#ok . someone hold my hand . SKSKSKS

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

girl i had an idea for my first fic (thinking of doing shigaraki bc he’s my current hyperfixation)- him casually stalking his chubby (soon-to-be) s/o. he eventually attempts to kidnap her only for a villain to try to take the place she works at hostage so he ends up dusting the criminal and grabbing her. s/o feels conflicted but mainly 💓 for her knight in an oversized hoodie

long story short, he lives w her and is totally stray-cat and demands retribution thru physical affection for saving her life. he makes her hold and snuggle him and wear red lipstick and kiss his face and neck.

he also can’t hold back his undying love and lust for her plush body so he huffs and snarls at her cause he wants her to want him like that naturally. so what are you waiting for?

YES yesyesyesyesyes. This pleases me >:3 i am going to throw out a billion ideas BUT if you do write something? Please please PLEASE tag me, i wanna read it so bad 🥺

Woowee, this got out of hand tho sksksk like it started out cute and then got super duper dark so uhhhh ig this is closer to yandere Shigaraki than cute and sweet fanon Shigaraki sksksk my bad, i got carried away ✌😔 hope you still enjoy it tho :3

CW: chubby fem reader, yandere tendencies, stalking, manipulation, Shiggy dusting ppl, SO many red flags jesus christ pls dont date someone like this irl, not beta read bc im a gremlin

Oh GOD

UGH i just want Shiggy to be obsessed with me 😔

BUT I DIGRESS

Chubby chaser Shigaraki who saw you ONCE when he was walking around the city and immediately knew that he had to have you

So, like any lovesick man would, he stalked you and found out where you lived and he set up cameras when you were gone and he watches you in his free time bc he's so normal you guys he's just so normal and sweet seriously—

ANYWAYS he's content for a while just watching you from a distance, jerking off to footage of you changing or sleeping or showering

But there's this little voice in the back of his mind telling him that this isn't enough, that he should have his hands on your body instead of his cock, how your cunt should be milking him instead

He's able to ignore it for the most part, justifying that it was better this way bc there was no chance of him being rejected

But then he sees you masturbating on camera for the first time and good god your tits look so soft and squishy in your hands and your chubby pussy is so tempting and he keeps wondering how you would taste—

Ok so his resolve breaks sooner than he expected it to sksksk

So guess who's gonna kidnap you the next time you go to work?? ✌🤪

He's got it all worked out: you'll live with him and the league, he'll get you your own room and bathroom and he'll be able to lock it from the outside and come visit you whenever he likes

It isn't what he really wants (i.e. a real relationship), but it's better than jerking off to footage of you like a loser

He's fully prepared to dust your coworkers if he has to

Nothing is getting in the way of him and his precious soon to be but not really girlfriend

So he walks into your place of work, his hood over his head, prepared to sneak close to you and drag you away

But when he looks up, he sees someone holding you to their chest, holding a knife at your neck

And Shiggy sees RED

Wastes no time bolting over to the two of you, grabbing your captor and dusting him without a second thought

You're standing there shocked as Shigaraki is seething, appalled that anyone would touch his girlfriend

He turns to you, grabbing your wrist, prepared to pull you out of the building and back to his hideout where no one can find you

But when he looks at your face, he freezes in his tracks

Your eyes are sparkling, your mouth slightly ajar as you gaze up at him, amazed

"Th-thank you for saving me..."

Tomura is sure that he's died and gone to heaven when he sees that look on your face

He's so nervous when you start thanking him over and over and asking if he's a hero and saying that he was incredible yea let's just ignore that someone died, apparently it's ok bc he's a villain or whatever

He mumbles and stutters over his words, unsure what to say bc omg you're right in front of him and you're so much prettier up close and you smell so good and shit he can feel himself getting hard—

"C-Can I have your nu-number?" he blurts out, not even thinking before he spoke

You're clearly flustered and Tomura worries that he'll have to resort back to his original plan which he really doesn't wanna do bc he feels so blessed seeing how happy you're looking at him rn and he doesn't want to make you scared by kidnapping you now—

"S-Sure! Yeah, of course!"

Holy fuck, he could die happy right now

Nothing else matters: he got your phone number and his life is complete

The two of you start texting constantly

This is mainly on Shigaraki's end bc he has literally nothing else going on and you are the only thing that matters to him so of course he's gonna spend all his free time talking to you 🚩

His yandere tendencies really come through during this time

Like he's super obsessed with you and always asks where you are, where you're going, who you're with, etc

But you're so dokidoki bc he saved you that you don't think much of it sksksk

Like maybe he's just so attached to you bc he saved you and almost saw you die so it makes sense that he worries about you so much

Your relationship moves quickly and now he's spending time at your place more than he is at his own home

He's there when you come home and when you leave, following you around like a little puppy dog

He's not subtle about wanting affection, latching himself onto you the minute you walk through the door

He's always touching you (CAREFULLY!!!), his hands always pressed against you and his arms always wrapped around you

He acts all mean and tough, but he's really just a big baby

Cuddle him! Pet his hair! Let him lay on you or sit in his lap! Right! Now!!!!!! 😡

Now obviously he doesn't yell and stomp his foot until you give him attention, like he's not a five year old

No he just pouts until he gets his way sksksk

The. Biggest. Baby. 🙄

But it's kind of endearing, like he's so in love with you that he wants to be close to you all the time 🥺💕 🚩🚩

So you cuddle him whenever he pleases which tbh is all the time

He is sooooooo obsessed with your body

He thought his type was the thin, busty anime girls he grew up with, but you changed EVERYTHING

You are the softest, warmest, plushest person he could've ever met

He's always imagined how soft boobs were, but you're that soft everywhere and he—

He almost creams himself the first time you sit on his lap

You were nervous to do it but he hissed and snarled about how it's the least you could do for him since he saved your life and all 🚩🚩🚩

You still protest but he gets impatient and just pulls you onto his lap, holding you close, refusing to let you go

Once you calm down and relax, he's finally able to enjoy the softness of your body

You're so warm and plush and omg he can feel your chubby pussy through your clothes and it leaves him breathless

If you can feel how hard he is, you don't show it and he's grateful that you don't point it out; the last thing he needs is to feel humiliated in front of the girl he likes

He's so touchy feely from then on out

Think Tagami Yukiya from Pochamani

Like he's squeezing your upper arms and breathing heavy and gets a glint in his eye whenever he sees your chubby bits on display

He's super vocal with the LOV about his new girlfriend

"Hey guys I'm gonna head out to see my girlfriend, you know the girl who I get to kiss whenever I want, don't wait up"

But it isn't enough bc Shiggy is a gremlin and he wants everyone to know that he's got a girlfriend and he's cool and desirable

So he makes you put on lipstick/lipgloss and leave kisses all over him

He likes bright colors that contrast his pale skin and are more noticeable from a distance

"Hey, Shig, ya got somethin on your—"

"OH YOU MEAN THIS? tHIS KISS MARK FROM MY GIRLFRIEND, THE PRETTIEST SWEETEST GIRL IN THE WORLD? WHAT ABOUT IT??? ARE YOU JEALOUS???"

He's trying so hard to be a big tough alpha male like he's compensating so hard for all of his insecurities

Dabi ends up calling him out on it too and making him feel worse

"If your girl likes ya so much, why hasn't she let ya smash yet?"

Shiggy's face burns bright red and he huffs and leaves the room, grumbling about how stupid Dabi is

But his words are stuck in Tomura's head

Like of course he's thought about fucking you, obviously he would, but he wasn't sure how to initiate things without scaring you away

He already pushes your limits by being so brash and handsy, he doesn't want to ruin everything by trying to fuck you and going too far

But he's starting to get insecure that you don't actually like him bc yall haven't fucked yet

He's grumpier than usual, pouting even though he's cuddled up against your tummy like he always wants to be

"What's wrong, Tomie??"

He stays quiet for a bit but eventually asks if you actually like him

You ask where this is coming from and he admits that one of his "friends" said that if you really loved him then you would have sex with him, and Shiggy agrees with him 🚩🚩🚩🚩

You get all flustered and insist that you do love him

"Okay so if you love me then let's have sex" 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩 this man is just full of red flags huh??

Ok so now you're having sex sksksksk

He's awkward and clumsy but that doesn't stop him from fondling you like his life depends on it

You have to guide him a bit, showing him how to make you feel good

But once he gets the hang of it he gets very aggressive, doing everything he can to make you cum

Isn't too keen on eating you out at first but once he's between your legs he's a menace, like he's licking and sucking and slurping every inch of you as he pumps two fingers up into your g-spot

He's a little off but he's got the spirit and that's all that matters

He sounds like a fucking animal when he fucks you

He's growling as he eats your pussy and once he slips his cock into you he's panting and snarling and practically drooling as he ruts into you like a dog

He's determined to make you cum as many times as possible: it's physical confirmation that he's a good boyfriend and makes you happy

You'll probably only cum once before he cums inside you, but that doesnt mean he stops

No he keeps fucking you, overstimming you both as his hips snap into yours

He'll cum 3 times total and you'll cum 5/6 times

He almost passes out once he's done, falling on top of your body and burying himself in your chest

He falls asleep in your arms, mindlessly sucking your heavy tits as he sleeps

From then on out, everytime he visits you, he has to unload into you at least once

He's one possessive motherfucker and he's paranoid that anyone could try to steal you away from him

He has no concept of people not being attracted to chubby folk bc in his mind you're the most gorgeous woman on the planet and anyone would be blessed to even stand in your presence

So be prepared to be covered in dozens of bites and hickeys

He's not gentle about it either, fucking you hard from behind and biting your neck to the point of bleeding

He's so pussy drunk that he doesn't know how rough he's being; all he knows is that your body feels heavenly and he never wants to stop

He needs you to tell him that you love him several times a day

If you don't, he gets cranky and angry

It's cute at first bc awwww he likes you so much but let's be honest he's just manipulating you into doing what he wants

"If you really loved me, you would tell me all the time"

"If you love me so much, then show me"

Just really shitty behavior on his part bc his only experience with relationships is through media and toxic behavior is seen as normal in a lot of the shows/movies/games/etc that he consumes

Is he awful? Yes. BUT!!!! Butbutbut I do think that he could change if you taught him how healthy relationships should go

If he makes you feel like shit, you'll just have to call him out! Let him know that he can't say things like that to you or else you'll dump his ass

Threaten to break up with him enough times and he'll eventually learn, becoming nicer and softer with you

He's not a big angry gremling anymore, he's a small soft uwu baby who just wants to cuddle his chubby girlfriend every night

He'd be all needy and snuggle up to you on the couch, nosing your tummy and giving you big doe eyes

"Can we cuddle?"

Yes baby, of course we can cuddle 🥺💕

He's a real piece of work, but with enough love and patience he could become a wonderful boyfriend

#ask #shigaraki tomura #fem reader #chubby reader #shigaraki x reader #shigaraki tomura x reader #smut #yandere #oh jeez this got way too long #forgive me for going all over the place ✌😔 #tomura shigaraki #shigaraki #☀️ asks

[fandom-blackhole]

First of all give Gwen a good belly rub and a kith om her head. I bet she is a good girl. Also, I don't know what kind of force bond thingy is this but you and I think in almost the same wa. No worries me likey!

AAA I was thinking about Fennec too! See told you we are connected,

Boba having grandpa moment sksksks but yes, he loves Fennec as much as he loves you,

Also, for the love of God, don't ask him to take photos of you,

All your selfies with him end up looking like this 😐Boba 🤗You,

Boba was feeling extra and bought two diamonds collars, one smaller for Fennec and a bigger one for you,

If, he was not a crime lord and didn't meet you he would end up being like a crazy old cat lady,

Is your head okay? It must be painful to have a brain the size of the universe.

Yes, yes, yes Paz definitely helps hurt animals and went out of his way to get rhe right diploma for that,

Din is butthurt when children flood him with question when will Mr Paz come again,

But he swallows his pride and totally participates in eco wokness classes,

Recently I watched a documentary on YouTube about japanese bunny cafe sooo

Paz has also area for the rabbits in the restaurant???

One day on his way to work Paz came across a pupper in distress and he performed a cpr on the dog, someone filmed it and it went viral,

You were scrolling through Instagram and had to double take

Wait was it? No it can't be

Omg Paz my hero, being friends with animals like a Disney princess,

I need you to lay down, your back must be hurt as well. Hurt from carrying this AU on your back queen.

Space themed room for Grogu 10/10 idea and your idea for the metal ball works so well!

