#stay and fight another day

[problemcore]

having a normal stable job that i like is hard actually because i have "unable to be normal and stable" disease

#fighting for my life rn (trying to not stay home ONE DAY) #chris noises #misc #they wont be mad at me i wont get in trouble. but i also dont want to skip another day 😭😭😭😭

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvok at the Temple and B’Elanna at the Monastery

#kids who get sent away to reconnect with their culture and maybe help their mental health issues v_v #the monastery uniform B'Elanna's wearing has no color because I imagine Klingons wearing their family's color in battle #Maosu make a deep purring noise ...Tlhaq are very intelligent and friendly with Klingons (very good for children) but are aggressive with #one another...luckily by the time they're adults they're rather large and prefer to stay in one familiar area rather than wandering around #Maosu are very dumb v_v hehehe they're uhhh not smart. But they're often used in therapeutic areas because they ARE so docile and only #really want to cuddle sleep and eat. #B'Elanna Torres #Tuvok #Tuvok art #B'Elanna art #st voyager #a beautiful day to make up some stuff <3 #st voyager art #OH! Tlhaq are only aggressive to other Tlhaq OUTSIDE of their pack...so if you raise several of them together they'll consider themselves #a pack and family and won't fight...Klingons admire this!

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[deoidesign]

Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference. #like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour. #ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before. #and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!! #super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot? #so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

[worstloki]

I understand that Jane and Thor kissing was meant to be about Jane and Thor kissing but I couldn't stop thinking about how the exact same close up camera shots was Loki and how same scenario with more emotion and

???????????

#also Thor stays on the ground alone after Jane bc of the gold dust but with Loki he's stormin' and whatnot #like ummmmm Loki killed Kurse and died Jane killed the sword and died hmmm what an interesting turn of events #the way Thor literally left Jane collapsed on the ground to go talk to Gorr tho #i was like ??????? BRO ??????????????? #with Loki Thor is nyooming over immediately #with Loki Thor is like in pain with Jane he's like ahah #:| #they really did Jane dirty #Thor 4 #the Loki show #like im sorry but why is everything so thorki coded these days first Sylvie and Loki and now Jane and Thor like come on man #where's the originality #y Loki kissing blonde angry-arrogant-no-good-at-displaying-emotions-better-at-fighting-Loki and y Jane's death like another in Thor's arms #come on bro #what I'm getting from this is that if Loki had put his hand on Thor's face instead of Thor's upper arm they would've kissed twiceover #:/ #'this means Thor loved Jane so much just like he loved Loki so much' nah it means the writers were cowards and also they should've kissed #Thor @ Mjolnir: ''defend Jane'' #Mjolnir @ Thor: ''you literally have a dead brother you never did this for but ok'' #this is why Mjonlir won't go back #tbh if they put Loki in this movie and made it so that Mjolnir would defend everyone Thor loves but not go to Thor it would've been funny #Loki and Valkyrie with Mjolnir like #you're a Thor YOU'RE a Thor *everyone* ! is ! a ! Thor ! #etc. #the kids did it and that didn't make much sense so why not

[gxlden-angels]

I think it's really funny when fundies are also super into the crunchy lifestyle like bestie your whole system is based on a dude with magical powers born from a virgin you can take a tylenol and stop feeding your infant raw milk now

#I always bring it up #but me @ my aunt that scoffed at me for using my nebulizer while actively having a severe asthma attack #and I mean severe I had to use double my dosage before I could breathe without wheezing and coughing again #I 100% should've been in the hospital #I respect the crunchy life when it's shit like colds and scrapes and aches #absolutely not when it's an asthma attack or PCOS #and doubly not when your CHILD is the sick one #I assume most of the crunchiness comes from the adversion to medicine over prayer #because that implies that there are things that can't be prayed away #And it implies that if you pray and stay healthy that's proof of your worth and praying power #So when someone does get sick and/or die well that's just apart of his plan at least you can say you didn't fight his plan #It's not a preventable illness if you ignore/don't learn how to prevent it /j #every day I wake up and learn another disease raw milk can give you /j #ED tw #And everyday I use to wake up to my stepmom doing a different 'diet' #They 100% encouraged eating disorders both in restricting and binging #Feel bad? Eat food and pray about it! Feel good? Fast and pray about it! #Either way you should feel like you're on the Truman Show with every bite you take #your health becomes a moral issue not a natural one #it becomes a temple and not your vessel #ex christian #religious trauma

