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umeoniii · 1 year

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Can you do lesbian fluff (or smut) for the aot girls????

lesbian relationship hcs w aot girls

nsfw & sfw

w: annie, mikasa, sasha,

annie:

☆ very introverted obvi, but she can actually be very extroverted w her s/o

☆ prefers cute dates at food places like bakeries or sushi restaurants

☆ loves when her s/o makes her sweets

☆ for gifts i feel like she writes things, like letters or poems maybe even a song (probably too embarrassed to sing though)

☆ not the most affectionate but when she is she’s a lot, like a lil puppy dog

☆ sleeps a lot, she sleeps all over her s/o

she falls asleep on their lap, shoulders, stomach i feel like she’s a really sleepy girl

☆ likes hearing her s/o’s stories and adventures

she likes giving her input and opinions

☆ wears ur hoodies maybe bcs she likes the smell, maybe bcs their comfier, maybe bcs she likes bugging you

☆ gets flustered when you even show that you think abt her

☆ actually anything you do makes her flustered deep down

☆ takes turns w u giving back massages

☆ forcefully takes you w her to the gym

you don’t even have to work out but she still wants you there

☆ she lets you touch her abs, even though she finds it odd

♡ she’s more dominant BUT she can be more subby depending on how she’s feeling

♡ loud

♡ likes scissoring

♡ when she is feeling submissive she likes when her s/o eats her out

♡ owns a good amount of sex toys, she bought them really for you

♡ very great stamina

♡ can last a few rounds before getting overstimulated and tired

mikasa:

☆ little spoon when sleeping

☆ very introverted even with her s/o

☆ likes quite and secluded dates, like a picnic

☆ likes when you take photos of her but she doesn’t like for the whole world to see them

☆ makes things for her s/o

something as small as cookies or as big as a crocheted sweater

☆ type of gf who would share a milkshake willingly

☆ super cuddly and warm

☆ remembers lots of things abt you, some things you’d render “useless”

like you had a hamster named zunie in 5th grade

☆ has a playlist of songs that make her think of u

☆ let’s you pick out her outfits sometimes

☆ keeps all the plushies you’ve ever bought her

♡ sub

♡ whimpers and whines

♡ holds you very tightly

♡ sometimes she lowkey gets all somber and sad during sex whispering stuff like “please don’t leave me ever”

♡ sex is very intimate w her

♡ squirter

♡ when she is giving to her s/o she literally eats pussy like a starved woman

sasha:

☆ naggy loud gf

it’s very sweet though

☆ shows her s/o a lot of love…. a lot

she gives you wet kisses and blows raspberries into your tummy

☆ you guys alr know she likes dates at restaurants but i feel like she’d also like people watching, feeding ducks, or the movies. she likes fun stuff

☆ never a dull moment with her

☆ sleeps wildly, sometimes you just gotta sleep on the couch. she probably snores too.

☆ she’s the type to post all pictures of you for the world to see. ALL

☆ makes slideshows on stuff like why she thinks you guys should buy a roomba

☆ forces u to do couplely things like match outfits

☆ buys corny cards for holidays

“you’re purrfecf for me! love, sash”

☆ play wrestles

takes it way too far. she jumps off the couch and tries to body slam you

☆ if you have bigger boobs just know she’s not gonna leave em alone

she lies on them to sleep and she always just touches them and gropes them

she makes “jokes” about you breastfeeding her and calling you mommy (it’s not really a joke)

~ ♡ def calls you mommy in bed regardless of chest size

♡ with all the eating she does she’s gotta be able to eat pussy

♡ vv whiny

♡ sub

♡ cant last longer than around 2 minutes

♡ will literally touch herself right next to u in bed while you’re sleep

♡ puts whipped cream on your body and licks and eats it off

a/n: i am SO sorry this took so long, i literally got stuck and was gonna try and make this one super duper long but i gave up on it and finished it last .°(ಗдಗ。)° . i hope u enjoy it n’ if there’s another character u wanna see u can request it! <333

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heavyhitterheaux · 2 years

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Love the Way You Love Me

A First Lady of Private Garden Fic

Liked by jackharlow, angiemartinez, urbanwyatt, druski2funny, saweetie, and 9,306,742 others

y/ninsta: I was all smiles during my radio interview with angiemartinez once she mentioned my baby jackharlow 😭 LOVE THAT MAN TO DEATH 🥺

jackharlow: 🙈🙈🙈

jackharlow: always and forever baby girl 😘

saweetie: my favorite couple ever 💕

normani: I just love the way yall love each other. that's some soul mate shit if I ever seen it.

dualipa: but.... y/ninsta what about our love? 😐

jackharlow: dualipa you tryna get all the smoke this morning huh? 😡

y/ninsta: dualipa in another life my darling

jackharlow: WHAT? NO. She's my wife in the next lifetime and all the ones after that

y/ninsta: that's my man and imma stick beside him 😌

maggieharlow: the way you two talk about each other 🥰🥰

y/ninsta: maggieharlow I literally am always thanking you and Brian for raising such an amazing person 🥺

claybornharlow: y/ninsta I know right. I am pretty amazing 🥰

urbanwyatt: I mean I guess he's an okay dude

jackharlow: urbanwyatt and clayborn take your asses on somewhere

jackharlow: y/ninsta you make my world go round smush 😘

"So Y/N, you have just been out here killin it left and right. I know Private Garden is proud of you. Especially your husband."

"The way that they support me is insane. There was a time I was nervous to rap in front of them and it wasn't until Jack came home early and caught me. He didn't know I could rap until late 2019."

"That is crazy, so all you did was write and produce?"

"Yeah, ever since we were younger. I always loved to write and started out writing poems when I was around eleven. That soon led to me writing songs."

"So what led you to want to come out in the spotlight and make a name for yourself?"

"Literally because PG and Jack pushed me. It was a good thing. I remember it was the last night of his creme de la creme tour and he was like it's time. Because when he first caught me I was like there is no way I'm releasing anything and I was like babe, let's just focus on you first. Once we did that, he was like it's go time. I'm not taking no for an answer."

"I absolutely love the way you two are just so supportive of each other. And you two first met when you were both 14?"

"Yes, it's so insane because who would've thought that me moving to Kentucky would lead me to the love of my life."

"You both are so fortunate to find love at a young age, so what keeps it going and what makes it work?"

"It's like people don't understand that you have to want your relationship to work and want it bad and put in the effort. You have to be all in and that's what makes it work for us. We're a team with everything that we do. Like without a question or doubt in my mind. Communication is a huge factor and we never keep anything from each other no matter how big or small it is. Honesty is key."

"I've heard people mention that it seems as if you don't do anything without getting his approval first."

"It's not the fact that I need approval. It's the fact that he's my husband and I value his opinion as well as his feelings. I never want to do anything to break his trust in me and he's the same way. I look at it like this. He's my husband and I am submissive towards him because he's a leader. He has never steered me wrong with the decisions that he has made and I know he won’t. He literally treats me like a queen and makes sure that I want for nothing. He's made sure of that the entire time we've known each other."

"Tell me about the parents finding out you two had been married for almost five years. That was insane."

"Okay so, Jack proposed a week after I had turned 19 in my parents backyard at 1 in the morning with no ring. He was like when I get my first million, I'll get you whatever you want. So I had described what I wanted and did not mention it again. The same night he told me that it was time to release my music, he gave it to me. I most definitely cried. But I had a feeling my mom and dad knew. I don't remember what I said one time talking to her but she gave me the side eye and I quickly changed the subject. Now Jack's parents especially his mom was ready to fight him only because she wanted to be there since I remember on Jack's 16th birthday she was like you two are going to get married one day."

"That is insane for her to have known that early."

"Okay so this is crazy and I actually never told Jack this. Before I moved to Kentucky, I had a dream about a year earlier showing me walking down the aisle. I couldn't see my husband's face, but once I got closer, it was Jack so I literally had my dream show me my husband before we even met."

"That... that's powerful."

"Like he's it for me. And when I first met him in person, my breath hitched. I was like, this is really about to happen. This is the man I'm going to marry."

"Tell me about how your parents felt when you decided not to go to college and move with your boyfriend to Atlanta."

"That was a really hard conversation. They knew I wanted to move back once I graduated high school. They were concerned because I was always told as a black woman in this society that I had to work twice as hard to get half of what they have. They just wanted for me to be secure. There necessarily wasn't a doubt in their mind that Jack wouldn't take care of me but, the conversation ended with me and my mom in tears. But we made up before I left. I know that she only wants the best for me and that she was scared. She just wanted for me to be okay and I can't blame her for that."

"It's a blessing to have your parents in your corner wanting the best for you and cheering you on."

"I would not be anywhere without my parents as well as my in-laws who are my second set of parents. There have been times when I called Maggie at 3 in the morning just because I need advice on a situation and she is always there for me. Same goes for Brian. I always thank them for giving me Jack."

