#just ignore me I'm just angry

[olliesaurus-rex]

My only good PS4 controller decided to quit working and my other controller has such terrible drift and the right analog stick doesn't work half the time :) and I can't get an off brand one because it's a different texture and makes my OCD go wild in a bad way :) so my options are I just don't play till I get paid again (around the 31st) or I cancel my therapy appointment to get a controller because video games are an incredibly important comfort for me and my ADHD :) and because I only have enough money for my $90 phone bill and either therapy or a controller :)

#lmao bestie I can't stop crying #being poor fucking sucks #why the fuck are ps4 controllers $60???? what the fuck #and i can't get a used one or off brand because it triggers my ocd #just ignore me I'm just angry

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF SHENKO 1/?

The end of the world has a way of reminding you of all the things you forgot to say do. Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #EDI #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #OTP: you're real enough for me #i learned i am physically incapable of creating less than like 20 gifs at a time #but shenko stonks are up right now!! #gif’ing my favorite bisexuals gives me joy 🥹 #even though ME2 is dry as shit for shenko content like it’s literally the sahara desert #like a whole ass 10 minutes max of cutscenes between shep and kaidan like come on #like 2 minutes in the prologue and like 8 minutes of cutscenes on horizon #and then an email and looking at the picture in your cabin before the suicide mission #i'm so sorry y'all ME2 shenko canon is absolute shit (besides kaidan being rightfully angry on horizon) which is why we ✨ignore it✨ 🥰 #but i rant about ME2 VS treatment too much so i will not write another essay about it in the tags #i will say the EDI line isn't the exact quote from the game but i think about it a lot tbf #same with the quote i borrowed from anderson too lmao (which is also a tiny bit paraphrased) #i just love EDI asking shep for relationship advice when you get to follow shep and kaidan's relationship/struggles across 3 games #and anderson's quote about all the things you forgot to do in relation kahlee to is just *chef's kiss* when you think about shenko #like whether it starts in ME1 or ME3 shenko has some really fantastic moments across the series #two characters with strong morals who realize that they're falling in love and literally start to become each other's strength?? #their soft place to land?? their support when they need it?? shenko will always have my heart #also the shenko quotes you get are the most fire thing in the world #you're real enough for me?? you make me feel human?? i want to be your strength- your soft place to land?? shenko you will always be famous #I FORGOT IM GONNA FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AGAIN TOO LIKE?? #but i’ll stop ranting now bc i do that wayyy to much in my tags lol. have a good day wherever you are! <3

[talentforlying]

time to get pissed about the fact that constantine's father's hatred for and dismissal of him extends all the way down to his fucking name.

like yeah, john is a fine & normal name. he doesn't have any strong feelings about it and neither does anyone else. but john's mother wanted him, loved him, and iirc might have already had a name picked out for him before she died. (his older sister was named cheryl, which wasn't even in the TOP 100 most common UK girl names at the time, so there was a precedent for putting a lot of thought into naming her kids!!) and then she dies, and thomas just. doesn't. care. john, number one most common UK baby name for the four preceding decades. like john smith. like john fucking doe.

how it must feel to him when people say that name with actual affection instead of rage. how rare that is in his line of work. how different it must sound when he's wanted.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #PERSONALS DO NOT REBLOG #wrapping up my rage of caliban obsession with this fuckin thing because AUGH. I'M MAD ABOUT IT #'john doe' is particularly what i think of when i consider name choice bc his dad Confirmed that he wanted john dead as soon as he was born #said to him multiple times in the comics that he wished john had died instead of his mum #almost completely ignored him as a baby until he was old enough to understand being blamed for things outside of his control #GOD. thomas constantine makes me so fucking ANGRY #don't mind me i'm rereading issue 100 and SEETHING #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Fuck I hate being an adult. I need a more adult adult to help with the volatile emotional situation.

