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embrosegraves · 21 days

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𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕋𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕌𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣

Oscar Piastri x Horner!Reader Oscar finds that having a crush having less than platonic feelings for your boss's only adult daughter is apparently free real estate for some of F1's biggest gossips

Warnings: As per, explicit language and grammatical errors.

dates on tweets don't exist, right? they're all just fake??

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logansargeant did I not tell you rage rooms were the coolest ever -> oscarpiasrti yeah yeah keep bragging 🙄 -> logansargeant well since you gave me permission-

fan38 at least its a controlled environment to deal with your emotions -> yn.horner thank FUCK i convinced him to do this instead of what Ruben wanted -> rubenholtt what was wrong with egging and tp-ing her house? -> yn.horner uhh everything???

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if you see this, know that you WILL be getting the next update after the Imola GP i promise.

I've been in a really odd spot in my life where I haven't been very motivated to do any writing (or even just creating in general) for long burst of time, which means that any requests I have been sent previously have been sitting in my drafts half finished because I cannot for the life of me find any inspiration to write anything.

I count myself lucky that I had enough motivation and energy to start pre-planning for the rest of this series. If you take a look at the series masterlist you'll notice that there are numbers next to the current chapters and beyond. I've decided that the entire series is going to be 14 chapters in total with a bonus chapter for Oscar and Y/n's shenanigans at the end of the 2024 season.

I can't thank everyone enough for being so incredibly patient with me as I try to work through this writing slump. Slowly but surely I will start uploading fic reqs again

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twiisted-king · 1 year

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♢ Spider-Man Noir BF HC’S ♢

➟ Spider-Man Noir / GN!Reader 🕸️

➟ SFW / NSFW

➟ TW : 1930’s Attitudes, The Great Depression, Injuries/Blood, Sexual Content, & Smoking.

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— Let’s set one thing straight, he is husband material.

— The moment y’all start dating is when he starts thinking of marriage. Obviously he’s from the 1930’s so he probably thinks more in terms of “ I Man, I Husband “. I don’t think it’s to the point of being toxic though :)

— Peter has a gun, yes a gun, that he is not afraid to use especially when it comes to you. He’s always clutching you close to him whenever y’all go outside and keeping a close eye on the environment around him. He already lost Uncle Ben, he is NOT losing you too.

— A total gentleman : flowers, taking your coat, kissing your hand, he goes the whole nine yards.

— It’s hard for him to just be comfortable sometimes. Experience the Great Depression and being Spider-Man has left him a nervous wreck who just can’t calm down. He’s always expecting the worse. In other words, please treat this man like he’s the best thing in the whole world, he needs it.

— A music lover who would be even more smitten if you danced with him. He’ll hum to the tune and spin you around the livingroom with this big, goofy smile on his face.

— Peter runs off of coffee, cigarettes, and adrenaline. He doesn’t have the easiest line of even as a civilian and often works late into the night. He’s always exhausted when he gets home and just wants to fall into bed beside you.

— Is pretty always big spoon. It’s just easier since he’s more then a likely taller than you plus he likes taking on the protector role.

— A decent chef. He can definitely make a mean dinner and has learned a few tips/tricks from Aunt May.

— Patch up his wounds! He’s a good patient who just sits there with this glint of admiration in his eyes as you clean up any blood or stitch close a deeper cut. He’ll absolutely tease you by asking if you can “ kiss it better “.

— He writes sappy poetry. It’s mostly just for kicks and giggles though he can definitely whip out something that really touches your heart. He gets flustered if you thank him for the poetry and just hides his red face behind his hat Jotaro style.

— Peter wants to eventually move away from New York to somewhere much quieter. He wants to marry you and have a big house. If you want kids that’s more than okay with him and if you don’t he’s content on settling for a dog. He absolutely loves dogs.

♢ NSFW ♢

— While not the most experienced person sexually he still knows how to have a good time.

— Peter’s libido isn’t the highest and sex is more of a celebratory/occasional thing. You got a job promotion? Cool! Peter wants to bang you on the couch until the walls are white and the multiverse rips apart.

— I think Peter definitely gets aroused a lot he just doesn’t act on his feelings. He doesn’t exactly have time to take an hour away for some much needed love making.

— But when he does get that hour away? Oh boy howdy prepare yourself.

— I already discussed that there is more than likely a height difference and he takes that to his advantage. It’s easy to just scoop you up no matter how heavy you are and have sex with you right against the kitchen wall.

— Like he’ll rip your clothes off in the heat of the moment then promise to buy your another shirt later.

— RIDE 👏🏻 THIS 👏🏻 MAN 👏🏻 - He doesn’t mind just kicking back and letting you take control for a bit. He lets out the hottest noises and when you’re thighs are aching from bouncing on him? He just manually fucks you on his cock all while telling you about how nice you feel tensing around him.

— No surface in your place is safe. Kitchen counter, bed, couch .. you’ve been banged on all of them.

— Wants to stuff you full of as much of his cum as possible. He’ll cum into over and over again until your stomach is bloated with his release.

— He’s big! It can be an adjustment taking his dick and he’s fully aware of his size. He’s always whispering encouragements to you, telling you about how good you look taking him like this. His balls are big too lmao.

#Spider-Man Noir #into the spider verse #across the spiderverse x reader #atsv x reader #spider-man noir X reader #spider-noir X reader #it’s like 1 am help me #nsft concept #smut #fluff #Peter Parker X reader #itsv X reader #headcanons #spiderverse

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f1ghtsoftly · 2 months

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While, I don’t hate the women that express “doomer” ideology, I do think it’s Really Bad for a wide range of reasons. One of the most important of which is the all or nothing type of valuation it places on resistance, we either destroy all patriarchy, or we’re all doomed, and the way it negates our power as living breathing adult women to do anything at all the change our circumstances, because I can’t change all of it-I change nothing instead.

There are thousands of women on this website that are alive right now who want a better world-do you seriously believe none of our efforts, do you believe the efforts of all the women who’ve ever lived amount to nothing just because we haven’t achieved a post-patriarchal society? Think about all the ways women’s resistance, big and small, has nurtured you-even before feminism was a thought in your head. Did that not matter to you? Did it not help protect you? To warn you? To feed your soul? Not enough of course, but all of that effort was enough to make you brave enough to dig for answers, to not immediately give in to all that was expected of you, to find a place here on this website, surely. It did matter, even just hearing or seeing something that made you feel seen for the first time in your life-that does matter.

I think one of patriarchy’s most pernicious effects is the way it corrupts intimacy between women. We are trained to play act images of women that men create through media and social control we end up worrying if we’re successful in our impersonation of this being we call “woman” always trying to be nice enough, tidy enough, small enough etc…and disrupts our images of woman’s actual humanity and personhood. Remember how crazy you felt before you discovered feminism, imagine all the other women and girls who already do and will one day feel like you. You thought no other woman was like you, until one day you went to a secret place, somewhere men didn’t control, and discovered, it wasn’t true.

Women’s ability to resist patriarchy is a gift to us, it lets us know, even hundreds of years into the future, that we have never really been alone. Women who acted out to the point of being disciplined via religious, psychiatric or state institutions. Women who worked in secret as men to be able to write, create, make and live independently. Women who pushed politically for their rights. Even just women who survived and gained power for themselves in environments that were hostile to it. They all gave us a gift and that gift is the knowledge that they were alive, they mattered and they didn’t like it-they weren’t these images of women that men created-they were human, just like us. More than just giving us comfort, these big and small acts of resistance allow us to more fully understand not only the totality of what we’re up against-but also to appreciate the incredible fortitude of women who persisted against incredible odds. They didn’t know what their fates were going to be either and it probably felt as bleak, if not more, than it does right now. We can find women like this in the historical record, even if Big Patriarchy is still around.

It’s true that individually we don’t have a lot of control over the Really Big Historical Picture, but the good news is we don’t have to-we just need to control our slice of it. There are so many women just waiting to find women like us, there are girls growing up who need to see us to know that they’re not alone and that there is a community of women who feel like them and who are worth fighting for. Focus on making yourself visible as a human being to the women around you, on trying to make a mark big enough so that women in the future can find you. We are alive and we matter-and I really think this is enough. It’s a very worthy effort to live by and for other women and usefully it’s also a really critical step in building solidarity, so even if some of us get crazy ideas about doing something to change the Big Historical Picture, they’ll have a much better chance of achieving it.

