#since I haven't seen anyone translate the full thing yet

[sleepyverstappens]

Race engineer Gianpiero Lambiase about bond with Max Verstappen: 'Never again with anyone else'

Although Gianpiero Lambiase is a nice person to be around and also an easy talker, he rarely or never gives interviews. But the down-to-earth Brit is also a man of his word and honors the agreement made at the beginning of this year. The delay makes it extra clear that he does not necessarily have to come to the fore and his extensive range of tasks during a racing weekend logically takes priority. Now that both championships have been won, Lambiase joins me. Who is behind that voice that can be heard so often during Grand Prix? The man who always sounds so calm. Except for that one time, after the Abu Dhabi Grand Prix in 2021. So much so that many people still think that it is not Lambiase who is blaring on the radio, but the then reserve driver Alex Albon. Which is not the case.

Not a partygoer

The calm he so often radiates is one of his great qualities. “I think it is very important to be able to keep a driver calm in the heat of the moment,” said Lambiase. “That's just how I am, that's my character. What also plays a role is that – and I don't want to sound arrogant – I set the bar and my own expectations extremely high. Maybe too high. I want everything to go perfectly and I know full well that that's not possible. But it allows me to quickly rationalize and learn from disappointments. While maybe I don't celebrate the highlights as I could or should. Colleagues here will say that I am not a party goer, but that is just how I am.”

An example of this is the celebration, just hours after Verstappen won his third world title in Qatar. While he (Max) is once again lifted on the shoulders by his mechanics in the Red Bull garage, Lambiase walks with his hands in his pockets and casually walking to the start of the pit lane for the team's next photo opportunity. Another moment, last week in Mexico: when a fan has his picture taken with Lambiase, the local asks the engineer if everything is okay between him and Verstappen. It won't be the first and won't be the last time he hears that. Things sometimes get heated between the two, for example recently in Austin.

“But we never argue. Sometimes it takes more than one or two hours after a race to come together again. We both have adrenaline in our bodies, sometimes you need to have some time for yourself before you say things you will regret. And there are also moments when I think: I could have conveyed that better. Max will have that too. We may have different opinions, but in the evening or the next day it is always okay.”

Honesty underestimated Lambiase has been working at Red Bull since 2015 and has been active as a race engineer for fourteen years, so he knows better than anyone how good the mutual bond should be. “You know what is hugely underestimated? How important a part honesty plays in the relationship between a racing engineer and driver. Being yourself is crucial to working productively and efficiently. The moment you start thinking 'I don't know if I should say that, because he might get angry', you are on a lost cause."

So he is not afraid to push back from the pit wall. “I don't think Max would want it any other way either. He's not someone who wants to walk all over you. He is clear, to the point. That's how he was raised. His father Jos trained him wonderfully. I take over that task to a very small extent on the circuit, through my responsibilities as an engineer. That dynamic seems to work well. I'm not an expert in sports psychology at all, but you have to feel the character of a driver to achieve the optimal. That is something fundamental in my work: being able to trust each other blindly, but also having an eye for the emotional side. Especially nowadays, the mental aspect is increasingly important. It's not just about talent or the car, but how someone can deal with that talent and their emotions.”

In that respect, Verstappen seems to be doing well. And the Limburger has also been working with Lambiase to his full satisfaction since his first day at Red Bull's flagship. In fact, after winning his first world title, he even said that he would quit immediately if his race engineer gave up.

“But I can see through that. First of all, no one is irreplaceable. And secondly: there is no way that when I walk out that door tomorrow, Max's Formula 1 career will be over. It is nice that he says that and it shows how well we treat each other,” says GP, who now also reveals that there is an exclusive collaboration. “The day that Max and I no longer work together in this setting will be the day that I would like to take on a different challenge. I don't think it's fair to any other driver if we try to emulate what I've done with Max since May 2016. I see this as something incredibly special and don't think anything like this will happen again. So I hope that we will continue in this way until 2028 ( Verstappen's current contract runs til 2028, ed.). Unless he or the team decides otherwise of course…”

Important sensor At the pit wall, Lambiase is overloaded with information and data, but he emphasizes how crucial the input from the driver himself is. A regular occurrence during a race, for example, is the Englishman asking his Dutch companion whether he would like a different adjustment of the front wing during the next pit stop.

“We indeed receive a lot of information about the balance of the car and the condition of the tires. But the most important sensor is Max himself. We can make all kinds of assumptions, but these are such small margins. The feedback from a driver is very important.”

Since last year, Lambiase has also been the Head of Race Engineering at Red Bull Racing. As a race engineer, he has previously worked with Vitantonio Liuzzi, Paul di Resta, Verstappen's current teammate Sergio Pérez and his predecessor Daniil Kvyat. But what makes Verstappen so good? Hardly anyone can estimate this better than Lambiase. “In my opinion, he has learned a lot from the difficult moments that occurred in 2017 and 2018. He has developed a racing style that not many drivers have. In recent years he has also proven to be very skilled in risk management. In 2021 he understood that he had to finish every race and could not afford DNFs. That year was so incredibly important for his growth. With that title in his pocket and a competitive car in recent years, he can estimate very well how much risk he has to take on Sunday. And also during the qualifying sessions he knows that he does not always have to show his balls or be the 105 percent version of Max Verstappen.”

"I see this as something incredibly special and don't think anything like this will happen again."

Just as Lambiase says he learned a lot in his twenties during his early years in the world, with teams such as Jordan, Midland and Spyker. “I opened myself up to learning things from the smart people around me. Since then I have gained a lot of experience, also through all the technical and sporting changes in the regulations that have occurred. When Max was promoted to Red Bull in 2016, the days leading up to that first race in Barcelona were very hectic and tense. The expectations were sky-high and as a driver you have the feeling after such an intervention that you cannot disappoint the bosses. Of course, he already had a reputation and we quickly saw that he was an exceptional talent. I knew I was in it for the long haul with Max. That has also proven to be the case.”

Despite the many races and the associated travel, Lambiase is far from tired of his work. “This industry is so dynamic. The goalposts never stand still and we always strive for perfection. The excitement that comes with it is what challenges me. It may seem that way to people, but it is not easy to win even one Formula 1 race. Everything has to be right. You've seen this year in Singapore that when you do it wrong, you have a problem. The fact that Max has now won sixteen of the nineteen races is not just because the car is good. That is mainly because of him, and because we make the right decisions as a team.”

What does a race engineer do?

Four minutes. That's how long it takes Gianpiero Lambiase to briefly and concisely describe his many tasks as a race engineer. This goes much further than just talking to the driver during sessions on the asphalt. “Sometimes I wish that were the case,” he says, smiling. “As a race engineer at Red Bull, I am actually responsible for the entire operation of the car on the track. And I work together with all our specialists in the field of aerodynamics, simulations, the engine, you name it. Everything to try to have the best and efficient package on the track as possible.”

It doesn't stop there. “As is known, most of the development of the car takes place in the factory in England. But we as engineers at the circuit itself have the task of testing these new parts and thus drawing the right conclusions. Sometimes this is for the short term, to benefit from it during the race weekend. But sometimes also for the long term for the design of the car, for example for the following year.”

Of course, the car's setup often involves a lot of tinkering during the weekend itself. “Then it is important that the set-up and balance of the car are to Max's liking. That it doesn't have too much understeer or oversteer. There are hundreds of things we can change mechanically or aerodynamically, based on simulations, but also what we invented ourselves on the track during training. I also think I have an important voice in the strategy. As a race engineer you have a fairly large overview and you are in fact the person between the driver and the team. The driver's feeling is evident. In addition, our feedback to the factory must be good, for example what are the things that Max encounters. That in turn helps them to further develop the car.”

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#gianpiero lambiase #max verstappen #since I haven't seen anyone translate the full thing yet

[beesmygod]

Bloodborne questions rattling in my head -

Why does the shaman bone blade have shaman in its name? That's such a specific, almost regional term. Just a translation quirk?

How seriously do you take cut content in studying lore? I just learned about the Great One Beast, and there's a hell of a lot going on in that name alone. A Great One that became a beast? A beast that became a great one? Maybe just a placeholder name since file names refer to it as a silverbeast? Or, as it never made it in, should it be essentially ignored entirely?

ok business as usual, pure speculation is in italics.

this first answer is going to suck so bad: i basically don't have a single clue. the japanese word they chose to translate as "shaman" (祭祀者) doesnt appear on jisho or literally anywhere else in the game. like i just did a ctrl-f on the re-translation text dumps and found nothing. they seem equally baffled but one of the two translators notes that it's used to describe people involved in ancestor worship. the full word is "祭祀者の骨の刃". so like literally "_____'s bone knife".

there's no surprise ambiguity in the description. it doesn't resemble anything else in the game. the green goo (not blood, notably) oozing from it is not seen elsewhere. that emerald green color is unique to the blade.

what the fuck! they are also extraordinarily rare: the only place you can find them are in the nightmare of mensis in the "nightmare apostles" (big spider) room, where you can pick up six from the corpse of a healing church doctor in front of a little vestibule containing nothing. the only remarkable thing about this room is that it once contained a cut version of the giant nightmare apostle with the head still on. this is interesting only because it suggests that they're not just giant spiders, they are giant HEADLESS spiders. the connection the player was supposed to draw, perhaps, is that the headless nightmare apostles seen throughout the game have already been harvested for their goods.

this is uninteresting because there's 7 headless spiders in the room, not 6. maybe one broke?

the only other places you can find them are in the pthumerian labyrinth root dungeons in, specifically, treasure coffins. only after obtaining the lower pthumeru chalice will the item be added to the insight shop, so whatever those shamans were doing, it was very secret and very ancient. they are a 5% drop from brainsuckers...except for the ones in the cathedral ward and the orphanage, which are 2%. hey i never noticed that before. so that's where those brainsuckers running around yharnam came from.

the creation of this item is apparently linked to augurs/phantasms.

the spider guys are their own. thing. i haven't even touched them yet because, segueing into your next question, so much surrounding them was cut. there's a bunch of stuff in the game, especially relating to byrgenwerth, about reflections and symmetry that kind of hangs in the air awkwardly unless you start poking around under the hood and start looking at how much spider-related shit there is. and like. isn't a spider an invertebrate. isn't "apostle" another word for "messenger". anyone else seeing this. aren't these things augurs?

not for nothing, but amygdala is referred to as the "lost apostle" in the alpha.

when it comes to cut content, i take a very liberal approach and inhale all of it into my brain where i can sort it and determine what bits are even useful. i think this kind of thing comes entirely down to personal taste; some people think the completed project in its retail form is what should be analyzed on the reasonable basis that it's the story we were intended to experience. i don't disagree with this approach; my approach is like if i wanted to read "pride and prejudice" and decided after reading it to analyze all of jane austen's letters and biographies. like it's absolutely not required to enjoy or understand the story and themes of bloodborne; it's just a good example of how much a reading of a text can differ depending on how you approach it.

i wish we knew why the great one beast was cut because it was basically finished outside the textures being low-res. people have hacked a working version into the game and it looks like a hell of a fight. and you're right, it raises a lot of questions about what the hell a great one is. prior to this it was assumed that beasts were the opposite of great ones. but...maybe beasts are ONLY intended be compared and contrasted with kin. and a kin is not a great one. very mysterious.

