#sorry for the late answer 🥺😭

[moonandblossoms]

I think Ray, Mariah, Lee, Kevin and Gary are so adorable as kids

They are!

#beyblade #bakuten shoot beyblade #baihuzu #rei kon #ray kon #mao chou #mao chen #lee wong #rai chen #gary tan #gao #kevin cheng #kiki #white tigers #white tigers x #// ask nika #sorry for the late answer 🥺😭 #i haven't checked my inbox for a while #nvm they are cuties <3

[ianthoni]

Same anon as before. Forgot to point out how Ian and Tommy's interactions make me go hmmmmmmm sometimes.

And yes, in case you were wondering, I am an Ianthony shipper, but if I got there, I'll never stop rambling.

Idk about Ian and Tommy i kinda see them as bickering with each other family members(that one time tommy calling ian sub lmao) Maybe didn't see the moments making sense.

And also please go into ianthony I wanna see more of them. Anyways here's the video you talked about last ask sorry i forgot to add. Anthony was LOOKING fr.

Also here is a youtube video if y'all wanna watch it. I swear my channel is funny.

#ianthony #ian hecox #smosh #anthony padilla #☀️🔍 #asks and answers #iancorn #ianshire #lasercorn #jovenshire #also sorry for answering soooo late 😭😭😭 #my inbox is full and im trying to answer everyone i swear🥺

[twinkodium]

breaking my tumblr hiatus for only a minute just to tell you that i saw the liam lookalike today 🥺 he was very far away and my eyes are rlly bad but i still think he looked very cute 🤭😚 unfortunately did not catch him staring at me today unlike last time, because i was busy coaching my kids in a match, but the fact that he actually sat down in the stands to watch my team (and therefor me)……… 👉👈

(am i making a very big deal out of nothing? always 🤭 but like why else would he watch a match of 14-year-old girls? if not to watch me??? 😶 the delusion is growing strong today)

God, you’ve sent me this ask last week and my tumblr glitching so hard it never shows up just now that and anon sent me something 😅 gotta love the smoothness of this app 🙃

Awwww so happy you saw him again 😌😌 I’m sure he was taking glances at you, but was shy about it and probably stared when you weren’t looking 🤭🤭 how cute he actually stayed to watch 🫶🏼🫶🏼

(Delulu becomes solulu 👀👀 nothing worse is with having a great imagination plus it’s possible that was the case 👀 kept an eye on you 🤭)

#asks #Jackie 🧡 #terribly sorry for the late answer 😭😭😭 #but tumblr is a bitch and has glitches all the time… #my followers count still messed up 😅 #anyway hope you see him yet again and might have a conversation 👀👀 #gotta take that step girlie 😌 #you even know his mom your future mother is law cmon 🥺

[theflyingfeeling]

Do you think Aleksi is bi because I think he might be he gives the vibes (and I don’t like mean to speculate but I know he won’t see this)

honestly speaking I am yet to form my final opinion on the matter lol but based on recent events (=him being fruity on his live streams) I'm ready to say he might at least be bi-curious, if you know what I mean 👀

whatever his sexual orientation is, he's such a cool dude and cute as heck too 🥺

#aren't we all a little bi or whatever anyway 🤷‍♀️ #also yeah i may have a headcanon of aleksi and olli during their late night talks admitting they might be bi-curious / into dudes 👀 #just imagine them being a bit nerveous about it because they've never told anyone else before #and they both suspect the other might understand exactly what they mean and so they gather the boldness to talk about it #and they're blushing and their hearts are beating fast and it's _probably_ just because of the adrenaline rush of #saying something like that out loud for the first time ever 💞 #and they're both so excited because they have someone who's in a similar situation that they can talk about it with 🥺 #yes yes yes anon i know you meant irl and not in my cringy little headcanons sorry sorry sorry 😭 #by now y'all should've figured out i'm deeply delusional and it only gets worse the later the hour is i'm sorry i can't seem to help it 💀 #answered asks #anon asks

[gojoest]

mkay i just saw your scar post about gojo and listen. LISTEN.

just IMAGINE kissing the scars that linger on his face from where he didn't know how to do infinity etc.. etc BUT NO