Grogu + Din + Running = one day you end up tending to your boys, there are some scratches on their knees and elbows, but mostly Din took the damage(like it was bound to happen there are compilations of din landing on his butt),

Grogu's stroller must be made out of some, really resilient material (beskar??),

Grogu being freaked out by Fennec, like he sees a kitty but the kitty behaves like a doggo??? (srsly Maine Coons are the best high five bestie),

Boba tried to snap a pic of Grogu and Fennec, yeah, we know how it ended up looking,

Grogu desperately tries to steal and sneak in snacks for uncle Paz' pupper because it's so tiny, must feed it a lot! (oh bless his poor soul, little angel),

You and Din spent a whole day shopping for a space themed blankie, literally went to every shop possible, you were too dedicated to the cause but you ended up placing an order on-line,

When Boba had to go abroad for business, you settled on having a FaceTime date,

You wanted to surprise him so he would try his best to come back home as soon as possible,

You call him up appearing on his screen, wearing his favorite lingerie,

Only to end up to a close up of Boba's forehead and him saying

Princess I can't see you, can you hear me, baby girl are you there??,

Srsly what's wrong with him not being able to use the technology correctly,

You decided on sending him pictures, yours were really spicy, you wanted to show him what he was missing,

Well, he send you a pic too. You weren't sure if it was his arm, leg, or his dick.

Maybe you need to check if his camera is stuck on some type of foggy filter because it's just ridiculous at this point,

Sorry I kinda went all of the place with those. If you want to stick up to specific theme you can choose! Or we can just keep up the random brainstorming - 🐣

Kajdksmskaksb stop! You can't be this nice to me lmao. (Also its funny you mention that my brain must hurt bc I do have chronic headaches and migraines) oh and Gwen says thank you for the belly rub and kisses.....

Lmao Boba is a total grandpa when it comes to technology

He totally takes pictures for you like this

Diamond collar you say 👀👀👀 (Boba's princess is totally inscribed on the inside)

TRYING TO FUCKING FACETIME WITH BOBA OMFG

This man is just fuckinv holding the phone like you would when speaking on the phone, you're just seeing the side of his head

He totally tried to send a disk pick but he only got his thigh and like part of his left ball in the picture, not that you can tell

How the fuck does this man have a phone that has the ability to take pictures as good as the best cameras out there manage to only get pictures that look like they were taken with a flip phone?!?!?!

Din's students definitely ask every day when Paz is coming, they just love him and it takes sssoooooo long for him to come back lmao

Paz's restaurant has places for all types of animals, it doesn't matter what they are he has thought of something for them, and he has food for all of them

Paz totally accidentally becomes viral and gets interviewed by so many news channels, and of course he uses the exposure for good and makes an Instagram to show case the restaurant, his organization, and all of the charities he helps

The Instagram blows up and becomes verified and all the money he makes from it he donates to a new charity each month

(He starts hanging up all the fanart he receives all over the restaurant, especially the ones done by kids)

Ok so Din coming home just covered in scratches and your just like 'wtf happened?!?!!'

Turns out Grogu tried to jump out of the stroller while he was jogging and he had to catch him

Din's entire arm and knee + part of his cheek are just scratched to hell, Grogu hand has a small scratch and he's acting like its the end of the world

Grogu + Fennec = over protective pet and the child that it protects

Fennec is constantly pulling Grogu back from trouble by biting his pants leg

Paz's chihuahua (aaaahhh we need a name) loves abusing Grogu's feeding them habit, constantly begging for food around him and he A L W A Y S finds a way to give them some even if you are watching him like a hawk

Also I raise you, Grogu's favorite movies and TV shows are Star Wars

You are constantly trying to convince Din that he looks like Pedro Pascal, but he always deny it

Jokingly one day you say, "you know what you're right Din, Pedro is so much hotter."

He pouts for the rest of the day

For his bday you get Grogu a Luke figure and post it to Twitter, Mark Hamill sees it and retweets it telling him happy bday and may the force be with you

Grogu totally flips out in excitement

Din makes Grogu his own mandalorian helmet that he helps him paint what colors he wants

Paz gets Grogu a telescope and a book about stars

Boba of course spoils the kid and gets the giant lego star wars sets, as well as one of the actual blasters used on set of the OG movies (its one of the ones that that really cool green bounty hunter used 😏)

Also this is us:

Anyways, sorry I was all over the place, I just got so excited lmao!!!

(Send me THOTS!!)

#🐣 anon #modern au #din djarin x reader #din x reader #boba fett x reader #boba x reader #paz vizsla x reader #paz x reader

[lemonietrinket]

How Day6 would react to them being your first kiss

AN: requested by anon, i hope this was what you were after! i tried my best, and i think it turned out alright (rest of the members under the cut)

Sungjin

as i’ve said before in another reaction, sungjin imo opinion dates to marry (or an equivalent if marriage is not for you, as though i get the vibe he’s quite traditional, for the right person he would be very easily convinced)

so he treats all of his relationships as if they’re going to be The One

this means he probably has reasonable experience with a small number of long term-ish relationships

so you’re not his first, but he has a good idea on how to treat you

your first kiss will probably not come along that early in the relationship

taking things slow is a must, and an idea you can get behind

so when it finally comes round, and you admit that he’ll be your first kiss, he’s secretly over the moon

because it means he’s found someone who understands and get things like he does 

but also so he can make sure it goes right

he’s not super confident with his skills or anything lol, not like that

just he knows that he will make sure it’s under your parameters

you’d probably ask him to lead you, since you’re not particularly sure what you’re doing

and he would be so careful when he presses his lips to yours, lightly tipping your chin with the curl of his index finger and the pad of his thumb

the kiss would be short and very chaste, a starting point for you to make your way from and into the deep end if you wanted to

it would probably leave you wanting more not long after but

you go at your own pace

after all, he’s pretty sure that this time you are The One, and that means you have all the time in the world

Jae

this boy has probably got experience

come on, with a voice like that, with humour like that, with a smile like that, with his deep moments and kindness

ok im preaching to the choir here 

the point is, he’s probably kissed a lot of people

so when kissing comes up

and it’ll come up pretty quick imo because he’s probably quite affectionate as a partner

he’s going to find it adorable that you haven’t had your first yet

but it’s no problem, he’ll just be extra gentle—tho let’s be real, i can’t really picture him being anything much different lol

he woudn’t be as cautious as sungjin, and just ask whenever he felt the moment was right, and won’t take it too personally if you tell him ‘not yet’

when the yes comes, he’ll start slow

it’ll probably be one of those long ones, the light ones that make you linger and hang onto the end, waiting for the next part to come

once you part, if you don’t erupt into giggles and blushed cheeks, he’ll happily offer you another, deeper one

there’s one thing for sure, it’ll easily become a staple of your romantic relationship, so prepare for kisses everywhere sksksk 

Younghyun

ugh the romance

look, he’s charismatic, he’s confident

if it’s your first kiss, he’s gonna make sure it’s the best first kiss you could ever have

i imagine he’s more of a spur of the moment kind of guy

if you’re akin to a heroine of a jane austen-esque novel (like me) and would prefer to be asked first then let him know, he’ll remember and will do so

otherwise, he’ll wait for the perfect moment before he leans in, quiet like the movies, or with something suave to say

he will take the lead, so just relax because you’re not going to know what to do but you’re in good hands

will hold the small of your back or cup your cheek as your lips meet, and it’ll probably be the definition of sparks igniting

probably the most passionate first kiss of the lot, and it will be unforgettable

lucky

Wonpil

now first appearances would dictate that wonpil has limited experience

but then again, if you think back to when you were a baby myday, if you were told one member of day6 had a tattoo, would you have guessed it was pil?

yeah, that logic may apply here too

regardless somewhat of his history, i have a feeling that if he’s had his first kiss, it perhaps wasn’t that important or memorable and neither kinda were some of the ones that followed :/

either way he’s going to find the fact that you want him to be your first kiss absolutely heartbreakingly adorable

and he’ll probably tell you that

guy’s got little shame

he’s also highly affectionate, so kissing is important to him

meaning that there’s a lot riding on the first kiss of the lot

and it would come up really quick

as soon as it’s brought up, he will immediately enquire if you want to have it then

you’d probably be snuggling on the sofa alone when it comes up so don’t worry about privacy, that’s taken care for

no matter when you agree, he’ll be all smiles when it happens, but with a certain steel in his eyes

he probably wouldn’t consider himself the best kisser, but he wants your first to be good (otherwise yo might not ever kiss him again and that would be very bad) and so he resolves himself to giving you the best first wonpil kiss he can give you

since you don’t know what you’re doing, he’d probably encourage you by telling you to follow his lead and just do what feels right

will try and lead you as best he can, though it’s not his speciality. even if he initiated it, he would usually let his partners lead him before tbh

the kiss ends up being probably very soft, lasting mere moments but feeling like much longer

as you pull away, he would quickly dip back in a plant a very quick and final one upon your lips, before meeting your eyes again 

the two of yu are probably quite shy afterwards, so cuddles are what follows

but slowly it will become instinct, and you may find yourself initiating them even more than he does

Dowoon

look, im 78% sure dowoon has only had one relationship in his life that probably didn’t last super long either

so first kiss, 50/50 on whether he’s even had it yet himself 

and if he did, he probably didn’t learn much from it, or maybe even enjoy it :(

now that he’s come out of his shell a bit more, he’s able to put himself in a relationship again, this time for the best reasons, and once again is in a position to take that next step

so intrinsically, neither of you know what you’re doing

but that’s ok! you’re in the same boat, and you can learn together, which is arguably the best way—there’s no guilt or as much embarrassment

so after a while, when the two of you are ready, and you’ve probably spoken about it a bit (though perhaps not extensively, unless you are a lot more forward than he is) the time will come

it’s probably not in a place that screams ‘special’ but it’ll be safe and easy and comfortable, and it’ll be worth it in itself rather than for the circumstances around it

it’s probably awkward, but once you figure positioning after a brief nose bump, it’s not too bad

yeah you probably have to wrack your brains for kiss scenes you’ve watched in dramas and movies for a vague idea, but it goes well!

for a first kiss

where neither party really knows what to do

:)

as time goes on, you’ll grow more confident

and tho dowoon doesn’t give off strong kissing vibes as being his primary form of physical affection (more of a hand-holder if you ask me), i think it would grow more common, though only in the private sphere

though don’t underestimate the power of head and temple kisses in public

it will ruin you just wait 

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[peachessashaven]

Heaven - Ben Hardy x Reader (Smut)

Synopsis: You and Ben have been friends since High School. When a friend from Primary School shows up many years later, will Ben be able to keep his feelings in check, or will his jealousy peek through?

Warnings: swearing and terribly written smut im so fuckin sorry sksksk

A/N: *this is reposted bc i hated the way it looked on the app on the phone AHAH* hi yes, im back, kinda, thank you for all the love on sucker!! i appreciate it all!! ❤ anywho get ready to need to burn your eyeballs because of this piece of sh i e t im so sorry also hasnt been spell checked or re edited bc i hate reading my work back i always send it to my friend and she says its good (i feel as if she has to say thay but ok AHAHAH) anywho enj o y???

Word Count: 5.5k (tf is wrong with me???)

You’d heard a knock on the door of your flat, the flat you share with Ben. You furrow your eyebrows, confused as to why someone might be here. You sit on the couch for a few more seconds before you hear another hurried knock.

“Are you going to get that?” Ben yelled from his bedroom. You sighed and lifted the warm woolen blanket, slipping on your slippers. You were wearing one of Ben’s old hoodies and a pair of pyjama pants.

“Yeah, fine! I’ll get up from the warm confines of my blanket to answer the bloody door!” You laugh, shuffling towards the door. You swing it open, the wire door covering the person standing there. “Hello?”

“Is this Y/N’s house?” You raise an eyebrow, skeptical of who would be asking for you.

“Uh, who’s asking?”

“Well, if you open the door, you’ll find out.” You warily open the wire door, slamming it open when you realise who it was.

“Hayden?” You scream, confusion and shock clear all over your face. Hayden was your best friend in primary school - he’d moved away in grade five, his mum had gotten a better job opportunity to benefit everyone in his family. This was the first time you’d seen him over 15 years.

“Hi, Y/N, long time no see!” He says with a laugh, opening his arms for a hug. You comply and run into his arms, crashing into his grasp. “How are you, little one?”

“Oh my god, it’s been so long! How did you know where I live?”

“Well, your mum hasn’t moved out of your old family house, so I went there first and your mum directed me here. Your mum hasn’t changed a bit - it seems you haven’t either!”

“Who’s at the door?” You hear a voice behind you, Ben rugged up in a hoodie and trackies. This winter weather wasn’t going well for either of you it seemed. He walked up to you and placed his arm around your shoulder, pulling you close.

“Ben! This is one of my old best friends from primary school, Hayden! Hayden, this is my now best friend Ben!” You introduce the two, Ben warily shaking the man's hand.

“Nice to meet you, Ben!” Hayden enthusiastically shakes Ben’s hand, “I hear you’ve been treating our Y/N right? That’s that your mum said.”

“Yeah, I guess.” Ben stares at Hayden with a weird look, almost as if he was glaring at him. His hold on you doesn’t falter, you place your hand on his. You look at him with confusion, shake your head slightly and glance back at Hayden. He doesn’t seem to notice the weird looks.

“You talked to my mum? What did she say when she saw you?”

“She looked back at me and said ‘There is no way you’re that little boy I remember’ I laughed and had to try to prove it to her!” Ben still looks quite uncomfortable standing there, one arm around you. His hand slides across the back of your neck and down your arm he then walks out of the lounge room and into the kitchen, hearing pots and pans clanging around. You shiver slightly at the movement, feeling lost without his touch.

