#lost belief

[the-ephemeral-ethereal]

Life, as Proust tells it, is disappointment and loss - loss of time, as his title says, and loss of youth of course; loss of freshness of vision, of belief, and of the semblance it once gave to the world; and loss of self, a loss against which we have only one safeguard, and that unsure: memory.

James Grieve, from his Introduction to In Search of Lost Time, Book 2: In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower by Marcel Proust

#in search of lost time #in the shadow of young girls in flower #marcel proust #proust #james grieve #disappointment #loss #loss of time #loss of youth #lost time #lost youth #loss of vision #lost vision #loss of belief #lost belief #loss of self #lost self #memory #loss of memory #lost memory

[starcurtain]

I think the most amazing thing about Alhaitham's ironic question "How has realizing your ideals gone for you?" is that yes, on the surface, it pierced through the heart of Kaveh's feelings at the time and forced him to reflect on whether he still had enough belief to keep going, but--BUT--

This is also Alhaitham subtly asking: "Was your life better without me?"

Kaveh left their friendship because of his ideals.

Kaveh's attempts to realize his beliefs began in earnest during his argument with Alhaitham, who challenged him back then by suggesting that Kaveh didn't honestly believe in his ideals and was just pursuing them out of guilt and a desire to punish himself for his father's death.

Kaveh's attempt to "realize his ideals," therefore, spans the exact amount of time he and Alhaitham have been separated. When Alhaitham asks about Kaveh's attempts, he's asking very specifically about the course Kaveh's life took when he was no longer in it.

How did it go for you? Were you happier? Was it worth it?

I truly believe that Kaveh will be able resolve his conflict with Alhaitham--and come to understand Alhaitham's actual feelings--when he realizes that, in that exact moment, he should have turned the question around:

How did realizing your ideals go for you, Alhaitham?

Was your life better off without me?

No.

#genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #haikaveh #kavetham #Kaveh was so worried about whether he should keep his own ideals #that he never even noticed how much Alhaitham's changed #Alhaitham's line in Parade of Providence #about how being correct isn't the same as being right #was sooo telling #it's not about compromising your beliefs #but about learning how to pursue them without compromising yourself #both of them had to feel the sting of pursuing their own beliefs too far #to realize that you need balance #Kaveh's pursuit of ideals that cost him everything was Alcazarzaray #but Alhaitham's pursuit of ideals was the fight that lost him Kaveh #Sumeru was saved because Alhaitham learned his lesson about egoism #and Alhaitham was able to save Kaveh in turn #it's so fucking clean my god this writing #Hoyo cooked so hard with this ship not even Gordon Ramsey can complain

[the-acid-pear-art]

JACK DOODLE COMPILATION I really like him. I think I can finally say I figured out how to draw this guy. One less to go 💪

#my art #artists on tumblr #doodles #dsaf #dayshift at Freddy's #jack kennedy #dsaf jack #jacktrap #the sopping wet is my favorite of this bunch btw i really adore how i got that expression #like its more. frustrated. like not outright sad. like trying to tough it up. <- white knuckling at the sink #also body headcanon yaaaa i think he'd be a little fat as a treat #a little fat a little built. keeping those hips tho. just some guy #probably im of the belief he lost weight as he rot away we'll see #anyway love this guy i get why dave was so obsessed that's all lm saying im a normal normal man tho very normal and ok and normal and

[star-shaped-froot-loops]

ISAT discord out here giving me amazing ideas again this time we got COWS!!! (Forgive my inability to draw them hehe…)

I was demanded these be put on my tumblr when finished so here ya go!

#Something something change belief would love colors coming back #Something something little lost calf all alone #etc #This is my first time drawing Isa sry if he sucks fhhfhf #in stars and time #isat #Isat spoilers #mirabelle isat #isat mirabelle #isat siffrin #siffrin isat #isat isabeau #isabeau isat #my art

[jesncin]

Random question, how come Goldie's form is that of a small child if he died in the womb? And if his spirit/soul aged, how come he's not the same age as John? Was there something that happened that stopped his aging, or is that just how John sees him?

Other than me following how Goldie/Golden Boy looks like in his first appearance in Hellblazer (though I aged him down a bit), I imagine that John perceives Goldie as someone growing with him but as John quickly loses his childhood innocence, Goldie stops growing.

In his teen years John tries stubbornly to be independent, out of survivor's guilt that he's growing up while his brother can't.

They stick together. I like to think of Goldie as the one spirit out of Constantine's ghost crew who doesn't hate or blame him for their death. John still feels awful about it because of course.

