#probably bc of my ex!

[girlwithfish]

this is wild i told him ive been depressed latelg and low motivation cuz he asked how i am and he said he feels like hes influencing me and i said how so and he said that hes making me upset or is a part of the cause like girl why do. uthink that

#im confused and just gonna ask why again #like idk hes not the reason im depressed but ig hes not helping either but i also dont want him to be the only reason im happy too #but i also feel a relationship should make u a little happy especially so early on😐 #Ima probably just say i feel were distant and i dont feel like he shows hes as into me anymore i guess.. idk #im like terrified of saying someone else is making me feel negatively its like conditioned in me to try to minimize how i feel #and protect them or else ill feel super guilty and its more to protect myself its like a conditioned response in me #probably bc of my ex! #but idk i dont have anything to lose really #ill talk to him abt it later 😐

[static-radio-ao3]

@jegulus-microfic // february 7 // prompt: star // words: 1,416 // cw: referenced sexual content // part 1 + part 3

“So let me get this straight,” Barty says, pacing in front of the couch where Regulus is sitting with his back straight and his hands tucked between his knees. “You sucked off your ex in the bathroom, picked a fight with him because he wanted to return the favor, ended up hooking up with him and staying the night, and now you’re telling me he texted you?”

Barty ticked off every point he made, a full five fingers now held up in front of Regulus' face. Five offenses. Regulus fights to maintain eye contact but his resolve crumbles under Barty's unyielding stare. Barty Crouch Junior, a force of nature. If only he'd use his powers for good.

“That would be correct,” Regulus says after a moment of silence.

“And his name in your phone is do not fucking respond.”

“That would also be correct.”

“And what did you do?”

“I responded.” Regulus at least has the decency to hang his head in shame. He remembers how long it took his friends to piece him back together in the aftermath of Hurricane James.

Barty sighs, bone-deep and long-suffering. He pinches the bridge of his nose before dropping his hand and turning to face Regulus again. “Follow-up question: were you dropped on your head as an infant?”

Regulus perks up at that, because “Well—”

“Don’t answer that,” Barty says, voice clipped. “God, Regulus. Gold star for being a fucking idiot.”

“In my defense,” Regulus starts. He doesn't continue though. Lets the silence stretch until there is no give anymore. Barty cocks an impatient eyebrow. “He looked really good,” Regulus finishes lamely. A red flush crawls up his neck and Regulus is sure it makes the mottled bites and bruises on his skin stand out even more.

Barty stops pacing to shoot Regulus an incredulous look. “That’s such a bad excuse? He always looks good? If you’re gonna be dropping to your knees as soon as he's within a two-mile radius, just— don’t.”

“But—”

And really, Regulus isn’t sure why he’s about to argue. He absolutely should be kept away from James at all times and he’d been so good at it for a while, but then. Well. Before he gets a chance to argue though, Barty cuts him off again.

“Don't make me call Pandora. She will bring the list.”

That does shut Regulus up. A huge file with an annotated bibliography and an itemized list of why Regulus should stay away from James. They had used it against him before and it worked every time. This time though, he didn’t want his weaknesses pointed out to him just yet.

“Fine. I won't talk to James anymore.”

---

“And then you have the fucking audacity to text me?” Regulus asks, incredulity bleeding into his voice. James seems unbothered by it though, hip cocked against the kitchen counter and arms crossed over his chest.

“Would you rather I call you?” He asks.

Regulus whirls on him. “No! I'd rather you not reach out to me at all!”

“See, once again, I am finding that hard to believe.” James pushes himself off the counter and steps closer to Regulus. “Did celibacy make a liar out of you? Or did I fuck you so good you forgot all the things you said last night?” He keeps his voice low as he says it, but Regulus hears it loud and clear. He shifts under James’ sharp gaze. Eyes lazily tracking the way Regulus moves.

“I'm not fucking lying. Last night was a mistake,” Regulus lies. Because that’s what he does now. Apparently.

“Technically two,” James says. He bites his bottom lip thoughtfully, eyes stuck on one of the many bruises littering Regulus’ neck.

Regulus doesn’t need the reminder, he can feel the bites and bruises sting with every turn of his head. Hands pressed palm to palm and the two of them chest to chest. A leg between Regulus’ own and his voice so wrecked he didn’t realize it was his at first. James, softened by the low light in the room, all his sharp edges blurring into pleasure. The hum of a moan into the heated skin of his neck.