#I've sort of made a new friend? Like we met at the same art group and he's also trans which was like pleasantly surprising in our small town #but like. We have Differences Of Opinion #and it's not totally his fault because it sounds like he's had a Lot of bad shit in his past that's obviously made him wary and closed off #but like. He's slightly older than me (only 4 years) and keeps blaming a load of his problems on other trans folks? #like you know the type. The like 'all these nonbinary/other identities the kids are doing are complicating shit' #the 'it hurts to see people younger than me inc. kids get hormones thrown at them when I still can't get 'em' (which... yeah not even true) #and he's told me himself he doesn't engage much with the queer community bc it's too 'toxic' #and like. I can absolutely understand why he could've had some bad experiences esp. since he has some mental health shit going on #but he wants to be friends bc he doesn't know anyone else going through the medical shit and it's like. Yeah no shit you don't? #you decided the community you'd find them in is toxic? and that people in them are doing being trans wrong? #and I think if he was just some guy online I'd like roll my eyes and ignore him #but he's a real person in my vicinity and I feel fucking bad for him #and I can see how much self loathing he has and how much that probably informs the bullshit #like he told me he thinks that trans men and cis men are fundamentally different categories and trans men will never be cis men #but not in a 'the experiences are just different and come with different perspectives way' #in like a self defeating way. Like a I just have to settle for being a trans man way. #and it made me SO SAD #like bro #I'm so sorry for whoever the fuck made you feel like you're fighting an unwinnable battle #and I want to be a friend to him. I want him to feel like there's other queer people out there and there's friends and hope #but also I genuinely could see him being the kind of person who would get really angry at you for no fault of your own #like I already get the distinct feeling he resents me a little #like obviously not too much since he still wants to hang #but he's been trying and failing to get HRT for years and I got it super quickly basically by sheer luck/a doctor who looks out for me #like I'm so fucking lucky. And I just genuinely feel like he's the kind of person who might take that personally. #I just do not think I have the fucking. Emotional tool kit to salvage this shit #But I also can't exactly text him and say sorry I don't think we should hang out so. What do. #.....I wasn't even LOOKING for a new friend! I have enough friends!!! I wanted to make clay faces and look at pretty buildings dammit!!! #now I have to be the emotionally mature one who goes hmmm maybe let's not blame other depressed trans kids for our problems buddy #I'm just gonna have to be like. Upfront about my stance and if he doesn't like it well he doesn't have to hang out with me

[gutz-radio]

Anytime I see a post about how Izzy hands deserved what happened to him or how it was totally justified for Ed to be a horrible person to him I get so damn angry. I get so angry and I need to just speak my mind at how angry it makes me.

To me, Ed in season two has shown abusive behaviours. Plain and simple. He has shown a pattern to physically assaulting Izzy. One toe is a single instance, but two more is a pattern. He tells Izzy if he doesn't do what he wants he is easily replaceable. And it isn't just abuse to Izzy. It's the whole crew. He's horrible to all of them. They're all scared of him. The scene where Ed is talking about the vibe on the ship shows me no one at all is comfortable around him.

I love Ed as a character don't get me wrong. I relate to him in parts, mostly how he can't handle his feelings and how messy it is and his self hatred. And also the abuse he faced. I love Ed. But to just close your eyes and slap hands over your ears and go lalalalala at all the shit he's done but then put all the blame on Izzy angers me. Yes, I'm not gonna deny Izzy fucked up. He is toxic as hell to Ed as well, and I never justify the stuff he did because it was bad. But never, ever, does that justify being abused. The only person responsible for how Ed has treated everyone is Ed himself. Ed isn't a fucking toddler who doesn't comprehend what he's doing. He's a grown adult man. Izzy cannot force him to do shit. At the end of the day, the only person who has a choice to what to do is Ed himself. Yes, Izzy was horrible to Ed when he was the most vulnerable. He said vile stuff, and kicked him down when he was weak. And that is shitty and the blame for Izzy's own actions is on Izzy. But the same goes for Ed. Ed chose to hurt the crew, and he chose to hurt Izzy. This was all his choice. No one forced him to do anything. Outside factors all contribute to it, yes, and it all worsened his mental state. But it is still his fault. And as far as I'm concerned, Ed owes the crew and izzy a MASSIVE fucking apology and a hell of a lot of change. Izzy realised what he said to Ed was wrong. He knows he fucked up. He tells Stede as much. But Ed is also at fault and I'm pissed how people keep just acting like he had no say in it whatsoever and he was purely at the mercy of his fucking subordinate.