I do enjoy reading people's interpretations of Goldie's age being a reflection of how John remembers and grieves him. That's sweet.

#askjesncin #john constantine #hellblazer #jl remix #I've heard stories of baby surviving twins referring to their lost twin even when the family didn't disclose that info to them #it's fun to read it as supernatural but my personal belief is that it's a case of missing somebody dearly. “you never truly forget someone” #cw stillbirth #cw family loss

[thejasontoddarchives]

This is the core of Jason’s character.

Again they try to hammer in that Jason is brash, arrogant, and reckless; that he jumps before thinking. However you can’t really attribute reckless behavior to arrogance or carelessness when he only ever becomes instinctive during very specific instances. The few times he’s “stepped out of line” or just threw himself into an unknown/dangerous situation it was always to protect someone from predators and sickos. Otherwise, keep in mind the number of times he’s been praised for his intelligence and judgment; for being meticulous, calm, and cooperative.

Batman #424 (1988)

#besides. even when he ‘took things too far' it was never without thinking it through first and understanding why his actions were warranted #not to mention familiarity was a predominant theme in utrh #(aka how clever he was. his timing. improvisation skills.) #jason todd #robin jason #batman 424 #dc #comic panels #‘​people only say Jason cares about women and children because of lost days’ somebody didn’t read the robin run I see #also how the fuck is that bodyguard not dead #you see that window to the right of him? that’s a solid brick wall on the other side. not dry wall #if Batman threw him so hard he shot head-first through the building like a bullet there’s no way he could have survived that come on now #no amount of plot armor or the author said he didn't die can make it make sense lol #contrary to popular belief batfleck didn’t actually come out of left field

[azural83]

What drives me insane is that silvermist and tinkerbell were not only supposed to be best friends but their relationship was also supposed to be a huge part of the story yet in the franchise we ended up getting these two barely interacted

#justice for my girl silvermist #tinkerbell #tinkerbell movies #silvermist #disney #disney fairies #disney movies #tinkerbell silvermist #tinkerbell ring of belief #tinkerbell and the pirate fairy #tinkerbell and the secret of the wings #tinkerbell and the great fairy rescue #tinkerbell and the lost treasure #tinkerbell and the legend of the neverbeast #tinkerbelle #tinker bell #lost media

[theartthatleavesthemark]

this post probably exists out there somewhere but. you know the book la galatea? the one Flint leaves for Miranda in 2x3? uhh well it was written by Cervantes the man most well known for creating the patron saint of lost causes (don quixote) but that isnt even the most insane part this book was a collection of pastoral poems loosely wedged into a narrative now, what were these poems about you may ask? well, pastoral stories for those of you who do not know are about love specifically they are about overpowering love making people do insane things and many of these stories in this book end either in tragedy or very ambiguously. essentially the love was there but it didnt change the ending. now the frame these tales are set in? well, THAT is the story of two gentleman, one of noble birth named Elicio and one of low birth who is nonetheless quite well-spoken named Erastro (sound familiar?) who are both in love with the same woman (the titular galatea). they agree that their shared love will never interfere with their friendship. now if you, like me, are throwing objects at the walls at this point, wait for the best part: la galatea is UNFINISHED. Cervantes wrote only part 1 and IN DON QUIXOTE there is a scene in which part one is BURNED and a character comments that it will never be any good without a second half. which he never wrote.

#cervantes was a racist bastard who wrote in the most stifling prose known to man but he knew the power of stories and the power of belief #and steinberg took one look at that and said here's an easter egg for all you early modern literature fanatics out there #its about love not being enough! its about the idealization of one individual (galatea is miranda is thomas is silver is flint is madi) #its about the story can't end! its about the story is a lost cause and the story lives on #mutilated #in another story which becomes canon! #its about i will love you whether you want me to or not and even if it kills me and beyond the capacity of the narrative to encompass #black sails #la galatea

[cerise-on-top]

Hank with an Eldritch Horror Reader

Here's another thing I wrote two years back! It was an interesting concept which I really liked, so I actually really enjoyed writing this request!

Hank J Wimbleton was a grunt of many things, but not one to be scared unless he had a good reason to be. There were many things in this world he did not understand, you were one of them. Upon meeting you, his first instinct would have been to either fight or run away - who could blame him, it was all he knew. No matter how many times you reassured him that the very last thing you wanted to do was to harm him, he’d draw his weapon, uncertain of whether or not he should believe your words.

