#not me breaking my hiatus because of this newsletter

[croissantbae]

June 1, 2023

June 1, 2023 Now that I’m taking a hiatus from my book I am crushingggggg shows. Yday I watched the glory. Today I started watching 39. I also watched jury duty. Jason and I need to watch heart signal this weekend.  I have some terrible news re my menstual cup journey. I got a gnarly uti. Like the worst I have ever had I think. I got meds and I cannot wait for the antibiotics to work / kick in because it’s killing me a little bit. Now I am very fearful of using the menstrual cup again. Maybe I’ll give it a break for a month or two and if I feel brave try it again then.  It’s already June 1. Wow. We got the newsletter for June at Nayas school and her birthday is listed as one of the birthdays for this month. So cute. I’m gonna keep it simple and throw a cake decorating party with a piñata at her school and leave it at that. The next day is playpie. 

[vampireantihero]

This Weeks' Newsletter

Good morning, y’all! I hope that you all had a fantastic weekend and, if you celebrate, a good Easter. It was a nice weekend here, so my husband and I took care of a bunch of outdoor errands and responsibilities this weekend. Sometimes the snow can linger until May in our area, so it’s nice to be able to be outside for a real spring. Before I get too far into my rambles for the week, let me post this weeks’ schedule:

Twitch Hiatus

As you can see from the schedule, Twitch streams are suspended until further notice. I’m going to be handling them on a week by week basis, but as it stands right now I’m desperately needing a little bit of downtime. There’s a few reasons for this, but it boils down to this — I do not have a lot of time right now. Between personal commitments, freelancing, and other things that I’m doing, I’m often working far more than I should be. The only down time I’ve had has been regulated to a few hours on Sundays, (to the point that we’ve been eating dinner at about 10pm on weekdays because of how busy we’ve both been) so I’m taking time for mental health reasons (I need a break). Responsibilities and commitments to other things have been ramping up as well.

Until I get my time and stress levels a little bit more under control, Twitch is going to be hit or miss for me. If you want to cancel subs, I totally understand. I will still be active with art, and potentially pop up with art streams if I feel inclined to, until I end the hiatus. Keep an eye on the weekly schedules; I’ll be updating them still and I will include whether or not I plan to pop up on them, as always.

My Little Brother

For those of you who have been following along, you know my little brother was diagnosed with cancer and had a surgery to remove the tumor at the end of January. From what I know, he’s still in a wheelchair, but he is doing well and still currently going through treatments for the type of cancer that he has. More information can be found at my mother’s gofundme, here.

Other Commitments

If y’all have been following along, then you also know my theatre troupe has come out of hiatus. We’re working hard on a new show that goes up in June, and we’ve hit the point of the year where we need to build stage props, source ones we’re not making by hand, create PR and marketing materials, and other such things.

Another thing that we have to do before our show goes up, is paint the space we’re currently renting for the show. We do our theatre in a black box, in the round, instead of pro-scenium. What this means, is that instead of being on a raised stage with all the audience on one side of the performance, our stage is in the center of a series of chairs. The room is also usually black with sparse set design. We offer small shows, with a maximum seating of around 25 people, which allows us to rent smaller spaces. The space we’re currently rehearsing in and due to perform the play in is currently painted an extremely saturated yellow, and we need to paint it black. We’ll be doing that this week, but with how big the room is, it will likely take a while!

Here are some pictures of the room:

Honestly, I can’t wait to paint this room. It’s going to be a much nicer space when we have it the color that we need. As you can see, the vinyl is taped off at the bottom already (my husband and I prepped the room on sunday, and our troupe should be starting to paint Tuesday.)

Portfolio Redesign

Lastly, I’d like to touch on the fact that I’m starting to redesign my portfolio. I haven’t done much finished work lately because of having my hands in slightly too many pots, so a lot of my work right now is outdated and/or studies I’ve done in the last few months. Some of the bigger illustrations I’ve done lately, I haven’t done to the quality of work that I know I can do. Because of that, I’m taking the last few drawings I’ve done and re-doing them. I’m also taking time to actually draw out planning stages of some of the items I’m drawing in such a way that shows my thought processes, as well as drawing certain aspects multiple times and variants of designs.

I’ll be sharing these as I finish them, and I’ll also be sharing high resolutions on Ko-Fi available to members. I also may be putting together some tutorials/walkthroughs/paint alongs with some of the things that I draw, though that is something that’s entirely dependent on whether or not I have the time to compile something with decent quality.

Closing Thoughts

So, that’s everything that’s going on this week! I’m sorry for the lack of Twitch streams this week, hopefully I can be back to it next week, but that depends on time and energy levels. I’m excited to see where my journey takes me, and I’m happy if you choose to follow along. I’m going to tack on to my usual sign off here and add — give yourself grace, and give the people around you grace. Things are hard for a lot of people right now, and the world is really crazy. So, as I always say with these things, I hope that you all take care of yourselves. Drink your water, and do what you can.

I love you all.

(Quick reminder that if you’d like to get this straight to your inbox, you can sign up for the newsletter here.)

#my stuff #newsletter #weekly newsletter #artist #digital artist #art streamer #twitch hiatus

[ilreleonewikia13]

Hey! hello everyone look at that, I am not dead!

I know it's been a while since I've posted anything about CLM, so that's why I decided to write this special post as if it were a kind of newsletter to explain to you all what's been going on these past few months to shed some light on the current status of my fanfic.

The original one was published on CLM wiki on AO3, but I wanted to post it even here so everyone can read it.

To make a long story short when I last greeted you by saying that because of my exams I had a lot of time to devote to writing the new chapter, I sincerely intended to be back by the beginning of September. But fate had other plans for me, because - in the middle of my summer session - I got an email from my university informing me that I have been accepted to go on Erasmus in September and thus in less than a month I was supposed to leave for Belgium. To make a long story short, in less than 30 days I had to prepare the documents for the trip, look for and find accommodation from home, get the tickets: it was so hectic and unexpected that I even almost didn't leave at all! But in the end I made it and I am writing this post to you in my room in Belgium.

So I hope that some way all this can give a justification for my so prolonged essence: this is to tell you that the break I took from writing was not due to the fact that I did not want to continue but for logistical reasons I just did not have the time nor the psychological state to put myself to work on this story. However, I made all this nice introduction to announce that I am finally working on the writing of chapter 15 and that if all goes well I will finish it by mid-November and maybe publish it before the end of the month I will try to make it as long as possible so that this very long wait of almost three months will be lowered for me. This last chapter that closes the third part of this story is quite an important watershed and there will be some very intense and powerful moments even stronger than the previous chapter. So this fanfic will not be left to itself , even if it has been on hiatus for longer than I had planned: Beth and Benny will be back very soon and with almost normal rhythm even if seeing how the world goes here and how the bureaucracy of Italian universities goes I am not promising anything...so fingers crossed and see you soon!

I would still like to spend a few words to thank all those readers who have been waiting and who whenever they could have scrolled over the Beth x Benny tag to check if there was a new update and who with perseverance have been waiting for the continuation. I hope you read this post and know how much your love has been one of the regions why I go on to write and create new stories. Your support is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life

#ilreleonewikia #meme #aesthetic #europe #the queen's gambit #writer journal #update #fanfic #cowboy like me #ao3 stuff #beth harmon #benny watts #new chapter

[allofthestairs]

thoughts™ on the newsletter, a ®ant.

(lots of rambles, so please—disregard anything and/or everything i say)

the elephant in the room literally what is the snippet. i don't want to draw too many conclusions because what we've been given is an out of context bite from the draft of what's going to be a massive book. however... there is just so much to think about.

why is matthew blaming anna for "ruining London’s women for London’s men"? how is anna at fault for the rigid misogynistic conventions around virginity of her era? anna isn't "ruining London's women"; London's men are considering them ruined. it's not anna's fault that her partners (and herself) are looked down upon for (1) being sapphic and (2) having sex outside of marriage. Perhaps matthew is speaking in a tounge-in-cheek manner? the snippet was obviously cut out of a larger conversation (hence why matthew starts with "Regardless"). even then, it seems off for a man—who's one of "London's men" no less—to make a derogatory joke about lesbianism.

let's look at the second part of that quote: "for London’s men." This sits so wrong with me. it defines lesbian sexuality (i. e. the act of "ruining London's women" [hey, those are cc's words—not mine]) in terms of men. Sure, London's men don't want London's women to be with anna. But, when the act of anna, a woman, seducing another woman is equated with "ruining London's women", anna is "[having sex with other women] for London's men."

matthew says that anna "had gone entirely out of circulation" like she's a library book or something. if you look "objectification" up in the dictionary, you'll find this newsletter's cot snippet.

the elephant in the sanctuary

Thomastair content? In Cassandra Clare's official newsletter? It's more likely than you think!

wait, what was that? we're only getting thomastair content because it's Pride Month (and also, in parentheses, the scene is a fan favorite). you've gotta love how we're getting gay representation, not because queer stories themselves matter, but primarily because it's June, the month of queer exploitation disguised as activism (oh, and also some important events in lgbtq+ history or something)

hey, at least alastair isn't white-washed in this one!

the elephant in the store

yay for donating profits from pride merch to actual queer people. it could be more than just $4 per necklace, and cc could have, of course, just donated to the Black Travel Trans Fund without being a ✨rainbow capitalist✨, but you tried, i guess

nevertheless, the whiplash from "You [cc's lgbtq+ readers] are all so important, and deserve so much love." to 'buy this necklace, gays!' is... disappointing. it just makes you think: why does cc say her queer fans matter? is it because we're people with complex and interesting stories that deserve to be represented in her media? or is it because we buy her merch? before you answer, consider how the gay tlh characters were sidelined in coi and that there has yet to be a shadowhunters main series with a queer mc.

