#sorry i know i'm insufferable

[osoreruna]

excuse me while i continue to go through the motions —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #sorry i know i'm insufferable #I KNOW Y'ALL ARE SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING OOC FROM ME !!! #but yesterday was...a day ? #i was absent here and on discord virtually completely. #i just needed to take a day from everything — every emotional stage resulting from being laid off for no real reason just seemed to hit me #all at once lmao #and i just #it was good. i spent the day with a friend and we didn't talk about much. just watched mha #and worked on fairy wings for the renaissance fair next week. #well...and turned in my van keys and work phone and laptop because i was officially termed yesterday and...okay #looking back at it my mental break yesterday makes a little more sense. #but ANYWAY I'M #i'm filing for unemployment today but then #i think i'm ready to tackle things here for real !! #will probably mix between asks and drafts — but ngl it's probably just gonna be whatever the hell i feel like doing atm #but i'll be around discord too !! hit me up for some plotting and chatting and crying over 419 !!!

[mwagneto]

i'm sorry but i cannot stop thinking about it for reallll imagine you're richer than god and never had to face consequences for anything and you have so much money you don't even know what to do with it so you toss a quarter million at the stupidest tourism option on earth. and you see that the paper you have to sign tells you you could die and you look at the flimsy metal tube you're going to be plummeting into the ocean in and it doesn't even phase you because bad things don't happen to people like you. imagine some hours into the journey you realise something is wrong. maybe not you but somehow the knowledge that there was a fuckup becomes known to the 5 of you trapped in there. and you know you can't get out from the inside and you know you have no food and no bathroom and not even the room to ever stand up again. when does the realisation that your wealth cannot protect you from your inevitable mortality set in. how does someone like that reconcile with both death and the fact that it's 100% their own doing? can someone like this even come to terms with that or will they be fighting to find someone to blame until the last second? when does it reach you that all 5 of you are going to die one by one and there's nothing you can do? does the fact that 5 of you have enough air until thursday but one of you could have enough air until at least next week ever cross anyone's mind.

#it's so so so good i'm sorry it's literally such an insanely cool concept im literally frothing at the mouth here #i need to know what's going on in there so bad. but i don't want them to survive so #imagine if they did survive 😐 most insufferable ted talks on earth #oceangate #titanic #the titanic

[vividblaze]

My thief is out there stealin' hearts instead.

#dragon's dogma #dragon's dogma 2 #amadeus: i know you just woke up but i'm back from the rift and gotta tell you about how strong this one arisen i met was #kyrie (an insufferably possessive and jealous woman): absolutely not... #ty to that one arisen who keeps hiring my pawn and leaving a heart rating lmfao(???) #if you're aiming for that reverse harem playthrough I AM WISHING YOU THE BEST HUSBANDO LAIFU 🫡 #also sorry for not upgrading his gear in a while because aesthetics/fashion is my priority

[mountinez]

what makes me sad about all of this is that after monza we saw that family liking tweets calling charles a rat, saying he has no honor... and still, ferrari does not stay on his side. still, they do this to him, sacrifice him for the other guy who never was as loyal as he was. the feeling is that the evil won. it's just so disappointing.

#it has to be character development i'm going through the 5 stages of grief #i'm sorry for everyone on the discord because i know i'm insufferable :( #charles leclerc #rant

[skrunksthatwunk]

