me, in front of my dad, that if i didn’t kill myself then he would do it for me, then grabbed a knife. lovely.

my youngest is an angel. he was always called the ‘golden child’ and my oldest hated it. was mad jealous. but i fucking agreed hey. like everyone would say how i must hate that one sibling is considered the ‘golden child’. but literally no? it’s fact. this kid is just so thoughtful and kind. i often joke that he is adopted because how can you have me and my oldest, and then this fucking perfect human? impossible. he is just brilliant and as strange as it sounds i truly look up to him. he speaks his mind and he doesn’t do anything that he doesn’t genuinely want to do and he is so fucking beautifully kind. an example of his wholesomeness was the other night. i come out the front to smoke bc i’m an idiot. i often see crazy bugs and animals (i’m in australia). i saw a funky frog the other night and texted my family banter group chat. this kid comes out with his fucking frog book and flipped through the pages with me until we identified the lil guy???? idk if it’s silly but i just found that interaction so sweet. perhaps it’s because i’m used to being told to off myself by a sibling. we just sat there until we figured out who this frog was and then he told me some fun facts about the guy.

anyway. i’m not doing so great right now. tuesday is the 1 year anniversary of being discharged from hospital. i’ve never made it an entire year hospital free so i’m sort of wigging out a bit. i feel awful and on the verge of relapse in so many ways i’m just fucking panicking hey. but i helped my youngest move bedrooms tonight (oldest moved out so youngest took his bigger room). once we were finished we just sat there in his new room and talked. we go to the same uni so we laughed about how insane uni life is. he showed me stupid tik toks and i showed him stupid facebook videos. we do this every now and again. sit down and show each other stupid funny shit we’ve saved recently. and it truly just made everything better. every single fucking issue i’ve been having just faded away because i sat there and realised that the only thing that matters is this kid. if i can’t do it for myself then i can surely do it for this kid. he saves me in ways that he can never understand. i feel so incredibly lucky to have this man in my life and i just wanted to put it into words. i doubt that anyone will read this far and that’s okay. i suppose i’m putting this here for myself. so i can come back to this post when i’m feeling bad and just sit and realise that my world is more than me. i have never ever subscribed to the notion that i should do anything or live for anyone other than myself. but this kid is the one exception. i would do anything for him and he doesn’t even know it. i truly cannot put into words how beautiful this human is. he started a paramedicine degree because he loved the idea of helping people. but he changed his mind a year later and is now studying a degree in environmental management because he ‘wants to work at a national park and take school kids on tours and teach them about wildlife and the importance of preserving it’ ???? like hello? how fucking lovely??????

idk guys. idk why i feel the need to just vent and post this. but i’m doing it because it might help me in the future. i may be making some pretty awful decisions about my diet. but i truly strive to keep myself here as long as i can. not because i want to be here for my own life; but because i want to watch this man live his. so hopefully when i feel super bad i can come here and read this and just think about the fact that people like him exist. idk man. having those nights where it’s just us. two siblings that just get along. it’s not something i’m very used to. i’m so excited and surprised when it happens. i look forward to them so much and i often save videos knowing that it’s something i will show him next time we have a night like this. i sometimes wonder when he’ll grow out of it and when these nights will stop. but they haven’t. he’s 19 now and they haven’t. and i’m so grateful.

i know he will never read this but i hope he can feel the love and appreciation i have for him. if you’ve read this far then i love you too and i hope that you have someone in your life who can be this for you. and if you don’t please message me. we can create that together.

i love you Bus. you are the greatest man i’ve ever known, besides our father Paulos (who may have his own post one day because he is an absolute fucking queen)

thank you for listening to my nonsense if you’ve made it this far. i send my undying love to you. take care. take it easy. you’re okay.

[nonasimming]

Sophia Fitch for @chaoticchai's Bachelorette Challenge

Materialistic, Clumsy, Self-Assured / Fabulously Wealthy

unnecessarily long backstory under the cut (oops)

Sophia was born to two loving parents. When she was 10 years old, her mother, a scientist stationed in Strangerville, died due to mysterious circumstances. Since then, Sophia's father, owner of a successful chain of karaoke bars, raised her alone. For the next ten years, the father and daughter lived like royalty. Sophia went to the best schools. She was a cheerleader, the class president, prom queen. She had the latest cars, her own apartment in uni, a black visa card. Everything was perfect... until her father met a young socialite and fell in love instantly. Nevermind that he would be her fifth husband -- they were in love! After a year of marital bliss, her father died under mysterious circumstances, much like the other four ex-husbands before him. "It was a coincidence", people said. But Sophia knew the truth.