IMAGINE JUST KISSING THE SCARS ON HIS FACE JUST TO SHUT HIM UP AND WHENEVER YOU DO THAT HE JUST-

stares at you with the most 'iloveyouwhydidyoudothatiwastryingtobemadatyouhowdareyou' sort of face, then he just kisses you back with so much aggression as if he never touched you before-😵‍💫

his one weakness is when you shower him with affection. i know he can’t stay mad and pouty at you when you cling to him….and kissing his scars is so so intimate. scars are always associated with insecurities and you’re usually ashamed of them for reasons, and when someone loves those parts of you wholeheartedly it’s just……….so fucking special. when you kiss his scars he can’t stay mad at you — not that he was actually mad in the first place—he can never be mad at you—just him being dramatic about something trivial. but now he’s got to drop the act and make you the object of his cute aggression 🥺

#[ ai—mail ] #this is not ab prev post but another one i am just late to answer this ask im so sorry 😭 #i would kiss his scars every day one by one #carefully run my lips through them and plant the most loving and tender peck on each yk 🥺

[professional-benaddict]

battling with mental illness so tough rafni, want to be little but there are just some icky stuff that pulls me out of my headspace/regression :( (neurodivergent things i guess 😓) -🪐

babe i’m sorry for being late to this!!🥺🥺 do you know what exactly is pulling you out of headspace? is it negative thoughts about regressing or smth else?

i guess my best advice is to relax!!🥺🥺💗💗 regressing and being in your headspace is okay and nothing to be ashamed of. it’s just you in your little room and you’re not harming anyone else. and if you’re getting distracted by your «adult» responsibilities or worries, i’d say my best advice is to tell yourself to worry about it later. you need and deserve time to relax, and worrying is very rarely productive. you can save it for later (and then you most likely won’t remember it🤪)💗💗💗

#littles united #i hope this can help you or someone🥺🥺💗💗 #im sorry for being so late to answering😭😭 #ask

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Oh also I drew a sleepy guy earlier 

I saw a headcanon interpretation thing on an askblog of Piko being sleepy and I don’t know why I adore the idea but I do (I spend most of my time curled up in bed that’s probably why) I might do an overhaul of his personality because i don’t really remember it and make him sleepy gfbxvbcb

If you want some angst for the concept: remember that emotional blocker that got broken when he collapsed and was scrapped? Well because of how overworked he was his system glitched and basically always attempted to put him into sleep mode unless it was forcibly blocked. Now, no matter how inconvenient or mildly distressing it is, Piko is almost always sleepy and will usually pass out if left alone for a while because it’s easier to just let sleep take them than force himself to stay awake (it was a safety feature to avoid any glitches that would stop them from sleeping normally, so it also psychologically makes him tired too.)

Sometimes he feels guilty and overworks himself as a way to try and make up for how useless he feels, but it only makes it worse and the aftermath is them physically unable to keep themselves awake.

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aw sleepy guy… 🥺

the angst… 😭😭 aw man poor piks… but also mann same bruh 😔✌️ it really be like that

we’ve said this before but i’ll say it again: please take these guys to therapy 😭 piko i get how feelign useless is absolutely awful but trust me the overworking also aint it you cant keep doing it like this bro…

#submission #SORRY IM ANSWERING THIS SO LATE so much stuff has been going on #i woulda drawn something to go w/ that little doodle you sent in but i have not had time 😭 lowkey in deadline hell #but also my brain is STILL full of bees and i constantly think abt vsynths 24/7 instead of focusing on my shit i have to do ARHGH #i do have a wip i wanted to finish some point soon but i'll see if i have time for it... might have to sacrifice my sleep ahskjkanjgnk #*dying noises* #BUT I LIKE THE DOODLE ITS REALLY CUTE!!! 🥺💓 #sleepy piko is also very... hmm coincidental?? to me considering some storylines but thats just me shh #ollie the star anon

[ficsforeren]

Just popping in to say this is what haircut Porcos kid would have

LMAO YES 10000000000% CANON

#awww they would have similar haircuts that would be so cute 🥺🥺🥺 #i love dad!porco he's so tired of everything he's a mood #so sorry for the late reply btw 😭 and thank you for sharing this with me! #the last song canon #in another life canon #kana answers stuff #queue

[heymacy]

hi macy 🥰 just stopping by to say how much i love YQHBR! i had a chance to catch up on the last few chapters today and it’s just like a big warm hug. can’t wait for the next chapter whenever it’s ready!