aurghhh ok still rewatching '97 and the way guts and casca only have the room to breathe and really come to understand and care for each other in griffith's absence because he has such a strong hold over them both.... and the way their mutual dedication to him is what causes them to bicker for years (casca thinks he's not serving him well enough, guts thinks she doesn't get that he cares/how much he cares, casca's jealousy over griffith's feelings for guts, how he won his heart without even trying or being aware of it or doing anything with it) and is also a big part of what brings them together (earlier when guts deviates from the plan to save griffith and she commends him, in the cave casca opening up about griffith and her's past, showing that vulnerability, while it's mostly confrontational, leads to guts kinda getting her better, and his efforts to save and protect her (falling off the cliff with her, taking on the 100 men so she can escape, encouraging her to return to griffith so she can help him because it's what she feels she's meant to do (her dream, the direction in life guts shares and yet is questioning because of griffith's speech at the fountain, whether or not it's enough to serve him if it means he'll never be a true friend in griffith's eyes because he's not an equal), supporting the idea of her being with griffith/being his most important person like he won't because he doesn't view it as a competition like she has been since day one) leading to her realizing that he's kind of not that bad a guy and they have a lot more in common that she thought. and how the bonfire of dreams conversation is guts opening up to her in kind, the answer to her talking about how griffith saved her, how she feels. how neither of them ever call it love but it's something they know they both have for griffith. how it's something they're beginning to have for each other, different in ways they couldn't put a word to. because they're equals this time. the way griffith kind of becomes less and less important as they find other reasons to live and fight, as they become less singularly obsessed with him. how griffith is unable to stand it, guts' personhood, that agency and peer-to-peer equality he claimed to want (and perhaps truly did) that disappeared guts from his life, his plans, his side. how it barely even matters to griffith how casca changes because he never wanted her like she wanted him. god i can't fucking stand their shakespearean nonsense drama (<- hopelessly in love with their interpersonal dynamics)

#god they're the only healthy part of this unholy mind-palace love triangle/throuple aren't they #they could have been the worst qpr/throuple in your social circle. like just insufferable when they're not getting along #if griffith hadn't [oh god oh fuck oh jesus christ] all over everything even remotely good in his life anyway #poor casca's in love with a gay man and then falls for his not-quite-boyfriend and when not-quite-boyfriend reciprocates said gay man fucki #g. Does The Eclipse Stuff. at least partially to get back at you two. oh my godd #i'm sorry i'm so not normal about them. it's starting to leak out into the blog bc i'm finally having a Berserk Moment since starting tumbl #but whewwwww. gotta get this outta my system #hope this wall of text makes sense oops <3 #berserk #berserk 1997 #how do i even tag their thang. their disastrous just horrible agonizing 3 guy dynamic. hm. #gutsca #griffguts #don't even know if anyone tags for griffith and casca. fair because 1) he raped her. yikes 2) he just straight up isn't into her #and i don't know if there's a tag for the three of them but trial and error led to nothing #but i wanna talk about their dynamic. their. (gestures wildly) whatever. it's not about thinking griffith should kiss anyone it's about lik #the agony. the pining and the torment and whatever miura so beautifully crafted for me specifically. sheesh #hope it's clear that i Don't Want Them To Be An Uwu Little Polycule Bc Casca Should Not Be In A Cutesy Throuple With Her Rapist #it's more that i think they kind of are or almost are part of this (gestures wildly again). Thing. with each other and i wanna talk about i #same with griffguts like oh man they should NOT be in a relationship. but i have this deep intense Need to study them and frankly they're #kind of crazy about each other for a while. like they care about each other so so much it's crucial to all three of their characters. #so it's kind of unavoidable. and i wanna talk about it. and have this read by people who also want to talk about it. yeah? yeah. #(and yeah i think griffith raping casca was about her and guts. like 'fuck you for making him okay with leaving me' type of vibe. even #though it wasn't her fault he's just. god. but it sure as hell isn't Mostly about casca because griffith's making eye contact like the Whol #time with guts. he makes him watch. it's just. shooooooooooo aughhhhghhghh fucking. jesus christ. that or it's the fear that his two most #important pawns are going to leave him Together and he just. can't deal with that. especially after the torture internment thing. #he's so weak and he was so close to his dream and now it's falling apart and they're leaving him and he can't even move. it's about making #damn sure they can't escape him or forget him ever again. #or maybe it's even a 'you can't have her she's mine' to guts but it's still largely like. spiteful/about possessing her as a soldier/human #because i don't think you could convince me it's about having her as a lover or about controlling/hurting/possessing her body.)

[theangrypomeranian]

Which episode of Bob's Burgers do you skip more often than you watch?

any episode with Gloria. I just cannot stand her at all lmaooooo.

also season 1 I'm SORRY I just do not like it (except Tina’s b-day episode, that one is so sweet and I love the Tininmy in it).

#pom answers #hey meanie #bob's burgers #bobs burgers #i do not like gloria at all #she is insufferable to me lol #(and yes i know not liking season 1 is basically heresy I'M SORRY)

[thespianwordnerd]

I apologise in advance for the person I will become after I watch the SNW musical episode. I can die happy then.

