#now i just feel empty

[mayattemptstowrite]

:/

#i knew i wasn't going to win the literary contest but i had some hope #now i just feel empty #it feels like my entire hard work from almost two years is worthless #anyways i was thinking about starting the first draft of my new novel today but this thing ruined my mood #mayattemptstowrite

[potetkongen-blog]

you know the rules and so do i

#oceangate #titanic #burger king #i just feel lost man what am i supposed to do now that the corporate overlords are gone i just feel empty man

[holographings]

sly//blu

#just a sketch. officially covered all possible routes. now back to feeling empty again #dmmd #aoba seragaki #drammatical murder #very funny how aoba's segmented personalities are kinda like his ego/superego/id. #very funny how im a psych major and could just make this my thesis when im supposed to graduate #i wont. but it would be funny i think #my art #fanart

[nuppu-nuppu]

#trying to make myself feel better by drawing my fave characters #the colors in this are a bit fucked up for some reason but i love this lil guy #i recently made one of my friends watch all the bnha movies it was fun #they know nothing about bnha except bakudeku #i feel like there's an emptiness inside of me now #like i have no emotions anymore #because he's gone #just hoping i can get his ashes back quickly so he can be with me once again #sorry for talking about poju he was my best friend #just miss him so much #midoriya izuku #deku #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #fanart

[runningwithscizzorz]

I feel a deep sense of anger and grief for Palestine. I’m angry at God, at the world powers donating to those who are killing civilians, angry at people looking away and encouraging you to worry about yourself when people can’t even walk down their streets without being attacked. I’m angry that my friend donated, only for it to be stolen and taken by the soldiers abusing Palestine. I’m angry that I can’t do much of anything but tell you to at least CARE about the people being bombed and slaughtered. Please, if you can’t do anything please just CARE about these people and listen to their stories. Hold them in your hearts at the very least. Don’t pretend they don’t exist or just brush it off as “its been going on for centuries, there’s no point in stopping it.” I want to do more, I want to make people care and love those who need it, rather than continue spreading anger and hate.

These are real people I’ve drawn. Keep the people of Palestine in your heart at the very least please.

#two of my best friends had to run away from their homes because they were Muslim #it was too dangerous for them to stay #but in leaving they also had to leave behind large parts of their families #they tell me about their friends and loved ones that have died and how empty they feel to it #that they also feel a deep sense of hopelessness and guilt at not being able to help #I have a friend now who teaches me about the qur’an and how it talks about having peace and not being afraid in times like these #so please DONT BE AFRAID TO SAY SOMETHING #Please talk about this with your friends #please educate yourself on what’s happening #please please please just CARE about the people of Palestine #even if it’s scary and even if it hurts you #do it for those who don’t have a choice to be afraid or hurt #free palestine #palestine

[moonavem]

#qsmp #qsmp etoiles #qsmp pomme #etoiles #my art #forgive my messy coloring #i just wanted to draw etoiles' cool looking skin #but it was feeling kinda empty so added pomme last min #but now i dunno if it makes sense #like did he have that skin before or after the eggs went missing #i dont really follow the streams 🌚

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yeah so i'm falling for @weevmo's Guys... they're so neat! i dig their vibes and can't wait to see what Corduroy Stew is all about <3

#fuckkkkk theyre so SHAPED!!! #i can feel myself getting So attached #if anything happens to them... i will simultaneously wail and cheer #nimrod is so cute. nimmy. the nimster. id love to toss birdseed on the ground for him to peck at. pigeon coded tiny man #lulu being a sock puppet trainer THATS SUCH A NEAT IDEA ARE YOU KIDDING IM OBSESSED #now im curious as to if sock puppets are like Animals or if they're as sapient as the others... #but yes im already looking directly at lulu she seems Fun as fuck #oughhhhh and wb. listen. Listen. im a sucker for handsome Head Empty characters and he seems like one of those #i also like characters with many hidden internal problems and wb seems like one of those too <3 #i hear that the three of them are siblings and that is Such catnip to me... #scribble garnish #dont know what else to tag this as! huh! #BUT YEAH THIS ALL SEEMS NEAT THEYRE COOL i Will be following this project to see where it goes #so far it has great characters a sprinkling of Intrigue bomb art (which. ofc it does its weevmo cmon guys) #and a neat song that i sweAR TO FUCK REMINDS ME OF SOMETHING. THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME FOR DAYS #the jingle is just vaguely familiar enough to make me Writhe in the agony of Unknown Knowns #but yes! i hope you all go check out weevmo's blog if you havent already! Good Stuff All Around!!