#bloodborne #long post #bloodborne lore

[whumpshaped]

cast of my robot story (i made 2 of every big hierarchical level but obviously theres like. More lol but i figured i wouldnt rly need more than 2 of each? maybe i wont even need that many. as u can tell i dont know what the fuck i wanna do)

picrew

two of the members of the seventh earth council, the group that controls the spaceship and literally everything on it. it's funny they're called that, none of the members have seen earth with their own two eyes. it's been a long time since any human has walked on that planet...

levendula (she/her), dorel (he/him)

two of the techies. the tech department is where all regular folk want to end up at. there's a very slim chance anyone could get into the council, it almost functions like a royal family — but the tech department? well... okay that kind of functions like that too, the children of techies usually end up as techies, and there's little class mobility otherwise. BUT there's a bigger chance for any regular person to become a mechanic than to become a council member!

they handle maintenance work on the spaceship, on the equipment, on the robots, they write code, they design new and improved versions of any sort of tech. they enjoy much more personal freedom than regular workers.

kikinda (she/her), szoren (he/him)

two of the workers. the workers are manual labourers who handle all the work the techies haven't yet managed to automate or don't have the resources to automate. farming, mining, all that stuff. backbreaking labour. on top of that, they get paid very little, and now with the new SSRCU models already created, they're HOUNDED by the stupid bots too.

kara (they/them), hanga (she/her)

i chose hungarian names/spellings for all of them, if you wanna know exactly how they're pronounced please use a translator app because my phonetic spelling SUCKS. but i think they're all very straightforward :)

rambling about zaps copied and pasted from discord:

so about zaps. the tech guys call it zaps 100%. affectionately (mostly). its primary and default disciplinary action is administering shocks, and well, sometimes it goes haywire and just shocks a bunch of people at the workstation. hence the name.

the workers usually refer to it as anything derogatory. the thing, the beast, the monster, the attack dog, the painbot, the warden. officially though they address it like they would any superior, with either sir or ma'am. but they rarely have to (if theyre good <3 )

council members refer to it as the bot, or if they need to specify theyll say the serial number, 01.

zaps' full official name is self-sufficient riot control unit or SSRCU-01. it was the first of its kind and its been around the longest

#levendula #dorel #kikinda #szoren #kara #hanga #riot (story)

[omentranslates]

Owari no Seraph volume 32 author's afterword english fan translation

Howdy, the long awaited afterword is here. I say as if my volume didn't arrive literally 2 hrs ago. Anyways, thanks for working with me.

Also I included the volume comments this time XP and I translated the back promotional page too just bc I haven't seen anyone else post it yet?? But I don't pay super close attention to the teasers usually so don't come for me if it's just the same text as the last few.

"Afterword

Wow, this is it, the climax! Writing it gets as lonely as it is fun, and it's as fun as it gets lonely, among other things! To everyone who's followed along this long, I'm truly grateful.

From here on out, I'm going to have a new editor. Owari no Seraph has thus far been blessed with nothing but the best and brightest in editors, all full of motivation. From Hosono-san (the sharpest blade in Shueisha) to Kosuge-san (the industry's top Nice Guy) to Kasai-san (who played it straight but turned out to be a total weirdo). And now, exploding onto the scene to take the baton from those three absolute characters, and his name issssss.......Okuyama-saaaaaannnn!!!!!

Now, this new guy in charge is truly amazing, he's got enough motivation to take me aback! He goes, "Kagami-san! We could have the whole world!! Nono, the whole universe!!! From now on just leave it all to meeeeee!!!! There's no doubt we'll do great things together, so just leave it all to me okayyyyyy!!!!" He's been yelling like that since we first met. He brought so much of that heat to the venue we were going to have our first meeting over dinner at and we ended up getting chased out and banned from coming back! It ended up being a whole incident, we really started off with a bang.....is what I'd like to put here, but I'm actually working on this afterword before that aforementioned meeting so I decided to just write my heart. The truth is that we actually haven't met yet! (Say what?)

Everyone, look forward to the next volume, where I tell you all how our introductions went! The one I'm writing now will actually probably pass through my new editor Okuyama-san's hands before we do meet, so I'm kinda scared about how that's gonna go, I'm like shaking (lol). But I'll definitely have a story to tell for next afterword! So on that note, I hope to see you all here again next volume, for those who just wanted to be done reading before it gets deep, I'll say goodbye to you here. I'll see you all next volume!!!!!

So, then, about myself recently. I put to rest some things that have been bothering me as a creator for sooo many years. Yayyyyy!! Wondering how I'm going to live and who I should become. As I'm facing up my works, and also my experiences as a person, as I'm experiencing the lives and deaths of those precious to me, what does it make of me? My characters grow up, am I working hard enough to keep up with them? I suddenly feel like I'm approaching my answers. And wow, what a ride it's been. What a ride being a creator is.

There was a time I was writing so many projects, but I've been rather spending my days studying since encountering those worrisome thoughts. But I've finished my studies and at long last arrived at just being thankful. It took a lot out of me to get here. And having Owari no Seraph publishing monthly, I think it was something that really managed to keep me as a creative grounded through it all. Writing is what I love most of all, I've been able to realize that it's who I am. For that, I am truly grateful to everyone. Yamamoto-san, Furuya-san, every one of my readers, to those in charge here and my editorial staff and everyone else who associates with me and every member of my family, I'm deeply thankful for the one of a kind, precious ties that bring us together in this world.

Which is all to say, I've returned to my extremely prolific writing habits, so I'll be glad if you all read what I've got to say!!!

Huh, I guess that wasn't too heavy afterall. Anyways, everyone, I'll see you next volume! Oh, and the finale of "Densetsu no Yuusha no Densetsu" is also happening after six long years. If any of you have ever read it, I hope you enjoy that too!

So then, see you in volume 33!!!!

Kagami Takaya"

Kagami Sensei's volume comment: "I'm writing so much! Back to the drafts!"

Yamamoto Sensei's volume comment: "We've reached volume 32. Yuuichirou and Mikaela, the Shinoa Squad, Ferid and Crowley, a lot of different stories have really taken off. I hope you're all excited!"

Promo page in the back (text only):

"On the move to make their own dreams come true...

All of these different stories speeding up towards the final battle!?"

The next volume is planned for October 2024

#owari no seraph #english translation #yeah so. please enjoy sensei writing fanfiction about his editors lmao

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hey its the Nigerian anon from earlier, and I haven't read events yet I'm going to wait for more reliable translators to bring it out. For now I've only seen twst Zazu, the other version of the outfits and 'catch the tail'?

Catch the tail sorta reminds me of the annual wrestling festival my community holds as well as the masquerades (these aren't as fun, much more traumatising than it sounds). So it's a good reminder at least

Twst Zazu who I've only seen the design of reminds me of Ambrose the third in a Appearance, I showed my fellow Nigerian parents his design but their first response was 'why was he white' ' and reminded them of the dancing guy in African attire.

The outfits I'm a bit more skeptical on, on one hand they seem to implement traditional fabrics, on the other it seems to be a more sexualised version of it. And frankly I'm not a fan of the fan service.

Thoughts?

[Referencing this post!]

Hello, and welcome back!! ^^ It’s good to know that you’re patiently waiting for quality translations for the ongoing event. Sometimes quick translations can result in misinformation spreading (which I’m sure you’re aware of!).

Only 2 parts of the story are out at the moment, but we’ve already seen some exciting things! A new character, a new environment, and lots of new lore…!! ✨

Wrestling isn’t too big of a thing in my part of the world, but it’s cool to see that it is in other places! These kinds of events bring people out and help a community feel more tightly knit~ I wonder if Catch the Tail took inspiration from similar kinds of wrestling festivals in real life?? Side note: hopefully those masquerades aren’t that bad 😅

I believe our twisted!Zazu is named Kifaji!! He seems to serve a similar role as Zazu did in The Lion King, giving morning reports and overseeing the royal household. He has a sort of angular disposition, I think much less “soft” than Ambrose. I’m glad that TWST isn’t afraid to introduce more elderly characters like Kifaji, Ambrose, and Marja (Epel’s granny); it really helps the world feel more “real” than if they just kept throwing young attractive men at us. Funnily enough, Leona actually has a line in the event where he’s all like, “yeah, as if you common tourists would be allowed to meet the king” (Farena/Falena). It feels like the devs are teasing us with that 😂 They knew how hyped we were for his design to be dropped bdkwbzjNvwjwvwjs

I understand why Kifaji’s skin color may be a little odd to your parents seeing as they don’t have the full context for TWST or the event 😅 The Sunset Savanna does seem to boast a light skinned portion of the population as well (Rook, Ruggie, Sebek’s grandfather before he moved to the Briar Valley)! I believe this is also true of Africa, no?

By the outfits, you mean the alternate versions of the Catch the Tail attire, correct? As I said in my original post, I’m not familiar with African fashion so I’m not really at liberty to speak at length about it. I don’t think my opinion should have a lot of weight on this matter, and I don’t want to step on the toes of anyone that does have something substantial to say about this, so I’ll only be giving very precursory thoughts.

I was giving the originals the benefit of the doubt since it would be virtually impossible to “accurately” represent all of Africa in a single outfit without taking some creative liberties and incorporating elements from various parts of the continent. I feel like the bold colors and patterns have a lot of rich history and culture behind them! However 💦 I’m a little less forgiving with the alts??

I’m fine with the arms being exposed because it serves a practical purpose (the goal of Catch the Tail is to grab the opponent’s mask thing off their head snd that’s probably easier to do without the fabric and jewelry in the way). I don’t know about the exposed midriff though? Maybe I’m just misinformed or misunderstanding something (again, I’m not that educated on African fashion), but it resembles a skintight crop top to me and kind of gives the vibes it was only presented this way to be “hot”. I sort of get it from a business perspective; it’s a gacha game and the companies behind TWST want to make money so some degree of fan service is to be expected. However, I can definitely see why this could read as perhaps insensitive fan service 😔

That being said, I’d like to take this opportunity to say 💦 while I’m flattered that some people want to know my opinions, I would prefer it if I wasn’t asked to give my thoughts on these kinds of very specific cultural things. I don’t feel right talking about it in detail since my own knowledge is limited, and again, I don’t want to misspeak or to talk over those who know better than I do.

#Kifaaji #Kifaji #Farena Kingscholar #Falena Kingscholar #Leona Kingscholar #notes from the writing raven #spoilers #Zazu #The Lion King #twisted!zazu #twst!zazu #Marja Felmier #Ambrose the 63rd #Rook Hunt #Ruggie Bucchi #Epel Felmier #Sebek Zigvolt #question

[zaenaris]

I'm really curious about Kokonui in Bad Toman Futur/Manilla Future, because they never had their closure (or even THE discussion during the fight against Tenjiku) like in the arc that we have now (Inupi who has short hair, when he loves have long hair, it's obvious to know why he cut it) and I'm sure that Koko is aware that Izana/Kisaki knows that Inupi is his weakness. But they seems still close anyway. have you some headcanons about those timelines?

