#listen i'm NOT going to pretend like i dont have any friends bc i DO and i know that and i love them etc

[chinomiko]

hi! i know it must be kinga boring for you recive questions about castiel bc ppl are obsessed ober him for years but like the other person who asked you a few days ago, i follow you (and ply mcl) for like 10 years and ever since day one my fav boy has been tiel. till this day at the age of 22 he's my favorite and my comfort boy so i joke that he's not a fictional character anymore for me and that i know him personally at this point lol

with that being said, i bet you can imagine that over the years i've been elaborating his personality beyond what the game gives us but he's your boy, you created him therefore you know him and your word is canon, so i'd like to ask a few stuff!! nothing too big, dont worry but here we go.

tiel is an amazing songwriter and since he's very emotional not very good at express it (he does it a lot better now that he's an adult 🥹) i bet his lyricism is very deep and poetic so i have this headcanon that he at first wouldn't like taylor swift because obviously lol but then he payed attention to her lyrics and ends up basically being a swiftie since he likes her writing a lot. what you think about that?

and what kind of music crowstorm sings? like there are any bands that you listen and think "hey this would be in a crowstorm album!" (i have a playlist with this name btw lol). im probably wrong on this one but since this is my fav band i like to think that catfish and the bottlemen are the irl crowstorm, musically speaking

and the last one: another thing that gives me so much comfort is the lystiel friendship. not having present parents, being so closed off i know that lysander is such an important presence on tiel's life because he was basically the only close person he had (specially after the debrah fiasco); if lys didnt had taken the farm and went to college and bla bla bla do you think he would still be part of the band with castiel? im not sure if im mixing the canon with a fanfic i read a while ago (lol) but the band was more of a fun thing to lys, right? he liked writing most (i always imagined him getting into a literature degree or something like this). i also like to think that he helps tiel with lyrics at times, even if he's out of the band (in my head the canon is that they are best friends and pretty close till this day, i pretend lys never left our lives just like armin)

anyways sorry for this big ask 😭 i dont even know if you will read it all but if you do, thank you! and dont feel like you have to answer, i know its too much its just that mcl is my hyperfixation till this day like for real, i have a fanfic that i write still and i even plan on making it into a book sometime. except from the main characters (who is my oc) all the characters will be based on the game's ones :)

ilysm take care and stay hydrated!!

Hellow !

Aww thank you so much and for all your love for Castiel ^^

What a long ask, I'll try to answer in order.

Castiel being a swiftie. No sorry, I don't think he would be. If candy likes her, I'm pretty sure he would try to listen. Also he is an open minded person for sure, so I'm sure he would be curious to listen and study what all the hype is about, it could also help as some sort of far away inspiration, but I don't see him being a fan.

What kind of songs Crowstorm sings This is hard to answer because my musical knowledge is pretty limited and I'm sure I would miss on lot of potential groups or singers that would fit well. And it would require too much research time to have a real detailed and clear answer, but I still did check a bit and here is a little list of songs/groups that I think would have a fitting vibe for Crowstorm

City of the dead - Hollywood Undead The worst in me - bad omens Paranoid - I prevail Trauma Just pretend - Bad omens Ice Nine Kills - A grave mistake Catfish and the bottlemen sounds nice but I think its a bit too soft for what I imagine for Crowstorm.

What is his voice like I think something similar to this (not necessarily the song itself, just the voice. )

bonus, I think this song is so so fitting for Castiel's breakup song, I love it. Dial Tone - Catch your breath

Castiel and Lys friendship. It was'nt mentionned much in UL/LL because I didnt wish to bring too much drama by mentioning Lys when he was not there for the players, but of course Lys and Cast always kept in touch. It is very clearly mentionned in Lys' AL that they keep in touch, that Lys helps Castiel write songs and Cast also like to come to his farm to have a break and spend time together. You should play it if you havent, you'll have a good chunk of Cast and Lys friendship :) However yeah I can confirm that Lys would not like to do it serisouly and professionally, but he'll be all the way around to support and help Cast.

#chinomiko #my candy love #otome game #castiel #original character #canon lore #mcl

[lovebvni]

Hi there! My name is Jasmine, Im 21, and I go by she/they

I am into non dualism and shifting. And I'm looking to dream up a large windfall of money to care for friends and family and ofc have fun. Im wondering how close I am, the extent of the windfall, and any tweaking I may need to do

Thank you so much 🤍🤍 sending my best !

hiii jasmine!

i was actually js doing my grandmothers nails and pretended to be a nail tech named jasmine!! :D idk js a silly little thing i did!!

im actually really happy u care for other people and u want to help them!!! it is so sweet!! i love ppl w pure hearts! i hope everyone can take a page out of ur book and apply it to their life :)

ok! now onto your intuition reading :)

the advice spirit is giving me is “ground yourself; find your center and allow that energy to radiate around you.”

i feel like they r saying meditate in a way. kinda find out why you’re doing it, and prove to yourself it’s a good cause i say price to urself bc the universe is always with you, willing to give u any and everything u ask.

i heard the word “affirmations”, so maybe affirm more? maybe subliminals if u havent tried them before?

gonna do a little shufflemancy for u since i don’t have cards w me!!

(I DONT LIKE THIS SONG OMG WHY DOES IT SOUND LIKE THAT)

this song came up; i suggest u listen to it on ur own, but the line that stood out to me was “misinterpret then you react”. maybe you’re taking signs you’re seeing in the wrong way? perhaps you get some money on the street then you take it as a sign to play the lottery??

you need to look at things with a new perspective ( a barbie song came on)

when this song plays in the movie, barbie is expecting the “real world” to be just like hers — but it isn’t — and she had to adjust and change to see it how it is instead of how she expected it to be.

she eventually gets back, but with a new mindset amd she loves it!

does it make her uncomfortable? yeah. does she embrace it anyways? OF FUCKING COURSE!!

i feel like that’s what their message here is. change your perspective, and see things differently so you come out different.

that’s all i have for u jasmine!! :D

i hope this reading is accurate and it helps u — for real! will b sending positive energy n thoughts!

feel free to leave a review! :D

love uuu!! bye bye

#abyss .answers #manifesation #law of manifestation #manifest #manifestation #shiftblr #reality shifting #shifting #reality shift #desired reality #black shifters #shifting community #shifting motivation #shifting realities

[lfcrobbo]

worst part abt being a student is people constantly LEAVING to do OTHER THINGS

#:( #going to feel sorry for myself for just a couple of minutes and then get over myself so bear with me: #listen i'm NOT going to pretend like i dont have any friends bc i DO and i know that and i love them etc #but it also CONSTANTLY feels like. whenever i make new friends (like ACTUAL friends like Hey! You're my Friend! friends and not just #acquaintances) #it's always someone that SUDDENLY gets into school somewhere else or gets a job and LEAVES and i'm like. oh okay! bye then! #and like we're still FRIENDS but we're now just. friends who see each other maybe twice a year #and of course seeing them at all is LOVELY but sometimes it does feel like. all my friends are friends that i just see twice a year...... #like several of my friends have told me 'oh i appreciate your friendship so much bc it's so easy and natural even if it's been ages since #we've talked'' #and like YEAH that's nice but!!! not when EVERYONE says that???? #i dont know i dont KNOWWWW i'm just. emo rn? it's been a weird day anyways and literally JUST found out #that one of my friends (that i only really became friends with this year) is leaving town on SUNDAY? so yeah. uh. idk #idk it. triggered something i guess #:) im FINE im just. yeah #marth.txt

[saintobio]

Utahime really just fucked up her wonderful and loving and close friendship with yn for a guy she wasn’t sure would really dedicate himself and is your best fucking friend’s ex. Not ex bf, EX Fucking HUSBAND!!!!!! Bitch satoru obviously hasn’t moved on like tf? he asked yn to take him back sis but that is not the point? Howwww in the hell did you think apologies would somehow mend your friendship with yn!? she is your best friend, your boss, your go to. Now you lost her and you can’t be sure satoru will stay. I just- AAAAA

Anonymous said

OMFG Utahime actually did it 😭 Satoru and utahime actually did it! I may sound mean but that relationship was made to end bad. You cannot expect to fuck your best friend’s bf or fuck your ex’s best friend and think you will have a happy ever after story. No it just doesn’t work that way 💀💀 I feel so bad for Y/N. It is as if the whole world is against her omg

Anonymous said

hi saint i really liked this chapter! i know this is a bit dumb but i couldnt take my mind off a phobia i have & u just dropped the chapter and now im completely distracted about it 😭 about the whole thing w utahime i actually think its wrong and dont blame y/n bc utahime knows practically everything like idk i find it weird dating ur friends ex bc you know stuff you know details of that relationship and yea... also the gasp i let out when gojo & hime were sorting things out 😶 and lastly i always promise myself to wait until all chapters are released to binge read everything one night but I can't 😩 i really really love your work hope you have a good day 💓💓💓

Anonymous said

It's sad it's utahime because throughout sn yn had didn't have a friend on her side. Toji and her family are a romance and family. She didn't have a friend of her own she can lean and not to invalidate shoko but she's still satoru's friend. I'm talking about someone she can call her own.