[cyberspacebear]

i finished this painting and all i felt was hollow. which is fitting. curse of aimen

#the curse of a realism painter #or any perfectionist artist i guess. just feeling absolutely empty in the emotions aisle after finishing a big project #the yard #the thing is that i was actually ecstatic after i finished the painting. it was the end of a two month process and i was so relieved. #but then i had to take photos of it #and now one could say that i'm feeling less cool #anyways i'm not begging for compliments i do like this painting. it'll just take me another month before i can get a big ego about it #aiden calvin

[abisalli]

Holy shit I was just going through my DC tag and why did no one tell me I have a serious problem

I have been continuously drawing DC Fanart since 2016

(If you’ve been following me through my 2017 phase… you’re a real one)

#fee rambles #then there’s 2021… we don’t talk about that one #and then it was back to the roots I GUESS??? #like anyone remember when I used to do icon requests???? #and when I just did fully colored requests?? for FREE?? #great now I’ve made myself feel really disconnected from my art #anyone else feel like tumblr used to be more community based and now it’s like talking to an empty void? no just me?

[0yorixu]

Desert duo I love them so much urhhhfhf

I should be sleeping right now for my trip that I have to wake up at 5 for but drawing urges told me to draw desert duo and sleep on the ride instead

#desert duo #grian #grianmc #grian fanart #goodtimeswithscar #goodtimewithscar fanart #gtwscar #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #hermitcraft smp #minecraft #mcyt #mcyt fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #fanart #my art #i would have shaded this more but im tired plus gotta wake up early #for my trip #i feel again now that im into desert duo again #idk if it's just me but when im not into anything i feel empty and missing inside #now i feel EMOTIONS #anyway desert duo i love #oh yeah last desert duo drawing before i go on trip in case i die/hj

[stuckinapril]

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#Bisan’s voice memo made me go insane I haven’t been able to sleep all night and now I’m just up w crushing anxiety about it #I need to go on a run or something but I have to study #I just feel physically sick and idk what to do with myself #I just wish people didn’t have to die #Please don’t be worried about me btw I’m fine I just feel wired. Idk #I usually don’t share stuff like this bc I don’t want people to get worried or for it to distract from my posts but I just wanted #to say something so I can feel less alone about it #Bc I know a lot of people on here really care #I need to get up and get my day started eventually but im like . Peaking #And I haven’t eaten anything in like 19 hours i feel empty in every sense of the word #p

[booksgaloresposts]

Fang Runin will destroy me emotionally on another level. I feel it deep in my soul.

#fang runin #the poppy war #I just finished the poppy war and I feel empty #I need the next two books NOW #rf kuang

[revolutionarygirlmabel]

From Mabel Episode 29: Aurora Silver is Willing to Wait

#after this my queue will be empty so posts will just happen when i feel like it instead of daily now 👍 #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #mabel #mabel podcast #utena tenjou

[moxymaxing]

Clarence💥💥💥💥

#appreciate that clsrence has a design now but my ass is NOT drawing danny phan/tom fanart thank you. i will keep the green eyes though #anyways clarence enjoyers how are we feeling tonight⁉️⁉️ (i am speaking to an empty room) #also unfortunately i did the thing where i didn’t want to look at this anymore so i threw it out here. tragic! #if i were stronger i would’ve made a matching piece with mal but mal is just not fun to draw. probably a skill issue on my part though #Clarence jrwi #jrwi clarence #clarence albert #<- dumb fucking name i kinda want him #mart

[deoidesign]

Thanks for making a comic about a couple middle aged queers getting to fall in love and be happy. As a someone who is a little on the younger side, it’s nice to see that. That there is a possibility of me and my friends to get to grow up. Plus, Steve has all the gender, and I want it for myself.

There's not much more important in this world than hope, I think, and the idea that maybe my art can make you a little more hopeful for a better tomorrow is all I could ask for <3 So thank you for reading, and thank you for being here!

And mood.