"You literally light up like a kid on Christmas when you talk about him. I love that."

"He's my forever. I could talk about that man for hours."

"So, what's next for the first lady of Private Garden?"

"Just bringing smiles to people's faces as I continue to reach the goals that I set for myself. I want to be remembered as an entertainer who wasn't afraid to be different and shows that being yourself is what is going to lead you to greatness."

"And there you have it. Y/N, thank you so much for coming to visit us. Don't take so long next time!"

"I promise I won't!"

---

Jack had just finished watching your interview with Angie Martinez and was nothing but smiles.

He was currently at home waiting for you to come back from said interview and was just taking time to reflect on how far the two of you had come.

He was interrupted by the front door opening and immediately hopped up from the couch to give you a kiss and a bone crushing hug.

"Oh, hi baby! Are you okay?" You asked as he was still tightly holding you.

"I just... words cannot literally express how much I love you and how much you mean to me."

"Aww, stink. I love you too. Always have and always will."

"I just finished watching your interview and the dream you had? Insane."

"Yeah, and we hadn't even met yet. I didn't tell you, but when we first met, I had to do a double take. I was like that's him!"

Jack had given you another kiss before leading you both to the couch to sit sliding you onto his lap.

"And the way you just trust me?"

"Because you have never steered me wrong. Marriage and career included."

"I don't deserve you."

"Stop that right now Jackman. Yes you do. I just love the way you love me and I...."

"Yes? What's wrong?"

"I want to ask you something, but I'm nervous."

"Baby, why are you nervous? You know you can come to me for anything."

"I know, but.. "

"Come on, pretty girl. Tell me."

"I think I'm ready to have a baby." You respond while looking down.

Jack tilted your chin up to look at him and smiled.

"Baby girl, that's what you're scared of telling me?"

"I just with both of our careers. I just..."

"Y/N, stop for a minute."

Jack then took your hand in his and began making small circles on the back of it.

"I would love to have mini versions of us running around. If my baby wants a baby, her wish is my command."

"Wait, really?"

"You're already gorgeous now, but I can't wait to see you carrying our baby."

"Promise to paint my toes when I can't see my feet anymore?"

"Promise. And you should know me better than that. Mrs. Harlow is not lifting a finger during her entire pregnancy."

"There's no one I would rather share this life with." You said while kissing his nose.

"Not going to lie, I teared up a little bit watching you earlier."

"Aww, why baby?"

"To hear you say you love me is one thing, but to hear you explain why and what makes our relationship work... I'm so happy you moved in across the street from me. I saw the cute little girl with the braids and I was done for. Had me wrapped around your finger ever since."

"It was your blue eyes, chubby cheeks, and freckles for me. Still remember you turning red as a tomato when I first talked to you."

"Can you blame me mamas? Gorgeous then and gorgeous now."

"We're in this together, stink. We're building an empire for our babies so they'll want for nothing."

"Sooo, can we get started now?"

"You know my answer is always going to be yes." You replied while kissing him and he proceeded to stand up while carrying you bridal style up the steps.

"Wait...babe?"

"Yes, my love?"

"Google positions we have to do in order to have a girl."

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satoruhour · 8 months

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my dear t !! for the ask game ❤️ 📚 & 🎨 !!

i hope you’re having a lovely day so far btw ily 🫶🏻

❤️: what is your favourite line that you've written in a fic?

ooh . i have a few that i think r decent :’) it’s not often i like the things i put out but these r the ones that stuck out to me !! theyre all fluff lmfoaoojj

“by the gods, i’m sure they’re all talking about you in the love songs they write.” is what he whispers against your lips, a soft breath of words that make your heart flutter and skin burn. that’s what the present is with suguru. “but if you ask me, a lone man, to write something, i’d do it with a million and one songs, poems, reveries. more than i can count.” — from an untitled on my old blog “it’s like hearing aphrodite sing, and yet you cross her by miles both in beauty and voice. surely, he shouldn’t mention that out loud, but eros can’t possibly help the arrow puncturing his heart, and looking at his psyche now, he thinks you look absolutely flawless.” — from oversized never looked this good “the words are caught in his throat when you fingers go over the 悟 of his name, three syllables packaged into a single character. he didn’t expect you to remember, but it breathes some life back into him when you do it over his heart. he can’t remember the last time he let someone trace his name so intimately. with one last lingering kiss, you both succumb to slumber in peace, with gojo satoru’s first name in the palm of your hand, and his last name aching to take its place in front of your own.” — from 悟; “gojo satoru learns more and more about himself through the lens of your eyes — a love letter sealed with the saccharine strawberry you apply every morning and your whispered confessions that hold a multitude of suns to leave his fingertips blazing and heart soaring.” — from the drabble about gojo’s dimples “he treats you like painters do to their muse: gentle, delicate, a million memories of your anatomy seared into his brain from how long he’s stared at you.” — from late night drift w/ megumi

📚: is there a fanfic or fanfic writer you recommend?

SO. MANY. literally ALL my moots omg ill link my mutual page and you can go crazy from there !!!! theyre all such talented people ! @kazushawty, @hoshigray ELLIE ! the lovely person who sent this ask, @crysugu, @jabamin, @getousex, @slttygeto, @preciousamethyst, @seeingivy, @rlvsmegumi, @zarihaaa, @etherealxmaya, @sluut4toji, @lov3rbody, @cybercandy1, @papersirens, @omgeto, @heavenlyevil (im so sorry if i missed u out im absolutely sleepy rn 😓🥹)

others include @shotorus, @saetoru, @sugurini @prettyboykatsuki @suget @satohruu ahh those are at the top of my head rn! pls pls follow them and give them ur love @ whoever sees this !!!

as for fanfics i dont save fanfics often apart from the reblogs on my pagebgnfjf and im not that good of a gauge for good fanfic cause i like EVERYTHING but i love gojo drabbles by saintobio, pixellated starboy by karma, geto’s fix it fic, what if you’re someone i just want around by saetoru, love alarm by ellie !!! one of his girls by empress (omgeto), nanami’s cariño, boy it’s you i desire by dilly (crysugu), just let me love you by anya / jabamin AAAAHHAHANI REQUESTED THIS I LOVE IT SM!!!! i have lots and lots of favourites im sorrryyy 😭😭😭

🎨: if someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

i mentioned once anything from the racer au would be so cool!! seeing them as racers would be soooo nic or maybe a scene from clementines involved geto peeling an orange for you 🥹 but tbh anything would be good ngl i would love even if it was a simply sketch 😭

ask game 💒

#i am having a not so slay day im afraid but i love you too 🩷#i hope YOU r having a swell day!!!#but thank you for the ask omg i love youuuu #satoruhour's mutuals #asks #hyomagiri

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rollercoasterwords · 1 year

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I saw your post about angst earlier and I thought "atydsp was the *angstiest* most miserable book I've ever read" (it's a compliment btw) and then I remembered that YOU wrote it. So, you being an angst lover and the writer of the angstiest thing I've read, I wanted to ask you for recs(?), If that's ok(?)

Just, what are the angstiest books/fics you've ever read? Like, stare-at-the-wall-and-cry-silently-for-hours, feel-numb-for-days, make-you-want-to-scream-like-your-first-born-died, kind of angst. And, if you want, even throw in there films, music, poems too,idk.

It's all about the feeling. I just want to get my soul ripped apart and bleed-out on the floor again:'(

If it's too much or if it's weird, I'm sorry and feel free to ignore me pls<3

look at me. look into my eyes. you are my favorite person on this website right now. i LOVE this question omg ok buckle up i'm making a list

rae's angstiest-of-all-time recs*:

*with the caveat that this is a subjective list, these are just things that made me, specifically, feel like crying and screaming and staring at the wall for whatever reason. not all of these are stories that end in tragedy; some have happy endings! but if it made me feel like my guts were being twirled around like spaghetti on a fork at some point then it made the list <3

fics:

hackery, by orphan_account i will keep yelling at people to read this until the day i die it is SO good and literally under 2k words u can finish it in like five minutes. go read it rn PLEASE i'm begging

a great, big tragedy by zeppazariel @mayzarbewithyou for all crimson rivers angst enjoyers <3 the au what-if-regulus-died ending

let the ghosts sleep tonight by outlaw_baby dorlene oneshot set during the first war SO beautiful i reread this all the time

zwischen immer und nie (between always and never) by sudowoodo an albus dumbledore/gellert grindelwald fic about the summer they fell in love. was recommended to me by a friend who knows i love angst and thought i would appreciate it. they were correct.