Now, i want to make it clear that this one newsletter doesn't prove anything. i'm not saying that cassandra clare is 100% homophobic. i'm not saying that matthew is lesbophobic. i just want to discuss some of the things in this newsletter that irked me.

that being said, i'm not saying that cc or her work doesn't have homophobic tendencies. Tendencies that this newsletter definitely plays into. while some of cc's work (malec) has been instrumental in the landscape of lgbtq+ rep in its genre, that was over a decade ago. you look at the most recent queer character in tsc, and what do you have? well, there's a wannabe-magnus-bane, flirts-with-anything bisexual, a lesbian who's defining characteristic is her sexual relations with women, a gay couple that gets 1 romantic scene in a 656 page book that's otherwise about how hard it is to be in heterosexual love, and two characters being looked down upon for staying closeted for their own safety.

#not me breaking my hiatus because of this newsletter #the shadowhunter chronicles #the last hours #chain of iron #chain of thorns #chain of thorns spoilers #anti matthew fairchild #anti cassandra clare #tw q word #tw homophobia #tw sex mention #tw lesbophobia #thomastair #cassandra clare #essoftheay

[pasttorn]

      -- SHORP. mega quick update on what’s up with me & a mini announcement that i’d LOVE if y’all could spare a couple minutes to look through ( & maybe consider joining or sharing with a friend y’all feel would be interested ! ). 

        -- EVEN if y’all don’t care about me as a mun / blog, at least skim the announcement section bc it’s important to me & where i am rn ! 

     UPDATE ! !

       -- SINCE december, i’ve started college ! ! the saving up year of college at least, bc the college i’m in has this thing where if we don’t have enough money to pay for the tuition fee ( which rly is just, money for us to spend throughout our first year & our trips & other expenses like food or gasoline ) we can join the saving up year & they’ll give us a job to earn the money. & while i was a bit more free before, they finally found a job for me at the canteen, which means i’m off cooking with the head chef for literally the entire day for the whole campus-- which is largely the reason i haven’t written much or said anything here ! !

      -- I’M trying as hard as i can to manage my time better in order to not be so tired / drained at the end of the day, in order to try to write something here or spend time with closer rp friends, but between moving to a new place ( since i’m living in the campus now, which is in a whole different country to where i was ! ) & getting used to the job & getting to know my teammates / classmates that i’m gonna be working with the next four+ years, it’ll take me a lil’ bit longer to try to get this blog up & running again. 

       -- FOR those wondering, i’m NOT dropping this blog & i’m not dropping any of the threads / asks i have saved up unless my rp partners don’t wanna keep writing them anymore, because this blog is too important for me to just give it up, but i am gonna be quiet / on a mini hiatus a lil’ bit longer. if any ship partners ( be it platonic or romantic ) that have a close relation w/ my muse want to break things up & move on, then even though it’d sadden me to see it end, i’d understand, because i cannot guarantee i’ll be the most active in plotting or thinking about our muses relationships & it might take some more time before i can go back to ‘ normal ‘ here-- but if y’all are willing to wait a bit longer, then i’d love it if we could continue it. if you don’t, then please tell me so we can make changes at some point because the last thing i want is for y’all to feel i’m neglecting you or your muse, which is not my intention & i apologise if i ever made y’all feel that way.

     ANNOUNCEMENT ! !

       -- TIME to promote the college i’m currently studying at ! ! or am gonna be studying at in september, at least ishuegrdfmkcvx. the college is DNS Necessary Teacher’s Training Programme, & it’s a college dedicated to training teachers ! ! honestly i’ve only been in the campus for a month now, & from the chats i’ve had with people from other years & from graduates & from my teammates in general, i can already tell it’s gonna be a worth it sort of experience. in their own words, we’re all not looking to be the ‘ traditional ‘ type of teachers, & are learning by experiencing & travelling-- the first year we travel to africa, & in the second year we ( your school year team ) picks a country in europe to live in & work in ! ! 

       -- IF you don’t have enough money, that’s alright ! you can join the saving up year, & earn the money here yourself ( & in the chance you don’t make enough, the team is here to pay the difference if we can ). if you’re worried you’re too young or too old for the programme, let me just tell you that in the 2021 school team ( the year i’m in ) the ages range from 18 to 27. if you’re worried about previous experiences, just know that this my first time in a college or even getting a job, & we’re all ! ! willing to help with anything as a team. all you really need is the drive to be committed to the programme & to the team-- because you are going to be busy almost all day, & it might get tough to deal with sometimes, & you need to know what you’re comfortable with or are not comfortable with doing.

       -- I was very nervous before coming bc rly, i’m an introverted fool that still doesn’t know what i want out of life even though i’m 21 & should know at this point, & even had a breakdown the first night i got here bc i was in a new place on my own & didn’t know what the fuck i was getting into & was so afraid of disappointing everyone, but god everyone here is super welcoming & understanding about everything. since the month i’ve been here, i’ve made friends that also very much love anime, have found out that sexuality ( or the lack thereof ) is openly discussed & accepted, there’s a D&D group & there’s just, a bunch of creativity everywhere. & yeah, it can be overwhelming sometimes, but there’s always someone in the team who would be willing to spend time with you & to help you out with whatever you may need, because in the end we’re all dealing with the same things. i’ve even gotten along with people from other school years ( that started their studies in 2020 or 2018 ), & honestly you can’t even tell they’re in a different year at times bc everyone is always so kind & open about everything.

     -- I’M not gonna lie, i’ve only been here a month for the saving up, & so far all of this feels like a real life acnh adventure, where everyone in the team is the mayor. wild comparison but everyone is so welcoming & we all live in the campus & see each other every day, that it really feels like interacting with other villagers & the money we make goes to maintaining the college / the community / our team, so it very much feels like i’m the mayor / mc in anch trying to decorate the island / make it better idK

          LINKS to check out ! ! 

Quick 3 min video ! ! ! pls watch ! ! !

WEBSITE

FACEBOOK PAGE

INSTAGRAM

NEWSLETTER

       -- IF you have any questions about the programme or what it’s like to study here, pls don’t be afraid to hit me up in DM’s either on here or on disc//ord ( SHORP#8549 ) ! ! i’d be more than happy to answer any questions or share images / videos bc god, it’d be so cool if one of y’all or someone y’all know would be interested in the programme ! 

#『 ☆ OOC → ‘ SHORP BACK AT IT AGAIN ‘ 』 #psa tag #LONG POST // #our goal is to have at least 19-20-ish students in our school year & we currently have 11+. so we're trying our best to promote the college #bsuiegrndfkmvc feel free to ignore if y'all want to #but i'd love if you could at least skim the announcement part ! ! ! #bUT YEAH I'M ! ! ! TRYNG MY BEST TO COME BACK HER EBUT IT'S BEEN WILD & CHAOTIC IN TRYING TO ORGANISE MY TIME BC everytime im done cooking #i'm just so friggin' tired to think about typing & kinda just end up watching vids before just crashing iHGUSDJNFKZCXM but i'm starting to #get used to it kinda so maybe i'll try writing something soon if i get a free day or something ! ! ! ! ! #bc you do get a free day every week where you can just. spend time to be yourself & to give yourself time to recover / relax #& i'm making it sound very hard but rly it's just ? ? me challenging myself bc personally i don't like the thought of lacking ?? or doing a #half assed job in the kitchen bc i'm helping cook lunch & dinner & it'll affect everyone in the campus & i wanna do my best to make #lunch & dinner a good experience for everyone & just hnNNGGGG it's tough but also fun to try to challenge myself like this idk #it's a nice experience isugrjdfkmvc #but yeah i'm mostly chatting in discord ( & even that is rare ) nowadays until i can try to organise myself a lil' better

[thepermanentrainpress]

EVERYBODY LOVES FIN: EPISODE 19

Canucks Twitter has never been more passionate, divisive and heavily opinionated; let’s go with an all-encompassing—vibrant. Any fan base is a community of people with thoughts to share, and luckily for others, content to create for a wider audience. I have to admit, I’ve been largely on the outside of Canucks Twitter, merely because I tend to direct my opinions to a TV screen rather than on social media. That being said, lately my sister, Pass it to Bulis contributor and Botchford Project recipient, Natalie Hoy, has been encouraging me to listen to more Canucks-centric podcasts. It’s been a fun time.

2010s: Does Vancouver really need two all-sports radio stations? 2020s: Does Vancouver really need 741 Canucks podcasts?