#they really said let's give the gays everything they want and i am not immune #i am going to be so insufferable i know it and I'm sorry but also cannot wait #star trek #star trek snw #star trek strange new worlds #subspace rhapsody #strange new worlds

[emmabirb8]

I will never forgive Chicken Little for being so abysmally awful that it tainted people's opinions of Disney's early CGI work and made them doubt the amazing quality of Meet the Robinsons, effectively giving the latter a very undeserved box office flop

#disney #disney movies #chicken little #disney chicken little #meet the robinsons #disney meet the robinsons #meettherobinsons #i know mtr being financially unsuccessful can't really be attributed to chicken little's negative reception #but i SWEAR because of the styles of animation being similar #it made people think 'ew' when they saw marketing for mtr since chicken little was so fucking awful #i know some people like chicken little and i'm sorry i'm not trying to trash something you like #but the townspeople and ESPECIALLY buck fucking cluck were just so incredibly insufferable #and just downright MEAN #that it dragged the whole movie down #and that doesn't even count the confusing and all over the place plot #anyway meet the robinsons is an underrated gem and i will fight for this movie until the day i die #my posts

[lakesbian]

wildbow genuinely needs to be trussed up like a wild boar and pelted with tomatoes i can’t do this. head in my hands. instead of ad breaks gold morning has periodic segments where all of the female characters turn towards the screen, clasp their hands, and loudly announce that they are not homosexual and furthermore have no idea what this “homosexuality” you speak of even is. the blatant association between “feminazi” and “sappho central.” oh my god.

#anyway. imp is bisexual To Me. #parian and foil are FUCKING insufferable by the way i don't know if it's that he can't write gay people normally or he can't write romance #or both #but they genuinely suck to read about i'm sorry i can't do it #like there is ZERO flavor. zero flavor there.

[danny-chase]

dang it i miss when jason was a self serving asshat of a character that was consumed by his desire for revenge and was willing to do whatever it takes to prove his point

#i'm sorry jason stans that like him being a tragically misunderstood 'good' guy deep down #i just want him to be an insufferable bastard so bad #i don't normally like 'villain' characters but i liked preboot jason #like he's very contradictory but it works when you look at him in the framework of his no 1 top priority and desire being revenge #he's working to impose his own revenge on Bruce even though Bruce is dead #by making Gotham in Bruce's image through his own methods #but the thing is his methods won't work #but he doesn't slow down and take time to examine them because of his rage and anger #and so he's just on this quest to prove Bruce wrong at all costs in a one-man war that he will not and cannot win #when the person he was trying to prove things to has already died #so what's the point? is the logical question #but jason's so wrapped up in revenge he won't ask it #the tragedy of a character so wrapped up in their own pain that they can't see all the needless suffering they're causing as they burn #eveything down around them is just so. it's fun to watch the fire you know? #especially when you know it was preventable #it's also just like. people are contradictory and we hold contradictory beliefs all the time. and it wasn't intentional but i liked it #momo don't look

[rainbowcarousels]

I was looking at the shots of the new weapon that looks vaguely like a it came out of discworld and I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something familiar about the giant ball of what looks like materia within it.

This was when I realised it looked a lot like the materia (if that even was what it was) that Minerva had in CC/CCR.

Which was about the point that I realised that this sphere looked familiar too for another reason: it looks a hell of a lot like the hibernation circle thing that Genesis sleeps in after CC.

Which in turn looks a hell of a lot like the protomateria in DoC, a special 'one of a kind' materia like the white and black materias. In this case, instead of being able to destroy or save the planet or weild the abilities of a Weapon.

We know that Genesis found the red globe goddess materia and activates it shortly before taking his avatar form. Another interesting point is that the purple stone (likely independent materia) is exchanged for a red one - a summon materia - when he becomes Genesis Avatar after the materia absorbs a crap ton of the lifestream.

So here's my question/theory: does Genesis still have this Goddess materia and if he does, is it another core materia like the black, white and protomateria? If it is, is this materia essentially the summon of the Lifestream's guardian and is this why Genesis can hibernate in a way that's not dissimilar to the weapons, only waking when the need arises?

