#probably because its a dad thing to like

[ploncc]

I get the layers upon fucking layers of why it's like this but it's still annoying ironic that being intrigued by the Wrong Sort of Monstrousness is so heavily judged

like you're into #darkacademia style intrigue and murder n' shit? enjoy gore? watch scary movies? talk about wanting to go feral and rip politicians to shreds and then eat their entrails?

Cool!

what's that? you're into the bond films and are completely aware that they're light propaganda at best but still find ways to enjoy them and are fascinated by jimmy bond, or even like him as a character?

#i stare at what i hate and i recognize its humanity and all the ways i could have become the same #i cannot breathe without taking in the same air as it #i open my mouth and the same range of human noises come out #i stare at what i hate #will it stare back? #all i'm saying is that being feral over hannibal has a certain acceptance to it that being feral over Military Crime Man doesn't #which isn't a bad thing #but oh boy it sure is a Thing(tm) #''hah hah hah i love the dark things and the scary things and the monsters'' like babe do you actually think they're monstrous #or did you take something with the aesthetics of monstrousness that otherwise isn't that morally intrusive but represents being queer/ #disabled/poc/neurodivergent/fat/what have you pretty well as a way to discuss experience in modern life? coz thats not a bad thing either!! #but are you in love with the disgusting and the monstrous or are you just in love with the aesthetics of it/loving what others hate? #those are different. not bad!! just different! #i have a feeling this is going to be comprehensible to like six and a half people #somehow bames jonds has escaped the 'moral crime of watching a thing' discourse #probably because its a dad thing to like #oh god #where's my jo ann gift card i need to buy fabric and sew a skirt quick someone am i looking like a dad ???

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[nyxofdemons]

this was going to be like a mile long essay but i just realized the most concise way to say it is that "it feels like a retcon that blitz has been so resentful and hostile towards fizz all this time since he was supposed to feel guilty" is simply not a good criticism when we have been shown, time and time again, that blitz's number one defense mechanism when he feels guilty or judged or attacked is to lash out, to deflect and ignore all his responsibility, and to shift the blame to someone else. that's like. his defining character flaw

#- and that's WHY it was such a major THING for his arc!! that he apologized to fizz and accepted responsibility for what he did!!! #like. the fact that he said; EXPLICITLY; the words 'you're right; it was all my fault; i should have done better; i am so sorry' IS #SO BIG!!!! LIKE THAT IS SUCH A HUGE THING FOR HIM!!!!! #mine #helluva boss #blitzo helluva boss #helluva boss blitzo #blitz #e: oops #analysis #also its entirely reasonable that blitz would have gone spiraling down the thought process that maybe fizz always hated him if he could #blame him so easily when fizz was probably the one blitz was MOST counting on to hear him out #and the fact that fizz went on and got SUPER famous and successful after he was no longer performing with blitz - who i'm SURE had #only been given more and more shit for not being as good as fizz as they got older (by his dad and by himself) - he probably assumed fizz #blamed him for that too - holding fizz back with his own poor performance #which is why his insults towards fizz had always been 'overrated sellout' and insisting he slept his way to the top with ozzie. #he'd tear down fizz's quality as a performer because BLITZ feels insecure about his OWN quality as a performer #these tags have gotten so fucking long but that's the gist of the essay i was gonna write about this fjfdjjfghf #MEDIA ANALYSIS IS MY PASSION

[nerevar-quote-and-star]

Wanna know what sounds great?

A fanfic where the Greybeards find a baby Dragonborn on their doors, and just take her (using your Leara DB as an example) in, and raising her.

They eventually find out she’s Dragonborn because of her ability to use the Way of The Voice so easily, or something. Paarthurnax takes an interest in this child, and so she stays at the Throat of the World, until Alduin returned.

Wait that's so soft.

Just imagine how much trauma Leara would avoid if she was raised by the Greybeards? It'd be so beautiful. Dragon Dad could be her actual dad.

