#just started playing it and im living

[oyster-mash]

Majimama

#my art #majima goro #yakuza 0 #yakuza #man..this game #just started playing it and im living #it helped me get out of this art block #its been 3 months since i picked up a pen and it shows #im at chap 9 rn #I literally know nothing about whats going to happen later on in the game #and its awesome #okay going back at it see ya soon

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)

#my ârt #crush depth #crush depth spoilers #fnaf #tw blood #tw drowning #idk how many others apply #anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you #first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too #im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard #I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more #just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it #I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap #the THOUGHTS #poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly #the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point #they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live #naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done. #this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way #and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen #god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in #yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just #I am EXPLODING the more I think about it #thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again #wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive #asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air #I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor #ough. #I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing #this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.

[midoristeashop]

A scene that will never exist pt 3

hi so this is kind of a vent and also a therapy piece for me, I have too many emotions atm

But anyway them always them

#ceilings by lizzy mcalpine started playing and I started bawling my eyes out thinking of them #im ok i swear #hijack #jackycup #frostcup #they are my mental state #all over the place #I live laugh loved for the lighting #during that 300 year span jack would sit by the waves just to feel the breeze

[puppyeared]

the shyest creature on earth dreams of art streaming

#i know it sounds like im giving every reason why i SHOULDNT do it but i really wanna learn how to someday #i dont really have the space or privacy for it rn though since i live at home with 3 other ppl plus i have school to focus on ugh #ive been able to stream my art in discord calls but i havent done it in so long and the atmosphere is a little different #not bad different though. its fun to draw ppls conversations out and make shitposts. and i like any kind of attention heh #i also use procreate so its hard to stream frm my ipad but im looking into a lighting adapter to HDMI cable to project on my monitor #part of my urge to start a twitch might also be because i wanna learn how to make and rig a little avatar and use cute frames #and id love to play some ambience music while i draw and just. idk. listen to ppl talk..? but im lacking in audience engagement #since i suck at responding and public speaking and prefer to do things quietly. i just like being observed like im on national geographic #yapping #doodles #sona #puppysona #my art #myart

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Ask and you shall receive (a sneak peak of what's to come)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #homestuck #I genuinely do have troll designs for the major characters of mdzs adn thoughts pertaining to their hemospectrum #I honestly thought ppl would start throwing holy salt at me at the mention of homestuck but the enthusiasm is super motivating! #With that said; Thank you all so much for the support with the hollow knight crossover #Even people who have never heard of hollow knight have been so kind (go buy and play hollow knight; the aesthetic and story are amazing) #More bug doodles and comic are ahead! I'll try and space them out between comic updates. #More thoughts will come later but for now...allow me to leave you with this: #Non-homestucks may see the blue and red and go 'aw blue-red ship how cute' while those who know might realize exactly what im putting down #namely that this version of wwx is *very* interested and persistent about getting lwj to spend time with him. #Lwj lives in a very insular indigo colony and isn't fully aware of the differences in life span between hemocasts (yet). #But wwx is. So he's driven to live life to the fullest! This would also drive him to be way more self-sacrificing. #Since his life is so small compared to everyone else he loves anyways. That purple isn't just aesthetic either.

[transphilza]

support group for people who joined the dsmp fandom after april of 2021 because the only major server event (that wasn’t an Ending) that we got to experience with the community was the fucking prison break

#‘remember when wilbur started his stream on nov16 and tick tick boom was playing and it was like-‘ NO!!!!! IM SORRY!!!!! IM A FRAUD!!!!!!!!! #im SUPER greatful i got to see Almost all of the revivebur streams live though. like seriously ❤️❤️ #and a few las nevadas ones. like we’ve had great stuff dont get me wrong #but man i do really wish id gotten to see stuff like lmanberg and nov16 and doomsday and all that live #its pain bc i LITERALLY WATCHED SO MANY OF THE CCS ALREADY AT THAT PT #id watched s.mp live so i knew Everyone from there And i watched drm since his first few videos #i just Didnt Have The Time to watch :( #also on a more serious level i didnt get to see that much of technos lore live because he was diagnosed not long after i made this blog #its just. yeahh. it doesnt make me seriously upset cause you cant change the past like it doesnt matter #but i do think about it wistfully