#also did anyone else notice that when genesis wakes up in doc the water pod thing cycles through all the steps of his apocalypse limit break #i feel like i'm lore deep diving here #but there is something about the idea that Genesis has one of the most powerful materia in his back pocket #and probably doesn't really know what to do with it in a way that kind of echoes the way Aerith treats her materia #that is both funny and interesting to me #but the idea that you can temper an ancient summon/weapon/creature with these ancient materia as vincent does would make sense #theory crafting #ff7 #genesis rhapsodos #if i'm this insufferable before (and i hope it's before not if) we see him again i am sorry for how bad i'll be if he shows up in rebirth #ffvii #i could be way off i mean dirge is not my wheelhouse #but looking at before crisis showing another weapon and the rebirth trailer showing one made me ponder #so this is me pondering

[theinactivefaniguess]

Joel is 11ft tall!

... In the measuring system of his Empire, the Stratos Imperial System (SIS).

Which, while using the exact same terms as the Empires Metric System (EMS) used by every other Empire, is still different.

1 inch in SIS is the equivalent of 0.53 inches in EMS.

So, while in SIS Joel is 132 inches tall, or 11ft...

In EMS, he is 70 inches tall. Or 5'8".

Essentially: all the other Empires are using metric system and Joel's Empire is the USA of the Server and using another system Just Because They Can.

:)

#... you know what I wanna see more of 'Joel's Empire is the USA of the Server' #(US peeps sorry this might be very mean to you) #Joel and ppl from his Empire always boasting about their greatness and how powerful they are #Boasting about how they are the best and how their place is the best to live at #And it is good... but also has issues #Not being accessible for one. Leading to some families having to relocate because of it. Or for a general divide to be happening #Stuff like that you know #If Joel really were to lean into this idea he could be /insufferable/. #Which is why I'm rooting for it. Joel is funniest when he's annoying others and being a bastard (affectionate) #(Or when he's sweet to Lizzie or his friends. That's also best Joel in my opinion.) #Anyways. Let's tag this lmao #empires s2 #empires smp #empires smp s2 #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #empires spoilers #(because Joel's episode where he decides the name for his Empire just dropped today.) #Lac's own posts #(... had to edit this because the math was wrong. damn it.) #(look my forte were always languages art and history. I only was good at probability and functions.) #(so don't come too hard for me please) #(anyway. math is correct now I think) #(also changed the name from 'Empires Unity System' to 'Empires Metric System' to drive the point home even more)

[if-loki-was-a-fox]

What if I just. Made Grain and Mumbo fanchildren

I don't even ship them romantically or anything. I just think they should raise a child together

It would be funny. And cute

#assigned platonic co-parents at FoxLoki #sorry I just reached the grumbot arc in season 7 I'm going to be insufferable about them now #HE CALLED THEM “DADS” #HE CALLED THEM “DADS” GUYS #AUGH #rambling about blorbos #I am very shy about this post 'cus I know people can make these things weird #but I have a moot who makes posts about fankids and I think it's so cool #so I'm giving it a shot now too :3

[rawliverandcigarettes]

One thing that becomes clearer and clearer every time I dare to dip back into The Empire of Preys, is that it's a story for... almost nobody.

(beware: I express a ton of feelings regarding the series under the cut, not all of them positive --and I talk a little bit about my current relationship to the Mass Effect fandom)

Don't get me wrong: I adore it, I am still extremely puzzled at how my brain even began to conceive a story like that, and the first chapter is a complete banger in my honest opinion, and the characters are uncomfortable in a very interesting way, and the worldbuilding is extremely dense with things I hope are meaningful, but.

It's also... pretty hostile to readership? By that I mean: I don't think it can be read passively. A big part of reading TEoP is, first, to understand how systems function normally; and then, understand how these systems interact altogether, how they can be abused, how they are actually abused, and what chain of events these systems will lead to. I am really proud of this interconnectivity --at the same time, it is incredibly dense and demand work. For all the fun and games I can try to inject in there, there are basic principles that can't skip being understood well for the plot to make sense; it's a politically driven story in the dryest possible way --with disaster bisexuals and fashionistas sprinkled on top to lush it up a little, but at heart it is a story about systems interconnecting from the bottom to the top, and it's a tangled mess in there.