— Jyrki21 (@Jyrki21)

June 9, 2020

The world of ‘audio blogging’ has only grown over the past few years. Listeners are able to multi-task - exercising, cooking, cleaning, driving or on public transit - while plugged in to a new episode on practically any personal device. It’s a form of entertainment, often interactive, and a perfect creative outlet for amateur (and experienced) broadcasters looking for a new project. There is no shortage of podcasts courtesy of Canucks Twitter, a testament to the commitment and drive of fans, and the accessibility of the art form. With the Qualifying Round of the Stanley Cup Playoffs just about underway, there is much to be talked about. Let’s take a look at what’s out there.1

C4 Podcast

Founded: July 2013

Players: Chris Golden (@lyteforce), Anna Forsyth (@aforsyth03),Matt Lee (@mattlee_61)

Premise: The longest-running, active Canucks podcast (birthed from Canucks Hockey Blog) has been on-air for 7 years! Originally co-hosted by Chris and parody song creator Clay Imoo (@CanuckClay), the podcast offers commentary about current Canucks and NHL affairs, prospects, expectations, reminiscing on the team’s past (memories of the retired taco lover Eddie Lack and past playoff runs), and features interviews with guests. This past season, they’ve had Patrick Johnston (The Province), Satiar Shah (Sportsnet 650), Cam Robinson (Elite Prospects, Dobber Prospects) and Dan Murphy (Sportsnet) in the hot seat.

Twitter | Patreon | Discord | Listen

In the "longest-running" #Canucks #PodcastLikeThat, @risingaction joins @aforsyth03 @lyteforce & @mattlee_61 to talk about the summer training camp so far, how the Canucks match against the Wild, Rathbone, Tryamkin and so much more! https://t.co/ACreWPcPWC

— #PodcastLikeThat (@TheC4Podcast)

July 21, 2020

Area 51

Founded: December 2019 (relaunch)

Players: Sean Warren (@SeanyeWest234), Samantha (@samanthacp_), Malcolm Ert (@malcolmert), Bradley Thomas (@bradthomas_96), Eric (@breakawayeric), Bailey Broadbent (@baileybroadcast)

Premise: Area 51 celebrated a relaunch last December since their inception in July 2019, and in May welcomed a team to join host Sean Warren. Aside from their cool, alien conspiracy branding, at the mic they cover a broad range of hockey talk with notable guests (writers and broadcasters in the media, content creators, musicians, WHL players, fellow blog/podcast owners, Canucks Autism Network). I love that they’ve started to cover important topics beyond the gameplay, like anti-racism, inclusivity, and diversity in sports, and have actively sought out the guests to do so.

Twitter | Instagram | Listen

HERE WE GO! @CanuckClay enters A51 in GLCPC to discuss: -Sports debates -Being a hockey media creator -Plan a Vegas trip -Drinking and Parenting tips And complete the famous Guest Shootout! Find out whether Clay is responsible for the Luongo trade!https://t.co/Zg629tWvLG

— Area 51 Hockey Podcast (@Area51Hockey)

July 24, 2020

Cap Space Wins Cups

Founded: February 2020

Players: Hassan Ahmed (@_hassanahmed9), Ahsan Ahmed (@ace103196), Hussain Ahmed (@hussain11ahmed)

Premise: The newly formed podcast has a light, humorous tone - evident by their inaugural episode introduction about their lack of social media followers. They cover quick hits of the Canucks week, roster situations, hockey culture, and of course, cap space. They’ve hosted fellow podcast hosts and media (Satiar Shah, J.D. Burke, Matthew Sekeres, Jeff Paterson), and even a fellow Burnaby kid, Massimo Rizzo. Rizzo was a 2019 Carolina Hurricanes draft pick. It’s clear they have a lot more to share, including takes in on their corresponding blog – see: How the Canucks Can Acquire Dougie Hamilton & Build a Cup Contender. I’ll read anything related to Dougie Hamilton.

Twitter | Instagram | Listen

🚨🚨Another HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT the boys have their own website 🚨🚨https://t.co/JfQXqiXcz2, the site has all the podcast epidoes and links to all their social media. The boys have also started blogging and have 2 big article out already! It’s 100% free sign up on the site to L&C!

— Cap Space Wins Cups Podcast (@capspacecups)

June 21, 2020

The Broadscast

Founded: July 2020

Players: Vanessa Jang (@vanessajang), Georgia Twiss (@georgiatwiss), Samantha (@samanthacp_), Mallory (@sports_lesbian), Danielle Huntley (@danihuntley)

Premise: Your ‘local hockey girl gang’ talks Canucks, sports culture, and soap operas. All 5 hosts have a significant following on Twitter and are bold and uncompromising, which makes for great statements and table chatter. This was written with only their Teaser episode released, but you can expect no shortage of pop culture references, fashion discussion, NHL wives and girlfriends (WAG) and pet content, along with team analysis. It’s trailblazing for a group of females in Vancouver to start their own podcast that’s hockey-focused, meant to be a casual chat amongst friends. They know the team, know their media, can gossip, and are having fun with it.

Twitter | Instagram | Listen

The Broadscast is officially LIVE!! 🎙 Just 5 girls and some light-hearted hockey talk with a soap opera twist. Catch our teaser episode NOW on your podcast medium of choice!https://t.co/91KE8LnOJE pic.twitter.com/XH0fIfhmHy

— The Broadscast (@BroadscastPod)

July 27, 2020

PUCKS ON NET

Founded: September 2013

Players: Ryan Schaap (@schaaptop), Geeta Reddy (@geetanjalireddy), Paul McLellan (@McLellanPaul), Dave McPhail (@PucksOnDave)

Premise: The group of 4 has created a casual, honest atmosphere with their roundtable conversation. They’re good friends, which equates to great camaraderie. They run a ‘contradictory’ fantasy hockey league and don’t talk ‘fancy stats’ (while still being very knowledgeable). I think they’re engaged with their listeners, and relatable as human beings amongst their talk of Tim Hortons NHL trading cards, player safety, current signings and acquisitions, and Green Day at the All-Star Game. Reaching 7 years of consistent hockey talk and recapping the team’s evolution is a feat in its own.

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And on Sunday, Ryan sat down with his old man for Father's Day to talk about growing up playing minor hockey in Calgary, bonding over the Vancouver #Canucks and even his words of wisdom when it comes to talking to your kids about drugs.https://t.co/BaQFM53Yws

— PUCKS ON NET (@Pucksonnetca)

June 24, 2020

The Canucks Conversation

Founded: November 2018

Players: Chris Faber (@ChrisFaber39), David Quadrelli (@Quadrelli)

Premise: Faber was joined by Quads in 2020, and the pair has perhaps the most praised local podcast so far. They’re both BCIT Radio Arts and Entertainment students (and writers for CanucksArmy), and their dedication, preparedness, branding and reporting level are top notch. They break down topics with great chemistry and perception - roster moves, Nikita Tryamkin, Olli Juolevi, and the Judd Brackett situation. Some of their notable guests include Utica Comets Kole Lind and Brogan Rafferty, and ‘bionic’ Finn Sami Salo.

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🎉SURPRISE! 🎉 Episode 91: “Jake Jets out of the lineup” ft.@CraigJButton We dropped our episode early! Craig Button stops by to chat about the NHL and #Canucks prospects. We breakdown the exhibition game against the Jets & some exciting news at the end!https://t.co/NMWBVOU7ko

— Canucks Conversation Podcast (@CanucksConvo)

July 30, 2020

Canucks & Pucks

Founded: April 2019

Players: Matthew Zator (@MatthewZatorSC)

Premise: Matthew Zator, writer for The Hockey Writers and Hockey Ops Director at Overtime Heroics, made a return to the airwaves this past July (after a lengthy regular season hiatus). Since getting back up and running, it’s full steam ahead – Zator has been joined by contributors from The Hockey Writers, The Canuck Way, college hockey newsletter Fresh Ice, and fellow podcast hosts. He has good insight and as a writer who goes into depth about NHL draft picks, the Vancouver Giants, and both the Nucks’ positives and negatives in his work, it gets noticeably transferred to the on-air conversation.

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🚨 NEW EPISODE 🚨 Episode 7 ft @CanuckClay, @JDsays2much, and @BaileyAJohnson_! - #Canucks & #mnwild with Jack & Clay - Will Lockwood and Quinn Hughes with Bailey - The Mailbag segment debuts and of course news from the #NHL and @TheHockeyWriter! #THW https://t.co/lW9FQms35P

— Canucks & Pucks Podcast 🏒🎙️ (@CanucksPucks)

July 28, 2020

Canucks Speakeasy

Founded: August 2019

Players: Pete Edwards (@pete_gas), Doug (@dougvenn)

Premise: Pete and Doug are 2 “mildly educated Canucks die-hards” who chat about current team news and trending topics. They’ve covered trade talk, the Collective Bargaining Agreement, prospects at the World Juniors, scouting, and the BLM movement. They’re occasionally joined by guests including podcast friends, and fellow fans/Tweeters Chris Conte, Jenna Fabulous and Ray Hatt.