Gojo always hurts her in the end :/

And if utahime actually thinks without the alcohol or hormones she should know all the trouble she'll have getting caught in this mess.

Anonymous said

utahime is a snake frfr. like just imagining how much yn must have told her about her previous relationship with gojo and how much she suffered mentally and probably felt like gojo never loved her and to see her turn around and “fall” for him?? like wtf? yn believed she was the one person free of judgement who could help her navigate the situation and listen to her feelings without judgement and instead it feels like she took heavy advantage of the knowledge she had from yn (and yn’s complicated emotions about him) as well as gojo’s lingering feelings yet desire to be happy himself to insinuate herself in his life. idk what kind of “friend” could do some shady shit like that. and then going up to yn crying??? (like cassie’s bitch ass) she knew what she did was wrong or she wouldn’t have felt so guilty so she genuinely sucks as a friend. she doesn’t deserve yn’s grace or friendship and i hope yn renounces her as a friend or something. (team shoko ftw) she a fucking snake and i don’t trust that kind of behavior. i would never do that shit to my friends and if my friends ever did that to me, we’d be throwing hands. (of course not canon utahime cause that woman could step on me and i’d say thank you😔) but i loved this chapter and we love and appreciate you and the time you make to update and answer asks. i hope things go well for you at work and w office dude!!!❤️❤️

Anonymous said

idc what anyone says f*ucking or flirting in ANY way with your bestfriend's husband/boyfriend is sooooo wrong. utahime was wrong for that big time. sure, satoru was a bit wrong for that but the fact that we told utahime EVERY single thing... how we felt about satoru.....

OH THIS BITCH NEEDS TO BE PUT DOWN

as for yn, i understand she was heartbroken but lets not pretend she was sad because it was JUST her best friend, even if it were anybody else she still wouldve been deastated. that just happens just admit that you still love him and go GAWDAYM.

utahime, listen to me… this isn’t you. this isn’t you, okay? 😭 you are not cassie. lmao kidding aside, i don’t think she’s a “snake” per se. gojo and yn are not married, so technically, she didn’t steal him from her. it’s more so the fact that it feels morally wrong that she’s seeing her ex-husband.

#🖤: letters to saint #series: sincerely yours

[berenshand]

I'm looking to become an english teacher too and I was curious what your path was or if you had any advice? You don't have to answer this if you dont want to, thank you much!

?????? this is such an exciting message to get??? i could write advice for days. i think you mean education-path-advice, but I was all ready to type out teacher advice lmao. (that’s another post i guess).

Advice on Becoming a Teacher from Someone Who Had No Intention of Becoming a Teacher:

1) If you have a feeling about something, go for it, even if you’re scared. It might not work, but you will always regret not trying.

2) Listen to the people who know you really well. This doesn’t mean you should always take their advice, but always listen.

3) Find someone to vent/complain to and tell them everything bc you will need to get it out. Alternatively, journal that shit.

4) Some days you will hate being a teacher bc some days it feels like end of Doctor Strange when he gets horribly murdered 487 times and keeps coming back for more. Keep coming back for more bc the good days make the bad days worth it.

5) It’s okay if you don’t feel like you love all your kids. Bc some of them will be racist or bring knives to school. The important thing is to treat them the way you want them to treat people, which is to say don’t let them get away with a damn thing. In the end, I think that’s more like love than letting them do whatever they want or pretending to have a warm fuzzy feeling that isn’t really there.

6) University is hard, and teaching is harder. In spite of this, teaching is far more fun than university. Contemplate dropping out as much as you like, but don’t actually do it. It will be worth it one day.

7) Choose one day a week where you do no school stuff. Try to make it the same day every week.

8) Apologize for talking about school and your kids constantly but don’t stop talking about them constantly.

9) Talk to the people in your Education program. You may not become best friends but its free commiseration therapy for both parties and someday you may end up teaching at the same school so you’ll have a pre-made co-worker buddy which is the best thing ever if you’re new, bc you’ll have someone to ask the dumb questions that you’re intimidated to ask the seasoned teachers and you can figure stuff out together. Alternatively, befriend the other new teachers at your school (or the new-est teacher).

10) You’re supposed to want every kid to succeed, but sometimes (especially if you teach higher grades) there will be kids who fail your class or a test or a project and they will deserve it. Do not waste time feeling bad about it.

11) Check your drafts often in case you forgot to send a really important reply that’s time sensitive.

12) It’s hard to think about anything other than Education when you’re in Education. It’s hard to think about anything other than teaching when you’re a teacher. Make an effort with your non-teacher friends anyway. You need a different perspective sometimes.

13) Remember that someday you will get a full night’s rest again. Not everyday, but some days. More days than you might think, even.

#teacher tag #this is a novel im so sorry #Anonymous

[lyssaloveesmagick]

Tbh I'm so stressed

I see the test

I see what I'm supposed to do

But it seems like I can find things that I'm "supposed to do" on every path

Times moving fast

Wish I could go back & just not make any mistakes

But I can't.

Moving forward isnt as easy when you didn't really want to leave in the first place.

My feelings are misplaced

Im disconnected

Had something good and then I went and fuckin wrecked it

Time and time again

Gotta lose you completely cause we can't just be friends

Don't blame you if you hate me

Cause I hate myself more in the end

I wish I could change the past

Woulda never let you go,

woulda done it better,

wouldnt have to hide behind this mask

You can't see the real me

We dont know who the fuck she is

You say you love me

I say, you cant .

I'm healing & it's just bizz.

The foundation is weak

Its crumbling

No respect for my boundaries, no effort to get to know me

I'm convinced you're just using me cause you're lonely.

Youre pushing and pushing on nothing you can even feel

But you're so fuckin convinced that your feelings are real

Go off then baby

Tell me how it is

Tell me how you love me, you'll never never me & you want me to have your kids.

You don't even know my middle name, boy sit down and shut up.

Its called codependency

We're obviously not smiling yet you pretend like we're happy

You don't even try to simulate my mind

You make small talk and crack jokes and listen to me whine

But you don't ask real questions, or inspire me to learn, you don't share your thoughts unless I pry or when it's your "turn"

I don't want to raise you.

I don't want to try.

I don't want to hold your hand as you learn not to be shy.

And no, it's not your fault, but it's not any more mine.

And I did my work, I taught myself & I had no help, just me & the Divine.

I'm sad, cause I can't say this to you - it's rude and would hurt.

And feeling this way leaves me feeling like dirt.

I want to be nice, loving, kind, soft and gentle.

But God had other plans for me when he made me fucking mental 😭

I'm supposed to trust myself, I'm supposed to love myself & I'm supposed to learn to love others too.

After all everything in me is what I see in you.

I'm overwhelmed bc the lessons don't always add up - its like things I unlearn I re learn and then theyre still wrong somehow.

Or maybe I'm not applying myself & its all just me in my head.

My walls are up so high, I can't see over them & sometimes wish i was just fuckin dead....

But those thoughts subside & I see my desire clearly.

All I really want at night is a lover in my bed, the same lover yearly.

But I'm ok by myself.

Its easier that way.

I'll keep trying to get better, accepting that I lost this round when I chose to walk away...

You deserve better anyway.