#watch me write the exact same essay about having daughters ahahaAHAHAHA I hate antinatalism #how is it that my mom almost killed me a million times (exageration)#and Im the one getting weepy eyed about babies and female solidarity #radblr #radical feminism #radical feminist #char on char

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sunnyy3d · 5 months

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Hi again

Ok so I am currently obsessed with Matt smith and Alex Kingston so I wanted to know if you would write a 11th/river/reader fanfic where the reader is a companion that just started travelling with them but for some reason she is immortal and always finds them but she doesn’t totally understand how the meeting keeps happening between them all so she just jumped from a new tune where she was happily married to the doctor and river but now she meets river/melody who doesn’t know her yet and she gets jealous bc she over heard them talking about another girl(her just younger) and it leads to the doctor having to explain to her that they aren’t at that time yet and river gifts her a journal so she can write down where and how they keep meeting hopefully this makes enough sense and you would want to write it I just want some fluff/cuteness along with confusion on time travel

Timeless Love| 11th Doctor x River x Reader

A/N: Requests open! (Obviously)

God, I'm so nauseous. Will I ever get used to that? I really wish that I had my own TARDIS; it'd be so much better than a vortex manipulator. The Doctor calls it "cheap and nasty time travel," and he's not wrong. Of course, I'll never let him know that, though.

I let the dizziness subside before opening my eyes. I'm facing a wall? I've gotta go through the checklist. Okay, first is smell. It smells... old? Like antiques and dust. Why is smell first anyway? The second is hearing. I hear sirens, which leads to the next part: sight. To go with the sirens, I see a red flashing light coming from a bulb farther up the wall. That's always a good sign! Last but not least, the 360. Well, it's more like a 180, but that's beside the point. I spin only to find a gun pointed at my head. My smile immediately drops, the excitement of being in a new environment being replaced with dread. What have I gotten myself into this time?

"Oi, don't touch the fez! Wait, no, don't take it," I hear from behind the brute holding the gun.

"Don't listen to him. Please take the fez," I'd recognize those voices from anywhere. Especially the sarcasm... It only makes sense that they're around when I find myself in trouble. I can't let myself get distracted; this is a life-or-death situation. Just do what The Doctor taught you. Be rational and observe.

Peering past the gun, I see a creature I've never seen before in my time with The Doctor. This thing is enormous, at least a foot or two taller than me. They (it?) have on a suit of armor--similar to what would be found back on Earth-- that obscures its face. Maybe it's a security guard? It would make sense, considering that behind it are glass cases that hold artifacts.

Regardless, this creature's sheer size means I can't fight it. At least not successfully. That throws all of the self-defense skills River taught me out of the window. I really wish she was here. Oh wait... she is. I'll just have to play the innocent card. It shouldn't be hard, considering that I am innocent. I put my hands up beside my head as a sign of surrender, careful to go at a speed that's not threatening. "I just got here, I swear. I have no idea what's going on," I reason. I have a feeling that it's not gonna work well.

"Oh, look who it is! Where have you been?" Looking past the guard, I spot The Doctor and River being led in by another guard.

I sigh, "It's not what it looks like."

"It's exactly what it looks like!" The Doctor interrupts with his stupid smile.

"Honey, can you shut please? I kinda have a gun in my face right now," I plead.

"Oh right..."

"Excuse me, sir?" River distracts the guard in front of me.

"We're going to have to ask you to put that gun down. Darling, you might want to duck." Without even thinking, I follow her instructions. I trust River and The Doctor with my life. What kind of wife would I be otherwise? Being stuck between the wall and the fight, I have no choice but to crawl away.

I'm hiding behind one of the cases when The Doctor comes around the corner, disheveled and panting. It's a good look at him. His hair is messy before he runs a hand through it and flashes his signature smile. God, I could kiss him. But now's not the time. We're in the middle of a fight. I say we, but I really mean River. "What are you doing?" I yell.

"I could ask you the same thing!" Loud shots hit the walls around us. I peek around the corner and see two more guards have shown up as reinforcement.

A bullet flies past my head, and I quickly take my retreat behind the case. "Look! We'll have to save this conversation for after we get out of whatever situation you got us into this time. River needs help." The Doctor gives me an offended look.

"River does NOT need help, no thanks to you guys," she says sarcastically.

The Doctor and I come out from behind the case. "What are you guys even doing here?" I ask with my hands on my hips.

"Uhh... we're picking something up," The Doctor answers nervously. I nod, my lips drawing into a thin line as I give him a skeptical hum. It's probably not worth questioning, and I probably won't get a straight answer.

"And you are?" River questions, looking me up and down. Even after being with her for a while, I still get butterflies when she looks at me like that.

But the butterflies are scooped up by my confusion. "What do you mean, River? We've been-"

"SPOILERS," The Doctor interjects. "If you'll just give us a moment, please?" I nod as he drags River away. They huddle together with their backs facing me. Clearly, I'm not supposed to hear this conversation, but it doesn't stop me from trying. Unfortunately, they're just out of earshot, so I can only hear a few words.

Focusing on their conversation, I piece together some parts. "She's... beautiful... amazing... younger... she's like..." The Doctor explains with expressive hands. Occasionally, River glances back at me with a smile.

Who are they talking about like that? It has to be someone special. Why else would they keep it a secret from me? More importantly, why is River saying she doesn't know me? Has she had her memory wiped? Clearly, The Doctor knows who I am, but he's also acting weird. What has happened to our marriage? Did all of the intimate moments that we shared go down the drain? All the adventures forgotten?

I'm so lost in thought that it takes me a second to realize that they've finished their conversation and have started walking back towards me. I quickly stand straight, suddenly incredibly self conscious. I cross my arms and frown, "So, who's this mystery woman and why did you have to talk about her in secret?" I know my words reek of jealousy, but I can't help it. We've been married for so long, and yet here they are talking about some other woman.

The Doctor sighs, thinking about how he should respond. "We were talking about you. I know it might not make too much sense right now, but River and I aren't in the same timeline as you."

"This is actually my first time meeting you, I'm afraid. Though I'm sure it won't be the last," River looks me up and down with a smirk. I blush and look away. Even if this is her first time meeting me, she still has to flirt.

Everything is starting to make sense now. All of the times when The Doctor or River thought that they had done something with me but hadn't. Or when they'd forget simple things. It's not that they forgot; it just hadn't happened to them yet. Why didn't I think of this before? And why hadn't they explained this to me earlier? Why does time have to be so complicated?

"This happens all of the time with me and River. It's honestly quite annoying to figure out," The Doctor chuckles.

"You know, that actually makes a lot of sense. Things are starting to come together now. That explains why you guys are so confusing sometimes. Sorry, extra confusing sometimes." The couple laughs before River holds up her finger, saying hold on and grabbing her bag off her back. She rummages through it momentarily before letting out a small 'aha.' I look at The Doctor with my eyebrows scrunched in confusion. He only shrugs. River pulls out what she was looking for. I see a look of recognition flash across The Doctor's face before I can tell what it is.

"Here," she holds out a book. It's a royal blue and has squares on it like the TARDIS. It looks naturally worn, its deckled pages ready to hold a story. "I have a smiliar journal. I use it to keep track of my encounters with this idiot. Maybe you can do the same?" She suggests with a warm smile.

From this distance, I can see how young she is. Though she doesn't look much different, her eyes tell a different story. They have more youth to them, more innocence. Let's be honest: River has never truly been innocent. But she is more innocent than the River that I know best. I smile as I take the journal in my hands. It's perfect. It'll be easy to carry around, and it is absolutely gorgeous.

So much has yet to come for The Doctor and River, both terrible and happy. And even though I have lived through things that they haven't, they have lived through things that I haven't. This book will hold stories that cannot be shared with the ones I love the most. If I were to share it, it could ruin everyone's timeline. Time is a delicate balance of... wibbly, wobbly, timey, wimey... stuff. Okay, I'll admit that wasn't the most eloquent I have been, but it'll have to do.

With a smile, I look up at my husband and wife (well, future for them), "Thank you. I have a feeling that I'll be using this a lot."

