#so maybe liking this dynamic is me projecting

[olderthannetfic]

I just got a comment saying I should have tagged for dom/sub undertones and I'm a little confused. In canon, this guy always bosses his wife around re: doing shit that's healthy for her - napping, drinking water, remembering to eat more than once a day, getting more than 3 hours of sleep - and she lovingly calls him "Boss Man" as a nickname because of it. On some occasions where she's gone more than a day without eating he'll swipe her phone and order her to eat before she gets it back, something she always seems to find endearing. There's a lot of 'I didn't mean to worry you', 'you're worth worrying about, now here's your favorite homemade walnut bread' stuff, all there in canon, just lifted from canon and transplanted into my fic.

Is this dom/sub stuff? I'm aroace so I've never been in a relationship, but I assumed "take care of yourself" "I will but I will call you a silly nickname over it" was regular relationship stuff. Or is it that the frequency of it makes it dom/sub stuff, and I'm just not grasping that because my neurodivergency is making me not read the social cues correctly? I was only recently diagnosed but this has been a problem for a long time, the whole line between normal and abnormal behavior, so I thought I'd ask you. You're much more well-read than I am and know a lot more about shipping dynamics and how they're tagged. I feel like you're an expert whose opinion carries a lot of conclusions-informed-by-knowledge and so your take could help me figure this out.

People who are doms or subs or write them, if you have a guide on this stuff, that'd be cool, too. I want to educate myself more so I know if I should tag something. After all, I can't get my story to people who want to read it if it doesn't show up in the tags they're searching for. Readers aren't mindreaders. It's on me to make sure they can get ahold of the things they're looking for. I just need to work around my own ADHD-addled brain to do it.

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I think this is the usual pattern of demanding silly tags that would only make sense in that reader's own bookmarks.

Yes, caretaking and food control of various kinds can be a part of BDSM. No, your description of canon does not make it sound like this has obvious undertones.

Readers are going to have different interpretations. It's possible that other readers would agree with this one. I have my doubts. I suspect they're projecting. But sure, maybe other people would think there was some of that vibe.

However, if you did not intend the fic to read this way, I would not add the tag. This is not what the fic is about.

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As for what this kind of thing can look like when it is intended as a dom/sub activity, the movie Secretary has a bunch of examples. She calls him on the phone to tell him what her family's dinner looks like that night; he gives her instructions about which things she can eat how much of. The way she acts while making that phone call makes it clear it's an exciting game to her. Another time, he tells her she's not allowed to cut herself anymore: he will provide what she needs.

Even if the characters are being playful, just nagging someone to do basic self care doesn't really come across as this. It's more charged when it's an intentional power exchange thing.

It's more like... hmm... if you and a friend agreed to LARP as characters for a day. Even if you were acting fairly normal and doing things you'd often do anyway, there would be this added extra vibe to it that someone who knew you well could probably detect.

It's not so much about the specific behaviors: it's about the extra meaning those people ascribe to them. If it doesn't seem like the canon characters think of this caretaking any specific way and you, as the fic author, don't see it that way, then I don't think it will generally read as a dom/sub thing to most readers.

[thelostgetfound-artemis]

I was today years old when I realised the most common ship dynamic among my favourite pairings is when there's a little bit (a lot) of...an affection imbalance (?) between the couple.

One half is balls to the wall obsessed in love, I'm talking 'i'd be worried for their mental state if a breakup ever happened' , he'd commit sins and crimes for his bf's happiness, their morals and values begin and end with what their partner deems important kind of uh...love. meanwhile the other half is chill and a dash ignorant of their bf's intensity

#anyone else? #to be fair #my favourite character in these shows is the chill one #so maybe liking this dynamic is me projecting #taesung x haebom #vegaspete #hirakiyoi #i made a gif for noey because i have suspicions on how he's going to turn out but it's too early to tell #noeythi #togawa has entered the chat #old fashioned cupcake #utsukushii kare

[marvelousartcatastrophe]