And so, she was driven out of their Windenburg home (where her step mother has taken over everything) and moved to San Myshuno to make a living as a rookie detective to eventually uncover the case of her father's death. No one takes her seriously, of course -- I mean, she's blonde, has a side boob tattoo, and her Starbucks order involved the words "skinny", "vanilla", "latte" ! Her mentor says she needs more life experience to develop her detective's gut, but the thing about growing up rich and pampered is that she never needed to develop anything. But Sophia is ready to prove everyone wrong!.. if she could stop impulse buying online and learn how to take the subway system. That's why she wants to join a Bachelorette Challenge, because what's a better way to get to know people (both the positive and negative sides to them) AND gain new experiences than through a BC -- or so she says. "Surely there's a better way", her mentor argues. "Just trust me on this, chief, I've watched like all of The Bachelor", she exclaims.

Random tidbits:

Zodiac Sign: Libra

Favorite Color: Pink

Favorite food: cheesecake, any cheesecake

Favorite season: fall

Sophia has been on her fare share of terrible dates -- the men think she only likes hip-hop to seem cool and the women think she's just going through a phase.

People often write her off as a dumb blonde, but Sophia is actually incredibly perceptive and is quick on her feet. She's just a little gullible, a direct result of her former lavish lifestyle.

She grew up watching classic movies, particularly crime and murder mysteries, with her father. This has upped her gore-tolerance to the max but she'll still flinch when watching ghost movies.

She's also incredibly well read, an interest she picked up from book dates with her mother before she passed away.

#IzzyBC #the sims 4 #ts4 #i wanted to offer a basic white girl but with a twist 😓 #my sims

[wave2tyun]

alex!! i saw ur lil ramble last night and i totally get what u mean abt being paralysed from emotions..

sometimes it gets to the point where im kinda numb and just let myself rot which.. i never used to do cuz i used to just deal w it and not let myself process anything and tbh not doing anything scares me 😭 but its so good that uve been getting urself up and doing basic stuff, being kind to yourself has also really helped even if its hard most days

and on homesickness! i think i remember seeing u study abroad, me too!!! i hope you're finding people and things that take your mind off of it bc it honestly helps hehe and i hope u can keep in touch w people from home too every now then.

life's so crazy and uncertain sometimes i wish i was like 16 forever ... but its fine.. i hope you'll see much better days too 💕💗💓💞💘

hiiii!!!🥹🥹💞💖 omg i'm so sorry for taking this long to reply to your ask- uni has been quite exhausting and i didn't want to hurriedly write something back to you :(((((((<3

it's the exact same situation for me as well, i never used to do it or at least not this much/often:( and sometimes it's like i randomly snap back to reality in the middle of it and it makes me feel so guilty....😭 it scares me as well, making me feel like there's just something wrong with me. i keep telling myself that there must be a better way to spend my free time or deal with x thing than just letting myself rot. i'm trying to make a change, and just like you said, being kind to yourself can really help- you don't need to have this crazy ass routine and not every day has to be super productive for you to feel proud of how you spent your time- which is why i think it's really important to start giving yourself a pat on the back for doing or simply attempting to do even the most basic of chores, such as preparing a meal!!

and omg you're studying abroad too??🥹🥹 it's an experience that i don't regret, but homesickness can strike so hard on some days!! it was difficult dealing with it during my 1st semester at uni because i felt lonely and didn't really know people, but now it's better!! i found some people that i really click with and we've been getting closer, i have some plans to hang out with them soon actually and i will visit my family at the end of april too🥹 sometimes even just having a phone call with your parents can help, finally getting a chance to take a break from english and speak in your native language can feel so relieving??😭😭😭

ahhhhh i wish so too:( things were so much simpler and we most likely didn't even fully realise it. but it's okay, despite our hardships having taken a much more different shape, i think we'll be able to get through it, things will turn out alright!!!! :(<333

#wave2tyun answers!! ☆ #and also!!!! #best of luck with your studies!! we can do it!!!!! :D

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SPOILERY ETERNALS REVIEW/THOUGHTS UNDER THE CUT PLEASE?? 💖

your wish is my command. i'm so sorry this became 1k.

