#for me it’s the memory loss

[sidras-tak]

#sparklepants #for me it’s the memory loss #never seen that trope done well. ever. and I’m actively mad about it every time it happens #tv tropes #narrative tropes #there’s like no good way to tag this huh #but I do want to know everyone’s thoughts #also hoping I didn’t miss something obvious as a choice

[plague-parade]

i feel like we dont talk enough about how distressing and disturbing memory loss issues are. forgetting what you were talking about halfway through a sentence, putting something down and instantly forgetting where you put it. having to reread one paragraph over and over again because by the time youve moved onto the next sentence you dont remember what the one before it said. always doubting if your memories of things are real, not being able to remember important life events.

its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.

“i forgot” is treated like a lazy excuse when it’s genuinely such a big issue for so many people.

#this has been building up in me for a bit #i was talking to my mom and she brought up a concert we went to and i have zero memory of ever going #huge chunks of my life are just. gone. #every time i sew i put the needle down and spend fifteen minutes trying to find it #memory loss #memory issues #cognitive issues #cognitive decline #cognitive dysfunction

[sapsuckers-and-stardust]

Watching Star Trek IV

Whale biologist: why do you hang around with that weird guy who calls you admiral and why are you so close?

Kirk: *hesitates*

Whale biologist, who lives in San Francisco in the 80s and is rapidly drawing many correct conclusions: that’s okay we don’t have to talk about it.

#she really said oh y’all’s are gay okay #Spock really was not giving off ‘straight Everyman’ in this film #the entire crew are dressed in different flavors of extremely homosexual #this movie is glorious #memory loss Spock is making me wanna cry tbh #it’s so gay (fun) instead of gay(tragic and insane) like the other three #star trek #star trek tos #spock #tos spock #james t kirk #k/s #spirk #tos spirk #star trek iv: the voyage home #the one with the whales

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #better drawn mdzs #(<- my higher effort art tag. I need to get a new one.) While it's different from my usual style I really loved how this came out! #Strolling back to the art scene to remind everyone I am still a lover of botanicals. #I had a blast with the symbolism for this one: #White lilium longiflorum (easter lily) for rebirth. Purple hyacinthus orientalis for sorrow and forgiveness. #Red spider lily (Lycoris radiata) for loss and death. #'Rebirth into something new' is so well done in Dungeon Meshi. She is back but she is not the same. #The last few episodes/chapters gives her this dreamy quality to her. As if she's not quite real. She's so perfect in their memories. #And as we know of dreams - no matter how sweet- they must end once we wake up. #It is so painful to lose someone twice. To see someone you loved in a dream and wake up and remember that loss again. #Dungeon Meshi being a grief allegory is important to me. I'll explain more as the story continues B'*)

[youstillsaiditsname]

i think i loved you, but i guess i'll never really know

joan tierney / death cab for cutie / sylvie baumgartel / the crane wives / @araekni / khalid hosseini / lev st valentine / wendy cope / richard siken (reordered)

#web weaving #joan tierney #death cab for cutie #sylvie baumgartel #the crane wives #araekni #khalid hosseini #lev st valentine #wendy cope #richard siken #love #loss #grief #it's about. not knowing if it ever really was love. and not having the time to figure it out #do i really love you or do i love the memory of you. did i really love you. was it just love or Love #i didnt know then and now i will never know and every night i am dancing with your ghost in the hope that one day it will tell me

[varilien]

wednesday was the 1000th day since the fateful afternoon my roommate asked to see the space cowboy show i apparently used to talk about a lot and i wanted to do a big illustrated piece to celebrate but my job keeps me from drawing anything at all !!!!!!!

anyways i've been missing vash so so so so so bad u guys can anybody hear me it's so dark in here.

lines also cuz i really like how his hair turned out :3 reminds me of the couple shoujo manga i read as a kid teehee

#trigun #trigun anime #trigun fanart #vash #vash the stampede #this is just extra details over an old doodle i posted before i haven't had time for anything else #i'm losing my mind <3 it is all so bad you guys <3 #okay but really i could NOT remember ever talking about trigun at all but i can even look back through old dms #and see how many times 2018 forward id just randomly bring it up to ppl fhdjdjjd #even with insane memory loss problems apparently trigun keeps its hold on me For Ever lol

[zishuge]

The only thing I remember is killing people. You say I'm someone who saves people. I won't kill you — but I don't believe you either. Do you think I'm a fool? You're not a fool. Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023) | Ep. 20

#mysterious lotus casebook #莲花楼 #li lianhua #di feisheng #cheng yi #xiao shunyao #cdrama #cdramaedit #cdramasource #asiandramasource #mlcedit #*gifs:mine #the fact that this is one of the rare occasions that li lianhua is actually being honest #because di feisheng ///did/// try to save him #(he didn't succeed but... semantics. *li lianhua voice* it doesn't matter. also — not too important.) #at the same time he's employing the honesty in the middle of taking advantage of his memory loss to get him to do his bidding #this man is unbelievable. #BUT what's even more unbelievable is that despite the manipulation #his smile at the end is 100% sincere. #and it says i know you; you know me #you see — we're a matching set #you have me written in your palm; i have you running in my veins #i know we all like to joke that li lianhua physically cannot stop himself from telling lies every time he opens his mouth #but actually sometimes #even when he's telling lies #he cannot help but be genuine #and every time i think about it too much i want to run into traffic