One thing I would have loved to see more in the different present timelines is "how we get there" but since the story is in Takemitchy's pov, of course we don't know lol. In the Manila timeline, Izana was so powerful not even Naoto/the police knew much about him and Naoto never really heard about Tenjiku. I guess the various time-leapings changed many things, before creating the Bonten timeline

Anyway, in the other present timelines, I agree, probably Koko and Inui never got the closure/talk they are having right now in this arc, so I guess it is up to interpretation, we have no evidence either way. Maybe the kept tiptoeing around their problems, or maybe growing up at some point they dealt with them. If we talk about Kokonui fanfictions/fanart set in the Manila timeline (while there aren't so much now that I think about it -or at least, I haven't seen so many - they are usually set in the first "Bad Toman" or in Bonten timeline) I like all the interpretations, maybe at some point became friends with benefits, unable to set their communication problems, or maybe at some point they talked about it, or maybe they never really managed to improve the situation, inadvertently keeping to hurt each other

From what wee have seen in the Manila timeline, they are full fledged criminals, Koko still act as arrogant as ever and Inupi is even more stoic than the first Bad Toman timeline (when they are introduced). I was re-reading the volume recently since it is the last published where I live (and I personally love our translator, but that's not the point lol). The point is Taiju really roasts both Inui and Koko and, while in ch. 133 we still didn't have the full picture about them, re-reading the chapter and knowing their past, you really see Taiju had a point.

So I think the narrative kind of implies in that timeline they had not reach a turning point yet, they were not able to have a conversation like the one they had in the current arc.

So for the sake of spiciness and my love for angst and complicated relationships (lol), If I had to have headcanons on them in this timeline, while again, I'm not really sure and I'd go with pretty much every interpretation, I think they never really dealt with their problems (Inupi with his obsession for the original Black Dragon and Koko with money). They would have the sort of relationship where it's clear they love each other and would die for the other, but the lines are blurred, they are usually together, sometimes they sleep together but they don't really label this "situationship" but it's undeniable there is something between them.

I'm sure Kisaki, that manipulate Izana, and Izana himself, in that timeline were well aware of their relationship, whatever it was (I think it was clear to anyone, even Mucho in the past says it's annoying Koko listens only to Inui) and if needed, they would take advantage of it, to keep both Inui and Koko under control in case of necessity. Of course, this doesn't deny the possibility for them to talk at some point about the whole situation and set their problems. In this timeline the Kantou conflict, that ended with the merger of Toman and Tenjiku,  happened and maybe the fight where Inui and Koko “broke up” didn’t really happened, or happened but differently and it lead to them in the Manila timeline, where maybe their relationship is more complicated than the one in the first Bad Toman (at least, they give me that vibe)

EDIT: i forgot about the first Bad Toman timeline (when they are introduced in the story for the first time as Toman/former BD executives). In that timeline, maybe it’s because we see them during a business dinner, but they really give that “rich and expensive together” vibe. I think the possible scenarios would be pretty much the same as in Manila timeline, but maybe less complicated by the events(whatever they were) in the Kantou conflict

#inukoko #kokonoi hajime #inui seishu #kokonui #tokyo revengers #zae talks about tr

[sweeterthanthis]

Not In That Way

Pairing: Carter Baizen x Female Reader

Word Count: 1.5k

Warnings: Tiny bit of angst, dubcon if you squint, degradation, throat fucking, spit play, vaginal sex, asphyxiation, throat pie. 18+.

A/N: This was supposed to be a drabble for an ask that @buckyownsmylife received, which you can find HERE. But it kinda expanded just a touch. I have never written Carter before and I've never seen GG, so I've no idea if this is even any good. Enjoy 💜

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"I'm sorry, I don't know if I'm hearing this right. You're gonna have to speak up, kitten."

You feel rage searing through your veins, your eyes welling with tears and your fists balled at your sides. Carter Baizen has always been an asshole. You've always been able to see through the preppy, cunning facade, ever since middle school. And he's never bothered to hide it from you. Not you.

He'd never tell anyone that he was sleeping with the shy, quiet, 'virgin'. Too wrapped up in the debutant, pretty, rich boy lifestyle to ever give you anything other than a secretive rendezvous here and there. But it wasn't enough for you anymore, and you hated yourself for loving him. He'd never want you. Not in that way.

"I'm not doing this anymore, Carter. I won't do this anymore," you tell him, voice shaky and unsure. He simply smirks, those bright baby blues sparkling with amusement as he makes his way over to you. 

"Oh, you're not doing this anymore? That's cute, kitten. That's real fucking cute," Carter grins, just feet away, "there's just one tiny problem with that. You don't get to tell me when it's over."

He pinches your chin between his thumb and forefinger, towering over you as he leans in, forcing a sloppy, open mouthed kiss against your lips. You rip your head away in disgust, wiping at your mouth with the back of your hand. It's all for effect though. An act. The flesh of your bare thighs clench together beneath your skirt, shuffling in your seat as slick gathers at your core. 

"You're a fucking asshole," you spit, your teeth chewing at the inside of your cheek as you try to stop yourself from telling him to fuck off.

"I am an asshole, but you love it. Pretty little thing like you? Bet you could get yourself a half decent boyfriend if you tried," he leans in, hands gripping the arms of the chair, "but you don't want that, do you? You're not happy unless you've got a mouth full of my cock, and we both know it."

You hate the way your cunt clenches around nothing, the way your eyes flicker to the prominent bulge straining beneath his slacks. You want to reach for it, feel the weight of it in your palm again, and you hate yourself for that, too. 

"Aww, look at my girl," he coos, patronising you in a way only he can, "big, brave baby came here to break it off with me? And now she can't stop thinking about my cock? Go ahead, you can have it. Just take it."

Every rational brain cell in your head is telling you to sock him in his cocky, smug face. But the part of you inside that's aching to feel him stretch out your mouth again? That part is screaming, itching to take over all coherent thought. 

"I hate you," you whisper, your hands betraying you as you reach for his belt buckle, making slow - yet, light - work of pulling his dick free. You can't help but wet your lips at the sight of it, so perfect in length, a girth that most men his age would give their left arm for, the bulbous crown leaking with precum and twitching against your palm. 

"Look at you. Cock drunk already, and you haven't even had a taste yet," he chuckles, his knuckles grazing your cheek with a faux softness that makes you shudder, "open up for me, kitten."

You don't know why you do it, but you do - shuffling to the edge of your seat and parting your lips, a breathy moan escaping your throat at the first taste of the salty droplets as he rests the tip on your tongue. You look up at him with wide, innocent eyes; a grunt of satisfaction rumbling low in his chest at the sight of you lapping at the head. 

"You act like a good girl, but we both know that once you get your lips around my dick, you're anything but. Suck it," he orders, feeding his length into your mouth slowly, canting his hips when he reaches the back of your throat. 

Your movements are slow and unsure at first, just like always; but the feel of his cock hardening against the roof of your mouth makes you feel powerful. Makes you feel like you're the one in control, because you have the ability to make him whimper and cry for release.

Carter fucks into your mouth, filthy, sloppy sounds as he crams as much of himself down your throat as he can. You gag obscenely, trying to steady your breathing through your nostrils as you hollow your cheeks around his heavy shaft.

"That's it. Fuck, you're so filthy. Always let me fuck that pretty mouth like it's a pussy," he lets out a low whine then, your tongue flat against your chin as you bob your head back and forth, your hand reaching for his warm, smooth sac; twisting his balls gently in your hand, earning a hiss of pleasure from him. 

"There she is. There's my kitten. Always so fucking eager to please me," his fingers tangle in your hair, jerking your head back as you gasp for breath during a moment of reprieve, "you know I love that mouth, but I love that tight cunt a whole lot more. Turn around, ass in the air." 

Spittle dripping from your swollen lips, you scramble to do as he says, your knees resting on the seat and your hands clutching at the mahogany frame. You wince at the sound of material ripping, your ass bare to him as he decimates the barrier preventing him from sliding home. 

"You came here to break up with me, but conveniently forgot to wear panties? Baby, you must think I'm fucking stupid," his fingers dip between your sodden folds, and you shiver when you feel the slick trail of his spit slip down over your asshole, dripping further until it settles between your lips, as if you weren't wet enough already. "You always did go wild over that first stretch, didn't you?"

The noise that leaves your throat as he splits you open is almost primal, your back arching as you push back against him, wanting every last inch of his cock deep inside your fluttering cunt. 

You can barely keep yourself balanced, the chair jerking beneath you, his hand curling around your throat from behind as he yanks your body up to collide with his; knees quaking and your hands reaching for his wrist to steady yourself. 

"You're mine, you understand? We're not done until I say we're done," he growls against your ear, your pulse thumping as the grip on your throat grows tighter, "and maybe I won't let you go at all. Gonna be the perfect little slut for me until I get bored of fucking you."

You sob, pleasure rippling through you as he pounds into you, your heat sucking him in, each thrust of his hips sending you closer to the blissful eruption that you crave so desperately. 

"You gonna come already, kitten? Fuck, feels so good," he breathes, one hand on your waist, guiding you back against him. 

You were. You were so fucking close already, teetering on the edge of sheer euphoria, taking every brutal invasion of his cock with the sweetest of cries. Your pulse thrummed against his fingers, vision blurring from the lack of oxygen and the sensation of his girth fucking you open.

"P-please," you sob, letting your head fall back against his shoulder, your body pliable and his to use as he pleases. 

"Come on, kitten. Come all over my dick," he whispers against your cheek, sharp, insistent juts into you as you shake in his possessive hold. 

Your eyes cross and your toes curl, every muscle in your body tightening all at once, a wave of white hot pleasure crashing over you as you cry out his name, his movements reducing to slow, languid, sloppy thrusts. 

He lets you ride it out, fucks you through the pleasure and pulls every last drop out of you before he's manhandling you, your knees hitting the floor before you can register it. 

"Gonna clean the mess off my cock, shine it up for me and let me empty my balls down that slutty throat,"

You're in a daze, out of it as you jerk his cock into your mouth, lapping up the salty-sweet taste of your cunt from his flesh, his cock throbbing against your tongue as you let the saliva fall freely from the corners of your mouth. You have no shame like this. Not with him. 

"Fuck, kitten, m'gonna come," he grunts, gritting his teeth and holding your head down onto him, nose nestled in the course hair that sits at the base of his cock. 

The muscles of his stomach tighten against your forehead, balls drawing up against your chin and his hot, thick, sticky spend splashing at the back of your bruised, fucked out throat. 

You feel his thumb stroke against the column of your neck as he shakes, curses spilling from his lips as he empties every last drop. 

Carter pulls free of your mouth, and you swallow instantly; humming in dumbstruck contentment at the warmth trickling down your throat. 

"See, kitten. Goes down almost as easy as you did."