notes on a resurrection by newleaves perhaps my favorite fic of all time and one that was also recommended to me by a friend! this one has a happy ending but BOY does it take you on a ride to get there

that's the art of getting by by sarewolf @sarewolf one of my favorite fics ever <3 another happy ending but plenty of angst before we get there <3

choices by messermoon @little-shit-soph i mean i feel like i don't even need to say anything about this one but. yeah if ur looking for tragedy and angst this is a good place to go lmao

books

the feverwake duology, by victoria lee i don't think i've talked about this series before on my blog but it is one of my FAVORITES of all time oh god. it's so so so fucking good dystopian sci-fi magic plague war just. SUCH a cool concept and SUCH beautiful writing i've read it three times and might need to reread soon lol

teeth, by hannah moskowitz gay mermaid love story but like. in the absolute most fucked-up way possible. i love this book SO much hannah moskowitz is just one of my favorite writers of all time

a history of glitter and blood, by hannah moskowitz my favorite book! another story where you get a happy ending but the angst u go through to get there...exquisite

human acts, by han kang made me cry like a fucking baby. this is historical fiction based on very real events and interviews with people who experienced the gwangju uprising + massacre in south korea in 1980.

the song of achilles, by madeline miller another one that i feel like i don't even need to say anything about lol

crush, by richard siken poetry!! here's ur poetry rec. the richard siken hype is not a lie this book will gut you

the animorphs series, by k.a. applegate i am being 100% serious this is one of my favorite series of all time and i read it for the first time as an adult like. this is not childhood nostalgia it was too scary for me as a kid. genuinely changed the way i think about writing and truly is one of the best war stories i have ever read. the last book is gut-wrenching in a way that very little else i have come across is.

the hunchback of notre-dame, by victor hugo for the classics enjoyers <3 victor hugo is one of my favorite writers i was really into his books in high school lol

the man who laughs, by victor hugo not as well-known as his other work but i wrote a big research paper on this book one time so it holds a special place in my heart just bc i spent so much time with it

tv shows

banana fish (2018) outing myself as an occasional anime enjoyer lmao. i watched this bc i kept seeing people talk about how tragic it was and then i saw my sister watching it and i looked up a plot summary of what happens at the end and i was like huh that sounds interesting. and then i sat down to watch it KNOWING what was going to happen and i still like. was screaming crying by the end.

the haunting of bly manor (2020) just re-watched this show like two months ago and it is 2/2 on making me cry so!!

movies

children who chase lost voices (2011) this movie has a happy ending but like. idk man there's this one specific scene that just GETS me every time. always feel hollowed out but like...in a good way after watching it.

brokeback mountain (2005) i mean...do i need to say anything about this one? gay cowboy tragedy my beloved <3

the last unicorn (1982) watching this movie as a kid is i think what altered my brain chemicals and made me an angst enjoyer. so! had to put it on the list <3

and of course on a final note--as these are heavy angst + tragedy etc etc if u know there are things u need to watch out for please look up trigger warnings before diving in! they all contain content that is upsetting in some way...hence the angst. hopefully that doesn't even need to be said but. well an honest hard-working angst farmer needs to cover his bases sometimes doesn't he

also! tysm for the angst praise lol SO happy to hear that atydsp is one of the angstiest things you've read truly the highest form of praise 2 me <3

#ask #fic recs #atydsp #book recs

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spelloverthewest07 · 24 days

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hi all! i was thinking about my favorite tttyg song in class today (homesick at space camp) and i got kinda carried away and wrote out a lyric analysis. i thought there would be people on here who might appreciate this more than my roommates who have to hear me talk about fob all the time, so i wanted to share it :)

any additional comments or observations are super welcome!!

typed up transcript (with some additional notes) below the cut in case anyone has trouble reading it from the picture :)

"landing on a runway in chicago... grounding"

plane landing vs "grounding" dreams - speaker is stuck physically AND mentally

"ever really seeing california"

2. both literal (since the plane landed in chicago) and figurative (CA representing getting famous)

"i know what's in between is something sensual"

3. the subject is in CA - 3rd layer ↑ [and since the speaker isn't planning on going back to california, this may mean that they're unsure about whether their relationship with the subject will ever become anything beyond long-distance]

"sensual in such non-conventional ways"

4. long-distance relationship, but still very intimate

"the headphones will deliver you the words that i can't say"

5. both literal (long-distance, so the speaker can't say it in person) and figurative (hard to say how they feel)

"tonight is all about we miss you"

6. speaker is a writer; this isn't a proper sentence, but the subject makes [the speaker so overcome with emotion that it makes] them forget how to talk

"we miss you (we miss you)"

7. "we" miss you - the band knows and cares for this person, too. plus, andy's voice! :) [also, the fact that andy's voice comes from either ear, rather than in the middle like patrick's, enhances the sentiments of a Group missing the subject, not just the speaker]

"somehow it was like you were the first to listen"

8. speaker feels like the subject not only listens to the music, but also really UNDERSTANDS it

"everything we said"

9. fan of the band :)

"my smile's an open wound without you"

10. smile causes pain and vulnerability w/out subject [and i thought of this after i wrote this, but there's also the idea that even joy is painful if the speaker can't share it with the subject...]

"my hands are tied to pages"

11. speaker feels compelled to keep writing to subject

"pages inked to bring you back"

12. through writing, the speaker brings the subject back both literally (by convincing them to visit/return) and figuratively (by remembering them)

13. reference to a poem: "new friends are old friends". [ran out of room but the poem is by joseph parry, and it is from the late 1800s.] the poem says new friends are silver and old ones are gold. by flipping this, the speaker claims that these new friends are just as valuable :)

#fob #fall out boy #tttyg #take this to your grave #lyric analysis

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helinedmightbehere · 10 months

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welp, here i go again, dissecting a song!

"be nice to me" by the front bottoms with sun, let's go (this time my friend moon helped with two or three lines :D)

I got boulders on my shoulders Collar bones begin to crack | cough the amount of stress sun has at literally all times like please give the man a break i'm begging-

There is very little left of me and it's never coming back | the fact that sun changed a LOT after all the trauma and pain he went through, to the point where he's almost unrecognizable if you compare him to his past self

There are certain things you ask of me And there are certain things I'll lack | i don't know how to explain this exactly, but his low self-esteem?? like you know how people always ask moon for stuff?? aaaaaaa idk

The beginning, we were winning But now I'm just making up facts | at first, they thought there was some hope to stop eclipse. now,,,,,,,,yeah

What's it matter anymore? If you believe the lies I tell | moon believing sun's lies when he shot bloodmoon and stuff

There's no meaning to the words But we still sing these songs well | sun and moon still doing the channel despite everything they went (and are going) through-

If we all left it alone I'm sure it'll work itself out fine | i feel like this is sun imagining moon's thought process when they left eclipse in him- especially with how moon practically forgot about eclipse until he became a problem

We keep playing with the numbers We are running out of time We are running, we are running | sun constantly feeling like he's on a time limit, especially now that eclipse has the star

But you're a killer and I'm your best friend | cough moon and sun COUGH COUGH

Think it's unfair, your situation | moon kinda brushed off sun's trauma a lot ngl- so yeah

You say I'm changing Sorry I didn't know I had to stay the same Can we talk about this later? Your voice is driving me, driving me insane | THE FIGHT THEY HAD WHEN SUN WAS GOING TO KILL ECLIPSE

I try to write you poems, but the words they don't make sense The hand tries to grip the pencil, but the fingers are too tense | i don't know why but this could just be him constantly being alert because of his hallucinations and, well, eclipse- also the poems could be something earth suggested to help him get his mind off of things

I try to show emotion, but my eyes won't seem to wet | ,,,him bottling up his emotions so much

I'd love to tell you stories, but I can't remember how they went | i feel like sun would say this line to lunar or earth, saying that he "doesn't remember" because he doesn't want to think about the past-

You're a flashlight in a dark room or the loneliest black out You were all we had left after it all was filtered out Turn you on in a dark room right before we both pass out Turn you on when I need you, but the batteries ran out They ran out | WOO sun constantly being the one to support his brother emotionally until the trauma took a toll on him, and now that he's slowly processing everything that's happened, he's changing, and therefore his "batteries ran out", because he was unable to properly help his brother- can you tell i like sun angst

You're a werewolf and I'm a full moon And all your very worst enemies will be gone soon | ahem, sun running off to kill eclipse so that his family wouldn't have to be in further turmoil

I think you're changing Don't worry, you don't gotta stay the same | moon losing his memories!! yippee

#helined rambles #helined dissects a song to fit aer narrative #sun and moon show #sun and moon show sun #tsams #sams #sams sun #this is for you. person that reblogged saying they loved when people connected song lyrics to tsams-#be nice to me

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sunflowerfoxboy-unused · 2 years

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Hi, I am Micaela (at least that's the name my parents gave me), and I am not sure about literally anything related to my identity. I'm not very sure about how this works, but I thought you may be able to help(?

Ok first of all I'm afab and even though I don't feel really disphoric ab my body, I do feel a little uncomfortable when people call me "mujer", for example (I live in a spanish speaking country).

I got to think that I maybe could be an nb person, but it still felt a little weird. I haven't discarded it yet, though, since it could be bc I'm not used to the idea.