[basu-shokikita]

the duel is just visual representation of what happens when two soulmates find each other

#rambling #it wasnt just #'hey i like your music lets team up' #it was liek 'you are so magical that im in a whole new world with you' #'and i want you to stay with me because ive never experienced this with anyone else' #and their lives are changed forever because of their meeting #and it was 100% skwisgaars choice and not the rest of the bands cuz they were ready to let toki go #it was skwisgaar knowing #dare i say that it might have been actually more magical for skwisgaar than it was for toki #cuz toki was young #he was just getting started. he couldve been impressed with someone else probably #skwisgaar had played with so many people. not a single one making him feel anything #but toki oh boy toki did. toki changed the game #toki made him change his mind #do you know how hard it is to change the mind of a narcissist know it all? #yeah. #toki enchanted skwisgaar #skwistok

[weirdprophetess]

florence making the Dance Fever Live at Madison Garden vinyl was targeted so personally at me i swear

#no because the GRIP Big God live has on me is unreasonable #miss welch please i was already obsessed with this song but the live version hasn't left my top 50 on spotify since it dropped #i am playing it on loop as i make this post just bites my own bones bites my own bones bit- #im going to start actually foaming at the mouth when it arrives #i will play it like i breathe air #florence and the machine #florence + the machine #fatm #f+tm #florence welch #dance fever #my post

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

bsd fandom has been SLEEPING on the crazy potential of the government spies. this is unacceptable I will tolerate it no longer.

think about it: the pm was definitely not tachi's first mission as a hunting dog?? (the southern hemisphere doesn't exist in bsd but) if I tell you fukuchi sent him on a mission to south america and his cover was a tango dancer YOU CANNOT TELL ME IM WRONG HE CAN BUST OUT THE MOVES I STG IM NOT DELUSIONAL

ango was investigating some powerful ability user and was sent undercover as a housekeeper in that dude's house. hence, all drawings of ango in a maid outfit are canon, he told me himself actually.

I know 100% rimbaud has a bunch of tattoos under his coat because he was trying to infiltrate some biker gang at some point in his career. he's probably incredibly ripped under his layers of year-round seasonal depression and jackets. don't try to argue with me.

#tango tachi has been living in my head for the past week and I can no longer function as a human being #IMAGINE THOSE HIPS #i'm going insane #alt: belly dancer tachi #I've never seen a male belly dancer irl but but #consider it #CONSIDER IT #he's sent to the middle east to investigate smth and he's got the coins on the hips the wrists the ankles #شيك شاك شوك starts playing #(as a foreigner he'd just look so out of place but shush) #rimbaud has to shave his head due to said biker gang #he's actually just been wearing a wig of his own hair this entire time #rimbaud with a buzz cut?????? #and a super heavy french accent while riding harleys in the highways of america yeehaw #bsd spy potential is INSANE #im gonna make this a series i stg #(it's gonna be tachi-centric but who tf cares) #tachi michi spy adventures #trademarking that #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd tachihara #tachihara bsd #ango bsd #bsd ango #rimbaud bsd #bsd rimbaud #bsd hcs #bsd headcanons

[kkoct-ik]

being disabled is great because i do 1 thing per day and thats accomplishment

#kostik speaks #1 thing #sometimes that 1 thing is play a video game #i have. a 2k word essay due in like a week ive not started #heres to hoping my 1 thing can be that sometime soon #heres to hoping #. #anyway #dont read into my tone too much im just stating words #i am lucky to be in a situation where im not being relentlessly burned out and have the space to live at this pace #so yaay #life is ok. life is nice

[fooltofancy]

important to understand that my approach to oc design and characterization depends explicitly on how i'm playing that specific game, like. a thing you should know about ilya is that he is the kind of person who will dive into the middle of a large pull ahead of the tank and pop all of his mitigation while screaming because i get distracted and do that. constantly.