“How?”

“The nickname I used to call you, ‘Funny Bunny’” He smirks at you, seeing the look of horror on your face.

“Oh my god, I haven’t heard that in years,” You let out a big grin, “I can’t believe you remember that!”

“Why wouldn’t I?”

You and Hayden continue to chat, leading him into the lounge room and out of the cold. You talk about what he did when he was away, how his family was going and how he’d finally found love in his life. You’d talked about how you’d met Ben in high school, how finishing high school was like and what life afterwards has been like.

After about an hour of talking, Hayden decided it was a good idea to leave - but not before asking you to come to the housewarming party he was having to celebrate him coming home.

“Is it okay if Ben comes along? Maybe he can get drunk enough and tell me whats wrong,” you ask, chuckling slightly.

“Yeah, of course, the more the merrier!” He seems genuinely happy to have him come along, “it’s been so great to see you, Y/N, I’ll see you both tomorrow night?”

“Sure will, thank you for visiting! Again, sorry about my clothes, didn’t realise I’d have any visitors,” you gesture towards your pyjama pants.

“That hoodie does not seem like something you’d wear,” He furrows his brows but with a knowing look. You hit his shoulder slightly.

“Shh,” you giggle, “It’s Ben’s, it’s roomy and comfy enough for a winter’s day!”

“Alright then, I’ll see you guys tomorrow!” He throws you into a large hug, shaking you around the whole time. “Goodbye Ben!” Hayden yells out, and beginning to leave, not expecting an answer. You hear Ben let out a ‘bye’, but not coming out to see him.

You wave once more to him and close the door, letting out a happy sigh. It’s great to be able to catch up with old friends, especially ones who made an impact in your life. You raise yourself from the door and walk to Ben’s room, where he’s sitting cross legged on his queen sized mattress, on his phone.

“Why are you in a grumpy mood?” You ask, knocking on the door. He looks up from his phone with a plain look on his face.

“I don’t know what you mean,” he says blatantly. You give him a pointed look, clearly seeing through his bullshit.

“Ben, you’re grumpy and I can tell,” You walk towards his bed and sit down next to him, pushing his shoulder with your shoulder. “C’mon, dude, you can talk to me.”

“There’s nothing to talk about, I’m not grumpy,” his eyes wander to yours, then slowly drifting down your body. “Is that my hoodie?”

“Maybe, it’s cold as hell and you have so many. I only have one, and it’s in the wash.” You play with the fur-like lining of your slipper, sighing as you lay down on his bed. You can’t lie, it’s a much more comfy bed than yours, you’d considered swapping it with yours when he was away filming. “So, we’re going to Hayden’s housewarming party tomorrow night.” He groans really loudly, falling back on the bed next to you.

“Why are we doing that?”

“Because he’s been my best friend since primary school, and I haven’t seen him in like 15 years.” You point out, turning your body so you’re on your side, staring at Ben. You watched his face go through so many emotions in the span of 3 seconds.

You sit there for a few more seconds, noting how his eyes scrunch up when he’s concentrating, his eyebrows furrow and he bites his lip, which, if you were standing, would make your knees give out on you.

“Fine, I’ll go.” You squeal and throw yourself over him to hug him, wrapping your arms around his neck and your legs intertwined with his. You could feel him stiffen up, but you didn’t say anything, you were too excited. You give him a sloppy kiss to his cheek, yelling thank you over and over again.

You couldn’t decide what to wear, it was still extremely cold, it only being 7 degrees Celsius outside and tonight, it was going to drop to only 4 degrees Celsius. You decide on a maroon woolen jumper with black jeans, along with black boots with a big heel. You settled on having your hair down, natural, with neutral makeup. You walked into the lounge room, grabbing your keys and purse.

“Ben, you ready?”

“I’ve been ready for the last 10 minutes, I’ve just been playing the game-” Ben trails off as he sees you, letting a small smile grow on his lips. “You look-” Ben pauses, biting his lip in concentration, “... amazing.” Your eyes flicker from his eyes to his lips and back.

“Thanks Benny,” You smile flirtily, walking to the door. “You good to go?”

“Yeah, of course,” he feels his pockets for his phone and wallet. “Lets go!”

Hayden was very welcoming to both you and Ben, Ben was even smiling at him. When you two walked in, it was like one of those high school parties you were never invited to, but found yourself at those parties because Ben dragged you there.

You didn’t want to drink, you never found the fun in it, seeing everyone literally falling over, it just never appealed to you. Ben however, grabbed one of the light beers.

“I don’t want to drink much, I’m probably not even going to finish this.” He had told you, earlier in the night, but you didn’t believe him, you knew he was going to get smashed, one way or another.

You were talking to Hayden again, laughing, smiling and reminiscing with him when you see Ben stagger into where you two were talking. He was smiling eagerly when he saw you, walking over and plopping himself down on your lap. He cuddled into your neck, whispering things that you couldn’t quite understand.

“Ben, why don’t you sit next to me?”

“Can I lay in between your legs?”

“Why not.” He stands up and pulls you to the floor. Feeling every part of your body jiggle with that one action, you begin to feel self conscious - covering up your stomach when Ben lays down.

He feels your hands where his neck is placed and pulled your arms out from where you were covering and placed his hands into them, nestling his head between your boobs. You blush from the movement, him moving his head around to get comfortable, he situates himself to have his cheek resting on your left boob.

You close your eyes and then look to Hayden. “You know what, I might get this one home, he seems out of it.” You chuckle nervously, feeling the rumbling of Ben’s resisting groans.

“Don’t want to go home yet.” He closes his eyes and lets out a sigh. You look at Hayden with an apologetic gaze.

“C’mon, Sweet, you’re done for, you gotta get home and rest, otherwise the hangover you’ll have will be astronomical.”

“I need to pee first,” he says slowly standing up. He holds his hands out for you to stand up with him. You sigh, rolling your eyes playfully, grabbing his warm hands to pull yourself up. He continues to hold your right hand as he finds the toilet. He pulls you in, locking the door afterwards.

“Ben, what are you doing?” You laugh. He turns around, his bright eyes turned dark, with an almost smug look on his face. You stop laughing when you see his eyes glide down your body. “Ben-” he cuts you off with one finger pressed to your lips. You gasp slightly at the action, you slowly walk back until you hit the sink, Ben stalking his way towards you.

“You seem to be having fun with Hayden, huh?” he asks, standing in front of you, looking down at you with an all new look on his face, one you’d never seen before.

“Ben, you’re drunk, what are you doing?” You mutter, clenching your legs slightly - the look in his eyes really did something to you.

“I barely drank that beer, I told you that,” he says. You place your hands on his cheeks, your eyes searching his for any sign of intoxication. You didn’t see any sign that he’d been drinking, no sign like you’d seen in previous situations.

This isn’t the first time he’s done something like this, he’s gotten jealous when another man would talk to you at a party, when you and Ben got home, he’d ask you the same questions, but in a drunken manner. You never told him it had happened before, you thought it’d make the friendship you two had awkward.

This time he wasn’t drunk, he was sober, alert, he knew what he was doing, and he seemed to know what he was doing to you too, looking at the way your legs were situated.

“Then- why- what?” You splutter, not knowing what to take from this conversation. “You looked so drunk before, what the hell was that?”

“I’m an actor, babe,” his finger pushes a stray hair behind your ear, caressing your face. He placed his palm on your cheek, his thumb rubbing calming circles.

“A bloody good one, you are,” you agree, getting lost in the eyes that seemed to get darker by the second. “What’s happening?” You whisper, leaning into his touch.

“Well, I’m just wondering why you haven’t tried to hook up with Hayden yet, you two seem to be having a lot of fun.” There’s fiery look in his eyes.

“Is that all you’re worried about?” You furrow your eyebrows, confused.

“You two are becoming close again, I can tell,” he mutters, his hand still on your cheek, his other hand slowly creeping up to your waist. “Soon, it’ll be ‘Y/N and Hayden’ and I don’t know if I can share you like that.”

“Are you jealous?”

“If that's what you want to call this, then maybe.” He says, sarcasm seething from his teeth like venom. You chuckle slightly, bringing one of your hands to the back of his neck, and the other sliding down his neck and resting on his chest.

“Sweetheart,” You begin, rubbing his neck, feeling the short hair between your fingers, you grip the hair slightly. He closes his eyes temporarily, mouth dropping. “You have nothing to worry about with Hayden,” you continue, sliding your hand lower towards his abs, hooking onto his jeans, fiddling with the belt. You bring his head down, your lips finding their way to his ear. You let out a slow and shaky breath as you whisper the rest of your sentence, “He’s gay.”

You pull away and begin to walk to the door, letting out small laughs. You begin to open the door as Ben stands there for a few seconds, he quickly snaps out of his trance. He closes the door before you can walk out, pushes you against it. You let out another gasp, he moves his head closer to yours.

“What?” He questions, placing his forehead on yours.

“That man he was with? His fiancé, you dipshit,” you giggle, placing your hand on his cheek once again.

“Oh, so I didn't need to stake my claim?” He asks, his voice getting lower and more seductive. You almost moan at the sentence, feeling heat all throughout your body at how close he was getting.

“Why would you need to stake your claim? If you wanted me to be yours, you should’ve just asked.”

“Oh, Love,” his voice is raspy and to you, it's so hot, his lips get closer and closer to yours, “so I can kiss you?” You don’t answer him, you just close the gap between the two of you. Teeth clashing, bitten lips and small breathy moans were all you could think of, Ben brought his hips closer to yours, pressing into each other.

You thought your first kiss with Ben would be simple and sweet, one night where you two were slightly drunk and you’d both wonder what it’d be like to kiss each other.

You’d hope something would stem from there. But if you told 17 year old you, that’d you be making out with Ben Hardy in the bathroom of an old friends house in the future, your past self would slap you and accuse you of lying, and then she’d tell you to stop playing with her feelings. You’d never thought this amount of passion could be thrown into a kiss, a fiery, jealousy and lust driven kiss.

Ben allows his lips to travel down to your jaw, leaving wet kisses trailing to your neck and collarbone that was exposed from your jumper. One of his hands grazed down your body and landed on your ass, squeezing slightly, his other hand still placed on your waist. You let out a moan as Ben found a sweet spot, sucking and making little noises, making a trail of marks as he brings his lips to the bottom of your ear. You grab his hair and scrunch your fingers in the perfectly placed heap, letting out louder noises - not caring if other people could hear you. Your other hand trailing down his chest again, stopping at his belt.

“If you keep making those noises and keep pulling my hair, Sweetheart, I won’t be able to stop myself.” He lifts his head from your neck, you let out a single laugh and pull him back to your lips, a kiss that's slower, sweeter, one that is filled with love and want. “As much as I’d love to take you in this bathroom, I’d rather finish this at home, where we can be as loud as we want.” Ben smirks, his lips are plump from the searing kisses, his face is red and he’s letting out small and laboured breaths. You nod, giving him one last kiss and pulling away, walking out of the bathroom. Ben gives a little smack to your ass, causing you to squeal slightly.

“Jeez, Y/N, you look fucked out, what happened in there?” Hayden lets out a laugh as he holds on to his fiancé. “And what happened to your neck? You look like you burnt yourself with a curling iron!”

“No time to explain, I’ve got to go, thank you for having Ben and I, we’ll come visit soon!” You hug him quickly and the man hanging onto him.

“I can see, have fun you two, wear protection!” Hayden yells out, as you stick the finger up at him, giggling. Ben joins your side, putting his arms around your waist, picking you up. You let out another scream and slap at his back.

“Put me down!” You laugh. He shakes his head and gives another slap to your ass. “Boy, if you don’t-”

“I’ll be driving, sweet,” He grabs your keys from your back pocket and puts you down as he arrives to your car.

“Are you sure you’ll be able to contain yourself?” You laugh, crossing your arms. You can see him straining against his pants, he isn’t exactly great at hiding it. He pulls your arms out from where they are and pins you against the car, the same position as before, but this time, his hands pinning yours to the car. You let out an impatient groan, “You know, the faster we get in the car, the longer we’ll have at home,” you whisper seductively, biting your lip as he also lets out an impatient groan.

“Good point, c’mon, lets go!”

Almost crashing through the front door of your flat, he pushed you against the closed door once again. He stares at you for a few seconds, you break the silence.

“How many times have you pushed me against a door tonight?” You gaze up, looking into his desperate eyes, letting out small laughs.

“Not nearly enough times,” He groans, pressing his lips to yours, hungrier and needier than before. “I’m making up for lost time, if I’m being honest.” His fingers tap the backs of your thighs, making you jump and joined your legs around his waist. “All those times I’d accidentally see you come out of the shower in just your underwear,” He’d began to trail the kisses to your cheek, “Those times where we’d be sitting on the couch and you’d take your bra off through your shirt because it’d been uncomfortable,” He lastly leant into your neck, kissing once then bringing his lips right next to your ear, “And those time’s I’d hear you moan my name in your sleep.” You blush a bright scarlet red, your mouth agape.