#mine #poetry #break up

[shuaberriez]

i feel bad admitting that this was my first time listening to 'i know i love you' but that and 'lo$er lover' were some of txt's tracks that i really liked! ooh it would be nice to see some txt gifs when i finally follow you hsglhks bc i don't think i see txt pass by my dash a lot? yeah it's tough watching survival shows 😩 but it's always nice to see how the participants improve. the growth is very evident! i've since avoided survival shows tho! self care hislkges - secret carat 🎁 pt. 1

my bias in onewe is kanghyun 🥰 it's honestly bc he's a bookworm who plays guitar and i'm like wow twinning that me hsgeslksi he's also just very chill! LOL OMG yes btob x skz interactions were so funny shilgkes i didn't watch kingdom much, just the perfs on yt but i saw clips and LMAO i love their chemistry. my bias in btob, i can never decide between changsub and minhyuk but each of them has their own charms 😅 - secret carat 🎁 pt. 2

ooh yes! verivery did have an ost for extraordinary you. omg the 00s collabs! they're so powerful 😩👌 and it's ok, honestly u didn't miss out on rtk LOL the yt clips of performances suffice. we're gonna pretend elims didn't happen :') SGILEKS drum and dowoon thing im drum 😩 i love that!! do u have any fave day6 songs? secret carat 🎁 pt. 3

LOL if crack videos dont get u into a group then idk what else will 😩 i watched itzy's mama performance!! they're such great dancers + their stage presence is just 👌 idk why but the vcr at the beginning reminded me of the kdrama my name - and i've always thought ryujin and the actress in that kdrama kinda look alike LOL i really loved their mama performance!! esp during the fighting scenes omg thAT CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD 💛💛💛 really KILLED it hsiglkes - secret carat 🎁 pt. 4

ooh fallin' flower's aesthetics are so nice! i can see why it's fun to colour! ah! love is such a good song 95 line yes ;-; omg jihan song in the top 5 i love that! 247 is such a chill song ;-; and OFC SECOND LIFE HERE WE ARE SAD HOURS 😭 lie again feels like a response to dwc bc of the lyrics 🥺 i love these selection of songs! 🥰 ur brainrot songs omg but ooh jazz/classical! that sounds very fancy but it feels like it suits you!! 💛 omg 24 hour ramen places ur right! - secret carat 🎁 pt. 5

going on a trip with your best friend sounds nice 😌 i hope that comes true one day! have you ever been to japan? hm the member that i think i identify with the most would be wonwoo 👀 we both have very poor eyesight so we're starting off strong LMAO and i like to play video games and read books it helps that we both have the same mbti which is infj (i personally don't think mbti to be a credible/accurate test but it's fun! hbu! who do you identify with the most? - secret carat 🎁 pt. 6 it's about a week away from christmas! :o do you celebrate christmas? and if so, do you have any traditions with family and/or friends? if not, do you still celebrate with friends and family? hope you're doing well and staying warm! 🥰 (if it's cold where you live! shigleks) - secret carat 🎁 pt. 7 (i think i did the math correctly and this should be 7 pts but if i didnt im so sorry shiogelks)

hihiiii i hope you're well!!!

omg!!! don't worry about it!! it's really cool that you've started listening to them hehe <3 tbh they really popped off with their music this year. i think the rock genre really suited them - they did it really well! i know i love you and lo$er lover are quality songs so valid <3 and omg yeah the reveal is coming up soon !! it'll be nice to finally meet you <3 idk if i'll ever get around to giffing for txt but if i have time, i might occasionally !! omg true!! it's nice to see their growth over time but tbh elims just gut me </3 and VALID AHJDKNDSFJN self care is important!!

OHHHH you play guitar :o that's so cool omg!! so do i ^^ do you play any other instruments? and a bookworm!! do you have a particular genre you adore? and do you have any book reccs! tbh i saw most of the interactions on instagram after kingdom but i should get around to watching the performance </3 i only watched a couple bc my cousin had recommended them to me asdsklmds. and VALID SNDSKJN it's always hard to choose a bias </3 very rarely do you stick with one JDdskmdsk </3

AH i thought so!! i remember when i had watched the drama, i was obsessed w the ost for a while <3 yeah omg i watched the psycho cover they did for the first time in forever and i was just in awe yet again. i got hyunjin brainrot for the first time in a while after that </3 elims just make me </3 i'm weak hearted i can't watch those shows bc of them JSDJKFSDN. JSJDFNDSFKJ YEAH i honestly don't know how i'd come across that. i had a day6 phase for a couple of months in high school so i remember watching crack videos jsfdnjdfs. tbh i really loved the moonrise album! the series of songs/mvs - what can i do, i loved you and when you love someone were my favourite <3 what about you?

true <3 crack videos reveal all about a group tbh sfdjnfsdkj. and yes omg!!! i was so shocked at their performance tbh it was so cool. and you're right omg the actress from my name and ryujin do look similar :o i haven't watched the drama bc i was told it was quite violent but i have seen the actress ^^

SFDJNSDFKJN at one point all of the 95 line were my top biases, but cheol got replaced by a certain kwon soonyoung </3 and we don't talk about falling for u - it may or may not be a brainrot song </3 247 is such a quality song omg it gives me kdrama vibes when the main love interests meet each other for the first time and they have that weird eye contact kind of scene? idk. also i think with it playing in the background during boo seungkwan's past life destiny last year w seoksoon it stayed as one of my favourite songs lol. SECOND LIFE ASUJKDSFNSDFJKFSDNKJ i have a really strong attachment to that song omg i think i read something based off that song and i was like crying by the end of it so it's one of my favourites <3 OMG I'VE NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT BEFORE :O you're right!!! asdksdfksdfnkj thank you <3 i can assure you that i'm in no way fancy but i appreciate it :sob:

thank you!! we're going on a road trip together at the start of next year since we can't fly but i'm really excited, none the less <3 i've never been to japan! i hoped to make a joint trip w south korea but covid </3 OOOOOO omg!!!!!!!!! wonwoo :o that's so cool! and you play video games :o which ones omg??? OMG AND A FELLOW INFJ HELLO jsdkjdfsn mbti isn't entirely accurate but it's fun to do ^^ okay i think i identify with seungkwan the most tbh </3 we're both really dramatic and emotional sldkkdsfn even though i'm definitely not extroverted at all, i relate to him sm nshfkjsfd

it's so weird omg!! this year has flown by tbh </3 and yes !! just not in the religious way aksdjj normally we have family over all week and celebrate w a christmas lunch! and my cousins and i do a secret santa thing too <3 what about you? i hope you're staying well and warm!! it's very hot where i live rn since it's summer so i'm trying to stay cool but i hope you're well!

#ask ria! #secret carat 🎁 #dw about the number of asks <333

[woozi]

twt being no.1 on updates, true that <3

not jaebeom speaking abt the mark, hui, btob youngjae fight on youngk's radio show at the time i was typing away abt temper 😭 dhdjdkkdks it's so funny whenever these guys meet someone has to mention abt it and then everyone starts talking. it's like that one story in your friend group you all just can't let go of and some might be like ' how long are you gonna talk abt it?' & next thing you know they're also talking about it at some other time djdjsksk. (but also not him saying he hugged mk to stop him 😔🥺 this was new info to me) i get what you're trying to say hdjdke <33.

oh no alexa pls play you can't sit with us by sunmi. sorry jaebs you are not allowed in our club anymore </3 dhdjdk. RIGHT?? need some silly things to hang on to, to make life interesting jdjdkdkd. naur <///3 i love yugs' smile and laugh sm. i like calling him, chan and seungkwan(even tho sometimes this one makes me want to fight him) ' babu ' (it's a cute term of endearment in my language djjdd idk how to describe it in eng it's something btwn bub and cutie but tbh comparing it to these two makes it a lil bland djdjdk also i feel like sharing this will give away my identity bc i use these a lot in tags 😭😭 also idk if you got the notif but i accidentally liked & then unliked last ask jdjdkd) anyway all 3 of them make me very happy 🥺.

im starting to l*ve u and ur taste too 😿💗. i'll be honest i don't know which bsides have choreo from old albums ( i only know of current ones bc i was there during cbs djdjk 😭) unless someone tells me abt it, i haven't seen it yet but that's what i'm gonna do after sending this. also samee i dont wanna get my hopes up but since jus2 are basically from same agency i am also looking forward to them being in one track in future.