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We're back with Episode 37: Powderkeg. Playoffs, play-ins, Judd and BLM are all discussed. Give'r a listen!https://t.co/dwoEQVNudThttps://t.co/7ZSogAjWsuhttps://t.co/r5HqX26czU pic.twitter.com/QKScnR9Q6G

— Canucks Speakeasy (@CanucksSpeak)

June 4, 2020

The LarschCast

Founded: June 2019

Players: Tej Dhaliwal (@DrTejDhaliwal), Sat Oberoi (@SatOberoi), Nav Dosanjh (@NavDosanjh1983), Ryan Cassels (@cassels_music)

Premise: The Larschcasters are known for their entertaining banter and debates, mostly on hockey and a little NFL. They’ve picked the minds of seasoned media (Scott Oake, James Duthie, Joey Kenward), legendary broadcaster Jim Robson, and former Canucks Kirk McLean, Chris Higgins and Shane O’Brien. They’ve been generating healthy content during the pandemic, including a spirited debate with Minnesota Wild podcast hosts, discussing media personnel moves, prospects, NHL Award contenders, and the toxicity in the Vancouver Canucks market. In June, they released a special with hockey coach/trainer Jennifer Chefero, sharing her story facing sexual abuse and harassment in her career, while candidly discussing women’s rights and sports culture.

Twitter | Facebook | Listen

Episode 61 ft. @hustlerama!#NHLJets centric epi, with an outlook of the Jets vs #flames. Not a lot of love for Calgary in this one😬. Also insights into the #nhlbubble, before ending with #Canucks talk & Rapid Larsch! 🍎:https://t.co/vZ2lyQ9zoO Spotify: https://t.co/XdV1y3ls7V

— The LarschCast (@larschcast)

July 29, 2020

The PP1 Podcast

Founded: October 2019

Players: Brayden Ursel (@bkursel23), Ted (@tee3ree), Ryan Hank (@always90four)

Premise: A tagline like “three guys from Kelowna bringing the heat and spitting the takes” doesn’t need further explanation. Appearing at the beginning of this season, the podcast (which features writers from The Canuck Way and CanucksArmy) has had some nice guests like the Canucks inaugural captain Orland Kurtenbach, retired centre and current Kelowna Rockets Assistant Coach Vern Fiddler, and Paul “Biznasty” Bissonnette. They’ve been nominated for Kelowna Now’s Best Local Podcast, and have a ‘Dudes and Guys’ segment where they pit 2 players against one another and talk it out (criteria is debatable).

Twitter | Listen

Episode 46: Bouncy Castles, Boeser Bombshells, & Backchecking w/ @mattsekeres. We chat Boeser rumours, cap crunch, Rathbone, Tryamkin, Markstrom, Sundin vs. Vanek, the best cold-open since Nikolay Goldobin, and how you can win a #Canucks jersey. https://t.co/KouGJr6GKH

— The PP1 PODCAST (@ThePP1Podcast)

July 15, 2020

The SCT Show

Founded: September 2018

Players: Nam Mann (@CanuckAgent007), Tanbir Rana (@TRana87)

Premise: SCT is Strictly Canucks Talk. Aside from reminiscing about ‘where were you when’ pivotal moments in franchise history occurred and the regular shop talk of performance and #NamStats, they draw in guests to talk about trade value (The Athletic’s Harman Dayal) and stickhandling (specialist/trainer Pavel Barber). They’ve also hosted local defenceman and last year’s 4th overall draft pick Bowen Byram, and hockey analyst/retired winger Anson Carter for a chat about the pressure of the market in Vancouver and the Sedins. Like any good heated debate, there are also trade and Team Tank vs Playoffs scenarios.

Twitter | Listen

.@CanuckAgent007 has a proposal to get Loui Eriksson off the #Canucks books 🤔 EP 14 - Links below ⬇️ 🍎 https://t.co/Z9snNdSuI1 📱 https://t.co/AJILh0IaWJ pic.twitter.com/LZblDE8GLW

— The SCT Show (@SCTShow)

July 17, 2020

Johnny Canuck Talk

Founded: August 2019

Players: Adrian J. Haug (@adrianjhaug), Roy Styles (@roy_styles)

Premise: Takes from 2 arm chair GM’s, the pair discuss a wide variety of topics like losing streaks, hockey safety, report cards, line-ups, and trade deadline. They’ve also shared an insightful chat with Harman Dayal (The Athletic) about his career and the late and great Jason Botchford. It’s laid-back and conversational, with mentions of farmers’ tans, celebrating birthdays during quarantine, and the school system strung across introductions. What’s cool is they record the podcast from near and far away places – Kamloops, BC and Germany (!).

Twitter | Listen

(1) Episode 37 is uploading now! @roy_styles and I talk #Canucks #hockey and @Canucks topics, issues, news, etc. We also talk about the incredible impact our Jim Carey impressions have had on our wives. Yikes. Featuring tweets from: @Canuckgirl20 @TSN1040 @DanRiccio650 pic.twitter.com/6oA7mZh6jb

— Johnny Canuck Talk (@JohnnyCanuckPod)

June 28, 2020

1 This list is not exhaustive, but there is something for everyone and I hope you find your Canucks fix. There can be an argument made that the podcast market is oversaturated, but I like to see it as an opportunity for any fan or audio bird to let their voice be heard! So, don’t be negative about it.

Posted by: Chloe Hoy

#Everybody Loves Fin #Canucks #Vancouver Canucks #Chloe #Canucks Twitter #blog #hockey blog #NHL #nucks #nhl canucks #Podcast #Apple Podcasts #sports #hockey #Podcaster #Spotify Podcast

[thestudyfeels]

Has your post on taking a break come out yet? Just wondering because I haven't been on tumblr for a while.

I’ve been revamping my theme & learning about newsletters! :D

Fine, here’s the truth: I’ve just been putting off my going off, because creating and connecting with people truly brings me so much joy. Studying isn’t that much of a priority (it isn’t, but I’m made to study anyway, bless us all) as is being happy and creating meaningful content that impacts people.

That said, I am still learning about newsletters btw, which is what I wanna start in the time duration of my hiatus so that I get to create something (you feel?) so I’ll post the hiatus article once I fix things up.

(If anyone has any sites about newsletters, PLEASE rec them to me. Preferably something simpler than MailChimp, thanks!)

#anonymous #Tay speaks #hiatus

[nohshinwoos]

i'm so scared that they're gonna quit yt. dan is already gone, practically from the entire internet, and phil is doing just enough to let us know he's alive :( what am i gonna do if they're done? it just sits weird with me that they cancelled dagp, ended pinof, and now no dan. i hope my vibe is wrong

i don’t think they’re quitting youtube, even if i do feel you and your feelings are of course valid! from what i remember, they’ve said more than once that they’re not quitting anytime soon - as long as they enjoy making content, i think they will.

i also feel like something as big as them quitting youtube, they would talk to us about. they’ve become a lot better at communicating, even if it’s not “perfect”, and i feel like they respect us enough as an audience that they would talk to us about it before doing anything Drastic.

they did put dapg on hiatus (assuring us it is not like the 1d hiatus) in favour of other things, like main channel content etc, but i really don’t think it’s the end of it. they said themselves that it’s a creative break, they did upload a lot last year and this is just to give them room to breathe. pinof ended because it was time for it to (no matter how sad that was for many of us).

dan took a break because he felt like he needed that, some room to breathe and think about the content he wants to make. but i think and feel the exact same way about him, i really can’t see him quitting his channel either. in the last newsletter he sent out about merch, he even hinted at a possible video - which means he is thinking about posting again.

#sorry this got long and idek if it's a good answer or not #these are just my thoughts on it and me also trying to be positive about it #even if i do think about these things from time to time too #but i really don't see them quitting youtube any time soon #anon #asks #mel talks

[vampireantihero]

Hello y'all, and happy (late) new year!

You can also read this on Ko-Fi or my website, but it's the same over in those places as it is here.

Good morning, everyone! I’m a few days late, but I wanted to say a quick Happy New Year to everyone. There has been a lot on my plate over the last few weeks between the holidays, filing business taxes, and some personal time with my husband.

So, I haven’t been super loud and open throughout this last month because I’ve been on a semi-hiatus (hiatus from Twitch and heavier video topics, but still illustrating, doing Ko-Fi rewards, and spending a lot of time focusing on practicing and improvement.), but I wanted to touch base today with some of the things going on here at Conquer Thy Fear Studio and with me.

Twitch

It’s a little bit later than I originally planned for my return, but I’ll be coming back to Twitch the week of January 10th. This is because I’m waiting on new internet to be installed here at our house; they originally were going to install on the 27th but we had a pretty massive snow storm that completely threw that out as an option. With any luck, they’ll be here in the afternoon on the 6th and I can have time to cancel the other internet provider and return the equipment. Mentally, I’m in a much better mindset than I was back in November and I needed this break desperately. I don’t know if this will be a yearly thing or not, but it’s shaping up to likely be that way. Maybe not the entire month every year, but at least the later half of the month for the holidays. We’ll see how I feel when we get to that point of this year.