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Jikook Dynamics Through The Years: 2014 pt. 2

The posts for pre-debut, 2013 dynamics and part 1 of 2014 can be found in my masterlist as well as I'll link them here for you. This is when I think things start getting more interesting in my opinion. Something important to keep in mind that I'll be sharing moments, AND my personal opinions, along with facts. My opinions are my own. You can agree or disagree. I encourage you to go and check it all out, see this content for yourself as well and form your own opinions during this time frame too. I will be splitting this up into 3 different posts probably to manage the length and be able to add more links/photos in each post. This will be part 2, including some of the moments from May through August in 2014. Part 3 will finish up the year. This is so so long. I'm so sorry!

Starting off on May 1st, a magazine interview is released from Ize Magazine. You can find the translations for the article here. It was a fairly candid interview I think. Definitely worth reading. They had a group interview and then 10 questions to each member. The only part I'll draw attention to IN HERE is the fact that Jimin casually brings up Jungkook often in his interview questions as well as addressing his teasing between 3J where he says that "I always lose when it comes to words, so I've just accepted it. I would appreciate it if they didn't tease me more than they do now." As well as the question where they again ask Jimins thoughts about the maknae ranking him 7th in looks. Jimin talks about how yes its a little hurtful everytime he does this. The other thing I will say is that girls get mentioned in this interview alot since their theme for Boy in Luv and Just One Day is about love. It also gets brought up how they dressed up in women's clothes during Rookie King, and Jimin mentions that he would look pretty as a girl. Jimin has always had a very healthy outlook on what masculinity is, even during this whole tough muscle-y Busan man image he was trying to portray during the early years. This interview just gives another interesting look into their thoughts and dynamics all together as well as the way they tease each other.

On May 5th, they have the K-Poppin radio Interview it is about 36 minutes long if you haven't seen the whole thing yet. The only part I want to draw your attention to though is about 19:30 seconds in. The MC asks them to close their eyes and imagine they could go anywhere in the world with anyone they want. The rest of the members all answer and jikook answer last. Jimin gives his answer which was that he would be looking at the Beach holding hands with Jungkookie. Which set the host off into awkward giggles and the rest of the members cringed just a bit. Lol Jimin just smiled over at JK. He meant that. What is interesting is that the host didn't fully translate that either. She left out the holding hands bit during her translation. You can see the full translation on Twitter though. When asked if JK would also pick the same thing, he said no, that his dream spot would be to go on a trip with his older brother he misses. And right after he says that though, he does reach out and grasp onto Jimins hand. Like a comforting gesture, to reassure him that it wasn't a rejection that JK didn't want to spend time with Jimin, it's just that if he got to wish for anything, would want to see his family, who he does not get to see hardly at all anymore because they are so busy.

Moving right on along to the 140515 at 2 am, we get our next Jikook log! A couple things to point out with this one. Jimin starts the log out being very touchy and doting on JK. Stroking the back of his head, saying it has been a long time since they filmed a log together. Teasing about how "these days, jungkookie..." and for anyone who likes to say that JK is uncomfortable with Jimin being very doting with him, notice how right after that, JM checks in and with and asks if he is okay with all this. JK sort of nods and moves the conversation forward. Jimin smiles and then continues to pet his hair as he talks for a bit. Consent, my friends. They go on to talk about how they have been practicing dance together very hard during their free time. They mention that V would join them occasionally too. And say that they hope to be able to show people how they dance and that they will one day 🥺 its just a very sweet dynamic shown here and also shows that they both similar still spend a lot of time working and practicing together even on their down time too.

Following it up with these adorable photos from the BTS Staff Diary on Facebook. They posted a series of photos of BTS backstage getting ready for their Just One Day performance, including these ones of Jikook giving each other next massages and hanging out. Just very sweet.

On May 21st they are again on the After School Club Show with Eric Nam. This time it's RM, Jimin and Jungkook as guests, not all 7. This is a very cute show, they are worth watching. The boys always seem to have fun and seem very comfortable on this show. We know they formed a friendship with Eric Nam as well too. It's all just quite wholesome. The one thing I want to draw extra attention to in this episode is that 15:30 minutes in, Jimin gets asked if he received anything for his coming of age. The tradition is that you receive roses, perfume and a kiss to celebrate. Jimin said that he did recieve gifts from fans. JK asked if he got a kiss though, Jimin said no and then asked Jungkook for a kiss. This is, I think, the first time Jimin asked him for a kiss.

On the 22nd, HaruHana Magazine was released. Jimin when asked if there is something he wants the members to apologize for on his solo Interview, he brings up that he would like JK to apologize to him for always ranking him last in looks. Again, bringing up that this is something he doesn't totally enjoy as a joke. As an aside, must add that I'm so proud of Jungkookie as a side note here. He again mentions how he STILL wants a tattoo, even after he was told that it left the readers and his fans very unhappy after he mentioned wanting one the first time. And look at him now. He doesn't give AF about the haters

140528, back on the After School Club Show once again with RM, JM and JK. Simply including this link because I think everyone should see these. They are adorable and fun. Cute and touchy through the whole thing. If you haven't seen them yet, please do! As well as on the 28th, in the morning jikook post on Twitter with the caption "let's start the day excitingly"

Throwing this adorable BTB in here of Yoonminkook from 140602. It's just like 100 seconds of sweetness between those 3. Jimin telling us he made them sandwiches the same way his dad used to make them and that JK helped him out a little too. Very cute.

June brings us Festa content! Festa for them kicked off on the 3rd in 2014 with them dropping their Festa profile papers and BH posting on Facebook 1st year (2013) memories photos. It continued until their actual anniversary. I won't discuss all the Festa celebrations, just the few moments I want to draw attention to. We also did get to see eventually a small clip of them all working on these profiles that were shared. Jikook shared a desk while everyone else spread out to their own while writing these Festa profiles:

You can find english translations for all their Festa Profiles in full here. It starts with a group profile and then they each filled out an individual profile for themselves. You should read them all because original content, yay! Context, yay! Plus they are just all very cute. I'll draw attention to certain parts of jikooks here though too. Ill also draw your attention to what was clearly at this point a running joke in the whole group for ranking Jimin last in looks, even though it IS just a joke, one that is insensitive, but they don't MEAN to be harmful or hurtful with it. But this isn't just a JK thing at this point. For example, Yoongi ranking Jimin as 7th in looks and saying that he ties for first with Jin. Only for Yoongi to follow that up by saying truthfully he doesn't find himself attractive. (He is WRONG, but not the point.) Or Hobi ranking Jimin in the middle before crossing it out and putting him last followed by lots if kekekekes. It just shows that they didn't take that ranking seriously and was joking around with it as was common for them at that time.

Jimin's profile points to mention:

He mentions here his Hobby is getting beat up (also read as being teased). He mentions that his Habit is "being attached to Jungkookie." When listing 3 things he likes he says: "Jungkookie, performing, receiving attention." And his 3 things he dislikes is Tae, Jin and Suga (🤣 did they tease too much this day or what?!) The song Jimin wants to recommend is Paper Hearts. Something in photo/video that represents Jimin, he said was the Just One Day MV stopped at 1:23, when he was doing his flip. Jimin ranks the members with RM in first place, himself 2nd, JK third etc. Both jikook praise Jimin for being "shameless" in this profile too. As well as JK adding on to his portion of describing Jimin saying he is also a very hard worker, hates losing and is shameless and timid.

Jungkook's profile points to mention:

The song JK wanted to recommend was Voice by Sweden Laundry because he likes sad songs. The video moment he thinks best represents him is his girl group dances at weekly idol. His rankings for the members was actually very different then how he had been answering in previous videos: RM, Jin, Suga, Hope, Jimin, V and then himself. Did he opt out of this one by doing fanchant order on purpose or was that a coincidence? We aren't JK, so we can't know. Just interesting to note. He also mentions twice in here wanting to be smarter. Jin calls him out on this profile as appearing stern on camera, but that it's almost like a concept because he is really actually bad at refusing requests. Jimins exact translated quote over JKs personality is this: "He’s kind, innocent, and is bad at expressing his feelings. That’s why he’s cute. Jeonggukkie’s mine."

Things that I found interesting here was how often Jimin unprompted brought up Jungkook. Always on his mind it seems like. He also mentions that his hobby is getting teased by the members, which case in point, this 7th in looks running group gag joke. He recommended Paper Hearts, which is a song JK also loves, and one he covers in the future. And here is the basis of the 1:23 theory for jikook too. There are 2 theories for this with both KM and TK (seperate post if we want to get into that more) but Jimin himself links to this number as well FIRST. Just an interesting thing to take note of is all. For JK, in his song Rec, he mentions that he "likes sad songs" so yall stop theorizing over something angst related happening in JKs life everytime he jams to sad music, lol he JUST likes it. His girl group dances define him 😏 and he does NOT rank Jimin in last place, even though that's been the running group joke this Festa. Finally perhaps noticing that maybe Jimin doesn't find the joke as funny as it seemed like he did at first and that it does bother him a bit. Jimins little note for him too, he is soooo fond!

Plently of cute other photos posted for Festa as well, you can find them online if you want to. I'll skip past them and a few other cute interviews from this time period and get right to the 13th, debut day, and their circle talk video that they post every year. This was the first! And it's adorable. Please watch it if you haven't seen it yet, they were SO young! Lots of moments worth talking about between ALL of them really

But I'll draw attention to a few jikook moments and then move on. Lol 15:40 minutes in, they start teasing JK about how he needs to sleep in his own bed, RM mentions finding him the other night in Jimins bed. 18:30, Jimin asks why all his papers are about his looks. Suga, Jin and JK all say its because he is too handsome. Then Suga mentions Jimin getting ranked 7th in looks twice by JK and gives him the opportunity to do his own ranking. I just wanna mention how cute the rappers were when he ranked them highly. Lol he ranks himself first and JK last in a bit of a retaliation. The members tease him a bit for ranking himself in first place too. It is put out there as a funny joke, but it just is a little awkward to watch. I'm so glad they eventually let this whole thing go in the future. 29 minutes in they are all teasing Jimin about showing off his abs on stage. Suga ask him to show off his flirty side right now, and JK adds on to that "Please show us your abs right now." 😂 overall just a lot of Jimin making JK laugh, giggling, eye contact and smiles at each other through different stories.

On the 14th, the members are on the MBC True Colors Radio show. It is spilt into 4 parts of the video that has English subs. You can watch them here.... Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 and Part 4.

In this video the main thing I want to talk about is that this is one of the first times they are asked about what their ideal types of girls are in an interview. Which is a question that continually gets brought up over the next year or so too. JK here answers someone who is "tall with white skin." And this is the first of the ever changing answer about what JKs ideal type of girl is, almost like he doesn't really know and is making things up on the spot 😅 Jimin answers that he likes "cute girls" and that he gets attracted by weird and silly charms. (Ahem...) The other part I'll bring up is that when they are all asked individual questions, Jimin gets asked "when you are troubled, who are you with and where would you want to go?" Jimin answers first that when he feels troubled, he is with his other members. The hosts tease and say that he can't just say all his members or his parents. So Jimin then says that he would want to go on a trip alone with Jungkookie, because he thinks Jungkook is cute. He also then teased about how when he said this at the last radio show, JK didn't want to go on the trip. Lol JK looked a little shy during this whole exchange.

