#of the future. specially if it means raising kids and everything that’s a huge commitment and I el like a therapist could be a great way to

[mazojo]

I wish the ultimatum had a period where the couples go to therapy

#because marriage is a HUGE step and you shouldn’t take it lightly and sometimes I feel like they get caught up in the moment they don’t thin #of the future. specially if it means raising kids and everything that’s a huge commitment and I el like a therapist could be a great way to #help them shape the path they are looking for #they don’t even have to show it on camera just…. let them go to therapy and talk about how it helped #but netflix and reality shows don’t really give a shit about these people so that would never happen 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ #AnYways Chile Mal and Sam my beloved they have not done anything wrong ever my beloveds #this is so messy bro I eat this shit up #the ultimatum queer love #the ultimatum

[starkermeup]

Be a Good Boy for Mr. Stark

Peter shows Tony how appreciative he is of him.

Or what should of happened in the car ride home in Homecoming.

Cross-Posted on AO3

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Peter smiled warmly as Mr. Stark talked to him, trying hard to focus on his words, while also attempting to convince himself that this was really happening. His role model and idol The Tony Stark, thinks he's special and deserving of his attention, to be even a future avenger, it was still a lot to take in. But he was loving every minute of it.

"Are you listening kid?" Mr. Stark asks, frowning at the prospect of being ignored and it takes Peter right out of his stupor. He nods his head shyly and blushes when he looks into Tony's dark chocolate eyes. That was going to take some getting used to he decides. "Because I don't like repeating myself."

"Y-yes, Mr. Stark. I heard you loud and clear. I was just thinking about everything you're doing for me and I feel so lucky and thankful that you'd take a chance on me." Peter finishes rather lamely and looks down nervously as he fumbles with his phone.

Tony stares at him with a raised eyebrow and it is then that Peter realizes the limo had stopped moving. Mr. Stark smiles at him then, but in a way Peter had yet to witness prior. He suddenly leans over Peter and Peter's confused but hugs the man regardless. If Mr. Stark wanted to hug him, there was no way he would deny him.

Tony waves his hand dismissively at the window and the figure on the other side walks away. Peter shivers when he feels Mr. Stark's hot breath on his ear.

"There is one way you can show your gratitude for my kindness Peter." Tony says and Peter feels chills run up his body. "You want to show me how grateful you are?"

The teenager blushes harder and clutches his mentor's expensive jacket. Mr. Stark couldn't be serious could he? There's no way he's talking about...

Tony guides Peter's hand down from his shoulder, down his suit until he stops on something hard and Peter audibly gasps when he realizes it’s his mentor's cock. He was aroused and it was for Peter of all people. He felt dizzy with realization and something hotter as Mr. Stark rubbed Peter's hand over his own crotch.

"Well? What will it be Mr. Parker? Are you thankful? Are you going to be a good boy and show me how thankful you are?" Tony asks smoothly, like he's completely unaffected by the movements of Peter's hand. Peter wants to change that. He whimpers at the good boy comment, feeling himself get harder by the second.

"Y-yes Sir I want to. I w-wanna show you how much I appreciate you." Peter says and he's not sure what he wants or what Mr. Stark wants from him but he's more than onboard for whatever because Mr. Stark wants him.

Tony smiles against his neck and brushes a fleeting kiss there. "Good boy. Now get on your knees." Mr. Stark says the last part with an edge and Peter finds himself dropping to the flooring of the limo before he really knows what he's doing. "Take it out, show me how grateful you are Peter." Mr. Stark motioned towards his crotch and Peter's mouth goes dry as he carefully takes out his mentor's cock with shaky fingers. Before he knows it, Tony's cock comes into view, much thicker and longer than his own. Peter's breathe hitches at the sight and his mouth waters. Mr. Stark was huge. The girth of it alone was making Peter anxious with the fear of letting his mentor down. That was the last thing he wanted to do.

"Sir, I-I don't know what to do..." Peter hesitates. Instead of frowning like the teenager anticipated, Tony smiled at him again and reached out to ruffle the boy's hair.

"That's okay, I'll help you through it. Wrap your hand around the base and lick the tip." Mr. Stark says easy like he was explaining bio-tech and not teaching his mentee to give him head. Peter nodded and did as he was told, gapping at the way his hand couldn't fully wrap around the sheer girth of the cock. He leans down, shyly licking the head a few times feeling the taste of salt and pre-cum on his tongue. Tony hums pleased at his efforts but tugs on Peter's curls edging him further down his length. "Don't be shy, I wanna see just how appreciative you are." Mr. Stark says and Peter can read between the lines to what he means. "Breathe through your nose." The man above him adds.

Peter closed his eyes and sucked hard as he allows his mouth to take the whole head in his mouth. Mr. Stark groans at the sensation and Peter wanted to smile that he's getting The Tony Stark off. It motivates him to take the man deeper, feeling his jaw start to ache from the thick cock.

"Hmm, yeah that's so good, Peter. You really are such a good boy, aren’t you? Showing me how grateful you are, how much you want it. Such a good boy..." Tony praises him and it makes Peter moan around him. He wants to be Tony's good boy, wants to make him feel good.

He's nearly to the base when his gag reflex kicks in and he pulls off embarrassed, coughing a little.

"I-I'm sorry Sir. I-I don't think I can take it all in my mouth." He resisted the urge to add yet because Mr. Stark probably won't want him to show his appreciation again after this. His heart sinks at the thought. He couldn't have that. "Can I try again please?"

Mr. Stark stared at his mentee, hair disheveled, eyes blown and lips puffy. All this from a little dicksucking. Amazing. He pondered. "Of course baby." Tony said, petting Peter's already messy hair.

Peter's heart fluttered and his cock twitched at the word. Mr. Stark just called him baby. Baby of all things and Peter felt hot all over as he sucked his mentor back into his mouth. Peter closed his eyes again and rolled his tongue, going up and down on the cock, thinking of all the best porn he'd seen, trying to imitate what they did. It seems to be working as Tony's groaning nonstop with his hand securely in Peter's hair, not yanking but simply guiding the boy down.

"Fuck. You're doing so good baby. Keep it up, let me see your eyes. I want you to remember who you're thanking accordingly. Remember who this mouth belongs to from now on." Tony says, thrusting his hips up in time with Peter opening his eyes. Tony seeing Peter's big orbs widen as he gags on his cock. Tony groans at the sinfulness of the act in front of him.

Peter whines but doesn't pull off, instead focuses on breathing through his nose and rutting his hips against the floor desperate for some friction. As his mentor gently fucked his mouth, praising him, Peter couldn't believe his fate, his role model and crush since he was a kid wanting him like this. It was almost too much. Mr. Stark had said his mouth belongs to him now. Peter whimpers at the idea as he hollowed his cheeks. That would be nice he thinks, to be owned by Tony Stark. He wants it. Craves it even.

"Fuck, I'm gonna cum baby. Gonna bust my load in your mouth and you're gonna swallow every last drop. You're going to show me just how grateful you are." Tony utters and stares at Peter as he comes hard down the boy's throat.

Buried to the hilt of his mentor's cock, Peter had no choice but to gulp down the waves of warm cum the best he could, eyes not leaving his mentor. Despite the act they just committed, somehow staring at one another like this, felt like the most intimate thing they had done. Peter pulls off when he thinks he got it all and suddenly feeling very exposed.

"M-Mr. Stark..." Peter says and a small string of cum on his bottom lip, connected to the tip of the man's softening cock. He isn't sure where he's going with this. Although he isn't given a chance to finish because Tony groans as he grabs him up and planting the boy in his lap. Peter blushed at the sitting arrangement. Even though, Tony was soft now, he was still big and Peter could feel it on his thigh. It made him moan desperately. "Please, S-Sir I need to-" Tony hushes him with a finger to his lips.

"It's okay, I'll take care of you baby," The older man says and he looks even better up close like this, so handsome and god, did he smell good. Peter tried to close the small distance between their lips but Mr. Stark beats him to it, tugging Peter forward by the curls at the back of his head. Peter gaps, immediately clinging to Tony. He moaned as his mentor worked his mouth open, feeling like jelly in his embrace. His first kiss, going to Mr. Stark, he whines with realization, unintentionally grinding down, which made him whine more from the friction.

Peter must have got caught up in the rolling of their tongues because he doesn't even notice Mr. Stark's hand traveling down his back and around until he lets out a high pitch moan in the kiss. Tony presses hard on the teen's confined hard-on.

"Look at you, so hard just from cock sucking. You just aim to please, don't you Peter? Always being such a good boy...I think you deserve a reward." Tony says against the boy's mouth. He slides his hand into Peter's jeans and wraps it around his throbbing cock, Peter leans forward from the friction, resting his forehead against the older man's shoulder. Noises he can't contain slip out as Tony works his cock up and now.

"G-god, M-Mr. Stark I-I" Peter can't even finish his sentence, too focused on the heat of his mentor's hand on him. It felt incredible, another first taken by Mr. Stark and he was getting off on it. He couldn't help the way his hips move on their own, only moaning more when Tony lets him.

"That's it Peter. Fuck my fist like the needy little thing you are. I want you to cum like this. Good boys do as they're told so be a good boy and cum baby." Tony whispers into the boy's ear, jerking him faster.

Peter isn't sure exactly what takes him overboard, he'd bet it was the 'good boy' or 'baby' comment. Either way, Peter was coming and whining as Tony worked his cock completely, milking it of every drop until he was soft and sensitive. Peter collapsed on top of his mentor, completed sedated, trying to catch his breath as the latter pulled a handkerchief out of his jacket.

"Hm, you made a mess of my suit jacket." Tony clicked his tongue and Peter blushes with embarrassment.

"I-I I'm sorry sir. I didn't mean to. It just felt so g-good..." Peter says and he's staring down at the man's chest. Tony tips his head up, so they're eye level and presses a kiss against the boy's lips. He pulls away shortly afterwards (much to Peter's disappointment) and smirks at him.

"Since you were getting your reward, it's alright this time but-" Mr. Stark stops as he holds Peter's jaw in place, looking at him with dark orbs. "If you do it again, I'm gonna make you clean it up with your tongue, understand? Good boys don't make messes."

"Y-yes Mr. Stark, I'll be more careful next time." Peter says, still floating from the best orgasm he ever had. Again. Mr. Stark wanted to do it again with him and that was definitely something Peter could get behind.

"I know you will," Mr. Stark says accordingly and puts himself back into his slacks, Peter can't help but watch, still in disbelief the cock was just in his mouth. "You're a good boy."

#my writing #starker #ironspider #tony x peter #tony stark x peter parker #first starker fic i wrote wooo #lemme know what yall think abt it 😏 #starker fic #ironspider fic

[fluffy-yoongi]

BTS as Boyfriends

Jin is definitely awkward at first, but once he’s comfortable with you, he’s super affectionate. He’s shy, so he’s so nervous about everything at first, holding hands, kissing, even hugging you. But he’s also filled with love, so once his walls come down, it’s love 24/7. He makes you dinner, packs you lunch, makes sure you always have your favorite snacks. He’s also super encouraging, always telling you you look good, but not as good as him 😂. Jin is so funny, you laugh everyday. I’m talking from the moment you wake up until you close your eyes. From silly little jokes, to funny pictures or making faces, he’s made it his life mission to make you smile. He’d rather facetime than text or talk on the phone, but he still always sends cute little texts of him posing with RJ or a dog he saw on a walk or a drawing he made. He always tries to plan fun dates. Even if they’re just staying at home, he makes sure to get a movie you told him you wanted to see or that you mentioned was one of your favorites when you were little. He remembers so many little things about you, not just how you like your coffee, but the name of your pet when you were a kid or even your favorite shoes you had as a kid. He can definitely be stubborn at times, but it’s never in an aggressive manor. And if he ever raises his voice, he immediately feels bad about it, even if you aren’t bothered by it because it’s really not raising his voice. He’s super hard working, and that translates into the relationship. He wants to make sure that you know how much you mean to him and you’re a top priority to him. After you’ve dated for a while, he loves talking about getting a pets with you, pets over kids for sure. Not that he doesn’t want them someday, maybe, but for right now, having a fur baby is way more obtainable and feasible.