“I’d do that? I mean, I knew I did it while conscious, but not while I’m asleep,” He let out a guttural groan, his eyes almost rolling back.

“Oh my fuck, yes, sweetheart, it took me so much self control to not just walk into your room and eat you out, then and there.” His voice was low, husky and delicious. “It’s taking me a lot more to not just fuck you right here and now,” The sleeves of the jumper you were wearing covered your hands as you wrapped your arms around his neck, bringing him closer.

“I mean you could-” you trail off.

He smirks as he begins to walk to the hallway. “My room or yours?”

“Your bed is so much comfier than mine, it’ll feel much better on yours.”

“You think?” He asks with a smirk, you nod eagerly, with a grin growing on your face. He leads you to his bed, essentially throwing you onto the bed, your hands grasping at the multiple blankets covering his bed.

“So this is where they went?” You look at them then back to Ben, “I was looking for another one of these last night.”

“Oh well, you don’t have to worry about that tonight then,” Ben hops onto the bed, crawling over to you, pulling your legs apart to settle himself in between them. His lips latch onto yours again, moving slower and deeper, his hands placed next to your head.

You wrap your arms around his torso, scratching at his back, wanting his shirt gone. You must’ve scratched a little too hard as he pulled away and moaned. You pull at it from the back, throwing it in a random direction. You marvel at the chest before you, running your fingers along his pecs and abs, you almost drooled at the sight. You pulled at his belt buckle, ripping it off in one swift motion.

“These, off, now,” You muttered, urgency in your voice. Ben smirked and stood up from the bed, pulling his pants down, slowly and it was agonisingly painful. He left his boxers on as he crawls back up to you.

“You sure you want to do this, Sweetheart?” He asked, concern filling his face. You nod, not being able to trust your voice. “No, Love, I need verbal consent-” You grab his cheeks and kiss his lips hard.

“Yes, I want this, I want you, I want you in me, now.” Muttering against his lips, he almost growls, pulling at the end of your shirt, almost asking for permission to take it off. You groan and take it off yourself. You’re left in a lacy bra that barely held your boobs in because of how tight it was on you. You weren’t going to lie, it was extremely uncomfortable to wear, but it made you feel pretty. Ben licked his lips slightly at the sight. “Do you want to take it off, or should I?”

“Are you kidding? I’ve been wanting to do this for forever,” You smile as he brings his hands to the back of the bra, unclasping it with expert speed. You sigh in relief as the bra is finally off of your chest, but feeling suddenly self conscious (and cold, as soon as the cold air hit your nipples they turned as solid as fucking icicles), you fold your arms against your chest. “My sweet Y/N, you’re perfectly beautiful the way you are, you have no need to cover up.”

“No, you fuck, it’s fucking cold in here, why isn’t the heater on?” You shiver. Ben jumps off from the bed.

“I’ll put it on, I’ll be back.” Ben runs out of the room, leaving you by yourself to contemplate what to do next. You decide to pull off your jeans and underwear, and bringing yourself under the numerous amounts of blankets on Ben’s bed, it’s almost silly how many there were. Ben comes back and begins to rattle in the bottom of his draw.

“What’re you doing?” You ask, holding the blankets to your chest. He pulls out the square foil packaging, holding it between his fingers.

“This is essential isn’t it?”

“I am on birth control.” You mutter, feeling slightly embarrassed. “And as long as you’ve had an STI test, we can go without it.”

“Since when are you on the pill? I don’t see you take medication, or even go to the doctors for it.” Ben is genuinely confused, “But ever since I’ve moved in here with you, I haven’t had sex with another girl, I have had a test though, and nothing came back positive.” You smirk, beginning to tell him what birth control you were on, but he cut you off. “I can grab the test, if you’d like?”

“No no, Love, I believe you. I’ve got the IUD, I’m not on the pill.”

“IUD?”

“Don’t worry about it, it’s just a thing that gets put in my uterus- Just drop the condom, come here and fuck me already?” Ben is almost giddy when those words leave your mouth. He quickly gets under the covers to see you don’t have your underwear on either.

“Oh, I’m not fucking you tonight, I’m making long and hard love to you, all night long,” He brings his lips to yours, moving against them as he palms at your boobs. He places a hand at your entrance, swiping back and forth between your folds. “So wet for me, darling,” he pushes one finger in. “So easy to push in, huh?” His finger pulls out, you whimper, needing more. He pushes his finger in his mouth, sucking the juices off the digit.

You moan with his words and actions, feeling blissed out. You push your hand into his boxers, feeling his length in your hand. He lets out a guttural groan, pulling off his boxers completely.

“Are you sure this is still okay?” You groan, getting impatient as you position his length to your entrance. A smirk finds its way onto your lips.

“Does it look like I’m okay with it?” Ben doesn’t answer for a few seconds, staring at your eyes.

He lets out a small ‘yes’ with a laugh and pushes himself in until he bottoms out. Your mouth is in a constant ‘o’ state, not having sex for a while, you forgotten what it felt to be completely filled out. You claw at the back of Ben’s back, knowing full well that it’ll leave marks tomorrow. Ben stalls for a few seconds. “Are you going to move?”

“Just let me get used to this, Babe, as I said, I haven’t had sex since we moved in together, if I start moving now, I won’t be able to last long.” His eyes are honest and full of lust. Your hand finds its way to his cheek as you bring his face to yours, eyes shutting and lips falling on his, for what it seems like to be the hundredth time this night. “So what is the IUD?” Ben says, clearly distracting himself from trying not to release in you straight away. He begins to move outwards slowly, as you look at him incredulously.

“You really want to ask me about something that’s jammed in my uterus?”

“Well, I’m jammed inside your vagina, so-” You slap his chest, with a scoff that turned into a moan as Ben pushed back in. He spilt out your name as you clenched your walls against him.

“Note to self, never have sex with a friend, they’ll try to pull some jokes-” You cut yourself off by a scream of Ben’s name, as soon as he hit the right spot.

“You won’t be having sex with anyone else, beside me, darling,” Ben repeatedly hits that same spot, a string of curses and Ben’s name falling off your lips. “Sorry, but you’re mine now.”

“It’ll be only you, it’s always going to be only you.” You moan, clawing at Ben’s back again. “Shit, Ben!” His hand trails down your body, landing on the bundle of nerves between your legs. You begin to squirm.

“I heard that women don’t really get off with just vaginal penetration, so, I thought to help you along, because I’m so fucking close-” he presses down hard and wiggles his fingers, “I’d play with you a bit more.” Ben’s voice sounds absolutely delicious as he says this, you bring your hand to his hair and pull him down to kiss you to hide the moans that are constantly falling from your lips. “This is so much better than my dreams.” Your eyes rolled to the back of your head.

You pull at his hair, not hard, but just enough for him to moan once again.

“Benny, I’m so close,” you whisper in his ear, he lets out a relieved sigh.

“Thank fuck, because I’ve been holding off for a while.” He laughs, continually applying pressure to your clit, thrusting deep to hit your g-spot. “You’re almost there,” you clench your walls around him. “I can feel it, I’m so close- shit,” he releases inside you, the warmth pushing you over the edge as well. You yell out Ben’s name over and over again, pushing your nails into his shoulders leaving crescent shapes in his skin.

He pulls himself out of you, you whine at the feeling of being empty. He stands up and walks to his bathroom, grabbing a cloth and wetting it with warm water. You begin to feel everything seep out of your hole, you close your legs to try to stop the uncomfortable feeling. Ben kneels on the bed, near your legs.

“C’mon, baby, open up, gotta clean you up,” Ben places his hands on your thighs, eyes hooded, clearly tired. You felt the same, tiredly and warily opening up your legs, you felt him gently wipe at the sensitive spot, feeling him stopping and starting, then finally wiping at your thighs. He presses a kiss to each thigh, then throws his shirt away. “I’ll put that in the wash later, right now, I need to hold my girl.” He pulls you into his chest, your hands bracing the impact slightly. You snuggled into his neck, pressing a few kisses there.

You blushed at the endearment, smiling to yourself as you could finally call him yours. He could call you his. This is all that you wanted for the past few years, someone to want and someone to want you back. Your breathing began to pick up, as you planned out your next few words.

“I love you.”

“That’s a relief,” Ben chuckles, pressing a kiss to your head. “I didn’t want this to just be a friends with benefits thing.” He puts his hand into your hair, scratching lightly. “I could never do that with you, I’d fall in love every single day over and over again.”

“Thank fuck.” You breathed.

The next morning you woke up to someone cuddling into your back, spooning you. You panicked for a second, before turning your head to see the sleepy blonde’s head placed in the mass of your hair. You felt a pleasant ache between your legs, reminiscent of last night’s antics.

You pulled away, hoping not to wake him up. You grab one of Ben’s shirts from the floor, not bothering to put on underwear as the shirt almost looked like a dress on you, hitting the mid-thigh. You walk into the kitchen, putting on the kettle to set yourself a cup of black tea. You grab the sugar and place it on the bench. You walk to the fridge and grab the milk, closing it to see Ben standing there, leaning on the door frame.

“Fuck, Ben,” you gasp, holding your chest where your heart would be.

“Hmm, love the sound of that,” He mumbles, walking towards you, settling his hands on your ass. He looks puzzled, feeling around your ass - lifting the bottom of the shirt, he sees you’re not wearing underwear. He gives you a lazy smirk. “You naughty girl.” You let out a squeak as he slaps your ass.

“I couldn’t be fucked putting on underwear, plus, you can’t tell I’m not wearing any, unless you lift up my shirt like an ass.” You slap his chest lightly and walk over to the bench where your tea awaited you.

You exaggerate your hip movements, leaning on your hip as you pour the hot water in the mug. You put the tea bag in the mug and turn back around to see Ben standing there, a smile on his lips. He walks up to you and places his hands around your waist and lifts you up. You let out a squeal, looking down at Ben as he twirls you two around. He stops and puts you down, still holding onto your waist.

“I’m glad we finally figured out we loved each other, didn’t know if I could go another day without telling you.”

You place a hand on his cheek, letting your thumb rub lightly. Your lips give his a gentle kiss, not hurried and not lustful, just a kiss to let him know that you’re his.

“Sorry to tell you this, but you really won’t be able to get rid of me anymore.” You sigh, shaking your head. He looks right into your eyes, not blinking once, seriousness in both his sight and voice.

“I don’t mind that at all, being with you will be heavenly.”

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the fog will clear up | shawn mendes

chapter 13/?, university au, shawn x goth oc

AN: sry its short and definitely a filler im sry its boring but it helps build up stuff thatll happen next ok ok im sry

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Annalise woke with a start. She was wide awake immediately. There was no room for sleepily rolling around the sheets, her eyes weren't heavy like always. She didn't know what dying and coming back to life felt like, but she was pretty sure it felt something like that. She had a weird urge to go for a jog.

Staring at the ceiling, Annalise reached towards the nightstand next to her, intending to grab her phone. Her hand touched the bottle, and she picked it up anyway, reading the prescription label.

Annalise Flores SERTRALINE 50MG TABLET Brand name: Zoloft

"You don't waste anytime, huh?" she murmured before setting it back down. Then, she grabbed her phone and checked the time.

8:47am. A new fucking record. Annalise rolled out of bed, unable to stay still.

In the 2 hours she had to kill before work, she tidied up the dorm, ate a decent breakfast, took a shower, and got started on the course work she had to make up. The energy levels were through the roof, she had never been so on edge and productive at the same time. Why wasn't she put on sertraline sooner? Sure, she felt hyperaware and borderline anxious, but that was apart of the process of getting on a new antidepressant. She was getting things done this way. Sure, she jumped when the lock on the door jiggled, but she was up and running anyway!

If she wasn't, she wouldn't have seen Stella entering the dorm. She was surprised to see Annalise on the couch, looking like a deer in headlights.

"Oh… I thought you were asleep. I'll, uh, I'll come back."

"No, wait!" Annalise sounded a little too frantic, but it did stop Stella from leaving. "Uh, come sit down! Please!"

Stella narrowed her eyes slightly as she went to the couch. At least she was willing to listen.

"I, uh, I'm sorry," Annalise began, rubbing the back of her neck. "I'm sorry for what I said. A stupid guy isn't the only good in my life. I have you. You matter to me, and I'm sorry for making you feel like you don't." She really couldn't stop herself from rambling. "I miss you. I miss seeing you here between classes, and I miss your optimism because a bitch could use some of that. And, and I'm sorry for the negativity I've brought in here. I'm working on it now, I swear. Just… come back. Come home… because bro, you're my wife, dude."

It could have been funny, but there was nothing funny about the way she said it. Her eyes were wide and pleading, and she was rubbing her hands together. Stella merely blinked her hazel eyes, nearly overwhelmed by that string of words.

"Look at you, expressing your emotions," she said after a while. "I can see why you hold it back."

Annalise nodded rapidly. "It's my first day on a new medication. Got me all sorts of hyped up, but I'll mellow out in a couple of weeks. And I'm taking therapy seriously again!"

Stella was surprised. "Oh, I see. Well… I've missed you too. Bro…"

"Bro?"