Then we have a cute BTB of an overactive Jimin trying to repeatedly film a very shy Jungkookie, calling him pretty, cute and attractive the whole time. Before joking around with his hyungs filming the rest of them too for an "ugly person special." Sigh.... boys... lmao JK was sooo shy about all the compliments though

And we are ending June with JK tweeting out a photo of Jimin sleeping on the 30th, they are currently in LA at this time. They just got there the day before on the 29th to film AHL. (Which we had this BTB posted of them on the plane for that trip to LA. As well as this blog post of them and what they did on the plane ride.) The caption reads "Jiminie hyung is sleeping beside me, but he is snoring :( he's really loud, he seems really tired... hoho" it's cute lol

A cute little bomb of jihope dancing together and then jikook dancing together at the end too backstage. This was a BTB posted on the 4th but was clearly taken from before they were in LA. The first videos of July. Lol BTS singing Eyes, Nose, Lips and giggling lots. At the very end, 4 minutes in, both Jimin and then Tae get up in JKs face as he passionately sings along to the song for the camera. What's interesting is that our next bangtan bomb also is JK signing the same song. And what we started to get a glimpse of the first time, we get fully here. Jimin seems to very much so enjoy watching JK sing this so passionately. JK smiling so big watching as Jimin danced to his vocals too. I think the video speaks for itself honestly. Jimin, you look like you are feeling a lot of feelings here. Lol Posted 140713.

Small vmin BTB interlude to showcase that while Jimin may not have loved the look rankings joke, he did embrace it, as they all did with some of the not so great jokes before they matured more and left that type of humor behind them. Plus it's a silly and cute little video of vmin having a blast and a rapline appearance.

The first 2ish weeks of July were spent filming American Hustle Life, which you can find the full episodes with eng subs on YouTube and other places if you haven't seen them yet. There is a lot going on. Lol jikook were often in the same team. And even when they weren't, they were super sweet together. Its VERY clear while watching that they were extremely close this year. Many mentions of how they get each other, understand how the other is feeling. I could make a whole post over jikook in AHL honestly. Jimin pulling JK back on the sidewalk away from cars. Behind the scenes photos showing them pretty consistently hanging out next to each other. After the horrible kidnapping break, there is a whole cut where Jimin ends up next to JK when they were all feeling very nervous and anxious, ending up so that Jimin was sitting with the maknae. The only 2 who changed were Jimin and Yoongi. So it was clearly not a shuffle up, but a decision. I have a post about that moment already here. Giving JK encouragement during the dance battle by saying to tease the other guy like he does to Jimin, JK "defending" Jimin by challenging the other dance after he pushed Jimin during their battle. When JK hurt himself trying to do a flip during the dance battle, Jimin sat on the floor next to him for a while, even as everyone else did their own thing too after making sure he was okay. Jimin encouraged him, saying he did a great job, making sure he wasn't hurting too bad and not letting him be too embarrassed over his mistake. Constantly comforting him by being near him too. The way JK looked half enthralled and half amused by Jimin trying on the women's hanbok, telling him he looked pretty in it too. When asked about his time on AHL later, Tony (one of their show hosts and friend) explained how close they (the members) all were to each other and said how he once walked into the room to see Jimin giving JK an intimate back massage and how it was normal behavior between all of them. This just gave us a glimpse that off camera, in more day to day type things and in general, they are much closer than we would probably think. Jimin here was already being associated with a safe haven for JK I think. The advertisements for AHL were released in Augsut, but obviously taken while filming the show which included this one of jikook, which brings me to what was clearly the same day of Jimin giving QUITE the similar look to JK during the Nose eyes lips BTB. It's giving me a crush that goes both ways vibes....

On the 23rd of July, this behind the scenes for a photoshoot from Oricon Style is posted and during rhe group shoots, JK tries wrapping Jimin up in hugs for the photos, with Jimin giggling and trying to push him off before they all are acting silly for the camera together.

On the 25th they flew out to Germany to start the process of shooting/filming for the NOW 2 DVD, which you can find my thoughts over that DVD here. On the 30th, while they were in Sweden at that time I believe, JK posted this photo of him, Jimin and Jin to Twitter.

August kicks off with this Bangtan Bomb. I'm including it even though it's mostly Vhope focused. It has a very minor moment, when Tae walks over to film their little funny song moment with Jimin, then JK where we see how close they are sitting together. Not doing anything. Jimin looks like he is talking with a stylist and JK is dozing off in the other chair with a juice box. Lol but his chair is behind Jimins as close as it can be. Just goes to show that again, off camera, we already see them tend to just be together often. Just sitting near each other even though there is plently of space otherwise, JK still wanted to be sitting literally right next to Jimin.

On the 8th, JK tweets the cutest jikook selca with the caption "we will go and come back from America well. Jiminie hyung will take care of me well." He has his chin tucked over Jimins shoulder in the cutest little pose. With a responding tweet from Jimin with a plane selca of him with JK in the background and his caption reads, "I'll decide whether or not I'll take care of you well depending on how you act. Keke I'll be going now! I'll really turn off my phone now!" They are so cute, I swear.... pretty sure they were heading to LA here for the NOW 2 filming. They returned to Korea on the 12th.

Followed up by this beautiful BTB released rhe next day which cracks me up always. I think it speaks for itself too. Vmin singing and jamming. JK sings along with them, spots a ball, takes it around back and very deliberately lines it up to hit V. Who in turn hops up ready for playtime mischief only for JK to immediately run and snag his spot next to Jimin and stay there to sway back and forth signing with him. Lmao if he wanted to sit with them, he could have. If he wanted to sit next to Jimin, he could have done that too. But no, he took the extra step to distract and entice Taehyung away so that he could take over that free time hang out jam session with Jimin instead. Lol this reeks of teenager with a crush behavior. You can't change my mind.

Jimin on the 12th, the day they returned to Korea posted this selca of jikook to fancafe. So we got a selca from JK as they left and one from Jimin when they returned 🥺 this was taken after Jimin tried on the women's hanbok in LA during AHL. Same outfits and they are clearly in the same shop. Super cute

On August 16th, BTS did an Interview in Naver Starcast over their concepts for Dark and Wild. JK hosted the interview himself with all his hyungs too. You can watch the full video below. And it's... something. Lol the full things is very cute and seeing his interactions with all his hyungs and the difference in behavior too. It's cute. JK asked Jimin for his question to pick one member who does not fit the concept of Dark and Wild very well and one who does. Jimin said the member who does NOT fit the concept well is actually Jungkook. The reason being because he is too cute. And then he continues to say it's because he is very cute... and too charming. And that "I can't live because of you." JK replies with asking the fans to text or comment their vote. Reply with a 1 for Jimin or a 2 for Jungkook over who fit the concept better. And they giggled over it. Jimin claiming that he fit the concept the best. I think Jimin wasn't lying here when he said that he can't live lately because of Jungkook. Lmao I think this refers to not only finding him insanely cute, I think it also refers to the constant teasing too. I don't think this is a confession of feelings. I don't think Jimin knows or understands his feelings at this point past finding himself wanting to be around and spend more and more time with Jungkook and finding the maknae very very cute and feeling drawn to him. I think part of the "not letting me live" part is part of perhaps a confusion over how much he is drawn to the maknae and a need to explore those feelings more deeply. Aka: The start of a crush.

JK later posted to Twitter in reference to their poll over who fit the concept best. His post read "Jimin hyung. Hyung, you'll be able to beat me through getting lots of votes from ARMYs who like hyung's cuteness. If hyung wins, buy me something tasty please.... keke Jiminie hyung fighting!" This was after their brief back and forth exchange about how JK will probably win under the offical post from their company asking fans to vote on the poll. Lol you can find that exchange here with Jimins first reply, and then JKs reponse.

On the 19th, Starcast released exclusive backstage photos of BTS in the waiting room and rehearsal stage before their Dark & Wild Showcase and MV release. You can see all the photos in the link attached and my personal favorite though because what kinda stretching is this jikook?! Lmao

On the 20th, Dark & Wild is finally officially released! As well as the company released behind the scenes photos from shooting the MV. I'll link a post with all those photos here. Please check them out! What I find interesting is how everyone has their solo scenes high lighted in these photos. And how it's truly SOLO scenes. They are filming by themselves. Except for Jimins scene. Where we see JK watching him shoot his scenes with the punching bag the whole time and even taking photos and recording him himself too. He doesn't do this for any of the other members. This is seen again when the making films are released where we saw that he came up to give Jimin a hug after he finished shooting a different scene too. JK while watching Jimin boxing seemed... very impressed. Lol

The 22nd, JK tweets out a cute selca of Himself with Jimin, his chin propped up on his hyungs shoulder, very cute. Basically just saying they will see ARMY tomorrow and they are going to bed now, etc. On the 24th we have the Inkigayo comeback stage introduction (side note to swoon over Minimoni with the rapping and the high note please) and there is .... a lot of arm muscle touching from JK. Lol video is only 55 seconds long and he squeezes Jimins arm randomly at least 3 times.

August 26th, BTS again appear as OT7 on the After School Club Show with Eric Nam. Again, worth watching just for the joy of seeing BTS have fun together and be silly. I just wanna point out that around 42 minutes in, a fan tells Jimin that she loves him and she is wearing the Bulls jersey just for him and because he wore it (we see him wear it a couple different times, one of the most notable though being in the first NOW DVD during their sports shoot.) And JK comments afterwards that the jersey is actually his lol and Jimin turns around to look at him and laugh before giving hearts to the fan and returning her love.

On the 27th, Oricon Style Magazine posts their interview about their Japanese debut. It's very cute, all their silly interactions. Jimin gets teased a bit and he replies with saying that when all the hyungs tease him and Jungkookie immediately joins in that he feels wronged and attacked (he says this in a way that I take jokingly and with laughter). JK tells him not to be too upset by it immediately after. Lol brings me back to the "I tease hyung because I like him too much" moment from Rookie King.

Backstage video from Mnet countdown. Lmao once again, Jimin asking for kisses from Jungkook and teasing him saying it's as a "thank you" JK not having it and pushing him away, but smiling hard the whole time he does it. Lol and Jin cracking up too.

JK posted to Twitter saying ARMY wanted a group photo so they quickly took one. Jikook sitting next to each other at dinner. As well as noticing that JK is wearing his Bulls jersey, the one he pointed out was his after the fan wore it because she thought it was Jimins during the After School Club Show linked above.

And we end the month (and this post) with the Hanryu Pia Magazine Vol. 8 (August Edition) Released. Which contained a joint interview with Jimin and JK. It was probably one of the simultaneously cutest and most awkward interviews ever. Lmao translation posted below and I hope some of the awkwardness comes from the multiple translations through language it went through to where its not quite as accurate as it probably could be, but the gist of the message is there and correct:

★JIMIN

Name: JIMIN /  Birth Name: Jimin Park / DOB: October 13, 1995 / Blood Type: A /   Position: Vocal, Dance and Performance. / Fun fact: JIMIN’s parents wished him to be a prosecutor or lawyer.

★JUNG KOOK

Name : JUNGKOOK / Birth Name: Jungkook Jeon  / DOB: September 1, 1997 / Blood Type: A / Position: Rap and Dance. / Fun fact: JUNGKOOK dances well to female idols’ songs.