[chirpsythismorning]

🎨 🖼️ 🌈 🩹 🧍🏽💡 🔮⚡️☄️

You’ve Really Got a Hold on Me by Smokey Robinson & The Miracles

#byler #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #will byers #will's pov #will is so petty but honest i love him #'i dont like you. but i love you 🙄. seems that i'm always thinking of you' #'though you treat me badly. i love you madly. you've really got a hold of me.' #this whole song is just this back and forth battle of someone in love while simultaneously being frustrated af with said person #'i dont want you. but i need you. don't want to kiss you. but i need to. though you do me wrong now. my love is strong now.' #i also love this part bc it highlights the main difference between will's feelings for mike vs el's feelings for mike #it's not as simple as liking or wanting bc yes it is all of those things but more than that it is a NEED #you'll notice a lot of songs on here in will's pov highlight need in terms of his feelings for mike #which fits with his whole speech to mike in the van #'(i) need you mike. and (i) always will.' #there's also this juxtaposition of el and will both experiencing mike pulling away #el wants to hold on as hard as she can but she knows that it's not going anywhere and she is ready to let go by the end of s4 #will wants to hold on as hard as he can but he knows (assumes) that it's not going anywhere and yet he can't quite let go #'i want to leave you. don't want to stay here. don't want to spend another day here. oh i want to split now. i can't quit now' #leading up to their rain fight in s3 it's as if will is getting to this point where he is ready to leave #and then mike says what he says #and now he really has to go bc it's all too real ('yeah. i guess i did. i really did.' #then a whole season later when will is at his limits again up to their rink-o-mania fight its as if he is trying harder than ever to hold o #it's bc he can't quit now #'you've really got a hold of me' #will is in love now folks

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[original-missif]

Hey I've been going through your NFHCC AU tag and I absolutely need to know when Eliot decided to tell Nate and Sophie hes a triplet. Like, did they run into them on a job and are they confused? Or did it just randomly come out one day?

Oh man, I can't believe I have an actual answer for this rather than just speculation. Thank you for asking ^u^

This is a bit of a spoiler for The Hitter Job, Extended Edition, but Nate and Sophie aren't actually the first ones to discover Eliot's blood relations. It's Hardison!

After discovering that Eliot Spencer has only existed for just under 2 years, Hardison, in innocent curiosity, digs in and discovers Eliot's real last name is Stone, and he has two brothers. He doesn't immediately go to Nate with the information, because the deeper Hardison goes the more information he gets and the picture this new information keeps getting worse. Only when Hardison feels comfortable and able to tell Nate about Eliot and his secret brothers and last name (amoung other more upsetting info) does he actually do so.

So for a while only Hardison and Nate are aware of Eliot's brothers and father, and they keep it that way. Nate is, of course, hurt that he didn't know this about one of his kids (it's a similar emotion to when he met Archie) but Eliot is almost 18 and Nate knows how easy it would be to loose the trust Eliot has in him, so he says nothing about it. I don't think it's until a job almost a year later, when the Stone triplets are all 18, does the Leverage team accidentally cross paths with both the Librarians and the Cebu trio.

It's a mess lol, but the mess ends with Eliot, Alex, and Jake all reuniting after 3 years of being apart, and the Leverage team and Librarians (as well as Kai and Ernesto) finally meeting their respective triplet's brothers and friends and guardians.

So while Nate finds out about Eliot's brothers before Sophie, and while Sophie isn't exactly happy Nate kept it from her, Sophie Devereaux (and Parker as well) is absolutely the one who understands why Eliot changed his name and never told her or Nate about his brothers. And while both Nate and Sophie aren't glad they find out by accident and not because Eliot chose to tell them, they understand why he didn't, and most likely never would have had the crossover not happened.