“Technically three,” Regulus murmurs, eyes getting hazy, but he catches himself a second later, straightening. “But that's not what we're talking about!”

“Isn’t it?” James cocks his head. A lazy smirk pulls at James’ lips. The sight makes something simmer hot in Regulus’ gut. “We seem awful good at making mistakes. Maybe they're not mistakes at all.”

“All of this was a mistake! From the beginning! We shouldn't have hooked up and we shouldn't have dated and none of this should've fucking happened. Not last night, not last year, none of it.” Regulus takes a heaving breath. Considers saying more, but then James cuts in with:

“Are you done?”

“What?”

“I asked if you were done.”

“I— Yeah. I guess.”

James takes a step closer again, boxing Regulus in against the table. He presses his palms down on the flat surface, one on each side of Regulus’ hips. He has to look up a bit to be able to look James in the eye when they’re this close. He always liked it.

“You know what, that would've hurt my feelings if I believed you. Although I guess I do think this was a mistake. In a way.”

The feeling of James’ breath hitting the side of his neck makes Regulus shiver. James dips down for the barest, briefest moment and drags his lips along the column of Regulus’ neck, tracing the path he laid out the night before. It takes Regulus a second to realize what James just said, too caught up in his closeness to register the words. He isn't prepared for the way that statement makes him feel, a sharp pang in his chest and a dull ache all the way down his fingertips. He curls them into fists, keeps them resolutely in his lap. But before he has a chance to react, James continues.

“See, I think we never should've broken up. Mistake number one.” James takes the smallest of steps backward just to be able to raise his pointer finger. Regulus misses the heat instantly. “And I think you shouldn't have left this morning. Mistake number two.” He raises a second finger. “And you know what they say about mistakes.”

He glances at Regulus thoughtfully, waiting for him to fill in the blanks.

“Don't fucking make them?” Regulus asks.

“All good mistakes come in threes,” James corrects, a third finger now being held up.

“No one says that.”

“Maybe they should.”

“No, James,” Regulus shakes his head and leans back, putting some distance between himself and James. Or trying to, at least. “This is a bad idea and we both know it.”

James just leans into him more. Regulus goes a little cross-eyed trying to maintain eye contact. His focus is drawn to James’ lips instead. He remembers them pink and bitten. Stretched wide, spit clicking the corners.

“Come on, baby,” James hedges. “No more mistakes. Just me and you. And I'll be so good for you, good to you, I swear.”

His voice is molten honey, hot and sweet, and it sticks to Regulus’ skin like a physical thing.

And Regulus only has so much resolve. He unclenches his fists, allowing himself to reach out and touch. But the smooth fabric of James’ sweater is a poor substitute for the thing he really craves. It buzzes in his veins, a steady hum that's getting increasingly harder to ignore. There is no alcohol in his system to blur the lines he'd once drawn, he steps over them with his eyes wide open.

“You're addicting, you know that?” Regulus murmurs, mouth a few scant inches from James’. “Just can't fucking quit you. You and your Jamesness.���

Before James can reply, Regulus curls a hand over James’ throat and tugs him into a kiss. The buzzing in his veins quiets immediately, satisfaction rushing through them instead. It’s heady, kissing James again, even though it’s only been a couple of hours since their last kiss. James really is addicting. And Regulus is a weak, weak man.

---

is that a phone in your pocket or are you happy to see me [group • 4 members]

reg: hey guys....

evan: you're an embarrassment

barty: @panda send the fuckinf list

pandora: reasons why regulus should keep his dick in his pants and out of his ex [file type: PDF • 53 pages]

#messy exes jegulus: even messier #idk why they broke up but pls lmk if you have ideas #barty said regulus protection squad #james just said whore. #anyways!! for kara bc i probably would've let it be if she hadn't been so excited about the snippy <33 #i hope you enjoy <33 #i know it's a few days behind the 6th but!! i liked star #regulus black #james potter #starchaser #sunseeker #james x regulus #jegulus #jegulus microfic #mil's microfics #mil's writing #my writing

[gutsfics]

so. i just watched most of the new quintonreviews Sam & Cat video and for Reasons i looked up both Goomer and Frankini on ao3 and theres only One Single Fic thats tagged with Goomer/Frankini. fucking criminal.

double criminal for it being tagged as "past Frankini/Goomer" bc the actual relationship focused in the fic is fuCKING GOOMER/DICE. BITING AND KILLING.