ahhhh anon, thank you thank you!! i’m so happy you’re enjoying it — if my writing feels like a warm hug, i’ve succeeded! the next chapter is in progress, it’s gonna be a long one i think but the wait will be worth it! pinky promise!! ily ily! 💛✨

#also i am so so sorry for answering this so late 😭 #tumblr has been eating my asks and idk why 🥺 #macy babbles #anons

[courageisneverforgotten]

Omg happy birthday my love!!!!!!! I was also sick on my birthday and did nothing so I know how disappointing it is. I am giving you a thousand and one kisses ♥️♥️♥️

lindsay 🥺💙💙💙 thank you so much! it feels icky, but i hope we both have great things in store this year to make up for it 💗 i love you!!!

#a thousand and one kisses.. 🥺😭 #ask #lindsay tag #also omg i’m sorry i’m answering this late i’ve been miserable 👹 #trying to feel better tho!!

[hotgirlcoded]

Hi you're so cool and your blog is fun! I know nothing about hockey but I get so excited seeing how excited you get on your blog about it. Also really like your music taste(Megan thee stallion is amazing). So just hi! Have a good day:) here's my demon baby

omg......this is so sweet thank you 😭❤️ me....cool.....? wow......idek how to respond to this is so cute i love you 💝 the megan thee stallion shoutout exactly ☝🏽 and ahhhhhh your little demon baby (lol) is adorable!! 🥺🥺🥺❣️ thank you for blessing us with a photo ! and hope you're having an amazing day/night 💗

#sorry for answering this so late 😭🥺 #i wanted to keep the good vibes to myself here ❣️ #i also appreciate all the messages enjoying my sportsposting 🥰😙 #cloudy-squid #answered

[jsuga]

Hi, random but I saw duck today in the middle of the city - police was escorting it to safety actually - and I thought of you 🦆 it was super cute!

Be careful and don’t get lost too 💛

JULIAAAA, hiii! I hope you've been doing well these days 🫂

Excuse me while I cry, but that's adorable and it's the most beautiful thing someone has ever said to me 😭💙

#I'm still suffering with my slow data sorry I'm late :((( #raplinenthusiasts #answered #🥺💙😭🥰🤧🦆

[goosita]

first of all i love you. really. everything that you're writing is making my life so much better, so thank u <3 if that's okay for u, could you write something where reader is a single mom, she has a little girl and her daughter is very attached to billy? and it's the most sweetest thing ever cause billy loves her, calls her little princess (very sweet tooth 😭) one night, her daughter asks billy to read a storie for her to sleep and he does so and in the end, she says something like "i wish you were my dad" and it's just so cute and funny cause she gagged everyone, reader is like "babe!!!!" while billy is in shock but at the same time his heart is melting 🥺🥺 (sorry if this is too much, just write if u want!)

oh im. gonna cry and sob and piss everywhere this is the sweetest softest thing ive ever read yes oh my god

billy would be so so sweet with your daughter, especially if she was around 4-6 years old. at first you were worried that a man like him wouldn’t want anything to do with a single mother, especially one as young as you. but he never asked you to explain, and never judged you for it. all he ever did was treat you like a queen, and your daughter like a princess.

and your little girl is just enamored with him. she follows after him like a little duckling, so much so that billy starts to call her “ducky”. it makes her giggle every single time, always makes billy smile all warm and fond. they get on like a house on fire, your man and your baby girl. billy teaches her things like how to ride a horse, how to tie all kinds of knots, how to rope a little goat even. your daughter tells you one evening, her little face very serious, that she thinks “billy knows everything, mama. everything!” you want to let her believe it for as long as possible.

on this particular day, all 3 of you had spent the day together. billy had showed up bright and early to take you for a picnic out in a meadow behind your house, a daylong excursion that lasted until the sun slowly set. it was late spring, cicadas beginning to sing in the tall grass. once it got dark outside, billy pulled out a jar and showed your daughter how to catch fireflies. once they had about 10 of them, they sat on the blankets with their heads ducked together to observe them, giving each one a unique name.

“let’s call this one tommy,” she says, pointing at a bug near the bottom.