Once you show no resistance towards him whatsoever and simply restrain him using your powers or other methods, that’s when, thrashing around as much as he could, he would start listening. You may or may not have seen a grunt up close, but this was your chance to finally examine one. As you scrutinise him from every possible angle Hank realises that you were simply curious about his being and finally lowers weapon.

Your voice would likely hurt his head and freeze the blood in his veins, so you might have to resort to telepathy or speak through a marionette, if you can find one. Though, once Hank’s interest in you has been piqued, he’d be more than happy to find you one. A lot of people in Nevada seem to be redundant in the first place. Regarding telepathy: You will be able to have a two-way conversation with Hank like that, but, for the most part, he doesn’t think in words. Still, he can do so, if needed.

If you’re on the rather small side, he will make an effort to pick you up, or hold you, and bring you back to base. Depending on whether you can float or not, this might be rather difficult, but he’ll try. If you’re large, however, then he will simply “tell” you to follow him. As an eldritch being you could likely either change your form or scare away anyone in your path in the first place, so he doesn’t particularly worry about anyone being stupid enough to attack you.

Spend time with him, he’ll get used to you more and more and, eventually, grow a bond with you. Proud, he’ll show you to Doc so he can figure out what you are, but do not be fooled. Hank wants to know what you are to some degree too. Once comfortable with you and certain you won’t harm him, he’ll start observing you, touching you to some degree. See how you react, how you feel, how you are.

Despite your conversations being, for the most part, one-sided, Hank will ask you directly what you are and if you’re some form of eldritch deity. Since you’re an amicable creature he can’t exactly wrap his head around, it’s worth a try.

Although he would like to do so to some degree, he won’t take you with him on missions. It’s his way of saying “I care a great deal about you, I don’t want you to die or worse even if you are capable of defending yourself.” If you really insist on aiding him, he will let you, begrudgingly. But beware that he will have your back. In fact, having you around will give him a greater reason to fight and improve his overall performance. Though, it will also be a major stress factor to him if something were to happen to you, so choose wisely.

#madness combat #madness combat x reader #hank j wimbleton #hank j wimbleton x reader #I've been into eldritch horrors and stuff ever since I was a teenager #although I don't condone his beliefs in the slightest I really like Lovecraft's writing style #at one point it influenced how I wrote as well since he was rather descriptive in a pleasant to read way #I have an anthology at home that I might wanna reread again at some point #celephais was always my favorite story and I think it may be one of my favorite stories of all time #I know it interests no one but my favorite book is No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai #and yes I did get into classic literature because of a certain anime I don't wanna tag in this post #but another book I really enjoyed reading was Clockwork Orange I read it with someone I used to be close to and it was a really good read #it gave me nightmares but I really enjoyed it! gave me something to talk about with my father as well #Hier kommt Alex by Die Toten Hosen is also a really good song! as is 1000 Gründe by the same band! #those songs are based on Clockwork Orange actually! #I never watched the movie and I don't think I ever will because eye gore disturbs me but the book was good! I read it bc of tboi! #I have quite a few classic at home! but I think I wanna finish reading Paradise Lost! That's also a really interesting story so far! #reading and writing are some of my favorite hobbies! #I'd also love to finishe the price of salt at some point as well! Because I have to all things considered! #I just wish I could juggle all of my hobbies a bit better! I wish I had a bit more time for everything! but oh well it be like that!

[justaz]

thinking about immortal merlin going to a super famous artist who is known for having super lifelike paintings a few hundred years after arthur dies and telling them their story and having the artist paint arthur just by merlin’s descriptions instead of by a recreation with his magic and just reliving his life in camelot mentally while sitting on this artists couch as they bring arthur back to life for merlin

#like the artist is known for painting the gods in their likeness #painting something so real despite the fact that the muse is something of belief and faith #merlin walking in and asking for the artist to paint a god no one knows of anymore #the artist making a comment of the name arthur sounding like a man rather than a god #and merlin going ‘he is both to me’ #merlin gets free therapy and a lifelike painting of his lost love #and the artist gets a heart wrenching love story and a bunch of money #win win #nothing else the artist paints afterwords ever lives up to their painting of arthur so they reach out to merlin #and merlin gets a bunch of portraits of everyone else from camelot #including his mother #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur #angst #i saw sad tiktoks about them and started crying #i kinda wanna write this #i won’t but #it’s a nice thought

[densitywell]

when considering Ashton's reasoning about Imogen continuing to give in to Predathos, that her being lost is inevitable and that it would be better if it happened now as opposed to later, it feels very important to remember what they said to Laudna when they first landed in Issylra, when she was terrified Imogen had become a moon-worshiping zombie in their separation: If she got blasted into space, we'll go to space. If she got vaporized, it's not like we didn't fucking find you. There is nothing else until this is dealt with. This is what we do, is we bring everybody back. Not only is nobody getting left behind very much Ashton's thing, but he specifically does not see Imogen being lost to Predathos as her being lost for good. (and tbh I agree, given how heavily the story since the start of the campaign has been leaning on her to confront this.) And even if it did, they'd still go through hell trying to get her back.