#x reader #fanfic #11th doctor x reader #11th doctor #river song x reader #river song #melody pond #doctor who #the doctor x reader #the doctor x river song #the doctor x river x reader #the doctor x you #river song x the doctor

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chaoshoranghae · 7 months

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Dreamies and curly hair

platonic

Gender neutral

Mark -

learning progress together

he absolutely loves your natural hair and would love to know how to take care of it

he wants to be able to do, at least this for you

def a long night together

almost have to show it to him as a presentation

visuals, step by steps

explaining if your hair needs more protein or moisturizer

what each product does

simple lazy day routines

full wash day routines

he loves it

its a major part of who you are and he would love to be able to know about it and help you with it

especially on days where its a low energy kind of day but you really need to wash it, dw he got your back

would def say he's not as good at it but would try

def talks to johnny or his older hyungs about it, how interesting and different it is compared to what he knows

would write a song about curly hair or the process, atleast mentions of it

you finally let him do the process by himself completely alone and later on posts pics "styled by my wonderful hairstylist bf" or "did yall know being an idol is a coverup for being a hairstylist"

he would be showing everyone your post about him

Renjun -

hes so into self care that he naturally might know a little about it

especially when you have damaged hair and are trying to bring your curls back

he is bringing out all the old chinese methods on hair recovery

he loves your natural hair so much, will get a little pouty if you straighten it

the entire environment is so relaxing, candles lit, soft music running even him singing

the vibes are immaculate

once he knew how good he was at it, you will never touch your own hair again

at this point its a routine, one of the things he looks forward to

its intimate, just you and him, he might even give you some back massages, with being bent over doing your hair has it hurting

or hes so in control you can completely relax and will read a book

i would trust this guy with my hair

Jeno

a lesson learned together

he's so used to his hair and the stylists doing his hair he never knew this much time, effort and money would go into your hair

when ever he's shopping and sees a hair product he sends it to you immediately wondering if this would be good to try

he's so optimistic about it

he's the reason why you haven't gave up on your curls and permanently straighten it

try out a new product and completely changed the way your hair looks for the worst

but hes so motivated

he relates what you hair needs to like working out and if you need more protein or to cut

would totally make use of your wash/ style day and take a bunch of pictures

consistent praises and compliments about how beautiful your hair is

he wants to cater to his partner and absolutely make her love her hair

Haechan

he would bring a binder

step by step yk with his own visuals

he would gamify it, like him getting good at it is his increasement of level or smth yk

or he would “upgrade” and its a new hairstyle that he has mastered

do not talk to him until he was good at it, he would be ready to practice until he had it down

until you had to explain to him that wetting/washing your hair everyday isn’t necessary

he was so sad, you swear he was going to buy a mannequin head to practice on, locked away in your room

you guys go out? he brings up your hair to all of your friends about good and pretty it is, 1) to fish for compliments 2) because he wants you to hear compliments and feel better about your hair

bro is constantly touching it/[playing with it

he absolutely loves it

always talking about his gfs hair

he loves doing funky hairstyles for cosplaying or halloween

hes like mark, telling everyone but he's so annoying about it

the members have a jar for everytime he brings it up and has to put money in

like bro will not shut

Jaemin

bro would have princesscore hairstyle boards for you

if you weren’t a princess before now you are

i feel like he already learned before you because that was your hair type and he wanted to impress you or he's just naturally good at???

just like jeno he is so encouraging oh my gosh

he always organizes your products in order

if he sees your running low he’ll subtly see if you want a replacement or a new product and buy one for you

he is so delicate with your hair oh my gosh

no pulling, no tangles, no pain

if you fallen asleep without braiding it or putting it up in a bonnet dw jaemins got you

like leave it up to him

he knows your face shape and recommend hairstyles that fit your face shape and ones to avoid

jaemin = personal stylist

takes such perfect candids of you and your beautiful hair

bro even writes little notes about how beautiful you look and how

like the self hate you have on your hair from years of people telling you to straigten is gone

bro will take the straightener so it won’t even come to mind

Chenle

he’s so

at random just bulk of hair products coming to your place with no letter or sign

will never admit that it was him though

a person really got to you about your hair recently and you've straighten it? he’ll do perm his hair so you guys can have “matching curls”

like how dare you hate on something he loves

he has absolutely no clue what any product does but he's seen your likes on ig and amazon lists

so he just buys them

i think he's a little afraid to do it himself tbh

so you have him do little by little yk

first the brushing

which oh my gosh, hes just a tad bit rough with it tbh

he compared your hair to daegals fur…

which kinda threw you for a loop but realized he meant it in a weird compliment way as he absolutely adores daegal

like he loves brushing her fur

not one to trust with my hair though

Jisung

this poor boy

hes allowed to watch and thats it

like honestly i think the first couple of times he would be so amazed by how the whole process works that

like he wouldn’t even suggest to help or learn he's just amazed

but he does wanna help so he can help you out with the process, unlike the other ones who are completely allowed to take over

he's allowed simple processes like brushing hair or wetting it.

teaching him prayer hands to apply products is a work in process

he almost thinks of it as like a dance?

once he learns the new world of curly hair he will be asking everyone about it and if they have curly hair

he’s asking his hair stylists about it

it’s a whole new world for him tbh like

no matter how many times you explained your hair type and if what it needs he will ask again and again

he esp likes wash day where he gets to spend time with you as he helps alittle with your hair and you can ramble about life or he does

Who I would trust with my hair

Jaemin

Renjun

Haechan

Jeno

Chenle

Mark

Jisung

i could not decide who would get the binder it was between renjun/haechan/jeno

i tried enough to make them all different yk

#nct #haechan #nct dream #nct haechan #nct drabbles #nct renjun #nct jaemin #nct chenle #nct jeno #nct jisung #jaemin #jeno #mark #renjun #jisung #chenle #nct mark #nct reactions #nct headcanons

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(this can be answered publicly) Hey X, pardon me if you’ve answered this before, but I was just curious on how you ended up transitioning from academia to tech and what role you started with in tech? Also, so you have any advice for someone looking to break into tech from a non-STEM background? Thank you!

Hey! I haven't answered it publicly but it's a popular question, so I will now (warning, long answer is long).

So I was so fed up with academia for sundry reasons I won't get into here but I wanted a career that would allow me to A. retire some day (something that paid generally well), B. would allow me some measure of work/life balance without high stress, and C. Would ideally let me use my communication/writing/speaking/presenting skills in some way.

My parents and my partner all work in tech and were like, "did you know that we desperately need people with your skillsets in the tech world?" and my partner, who works in technical sales was like, "You would kill at my job, I am not lying." And I was like, every job listing in technical sales that I see requires either a degree I don't have or past experience I don't have, or both, and my mother was like "Do you know how many mediocre resumes from unqualified men come across my desk? Apply for the damn positions anyway." So I reworked my resume to focus on applicable skills/experiences and wrote a cover letter for each position I applied to saying "hey, I know I'm an odd candidate but let me tell you why that's a good thing." And I got a lot of positive responses!

I was interviewing at 2 different tech places when I accepted the offer for my job now. I had an initial screening call interview with HR, then a zoom interview with the hiring manager, and then I was given access to a limited demo environment and had a week to teach myself the software and put together a demo for a fake customer which I did for the hiring manager (my future boss), one of my current peers, and the VP of the org. I was offered the job the same night I did my fake demo. So in total it was a 2 week interview process, and I started working 2 weeks later. **

I'm a pre-sales solutions consultant, which basically means I'm paired with a sales guy who does all the money and business value talk with customers, while I get to learn about a customer's data problems and then demo for them how our products can address those problems.

The learning curve was (and still is) steep. But it was basically like going back to school, and I've always loved learning new things. The job is super fun. It fulfills all of my wants I listed above with the added bonus of being completely remote (aside from occasional travel to meet with customers for in-person demos). The people I work with are supportive, management is communicative and constantly giving me feedback/talking about my trajectory. I've won internal awards, already received two raises and one promotion and I haven't even been there a year. I'm making more than double what I did as a professor and the concept of retirement doesn't feel like a laughable pipe dream anymore. I miss teaching a lot, but I'm healthier, happier, and better prepared for the future now. And my work is genuinely fulfiling because I'm showing people how they can fix problems. Also, playing with data management software and putting together custom demos is neat. It's like all the best parts of a college project--research, making a preso, knocking everyone's socks off while giving the preso, but I'm getting paid for it. I'm glad I followed my mom's advice.