For now, I’m setting a soft schedule— I won’t be sticking strictly to a schedule this year for Twitch, but you can look for me on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 3pm-7pm CST. I may pop up without notice, or I might make my schedules week by week based on what I have to do work-wise. The Tuesdays and Thursdays will likely always be art, but I’ll try to pop up with gaming from time to time. I miss you all, and I’m excited to be coming back! We’ll see how this goes.

Classes

Back in November, I released a free class on Youtube talking about art fundamentals and where to start . Well, keep an eye out because I’ll be making a followup video soon! With any luck, it will be out on January 20th, 2023. This one will be talking about anatomy, proportion, and perspective— all really important fundamental concepts that are slightly more intermediate than the first ones I covered. I’ll likely be writing another newsletter around then, and I’ll link to the video when I do. This is going to wind up being a series of free classes that are available on Youtube, so I hope that you enjoy! This will go on for a while.

Pretty soon here, I may also be creating some paid classes that go a little bit more in-depth as well, but I’ll touch on that a little more in a bit.

Conquer Thy Fear Studio, LLC Store

The shop on the website is back up! I have mostly some small things like stickers and patches in the store for now. Be sure to check it out here if you’d like to own some merch! Most of the stuff that I’m selling in the shop is self-sourced, so it may take a little bit to get to you, but I also have some print on demand stuff in there that are professionally made from vendors I trust. I’m hoping to start working with some vendors to make some notebooks, washi tape, more stickers, and some other stuff to get in the store. Pretty soon I’ll also have art prints there as well, so if that’s something you’re interested in, keep an eye out!

One of the goals that I have for this year is to also have some courses available for sale through the shop. These will be announced ahead of time, and also likely have extra materials that come with them. They will be a bit more in-depth than what I post on Youtube, so if you’re interested in learning my process or something from me, keep an eye out and I’ll announce in the Newsletter when those pop up!

The Last Month + Upcoming Goals

This past month, with the break that I took, I leaned really hard into getting some other things done that had kind of fallen to the wayside or been on hiatus for a while. I started working on On Broken Wings a little bit more intently, and also cemented a bi-weekly Youtube schedule. These are things that are really important to me, because I don’t want to let your guys down by not sticking to what I promise. But, I also did a lot of soul-searching this past month on what is important to me and what I aspire to do here. Above all, my goal with building this platform and our little community is to make sure that people feel like they aren’t alone. I want people to be inspired, and I want to show people that if you fall in love with the process of creating, you can do anything. And I also want to make good art that fulfills me and helps others to see themselves in it, or to feel like they are seen and appreciated.

Part of making good art is practicing, and I gave myself a lot of time to just experiment with my art and also gave myself permission to just relax and not pressure myself to finish everything I touched. I also did a lot of practicing and going back to basics with my drawing goals, as well as practicing my fundamentals. One of the results of that is this:

This, my friends, was the 100 faces challenge. The goal was to draw 100 faces, lines only, in 10 days. So, this is what I got done! Some of these are better than others, and some definitely would look better with shading/having been rendered, but I was pretty proud of the accomplishment. I learned a lot doing this. Talking about this is leading me into one of my goals for this current year. I’ll be picking several of these to start trying to digitally paint; at least one from each day. I want to get better at digital painting, and the only way I’ll be able to do that is if I actually practice digital painting. Don’t be surprised if you see some of these again on Twitch, or posted throughout the next coming months. I’m excited to lean into the adventure and to refine my skills.

I spent a lot of December planning what I want to do for the coming year, and a lot of this in terms of work boils down to these three main points:

Start polishing my portfolio and applying for studio work

Make more content that people enjoy and market it better, as well as marketing my support spots better.

Show my gratitude to my audience and make sure that people know that they are loved.

I have a bunch of actionable goals written out for these things, but I won’t bore you with the details of all of that. At the end of the day, I know what’s important to me and I want y’all to feel it, as well.

Closing Thoughts

This is actually much shorter than I expected to be, I tend to be very wordy when it comes down to it, but I think that ultimately, I just wanted to touch base and make sure y’all had a joyous set of holidays. I know the holidays can be really rough for a lot of people, including and especially people who don’t get along well with their families, and my heart goes out to you. Lets walk into this new year slowly, and take the time we need to allow ourselves to really get our goals accomplished the way we need to. It doesn’t matter if you attack them vigilantly, or if you slowly pick at them and get them done a little bit at a time. Progress is progress.

So until I talk to y’all again, I love y’all. Drink some water, give yourself some grace, and do what you can. If you'd like to sign up for the newsletter, then you can do so here.

#my stuff #not art #newsletter

[gratefuldeadnotes]

If you’ve been lucky, you’ve found yourself in some college dorm, surrounded by DayGlo tapestries, Nag Champa wafting in the air, stinging your eyes. Your singularly nicknamed but gracious hosts and their friends argue. It’s always the same argument: over the so-called greatest Grateful Dead show ever. More often than not, they were arguing about the merits or flaws of Cornell. May 8, 1977.

Or maybe it was at a record store. The store’s owner was “there” but can’t remember a damn thing, minus the “One More Saturday Night” encore on a Sunday night. Oh wait, there was the infamous “Take a Step Back” and that “Dew.” The Dew.

Last week, the recordings saw release as part of the box set, May 77: Get Shown the Light, and as a stand-alone set, Cornell 5/8/77, in honor of the show’s 40th anniversary. I’ve witnessed grown men argue about Cornell until they were carnelian red in the face, later apologizing as they rambled, “The Dead are like pizza, man. Some shows are better than others. But it’s still pizza and pizza rules.”

Myself? Cornell came in the same batch of tapes as Buffalo, the night after, and the Live/Dead Fillmore West run of 1969. Buffalo has the opening “Help > Slip > Franklin’s” triptych that’s a mind-meld when you’re 15, just being hipped to the whole thing. It only took one listen of Cornell before I was like, “Well you know, Buffalo is just a little bit…”

Grateful Dead :: Dancing in the Street [Betty Board]

Grateful Dead :: Dancing in the Street [Jerry Moore recording]

Cornell is mythical though, and for good reason. The tapes and name are ubiquitous to every collection and discussion about the band. The venue only held 8,500 attendees, but four times that amount will tell you they were there. Some will tell you it was a CIA experiment that never happened. Some say you’re not a true fan if it’s your favorite show. There’s a stigma associated with being a Cornell apologist.

But why be unapologetic when it’s right there on the tape? It smokes. A spirited first set is capped by a never-ending version of Martha and The Vandellas’ soul hit “Dancing in The Streets,” offering the audience a sneak peek into the wrinkle in time they are about to experience “30 minutes” later. The second set’s near flawless. The band conjures up the spirits of Ivy League drop-outs who jumped in busses a decade before and headed west to change and find the new world. Someone said to me recently we’re lucky to live in the same millennium Jerry and the Dead existed. Pizza is pizza, sure, but wouldn’t it be boring without pepperoni and cheese?

Below, my friend Charlie C. — you might remember him from the last Dead Notes column — waxes a bit about his journey to Cornell and the years after. Charlie was supposed to go to Cornell for Poli-Sci, but he went to SUNY Oneonta instead – though he’ll tell you he studied plenty of political science on long midnight roads and in crowded parking lots between Dead shows. I encourage you to listen to not only just the new official Betty Board release of “Dancing In The Street” but also infamous Dead taper Jerry Moore’s recording, captured 10 feet from the stage, which circulated nearly a decade before Betty’s recording surfaced. When I finally heard Jerry’s recording several years back, I became an instant Cornell apologist or whatever you want to call it when you love a band – infamous warts and all. words/d norsen

Well, they were back, there was no getting around that.

We had seen them off back in Jersey City in 1974 and were well informed about the Ouroborian hiatus through the newsletter. A quaint document by today’s standards and inside there was something to the effect of…the intent of the widespread touring was not to create this steamroller of music that we would follow around from here to there but instead to plant a seed and we would do as they did. Form and grow a community, of which the music would be a part, and nurture that community because it would be more efficient that way. I would hear that intent again, while listening to “The Music Never Stopped” – “Were they really here at all?” But I digress. There was the East Coast mini-farewell in the summer – a huge wonderful show at Roosevelt Stadium! If you can find an image of the ticket on-line you may notice that the date on ticket does not match the show date. You will also see the words “To Be Held Rain or Shine”. That part is a lie. Look up hiatus, if you will – a break, a pause. So that part is not a lie. So when I traveled West to see the band at Golden Gate Park in 1975 – the pause was not even a year old.

And then, they were back! We, on the other hand, had never left. This time, now Spring 1977, my friends and I were now living in Oneonta, New York. I left Staten Island to attend college there in the Fall of 1971 and stayed around. If you can locate my high school yearbook, it will tell you that I intended to major in Poli-Sci at Cornell. So, it was half right.