gotsvt chef's kiss 💖. i think ppl just start naming songs they personally dislike, flop these days djjdke. maybe it's just younger ones or just those who listen to title tracks only. there used to be this one song i listened to, of jamie, it was also a feature can't remember name of it, but other than that i haven't listened to her discography much :3. tasteee it's a banger! on the rocks makes me want to miss my non existent s/o djekdkdl. the lyrics </3 the vibe </3. i think drive you home comes close to it for me. after on the rocks that's another one i love with capital L.

dhdjkdjdek that's okay i tend to repeat same phrases too, and trueeeee live performances hit differently.

it's funny how you say i'm keeping up w g7 bc i have no idea where jackson is or what he is doing and until his 2nd bday live i thought mark was in china but then got to know he was in hawaii 😭 i've given up on keeping track what they're doing off stage/irl unless i get update via ig stories through them. keeping up what their releases is still somewhat easy so i'm just doing that. ( i had no idea jaebs was gonna be on eric nam interview but finally today i got the chance to watch it 🥺💚) also!! yes i had didn't know what or how bam's agency is like but everything abt bam's cb i was content with and loved it, i'm impressed.

omg you're chan's age??? i'm a 97 kid :3 and yeah same that's what i thought too, couldn't really find any answer as to why he wasn't :/.

also no worries abt playlist jdjddk i'll slowly start listening to their discography here and there. BUT ALSO i saw there is slchld on the playlist you linked, I LOVE THEIR SONGS OMG. NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE BUT I LOVE LOVE LISTENING TO THEIR SONGS, yerin baek too!! after woozi's cover i started listening to some of her songs <333 also kehlani 💖 i love her voice. thank you for sending in just that too <3

also did you notice seungkwan's ball which got stuck om roof, is still there in same place in 4th ep of in the soop djsjskslsl 😭 i found that so funny for some reason. no one bothered to bring it down.

i hope this week is being kinder to you since last weekend was one rough (else i'm fighting it), stay hydrated <3 yza 💗 goodluck w uni - 🪂

WAIT HE DID????????????? I DIDNT GET TO WATCH THE THING THATS SO FUNNY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

literally how many times have they talked abt this... AND EXACTLY FDJKFJDKFD it's the predebut fight bond for me <3 ok but i can see jaebs hugging mark so he won't beat the living shit out of the other boys that is So Him 😭

YOU LISTEN TO SUNMI... EVERYDAY U GET SEXIER.. WHAT THE HEAL.. it's like that w astrology to me too KJKJDFKJFDKJ i would also fight seungkwan no hesitation tbh it'd end up w me headlocking him im just so sure of it <3 OHHH I THINK IM FAMILIAR W UR NATIVE LANGUAGE THEN??? filo???? im not so sure though fdkjfdjkf and no u don't have to worry abt that i don't check my notifs anymore JKFKJJKDFKJ i just check mentions replies and asks <3 i know i'm missing a lot by doing so but it just takes up too much time for me now :/ and i will pretend to not know even though i have def seen those tags KJFKJDJKFDKJFD

dw i don't know most of them either KJFJKJFDD i just come across things!! i don't even know A Lot of things abt the groups i liked ever since i came back from my kpop hiatus jkfdkjdf i dont feel like i need to know Everything anymore just to like things lol 😭 im hanging on to this frail hope... jus2.. BLEASE....

ik :/ and there's no reasonable.. idk guideline anymore for "successful" songs which is also weird to me.. i think thats bc of streaming and shit :/ JAMIE IS SOOOO GOOOD!! i knew her from her reality competition days and when she eventually debuted in 15&. jype fucking sucks though she could've been v big now :/ the vocal chords on that woman.. incredible. <3 JDSKJDSJ WITH A CAPITAL L!!!! jacks' latest songs are always abt heartache what is he going thru 😭 how did u feel abt LMLY?

i know like.. only 13 words max nowadays so 😭

i think jacks is just always busy so we both cant keep up with him 😭 AND MARK IS IN HAWAII?????????? I THOUGHT HE WAS IN LA WTF 😭 i actually am not keeping up w them as much as i used to i just still have a lot of g7 moots and i follow update blogs so JKFJKDKJFD i still love the boys sm though it's just that im becoming a svtpoppie now 😭😭😭

yes i am <3 he's just a few months older than me!! ALSO WAIT we're the same age as g7 and svt's maknae lines 👁️👄👁️

HELL YEA!!!!!!!!!!!! i actually don't know who they are either i just listen to them too fdjkfjkkjfd lately spotify's doing most of the work for me <3 ALSO U KNOW ABT JIHOON'S COVER... UR SO- ok we're besties 4 life now <3 CAN I JUST SAY... WHAT THE HELL IS UP W JIHOON.. DOING IT IN THE ORIGINAL KEY.. HE HAD NO BUSINESS SHOWING OFF LIKE THAT OK UR TALENTED N IM A LITTLE IN L*VE W U WE GET IT 😭😭😭

AND NO DFKJFDKJJKFDFDKJDF WHY IS THAT SO FUNNY TO ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HOW DID U EVEN NOTICE!!! NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO LOOK FOR CLIPS OF IT JKFDFJKDFD 😭 they're truly relaxing they cant even be bothered lmaoooo

looks like it'll be much better!! i'm kind of excited for uni ngl <3 i hope everything's well w u as well and that all ur endeavors are bussin <3 u stay hydrated too and get lots of sleep!! <3

#u are always so sweet what if i cry #and get diabetes #ily <3 #🪂 anon #anon #y.ask #long post

[badfey]

I have a friend with an eating disorder and you seem to know a lot about it. and i don't know anything! so i'm wondering • how do you know so much, do you or a friend have one? • how can i support and help my friend through it. (he also has anxiety and depression so if you have any tips on them you could chuck them in) i know your not a professional but i want to know your personal tips on how you would (or currently do idk) support a friend thank you :))

hi, i myself have been through minor eating problems, but luckily its never spiralled or become a disorder of its own. most of the people im closest to have had EDs, so i do know a lot about supporting them through it. this message is kinda more tailored to EDs, but if u want more advice on the other stuff just shoot another ask bc i have a lot of experience w that too 

 i’ll preface this by saying that just as every person is unique, so will be their relation with their disorder. here are some ways you can help [under the cut because this got long] 

TW: eating disorders, food, self harm, mental illness

getting help: 

if your friend has an eating disorder, they need help. EDs are practically impossible to overcome on your own, and the longer someone goes without treatment, the harder it is to recover. without help, EDs have a very low survival rate 

 if theyre already getting help for anxiety/depression, they should tell the therapist and get help that way. 

 if theyre on a waiting list (or not receiving any help at all) they should tell their gp, and bc of the seriousness of EDs they will be seen faster 

 if theyre not ready to get treatment, you gotta gently but persistently encourage them to get professional help. in some situations, u might have to tell someone on their behalf, but i would say to avoid that or at least do it with open communication so they can still trust u after. denial is a Huge part of EDs, so u have to help them push past that 

 when they first start getting ed help, it will feel like therapists and doctors suddenly dont care about their mental well-being as long as theyre eating. if this is the case, they need to tell their therapist. hopefully their therapist listens, but if not then it could be an idea to carry on ed treatment w them, and see a different person abt the rest 

 recovery only really makes a difference when u stop fighting it. when u stop doing exercises in ur room, when u stop secretly tracking calories, when u stop only pretending to follow your therapy plan 

 supporting them 

 theyre gonna need u as a friend a lot in this time. if you can be someone they can depend on, thats the best thing. however, dont put their needs before ur own: u are just as important too 

talk to them ! like when uve got depression, its easy to want to isolate urself. let me tell u, that gets u nowhere except miserable. just keep talking to them and stuff. sometimes its really important to be able to vent and talk out the big issues. other times its better to talk about light and unimportant things. i think this is the most important one 

validate their struggles. this is v important because even tho u want to show them how life does get better, theyre going through genuine hell right now, so just pointing out that it gets better feels like ur ignoring how bad they have it 

lead by example. do u struggle w body image? ya me too, but im working on it. work on it openly: promoting self love will help u both tremendously 

here is a v good list of things to avoid 

remember tht recovery is long hard and painful, but completely necessary. at the start of getting help, coping becomes really hard bc control gets taken away, and it seems like their entire life starts to revolve around food. it gets easier with time 