(Could you please do a pronoun check with the name Mica and pronouns they/them? Some facts about myself: I am really passionate about music in general, but I more specifically really enjoy singing and listening to whatever I feel like listening at the moment. I also love reading and literature in general, though I don't really have the time to focus on this. I do not like running or swimming (like, at all), but I've been trying to lear a little swimming bc ik it's important. Whst else can I say... I have three dogs and they are sooo cute. Um, please mention me as a nonbinary person. I hope that's enough info lol.)

I also thought that I may be just a cis woman who wants to be smth else to make herself interesting (which is pretty sad), but idk.

I even got to consider that I might be a man, but they've got me a little traumatized and it's just really hard to even imagine myself as one (I'm just talking about my personal experience, but still I'm sorry if I made anyone feel ofended on any way).

I don't usually feel comfy wearing very femenine clothes, but sometimes I feel like it so I put on a cute outfit and go somewhere wearing it, and then regret doing it after some minutes. But this could ALSO not have anything to do with gender, so as you can see I'm a confused pile of teenager material. Help me please.

My sexual orientation is a whole mystery as well, but that woul make this way too long, so I'm just gonna sent it like this and, yeah.

Oh I would also appreciate if you could make some more pronoun checks for me, with the same info than the one above but changing a few things :)

1- the one above

2- changing the pronouns for she/they but keeping it nb

3- same as #2 but with she/her

4- same but with he/him

5- same but with he/they

6- keeping they/them but using whatever genders you think might suit me (on different paragraphs please)

7- the same as #6 but with she/they

8- same but with she/her

9- same but with he/him

10- same but with he/they

11- changing the gender to a girl

12- everything again but with Micaela instead of Mica (I'm sorry), and if you can think of a similar name that would sound good in spanish please tell me as well (it's not necessary to make more pronoun checks with that variation, I'm not that mean).

Okay sorry those are a lot of requests, feel free to take your time.

Of course, I will link some feminine/female genders, that I am not sure are in spanish, feel free to check them out!

Mica came by and told me they are non-binary, I didn't know so I asked them about and Mica was very nice. They also use they/them now, so please remember that

I told them she owed some guy money, but they asked me if he was against non-binary people. I realized Mica was scared. I went for them and helped her come out to a random guy. Starts are starts!

Mica got her new coat! She planned she write some poems on it. I told her to just be calm and write as a start, she also showed me some nice art she found. It has non-binary stuff, and I think she is non-binary?

He has a nice voice, also I heard that he goes by Mica, so I need to update his biography. He doesn't know I'm writing his non-binary life to help progression. With his premission.

Mica has made some nice music with me, he has this voice and I told them I know some cello. We made a nice poem-like song, but he wants to try more. Just drabbles, but they could make a career out of it.

6a. They are a demigirl, I asked Mica what is demigirl? They just said that it's when one is part girl or part feminine. They helped me a lot with some other stuff, but Mica is also feeling better. Not so feverish.

6b.They are making a story about paragirls like themself, and I feel like Mica is doing well. They are making me realize I may not be demigender, but I didn't tell them. Maybe later I'll tell Mica?

7a. She got some nice stuff, but I saw a demigirl flag and they shooshed me out? I won't tell her parents, I know they may not like it. I know Mica thinks your safe. Yea, Mica, I was talking about her the whole time.

7b.They came and said that she uses paragirl now, so I know they are ok with stuff like that. She has some knowledge on me, but how much do they know? Mica knows I'm trans and that's it? I should tell her I'm queer too!

8a.I saw her play piano, and she made the song sound like she was saying demigirl, which is her gender right? Anyway, I know she uses she/her, so I'm safe with pronouns. Mica use any new names?

8b.I know she has a dog, but I saw two dogs! Did she get a new dog or did the coming out make me forgot the color of them? Oh, she has 3 dogs. Ok, also Mica told me to tell you she a paragirl.

9a.He got some ncie heels, he told me to get him a newspaper? I think he is watching news more, wait wait, he told me he would make a letter about demigirls like him with newpapers. Mica is just a smart demigirl eh?

9b.I swore I saw him dancing to some song, he should dance more. I know where he is makes him worried, but Mica is missing out. Being a paragirl probably brings problems when girls vs boys comes up, but he could figure it out right?

10a.They have a new skateboard, and he made sure to paint it demigirl colors, which sound nice as frick. They asked if wanted him to paint me one but I don't mind. Mica does enough for themself alone!

10b.I got him, Mica by the way, a new dog sweater. They always want me to make them some, and I do get free dog pictures of the his cute dogs, but I want Mica to learn so I get them for free.

11a.She is just a girl with a hecking voice, I want Mica to get choir classes, but they say no. I respect her choice like their everything, but I am wanting to push this on her.

11b.I gave her a good, time. Made sure she felt like the girl she was. I learned she liked music so I got her some singers stuff. She also is getting some books soon from me.

11c.I told them that they are what they say, but they have been worried about over phone stuff. I think they said they want people to call them a girl and use they/them? I didn't have time to help them.

11d.He got a new book, and he said he has his dogs learning some words. I taught his dogs 'girl' and that Mica was a good girl, so they understood he was. Mica is nice to his dogs.

11e.I made sure they had fun, he got called a girl but they say it's ok, so maybe he is fine with girl? I want to wait until they comfirm it but just a update on him.

For 12 I decided to make a few paragraphs, no gender mentions. I hope it works in place for time for use both!

She got a new name, Micaela, and I know she will make it sound nice! I think she also spells it with a c, not a k, so be careful when spelling her name.

They have a letter written to a classmate you need to carry for me, but Micaela should have written Micaela on it. If you lose it they are after me.

He has some swim gear, and Micaela has wrote his name on it? I don't know why, but I want him to feel safe here, so if Micaela seems scared please ask him if he is.

Madra is a spanish name for girls that sounds nice, but maybe Micaela could work in spanish? I think it can be pronounced fine, but I only took a spanish class two years ago and know nothing anymore, so I am not the best. Monica also sounds nice

As for gender troubles, I had been questioning for a long time. I think exploring all base things is a good thing to do first: like all pronouns you know, etc. The gender bible is a nice place to look especially for dysphoria. Demigirl and Paragirl are gender identitys that are part feminine, and honestly those seem like good starting places. If you go through many labels that's ok!

https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Demigirl and https://www.lgbtqia.wiki/wiki/Paragirl

#warmedpronouns #warmedextramilks #pronoun check

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godly-tomatoe · 2 years

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Match up for The Quarry, please? :D I had to rewrite this again because my app rebooted from me being scared of pressing the ask button, so.. This is technically still my first time requesting for something like this, so I hope I don't seem like an asshole 'cause I usually do seem like one with how I write and how I'll describe myself right about now.

I'm a 5'5 omnisexual fanfic and video game addict, with shoulder length hair and normal dark brown eyes. I have pierced ears and it's sensitive to loud sounds, I like wearing clothes that are the right amount of bright and dark, and soft, I like to write my own songs in my head and leave it forgotten until someone asks me what it was, and write stories whenever I have the chance to. I will never confront someone seriously when it's a 'BS topic-ed' argument and will reply with plain voiced sarcasm until someone tells me it's a serious topic, then I will apologize a lot for how insensitive I was with my sarcasm... I will apologize for anything I do and say because of my normally sarcastic voice. My love language for any type of relationship is writing poems and act of service. I'd rather act than talk, and hate it whenever people start shouting at each other. I hate any arguments and will remember an argument I regret participating until the day I die.

Is this too long? Should I have specified more? Did I use too many words? I'm so sorry I got too carried away because I described myself for the first time since kindergarten 😭

Hi hun! this I perfect, don't stress! thank you for your request :)

I match you with... Nick!! You guys got along immediately because of how chill he is, he's not very argument inducing and doesn't like drama too much so he understands your problem with loud noises and people arguing. because you guys spend a lot of time with each other he can usually tell your tone of message even with your sort of monotone voice, so he's kind of like your translator lmao. he loves to listen to your thoughts and he likes to hear all of the literature you create. when he decides to confess to you he tries to create a poem of his love for you but.. its not really good lmao. but you love it anyway. when you guys start to date he notices how anxious you get over your actions and loves to reassure you on how perfect he thinks everything about you is. with every letter, poem, song idea, ect. you make for him he always keeps them and end up putting all of them on his wall when he gets home. he makes sure to keep your hatred for arguments in mind so whenever he confronts you about a problem he always mentions that its serious and remains in a calm voice. you guys love to read together and just sit and take in scenery. during the werewolf incident he will always have you in his sight. when he gets bit he immediately makes sure you're safe. when he sees that you react weird to his behavior and he feels different he makes everyone get you away from him, he absolutely does not want to ruin anything with you or cause any harm to you. when the night is over you guys literally don't leave either of yalls side, you will definitely have to comfort him through his trauma and reassure him that he didn't hurt you. he feels bad that he couldn't help you throughout the night but reassures you that he's here now.