okay, so. i'll put together a likes/dislikes list and then conclude with my overall opinions. why am i writing this like the last sentence of my intro paragraph for a uni paper asdfgh

what i fucked with:

so much representation!!! a little gay family and an emotional homosexual onscreen kiss with one of the main characters!! hell fckin yeah! a deaf main character?? YES!! the beautiful bollywood scene!!! the main main character being an asian woman when it could have been any of the other white and/or male characters?? YESYESYES!! that made me very happy

the costume design was amazing, as was the set design. i did read that eternals was filmed more onsite than marvel films usually are, which is great. it was a gorgeous movie to watch

also cause everyone in it is so gorgeous?? richard madden? gemma chan? angelina jolie? be still my beating heart

i really loved how all the eternals had different powers, and how they complimented each other. it was really cool to watch the way they fought together

the relationship between thena and gil was everything.

sersi's ringtone is juice by lizzo

i also think the concept of sprite and her age issues was really well done. i found her annoying at the end but that was kind of the point, i can't imagine how frustrated she must have been

karun. just, karun.

the fuckin. oh my god. the ikea table joke. my friend and i DIED. that is a contender for funniest marvel joke of all time

i think the concept of the movie was actually kinda really dope and interesting. like, the idea that celestials are born of intelligent life and that's why the eternals were sent to protect human life and serve this greater purpose? cool. it felt original and interesting, and didn't content too much with existing marvel lore.

what was maybe kind of wack:

we saw the movie at 20:45, and the movie theatre didn't serve popcorn after 20:00 because of some inconsistent dutch covid rules and so we couldn't have popcorn. this has nothing to do with the movie but it made me sad so it's going in here anyway

this didn't bother me as much as it did my bestie -- i obviously facetimed her as soon as i got home -- but she was right in pointing out that there was a bit of a problem with the lack of chronology. sometimes the flashback scenes weren't indicated as such soon enough, but mostly the problem was how this influenced the building of characters and relationships

because all of the backstory (just of the characters and their developing relationships) isn't until later in the movie, it's harder to care about them until then. they want us to mourn a relationship and mourn a character before we even know them

which is part of the reason i didn't find ikarus and sersi that convincing. i did ship them in the beginning, but my bestie didn't at all. they tell us they're in love without first showing us how they fell in love, and when they do show us, it's in a few short basic scenes

(also, this isn't necessarily bad but ? a sex scene? in a marvel movie?? i don't know her)

but yeah, i think that not only their relationship, but the relationships between all of them would have been more convincing with more initial scenes of them just bonding and joking around and being a family. we only got references to that, and then the scenes where they're all yelling at each other

which ties to what i would have loved: a montage scene with fun music that shows what they were all up to through the ages. apart from that one short hiroshima scene, all we got was modern day and BC. i want to see phastos finally invent the steam engine! i want sersi in a flapper dress! i want ikaris to be madden back in the kit from cinderella fit!! it also would have been a great way to let the audience get to know the characters better in order to fall in love with them, and a way for the relationships to develop

even though i shipped them, i wasn't invested enough in ikaris' and sersi's realtionship, which might be the crux of it. i liked dane too much and there wasn't enough set up for them. there's that writing rule about romance, and how a good romance is written in such a way that they don't need to kiss in order for you to realize it's romantic. they barely had that.

who was the villain? while i think it can be nice to have ambiguity, the fact that it kept switching around in this movie was a bit confusing. i sometimes forgot who they were fighting.

the really cheesy music over the dramatic moments was too much sometimes. i couldn't help but laugh when it was taking itself way too seriously

which leads me to my last point. they thought they were being so dramatic. they thought they were being so clever. they had ikaris fucking YEET himself into the sun after he messed up once (1), and i was laughing. it was fucking hilarious, and i know that that's not what they were going for. it your defining dramatic moment comes across as ridiculous, you fucked up

what is harry styles doing in the mcu. baby no, run while you can. i think he'll do a great job and i love him but i'll need some time because right now i don't wike it.

conclusion: 6.5/10

i was very much entertained and i had a good time and i fell in love with some characters, but i would have been more in love with them with just a few additional scenes. it was a beautiful movie to watch and had some absolutely hilarious anecdotes that made me laugh out loud. i wish i would have had popcorn. ikarus yeeting himself into the sun is ridiculous. the half point is for the ikea joke.

#here's a very long list of my thoughts #eternals #eternals spoilers #thank u very much for asking #i loved putting them all down #tortle answers #mutuals (affectionate)