"I'll come home too. Camila's bed is too small for the two of us."

"Bro…"

"I know. I have to update you on all that."

"Br-"

"Okay!" Stella broke out a smile and stood up. "Dame un abrazo, puta."

That was much easier than Annalise had anticipated. She stood up and hugged her best friend, relieved. Stella wasn't one to hold a grudge, nor was she as stubborn as her roommate. It was another person to cross off the list.

~

Shawn had social media mainly to get his music out there. Yes, he interacted with his friends on Snapchat, and some fans on Twitter. Most of the time, Shawn just tweeted when he had new music coming out. He didn't check any of his social media very often, not even to stalk Ann's accounts because she was rarely on her's. He didn't even have his notifications on, purely to keep himself from the possibility of getting too attached to the opinions of random strangers online.

That was why he woke up that morning to a number of texts from Camila.

"SHAAWWNWNN"

"SHAWN IM LKTERSLLY BALD RN"

"CHEKC UR TWITTER RIGHT NOW!!!!!!"

"YOIR FOLLOWERS!!! AAHSKSKSK"

"SKSKSK SHAWNMM IM SCRAMING"

So to Twitter he went. Shawn rubbed sleep out of his eye as he went to his profile. He had around 10k to begin with, that he built up on his own over the last couple of years. He nearly dropped his phone on his face as he read the new number.

50.2k

"What… the fuck?" he breathed out as he sat up in his bed. He scrolled through the list, making sure this wasn't a series of spam bots.

His mentions were just as wild, and it explained the sudden blow up.

@hollaestor: @shawnmendes hiii bella told me to follow you

@samxriv: @shawnmendes i am free to hang out on tuesday to hang out when i am free

@gisellenjh: @shawnmendes bella sent me here and im glad she did! loving your music!

And there were plenty more like that. There were so many tweets, Shawn couldn't even get through all of them. It was making his head spin. There was only one Bella he knew about too… He just couldn't spell her last name. Thankfully, her handle was just @bellasanti, and it was the first one to pop up when he typed it in the search bar.

Right under Bella Santiago's name and the blue checkmark were the two little words: Follows you. Shawn refreshed the page ten times before it sank in. This YouTuber, who has over 2 million followers, somehow found Shawn's music… and she liked it. She liked it enough to tweet about it… 3 days ago.

@bellasanti: underrated spotify artists: @shawnmendes. give him a listen. send him some love. truly talented guy💖

Shawn had only overheard Bella's videos when Ann was watching them in the other room. He never really watched any of her content. But he wanted to pass out at the fact that she took the time to listen to his music and tweet about him. He wanted to jump on the bed. He wanted to call-

He texted Camila back. "Wtf why did no one tell me sooner?? This is so crazy!!!!!"

"We thought you knew and you were keeping it from us!! LMAO congrats rockstar!"

He couldn't believe it. His follower count was rising. He was getting emails from Spotify saying his songs were being added to many different playlists.

@shawnmendes: @bellasanti wow thank you so much! Love you bella❤

He deleted the last bit before tweeting it. Holy shit. Shawn lied back down on the mattress, completely breathless.

How does someone like Bella Santiago find Shawn out in cyberspace? What Spotify rabbit hole did she go down that led her to him? How many of his songs did she listen to? How many songs did she save to her library? How many of those playlist emails were from her? Shawn had so many questions.

~

There were two things Annalise noticed when she was out on the courtyard after Biology. The first thing was a table on the side of the walkway, with a handmade banner hanging off the front. It read in big letters: Shawn Mendes: Live at The Cameron House. Brian, Alessia. and Camila were all sat on the same side at this table, talking to a student who was interested in the little display.

"The lounge called back," Annalise muttered to herself.

The other thing Annalise noticed was Patrick sitting under a tree nearby, reading a book. She went to him first.

The last time she had spoken to Patrick was when they cut up flowers together. He was never one to explicitly state when something has upset him, and he has seen Annalise in a depressive episode before. Annalise knew him well. Patrick kept his distance because he didn't like the negativity around her, and he couldn't afford any more of it himself.

"Hey," she greeted.

His blue eyes tore away from his book to meet her gaze. "'Sup?"

"Trying to be less fucked in the head," she told him.

Patrick nodded in approval. "Cool."

That was all that was needed for the two of them. Content, Annalise turned and went for the table. A small line had formed when she wasn't looking, so she waited behind the last person. However, with three people running the thing, Annalise got to the front fairly quick.

"Oh, she actually showed up," Brian chimed, amused.

"Meaning?" Annalise asked.

"Thought you were too pissed at Shawn to care about his show, that's all."

She swallowed the pit of annoyance, discovering that even more people knew about that. Brian is his friend, though, of course he'd know.

"Selling tickets or something?" Annalise turned her attention to the two girls.

"Yeah! Ten dollars a piece!" Alessia explained.

"Cool, I'll take one."

Just as she opened the flap on her book bag, Camila spoke up.

"Wait. I'm pretty sure Shawn said he wanted to buy you your ticket himself."

Annalise rolled her eyes. "Well, he's not here and I can do things for myself." She pulled out her wallet and paid her own goddamn ticket.

Camila breathed out a laugh. "Are you ever gonna let him do anything nice for you?"

None of your fucking business.

A new thought occurred to Annalise. "Why are tickets being sold for this show? Aren't his gigs usually free?"

"There's more production going into this one," Brian told her. "The lounge gave him the option to make it a ticketed event, and we need to make back what we already put into it. So now, it won't be a performance, it'll be Shawn's performance."

Shawn already knew how to make an audience his bitch, but…

"Alright then." Annalise shrugged and then accepted her ticket and receipt from Alessia.

The ticket alone was already quite extravagant. There were little red roses designed around the edges. This boy really loved his fucking flowers.

"I'm guessing rose petals will fall from the ceiling or something?" she guessed with a chuckle.

"I was given strict orders to not spoil anything," Brian told her, folding his arms.

The two had a mini staredown until Annalise shrugged again. "Whatever."

Then, Camila piped up again, suddenly excited. "Ooh, Ann did you hear? Bella Santiago followed Shawn on Twitter!"

"She what?" Annalise stupidly replied.

Camila practically squealed. "She gave him a shoutout too! He's blowing up on Spotify! Isn't that awesome?"

Annalise wanted to say something, but her brain wasn't quite caught up yet. So she just walked away.

The other three students watched her leave. Needless to say, they were confused.

"Is she ever gonna be happy for him?" Alessia wondered.

"I think she was excited?" Camila said tilting her head.

"I can't believe Shawn is going through all this trouble for that," Brian said with a scoff.

"I can still hear you!" Annalise called over her shoulder as she kept walking.

All three of them went red in the face, embarrassed. Brian would have made a comment about her being a vampire with supersonic hearing, but he didn't want to be called out again.

_______

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uncomfortably deep and personal questions

questions here

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01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

thankfully, me and my mom are super close.... we don’t talk about my dad tho

02: Who’s the last person you said “i love you” too?

man, i tell everyone that i love them. i truly love everyone that shows even the slightest bit of kindness towards me

03: Do you regret anything?

yes,

04: Are you insecure?

oh yea. part of it is my introverted, soft spoken personality, and part of it is just how negatively i see myself oop

05: What is your relationship status?

single, unfortunately lol

06: How do you want to die?

painlessly. the pain that comes with death is what scares me the most i think

07: When did you last eat?

lunch!! i had a bomb ass colombian dish,, man do my people know how cook good food

08: Played any sports?

does show choir count?? aggressive dancing with aggressive singing??

09: Do you bite your nails?

nope

10: When was your last physical fight?

i know i say that i want to slap people sometimes, but i’ve never actually done it

11: Do you like someone?

y’all, im always attracted to someone sksksk

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

yup

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

yes, but we don’t talk about him

14: Do you miss someone?

oh god yes...

15: Have any pets?

yes!! i have one lil doggie

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

i’m very tired lol. it’s like 11pm which is v late for me since i have 7am classes

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

nope, bathrooms are gross

18: Are you scared of spiders?

yes, have you seen them??

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yes, imagine all the things you could change or prevent

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

honestly, it’s been a while, i don’t really remember

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

i’m gonna go see a play that one of my friends is starring in on saturday and then i’m gonna celebrate my birthday with my doggo on sunday

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

ahh, this is such a difficult question. i want to give my kids the childhood that i never got. but what happens if by some circumstance, i give them the childhood i had, and negatively impact their life through it?

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i just have my ears pierced

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

english and art! math and science are my worst. i guess i function best when i’m able to use the creative and imaginative side of me whereas i fail when logic and reason come into play

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

yes yes yes and yes

26: What are you craving right now?

blueberries

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

no, never

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

yes

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

no. unless something changed in their heart and they, for some reason, felt bad for treating me so badly, and decided to weep, no

30: What’s irritating you right now?

so many things ahhh,, why do i have to be so introverted? why am i so deperate to find love, when it keeps biting me in the butt?.why can’t i make friends as easily as other people?

31: Does somebody love you?

honestly, i don’t think anyone does, maybe only my mother?

32: What is your favourite color?

auburn

33: Do you have trust issues?

oh god i wish i did. i wish i was able to keep people at a distance. i let people in and basically ask them to use my secrets, my insecurities, my whatever, to break me. and then the cycle goes on and on

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

i dreamt about me meeting billie eilish a couple of days ago. it was v nice

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

i don’t know lol, there’s not a lot of people around to see me cry i guess

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

yea, it’s not good i know

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

no, but it’s definitely not the worst, and i’m thankful for that

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

i don’t remember, but i do know that i was v late to the game

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

god no

51: Favourite food?

colombian food, thai food, japanese food

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

i want to believe this, but sometimes shitty things happen and i’m like wow, there’s literally no benefit or reason to why this happened except to make me feel like shit

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

kissed my doggo goodnight

54: Is cheating ever okay?

if you’re my friend, i’m just gonna say that even if you’ve cheated on someone before, i don’t see you as less of a person or a friend. people make mistakes, and it’s also part of who i am: someone who tried to look past the bad and see the good, ahhh i don’t know how to explain this the right way but i hope you understand my pov. anyways, i’ve been cheated on before and it sucked balls. so no, i don’t think it’s ever ok in a relationship. but i also don’t think that it’s something that should affect your friendship with someone. i think cheating is something that needs to be dealt with among the cheater and the cheated and shouldn’t bleed into your friendship with a random, uninvolved person. but you can totally disagree with me and that’s fine!! everyone is subject to their own opinion based on their own experiences and personalities etc.

55: Are you mean?

i don’t think so!! but then again, i can’t really be the judge of that lol. i try my hardest to be the friend that i’ve always wanted, if that makes sense. i try to be kind, and supportive, and positive, and there for them, etc.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

no one, ive never gotten into a physical fight

57: Do you believe in true love?

it’s not that i believe in true love, it’s that i hope and pray for it. i hope that one day i’ll find it

58: Favourite weather?

cold, cloudy, people walking around in big, fluffy jackets and scarves

59: Do you like the snow?

yes! i saw snow for the first time in my life a couple of weeks ago!

60: Do you wanna get married?

ahhhh,, my parents set a really bad example for good marriage. my parents’ marriage taught me that men can change over time. and that once they’re safe in the bounds of marriage, theyll stop their act, get tired of you, and act like a totally new person. and that... scares me. i don’t want a husband like my dad and i’m so afraid that the same situation will happen to me

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

yes, names like baby, sweetheart, love, honey etc. make my heart weak

62: What makes you happy?

real friends, tight hugs, platonic cuddling, romantic cuddling, acts of service, uplifting words, hand holding, forehead kisses, soft intimacy, need i go on?

63: Would you change your name?

i wold ditch my last name.. can you guess why? i’d love if my middle name became my last name, legally

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

romantically? yea

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

nothing, cuz that kind of stuff doesn’t happen to me

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

no. i try my hardest to only let my friends see the happy side of me. i don’t like burdening them with all the bad emotions i sometimes feel. my complete self would be if i shared ALL of my emotions, the bad as well as the good. but i think it’s better this way, they would most definitely get annoyed after a little bit of time

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

probably my friend tino

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

i don’t remember,, it’s been a long time since i’ve actually talks about truly deep subjects with someone personally,,

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

i want to believe it. i want to believe that i’ll one day find the person of my dreams. the person that fits so perfectly with me and is just so perfect ahhh

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

i don’t know, i’m selfish when it comes to dying. death scares me

#sfw #why do i love oversharing sjsjsjs

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Take Us Back “Review” ig

Wow that episode was just... wow 😭 That was actually a really good ending (at least the one I got, I'm not sure about any other endings there might be) to an amazing series 😭😭

Also, if you haven’t blocked the twdg spoilers tag, I’ll put a break here but if you haven’t played the episode and/or don’t want major spoilers for Take Us Back, don’t read the rest of this long ass post. You have been warned. (That sounded super serious sksksksks 😂)

Ok so I’m just gonna start off with the beginning when AJ voiced the “last time on The Walking Dead” like damn that entire sequence put my anxiety (which was already super high because I was literally freaking out about possibly getting Clem or anyone else killed) through the roof. He was listing all the things I’ve taught him in the past and that shit honestly gave me ten different types of anxiety.

