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artemisbarnowl · 11 months

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When you're not staying up past your bedtime tell us your thoughts about checking up on people via social media!

Thank you for indulging me this long weekend why would you do this

Warning I'm gonna be pathetic because i am still grieving a nine year relationship and grieving, especially in this context, feels so UNDIGNIFIED. Also its my grieving thoughts about the socials thing not like well srticulated thoughts about the socials with some grieving mixed in. I just have a lot of feelings and i need to get them out.

1. Like, ultimately don't. Its not helpful at all i think. Unless if literally is just idle curiosity about what happened to someone in your class from ten years ago and you actually dont care what you find.

2. I am experiencing the urge to check up on my ex CONSTANTLY. (They do not really use social media this doesnt amount to much btw). I understand why people be lurking on someones insta or whatever to see what theyve been up to. Sometimes you hope theyre failing and miserable because they did you wrong and you want to feel validated. In my particular case i am worried, and i miss them. There are no posts for me to see or wonder about so this is useless but i think i also want to see that my ex is sad (because i was important to him for such a long time) but also, not like, too sad. And I'm fantasising about him sort of DOing something about it. I want to see what he's up to. Is is dancing? Is he injured? Is he Making? Is he finding small joys in life like hanging out with friends or seeing a cute creature on a walk? Seeing posts about these things would not help me! Because i would likely assume he was not sad, then i would feel angry and bitter and disappointed in myself for wasting my time. We dont share when we are sad (or why) on socials. I am NEVER going to see a post that effectively says "my smart and beautiful and extraordinary girlfriend of 9 years left me, and I am sad i couldn't be what she needed. I miss her a lot and wish i could have showed her this garden i saw today, she would have loved it. I will never forget her and dont know how to be okay with this". No one is going to see that. But ultimately i think we check up on people because what we want to see is some variation of that, so we can feel validated and know that they UNDERSTAND how were feeling.

Because this is tumblr I have made stupid posts a bit like this! I miss him all the time, i made a facebook post about a doco that I watched in the hopes that he would see it and watch it, because i think he'd like all the adorable english woodland creatures. This is also stupid! As are posts showing how well youre doing in hopes ypur ex seems them and feels stupid. Devoting this much energy to a game in your head where you will never get an outcome that satisfies you cannot help you move on or heal. But i do think its weird that we look for any possible thread that tied us to people we are without, even the terrible online ones that can never retie us! We talk to gravestones like the dead can hear us. I am currently checking my mailbox every day for a letter that might not ever arrive, and even if it does it sure and shit wont contain any information that helps me live my new single life where no one thinks I'm special, and there's no one I'm 100% comfortable to be all of myself around and who I dont get tired of being with.

I will never know if he saw the fb post, let alone watched and had opinions on the doco I talked about. Knowing wont help. He knew i have a tumblr but i dont think he'd go through it as its a huge pile of memes and stuff he wouldnt understand to look for 3 things that say im sad. And again, knowing I'm sad won't help.

Normally im very good at being like "well this is unproductive/not the best course of action" and then, you know, STOPPING but unfortunately I will continue to wonder how he is and what hes up to and cling to actually unreasonable, unfounded fantasies of what happens IF he sees.

Anyway this is a long vent that basically says i think i get why people do it now but ultimately it will never bring the carthsis we hope for (:

He knew i had a tumblr but I dont think he's checking up on me coz. Whats the point. Its a lot of stupid memes for 3 im sad posts. Which accomplish nothing as discussed.

#its been...just under 3 months since the break up?#and I am still so so caught up in the fact thst the last weekend we spent together before he flew home was nice #he felt the pressure was off so he could just do what he wanted #which was talk more and answer questions and be more affectionate #which is all i ever wanted in the first place!!#and after all that time together he was still more scared of moving in any direction and it being wrong #than he trusted that i would treat him with kindness and respect and understanding no matter what he did #i dont think it'll ever not hurt that when booking plane tickets (a few months before) he couldnt decide between #spending an extra day with me and a ten dollar cheaper fare #not because he didnt like me but because he was frozen by the possibility of there being a wrong choice #and like there is if the reasoning isnt 'i have to be back for a significant event' and is IS 'i dont actually want to spend time with you'#then hiding that through indecision does no one any favours #unfortunately my biggest regret now is that i was uglu crying at the airport when we kissed goodbye for the last time #its very vain but i worry he will remember me like that #i could barely stand i was so upset!!! and i am concerned about my looks and keeping a man :'(#highly pathetic you were warned #anyway i miss him and i am afraid he is alone and sad and i cannot help

