#loss of time

[mad--sad--bad]

dissociation is protection, but it's also a loss of time and control, and it's fear..

#bpd #dissociation #traumatized #i feel empty #lost #mentally ill #loss of control #loss of time #hate my existence #escape

[moonlit-positivity]

"Dissociation is a trauma response that involves a splitting off of your mind and body.

While it might have saved you from pain at the time, the impact can leave us feeling numb and disconnected, and on the severe end develop into Dissociative Identity Disorder.

These are some common symptoms that might suggest this is something you struggle with."

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#recovery #ptsd #trauma #mental health #healing #dissociation #DID #osdd #dissociative identity disorder #symptoms #trauma awareness #memory #loss of memory #loss of time #childhood trauma #child abuse #systems #alters #support #actually did

[the-ephemeral-ethereal]

Life, as Proust tells it, is disappointment and loss - loss of time, as his title says, and loss of youth of course; loss of freshness of vision, of belief, and of the semblance it once gave to the world; and loss of self, a loss against which we have only one safeguard, and that unsure: memory.

James Grieve, from his Introduction to In Search of Lost Time, Book 2: In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower by Marcel Proust

#in search of lost time #in the shadow of young girls in flower #marcel proust #proust #james grieve #disappointment #loss #loss of time #loss of youth #lost time #lost youth #loss of vision #lost vision #loss of belief #lost belief #loss of self #lost self #memory #loss of memory #lost memory

[dawntrailing]

#loss of time #masayoshi soken #final fantasy series #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #ffxiv: music #final fantasy xiv: a realm reborn #before the fall: final fantasy xiv original soundtrack

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[uncanny-tranny]

Fat people deserve mobility aids, too. No matter if it's connected to their fatness or not, because having a mobility issue that is connected to one's fatness won't change that they're still fat and still have the issue at hand. Fat people don't deserve to "tough it out" because fatness should be this divine punishment doled out to those who "deserve" it. Fat disabled people deserve to have the peace of mind that they can exist in whatever way is most comfortable and accessible to them

#disability #ableism #ableism tw #fatphobia #fatphobia tw #also if it's an issue solved by weight loss why would you want them to suffer until the weight loss helps wouldn't that DISCOURAGE them? #because if i were suffering the entire time i sure as fuck wouldn't want to keep going for the ~idea~ of it's gonna pay off!!! #also even if they 'made themself disabled' by being fat or anything else that doesn't matter. they're still disabled. #there is no 'good' disabled and 'bad' disabled and you cannot sort people into those categories #for every 'bad' fat disabled person there are multiple 'good' fat disabled people but you can't tell them apart often actually! #because you would have to know the intimate details of their medical history and familial lineage and tbh if you're... #...being a piece of shit to a disabled person because you assume they're guilty until proven innocent i don't blame others for being... #...weary of you and not wanting to be around you. because you've already proven you can't handle the IDEA of complex disabled experience

[rachymarie]

Idk if it's the heat lately with summer on the way but I'm having a hard time staying on track or really even getting on track in the first place. Just need to get my sleep as right as I can. I wonder if I should get my sleeping pills upped, but allegedly they cause you to be sleepy into the morning (can't say i exactly experience that, unless by "sleepy in the morning" they mean waking up at 5am or earlier with an itch to spring out of bed and consume coffee asap and get things done (the latter of which has not so much been eventuating)

Being very hyperfocusy lately, usually focusing on things that aren't exactly progressing my day's tasklist along, and making my internal concept of time even more skewed - think: the time is 9.30am, you look down and send a message (or other sitting activity), look back up 5 minutes later at the time and it is 10.30am

Time and the general collective pace of the world around me feels like one of those Salvador Dali paintings. I'm not sure if that's what he was getting at with them but i always feel like that with regards to time

#personal #hyperfocus #hyperfocus problems #poor concept of time #persistence of time #losing track of time #loss of time #autistic concept of time

[half-mad-wanderer]

My mind works in odd ways. Some more apparent than not.

My factory job closed down and I've spent a month and a half being a hermit and doing stuff that I want to, like reading, games, binging shows.

I hardly noticed it until I checked my messages for the last time stamp.

Is this what the passage of time feels like for long lived races in fantasy?

A week being a second, a month a moment, a year a quick trip?

How did my brain lose the concept of time as soon as work was a non stresser. Shit.

#time #hermit #loss of time

[plague-parade]

i feel like we dont talk enough about how distressing and disturbing memory loss issues are. forgetting what you were talking about halfway through a sentence, putting something down and instantly forgetting where you put it. having to reread one paragraph over and over again because by the time youve moved onto the next sentence you dont remember what the one before it said. always doubting if your memories of things are real, not being able to remember important life events.

its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.