If you can’t tell I am entirely obsessed with this guy

#qi rong and guzi #qi rong #qi rong fanart #qi rong design #tgcf #tgcf qi rong #heaven officials blessing #heaven officials blessing season two #tgcf season two #tian guan ci fu #LITERALLT LOOK AT HIM PLS #Idk what to call his dynamic with Guzi cause he’s not fatherly at all but at the same time he’s guzis father #he really is my favorite character #go ahead and ask me why if you dare I will write you AN ENTIRE ESSAY about it #if I was more insane than I unfortunately am I would deadass write tgcf from his perspective just for fun #AND I WOULD IF I DIDNT HAVE SO MANY PROJECTS IN THE WAY #college is dumb and I’ve got books to sell before I can even attempt fanfiction again #BUT I TOTALLY WOULD #maybe I could #like as a string of oneshots ya know #like the flower crown prince ceremony but qi rong’s perspective like “the AUDACITY of that HOMELESS ASS LOOKING CHILD to FALL FROM A BRIDGE #‘THE FUCK IS HIS PROBLEM?!’ #like really dude I have so many things to go running with #anyways #if you dare you could ask me to talk about him and I would just go off #love qi rong #qi rong appreciation

[skitskatdacat63]

Hey, do you remember that really homoerotic scene from Skyfall? No? That's okay, here's a Vettonso version of it :)

- explanation & w/o text:

Hi hello, finally my weird psychosexual relationship with Casino Royale has come to fruition. Yeah this is directly based off a scene from Skyfall, but I def envision the vibe as being more like Casino Royale hehe. I can't believe I made that inspo board for this AU almost 4 weeks ago, and then ended up drawing a four panel "comic" about it. Ahhhh proud of myself, a bit, a tad. I think this took 20+ hours across the span of a week? God. Anyways I digress! The AU!!

First of all, their Bond song would be "My Way of Life" by Frank Sinatra. It's so toxic, codependent and obsessive, I'm in love with it. And it really suits Fernando and his motivations and outlook in this AU. Basically, MI6(in the context of James Bond) in this AU is an analog for Ferrari. It picks theses guys up, tells them that they're Ferrari MI6's most special boy, chews them up, and then spits them out when they're finished extracting all their talent and skill and life force.

Much like with Ferrari, Seb in this AU replaces Fernando after Fernando loses favor and becomes undesirable. Now Seb is the new golden boy, and Fernando has turned to a life of crime! Fernando resents Seb for this of course, but also becomes obsessed with him and the idea of him , and how they are connected. It's weird to watch someone else basically go down your exact same path and unknowingly make all the same mistakes(buying into the mysticism of it all too much, being overly cocky, having naive beliefs and goals, etc.) He is caught between wanting to doom Seb even more but also wanting to "save" him, by corrupting him and convincing him to work together.

Basically: He's both a Bond girl and Bond villain.

Fernando is in such a weird place in this AU. I think he's just very dramatic. Seb is just casually living his best 007(005?) life, and Nando is watching him with binoculars, whispering to himself: "DOESN'T HE UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE NARRATIVE FOILS!?" Yeah he hates Seb, but like the song lyrics say, their lives and dreams are inherently tied up together. He would feel lost without Seb, because Seb basically, unknowingly, destroyed and then took over his life. Maybe he'll feel satisifed if he manipulates Seb into going down the exact same path a bit better.

About the drawings themselves. Still can't believe this scene is a real thing that actually happened, insane to me. But in this AU, after the events of these drawings, Fernando definitely kicked all his henchman out of the room, and fucked Seb in the chair. And then against the wall. And then on the floor. Hey man, Seb is already looking mighty delicious with his unbuttoned attire and being tied up.

I think the general plot would be that Fernando keeps trying to seduce him to the dark side, and Seb keeps making him think it worked, only to escape at the end of the encounter. Leading Fernando to just come up with increasingly more violent and kinky traps. Seb goes along with it(read: enjoys it), leaving Fernando satisifed, only to somehow escape and wink and make kissy faces at Fernando in the process. (Fernando smoking cigarette in bed: "How do I make him stay. Sigh.")

