#so when people compliment me im just

[syekick-powers]

my self esteem with my art has gotten better in a lot of ways in the sense that i no longer agonize over whether or not something looks "bad", but operating ONLY under the metric of "am i, personally, satisfied with how this art came out" does have its side effects. like. i've gotten way better at accepting compliments on my art and no longer feel the urge to debase myself when someone says i did a good job on something, but now sometimes when people compliment me, instead of being like "oh my art sucks this part is so bad" blah blah blah im just like "i legit had no idea what i was doing when i drew that so im glad it came out looking correct!"

#sye's babbles #like half the time when im drawing these days if im trying to draw something i dont have a lot of experience with #i tend to just kinda. wing it. and just do whatever looks approximately correct #without actually making the effort to understand what im doing on a deeper level #like with all the fuckign oc poll tournament pieces ive been doing #one of my online friends told me 'you're so good with clothes' #when like #i don't actually have a mental understanding of how clothes physics works most of the time #i just kinda. draw some random lines that are going in the approximate direction of the movement #i dont actually feel like i know what i'm doing at ALL #and yet people compliment me on it #it's ALMOST like impostor syndrome except it doesn't have the feeling of having tricked people #it's more like #'damn... it came out looking good? im genuinely surprised you think so but thanks anyway' #it's less impostor SYNDROME and more like #improvisation success #if that makes sense #i'm shortcutting the process of drawing something in a way that looks good #but doesn't FEEL like i'm actually learning anything #so when people compliment me im just #'hmm. seems like what i was doing landed. i dont know how or why but i accept it.'

[solargeist]

i dont know how people do it ! how do they compliment people so easily, hold a persons hand, say i love you, and make eye contact, i cant do it ! im sweating !!

#last time i complimented someone on their pink hair i had the anxiety shakes for three hours and then thought i was disgusting #''your hair is pretty'' im a creep! im a weirdo! radiohead.... #/lh /lh /lh but also real #my art #sketching #vent art #<- ??? MAYBE? #how do you just start talking when you've been mute most of your life. so scary. #i feel like exploding when people touch me its too overwhelming

[idolomantises]

there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities

#txt #was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn #and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting? #i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings #im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to #overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do #its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice #the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you #still lack #even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is. #and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included) #i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at #such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them #i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own #personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes #people really do find things that they love within them. #anyways I know this is getting long but I’ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art #sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on #and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me #but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back #and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit #that it’s all worth it. ya know?

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[finngualart]

ive calmed down a little after a nice night's sleep bc yesterday @nohtora and me got to meet Luke and i gave him this ink drawing and he said he was going to frame it and put it in his house so i can retire now

#i was so fucking nervous about this pals #i love drawing stuff for people but it always makes me very flustered to see people's response when they receive it hahaa #and giving this to Luke was... a Lot #also he said hed seen it on Twitter 💀 #and after hed complimented me on my skills #he started rambling about this scene and that he liked it so much #bc silver just got to sit #and be silver #not being the macguffin #not carrying the narrative #(at this point id died and left this earth tbh) #but just... sit #i love him ok #im so glad we got to do this #black sails #luke arnold #supanova melbourne

[theygender]

My gf and I just completed an extremely taxing move almost entirely on our own that was made even more difficult bc we were moving out of a roach-infested apartment and trying to make sure we didn't take any with us. We weren't able to pack anything up in advance bc roaches love cardboard boxes so we had to pack everything day-of (after thoroughly inspecting it all) and then immediately load the boxes into my car. One of my friends got COVID and another was having a chronic pain flareup so they couldn't help, and Trixie's friends who had all said well in advance that they were going to help us move on Saturday all bailed on us when the day actually came. Saturday was also the only day we could take our old furniture to the dump, but due to no one showing up to help we took too long to load it and missed our window and had to pay junk movers to come get it from us instead. My partner and I have spent the last five days doing nothing but packing and moving furniture and boxes (up and down stairs at both locations) making countless trips back and forth, and in between all of that I've also had to deal with pet sitting AND my college assignments. We were down to the wire today on our very last day to vacate our apartment, on a Monday when both of us had to go in to work bc we didn't know we would still be moving after not having any help on Saturday. We are both mentally and physically exhausted, and now that it's all over here we still have to unpack all of our everything

BUT! We're in a nice new apartment now with no roaches! It's bigger and it's pretty and it has two (2) bathrooms and a balcony and a fireplace and lots of windows that let in natural light and we (and our cats) absolutely love it. We're so so happy to be here and to no longer have to put up with our old place

And although we had to get rid of our couch and mattress for fear of roaches, we found a new couch and a new mattress that are even better than our old ones at very good prices (the mattress is queen-size! the couch folds out into a sleeper for our friends!)

And while I was carrying a box in I ran into one of my new neighbors who was walking his dog and he gendered me correctly, confidently, multiple times without hesitation. His puppy started pulling on its leash to try to run over to me and he jokingly told the dog "You can't help them. You can't help them! You don't have any hands, you can't help them!"