Personally? I hate how serious discourse is in this fandom and this is a fictional show and I don't treat fictional characters like real people. But the victim blaming, and the blatant hypocrisy of how people treat Izzy compared to Ed angers me. Either they all suck and we should hate them both, or we stop giving a damn and stop blaming characters and harassing people over a fucking FICTIONAL CHARACTER.

#Also ngl Ed's behaviour to Izzy reminds me of my own abuser how he treated me #But I'm not getting to that #This is just a rant #izzy hands #tw abuse #tw abuse mention #Like I'm just so angry because I bet these people would say I deserved the abuse I got because I wasn't a picture perfect uwu victim #And I hate how this fandom treats it #At the end of the day it's a bloody fictional romcom and I didn't come here to see idiots victim blaming a guy who was mutilated #delete later #Ignore my ramblings I just need to get it off my chest before I implode #I know some dumbass is gonna take this wrong and act like I hate ed or some nonsense when I fucking don't

[sysig]

Bad time of it, all things considered (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #Just a bit but y'know - Enough #It honestly made me So sad that it took until his canonmates saw it happen that someone /finally/ acknowledged his spontaneous cuts D: #Like I get it it's dark and it's hard to see but his skin just opened up and he made a noise about it! The possible danger!! #And then by that point he's just so used to everyone ignoring it that their concern for him is barely even a factor weh ZEX ;; #Plus it's just a cool effect haha - sudden blood from nothing! Very rich mental movement #At least Max had someone concerned for him about it <3 Not that he could do anything about it but even just the validation of seeing it! #He has enough cuts on him :( Poor tenderized flesh #He gets all crabby from being sore from healing constantly haha :'D Of course he would! #One thing I found very interesting was the scar sidedness :0 Most of the examples in the gallery have his scar and missing eye opposite #But that's not necessarily the case! I actually scoured mid-read and there /are/ a couple instances of matching side! #They're very tiny so I overlooked them upon first viewing hehe ♪ But they're there! It's very interesting to me! #I like the aesthetics of the opposite - probably because I'm more used to it lol - but I can see the appeal and reasoning for the other way #I do honestly enjoy how much is open to interpretation and allowance uwu♪ And what's consistent! Like how it's always his right eye :D #That tracks hehe ♫ #Haha his meeting with his delightfully inept counselor - I'm pretty sure I was actually more angry about his supposed injury than he was #He chilled out pretty quickly while I was just - A Scratched Cornea??? The disrespect!! #So happy with his eyebrow expression on that one as well ah <3 #It really does make me curious for how the staff is kept there - they don't /seem/ malicious during the day! But they're also unaware #It's interesting where the lines of reality are between everyone :D Very interesting ♪ #Capping off with another song my playlist is looking quite healthy now hehe #Flagpole Sitta is one of those songs that only comes up for me every half dozen years or so but when it Does - phewph #It is /such/ a ZEX song to me now hehe <3 The flirtiness and exasperation - the defeatism even! So many killer lines #I think my favourite is ''I'm not sick but I'm not well'' ask me to read into that I will I'm gonna I'll do it even if you don't ask me lol #So fun to draw those lapses in control the poor dear ♥ #The digital reconstruction there was a lot of fun as well actually :D I think I nailed it :3 Pulled around from all over the page! Pleased ♪

