#on chapter 39 now!!!

[amethystina]

I fucking did it again

And by "it" I mean opening a document in my "Yo Han's POV" folder of Who Holds the Devil and stumbling over a section I'd forgotten I'd written (or blocked out, more likely). So, for your enjoyment in these trying post-chapter 39 times:

"Sometimes, Yo Han wondered what that must feel like — to be loved so fiercely and wholeheartedly by someone else. Especially someone like Ga On, whose emotions were as wild and unstoppable as they were genuine. He couldn't seem to curb them even if he tried.

It must be breathtaking to be loved by someone like him.

And, blinded by his own idiocy, Yo Han had allowed himself to hope. For a little while, he'd honestly thought he had a chance — that he might get to find out what that would be like. That, just maybe, the emotions he saw flashing past in Ga On's eyes meant something.

He should have known better."

#Amethystina Writes #But DEAR LORD does she wish she wasn't #Who Holds the Devil #The Gentle Light #Tbh I haven't written anything since I posted chapter 39 #But I was hoping to maybe convince myself to try by opening up some documents and reading through my notes #But then got this thrown in my face #And now I have regrets x'D #This was NOT a part of the plan #And I even gave the document a title this time #A quote from Faust #And it fucking wrecked me when I saw it #'Poor devil what can you give?' #I'm clearly going for the jugular

[everyryuujisuguro]

#ryuuji suguro #ryuji suguro #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #suguro ryuuji #bon suguro #suguro ryuji #manga ryuuji #cram school #rin okumura #renzou shima #konekomaru miwa #kyoto trio #chapter 39 #it took me ages but i've reached the anime chapters now that it's about to finish xD

[emtheoddball]

Matthias: Where are you going?

Nina: To get MYSELF a gift "cause somebody didn't get me one!

Matthias: I am getting you one! It's coming here on Friday!

Inej, knowing full well that Matthias got Nina an engagement ring: *eating popcorn*

#this is cannon now #chapter 39 and 40 of CK didn’t happen #I love helnik🫶 #six of crows #six of crows textpost #incorrect six of crows #matthias helvar #nina zenik #helnik #helnik my beloved #inej ghafa #inej my queen #Nina Zenik my Queen #the MOTHER Nina zenik #incorrect quotes #soc

[ja3hwa]

Acotar spoliers! HOW TF are people liking Rhysand when he drugging and humiliating Feyre in front of a bunch of people.... nah, I'm still on Tams' side...😕

#acotar #sarah j maas #bookblr #I've only just gotten up to poor feyre being dressed in that white cloth of a dress so tf is going on with this chapter... #it's like one big drug trip #I'm on chapter 39 page 354 right now #rhysand #tamlin

[kiaxet]

Raph sniffs again and leans into the touch, trying to put his finger on why Pops’ words hit wrong. He’s…he’s supposed to be better, isn’t he? His brothers all got hurt when he was supposed to be protecting them (nevermind that the Krang were an overpowering, nearly invincible enemy). He nearly killed Leo himself (nevermind that he’d gotten captured making sure Leo was safe, and that he’d do it again to keep his brother - all of his brothers - out of the Krang’s clutches). They’d nearly lost Leo for good (nevermind that the sacrifice play was the only one left and Leo was the only one left to make it, as Raph was doing his best to keep Mikey and Donnie alive). He couldn’t solve any of the big problems and it was a miracle they all survived, and now he can’t even solve the stupid little problems-

“I’m s’posed to be helping,” is what he manages, in a voice so small and tired it takes him by surprise.

LAY ME DOWN IS DONE, Y'ALL, and nobody is more surprised than me 8D Final chapter is up and ready to read! In which trying to be everything to everyone takes its toll and Raph finally has a little collapse of his own. Good thing Splinter's around to help.

Thanks again to everyone who's read and supported the fic, and a huge thanks to @dandylovesturtles for the beta work (and for listening to me lose my mind over ongoing writer's block)! I legit would not have finished this without you.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise raph #rise raphael #rottmnt raph #rottmnt raphael #writing #fic: lay me down #NOW WITH THE ACTUAL LINK #we do have fun here #next is the half chapter that's formulated for Site 39 #and Lethal Measures will continue when I can jumpstart my brain #so probably after July??? life's crazy y'all #legit though thank you all for reading

[intomybubble]

Niiiice

I found a childhood friends to lovers (15 years since they last saw each other) and they both grew up equally hot

The title is My Childhood Friend That I Reunited With After a Long Time Became a Tiddy Monster and I appreciate that it applies to both parties in the relationship

#desiree talks #desiree reads #now #how long will it take for them to get together #there’s only 39 chapters translated but each chapter is like 4 pages so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #lets hope for the best

[pocketramblr]

WHAT

#chapter 39 and uh. WHAT #WHAT DO YOU MEAN #IT'S BEEN HIM THE WHOLE TIME #I'LL BE HONEST I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS EL. BUT SIGZIL WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN WITHIN THE FIRST FIFTY PEOPLE I GUESSED WOULD BE ZELLION #GET RID OF THE MEMES #FREE MY MAN HE DIDN'T DO ANY OF THAT #other things. wow. so many other things. I'm so scared for the next six books. but he didn't do those memes ahhhHHHHHH #I'm on lunch break and need to actually eat now #but yeah. #sigzil was just like 'can you give me a moment to process this' and I'm like ME TOO BUDDY #CAN YOU GIVE ME A MOMENT TOO #sigzellion....... i....... what.......... #sp spoilers #secret project spoilers #secret project 4 spoilers #the sunlit man spoilers

[seeyouafter]

Names are important.

(What you call stuff matters.)