#also imagine when ten year ild ulfric comes to high Hrothgar and there's just college age Leara being a total nerd #i bet she wears glasses #she's not paying ANY ATTENTION to the random kid now living in her house #but kod Ulfric's probably got a ridiculous crush on her because i can't have a leara universe where ulfric just isn't in love with her #kid ulfric #I'm sorry i have rosecloak brainrot #but just think of Paarthurnax raising leara like she'll have peace and self assurance and she won't be afraid because she has a dragon dad #and he will bite people for her #i wonder if the greybeards ever use sign language because leara wiuld become so good at that she has such lovely hands #it'd be artwork when she signed i bet she signs dimb jokes to the other greybeards whenever arngeir is lecturing her #weirdest thing though is leara wouldn't be leara she'd be maragathe i bet her mom just dumped her there while on the run from the thalmor #mara is good but Kyne is better #oc: leara roseblade #sorry this went off in its own direction but i love it so much #last dragonborn #greybeards #paarthurnax #azura's ask box

[sonknuxadow]

you know i do wonder how many sonic characters actually have living parents. like knuckles is the last of his kind so obviously his parents arent around anymore. both guys who could be considered shadows dads are 100 percent confirmed dead. sonic is canonically an orphan im pretty sure. and on the other side of the coin cream is like the only character in the game cast who has a living parent we actually see onscreen. but what about everyone else i dont think theres a straight answer for any other character. other than rouge's mom being mentioned a couple times i Guess but we dont even know anything about her or if shes still alive just that she existed at some point. are these kids constantly putting themselves in danger because they dont have parents around to stop them or because their parents just dont care

#like what about tails. im guessing he didnt have any sort of family he was attached to if he left to be with sonic so quickly #but that doesnt really mean he didnt have parents at all. maybe he had parents and they just sucked i dont know #what about amy. what if she had parents this whole time we just never see them. #what about blaze. considering shes a princess id assume she was born into that role #but i dont know if her parents are ever actually mentioned #maybe theyre dead and there was no one else to take on their role and thats why blaze has so much responsibility at such a young age? #silver . he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone i cant really imagine him hvaing parents sorry #considering charmy is 6 and living with vector. an adult whos obviously not his biological dad. #i feel like something probably happened to charmys parents #espio i dont really question as much #becuase it feels very common in the sonic universe for teenagers to have more freedom than would be expected in real life #or maybe its not that common and the teenagers we're actually following are just living the most fucked up lives ever. i dotn know #but either way. espio where are your parents buddy. are they still alive. vector where are YOUR parents are they still alive #i dont know if i actually want canon explanations for all this though #because its kinda fun not knowing every detail about every characters life and being able to speculate and insert your headcanons n stuff #to be clear im talking about game canon #i know stuff like archie sonic and the sonic movies and the 90s cartoons will sometimes give characters new family members #or talk about their family situation even if the games dont say anything about that sort of thing

[puhpandas]

Tony Becker is one of the only times that I've seen that a character has actually been doomed by the plot when people say he is

#i probably just am not interested in enough other things to see it more often #but he genuinely fucking is #like how does it feel to dig yourself in a hole you cant come back from as a result of your own actions #and your life going downhill and everything that could go wrong going wrong #and you isolate yourself more and more from your friends and family without even realizing and are so sure of uourse #that you run into everything headfirst not ever thinking that you could ever get hurt even though your dad warned you #and you died from your best friend because of ir #that you were considering ditching everyone else for #like dude. #ggy genuinely is such a good book tony as a character is so well written #its such a tragic story in every sense of the word #every part of that book and all its characters are tragic #tony especially is because gregory beinf mind controlled is off screen #but tony is just. wow ur kinda a shitty person but wholly unaware of it #but the people on your life kinda failed you alongside you failing yourself #so he never even got the time of day to be wrong and aware of it and learn from it #nobody ever cared or was able to tell him that so he could start improving #nope. he died and his family and his best friend have to live with that not ever knowing what happened to him #and ellis' two best friends probably go missing at the same time and he just has to move on #like damn its such a good story #pandas.txt #tony #ggy #thoughts