#i have seen neither sam & cat or henry danger i just really love Goomer my boy Goomer #although i probably am gonna watch the henry danger musical episode bc Quinton really seemed to enjoy it #and also i love a good musical episode #anyway if i do ever end up writing Victorious/HWU crossover i Will be mentioning Goomer and Frankini in it at some point #mmmmaaybe. depending on how old Frankini is supposed to be. and when i decide to set it. ill have Frankini and Hunt be bitter exes #(bc giving Hunt the most batshit crossover ships is really fun to me) #he & Frankini would have been some super toxic whirlwind romance that ended So horribly and they hate each other #anyway i should go to bed now its past midnight lol

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[thecryptidart1st]

Who else do you portray as Hazbin hotel characters?

Tough question considering I haven't watched the entire Hazbin Hotel series (I'm a Hellavuh Boss kind of guy tho :P ) Tiktok spoiled a lot of the good songs, but I *try* to avoid listening to soundtracks of musicals until I see them in full context. So right now the songs I have heard give off a lot of vibes that match with some of the Graveyard Shift characters

But I am a sucker of all these songs with tension that may or may not radiate in a sexual energy if read in a certain light

#the graveyard shift #the graveyard shift au #spoilers probably #fnaf #michael afton #doug houser #dark deception #malak #batim #henry stein #ink demon #resident evil #ethan winters #willys wonderland #the janitor #hazbin hotel #stayed gone #respectless #ive been trying to avoid hells greatest dad bc im unsure if my soul can handle it #i was already swept up in the ex boyfriend energy of stayed gone i dont think i could do it

[hikukastel]

len.exe

#鏡音レン #color #sketchy things #bakaroido #crossoverz #art queue #oh someone asked about the keytar in the tags and i did think about it but not super deeply for it to make sense #i liked to think when the buster is used one of the keys disappears #bc his shoots are the keytar keys #recharges automatically and probably works as a loader connected to the buster #all parts floats as layers and is also used as an instrument #(he can and will also beat up ppl with it bc regular len also. does that.) #also yeah rmx was one of my first big fandoms and the only thing i drew for years so im familiar to most of the sagas #its also one of the reasons why i ended up liking len and a lot of aspects of his design are fun to draw to me #i have always wanted to design him for X Exe Zero and Legends/Dash....... but i feel so rusty w the sagasfdsnjk

[rocker-socks]

On one hand the Slade design is REALLY funny because it’s such a total subversion of his intended design and is pissing off his diehard fans that thinks he’s the shit but on the other hand it completely fucks with the timeline and removes his absent father dilf swag that makes his character so interesting in the first place

#my adventures with superman #deathstroke #slade wilson #modern day deathstroke stands out bc 'ohhh mercenary that used to be military and has Issues' has been done like. a thousand times #(before anyone says anything YES i know deadpool was inspired by deathstroke I Get It) #but a mercenary that causes immense daddy issues? that had his ex wife shoot out his eye? thats your regular ol piece of shit? #the guy that has people pause and go 'oh wow i understand why your family left you LMAO' #thats fun #theres a reason his main enemies are the teen titans alright #this slade wilson has none of that. this slade wilson is just a common bitch #HOWEVER #i will say that this allows for a really interesting character arc of him Losing It All #other people have pointed that out and i will bow to that. and that if this show already has a s2 confirmed then its probably has its own #timeline going on. i will respect that

[dolotonglo]

is this anything ace attorney fans who Might Also Be Undertale Fans And Vice Versa

#no becausee. they are literally the same #matt first showed up and i went ohhh no. oh no he is so mettaton coded #or probably the other way around bc jfa was wayyyy before ut but whatever #anyway. this is my matt engarde heritage post #i now understand the girls who go a little crazy for psycho men. like i get it now #hes just so cute #ace attorney #aa jfa #ace attorney justice for all #matt engarde #undertale #mettaton #mettaton ex #dolotalks

[sweetjijisama]

Didn't want to live, so I drew another Shinji and added some chromatic aberration bc my ass paid ass money for the CSP update for goddamn idk anymore reasons.