So, I got James killed in the last episode so I have no idea what he says in this episode or anything like that, but I’ve heard that it’s not great sksksksk

Anyway, the fact that we literally saw James as a walker broke me so much I was literally crying at that point.

And then when AJ said he wanted to be a firefighter damn that shit was lowkey kinda cute. At that point I was a little more relaxed because we were somewhat safe in the cave.

But then shit went so south when we left the cave and after we met up with Violet.

Of course I had to mention the tree house and omg I almost cried again just thinking back to season 1 when we met Clementine in her tree house 😭 (Even though I’m pretty sure she said she hated her tree house in season 2 abgsfhj)

And of course I had to rename Ericsons to Castle Violet who do you think I am

But the bridge OOF

Fuckign Minerva akajsfkjh I’m wondering if there was a way where she could have lived I highly doubt it but damn I wasn’t expecting her just die like that wow I was lowkey kinda hoping maybe she would get some kind of redemption but wow that whole dragged out death was so gruesome but not necessarily in a bad way, at least not for this series sksksksks

And damn Minnie just had to fucking slice Clem’s leg that shit looked like it hurt askdjashdg

AND THEN TENN FUCKIGN DIED WHAT THE FUCK

I think if I hadn’t told AJ to make the tough calls then he wouldn’t have shot Tenn, and Violet probably would have died instead (or Louis if you saved him at the end of episode 2) Fucking hell

And when we split up and Vi went back to the school goddamnit that scared me because I had a feeling something was gonna go wrong  AND I WAS FUCKING RIGHT WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

At this point I was fucking crying my goddamn eyes out because CLEM GOT FUCKING BIT WHAT THE ACTUAL SHIT JFHJKSGHJGF

I was such a mess at this point there was honestly no saving me

The entire time I was shouting at Clem to just chop her leg off at that point because there was no way that Clem was gonna die in such a stupid way like damn. wait fuck that's how Lee died AKSFJKG IM SORRY LEE I DIDNT MEAN TO DISRESPECT YOU LIKE THAT FUCK

Anyway

And then when I got that fucking achievement after that at that point like, first of all fuck you game, second of all fuck you. But seriously, I was genuinely wondering if there was any way to avoid her getting bitten but idk at this point it’s almost 1am I have school in the morning and I am way too tired to replay the entire episode even though it was a lot shorter than I thought it was gonna be tbh probably because I didn’t look around for collectibles as much and because I probably didn’t pause the episode as much as I usually do while making hard decisions sksksks

And then when we made it to the barn and we fucking started playing as AJ I was freaking out at this point

But when Clem was literally dying I was sobbing the entire time and just fuck, the parallels between that and season 1 when Lee died goddamn that shit hurted

I literally had to pause the game at this point because AJ was crying right in my ears and I couldn’t focus because I was also crying and only one of us can cry at a time buddy

Originally in episode 3 I told AJ to leave Clem if she ever got bit but fuck I didn’t think it was actually gonna happen so I changed my mind and told AJ to kill her because god damn I’m not gonna let her turn into a walker fuck that (even though that’s exactly what I did with Lee fuck) (Also I just looked and I’ve literally used the word fuck in this post like 23 times so far sksksksksks 😂)

And when it cut to black after that, literally all that was left was the sound of my sobs goddamn. And the achievement “final lesson” that shit just made me cry even harder

And the fucking ranch flashback right after goddamnit I was still mourning Clem you can’t just have me play as her again like that, shit. Also damn poor AJ 😭😭

And then when AJ was fishing and Rosie showed up damn she actually put a smile on my face somehow. I didn’t think that was possible at that point

Clem’s hatttt 😭 I was so scared I wouldn’t get it because I kept missing the quick time events but then Rosie got it thank god

And omg when we got back to the school and Take Us Back started playing I was even more of a mess I thought the episode was gonna end there but boy am I glad it didn’t

Also omg Ruby and Aasim holding hands damn that shit was adorable

When the music faded out and shit, I was like ok I think there’s still a little more to the episode but then FUCKING CLEM STARTED TALKING AND AT FIRST I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING IS AJ IMAGINING THIS BUT NO CLEM WAS ALIVE AND OH MY GOD I LITERALLY STARTED CRYING AGAIN BUT THIS TIME THEY WERE HAPPY TEARS AJHAFSGF

I was so fucking glad that Clementine was alive I didn’t even care about the fact that she was missing a leg I was just so glad to see her oh my god I really thought she was dead

And they all lived happily ever after

Jk except for Tenn GODDAMNIT HE DESERVED BETTER

But seriously, I was so glad Clem wasn’t dead and that mostly everyone was alive I seriously thought I was gonna get a shitty ending (But I’m also a little confused on how Clem survived the bite. I know she obviously cut her leg off and she did say something to AJ about she was glad he didn’t listen to her in the barn which I’m assuming was referring to when she told him to kill her, but if that was where Clem had her leg chopped off, I feel like the bite would already have spread to the rest of her system at that point? Idk I’m not gonna question it I’m just extremely glad she’s not dead)

And the very ending where we walked through the hallway and it showed all the names from the Still Not Bitten Team damn I loved that so much

And omg when we went into the room and were able to look at Disco Broccoli and his friends, I noticed that the option to look at Disco Broccoli kept popping up so I kept selecting it and ALKHASDFJKG I FELT LIKE I ENTERED ANOTHER DIMENSION WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT I don’t wanna spoil it but y’all need to see that if you haven’t already skskskkssk whether you replay the episode and see yourself or if someone makes a video of it on YouTube (which I feel like someone will eventually)

But omg the very ending with the “thank you for playing” that shit hurted 😭 I literally started crying again but not nearly as much as I thought I would tbh I thought I would be bawling my eyes out for hours but at this point I just feel kinda numb 😂 Like it hasn’t really set in that The Walking Dead just ended. Maybe because I can immortalize it forever in my Steam library and replay it however many times I want (and by reading fanfiction sksksksksks) 

(Also this post is gonna be put into my queue until more people play the episode so it probably won’t be posted until later tomorrow. So just know that this post was made at 1 in the morning a few hours after the release of episode 4 and I have to go to school tomorrow morning. Wish me luck)

Long story short, that entire episode was amazing (even if it did fuck with my head a little and was a little emotionally scarring sksksks) and I am so glad I was basically able to grow up with Clementine and this entire series

Also here are some screenshots because why not 😂

sksksksk AJ’s face 😭😂

This shit hurted 😭 (But it’s also a really pretty picture and I highkey want this framed on my wall or at least as my wallpaper on my phone or some shit)

What the fuck when did I ever say it was okay to try and kill someone if they try to steal from you alskhjags (Update: I just realized that this was referring to when I attacked Abel aksjdhkhg AJ THATS NOT WHAT I WANTED YOU TO TAKE AWAY FROM THAT)

This was actually really cool and even though it made me feel a little guilty because some of these choices I made weren’t the best, oh well

And here are my choices because why not 😂

And lastly, I want to thank Skybound from the bottom of my heart for saving this incredible game. If it wasn’t for this company these last two episodes wouldn’t have ever come out and Clementine and AJ’s story wouldn’t have gotten a proper ending. So thank you so much Telltale for starting and creating this amazing game and thank you to Skybound for giving it a proper sendoff.

#twdg #twdg spoilers #spoilers #dont say i didnt warn you #queue #telltale games #skybound #skybound games #the walking dead game #great now im crying #goddamnit

[cosmiicorvid]

All of them

The meaning behind my url:About two years ago I was looking through Jack’s posts on his blog and I saw one of his responses for a piece of fan art, he said “that is one spicy spedicey!” and I immediately thought ‘that would be a great blog url… but someone probably already took it’ so i didn’t do anything about it. I had that as my name on discord and everyone loved it so i decided to try to change my url on here and it worked! so uhhh…. yeet

A picture of me:auuhh i can’t add a picture on desktop but,,, y’all have seen me already sksksks,,, but i’ll reblog this with a pic maybe

How many tattoos i have and what they are:I don’t have any tattoos!

Last time i cried and why:I cried while watching Ralph Breaks the Internet… it was sad bro

Piercings i have:I used to have my ears pierced but i didn’t wear them enough so they closed

Favorite band:my favourite band is Set it Off! Either them or Linkin Park

Biggest turn offs: friendship-wise anyone who has manipulative tendencies

Top 5 (insert subject):Top five animals! Bats, raccoons, corgis, snakes, cheetahs

Tattoos i want:I want a semicolon on my wrist and a PMA tattoo somewhere

Biggest turn ons:uuahhh…. friendship-wise would be… comedic

Age:eighteen

Ideas of a perfect date:That’s a tough one. I’d have to say April 25th. Because it’s not too hot, not too cold, all you need is a light jacket.

Life goal: to,,, survive?? meet my online friends,,, 

Piercings i want:I would love a nose piercing

Relationship status:single uwu

Favorite movie:Now You See Me (listen, it has a great cast AND it’s about magic what more could i ask for)

A fact about my life:I have six siblings

Phobia:the dark…. or as i said earlier, the fear of what’s hiding there

Middle name:Nicholas!

Height:5′

Are you a virgin?*cough* 

What’s your shoe size?i don’t even know at this point. just small

What’s your sexual orientation?I’m a trans guy and i’m panromantic

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?I have not smoked a cigarette, but i do drink and do weed occasionally

Someone you miss:Ethan

What’s one thing you regret?Coming out to my dad

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:Sean William McLoughlin

Favorite ice cream?Birthday cake

One insecurity:sometime it bugs me how short I actually am. only occasionally, but it does get to me

What my last text message says:“ok enough of this christmas party i wanna go home cunts” (sent by @cyanacity)

Have you ever taken a picture naked?Yea

Have you ever painted your room?yep, painted a tree on it and it was special paint so you could use chalk on it

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?Y e a p

Have you ever slept naked?Yeyeeyeyeye

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?Of course I have, who hasn’t??

Have you ever had a crush?Yes, a lot,,,,

Have you ever been dumped?Yea

Have you ever stole money from a friend?Yeah,,,, but I payed them back! cause i felt really bad

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?Yes I have, even went on a camping trip with them

Have you ever been in a fist fight?No, but i once slapped a bitch so hard that he fell down

Have you ever snuck out of your house?I almost did a few times as a kid but i never actually did it ftgyhuj

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?hhhhhhhyeah……

Have you ever been arrested?Nope! the law can’t hold me down though

Have you ever made out with a stranger?Nnnnope

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?no but i met up with someone of the same sex

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?Yes, many times because i am an A D U L T

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?i’ve never met my neighbors, so by process of elimination the answer is no

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?All the time babey

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?Yeeyeyeyeyeyeye

Have you ever seen someone die?I saw my dog die, if that counts

Have you ever been on a plane?Yes, i fly at least 6 times a year

Have you ever kissed a picture?Yes, who hasn’t

Have you ever slept in until 3?I actually did that today

Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?Yes

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?yesss, it’s a fun thing to do on a nice day

Have you ever made a snow angel?yeah, i used to make them all the time when i was a kid but it doesn’t snow much where i live now so, rip

Have you ever played dress up?hell yeah my dude

Have you ever cheated while playing a game?definitely, cause i suck at them so i have to at least make it seem like i’m good

Have you ever been lonely?All the time man, feelin it right now *whip*

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?I’ve fallen asleep at school maybe 3 times?

Have you ever been to a club?idk what you mean by club so no

Have you ever felt an earthquake?Nope! never have

Have you ever touched a snake?Yes i have, i love the danger noodles

Have you ever ran a red light?haha, no

Have you ever been suspended from school?Maybe??? when i was in elementary school

Have you ever had detention?I think so??? but it was like,,, lunch detention or somethin

Have you ever been in a car accident?Luckily, no. But i have been close.

Have you ever hated the way you look?oh hell yeah babey all the time

Have you ever witnessed a crime?Maybe, idk gyhnj

Have you ever pole danced?No but i want to

Have you ever been lost?i’m lost right now, i don’t who’s house i’m in

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?Ye! it was fun uwu

Have you ever felt like dying?ehhhh??? yeah

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?yeah..,.,.,.,.

Have you ever sang karaoke?i don’t think i have tbh, but i’ve seen people do it at a bar once

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?Yeah,,,, weed

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?No actually, surprisingly

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?nooopeee

Have you ever kissed in the rain?noep

Have you ever sang in the shower?every heckin time

Have you ever made out in a park?nope

Have you ever dream that you married someone?maybe

Have you ever glued your hand to something?I once accidentally superglued my hands together

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?No, but i have licked a few

Have you ever gone to school partially naked?nnoooo??? i don’t udnerstand this question gyusi

Have you ever been a cheerleader?No fuck that sorry

Have you ever sat on a roof top?Yes! it’s quite fun actually

Have you ever brushed your teeth?I sure hope so

Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?all the time sksksksk

Have you ever played chicken?I used to play it at the bus stop every day

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?i think it’s happened like 4 times probably

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?Yeah,,, it was w e i r d ???

