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[cozymochi]

i used to not mind babies crying all that much, cuz yknow. Its a baby they cry, whatever. but after a good year of the neighbors always bringing their baby outside to wail for sometimes hours at a time, im just

#cozy texts #personal/ #maybe the baby wouldnt cry so much if y’all also didnt smoke in their face at the same time idk #LMFAO THIS IS SUCH A HIGH SCHOLL TYPE OF POST TO MAKE but godddd

[tokiro07]

Negative

Pretty quickly got up in my own head about making that post

Is ten years too long to mourn the loss of a friendship?

Should I be over it by now?

If they saw me still pining, what would they think of me?

Would they think I'm pathetic? Would they think I'm a creep?

Which would be worse? For them to think I'm a loser who can't get over someone that's probably near unrecognizable by now, or for them to think I'm obsessed with them?

Would it be worse to be looked at with pity or scorn?

And am I a bad friend for thinking they would look at me like that?

I guess that's the part I can't get over. In my eyes, I never stopped being their friend, they stopped being mine, and I just wish I had the opportunity to talk it out with them. If we found out we were just too incompatible or that too much damage had been done, so be it, I just wish we could find that out from a heart-to-heart rather than a spur-of-the-moment decision

#personal/ #negative/ #evidently read mores need something before them

[kadzhi]

its so weird and awful my mom just isnt here anymore. i keep wanting to go into her room to check on her or talk to her and i just cant and never will again. why couldnt i just have had another day or two?

#personal/

[thotpuppy]

oh cool one of my favorite blogs liked one of my posts! i wonder which one-

...................

o k a y

#personal/

[devils-minion]

just a mentally ill fag on ao3, growling at the tags, because people had the audacity to have Horrible takes on his favorite characters (again)

#its me #im the mentally ill fag #if i could roll my eyes any harder i would #part of me wishes i could actually u know Talk to other people and Interact wjth the fandom cuz im so lonely!!! #but then i see some of the shit people think oe the way they see the characters and u know what #nah #im fine #ill juat keep myself company #personal/ #kind of? not really #the ghost speaks

[emmiri-bumble]

Did I almost cry while explaining to the intro to animation class why I decided to pursue animation as a career? Yes.

Was I the only one there whose story was "I was a hurt lonely kid who made whole worlds in my head and now I want to give these worlds to new hurt and lonely kids so they can live happier?" No. And I think that's beautiful despite the circumstances.

#the best line was like #“i was alone. so i made these big beautiful universes in my head. and i thought it would be a shame if they died with me” #that was beautiful really beautiful #personal/ #the journey to this point was paved in a lot of pain and grief. a lot. and im still hurt. but i live to make.

[baladric]

today on “how much pain is this guy in,” i present to you three joints on the right side of my body in braces while i wish for a feasible way to add a fourth in the form of literally any kind of hip support, as well as a wild desire to not live in a house with stairs so i can wrap the left knee, too

#i need like. a big bolster pillow #to put under my knees #bc idk what else to do with anything #ehlers danlos problems #personal/

[pixeljade]

God this prof I hate just revealed that she's an art appraiser which explains SO MUCH, she's so obsessed with money and value and whats 'real' in art. Most boring prof ever

#personal/ #she just never shuts up about shit I care precisely nothing about

[cozymochi]

Not sure if I actually hate my art, or if I just resent tf out of it thanks to these 60+ hour work weeks boiling my brain to the point where drawing at all has become something of a luxury I can’t even afford to make any meaningful time for. And even then, if I did, it probably wouldn’t be worth the effort at the end of the day. The more I think about what drawing is, the less worth it it gets. It’s essentially spending hours making a picture people will look at for half a second, then because it’s more about content farms these days, gets a little wordless “yeah i def saw this” tap, then immediately forgotten about.

Which also sucks given I have 6 priorities still on the table and keeping anyone waiting just makes me uneasy.

#cozy texts #personal/ #I really can’t tell anymore. #i genuinely TRY in my few hours of free time but it just never goes anywhere. #well hours is generous its more like minutes. the hours have to be spent elsewhere.

[cinnasaur]

man... i feel really lost. what.. happened? on top of struggling to cope with this breakup i haven't really had anyone else to talk to or spend time with for. longer than i want to think about, and it's all really doing something to my brain.

it's hard to feel like i'm really worth anyone's time when i'm so sad and stressed out, but i know i can't be entertaining mindsets like this!!! i feel like i'm gonna fade into the void and forget how to interact with people at all if i don't at least try,.

but like. how did i even end up here? how did i mess up so bad. why did this entire year happen at all. all i wanted was to not have to be alone... maybe i just have to face this on my own anyway.

i am So tired

#negative/ #personal/ #venting sorry #losing my mind a little and don't really have a great outlet right now

[allsadnshit]

Roasted chicken, ginger, daikon, shiitake mushroom soup with lime, cilantro, broccoli sprouts, and rice noodles

#personal #recipe

[tothechaos]

this is what every tiktok screenshot looks like to me

#its always a persons face and its always cropped to be like. just their eyes. its so fuckin weird #1k #5k #10k #25k #50k #100k

[girlstressed]

can’t stop smiling in inappropriate situations

#personal #ITS A REFLEX IDK WHY I USED TO HAVE A RBF AND NOW I HAVE A RESTING SMILING FACE???

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

#bpd blog #bpd fp #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd shit #bpd stuff #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd #borderline pd #borderline things #borderline problems #living with borderline #borderline blog #borderline thoughts #being borderline #borderline culture is #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd feels #bpd safe #bpd culture is

[emmiri-bumble]

I do feed bad about getting into Hiveswap while the interest is waning. There's a lot i wanna do n say rn but i don't know how to start a discussion and I'm still recovering from fear of being online from a very hard incident. so i just am very scared of trying and being hurt.

But i wanna do something. Because i like making for people! That's part of the reason I'm trying to draw every grub so hard.

It would be cool to do art and writing for a lil fan game or smthn. Or just indulge in everyone's ocs or have a funny fake ship competition for funnies or be in a discord server or something.

Idunno! Idunno at all.

I'm just glad that i can forgive the anger i had for the comic. (Long story.) And it matters a heck of a lot already that i can be closer to my best friend because of it.

#vent // #i guess its a vent// #personal/ #props to the tintin fanfom amd det not fandoms for always being fun

[baladric]

i realized that i’ve finally deprogrammed the cursed part of my brain that insisted i can’t wear my contacts without a full face of makeup, so i went looking for blue light glasses at the drug store so i can wear contacts and not be getting more of the Bad Light™. and the only ones they had were readers, so i was like “idk +1.25 can’t be bad for me probably” and got them, and i’ve been using them since last night and im like..... Oh. Sure Should’ve Had Bifocals The Whole Time, Huh.

#don't have to squint to read anything??? Wild #personal/