“perfect name, ducky. how’d you get so good at this?”

your little girl giggles, shrugging and letting billy name the next one. it makes your heart so happy to see a man with so much patience and love for your daughter.

when you finally return to the house, it’s time to get your kid ready for bed. tired and pliant from her long day outside catching bugs and weaving flower crowns (that of course billy taught her how to do), she goes down without much of a fight. she does ask billy to stay and tell her a bedtime story, though, and he’s never been one to deny that sweet little face whatever she wants.

you half-listen as billy spins some wild tale about a princess who slay dragons herself, one who doesn’t need a prince to come and rescue her. she’s strong and brave and guess what? she looks just like your little girl, same hair color and little lilac colored dress. his story makes her smile, even as her sleepy eyes begin to blink more slowly. when he finishes, he leans down to kiss her forehead softly and tuck her blanket around her small little body.

“i wish you were my daddy,” she murmurs sleepily, rubbing her eye with one small fist. you see billy freeze and slowly look to you, unsure what to say.

“oh, baby—“ you start, taking a step forward. billy gently cuts you off, which you welcome, not sure what to tell her.

“you know, ducky, sometimes i wish that too,” he whisper conspiratorially. her eyes light up curiously.

“really?” she asks, looking up at him.

“mhm,” he says with a nod. “but i think this little thing we have going here is even more special. you know why?”

she waits for an answer, eyes full of curiosity and wonder at the man sitting on the edge of her bed.

“because i didn’t help to give you life, life gave you and me to each other. and that’s pretty special, don’t you think?”

your little girl smiles, nodding her head. you swallow hard, your eyes feeling a little misty at the way he loves your baby and she loves him. it’s so pure, so unconditional the way they’ve attached themselves to each other.

billy smiles at her and brushes her hair away from her face, giving her chubby cheek a soft caress.

“sweet dreams, baby girl.”

“goodnight billy,” she says with a little yawn, snuggling down into her pillow. billy blows out the oil lamp beside her bed, following you out of her bedroom and closing the door softly.

“i’m sorry if i overstepped, i didn—“ he’s cut off by you grabbing his face and pulling him down into a dizzying kiss. you smile against his mouth when he doesn’t hesitate for even a second to kiss you back, his arms winding around your waist to pull you closer.

“thank you,” you whisper when you finally break away for air. “for loving both of us, for taking care of us.”

“sweetheart, you don’t have to thank me for that. i’ll always be here to take care of my two best girls,” he says with a grin, tucking a lock of your hair behind your ear. “and who knows? maybe one day soon you’ll let me put a ring on that pretty little finger and that little girl in there can call me whatever she wants.”

#oh im sobbing this is so sweet #lowkey i wanna make a series now of little moments with billy and reader’s little girl #anon #billy the kid #billy the kid x reader #billy the kid x you #tom blyth #tom blyth x reader

[dark-night-hero]

i love the imagine u wrote where zhongli would give us up for the world 🥹🥹 and it got me thinking:

what if the reader gets incarnated to the current timeline we have and meets zhongli again? they don’t have the past memories but somehow zhongli feels familiar for them. Z thinks this era is the right time for him to take back the past and do things right so he spends time w them but he somehow finds out that reader has a lover (maybe another playable character). Z begins to asks questions abt their lover and idk how their convo would play out but I just imagine where reader gets a question where they answer with “i would give up the world for them (their lover)” and zhong is just hit with past memories and regrets wishing how he could have done things differently idk i j imagine it rly angsty 😭😭

Sorry to disturb but this has been on my mind i cant stop thinking abt it and i wanted to share 😭😭 Anyways, i look forward to more of ur works!! keep up the good work ur doing great 🥺🫶

: following zhongli (world > you)

Imagine how had Mor- Zhongli tried to get close to you, you who obviously was rather uncomfortable with his presence. And the only key to it was the traveller, the same old traveller that had help Liyue and Monstand and is now away on their venture in Inazuma. That being said, nowadays he had been keeping you company.

"You've been off since the departure of the Traveller." Zhongli spoke as he stand right beside you in the harbor.

"Really? I didn't notice." You have him a small smile.

"But I guess you're right, I've been missing the traveller so bad nowadays." You chuckle.

Imagine, at that very moment, Zhongli hoped he didn't not see you. Not when you're looking like that. Not when you're looking so soft, so lovely, obviously longing for someone, someone who definitely wasn't him.