As I was saying, they were back and with a vengeance or so it would seem from the available dates. Now we are talking pre-mail order here, folks. 10 years later I would gladly pay more for Registered Mail than we paid for a ticket on May 8 in Ithaca, New York. There were a bunch of us. In a van, straight out of central casting, trundling our way from Oneonta to Ithaca. Let me emphasize that this was closer to a Sunday night drive than event. As passionate as we were about the band the whole day had a “Hey, the Dead are in Ithaca Sunday!” feel to it. Spring comes begrudgingly to upstate New York, if it comes at all, so it was cool. The scene was decidedly different from the hockey arenas of 1974, my beloved Roosevelt Stadium, and a world apart from the Auditorium Theatre shows of 1976. Barton Hall was a field house. A Latin term meaning “without any trace of charm.” May as well have been Barton Barn for all that mattered. But it was general admission for us. I do remember these enormous windows, a whole wall of them. And as it began to darken there was a cathedral like effect to the interior. Now there was a curious phenomenon at these GA events. Some folks would attempt to stake out and secure small patches of ground for themselves and their tribe. Others would simply float. To the former, the latter were violators, trespassers. The latter saw their efforts as an uptight attempt to colonize a free space. Always plenty of free theater in those days.

So – to recap: no seating, no merchandise, no beer sales, no Greenpeace. There was only the band with their fans and the air to help convey the music. The sound was fine – objectivity now, slightly shattered by certain indulgences. But we were in. Together. More or less in line, you know the deal. We snaked our way towards the stage as soon as the music started. Not right up front though – we struck a balance between hearing and moving. We needed to do both.

Should I talk about the music? Do we need one more word? One more “jaunty,” another “rollicking”? So much has been written about this show it boggles the mind. A book even! Someone wrote a book about a show I was at!?! It was a grand night, as most of them were. It would be some time before the legend picked up steam however.

Just look at the set list. Set one: start to finish, “polished like a golden bowl, the finest ever seen”. I am okay with that. I do distinctly remember thinking that somehow we would not survive the “Dancing In The Streets.” It was too much, too fast. I can not count the times I have listened to the “Scarlet Begonias” into “Fire On The Mountain” since. If you can stay still, you are a better man than me. Best “Morning Dew” ever? Don’t ask me. I don’t deal in that. Never did. But it is goddamned flawless I will tell you that. “One More Saturday Night” on a Sunday? I am okay with that one too…it was no skating rink, but for a minute, it almost became airborne.

So that was that. Our “springtime wet with sighs.” We left to find Jim’s blue van. Tossed back a couple of beers to kind of recalibrate. And then back on the road home. If you told me on that ride back to Oneonta what that night would become, I would have laughed myself silly. Most requested show ever, UFOs and the CIA, Betty Board here and gone and back again, a box set, Plangent Process, and a book. All for one Sunday night…go figure!

– Charlie C., April 26, 2017

#Grateful Dead #deadhead #dead freaks unite #Jerry Garcia #Cornell #1977

[sammyisspazzy]

Why I Stopped Beauty Blogging After 3+ Years

Back in June, I made a post explaining that due to a hectic summer internship, I would be taking a an unexpected hiatus until September. I haven't made a post since then. It's January. It's not that I haven't thought about writing a post. It's not even that I haven't felt like writing a post. But I sort of dropped off the face of the Earth (even in social media), and I thought you all deserved a reason as to why--or a whole post, in fact.

1. I broke a habit

Yeah, okay. The simplest and most obvious reason. 

For the first time since I started blogging back in March of 2013, this was the longest break I've ever taken. and one of the only breaks I've ever taken. Besides the occasional Finals Week hiatus, I never skipped a week. 

But like anything, once you stop doing something, it's hard to get back into it again. 

My Favorite Things: September 2015

2. It felt like a job

Now we're starting to get into the nitty-gritty. 

When I came home from my internship in September, I found a pile of products from companies sitting on my dresser. Now when I'm working with a company, I like to give the products they send to me a fair trial: a few weeks of testing followed by an objective review. It's never required; it's just something I like to do. It's how I can afford to try so many new products, because like most up-and-coming twenty-somethings, my beauty budget is very slim. 

But when I was three months behind and it all piled up, just thinking about them all sounded like a chore. Which, I know, #FirstWorldProblems, but I like to put the maximum amount of effort into my blog posts, and if I'm not feeling up to it, I know it won't come out to my standards. At first I couldn't explain why I felt that way, but when I thought about it ...

3. I never really felt qualified

I am not a makeup artist. I am not an esthetician. I am merely a beauty enthusiast. And although I may do a ton of research from the above two professionals when compiling blog posts, I do not have the training of either one. It's something I've battled with for a long time. Am I qualified to give someone else advice? Am I reputable? Though I have done an enormous amount of research and have used that to help people and provide recommendations in the past, is it right of me to do so? It's a philosophical question that I've never been able to answer. Besides that, another reason why I've been putting off posting is ...

4. I've never been big on social media

Before I started blogging, I was never a big social media user. It was only when I had to promote blog posts that I started putting work into it. I've always just been of the belief that the majority of strangers on the internet don't care what I have to say, and for the people that do care, I'd rather just have a conversation and tell them one-on-one. When I first started blogging, I was by no means social media savvy by any means. I usually just posted once a week (and not even on all platforms -gasp-) that I'd updated my blog. It wasn't until I really started getting into blogging that I got into marketing. Not having to force it on social media for my blog was a weight off my shoulders (see #2). If you've never had to run active social media accounts across many platforms for a job or blog, you probably won't understand it is to have frequent, captivating content. It's a little exhausting, and probably my least enjoyable part of having a blog. Writing the actual blog posts is only a small portion of actually blogging. But then when I thought about it, even that wasn't the reason why I wasn't posting on my blog. When I thought about it, I realized ...

Greek Goddess Makeup Challenge: Demeter

5. It made me feel shallow

Now I am by no means saying beauty bloggers or fashion bloggers are shallow--I would never. In my 3+ years as a blogger, I have came across many kind, wonderful people in the blogging community. 

But I found that whenever I was explaining my blog to someone in real life, I always felt awkward. It felt superficial, materialistic, trivial. Not everyone is going to be as enthusiastic about your interest as you are, I get it. Some people are going to look down upon it, and it's their right to do so. But during my hiatus, I found that I was starting to feel the same way as them. It all just seemed so pointless to me. I barely had time to apply makeup in the morning when I was an intern, so when I finally got the chance, I didn't care which lipstick I was reaching for. I realized I'm just not as eager to share my beauty knowledge as I used to be. Which leads into my next point:

6. Beauty blogging didn't feel like me

Confession: I have never been a Sammi. My friends have always called my Sam. I will always be Samantha to family. I originally took on the alias Sammi because I thought it sounded more feminine--and that's what you want for a beauty blog right? Plus, I found it was easier to differentiate personal and work emails from blog emails just by reading the salutation. It kind of become an alternate version of myself. When marketing blog posts, I tried to channel them through Cheerful and Upbeat Sammi. Now I've always considered myself a sensible person; the Responsible Friend. This is not to say that responsible people don't wear makeup, but I've always felt that my personality and my values didn't connect with the beauty blogger persona that I exhibited. Not that I ever lied (and there are plenty of people who will still describe me as cheerful and upbeat) but social media and blogging as a whole always felt sort of forced to me. In order to capture people's interests, especially when promoting something, you have to act positive. I'm not always positive; nobody is. (see #4) As much as I love sharing the fun, little things with you, I also want to share the bad things. The sad things. The life-changing things. My deep thoughts and dreams. Things that matter to me. And although I still enjoy beauty and skincare, perhaps it doesn't matter as much to me as it used to. Because all in all...

Rainy Day Manicure: Trust Fund Beauty in Elegantly Wasted

7. I've changed

Three and a half years is a long time, especially when you're only 23. I've done a lot of growing up and maturing in that time. I graduated from college. I've transitioned from College Student to New Adult. A lot has happened in my life. 

When I started this blog, I was wearing makeup daily and always put effort into my appearance. It was just a fun hobby I enjoyed. But nowadays, my work in theatre always has me in some sort of uniform (paint clothes, all black, etc). I never find a reason to wear makeup on the regular, and if I'm not wearing any, I have nothing new to share. As much as I enjoy beauty, I hardly have a reason (or motivation) to indulge. And being that this blog is solely a beauty blog, there' nothing else that I can really share.

I've always thought that not having a specific niche would hold me back as a blogger and not capture as much interest, but I think this time around, I just want to write for me. If beauty companies don't want to send me products, that's okay. If my follower count drops, that's okay, too. But I want to keep blogging! I've worked so hard on creating my little part of the internet that I don't want to see it all go to waste. And I truly do enjoy blogging: the photographing, the connecting, the writing. 

I have so many interests besides beauty: cooking, writing, reading, music, drawing, painting, theatre. Not only that, but there are so many current events and general lifestyle issues that I'd love to talk about on here, because what's the purpose of a platform if you don't use it for the greater good, right? I'll probably still stick some beauty in here once in awhile, but I would really love this blog to be fully encompass me, on all sides. 

I really want to get back into the swing of things and blogging at least once a week, but I'd like to do a rebranding first. Change my theme, my domain, decide what I'm going to blog about. I'm leaning towards making this a general lifestyle blog so I can sprinkle a bit of everything in here. But I promise I won't be gone forever! 

I'll also still be poking around my favorite corners of the internet, and you're always welcome to contact me through any of my social media if you have any questions or just want to chat (I still lurk on them, even if I don't always post). One thing I've missed about not blogging is you guys! Interacting with you all is one of my favorite parts, and I don't think that will ever change. 