So I guess my advice is the same as hers: even if you're not "qualified," apply for the position anyway. Make custom cover letters for each position and if there's not a way to include the letter with the app, do some googling and find the hiring manager on LinkedIn and message/email them. The person who hired me said that my cover letter was what got me the initial interview. So that shit works. If you have friends or family working somewhere with open positions, use those connections. Having an internal referral will go a long way to getting your resume looked at. I know we're all like, boo nepo babies, but networking is a huge part of any industry. Use it to your advantage if you have the advantage (no, I'm not working for my parent's companies, but if there'd been an open position I was interested in, I would have applied for it. No shame).

**I also, on the side, applied for the Austin Fire Department because why not. After a whole lot of mental and physical prep, I was accepted to the academy (in the first class, no less, holla) right before I was offered my current job. But I had to be realistic and say that probably wasn't a good long-term career option for someone who is 110lbs and was barely meeting the physical testing requirements who also has issues with getting overwhelmed in high-input sensory situations. So. Into the tech world I went. This side note just to say, I was keeping my options very open and there's nothing wrong with that either, lol.

I hope this helps!

#answered asks #tech world things #academia #tech #career things #x abandons her dream career so that she might retain a modicum of sanity #i don't remember using that tag but I love that it was suggested to me #because yes exactly #mylife

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Omggg pebbles! That mia pov fic🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I'm so in love with how you've portrayed her. She's heart broken but she's gonna get better, I hope she does. It's so sad that she was so hurt because of harry especially when harry didn't mean to do so at any point. I wonder if harry actually thinks about her and regrets their relationship for actually hurting her. Also pebbles, how do you think ginny feels about mia at this point? Are ginny and harry sorry that they kissed when harry was in a relationship with mia?

Also at some point do you think harry and miss could ever be in touch? And what about her father? Will that dickhead ever come back to his senses and treat his gem of a daughter the way she deserves? Will they ever be in touch?

Istg i have soooo many questions about mia. Thanks for writing about her, I see so much of myself in her and i can't help but root for her ❤❤❤

aww thanks ❤️. you have a lot of questions about mia? that's good - i have a lot of thoughts, lol 😆 (for reference and for anyone who hasn't read it - Mia fic is here)

it's funny, i recently had a similar discussion with folks on discord about mia getting to her own version of the epilogue. i think people generally want me to say that she's okay in the same way that people want(ed) JKR (obv. pre-JKR becoming awful) to tell them that george was "okay." this sort of comfort of: we know they've been through a lot but they're okay, please-tell-me-they're-okay, you know? and i remember JKR was always a bit like "😬 is he, though?" realistically speaking? i think that's how i feel about mia too.

on discord, about her epilogue, i said:

i think her epilogue in my head is maybe a bit more… bittersweet than other people's epilogues. cause i think (and this is totally my headcanon, you can see it differently), she has a lot of good things coming out of this. she’s able to establish boundaries with her parents in a much healthier way, she learns to trust herself and stops being such a people pleaser, she learns that she doesn’t have to do everything alone, she has an amazing career - all those things made possible by her character evolution while she was with harry. but there’s this bittersweet aspect of: i think to her, he is and will always be the one that got away. and the kind of love story they had, at the age she was (20/21), those are the things that just stick with you, you know? and i don’t think she regrets anything she did/decisions she made, but there’s this aspect of: he’s the one she fell in love with, and he’ll probably always be the one she will compare other people she dates to. and that’s just… it, you know? and i don’t think she’s sad forever, i think she has fun and has a good life and maybe even finds another partner if she wants to, but harry is the one she's always going be talking to her therapist about. again, that’s okay, and i feel for her So Much, but i think it does sort of have this impact on her that never truly goes away.

i think to me, when it came to shaping mia's character, it was very important for her to have her own arc, too. of course, she existed in reaction to harry's storyline, and was going to help him realise some things about himself, but i also wanted her to be a person, and to grow in her own way.

at her core, mia is someone who is very lonely. when we meet her, she's in her last year of uni. she's away from home, in an environment that is not her own, and basically has no one who really cares about her. her mother is having a new family (new husband, new baby) and while she loves her, she's also replacing her. this is a detail in chapter 13 but mia doesn't even have a bed in their new house. her father is an absolute arsehole who tries to control her life after being absent for 17 years, and she doesn't really have friends. harry always says she has a lot of people around her, but they're school friends, acquaintances, going-out friends, not people she'd ever actually confide in. when she's starving herself trying to survive, no one notices. she says so herself in chapter 14:

‘You know no one else [cares], right?’ she says, then. Looks up to cross his gaze and takes his breath away. ‘Not my dad, not my mum, not my friends in school where I’m like,’ she speaks quick, rolling her eyes, ‘the token black girl with the funny accent from up North when their parents all know people - bloody Vivienne Westwood or something,’ she sighs. Her voice breaks. For the first time that morning, he hears tears in her words. ‘And, I don’t even hold it against them. They’ve all got objectively more important things than me to worry about. It’s just so fucking lonely sometimes.’

i think when i was building her character, i kept thinking about how lonely i felt during my first years in uni. mia isn't a self-insert in the way that i think we're very different people (god, i would have dumped his arse so much quicker), but that's definitely something i wanted to address in castles. in popular culture, we tend to romanticise our early twenties and uni years as the "best time of our lives," but the more i think back, and the more i talk to my friends now, as a grown-up, the more i realise that many of us have this very similar experience of deep loneliness and this feeling of being "lost" in the wild world of early adulthood. it's not just about mia's family, or her friends, or her doomed romantic relationship with harry. what makes her relatable, i think, is this general feeling of loneliness and inadequacy that we've all felt at some point in that time period of our lives. you're in uni, you're sitting there stressing about finding a job, a partner, what life is going to be like once you graduate. add to that that this period of your life is often where you get your first real relationships and heartbreaks, and it makes for a very hard time. and, it's terribly lonely because it's so romanticised that you can't even say it's hard, or that you're lonely, because This Is The Best Time of Your Life and #yolo.

and, with mia, you add to that the fact that she's broke af. like: she doesn't have money for food. in an environment where everyone around her has money. so, she doesn't want to admit how broke she is, doesn't want to ask for help because there is literally no one who would help her, but the financial stress is killing her. and, i think it's very important to consider that the money harry gives her isn't much to him, but to her - she later owes him her life and her career. the thing about financial precarity is, you can tell people to "pull themselves up by their bootstraps" all you want, the staple of financial precarity is that you're one major expense away from a catastrophe. people are maintained in poverty because what is a small expense to someone with financial security (say: having to fix the lights on your car for instance) can throw someone else in a cycle of debt that they'll never get out of. the money harry gives her is just enough that she's able to get her head above water, and while he always says it's not about the money - to her, that makes a huge difference. because, she's not only one major expense away from a catastrophe, she's also one minor donation away from being able to live the life she dreams of. she - quite literally - owes him paris. she owes her career to him choosing to believe in her in that moment when it mattered. could she have done it without it? maybe. but there is a high chance that if he hadn't given her the money, she'd probably have drowned, given up and gone back to manchester and had a shit job she hated for the rest of her life. that is terribly important. she'll always be grateful to him for helping her out when no one else did.

and, i think the loneliness is also why she and harry connect on such a deep level, because when they meet, he is incredibly lonely too. not in the same relatable, muggle uni ways but: ginny's left, the "buzz" and the elation of the first couple of post-war months have lifted, the press is saying he's gone insane, it's winter, it's dark, wet. he says it himself when they first sleep together in chapter 5:

Mia dances close; Harry mostly watches, but at around three in the morning, they share another taxi home. The fact that they live in the same building could have been a good excuse, Harry thinks, except that by that point, they don’t really need one. He’s already kissed her, trailed his fingers up her thighs in the club (loud music, smoke; he managed to just smile and not think) so it’s not exactly a surprise when he follows her down the stairs to her flat instead of going up to his. He kind of hates himself for the thought but to be honest, it’s been over two months since he’s last had sex and well, she’s offering.