Not quite satisfied with the face but at least the colors look cool ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Character: Shinji Ikari from "Neon Genesis Evangelion"

#shinji ikari #evangelion #neon genesis evangelion #nge #nge fanart #nge shinji #neon genesis fanart #shinji ikari fanart #digital art #my art #time to overuse the chromatic aberration effect bc I lost my money on the update #it was probably another impulse purchase... #dont we just love clip studio and their confusing options to obtain the software / upgrades? :' ) #I dont even have the ex version so that means no layer comps for my ass fml

[mrgladstonegander]

for my return to duckblr may i offer my bootleg team magic (which doesnt include umbra/magica but shes here too)

team science here

umbra de mancy / magica = basically the same character / fills the same role as in dt17. wanted her to have an Evil Magical Girl look to spite lena's sorceress outfit.

luna de mancy / lena = also mostly the same character. wanted to lean more into what punk style she already had. i love her arc in dt17, but here she reclaims her shadow magic + never has to reconnect with umbra ever. both she and umbra are ruddy ducks

sunny vanderduck / webby = shares an arc with cherry(huey), and while she still has the same role of having luna realize she deserves to have a good life and isn't a bad person, luna helps her realize that valerie(beakley) isn't the best guardian either...

twilight costa / violet = meets luna + sunny earlier on. outwardly she's mostly the same, but she struggles with feeling connected with other communities. american culture and her heritage, being too weird to one of the smart kids, and too smart to be one of the weird kids, being outcased from the rest of the [junior woodchucks]. but once she finds her place with luna, sunny, and cherry, she opens up her silly side more :)

oliver oca / gladstone: despite getting people to be around him with his luck, he knew he was still alone. never really seeing a point in trying to do things, when he knew his luck would handle it for him. his passivity worsens after the casino, where his efforts didn't help him get out. luckily, someone is looking to fix him... (post-development design. spoilers! he loses his luck. mainly connected to the rest of team magic through umbra, luna, and Rorschach Specter]

#dt47 #ducktales au #ducktales #duckverse #plant talk #dt17 #less team magic and more of the ensamble cast for magic plotline #also gal for gladstone canon for this story 😊(evil) #giving my boy ollie sooo many exes but its ok #probably have the next most ideas for team science (bc im also tying it partially to della plotline) and then d.w gang #i have ideas for main gang too but its connected to everything else so its hard to gauge that LOL </3 #redesign

[watermelinoe]

my niece once got upset w my dad bc he wouldn't buy her some overpriced drunk elephant skincare product. she was freaked out about getting wrinkles. at age eight. i wish her mom had never bought her that damn smartphone

#idk if my brother is dad of the year or anything but he didn't want her to have the smartphone so points for that #her mom bought it so she could track my niece whenever she's with her dad (my brother) and text her constantly #and considering she's so petty that she made my niece leave an easter gathering with a terminal family member early it's like #i'm sure she has her side of it and my brother was probably a dick somehow but girl you're punishing an eight year old about it #and i really don't think shit like ''ice age is for boys (so i won't watch it)'' came from my brother #i'm sure i'm biased bc it's my brother but genuinely i think she bought my niece that phone to spite him #and now she's just glued to it bc that's what smartphones are designed to do !!!! #you would really fuck up your own kid's attention span and self esteem just to get back at your ex??? #and this isn't even the worst parenting move on her part but luckily that guy died and can't be around my niece anymore ever <3 #but i just worry about her. since i moved away i don't really get to see her. #and not to be narcissistic but i feel like it's good for her to see women w short hair no makeup comfy clothes etc. #i wanna be a good example for her #i told her she should just worry about washing with soap wearing sunscreen and drinking lots of water #i just can't relate at all. at her age all my friends were boys and i was into dinosaurs and pokemon and werewolves #a lot of girls... didn't really like me 😔 i remember being upset bc one girl called me a tomboy #anyway if u read all this. secret radioactive kiss just for u. mwah 💚

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

okay so i REALLY like making polls , and i'm fixated on sonic & sonic.exe related stuff right now , so i'm curious and I wanna collect data on one of my favouritest topics

*( by sonic.exe , i'm referring to all of the media surrounding it , not JUST the creepypasta . like the exe ocs people make, the funkin' mods , etc etc ! )

as always , please reblog 4 a larger sample size and feel free to elaborate in the tags ! :D