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #personal whining ahead feel free to ignore #it's sinking in that the increase in the displaying of these 'jokes' at work is related to our boss no longer being here #it can't have been a coincidence that the picture in the inbox went back on top the very day we threw her her goodbye party #apparently this man thinks that she was the one who was pushing back against the nonsense? #and maybe she was - I don't know what went on between them #(though I always got the impression that she seemed a bit afraid of him for whatever reason and just let him do whatever most of the time) #but I'm tired of having to put up with this and angry at the situation in general #and I really will go and talk with the VP of Academic Affairs once I can get some advice from my communications major friend #so I can avoid just walking into her office and exploding #(I don't understand this I don't understand why he feels the need to display these images in the office & always about this now-completely- #irrelevant topic and even if it were relevant the 'jokes' are juvenile and mean-spirited and I know he thinks he's doing the Lord's work in #picking the kinds of books that he does but tell me exactly how this garbage is the Lord's work and what he thinks he's accomplishing with #this other than making himself look petty and giving me further cause for frustration because it isn't just the stupid pictures it's the #pervasive attitude behind them that I have had to deal with for years now and I wish I were a different person so I could get right in his #face and tell him that this is unacceptable and expect to be heard and regarded)

[acewithapaintbrush]

I hate being an anxious "always waiting for the other shoe to drop, always considering the worst case scenario" type of person cause that means even though I didn't give the guy in front of my door who was claiming to be my gas provider any signature or infos that he didn't already have and even though I won't know if it was a scammer before I can call the provider tomorrow I am now convinced that I'll be robbed blind tomorrow and a complete emotional mess

#I didn't sign anything and he had all my info already so I think maybe he was legitimate #If he wasn't legitimate then he had a lot of personal data like birthdate and email etc etc about me #AND THAT WOULD BE CONCERNING FOR A WHOLE DIFFERENT REASON #Just an anxious mess right now #Didn't give him anything and still anxious #Make it make sense brain #Pray for me that the provider tells me tomorrow oh yeah we are sending people around #If not I gotta call the police or something #Guy gave me his phone number so I could get in touch so another reason why it's probably ok like y would he do that if he was a scammer? #Gah idk I'm stupid and anxious and angry #Just ignore

[neverendingford]

along the same line as the whole "why do you need to know someone's autistic before you stop bullying them for their autistic traits?" thing I've seen floating around

apologizing for it once you know is meaningless. it doesn't change the fact that you deliberately mocked someone for their behavior.

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a customer mocked my stutter and I've lost all patience with that so I looked him in the eyes and said "I have a speech disability" and he immediately got all apologetic and was like "I wasn't making fun of you". Bro yes you were. you didn't realize you were making fun of a disability I've spent my entire life struggling with, but you were nonetheless.

just because you don't know you're being an asshole doesn't mean you're not being an asshole. you can apologize but I'm not going to forgive you.

#text post #stuttering #disability #ableism #color says shit #it's nice that my stutter mostly disappears when I'm angry because it lets me immediately put on my stony and guarded demeanor effortlessly. #anyway. most customers are at least condescending to me when I have trouble speaking. not outright rude #I've had a few customers that do genuinely mock me and then I just walk away from them and call a manager. #but like... apologizing when you've chosen to engage in asshole behavior doesn't change the fact that you've engaged in that behavior. #I'm not going to go “oh it's alright 😁” because you've realized that I don't think you're at all funny for that. #I'm done taking shit from anybody. treat me with respect or fuck off. #it's not my fucking fault I can't get a sentence out some days. #I don't care if it was done in ignorance you're an adult you don't get to be cruel like that. #like. haha yeah I know it's so funny when I start making noises and breathing funny but I'm not a spectacle for you to laugh at. #I'm not some side show. I'm not some curiosity. I'm not a roadside attraction to laugh at. #sometimes I forget I have such a hugely internalized reaction to being objectified in this very specific way #and then it happens and I want to leave a fist shaped dent in my locker. #I care too much about my hands to fuck them up again so I'll just vent on tumblr dot com instead

[electrobiology]

the anger i feel when i see people portraying zelda as evil and hateful etc towards link and others... she’s not even like a favourite of mine or anything but i feel such an incredible rage whenever people do her dirty often bc she’s “““in the way””” of their other link ships