I like to think though that Fernando does win in the end, by realizing, ah wait shit I do need to actually explain my motivations to Seb. And Seb is so worn down by his job, not Fernando, and how he's being treated, that he listens, really actually listens, and realizes Fernando does really have valid reasons. And then they become evil crime husbands yayyyy. Wow you thought this was a espionage AU? Well it is, but just not the outcome you'd expect.

#ah well this was certainly a project.... #rn i feel like im devolving into illness so im glad i could finish this up before it possibly gets worse #this is my magnum opus as of rn. just bcs ive not really drawn such a longform thing for them!! happy w it :) #i think i def like the first one the best #it made me suffer so bad but i think i soften on my own art after a few days #like i finish it and know its 'good' but cant help but critique every little thing #but ive had that one done for almost a week so now i look at it and really love it #i was originally just going to draw that one only but then realized i really like the full dialog so. might as well. #generally i liked this though bcs even if it ws difficult. it was nice to have really direct and clear reference #like ah ik where im going w this rather than it being an image in my head that i cant represent the way that I want #ah anyways all my vettonso aus tend to be just wanting to explore specific dynamics of theirs #and this one is basically how i feel about their mutual relationship to the institution of ferrari and how it affects their dynamic #basically: THEY'RE MIRRORS!!! #there's always something to be said abt nando being resentful abt seb bcs of 2010/2012/etc and then seb taking his seat at ferrari #but then witnessing seb basically go thru the same trials and tribulations and failures at ferrari #and realizing huh wait maybe he's not who i was villianizing him as. maybe hes at my level too. maybe he's not infallible. maybe hes like m #a very bitter nando who has to fight btwn his impulse to ruin seb further or to relate to him and start to like him #so yeah that's ^ basically what i want to portray in this au(just like all AUs tbh) #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.rambling.txt #catie.art. #vettonso #bond au

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[genderqueersherlockholmes]

i might just be autistic or something but i am seeing people posting saying that at some point john and mariana flirted or something or they think theyre gonna "get together" but i pay so so much attention when listening and i did not pick up on anything like that... when did that happen . i was listening and i just thought "wow theyre all such good friends theyre such a trio :) best friends forevers" im so confuseddddddddddd

#sherlock and co #also i dont think it would be that bad if they were in love because in the scenes where its just them two and they talked abt sherlock i th #think that they would still have a cute trio dynamic . sherlock is theyre autistic roommate that shoots things its not as though they would #just leave and now sherlock is all aloooooonnneeeeeeeee and FORGOTTEN . and just becomes like a third wheel . #think itd be more like john going omggg mwwuuuaahhh marianaaaa kiss kiss . and a little kissy on the forehead too for sherlock :) #their weird roommate whos like hteyre special boy . sorry guys this is getting strange i am an autistic little animal and maybe projecting #this is my -pet-autistic roommate sherlock hes my loser boyfriends and me's special boy can i please get 500 chemicals he needs them #sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy my animal brain started acting up woof woof bark bark #anyways i didnt notice mariana and jogn flirting so i dont rlly know what thats all about ? i think theyre just friends my perspective

[sysig]

You’ve caught my Wandering Eye ♥ (Patreon)

#My art #Wander Over Yonder #Wander #Commander Peepers #Wandering Eye #I love them... #Two little guys in love #As is clearly evident from Peepers body language lol #Kinda deeply thinking about a series of Peepers ship/dynamics as maybe an excuse to draw him a lot lol #You'll recognise this one as the completed vector from a previous doodle set! :D Look what not-editing can accomplish! Lol #Honestly it was mostly running out of room for Wander's left shoe that even made me want to start this project in the first place #Who'd have thought something that small would make me want to completely redo it lol - but it did! I want a complete Wander hug! #Peepers is less convinced lol #I think their dynamic can be very sweet <3 Peepers is underappreciated! Wander is very appreciative of everyone haha #And he clearly cares about Peepers enough to know what would make him happy - again same as everyone lol #I mean I don't think Wander would be monogamous in the first place but I think he'd bluster in and make C. Peeps happy for a while #Who would of course be resistant lol - but just like Hater how much can you actually hold against honest affection #Wander is also a good choice to ship with everyone and I already do with Peepers - they fit together that way hehe #Plus they're adorable so there's that lol - I love that Peepers is shorter than than basically everyone including Wander #Wander is very tiny! But C. Peeps is tinier! Short King <3 #Wander was incredibly correct when he called C. Peeps too cute to stand - same with Awesome even if he was doing it derogatorily #Peepers is cute! He's very cute! #His silhouette is also still the funnest <3 He's so easy to express with I love his proportions <3 <3 #Cutest lads