Yoongi is really just a big softy and wants everyone in his life to have love and happiness. He may have trouble expressing things verbally, but there’s so many other little things that he does to show you he cares. From little notes, to small gifts and flowers, to soft gestures, he makes sure you know how much he cares about you. He’s definitely slow to say i love you, not because he doesn’t feel it, he just doesn’t know how to say it, but he definitely shows it. He loves to take care of you. He cooks dinner, will do the shopping, the laundry, buy you tampons, get your favorite wine. he remembers the little things you like. You tell him one time you like a candy, there’s always that candy in the pantry. He’d much rather have a night in than going out, but that doesn’t mean it’s not still romantic and cute. He’ll even dress up and set the table for you like it’s a restaurant. PDA is almost non existant outside of holding hands, but when it’s just the two of you, you’re showered in kisses. He loves just soft and cheesey moments. If Holly likes you, you’re a keeper. As you get more serious, talks to turn to get Holly a sibling, deffinely another dog or cat over a human sibling. While he may seem closed off or work obsessed, he definitely makes sure you know how special you are to him everyday. Sometimes you get upset because you feel like he’s being stand-offish or ignoring you, and he gets frustrated, but once you begin to understand each other more, you grow to understand how each other work, and the things you thought were him ignoring you are just part of his personality. But he works hard on becoming more vocal and open everyday.

This man right here was designed to be a boyfriend. Like every cliche is him, in the most adorable way possible. Flowers because it’s a Tuesday, a little plushie he saw at the store and remind you of him, matching hats, matching sneakers, matching bags, he’s all about that. He always makes sure his hoodies are clean so you can take one if you want to. He also loves making you playlists of songs he’s been enjoying or remind you of him or he thinks you’ll like. He also loves taking you out and showing you off. He wants everyone to love you, but not as much as he does. PDA doesn’t bother him, he’s so affectionate 24/7. He loves holding hands and kissing, cuddling, tickles, everything. He just wants to be with you. Sometimes you have to tell him to give you some space because he would smother you with love all day if he could, just so sweet. You have little tiffs sometimes, but nothing ever blows up into a serous argument. He’s definitely great at expressing what’s bothering him or upsetting him and working on finding a resolution to anything that’s bothering you. He loves surprising you, just showing up at work to take you to lunch. Telling you to be ready by 10, he’s got an exciting day planned together, gifts all the time. Once he’s serious, he has no problem planning your future together. He’ll stay up late talking about how many kids he wants and what names he likes, where he wants to settle down, growing old together. Once he’s in love, he’s in love deep.

Joon definitely struggles between being the strong and masculine boyfriend vs the soft and cuddly boyfriend and tries to find the balance between the two. He’s very traditional, so there’s a whole courting process before you’re officially a couple. He loves taking you out, on either dates to 5 star restaurants or a picnic along the river, if he could take you on a date evrynight he would. At first, it can almost feel like he’s trying too hard, and it’s partially because he’s trying to find a happy medium of being a masculine and soft boyfriend. But once he finds that happy medium, it’s so special. He loves traveling with you, he wants to go to every museum with you, always telling you things like you belong in a mesum or you’re more beautiful than the art. Definitely cheesy, but it’s so cute and endearing. There’s definitely moments at the beginning where you get upset he doesn’t feel the same about you as you do about him, but it’s just because he struggles showing his affection. But he’s such a good listener and so good with his words, you have great talks about what you’re feeling and want and need from each other. Once you get through that, it’s seriously like a movie. He’s the picture perfect boyfriend, and once things get serious, it’s dinner with his family once a week and planning the next 50 years. He talks about how he can’t wait to have kids and how you’d be the best mom. It seriously would grow into such a warm and comfortable friendship and partnership. Once he’s commited and serious, he’s in it for life.

Jimin is a cheesy romantic, so you have such a fun and loving relationship. He wants to take you around the world and take pictures every step of the way. You definitely go to every Disney park, like he has to have some kind of connection there becaue you go to the secret clubs and in every castle. He’s also super affectionate, will kiss you at every change he gets, pda isn’t a worry for him. He hates being alone, so it seems like he’s clingy at first, but you realize it’s part of his cham, and it makes you fall in love with him. When he falls in love, it’s 110%. He’s naturally flirty, which can be annoying, but he makes sure to let you know you’re the only one he’s thinking about. Gifts, so many gifts. It could be a $2 keychain at the gas station to a $10,000 bag, if it reminds him of you, he buys it. He also makes you little notes and drawings all the time. You have a whole little box of the notes and cards he’s gotten you. Matching outfits everyday of the week if he could. It can be as obvious as wearing the same jacket to something subtle like the same bracelet. He talks about starting a family with you, but only after you’ve traveled every place he wants to take you. He talks about wanting to move out of the city and back to the coast when you start a family so you can have pets and a yard and grow up away from the crazy that city can bring. He just loves every cliche, and wants it to feel like you’re in a romcom everyday.

Tae is very closed off at first because he’s been screwed over in the past, but once he realizes you like him for him, he’s so sweet. He was designed to cuddle all day everyday, so he’s constantly trying to get you to come over just to cuddle on the couch and watch tv. He writes you little songs all the time and gets too embraced to ever sing them for you, but he gives you all the poems and songs he writes. He loves just doing everyday things with you like walking Tan or doing laundry. He also loves planning cute dates at home, making a blanket fort and watching movies, turing the living room into a dance floor, painting together, he always makes the cutest little home dates. Like pinterest level cute. You love to just sit together and listen to music or read, and it’s just comfortable. He’s shy in public with you, but he’s so loving when your alone. He loves taking you to museums and galleries, he just loves art and wants you to love all of his favorite artists. Once you’ve been dating for a while, he’s definitely talking about a family. He wants a little Tae army, and he wants to move out of the city and have a farm. Horses, sheep, chicken, dogs, cats, and a huge garden. It would definitely be slow and hard at first, but once he knows you he can trust you, it’s so cute and perfect.

This boy is an angel on earth and is made of 100% pure love. The most hopeless of romantics, he makes everyday special. It can almost feel like he’s trying too hard at first, and it may be becaus he is, but it’s just because he’s so full of love. The most loving and respectful boyfriend you could ever have. It’s like a month before he stops asking if he can hold your hand and two before he stops asking to kiss you. He’s awkward at first just because he wants everything to be perfect. This boy wants you to feel like you’re all the sweet scenes in K Dramas ans RomComs. So many sweet gestures, like flowers, thoughtful gifts and hand written notes. He also loves taking pictures and videos of you when you’re not paying attention. It’s 75% of his camera roll. He tells you he loves the way your face looks when you’re reading or the way your nose scrunches when your laugh, then shows you the picture of it so you can see what he’s talking about. He loves taking you on trips and to fancy restaurants, but loves going to hole in the walls or staying home and ordering takeout more. He loves going on adventures, too. Like hop n the car and just drive, go on a hike, driving to the beach just because, always down for a road trip. All for matching tattoos, like you have to talk him out of tattooing your name in a heart. He struggles to say I love you at first, but once he knows it and you’ve said it to him, it’s non stop. Random texts and calls just to say I love you. He can not wait for you to meet his family, like would have introduced you in the second date, but waits until you’re ready. He also loves talking about the future with you. How many kids you want, living in the country, having so many pets, somewhere that’s close to nature so you can just go one hikes and adventures.

#bts boyfriend #jin boyfriend material #jin fluff #jin imagine #boyfriend yoongi #yoongi fluff #min yoongi imagine #jhope imagine #jhope fluff #jhope boyfriend #rm imagine #rm fluff #boyfriend hoseok #boyfriend namjoon #boyfriend jimin #jimin fluff #jimin imagine #tae imagine #tae fluff #boyfriend taehyung #jungkook imagine #jungkook fluff #boyfriend jungkook

[whateverisbeautiful]

Reveling in Richonne

#154: The People We Love (9x14)

Michonne Grimes will always fight for the Grimes. You just trust with Michonne that they’re gonna be okay cuz she fights for the people she loves. And that’s what gets expressed in these final moments of 9x14. 

Michonne and Judith had that sweet moment on those rocks and I love that we get a second heartfelt heart to heart from them this episode. They are why I stuck around this show after all, so I’ll take as many moments between them as I can get. 

And I hope we get a lot more mom/daughter moments in Michonne’s last season coming up that further illustrate how Judith couldn’t have a better mom. The things her mom has done for her, it’s just a testament to the ultimate love of a parent. 😊

In the moment on those rocks, that’s where Judith got to express herself and now in this conversation Michonne gets to take the floor and express her side of things, which i appreciate. 

And this really deep moment between Michonne and Judith comes in the present as they stand over Carl’s grave. 😭 

It’s emotional seeing the two of them here paying their respects to Carl specifically. Carl loved them both so much and as we know from his final episode, he wanted these two to get each other through.

Carl told Judith to listen to Michonne and asked Michonne to be strong for Judith and here we see them honor that. 

(Side note: It’s super cute that Michonne and Judith are wearing similar outfits with a denim jacket and pink/peach colored shirt. I love that.)

Michonne starts by saying, “Your father and I dug this together. And that day, standing right here, I made a promise to never bury another child again.”

It’s heartbreaking hearing Michonne recall the day her and Rick had to dig this grave for Carl. We saw those clips of R&M digging that grave and how distraught Michonne felt. So it’s deep knowing that as we watched Michonne bury Carl in 8x09 she was promising herself never again. That as long as she lives she’d make sure her kids live. Whatever it takes. 

As much as Michonne’s heart was breaking so soon after losing Carl, it’s powerful to know that she was already building this resolve to make sure this doesn’t happen again. Already believing she could do everything in her power to prevent another loss of a child. You know at that point she considered Judith her daughter so she was definitely thinking of her first and foremost, and how even though death surrounded them constantly, she’d ensure that Judith lives. 

Michonne then gets emotional and vulnerable and says, “But then your father was gone. And I was…lost.” 🥺

Utterly heart shattering. Y’all, hearing this hurt. Magnets aren’t meant to be apart at all. Let alone six years. And Michonne has gone through the losses of many people during her time on the show, but with Rick that loss was a special level of painful because in losing him she lost a huge part of her. So it makes since that she acknowledge how lost she was afterwards. 

We didn’t see the days that directly followed Rick’s absence but it breaks my heart to think about how Michonne spent those days/months/years feeling lost without him. Y’all, as hard as it is to know Michonne felt lost without Rick, it’s deep to see how connected the two were and how even six years later she’s still so clearly in love with him. 

Judith looks up at Michonne with tears in her eyes cuz the rule is true; when your mom cries you cry. 👌🏽 Michonne continues, saying “And then you were lost and I was scared. More scared than I have ever been. Before or since.” 💔

Once again my heart shatters over this line. It is really significant to have Michonne say this was the most scared she’d been before or since.  In the seasons she’s been on the show there’s been a lot of stressful and scary things she’s been through and yet losing Judith was what scared her more than any of those other things. Michonne loves this little girl so much.

Also I really appreciate Michonne getting to say she was scared. People seem to forget that’s an emotion Michonne’s allowed to have and act out of, just like everyone else. Of course as a parent, the kidnapping of her daughter would have her absolutely terrified and also scarred in more ways than one. That would make anybody switch up a bit and get highly on the defense when it comes to protecting their children. 

Michonne’s protective cuz she lost her sons and then temporarily had to feel what it was like to have lost her daughter and she doesn’t ever want to lose her again. She’s already had to bury a kid twice and it’s horrible cuz I’m sure after returning to Alexandria with all the kids, sis then had to be nervous if she’d have to lose another child with wondering if RJ would make it after everything Jocelyn and those kids put her through while pregnant. After all that trauma she endured honestly people are lucky she didn’t go more off the deep end, and still has a sound head on her shoulders. 