I think you guys would fit each other nicely, so I hope you liked this! have a great day love bug :)

#the quarry #the quarry fanfic #the quarry x reader #the quarry nick

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deerydear · 10 months

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I have been pondering my perception of myself for a little while, and the theme had resurfaced while I was looking for random astrology posts.......... because if people said "my sign" was like.. generous, kind, caring.... All these qualities which I actually do value in real interpersonal relationships..........

but I feel like that has a "time and a place".

I believed that it was bragging to call oneself humble, kind, generous, caring. At least, that was my belief. That was the thought informing me.

Everything in life is an action. Thoughts are actions. Labelling is an action. Assembling a museum piece is an action.

I thought, "Actions speak louder than words," but...

Crescendo!

"The internet isn't like real life. You can create a mythos. Why not be a bloody monster?"

The problem I see is that it is eventually impossible to confine things to "one area" of a life. A leak springs at some point.

The dark, churning waters bring up a severed, bloated limb to the surface. Sometimes there is a luxurious amount of time before that leak happens, and you may start to believe it will never happen. The truth is that I look at old pictures of myself and I see the monster that everyone else saw. I couldn't see it.

There were plenty of other people who seemed utterly fascinated with this monster. It wasn't something I felt awful about. I just thought, "It happens."

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I think that I did feel it, though. I felt my goodness slipping away from me, and the further I clawed at it for grasp, the more it shredded to ribbons.

I thought there shouldn't be consequences to certain actions. I thought I would accept it if someone blamed some other actions of mine, but I didn't like to imagine changing certain things.

Lol, Degeneracy! Literally!

...but I keep building up this mythos of myself as a bad person, but actions are what define a person. The choice to keep playing into it and playing it up is another action. I can do something else. I do it all the time.

It's like I wanted to maintain two different people in my head, for me to be.... but I am truly one person.

*krrrsh* *cb radio static*

"Get in the fucking fishing boat!"

Sometimes, the mask slips off my face a little, and I start to hear someone else's voice instead of my own. That used to prompt me to bolt the mask to my face even tighter -- to weld it, to surgically attach it...

Tarot is like an inkblot test. You can gauge the temperature of your mind.

In my eyes, I didn't need to be either of these birds.

I felt like one of them, so I thought that if I became the other, I would not feel as bad, anymore.

I was scared that if I wasn't one, I'd become the other.

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The truth lies beyond that. The truth lies in incubating potential. Patience.... resilience...

A newborn bird emerging from its shell.

The future is open.

I feel like blood is being pumped into the most passionate, sadistic, addicted, angry, twisted parts..........

but so that I can fully experience that again, so I can bring new knowledge to the experience, see it with my new eyes.... and to be able to leave it behind --- not out of fear, or urgency..... but out of calm, resolved, completed understanding.

Someone was actually asking me about the sort-of Hindu and Buddhist idea of Detachment from desires. I think that this person imagined it as an urgent, fearful, rushed, incomplete sort-of Letting-Go.

That's the kind that one must return to, to make it right, eventually....

If you run, it will chase you. Walk slowly, Magician. Sing a song. Write a poem. Think of something else. Walk very slowly.

Forget.

Remember...

Remember that the only thing you were running from was your self -- your reaction, your fear, your decision..... Your Imagination.

The Imagination is so powerful. You can either use it for your benefit, or for your harm.

What of the middle path?

Well,

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"Don't mess with Mister In-Between!"

...but I think the type of middle ground I imagine, is beyond and behind all action.

All actions are either negative or positive, but the whole psychodrama of Life takes place on this incredible neutral field.

Soothing like a sunset.

I wrote this before sleep.

I had a dream about my ex-husband.

"Who is to say that this waking life is not just the dream of another world?"

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mo0n-water · 11 months

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hello! sorry, my day yesterday wasn’t the best so i just gave up when it deleted itself but i’m trying again today! also, that grammar mistake when i said ‘do’ instead of ‘did’ is literally painful to look at, i’m sorry.

also hello to your friend, she sounds like a great person :)

i love finding comfort in art. it’s a feeling like no other when you are reading a book written in the 19th century or a poem from the 18th century or looking at a painting from the 16th century and it understands you more than your close friends or even yourself. there’s a line in a bob dylan song: ‘then she opened up a book of poems, and handed it to me, written by an italian poet from the 13th century. and every one of them words rang true and glowed like burning coal, pouring off of every page like it was written in my soul”, i think that describes it perfectly.

life would be boring without a healthy dose of unnecessary personification.

i completely get what you are saying with the photo, i have this photo on my phone of a clearing in the woods which is quite blurry and unremarkable to the untrained eye but it’s from the first date i ever went on. i tried to take a photo of the girl i was with but she moved out of the way and i didn’t see her again in person for months and so all i had to remember being together by was a photo of some trees and the forest floor. though i’m not on speaking terms with her anymore, i can’t bear to delete the photo because it represents a whole era of my life and as much as i’d love to forget her, i think i’d hate it if i did.

i’ve never told anyone that before, woah.

I LOVE CLEOPATRA SO MUCH. it’s such a nostalgic song.

your lyric… i wish i could hear how it was sung. the best kind of music is when you can tell that it was written by someone who felt the words they spoke and that there’s a story hidden behind every line. i think it’s special that only you will ever truly understand what your songs mean.

i think whenever anyone asks me this question my first thought will always be this stupid innocent fantasy i’ve had since early childhood of time stopping and everyone i love and have ever loved coming together and just getting to be in their presence, peacefully and without expectation. i want to dance and hug and cry and be who i am when i’m alone with them.

but more realistically, i really really want someone to give me an annotated copy of their favourite book. i’d think i’d marry anyone who did that for me.

i like being anonymous because i feel like there’s less pressure and i can ask questions i wouldn’t normally ask. i also enjoy that we both know these tiny things about each other but none of the things you’d normally know about someone you’ve had multiple ‘conversations’ with.

my favourite lyric is, like, the whole of suzanne by leonard cohen but specifically: ‘and you know that she’s half crazy/but that’s why you want to be there/and she feeds you tea and oranges/that come all the way from china’. i think a lot about why i like those lyrics is how he sings it though.

my favourite harry songs are canyon moon, fine line and little freak :)

questions for you:

- what was the moment when you realised you were no longer a child?

- what kind of old person do you think you’ll be?

- what’s your dream house like?

- what do people forget?

- what’s the first thing you think about when you wake up?

hope your week is going well xx

ps. 🌷🌺🌸🌼🌻💐

pps. you wrote a song about me?? i’m SOBBING right now, i love you

ppps. 168 HOURS

help me. i didn’t even notice the grammar mistake (i was tired) but i’m laughing so hard now… lmfao. anyway, no worries on the timing! i hope your day today was better than the one before. (i am assuming it’s mostly over, thought that’s a bold assumption i guess!)

i did write a song about you 😭 i was wondering if you’d end up seeing that post, looks like you did haha. i was thinking about anonymity & what it means to know someone, literally exactly what you said about knowing tiny details but none of the things that you’d usually know about someone.

i’ve been thinking a lot about a question you asked a couple asks ago, which was something along the lines of what’s something that everyone should know about you. i think i said something which, in hindsight, was a longwinded & romanticized way of getting across the fact that i’m an extrovert. but an actual disclaimer is that if i meet you & decide that you’re interesting, you’re gonna get a song written about you & you do NOT wanna hear it lolol

okay, about your answers! i like what you said about sharing a space with people you know. i remember when i was growing up teachers would often ask “organize a dinner party of x amount of people, real or fictional, dead or alive” & i’d always pick friends & family. people i missed, & just people who i like to see.

i’m annotating a copy of one of my favorite books for a friend right now. she’s always said that she thinks it’s be the most phenomenal gift, & incidentally what you said about the flowers inspired me to finally go & do it. i think that’s a sweet idea, & i hope someone does it for you. it says a lot about you that what you want from someone else is just their thoughts on something they care about, plain & simple & honest.

clearly your music taste is phenomenal. suzanne, my beloved… leonard cohen is just AHHHH. ahhhh. good taste in harry songs as well, but it’s hard to have bad taste in harry songs… little freak is my favorite as well!

to answer your questions:

i don’t think i can put the one about childhood on the internet, for whatever that says about my upbringing. i’ll give you an ominous overview. i was in elementary school, & my parents had me sit down in my great grandma’s wicker chair because they needed to talk to me about something. i think the fact i was in elementary school is very sad. it wasn’t the first time i thought “i need to be grown up and mature from now on” but it was the first time i actually did. sounds like the opening to a book!

that’s a bummer. that’s such a bummer. sorry lolol

next question! by G-d, i will answer this in a positive & upbeat way. i don’t know what i’m gonna be like as an old person. i feel like that’s gonna be based on how i live my life? nostalgic, i think. i’m nostalgic as is, so i think that’s gonna get more and more true the older i get. always trying to preserve things, you know? i like nostalgia. my friends say i’m pretty grannycore as is, though.

i want my great granny’s old house in kentucky. it ain’t in the family anymore but that is genuinely the exact place i want to live. i’m a bit insane about it.

uhhhh i’ve been thinking a lot about something someone said about how pain is the one thing your mind will never ever remember right, & that’s why it’s hard to learn from your mistakes. i also think people forget that life comes in cycles, it’s very cyclical in nature, & that the phases you go through are never going to stick around forever. that goes for the good & the bad, you know?

today my first thought was “i wonder if question anon ever sent that ask in,” my second was “i wonder how (best friend) is doing in japan,” & my third was “i wonder if (girl i am Still Not Over) texted me.” i feel like in general, when i wake up, my first thoughts are always about people & what they’re up to. for the record, i did immediately go to check all three of those things, so i still haven’t gotten out of bed haha.

that’s that!

questions for you:

- what’s a silly life goal of yours? (random deja vu moment accompanied this)

- i can tell you appreciate people who are thoughtful & vulnerable, so what’s another quality you’d appreciate in a friend?