[unmotivatedartistry]

kinda thing i thought of

Even though in canon, most likely this wouldn't end up happening but what if Hank thought that originally, when (if) Connor deviated, that he'd hate him and etc etc because he, by technicality, was his owner and sorta wasn't all that nice in the beginning. Sure, he got better, but he wouldn't admit that to himself, and end up thinking Connor would leave him when he deviated.

Why? Because most deviants left their originally work areas and owners and seemed to resent them when Hank saw it in the cases he and Connor did. And, in this like, au, vision, headcanon, idea, whatever, Connor was pretty cold when he first met Hank which made Hank a little bit of an asshole towards him before Connor started to like.. grow into being alive lol. So, naturally, Hank assumes the minute Connor deviates and actually is alive and has choices that he'd hate Hank for being an asshole and abandon him, right? Correct.

And so he lives like this the entire rest of Connor's pre-deviation. (This like, thought process was especially significant after the Bridge scene.) This like, trying not to get attached to Connor even though he kept seeing him like Cole because he knew he'd leave him ("knew"). He didn't want to feel like he lost a friend, a son, Cole again.

When he saw Sixty come, he knew it wasn't Connor. He knew Connor deviated. He thought Connor had left him. It took all he had not to just fucking re-experience the grief of losing someone again.

Even though they weren't that close, it was just something between the two. (found family go brrrr) Something that made them feel close, like family almost.

Seeing Connor in the Cyberlife Tower felt like a relief. But seeing how he tried so desperately to defend Hank, it shattered his entire world-view. He spent a good portion of knowing Connor thinking he'd leave him after becoming an actual person, but now he was faced with a completely different option. Maybe Connor did care about him?

He'd never admit that he probably cried afterwards. Probably happy to see Connor again and have that one shred of hope. Of course he acted normal (ish) in the tower, had to. Couldn't let Connor know this revelation was happening now.

Seeing Connor after the whole revolution, that fucking hug fucking broke him. Because he thought he'd never see Connor again. He thought Connor woulda hated him afterwards. Turns out, he didn't. Turns out, the dude actually likes him. Wow. Hank never thought that was possible. Especially after how much he hated androids.

Even after Connor was clearly a deviant, even after Connor clearly expressed how he wanted to stay friends with Hank after the revolution, Hank couldn't seem to accept it. He banged into his head that Connor would've left him and now? What else was he supposed to do?

But god DAMN did Connor freak out when he found out. Y'know, imagine finding out that someone who you care about so much and see as a father figure thought you'd leave them.

And Connor managed to work it out with Hank. Probably. Because you don't want to ruin your amazing relationship with your dad basically because of preconceived ideas that can be resolved.

Also might make a comic with this later. Just to overload myself even more with work!

#i come up with these in the shower and then type them out at like 10pm-12am so im sorry if this is mildly inconsistent #also me projecting hard onto characters i like go brrrrrr #connor rk800 #connor dbh #dbh connor #hank anderson #hank dbh #dbh hank #hank and connor #hank and connor father and son dynamic #first time i projected onto hank lol. usually its connor #poor dudes lol #i feel like connor would be heartbroken thinking the dude he thought of as a dad thought he woulda left him #i think he'd be upset because he didnt like the thought that he almost made hank go through the grief cole put him through again #dude mustve felt guilty until he resolved the entire thing #which he did #10/10 therapist - hank #10/10 son too - hank again #will i make a comic of this? maybe #is that a bad idea? yes #will i do it anyways? abso fucking lutely #my creativity peaks at night and causes me to make very inconsistent ideas that sound better in my head #and look better #i can never execute any of my ideas properly lmao #rip me #anyways #goodnight yall hope you like this shit haha #long post #simon says