Imagine the way his heart dropped to his stomach. The way his hand clenched around nothing before realising it. And after a few moments of silence.

"Do you.. Perhaps have feelings for the traveller?"

Imagine the way his voice shaken, obviously did go unnoticed by you. The way his amber iris were shaking, hoping and trying to deny reality as best as he can. He had hope for a chance. He knew this time, nothing can go wrong with the two of you. So he approached you, he tried to get close to you, he really did. But perhaps it was already too late, or was it? Did he even had a chance in this new persona he now possess?

"Honestly, I'm not sure myself." You chuckle.

"Or so I thought before the traveller left. Did you know? The traveller confessed to me, but Traveller also told me that they had so many things going on at the moment so.." As you look beyond the sea, you smile genuinely.

"I was wondering that in the world was the Traveller even thinking confessing and leaving me just like that, but now that I think about it. Its wasn't so bad."

Imagine the way you smile, the way your brush back your hair, trying to fix it upon the harsh breeze that have been messing with your hair earlier.

"If the world wants me dead, if the world see me as a threat, what would you do?"

"Huh?"

"What was the question that suddenly came into mind as soon as te Traveller confessed."

"What was the Traveller reply?"

Imagine the way you laugh, the way you smile genuinely as you recall the answer of that silly, adventurous, kind Traveller reply.

Imagine the way Zhongli kept staring at you, you who looked all refesh and happy, bright as you were before. Oh how much it hurts him he was no longer the reason why.

"How about a new world?"

"What?"

"I'll just have to take you to a new world. As you are already aware I wasn't from this world. All we have to do is to escape and find a new world where no one can take you away from me. Although my twin always somes first, I cannot afford to loose you, you know?"

"..." "(First name)? Are you o-?" "Pfff.."

"Did I say something funny?" "No.. hehe, I'm just.. I don't know." Was it relief that you felt?

Imagine the way you let out a sigh. Thinking about the Traveller only makes you miss them more. Perhaps you should have given the Traveller a reply back then but both of you agreed to put more thought into it and give them a reply upon coming back.

"Escape." It was just one word.

"I see." Zhongli replied, this time he looked away from you.

"If you don't mind me asking." "What is it?"

"If it's for the sake of the world, would you be willing to kill them?"

Imagine the way you once again let out a sigh, as you went quite only for a few moments, you face him and tug his sleeve.

"If that person meant the world for you, isn't that enough reason to be selfish?" You chuckle.

"Isn't a world without your beloved would only felt like a living hell?" You added as you never once look away from him.

"It goes on without saying that it's them over the world. That's how much they matter to me, that's how much I love them."

Imagine the way Zhongli chuckle and the way his lips form a bitter smile afterwards nevertheless, he agreed to you and eventually excuse himself. Leaving you all alone in the harbor, all waiting for the Traveller and not him. But it's alright, one way or another, he deserves this.

Imagine as Zhongli walks away from you, you stare at him and as you do so. He looks so lonely. But then you blink as a harsh breeze passes by, turning your look into the horizon, the sun was peacefully setting. How beautiful yet it left a bitter taste in your mouth in which you soon ignore.

"Escape huh."

Imagine, it's not like he did not think about it. But back then, the best choice was to kill you. But after hearing what you said, he starts to doubt if he did perhaps made a mistake, leaving regrets behind. After all, you were right. A world were he couldn't embrace you when you were right in front of him was like a living hell.

Imagine the way it was making him wonder if he was only a little bit selfish, if only he did not listen to the pleads of his people, his friends. If only he tried to find another way. If only he choses the other way. Would the two of you be happy and still together like you were back then?

He doesn't know, after all, those were the choices he didn't take. And this was the consequence he had to face.

[ⓒdark-night-hero] 2023°

: I think I strayed away from what was asked. Crap, did I do this right?