JUNG KOOK

「I used to cry a lot but I don’t anymore.」

JIMIN

「JUNG KOOK LOVE! We wake each other up in the morning.」

Bromance between JIMIN and JUNGKOOK – JIMIN’s love for JUNGKOOK and his reluctance yet acceptance of it were constantly shown throughout the interview. It seems like JIMIN just cannot get enough of JUNGKOOK!?

JIMIN We should definitely come up with a name for ourselves. Say..『In between love and friendship』?

JUNG KOOK (Reluctantly) Yeah.. why not.

JIMIN No it’s not like that. It’s a bromance! BROMANCE! Don’t misinterpret!

JUNG KOOK No one did. (Laughs)

JIMIN Good to know. So am I being a good bro to you?

JUNG KOOK Every time you ask me “What’s up” whenever I feel down, I think you are definitely being a good bro.

JIMIN Because I take good care of my loved ones.

JUNG KOOK (Laughs) You definitely cheered me up when I was down for not being able to see my parents.

JIMIN There was this time when I heard a sniffle while working out in the kitchen. So I went in to tease you about being a crybaby but you were really crying.

JUNG KOOK You cried too.

JIMIN ME?

JUNG KOOK Don’t act like you don’t remember. I saw you sobbing on your bed~

JIMIN Whatever~! Still, you are the BTS’ crybaby.

JUNG KOOK It’s because I’m very emotional! But I don’t anymore. And it’s not me, it’s J-HOPE

JIMIN For sure. He’s like a dam that needs to be fixed.  (Laughs)

JUNG KOOK Going back to the interview.. what’s the topic of the day?

JIMIN Right..! Today’s topic is friendship. This is such a perfect topic for us since we share everything and even wake each other up in the morning.

JUNG KOOK (In a subdued tone) You didn’t this morning.

JIMIN You mean you wanted me to? (Pokes JUNGKOOK’ arms)

JUNG KOOK Yeah, I almost slept in.

JIMIN Aww.. you should’ve told me. We honestly have so much in common. We are always sleepy, timid, hate to lose but most of all, WE LOVE TO DANCE!

JUNG KOOK We also study Japanese together.

JIMIN The only thing is I am all about “JUNGKOOK LOVE” but you are not. (Sniffles)

JUNG KOOK That’s not true, I like you too!

JIMIN REALLY!? You really LIKE me?

JUNG KOOK Sure I do. The only difference between you and I is that you tend to focus on one thing while I juggle things around. We both work hard but just a bit different in that sense.

JIMIN It’s just that I can’t multitask. Once I start on something, nothing comes to my mind. That’s why you’re so awesome since you can juggle things around like singing, dancing, drawing, playing guitar and studying Japanese.

JUNG KOOK But I always end up being okay at it instead of perfecting it.

JIMIN I even LOVE those qualities about you~ (Hugs JUNGKOOK)

JUNG KOOK GO AWAY~~! It’s too hot!

The awkward insistence on showing how much they love each other yet it NOT being romantic. The amount of times the word bromance was used. Lol you don't see other duos being a little panic-y over a possible misinterpretion of their feelings for their friend. It's giving me "it's the friendship" vibes. We are so close and love each other so much, but don't misunderstand, it's just bro things. They mention again how similar they are and how often they do things together. And we see again that JK has come to expect certain things and treatment from Jimin that he doesn't expect from his other hyungs. He seemed genuinely a little hurt that Jimin didn't wake him up that morning. We don't see these same type of feelings expressed towards his other hyungs like Jin. And we know Jin has taken responsibility for waking JK up and making sure he is moving often too. Yet there are no hurt feelings of "you weren't there" when he doesn't do it. It's giving off "you are just in the room next door but I still miss you" vibes. As awkward as this interview is, it's clearly showing again how much time they seem to spend together OFF camera. And Jimin is always encouraging JK and hyping him up. It's very sweet. Ending with JK again reminding Jimin and everyone else too, that yes, of course he likes Jimin. Like I said, equal parts adorable and awkward this interview.

This whole summer is giving me awkward discovering your feelings, developing a crush and not knowing wtf to do about it vibes. From both of them, who went about it in very different ways. I honestly don't even think they are aware that these feelings are what they are. I think they are working through feeling attracted, wondering why they are so drawn to the other. Passing it off as being best friends while understanding that it's probably not the same as they feel for their other friends. Maybe not quite knowing why yet. It's the self exploration and it's honestly all a little awkward at times. Lol and I also think it's clear neither really seems to know how the other feels either, and are still working on maybe understanding their own feelings. While I am seeing all this, the overall general vibes I'm getting from them first and foremost this year is friendship, and a lot of Jimins doting on JK I do think comes from JK being his only dongsaeng, aka the maknae, and Jimin wanting to be a good hyung for him. Being a good hyung was and is something that was important to Jimin. It's clear to me that whatever else they might be starting to feel, their friendship is important to both of them and is put first ahead of anything else they might be feeling or wondering about.

Regardless, it's also very obvious that once again, Jimin and Jungkook are just getting closer and closer and closer. They clearly spend their minimal free time together when they can, and practice and work out together all the time and spend extra time practicing together too. Its clear they find a lot of enjoyment spending time together and their friendship is clearly flourishing. It's all very cute and very sweet. They are so cute this year and so young. JK is still a minor and Jimin just came of age this year too. They've got a lot going on with the group as well. Lol and the end of this year is very sweet too! I'll finish that up in part 3! Thanks to anyone who actually read this whole thing. Lmao I know it's long as heck!! 💜

#jikook #kookmin #jikook in 2014 #jikook 2014 #jikook dynamics in 2014 #jikook dynamics #my personal opinions

[bedlamsbard]

If you've watched it yet, what are your thoughts on WandaVision? If you haven't, have a good evening and I hope your weekend gives you a chance to relax!

I did a full rewatch recently! I actually watched it more or less as it came out last year -- I think I watched the first five episodes at once, then the others as they came out. I went in...mostly blind, tbh? Before last year I hadn't kept up with the MCU since 2014 (I had only seen three MCU films that came out after TWS, which was when I more-or-less topped watching); I'd never actually seen Wanda or Vision in anything, which was an interesting way to experience it for sure, but I am really good at putting contextual clues together to work out previous occurrences. I don't have super strong feelings about Wanda or Vision as characters and I also don't necessarily have very strong feelings about it as part of the MCU or whatever Phase Four's Plan is. (I suspect with Phase Four I'm going to need to see the whole thing to figure out how I feel about it as a whole.)

But I did enjoy it a lot. I think it did some really clever things; it was explicable to me as someone who was barely familiar with any of the characters involved, which, considering the MCU, is not a given. I think it will be interesting to see what happens from there (which is kind of a Phase Four problem, tbh, it's not unique to WV). It did make me care about the characters and I'm pretty sure I cried a couple of times (I cry at everything, though). I'm really impressed by how well they hit the specific speech/environment tones for each sitcom decade, especially once we got into the eras that I am familiar from growing up with them ('90s and '00s); that was very definitely, like, full body sudden flashback. I don't have like really serious thoughts on it because I don't really care strongly about anyone involved and it does kind of feel like set-up (which is a huge Phase Four problem), but I liked it and I'd watch it again.

also a friend of mine actually consulted on the Latin for Agatha's flashback -- way back in the Before Times, someone from the production staff e-mailed the classics department at my university asking for help and included some truly terrible Google Translate Latin and my friend (who was a VAP at the time) and at least one other prof in the department changed it to make it accurate, so that Latin: it's accurate. When that episode aired, Disney sent them a bunch of WandaVision swag. (I don't think they're actually credited, because I've gone through the credits for that ep a few times and I've never seen their names.) So...that happens when you live in Atlanta, where Marvel does a bunch of their production. I have soft spot for WandaVision for that reason. (Ant-Man and the Wasp also filmed at my university, and Hawkeye filmed at the university I'm adjuncting at right now. Loki somewhat infamously filmed at the Marriott Marquis downtown. A number of other Marvel films have been filming here -- I think Black Panther 2 is right now but not around where I am -- but those are the ones who have filmed in places I've been. Well, the infamous airport fight in CACW too. Hashtag just Atlanta things lol.)

#stormwind13 #bedlam replies #bedlam watches the mcu

[earthbovndmisfit]

I hope this isn't too weird of a message to send, but doesn't it seem like Jonawagon doujinshi are pretty uncommon? I've only seen maybe 3 posted online & I have a copy of a SpeedJona doujin but aside from those I haven't come across any. Is it like a rare pairing or something? I thought they were fairly popular

It isn’t weird at all, anon! All the opposite actually, cause I love getting asks even if i'm not always around or it sometimes takes me a hot minute to get to them gfjhkjh

This is gonna be long and probs gonna have bits that might sound rant-ish to some, but I hope that’s alright! :'D

For starters, sadly, jonawagon/jonaspeed/speedjona or however you call the ship is quite an underrated ship. This has to do partly with the wrong perceptions some folks have built around it and around the characters as well (that them both and the couple itself are the epitome of "purity" and "innocence", sometimes even labelling them as "boring" as a result even though both characters are far from that, that "it could only be a one-sided thing" on Spw's end despite both showing and sharing a certain bond/closeness towards each other -closeness that sometimes Jonathan didn't show towards anyone else-, etc), partly because of the many timeskips in PB and all the scenes the anime cut out and people wrongly assuming that the main events happened in the span of a few days and thus people dropping the ball on the ship/characters when Jonathan and Speedwagon actually knew each other for as long -sometimes even longer- than other more popular characters/ships in jjba did, partly because neither Jonathan or Speedwagon are as popular as other characters in the franchise as a whole, and also partly because, as sad as it is to say this, the ship lacks a LOT of support, especially from it's own fanbase. While jonawagon is a popular and well liked ship overall (in the sense that even general fans who don't care much about shipping, or those who are still on the fence about mlm ships, or those who just don't actively ship jonawagon actually like and support the ship or the idea of it upon seeing the actual dynamics between the characters and their potential and the fact that the ship can actually coexist with jonaeri without altering the characters/making them ooc, nor altering the story and so on), it still lacks a lot of support from it's fans. I often see most other ships/characters get lots of reblogs and exposure from their fans on literally any and all platforms, helping those ships/characters reach new audiences and gaining more popularity and drawing interest from potential new fans, while jonawagon stuff as well as solo Jonathan or Speedwagon stuff usually only get likes and a few reblogs at most from their fans, which is nice and all, but it doesn't give the artists/writers any exposure nor get those works or the ship any farther than that and just keeps them within part of the already existing fanbase at best, which often times makes the artists/content creators lose interest in continuing to create stuff for the ship/characters. This is also why I always strongly ask -almost beg at this point ngl- for people to support the artists/writers/etc via reblogs!! The ship having a bunch of different names also might have an impact on all of this, as it's not always as 'easy' to tag/find contents if you don't know how to tag/search for it. Jonawagon (normally used in the western parts of the fandom), JonaSpeed/SpeedJona (Western version of the ship's most popular names in Japanese: ジョナスピ/スピジョナ or JonaSupi/SupiJona respectively], SpeedStar (a name that became a bit more popular more recently after a mini jonawagon event in 2019), being the most common ones afaik, asides from the standard JonathanxSpeedwagon/SpeedwagonxJonathan ie and others. In short, Jonathan and Speedwagon as well as jonawagon are quite well liked and even popular to an extent, but they lack a massive amount of support from the fans, which also usually translates into artists and content creators for this ship losing interest in continuing to create new material for it and thus end up not making any more contents.