[softer-ua]

I wanna see Masaru do dad things

He falls asleep on the couch but will instantly wake up the second Katsuki even thinks about changing the channel

One minute he’s loudly sawing logs the next it’s “Don’t even think about it Kats, I’m waiting for the weekend weather forecast” and Katsuki let’s it go with a grumpy “stupid old man” because he’s now secretly hoping this means his dads planing to take him hiking

(Later Denki and Katsuki quietly bond over their shared fondness of weather reports)

Masaru constantly reminds Katsuki not to touch the thermostat (even though Katsuki’s literally NEVER once touched the damn thing!!)

Masaru dropping random bits of “fatherly wisdom” out the blue in lulls in conversation or even just as the the start of a conversation that are so wild and uncalled, but undoubtedly good advice

“Looking nice is a respect we pay to other people and is the first step in getting them to treat you with respect”

“Never panic, if you panic you die.”

“Always apply for things you think don’t qualify for, at worse they tell you no, at best they’ll train you to qualify and then you can apply even higher”

*shows him a handful of water* “This is all it takes to drown.” (This was said to me one school morning while I was sleepily eating a bowl of Cheerios and the only other thing he said was that he’d meet me in the truck to take me to school)

“Go out and listen to live music as often as you can, even if it’s not good, it’s good for you”

“remember Katsuki if you need to get rid of a body at sea dismember it first, decomposition happens slowly at cold temperatures”

“Always know your exits and the quickest ways to them”

“When in doubt throttle out” this was said when snow-machining because if you get scared and break suddenly you might get stuck waist deep in the snow and have to dig you and your machine out, but it’s also just sold life advice

“If you leave it to the bystander it’ll always be left by a stander, always call out to one person specifically to call 911”

Being very open about his job but in spite of that no one actually knows what he does. Yeah he works in fashion, could be textiles could be a model, who knows, not Katsuki that’s for sure.

Teaching Katsuki how to spot animals while hiking in a way that’s so vague & makes no sense but sticks with him so he some how just gets it but now he can’t explain it either

Denki:I don’t see a deer anywhere??

Katsuki: Just look for the thing that doesn’t fucking belong!!

(the secret is of course that trees and shadows don’t move)

Katsuki calms his city kid friends with the same things his dad told him as a kid, which are of course not comforting if you have no lived through context

Hanta: what if we get attacked by wolves??

Katsuki: with how loud y’all are we’ll be lucky to see a squirrel

Eijirou: okay, but what if we see a bear?!

Katsuki: trust me you’ll smell a bear long before you see it, and again your too loud to just stumble upon one

And most importantly Masaru just randomly telling Katsuki how proud he is of him, how much he loves him, giving him random treats, big long hugs, praising how smart he is, telling him how he will always support him no matter what, how glad he is that he grew up to be so strong willed, and a dozen other acts of soft fatherly support

Katsuki needs him to offset the poor example of his mother so so desperately 🥺

#Masaru needs to step up and show Katsuki an unconditional gentler kind of affection and way of being #Mitsuki ruined that child with her temper #but if Masaru managed to sneak in some tenderness here #and there maybe Katsuki can lean on those memories more as he adjusts to his character growth #I like to believe this is how Masaru is and Katsuki was just blinded to it under the weight of his mothers never ending nagging #but I also just like projecting on to Katsuki and that was very much the dynamic me and my parents had #it’s like that quote ‘at my best I am my father’s daughter’ is so real to me #my hero academia #bnha bakugo katsuki #bakugou katsuki #kacchan #bnha #mha #boku no hero #masaru bakugou

[lucy-ghoul]

................. not to rain down on anyone's parade but barely characterized 14 year old lucerys could never have the swag eleanor or henry had