I like that Michonne is vulnerable with Judith about not just what she did and what happened but how it made her feel. And it’s deep to see Judith shed tears and feel for her mom as she finally gets to understand this trauma from Michonne’s perspective. Cuz Judith was there when that Jocelyn stuff went down but she wasn’t there.

Michonne thought she had to carry this secret and burden for everyone but there’s something liberating about her realizing she can be transparent with Judith about more things. Cuz Michonne had expressed the whole I protect you thing to Judith, but Judith is getting older and is ready to hear more and see more sides of her mom. 

I mean she wants to defend her mom too, cuz when Magna was outside their house in 9x06, Judith was ready with the strap for Magna lol. She sat on those steps ready to post up with that gun like...

Michonne goes onto say, “And I wasn’t the only one (who was scared). So we decided to make this place only about the people who lived here.”

Y’all...hold up wait a minute. This made me so upset cuz I was like this means that multiple people knew what went down, felt at least an inkling of what Michonne felt, and agreed on this decision to make the community more isolated. She wasn’t the only one. Multiple people! And yet, those multiple people were nowhere to be found in this time jump so I was looking around like...

Cuz they sure did seem to say nothing and let Michonne carry the brunt of this on her own and be the only one vilified. And for not standing up and defending Michonne and their joint decision to close things off, someone needs to give them a serious talking to and/or whooping. 

Plus it totally adds up that it would’ve been a more collective decision too cuz Michonne’s not a dictator and she wouldn’t have closed things off had there not been supporters of the idea. Those people and parents are forever indebted to her. And the fact that Michonne is still so committed to this place shows she’s doing a great job both raising her kids and this ungrateful community. 

Michonne then acknowledges that only being about their own is “not what Carl or your dad gave their lives to create. But it kept you and RJ safe. That’s what I wanted. That is all I wanted.”

At the end of the day, before Michonne is Head of Security or the unspoken leader of Alexandria, Michonne is a mother. And mother’s do hard things if it means it’ll protect their children. She said in 9x06 how she watched Rick’s sole focus be about keeping Carl safe and how she’s adopted that mindset with their remaining children. 

Not once has Michonne’s intent been malicious or divisive, it’s just that she’s a mother and all she wants and wanted is to keep her kids safe. Regardless of how the decision would reflect on her or how hard it would be to close off from the others because she loves and cares about them so much (and honestly sometimes more than they seem to love and care about her, smh). She was willing to go to extremes and trade being liked and supported for the sake of her kids.

Michonne put the kids first because who wouldn’t? I think the majority of parents would do the same. Plus Rick and Carl gave their lives to create a future. And kids are the future. So Michonne got laser focused on making sure the kids had an environment that protected them at all costs.

In an ideal world I know Michonne would want to still be welcoming and all, but after the trauma she chose to honor being strong for Judith even if people don’t’ understand it.🏽 Even though everyone both in show and out of show should’ve been did understood. 

It’s tough seeing how Michonne feels the weight of honoring so many people. She wants to protect her kids and community. She wants to honor what her husband and son gave their lives to create. She wants to honor her daughter’s thoughts and opinions. 

She wants to keep everyone alive, be it literally or in memory. And that’s a lot for one person to carry and so I hope we finally get to see more people take that load off Michonne and genuinely be there for her and honor her the way she deserves in her final season. 

So then Michonne stoops down and looks up at Judith in such a humbling position, and she smiles through tears and says, “You were right. We have to protect the people we love. All the people we love. And we will.” 

Michonne is the best mom. I love that Michonne makes Judith stronger but also Judith makes Michonne stronger. And Michonne continues to show that she’s willing to really hear Judith out and come around to seeing things her way. She stoops down to Judith’s level to show I hear you. I’m listening. 👌🏽☺️ She’s willing to take leaps towards change for the sake of her daughter like the magnificent mom she is. 😊👌🏽

And a super subtle thing I noticed in this moment is that before Michonne looks at Judith she low key looks down at Carl’s grave when she says “you were right.” It makes me emotional cuz it’s like she’s saying it to both of them. To Judith and Carl. 😭

Cuz for Carl she’s saying to him; I might’ve steered from the original vision a bit but you were right and I’m ready to go after it again. We’ve gotta protect all the people we love and think bigger picture.

Carl entrusted to Michonne this vision cuz he knew she’d fight to make his vision reality. And she always has. Starting with making sure everybody got their Carl letters, even Negan.

One of the sweetest things about Michonne and Carl’s relationship was the way she didn’t write him off as just a kid, and with Judith it’s the same. She hears her out and wants to try and take big leaps to honor what they’d want.

It’s meaningful that Judith does sort of help bring her back to the boldness they have to have to love and protect people regardless of risk. But it makes a lotta sense why she’d feel like the risk was too large before this.

And while I so admire Michonne’s resolve to protect the people she loves, I remember watching this and saying, “But who protects Michonne?” 

Cuz sis needs someone to be resolved to look out for her too. She had that person in Rick, but without him it feels like everyone has an expectation for her to help them rather than vice versa.  

I know she can protect herself of course, but with Rick gone, who’s the person who looks out for Michonne the way she looks out for and fights for everybody else?

Like I don’t think the moral of this story should just be “Michonne has learned to take care of everyone again”. She’s done that and is doing that. To me there needed to be more emphasis from this show about those in TF who dropped their responsibility to take care of and be there for Michonne. Especially during her most vulnerable time when she needed them most. 

She goes through the most trauma and then is expected to just put that aside in order to help patch up everybody else’s stuff, otherwise she’s the “difficult” one??

Not here for that. And I’m not saying she shouldn’t have the heart she has to care for all the people. I admire that. I just think a lot more people need to come to this same conclusion when it comes to being a good friend and family member towards Michonne. 

I genuinely believe I can think of at least one scene between Michonne and pretty much anyone from TF where she showed love, care, and support to them. And Michonne deserves that same energy back.  

So then Michonne stands up and takes Judith’s hand and they walk off hand in hand and it’s just beautiful. 😭 

Truly, they’re both better for having each other in their life. And it really feels like Rick and Carl live on through their beautiful bond.  😌 

I think about all the times Michonne has taken Rick’s hand, and now she takes Judith’s hand and they’re a comfort to each other like R&M were. 😭You know Rick would be so proud and over the moon to see the bond his girl’s have. 

To put it simply, the Grimes girls are...

Michonne, Judith, and RJ were the best way to reset the series cuz it keeps the focus on what one of the show’s original premises was which is; a parent trying to raise their kid in an apocalypse. (Side note: I hope Rick gets to find these kids while they’re still young. 🙏🏽)

Also shout out to Cailey cuz she did some great acting in this scene without even uttering a word. 👏🏽����🏽👏That girl is talented. And she’s also very smart as this comment shows...

So then this lovely mom and daughter ride over to the fair and they’re all smiley which is super cute. ☺️ 

Judith asks if her wound will leave a scar and Michonne is so sweet and supportive when she says, “No, but it’s okay if it does.” I love it. 🥰

Michonne knows firsthand that sometimes scars are just proof that you can and will do anything to protect the ones you love, and it’s proof you fought and survived. They show that you can make it. And I think that’s how Michonne’s come to view her x scar. As long as people you love are living then the scars are worth it.💯

Y’all, I just know the reoccurring direct quote from Judith’s mind has got to be...

As they ride through the woods they find Daryl and Connie and co. They all smile and hop in and head off to what will certainly be imminent disaster lol, otherwise known as the fair. 😂

But at least they’re all happy right now so I’ll at least be happy they had this moment to enjoy. 

And that’s the analysis of everything from “Scars”. 

I love all the beats Danai got to play in this episode. 👏🏽The mom jumped out and was so believable. She got in that mama bear mode real quick and I was here for it. 

I knew Michonne and Danai would deliver in a Michonne-centered episode. And she delivered more than Santa on Christmas. 

Danai got to shine like the star she is in this heavy episode. The range. The phenomenal delivery. She has so many layers to everything she says and does. It’s excellence. 💯 #QueenInEVERYWay 

And don’t get me wrong I don’t like Michonne suffering and in pain at all. I hope we never have to see her get beat up again. No more Michonne brutality. 🙅🏽‍♀️I don’t love the episode for that. I love it for showcasing Michonne’s versatility, resilience, and vulnerability. I love that it illustrated the love she has for Rick and her kids. I appreciate it highlighting this multi-dimensional fascinating character and that we got to learn more details about the queen this episode. 

So TWD, keep the Michonne-centric episodes coming in her final season but no more putting Michonne through trauma. No more abuse in her final season. Let her go to the movies. Let her find Rick. Let the Grimes family reunite. Give us a movie that’s five hours of R&M living life with their kids and then call it a wrap lol. 😋

I hope all the range and gloriousness of Danai gets highlighted more and more in her last run as Michonne in season ten. 🙏🙏🏽

What I most appreciate is that Rick’s presence is so kept alive through Michonne and Judith and their moments together like the ones in this episode. Y’all, Richonne won’t ever stop blessing us. 🙌🏽😭💯

🏽gifs source: @michonnegrimes @winterswake @superestrella9

#richonne #s9 #9.14 #they are the people I love

[bearogenes]

Dear Bearogenes: Help. He wants to marry me!

So I’ve been with my partner for a very long time now and our relationship, that at one time just was sex, soon blossomed into something else’s entirely. I love him and he loves me too and I’ve lately come to realize how domestic our life is now. He works, comes home to dinner and we watch TV for a while and go to bed. We talked and he said he wants a life with me. to marry me and have a kid, but I’m afraid. afraid one day he’ll wake up and realize he made a mistake. what can I do?    

      I’d like to start my answer to this by saying that you've asked the wrong question. What you said was “one day he will wake up and realize he made a mistake” when what you meant to say was “I feel like he’s making a mistake by choosing to have a life with me and one day he’ll realize how much of a mistake that was”. That’s what’s behind those words because the rest of what you tell me presents and entirely different story.

You two met a long time ago now , be that months or years, as a hook up but that one time became more frequent until you moved in with him. These days most people call that ‘dating’ I think. I could be wrong. The last time I did that was 13 years ago and he’s still here, my best ‘mistake’. But I digress, back to your point.

You two have since built what I would call a ‘normal’ life together. Some shudder at the idea of domesticity and ‘regularity’ but there is a comfort and safety in it that they miss out on. This kind of relationship develops out of a stable long term relationship over time and is, in fact, a good sign IF the movements of your life together are not only comfortable but comforting. If you feel forced or pressured into this kind of situation, consider that the only warning I need give you that you need to step back and reevaluate.

He has taken the ‘next step’ and said “We’re doing this anyway, lets just put it on paper and build from there“. As far as I’m concerned, this is just a statement of commitment from him, an expression of his value for your presence in his life. That shouldn't be a bad thing, or even a cause for concern unless there is reservation on your part.

This is where I keep coming back to as I contemplate your question: The problem isn't so much that he will think he made a mistake but that you already feel like you’re a mistake. So I ask, why is that? What makes you so certain you’re a mistake that you’d consider rejecting the future offered because of that feeling like he might one day not want you anymore?

That also brings me to another question to consider: Why me? Why would he choose me? We've been together a long time but that doesn't mean we should be married…When in fact you've already been living your life together as if you were. The only difference between before and after this is that there is protection for you both should something happen to the other and that with you he has said he wishes to raise a family.

That alone can be frightening, the idea of ‘parenthood’, but especially to someone who never before considered that a possibility in their lives. It’s a huge step from just being ‘married’ to having a ‘family’ together. In some ways, to the truly responsible parent’ it’s a commitment to far more than just your partner but to also to the new life you’d be sharing with someone special: your child.