[lunarharp]

scribbly first date type affair (continuation of my modern au stuff)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #idk when the next modern au thing will be so i'll just post this by itself. hehe #that art was one of qifrey's first drawings. it was of a creepy eye. (it was around the time he got glasses as a kid) #(and was told that he might lose his sight completely one day so he became an emo because he already wanted to be an artist #like beldaruit who ran his foster home where he encouraged kids to draw art to express their feelings.) #and an insidious deviantart group called The Brimhats idk stole it & reposted it. he never got to the bottom of who exactly did it. #but one day. they will fucking suffer. #(he believes their goal was to develop AI art as they said stuff like 'all art should belong to everyone anyway' & 'there shouldnt be rules' #but actually they were probably just regular mean ppl who have moved on to new things in life than stealing kids' art on deviantart. #who knows though.) i want people to retain their disabilities or general tragedies like beldaruit would be in a wheelchair #and coco's mum is in a coma. but its just so funny if qifrey just has regular bad eyesight #and it's so cute that he would say he doesnt think of beldaruit as a dad & is distant with him but now basically runs a foster home too #where he doesnt just encourage like he was encouraged but actively teaches kids from sad backgrounds to become wonderful artists one day #anyway i am so fucking hungry now goodbye #P.S. BELDARUIT IS NOT OLD !!!!!!! i mean if qifrey is late 20s or older in canon like i want... i guess he..but.... NO !!!!!! 😭 #*edits in some follow-up drawings* #oru: i couldn't c-c-confess my feelings bc it always seems like he's worried about something..i shouldnt bother him.. #qif: *always worried about how to confess his feelings* #ive decided meeting at 7 on da is kind of ridiculous actually. i think they probably meet at like age 10 in canon..not immediately =_= #since beru-sama is like 'he finally found a friend'. whatever... this'll be my last art post for a while probably so see ya <3

[evelynpr]

No one did "a Father's tough love" like Arlecchino

You KNOW she wants to tell her children how proud she is of them. How she wants to know what they're up to and what they like. How she wants to be a real caring father. How she wants to always ask "are you okay? Do you need help? What can I do for you?"

But she can't care. Caring is a lie, and being cared for makes you vulnerable. She has to be strong, because she must protect her children. She must protect her children, so she cannot feel cared by them. However, the children must care for each other, so they can be strong.

They cannot care for me, because they must be strong without me. They should not care for me, only fear me, for that is how they will survive without me.

#its such a Dad coded thing. to think that the “right” way to raise your children #is by showing them that its a “dog eats dog” world and u only have each other. your family. #that you have to hurt and punish each mistake your children make so they can be “strong enough for the real world” #that freedom must be “earned” through strength #this stupid fucking father cannot show an ounce of emotion because of her own principles and experiences #that shackle herself and her family but still love each other aaaaaaAAAAA #i fucking hate it hereee #arlecchino i am going to strangle and babygirl and make u cry like a sorry pathetic man #like the real pathetic man you are #youre no wolf in sheeps clothing to me #thats a sheep in wolfs clothing #do i sound deranged i probably am #but listen arlecchino is just. That fucking character. I am going to wriggle her around until her heart bleeds out or smth #evelynpr genshin #genshin #genshin impact #arlecchino #the knave

[charmac]

x

#gonna go on a parasocial rant for a man i barely care about bc thats where i am #but honestly its actually a little heartbreaking #when you think about the fact that rob #who we know struggled in school and with behavioural issues #was a neurodivergent kid who had no idea what that even was #no resources or labels to help him #is now an adult figuring this all out #and seeing #holy shit this sports team i grew up with and love knows about this too #and theyre doing all of this #like do you realise he was a kid in the 80s with no knowledge of any of this #used sports as an outlet and to bond with his dad #probably imagining if this foundation had existed when he was a kid what that could have done for him #and i now have the money and ability to support this all #so hes donating and posting to raise awareness and encourage support #and he's spending time and money with his soccer team in wales to do this same thing #so neurodivergent kids who love sports are growing up with what he didnt have #and their parents are able to recognise and understand what his couldn't (no fault of their own) #im sorry but youre a very blindly heartless person to think that doesnt matter because rob is NOW rich #why are we acting like hes elon fucking musk #he came from nothing you ALL KNOW HOW SUNNY STARTED!? #yes hes stupid spending his money on nfts and the metaverse #can you not see hes fucking growing... and learning. like. probably through his own kids.... #i dont even care if you dont care #i dont think it matters at all but adamantly shitting on him to his (social media) face is so beyond loser behaviour #holy fucking christ most of twitter now has clearly been educated in the tiktok school of anti capitalism #that they think the moment someone breaks 1mm they lose their history and soul #rob is a centrist he posts copganda he owns a gun and is proud of it but youre biggest issue with him is he won at capitalism? #via doing something not only he loves but YOU love? and have a whole account dedicated to?????? #everyone in his quotes is britta perry from community