#genshin impact #dark night hero #genshin imagines #genshin #zhongli angst #zhongli x reader #genshin impact zhongli #genshin impact morax #morax #zhongli x yn #zhongli x you #zhongli #aether x reader #lumine x reader #genshin x y/n #genshin angst #genshin impact angst #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x you

[babyjakes]

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event | kinkmas 2023

prompt | massage

pairing | massage therapist!andy barber x reader

warnings | andy’s soooo soft and sweet <3. err, some sort of violation of massage therapy ethics lol. me kind of not knowing how a massage works. my shameless hand kink. fingering. praising/encouragement. squirting. he cleans her up after :)

word count | 897

an | big thankyou to @starksbabie for letting me ask weird questions about massage practices lol. sorry if this still didn’t seem realistic, i’ve never had a massage before 😭

okay but 😳 getting a massage from andy? 😏

he’s a professional ofc!! recommended to you by a friend who’s noticed how tense and stressed you’ve been lately. “he’s the best, those hands are magic!”

he’s got a little private office built off of his home. he greets you when you arrive, guiding you back into the private room with the table. “go ahead and undress for me, honey. hop up and lay on your back when you’re ready; you can cover yourself with the sheet if you like.” he gives you a few minutes of privacy to let you do as he instructed. all you can think about is how handsome he is 🥲 your friend should’ve warned you this guy’s a total dilf lol

he comes back in and dims the lights, making his outline just barely visible against the few dull lamps stationed around the room. washes his hands at the sink in the corner before coming to stand at your side, pumping some oil onto his large hands. he can see you’re trembling a little 🥺

“easy sweetheart, just relax. i’ll be gentle, i promise.” his voice is so soothing and warm, it’s hard not to trust him

he starts things out innocent enough, moving the sheet and working your calves and around your knees. murmuring soothing words as he notes your jumpiness, “deep breaths, good.” “that feel okay?” “a little tight here, honey. let’s see if we can help with that-” his hands are so strong yet gentle 💕

he gradually works his way up to your thighs. the outsides first, then the tops. you try your best to fight off any inappropriate thoughts or feelings, but there’s just something about his dark figure towering over you, his massive hands, his low, soothing voice…

“gonna open up your legs a bit, princess. you’ve got some tightness here,” you jump as his long fingers are trailing to the insides of your thighs. he opens them just a few inches at first, guiding your knees to fall apart. you’re glad the room is so dark; you’re sure you’re making the most humiliating faces at this point 🥲 he works at your sore inner thighs as you try to ignore the fact that your bare pussy is now on display for his trained eyes and hands

he makes his way up to the tender space where your legs meet your groin. a whimper escapes your lips, heat rushing to your cheeks

he pauses. “sweetheart.” his voice is so dangerously low, with just a hint of tentativeness. he takes a deep breath, exhaling audibly before continuing. “i wanna help you, baby. will you let me?” his hands are guiding your knees further apart, hooking them over each side of the table to let your calves dangle down towards the floor.

you close your eyes, trying not to let your voice tremble as you give a soft, “mhm,” nodding your head. it’s all the answer he needs

he pumps some more oil onto his hands, warming them gently for a few moments before returning to the side of the table. you can just barely see his form leaning down a bit to get as good of a view as he can. his hands are careful as they land on either side of your needy cunt. you don’t get to see the smile spreading across his face as he catches a glimpse of your wetness, shining subtly in the darkness

he uses one large hand to part your pussy lips, the other dragging a few fingers up through your puddle. he hums in approval as your body jerks sensitively. he strokes the pads of his fingers broadly over your clit for a few moments, paying attention to how your body responds. when your knees shake and your little feet kick gently, he moves to press two fingers up into your soaking hole as the others continue on your burning button

“keep breathing for me, baby. that feel good?” you offer a mumbled confirmation, your head nodding almost desperately as his strong digits stretch you out. the sensation of fullness almost does you in alone- and then he starts pumping his fingers into you, curling them ever-so-slightly up to reach your sweet spot

you let out some mixture between a moan and a cry, your hips bucking up instinctively to match his pace. “good, that’s good, honey. keep going for me, that’s it…” he forces your mound back with his fingers, swirling his thumb quicker over your hardened nub. “come on, baby. give it to me, almost there…”

you come right on his fingers with a string of jumbled cries. “goood,” he croons, keeping up his pace to coax your orgasm out of you. he smiles as he feels you squirting out against his hands before things finally begin to ease up

he slows to a gentle stop, reaching for a towel with one hand as he continues stroking your inner thigh with the other. after wiping off the mess you made from his fingers, he gently moves to find something to clean you off with, turning the lights up a little to make the room more visible

“feeling better?” he asks when he returns to your side. you just nod pathetically, a sweet look of humiliation settling on your face as he gets to cleaning you up 😌

#eun's writing #kinkmas 2023 #andy barber #andy barber fanfiction #andy barber smut #andy barber x reader #andy barber x y/n #andy barber x you #andy barber one shot #andy barber imagine #andy barber drabble #andy barber blurb #andy barber headcanon #defending jacob #defending jacob fanfiction #chris evans #chris evans fanfiction #chris evans smut

[softlyspector]

Hi! I’d love to request something for Joel Miller :) I saw a poem and it made me think of him 😭 If this is dumb please ignore it.