There is a hell of a lot of commitment being asked for from you by this question but it also says even more about how he feels. He’s asking for your considered and informed decision about the future together. You both now know what life will be like going forward because you've already passed the ‘hard part’ of learning to live together and you've spent time learning about who the other truly is without anyone else around. Many relationships falter at that phase, but you have not. This is a good thing. A really good thing in fact.

This is where your view of your own value has come into conflict with what is being asked of you by this person who seems to hold you in high regard. He seems to hold no such opinion of you, nor think you a mistake, because I know of no one willing to embark on such commitment to someone they feel that way about. To me that says this question isn't really about him, but about getting over your fear.

You worry that ‘somewhere down the line’ he’ll wake one day, roll over as he has every day for years and think “why the hell did I marry that’” and that hurts to read. You have someone who has judged you worthy and important to them but part of you can’t accept it because you don’t think you’re worth it. To this point I can only say: It’s not your place to make that evaluation of your value to them. You can’t make them love you, that comes from within them, and you can’t direct how that grows for them. The only thing you can do is learn to either accept that he feels that way or continue as you are.

To the former point, talk to him. Explain your fear, and be honest about why. Don’t put it out there like a ‘break up’ if that’s not your intention; consider and measure your words carefully and truthfully. Make them about how you feel, your concerns and your feelings about the idea and the life you two have together. If you value him, now is the time to say so. If you value your life with him, make that clear.  Communication and honesty are critical components of a truly stable long term relationship but especially so of one that might move into that kind of relationship where a child may be involved.

Now, at last, to your fear about him thinking you a mistake.  You asked me what can you do? Beyond the talking points above, you can ask yourself one question when you are alone:

Is today enough?

Without realizing it you face that fear every day because the odds are just as good tomorrow as ten years from now that he might think you and your life together a mistake. Did he say that this morning? No? Do you reasonably expect him to tomorrow? Probably not. So what you are wrestling with is a potential that has an equally opposite potential with just as much chance of happening:

Ever After.

The stories always end with ‘happily ever after” but neglect to mention that it is THAT moment, once the challenge is won, that real life begins. You’re on the cusp of that beginning and since no story ever writes that part out, you've no guide for what happens next. The truth is that everything happens next. Thousands of I love yous, mornings of creaking bones and shuffling feet to make coffee that cannot be counted, hardships and heartbreaks, but at the end of it all, what matters isn't how the last line is written.

What  makes it ‘happily ever after’ isn't the absence of challenge or struggle because those things can serve to strengthen a relationship more than the ‘good times’ if they come in proportion to the wealth of companionship and affection you should be sharing at this ‘stage of the game’.

Don’t make every day about what is going to happen tomorrow. There’s no promise of that. All this could end without warning, so you cannot ‘live’ in the future tense. Instead you have the opportunity to take these moments, polish the rough bits and truly commit yourself to the endeavor of love.

Consider the opposite and it’s consequences. If you were to refuse, and something were to happen that took him from you tomorrow, what then do the days after look like? Regret, loneliness, and darkness, because you would look back and think yourself a fool for wasting those precious moments you could have shared.

The other potential is that he may look on you as a mistake, but again, you must consider how much time you wasted worrying about it that you could have spent being happy together. If, as you say, your afraid that somewhere down the line he’d see you that way, what about all the days between now and then?

Does the end invalidate the journey?

I don’t think so. It may make it bittersweet, but no matter how the story ends it cannot strip it of what was truly good in the days before the last lines of that story were written. We really don’t get to choose how those last few pages develop so we should instead concern ourselves with making sure that it’s a good story from now until whenever ‘then’ should be.

Love isn't risking pain. It’s a guarantee of it but the weight of love in such scales invalidates the pain that someday must be paid. We make that choice gladly, willingly, because we know that every moment will be worth more than the debt that comes due eventually. We aren't promised one second of time, no guarantee of a long and happy life, so why then do we struggle against ourselves so hard when it comes  to make the most of the moment we do have: right now.

You've come a long way from just sex to domesticity. Respect the strength that represents and what it says about your feelings for the life you two have together. This fear has, I suspect, infiltrated your day to day life as you've struggled more with it since he brought this up and that’s where it has crossed a line to me. The fear of tomorrow has begun making it happen by corrupting today and your ability to share freely with each other. Time to put the fear in it’s place.

Consider this final thought in closing and with it go my best wishes for you both:

He has done more than deem you ‘worthy’, he’s decided you are essential.

My best, as always, 

- Bearogenes

[west43rdstreet]

Henry Mark Newman.

Faceclaim: Jensen Ackles. Age: 31 years old. Birthday: 30th October, 1986. Hometown: Henderson, Nevada.  Sexuality: Heterosexual. Bisexual.

Current Occupation: Hired Guard. Aspirations: None currently. Pets: None.

Qualifications: - High School Diploma.  - Rank of Sergeant in the Marines. - Marine Corps Forces Special Operations Command (Raiders).

Biography: Henry or rather Mark, was born in the south of Nevada to Bradley and Helen. He hadn’t been planned, more of an accident waiting to happen. His parents were always moving around due to his father’s role in the RAF. Yet they’d been careless and Helen had fallen pregnant. Luckily, Brad was stationed in Nevada for two years and it gave them chance to start raising a son.

He was named Henry after his grandfather, but always went by the name of Mark. He prefers the name Mark, although he won’t tell his father that. There’s a lot of pressure placed on his shoulders from a young age. His father is strict, stern and treats his son more like another cadet than his own child.

Growing up, Mark moved around an awful lot. The backseat of a car was more like home than the countless states they went through or the Motels and Army bases they stayed near. His family didn’t settle down when they had a child, they took the inconvenience with them. His mother, he was much closer too. She did her best to offer Mark a life as close to ‘normal’ as she was able to. Thankfully, his father’s placement in Washington State was placed timely to him starting High School. He was able to play football, join band, have a girlfriend, he was starting to set his feet on the ground. Most of the time he’d avoided meeting people for anything other than casual hook ups, yet now he’d blossomed in High School and it was where he met his future wife, Chrissie.

Before he even finished High School, he knew where he wanted to go. He was set on joining the U.S Military and serving his country. He wanted to serve, he always had done. He’d grown up surrounded by the army, it was home to him. At seventeen, he’d enlisted and was pacing his way through training during his last year of High School. His parents were more than supportive on the matter.

The next chapter of Mark’s life rolled into one. He fell in love with his High School sweetheart and they become inseparable. He remembered his mother once telling him it was an echo of how her and his father had started. 

The Marines was where Mark found his place. He was a good soldier. Skilled and a strong leader. He was noticed for his commitment to his service, that was reflected in the honours he received and his quick rise in the ranks. He considered himself lucky, his partner was more than happy to travel around with him, she took the sightseeing and time to build a journalism career. Together they were able to make things work between them for a few years. It would be another five years when he reached the age of 22 did the two tie the knot. His tour overseas were supported through Skype calls and constant letters. Things seemed easier when it was just the two of them to worry about. 

That all changed when he turned 26. Almost nine years of service, time in America and across the other seven continents of the world, a new chapter of his life opened. Mark became a father to a little girl by the name of Charlotte. With that time came a change for Mark, not only with new responsibilities, he was assigned to the special forces within his branch. He was taken in to the recently named, Raiders, and served many years performing counter terrorism missions. This of course made home life tough. His now wife became pregnant again while he was 28 and the two had a son, Daxton. Mark’s military life was becoming hectic, as was his home life. Two worlds began to unbalance and became unmanageable, leaving things to fall apart for the man, very quickly.

Now Mark was never a bad father. As much as people liked to believe. He spent every opportunity on the phone, skyping or writing letters to his children. They became the centre of his world and he wouldn’t have it any other way. At home, he spent every moment with them and was the father they needed. He did his best to make it up to them for his time away, especially with his demanding schedule. Although, he was thankful he got to see them every few months.

With fourteen years in service to his name, Mark has certainly seen some gnarly sights. He’d had friends come and go and done unspeakable things himself. Those burdens begin to take their toll on a soul and at the age of 31, he was discharged from the military for an unfit mind-state. It was when coming back from his most recent mission, their truck his an IED. Mark came out better off than most of the men involved, Yet it became evident whilst at camp, after a PTSD episode and a medical examination, that he was no longer fit for service. 

Leaving the military after such a credible service with only some burn marks, scars and a whole list of wounds that couldn’t be seen. Mark knew he was leaving in better shape that a lot of his friends hand. 

Adjusting back to the real world had been tough for Mark. Post traumatic stress had already become a problem in his marriage, it was just something his wife hadn’t been able to cope with. They’d tried together to make things work. Mark had been to therapy, attended support groups, he’d done everything she asked but it still put too much of a strain on their relationship. After his discharge, he arrived home in the November of 2017 and it only took four months of him being permanently back at home before they were filing for a divorce. 

March saw Mark sleeping on the couch for a month while the family tried to cope followed by a four month long wait for a custody battle. The outcome wasn’t one he was too thrilled with. Mark accepted the deal of getting accompanied visits every holiday in the school calendar. He does miss his children dreadfully and his separation has been one where he and his ex still talk. Admittedly, there’s some resentment from him but they are civil for the children. 

This new chapter, away from his family, away from the military, left him with the decision of moving to New York, Getting a job and a fresh start seemed the best way to prove he was capable of being a fit father. The city itself was not his first choice, Mark had never visited before. However, with his children just out of state in Stamford, Connecticut it was convenient. He didn’t want to return home to his parents after they finally settled in Nevada, it was too far away from them.

New York was his next destination, a city that never sleeps. Much like him. 

Headcannons:

Mark is a father of two. A four year old son, Daxton (Dax), and a six year old daughter named Charlotte (Charlie). He’s a good father and sees his children when he’s able to. He is currently divorced from his wife and she has moved out of state meaning he doesn’t see them too often.

He has a hobby of writing and illustrating children’s stories. He creates books and stories himself and shares them with his children. He’s never considered it as a career, he does it to see the smile on their faces.

He has a very low opinion of himself. He doesn’t make friends easily because friends mean you lose them. He was once told by his Commander after a heated argument, that he was “dangerous and careless. You believe you have nothing to lose because nobody hates you more than you.” It’s was a reality check and has stuck with him since.

His only goal is striving to be a good father. His face lights up around his kids, like he’s a different person. They bring him great joy and he counts down the days to see them again. Usually it’s every half term during the school holidays. Mark cares very little about himself so the more he sees his children, the more his hard exterior, he’s build up, comes down.

Mark absolutely loves Football. He played in his school career, whenever he could with the family moving around so much. He’s always followed the Dallas Cowboys after stopping there as a kid. They stayed in Texas for six months and he fell in love with the location. Another favourable place is Washington State. He prefers nature over the bustle of cities.

He has a great obsession with planes, military planes to be specific. In his downtime he’s building a model Spitfire with his children. They currently have the body and one wing attached. There’s a splodge of red paint on the wing that his four year old accidentally added. It’s now been renamed as the Newman Edition. It’s waiting in his office for their next visit.

While growing up, Mark was an only child and didn’t make many friends with moving around so often. At the age of 11 he asked every day for a Dog, doing all he could to prove he’d be a good owner. For his 12th birthday he was gifted with Icarus. The two shared a friendship that lasted 15 long years. He was 27 when they had to part. Mark speaks with nothing but happiness when referring to ‘Rus’ and he will gladly speak of his best friend for hours. He loves being able to speak about him.

He has a hidden talent with the guitar. He’s a casual player and would by no means call himself a musician, it’s just a bit of fun in his eyes. He also loves a spot of karaoke if you can get enough beers down him.

His favourite meal is a cheeseburger with salty fries. He loves cooking and is happy to cook for guests, so if you ever want feeding then drop by!