And then when I went to the store to pick up more supplies a woman stopped me to really excitedly tell me that my hair (side-shave mullet) was "so fly"

So yeah. All in all. I think I've had a great weekend

#rambling #i was genuinely surprised by getting gendered correctly #i was the only one there at the time so i know it wasnt just a plural they #like. im used to people correcting themselves back and forth between she and he (maybe even landing on an uncertain they? in the end) #im used to people giving me a hesitating almost scared ...they... when they cant decide if he or she is right and they dont want to offend #but this is only the second time ever that a complete stranger has confidently referred to me as they with no hesitation whatsoever #and he did it multiple times in a row! im still happy about that #AND the person who compliment my hair #and of course. being here in whats basically the apartment of our dreams. with no roaches! #im so fucking exhausted rn and theres still more to do #but im thanking god or the fates or whoever is out there that i get to sleep good tonight on a new mattress #(after i shower first in my new clean ROACH FREE bathroom of course) #🙏

[xoxokirby]

i wish we lived in a world that believed in good people. i get so angry when people get so fundamentally confused and scornful and defensive at the prospect of someone just being good. nice. kind.

#showed someone who had never heard of mr Roger’s his documentary and their first response seeing him was #‘​he has no allegations??’ #and something in me broke and hasn’t recovered. #I’m tired of media that depicts a lack of compassion as normal be it in common people or super individuals #not everyone needs to be homelander or omniman or sukuna etc #sometimes there’s Clark kents. there’s people who do good. I find them vastly more interesting #not every compliment has some grand mistrustful plan behind it #sometimes people just try to be good #when I compliment someone they always assume it’s to weird them out. lull them into a false sense of security. or flirt/get in their pants #no. im just trying to make someone’s day a little better. #fundamentally I just want to be kind. #social media was a mistake #because it never highlights goodness without being followed by messiness and criticism. #and i’m so tired of living in a world like that. #but who even cares bc no one is going to read this anyway. #kirby chats #Superman #mental health #vent post

[daydadahlias]

I know that I've bitched abt this before but since I can't find the original post, I'll just say again that I have so many issues with people that will send screenshots of fics they’re reading to their friends (or talk publicly about a fic on a platform that the author is not on) but then won’t leave a comment on the fic itself or ever directly talk to the author of said fic.

Like ok so you clearly loved the fic but you don’t think the author should know that?? You don't want to encourage them to write more work?? Because you don’t perceive fanfic authors as real people, do you? you only perceive their content as real and given to you like a commodity or some sort of given in a fandom sphere. and you can enjoy it in whatever means you want but you don’t care about the author, you care about you.

fanfic is not just a consumable product <3 fanfic authors are real people sharing our time and our energy and our love for writing and our love for our fandom with you for free <3 and the whole point in doing that is to connect w/ other people that love what we love.

so every time you read a fic (or any book !! or any art piece !! or literally anything MADE by another human being !!), consider the person who poured their energy and their love into that. and if you liked the fucking thing?? tell them that??

#it's so not that hard im gonna scream into a pillow #getting screenshots from groupchats being like 'people love ur fic' is actually asdfgh not as much of a compliment #as the multiple people who have sent me that thing #considering that. none of the people in that gc or in those texts will ever comment on my work or talk to me #and im not UNGRATEFUL for the interaction I already get I love it :) #but it's really fucking frustrating <3 that people read a fic and love it <3 and don't want to tell the author that #bc they dont percieve fanfic authors as real people #just ~content creators~ #me when im pissed lolz

[hella1975]

not someone commenting on tams to tell me to update taob. what if you fucked off forever

#the actual nerve of some people like it's bad enough getting those kinds of comments ON taob #bc obviously any comment along the lines of 'im literally begging you to update' is gonna piss the fuck out of a writer #BUT TO DO IT ON A DIFFERENT FUCKING FIC????? HAVE A HORRIBLE DAY #and the fact these people not only dont think they're doing anything wrong but think they're COMPLIMENTING ME #'i love your writing so much please update taob' IS NOT A FUCKING COMPLIMENT. LET ALONE ON A FIC THAT HAS NO RELEVANCE TO TAOB #WITH NO MENTION OF TAMS IN THE COMMENT EITHER. NO 'I REALLY LIKE THIS FIC. UPDATE TAOB' not that that would make it okay #but the utter audacity of it all is jarring. how are you gonna clearly have read tams and felt the need to comment #just to have NOTHING to say about it and tell me to update a different fic. actually fuck off #ending the comment with 'okay i love you' do you now. do you really. well it's unrequited babe. fuck off #you people make me mad sometimes istg #'hella why are you always so negative about taob's popularity' when i get something good out of it i'll let you know #edit: they left that comment on ch1 of tams which actually implies they didn't even read it which is somehow. worse #like they've clearly just clicked on it with no regard for the passion and effort i put into it seeing as it's a WHOLE SEPERATE FIC #and considered only that i might give the comment more attention if it was on tams not taob. what the actual fuck is the thought process #in what WORLD is someone taking that as a compliment. in what world am i gonna go 'omg writing it rn just for you bestie 🥺' #actually fuming about this idk why this one has got to me so much the utter CHEEK of it all has really knocked me sideways lmaooo

[zeezu-ix]

everytime someone in my class talks to me i sound so fucking meek and quiet its like my vocal chords get stuck at 2% volume and i physically cant make it any louder.