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devotedlystrangewizard · 11 months

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as im getting closer & closer to the day that i will officially leave my hometown & go live with my dad i am starting to understand my ocs more

#avani most notably rn. bc shes actually my age and leaves behind everyone and everything she knows #having to grow up the rest of the way in an entirely different situation #because even if the situation youve been in for all your teen years has sucked ass the entire time its still.#its familiar? like. yk. familiar suffering is better than the unknown #personal #ive lived in that house my entire life. ive been with my dad for long stretches of time (all of summer break for instance) and it was fine #i KNOW i cant stay there. my mom's partner has actually physically hurt me and theyre both awful to me #and i also know that the only reason why its been somewhat good there lately is because i rarely speak to them anymore #that is not a house to live in! and i fucking love my dad. my stepsiblings. my stepmom!!#and its not even just the fact that im moving. right. i could probably handle that were it not for me also finishing high school.#i got financial support as a student whos 18+ while i was in high school. now its.#i need to get an income. in a region i barely know. being both physically & mentally disabled.#but not so disabled that im *incapable* of work!! which the law here asks for!!#(or i am and i just dont realize it because ive been working past my limits for so long ive forgotten what they are el em ay oh)#also ill miss my cat so fucking much #i love my dad's cats but shes special man #i miss her rn actually but im going back for the last time in a few days so #i was like. tearing up bc of the anxiety but then i remembered my cat and now im actively trying not to cry loudly #bc its. yk. almost 6 am and its almost waking up time for everyone here except me because. my school ended last month #its bedtime for me actually but i couldnt sleep because i was too busy crying over the fact that i am never going to get that room back #i miss being a child #at least back then it wasnt that complicated! i didnt know i was being mistreated when i was 11!#all of this doesnt even matter that much im just really bad with transitions. which is ironic. im transgender #though granted ive put off getting on that list for that exact reason. im scared of transitioning #like the moment im comfortably settled here and have a job and/or disability benefits. all of this will just be embarrassing #something to look back on and laugh. and then cry because i still miss my cat.

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scoreplings · 2 years

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cringe fail moment i got a lil nostalgic over my ex tonight. but then i remembered he was pathetic. godbless

#i was like auau… i miss him he was probably my soulmate 💔 im alone forever now (<- dumbass. u have a bf and many friends)#‘why did i ever break up with him :((‘#thought for about five minutes about the reasons i broke up with him and was no longer nostalgic #lmfao. remembering the time he had be come to his house then hid in the bathroom and scream-sang mitski for an HOUR while i just kinda.#sat there #remembering the time he had me walk forty minutes to his house then didnt answer the door and let me sit on the porch for about a half an #hour before i gave up and left #none of these were even reasons we broke up 😭#GOD… remembering that there was honest to god MOLD in his room at all times #like he would leave food sitting around until it molded and just. keep it there.#the amount of time i spent trying to clean his room for him. insaneee #plssss he used to tell me he was a psychopath and incapable of caring for people #so it really wasnt his fault when he treated people bad 😭😭 bro that isnt how it works #you are still choosing to be a shithead #so very not over him yet if you couldnt tell. despite the cringe fail patheticness of him he was unfortunately very hot and charismatic when #he wasnt being a man baby #and we were together for yearsss. so. it’ll be a lil while longer before i stop moping #but thats so funny. cringe of me to care about him still #even his mf boyfriend doesnt like him 😭😭 they used to complain about each other to me DAILY #idk why they’re together but im assuming he’s pulling the same ‘if im single ill kill myself 🥺’ thing on them he pulled on me #shitty of me to assume that but i make 0 good assumptions of this mf

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tokyoteddywolf · 29 days

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...I'm not as sad as I probably should be.

It hurts, its understandable, but it's resignation too.

I won't cry over it.

I'll just accept what I'm dealt and move on.

That's all I can do.