it's kind of tragic but being "there" and "offering" is most of her appeal, at that point in time. and, it's in reaction to those who aren't there and offering. and so, in those months, they bring each other so much. and of course, it grows into something that is much more than loneliness-bonding. again, to mia, harry is the one who shows her her father is an arsehole. he's the one who believes in her when no one else does. he shows her she can trust people. i think the fact that he insists he cares about her, and will always care about her, even when they're not together, means the world to her. she's never had anyone like that in her life. and, in a strange way, by being an - objectively - shitty boyfriend, he teaches her to stand up for herself. because, not only is she terribly lonely, she's also such a people-pleaser that she never pulls anyone up on their shitty behaviour. she doesn't resent her friends (see above), or her dad, or her mum. when harry says this in chapter 15, it really matters:

‘You’re brilliant,’ he just said, instead. His voice cracked and he felt tears clouding his vision, closed his eyes for a moment. ‘You deserve so much better than this.’ She looked down to her lap, then back up to him. ‘Better than him or better than you?’

the question is rhetorical here and they both know it. harry is important to her development as a character because at the end, he allows her to be like: yeah, i fucking deserve better than you people. for her, that's huge.

but then, in a strange way, i do think she's rather nostalgic about it. because i think she really did love him and just wishes things had gone differently. because again, he's the one person who cared about her when no one else did and that's hard to let go of. i think she - again - has very conflicted feelings about it, which do filter through in the paris fic.

that said, to answer your question (I wonder if harry actually thinks about her and regrets their relationship for actually hurting her): yes, he does. i think that's part of his character evolution too. he knows he Fucked Up and it sucks. he feels very guilty about it. that's why he agrees to be the 'bad guy' in the end, when she basically asks him to break up with her because she can't, and then does it in the most godawful way. he takes responsibility for his behaviour, which is also very important to his character arc. it's very hard to navigate your late teens/early twenties without hurting someone without meaning to. what matters is how you react and own up to it. he struggles, acts like a complete douchebag, but in the end, he owns it. he gives her the story she needs to move on and be like: yes, he cared about me, but he was also an arsehole. he gives her that:

She met a boy who slept with her on and off for eight months and broke her heart, dumped her after sex and punched her father in the face. It's not a lie.

in a very strange way, that's an act of love and care too. it might not be enough for her to completely get over him or forget him, but it does allow her to have mixed feelings and hang onto the fact that she deserves better, which is already a lot.

but yeah, of course he feels guilty. he even says so himself in 15 & 16:

(xv) They talk about Mia, that night. Not that he brings it up, but in light of what Gwenog Jones said, he actually asks if she regrets the dating and the going out. There is no judgement in his voice, he’s just curious, and she says: ‘I don’t know, it’s complicated.’ She asks if he regrets Mia and he wants to laugh - same, yeah. He wonders if perhaps, these were the mistakes they needed to make.

(xvi) It’s a fair question, of course. How he feels about Mia. A couple months have passed. Water, bridges and all that. ‘Still a bit guilty, I think,’ he admits. Winces. ‘You?’ ‘Still a bit jealous, I think.’

so, yeah, regarding how ginny feels: of course, she feels a bit jealous. because she knows that he loved mia and cared about her. and, ginny herself slept around, sure, but love wasn't part of the equation. if you remember, she tried to date someone (early on - from october to january of '98) who she did like (but not yet love) and even told harry about, but then that blew up in her face so spectacularly that feelings never really crystallised. (sidenote: i actually think the matt incident probably had even more of an impact on her than sleeping around because this was the first person she ever put her trust in that wasn't harry (post-amycus) and he dumped her in an extraordinarily dickish way (blamed her for the press, which she couldn't control) and that is also what triggered her to be like: fuck this, they say i'm a slut, might as well be one sort of attitude --- but i digress).

it was really important for me that they both have pasts and insecurities about their respective pasts because -- well, that's part of any relationship, isn't it? like, you should never let it eat you up, but it's normal to feel a bit awkward and insecure about your partner's past at the start of the relationship. and, also about yourself. you really want this to work and not fuck it up. so, like: harry feels shitty about treating mia like shit because he didn't mean to. he feels a bit insecure about the fact that ginny's been with a lot of people before him, and doesn't want to admit it. he feels insecure about whether or not she loves him because she's dumped him once before and, well. she feels insecure because everyone thinks she's a slut and she worries he does too. she feels insecure about the fact that he used to love someone else.

but, the important part is: they talk about it. and, that's how they grow and act adult, and that is what matters. the insecurities are obviously there, but they chat and reassure each other and that's what grown-ups do. it even comes up during the sex in 16 and i love how they deal with it:

‘Merlin, that was -’ she laughs. He laughs, too. ‘Much better than last summer,’ she adds. He’s got this stupid, self-satisfied, Cheshire cat smile across his face when she finally turns to look at him, so large it’s probably rather obscene, and a stupid (stupidstupid) thought suddenly hits his brain: I’ve had time to practice. He doesn’t say it, but she must bloody read it in his eyes because suddenly, a flash of recognition washes over and he wants to say something - anything - to take back that cringey, gauche thing he hasn’t even fucking said, and he wants to disappear deep - far - into the ground. He thinks back to their conversation at the restaurant, and: ‘Still a bit jealous, I think,’ - it makes his skin crawl. Now, though, Ginny laughs. At him, mostly. ‘Harry,’ she says. ‘Harry, look at me.’ Reluctantly, he does. ‘It’s fine,’ she whispers. ‘Just kiss me.’

there's acceptance there, and love, and trust, and that's what matters.

to anwer your other question: Are ginny and harry sorry that they kissed when harry was in a relationship with mia?

honestly, no, i don't think so, though. i think the kiss is the least of it. it's not about one kiss. it's about Everything Else, really.

regarding mia herself, she might make a cameo at a later date. not saying more. but i don't think she'll come back regularly. she needs to be away from him. she says so herself but this isn't the kind of break up where they can stay friends. it would kill her.

lastly, regarding her father (And what about her father? Will that dickhead ever come back to his senses and treat his gem of a daughter the way she deserves?): i headcanon she goes no-contact with him. you can of course hc different things but imo, that's one toxic relationship she lets go of. she knows harry was right there, and i think she's thankful to him for showing that to her, too.

so, in sum: i think mia moves on. i think she has a great life. i also think her love story and harry are always somewhere in her mind. like everything in castles, it's complicated.

#castles #asked and answered #this turned into a massive meta about mia i'm sorry lol

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They’re Lover?

Hi this is my first fanfic, please don’t kill me if it’s not as good as other writings, this is Namor x Shuri x reader fanfic, if you have any requests you can ask me.

warnings: non really, this is a polyamory relationship, yucatec maya language.

For as long as you can remember you have always had a strange attraction to the ocean, ever since you were very little you could always understand the balance that was in the ocean, how every living creature belongs in a totally different ecosystem than the ecosystem you live in on land, maybe that is why you moved to Wakanda when your friend Shuri asked you if you would be one of her marine biologists.

Shuri on the way to wakanda told you about the new changes in Wakanda and how they had formed an alliance with a people called Tlalocan who live in the ocean and she had talked to her now boyfriend about forming a new place for them inside Wakanda, and that is why they needed help from a marine biologist like you.

Just as you arrived in Wakanda, Shuri was greeted by her boyfriend who, to be honest, when you saw him, you felt attracted to him, but you cleared your mind and went to talk to them about how to start the project.

that's how you ended up in a room in Wakanda castle.

present:

You got up from your bed feeling physically and mentally exhausted, this project of creating a new place for Namor's people was literally killing you.

The only thing that seemed to keep you from abandoning the project was the fact that Namor and Shuri were treating you as if you were their loving partner without adding all the physical contact, giving you as much love and encouragement as possible so you could keep going.

You looked at the papers and papers of information and notes of the project you were working on, you pushed away as many as you could with your hand throwing the vast majority on the floor frustrated and wanting to cry, "why did I have to agree to this?" you asked yourself, if you were honest with yourself you would say you were being forced to over work even though it really wasn't like that.