“i forgot” is treated like a lazy excuse when it’s genuinely such a big issue for so many people.

#this has been building up in me for a bit #i was talking to my mom and she brought up a concert we went to and i have zero memory of ever going #huge chunks of my life are just. gone. #every time i sew i put the needle down and spend fifteen minutes trying to find it #memory loss #memory issues #cognitive issues #cognitive decline #cognitive dysfunction

[sanzundertale]

babygirl i will invent stages of grief you have never seen before

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #so that ending huh! #this has been sitting in my drafts for months #i’ve been waiting for something to emotionally devastate me enough to post this and!! yeah!!!!!! this applies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #losing my mind #i was stunned i was at a loss for words #need season 3 on a flash drive and plugged into my brain STAT I CANT DO THIS #AUUUGGGGGHHH #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #ineffable partners #time to open ao3 and pretend everything is fine!

[sinfulpatata]

meeting your past self be like:

yllz: midget.

mxy!wwx: virgin.

lwj, being smothered by tits: mn.

#based on that one time travel fic #mxy! wwx's ponytail compensates for the height loss lololol #chen qing ling #cql #mdzs fanart #mo dao zu shi #the untamed #wei wuxian #hanguang jun #lan wangji #lwj #wangxian #魔道祖师动画 #忘羡 #mdzs fandom #yiling laozu #wwx #lwj x wwx #mxtx mdzs #mxtx novels

[shadow-bender]

Please pray and raise awareness for Cole Brings Plenty, a Lakota actor and student. He was found on april 5th. This is such an awful and cruel act of violence, im having a hard time finding the words.

April 8th Rising Hearts has organized Braids for Cole, so please wear your hair in braids and bring awareness so that Cole and his family can get justice.

*edited to correct information*

#cole brings plenty #missing and murdered indigenous relatives #i went to undergrad with cole. i only met him a couple times and didnt really know him #indian country is a small place #and the haskell community especially #idk where im going with these tags #i feel so at a loss. the violence against our people its #its fucking awful #anyways #please raise awarness and also wear braids tomorrow

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a couple scribbles i cleaned up. also i think i like drawing him in varying states of distress

#i desperately want to know what happened the first time he cried #actually is that something he can do? is he capable of it? #i feel like he wouldn't like it... #since crying is messy and we all know he enjoys/values his appearance greatly #i mean cmon. its an involuntary loss of composure. and especially if he doesnt understand what/why its happening #so in my mind rn hed be idk... kinda desperate to stop crying & act fine? #HES SO FASCINATING. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM <3 #many things probably! #what to do when you're a puppet created as a blank slate while everyone around you already Knows Shit and Understands Feelings #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #wally darling #i know there's a lot of Head Empty jokes abt him #but honestly he gives the vibes of thinking constantly #always absorbing information and considering and learning and Forming Opinions #he LOOKS head empty. but he isnt. #i just cant imagine him never not Thinking #unless he really is head empty in which case. good for him. i support him no matter what. hes just like me<3

[bluegiragi]

holding back (part 2)

early access + nsfw on patreon

#just captain/lieutenant things #ghost and price are an on-and-off-again thing #they take care of each other when it comes up #and sometimes to just relieve stress #they have shared trauma from the loss of price's wing #and simon's whole...wraith business #they've known each other for a long time #and were getting closer before simon's incident but afterwards sort of hurtled into each other #it was really intense and co-dependent for a while but it's levelled out now #one day i will do an explanation post on all the dynamics of poly 141 in this au #in the meantime just enjoy price taking care of his hoard #monster 141 au #ghostprice #captain john price #simon ghost riley #cod mw2 #giragi art

[heartseventysixbooks]

Time and death

DEATH happened in our bedroom, it was time for your afternoon nap, it was 1 PM on a Sunday, my dearest you left me. My youngest boy is deep into his forties and crying out to his Mom. CPR with oxygen, nothing, time was slowing down, I saw her turn blue her blotched face with deepening blue lips, the paramedics pushed us away, and I sat numb near the doorway, in the haze of activity. Guilt would come, and cut me deep but not yet, the time was almost frozen and more people were arriving, the police, our children, your sister, and daughter-in-law were shocked white as the sheet over you. I am alone I walk the few steps to my wife, she's laying on the floor, I want to pull back the sheet to see her face, I must, tears are running down my face, your face is still and you are not suffering, if there is heaven your soul is there.

#Real death #CPR #Paramedics Cops #sobbing #loss of time #numbing pain

[sidras-tak]

#sparklepants #for me it’s the memory loss #never seen that trope done well. ever. and I’m actively mad about it every time it happens #tv tropes #narrative tropes #there’s like no good way to tag this huh #but I do want to know everyone’s thoughts #also hoping I didn’t miss something obvious as a choice