- if you could host a dinner party with any guests, living or dead or entirely fictional, who would you pick?

- what the fuck is that countdown for? favorite quote?

wishing you the best!

& for you:

#asks #question anon #thoughts with lem

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hot-chocolate-escapades · 2 years

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I can’t stop writing poetry. I got invited to an art night for any art that one of my friends is throwing and we have to show up and present an art and it has to be around a theme and for some reason—excitement, likely—I can’t stop writing poems. But all of them are so sad and one was kind of sensual lol. I hope I can find the right balance. I wish I could remember the song that was forming in my head at work. I wish I could record my thoughts but just for the songs I’ve almost written but forgot. I haven’t performed a song in front of people since I was in elementary school so idk if I want to write a song but I also really do!! I just don’t sing in front of people. I’d like to but it scares me so much!! I also can’t play any instruments so it would literally just be me singing aaaaaaa but poetry is definitely happening!! I feel so inspired! The prompt is so random too?? It’s medicine. I’ve never really written about that I don’t think so it’s kind of exciting! I obviously have a lot of thoughts about this! I’m just excited to share some art with real people I know and to see how it gets received. I’ve gotten good reviews before after sharing poetry with close friends so maybe this could go over well! It might be the boost I need to submit my writing somewhere! I’ve been wanting to do that but I’ve been scared because my writing is kinda sad as of late but art is meant for all the feels so whatevs

TLDR; I am excited to share my art with my friends and I overthink a lot

#big word vomit #yelling into the void

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indigoking · 2 years

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Concepts of visual language development

I wanted to do something to do with abstract art, maybe creating actual art/posters or photography or even create a video.

I made a list of notes about what abstract art could be classed as and how, after attending a tutorial where we discussed my idea. I thought about what the definition of abstract would be and looked it up and thought of questions like ‘When does something become abstract?’

I also thought about lots of ways I could experiment with the subject of abstract. I could take photographs in an abstract way and edit them, I could make physical art and use unusual tools or techniques, I could take videos and edit those together, I could create music - there were so many possibilities with this subject so I was glad I chose it.

Something I also thought about was the Rorschach test, the projective psychological test where people say what they see in ink splodges. This made me think about perspective and how abstract art is viewed very differently by people and it all depends on people’s personal perspective.

I drew lots of sketches in my book. I drew sketches of flowers and plants for example, in quite a realistic way, and then on another page I drew sketches of them again but in a much more abstract sense. I was trying to think about the flowers I had drawn and then remove the things I know about flowers from the abstract sketch of them.

For example, I thought about them in a basic sense, just as shapes and I drew shapes which related to the realistic flower so zoomed in petals, patterns shown in leaves, the stalk by itself and things like this. I found that this exercise helped me to think of things less literally as just as shapes and colours, which is a lot of what being abstract is about.

I then wanted to create some art, and experiment using different tools and supplies, and have some fun with it.

I created many different mixed media drawings/paintings for my experiments. These two were drawn with pen/pencil and with watercolours.

These ones were mostly drawn with felt tip pens and colouring pencils. I found it really enjoyable to draw quite strange unusual things.

Lots of songs/ poems inspired me creating these abstract artworks, ‘Third Eye’ by Florence + The Machine for the first watercolour one and the alien one was inspired by the song ‘A Space Oddity’ by David Bowie.

I also painted this sunset on water and woman with watercolours to experiment more with watercolour and blending the colours. I then wanted to experiment a bit more with photography, to see what experimentation I would enjoy the most and use to make my final piece. Firstly, I photographed some things in nature which I found quite visually pleasing which were these images.

I liked these images but remembered my subject is about experimenting and making things more abstract so I then took more photos in a more abstract way.

I took these images in ways slightly out of the ordinary. I took some through random objects like glasses of water which created a rippled effect. I also took some extremely close up photos, and also some while shaking the camera and through objects to give a different appearance.

I then wanted to explore poems more, so I read through lots of different poems and the one that stood out to me the most was a poem called ‘Still I Rise’ by Maya Angelou.

The words in this poem were so impactful and powerful that I decided I definitely wanted to use this in my final piece, I wasn’t sure what it would be but I wanted to represent the words in this poem in some way, perhaps through art or a video.

I read through this poem many times, then analysed it by writing it down and circling the key words which stood out to me.

I also wrote down important themes within the poem and the woman who wrote it, as well as counted how many times certain words were used in the poem. I didn’t know what I would do with the information about how many times certain words were used in the poem but it was interesting to find out and it helped with seeing the importance of things in the poem. I could perhaps create a piece of art showing the most used words in the poem and what these represent. I drew this quick sketch based on some words in the poem and merged them together. I wanted to try and represent someone rising from dirt and succeeding no matter what, which is partially what the poem is about. The shoeprint was to represent the dirt and in the artwork I create of it, it would be literal and actually stepped on with muddy shoes. The word ‘rise’ is meant to be coming from the dirt, but it looks like it says ‘esir’ because of the positioning of the letters. I think the sketch is a bit too literal and not abstract enough, so I tried to be more abstract with the next drawing I created from this.

I used lots of different tools and techniques for this mixed media art I created based on the ‘Still I Rise’ poem. I used colouring pencils as well as watercolours and even some charcoal for the black sea. For the background I stepped on it a lot with mud on my shoes and rubbed it in, to represent the dirt and the painful past and I cut out letters to make the title of the poem ‘Still I Rise’. I like this artwork and I think it’s very different, I think I should have added some more symbolism and art to show someone rising as it just shows a few key words fro the poem in an abstract sense.

I decided I wanted to create a video instead trying to represent Maya Angelou’s poem and what it’s about.

I haven’t done a lot of editing videos before, but I wanted to try something new and exciting and I felt like a drawing/artwork couldn’t accurately portray what the poem is saying and the impact of the words with the meaning of it for Maya Angelou and everyone else living during the civil rights movement and how important this was, and still is today.

I used Premiere Pro for the making of my visual poem. I downloaded Maya Angelou’s live performance of her poem, as hearing her speak the words was a lot more powerful than just reading them. I then went through the video of her speaking, and wrote down the lyrics so that they would show on screen as she was saying them. I found a song to add to have quietly in the background of the poem, I made sure it wasn’t overpowering but instead just helped and went along with the impact that the words make.

I also found lots of different video clips that I felt went with the words of the poem and made the visuals very powerful and interesting to watch.

As the audio of Maya Angelou speaking was from a live performance, there were certain moments where the audience’s reaction was too loud/disruptive so I had to edit parts out and use an effect to smooth the audio out so there were no harsh cuts. The effect I used was ‘Exponential fade’ from Premiere Pro which helped massively.

I did a lot of watching through, choosing and changing video clips to fit the words and the audio, and a lot of listening through to make sure the audio flowed well and that there wasn’t any harsh cuts in the audio where I edited noise out.

I did this to the best of my ability, it was time consuming and quite hard as I have never really edited videos before but I found it a fun and challenging project.

This is the mini learning agreement I created for my project. I found it quite difficult as I had never had to make my own brief so it was hard to answer some of the questions, but I think I eventually came up with an interesting and broad topic and successfully created a mini learning agreement based on abstract art in terms of all media like photography, poetry, art, sound and video.

I also think I successfully designed this mini learning agreement and that it’s fitting within the subject of abstract. I used pastel merged colours for the background and different fonts in the title of the mini learning agreement which feels right within the context.