"Miss" a virtual voice rang out, you instantly recognized it was Shuri's assistant "Queen Shuri and her boyfriend want to see you" you sighed, it had been a while since these two had left you alone for a moment "tell them I don't want to" at that the assistant apologized and left you alone.

then you went to work and you don't know how much time passed but you heard the door open and a female voice sounded "In wojel ba'ax estarías waye" (I knew you would be here) the woman said entering the room letting the door close behind her, you turned around and saw Namora looking at you, you could understand her thanks to the fact that you asked shuri to make you a personalized translator in the form of an earpiece just in case Namor wasn't near you to translate,

"What's wrong?" you said looking at mom as you forced yourself not to look like you had been hit by a train, she looked around noting the papers on the floor, the unmade bed and the fact that you looked like you had been crying for 3 weeks straight.

Namora and you were good friends, you started out a little feisty but you quickly became friends, she helped you to better understand the marine fauna and the possibilities of creating the same environment in wakanda.

"K'uk'ulkan ka shuri táan preocupados ta wo'olal, ma' a yaax yaantal jóok'ol ti' le quarto ichil ka'ap'éel semanas yéetel a dejado u janal u normal" (kukulkan and shuri are worried about you, you haven't been out of the room for two weeks and have stopped eating normally), when you heard that you felt a wave of panic run through your body, you knew well how shuri was when she found out that you were not well, the truth is that what scared you the most was Namor, shuri was not as brute as him, he was capable of coming and dragging you out of the room and tying you in a chair until you had eaten.

"Namor knows about this?" you asked her and she nodded her head, you swallowed saliva afraid to ask next "he has said something? " Namora nodded again "tu ya'alaj u wa le ba'ala' ma' u arreglaba, u u u yéet venirría u kaxant teech" (he said that if this was not fixed, that he himself would come and get you), you shivered somewhat at hearing that, you knew well what Namor was capable of "I'll go in a while" you told Namora and she nodded, after that brief talk with Namora you knew well that Namor would come himself, if he didn't see you out of the room in less than half an hour.

You tried to get ready as best as you could and just when you were picking up the papers you heard the footsteps of someone heading to your room, panic entered your body and you tried to organize as fast as possible, just when you left the papers the door opened and a serious Namor came in, You looked at him trying not to tremble when you noticed that intense look he used to have when he was angry, he studied your face and your physique, without thinking twice he started to walk towards you eliminating the space between you, you tried not to walk backwards when you noticed his proximity.

"You're coming with me" was the only thing he said before he wrapped his arms around your lower body just below your ass and lifted you up, standing over his shoulder, for a few moments you couldn't react but when you really reacted you started trying to get him to let go "Namor let go of me! "you shouted but this man didn't seem to hear you, he pulled you out of the room while you tried to get him to let go but his grip seemed to be made of metal "Namor please let go, please" you tried to reason with him but he didn't say anything just kept walking but you are sure that his grip only loosened a little bit.

In the end you gave up and let him take you wherever he wanted to take you, fighting Namor was useless since he had too much strength and impressive stamina, after a while he let go and you were able to take a few steps back before you slipped and fell on your butt "I hope you're happy" you said to Namor while he looked at you with an unrecognizable expression "Shuri and I have wanted to talk to you about something serious and you seem to avoid both of us, namor said with a marked tone you could feel the fact that he was angry with you, you don't know if it's the fact that you've known him for 3 months already but the need to fan yourself started to be very big, you closed your eyes holding your breath "y/n? "you heard Namor ask, you didn't move, "y/n" this time he sounded a little more worried and less angry "y/n!" Namor grabbed the sides of your head forcing you to open your eyes and look him in the eyes "you're not well" you took a breath trembling in his arms "no?" the answer came out as a whisper.

at that you saw how his gaze was fixed around him and those arms were lifting you up and carrying you at great speed, you couldn't think just realized that Namor's shoulder was in the perfect position to rest your head on it and so you closed your eyes and fell asleep.

You woke up and stretched out feeling better, you moved your hand feeling the soft sheets and then a little further away from you but close enough to you a hand, you looked at who was in front of you on the bed and you found Shuri looking at me with concern in her eyes, she closes her hand in yours and smiles something, "good morning" Shuri says "good morning" at that you noticed other hands behind you clutching in a warm chest "good morning " your face turned into a square as you heard Namor's voice in your ear "why i’m i here with you in this bed? " You tried to get up but shuri and namor wouldn't let you "shhhhhh, it's all right, don't worry, you're in our room" shuri assured you, you looked at the two of them "why are you with those expressions? "you asked "we are fools for letting you be alone in a room, you are very special for both of us, we love you and we are worried that you are not well" Shuri said at that you noticed namor's lips on your shoulder giving soft kisses "and that is why we have decided that you will sleep with us, we tried to give you your space, we were afraid that you would deny our proposal but this is already too much".

(Okay so this is part one, if you wanna part two just ask ^^)

#namor #namor x reader x shuri #fanfic #marvel #wakanda forever #polyamourous #shuri #namor of talokan #shuri of wakanda

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Everything with a 3. Which means you need to answer 33 twice. I don't make the rules. 😉😂💖

3. How would you describe your writing style?

I have no idea. You do it for me.

13. Rate your worldbuilding skills from 1 to 10.

I'd say I'm better at emotions and moments than I am at actual world building, because that's so much work. So I'll say... 4.

23. Dialogue or description? Why is the other one so hard?

Dialogue! I don't know! I mean it helps when setting the mood, but sometimes I'm just like... who's gonna read two pages of some purple prose. But then, as a reader, I do. So. Go figure.

30. Describe a fic that almost happened, but then it didn't.

I had this amazing Chenford AU planned, with Lucy inheriting a ranch in Montana and Tim being a caretaker for the horses and they've had like a whole thing going from when they were young, but I just lost motivation for it.

31. What was the most difficult fic for you to write (but in the end you made it)?

Most difficult was Gone that I wrote for Linstead, because it dealt with such heavy topics, and I was dealing with some pretty raw emotions of my own, so yeah. But I finished it!

32. Do you have a word/expression that you always use in your writing?

Murmur is one I use a lot. I just love how soft it is.

33. Give your writing a compliment.

I HATE YOU SARAH MIDDLE NAME LAST NAME

My writing is fantastic, it's like so amazing it attracted some weird woman on the internet, who started talking to me about it and we've been friends ever since, so, I'd say it's pretty damn awesome (does it count if I don't actually mean it?). 😅

And since you wanted it twice, I like my dialogue okay, I feel it often feels very in character, and I am often proud of how it comes out. That's two for two. Thank you so much for this insightful question I totally didn't have any problems answering.

34. Do you write to improve? Or is that not a concern for you?

I do! I love learning new things. Sadly I often get stuck on like repetitive words and so on, and that makes me feel like I haven't advanced at all. Thank god for my trusty beta.

35. Thoughts on writing challenges/contests.

I think in a right environment they can be very motivating!

36. How do you come up with fic titles? What's the one you're most proud of?

Haha Taylor Swift songs. I love the 'i hate accidents (except when we went from friends to this)' for the fic where Lucy accidentally sends Tim her erotic photoshoot results. I think it's so fun and fits the story well.

37. Do you research before writing or while you write? Is it fun or boring for you?

I usually do it while I write. And it's so fun, I sometimes forget to get back to writing. I'm a researcher at heart.

38. "This never happened" fix-it fics or "this happened but" fix-it fics?

Both. I am a fixer. I will fix whatever needs to be fixed, and I will fix things that maybe don't even need to be fixed.

39. Wildest AU scenario you have written?

I'll go with my Linstead professor/student AU. Hehe.