SOMEHOW THEY STILL HEAR ME THOUGH SO ITS ALL GOOD

#my god its even worse when i get complimented like dude thank you so much but i literally cannot do anything but nod in acknowledgement #when teachers are like praising my work to others in front of me i fr just act like i am not paying attention #LIKE AGAIN TY. TYSM BUT MY GOD IM GOING TO EXPLODE #thank you anxiety. so glad to have you here. #all my problems would be solved if i could talk to people normally i think

[kurozu501]

just did something embarrassing (left a comment on a03 telling one of my favorite authors on there how much i love their writing)

#they responded to one of my comments saying negative feedback had them a bit down #so i felt like i should communicate how much i enjoy their writing #like hey im a fan of your writing. there are people like me out there as well so don't let the negativity get you down #i think that was probably fine authors like when people leave compliments praising their writing right? #but maybe i was being a bit too familiar since i am just an internet stranger who's only interacted with them a few brief times before #idk

[ruerock]

do yall also have that one specific part of the character design process in which your mind goes completely blank and if someone asked you how or why was it done you have absolutely no explanation

#the thing about me designing characters is that i never actively think of the outfit #so whenever someone compliments the clothes im just like. let me look at it again bro there was an outfit???! #all pos btw im so glad when people like it! #i just find it funny that i genuinely will just not even remember what was the though process #((there was none))

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[tallymali]

i know this is a terrible awful ungrateful thing to say. but i sincerely hate my illness for not being terminal.

#i no longer have days when i wish to continue living #i went through all the childhood trauma and the failed suicide attempts #and i worked my ass off in therapy to get to a point where my brain was not a terrible place to live #and i sincerely felt happy about living and having a future #and then this happened. #and i dont know if i will ever live normally again #theres a chance im just gonna spend the rest of my life trapped inside my house numb from pain #so like. for the people who ask when im gonna post on onlyfans/reddit/whatever again: i dont know #i know you’re not asking that in an unkind way #i know its a compliment #but i truly dont know if ill even still be alive in a years time #i dont want to kms but i also dont have it in me to live my life like this #so yeah my answer to everything is i dont know and idk if i ever will know #sorry this is fuckin grim.

[martyrbat]

im still not over that video of the fat men in swimsuits dancing and partying and a cishet woman making an addition to the post saying how they looked friend shaped and like theyre safe and give good hugs like. girl can you take your fatphobia and infantilization someplace else some of us are horny !!!!

#i think some people take fatphobia as JUST being denied medical care constantly being ridiculed and mocked and targeted in crime etc etc #but also like. youre treating fatness as a blanket moral judgement for a whole group of people lol #a fat person isnt more pure or innocent or safe than a skinny person just because theyre fat #like yea i feel comfortable around other fat people more because of my trauma of treatment from skinny people #and im more attracted to fatness but wdym they look trustworthy just because theyre fat??? #like its just always so weird how people cant talk about fatness normally even when trying to be ‘supportive’ #you 9/10 wouldn't say a skinny bitch looked friend shaped/like they give good hugs bc theyre skinny why is that the only compliment we get? #im just being bitchy rn im in a bit of a mood and forgot i screenshotted that before deciding to be the bigger person #me at 11am: its annoying and strikes a nerve but alas their intentions were made in good spirit and it isnt worth complaining about #me at 6pm: i can kill you with my bare hands i WILL kill you with my bare hands. 🐻👋 <- watch out. bitch.

[definitelynotshouting]

HI i literally have never used tumblr before. I made an account specifically because of how mych I love your hunger au. Like actually dying over it.

Your fic is actually the best thing i’ve read. Pls. Lots of love

THE POWEERR OF HUNGER AU....... AW MAN THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS IS SO SWEET WTF /POS

#shouting speaks #asks #compliments #hunger au #ME WHEN I CRY ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ THIS IS SO NICE IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE IT THIS MUCH #hope you enjoy your stay on tumblr!!! sjhdsjdjd one tip is to change your icon right away so ppl know u arent a bot #even if you dont post or reblog anything thats a good way to keep people from blocking you automatically when you follow them!!! #i think there are some tumblr etiquette posts floating around still..... but that will get you started!! :] #intensely flattered that you made a tumblr just for hunger au omg #O7 BRAVE SOLDIER #txt