So it's... If I'm being honest, and in spite of my genuine love of it, I have to admit it is a little hard to dedicate myself to pushing it further to the degree of polish that it needs. Not to say I won't do it --I will-- but it's impossible not to notice how *barren* the Mass Effect community has gotten in the last couple of years, this year being particularly bad. The readership was barely there anymore when Halfway Home got out, and I'm like... who's even left in there to read 200k worth of words of salarian/turian/asari politics in excruciating detail? Who's even interested in peeling up that toxic system of governance and how soft imperialism manifests in that universe? I still am, because I am invested in that version of Mass Effect and the characters I have put together in that context. But who else?

Of course, there's always this thing of "don't write for an audience, write for yourself", and I'm an absolute follower of that mentality. However.

However.

(oops here comes a condensed version of that Halfway Home post-mortem I promised six months agoooo)

Halfway Home was *hard work*. It's work I decided to go through on my own, and I knew from the start it wouldn't reach that large of an audience --on virtue of being stupid long, about an OC (and a salarian at that, who cares), and having a trigger warning list longer than most people would find reasonable. I am happy that I did the work, and that I chewed the text over until I was absolutely sick of it --but it was basically the best version of what 7 years worth of change and growth and experimentations could get to before absolute burnout. And I am even happy about the readership! I had wonderful comments and I am truly honored that some people invested in that story to the degree they did, and I am fully aware that stories that take much more work get even less attention on the daily. But I would lie to say that I kind of felt... drained, when I saw that I had, indeed, taken too much time to complete it, and the fandom was basically dried up when I finally released it. Watching seven years of my life disappear down the Ao3 drain felt... Well, I won't lie. It felt kind of bad. It felt kind of like grief.

At the end of the day, it is true that nobody ever cares more about your story than yourself --and again, I am neither fishing for attention nor am I really complaining, even. It is a difficult story to sell and to read through, and I always knew the readership would be extraordinarily slim (and it did find it, and I am beyond uwwuuuuwuwu about it, truly ;;). I knew all of that going in. But I also won't lie that fandom timing was... horrendous --and it is even worse today. The fact that I have *barely* seen a hint of speculation on my dash from the latest N7 trailer does kind of say something as well. Sometimes, things come and go. And I suppose that's okay.

But what of The Empire of Preys? What of my deep care for the characters? What of my (I think, understandable) reluctance about jumping in to the next installments, knowing *for sure* that I'll be lucky if I graze 500 hits on Ao3? And that's me being beyond generous, honestly? I wish I didn't care about that, but I guess I do, a little. I also think it's understandable, wanting to work on things and see an impact from whatever you do --even if it comes from love and care. I'm glad I got to do it once, but do I want my literal masterpiece (I know the wording is strong, but I genuinely think TEoP is the best thing I ever did, counting my professional work that will be experienced by a *much* larger audience, and I have zero ideas how I could top it off conceptually given it felt like everything was being served to me in a trance-like state) being sandwiched between futanari porn and a story about a... certain main pairing being plastered absolutely everywhere and tending to suck all the oxygen in the room. No hate to either concept in particular, I actually like the coexistence of everything, it's part of what's cool about fanfiction! But, also. Also.

I suppose it is the curse of having a brain that works best creatively in the context of fandom --and daring to believe in the importance and necessity of creativity for its own sake, without monetary gain. But also, the very human entitlement thing of... not wanting to pour all of its life energy into a black hole.

It's complicated. I do not have a good answer as of now, at least regarding TEoP. I will keep on working passively on it as of now, once in a while, rediscovering it's genuinely really good from time to time and then moving away from it somewhat, until next time. I'm still doing Zelda stuff as of now, which... has been way more rewarding creatively, not gonna lie. It's a fandom full of lifeblood, with ideas bouncing around, people wanting to meet up, boundless creativity. I have written a micro-trilogy this year (it's here if that interests you), and, while in the same ballpark of attention than Halfway Home, it was undeniably more rewarding. I think I also needed to change mediums --I am currently experimenting with animatics, visual storytelling and extremely humble 2D animations, and I'm having a blast.