#why do i keep seeing this it is mind boggling #i know the reason. misogyny. but why #she and link (and ganondorf) are fated together... #her fate is not her doing #and zelink doesn't even have to be canonical i'm pretty sure it has never been? even if it's been heavily implied #or maybe not heavily #i don't actually know #but in any case #i'm doing great ignoring it and so can you! leave zelda alone!!!!!!!!!! #this just makes me so angry #i made a whole long rant about it the other day and left it in the drafts #but i just saw it Again so this is coming out instead #sorry!

[sillylittleflower]

I swear I'm so mad rn I hate periods okay ughhhhhhh and I don't even really get pain ugh ugh ugh

#ignore me i'm just angry

[maranull]

i need to get better at corpo interviews but the thing is i suck at lying and i can't convincingly say that i want to work for any of them. and i do not want to work in this shitty corporate field i made the mistake to enter.

and i'm too poor and too uneducated to just go to college or anything similar.

"what are your plans and ambitions in this field?"

"um, i wanna gather enough money to be able to study something else and fucking leave it??"

oof, imma bite someone

#personal #i hate graphic design #i hate marketing #i hate that i believed that i could actually design shit instead of mindlessly following bloody marketing trends #hate hate hate #i wanna go back to designing logos and packaging like i did at school #or better yet i want enough money and time to study something i genuinely want to do and not something i was pushed to choose #ffs #ignore me i'm not as angry as i might sound #just tired of bad choices haunting me

[lookingforthesilverstars]

Chapters: 9/? Fandom: Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker Characters: Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Original Characters Additional Tags: Sheev Palpatine is a Creep, Hurt Anakin Skywalker, Hurt Obi-Wan Kenobi, Slavery, Implied Childhood Sexual Abuse, Protective Obi-Wan Kenobi, Stripper sees 12yo Anakin in a bar and thinks the new Chancellor is a pedophile, Padawan Anakin Skywalker, Dai Bendu Language (Star Wars), Tatooine Slave Culture & Customs (Star Wars), highly irregular updates, like seriously, How Do I Tag, Bars and Pubs, Constructive Criticism Welcome, Not Beta Read, Self-Harm, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Panic Attacks, But better safe than sorry I guess, pls tell me what to do better, but it's barely there, only slightly hinted at Summary:

After Chancellor Palpatine takes young Anakin out into a bar on the lower levels of Coruscant and shows him the slavery happening right under the nose of the Jedi Council, Anakin's trust in the Jedi and his own Master is shaken and he decides to take matters into his own hands. the Jedi and the Senate are both clearly useless.

But things are not as they seem and Obi-Wan and Anakin soon learn that it takes more to overcome your past than a few meditation hours and some tinkering.

#star wars #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #fanfiction #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #padawan anakin #don't mind me advertising #i like the jedi #Don't we all love it when palpatine's plan fails because people think that he's acting like some weird pedo? #ngl that's one of my favourite tropes #just Obi-Wan being an overprotective master and palps sobbing confusedly while being beat up by an angry mob #And him trying to defend himself like #I am evil but not that kind of evil #please believe me I'm only the sith lord that tried to slaughter all the jedi and enslave the galaxy #I'd never touch sweet little vaderkin #Anyways enjoy this #or ignore me #i don't even know #idc

[uselessnbee]

sometimes i feel so petty i want to make a big post about all the times Will and El weren't that great towards Mike just to ..you know.. balance it out a bit