#the crossover event is one of the worst days of eliot's life #because it's everything he was forced to leave behind and stay away from #and he's only been able to get updates on his brothers recently when he starts therapy with col. baird #and for jake and alex he totally dropped off the map so they're not happy but are happy and it's a lot of emotions they weren't ready for #it's also the most confusing day ever for parker cassandra and zeke and kai because there's 3 of them?????? #parker and zeke watched US (2019) or have met doppelgangers and aren't totally convinced one of those options isn't whats really going on #when sophie learns jacob is an art prodigy she's so happy #finally another art nerd to talk about art with. and he's so polite and such a gentleman #and thats how jacob stone outshines eliot spencer in terms of ways sophie can talk to teenagers #kai learns that eliot and the team are all criminals and has to fight every urge she has to call the cops on them or arrest them herself #all because ernesto said they were obviously very close to alex's brother and they didn't see them doing anything illegal #cassandra and hardison and zeke immediately click because science and technology nerds #and jake gives eliot the BIGGEST LOOK because zeke was bad enough before but now eliot has introduced him to other criminals #and worse still is that zeke has heard of parker and is 100% for teaming up with the criminals to do crime #i feel like ernesto is in that awkward between teen and adult stage so he just hangs back to watch out for kai and alex #who is trying very hard not to freak out and not punch eliot directly in the face #nate ford's home for criminal children au #leverage teens au #almost paradise #the librarians #ckane triplets #stone triplets #ask #takemyhand-bitch #reply

[fettery-fetterie]

Red lights spin, the alarms are going off

-An intruder.

Run around, pick what you gotta fast, they know I'm here

-This is gonna be fun.

Shit. They got me

-Too easy.

...

-...

Here my life lies, my future spilling from my head, I can barely feel my body

And they laugh, they laugh so bastardly, I wish I could have the strength to cry it out

It's helpless. I'm helpless

...

And then, the first hit

And the second

And the third

All cooled out

Do I have to wonder where I got this from? I can't afford that, the pipe leads my way

-Oh, it's you again.

Rush through, knock them, it's about survival now

-Now this is where the fun begins.

Gunshots

-My specialty.

And I bleed

-And you bleed.

The adrenaline gets to me

-Precious wounds from you for me.

Your boys are down

-We're alone

You're alone

-And so scared. My heart rushes. You...it's you!

-You're War! You're what I have been looking for!

-Please...! Your end! My end! All here and now!

I'm just so tired, and I don't feel like working overtime

-What...?

My shift's over. I'm done here.

-No...! NO!

#perceptive little crow #omg hiiiii hi hello. i made some connections and I'm going insane <3 #'have you completely misunderstood another character?' yes i did <3 #i just believe it would be super cool if he was like. completely idealizing the idea of teo as like. a symbol of violence and war #man so obsessed with that bitch he'd go insane over one (1) woman almost killing his stupid ass #bc he didn't feel that kind of rush and struggle and fear and ecstasy for so long. he wants more #and he dreams of the day they can finally get each other's hands on each other. and fight tooth and nail til one falls #and only bc this is about him specifically but I'd also love to talk about teo's potential weight on her shoulders that would be being #the first of like. an entirely new professional career? and a potentially dangerous one at that? like how she'd be the one to set just *so* #many standards about how to deal with myths...oh. how lovely that sounds #ok enough rambling for tonight #I COMPLETELY FORGOT TO MENTION #bc he doesn't get to fight his 'goddess' he lashes out to anyone on her same field. bc he seems them as mere troops which do nothing but #stay in the way of 'their righteous fight' #but also as a way to get even a drop of the same adrenaline he felt that day #ok that's all

[literaryhistories]

ah those sleep deprived last day of a conference vibes

#went for dinner that changed into a pub crawl #at some point an italian guy fom our group got into a fight #they called the police #someone tried to rob other 3 guys #random ppl came offering us cocaine while we were trying to get a very drunk girl to her hotel room #i stayed with her until 5am bc her alcohol poisoning showed up as a rly bad trip and i was terrified #she was yelling at the top of her lungs in italian idk if anyone at our paper wall hotel got any sleep #she finally got ok and i got whole 3 h of sleep and now we're all learning how to plot data in python as if nothing happened #just another day of academic life

[liverpool-enjoyer]

n jus like that my academic standing goes from "im doing pretty well but i need to keep it up to keep my gpa above a three" to "im gonna need to fight tooth n nail to get a solid three n even then it probly wont happen"

funny how i end up in this situation every semester! i dont think my parents are gonna forgive me this time.