#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #again you do you per carità i'm not here to judge anyone's taste because then i'd be a fucking hypocrite #but this still made me laugh #maybe because i never really understood the hype around luke/aemond. i mean i get it on a intellectual level #but there are so many juicier pairs in hotd that while i understand why people would ship it i'm not sure why it's so popular #no hate to the pairing or anything of course. you can ship whatever you want! #but this reeks of the usual inflated m/m ship with one (or two) fictional men with weak or barely acknowledged characterizations #while incredibly complex female characters (at least in comparison) are JUST THERE #again this is not a hate post about the ship or slash pairings (OBVIOUSLY!!) #but still. in any case the eleanor/henry dynamic fits better with rhaenicent or maybe daemyra tbh #like... even when i love a ship with all my heart i wouldn't assign *every* possible au to them but only those who fit their characters bes #if my otp is a etl ship i wouldn't want to read or write a childhood friends to lovers au because what i like about them #is that they fucking hate each other's guts and perpetually try to kill the other (before falling in love... and sometimes even after) #if a pairing is more p&p like i really couldn't get into a wuthering heights au even if i'd recognize it's magnificently written #because that's not what these characters and their dynamic are. it would be projection #at this point i would prefer to read/write about two ocs ngl #again in fandom you can do whatever you want i'm no one and i could never tell you what you can or can't like. that'd be ridiculous #and idw the op of that post to feel bad about it. it's just my personal preference/opinion on fanworks that's all #val speaks #val rambles in the tags #txt

[magentagalaxies]

fucking love it when one of my professors brings up kids in the hall in giving me feedback, not in a pandering way but in a "this is an observation i've made about their work and how you could channel this aspect in your own comedy to get yourself out of your comfort zone and play with new things"

#shoutout to my improv teacher fr #we were talking about how i don't use dynamic physicality and movement as much in my characters #and she brought up how so much of their characters are very physical and encouraged me to play with that #and also specifically character temperament and emotions and stuff bc i have a specific range i play in #and it's funny even tho i personally think my comedy style is most like bruce #and scott in a lot of ways has these uninhibited moments i wish i could throw myself into #in terms of character range/voice/temperament/emotion? i'm playing heavily in the scott zone rn #and my professor was like ''that's great but also i wanna see you play a bruce girl'' #we also had a whole conversation about gender and kith and how gender plays into my improv or is absent from it a lot of the time #and holy shit erin my improv teacher wins cis ally of the day award she was so respectful while also having good feedback #(her feedback was low key ''be more overtly trans even if it makes cis people uncomfortable'') #bc like. i'm very overtly trans in my standup rn like you know how aubrey is #but in improv? sure i play many characters regardless of gender but that's the thing. it's ''regardless'' of gender #so i sort of default to being neutral so that others can project onto me. it's sort of ''idgaf i'm chill'' which in itself still is radical #but it gives ''cis allys'' who don't want to deal with gender an outlet to just project onto me in a way that i could own much more #anyway the way i process feedback is often by repeating it to someone else so like. this didn't need to be a post this is for me #but idk if you're following along with my comedy journey (or even if you just want to hear my professor reference kids in the hall!) #maybe this is of interest to you. in any case i'm very excited to play with all this stuff much more #and i definitely feel confident in my comedic identity and trans identity and most of all my trans-comedian identity #and i'm excited to see how i grow from here

[conduitandconjurer]

How do I even articulate this?

Basically I continue to think Klaus is very fucked up but not in the same way that 90 percent of the fandom seems to think (or prefer) and it is the WEIRDEST experience. I'm just constantly like, "oh yeah, I guess that IS how most fans perceive this character."

Does ANYONE else (aside my long-trusted mutuals) get this?

