#sterne rambles

[sternevogn]

i would kill to see more mythos fanart and fans.

but especially people who like eunice. i think more people should like her. or maybe im just crazy

#sterne rambles #monument mythos

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages. #or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it. #i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') - #- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action. #also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally) #u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not-- #--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of' #'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important' #bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and- #inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

[bambiraptorx]

currently entertaining the idea of a scenario where Draxum has some sort of appraiser come over to his house to see how much it's gonna cost to repair his house or whatever and then the guy just walks around like "OSHA violation, OSHA violation, OSHA violation, hey why the fuck do you have four teenage turtles hanging out in your frankly seriously unsafe house"

and Draxum just sighs and has to explain that he literally cannot get them to leave. yes he is training them, yes he is training all four of them even though having that many apprentices at once is frankly batshit insane, no he does not have any control over them whatsoever can he just have the estimate for repairs now

#rottmnt #rottmnt au #minor interference au #rottmnt baron draxum #rottmnt fanfiction #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #the thing I'm trying to balance about how Draxum fits into yokai culture is that i want him to be like imposing/ arrogant/ stern/ distant #but also the special kind of weird that when people hear that he's apparently gotten no less than four new apprentices at once #they just go 'yeah that seems like a draxum thing to do what a madlad lmao' #i might make a comic out of this scenario if my brain will let me lol #bambi's rambling

[yumiayumu]

the downside of liking a new ship that’s only recently getting attention is the lack of fanfics (╥﹏╥)

#random ramblings #what do you mean there’s only 80 fics on their tag??? #wanna thank the writers for their contributions cuz i can’t write shit #frieren #himmel #stark #fern #maomao #jinshi #fanfiction #ao3 #frimmel #jinmao #stern #??? is that their final ship name ???

[shoegazingmonad]

Often whenever I see people talking about ult Dirk getting a redemption they always mention wanting some kind of angsty breakdown from him where he's all distraught and 'I've done such shitty things and have lost track of the person I was and I really regret my actions and need someone to help me because for once in my life I don't know what to do' but that just seems so. Unrealistic and pretty fucking lame for a character as extreme as Ult Dirk? If there's any way I'd want a redemption arc for him to happen would be through him having the most disgustingly violent and self-destructive meltdown ever. Like at the end of the story when he's nearing his defeat and too scared to face the consequences (both physically and emotionally) he just starts flipping the fuck out to try and prevent any form of happy resolution for himself because he doesn't know if he could take something like that when he doesn't deserve or 'want' it. I need him to say and do absolutely unforgivable things just to prevent anyone from ever giving him the chance to make things right, and have someone still reach out to him despite that. I need him bawling his eyes out screaming shouting punching walls and lashing out in all directions out of fear, anger and misery because after everything he's fucked up, against his will or not, there's still hope for him as long as someone wants there to be

#If I don't get to see that expressionless stern controlling manchild at his most scared and vulnerable by the end of the webcomic #I will Kill. I Will Die #I've been wanting Dirk to completely lose his marbles ever since I started reading Please I'm Begging #homestuck 2 #ult dirk #ultimate dirk #ramblings

[a-mythologynerd]

I may be totally wrong but a whole part of Hell Bent is the idea of visiting Hell changes you a little (or brings out what was already there…) as both Darlington and Dawes acknowledge about himself and Alex in terms of Darlington’s demon form and Alex’s flames. Except it’s more than that. Dawes is able to read the writing on the second descent

“The scholar. What knowledge had Dawes brought with her from the first descent?”

So that got me thinking. Dawes is the scholar in both plains, obviously checks out. Turner as the priest, checks out but curious how that’s gonna expand especially as his tingle thing and the way people talk to him is like a literal confession. Alex as the soldier and cannonball but also potentially a soldier/warrior queen(?). But more importantly, Darlington as the prince. Which confused me as his whole arc thus far is realizing he’s not the main character or hero but the knight/servant. So why a prince?? Which would normally imply a main character hero vibe.

So with all that in account, I think the idea is he either is or has the capacity to become a demon prince like Golagrot. With Alex as his queen. Queen consorts typically take the title of prince. As we are aware, G refers to Darlington as Alex’s demon consort. Darlington is apparently very scarily good at being a demon and seems to actually rival G. Anywho. Darlington has demon powers cause he’s a demon prince and Alex has her hellfire cause she’s a conquering queen. That’s it. That’s the theory.