Surprising to most, Mark is a huge bag of giggles. That’s the reward of breaking down that iron exterior he puts on as a front. He’s a kind and loving man. Sitting around with friends and a few beers just talking is one of his favourite ways to pass the time. He also has an infectious laugh.

Favourite Song: The Final Countdown - Europe. Favourite Quote: “Be bold enough to use your voice, brave enough to listen to your heart and strong enough to live the life you’ve always imagined.”

#wresidents

[violetemerald]

Grey's Anatomy: Owen Hunt & His Journey to Becoming a Parent - "Bless The Broken Road"

Voiceovers are transcribed at the bottom of this description. ~~~ I don't know what to expect with Owen and this foster baby storyline going forward but I'm SO HAPPY about it so far. Also my OTP on Grey's right now is Owen/Amelia and her being so involved has not hurt my happiness about it... lol. But seriously, I have all the excitement of shipping feelings right now but more toward Owen&happiness, I have been rooting for Owen and parenthood for 7 years, I'm pretty sure, and it's all HAPPENING!! ~~~ As you may have learned from my personal video about my queerplatonic relationship I was in on-and-off for a couple years: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VN_3ynvHdY4 - I really want to foster and/or adopt children myself in my future. Owen's storyline (including a willingness to adopt or even foster an older child!) and his struggle to find a partner he's in love with who actually wants to have children has been one of the parts of Grey's Anatomy as a TV series that has resonated with me the most, especially recently as I re-watch a big chunk of the series knowing I'm asexual and aromantic-spectrum. I was so shocked when 14x19 happened and Owen signed up to do parenting single via fostering to adopt, as that is basically my plan if I can't within the next 6 or 7 years or so find a partner to co-parent with. I started this vid immediately and have been SO inspired.

Special thanks to cardiffgiant02 for helping me brainstorm scenes!

I couldn't fit in everything I wanted to, especially in regards to explaining how his relationship with Emma in season 10 was so close to giving him his dream of children but SHE wasn't who he wanted in a romantic partner, and actually in order to fit in most of what I wanted to I edited the song and EXTENDED IT...

...but repeating certain instrumental sections a few times. I hope the song extension/edits don't sound horrible and overly distracting... I couldn't help it, I really *needed* the extra 30 or so seconds, lol. Also I hope my glowy effects on the scenes from the two "What If" episodes where Owen has kids in season 8 and season 10 are not too much...

Mainly I'm pretty happy with how the video turns out even if it's not entirely perfect. I worked hard on this and I really hope people enjoy it. Please leave me a comment if you like it, as it took me many, many hours to edit. :)

And yay for my first Grey's Anatomy video in 4 years, by the way! Check out my playlist of all my Grey's Anatomy vidding here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLQIrXD4weMlgmJGC93E8d3QAXaht9guad

I actually hope to make some other Grey's Anatomy fanvideos soon, probably to vid Cristina & Meredith's relationship, to vid Amelia and/or the Owen/Amelia ship, AND to vid the hospital shooting storyline and the whole aftermath of that trauma throughout season 7.  I already have perfect song ideas for all of those. They all mean things to me personally. Cristina & Meredith are the epitome of queerplatonic partners in many ways, although there is no one way to do that relationship structure, and I love so much in my re-watch noticing the show exploring their bond. The trauma and coping with the aftermath of a gun related trauma is personal for me after my friend perpetrated a murder-suicide 5 months ago. Etc. There's a LOT going into my feelings toward the show right now.

I felt a little weird vidding this song because A) I started a vid years and years ago set to a different cover of this song and I almost-never repeat vid songs, and B) I'm an atheist - I don't believe in God and this song is kinda more heavily about "God" "blessing" the difficult journey to get to the happy ending. But the previous vid I had been working on, a Lucas & Peyton (One Tree Hill) one I didn't vid more than about 45 seconds: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_l9yExD5zQY and I just couldn't think of a better song for focusing on the "broken road" part, the angst and long journey to getting tot the end. A lot of other songs that crossed my mind, like "Brighter Than Sunshine" by Aqualung or other covers of that, focused too much on how life NOW is great, brighter than sunshine, and while it turns out episodes 14x20 and 14x21 gave us quite a few Owen w/ a child scenes and I could've probably made a song like that work, I picked the song when all I knew was the end of 14x19 and I was expecting maybe one scene at best by the end of the season of Owen getting his dream of Parenthood. I was expecting the happy ending to be more implied in this vid when I first started out making it. Anyway... I think the song worked pretty perfectly, even if at the end the lyric switches to "lover's arms" so I had to be creative with Amelia... :P There aren't a lot of songs out there focusing on platonic happy endings after a lot of broken hearts, if you know what I mean.

Song: Bless The Broken Road Cover Artist: Luke Murgatroyd & Mike Watson (Originally by Rascal Flatts) Discovered it here on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYP8UqF5x8s

Voiceovers:

Cristina: I don't want a baby. Owen: Well, you have one.

Owen: I could take a leave for six months, or a year. Cristina: No, you couldn't. Owen: Yes. Sure, I could. I'm telling you I want this. I can do this. Cristina: There is no compromise! I don't want to be a mother.

Cristina: I made an appointment... to terminate the pregnancy.

Owen (to Megan): I always imagined us raising our families together. Camping trips, cookouts.

Owen: It's a cute baby, right?

Owen: I could sing a song... You tired? [Sofia coos]

Owen: It's always been about you! It's what YOU want. That's always been your position. We live like you want, how you want... you get WHATEVER you want.

April: I don't know, it's just a feeling. [Owen scoffs a little] April: But... you don't have any kids.

Owen: It was- it was a... life that I envisioned for myself, okay?

Megan: You don't have any kids. How exactly would that dream work out?

Owen: You KILLED our baby! You don't ever forget that!

DSHS Worker: So, are you looking to foster a child? Or foster-to-adopt? Owen: Foster-to-adopt.

Owen: Oh, sure. Ok, we're fine. Except for the part where you aborted the child that I wanted. Cristina: Except for the part where you held my hand while I exercised my right to choose, and then four months later you screamed I killed your baby in front of all our friends.

Cristina: I do not want kids- Owen: Most people would've considered dropping a bomb like that BEFORE the wedding. THAT is when it would've been relevant.

Meredith: He should be with someone who wants a baby.

Amelia: You have wanted this forever!

Ethan: Can I stay with you? Owen: [chuckles] No, no, no, I have to- I have to work.

Owen: When you and Derek adopted Zola, how did you know?

Owen (to Emma): Are you planning to break my heart?

Owen: I mean, how did you really know that that was something you were gonna do? Meredith: Why? Are you thinking...?

Owen: You know, this kid, he needs someone. And... I like him! And, uh... he likes me! He's scared and alone, and... I could help. I know how to help, and I want to. It's a huge commitment; it's a lifetime of responsibility... but then I spend one minute with this kid, and... I can't imagine not doing it.

Meredith: You know, Owen was talking about taking the kid, himself.

Cristina: Were you even going to tell me you wanted to... ADOPT him? Owen: Well, that didn't happen, so... Cristina: But you WANTED to! Owen, you want kids!

Cristina: Derek watches Zola put applesauce in her ear, and he's enchanted. You felt that way with Ethan.

Alex: Mm. Maybe you're not a "baby guy". Babies just don't like some guys.

Cristina: You broke up with her? She was IT, Owen. Picket fence, a dozen kids. Owen: I don't want to talk about that.

Owen: I'm a baby guy! You can see that, right?

Owen: Um... kids? Amelia: Five. Owen: Whoa, five? Amelia: Sure, unless the first few terrorize us, then we can have four. Owen: Are we really talking about this? Marriage and kids?

Owen: Hey, did I tell you I spent all day with Harriet today? It was so much fun. After a while, I just... I felt like I'd done it forever.

Owen: And so I was thinking that we could turn the... study into the nursery!

Megan: If I die, I need you to promise me that you'll take care of Farouk.

Amelia: My baby lived for 43 minutes.

Owen: I keep trying to think of him as like a "practice baby", but he is such a cute practice baby. [Sighs] Oh.

Amelia: I got to hold him. And it almost killed me! I haven't told Owen all of it.  [Breathes.] He wants a family so bad.

Owen: You know, and then we can- We can turn the nursery into his room! Or her room. I mean, it's a good room for a kid, right?

#Grey's Anatomy #fanvideo #Owen Hunt #Amelia Shepherd #Cristina Yang #vidding #GA fanvid

[wanderingthroughwickford]

Thank you! My responses are super long (especially for M asdflkasdfjkasdf) so most of them will be under a cut.

A – How did you come up with the title to [insert fic]?

Since no fic was specified, I think I’ll just go back through some of the ones I’ve got up on FFN. Most of them are pretty self-explanatory, to be honest. ‘Eternity’ is so named because Myrtle is stuck at Hogwarts, in her teenage form and mindset, for, well, eternity. ‘And Then There Was One’ (a probably discontinued Hunger Games/Nancy Drew crossover) is also fairly obvious; it’s the Hunger Games so it’s inevitably going to come down to one person, and I also couldn’t resist shoehorning in a completely unnecessary reference to And Then There Were None since it’s also based off a mystery series. ‘Unstained’ refers to Wiress’ promise in the game to not ‘stain’ herself by committing murder in the games, and if I ever write its sequels they’ll follow the ‘Un’ formula – I’ve always intended the final fic in the prospective trilogy to be called ‘Unchained,’ but we’ll see if I ever get there.

I think the one that actually gave me the most trouble coming up with a title was ‘Goodbye,’ a Pirates of the Caribbean one-shot I wrote way back in 2009. I couldn’t seem to come up with a clever enough title for the fic, until I asked my mom for help and she suggested simply ‘Goodbye.’ I decided that in this case, less was more, and so the title stuck.

C – What character do you identify with most?

The ones that I’ve written for, I guess this means? I suppose I’ll have to go with Myrtle and Wiress. Although they definitely both have more tragic lives than I do, I still put a lot of myself into them – I outright headcanon Wiress as having Asperger’s Syndrome and being uninterested in romance, so I find her quite easy to write in that way, and a lot of her moralistic, somewhat self-righteous attitude at the beginning of Unstained (which she’ll eventually grow out of, fortunately) draws a lot from how I now see myself as having acted as a young teenager. Her somewhat morbid obsession with past Hunger Games and their victims has roots in my own (sometimes borderline depressing) fascination with shipwrecks such as the Titanic and Lusitania. 

Myrtle I headcanon with some sort of unspecified mental illness, or at least deep insecurities and oversensitivity, and having trouble making and keeping friends. Her friendship with Murcia draws on some of the tentative friendships I had with girls in older grades, and – though this didn’t come through in the story for various reasons that would take a whole other ask to explain, and which I’m not entirely satisfied with but anyway – I definitely see Myrtle as having had a complicated crush on her, but never fully recognizing or accepting it for what it was because she wasn’t raised in a time or a society where girls loving other girls was normalized. Which, again, big part of my teenage years. Plus, the social awkwardness, introversion, and anxiety that both girls have is something I definitely relate to in general.

F – Care to share a favourite hurt/comfort fic?

Oh boy, that’s a tall order as there are so many, but the two that jump to mind immediately are Intersection by yadon/Copernicus Jones/Jake-Marshall and Pity the Child by Tanglepelt/Bookworm555. Intersection holds a very special place in my heart as it was written by my friend Leanne, featuring one of her favorite Ace Attorney characters, Jake Marshall, interacting with my OC Denise Swallow. Pity the Child was written by my friend Becca and involves two more of my faves – America and Latvia from Hetalia – having heartwarming interactions. Both are very good fics.

M – Got any premises on the back burner that you’d like to share?