recovery blogs r ur best friend!!!!!!!!! for both of u. they offer support and advice and constant insight into how u can be there for ppl, or urself. block thinspo blogs. they can rot.  here are some good recovery blogs

 find out what they like and dislike. and triggers. if they dont like people commenting on what they eat, always move the subject away from that if others start to talk. same w anything that makes them uncomfortable 

encourage recovery. they will probably be constantly cold weak miserable and irrationally guilty, but recovery can change that. sometimes its important to remember just how bad being ill feels in order to keep choosing recovery (same goes for any mental illness)

 things to remember (important for everyone to know, not just those supporting people) 

 an eating disorder is a mental illness, not a body type. any person of any shape can have an ED, they dont have to look a certain way for their struggles to be valid 

 an ED is a mental illness that affects the persons relationship w food. this means there are many different eating disorders, and none of them are more valid than another. not everyone restricts, not everyone purges, not everyone binges 

some people develop food issues as a form of control: when everything else in your life is beyond you, its one thing people can control. until it begins to control them. this is why giving up control to start recovery can be so hard 

for some people it’s body image issues. for some people its control (as said above). for some people its a way to self harm. for lots of people its any combination of the above 

 thats about all ive got right now, hopefully this is what you were after. if you dont feel confident in supporting them, keep asking people for advice. get your own chain of support (u cant support someone well unless u have people u can trust and confide in). follow recovery blogs. theyre honestly the best, and provide a better and more detailed insight than ive been able to. supporting people through things this huge is hard, and ur a good friend for trying.

 its a learning process, and youll get better at it. thats why looking for other peoples advice is so important: it helps u improve. the first time i tried to help someone through an ED, i was 14 and with problems of my own, so i wasnt a good support at all, and i had no idea what to do. you’ll be better than i was (already seeking experienced advice shows this), and as long as you care youll be fine. your friend will be okay too, in time 

#EDs // #ed recovery #support #mental illness // #food // #ask to tag #Anonymous

[torturebaseball]

all of the asks that are multiples of 8 (i was going to do multiples of 7 but i'm not evil)

ok ok ok P is me I is indie @cielitollndo

8 (#2 bc theres 2 of them). When was the last time you had a significant conversation with someone you love?P: right now with indie :DI: just now with paulie about hats

16. Favorite drinkP: orange sodaI: Filtered Water.

24. Opinion on long distance?P: it sucks bc i cant see my friends that often but idk about relationships i dont know anything lolI: distances suck bc i cant hug my friends but i cant just give an opinion on the concept of distances as a whole

32. Any guilty pleasures?P: listening to sober to death by car seat headrest on repeat for like a week tbhI: i read the cosmo snapchat story things sometimes

40. Do you like anime?P: NOI: no im catholic

48. Do you have any allergies?P: nopeI: penicillin maybe but i think i have to be tested bc its probably gone away by now

56. If you switched bodies with someone, how would you recognize yourself?P: id be the one with the cool jacket and no lifeI: ummmm.... id know i switched bodies so id recognize myself by being myself in a different body. lol.

64. What do you think your soulmate is doing right now?P: eatin a cheeseburgerI: not thinking of me

72. What is the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?P: idk maybe die? i would do that for free tho so idkI: bruh is there anything i wouldnt do for a cool mil.... i guess the craziest would be stay up past 3 am 😕

80. If you could earn a million dollars by pretending to be dead for 3 years, would you do it?P: YOU BETCHAI: pretending to be dead??? and being paid for it??? wow incredible opportunity im in

88. What do you fear the most?P: isolationI: i fear falling

96. Have you ever broken a bone before?P: nopeI: broke my elbow in 1st grade

#ask games #anon #ask

[abigailinc]

honestly i'm too lazy to go look but also i wanna ask u questions bc ily so any of the greek pantheon asks u haven't answered yet have a good night :*

casey u always know just what to say

Apollo: Do you have any talents?i dont have what any typical talents? like sports or good grades or anything you could get a job with But i am really good at knowing when im being lied to and i can read microexpressions and i can make small talk and pretend to like people in social settings like nobody’s business

Ares: What small thing makes you angry?i guess it’s not always small but pointless problems that could very easily be solved by the other person clearly communicating or not being stubborn irritate me to no end

Artemis: What are you hunting for in life?that money and also meaningful longterm emotional connections

Athena: What is/was your best school subject?english, always, i’m a grammar fiend and a stickler for spelling and a slut for good writing,

Demeter: Do you miss anyone?i’m coming to terms with it but yeah always

Dionysus: Do you drink alcohol? If so, what’s your beverage of choice?oh boy do i! and anything above 10% alcohol within 10 miles

Eros: How do you define your sexuality?hot people only

Gaia: Where’s your favorite place in the world?i wanna say i don’t really have one, it’s more like my favorite way to feel when i go anywhere like i’m at home wherever i am because i’m me and it’s good and it’s so inexplicable but it makes me feel full

Hades: Have you ever had a near-death experience?yeah in ur moms 🅱️ussy(jk yes i have and we Don’t Talk About It)

Hecate: What do you think of magic?i think it’s fucking Lit and something to be respected even if you don’t 100% believe in it (hey white people stop fucking around with ouija boards)

Hephaestus: What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever made or built?i have a string of lights i arranged really well above my bed and they’re really pretty and calming

Hera: Are you the jealous type?hmm. sometimes? i don’t get jealous of people’s possessions because if i want something enough i can get it but sometimes i get jealous of people’s attention but only very specific people

Hermes: Have you ever stolen anything?i own over $400 dollars worth of makeup and at least $800 worth of clothes. do you really think i paid for any of it

Hyperion: Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?depends on what mood i’m in. sunrises are calming; sunsets are exciting

Hypnos: What was your most recent dream about?screaming into a corpse’s teeth to reanimate it (it was one of the weirder ones)

Iris: What’s your favorite color palate?uhhh probably some soft blues and greens

Nemesis: What’s a time you helped deliver justice?every single time i have ever stopped a creepy guy from being creepy to either myself or a girl/person i see bein creeped on

Nike: What’s your most recent accomplishment?i’ve started eating full meals again!

Pan: What do you do for fun?hmmm im listening to music constantly, i love the internet (the band and the invention), i love viddy games (platformers and rpg’s usually), i love reading and painting, i love memes, i love my friends, i lo

Persephone: What’s your favorite season of the year?it changes based on the year? two years ago it was summer, last year it was spring, this year isnt over yet so idk but im having a feeling its gonna be fall

Poseidon: What’s your favorite sea creature?those fuckin weird ones that live at the very bottom that have shit growing out of their noses and like 20 feet

Rhea: What’s your favorite type of nature?this is rly vague but okay listen. i have this thing that i do where im constantly picking dandelions (both the yellow ones and the kind that u blow and wish on) and with the yellow ones i put them in people’s mailboxes or on their car windshields and stuff like that, and u know im all about making those wishes son

Selene: What’s your favorite phase of the moon?the new moon is fucking powerful as hell dude but i love me a perfect crescent

Tartarus: What’s your personal hell?being nearly drowned or suffocated and then brought back to life times infinity orrr being alone forever probably

Thanatos: Is there anyone you just really, really hate?nah man i used to genuinely despise my mother and if i had the chance to kill her today if im being honest id probably take it but like…i dont actively hate her anymore because grudges are so toxic for whoever is holding them and im out here trying 2 be the best me i can be

#ask #easyupdate #man i got all that heavy shit in there its past midnight lets go #about the blogger

[georgeluz]

hey:) for the ask thing, im about 5'5, i have long wavy light brown hair and big brown eyes w olive skin. my myers briggs is campaigner&my star sign is a cancer! i'm kinda built (?) bc i do competitive sport, i play lotta instruments, and im v social. i have adhd yikes and anxiety YIKES but it's chill lol, sometimes that does get in the way though. for the fandom, BoB would be great:) also ya u are a legend i didn't mean another word for champ i deadass just meant legend. thanks ❣

NO MORE PLS.