#darlingstern #hell bent #ninth house #alex stern #daniel arlington #I am rambling and rereading #thoughts and vibes #take it with a grain of salt #pun not originally intended but nevertheless enjoyed

[mochiwrites]

anxiety my mortal enemy I will explode you 1 million times

#momo rambles #HHHHHH I WAS REALLY EXCITED ABOUT MONDAY BUT NOW IM SCARED #one of my supervisors scheduled a meeting with me and I #she didn’t tell me why #so of course my anxiety is jumping to ‘oh you’ve done something wrong and you’re getting fired or there’ll be a stern discussion’ #crying and throwing up #if I did something wrong surely she’d email me first right???? #to tell me there’s an issue??? #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #is it. morally okay to email her and ask #I am so scared

[novantinuum]

I've decided after doing my rewatch of the SU movie that Yellow Diamond would be the type of person to laugh at minion memes, actually

#jen rambles #like Listen #she is Exactly that kind of middle aged mom #stressed... antiquated understanding of internet memes #easily brought to laughter by dumb shit despite otherwise being stern and serious #su #yellow diamond

[note-boom]

BSD S4 spoilers!

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I'm literally crying. What right does Oda have to look so tiny and adorable??

#im not sure if the source i provided is the official anime twitter but i think it is? #happy to take corrections if so #anyway AFJIWE OFJASIOE FJIOSAJEFIOJDF ASI i cannot WAIT until i can watch the episode #but for now ill just watch the fandom go stir crazy /I/ am going stir crazy!! #BUT SERIOUSLY IM OBSESSED WITH YOUNGER ODASAKU I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS BABY WAS AN ASSASSIN IM CRYING #i cry even more when i realize that he and ranpo are just a year apart like why? #protect the boy protect him forever #bsd s4 spoilers #bsd season 4 #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd ranpo #bsd odasaku #bsd fukuzawa #also love that fukuzawa looks as stern and 'i didn't want to adopt but now i have and i cant stop' as ever #bsd official art #anime things #anyway AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! #rambling in the tags sorry #edit: also ill get rid of the read more tag later i just wanted to give a fair chance warning etc

[sunsis]

heroines infiltrating and disrupting elite/corrupt institutions and organizations that girls like them have always been told they don’t belong in and discovering that they’re strong enough to challenge and tear them down is something I’ll never grow tired of, sorry not sorry.

chaotic good girls with a strong sense of justice that intentionally break the system are great and I don’t trust anyone that doesn’t like them when it’s one of the most popular attributes in male characters. Bonus points if they have a temper and crave vengeance/violence. I love my confrontational and bloodthirsty ladies

#bree matthews #alex stern #jude duarte #if you dislike these characters we can’t hang I’m sorry #tropes #female characters #misogyny #books #legendborn #ninth house #the cruel prince #booklr #my ramblings #media

[imagionary]

Colored refs of Gransfors finally! Yippee! ^v^ 💚

#Gransfors used to work at D. Foresting and Logging Co with Spruce and Chip as the Sawmill Manager #He's a very strict and stern guy and he has a tendency to look down on others and can be quite a killjoy #but he normally means it to make sure everything is working well and going according to plan so nobody gets hurt #he hates lawsuits and likes layoffs primarily because he can get rid of enployees that don't do enough to keep everything running orderly #Gransfors was involved in an accident at the mill and refuses to have some reckless behavior of someone else kill others again #or hurt him again #he can take off his hatchet by the handle and can swing it at people;he finds this easier to axe people with than just winding his neck back #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #toontown: corporate clash #imagionary rambles #ttcc au #ttcc oc #paul gransfors #hatchetman

[sternevogn]

ok hear me out rq. what i'm abt to say may be a tad odd .

but knight enjoyers. hear me out .

i like to think that the knight has a hobby of collecting teeth. no i don't mean human teeth. most of what's on the helmet was already there.

but i like to think he has a taxonomy hobby and branching from that he has a strange collection of fallen teeth he's found; not necessarily from corpses but just things he's found.

i think his favourites are in fact shark teeth and snake fangs ...

ok actually just . let me ramble about the knight for a second idk smth just took a hold of me. sorry .