#vent in tags #it was always going to happen. the degredation was always there and it just crumbled silently away.#losing friends always sucks. it sucks more when you know its both of your faults.#lost a couple of good friends today. not dead but we just couldnt deal with each other anymore.#i cannot forgive or forget and maybe thats just part of why it had to happen. i tried to forgive but i couldnt.#it was always in the back of my mind you know? that i hated it. i hated it so much. i couldnt hate you- but i just couldnt let go either.#and maybe that suppressed spite and rage made it all worse. and maybe i was never going to let go. and maybe i still felt so so alone.#and maybe you did what was best for you but it hurt me so badly that my brain scarred deeply and we couldnt recover.#it was always going to crumble and break. we couldnt handle it. we just held on in desperation until we all broke.#and my resentment spilled to the both of you. and my spite and rage killed us all. and im sorry i dragged you all under.#maybe one day we'll be better people. older. wiser. stronger.#but ive always always always felt so alone in the aftermath and it just didnt help. so i cant forgive it. not yet. maybe not ever.#i love you but you hurt me. you hurt me so so so badly. and maybe i hurt you just as badly back in retaliation without thinking.#we tore each other apart and the sorry's we said were paper bandaids. it was inevitable. it was a doomed narrative and we the players.#i am sorry. i am so sorry. i will grieve you and miss you but i will not reach out to you anymore. ill leave you alone.#just promise me you'll look after each other the way you always have.#at least in that i know you're loved still.

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mochapanda · 8 months

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im gonna drink and play video games until i die of alcohol poisoning

#like holy fucking shit how can a 5 hour shift be so fucking unbearable #fucking lady comes in wanting to get some shitty plan i dont get paid for and after me telling her its only online she sits at the store #texting customer service and making me solve all the problems they cause #and then another ladys account is so fucked i cant even sell her a damn phone bc the dumbass system breaks #and then FINALLY it refreshes 9 minutes to close but bc she was so cool i still helped her out (she put a $5 bill on my car lol)#and these morons who've been sitting there for a fucking hour expect me to do another 4 hour transaction #NINE MINUTES TO FUCKING CLOSE. HOW DUMB ARE YOU #BITCHING AT ME LIKE ITS MY FAULT YOUR DUMB ASS CAME INTO A T MOBILE AT 7 PM #meanwhile im telling the other customers in the store that ive only had a reeses and a redbull to eat the entire day #and then my dumbass coworker comes back as im trying to figure out who completely fucked up the stores change #FORGETS HE PUT MONEY IN A LOCKED BOX HE COULDNT FIND THE KEY TO #LIKE. 1 NO ONE TOLD YOU TO DO THAT 2 WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #finds the key magically after sitting there for 15 minutes AND THEN FUCKING LEAVES #FOR ME TO DO EVERYTHING BY MYSELF. LIKE WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN COME BACK #and now i have to go in again in the morning.#bc i want extra money before my next job.#i dont know how these bozos havent gotten fired yet men are literally deranged #like theres $150 missing from our change fund and no ones getting fired over it? the patriarchy amazes me

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jinglejanglemornings · 9 months

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it’s funny i know the past is the past and we can never go back but thinking of happy i was with her how much i really wanted to be there how wanted i felt i just… do not care about the reality of the situation i just want to bury my face in her hair again. and now i kind of want her to show up on my doorstep just so i can scream at her for hurting me so badly. did you even feel a fraction of what i was feeling? do you feel a fraction of what im feeling now? i do kind of feel bad for her for being so emotionless she doesn’t even care when she hurts someone like that but i wish i could go back and touch her lips and give her a little of how i felt in those moments and i wish i could go back and hold her hand and let her feel how i felt while she was looking in my eyes and saying those horrible things and crying as though she cared at all and how i’ve been feeling SINCE then. like i loved you so much was i supposed to not trust any of that? are you going to come to shul on rosh hashanah and ask me to forgive you or do you even have the presence of mind to know how badly you hurt me? don’t you care? don’t you miss being loved like that?