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hello-yue-here · 3 years

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what would u find in each of the gaangs notes app?

aang: different recipes he wants to try, things he wants to buy or appa and katara and his friends etcetc, funny jokes he doesnt wanna forget, shows he wants to watch, lots of lists, philosophical questions that he wants to bring up at the next smoke sesh.

katara: instagram caption ideas (ME TOO BABE ME TOO), important links, passwords and usernames, conspiracy theories that are actually kinda legit, moves that she wants to practice for her routine (is she a gymnast? and ice skater? a diver? you decide.).

sokka: invention ideas that would actually be so helpful and world changing, invention ideas that are just batshit fucking crazy, jokes that he tells aang so aang can put them in his notes, pick up lines, reminders of things he has to do, homework assignments, random words that he types down because he wakes up at night while dreaming and wants to remember what he dreamt about but the writing just comes out in gibberish.

zuko: its literally just the word adele. like thats his only note. it reads this: “adele” thats it thats the whole not.

toph: all of her high thoughts. practice seshes of speech to text consisting of things her friends copy and paste in there for her to listen back to because they think its fun or insults for people to practice speaking into the mic and making sure her shakespearian insults are perfectly remembered, food she likes, pets she wants, tattoos she wants.

suki: list of things she wants for her birthday and NOTHING else.

azula: list of things she wants for her birthday AND new years because its a new year and she needs new things.

mai: she writes her notes on paper but her camera roll is full of pictures of knives she sees at the store or out and about that she wants to use as inspiration for her knife making business.

ty lee: every acrobatics competition shes won and performance shes been in just so she can remember for her resume, a full ranking of every shade of pink thats been changed far too much, flavors of protein powder she wants to try, a list of everyone she knows who she thinks is queer and puts a little check mark next to each person who has come out so she knows who to make pins w their flag on it for and also just to test her gaydar, places she wants to visit.

yue: her friends star charts and what they mean and whos compatible w one another, a list of every successful couple shes set up using her astrology charts, song lyrics, poems, writing ideas (the thing w the last three is that the song lyrics and poems are absolute GARBAGE but the story ideas lowkey slap), rants she has ab ppl but doesnt know who can say these things too so she just writes all of her feelings and angers and annoyances in her notes.

jet: various ideas for what his username should be on insta and twitter (ex: jetplane jetfuel battle_of_jettysburgh etc.), political arguments for every blatantly bigoted idea that assholes always use to try and shut moraly sound people up, funky sock ideas he has for his knitting business.

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forbidding-souda · 3 years

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hi hi!! Could I get some headcanons for Kaito, Kazuichi, Kiyotaka, and Shuichi with their trans man S/O who’s the SHSL poet? ✨ I love your writing so so much!!

Kaito Momota, Kazuichi Souda, Ishimaru Kiyotaka, and Shuichi Saihara with trans man SHSL Poet

my friend has a shsl poet and I would think this was requested by him if he typed the way this is typed out so nvm... I think

currently listening: dead of night by orville peck on a discord call (such a good song - listen to it. makes me think of bo sinclair.)

-Mod Souda

Kaito Momota

❤ Probably thinks of you as a wimp. Initially, at first. But he'd definitely force you to join his little exercise posse. And you better enjoy it - or he'll make you enjoy it.

❤ I can see that being the reason he has gotten close to you - trying to make you strongly. More 'manly' maybe. I think you'd have to knock him out of that mindset.

❤ He'd be so appreciative of poems about the stars compared to, say, poems about him. Writing him a poem about your feelings for him? Bleh. A poem about space? Yes. Give it to him NOW!!!

❤ You should put cute little space stickers on it everywhere.

❤ He might have a little binder thing of all the things you've ever given him - I can see him doing something cheesy like that. All with pictures of you, ones with shitty lighting because they were taken at night and some poem drabbles you've given to him (instead of throwing them away).

❤ Omg he will probably gift you like space themed bookmarks and pencils and notebooks. You have to have something to remember him by (as if you'd forget).

❤ He doesn't know much about dysphoria - and he's probably the "you're a man? Let's go fishing" type of cis person. But he's willing to learn. I think he's a little bit fruity anyway.

❤ He has the energy to get (or steal) whatever you want - plus, you can borrow his clothes. And his underwear. He probably wears boxers LMAO.

❤ I don't see him ever messing up pronouns or anything. His mentally is probably like yes! one of us - one of us [men].

Kazuichi Souda

❤ I can see him being a bit of a softie for poetry. Like you sitting at your desk and him awkwardly pulling up a stool, asking what you're doing. The room will be dimly lit but he still tries to peak over your shoulder.

❤ He'll fidget with his braid as he listens to you talk. He wants you to explain your process to him. He will care.

❤ Kazuichi is definitely open-minded. Pronouns and anything, he'll listen and he won't?? ever mess up. It surprises you.

❤ Also, literally you better write the sweetest shit about him because he needs that attention. To know that you think about him - even when you're not with him? Absolute gold.

❤ There's also the chance that he's going to try to write poetry for you. It'll probably have bike grease stains on it but hey - aesthetic.

❤ Do you put on music when you write? If so, he's going to associate those songs with you. Every time he hears them he'll be like oh my god my baby likes this song.

❤ He'd probably gaslight people into thinking you're cis. LMAO. Even if you don't ask him to - I can definitely see him doing it just for kicks.

❤ He's doing to be stealing your clothes. Sharing is caring, okay? Deal with it.

❤ And every day, if you wear binders, he's going to constantly remind you to take it off after 8 hours. Smh being in a trans mans business like that *rolls eyes*.

Ishimaru Kiyotaka

❤ The type to apologize profusely after misgendering you.

❤ I can see him pulling out a red pen and correcting your poems as if they were essays. You have to explain to him that it's an art form, not anything too serious.

❤ He's going to get all flustered if you gift him any of your poetry, though. Something??? For him?? Absolutely unbelievable - how dare you be so sweet.

❤ Mystery lies in whether or whether not he saves said poems. Maybe he has a little stash... who knows... maybe maybe not... in a specific drawer in his dresser.

❤ But he's going to be like "no way do I save them pshh haha unless".

❤ I think he'd ask questions about like whether you'd ever wear a dress or makeup (because he wants to do your eyeliner. anyway.)

❤ If you listen to things while you write, he's going to ask you to turn it down. Doesn't matter if it's already low or not LOL.

Shuichi Saihara

❤ Poetry,,, yes,,, he loves loves loves it. I think when he meets you, he'll go to a library afterwards and read all of your works. He wants to see if you were the real deal - and you are.

❤ He hardly talks to people anyway so the chance of him misgendering you is almost 0. You're going to have to do the most of the talking in the relationship.

❤ But please give him poetry specifically for him - pointing out all the things you see in him. It'll boost his confidence and his security.

❤ Also let him into your space while you're writing. He can sit there, in quiet with his headphones on, just enjoying your presence. He won't bother you at all.

❤ And you better give him writing advice. He would love to delve into the world of poetry. You inspire him so much - his own muse.

❤ Most of his poems will probably be edgy but hey - everyone has written edgy poetry before.

❤ If you're too nervous to correct people that misgender you, he will do it. He'll gain a temporary confidence and stand up for you.

#kaito momota x reader #kaito momota #kazuichi souda #kazuichi soda #kazuichi souda x reader #kazuichi soda x reader #ishimaru kiyotaka #ishimaru kiyotaka x reader #shuichi saihara #shuichi saihara x reader

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pillow-anime-talk · 3 years

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his talented baby. {pt.1}

synopsis: You as a person with a huge (and hidden) talent, and also a girl who really surprises your boyfriend.

# tags: scenarios; current relationships; romance; fluff; some PDA; sfw

includes: female reader ft. ken kaneki & nishiki nishio {tokyo ghoul} + yuuma isogai & itona horibe {assclass}

— KEN (ft. singing)

Your closest friends invited you to a popular karaoke bar on one Friday night to celebrate a successfully passed semester in college. Of course, you couldn’t forget about your lovely boyfriend, who was at the same university, but in a different field (i.e. Japanese literature) and always supported you with all his might, knowing how much you want to do your dream job in the future.

So you went to the meeting together, and on the way to the designated place you talked all the time about what the next year of study would bring you. As soon as you reached the room where your three closest besties and one male friend were waiting for you, you both greeted them warmly, immediately taking off your thick coats and taking your seats on a soft, leather couch next to a table filled with tasty-looking snacks and colorful drinks.

Long minutes of conversations between the six of you resulted in drunk plenty of alcohol and blushes on the faces. After drinking, you always got more talkative and more self-confident, so you suggested using the TV and the karaoke machine. Of course, you first offered your friends and Ken to sing something, but they all declined, saying that you should start as an initiator. One of the girls, blonde-haired Minami, smiled at you with a sparkle in her pretty golden eyes, adding that you are the best in this and you should show how to do it correctly. You chuckled in response, waving your hand at her to dismiss compliment.

Kaneki, on the other hand, frowned as he looked at the boy who was sitting on his right.

“... Oh, you don’t know? Y/N-san hasn’t yet praised herself to you that she has a wonderful voice? Huh, huh.” The black-haired boy shook his head, reaching for the glass filled with blue something again. “Hmmm, well. Normally Y/N’s very shy, but she always sings at trips when she’s drunk.” He chuckled while you picked one of your favorite songs in the meantime. So everyone looked at your standing figure, then heard the characteristic sounds from one of Selena Gomez’s songs coming from the gray speakers.