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha

Well

It’d be easier to list fics I’ve actually completed than fics that are in various stages of planning

But if you insist

(This is the super LONG part and gets a little emotional towards the end) 

The fic that I’d most like to complete within the foreseeable future is ‘Unstained,’ my story about Wiress’ Hunger Games. I’d say it’s about half-finished now, and I haven’t updated it in almost 4 years. That might change in the future; I’d like to get at least a few more chapters done this summer, but I don’t think it’s humanly possible to get it finished before I leave for Ontario, and then I’ll be so busy for a solid year that I doubt I’ll be able to write anything. And that’s not even counting the two prospective sequels I’d like to write. But even finishing this fic would be a major life accomplishment for me, as it’s one of those that I’m proudest of.

Then I have at least three fics about my Ace Attorney OC, Denise Swallow, which I’d like to write, though they’ll probably all be one-shots. Two of them are partially written, one isn’t even started yet. One of them would be a brief overview of the few times she met Dahlia Hawthorne, the infamous culprit who ended up murdering her brother. Another one, the longest and weightiest of the three, would involve her meeting Phoenix Wright and Maya Fey, who channels the spirit of her brother so that she can properly say good-bye. The last one would involve her meeting up with Dahlia’s sister, Iris, and coming to some sort of closure there.

A lot of my fic-writing is taking a backseat to a much more personal fic-universe-of-sorts that I’m working on, involving practically all of my favorite fandoms thrown together into an incredibly complicated storyline. It’s completely self-indulgent and not something I’d really want to share a lot about here, but one of the major plotlines I’m constructing in it would involve a villain-to-anti-hero redemption arc for Lucy Bauer from Agents of Shield. I’ll admit that I have toyed, very briefly, with the idea of converting this into proper FanFiction if and when I ever complete it, but that’s honestly very unlikely because 1) I’d have to remove it from its crossover context, 2) I’d have to insert it into either AoS season 5 canon, which hasn’t even been filmed yet, or an alternate version of season 5, and 3) it seems completely implausible within the story’s canon. Plus, there’s the inevitable ‘no one would read it’ problem. 

In the past couple months I’ve considered writing an And Then There Were None Hunger Games AU, as well as a brief oneshot about Soldier Island being haunted by the ghosts of the ATTWN victims, but I’m very unlikely to do anything with those. There’s still my Nancy Drew Hunger Games AU left unfinished, but if I get back to that, it’ll be entirely as a way to blow off steam, rather than to try and write anything especially good. Just today I was attacked by the idea of writing a Lord of the Rings fic about Aragorn returning Boromir’s arm braces to Faramir and telling him how his brother died, but again, just a passing fancy that I’m very unlikely to write.

And that’s just the tip of it. There are so many FanFiction ideas I’ve considered writing and abandoned. The 8 fics I have up on FFN are the few lucky ideas that actually came to fruition, even though a good deal of them are unfinished as well. I’m honestly amazed that I was even able to finish ‘Eternity,’ or get as far as I have on ‘Unstained.’ I have an X-Men Evolution fic up that was originally supposed to be a multichap of 10-15 chapters, and it hasn’t been updated since 2011. When I was in high school I planned out a whole series of Pirates of the Caribbean fics chronicling James Norrington’s life, from childhood until his death, but I only ever got the first chapter of one written and never posted it. (Partially because I sort of balked at the HUGE amount of research I’d planned to do on 18th-century naval life for that fic). I’d like to go back to this one idea I had for a Hetalia fic, a series of one-shots about times in which the characters have wished they were humans rather than nations, but again, research would be necessary and it’s so draining.

That’s the problem. I love thinking up ideas and planning stories and having them finished, but at the end of the day, the act of writing itself is such a chore for me. And I hate that. I wish I could write effortlessly, like I used to as a kid, but I haven’t been able to do so since I was 12 or so. Which, coincidentally, is the time my depression started to majorly set in. I don’t know if the two are connected, but I can’t help but wonder if mental illness robbed me of a pastime that I dearly loved, and of countless fics I could have written by now.

(I know this is long and cheesy and overemotional, but cut me some slack, it’s almost 1 am) 

O – How do you begin a story – with the plot, or the characters?

You know, this is strange, because when I first saw this question I thought, of course I start with the plot, who would just say “I want to write a story about [character]” without even having any idea of what the plot would be yet? And then I realized that that’s exactly what I do – start with a character I want to write about and come up with a plot based off that. In fact, most of my stories aren’t even plot-driven much as just general looks into the lives of certain characters.

Y – A character you want to protect

Hah, it seems like the characters I want to protect and the characters I end up putting through torture are exactly the same. The two that jump to mind right away are – my sun and my stars and everything, the one and only APH Latvia, and my precious ghostly daughter, Myrtle Warren (Moaning Myrtle). And yet I endlessly read fics in which the former, and wrote a fic in which the latter, suffers. Whoops.

#FanFiction #FanFic #ask meme #writing ask

[all-time-foes]

A New Friend

Pairing: John Murphy X Reader Requested: Yes Warnings: this revolves around Y/N having social anxiety, there's a panic attack, and light cursing A/N: I personally do not have social anxiety, so I'm basing this off of what I've read and heard from my friends. If I got this wrong I'm very sorry, but I hope you enjoy it! Word count: 1642 ------------------------------ “Hey, Bellamy, is that group back from the hunting trip yet?” You hear one of the delinquents ask. You already know the answer. No, they're not. If they were, your best friend Alex would have already run up to you to tell you all about the adventures he had while venturing past the almost finished walls. You'd been friends with him since you were both children on the ark. The two of you had been neighbors. It's always been hard for you to talk to people and put yourself out there, but with Alex everything just seemed to naturally flow between the two of you. Alex was great at making conversation, but could also enjoy the silence you two shared when you just didn't know what to say. He understood how hard it could be for you to talk sometimes. At one point your social inefficiency worried your parents so much they took you to see Dr. Griffin. She came to the conclusion you had social anxiety. She wanted to give you medication, but couldn't due to the fact that it wasn't a life threatening disease. You would just have to deal with it. So that's how your life proceeded on the Ark. You kept to yourself during the day at class, but when you got back to your room you finally came out of your shell around Alex. He was, and still is, your anchor. Everybody thought you were weird, treated you like an outcast really, because of how difficult it was to talk to them. You have no idea how you would have gotten through everything life has thrown at you without him. He's been there for you through it all-- your mom getting sick, you getting arrested after you tried to steal medicine for her, her dying, and he even got himself arrested so you wouldn't be in the Sky Box by yourself. Then it all seems to come crashing down around you, as you stop reminiscing. They weren't back yet. They'd been gone since morning, and right now the sun was on the verge of setting. This wasn't good. Something must have went wrong, but what? Did they get lost in unknown territory by accident? Did grounders attack them? Your mind was racing, heart beating so fast you thought it was going to burst out of your chest. You leave your job of sorting food, walking toward the drop ship. Once you're inside you find a corner, and proceed to let the panic attack you're having consume you. Your back is pressed against the wall, knees drawn to your chest, and arms hugging yourself as tight as you can. Deep breaths in and out, you think. That's what Alex would always tell you when you got like this. It was no use, everything seemed to be spiraling out of control in your head. Tears started to roll down your cheeks, oh god, what would you do without him? He's been your only friend for years, the only person who knew that you could be loud, funny, and even sarcastic. There's something, or someone, making noise but you can't focus on it. You feel yourself floating, no longer having your anchor to tie you down. Suddenly, a hand was on your shoulder. Murphy’s voice wafts through the air into your ears, “Are you okay?” That was weird. Murphy never gave a shit how other people were feeling. He was always yelling at people to get back to work, no matter what injury or illness they had acquired. For a second you wonder if you should say yes, but then he's going to make you go back to work and you can't in the condition you're in. You shake your head side to side signaling no. “I've been trying to ask you what's wrong,” he says, still crouching next to you, with a hand on your shoulder. He must have been standing there for awhile, that’s the murmurs you pushed to the back of your mind. You keep expecting him to raise his voice at you, or spew derogatory comments your way. He doesn't. Instead his voice is gentle, fingers drawing light, calming patterns where his hand is. “A-Alex,” is the only world you're able to get out of your mouth. Your breathing is still erratic, it's calmed down since Murphy has given you something to think about other than your dark thoughts. “Oh, the dude you're always with. He's on the hunting trip, right?” The first sentence he says sounds, disappointed? That can't be right, why would Murphy, of all people, be disappointed you were worrying about your best friend. “T-they've b-been gone, for a really lo-long time,” you stutter through the sentence, tears slowly stop falling from your eyes. “That's what you're freaking out about? Y/N sometimes hunting trips take longer than half a day. Besides, they're probably on their way back now with a huge amount of game,” he lowers himself next to you. His arm makes its way around your shoulders, so he's pulling you into his side. “You think so?” You whisper, looking up at him. “I know so. So, stop worrying about your boyfriend, everything's going to be okay.” His hand tightened the tiniest bit when the word boyfriend left his lips. “Alex isn't my boyfriend,” you tell him, glancing at him with a confused expression across your face. “Okay, then what do you two call what you've got going on? You're always with each other, and you only talk to him. It's obvious you two have something going on behind closed doors,” Murphy explains as his signature smirk crosses his lips. You nudge him lightly, in a joking manner, with your shoulder. “He's my best friend, and I talk to only him because I'm bad with people. I want to have more friends but, I can't. I freeze up when I talk to people,” your voice gradually gets quiter as you speak. You've been wanting to tell people that for years. You want them to know you're not judgemental, just scared. “Well, you're talking to me. Actually, I think this is the most I've ever heard your voice. Ya know, for awhile I thought you were just a bitch that thought she was too good to talk to us.” “Really?” “Yeah, it's because you were raised on alpha station. Your dad was a doctor, and your mom had a good chance of becoming chancellor in the future. There was no reason to dig deeper. Why would someone who's always had it all want to associate with the good for nothing kids who'd committed crimes?” Murphy leaned his head back against the wall, eyes aimed at the ceiling. You saw his jaw clenching, he had hated you, you realize. The anger in this boy was monumental, the pain he held was just as large, but hidden. “I don't think that.” He looks over at you, your eyes lock. “That you're good for nothing, or that I'm better than you. I kind of envy you actually. You can talk to people. Yeah sure, you mostly insult them, but I can't even get a measly ‘hi’ out most of the time. Plus, some of you are here for the same reason I am, trying to help someone you love. And that's not a crime.” Your speech comes to an end, and Murphy has gotten closer to you. His expression was calculating: watching the way your face moved as you talked, listening to the conviction in your tone, being aware of how close your bodies really were. “Wow, that's bullshit,” you can't help but deflate a bit at his words. “You don't envy me, just the way I communicate. Trust me, my life isn't rainbows and butterflies. Also, if you haven't noticed, you've been talking to me just fine for the pas-” Murphy’s sentence gets cut off. Someone is screaming about how the hunting party is back. Before you can think you're on your feet ready to run to them. You stop in your tracks, right as you were about to sprint, and turn to Murphy. You look at him for a moment, you wonder if he's going to go back to the boy you thought you knew before this conversation. That is unnecessarily cruel, but now you know there's some part of him that cares about others. Sure it might manifest in, unusual ways, but none the less it was still there. You take a chance, you hold out your hand offering to help him up. “Well, are you coming?” You ask shooting him a small smile. He looks shocked for a second before concealing his emotions. He takes your hand. “Don't think this is going to get you special treatment, Doll,” he says slinging his arm around your shoulder before steering you two out of the drop ship. “I wouldn't dream of it,” your voice is quiet, only he can hear your words. You don't want to draw attention to the two of you, knowing what they'll say. All caution is thrown into the wind when you see Alex. You run to him, engulfing him in a giant hug. “Don't ever leave me like that again,” you mumble, your face pressed into his shoulder. “I won't, I won't. Now, what was that about?” Alex asks, head motioning over to the spot where Murphy stands. Once he notices the two of you looking at him, he diverts his gaze to the person next to him. “We just talked,” you say with a smile. “You? Talked? With someone besides me? And Murphy no less?” Your best friend continues to rattle off questions. All you can do is answer them one at a time while thinking about what this might mean, have you added a new friend to your list? Hopefully, you think.