In regards to doujinshi more specifically, I’m a bit disconnected when it comes to Jojo doujinshi in general, but it seems to be a bit like that for most of the non "crazy popular" Jojo ships if you ask me, which is kinda normal considering the massive amount of characters in the whole series. Putting my experience as example, if it helps, I used to collect doujinshi from one of my previous fandoms, which had a shit ton of them for plenty of it’s ships and it was somewhat easy to acquire hard copies of despite it being an “old anime” basically while most Jojo doujinshi (especially anything that is not parts 3, 4 and 5) seems to be a bit hard to come across regardless of the ship(s) in them, even in auction sites or places like pixiv that sell digital copies if the author puts them up on sale, which is understandable since the aforementioned parts are some of the most popular parts in Japan, where most doujinshi is created, and thus take most of the fandom's interest -authors’ and readers’ alike-, as well as the hype for parts like Phantom Blood being long dead (with it being dead/dormant since the original airing of the anime ended in 2013, and it coming back ocassionally whenever there's a 'special' re-airing of PB in Japan or when events such as the Joestar Radio take place), so maybe my parameters on the whole subject are somewhat disproportionate?

This is also gonna sound all boomer-like, but I’ve also noticed, or it seems to me at least (still in comparison to the doujinshi from my previous fandom), that doujinshi books as we knew them aren’t /as/ common nowadays as they used to be a while back. Even the works themselves don’t seem to be much that way either. For example, doujinshi anthologies used to be a big thing a while back and, while they still exist, they don’t seem to be too common anymore (these worked as "promo books" of sorts for all the artists featured and they also helped lesser known/popular artists and ships to get some exposure to newer audiences). Nowadays such thing still exists, and I actually recall seeing a Jonaspeed/Speedjona anthology being made “recently” (recently as in 2019, if I’m not mistaken? it was published and sold during the mini Jonaspeed event they held at a Jojo con in Japan that year), but they aren’t nearly as common as they used to be, since now most artists can post any samples they want (much more reduced tho, cause you normally get a few pages instead of a full mini story) in places like Twitter or Pixiv. And it’s kinda the same with regular doujinshi. Before, most doujinkas had to publish a book in order to get their stuff out and get some exposure, so they were always working on new stories and making new books to sell and promoing their stuff, sometimes one after the other and even creating multi-volume stories in some cases. Now, thanks to how "easy" it is to get some exposure on social media, it’s much more common to see doujinkas for any ships/characters making short stories (1-4 pages, sometimes more) or just 1 page illustrations instead and posting them on their social media every now and then as a promo for their works. They also still make and sell their books (a few jonawagon artists on twitter do, at least), and these short stories/illustrations serve to boost their works instead, which is not a complain at all cause I think it's amazing tbqh! But this also translates into less stories/doujinshi being created as many of these artists often opt for leaving those stories that years ago would have been their own book or a mini story in a book as a prompt or a short story only.

As for actual jonawagon doujinshi, while it is not as common as say pt 3 doujinshi, there is quite a bunch of it. Some date from 2012-2013 (when the PB anime was originally aired), some are much older than that and some others are much more recent (as there are still some active jonawagon doujinkas around). There are also "fanfic books" that are also considered doujinshi and that seem to be a thing sometimes, but these contain little to no art at all and are usually written 100% in Japanese. The problem here is that not many of them have been scanlated/translated yet, sometimes because they aren't easy to find on sale online, sometimes because re-sellers who do have them set high prices for them plus shipping costs, sometimes because the artists/online shops won't sell stuff overseas, sometimes because those who do own doujinshi copies don't always know how to properly share them (since scanning a doujinshi in high or decent quality without destroying the book can be hard af) among other reasons.

All that said, there is a bunch of jonawagon doujinshi that has been scanned and is available online! but it can be tricky to get sometimes due to the different names this ship can go by and because of the "translations" of said names into different languages (as some doujinshi can only be found in Chinese sites, or Russian ones, and so on for example, so it can take some serious time to figure that out and have a successful search).

In all honesty, anon, I'm a dumdum and I had never thought about doing so in a more public manner until now, since I've already shared my entire jonawagon collection (pics, doujins, etc) with friends who have requested it more privately, but I can upload the doujins I have scans of if anyone's interested?? (I’d post the links where I found most of them but since my hd is pretty much dead and I can’t access Windows or my windows/mozilla profile, I’ve p much lost all my old bookmarks). They were only like... 8 last time I checked (9/10 if you count the Japanese and English versions of the "Joestarsaaaaan" one), but it's something :D Just be aware that some of them are nsfw! and that a couple are either part of a book that has stories from other ships in them (I only have the jonawagon parts tho) or contain other ships implied or openly shown in the jonawagon story.

I also have about 4 more, but the scanlator of one of them openly requested for the file to not be reuploaded, so Idk if it'd be alright to share it? (and they also deactivated their blog, so there's no way to ask them for permission). The other 3 are scans a friend sent to me of their own doujinshi copies, so I also don't know if it would be okay for me to post them?? (i haven't seen this friend in over a year so idk gfhgjkjlkñ). 2 of those 3 are nsfw.

#long post #super long actually oof #sorry about that #i tried to make this shorter #i swear #orz #anonymous

[bisexy-legend]

Okay, I've spent the last 24 hours reading a book called "The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo" I don't know if it's famous on Tumblr or anything but I just felt the need to come here and talk about it and maybe introduce this book to more people.

First thing first I have to say that even though I discovered it just two day ago it's already one of my favorite books ever, I'm gonna start with a spoiler free review:

When I started it I knew I liked the concept, a Hollywood star searching for a journalist who had no relevance whatsoever and wanting to talk to her and only her about her life and hidden secrets, when Evelyn started to talk about her life I knew I liked the way the book was been written, how easy it was to see all the things Evelyn was describing, how complex every character was getting with every chapter and by the time her story was over I was completely in love with most of them, with how complex and full os nuances the author made them. It's intriguing how we already know or think we know how it ends but then it takes a completely different turn and to be honest by the end I really wished Evelyn Hugo was a real person and that I could talk to her.

From now on there will be spoilers so if you didn't read it and want to do so without spoilers stop here

I have to say I already knew there would be a lgbt story in the book, cause the indication of it came from a thread in which there were only books with Queer characters but also I had no idea that it would be as impacting for me as it turned out to be.

As a bisexual woman myself I was truly in love when Monique asks if Evelyn is coming out as gay woman cause she told her she was in love with Celia and Evelyn tells Monique that she's bisexual, that she loved both men and women and that Monique shouldn't ignore half of her just to put her in a box, the feeling of being ignored just so people can understand you easily is real.

I also loved how her bisexuality was never ignored she loved Celia her whole life, but she loved men too, and not for once she fit the "bisexuals are greedy" stereotype, yes she had sex with guys when she was with Celia, but it was shown as a characteristic of her, she didn't do it because she was bi, she did it because for her it was something that needed be done, either to keep their secrets or to have a baby without raising questions about their secrets.

One other point I really loved was the "multiple soulmates" thing, Celia was her soulmate, the love of her life, but Harry was her best friend, also her soulmate but in such a different way, when I started the book I never, not for a second, thought that their relationship would be so pure and that I would ended up loving Harry and the way he was so kind to her her whole life.

Celia St. James gained my heart the very first time she appeared, I loved how honest she was with Evelyn, how Evelyn who didn't trust a living soul ended up trusting her and their relationship was built with so many layers since the beginning, Celia was not a pure angel, she was just as complex as any other character in this book, I loved how idealistic she was, how she wanted to go to the Stonewall riots, how she never wanted to hide who she was, how when things got too much she actually left Evelyn, it broke my heart, but I also understood her choices, Celia loved Evelyn her whole life too, she was sometimes scared with Evelyn being bisexual, which also broke my heart but in the end when she says "we are gay" and then corrects herself with "I'm gay and you are bisexual", honestly I would read another book just with her and Evelyns stories, and if I could make one single change in the book would be the years they lost being apart, I cried my eyeballs out when they talk about it.

Then there's Evelyn Hugo who honestly is one of the most beautifully written characters I ever read, she was shown as a real person, not a good or bad person, she was a real person dealing with choices, some she got right, some she didn't, she's not type of protagonist I was aused to, she is not a silly girl who didn't understood the things she did, she knew what she wanted she went after it, she never say she was sorry, I didn't like her very much in the beginning maybe cause that is not the kind of female characters we are "supposed to love" but oh god did Evelyn Hugo conquered my heart fast, as a young girl conquering Hollywood or as a old woman advising Monique, I loved every part of her character, sure she made a lot of bad choices, she wasn't inocent person or as she said herself "a good person", but I understood her, I respected her so much, and to be honest, if she was a real person I would like to sit down and talk to her about everything.

Evelyn and Celia's relationship was my favorite surprise, I didn't think it would go as they did, I cried when they got married in their bed cause I knew what would happen next, the book never for once tried to deceive the reader, everyone Evelyn loved was dead, so it was a matter of time, but it was more heartbreaking than I anticipated, I loved how soft Evelyn was with Celia, how she kept the soft only for her, how even with the many tribulations I thought till the very end that their love was one of the most pure things I ever read, how they trade little messages in their Oscar acceptance speechs and how they loved each other even when they hadn't seen each other for years, how all they want to be able to live like a normal couple, I thought of how many people back then had to go through the same thing as they did, how many are going through it now, and my heart was even more broken.

I must say that I searched for every possible connection between Evelyn and Monique, and when the accident was mentioned I knew what was the big secret, but it wasn't less shocking when Evelyn said it to her, I was pleased surprised when she said that she did it for Monique to know how much she was loved, this and the letter I did not see coming, during the book I thought what part would Monique chose to put in the article, but I never thought she would put that Evelyn loved Celia and yet it felt so incredibly fit, she honored Evelyn even though she was still mad at her, as she said Evelyn loved Celia and that was the most real thing in her life, she had seven husbands and that was widely known but the thing she valuable the most was her wife.

I maybe liked this book way too much, maybe I saw a little bit of myself in every character, in the way Evelyn tried to hide who she was, in Celia want to be with the woman she loved consequences be damned, in the way Harry was realistic about the whole thing, this is definitely a must read for everyone, I'm not quite over it yet, I wrote this long ass post about it and I haven't even said all my thoughts about it, to me this book was precious and I loved the experience it gave me, I ended it crying like a baby but also, very satisfied with how it ended and just wanting badly that it ended up becoming a movie someday but without changing anything, not one single line, I don't know if anyone will ever come to the end of this post but if you do, please share with me your thoughts about this book, it wasn't been officially translated to Portuguese so I don't know anyone who read it, and I can't introduce it to most of my friends cause they don't speak or understand English and I could really use a friend to vent out about this book.