... it's the siren's call of the big aoe damage noises, ok.

#mostly im thinking about these things because they're the easy things to think about #i am. very. very. bad. at like deeplore dives lmao #so bad!!!!!!! i'm here for the emotional complexity do Not ask me where this man lives i don't know #... i do know. #once it starts branching out into history and family lore and godforbid fucking cultural lore i am just #so dumb. i'm so dumb i was not designed for worldbuilding even if it's just the world of one weird little guy #v invested in other people's sandboxes because mine is very small and it's also just full of rocks. #anyway. #my partner: BABY MOOOOOOOOODE #me: it's okay my heal is up it'll be FINE #also increasingly play casters like melee dps so everybody gets to suffer that as well #ilya standing directly under a very large guy in his stupid leylines like MANAWARD'S UP IT'S FINE #.... i dont play blm as much now honestly because to contribute i have to be less stupid. and that's not fun. #i really. REALLY enjoy the big melee dps damage noises #they're across the board better than caster noises. so disappointing because in my heart i am On Fire #sam+pal noises are the best noises in the game #SPINNING #i'm thinking too hard about backstories and it's not going well lmao #grabbing this creature by the shoulders and shaking him violently like WHO ARE YOOOOOOOU #concussed probably his brain is just sloshing around in there #babg mode blogging #this is also why he's canonically A Guy Who Touches Things He Shouldn't #because i'm that guy. #i'm the guy who touches things. #this explains sehren also like she would not be who she is if i didnt play dragona age with wild hubris and abandon #.... it wasnt fun unless i was wildly underleveled in places i didnt belong ok #every if mc ive gotten invested in also

[sonknuxadow]

please for the love of god tell me im not the only one who doesnt want keanu reeves shadow everywhere i go people are saying it but i dont get it at all and it feels like people are just saying it because hes played "edgy" characters or whatever and they think that that alone means he would be good for shadow

#or theyre just saying it because of the jokes about sonic liking keanu reeves #i dont really like the idea of a main characters voice actor being a certain person just for the sake of continuing a joke. tbh. #also it kinda bugs me that like 95 percent of the suggestions for who should play animated characters in the sonic movies #arent voice actors but like . celebrities who mostly or exclusively do live action stuff #like im fine with people with less voice acting experience being cast as long as they care about getting the character right #and are a good fit for the role etc etc #i dont think blocking off voice acting roles to anyone who doesnt have a certain amount of experience is the solution #because everyone has to start somewhere and sometimes a mostly live action actor really IS a good fit for a voice acting role #but i would greatly prefer actual voice actors be given these roles. tbh. #i really do not like the trend in animated movies or live action movies with animated characters #of the entire cast being made up of random celebrities just being handed voice acting roles that they dont really fit #just so there can be big names attached to the project. like the mario movie for example #like if it does end up being keanu i will accept it i will give him a chance. but idk if i will like it.

[yeah-this-is-my-username]

So happy for everyone who gets to see lovejoy live in the next few months. So happy for the British people. So happy.

#SLASH JAY !!!!!!! #im actually really excited for lovejoy to start playing live :D i know that if anything ill be getting clips and stuff !!!!!!! #lovejoy #tw blood #<- just in case

[roaringheat]

155 hours into rdr2 and I just found out you can break down small birds in your inventory for feathers

#vark posts #IM SO BAD AT HUNTING.... #i wanted to get Arthur a fancy hat accessory and was like 'why tf arent these pigeons giving me feathers' #i literally have been wanting to get this accessory since i saw it when i first started playing #and ur telling me i just needed to break the fuckin birds down #ive literally been sitting at this damn bridge for an hour sniping birds #riveting gameplay #v live blogging #rdr2