Thank you! But I'm getting you back for that 33. question. 🙄

#writing #writing ask #ask game #queseraone

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lover-of-mine · 7 months

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the is that enough / she sees me parallel has been haunting me forever! I'm 100% sure they're doing that on purpose, they're not that blind to their own writing. just hate that they always leave it there (because honestly, buck and eddie can't be that oblivious. especially with she sees me better than anyone, buck would never say that to his best friend who knows him best)

Oh, they definitely are, those are some conversations that they could totally go back and repurpose if they ever decide to make these two oblivious idiots stop being oblivious idiots, and well, I will always have faith. But the whole I feel like she sees me, you know? Like she really sees me for who I am and what I've been through thing (I am not about to excuse Buck for saying that, it is a shitty thing to tell your best friend, nothing can actually make it okay for him to say that to Eddie of all people, who's been reading him like he's favorite book since the moment they met and I kinda wanna smack him for it) is that I kinda think that Buck needs someone to not think his death was a tragedy and he needs that from someone who doesn't have a baseline of his behavior pre-death. Which makes Natalia perfect for his brand of repression, since death is not scary to her and she didn't know him before, she's not gonna be affected by the fact that he died, so Buck can talk about his death in a controlled environment. Because, like, Buck is not stupid, he sees the way it affected the people who love him, and I feel dying took away his main coping when it came to near death experiences or traumatic events in general, because Buck hadn't almost died in a while, after the warehouse fire on Buck begins, the next situation that almost kills him where he is the focus, is the lightning, and even before that he's very nonchalant about the blood clots, his fear with the truck wasn't dying, it was losing his leg/not being able to work, and the tsunami he was too focused on Chris to care about himself, but now he has no where to divert the focus, he has nothing to allow him to turn around and say "it wasn't that bad" or "that wasn't about me" because it was that bad and it was about him. He did die. And the whole thing with the way they wrote him and his passively suicidal tendencies is not that he's actually trying to die by doing things and not caring if death comes or not, is just that he doesn't think it will matter if it does die, he doesn't think his life matter in the grand scheme of things. But now death is not just some possibility, something that comes with the job, something that could happen, he died, he has feelings about it, it almost broke the people he loves and he doesn't want to look at that, because to look at that he needs to look at everything else that happened to him. Natalia is a shortcut into dealing with death, because it's literally her job to make alive people okay with death, she doesn't know who he was before and he doesn't care about her enough to wonder if his death is hurting her, which allows him to be his bashful, giggly "I'll start by saying I woke up in a world that was both everything and nothing I ever wanted it to be" and make his death a cute little story in a way that would, honestly, make someone who actually cared about him yell (Eddie storming off after bucktalia talk about how awesome it is that he died 2024).

The whole thing that's going on there, in my opinion, is not that she sees him, it is that she's seeing what he wants her to see and that's the appeal. Because Buck is all "I feel like I have to try and be the same old Buck, mostly for the sake of everybody else" when literally NO ONE is asking him to be anything other than himself. If he wanted to scream, cry, break things, shave his head, grow a beard, dye his hair red, get matching tattoos, get a new car, take a month long vacation on the mountains, get a dog, leave the loft, as long as he's not hurting himself, Eddie, Maddie, Bobby, Hen, Chim, they would all be completely on board, as long as it helps him. Buck is the one refusing to talk. Buck is the one refusing to accept this big thing happened. Buck is the one trying to just go back to before. He wants to acknowledge death changed him but he doesn't want to deal with the fact that his death changed other people. Because if he decides to be honest about it with Maddie, Bobby, Eddie, he has to deal with so much more. He has to deal with Daniel, he has to deal with Eddie being shot, he has to deal with every time he feared he lost Bobby, he has to deal with the well, with Maddie being kidnapped by Doug, because if he allows himself to accept that they are allowed their own set of feelings about his death, he has to accept that he is allowed his own set of feelings about what happened to them and then shit gets too real for him.

#my repressed summer child #he knows if he looks at everything he will break #its why he doesn't #so he cant deal with his death with someone he loves #because that will be too much #but thats just me #911 meta #buck #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌#i just kept talking huh

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wouldntyou-liketoknow · 1 month

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Right back at you, buddy! 3, 5, 12, 13, and 19 for the behind-the-scenes ask game :D

~ @sammys-magical-au 🫶

(Thank you, Sammy~ 😊😊😊)

3 — Do you write fics from start to finish, or jump around?

When I officially started writing fanfics, I mainly jumped around with the plot until I was satisfied with how things went in the story. And that was years and years ago. More recently, I decided to try writing from start to finish, and honestly. . .I see it as sort of a bad habit? That's not to say it can't work for other writers, but it just seems to slow me down. So, I'm trying to unlearn it and go back to my old tricks.

Like, I tend to think of climax scenes first. You know, the really dramatic/important stuff because, well, it's dramatic/important. I feel that once I get those particular details out of the way, it'll be easier for me to write other stuff around it until the story is full. Plus, that type of format allows for random ideas to pop up and potentially make things even better.

5 — What is the perfect environment for you to write in?

Typically somewhere quiet with no distractions. I take meds for my autism and ADD, but I can still be tempted to focus on other things, thus procrastinating my stories. I don't like to, it just happens, and I'm still working on it.

When the weather is nice, I love riding my bike over to the library and just writing there for a few hours (so long as some disruptive asshole doesn't waltz into the areas that are CLEARLY MARKED FOR SILENT STUDY. It happens more frequently than I care to admit, but oh well. Not the end of the world).

But if I'm really focused/dedicated to the story at hand, then I can write pretty much anywhere. Just a year ago, I tagged along on a family vacation and seriously surprised myself via writing a full story for Goretober 2023 during the several-hour-long car ride. And I didn't feel carsick once, which was practically a miracle. I'd brought one of the cool-looking notebooks I'd collected on a whim, as well as a pencil and a lap-desk thing. I totally covered the entire backseat with eraser shavings, but it was worth it!

12 — Is there a trope you haven't written yet but really want to?

Hard to say; I've written with tons of tropes—I've definitely done so without even meaning to. If you've read my stuff, then it's probably very obvious which tropes are my personal favorites, but I still try to be open to new ones.

I suppose I haven't written Talking Animals, since the stories I've been focused on are somewhat set in reality (fictional, but not Fantasy, you know?). But I always loved seeing that when I was a kid. Since a lot of my fanegos have pets, perhaps I could write a snippet from said pets' perspective? I know it technically wouldn't count as them talking, but it'd be pretty close, right?

13 — Is there a trope you wouldn't write if it was the last trope on Earth?

It's a tie between two tropes, actually: Minority Character Dies First, and The Pure and The Promiscuous.

The former is completely stupid and racist/ableist/etc., and I don't understand how or why it's still being used in some movies or books today.

The latter is more complex, since it's typically used in romantic scenarios, which I don't write very often anyway. But I still hate it because it just seems insulting to the characters. Like, I can understand the appeal of having one character teach things to an inexperienced character, but the way I've seen it handled almost always leads to the character on the receiving end being infantilized or dumbed-down. Which is bullshit, because the character deserves more depth and thought than that!

19 — Who is the easiest/hardest character for you to write about? Why?

Maybe this is obvious, but fanegos are the easiest for me to write! True, sometimes I struggle a bit, since I want to have a balance of originality and a clear tie to the content-creator the fanego was inspired by. But otherwise, I make the rules. Canon egos also aren't too tricky for me to write; I feel like I'm pretty decent at learning/feeling a character's quirks to make that character seem authentic in fanfic settings.

One thing that's undeniably difficult for me to write is reader-inserts. No shame to those who have requested reader-insert fics from me, because I love engaging with people on here. The problem I have with it just seems to be my own self-consciousness. You already know why I tend to avoid shipping in fanfics, and I guess that also counts as a factor.

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timidloner · 1 year

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wait im touched, go ahead and steal all the ideas you want from me, i am a willing subject of the greatness of your grand scheme jajaja it's honestly an honor if you were serious about that (and if you need opinions, you know im always there to give them)(on a more serious note, im glad you enjoy my thoughts as much as i enjoy yours <3) and vulnerability between two people that could kill each other is always such a banger because THEY COULD but THEY WONT because they like each other (yes, im ignoring every other MCs that will try to kill joren)

i know in the context of the ask about MC embrancing death, joren's reaction is not supposed to be ohohoh but the "hell make you scream" and "hell make you cry" are kind of... don't threaten me with a good time you know and for the adopting kids, why do i feel like if MC ever expressed randomly they wanted kids joren would be the type to just grab a random orphan and bring it home like here, all proud like a cat that brings a dead mice to its master while MC is like JOREN NO- and for the tongue, now im wondering first how it would go to kiss with it? i feel like it wouldnt be all that bad but im biased so better to ask and by any chance, for the second question, would joren lick wounds with it because i suppose as he was mistreated in the past, he had to take care of his wounds by himself somehow (?) and that leads to the question if MC cut their finger, would he lick the cut...... cause thatd be cute - ram

0Yeah! Of course, I was serious about that! It's great to hear other people's ideas, it makes me consider new concepts I wouldn't have otherwise. And you've given me a lot of inspiration with yours <3

And yes! I love that vulnerability. I especially can't wait to write the branches where MC becomes a bigger menace than Joren and now they're on equal ground to kill each other, but they're in love <33, so they won't do that (me too ram, let's ignore his death endings).