#we deserve to be here. #we get to be here #you deserve to be happy #not just tomorrow.. but now #you deserve to have nice things #and feel loved #and feel seen #and I weep thinking of how many people do not get to feel that #and I can only do my best to maybe make one person at a time see a little bit how important they are #I know it feels shallow #and like empty words #but I truly love you! #and I hope you can feel that just a little bit when you read my comic #I'm not the best with my words... #but I do love you! #and everyone else reading this. #and you deserve that. #if nothing else. you deserve this. #I will do my best for you all #anon #asks

[jemmo]

ive been thinking a lot about age in the eighth sense, in terms of age gap and the roles of hyung and sunbae and dongsaeng and the behaviours they entail, and the label of the country mouse, and how, with the events of the end of ep 6, they are paralleling jihyun against jaewon’s younger brother with the accident and how I think there’s a crux at the heart of this that is jaewon needing to see jihyun as not his younger brother. and i get that’s weird and kinda yucky considering the nature of the relationship between the two, it’d be very weird if jaewon simply thought of jihyun as a stand in for his familial little brother, but I don’t think it’s like that, it’s not as simple as that.

I think it’s very clear jaewon misses his little brother, plain and simple. and perhaps that extends into missing having a little brother figure in his life, and when I say little brother, I don’t mean familial. that’s why that initial ‘dongsaeng’ messed with our heads in the first place, bc it can be familial and not, so here, and from now on, I mean not. this is not weird incest territory, don’t worry. I think he misses having someone younger, someone to look after. he misses being an older brother. maybe that’s why he so quickly befriends jihyun. attraction aside, maybe he wants someone to care for, and a freshman, a country mouse that knows nothing of the city, being his friend, teaching him city life and uni life, that’s the kind of thing you’d do with a younger brother, and that’s an experience he’s missed. and I think a sense of responsibility also plays into this, bc that’s probably something he feels he lacks after losing his brother. he was supposed to be responsible, supposed to look after him but he couldn’t, and so now he wants to feel like he can be that responsible hyung, he can look after someone, not so much to redeem himself or prove something, but more for himself, to fill an emptiness by fulfilling that role. idk, I don’t think this is something he does consciously, but his body language, his constant touching and how it’s guiding and comforting, at first I thought it was just a desire to touch and filtered through this acceptable closeness between men, especially from someone older. but now i think there is a sense of actual brotherly-ness to it, which I think adds to this confusing want to be close jaewon has that to some degree comes from jihyun filling that younger brother space jaewon has had empty for so long. again, i think people are tentative to approach this topic bc it does get into weird territory, but I think this whole thing is more… how do I say… it’s like how people say you get with someone like your parents, like how often is the phrase “she reminds me of your mom” said between a father and son in movies and tv. it’s not that you want to date your mom, it’s more that you like and value traits that are similar, they bring you comfort bc you’ve literally been raised to be comfortable around someone like that. it’s not incestuous. and I think a similar thing is happening here, even though I don’t think it’s a driving force, I think it’s part of it. which is important, and I like, bc of how this theme progresses.

as the show continues, we see jaewon’s mask slip more and more, and we see jihyun become bolder, which are two important factors that lead into what I think jaewon ultimately needs to realize. jihyun is not his little brother, and he needs to separate the two. there is this obvious path leading from ep 6 where jaewon thinks jihyun’s accident is his little brother all over again and he regresses and distances himself and blames himself, but what he needs to see is that the accident is different. he needs separation. and that comes in the form of jihyun, jihyun becoming bolder and more confident and forthcoming and, most importantly, responsible. at the end of the day, he is not a child, and in that ocean he is responsible for himself just as much, if not more, than jaewon is. he goes into that ocean knowing he’s not the best swimmer and still does it. is he swept up by jaewon and emotions and the kind of heightened vibe of the day? yes. but is it still his decision? yes, and it’s a bit reckless. he can say no to jaewon when he offers to surf and catch the big waves instead of the safety of the shallows where they were before. you’ve seen him bite back and sass and poke and joke with jaewon before, he is not a cowering little mouse (more on that in a sec), and he still agrees, so he has to take responsibility. maybe jaewon was responsible for his little brother but he’s not responsible for jihyun, an adult with their own mind. and jaewon seeing that, that he can’t blame himself when he’s not responsible for anyone here, might just be the thing that helps him get out of that mindset.