#ch 40 of sya is now posted #it's a tiny chapter compared to ch 39 but i think it says a lot #it's a double-chapter weekend though so that's something to look forward to #sya: bridges #see you after fic #dancing girl writes

[kyouka-supremacy]

Hi! I just wanted to say I rly love your blog and your takes!! I don’t really considered myself someone who is particularly good at analysis or finding themes or anything, but one thing I’ve sort of maybe noticed w/ bsd (that idek if it’s intentional or if it’s just me or if it’s something people knew about already and I’m just insanely late to the party)

but I think there’s sort of an undercurrent about coping with the fact that your abuser actually taught you something good, (or at least tried to do something good for you) and dealing with the complicated feelings with that? Or at least coming to the realization that the people who hurt you were equally hurt (obviously ik the cycle of violence theme + the idea of grey morality are both talked about a lot in bsd) but I was thinking back to the reveal w/ the headmaster, with the whole port mafia mori -> dazai-> akutagawa -> kyouka(?) deal, and now with aya and her father? Like how do you exist knowing that someone made your life hell taught you something to save the life of someone else? Idk! This is insanely bare bones and superficial but I just wanted to get it off my chest because it feels like the first coherent thought I’ve had since ever lol! Hope you have a good day (and sorry this got so long)

Hello, thank you for your kind words, they warm my heart!!

I can see what you say, having to deal with the good abuse caused is definitely something bsd explores, more or less sensitively. It's embodied in the way Dazai says to Atsushi “you were in hell... And hell raised you right” after the orphanage director died. In ultimate analysis, it all leads back to bsd's grey morality view: nobody in bsd is entirely good or entirely bad, and that shows in how it's a series filled with good people doing bad things and evil people doing good things.

#Sorry if I have nothing else to add right now /// #A lot of chapter 39 discussion recently ahah #I really wish I could have been there to see peoples' immediate reactions to it when it first dropped #bsd #people asks me stuff

[hourly-yugi]

#I SUMMON EXODIAAAA #kaibas done for now huh #yu gi oh #yugioh #exodia #yami yuugi #yami yugi #volume 5 chapter 39

[blazingblorbos]

What the hell do you mean Su Honkai Impact 3rd genderbent is just Rita with extra steps.

#this is out of context Honkai spoilers #Chapter 39 spoilers #honkai Chapter 39 spoilers #it's spoilers but for Part 1 #I only just finished part 1 last night; haven't seen 2 or 3 yet #She gives me Rita vibes in like SO many different ways it’s actually terrifying #SPECIFICALLY FALLEN ROSEMARY #like ofc I saw her and like most thought “Su????” #but actually hearing her in game Su is now lowkey the farthest out my mind.. #the link is an official twitter post btw #I'd elaborate but alas.. 1) spoilers and 2) I haven't finished the story yet anyway #I hate it (/lh; I love it) when they post fanart with questionably canonical captions #like wdym this is the way they ““confirm”” the relationship between Su and Vita

[amethystina]

So I just happened to glance at the tags on Who Holds the Devil today

And, not going to lie, the "Fix-It" one made me go:

"... and what exactly have you fixed so far?"

The answer, obviously, is nothing. I have fixed absolutely nothing. Sometimes I feel like I've just given them new problems to deal with x'D

#Amethystina Writes #Who Holds the Devil #Admittedly #This might be because I'm currently editing chapter 39 #And it's a little rough to say the least #Especially since it's over 16k right now #Which I know you all will probably love #But is exhausting as all hell for me to edit #Not at all helped by the now medically confirmed impending burnout #So yeah #Let's see who breaks first #Me or the chapter

[desitenya]

like we make fun of kuusuke for watching too much anime but kusuo literally pulled one of goku’s moves trying to dispel riki sr

#ch 39 #he does street fighter poses in chapter covers too #honestly im going to imagine the kusuo/kuriko fight like that from now on #goose honks

[imdatbluegirl]

Yall, no.

man this shit making me Cry. Real Tears. real ones.

i cant. why? just why?

this shit so sad. like, no.

Nah, this shit didn't happen. im denying it. they all lived happily ever after The End. they get to be Happy.

Dear God please tell me they get to be happy? Right??

they cant die, 'cause of the POV rule, (you know what I'm talking about) so they Cant Die but like, there are worse fates than death?? so like this doesn't make me feel any better???

#zeppazariel you monster #chapter 39 of cr #this shit so sad despacito can't even save it #imma go sob on the bathroom floor now #why would you do this to me? #i have a horrible feeling its all going to get much worse from here #crimson rivers #why did i do this

[m34gs]

Me: so this multi-chapter Kalim/Idia fic will only be 3 chapters

My brain: think again

Me: ...so this multi-chapter Kalim/Idia fic will only be 4 chapters

My brain: Nah.

Me: ...5 chapters? *sweating*

My brain: come now, are we really playing this game?

Me: ...

My brain: It will be. Seven Chapters.

#writer #writer problems #fic writer #twisted wonderland #kalim/idia #why does my brain insist on long plots #*crying* #it's all for the boys #it'll be angsty as heck too #At least I'm not doing like I did for my one (still) ongoing BNHA fic... #39 chapters is more than I can chew for Twisted Wonderland right now; at least in terms of writing fic. lol

[lost-in-trans-mission]

#writing #meme #do I need to say more? #It is now at 7/39 chapter #I am getting there #slowly #I only finished Ch6 yesterday lol #I slent most of today working on this bometh of a chapter #it's 5300 words and 11 pages long guys #AND I need to write another chapter because it was going to be even longer #I had to add another chapter in #it was 38 now it's 39 #help me