Wow. But… if I were… a legend… I would’ve gotten this done FOREVER AGAOAUHDFgrihEJADF. I’m so SORRY. Babe. But to make it up to you, this blurb is fucking LONG. @v-esperteen 

The Character I See You As: Buck Compton. HIGHLY SOCIAL? SPORTS? ANXIOUS? You got yourself a recipe for BUCK COMPTON. Aka the wonderful, sweet lil sunshine that loves literally everyone and makes everyone feel so comfortable and relaxed (and sometimes not relaxed depending on how boisterous he gets). I love him because even though he has all of these amazing qualities, he is independent to a fault (daring to argue with Winters I scream he’s–), highly emotional (losing his friends literally KILLED HIM) and anxious (though he hides it well behind his EVERYTHING IS FINE face or his dead inside face).

Your Three Best Friends: Don Malarkey, Alex Penkala, Skip Muck (aka the squad)

The One You Don’t Get Along With: Henry Jones. Sweet, sweet Henry. It’s no one’s fault, but he’s so composed and so put together that you honestly don’t know what to do with him. Try and joke with him? He just stares at you (maybe smiles pitifully). Try and initiate conversation? Part of you burns because he takes himself so damn seriously and you decide never to try that again lmao. You like him… you just don’t know what to do with him and him with you, so you just stay out of each other’s hair.

Who I Ship You With: Shifty Powers. The ENFP plus the shy, cute, unassuming, but also incredibly brave and intelligent Shifty Powers? HELLO HOW FREAKING ADORA- I digress. Shifty is wonderful because he’s mellow and gentle, gets embarrassed easily if you try and shower him with affection, but somehow keeps cool in the middle of combat, never gets injured, etc. His name is Shifty for a reason, one minute he’s there and the next you’re like ?? hello ?? Shifty? ANYWAY. I love him a lot. He’s like the least anxious person. Whenever you have your anxious moments he’s there to cuddle you and tell you in his sweet lil accent that everything is gonna be just fine (dont mind me im crying).

Wildcard: Captain. 2nd Battalion Staff S-3. 101st Airborne.

Lil Blurb??: Your charisma got you here. Your athleticism, sharp wit, ability to make solid decisions under pressure, and aptitude for route planning got you here. You were a valuable assistant to Colonel Strayer. Your gender also got you here: pouring coffee for him at 6:30 in the morning, tapping your foot with a bright smile on your face. You pretended it was fine that you were reduced to such menial tasks. You knew it was too good to be true that you would be used for much after being moved from the WAAC to the 101st. You had trained hard with a handful of women to handle the difficulties of battle–you would never see combat, but you would get as close as any woman ever had.

But that still meant making coffee for all of the men, pouring it, and often being left out of discussions. You kept reminding yourself that it was insane that you were here, in England, part of the planning for D-Day. You wouldn’t get to drop though, not like the boys. Knowing that crushed you, not because you particularly wanted to see combat and death, but because you had grown so close to the everyone. To be left behind was cruel. You were a favorite on Easy Company’s sports teams. It was Buck Compton that had used his charms to sway you into joining their soccer game. You were just as uneasy as the men, but once the game started, it was like you’d been playing with them forever.

Malarkey, Penkala, Muck, you, Compton, and Luz versus Guarnere, Toye, Heffron, Talbert, and Skinny Sisk. It was the most fun you’d ever had, throwing elbows and repeatedly trying to trip Tab (who kept throwing hands and swearing he was just going easy on you). You even managed to get a laugh out of Toye, something you hadn’t accomplished before. You patted yourself on the back for that one. But damn, it would hurt to be cut from the friends you’d made. You had brothers. These boys were like your brothers now, far from home, keeping you company in the daylight.

But, despite those boys being the group you had become so close with so quickly, it was the charming Southerner that caught your attention right off the bat. Powers was all broad shoulders passed down from generation to generation; he was meant to hold a gun, you could tell by the way he cradled his rifle against his arm. It was like an extension of himself, but that wasn’t the only thing you admired about the unassuming Shifty. He was a hell of a shot, probably the best in the company, but he was about as quiet, humble, and bashful as they came. And you thrived on making him blush.

First it was through subtle compliments when you caught him alone, without Tab or Skinny by his side. You would sit while Shifty cleaned his rifle, admiring his perfect form when shooting or suggesting he was the best you’d ever seen. You didn’t push him, you read him well enough to know he was easily made uncomfortable. You asked him about home, about his favorite gun, about the squirrels he used to shoot up in Virginia. Shifty would smile fondly at you, then his shoes, and lean back against the wall or the back of his chair, tipping his head back and squinting his eyes. He always took his time talking–he was deliberate. You loved that about him. When you sat with him it was like time stopped for just a sweet moment, like the anxieties and the frustration that fluttered in the back of your mind stopped.

One night, after sharing a drink or two, you both wandered into the nearby cow pasture and he told you about the farm he grew up on. “I did always like cows the most,” he murmured, running his hands along the dew-ridden grass, the other hand rubbing his jaw. “Big eyes, big ears.” He trailed off, screwing up his nose, trying to think of other reasons why he liked them so much. “Well I suppose they never did want nothing bad for nobody,” he finished with a short nod, drawing both hands behind him to lean on. “Chickens were too cranky, and the horses were too smart for me. I almost got kicked once. My daddy almost lost it, started hollerin’ about how I needed to stop sneakin’ up on ‘em. I was too quiet.”

You, yourself, had never been so quiet in your life. You were laying on your side, fingers threaded through the grass beside Shifty’s hand. You wanted nothing more than to keep listening, to drink his words in, to know him from the inside out, but he stopped and furrowed his brow. “You know, I never tried cow tippin’ before.” You looked up through your eyelashes, face flushed from the alcohol that still burned in the back of your throat. 

“What do we do, huh, Powers? Do we just run at them?” You had never done it before either. It sounded just like something a boy from Virginia would want to do.

“S’pose so, I never thought about it.”

“Wanna do it?”

“No, I don’t think that would be very kind,” he replied, sliding back down until his head hit the ground. He rolled onto his side and blinked up at you, a crooked smile gracing his features. “I’m too tired to run anyway.”

“Mmhm,” was your defeated reply, still propped up on your elbow, hovering over him. You felt a little tired too, buzzed, slipping down until your face was right beside his. You laughed. He laughed a little too, but he also looked like a deer caught in headlights. You weren’t one for personal space, at least not with people you enjoyed being around, and you hadn’t thought that it might be pushing it for him to be so close. 

“Never kissed anyone neither,” Shifty murmured after a moment. You tilted your head slightly, leaning back.

“Really?”

“I didn’t play football. I didn’t live in town. I don’t think I had a lot goin’ for me. Bad luck.”

You quirked a brow. Your heart was hammering against your chest. You weren’t supposed to being doing this with an enlisted man. You were his superior, and the reason most had objected to women in the military was for this damn reason exactly. “Why did you bring that up, Shifty?” You were just antagonizing him now.

He was silent for a moment, searching your gaze for any emotion other than drunken amusement. “Well, Y/N, I-I rightly think you’re the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen. I was just thinkin’ that. I’m sorry–” He broke off, rubbing the back of his neck. “I was thinkin’ I wouldn’t mind kissin’ you.”

“Well, Shifty Powers, I don’t know what those girls back in Virginia were thinking,” you chuckled, reaching to grab the fabric of his shirt. “I must do my civic duty after all, send you off to war right,” you murmur before planting one on him, gentle, careful, trying not to spook him. This was real, you reminded yourself. And it would be gone soon, so you’d best enjoy it while it lasted. He draped his arm over your waist, pulling you in close, the other hand supporting your cheek. 

Shifty was a quick learner, you found, and you also discovered it would be very, very difficult to reverse what you’d done. After that night, discreet as you tried to be, he nearly gave it all away with his puppy eyes and his silent begging. And you were a sucker, running off with him to the fields and pastures whenever you could under the cover of darkness to romp, wrestle, play, and kiss a little before he and the rest of the men were dropped over Normandy.

