#processing the pandemic

[segernatural]

sure it was a perfect storm of a pressure cooker but i promise destiel was about destiel

#like 2020 was all building towards something. the isolation the pandemic the general uncertainty of day to day life #toss in the heated election and counting process. sure it *couldve* been anything else. but it *wasnt*. #it was destiel. that night there were even other rumours circulating about other shows. another show even had a huge reveal! #but the most widespread and known was destiel because of course it was! because thats what everyone was losing their mind over! #look at the statistics chart of a history of destiel interest over time! i promise the destiel interest is about destiel! #were people all equally invested? no! were some people memeing? yes! but by and large nov 5th became a juggernaut bc of destiel #as someone who literally was refreshing for election news and developed mania from seeing destiel go canon. it was about destiel #sure the intersection of destiel and election results was fun. but i posted way more destiel than election stuff. cause it was about destie #anyway. idk why im on a soapbox #char speaks #destielputinelection #destiel

[dontmean2bepoliticalbut]

#us politics #covid vaccine #coronavirus vaccine #coronavirus #coronavirus pandemic #covid pandemic #covidー19 #tweet #twitter #@snottyantelope #anti vaxxers #drugs #vaping #ecigarette #cocaine #monster energy #processed foods

[givemeureyes]

absolutely VILE behavior from a man who made his entire career off advocating for mental health and catering to young women. the complete lack of accountability in his apology doesn’t surprise me, abusers like to do that, but it does disappoint. i hope shubble can find peace and i hope that man never sees it.

#wilbur soot #it’s honestly disgusting and hard to process #i’m a victim of abuse and as you can imagine it got worse during the pandemic #watching his videos brought me solace #i feel stupid now knowing what kind of person he really is #shubble #shelby shubble #myct

[cassolotl]

Sometimes something puts me into my context as a queer born in the 80s and growing up in Section 28 England, and there's nothing else really to do except have a little cry about it.

“There’s a generation of queer people grieving for the childhood they never had,” Haigh says. “I think there’s a sense of nostalgia for something we never got, because we were so tormented. It feels close to grief. It dissipates, but it’s always there."

#queer #i was too small to know it was going on #and by the time i was old enough to understand it was too late #when i try to imagine a childhood without anti-queer and anti-trans violence as a cultural influence i just go totally numb and empty #like flipping a switch #you've all had a pandemic now right #imagine a pandemic that targets identity #imagine a pandemic that targets people like you #if you catch it you will die a slow and painful death and infect the people you love the most #and everyone else thinks that it's killing you because you are you #and 75% of the population thinks who you are is an abomination #and so no one cares that you're all dying #and then imagine that instead of it happening to you as an adult who can process that. it's happening to you as you develop a sense of self

[dd-is-my-guiltypleasure]

#David Duchovny #justine bateman #barnes and noble #2024 #the reservoir #the scare owl #short story #writing process #pandemic #death in Venise #author #Youtube

[aboxthecolourofheartache]

If anyone’s got some reassurance to spare, I am Having A Day, and it looks to be shaping up to spill into the weekend.

#I’ve been in Covid quarantine for four years #and Big Changes are afoot #and I am feeling very small and stunted #very out of practice with anything but this small life #(and lmao I will STILL have to maintain Covid quarantine through the whole process I’m sure glad the pandemic is ‘over’ haha)

[areyoudoingthis]

what's that post about how maybe things won't be okay but you have people who love you and you'll get through it. that's how i feel right now

#just texted my friend that macri and milei have the same number of syllables so all our old march songs should work just fine #i have so many good memories of those four years even tho they were hard af #most of them involve being in the streets with thousands of people singing at the top of my lungs #or in someone's house planning our next intervention or painting signs #i took some time off to recover from the pandemic and process my transition #but it's time to go back #this is how we'll make it through #alex txt

[inkybinkyboink]

what the fuck do i do now

#last show was this afternoon :") #we oversold and had a full house two shows in a row which is insane #fucking. every show was good. every show was perfect #i never missed a line bitches >:) #never missed a fucking line #my hands are all fucked up from poking myself a million times with the safety pin that kept my belt in place #my eyebrow is like missing the end because of the fake scab blood i put in it every night for act 2 #my knees fucking hurt and my hip too #but like a good pain? #my point is like i dont know how to let go of the character? #like this was insane man #i havent even processed that its over #i think that a very very large chunk of my theatre experience occurred during the pandemic #and so my view of it was kind of skewed? #and then i took a year off #and now we're back at it and it feels like its 10 times more intense #idk. weird rant over. sorry

[alwaysbewoke]

#private equity firms #capitalism #capitalism ruins everything #capitalism in medicine #late stage capitalism #healthcare #veteran emergency room doctor #ming lin #peacehealth st. joseph medical center #bellingham washington #coronavirus pandemic #hospital preparedness #social media criticism #teamhealth #blackstone group #private equity #healthcare industry #physician staffing #peer review process #due process rights #patient safety #financial entity #acquisitions #rural hospitals #physicians' practices #nursing homes #hospice centers #air ambulance companies #healthcare billing management #debt collection systems

[sjoongki]

how is it already march tomorrow, but also only march ?????