“My dear, I dedicate it to you~!” You looked with joy on your face towards the eighteen-year-old, giving him a quick wink, and then you started your little performance with ‘Love you like a love song’ from the above-mentioned artist.

Your friends didn’t seem surprised and instead started clapping to the beat of the music... but Ken’s eyes widened and he spat out his high-percentage drink, not knowing how to react to the fact that for nine, long months of your relationship, you concealed the fact that you could sing so well and so beautifully. Your voice was perfect for the song that was playing now, and you seemed to be having a great time – there was a huge smile on your lips, your eyelids were slightly closed and your hand was over your heart. If it weren’t for the fact that you were at a karaoke bar, everyone would definitely think you are playing a concert on the biggest stage in Tokyo city.

After the song was over, another girl got up to present a completely different choice, and you handed her the dark microphone, bowing in the process.

Kaneki still seemed speechless and as soon as you sat down next to him, he immediately kissed you on the warm forehead, asking you to sing more to him, especially when you two are going to be alone, because he probably fell in love with you once again and just wanted to experience that love every day thereafter.

— NISHIKI (ft. ballet)

Nishiki, as a pharmacy student, didn’t have much time for extra-curricular activities or unnecessary meetings; in addition, the fact that he was a bloodthirsty ghoul and had to watch over himself made it difficult for him to function normally in the life of Kamii University. However, the brown-haired man always found time for you, for his beloved girlfriend.

You had been dating for over three, long years, and the man definitely couldn’t imagine his own life without you by his side. You knew each other better than anyone else in this world, but sometimes some tiny things of your ordinary day eluded Nishio; of course you understood it perfectly and you weren’t angry or disappointed with him. After all, he had to protect himself, you, take care of his specific menu, be vigilant at every step, and additionally he had to pretend to be the perfect student, senpai (or kouhai) and friend of other people.

So you weren’t surprised when one day you handed him a silverish ticket for probably the most important show of your life and he just looked at you in wonderment. At the beginning, the twenty-year-old asked if it was a performance related to singing or playing an instrument due to the fact that the colorful paper didn’t tell him too much, but you just smirked as you tweaked the unruly, soft hair on his head.

“Hmm. If you don’t remember what I do in my free time, it’s even better, I guess. Come and see it for yourself, honey. I think that thanks to this you will even calm down a little and rest due to the recent weeks.” You announced in a light tone of voice, and the young man sighed under his breath.

“So... I’ll find out in three days, am I right?” He made sure by correcting his glasses and you nodded, then grabbing his rough hand and kissing his cool cheek. A short while later you suggested going to your apartment and catching up on a few episodes of your favorite series that you started quite recently.

The anticipation of your important day passed very quickly and on Saturday, at 6 p.m., when everyone took their seats (with your boyfriend sitting on one of the balconies with the best view of the stage), delicate music was played in the theater, which made everyone shiver on the whole body. Until then, the brown-eyed boy somewhere in the back of his head had the impression that it was a theater performance or an opera, but when he saw your person appear on stage in a beautifully tailored dress and ballet shoes, all the questions that flickered in his mind disappeared in literally one second.

‘Well, yeah. I remember now. She always told me about ballet classes and new shoes.’ A huge, proud smirk came on his pale face and you glanced out of the corner of your eye towards his VIP seat.

Though your expression was cold and composed, you felt an enormous heat in your small heart as the man waved at you, showing two thumbs up. His lips moved even slightly, and although Nishiki tried to hide it, you knew perfectly well that the pink blush and mute ‘I love you’ was sincere and even better than being able to play Odetta, the White Swan, in a ballet spectacle.

— YUUMA (ft. songwriting and guitar playing)

Christmas at school was never what you enjoyed; maybe due to the fact that before, your classmates on main campus were quite specific and you definitely didn’t fit with their strange ‘ideals’. It was only in the class E that you felt that you could find real friends or people who would share your ideas.

But, hmm. Still, you seemed to stand out from the rest of the girls in the class who had more... down-to-earth hobbies or characters than you; Okuda liked chemistry and was really excellent at it, Kirara loved reading, Rio was the best at English and had a great sense of fashion, and Toka was pretty good at cooking. Contrary to them, you preferred to... do more ‘intimate’ things. Writing short poems filled your heart with peace and prevented you from being as critical of yourself as usual. And when you wrote the lyrics of the songs, made notes or melodies to them and sang quietly, you could feel like a real artist that everyone wanted to admire and imitate.

Therefore, when your first and last class holidays with the rest of the 3-E students were fast approaching, Koro-sensei was the one who asked you for a short talk. You weren’t sure what this was about, but moments later your uncertainties were dispelled.

“Y/N-san, I think you mistook your notebooks today and instead of giving me your homework, you gave to me... this.” He said in his as always happy voice, and seeing the black notebook in which you always wrote songs and notes, you blushed all over your face, apologizing profusely for the mistake. “Huh? But this is no mistake, my dear. If it weren’t for this, I would never even think that we have such a talented soul in Class 3-E. So would you like to perform in front of the rest of the students and teachers during the holidays?” The easy question made you widen your eyes and sighed.

“I-I’ve never played in front of anyone, so...” You admitted shyly, and the tall, yellow octopus just chuckled.

“I’m pretty sure they will love it. We can practice together.”

Well, you couldn’t refuse (especially when Koro-sensei offered to bring your favorite, foreign snacks...) and on class Christmas day you showed up with your acoustic guitar and a notebook full of chords and songs. Everyone was surprised and curious at how well you play guitar. After all, you’ve never even mentioned that you can play any instrument before. On the other hand, the class representative, and your boyfriend at the same time, immediately came up to you, asking if you were really okay; better than anyone else, Isogai knew that you didn’t like too much attention and big crowds. But you reassured him it was okay and promised your teacher you would do it, so you smiled at him and then took your seat under the blackboard with a wooden guitar on your lap.

The song you chose for the day was a song you wrote quite recently. It had a little bit of magic, and at the same moment it seemed very romantic and delicate. Even Karma seemed delighted with your beautiful play and soft voice that echoed from time to time between the walls of huge classroom.

At the end of the song, you decided to raise your gaze and simultaneously look at your all friends, three teachers and other half; everyone was really happy and positively speechless. So you gave Yuuma a slight wink, making him blush sweetly.

The young teenager definitely hoped you would show him more of your songs someday, not necessarily the happy Christmas carols Kaede and Ritsu asked for.

— ITONA (ft. dancing)

“... You never mentioned that you can dance.” He admitted softly, and you squeezed his smooth hand tighter.

“So... I mention it right now. It’s not a big deal, baby. I just ... like it and enjoy it a lot.” You giggled as you correcting the black sports bag over your shoulder, then opened the heavy door to the training room, immediately jumping up at the sound of loud squeals and greetings from your closest friends. “Guys, this is Itona Horibe, my boyfriend that I told to you before! Love, it’s Aki-chan, Yui-chan, Kazuya-kun, Saburo-kun, and our cameraman and editor Ryuu senpai. Most often, the five of us cooperate with each other when it comes to dance in groups of five people. And... today we are going to cover a song so I hope you’ll like it. I’ll go change and you all, please, don’t scare my boyfriend and give him something to drink!”

As a group leader, you often came up with choreographies and warm-ups for yourself and others. So, it couldn’t be otherwise this time. For the last week and a half you have been practicing the choreo you came up with and today you were supposed to record material for the video on your quite popular YouTube account. You were extremely excited, not only with the new content, but most of all with the fact that your beloved one would be able to watch it live and evaluate your skills that have been refined over the years. So as soon as you got back to the teens waiting for you, you kissed the light-blue-haired quickly on the right cheek and told him that he could sit against the wall, close to the table full of snacks and the contact for charging the phone.

Then you talked with everyone for a while, doing a short warm-up and reminding the cameraman about how to move the cam. A few short minutes later, you lined up in the middle of a huge white room with Ryuu in front of you. You knelt down in the center, of course, gently moving your shoulders to calm your rapidly pounding heart and heavy breathing, and when a song by Ariana Grande started playing all over the bright room, you all looked at the already activated camera, shaking your heads and then you got up from the wooden floor.

Itona... was speechless. He has never seen people dancing before, he has never even been interested in others, only you and what you like. Today he got to know your little passion, which turned out to be a breathtaking talent, and the boy wondered if you could do anything else; are you good at one specific dance genre or are you able to move your body in a completely different rhythm than he currently saw?

From Koro-sensei’s history lessons, when you two were in junior high, the eighteen-year-old remembered perfectly well that there is also classical dance, tango and breakdance. So could you also do that? He had to ask you about it later.

But now his curious gaze was focused on you and your huge, radiant smile, and the sound of feet hitting the ground. He also looked at your legs, tiny hands, stomach, and hair, while he wondered if he might learn to dance too, to be even closer to you and your hobby. After all, you looked so beautiful and so joyful... He wanted to share these emotions.

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