#like my cumulative gpa is decent enough to where i'll stay in the program #but lets jus say i am IN FOR IT when i go home to my parents #oh theyre gonna be sooooo mad #oh fuck im so fucked #i cant even put it into words theyre gonna be so so so mad #n its not like this semester was hard for everyone #MY FRIENDS ARE GETTING STRAIGHT A'S #FUCK when did i become so STUPID #i need to calm down #why does this always happen to me #i have friends who get hundreds on exams n i hafta fight TOOTH N NAIL TO GET A C #i jus got another fucking D on an exam i have no hope #ok off to calculate what i need on my finals to not have my mother scream at me n then gimme the silent treatment for three days #(not an exaggeration. its happened two semesters in a row now.) #yall better pray im not your nurse #cause apparently im FUCKING SHIT AT IT

[gradelstuff]

Every time I think about how MHA goes out of its way to keep abusers like AFO, Overhaul, and Ujiko alive while "bad" victims of abuse like Tomura and Dabi are deemed irredeemable and "must die" I get so sad

Literally double standards

#reading mmha #this has been in my head for awhile asfhjk i just hate this specific Thing that's been semi-frequent in mha #why do abusers get to live to see another day while the victims of abuse must keep fighting to just stay alive #this also kinda super implies endvr and how he's such a letdown but whatever

[shorthaltsjester]

oh ashton. oh imogen. oh ashton. oh imogen. they. they.

#no man but like #imogen and ashton’s interactions always fuel me #because of what they Understand about one another but also what they Can’t understand about each other #imogen being so focused on Repair and ashton so focused on Moving Forward #and it’s Both it’s Both true change is Both #and that coming out in their like. not Quite butting heads that keeps happening in laudna’s Notdeath #ashton staying in this Past visage to tell Laudna what isn’t real and that everything hurts but the implicit that pain is Being A Person #and imogen letting go of the we can save this child who will one day become laudna #to fight against the Current and Present torment that delilah is inflicting on laudna #ashton greymoore #imogen temult #cr3 #critical role #cr spoilers #ashton & imogen

[yther]

my literal neighbors are going to take me to a barn and shoot me based on the shit I've seen so

(me) -> 🚪 (closet)

#MMM SO PRETTY YES LOOK I AM makeup woman *wince* call me madame *barf* I say hello in high pitched voice #because My Life is not just today and right here and in public I protect myself esp now. I am not dying on this hill I am possum-ing #I am wanting to use a bathroom without looks #I am not beaten I am taking shelter #live to fight another day and be free - another day. my room isn't even private. #judge me if you want me to die instead. that's horrendous btw #stay safe #safety first

[everywhere-all-around-the-world]

New obsession unlocked: Beomgyu's prechorus in LO$ER=LO♡ER <333333333

#i revisited loser lover after a while. it has me in a chokehold again #FIGHTING BLEEDING LOSING 이젠 지쳤어 #가질 수 없다면 #I FUCKING KEEP IT LOW #the way he sings it is so addicting i need it on loop #i am so a n g r y that spotify has the fucking censored the fucking is so satisfying #freaking is still good. still addicting. but that I FUCKING KEEP IT LOW is beautiful #txt #that entire song is godly #after i dived into skz i was on the lookout for another boy group to get into #it was always between txt enhypen and seventeen and my moa/stay friend forcefully shoved me into txt #no regrets #thankfully there is a lot of txt enhypen content! so i can multitask! #one day i will do a deep dive into seventeen bc they slay #i got sidetracked in the tags again. oh well