“I was dying to hear someone say that I didn’t need to try so hard to be perfect. That I was enough and it was okay.”

Maybe something full of fluff, reader is the first person to tell Joel he doesn’t always have to be the protector and it’s okay for him to need someone too 🥺 (I know I said full of fluff but I’m also a whore for some angst so if you think it’s better with that sprinkled in there too, whatever works!)

Joel Miller x Reader + nightmare and comfort

warnings: mentions of past violence, panic attack, joel needing comfort

He can't breathe.

Black seeps in at the corners of Joel's eyes, closing around his field of vision, which only makes him panic more.

Maybe he's actually having a heart attack this time.

Closing his eyes doesn't help, the images of his nightmare just bolt back to the front of his mind. Bloody images of failure. His failure.

Ellie lying prone in a hospital gown, Ellie stumbling in the snow with blood on her face.

Sarah bleeding out in his arms.

You with a bullet between your eyes, torn apart by infected, your life snatched from your body right before his eyes.

But that hasn't happened.

Not yet.

Your voice treads in the violent waters of his mind. He wants to tell you to get back, to stand back, that it's not safe.

"Stop," he says instead, trying to push you away. The sheet tangles around his legs. He can't get up. His voice comes out hoarse, rough. "Stop, goddamnit," he snaps at you, louder this time, meaner. "Just stop."

He manages to get the sheet out from around his legs, not acknowledging for even a moment that it's your caring hands that had done the untangling, that all he had been doing was uselessly ripping at it.

Joel stumbles up and crosses the room, giving himself space to breathe and think.

You go quiet behind him, waiting for him to come back to himself.

Eventually, he can breath again, the pressure on his chest eases, the knot tied around his lungs loosening until it doesn't sting quite so bad.

"'m sorry," he mutters. "Sorry, sweetheart."

The bed creaks when you get up, the floorboards hold the gentle shuffle of your feet.

The room is filled with yellow light. It's late afternoon.

He'd fallen asleep with you.

It had been a slow afternoon, one that passed by like molasses. You'd made lunch, read to him from the book you were getting through together.

It had felt odd. It had felt good. For things to be that calm.

Joel remembers the way your mouth felt against his, just kissing in bed, lazy and slow until he-

Fell asleep.

"Sorry," he mutters again, tugging at the collar of his t-shirt.

He can't protect you, can't protect anyone, with dreams that feel like omens and promises and reminders wrapped all in one.

On top of that, he can't even give you a normal afternoon. One where you kiss him and nap and wake up in golden sunshine.

Joel doesn't turn back to you, instead leaning one forearm onto the doorframe, breathing deeply through his nose.

Sweat coats the nape of his neck, makes his t-shirt stick to his back.

"Joel."

Your voice is clear now, not murky and entrenched in the watery grave of his mind, calling to him from a sea he can't cross.

You slip under his arm and wrap yourself around him, the press of your arms firm.

It's worse. Seeing you dead, and then having you comfort him.

It's not right, it's not deserved, not when he'd get you all killed.

"It's alright," you rub a sure hand over his spine. "You don't always have to be strong. Not right now."

He clutches at you, digs his fingers in deep, like soil might spill from between your ribs. "You're safe," you assure him. "We are. Ellie is here."

Joel doesn't answer you, his voice lost in whatever spell you cast. "Let me protect you too."

He pulls you impossibly closer, not sure what you mean. There's no protecting him.

Your hand travels to his hair, slides through the strands. "You're ours to protect too, Joel. Whether you agree with it or not. It's okay to need."

He's not sure he can ever agree with you on that, but he does let you stay where you are. He can accept this, for just a minute. Your arms around him, you desperate to protect him from a night that always clawed its way back.

"I'm here, you don't always have to be strong."

He believes you, if only for that moment.

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