[asoftepiloguemylove]

on memory and loss

Haruki Murakami Norwegian Wood / Call Me by Your Name (2018) dir. Luca Guadagnino / Ocean Vuong On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous / Sea Wolf The Garden That You Planted / Ocean Vuong On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous / Vladimir Nabokov / Theodore Roethke Straw for the Fire: From the Notebooks of Theodore Roethke / The Truman Show (1998) dir. Peter Weir / Amal El-Mohtar This is How You Lose the Time War

#on memory #on loss #on remembering #web weaving #poetry compilation #haruki murakami #norwegian wood #call me by your name #luca guadagnino #ocean vuong #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #sea wolf #teh garden that you planted #vladimir nabokov #theodore roethke #straw for the fire #the truman show #peter weir #amal el mohtar #this is how you lose the time war #poem #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #words #dark academia poetry #dark academia quote #dark academia #writing #poetry

[snekdood]

#covid #covid19 #health #healthcare #gastrointestinal #GI tract #serotonin #ssri #coronavirus #fatigue #memory loss #gastrointestinal tract #long covid #thank u person who rb'd this that gave me the idea to add that tag #honestly really obvious choice in retrospect but oh well

[phoen1xr0se]

Someone on a Facebook GO group made this meme and I kid you not, I howled with laughter 🤣

Not long to go now!

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[masonjarart]

“I have a family?”

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY WHERE GIVING HIM BACK HIS MEMORIES #Your telling me if he lived he would have had his memories back only to watch them get stipped away again #YOUR TELLING ME HE ONLY KNEW THERE WHERE PEOPLE WHO LOVED HIM WHO WOULD MISS HIM AS HE BEGGED FOR HIS DEATH #RANBOO WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS #i am so unwell #gl!ranboo #genloss #generation loss #generation loss fanart #gen loss spoilers #generation loss spoilers #gen loss fanart

[badwolfarcadiabay]

#Percy pay your child support Jackson #Percy no thanks to immortal godhood Jackson #percy jackson #percy jackson show #pjo #pjo fandom #pjo series #meme #percy jackson memes #demigods #the fact that Percy’s beef with ares transcends memory loss sends me #how’s your ankle #it’s Tuesday!! #which still gives me spn Tuesday trauma lol but if I hadddd to wake up and everyday was Tuesday rn it’d be chill cuz pjo airs #it’d be an eternal watch party

[furiousgoldfish]

my brain @ me: you will get your memories... when I decide they're relevant. Maybe not even then. However,,, anytime is a good time to repeat the same traumatic flashback that you already know about. I will do that more, just in case.

#osdd #cptsd #ptsd #flashbacks #memory loss #missing memories #brain only giving me the shitty stuff #and gatekeeping useful info #did

[azulhood]

Johnny 13 accidentally gains a brother.

He didn't plan for this to happen, it just did!

He was visiting his hometown, hanging around crime alley when a street rat tried to steal his bike having not noticed him.

The kid was in the middle of trying to Hotwire his bike when he couldn't help but comment. "It's the other wire, that one sets the alarm off."

"Thanks." The kid replied distractedly letting go of the slightly glowing green wire and reaching for the faintly glowing red wire.

A quiet pause.

The kid slowly turned his head so that he was looking into Johnny's eyes. "This is your bike, ain't it?" The kid asked having realised he wasn't alone.

Johnny smiled with maybe one too many teeth but luckily the kid didn't seem phased "Yep."

The kid nodded as if it was just his luck. "Ya gonna beat me up?"

"Nah, it's not like I ain't Hotwire my own fair share." He wasn't worried that the kid would steal his bike, and if the kid managed to pull it off the bike would just return to him.

"Come on kid, let's get something to eat." The kid narrowed his eyes in suspicion as Johnny walked away, that's fine, it was the kid's choice if he followed or not.

Curiosity and hunger seemed to win out as the kid fell in step beside him.

Johnny found the nearest bat burger (they weren't around when he was alive and not something he'd ever really get used to) and got a family meal with money he had 'burrowed' from the residents of Amity Park.

"Why you doing this?" The kid questioned after devouring three burgers and starting on his fourth.

Johnny shrugged. "Just know what it's like to go hungry is all." He didn't really know, maybe it was because the kid reminded him of himself or maybe it was just Phantom was rubbing off on him.

It was time for them to go their separate ways once the meal was finished and the few leftovers hidden away.

His bike was right where he left it "hey, kid. What's your name?" Johnny asked as he started the ignition.

The kid stared right into his eyes, like he was weighing Johnny's worth. "Jason."

"Jason Todd" The kid said it slow, like each word was a mistake.