Have you ever broken a bone?I’ve broken both my arms and my thumb

Have you ever been easily amused?I laughed at a picture of Mark with the quote ‘fuck’ once, so I would say yes

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?yes, especially when i’m on a voice call with my friends

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?nope, actually

Have you ever cheated on a test?hellyeea

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?I’m bad with names so it’s easy for me to forget them

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?Myself

Give us one thing about you that no one knows.my credit card info:6969 6969 6969 69684/20666@nachosforfree @xtracheesy

#long post #(o hes neat: emmit) #(im not the android: connor)

[bapswaffle]

August 26, 2019

Hi, I think I’ve met my dream boy. But it’s obviously not going to work lol.

Number one: I’m not even remotely independent enough.

Number two: I don’t think I’m ready for another relationship.

Number three: he’s honestly on a different wavelength. It’s actually crazy.

Number four: I’ve literally fell in love with the idea of him, but I know it’s not like that.

Number five: he’s too busy and obviously doesn’t have time for me.

That’s only a few bits of reasons why it’s probably not going to be fine. But bibble and I made a pros and cons. I just need him to leave my life. That’s it. I don’t think my tiny heart can handle the amount of want and the sadness waiting for me.

Going back into what happened on the little “hang out”

I’ve never been so excited to go hang out with someone. Like never have I ever been so scared and nervous to see someone.

Look, I know. I’m only going to get hurt. I don’t think I understand how much I like him I guess? I like him. Sureeeee but idk how much he likes me. He barely replies to me. And this is why I’m writing this. If he tells me it’s not working out, I knew it was too good to be true? I guess??? My oh well attitude I guess.

Oh yeah, going back to the little hang out hehe. So he picks me up and we sit there. Obviously I think I’m more into him then he is with me?? He said he was shyyyyyy. Okay cutee. Everything was honestly cute. So ok well I pecked his cheek first. LIKE OK . IDK IF THAT WAS TOO MUCH U KNOW. LIKE SKSKSK.

But he kissed my head 🥺 IM LIKE MAJOR UWU. AND HE HELD MY HAND. I’m 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

BUT LOOK. I’m not a pussy ass bitch LETTING MY HEART GET ROCKED BY A FEW KISSES AND HOLDING HANDS 😭 BUT NGL MY HEART IS GETTING ROCKED BACK AND FORTH.

I just don’t wanna EXPECT HIM TO TEXT ME AND THEN JUST HIM NOT TEXT ME BACK. idfk. I’m so upset. Idk if I wanna cry or not.

I just don’t know why I’m being like this :( like I reaaaaaaalllllly DON’T FUCKING KNOW. Like he’s doing all this shit for his famous Ig model friend 🥺 he’s such a nice guy. Like frl frl. I can’t bro. Maybe in a few years???? Idk I don’t think my tiny heart can be okay with all these beautiful girls around him :( IM A PUSSY ASS BITCCCCH. Ahhh :( he’s smoking tonight and wtf. He’s all cute n shit like “oh I’m shy too” AND HE HITS ME W ONE REPLIES 😭

THIS

Isn’t

IT

CHIEF

NOT

THE

MOVEEEEEEE

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Hello Sunny, I dont know if you’re taking requests but if you are could you do a continuation of reader being too scared to spend Nanami’s money and what he would do? Thank you so much!

Yeeeeeeeeesssssss, i would LOVE to continue this headcanon skskks

Listen baby

If you do not want to spend Nanami's money, the two of you are gonna have some problems sksksk

LEMME BACK UP A BIT

I firmly believe that Nanami would fall head over heels in love with a humble individual

He doesn't like ppl who expect everything to be given to them and who have never worked a day in their life

No, he falls and he falls HARD for the lovely individuals who are independent to a fault

Someone who insists on giving instead of receiving bc he works the same way

Someone who refuses to take handouts for whatever reason, who can't take other ppls money or gifts

He finds your kindness and refusal to accept gifts quite endearing, and it just makes him want to spoil you more

He's drawn to your independence and he's so desperate to take care of you

It starts off small: paying for dinners, tickets, etc, small things that add up quickly over time

He's very insistent on paying for these things, so if you refuse to let him pay, he will go out of his way to take care of you

Gives his credit card to the waiter at the beginning of the date so that you can't pay, buys tickets in advance instead of once you get there, purchasing gifts when you're too distracted to notice

It makes you so MAD! How dare he?! He shouldn't be spending his money on you 😡

You confront him about it, wagging your finger and scolding him for spending so much money on you, and in all honesty, it just makes him want to spoil you more

Proceeds to shower you with as many gifts as possible sksksk

He doesn't care how upset you get that he spends money, he's just so happy seeing your flustered expression when you open a sleek box and find a pearl necklace inside

You always refuse the gifts, saying that you don't need them and that you won't get anything out of them

"Okay," he mumbles, pulling out his wallet, fishing for his credit card before handing it to you. "Then go buy some things that will be useful to you."

WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNN, AINT NO WAY IN HELL IM TAKING YOUR CARD SIR, YOU BETTER PUT THAT SHIT BACK IN YOUR POCKET BEFORE I—

He cups your chin, forcing you to face him directly. His grip is gentle but firm, keeping you in place as he stares at you seriously.

"Darling. This is what you're going to do: you're going to take my card and go out shopping tomorrow. I don't care what you get as long as it makes you happy. If you don't spend at least $300 on yourself, I will go out myself and spend three times as much on things you may not even like."

"Kento, please—"

"Y/N, just do this for me, alright? I won't ask anything else of you: this is all I want. Please, be good for me and take the card." hhhhhhhhhhhhhh praise kink go brrrrrrrrrrr

FINE OK I'LL TAKE IT 😖👉👈

You reluctantly take the card and go out on a shopping spree the next day which is a NIGHTMARE like what're you gonna spend money on?? You can't even buy a soft pretzel without feeling guilty about spending his money 😭

You eventually hype yourself up enough to buy stuff that you think would be useful (an expensive chef's knife, a couple recipe books, some luxury bath products you've been wanting to try for a while). It always hurts when you swipe his card—you can feel that lump in your chest get heavier and heavier—but eventually you spend $300 and make your way home, emotionally exhausted

You trudge into the apartment with all your bags, Nanami coming to greet you and help you carry things in

He kisses you tenderly and holds you close and gives the gentlest smile

"So? What did my pretty baby get themself today?" 🥺💕

You go through all the items you bought, explaining why you chose them and how they would benefit you (and him) and he's just smiling softly while you hold up a pretty bath bomb that has flowers and glitter inside

He hugs you again and says how proud of you he is, how grateful he is to have you and how happy he is that he was able to buy these things for you

His sweet words make you all mushy and lovey-dovey bc why wouldn't they

"Now, I'd like you to go out tomorrow and spend $500 on yourself."

wat

no wait I thought this was gonna be it whaddya mean spend more money on myself

You try to convince him that you're fine and it's not a good idea, but he insists yall are so fuckin stubborn it aint even funny skskks

"This time, I want you to buy some clothes for yourself. I don't care about the price. I want you to go out and get yourself something pretty."

"Ken, please, this is too much—"

"Please darling, just once more for me. Let me take care of you one more day and I'll never bring it up again, I promise." grrrrrrrrrr why does he have such cute puppydog eyes 😖🤧

Long story short, you go out and buy yourself some clothes sksks

You get some practical things, like new gym shoes and socks and whatnot, but you also get some fancy shoes and this expensive outfit that made you feel so pretty 💕

And when you come home, Kento is there and he tells you to go get dressed in the outfit you bought

"I'm taking you to dinner, darling" PLEASE my HEART 🤧💕

Takes you to this fancy restaurant and the two of you have a three course meal and dessert and go for a walk in a nearby park and talk and it's so romantic just so disgustingly romantic you could cry

But the night is not over my love 👀

No, once the two of you get home, he practically pounces on you, pawing at your body

He's tugging at your clothes, ripping them in the process, desperate to get to you

You're sore the next morning, but it's all worth it remembering the pleasure you received the night before

"Morning, darling," Kento mumbles into your neck, hands smoothing over your skin. "Did you sleep well?"

"Mm-hm. Did you?"

"I slept like a baby. Although I feel apologetic about your clothes. I'm sorry for ruining them."

"It's okay, Ken. You didn't mean to."

He hums and kisses over your shoulder, pulling you closer

"It's alright, though. I'll get you a new outfit and plenty of others to make up for it." GOD DAMN IT—

#ask #nanami kento #suggestive #not really smutty #nanami kento x reader #gn reader #☀️ fics

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

i LOVE ur nanami x chubby reader contenttt ahhh i don't know if you take requests but por favor grace us with some more of your nanami x chubby reader content 🥺🥺

MEIN LIEBLING, MEIN SCHATZ, OF COURSE I WILL MAKE SOME MORE NANAMI X CHUBBY READER CONTENT FOR YOU ARE YOU KIDDING??? 🥺💕

No but i honestly get so excited when ppl ask for x chubby reader stuff bc we deserve love and attention too 😌💕 i may or may not have a Gojo x chubby reader thing in my drafts but you will have to be patient for that my little ducklings sksksk

OK lemme just word vomit a bit sksksk

Cw: chubby fem reader, fluff, smut, some body insecurity talk

Oh boy oh boy oh boy

Sweet sweet Nanami

Aka the biggest fucking simp for chubby ppl sksksk

Just so weak when it comes to his cute chubby darling

He's never seen someone as lovely as you and he doesn't think he'll see anyone lovelier

You are literally a goddess in his eyes and can do no wrong

The people around Nanami are honestly concerned at first that you're taking advantage of the overworked man bc they've never seen him bend over backwards for someone

But of course they get to know you and realize that you're wonderful and they're glad that you're such a good influence on him 😊

No but fr you've changed this man for the better

Before meeting you, he would work overtime more often just bc he didn't have any commitments or responsibilities besides his job so it's not the end of the world if he stays over an hour or so to do paperwork

But that all comes to an end once he meets you

The reason Nanami absolutely despises overtime is bc he wants to go back home to you as soon as possible

He wants to get back to you and hold you close and snuggle and kiss and just relax with his baby 🥺

Such an affectionate man jesus christ

He's a very reserved man so he doesn't express himself through words, he does it with actions

He doesn't know how to tell you he loves you with words tbh

So be prepared for lots of acts of service and physical touch and gift giving skskks

Im talking homemade meals, buying you anything that you show the slightest interest in, cuddling up to you whenever he can—

NO BUT HE LITERALLY HAS HIS HANDS ON YOU ALL THE TIME

I think i mentioned in my last ask that he's very handsy in general

BUT TBH??? YOUR BODY IS SO TEMPTING THAT HE CAN'T HELP BUT GET THE URGE TO TOUCH EVERY INCH OF YOU IN PRIVATE

Literally everything looks good on you

He sees you walk into the room and he's breathless every 👏 single 👏 time 👏

Sundress?? Adorable, delicious, angelic

Lingerie? Seductive, exquisite, mouthwatering

Shit, this guy could get hard from seeing you in a baggy sweatshirt and sweatpants

Just an absolute heathen when it comes to you

His favorite outfit on you tho is an oversized t-shirt (a very soft cotton one that Nanami bought special bc he wanted you to steal his clothes and wear them 🥺💕), boxer briefs (also something he bought and wore a couple times just so u could steal it) and THIGH HIGH SOCKS

You just look hnnnnnnggggg SO GOOD IN THAT KIND OF OUTFIT god he's such a whore for you sksksksk

He loves how the shirt hangs off your soft shoulders, your neck on display for him, how the briefs ride up your thighs and hug them deliciously, making your ass look FANTASTIC, jesus don't even get him started on the socks—

The first time he saw you in that outfit was after he came home after a long and grueling workday

The minute he walked into the living room and saw you draped over the couch in that innocently seductive outfit, lying on your stomach, your ass shaped perfectly, looking over your shoulder at him, giving him that sweet smile of yours?

Bby all restraint flew out the window sksksk

He fucked you over the couch for the entire night I'm not fucking kidding like he was railing you for hours, it was one of the best nights of his life and he remembers it fondly

Nah fr thigh high socks, stockings, pantyhose, etc are his KRYPTONITE

The way they squeeze your supple thighs has him drooling like a goddamn mutt jesus he's so weak for you it's not even funny

He just wants to grab a handful of each thigh and squeeze, leaving bruises while he eats your pretty chubby pussy until you cry 💕

Absolutely obsessed with the way clothing hugs your body

He would never tell you what to wear bc he wants you to wear clothing that makes you comfortable, but he won't deny that he fucking loves when you wear tight-fitted outfits

He loves seeing the way your tits and arms and belly and thighs squish against the material, on the verge of bursting through the fabric of your dress/shirt/pants/etc

Oh lord it makes him so hard

Anything with elastic bands that squeeze your body have him sweating like he just imagines his hands there instead and how soft you would feel and how you would moan and suddenly he's dragging you home to fuck you sksksk

Ok but do you wanna know the outfit that makes him feel like a goddamn king?? The outfit that has him convinced that you're a literal goddess that came down from the heavens to bless him with your presence??