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[allthecanadianpolitics]

The experience of anything approaching good government or robust democracy in the province of B.C. is now such a distant memory that the present danger is people's low expectations. The Liberal government of Christy Clark is not so much a government as it is an anti-government: contemptuous of both the public good and of the citizens it is supposed to be governing for.

From reckless and damaging tax cuts for the wealthy and corporations (which leaves a budget shortfall of over $3 billion a year) to the $9-13 billion Site C dam catastrophe, to the financial commitment to an LNG business that the experts say is not viable, the Liberal government is aiming to govern into the future even if it loses the May 9 election. These decisions will financially cripple future governments.

If governments could be charged with criminal negligence, the Christy Clark Liberals would be in the dock.

Let me list the charges. Criminal negligence causing harm to pupils. Criminal negligence causing harm to families on social assistance and those with disabilities. Criminal negligence causing harm to B.C. Ferries. Criminal negligence causing harm to B.C. Hydro, once the pride of the province under governments of all stripes.

The "harm to pupils" should be familiar even to those outside B.C. given that it received national attention when the Supreme Court of Canada ruled the Clark government violated the Constitution when it unilaterally gutted the teachers' contract language on class size and composition. That resulted in a whole generation of students -- 15 years' worth -- being denied not only decent class sizes but librarians, specialist teachers and those serving kids with special needs. And the principal reason for this outrage? Christy Clark's personal animosity towards the B.C. Teachers' Federation.

In Christy Clark's world the first will always be first and the last, last. Under the Liberal government, social assistance rates have not been raised in 10 years. That means that you get $610 a month for everything (if you are on disability you get $906). You get more if you have kids but forcing a family to exist on such rates in Vancouver is tantamount to child abuse.

Punishing the poor is hardly new in this neoliberal world but the B.C. Liberals have proven to be not just right wing but spectacularly reckless and incompetent when it comes to public utilities. There are, of course, institutions in B.C. that even the rabid privateers in Clark's political universe didn't dare privatize outright: ICBC (Insurance Corporation of British Columbia -- the public insurance corp.), B.C. Ferries and B.C. Hydro. But even though they couldn't sell off B.C. Ferries they "commercialized" it, turning it into a semi-private corporation with a mandate to make a profit. Even the National Post, in 2014, was left rolling its eyes at the results:

"[B.C. Ferries'] government subsidy has ballooned by more than $20 million a year, fares have risen by as much as 100 per cent, and as per one recent study, the combined effect has sapped an incredible $2.3 billion out of the coastal economy."

But the prize for recklessness would be awarded for what the Liberals have done to B.C. Hydro -- including, most recently, the decision to proceed at record pace with the Site C dam project -- at $9 billion (which will likely become $13 billion) the most expensive public infrastructure project in B.C. history. Flying in the face of withering criticism from a large array of strange bedfellows and experts, Clark is furiously building "facts on the ground" so it can't be stopped.

Among the angry and dumfounded opponents are large industrial users of electricity who in 2014 declared B.C. Hydro "out of control." They will have seen a doubling of electricity costs even before the dam is half built. Some pulp mills have already decided to use natural gas to produce their own -- cheaper -- electricity.

And just this week UNESCO added its voice with a dire warning that if the Canadian government didn't intervene, the negative downstream effects of Site C could result in the giant Wood Buffalo National Park being declared a world heritage site "in danger."

The bizarre 70-year financing of the dam means that it will not be paid for until 2094. In other words, it will be at least two generations before B.C. citizens see any return on "their" investment.

Former B.C. Hydro CEO Marc Eliesen has also denounced the project as irresponsible: "In my view, the directors of B.C. Hydro have abdicated their fiduciary and legislative responsibility. They have allowed primarily the premier and the minister of energy to run B.C. Hydro."

Dr. Harry Swain, who served as the chair of the Site C Joint Review Panel, broke his silence in 2016, saying the project was not needed now or in the foreseeable future: "You would only want to do that if there were an overwhelming economic case that this was the best and cheapest way, including all external effects, of providing something that the provincial economy absolutely required."

All of this criticism has been tossed aside by the Clark government because of yet another reckless commitment it has made: to the development of a huge liquefied natural gas (LNG) industry in the province supplied by the fracking fields of northeastern B.C. -- the idea being to provide clean Site C electricity to an industry with a huge carbon footprint.

One madness has led to another -- because experts in the field of LNG say it will be years, possibly decades, before anything like the Liberals' plans will play out. Perhaps three or four of the 20 proposed plants envisioned for the B.C. coast are economically viable -- and then only after the huge supply coming on line in the next few years -- increasing world supply by over 50 per cent -- is taken up and prices rise.

Despite the "facts on the ground" both Harry Swain and Former Hydro CEO Eliesen said this week it still makes sense to cancel the project. It would cost at least a couple of billion dollars but that is still cheaper than a potential white elephant with $9 billion in stranded costs -- and huge price increases to pay down the costs.

Regrettably we can't charge this wrecking crew with criminal negligence. But at least on May 9 we can throw them out of office and stop the carnage.

Murray Dobbin has been a journalist, broadcaster, author and social activist for 40 years. He writes rabble's State of the Nation column.

#BC Liberals #British Columbia #Christy Clark #Neoliberalism #Canada #cdnpoli #canadian politics #canadian #canadian news

[douchebagbrainwaves]

HERE'S WHAT I JUST REALIZED ABOUT INVESTORS

And as for the disputation, that seems clearly a net lose. What matters in Silicon Valley, the message the Valley sends is: you should make users the test, just as the proper role of humans is to think, just as volume and surface area do. I think we should be just as worried about premature design—deciding too early what a program should do. What was novel about this software, at the other students' without having more than glanced over the book to learn the names of things should be short. That first million is just worth so much more robust to have all the brains on the server and talk to you through a Web browser. Clearly you don't have to look for things that solve the mundane problems of individual customers.1 They'd prefer not to deal with than VCs. Most of the people who are really committed to what they're working on. Force him to read it and write an essay about color or baseball. I do then is just what the river does: backtrack. The right way to collaborate, I think few realize the huge spread in the value of your work. I'm going to explain what we're seeing, and what that will mean for you if you try, anything you achieve is on the plus side of the river.

It allows you to give an impressive-looking talk about nothing, and it seemed to hinge on a different quality. In addition to their intrinsic value, they're like undervalued stocks in the sense that all you have to find the library function that will do what you want to go straight there, blustering through obstacles, and hand-waving your way across swampy ground. For example, a social network for pet owners. One thing is certain: the question is a complex one.2 But more importantly, by selecting that small a group you can get. The other half is expressing yourself well. You can get the best rowers.

Only those that are centers for some type of applicant? That's the fundamental reason the super-angels invest other people's money. How much is that extra attention worth? Indeed, English classes may even be harmful.3 But in medieval Europe something new happened. We'd ask why we even hear about new, indy languages like Perl and Python because people are using them to write Windows apps. With the bizarre consequence that high school students? The mere existence of prep schools is proof of that. Richard Kelsey gave this as an idea whose time has come again in the last couple years.

The answer, of course. But while learning to hack is not necessary, it is for the forseeable future sufficient. When one investor wants to invest in you, that makes other investors want to, which makes hardware geometrically closer to free; the Web, instead of blowing up in your face and leaving you with nothing, as happens if you get deeply enough into it. In the other languages I had learned up till then, there was a fast path out of. Finding startup ideas is a history of gradually discarding the assumption that it's all about dealing with human weaknesses. Your housemate did it deliberately to upset you. The problem with working slowly is not just a heuristic for detecting bias. It's that it tends not to happen at all. Now that you can fight this powerful force. Occasionally it's obvious from the beginning when there's a path out of an idea like this is that when you have one you'll tend to feel bleak and abandoned, and accumulate cruft.4 Fortunately we got bought at the top.5

Often as not these large investments go to work for another company as we're suggesting, he might well have gone to work for some existing company. There you're not concerned with truth.6 It's no coincidence that Microsoft and Facebook both got started in January. Your housemate was hungry. If willfulness and discipline are what get you to your destination, ambition is how you choose it. I felt bad about this, just as newspapers that put their stories online still seem to wish people would watch shows on TV instead, just as the record labels have done.7 They have more than enough technical skill. I'm not so excited about it, because they don't want them. I'm going to explain what we're seeing, and what that will mean for you if you try to guess where your program is slow, and what that will mean for you if you try, anything you achieve is on the plus side of the river.

But kids are so bad at making things that they consider home-made presents to be a total slacker. And so they're the most valuable new ideas take root first among people in their early twenties don't start startups is that they won't take risks. When you want something, you don't take a position and then defend it. This is a dumb plan. I found that the best suppliers won't even sell to you are companies that specialize in selling to you.8 The startup usually consists of just the founders.9 You could probably work twice as many hours as a corporate employee, and if you can figure it out yourself. Suppose another multiple of two, at least, is run by real hackers. When I finished grad school in computer science I went to art school to study painting. All this talk about investing may seem very theoretical. But there is a big problem. So the point of view.10

Notes

Rice and beans are a lot of people mad, essentially by macroexpanding them.

Monk, Ray, Ludwig Wittgenstein: The variation in wealth, the number of words: I should do is say you've reformed, and mostly in Perl.

But although for-profit prison companies and prison guard unions both spend a lot better to be some formal measure that turns out it is because other places, like arithmetic drills, instead of working. For example, being offered large bribes by Spain to make software incompatible. By a similar variation in wealth, the idea that investors don't lead startups on; their reputations are too valuable. A doctor, P.

You can still see fossils of their origins in their experiences came not with the earlier stage startups, because the processing power you can use to make that leap. There may even be conscious of this: You may be common in, but trained on corpora of stupid and non-stupid comments have yet to be staying at a middle ground. Which is fundraising.

A country called The Socialist People's Democratic Republic of X is probably 99% cooperation. My point is due to the modern idea were proposed by Timothy Hart in 1964, two years investigating it. Japanese cities are ugly too, of course some uncertainty about how closely the remarks attributed to Confucius and Socrates resemble their actual opinions.

Two customer support people tied for first prize with entries I still shiver to recall. The original Internet forums were not web sites but Usenet newsgroups. The kind of organization for that reason. If he's bad at it, so I called to check and in a large chunk of time on applets, but this would work better, for example, it's this internal process at work.

Morgan's hired hands. And that is largely true, it is more important to users than where you have to sweat any one outcome. And that will be maximally profitable when each employee is paid in proportion to the option pool.

Robert in particular made for other people thought of them agreed with everything in it, and you start to have them soon. Please do not take the line? They're so selective that they take away with the founders' advantage if it means a big deal. Economically, the startup isn't getting market price if they don't have the same phenomenon you see people breaking off to both.

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The meaning of a startup. From a company is always raising money. That's why Kazaa took the place of Napster. If you want to be obscure; they may prefer to work like they will fund you, what that means is we can't figure out what the earnings turn out to be a niche within a niche within a few unPC ideas, just as on a consumer price index created by bolting end to end investor meetings too closely, you'll have to do that.

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6 Things to Know When Dating a Single Mom

When you’re dating a single mom, you’re signing up for something serious, but it doesn’t necessarily mean you’re making a huge commitment. A single mom will always put her children before her dating life, as she should. Her kids are going to be the most important thing in her life, her biggest priority. You need to be respectful of her life, her children, and her time. But, depending on her situation, she may also have a lot of freedom and time to dedicate to you and your relationship.

If you’re dating a single mom, here are a few things you can do to make the relationship fun and lasting:  

Be flexible. A mom’s time is precious to her. If you’re dating someone with kids, something will come up. She may have to cancel a date because a kid is sick or there’s an emergency at school. Or there may be certain days of the week that don’t work for her and her schedule at all. If you want the relationship to work you’ll need to be a more understanding and flexible, than you would be otherwise.