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

now that we have canon confirmation that izzy wanted blackbeard/‘provoked’ ed into blackbeard because it was the only way he felt needed to ed, it was the closest he felt to ed was when they were a team and he thought that ed would discard him if he didn’t keep blackbeard alive (because he is in love with ed, not blackbeard, but he didn’t think he could have ed.) i will just block you if i see you saying izzy did it because he was power-hungry or to get his own rocks off… lol

#like we got his motive for it #and it was because he was in love with him #and he thought that was the only thing he could be with ed #no im not buying into izzy was eds dad or whatever #sure he could be a mentor figure to an extent probably but the dynamic is weird there #izzy is still a masochist btw he still likes being shoved around etc #but he would intentionally provoke ed bc he wanted to feel safe with ed and needed by him #its fucked up. its unhealthy. but thats what it is #and it makes sense to me now why he looked Like That after the choking thing #because he hated doing it. he didnt want to. he thought it was his only choice #im sure theres a few other motives like safety #etc #idk. #izzy hands #ofmd s2

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

pls reblog

#polls #hyperspecific poll #kai rambles #personal #doing this i realised how much if my weird experiences were either too depressing or violent to put as an option #or would need a lot more words to explain #i decided to skip out on ''had a local drug dealer try to groom you into being a mule'' #i find it funny because he tried it while my mom was in the room? #but im aware its a sensitive topic #i also did not know how to casually word the times my dad would randomly drive us to like some ruins in the english countryside #and like say ill be back in an hour #and then leave us there #because what the fuck even was that? #also how to explain that my maternal uncle and maternal grandad were in opposing local gangs that folded before i was born #but like in an alternate universe id probably be raised in a gang? #and also anything about my aunt meryl i dont know how to phrase any of that in limited words because she is just the most bizzare lady #i maybe could get the neck brace thing in where she accused me and my mom of stealing her neckbrace and handcream #and told us to never speak to her until we were ready to admit it except we didnt take it #and its probably coming up to a decade now

[soupmanspeaks]

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

#fnaf #michael afton #five nights at freddy’s #glammike #crying child #elizabeth afton #i wanted to allude something to william but idk #would the glamrocks go into the sinkhole? maybe #maybe next to glamrock freddy alongside the weird overlapping face he has and the two kid height faces #there is a face tracking box next to him...standing #remember that post about the ghost hunters comin to the pizza plex? maybe the weird face tracking happens too... #im watching garret watts and Andrew's constant facial tracking anomalies inspired this post lol #anyways i really like the thought that despite being the most friendly Glamrock; Freddy has this......feeling about him #his AI was made just this year! programmed with cutting edge and top of the line technology! #then....then why does he go off script sometimes? why does he say things that wasn't programmed show dialogue? #how does he know about Mr. Afton? the killer from the 80's who committed heinous deeds? #Why does he speak as if he knew him personally? if his AI is just pulling stuff from online; Why does he speak with resentment about him? #IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THE CONCEPT!! #like just because this franchise has gotten more neon and sugery than ever; remember; lights can be blinding and sugar causes cavities #idk what that means just omg there is more horror potential than you think in the SB era of games if you look hard enough #off topic but back to freddy being a sweetie pie i think that its funny okay #freddy sasses adults okay okay but he isnt mean to kids okay maybe michael just idk; MATURED? maybe he just got some whimsy mkay? #listen if i was forced to be in a perpetual cycle of atoning for my own and my father's sins i would find any and all silver linings mkay #aw yeah this is sick i get to be a freddy mercury inspired glamrock bear WOOO #granted michael was probably tired of animatronic bands and pizza by fnaf 6 but ykkkkkkkk it.....could be worse? he could be his dad lmao #anyways headcannon michael listend to freddy mercury and this is the equivalent of cosplaying him scott told me so (trust) #tag rambles! theyre fun lol

[mattynmarns]

.