#the seven husbands of evelyn hugo #evelyn hugo #celia st james #my heart it's stil aching for this book #lgbt #lgbt literature #book review #booklover #books #book recommendations #must reads #mustread #please if you have the chance #ever #read this book #if you're a #bisexual #then it's even more important #that you read it #it's amazing #they actually say the B word #a lot

[punkscowardschampions]

Rio & Nancy

Rio: If you wanna head home 'fore nan and granddad are ready, you can always have a lift back with us Nancy: Thanks Nancy: I'm in no rush though Rio: Having a good time then? Nancy: Sure Nancy: It's not a classroom, I'll take it Rio: Yeah, I bet you're buzzing Nancy: You mean you can't tell? Well, that's devastating Nancy: I reckoned on it being so obvious, like Rio: I mean, your poker face ain't all that, babe, if you wanna be real about it Nancy: More of a resting bitch, I know Nancy: The good news must not have sunk in yet Rio: Give it a few Nancy: Yeah Rio: Anyway, can't do anything about it now Rio: May as well enjoy your summer Nancy: Like I said, I already am Nancy: Aside from the prospect of going home Rio: 👍 Rio: How bad can it be Rio: he's taken one for the team Nancy: No, he's made sure exams mean more than they did before Nancy: and made me the focus since he's a less than safe convo topic Rio: Well, your family's inability to communicate is longstanding and not my fault so I'm not gonna take the blame for it, nor is my baby Rio: Sorry, like Nancy: I didn't ask Nancy: It's not my fault that his fall from grace makes me their poster child for success now either, I definitely never asked for that Rio: If you're going to feel so sorry for yourself, don't be surprised when people feel it for you in return Rio: Oddly enough our decision to have a child wasn't exactly about you Nancy: I'm only surprised the pity party isn't full already Nancy: My brother tends to take up a lot of space Rio: Please Rio: We've got no reason to be sorry, either definition Rio: we're happy, if you lot wanna be miserable then the party is all yours Nancy: Does he know that? Does he feel it? 'Cause he sounded like he wanted me to be sorry for him many times over when we last spoke Rio: Like I said, you're all crap at communicating Rio: but thanks Nancy: Yeah, and he's one of the worst Nancy: If I feel sorry for anything, it's for you, for that much, like Rio: Fuck off Rio: I don't need your pity Nancy: Don't tell me to fuck off Rio: Why not? You've seen fit to talk to me how you please Nancy: 'Cause you're judging my communication skills like its your job, for one thing Nancy: And for another, I haven't said anything like that to you, ever Rio: You said in as few words as possible that you don't think Buster really wants our baby, implying that I don't know him and we don't talk, whilst you were at it Rio: but no Rio: the f bomb in response, so much worse, Jesus Nancy: No I haven't Nancy: All I've said to him is that his timing is ridiculous and when was the last time we even spoke, me and you? Before exams probably so Rio: What does it matter to you, or your parents for that matter Rio: He's still going to Uni, he's still doing everything they want Nancy: I don't care what they want Nancy: I care about him and how hard it's gonna be Nancy: I won't be here to help either of you, not even in the same country, so excuse me for being worried Rio: When ain't life? Rio: You can't let that stop you from doing what you want Nancy: You don't need to make it harder on yourself, Jesus Rio: Well that ain't how it's going to be, or how we see it Nancy: It's easy for him to see it that way when he never admits that he needs help or that anything could possibly be a struggle in the slightest Nancy: He's just perfect and everything will be, end of story Rio: I help him Rio: and I know that, I knew that before this even started Nancy: I know you do and you know I love you, yeah? I'm not saying this to be a bitch to you Rio: I know Rio: but I don't get why you can't translate your worry into supporting him, that is literally all he needs from you Rio: instead of the constant barage of questions Nancy: because I'm scared for him and he scares me Nancy: how little he thinks about anything Nancy: He just wants and he gets and I'm the only one who cares if it'll work out or not Nancy: you know that's what he's always been like Rio: It's going to work out Rio: even if you wanna talk worst case scenarios, we have to get divorced, yeah Rio: he'll still have the kid, I'm not that bitch Nancy: I hope it does Nancy: Genuinely Nancy: You know that Rio: I think I do Rio: but you don't always show it Rio: I know it's a lot Rio: but it's hard for him when none of you seem happy for him or even say it's alright, like Rio: why do you think he can't admit he needs help, when has he got it? Nancy: Do you? 'Cause when you got together I had to re-evaluate everything I thought I knew about him and you Nancy: He says he's loved you since he was a kid, I was there, I have almost the same memories Nancy: But I don't Nancy: at all Rio: Why does it matter? We were all kids Nancy: 'Cause all this time he was so unhappy and I didn't know, okay Nancy: I didn't do anything Rio: None of us did Rio: He didn't want you to know, anyone Rio: you can't take blame for it like you wilfully ignored cries for help but he's trying now Rio: he needs you now, okay Nancy: I'm trying too Nancy: I just Nancy: I don't know him, if I ever did Nancy: How am I meant to know what to do? Rio: You did Rio: You were close then, just because you didn't know this one thing doesn't mean you weren't Rio: You wouldn't tell him about every crush you had, especially if you felt shame about being gay or there was another reason you knew he could judge you for it, you know? Rio: Just, try and be nice to each other, simple and as stupid as it sounds Rio: that's all you gotta do in this world though Nancy: You can say wanting to fuck my teacher, that's pretty shameful, babe Nancy: Lord, did you really have to do the one thing that scares me most to test me Nancy: Babies are terrifying Rio: Well you know, I assume you weren't child thirsting after your reception teacher like 👌👌👌 nice cardigan miss Rio: Nah Rio: they're just people Rio: I guess that's kinda the problem though Nancy: Hey, she was cute! And very attentive Nancy: Well, not to be dramatic and turn this into a therapy session but the last time I was properly excited for a baby to be born, he died Nancy: And now we don't talk about him Rio: That isn't going to happen again Rio: and you could talk to Buster about him Rio: he's thinking about him too Nancy: Does he talk about him to you? Rio: Yeah, a little Rio: we're going to give the baby his name as a middle Nancy: Really? Rio: I should say we don't know it's a boy yet, we just think it is Rio: but I won't say 'if not, the next one' and freak you out further, like Nancy: Go ahead, I'm just out here openly crying at the beach Rio: I'm sorry Rio: you can use my ugly dress as a hankie if you wanna Nancy: It's not that bad Rio: It's years old 'cos everything I own now would leave no need to announce this Rio: tempting but probably not Nancy: You should have come to me, my wardrobe runneth over Nancy: Literally, I need to have such a huge clear out before uni starts Rio: You planning to reinvent yourself as a minimalist? 😏 Rio: local charity shops gonna be a goldmine, like Nancy: Reinvent myself, yeah, as that, no Nancy: I get it, not tempting to come over when I'm being a bitch Nancy: I'm sorry you have to suffer that dress as a result, babe Rio: Well you know, or we could say I was giving you space and time Rio: politer Rio: I'm not even sure it was ever mine Rio: maybe it was yours, the ultimately bitchery to get it out of my system Nancy: Not to be that bitch or lesbian stereotype, okay, but what's under it? Can you not just remove it now the secret's out? Nancy: Be you again Rio: 😂 Rio: Still got it, babe Rio: I guess I can now Rio: It's weird Nancy: Do it for my brother if not me Nancy: You think I need to sort my face, look at his right now Rio: Poor boy Rio: at least I didn't straighten my hair, then he'd really be devastated Nancy: 😂 Nancy: I wish you had, I'd have taken so many pics to post and tag him in Rio: 😏 Pure evil, like Nancy: Genetically, sorry Nancy: Not saying you should watch The Omen again or anything but Rio: 😲 How rude Rio: but if I remember correctly that fucker was adopted so it would've been more cutting to come at me with Rosemary's Baby, like Rio: slacking Nancy: Oops, horror movies not really my forte Rio: You should reconsider Rio: yeah the bitch always dies, but she's usually half-naked beforehand, like Nancy: Are you gonna put your arm around me when it gets scary though? I think not Rio: You know I would you just ain't vibing 💔 Nancy: Lies! I just told you to strip Rio: True enough Rio: There's hope yet then Nancy: I'm sorry for being a bitch this whole time Nancy: I've missed you, it feels like exams lasted years Rio: I know, it was stressful and I weren't even taking them so God knows how you lot survived Rio: How do you feel about them, genuinely? Nancy: I know you love him, but how much of a prick was he during his, like 1-10? To make me feel better Nancy: I feel bad but like, I always do about that stuff so Nancy: It doesn't mean anything Rio: Oh, 11, for sure 😏 Rio: no, it was hard though, he was stressed as fuck Rio: you'll have done what you needed to do, I know Nancy: At least you could play the pregnancy card, like DO NOT STRESS ME, BOY Nancy: I basically had to shut myself away to get the same effect Rio: I feel it, Junior looks like this is his first time seeing sunlight in years, he hasn't taken his sunglasses off Rio: know they're prescription but come on Rio: as for the pregnancy card, great for getting out of arguments you've probably caused being a crazy bitch, like Nancy: I don't think he remembers who any of us are 😂 Nancy: It's not too late to have some actual fun today, is it? Nancy: You need it too, Buster said you've been pretty sick Nancy: He's dramatic, but still Rio: Of course not Rio: Someone suggested going to the pub to celebrate but as I'm the one with the baby I can make sure they choose somewhere nice with a decent cocktail list and beer garden, not a grotty old man pub, like Rio: Just morning sickness but it was pretty shitty and lonely when he was at School and so was Indie Rio: but fingers crossed I'm over that now so Nancy: We have to do something about that dress first Nancy: Come with me before we go anywhere else Nancy: I will save you Rio: 🙌 Rio: If you take me near a maternity section, we will brawl Nancy: God no Nancy: I'd burst into flames Rio: 😂 Rio: You remembered suncream today though, yeah? Nancy: Yes, mum Nancy: Maternity clothes are actually disgusting and I'm not letting it happen to you Nancy: Or my niece or nephew, how embarrassing to look back on Rio: It's just not necessary either Rio: do you know how big most clothes go these days like Nancy: Thank you! Like be more creative than that Nancy: If you wear a smock I'm disowning you Nancy: I don't care if you're having twins in a heatwave Rio: You'll be glad to know it ain't, unless one of them was hiding real stealth, but I'd be much bigger, pretty sure Nancy: Yeah, you'd need more than that dress to hide behind, right? Mum was such a ridiculous size with us, the pics are actually like something out of a scary movie Nancy: Say what you like about her, and do, but she always looked good Rio: Honestly, poor bitch Rio: Feel her small girl pain in a way you can never Rio: feeling like a human ball some days and it is just the one Nancy: Why do you think I'm not taking you to a maternity section, they'd think I was the one with a baby on board Nancy: No offense but kill me Rio: Oh bitch no Rio: like, is daddy excited or terrified, Nance? Rio: straight girl bants Nancy: I nearly threw up in my mouth Nancy: Not morning sickness, sorry lads Rio: You keep down your breakfast if you getting in my car, thank you very much Nancy: Such a mum 😏