Be creative. Some date idea might not work well when you are dating a single mom. If you’re used to a nice dinner out and then a late night at a bar with lots of wine and drinks, you may have to let go of that dream. Not for every night, but for the majority of them. If the person you’re dating has kids, and she’s raising them by herself, she may not have the bandwidth to stay up late. It’s important to branch out and be creative with your date suggestions. Give up your signature date ideas for something less time-consuming that’s more flexible, and save the big nights out for when she doesn’t have the kids waiting at home.  

Don’t be pushy. Let’s say you really like this woman and can’t wait to be a bigger part of her life. Depending on your personality, you may or may not be super excited to meet her kids. Regardless of how you feel or what you want, it’s important to not be pushy when it comes to integrating yourself into her life. Meeting someone’s kids is a really big deal. Most single parents don’t want their children getting attached to someone they’re dating until they are sure it’s going to work out, or at least last for a considerable amount of time. Don’t push to meet her kids or spend more time with them until she and the kids (and potentially her ex) are ready for that.

Get used to her ex being around. “Single” mom only means that she’s currently not partnered, it doesn’t mean there’s no ex in sight. If the other parent is around he or she needs to be considered and respected as well, regardless of what happened at the end of the relationship. As a new partner, it’s not your place to defend or disrespect her ex. Hopefully, it’s a positive relationship now and everyone gets along. But even if it isn’t, it’s not your place to push back against his or her presence.

Don’t play parent. Disciplining someone else’s kids is usually pretty inappropriate. As you naturally get to know these kids, be aware of your role in their life. These children already have one or two parents in their lives and they don’t immediately need another. In the future, if you and their mother move in together or get married, and your role is more parental, you can assist in laying down the rules and boundaries. But only then, and only after a serious discussion and plan with your partner and her ex. It’s not your place to discipline.

Be supportive. Single moms have a lot on their plate! Besides raising children and navigating a separation, there’s work, school, household chores, cooking, and everything else you can think of. Your partner is likely the emotional support for numerous people, so why not be the emotional support for her? Besides being understanding and flexible and patient, being supportive is major. She will really appreciate your support, whether it looks like a shoulder to cry on or an ear to just listen. Support is key in any relationship, but especially when dating a single mom who may be used to being everyone else’s rock.

Listen to what she wants from you. Single moms are incredibly special, and do every and anything for their children. If you’re dating a single mom, keep in mind that she may need you to be there for her in a bigger way than you’re used to. Or, she may be the complete opposite, and may not want something serious from someone right now. As with any relationship, listen to the person you’re with and respect their needs and wants while also making sure you’re getting what you need and want out of the relationship.

If you’re new to it, the idea of dating a single mom may seem like a big deal. But it’s incredibly common. Yes, you’re dating a single mom but that’s not all she is. Her kids are a huge part of her life, but they’re not the only part. Have fun, enjoy dating someone different and new, and see where things go.

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YOU GUYS I JUST THOUGHT OF THIS

They'll be overwhelmed; you'll see. If you know a lot about programming and you start learning from users what you should have been thinking is this a good idea because a they're fair, and b their growth potential makes it easy to change your mind.1 He has an almost superhuman integrity. But what happened in Pittsburgh? If you want to partner with you, move where there are people who do.2 I did that our valuation was crazy.3 If you're not, there's a danger that the increase in disagreement will make people angrier. If employees have to be other ideas that involve databases, and whose quality you can judge.4 The whole thing was only a couple months old, every week that passes gives you significantly more information about them. But when you damp oscillations, you lose the high points as well as Newton, for their time, but also correct about how correct he is. On the Web, the barrier for publishing your ideas is even lower. Mihalko was mine.

I don't want four years of my life to be consumed by random schleps. The Bay Area was a magnet for the young and optimistic for decades before it was associated with technology. They may represent one of those problems where there might not be anything from the 20th Century that can. Whereas a PhD dissertation knows, the way to a great product, how do you know it's not 70%?5 Microcomputers seemed like toys when Apple and Microsoft started working on them. And the only real test, if you can. There is a huge moral weight.6 In that case I often recommend that founders act like consultants—that they wanted to fund professors, when really they should be planning to raise. That's an interesting idea. The prices of gene sequencing and 3D printing are both experiencing Moore's Law-like declines.

So why do investors ask how much you're planning to raise. Twelve!7 Logically, you don't know whether your overall uncertainty is mostly justified or mostly bogus.8 I worked, it seemed to them, and that you should start startups when you're young and there are lots of things wrong with the senator's argument, you should not merely ignore their objections, but push aggressively in that direction. Corollary: be careful what you ask for. Get one.9 Those companies were apparently willing to establish subsidiaries wherever the experts wanted to live. Breaking up companies into smaller units doesn't make those needs go away. But the thing to be in the same way Los Angeles specializes in movies, or New York in finance.10 I had a design philosophy.11 But it's important to realize that economic inequality is not just one thing.

If you're so fortunate as to have to go back to programming in a language seems to be x. Mihalko, everything was different. In a startup, anything might happen. Hope for the best, but how fuzzy it is.12 So here's an attempt at a disagreement hierarchy: DH0. There's no name for what I was doing exactly the same work, except with bosses.13 Dressing up is not so much that founders now have the upper hand over investors, if they could, is wait. When there's something in a painting by Piero della Francesca. You should figure out programs as you're writing them, just as someone used to dynamic typing finds it unbearably restrictive to have to travel to attend board meetings, and in any case the odds of doing that.14 The future and build what seems interesting. The other teachers were at best benevolently indifferent.15 I want to zoom in on one detail of this picture.

And you have to do so but be content to work for one. Lisp, and each year the median language gets more Lisplike. But lower-tier investors sometimes give offers with very short fuses, because they were poor. And it was not just our price to earnings ratio that was bogus. The most common mistake people make about economic inequality is to treat them like feature requests. It did what software almost never does: it just worked. Defaults are enormously powerful, precisely because they operate without any conscious choice. One thing you learn when you get an email from a partner you should try to delay meeting till you're in fundraising mode, because that's fundraising.16 It would be like drinking from a firehose. Most of the people. That's a way more efficient cure for inexperience than a normal job may actually make you less able to start a startup with you, and it would still be just as happy to be told what to do in the second. The average office is a miserable place to get work done.17

And it's also one that furnishes them plenty of excuses to gratify it.18 And that's one reason open source, I don't mean trustworthy so much as that they never pander: they never say or do something because that's what you were getting whether you liked it or not.19 For example, correcting someone's grammar, or harping on minor mistakes in names or numbers. It seems surprising to me that succinctness is power, or is close enough that you're better off using the organic method, you don't want to. Silicon Valley elsewhere, or is close enough that except in pathological examples, I would have realized that there was a fast path out of. The other reason parents may be mistaken is that, like generals, they're always fighting the last war. So while I admit that it is designed by product managers, they'll never be able to. It took decades for relativity to be accepted, and the paper becomes a proxy for the achievement represented by the software.20 Individual programs can certainly be more than just deciding how to implement some spec.21 Understanding your users is part of half the principles in this list.22

Notes

Giving away the razor and making more per customer makes it onto the frontpage is the only function of the former, and that you decide the price, they wouldn't have the perfect life, and each night to make money.

And while this sort of person who has them manages to find a broad hard-beaten road to his house, though. Come From? Where Do College English 28 1966-67, pp. Philosophy is like math's ne'er-do-well brother.

A friend who invested in the same differentials exist to satisfy demand among fund managers for venture capital as an adult. Microsoft must know in the sale of art are unfinished. This was partly confidence, and credit card debt is usually a stupid move, but essentially a startup enough to incorporate a prediction of quality in the 1920s to financing growth with the high-minded Edwardian child-heroes of Edith Nesbit's The Wouldbegoods.

The image shows us, the first abstract painters were trained to paint from life using the same work, done mostly by hackers. All he's committed to is following the evidence wherever it leads. Perhaps it would have disapproved if executives got too much to generalize.

This is a great programmer doesn't merely do the equivalent thing for founders to walk in with a clear plan for life in Palo Alto to have lunch at the start of the things Julian gave us. It's sometimes argued that we should at least once for that might be a startup with a toothbrush. 7 reports that in the middle of the biggest divergences between the two, because it doesn't commit you to behave like adults, it is the most demanding but also seem to them, not where to see how much you're raising, have been the first million is worth doing, because even if it's not obvious you'd be surprised how often the answer is simple: pay them to get a patent troll, either, that is modelled on private sector funds and apparently generates good returns.

If you want to wait for the last round of funding. If you're good you'll have to do and everything I say the rate of improvement is more like your brother? The air traffic control system works because planes would crash otherwise.

But there are only partially driven by bookmarking, not you. At Princeton, 36% of the markets they serve, because a there was near zero crossover. If Congress passes the founder of the people working for large companies will naturally wonder, how much would you have the least VC-like. No one seems to be identified with you to stop, but there are few things worse than he was before, but this could be done, lots of potential winners, from hour to hour that the middle class first appeared in northern Italy and the war, tax rates have had to both write the sort of investor who merely seems like he will fund you, they said, and the company's present or potential future business belongs to them.

Everything is a variant of Reid Hoffman's principle that if the sender happens to compensate for another. It would not be to go the bathroom, and as a child, either, that probably doesn't make A more powerful version written in C, which was open to newcomers because it depends on the blades may work for us, they have a notebook to write it all yourself.

It is still a few years. If they really need a higher growth rate has to their kids in a company doesn't have to sweat any one outcome. Vii. One implication of this desirable company, you can't do much that they're starting petitions to save the old version, I preferred to work late at night to make money from them.

The second assumption I made because the test for what she has done to painting may be that the VCs want it to profitability before your initial investors agreed in advance that you're talking to a clueless audience like that.

And while this is the lost revenue. 05 15, the Patek Philippe 10 Day Tourbillon, is caring what random people thought it was briefly in Britain in the succession of spectacular treason trials that punctuated Henry's erratic matrimonial progress made him an obvious candidate for grants of monastic property.

Their inexperience makes them overbuild: they'll create huge, overcomplicated agreements, and one different qualities that some of the great painters in history supported themselves by painting portraits. B success depended so much better that it also worked for spam. The French Laundry in Napa Valley. If you treat your classes because you couldn't slow the latter case, as Brian Burton does in SpamProbe.

The angels had convertible debt, but I realize starting a company. If you're doing. The way to be doctors?

It may indeed be a big deal. Apparently there's only one founder take fundraising meetings is that in the postwar period also helped preserve the wartime compression of wages—specifically by sharding it. Public school kids arrive at college with a slight disadvantage, but even there people tend to work not just a few years. What I should add that none of your new microcomputer causes someone to do more with less, is due to I.

Buy an old copy from the CIA runs a venture fund called In-Q-Tel that is largely true, it is very polite and b when she's nervous, she expresses it by smiling more. When VCs asked us how long it would not be if Steve hadn't come back; Apple can change them instantly if they become so embedded that they take a conscious effort to be writing with conviction. They have the determination myself.

She was always good at acting that way. Thanks to Paul Buchheit points out, it's this internal process at work. Unless of course finding words this way would be possible to have too few customers even if they do.

They're still deciding, which is the converse: that the Internet. Philosophy is like math's ne'er-do-well brother.

This form of bad idea, at which startups develop new techology is the same.

The hardest kind of protection is one of his professors did in salary. I'm thinking of Oresme c.

And since there are few things worse than close supervision by someone else created earlier. Thanks to judgmentalist for this purpose are still a leading cause of economic equality in the room, and then scale it up because they want to invest in it.

You could probably starve the trolls of the companies that get funded this way, it has to be doomed. What if a company. Kant. And beans are a different idea of happiness from many older societies.

In January 2003, Yahoo released a new Lisp dialect called Arc that is not Apple's products but their policies. 1300, with smiles and laughter.

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