#im having a night #but seriously i love SO hard i would’ve done ANYTHING for her #she couldn’t even fucking call me #SHE COULDNT EVEN FUCKING NOT BREAK UP WITH ME IN PUBLIC WTF #and i STILL miss her and i’d STILL give anything to go back #and it’s bringing me no comfort to know that the way she handled that was awful and that #i deserve better or whatever

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brkmysoul · 1 year

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on monday it'll be five months since my dog died and i dont think i'll ever get rid of the feeling that he's still here i and at the same time he's not anywhere at all

#i look at the way the nose of one of my stuffed bear is ruined and i smile remembering how he chewed it. i eat something and the image of #him with his little eyes just waiting for me to drop something for me is SO clear in my head and i just smile #and them find one of his ties inside the pocket of a sweater i haven't wear for ages and i broke down crying for hours.#i find a piece of his colar has been missing for ages and i remember how i'll never use it again and i cry and cry #i look around the house and theres memories of him everywhere but hes not anywhere cause mom threw all of his things away #cause she couldnt ever look at them without breaking down #and i just miss him and miss him and i cry when i remember him and i smile when i remember him #and i wish he was still here and i just so glad hes not suffering anymore #at the end of the day is all just grief and more and as long as he is making me feel things he'll still be alive for me

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woolydemon · 1 year

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opinion on the mutant mayhem trailer

OH I'm surprised that you're the second person who's asked me for my opinion on that ajdhdkfjfkfj I haven't posted ninja turtles in so long but I'm flattered ppl still think of me as a ninja turtle guy <:]

I will say I did quite enjoy it! This approach to ninja turtles def appeals to me bc it seems to be taking some queues from rottmnt-- particularly some of my fav parts of rottmnt like:

Style- very obvious they're doing some funky things with that animation and I dig it. Also they are still doing designs for the turtles that help set them apart more (though I'll admit it's not as strong as rottmnt designs I'm my opinion but it's still p good) I like the blend of the old live action movies & the 87 cartoon toys it's very charming

Teens that actually appear to be teens- Really into this aspect of the trailer. it's probably what caught my eye the most. Idk I just think it's so cute and charming that they really do act like kids and Even Sound like teens w/ the voice acting choices, it's refreshing when so many media that features "teens" that are just basically adults labeled as teenagers. Maybe it's me being an education major hoping to teach at high school level but I think we gotta appreciate how kids are like irl more rather than be like "UUUHGH I hate how stupid and immature these turtles are like cmon leo was so cool bc he didn't act like a kid" like bro. He's like 15 years old chill

plus other trends from rottmnt like April still being black (hooray !!!!) and whatnot that make me rlly glad to see that it's not like they're throwing away all the innovations that show did. I was genuinely rlly afraid they were just gonna flip back to status quo bc its the things that made Rise different that got me interested in ninja turtles in the first place, so I would just be. Completely uninterested in tmnt past rottmnt. Happy that doesn't seem to be the case :]

I don't expect this to be like. My Favorite tmnt media ever but it doesn't have to be!! I do hope for it to be a highlight of the franchise for me to look upon fondly and go "yeah this is tmnt at its best <3" y'know like. Bumblebee 2018 movie to the tf franchise (at least to me it's like that)

#tmnt #OUGH OK I HOPE U WANTED AN ESSAY FROM ME AKSHFKFJFK #sorry i couldnt keep it that short i just cant discuss things in a consise matter to save my life #I STILL GOTTA CATCH UP ON RISE THO I HAVENT SEEN THE MOVIE STILL .#i do have free time now bc of spring break so I'll try to factor that in #like i do miss these turtles sometimes trust me i love those guys #tho my heart is currently dominated by lawyers atm but i will always love every little guy that makes their way into there #btw the first person to ask was an irl friend dming me that the trailer made them think of me akdhfkfjfkfk

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lostalioth · 7 months

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𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐞𝐭

→ premise: it was a bad idea, wayne came home and could hear you and eddie and yet the two of you didn’t wanna stop, it felt far too good to want it to end.

→ pairing: eddie munson x fem!reader

→ warnings: smut | 18+, almost getting caught, mutual masturbation, gagging/covering mouth, praise, small amount of oral [m receiving], nicknames [sweet girl, baby]

→ a/n: 02 kinktober

Eddie's hand presses against your mouth covering it suddenly. You look at him with wide and confused eyes as your own fingers still their movement between your legs. He holds a finger up to his own mouth with his other hand as a way of telling you to shush. “Heyy, Eds you home??” You hear the front door to the trailer swing open and Wayne's voice echo from down the hall. Your body froze, he wasn't supposed to come home yet.