But it also makes me think of what Imogen told Ashton, after the shard; maybe this was destiny, like they thought it was. Maybe what they needed was to shatter into pieces and come back together. That same idea, of controlled burning, needing to confront something to overcome it, fuck yeah, jump into that lava and find yourself, to hurt is to heal - Ashton, we watched you break into a thousand tiny pieces. If she got vaporized, it's not like we didn't fucking bring you back.

#critical role #imogen temult #ashton greymoore #cr spoilers #this is not to say they're CORRECT about any of this btw. but i saw Takes acting like Ashton said what he said #with the belief that this would be the end of Imogen as we know her and that its inevitable she be unhappy. and like. #classic 'Ashton is deeply pessimistic and sucks bad but also you're missing something pretty fundamental abt the character' moments. #and i had already been thinking of the post shardgate moment in this context so. #crposting #cr #also i will just run back in and add that you can't just attribute the same perspective on this to ashton and orym even if they agreed #orym would be crushed if they lost imogen. but if it meant they defeated the vanguard and predathos it would be a worthwhile sacrifice #meanwhile ashton would tell the gods to go fuck themselves to their faces if the choice was between saving them and saving imogen #or any of the hells #you're so special

[orsoknox]

this is just gonna be me bsing about the pixie chicks because I’m bored

in an old archived article it states that there was supposed to be a movie where tinks friend falls in love, he dies and the girl goes to a fairy band referred to as the pixie chicks and it looks like it goes with the brain freeze Entertainment storyboards

But completely unrelated to that is the bonus dvd that was supposed to release with the TB movie

These are different from the others as they don’t seem to include any other characters than the 3 girls

now what’s weird about the “If you Believe” short is that it was produced by Attitude Studios in 2007 in France unlike Ring of belief being done in India

Attitude Studios worked on mainly motion capture projects like Renaissance (2006) and video games which is why I find it weird they did the bonus short

but there’s not only the bonus dvd itself but the test shots of the girls

I’ve been slacking recently so i haven’t found any new clips of them but I’ve at least made a list of people who should have worked on this short

The ❌s mean I’ve emailed them and they either had nothing or didn’t respond

this will be the death of me

#disney fairies #lost media #tinkerbell ring of belief #Tinkerbell #tinkerbell movies #Ring of belief

[divinekangaroo]

Was thinking while watching that scene where Pol tells Ada about her abortion.

Polly really doesn't take on the mum role in the family to my mind, or even the matriarch/aunt tbh. And I think, there was some summary somewhere that referred to her as the consigliere and while she does perform a certain bouncing-board, plan formation role with Tommy (and only with Tommy, and only with insight into certain parts of his plans; I'm struggling to think of times the others listen to her without Tommy backing her up, S3 as example of when they don't), her other behaviours in the family also mean this isn't her role at all.

She's the wild older sister who is loving and explosive and hurtful, and incredibly, incredibly fragile, afraid and she feels so very scared, vulnerable and alone, most of the time. She just wants all her loved ones to be happy and safe and in achieving that, Tommy is frequently as much of an obstacle as he is the vehicle to get her that. I do headcanon that Polly lives 99% of her life in fear and on that edge of breakdown, it's just that she's lived with it so long she probably doesn't even acknowledge it any more. Her reactivity is so high.

So yeah, it's no wonder Tommy sort of plays that joint patriarch-matriarch role (arranging marriages etc), because Polly is *not* playing the matriarch.