#v-esperteen #ask #ask game

[avghisms]

All of them please!! I'm curious OTL

gee well fine 1. If you didn't have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time? go out with friends or paint maybe lol2. What is your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned? i luv this lil black dress my ex gf gave to me!! 3. What hobby would you pick up if time & money weren't an issue? idk something creative tho like candle making 4. What does your perfect room look like? VERY PINK AND VERY CUTE 5. How often do you play sports? I dont!! im too lazy!! 6. What fictional place would you like to visit? Idk 7. What job would you be terrible at? probably customer service which i was terrible at 8. When was the last time you climbed a tree?probably like last week hahaa 9. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance of winning a medal for? being cute 10. What is the most annoying habit that you or other people have? i bite my nails when im anxious but i also hate loud breathing :// 11. What job do you think you'd be really good at? nursing or counselling!! 12. What skill would you like to master? writing or something 13. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on? travelling to somewhere really sunny with my friends ❤14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house to live on for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like? kinda petite bungalow with a big porch and on a beach!! 15. What's your favorite drink? black coffee cold water B))) 16. What state or country do you never want to go back to? belfast.... 17. What songs do you have completely memorized? a lot 18. What game or movie universe would you like to live in? n/a life is good enough 19. What do you consider to be your best find?matthew mcdonnell cus hes a saint 20. Are you usually early or late? early! 21. What pets did you have when you were growing up? an evil cat and a hamster 22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually need help with? just their emotions i guess or for a line of reasoning/second opinion 23. What takes up too much of your time? sleeping ahh24. What do you wish you knew more about? people 25. What would be your first question after waking up from being frozen for 100 years? where them gay girls at 26. What are some small things that make your day better? my friends nd my cat :')) 27. Who's your go-to band or artist when you don't know who or what to listen to? hayley kiyoko/mystery skulls28. What's the best way to start the day? black coffee and a cigarette29. What TV shows do you like? not many at all :0 30. What TV channel doesn't exist but really should? anna channel 31. Who has impressed you most with what they've accomplished? my mama and my best friend 32. What age do you wish you could stay at permanently? 16 tbh33. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch? noneee ahh 34. What's your ideal way to spend a weekend? going on a trip w my friends to the beach!!! 35. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don't think you could live without? gourmet coffee 36. What is your claim to fame? when i turned 16 i became a lot more open minded and forgiving. with a lot more empathy and willingness to see beauty in everything. positive vibeeeesss. 37. What is something you enjoy doing the old-fashioned way? essays even tho i get wankers cramp 38. What's your favorite book or movie genre? i like rom coms 39. How often do you people-watch? idk what that means but sometimes i see pretty people and im happy 40. What have you only recently formed an opinion about? my lifeee 41. What's the best day of the year? all day every day in july 42. What subject interests you that not many people have heard of? occultism 43. How do you relax after a long day of work? napping 44. What's the best book series or TV series you've ever read or watched? jane the virgin 45. Where is the farthest you've ever been from home? france!! 46. What's the most heartwarming thing you've ever seen? forgiveness and reconciliation. compromise. 47. What is the most annoying question people ask you? "who do you have a crush on?" "Will you meet this guy?" 48. What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with no preparation? psychology or biology 49. If you were the dictator on a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do? create a beautiful eutopiaaaa 50. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives? reflect 51. Would you rather go hand gliding or whitewater rafting? hand gliding 52. What's your dream car? a pink one 53. What's worth spending more on to get the best? makeup 54. What is something a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don't get? IDK DIFFERENT STROKES FOR DIFFERENT FOLKS 55. What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years? travelling a lot more !! meeting new friends 56. Where is the most interesting place you've been? île de adam 57. What's something you've been meaning to try but haven't gotten around to it? art work 58. What is the best thing that happened to you last week? free coffee 59. What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind, only to experience it for the first time again? Steven universe omg 60. If all jobs had the same pay rate and hours, what job would you want to have? hair dresser 61. What amazing thing have you done that no one was around to see? idk... 62. How different was your life 1 year ago? it was extremely different, i was extremely different. it was kinda hellish and im glad im so different now. 63. What quirks do you have? always drinking coffee n being weirdly generous 64. What would you rate 10/10? hayley kiyoko 65. What fad or trend do you think should come back? baggy jeans 66. What is the most interesting piece of art you've seen? me 67. What kind of art do you enjoy most? dark abstract 68. What do you hope never changes? me 69. What city would you most like to live in? bordeaux70. What movie title best describes your life? love, actually 71. Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now? i don't work am lazyyy 72. What's the best way a person can spend their time? being kind 73. If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make? a pipe74. Where is the most relaxing place you've ever been? bed or beach 75. What's the luckiest thing that has ever happened to you? winning the lotto 76. Where would you rather be from? france77. What are some things you've had to unlearn? self-hatred, loathing and accepting abuse. i had to unlearn a lot. 78. What do you look forward to in the next 6 months? swedennn w my love 79. What website do you visit most often? www.google.com 80. What one thing do you really want but can't afford? break stuff 81. Where do you usually go when you have free time? the park or someones house lol 82. Where would you spend all your time if you could? a beach 83. What's special about the place you grew up? absolutely nothing 84. What age do you want to live to? 60 85. What are you most likely to become famous for? cult leader 86. What are you absolutely determined to do? to be the best person i can be and to be positive!! 87. What is the most impressive thing you know how to do? understand most things. 88. What do you wish you knew more about? the world. 89. What question would you most like to know the answer to? why did you lie? why did you treat me so horribly and yet retained a complete victim complex? What happened to make you so fucking monstrous? What put you out of your way to humilate me worse than anyones ever done before, all the while pretending you cared? 90. What question can you ask to find out the most about a person? why are we here? 91. When was the last time you changed your opinion or belief about something major? recently, everything changes! 92. What's the best compliment you've ever received? too many heck "you have taught me so much" "you have a beautiful soul" "you're angelic to me" (all platonic btw romance is bullshit) 93. As the only human left on earth, what would you do? try to survive. Befriend animals! 94. Who inspires you to be better? my mom and JESUS 95. What do you want your epitaph to be? honest 96. What haven't you grown out of? some grudges 97. In what situation or place would you feel most out of place in? at a dinner table 98. What's the dumbest thing you've done that actually turned out pretty well? trying to make friends 99. If someone wrote a book on an event in your life, what would the book be about? probably transformation 100. What's something you will never do again? trust so openly 101. How do you hope you'll change as a person in the future? i don't. I think im good now. 102. What keeps you up at night? the possibilities!! of life! 103. What's the most surprising self-realization you've had? i deserve better 104. What is the most illegal thing you've ever done? driving w/o license 105. How do you get in the way of your own success? laziness 106. What are you afraid people see when they look at you? im dont generally care about what other people think of meee... 107. What is your biggest regret? Making the wrong decision and losing something that could've been great.. 108. What do you look down on people for?being indirect and bitchy 109. What bridges do you not regret burning?there have been a lot of abusive people who im so glad ive been able to get rid of bc they were like poison. 110. What lie do you tell most often? "i only had like 4 beers" 111. What would be your spirit animal? a cat lol112. What is the best & worst thing about getting older? learning aand experiencing is the best but moving on is the worst 113. What are you most likely very wrong about? politics 114. If you had a personal flag, what would be on it? pink 115. What's happened that changed your view on the world? uhh generally being loved and appreciated for who i REALLY am and therefore being able to become a good person with good people surrounding me 116. What is the biggest lesson you've learned? trust no one. 117. What is the most immature thing you do? get rly drunk nd become all rude n dumb 118. What are you famous for among your friends & family? giving advice and support 119. If your childhood had a smell, what would it be? rotting human flesh 120. What one responsibility do you wish you didn't have? always being the bigger person or trying to. 121. What are 3 things you want to accomplish before you die? a real relationship a baby and a good job! 122. What do you want to tell your 10-year-old self? trust no one. no one in ur life is gonna keep ur trust except ur mom n Matthew. 123. What's the best thing you got from your parents? love uwu 124. What's the best thing about you? seeing tje beauty in everything 125. What blows your mind? life in itself 126. Have you ever saved someone's life? yes 127. What are you really good at but embarrassed to be good at? writing ehehe 128. What would a mirror opposite of you look like? like me? long dark brown hair on a short girl wearing a pink hoody n black jeans?? 129. What are 3 interesting facts about you?im left handed, im psychic and im strong owo130. Which of your scars has the best story behind it? the big fucking gash on my right leg 131. What's the title of the current chapter in your life? happiness is....... 132. What were some of the biggest turning points in your life? september 4th 2016 133. What's the hardest lesson you've learned? dont trust him 134. What do people think is weird about you?im always confused 135. What mistake do you keep making? USIMG CUPS AS ASHTRAYS 136. What have you created that you're most proud of? A LOT OF PAINTINGS 137. What do you doubt? that people are truly sorry.138. What are some of your morals? always be honest w those u trust, give everyone a chance, dont judge, forgive with ur heart. 139. What do you want to be remembered for?loving and being loved 140. What do you regret not doing in your childhood years?n/a 141. What is your favorite fragrance? jasmine anr roses and ylang ylang aaa142. What do you think your last words will be?noo letsnnot 143. Who or what do you take for granted?my schoool144. Why would you be annoying as a roommate?eat a LOT 145. What is something you're insecure about? IM NOT yay 146. What's the best & worst piece of advice you've received? best: never be ashamed. worst: drink green tea to cure epilepsy 147. What irrational fears do you have? being alone, 148. What makes a good life? love 149. What's the last adventure you went on? idk man 150. What is the most memorable gift you've received? my granpas snuff tin 💖