This robe (any color you like) with a matching chemise (something simple, with a lace trim)

It is, without a doubt, the most enticing outfit you could ever wear

You got it for your first anniversary (with your OWN MONEY, which Nanami rarely let's you do, but you kept it a surprise so he wouldn't know)

He found you in the bedroom wearing that and he gasped, putting his hand over his heart like mans thought he had died and gone to heaven istg

Lowkey if you ever need to convince Ken to do something, just walk around the house in this fit and you'll sway his thinking in 5 minutes tops skskks

He sees that robe swish out of the corner of his eye and he's already semi hard

You just look so elegant and gorgeous and delicate and sexy jesus christ how do you look so good???

This outfit truly makes Kento feel blessed 💕

How did he get so lucky as to find a curvaceous beauty like you?

Nanami will gladly crawl to you on his knees and kiss your feet when he sees you wearing this

You are truly perfect in his eyes and he will dedicate the rest of his life worshipping you if that's what you wish

SPEAKING OF WORSHIPPING

Our sweet Nanami Kento is the KING of body worship

He just loves running his hands all over your plush body, kissing and squeezing every inch of you, reminding you how incredible you are

If you are ever insecure about a part of your body, you won't be after fucking Nanami sksksk

If he ever learns about your body insecurities, he will hyperfixate on that body part and lavish you with attention

Dont like your stretchmarks? He'll lick ever stripe along your skin until you admit that they're stunning

Not a fan of your pudgy bits? He's going to squeeze those parts more often, hands lingering, lips trailing along your plush flesh as he kisses your chubby flesh

Don't like how your tummy pokes out? Baby, what are you even worried about, he's a foodie so of course he's gonna love your muffin top sksksk

Look hun, idk what to tell you!! He's just so in love with you and he thinks you're the most gorgeous woman on the planet and all he wants is to wife you up and treat you like a queen for the rest of your lives

Ok lemme take a break from the smut and talk fluff skskks

He's such a cuddlebug :3

AND YOU'RE HIS PERFECT LITTLE TEDDY BEAR 🥺💕

You're soft and squishy and warm and he loves holding you 💕

Prefers having you draped over him when you cuddle bc he likes how your body feels on top of him

Like the weight is lowkey comforting and soothing

This is super embarrassing for him to admit but if the two of you have to spend time apart for a few days, he has to put a weighted blanket on his chest so he can fall asleep

He's just so used to his precious chubby baby laying on him each night that he can't sleep without your body on his 🥺

Lowkey puts his weighted blanket in the dryer for a bit so it feels more like a person and tricks his body into thinking you're there with him

He gets so grumpy when he can't cuddle you

Like if he comes home after a long work day and you're not there for some reason, he gets so upset

Literally POUTS. Like a goddamn CHILD

Wont stop pouting until you get home and straddle his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck and snuggling close

Even then it'll take at least an hour of cuddling before he's happy again jesus fucking christ, he's a child a literal baby you're dating a fucking 5 year old—

Nanami will never admit this out loud (bc he thinks he'll sound creepy), but he loves watching you eat

He tries not to stare when his home cooked meals slip past your lips and into your mouth, but he cant help but watch

You're his baby? And you like food, his food?? You're all his forever and ever?

He's such a fuckin sap yall sksksk

Ok but speaking of food: this man is dying to taste your cooking

You could be the worst cook in the world but he will gobble up your meal and go for seconds and thirds

Why?? Bc you're his darling dearest, his big and beautiful girl and he'll be damned if he doesn't get to eat the love of his life's cooking

He doesn't mind cooking alone, but he prefers when you help him

He appreciates the help and having a pretty chubby beauty at his beck and call isn't so bad either

If you come up behind him while he's cooking, wrap your arms around his body and rest your face against his back, he will melt

He has to pause whatever he's doing to turn around and hug and kiss you

"Have I ever told you how wonderful you are, darling?"

"You told me that an hour ago, Ken."

"Well, I'm telling you again because it's true and you should know."

Favorite thing to do is cup your chubby cheeks and squish your face before he leans in for a kiss jesus he's such a goober

Ok so Nanami has been theorizing why he loves your body type more than others bc he doesn't know when this started

He's got a lot of guesses

Obviously, you're super soft and warm and delightful, but that's not all of it

He thinks that when he looks at you, his brain goes "they're big ➡️ they eat more than other people ➡️ they are well fed and love food"

Now, in reality those thoughts may not be true, but his little monkey brain goes through that process the first time he meets you

Tbh he cant explain it, he just sees you and thinks you love food as much as him and that makes him so happy bc he can actually see that you love food

Like its not like you're skinny and everyone thinks you eat salads and workout all the time but really you eat junk food and are lazy

No it's the fact that your size tells ppl "hey, I'm a big girl, i like food and im not afraid to show it, and at the end of the day im perfect and your opinion means jack shit to me"

And he loves that

He wants you to unabashedly say that you love food and tell the world to fuck off bc that's how he feels

Like we all know he's a foodie and he just wants someone to share his love of food with somebody, and having a partner that doesn't let their weight stop them from enjoying themselves and eating food they like??

It makes him overjoyed

He also likes your body bc you seem sturdier than other women

He has nothing against thin women, not by a long shot, but he sees their thin wrists and their thigh gaps and their collarbones and all he can think is "if i touch this girl she may very well break in half"

You, on the other hand, are plush and cushioned and give him plenty to grab and he doesn't have to hold back his strength when he interacts with you

Like the first time yall had sex he went super gentle at first bc he was still worried about hurting you

He legit thought that it would be too much for you even if he held back his strength

But then you begged him to fuck you harder and he realized that he can relax with you and be who he naturally is like he doesn't have to stifle parts of himself to accommodate you and that's v comforting to him

He always feels guilty when your body is sore and you're covered in dark marks, but he's more satisfied than anything

Like seriously this dude fucked you so hard that the neighbors down the hall could hear your headboard hitting the wall, and yet you still smiled at him afterwards and opened your legs for round two

He's able to let loose with you which he's never really been able to do before and he's very grateful that you let him unwind like that

He likes picking you up and having your limbs wrap around him and being able to hold onto your thighs and ass as he keeps you up

It's v normal for him to come home and hold his arms out for you, waiting for you to come to him and jump so he can hold onto you

You were nervous to do it at first but this guy could lift a car if he really wanted to so dont even sweat it babe, you are NOT too heavy for him

Whenever you talk about being insecure about your body, his face screws up and he just looks so appalled that you would ever see yourself as anything but perfect

He legitimately does not understand that you could be insecure about your body bc he would gladly live between your thighs if thats what you really wanted so what are you even concerned about???

Doesn't really like PDA in public but sometimes he can't help but palm your ass for a second before his arm goes around your waist its your fault for looking so good in those jeans 🙄

He's obsessed with kissing you

Doesn't have to lead to anything more! He just loves those plump soft lips against his as his hands smooth over your plush frame

He would do anything to feel those lips on other parts of his body (his cheek, his neck, his chest, his thighs, his co—)

Tl;dr Nanami Kento is the biggest simp on the planet for his pretty chubby girlfriend/soon to be wife 💕

#ask #nanami kento #smut #fluff #chubby reader #fem reader #i feel like i just word vomited tbh sksksk #idek if this is good but i hope yall enjoy #im going to bed now sksksk #☀️ asks

[benhardyisdaddy]

Snowed In

MASTERLIST

(OMG HELLO AGAIN this is my new fic that a lovely anon gave me the idea for!! i wish i knew who u were and i’d tag u!! this chapter is prob really short so im sorry, i was just testing the waters a bit and getting the ball rolling, i have so many ideas for this sksksks ALSO this gif is what i imagine outside to look like ALSO ALSO u will get a whole bunch of borhap boy content unlike my last stories so YAS ok ily BYEEE)

BenxReader 

Word Count: 1,171

“This will be the worst winter storm in fifteen years. So if you’re not stocked up on water and food, the next few hours might be your only chance.”

You turn down the volume of your TV and lean back against your couch. You slowly sip your hot tea as you glance over to your refrigerator. Thank heavens that you went grocery shopping last night and stocked up on anything and everything. You mentally thank your friend Jess for reminding you to do so. You look back to the TV and watch as a news reporter is knee deep in snow. This is the worst winter storm America has had in fifteen years they said.

BZZ

You jump and look around. Your power had quickly shut off and came back on. Great. So a bad snow storm, possibly no power and you’re by yourself. Do not freak out, do not freak out. You finish your cup of tea as you make your way into the kitchen.You place it in the sink and walk to your back patios sliding glass door. You look out and watch as the night sky turns black and tiny white snowflakes spit around in every direction. The snow was already almost piling against your door. You place your hand on the glass and feel the coolness seeping through just as your home phone rings. You jump back startled and spin around. You hurry to your kitchen and look at the number. You didn’t recognize it and hesitated to not answer it, but you do.

“Hello?”

The other line was loud with voices as someone on an intercom started speaking.

“Hello?” you ask again.

“Y/n!” said a familiar voice.

Your eyebrows shoot up and you smile widely.

“Joe! Oh my gosh, how are you?”

He lightly laughs and makes a noise of disappointment.

“Been better.” is all he says.

You walk over and sit down, resting your elbows on your kitchen island.

“What’s wrong?” you ask, worried. “And where are you? It’s so loud!”

He laughs again and pulls the phone away to talk to someone.

“So listen,” he starts. “I’m at the airport. Your airport. We were suppose to leave tonight for a press tour, but all of the flights have been canceled.”

“The hotels! Tell her about the hotels!” someones whispers.

“I was getting there!”

You cover your mouth to mask your giggling.

“And the hotels,” he says dramatically. “Are all booked up. So I was wondering…”

You smile and nod your head. You know exactly what he’s wondering.

“Joe, you know you all are welcome to my home anytime! Especially during these circumstances.”

Joe holds the phone away and excitedly whispers ‘she said yes’ to someone. You hear a few cheers and look around your home. You needed to straighten it up. And most importantly, you needed to straighten yourself up.

“Thank you, thank you, y/n! I owe you one! I promise we won’t make you pull your hair out.”

You laugh loudly and walk over to sit on your sofa.

“And who exactly is ‘we’?” you ask.

“Oh, let’s see. There’s me, Lucy, Rami, Gwil, and of course, Benjamin.”

Ben. 

You exhale and close your eyes. Of course Ben was with them, he is in the movie too. You’re not sure why you’re so surprised that he would be there, but you are. You and Ben have a weird friendship. Okay, weird is an understatement. You liked each other, but you didn’t. In fact, you were pretty certain he hated you. Why? You have no idea. When the two of you met you had been dating a guy named Conner. Every time you were around with him, you could’ve sworn you hinted at some jealousy on Ben’s part. But even after Conner was out of the picture, Ben still acted that way, so that’s how you came to the conclusion that he just simply disliked you. It was the oddest friendship you’ve ever had. Almost frenemies.

“Y/n? Is that okay? Because if it’s about Ben-”

You shake your head fast.

“No, no, no! Joe, that’s so fine! You all are always welcome to stay here! Just, I only have two bedrooms and a tiny attic.” you say, biting your lip.

“The couch is big, yeah? That should be so fine! Here, we’ll hopefully be there in a few hours and we’ll deal with all of that then, okay?” he asks.

You smile and stand up from the couch.

“Okay, deal.”

The two of you quickly hang up and you rush to start cleaning. You straighten up the couch, pick up all the clothes in your room and bathroom and throw them in the wash. You put all the dishes in the dishwasher, straighten up your second bathroom, make sure all the beds are made. You grab out towels and lie them in each bathroom, knowing that someone would want a hot shower. 

Shower. You grab a burgundy sweater out of your closet and a pair of white sleep shorts and place them in your bathroom. You undress and quickly jump into your shower. The hot water cascades over you and you sigh in relief. You finish and jump out to towel dry. You quickly change into your clothes and find a pair of socks. Your feet were always cold, no matter what. Especially now that it’s below freezing. You hate this weather.

You walk up to your fireplace and watch as the flames inside grow. You listen to the crackling of the wood and close your eyes at its peacefulness. The fireplace was directly in front of your couch as your TV hangs above it. It was the main reason why you bought this house. You smile and walk over to the corner of the room and grab another log from the stack and throw it in. It roars to life and you can feel the heat radiate out. You walk in your kitchen and decide on making a pot of coffee. You poor in the water and grab the coffee can. You inhale the delicious scent and scoop some into the machine. Just as you were pressing the start button, a loud knock fills the air. You turn to face your front door and gasp startled.

You rush up to it and look out the peephole. Joe is staring right back. It hasn’t even been two hours yet. You were slightly shocked. You smile and quickly unlock it. You swing it open and he grins.

“Y/n!” he says, dropping his bags to engulf you into a hug. You squeal as he slightly lifts you off the ground. You hug him back hard as he makes a silly deep groaning noise and you can’t help but laugh.

“Can we move this inside, please? My nuts are nearly frozen out here.”

Joe puts you down and steps away. He looks at you and rolls his eyes dramatically. You look over his shoulder and sure enough, it’s the one

and only

Ben.

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