#sonic the hedgehog #vs sonic.exe #sonic.exe #sth #tumblr polls #my polls #fandom polls #VERY curious to see the overlap here . collecting data is fun but this is also a very personal topic for me #because im a huge fan of BOTH and if it werent for sonic.exe i wouldnt be a sonic fan #i know that thats probably a little controversial ??? esp bc there are probs lotsa long time fans out there who dont like sonic.exe #especially considering the resurgence it had in 2020 or so w/ f//n//f . i can definitely see how that'd cause infighting and the like #but im not here for arguments on whether or not people who got into sonic via the creepypasta are “”“valid”“” fans or not #im here to see how big of an overlap there is between sonic fans and the exe subculture !!! #(however i will say that if you think someone isnt valid as a fan bc they also like the creepypastas/exes i dont like you 👎) #(often times those people are kids and at the end of the day youre just being a gatekeeper . about fucking sonic the hedgehog) #(sonic would not want you to keep people from having genuine harmless fun because of your personal biases and i will die on this hill!) #(i know him personally! he's me!)

[nouveaumoon]

nothing will make you love your oc as much as seeing them in a new little hairstyle

#ffxiv #ff14 #wol #oc #begonia #i dont want to tag him in the second image because i'm shy.... they're exes though. i just wanted to put that one too bc she's cute in it : #i'm trying to get less scared about posting sketches since they're all i have the energy to do between commissions #i just get especially scared when they're not cos sketches because i know what people follow me for #but it's my blog‚ i should post everything i do on it. probably.

[astranauticus]

oh lol i forgot to post this robit sketches! because i have one (1) bit and im sure as hell gonna commit to it apparently

#rolling with difficulty #art I made #'shut your up' is a verbatim quote from an ex classmate i just thought it was funny #i dont think it was intentional i think he was just so angry that Words Failed on him #anyway im absolutely not keeping that maxim design. god i fucking hate clothing design *so* much #austin: 'hes a gold plated mechanite dressed in blue and grey robes' me trying to figure out colour placement: 'what FUCK' #i had one (1) good idea and that was 'skeleton shaped robit' and every other part of that design went to hell apparently #bc all the other mechanites we've had were either like... flesh..? shaped?? like that sorta silhouette (basically most of the old crew) #or more mechanical/geometric (vr-la's designs and like.. k-lb? i guess? if that counts) #so. therefore. bone shaped mechanite. also if i was gonna try that concept on anyone it may as well be maxim if you think about it #idk i thought it would be interesting. and also undertale was my first fandom so uh #ANYWAY. MOVING ON FROM THAT THOUGHT. #this started as a 2am intrusive thought of like #'we (artists in the discord) keep joking abt how k-lb would be a nightmare to draw but like.. how hard is it really' #anyway as you can probably expect. famous last words #i mean genuinely mad respect to noir but i think i said to one of my friends when i showed them this sketch #'i mean this in the nicest way possible but you can just tell he was designed for an audio only storytelling format' LMAO #if anyone is unwise enough to attempt this (so basically @ my future self lmao) #do the lineart and colouring for the wires in front of the inner electricity skeleton (???) and the ones behind it on SEPARATE LAYERS #drew the wires all together then the electricity and had to painstakingly go over the electricity with an eraser it was a fucking nightmare

[caruliaa]

kay i did this last time i changed theme, i want a new hatchetfield theme and pfp nd i like all of these (and making u vote on things) so. VOTE !!! ( if u dont know abt the blorbos for each theme just vote for the aesthetic/vibes u like the most) (and IGNORE THE URL im keeping this one for now its just my old url on my music sideblog tht im saving for a bit and using to show the theme options)

#tee hee >:3 #i was gonna have an option just for me but ill be honest i am kinda biased towards the first one so like. #tbh if it doenst win i might just use it anyway. but probably maybe not bc i do rly like all of these yk #i rly need a new theme. love the current one but i need a change and its kinda covered in The Goop currently due to ex best friend #related stuff yk. and a hatchetfield one wld be rly slay w me getting back into it sm. still a cs fan ofc but yk #npmd spoilers #<- part of why if its isnt the miss holloway one i prob wont actually change the theme until chess finishes it lol #starkid #npmd #hatchetfield #nightmare time #flappy rambles #anyway. VOTE my minions....... VOTE !!!! #<- srry. i need eep to be honest