You and Eddie were frozen still, laid out on his bed your thighs spread, his legs also spread and laid over your calves facing you, both on full display for one another. Your fingers were still buried deep inside you, you twitch and clench around them aching for your movement earlier to continue. You were getting close but the interruption made your body tense now. Eddie's hand moves from in front of his mouth and wraps around his cock again, pulling your attention right back to it. His tip red and angry, veins protruding and begging for your mouth.

“Uhh yeah im home, i was just about to take a nap though” Eddie's voice answering his uncle breaks you from your trance. His voice being far too calm and collected for what his previous actions were, it slightly impresses you. You make a small noise in surprise and confusion, it being very muffled by Eddie's hand but he gets the message and mouths a quick “I'm sorry sweet girl” at you while Wayne responds.

“Oh nice think i'll rest too, work was rough” Wayne yells once again before heading off down the opposite hall, you were grateful for the odd layout of the trailer. Eddie waits until he hears his uncle's door shut before he begins stroking his throbbing cock again, his release right on the edge once again. “Oh fuck, good girl staying quiet so we dont get caught” Eddie groans softly, eyes glued to your face a slightly embrassed but still lustful look in your eyes. Your eyes lit up at the praise and Eddie doesn't miss a beat. “Oh you like that? Huh baby? Be my good girl and keep playing with that pussy for me okay?” Your fingers slowly pump inside yourself once again after the embarrassment washes away. “Eddie..” you moan against his hand a bit too loud making him shove his ring clad fingers in your mouth gagging you lightly. The metal cold against your lips and the action only furthering your arousal that's staining his sheets below you.

“Keep being quiet for me and you can cum got it baby?” Eddie's voice is laced in desperation. You can tell it's both a plea for you to be mute but also for you to cum. He needed to see you cum, he was so pent up and on the edge already but wanted to cum to the sight of your release dripping down your own fingers. You nod your head frantically and pump your fingers inside your aching pussy faster, chasing your much needed climax. Eddie flashes that damned charming smile of his at you and matches your pace with his own strokes. “Such a good girl for me, i was gonna fuck ya’ but dont think we can keep quiet enough during that i know i couldnt” he chuckles softly and slowly thrusts up into his hand, his eyes glazing over as he watches your skillful fingers pleasure yourself.

You whine around his fingers at the idea and buck your hips up in need as you start thinking about how good his cock would fill you up, the patch of curly black hair that rests at the base of of it brushing against your cilt…god you needed him to ruin you and cursed your luck that he couldn't this go around.

Your own thoughts guide you closer and closer to the edge. Eddie can see the way you frantically pump your fingers faster and bring your free hand down to your clit telling him you're close. “Aww you gonna cum sweet girl, do it” he eggs you on his voice needy and teasing. “Cum on those pretty fingers imagining it's my cock while you gag on my fingers baby” he fists his cock harder, his brain going fuzzy as he waits quite impatiently for you to finish and push him over the edge.

“Mhm~ Eddie!~” you let out a muffled wanton moan around his now spit covered fingers, your back arching off the bed. Your head falls back as your release washes over you. Your slick and cum coating your fingers and thighs as you squeeze them together at the overwhelming sensation.

“There you go baby, good girl fuckk..” he lets out a sound that's a mix between a groan and a whine as his thrusts into his large hand become sloopy and speed up. He takes his fingers out of your mouth, wet from your spit and uses that hand instead to stroke his cock.

“Sweet girl im gonna cum fuck, you want me to make a mess of my self or you wanna help me out and take it down your throat like a good girl?” Eddie's voice comes out husky and strangled as he does his best to hold back while waiting on an answer. However, you're quick to move up to your knees, your cum soaked fingers leaving your cunt making you whine. leaning your head down and swating his hand away to slide him in your mouth, your tongue tracing a vein on the underside of his shaft and sucking.

Eddie's head falls back quickly before it snaps back up to take in the view of you taking all of him in your mouth.