#ooc #my sole consolation is that Rob Sheehan himself doesn't seem to think differently from me) #it's 100 percent a fellow fans thing) #and i have theories about why) #what fascinates me is that i only ever had this to this extent with one other muse) #Gabriel from SPN) #which is interesting bc Gabe and Klaus have a lot of similiarities including classic “mascot” role in an abusive family dynamic) #and being perceived as way way shallower than they really are) #they mask their pain and insecurity similarly with humor and hedonism) #and it's like everyone BUYS it) #meanwhile i'm like “but that's a trauma induced persona y'all”) #and then i realize maybe the audience identifies with that trauma and ALSO needs to mask) #so this is their comfort character that they turn into a safe self projection) #but to me the most counter intuitive part of this is that people need Klaus to be selfish and self thwarting and 'lazy' and 'cowardly' ) #Klaus is their FAVORITE and they call him 'pathetic' and seem to RELISH that he's a 'loser' and 'doomed' to relapse) #and they say 'same' and 'me too' and i realize maybe they need this) #maybe it helps them feel less awful about themselves if their comfort character indefinitely fails to recover) #idk)

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[fennel-tea]

I had some thoughts piling up in my brain so I pulled up that limbus shipping chart going around. Hear me out ok

#cw incest (maybe) #cw age gap #Charon is like 20 but the dynamic is still Questionable so i'm tagging it #you need to understand. when I ship smth it's not a statement of 'wow they're so cute what an ideal relationship' #this is not a place of honor. this is a place of putting your favs through the physical and emotional meat grinder #greg/hermann is just riprolo 2 i feel it in my soul #the other day a friend was like 'i hope when he eventually fights her she has special dialogue for every single one of his ids' #and that rewired my brain #but it's not romantic in the traditional sense but also it's. it's a complex. you feel me? it's black damage. it's pale damage #charon/verg is also pale damage but in a different way. #do you understand. i am running on 2 hours of sleep #project moon #just for organization purposes #previously i was really neutral on most sinner/sinner ships but the ish/don art going around? it's real good

[storfulsten]

that feel when you watch too many old letsplays and compilations and get too dang focused on cool voices and dynamics and vibes of random actual letsplayers and stuff so you think up aus of aus within aus of your dumb fnf au to project upon ha

fnf letsplayer au bullshit brainworms wooh

#instead of rapbattling they sus eachother in amongus #and other games with other shenanigans #makes perfect sense #also got online music careers in some cases maybe #idk man ha #all I know is if you squint really realllly hard #and accept some ooc-ness in the name of au shenanigans #idk corpse and sykkuno #could be neat dynamic and voice hc stuff to project unto bombeep in very specific circumstances #theoretic letsplay au circumstances that is #and maybe valkyrae gf vibes bc yes #thus the au-ception #yeehaw #idk the way I think of my au as is nowadays it's so far removed from the original game and mods it's just #I don't even remember their original personalities it's just whatever I feel like in the moment is canon to me tbh #I just borrow their designs and just do whatever kinda like playing with dolls making up your own bullcrap #thus these projections make sense to me ha #so yeah anyways #either way corpse is my main voice hc for whitty now even ignoring everything else #thus in my au whenever I draw him that's what he sounds like #or at least pretty similar-ish #so ye have fun with that info I guess or don't it's up to you really #eh idk where I'm going with this rambling #I probably need a nap lol bye #pls feel free to ignore ha

[tsukidrama]

wtf is up with my brain sending me sexy Annie dreams lately? and though i would never ever complain about such a thing, i am just a little perplexed as to why i went months without one and now all of a sudden BAM 3 in one week

#me trying to write trnt 10 and being unable to write anything serious bc my hypothalamus is melting into goop #so i opened up an old otbp smut draft and fuckin. wrote 7 pages in an hour ! help #and as it gets closer and closer to becoming a fully formed drabble i'm getting that good old Done With My Project surge of confidence #literally hoping and praying on my knees that maybe finishing something will give me the confidence/inspo that i need to get over this hump #this chapter is just so difficult. i know i've said that before. i meant it every time ngl BUT #i do think that objectively 10 has the most complicated dynamic to get across bc there are so many characters involved ugh you'll see #okay okay back to talking about smut hehe i feel like the sudden influx of Annie dreams is my brain reminding my where my loyalties lie #bhabjlHBFD #one of the dreams also contained...... pieck #i was like LJSDGPEFIALKJ FJWKB;. #it was... so good. i literally cannot stop thinking about it #tsuki speaks #annie-isms #trnt annie