So... Yeah. I am fairly certain I will complete The Empire of Preys, because I love it deeply and I want to complete it, for its own sake if anything. But in regards to a timeframe... I'm not promising anything. It will happen. Not sure when! I'm following where creativity feels the more urgent at the moment.

But one day, this is a story that will exist, at the very least, and I think I'll love it deeply as well no matter how it's received. But I think I need a little bit of a positive feedback loop right about now, and so to work on projects that like... will be read. Or watched. Or played. Or experienced. And I'm not positive The Empire of Preys will be that for me, at least right now.

#personal #the empire of preys #teop #halfway home #mass effect #gorgeous art #writing #fanfiction #salarians #salarian #salarian oc #halfway there #zelda #kind of a downeeer I'm sorry #I kind of wanted to be the insufferable person going “yes after 7 years of work I can tell you it was all worth it believe in yourself” #you know like the shitty version of ted talks speaker energy? #and yes! I do think that! I don't regret that or working on that story or anything of the sort! #it was absolutely essential in my life and it did literally save me more than once! #and I love the characters! all of the things! #but I also don't want to be a hyprocrite and pretend I'm above sunk cost/investment return dynamics #*even* while knowing ahead of time #I think I worked on halfway home for too long if I'm being honest #I'm glad it got to that point quality-wise #I don't think I would have been happy doing less #but it was still too long and I burned myself out #I don't think I would have cared about it if I had worked on it a little less #but here I relied on the finish line too much to motivate me #and I think it was a mistake #though tbh it's hard to balance this stuff out

[septimus-heap]

this is gonna sound so silly but over the last year I've been doing a reread of all the books on my shelves. I hit my "childhood favorites" section around December and am chugging through, and will be rereading the Septimus Heap series again once I finish the Magnus Chase series. I had the first book memorized as a kid (I could still probably pull up the first chapter in my memory if I wanted to) but I only read books 5-7 like twice before putting the series down for a few years. I'm so glad I follow you bc I know once I read those SH books again in a couple weeks I'm gonna be insufferable since they were definitely my favorite as a kid and I'm so so so so excited to read them again and to have an active fandom to see again when I do 💕💕💕 (I see your polls and recognize like 3/4 the characters but wanna read books 5-7 to get a refresh before I start voting on them lol)

Anyway this was long and rambly but I guess at the bottom: I love SH, I'm excited to read it again, I'm excited to know someone else loves it like I did and it feels like I'm gonna have someone to talk about it with for the first time in my life (never had a friend who'd read it and could geek out about it) so thank you and I'm excited to hop back in the fandom 💕 thank you for reading!!

:D

#sep talks #asks #I can't see ur whole username from the Answer Ask page so I can't tag it rip #ANYWAY SORRY IDK WHAT TO SAY. I'M HONOURED???????????? #SH IS JUST AS GOOD AS U REMEMBER BTW. MAYBE BETTER #PLEASE be insufferable abt the books btw. I love it when ppl r insufferable abt them. (<-guy who is insufferable abt them) #absolutely feel free to vote in polls even if u don't rlly know who the characters r. I know there r ppl voting who don't even know sh. So #I'm genuinely so 🥺 abt this btw. I still don't think of myself as like. A Big Sep Heap Blog #but I guess realistically I definitely am!!!! Half the tag is Just Me sbdhdbdhnd #and. Idk. Idk. Explodes #idk what I'm saying!!!!!! Anyway have fun w ur reread <3

[kimbapisnotsushi]

"everybody has a crush on daichi" "everybody has a crush on oikawa" false. everyone has a crush on moniwa kaname and futakuchi is APPALLED when he learns about this from the rest of second gen

#not because he doesn't think moniwa isn't crush material or anything #of COURSE he knows moniwa is crush material #but now he's INSUFFERABLE about protecting moniwa's honor or whatfuckingever #‘moniwa-san is too good for you lot so don’t get your hopes up’ #little does he know #shirabu has aaaaaaaall the power #bc shirabu knows FULL well that semi and moniwa are texting and he cannot WAIT to spill about it #is this me pushing the monisemi agenda #yes it is!!! #happy belated king i'm sorry i missed it #moniwa kaname #futakuchi kenji #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #haikyuu hcs #sou says stuff