“What ever did I do to get such a sweet and good girl like you’s mouth on my dick shit~” he let out a string of mumbled curses as he bucked his hips up into your mouth.

He rests his hand on the top of your head as the knot in the pit of his stomach tightens and quickly unravels. He cums with a loud groan of your name leaving his lips, cum coating your throat and sliding down as you swallow every last drop. You take your mouth off him making a small pop sound when it slips out and Eddie lays there breathless. “Maybe I should’ve also gagged myself to be quiet huh?” He lets out a short and nervous chuckle between pants.

→ a/n: i keep ending up writing and posting these much later than i wanna like its techically the 4th for me as i post this but i meant to post it on the 3rd cause of how im doing kinktober and UGH

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gentlyweeps-world · 5 months

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Ferrari Red .2

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summary: Tensions run high between the beloved Ferrari boy and his girlfriend after a complicated Austin GP. Pictures and rumors surface, catching the eye of Y/n.

pairing: charles leclerc x fem! reader

warnings: angst, Ferrari boys red flags, alcohol consumption, toxic actions, throwing up

next part

LIGHTS OUT AND AWAY WE GO

Slowly waking up, you let out a soft sigh, memories of the night flowing back. You sit up and glance around your friends apartment, seeing a note left on the kitchen island.

Moving slowly up and off the couch you read the note, which simply states that you can stay as long as you want and that shes sorry for what happened.

With a shaky sigh you wipe the already falling tears off your face, the same confusion and hurt consuming you.

You grab a cup of water and drink some, hoping the water will calm your nerves. But a knock at the door has the glass shattering to the floor.

The door swings open and shows a dishevlled looking Charles with your favorite flowers and takeout.

“Are you okay cheri?” He asks worriedly, moving into your friends apartment and closing the door behind him. He moves over towards your shaking body, setting the gifts he brought on the kitchen island, placing one hand on your arm he gently moves you away from the kitchen and into his arms, cautious of the glass and water on the ground.

“Cheri are you okay?” He asks, his tone so soft and delicate manages to break you out of your silence. Shoving him away and out of your grasp breaks your heart but the rage you felt was more.

“Dont call me that!” You shout out, tears forming in your eyes once more. “Please Y/n…cheri..you have to listen to me..” Charles begs out, moving closer to you as he wraps his arms around you once more, instead of moving away you simply just cry into his chest, sobbing as you softly punch his chest.

“Why did you do that? Was I not enough? I dont understand Charles…why did you do that to me…to us Charlie” You sob out, still hitting his chest softly in frustration and confusion.

Charles doesnt do anything, he squeezes you to his chest, not caring if you hit him or not. “I was missing you cheri, I needed you and couldnt have you..” He whispers out, his voice breaking at the sight of his love in so much pain because of him.

“Then why didnt you call me? Or text me back?” You shout out, finally coming to your senses and shoving him away.

“I..I dont know” He mumbles out, “I was upset, and I drank, I wasnt myself cheri you have to understand that…” He says, reaching out to you, but instead you move away from him.

“And she..she came to me, she had a smile exactly like yours Y/n, I was only thinking of you…I needed you and she filled that space, I love you cheri…” He says, voice breaking as tears spill.

“Go back to the apartment Charles…I- I need time..” You say, finally looking him in his eyes.

It broke you, his eyes bloodshot, hair a mess, nose red from crying. “Please cheri I cant lose you….I cant..” He begs out once more, voice cracking and eyes wide. “Give me time” You state again, voice stern to put the point across.

With a nod and a one sided hug he leaves, going back to your shared apartment like you had asked.

After cleaning up the shattered glass and water, you eat the takeout Charles had gotten you, not that upset to ignore the free food right infront of you.

Some time passes and your friend is finally back from work, “Let me guess you spent the time scrolling on your phone, watching Disney movies and sulking?” Sadie, your friend, says as she closes the door to her apartment.

“How did you guess?” You say groggily, rolling your eyes as you flip her off from the couch. “Okay first of all none of that please, also get yourself all dolled up! You are going out for revenge tonight!” Sadie says with a smirk and glint in her eye, one you reconginze very well. With a groan and sigh you slowly get up off the couch, forcing yourself to take a shower, do your makeup and hair.