#just got some of the scariest news of my life #my dad is in the ER and is being transferred for emergency surgery #and im at school. on call. so i can't leave. in a completely different city. #apparently 85% survival rate if its caught quick #god i hope it was caught quick #i just really love my dad man hes the person i talk to the most and will listen to me talk about all my favorite random stuff and engages #with me about it and he's the person i look up to the most in the world probably and im just so scared because im so far away and i cant do #anything but trust the doctors #im just. so scared #and apparently hes in a lot of pain right now and i just. don't want this to happen #and i just want to go back to when i saw him a few hours ago when he was fine and make sure that he stays fine #and idk. rough night. #prob deleting this in the morning but i hate telling people im scared irl and i need to tell someone that im freaking tf out actually and #that this feels like the worst thing to happen in my life #anyways yeah. going to try to not exist for awhile and pray that i dont run into anyone with eyeliner tear streaks and snot all over my fac

[scattered-winter]

I cannot stop thinking about that Voltron Legendary Disappointment post you made. You're so real for those takes.

Why is calling Allura "space mom" racist though I'm confused by that part. It always felt a bit weird to me so I never really interacted with the people who called her that back when I was super into this show in 2018.

first of all bear in mind that i'm a white person, so i am not really the deciding voice on this one, but imo allura being the "space mom" kind of swerves into the stereotype where black women are nurturing motherly figures (the "mammy" stereotype specifically). and while allura IS a kind caring person, i personally have never gotten any maternal vibes from her. she's not a motherly figure, she's a teenager who has been forced to take a leadership role in a war. putting her on the pedestal of "space mom" takes away from the fact that she's not an adult. too often her trauma is ignored by canon and fanon, and portraying her as an adult whose primary role is to take care of the kids only does that even more. not to mention the racist undertones of actively changing a character to make her fit a racist stereotype

#ohshc-trash-14 #ive seen some other people point this out in probably a much more concise well written way but. alas. tumblr search function. #but anyway yeah . those r my thoughts #and the whole post ur referring to was just MY take on things so. thats why its on there lmao #and to be honest. i dont like shiro being the ''space dad'' either #because if ANYTHING ive always gotten more older brother/mentor vibes from him #truly the fandom urge to turn everything into a nuclear family. horrendous. #voltron #allura #anyway im glad u liked the post teehee <33

[databent]

why the fuck is it that some people cant seem to acknowledge that people can just... be disabled. not through any fault of their own, not because something "happened" to them, just because, you know, sometimes people have disabilities. like, come on

#.pdf #rd #kd #just a warning these tags are long. like. really incredibly long. i had thoughts. #sorry for the vague ass post i'm just upset about some stupid shit my dad said yesterday. #namely: outright telling me that he doesn't believe i have non-24 (circadian rhythm disorder). #and that even if i do he doesn't believe it's possible for it to actually be a lifelong and disabling condition. #*also: this post isn't meant to imply that disabilities that did have some inciting incident are more accepted or anything. #it's just that i'm frustrated with the “you're disabled? why? what happened?” sentiment a lot of people seem to have. #nothing happened to cause my disability. i'm just like this. no i can't change it. what the fuck do you want me to tell you? #i'd guess it probably has to do with society's focus on work and productivity and career-mindedness above all else. #and when someone comes along that doesn't fit in with the way things are structured it just doesn't compute. #because the idea of people who can't dedicate their entire lives to working is so fundamentally contradictory to their view of... i don't- #-know. meaning in life? fulfillment? that they feel a need to reject the possibility altogether. #this is mainly when dealing with invisible disabilities from what i've seen. because i think there's a tendency to view visibly disabled- #-people as belonging to a different category altogether. which of course is its own issue but i'm not visibly disabled so i don't feel- #-like it's necessarily my place to speak on that. #anyway. i just want my struggles to be acknowledged as real. because they are. and i need people to understand that I Have A Disability. #albeit one many people don't even believe could be real because there's a sort of belief that circadian rhythms are purely a product of- #-external forces like sunlight so “you can't possibly have yours be different and have you tried just going outside more?” sigh. #sorry i also just remembered my dad telling me he doesn't believe i can have something so rare because the chances of having it are too low. #which is some ridiculous logic to me. rare doesn't mean it's impossible. some amount of people have to wind up with it regardless. #i just lucked out i guess. #n24 tag