But for now, that's where we're at. Full disclosure. It feels good! I've had a lot of these things floating around in my brain for awhile.  

If this blog wasn't solely about beauty anymore, do you think you'd stick around?

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Permission to Evolve: I’m Pausing to Reimagine Life & So Can You

Hiya Gorgeous!

I wanted to let you know that I’m taking a break from blogging for a bit. Pressing pause. Going on hiatus. And giving myself and our team permission to evolve.

I’ve been coming to you weekly for 13 years now and many of you have been with me since the beginning. Thank you for inviting me into your inbox, your living room, and your life. I love serving you on your wellness journey and I promise that I’ll be back soon with better-than-ever content to support you along the way.

I’m just taking a short pause to answer the invitation my life is giving me to do things differently. To narrow my focus to what truly matters and step away from what can feel like an always-on, cycle of busyness. Think, more slow cooking, less hustle. More intentional living—including using the good silver and candles on a regular Tuesday night—and less grind.

Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do and I love you. But I’m inspired to prune and simplify so my team and I can serve you in new and exciting ways, while also taking really good care of ourselves.

You see, whenever I’ve made a big change in my life, I’ve needed time to recalibrate. But I haven’t always given myself that time. Instead, even as a wellness leader, it’s so easy to just add more balls to the juggle. Writing a new book? Add it to the load. Launching a new product? Pile it on the glorious heap. Need a slice of a workday to be with family members who need me? Make it up on nights and weekends.

For all of us, it’s tempting to accumulate more and more responsibility without ever pruning our lives and work to create the delicious breathing room our souls want.

When I’ve given in to that temptation, I know it hasn’t been good for me. But sometimes it’s difficult to shift the voice that believes that “this is what I need to do to show up and keep it all going”. Sound familiar?

Next month, I’ll be entering my 49th year—my last journey around the sun in this decade of growth, success, loss, love and everything in between. While I’m not one to lament getting older, (I’m lucky to get older, I have stage IV cancer!) this birthday is another wake-up call. What worked energetically in my 20’s, 30’s and 40’s was powerful stuff. It brought me to the biggest stages in the world. More importantly, it brought me to you. But my 50’s are already calling for something more sacred.

I’m no longer looking to grow countless new branches and leaves on my tree of life, instead, my desire is to deepen my roots and strengthen my foundation.

If there are areas of your own life that feel out of balance, or that you just want more time to explore, I encourage you to pause and reevaluate, just like I am. You don’t have to stay the same—even if people want you to. Give yourself permission to listen to your life.

Because the pivot you need to make for your own beautiful expansion will become clear in the stillness.

Notice when things aren’t working—pause, evaluate, and give yourself permission to evolve. The status quo is easy, my friends. In fact, many of us prefer to operate on old rhythms that are familiar, when in reality, the spiritual riches are on the other side of our discomfort.

So here’s what this means on a practical level. I’m going to read and swim more.

I’m also going to spend more time with myself and my family in a way that doesn’t feel rushed, or like I can’t shut off because even though I’m present, I’m anywhere but there.

My team and I are also going to re-imagine how we do business. The same kind of compassion, care and quality you’ve come to expect, will only deepen from our willingness to pause and evaluate before we pivot.

During this break we’ll be doing some housekeeping and rejuvenating our creativity, before we expand our team, our mission and our vision.

We’re wildly passionate about new and personal ways to serve our readers and we need a little time to design and build that. So time—our most valuable asset—is what we will give ourselves. I hope you’ll do the same if this resonates with you, dear one.

You may be wondering, can we stay connected during this evolve experiment?

Absolutely! I’ll still email out an occasional newsletter, share posts to Instagram from my porch to yours, and keep serving our members every day inside of Inner Circle Wellness (find info here). You can also peruse the treasure trove of info available in the hundreds of articles I’ve already shared here at kriscarr.com.

But the very best way to keep in touch with me would be to join my text messaging list. It’ll be my primary communication vehicle during this hiatus. I’ll be sharing more behind-the-scenes, personal content than ever before. After all, I want to keep you posted on my permission to evolve experiment as I’m sure I’ll have some interesting notes from the field! But you’ll need to be on my text list to get all that goodness! So text WELCOME to [phone] or click here and text WELCOME to make it easy.

TEXT ME!

Thank you for being a good friend to me, to yourself and to the world. I adore you.

Your turn: Are you craving permission to pause and evolve, like I am? Is your life calling for a pivot? What’s one small thing you could do to make that happen?

Peace & growth,

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Giving thanks (and a $50 coupon) to you…

  I’ve been fortunate to have had thousands of success stories, but, believe it or not, my greatest satisfaction doesn’t come from client weddings.

My purest joy comes from witnessing women grow and gain confidence, so that they are empowered to make better relationship choices on their own, without further coaching.

Getting married is just a byproduct of that process.

So try to imagine my thrill when I received this email the other morning:

Hello Evan,

I have, just this morning, gotten out of a four-week relationship. I met Sam right at the holidays and we clicked. Had a wonderful New Year’s. Had wonderful dates. This morning, he packed his overnight case and left my place…and I am more than okay with that.

For the first time in my life, I dated with confidence, understanding, giving, tolerance, and complete acceptance. And you know what? It didn’t work with this guy. But I feel good because I did everything you teach in your posts and books and everything you taught me when we worked together every other week.

So what happened? Quite simply, he imploded with insecurity. He didn’t like himself very much and he couldn’t fathom how someone like me could possibly be interested in him. He did not understand what I saw in him. And really, he did need quite a lot of reassurance.   He did not have much going on in his life. No friends here–even though he moved here 3 1/2 years ago. No real activities other than solo bike riding. Didn’t know how to cook a thing. Didn’t know to help with clean up. Was fairly passive and not proactive. Was shy in social situations. Didn’t read or travel much. Worked from home so didn’t have a lot of social interaction. More of an introvert.

But I saw a sweet, sensitive man, who had a good heart. He had a nice sense of humor and was handsome to me even though he was pretty short. And when we talked, it felt easy and comfortable. I went for quality things, rather than superficial things. And I am proud I did. Because not only did I focus on feeling good around him, rather than his bank account, I really accepted him as he was.

Even though he was more introverted, I did not jump in and take over. I hung back and let him lead, even though he was slow to do so.   I did nothing and then said “yes”. Now I have learned something even more valuable that you have spoken of yourself: You cannot love someone who doesn’t love himself. You cannot have a happy relationship with a person who is not a happy person.

So when he imploded this morning into a mess of “I’m not good enough for you”, “You’ve been too generous and giving to me”, I recognized it for what it was – his excuses to not deal with his own self. When he stormed around and said he was going to go, I let him go. I have no heartbreak or sadness. I felt surprisingly relieved when he left, and so darned good about how I did all of this so differently!   I actually did the “Accept him in totality” thing and the “Do nothing and let him lead” thing. It feels good that I accomplished that.

As a result, even though I’m still single, I feel even more assured in my ability to find a quality man (although now I will look for someone that seems happy with himself too). I got back onto Match an hour after he left, and sent an email to a guy I had loosely emailed with over a month ago. We had talked about meeting, then I turned it down due to meeting Sam. He replied right away and asked me to lunch today. I am surprised, but pleased too.

Thank you for teaching me how to date with confidence, and to be giving and accepting in total. Even though Sam was the wrong guy, I know how much I did it right this time – and that has made me feel relieved he exited, not at all down or discouraged.   If anything, I feel super encouraged.

Hugs,

Elaine

Let me ask you: have you EVER sounded this positive after a break-up?

I doubt it.

If you’re like most women, immediately after a breakup, you probably:

Got really angry with the guy.

Got really angry with yourself.

Questioned your judgment in choosing men.

Spent a lot of time venting about men and dating in general.

Wondered if there were any quality guys out there.

Decided to take a semi-permanent hiatus from men and dating.

That’s not what Elaine did.

Because Elaine was a Love U Masters coaching client, she had a much more positive and effective reaction to her disappointing four-week courtship.

She knew she did the best she could do.

She saw the writing on the wall within the first month.

She let him go and didn’t turn back.

She didn’t beat herself up for a moment.

She got right back online and procured a date in less than an hour.

That’s how it’s done. And if you don’t navigate dating the way Elaine does, this is your big opportunity to learn how.

In Believe in Love — 7 Steps to Letting Go of Your Past, Embracing the Present and Dating with Confidence — I will help you drop your negativity, overcome your fear of being hurt, and bring your best self to dating — thereby attracting a high quality men in the process.

Believe in Love is a 240 page ebook, a 6 hour audio, a 65-page workbook, and three hours of bonus coaching calls.

You get it all, during this 10th Anniversary sale, for $50 off the regular price with a 100% no-questions-asked money back guarantee.

Believe in Love costs less than a nice dinner for two.

Its effects will be felt in your life FOREVER.

Even if you only get ONE nugget of advice that makes you view men, dating, or yourself differently, it is well worth the small investment.

Soon, you will handle dating like Elaine — poised, confident, optimistic and on a straight path to lasting love.