#it's always here's all the times Mike hurt Will and El's feelings and never here's all the times Will and El hurt Mike's feelings #it's so unfair like i saw people hating Mike over fucking MILKSHAKES because they just had to find a reason to hate him it's so stupid #if i went on here and started hating on Will and El for not laughing at Mike's vomit green joke cause it made him sad yall would call me #absolutely crazy and delusional like be fucking for real Mike just breathes wrong in Will's or El's direction and he's the devil himself #but Will and El could literally call Mike a slur to his face and yall would be like hE dESeRvEd iT tHeY DiDnT dO aNyThiNG wRoNG like fr #there are so many small times when Mike tried to get Will's attention like the vomit green joke or the they're conspiring against me moment #and everyone always just laughs how Mike is a loser trying to get their attention but they always just ignore him or whatever but if it was #reversed? if it was Will trying to get Mike's attention only for Mike to either ignore him or yell in his face how it's stupid to be #concerned about something so small? oh yall would go ballistic suddenly yall wouldn't care how small these things are suddenly you would #want Mike fucking dead but when it's the other way around it's just funny and embarassing for Mike? and not just small things like this #when we point out how El invalidated his feelings and dismissed his bullying everyone is like oh she didn't mean that she meant it like #this she meant it like that she said it because of this and that and the situation is like this so this is why she said that #and blah blah blah she didn't do anything wrong but when it comes to Mike suddenly it doesnt matter if he meant it differently or if it was #the situation and messy feelings making him say something hurtful no he's just an asshole oh i am cursing you all #i hope you step on lego every day and your favorite snack is always sold out in every shop i hope every cat you try to call will ignore you #or hiss at you i am so tired of the double standards when it comes to Mike and willel i am so angry #mike wheeler #mike wheeler protection squad #blue's 'mike's extreme defender' ramblings #i got a little carried away in the tags but i'm not sorry i said what i said #and idc if i get hate for it cause i'm right anyways

[isfjmel-phleg]

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#random personal stuff #personal whining feel free to ignore #am currently filled with spite and general I'll-Show-YOU-ness regarding a skill I never learned #it was implied recently that I do not know how to do this thing because of lack of interest #like I just woke up one morning and decided to be a burden on society #I KNOW perfectly well that knowing how to do this would give me greater independence #do you think I haven't been bearing the weight of this guilt most of my life #not learning was a situation beyond my control #long story weird upbringing unhelpful people lack of opportunity resultant anxiety etc. #anyway I've had it and I'd love to go out and prove that I'm not really worthless #...unfortunately I live in a small town where there's no place for someone like me to learn #because the system assumes that you are a teenager and your parents or school will teach you #or else (I suppose) that knowledge of this thing is written on every adult's heart already #so yeah...this is also a lot of why I never learned #(excuse me while I get angry for a moment) #I hate this. I hate the system. I hate living in a small town with extremely limited resources. #I hate whatever motivated the people who should have been helping me not to give me the opportunity and resources to learn. #(rant over sorry) #anyway I will eventually figure this out #but in the meantime it is Frustrating

[crystalkleure]

What they do not tell you about harassment is that if the people trying to get a rise out of you are not succeeding by prodding you directly, they will change tactics and try to get a rise out of you by harassing your friends

Even somebody who isn't particularly affected by verbal abuse being directed towards themself is likely to be very upset by their friends getting dragged into it and getting hurt

#Good afternoon Tumblr I am angry #''Ignore them and they'll go away'' no they won't. I can confirm they won't! I have seen this exact thing happen so many times! #Enthusiastic assholes very much do not just ''go away'' if you ignore them. They do get increasingly desperate for your attention though! #''I'm going to hurt your friends and it's your fault for ignoring me'' is a shockingly common fucking thing #They will also tell your friends ''Oh? Oh is this upsetting you? Stop being friends with them and I'll leave you alone then <3'' #Combination upsetting target by harming loved ones + trying to make target feel guilt + trying to socially ostracize target #.It speaks #There's a reason this behaviour -- to this extreme degree particularly -- is as common as it is #A lot of people these days are angry and frustrated #And they cannot express this anger and frustration towards the actual CAUSE[S] of it [job; school; parents; etc.] #So they are desperate for an acceptable other target to take it out on #This incentivizes them to make up and/or perpetuate horrible lies about people so they are then seen as a hero instead of -- #-- an asshole for attacking those people #They're building themselves some no-consequences punching bags