#tbd #this year as simultaneously been so long and short I’m exhausted #it’ll soon be 4 years since the pandemic shutdowns officially started and I’m losing my mind #how did we lose 4 years of our lives like that? how are you supposed to process that ?? #the world just went back to ‘normal’ and it’s not actually normal. we can never go back to how life was before

[juanabaloo]

if you live in the USA and are feeling especially overwhelmed rn, remember we are living through both a modern day civil rights movement (like the 1960s) and a genocide that our govt is funding (like the Holocaust). keep fighting. if you need a break, rest up. take care of yourself. i believe that we will win.

#like a fuck lot of other things are also happening #like the Nazis i mean Republicans still politicking #and economic price gouging on everyday items #a shit job market yes even for those of us with good degrees #a shit housing market for most people who haven't already bought #and dealing with the lingering grief of a global pandemic that killed many of our friends and family #and oh yeah covid isn't over yet even though the capitalist machine wants you to think it's done #but the Nazis targeting everyone Black and brown and Muslim and queer and trans while the USA funds genocide conducted by Israel #yeah it's like no wonder it's overwhelming #i mean overwhelming doesn't even begin to label it #and yeah i am heartened by the protests on college campuses #never been prouder to be an alum of my college but solely bc of the student actions #fuck the college powers that be who are actively anti Palestine #but it's a lot right? it's def a lot for me #i'm OK just processing as best i can

[throwaway-yandere]

You ever wonder how short human lives are? They have the average life span of maybe a pet to most elves, won't they? Or even less. Looking back, isn't it hard to imagine how hard it must be to move on from someone who only lives for a sliver of your own lifespan?

😋 anon

😋 if this is your attempt to making Elf!Haitham the theme of the blog I ain't doing it HAHAHAHAHAHA

#if you want MY serious answer- then of course. #I've always known how short people's lives are- and for a long time- I was unaffected when loved ones die. There was an “eeasy #step by step process for me before. I was and kind of still am welcoming of death. #and when that one person I cared for was ill- I was also quick to acknowledge that it's probably their time #throughout their last remaining days I just waited that maybe when it happens- they can stopped being tubed- #stop suffering. #When my grandfather passed away- I was more grimly reminded that life is truly short #but instead of that quiet “I told you so. I knew he would pass soon.”— what I felt was pure anguish #To pat your grandfather's head one last time- devoid of life as he laid still #That midnight remains clear as day to me. Life is short. I knew that since the beginning. #I didn't shed as much tears as I had when a friend my age had passed on— because I was comforted with the thought that #they had passed months before the pandemic began— and Covid was seemingly a more painful fate #So yes. #I know how hard it is like to move on from someone who does not share your life span. Who had lived longer than you have and will leave #faster than you— despite your neverending comments about ending it all once you've finished your tertiary education #that you spout since childhood. #So. Well. Yeah!!! I know what it's like HAHAHAH. it's S H I T.

[actualhumancryptid]

Fuck yes!!!! Massive Yayoi Kusama exhibition in my local gallery. Multiple infinity rooms??? Asdfhjk I am so happy.

#!!!! #still processing but oh my god #yayoi kusama #the last time I saw anything substial by her irl was pre pandemic #we got this sad little box by her from the Tate modern for a bit last year #fuck yes I am so sick of constantly hearing news of them organising another fucking impressionist exhibition #art tag #happy tag #🙌🙌🙌

[lesenbyan]

messaged a place on a nearby campus, despite not being a student, about converting to judaism, cross your fingers for me

#would love LOVE to finally be able to start this process #the pandemic isn't over but if I keep waiting I'll never get to do it #but I'll do everything I can to stay safe and healthy and keep other people healthy too ESP if it means I finally get to start converting #I've lowkey wanted this for i think like 8ish years and highkey wanted it for 3. i figure it's Time #personal;

[rainbowcrowley]

monday, 1 am: i can't sleep and started crying bc i saw some random tiktok of a 20 years old cat that made me realise how much i miss my cat who died 4 years ago

#tw animal death #tw pet death #i'm fine why do you ask #god i miss felix so much #i looked at pictures of him and bawled my funking eyes out #like i never really had the chance to process his death #he lived with my parents and it was at the start of the pandemic #one day he was fine and the other day he was just.... gone #addi.txt #personal #ugh sorry for being so depressing #i'm just venting

[carcharadroid]

Starting my MS medication tomorrow. :') Trying not to freak out too much and largely failing.

Uuuhhhhh reactions to said medication could be anything from "kinda sleepy" to "flu-like symptoms" to "I am literally not able to get out of bed because my legs stopped working, get back to me in a week or few"

Not actually expecting that last one lmao but still. There is a chance higher than zero that I won't really be,, available to chat much at all this month while I deal with my loading doses of this stupid medicine

#*dox babbles #won't lie my brain has run through every stage of grief about six times #and now it's just burnt out and not really processing this anymore #very much hoping that this month is just mildly shitty at worst #but I still have to figure out how to navigate this fuck of a world #during a pandemic that everyone pretends is over #while I'm on an immunosuppressing drug #yay and whoopee