I get it! The moment is supposed to be "oh no", but as the player, sometimes you feel other things. I've experienced it before, and there was this murdersim game that kinkshamed me for it! Could you believe it? Literally called me a pervert, haha!

I lowkey felt a little ashamed afterward, but it was funny.

I wish I could write it like that, but I really have no idea where he could even find a kid in the "child-friendly Joren" epilogue, but it'd be accurate if the environment permitted it.

Ah, I meant the tongue of his monster form!! In his human form, there's no problem with kissing or anything like that!

And this may be kind of a surprise, but his injuries received basic care. He joined the service of the noble house to survive, after all, he had to get something in exchange for... the things he did for them.

But this makes me think about his life after that, when he's already free and living on his own. I imagine him spending large amounts of time in his monster form and getting accustomed to grooming himself with his tongue, just like cats do. And when he's back in his human form, he has to fight against the urge of doing it because it has become a habit.

Joren acting like a cat hits differently, it's very cute.

Joren taking naps under the Sun, rubbing his face against MC's chest/neck/stomach while cuddling, resisting the urge of chasing little animals (birds, lizards), waiting to groom MC with his tongue, sleeping in weird positions that should be uncomfortable, hugging MC and fighting the random urge of biting them out of nowhere...

And yeah, if MC cut their finger, he'd totally lick it if he's already crossed some boundaries by then. He'd be pretty nonchalant about it too, just following the random urges he gets sometimes.

#ask away!#from lon to you #rambling✒️!!!#the stranger lore #i saw the asks you sent today too!!#ill answer them as soon as i can!!

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How do you network with people as a new person in the industry? I'm not talking about coworkers (though this still apploes) but about just learning to know other people in the industry? I'm socially awkward and i find it weird to approach people i don't know + i think it would be weird to just write to someone on let's say Linkedin. At the same time i would like to start talking with people in the industry, either to know them or industry itself

I think what a lot of hopeful (and new) developers tend to overlook (especially the geeky, introspective, or socially awkward types) is that we have one of the greatest sources of shared experiences on the planet at our very fingertips. We play games, and a lot of games are an inherently social environment. Game developers will also generally play games too… not always video games, necessarily, but games. So if you want an in with some local developers, this is your best course of action - find them, get into a social environment, and game with them.

Play street fighter, play magic, play warhammer, play anything. Go to an IGDA Game Jam, and sign up to participate. Don't just play games you're familiar with or like, open yourself up to new games. Ask what games the others are playing and ask if you can join. It’s a game and they are having fun with it, so why not? Exchange PSN, XBL, Steam, or Origin friend requests. Game with them. Offer to host a tabletop night. Join or start up a pen and paper RPG campaign. Make plans to meet up at a tabletop gaming cafe.

A friend of mine at a AAA studio would constantly tell me about the awesome board game group at his office. Once, while I was in town for GDC, I got a chance to meet some of them at a barbecue. We played some great board games like Runebound and Nuns on the Run together. Not only do I get exposed to new game mechanics to analyze and study at these sessions, but I also get exposed to other trained and professional perspectives on those mechanics. It’s a golden opportunity to learn, as well as make friends and network.

Playing games together is an inherently social experience. It also helps circumvent those stickler issues like not being comfortable talking to strangers and such. It provides a common footing and basis for conversation, and establishes some familiarity. And even if you’re a total amateur or haven’t ever done something before, you’re in an essentially collaborative environment where people will encourage you and teach you.

One of the things that Yugioh taught me long, long ago is to always try to game with people and avoid turning down an invitation from someone in your chosen career industry to play games. If you were ever confused as to how to actually build a “social” network (and not just twitter, facebook, etc. but an actual network of people you can contact and talk with), this is how you do it. Play games with them, observe, and learn. Ask their advice and for suggestions. And make friends! This isn’t about using people for connections and career advancement, but it’s also a collaborative learning experience. Bounce ideas off of them, ask questions about why things are the way they are. Learn. Grow. By showing you’re interested in learning, that you’ve got decent ideas, and that you’re generally fun to play with, it helps establish those networking connections for the future. It may not pay off immediately, but that’s not the point. A year or two down the line, the friend who you played Yugioh with might be the one who not only helped you become a better developer, but also be the person who gets you the interview to show it.

This post was primarily excerpts from [Game Development Career Advice: Yugioh and “Social” Networking]

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nobito203 · 1 year

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A chapter is about to end

2021, I left a job to get back to the US for a Master Degree in Counseling psychology. I was excited because I feel like the US is still my home and our journey together hadn't ended yet, although feel bittersweet to leave the job I was really enjoying.

This time is Pittsburgh, has to be a city. I deferred my admission at the school I didn't know much about besides what my professor in undergrad was marketing to me. She thought it's a great fit for me, so I applied and give it the benefit of a doubt. And honestly, it's been a fun ride with ups and downs.

Grad school hits different. Very hard to make friends and find a community in an environment where everyone has a lot on their plate. But everyone I met are so empathetic. We share about our experiences and lessons vulnerably which I think it's a beautiful thing. It's where we vibe so well, without filters sometimes. I have had opportunities to chat with lot of them and see their point of view. Everyone has their unique stories, but do have some common similarities. I learn that although having a lot going on, people still can connect deeply when they spend time together to talk about how they see life. Empathy soars when I see different views with its pros and cons. Sometimes, all we need is being listened, no solution needed. I might not agree with how you see live because it's the opposite with what I believe, but I do respect your point of view because we're unique. We still can be friends even when we disagree with one another, but we agree to disagree and accept it's a part of us. It makes humans human. Agree??

I found a community at my internship site. I love all people I met there. They're super supportive. Their personality always amaze me. The empathy and sympathy they have are immense. We might unhappy with what others have done but always approach others with altruism. They challenge my perspectives and encourage me to see thing in different lenses. The kids at the site I met showed me how much emotional tolerance I have for others. They emotionally push me to the limit where sometimes I felt like I can burst off, but somehow I managed to calm myself down and treat them with kindness everytime. They're the future and good education is the only way to have a better future. I look at them in a holistic way to decipher how do they behave the way they do, which increases my sense of empathy. I'm extremely happy that I stay here long enough to see the impact I and my fellow interns have on them. Seeing the good impacts we make is pleasant. I'm gonna miss my fellow interns a lot. We made it so far, some left but some still stay till this moment I'm writing this. I appreciate them, I salute the work they're doing. I wish them the best!

I ended a 3-year relationship on a good term. I was passive on how it ended but I actively learned a lot about it. I learned how to not being harsh on myself. I appreciate my ex was being honest with her feeling and made a decision to break up for her own sake. It's definitely not beneficial for me but the honesty remains a highlight. I embrace it. It's totally fine to let thing go and l let myself to leave someone who didn't match the standard I pursue. It is and will always beneath my standard if I have a relationship with someone who doesn't want to be my teammate and has no capacity and emotional maturity to work and contribute to a relationship. It sucks that it's ended but I constantly remind myself everything happened for a reason. So, allowing myself go through the grieving is a huge learning lesson and I kinda enjoyed tbh. I embrace the process and feel like a new person out of it. No resentment and regret. No love is ever wasted, even when it leads to a heartbreak.

The last 2 years of grad school were an awesome journey ngl ☺️☺️. I have learnt so much more about the world and myself. I met new people whom I vibe with, yet still spent some time to revisit old friends who making effort to know what's going on in my life. Y'all are appreciated. Sometimes, I contemplate the life I have: bouncing between cities, starting a routine in a new city, finding a community at where I'm at, missing other things, goodbye people, etc...; and question myself is it all worth it? Every time, the answer is YES, including this time. Those cities, those people, and the experiences I had are making me who I am today. I have nothing but gratitude and empathy to give back. It's going to be a new fun chapter, thanks for tagging along if you get here hehe.

The End!

-No Name

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