Jason Todd,huh? Johnny committed it to memory. "Name's Johnny, kid." He gave back. "I'll see you around."

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After that it became a sort of habit to find the kid, buy him food and listen to whatever was happening in town, whenever he visited Gotham.

The other ghosts thought it was funny, one of them even jokingly said "welcome to parenthood."

But it didn't feel like Jason was his kid. It felt more like... Having a little brother.

Yeah, that was it.

One day Johnny rolled into Gotham with a crisp one hundred in his pocket, unknowingly donated by the Manson family, fullly intending on buying Jason some new clothes, probably a few books, and maybe a new lock pick set.

But he couldn't find him.

Johnny searched crime alley top to bottom, he checked the police headquarters, checked every bat burger, checked the docks.

He ignored the growing pit of worry that in his chest.

Johnny finally found Jason in a swanky mansion that was obviously owned by someone who could give plasmius a run for his money.

Jason, book worm that he was, was found sitting in the mansions library.

Really one of these days Johnny should introduce him to Ghostwriter, they'd get along great.

"Hey, kid."

Jason jumped and whatever book he was reading fell out of his hands.

He lit up once he saw who it was. "Johnny, you're here!" That excitement turned to fear and worry "You can't be here, what if you get caught?"

Johnny waved the kid's worry away. "Don't sweat it, nobody sees me if I don't want'em to." Then it was Johnny's turn to be concerned. "What happened, I couldn't find you in crime alley."

Jason's face went through a complicated range of emotions. "I got adopted by Bruce Wayne."

Johnny's eyes flashed, he knew the horror stories about adoption. "He treating you okay?" The man would never breathe again if he wasn't.

Seeing the possible murder scene, Jason eased his worries. "Yeah, he's fine, it's just a bit weird."

Homicide prevented for now.

Johnny took a seat across from the kid in a chair that was probably worth more then Johnny owned living or dead. "Alright, fill me in."

And Jason did.

Johnny learned about how he was caught stealing the wheels off the Batmobile (he couldn't tell if that was bravery or stupidity) by the Batman which somehow led to Bruce Wayne adopting him.

"I think his other kid doesn't like me much, but it ain't bad here." Jason said as he finished his story.

Johnny quietly nodded as he absorbed the information and thought about where to go from here.

He had planned on getting Jason a nice home (woulda offered his own haunt if the living could live in the ghost zone) preferably in Amity where he could meet everyone. (Kitty would love him)

Here Jason had the chance to never go hungry, get into good schools, always have what he needed.

This situation was...ideal.

Even if Johnny wasn't happy with it. "You happy here?" What mattered was that Jason was.

Jason visibly thought about it. "...Yeah...I am."

And the decision was made.

"You know you can come to me for anything, right? If you want to get out of here or just want someone to talk to." Johnny needed the kid to know that.

Jason rolled his eyes but replied. "Yeah, Johnny, I know."

So Johnny left reluctantly feeling like he was making a mistake somehow.

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Johnny was fighting Phantom with Kitty when he felt it.

He felt Jason die.

And Johnny s c r e a m e d

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He nearly tore apart the ghost zone in his search for Jason's ghost.

There was no way that Jason didn't form a ghost with the amount of time exposed to Johnny's ectoplasmic self.

Kitty helped him search, everyone helped him search, even Phantom.

But he couldn't find his little brother.

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Then he felt it.

He felt Jason come back to life.

He didn't know the details and he didn't care. All that mattered was that the kid was alive.

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He tried to search the living realm for the kid, which would have been made a ton easier if the GIW wasn't shooting at him every ten minutes.

At some point he gave up looking and waited instead.

Jason would find his way home to Gotham at some point, all Johnny had to do was wait.

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Johnny knew the second Jason stepped into the fair city of Gotham.

He broke many speeding limits and traffic laws on his way there but he didn't care.

Especially when he saw Jason on the streets, he looked different but Johnny would know that kid anywhere.

Johnny opened his mouth to call out.

But then Jason with him and his mouth snapped shut with a click.

There wasn't even a glimmer of recognition in Jason's eyes.

His brother didn't remember him.

#dpxdc #dcxdp #Jason Todd #Johnny 13 #me: ooooh Johnny and Jason knowing each other is a cool idea #also me:...how do I make it hurt more? oh! memory loss!

[luthienne]

Emily LaBarge, from her essay The Schedule of Loss, as featured in Granta Magazine

#too immaterial for the rituals of mourning we have available..... scream. #emily labarge #the schedule of loss #noli me tangere #words #essays #typography #the great wound #on memory #!!!! #the body as a haunted house

[lichcrybaby]

#astarion needs a hug but so does durge #durge has headaches and nightmares and sleep deprivation and brain damage and memory loss and shes just like me frfr #durgestarion #bg3 fanart #bg3 #durge x astarion #baldur's gate 3 #artists on tumblr #my art #sketch #digital art #bg3 durge #this is somewhere between a sketch and overworked might finish it more eventually but need to stop poking at it for now