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i kind of also think he's gone back to old battlefields thinking about the battles he's seen as way of kind of coping with them. like he walks around and gives himself the time to process what happened.

he definitely does deal with PTSD though, you couldn't convince me otherwise. he has been through things. and because he's very reserved and doesn't really express his emotions- not even to people close to him, like kirk- it gives him a pretty explosive temper, and just... outburst of emotions in general. so when kirk DOES see, he's very careful to be gentle and understanding, and it calms knight down pretty quickly. even though kirk reassures him it's okay to show his emotions, he's very against it and quick to mask again.

going back to the PTSD thing, he has frequent nightmares. often he'll wake up in a cold sweat. and other times he finds himself lost in the memories. kirk will catch it happening sometimes and do his best to ground knight as best as he can. it's one of the rare times the knight will give a soft "thank you" to kirk.

and additionally with the explosive emotions thing, i do think that it's natural but generally harmless- without consequence, i mean. but the thing with alice? yeah, remember that? i do. that's the kind of consequence the extreme build-up causes. no, it's not okay. yes, it's fucked up. it only got so bad it became so violent in THAT sense because kirk wasn't there. kirk, the only person who understood him, was gone. he had no one to turn to, so what happened as consequence? the build up of extreme emotions. from the thoughts plaguing him of vietnam to watching his brother fall apart before running away- never to be seen again, the knight thought- and then finding out about the lunarians, or lack thereof- and THEN the queen absolutely fucking humanity UP- the knight's knowledge of everything weighed so heavily on him and he had no outlet. he was blinded by the horrors of which he and his brother had faced by the hands of man and war. it drove him mad. all of it did.

and he knew he fucked up. it ate at him so deeply too, after what he did to alice- he couldn't fathom he'd hurt an innocent person, one who'd had such deep faith and belief in him and his brother. he knew, in a sense, her retelling of kirk's life story was meant to reach people. to show his strife and struggle. but he knew how deeply that story affected kirk, and how he was ashamed of some of what had happened- that added onto it.

the knight grieved. he grieved so deeply for what he'd done, what he'd lost, everything plagued him.

but the memories of his own world- the world he had lost- suddenly surfaced. he realised, "oh. there's more to this." and then he found out about nixon.

he tried to show to the avenues that he really hadn't meant what he'd done- he knew well that his emotions had got the better of him. but he wanted to prove she was still alive. with them. he ended up freeing the alcatraz matter into its natural state, altering his appearance. altering HIM.

next thing you know, he does his best to reverse his mistakes. to make everything right again. so he stopped the queen by killing her (which is something he knew far too well, being a man of war and seeing this as one). and then, he sacrificed himself, as the alcatraz matter instantly copied and replaced all of america.

it was all he knew.

as long as there is a war, i'll keep on fighting.

it's part of who i am.

OK SORRY!!!! I SUDDENLY JUST WENT OFF ABOUT THE KNIGHT'S WHOLE STORY LMFAO anyways yeah uh ! ignore this or Don't i don't care HELP

#monument mythos #the monument mythos #the nixonverse #the d day knight #d day knight #sterne rambles

[heavensculled]

i want mito and naruto interactions, like i dont think yall get how similar they are and their circumstances. idk

#naruto #naruto ramblings #naruto uzumaki #mito uzumaki #i love them i fear #neamh’s stuff #i think she’d be reminded of madara with sasuke and like him in that stern motherky way #yk

[pastasilly]

now that s2 is confirmed, i need a buggy and arlong remarriage episode. pirate husbands

#PLEASE NETFLIX #IM SUGGESTING THIS BC APPARENTLY THEYRE ADDING ROMANCE INTO THE LIVE ACTION #also bc they LITERALLY almost kissed like #HAVE YOU SEEN THAT INTERROGATION SCENE #THAT IS GAY #THEY ARE PIRATE HUSBANDS #I AM A STERN CLOWNFISH BELIEVER #oh my god they make me unwell #clownfish #one piece #one piece live action #opla #one piece buggy #one piece arlong #buggy #buggy the clown #arlong #arlong park #not art #pasta rambles

[abyssalcookie]

I was practicing drawing Licorice cookie, who would of thought drawing a 2D cookie in a 3D enviroment was so jarring?

Also, since I also RP Licorice Cookie on my @candyeyecookie blog, I was trying to figure out how they'd interact. They so far had come off as unusual acquaintances.

I may lowkey ship them, but I still want to mess with their chemistry before I do anything like that. I don't like shipping just to ship. y'know?

It REALLY bugs me.

Anyway, yeah, Candy Eye Cookie really loves her Swing dances.

P.S. Please don't ask me any shipping questions. I'd rather not. You'll know when I feel like talking about them, okay?

#crk #cookierun kingdom #cookie run kingdom #licorice cookie #Candy Eye Cookie #my art #reid rambles #I'll tell you this right now. if I catch anyone being hostile over silly ships? I will get the raid can. #And you can forever begone from my blogs. I do not take kindly to ship wars. This is a STERN warning.

[therealmaquaroonie]

If I had a nickel for every time I liked a character who slowly is dying/being taken over by a disease throughout the course of the story I would now have 3 nickels which isn't a lot but I think that says a lot about me

#maq rambles #charlotte stern hfjone #five pebbles rw #uzi doorman murder drones