Thankfully you had kept a few dresses at Sadies apartment, and she picked the one that you both knew Charles would love.

“Dude you look so hot!” Sadie squeals out after you walked out into the living room in your black dress, hair and makeup completed. “Thanks, you look good too, cute top” You say with a soft smile, Sadie pairing a risky top with some pants.

Sadie gives you a reassuring smile, knowing you still feel upset. “Lets just go out and try to have some fun, yeah?” Sadie says, linking her arm with you, leading the two of you out of her apartment and onto the streets of Monaco.

“Wait..did you tell Charles I was with you?” You ask as you and Sadie walk side by side, you glance over to her, and see a grin on her face, giving you the answer you were looking for.

Instagram

@youruser

liked by charles_leclerc and others

y/n: dressing for revenge

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francisca.cgomes gorgeous gorgeous girl 😍

y/n all you kika 🫶

charles_leclerc 😍😍❤️

user why is he still liking her posts???

user23 he's probably in denial

user198 team y/n 4 life

user2330 honestly she probably deserved it

lilymhe I have such a beautiful girlfriend

y/n thank you love 🫶

alex_albon I'm literally right next to you lily

carmenmmundt 💛💛💛

sadie.collins LOVE LOVE LOVE

y/n ♥️♥️

You scoff to yourself, turning off your phone after scrolling through more of the comments from the post Sadie made off your phone.

You look around the club Sadie wanted to go to, it wasn’t all that bad, fun lighting, a nice bar and areas to sit.

Which was what you were doing, sulking off in a corner, sitting in a booth as you nurse your gin-tonic.

You would be having fun if Charles was with you, but he wasn’t. Letting out one more sigh you rub a hand over your face. Taking a deep breath, you finish off the rest of your drink and search for Sadie amongst the rest of the people in the club.

You find her near the bar, flirting up some random guys for drinks. Placing a hand against her back you give her a soft smile, averting eyes from the two guys she was talking to.

“Oh perfect! Adam, Lucas, this is Y/n my friend I was talking about!” Sadie says with a smile, handing you a shot of vodka.

“Oh aren’t you that Ferrari drivers girlfriend?” Lucas, you assume, asks. He’s tall, dark hair, tanned skin with dark eyes. You roll your eyes at his question.

Taking the shot down you hold back the grimace, “Not at the moment, no” You finally reply back with a smirk.

Knowing you caught the attention of him after he looks you up and down, handing you another shot, he wraps his arm around your waist, making you want to throw up.

“Let’s go party then” He whispers into your ear with a grin, which causes you to hold back a grimace.

You let out another groan, clutching your stomach as you vomit more into the toilet, Sadie holding back your hair as the pounding music from the club drowns out your gagging.

Feeling yourself sober up you move up off of the ground, groaning again as you flush the toilet. "You all good now?" Sadie asks, unlatching the door to the bathroom stall and moving to wash her hands and check her makeup in the mirror.

"Yeah..yeah, I'll be okay" You respond, rising off your hands and touching up your makeup. Leaning down into the sink you rinse out your mouth too.

You hear Sadie mumble out something with hot guys and drinks, then before you know it you're alone in the bathroom.

With a sigh you lean against the sink, checking Instagram you could feel the throw up come back once again.

Instagram

sadie.collins story

charles_leclerc replied to the story

charles_leclerc who the hell is that guy on Y/n?

sadie.collins now you know how she feels

charles_leclerc when I get there she better be far away from him

You quickly refresh Instagram, checking if this was real or you were dreaming. Thankfully Sadie had deleted it off of her story.

Then you check Twitter, letting out a sigh as it looks like no one had seen it, or at least posted about it.

Sadie rushes into the bathroom and grabs your arm, yanking you out of the room and back into the club, rushing through the people.

“We have to go” She says, her eyes traveling around the club rapidly.

“Why-“ You ask, trying to keep up with her, but then you finally realized why, or more so saw why.

Charles Leclerc was standing only four feet in-front of you with a look of pure rage on his face.

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radio: Hope the second part was a good read, it took me all day to finish it!! Hopefully start working on the third part when I have the time 💙💙 !! This was not proof-read !! (please leave any thoughts, feedback and comments!)

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