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(1) Hi so I hope I'm somehow able to word this properly and not be an awful person (I'm sorry my emotions are still running kinda haywire). So yesterday my datemate told me that they are aromantic and they've known for about two months now and they didn't tell me earlier (even tho they hate lying/keeping secrets) bc they still love me (but not romantically of course) and they were worried I was going to cut ties with them completely in order to get over them and not want them in my life

anymore. Which I don't think I would have done, but given my past experience and personality, I think it was a reasonable thing to think. So after they told me that, I cried a lot and we talked about it some more, but it wasn't really a proper discussion since I was crying so hard. (I don't know if this helps but I'm an infj and my datemate (?) is an intj. I'm also asexual and they're pansexual. Sorry to dump this on you, I just think you're insightful and give good advice). We've been dating for 10 months now so it's a little bit hard finding this out after we've already been together for a while. While I understand why they waited 2 months to tell me (didn't want to hurt me, we were already dating, didn't want to permanently lose me) I'm still mad and wish they had told me earlier. I'm very future-oriented and I plan things out so far in advance, I was already imagining a future with them and was so happy and excited about it. I can change this image of coursebut it feels so sudden and it's like everything's been turned upside down. Last night I was overwhelmingly sad, and today I'm still sad but also angry. Maybe it wouldn't have but that's 2 months I could've spent stopping myself from getting attached to this future image. We talked about it together multiple times: what we each want, where we want to live, what kind of cats and dogs we want to own together. I know we can still live together, & I'd really really love that, it's just that someof the certainty of the future has been ripped away and it was really comforting and wonderful to think about. I really love them a lot and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather own cats with. Last night they said they'd still like to be in a romantic relationship with me and date me and continue doing everything else we've already been doing, but they don't want to be involved with any of those romantic rituals like getting married, etc. All I want right now is to continue our currentrelationship, especially since they want to and they really want to be in my future. It's just that I'm so attached to the idea of romantic love and marriage (it's so stupid though) and I don't know how to get away from that & I KNOW that no matter how much I'd like to continue this current relationship, I'm going to eventually want to get married and I don't want to regret anything. The ideal future would be for me to live with both them and someone else I'm married to in the same housebut all I can think about is how there's no way that'll ever work bc then that's three people's lives, jobs, wants and needs we'd have to coordinate in order to live in the same place and area. The probability of it working out is so unlikely & I don't know if I'd be even be able to find someone else to date who'd be willing to do that. I'm thinking the best option is for me to break off my current relationship with my datemate and do something more akin to a qpr, I just hate how vague anduncertain the future seems now. In the midst of this, I'm still mourning our past relationship (it was also my first romantic relationship). I really hope I didn't say anything to hurt their feelings last night but I tried to make as clear as possible that it's okay for them to be aromantic, I'm just upset about the changes to my vision of the future. Like if only I could get rid of this attachment to the idea of marriage and romantic love, and all that sappy stuff, then we could still continue our current relationship into the future the way it's been. I've just been so happy since (and before) we started dating at college and it's kinda of just a shocker, like I was too optimistic. I did get some warning from my instincts which I probably should've listened to (I hesitated before asking them out bc I thought they might've been aro but they said yes & later when they talked about possibly being polyarmorous I freaked out bc I went on a forum & lots of ppl had similarviews on platonic and romantic love and in poly and aro communities and I was worried that they were aro and I brought it up to them and at the time, they thought they were poly so they reassured me BUT two weeks after the convo realized they were aro. Fucking weirdass ni. Should've listened to it. In addition to this, I have become very attached to cuddling and physical intimacy and I don't want that to stop...but at the same time I'm worried I'm never going to stop liking them if I don'tstop the physical intimacy. Last night they said they'd be fine with whatever I wanted to do (become friends, continue the romantic relationship, or continue the romantic relationship and affection until I find someone else I want to date). Honestly the third option sounds the most appealing but I'm just worried I'm gonna be trapped in a limbo and that my new ideal future option is too unlikely to happen & by continuing the physical and emotional intimacy I'm keeping myself from formingother bonds with other people. I don't want to cut them out of my life, bc even if we ended the romantic relationship, we have become so close with each other, and I enjoy spending time with them more than anyone else at college right now. I know that they really value their relationship with me as well, since they said that they trust me more than anyone else and they have a lot of difficulty opening up to people. I'm not quite sure what kind of advice I'm asking for, maybe I just neededto write all of this out. I'm sorry this was so long, I just have so many emotions. I guess I'm wondering what your opinion is, & if you have any advice on dealing with overcoming the loss of a former vision of the future & replacing it with another one (the biggest question I guess). Also maybe any advice on whether or not you think it's something that would work & if I'm still being too optimistic. Do you have any tips on how to go about forming a qpr? Thank you so much! Feel free toanswer whenever you happen to have any time!! Also if any of these messages get lost or eaten by tumblr, let me know & I can resend them (I've saved them). I'm sorry this was so long! Thank you 

Honestly I'm starting to feel a little bit better after writing all of that out and thinking about other possible future options (happy ones of course) and it's really nice. Thank you for your blog & all you do for the mbti community. Mbti always makes me feel better when I'm feeling bad and reading your thoughts and insights on it is always fun. I guess it's sorta distraction but it's still nice and isn't really hurting me so thanks 

Okay so first i wanna establish i’m likely aro myself so i dont really have a great understanding of the differences between romantic and platonic feelings.

So, one thing I’m confused about is how the relationship would go if you proceeded like the INTJ suggested, (the same, but w no “rituals”). What exactly about the relationship right now would be romantic to you that wouldn’t continue, besides stuff like marriage? Bc I think the biggest disconnect wouldn’t be in not doing x y z, but in a difference in how you view the relationship. If they view the relationship somehow differently bc they are aro, what are those differences? Bc obviously it isn’t a sexual relationship but you were doing things that would be “romantic” rather than “friendly.” I think it would be helpful to try to figure out what has changed, really at all. Bc if you are viewing the relationship very differently from each other, I can see how that could cause pain.

It definitely seems like you want something more from the relationship than they do, and I do think that if you continued the relationship with you sort of pretending it’s a romantic relationship and them sort of pretending it’s a friendship, with you knowing it will never fulfill those expectations you had, it will feel like something is missing and bitterness/pain/disconnection might come from that. I think if you decided to continue the physical intimacy but say you’re friends, that’s what you’re going to end up doing. I think you shouldn’t cut them off or avoid them, it just wouldn’t be logical. I think you should keep your friendship, but try not to do anything you would see as romantic. Maybe a little space right now would be really good, for you especially, to get your head around it without any pressure or guilt. However, I do think that given time (esp given your types), you could change the nature of the relationship and move on in a way, especially bc it is your first relationship. I think you could be best friends, and you could end up with a different romantic partner that you have a healthy, fulfilling relationship with.

I do think you should trust your instincts, if they’re telling you anything at this point. It seems like doing so would put you in a place that feels natural.

I don’t have any tips on how to form a qpr bc i’ve never had one and don’t really have a want for one, but I do advise you to be careful, bc boy have a I seen people try to have a qpr with someone they clearly have a crush on and it isn’t fun for either of the people involved.

No prob man, I rlly hope it works out for you. I do think the venting helped you organize everything! I’m glad you like my blog, thanks :)!

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