and it’s not like jihyun is adverse to this. If anything, I think in this next ep we will hear jihyun blame himself, accept the fact that what he did was maybe a bit stupid and he should’ve thought first. bc we see time and time again jihyun not wanting to be that innocent, naive country mouse. just think about how much he refutes it time and time again, like in that library scene. he doesn’t want to be that person. that’s why he came to the city. It’s why he’s trying new things and being brave, he wants to grow up and be responsible. and I love that this becomes almost a reversal of the classic hyung and dongsaeng roles in later eps, as jihyun becomes more confident while jaewon regresses into himself. jaewon shows his weaker side and jihyun, the younger, looks after him instead. look at ep 6, how he initiates both conversation and physical contact, something we saw jaewon do in earlier eps. I love it both in terms of this theme but also just for romance sake. as an extension of these roles, you expect the older to make the moves and such, but I love that there are equal moments in this show that jaewon gets to be the one getting hit on, be it the scene where jihyun teaches him to draw or calls him cute when he’s drunk. you’d so typically expect to see a hyung doing those things to someone younger, but it shows equality in their relationship that counters those stereotypes in the simple and subtlest ways and I adore it.

this show has a strong theme overall of what’s expected vs how people actually are, be it from drinking etiquette to romance, but just like in that first scene with jihyun’s bar owner, one thing may be expected, but what people actually want, what makes people comfortable, can be something else. and by jihyun so simply not conforming to the country mouse persona initially put on him in such simple but outright ways, he acts as such a great challenge to jaewon, who wears his mask of expectation so frequently. it may be what’s expected, but have you ever considered that it’s not what people actually want? that they might actually want the real you, and all the so-called imperfection of it? bc when does that mask stop being a burden and start being a safety blanket, that shields you from the pain of actually being hurt in a genuine relationship, that hurts more than the pain of pretending. jaewon says over and over again that he’s tired of wearing the mask, but the mask is, ultimately, self inflicted, and as much as you can blame society and parents for expecting things from him, there’s a point when you become an adult where you get to decide for yourself who you are. again, he said it himself, just as he was afraid to leave the safety of the military, he’s afraid to leave the safety of uni, the bubble where what’s expected is clearly defined and can be performed. after that, the rules aren’t as clear. so much more of it depends on you. it’s the process of becoming an adult, of growing up. it’s a process jihyun is on, but jaewon, to be at least, seems further behind in. maybe bc he never got the chance at a fresh start like jihyun and is trapped by preconceived notions the people around him have of him by knowing him for years. maybe it’s bc of the loss of his little brother, and feeling trapped in that time, and a fear of growing up out of that person he was when his brother was there. maybe it’s bc he still feels trapped under his parents thumb, bc despite becoming an adult, you can never really be free of your parents.

I said this before, but it’s just like how they both said they’re jealous of each other, but what they’re jealous of is a preconceived notion of youth and age, not-knowing and knowing, naivety and experience, when again they don’t match these stereotypes. jihyun is not naive, and jaewon doesn’t know everything. Life experience is not all it’s cracked up to be bc it can’t all be good, but knowing nothing isn’t the bliss ignorance is often expressed to be. I’ve rambled on and waxed pathetically poetic long enough about these two to be embarrassing, but as a show that actually involves an age gap, and neither hides away from it nor exploits it for it’s played up romantic tropes, I adore that they let this factor naturally play into the bigger story being told, bc age actually means nothing here, and more than anything, jihyun and jaewon strive to be equals to each other, in their world void of expectations.

#it’s 2am in the morning and I wrote a thing #I don’t even wanna know how many words this actually is but all this stuff has been gnawing at my brain for a while now #so I just had to get out out in a big luscious overly emo ramble #but I’d love to know what you all think about this #bc going into the territory of jihyun replacing jaewon’s little brother has always been weird to me bc of the whole romantic vs familial t #thing but this show seems to be doing something interesting with it and it actually plays into their themes and I think ultimately wants to #convey that it isn’t the case jihyun isn’t a replacement he’s his own whole person and someone in jaewon’s life that only he can be #and he can fill an emptiness that jaewon feels without having to fulfill an empty role #the eighth sense