Click here and don’t forget to put in your 50% coupon code, BIL50.

This special opportunity is only good through tomorrow night at 11:59pm, so act now!

Warmest wishes and much love,

Your friend,

Evan

P.S. Here’s another reader on why it’s so important for you to believe in love:

I am twice divorced (2 marriages under 5 years each) and have been dating for 12 years, hoping to find the right person to go the distance with, but always picking the wrong ones in the end. I am going to be 50 this year, on long-term disability and I really would like to have a supportive love partner, not just a casual hook-up or short-term relationship.

I had originally heard you speak on a Love Summit last summer and loved your humor and frank advice. I signed up for your blog & newsletter then purchased Why He Disappeared and Why He Disappeared Online. After continuing to absorb your advice, I joined FOCUS Coaching during your 5-year Anniversary and participated in the calls & Forum. From there, I purchased your e-Cyrano profile writing package and Finding The One Online and Believe in Love. So, I’ve literally been eating, breathing & sleeping EMK info for about 9 months, all the while continuing to date several men I met both online & while out.

I met 4 guys in January and continued to follow your advice such as the 2/2/2, mirroring, don’t overthink, being the CEO of my own company, waiting until I had a boyfriend to sleep with anyone (a major mistake in my past), giving guys who I might never consider a chance and letting them know how much I appreciated them after each date, but being honest if I just didn’t feel we were a match.

Happily, I felt a great connection & energy with one particular man (Andy). After following all your steps, I had myself a boyfriend after 2 months. He is sweet, caring, giving, thoughtful, sexy and we laugh like crazy. He is also Jewish (I’m Christian), shorter than me when I wear heels (he’s confident & it doesn’t bother him) and a bit OCD with neatness (a first for me with a man). Would I have considered him prior to finding you and all of your great advice? Probably not! So, I have learned to let go of what you think you MUST have and go with the person that makes you FEEL the best. We are now at the 3 and a half month mark and going strong. He has asked me to go to Italy with him in the fall and is constantly “future-talking.” I am hoping that this eventually ends the way I want it to — marriage!

I am constantly quoting “Evan-speak” to my girlfriends who are dating. They tell me I should start my own relationship blog for dating advice to women. I just refer them to your website because I can’t take the credit!

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Evan!

Jean

Jean has been eating, breathing, and sleeping EMK info for 9 months and turned it into a boyfriend who is taking her to Italy and talking about a future.

Wouldn’t you like to feel that kind of love and devotion?

I’ll bet you would.

Click here to get started and don’t forget to put in BIL to get $50 off!

I’m grateful to have you as a reader. I hope my program makes a big difference for you.

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7 Things I’ve Learned from Becoming a Serial Dater

Since I began dating at the age of fifteen, I’ve pretty much always been monogamous and only focused on one person at a time. Then, typically what would happen is I would become attached to this one person, not in a stalker “I have a shrine made out of your hair and skin scrapings in my closet for you” kind of attachment, but in an “I really like this person” sort of way. And even though I was attached, I still had other things going on like work and school, and I would never let this person be “my everything.” Inevitably, the time would come for us to part ways, and I would feel so broken. Although I haven’t had many long-term relationships I’ve only ever had one, and we were eighty miles apart and only dated for a year and a half – it still hurts all the same.

My typical behavior after a break-up, or a parting of ways, is to sulk. I usually get pretty sad because all of the hope I had for this relationship to turn out to be “the one” is now gone and I’m left all alone once more. Then, after about six months or more of not dating, I pretty much sleep with the next person I start dating almost immediately, which isn’t exactly the best way of going about things, I admit. However, this last year after starting to date someone who turned out to be a total d-bag, instead of sulking, I chose to start dating almost immediately. I got back on Tinder and found people to go on dates with the very next week, determined not to let this guy bring me down. I’ll write more about this specific guy in another post.

Hopefully, you can take what I’ve learned from becoming a serial dater and apply it to your life, or not, whatever you choose – it’s your life.

Cushion for the Pushin’

It really does cushion the blow. Before this I had always believed that my heart needed time to heal. Although a noble thought, I would usually end up getting depressed and stop doing the things that make me happy, like working out, eating healthy, spending time with friends, etcetera. Even though I would usually snap out of that relatively quickly – most of my “relationships” haven’t been for longer than three months, so it really doesn’t make sense to sulk for more than a week or so – still, sulking for even a week after some guy turns out to be a d-bag is no way to live. Beginning to date so soon after things ended with someone you liked gets you back out and takes your mind off of things and onto better things!

More Fish

It shows that there are more fish in the sea. Do you remember that movie, “He’s Just Not That Into You,” when Justin Long was saying how if some girl doesn’t like him that it’s okay because he can go find a better one that probably has a bigger rack? Well, this is the same thing — if a guy treats you badly and you break up with him, or he breaks up with you, or however, it went down, getting back out there shortly after that does show you that there are more guys out there. And, the sooner you get out there, the sooner you can see that this other guy probably wasn’t “the one.” By meeting other people, you’re able to expose his flaws and find people with qualities you also like — this opens up your mind about who “the one” for you might be, and allows you to not put this guy up on a pedestal.

No Fucks

Being a serial dater teaches you to be unapologetically you, in case you weren’t already that way. When you have access to so many guys, most of whom are only trying to get into your pants, you stop giving a fuck. You start to go out on dates with barely any makeup on, your hair undone, and just skinny jeans and a tank top, because seriously, who gives a fuck!? If they don’t like you like that, then they’re not going to like you when you roll out of bed in the morning. If they can’t hang with the fact that you’re a boss and have shit going on, bye Felicia! Seriously – no one has time for that, especially a woman in her thirties. Becoming a serial dater teaches you not to apologize for who you are. Eventually, the right person will come your way, and you’ll know it when it happens.

It Keeps You Busy

If you ever need to get your mind off of something, especially someone you just ended things with, this is definitely a way to do it. I mean, so yeah, you’re technically still on a quest of finding your person, but at least you’re insanely busy. Plus, it makes you that much more desirable to the opposite sex (or same sex, whatever) when you’re busy and only has one or two spots in the week when you can meet up. Plus, if one of those is lunches, that’s all the better – that shows them that you’re interested in getting to know them as opposed to getting drunk and sleeping together. And, if you’re also juggling a career and school as well as friends and “you time” then your schedule is pretty full. Just make sure that you are scheduling time with your girls and for yourself. No one wants to be with someone who makes everything about them. Well, I suppose some guys do, but they’re usually pretty controlling and scary.

Just Because You Can Doesn’t Mean You Should

Finally, just because you can get laid and sleep with the entire town after a man fucks you over, doesn’t mean that you should. That doesn’t give you a “one up,” and kind of makes you slutty. That being said, if sex with the ex-person was extremely unsatisfactory or he belittled you for whatever reason, you do you, girl. Get yours! Just be safe about it. Use that rubber! Most men nowadays don’t want to use condoms, and go and get tested even less, which increases your chances of contracting an STI or STD. If the guy doesn’t want to use a condom, unapologetically order yourself an Uber and get the fuck out of there! This guy clearly doesn’t care about his health and safety, or yours for that matter.

How to Stand up For Yourself

This ties right into that ‘No Fucks’ part. Have standards. Don’t bend. You are in this for you and you alone. You’re not tied or committed to anyone until death do we part yet, so stop bending over backward for someone just because you like them. Make them show you that they’re as much into you as you are to them. Once again, if you’re busy and have a whole pool of potential men at your disposal, don’t allow some guy to try and dick you around. If he’s going to insist that you constantly come to him, or that you pick up the tab (even though you already took the time out of your day to meet him, get ready, drive to him, and picked him up), then drop his ass. Be sweet about it – thank him for his time, and then move on. If he asks to meet up again, say something along the lines of, “No thank you. I don’t think we’re a good match. I wish you the best of luck though!” And then block him if he becomes rude.

Qualities that You Like

Serial dating allows you to see the qualities of a person that you like – and don’t like. If a guy is really into you, but can never make time for you, or only once or twice a month, will that satisfy you? What about if a guy is really cute and funny but is broke almost all of the time, and you end up having to pay for all of the dates? Dating helps you to get to know yourself! Can you tolerate being with a smoker, or would you consider that settling? Make a list of all the things that are important to you, and you should probably apply most of those to a potential mate. For instance, I’m really into healthy eating and working out, so any guy that I date must also have those qualities to be classified as long-term potential. Let’s be real here; I’m not going to be the owner of a holistic health spa and married to a man who eats and McDonald’s every day of the week. Gross. Living a healthy lifestyle is important to me, and it should be really important to him, too.

All-in-all, I feel that becoming a serial dater gave me perspective. Does this mean that I’m always going to be a serial dater, no! I’ve taken a hiatus from dating and have been focusing more on my business and growing that, as well as getting a third job. But that doesn’t mean that I’m not putting myself out there! I’m still talking to people and getting to know others; I’m just not focusing on finding an LTR. And you know what? That’s okay. Eventually, the right one will come my way, but until then, I’m going to continue bossing up my life and becoming the person I need to be.

I’d love to hear your stories on serial dating in the comments section!

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