#her stories to ada about that feminine/mother trauma are all sort of-- #--with this tone of 'please forgive me please say you understand please say my decisions made sense' #because polly isn't certain in herself #she *acts* certain #idk #wild older sister that everyone including the youngest all have to sort of take care of #some of the way she says things about tommy that help *not at all* #like “he used to sleep out as a kid” pretending he's not out there having a complete fucking breakdown and she doesn't know what to dooooo #(though she *wants* to help she does) #every time she explains his traumas as impossible to avoid because they're gypsy and that's their lot in life #...let me get out my postcolonial lens again #->noting this is also a belief set tommy's mother also had #my headcanon polly absolutely idolised tommy's mother because she lost her mother young; following t's mum around like *her* mum #imagining tommy's mum could 'do no wrong' in pol's eyes

[cascadiums]

Keats: Poetry should be great and unobtrusive, a thing which enters into one's soul, and does not startle or amaze it with itself, but with its subject

Also Keats: For what is a squirrel but an airy pig, or a filbert but a sort of archangelical acorn?

(letter to John Reynolds, 3 Feb 1818)

#this letter is maybe my new favourite #so many beautiful thoughts and then completely lost me with the squirrel situation #yknow what? sure. hazelnuts are angel acorns. i'll incorporate that into my belief system

[unbidden-yidden]

One might wonder why I'm so specifically hung up on the driving issue on Shabbat, when I tend to be liberal on other issues. So let me explain.

In addition to the fact that it is inarguably melacha (forbidden work), I have some major ideological and just practical issues with it, too.

First, by having your community within walking distance, you create a real community. People know where others live and eat by them and socialize more and better. You don't have the immediate "pack everyone up in the car and drive off" flurry after services, but rather more leisurely conversations as you stroll home or to another person's home, or to the park, or to mincha, etc. The instant everyone lives all over and has the ability to just take off to another part of town, you ruin both the slow pace of the day as well as lose out on the closeness of community. (There's also a lot that could be said about Jewish participation in white flight from city centers and how this enables it, but that's a can of worms that I'm not sure I want to open.)

Second, it's a way of treating creation as sacred, because that is a whole 25 hours during which you are not driving your vehicle and therefore burning more fossil fuels. Shabbat is meant to be a day of rest after the seventh day of creation; what better way to honor it than by reducing your impact on the environment?

Third, for those of us who commute, it's not just symbolic work, but invokes the atmosphere of workweek work (not just melacha, which is sometimes much easier than the shabbosdik workaround.) For me, it totally ruins the Shabbos atmosphere every minute I'm in the car, because it just feels like any other day going to my job or running errands.

So even just beyond the fact that it is melacha, there are solid practical reasons to avoid driving on Shabbat.

#to be clear #I'm not judging people who observe Shabbat differently than me #that is 100% your business and your relationship to Judaism and halacha #however I a lot of people have asked me what the big deal is for me about this and treated my observance as bizarre #there are compelling reasons to not drive #and I am not a fan of how people took the driving teshuva #I've read it #basically it says that driving is forbidden melacha but that not being a Jew lost to the Jewish people is better #if you won't be lost to the community it doesn't really apply to you #which is my position re: myself now #but again I am not judging other people's observance #if for no other reason than I too occasionally have to (or choose to for one reason or another) not observe Shabbos in a traditional way #I've had to make concessions for traveling‚ mental health‚ and shalom bayit with my goyische family #it is what it is #but my strong preference and belief in the ideal is to not

[bonefall]

You have at least one religious follower!

LGBT+ Christian, so I'm kinda numb hatred from both sides, and you're not being offensive at all!

You're not even hurtful, somebody called me something really bad which amounted to "opressed loving the opressors".

Keep doing what you're doing, you're perfectly valid in your opinions and so far the most nuanced blog on warrior cats tumblr!

Jeez, I'm sorry someone ever said that to you, that's super shitty!

Like, I have my opinions and strong feelings, and a lot of distrust for organized religion because of life experience, but I don't hate religious people. I even had to cut family out of my life who kept proselytizing after I'd set boundaries; doesn't mean that ALL religious people are like that.

I write Clan spirituality in a way that tries to approach that. The Clans are a theocracy and the Leader has divine right to rule, and that's terrifying. The ancestors mean a lot to the living cats but StarClan itself is flawed. Morality changes over time as the divine shifts in response to culture.

Personal belief can be a very good and comforting thing; but religion is an invention of the living in BB, prone to human/feline flaw.

I guess it just surprises me in a positive way that I've approached it well enough to have not alienated people. It's cool to know I've been tactful enough to thread the needle I suppose.

#Don't get me wrong though I do block people I catch with actively destructive beliefs #Like transphobes. Get lost. I will add ANOTHER trans cat if you look at me funny #But not ALL Christians are like that #In fact I think most christians are just kinda culturally that way. Most people don't really think through such fundamental beliefs. #religious talk #bone babble