#the au is pointless but yk

[zurka-durka]

exploiting reverse au just to draw cyborg saitama

#the au is pointless but yk #saitama steaming from his vents and everything #he's just a lame cyborg with red robo hands no blasters just raw punches #black sclera is staying

[nerves-nebula]

Just wanted to say I absolutely adore how fucked up your aus are!! They always feel so genuine if that makes sense? Like it's fucked up but not just mindless fucked up things happening for the sake of shock value yk? Like I don't watch rotmnt but the way you draw the turtles and the dynamics are so interesting, and as a Hunter and Belos lover I absolutely adore the home hunter au, that one comic where Hunter clings to his cape saying he won't betray him is permanently etched into my mind. Oh and I also love the way you draw expressions!!

this is going on the list of Asks that Made Me Happy Stim hahah.

I'm glad they feel genuine, I like to think they come from a genuine place of emotion and love for these characters. tbh I'm not one for pointless torture in my stories, but I do like when the pain has a point. Even if that point is to just make me feel less alone in my experiences.

anyway, since you've brought it up, here's a scene from the home hunter relapse era I've had in a google doc for like a year. basically: when Hunter comes back to Belos, his uncle reveals that he didnt burn his Sprig plushie because it wasn't "dangerous" like the other things in Hunters tent (books, mostly) and this manipulation tactic wins him MAJOR points with Hunter.

#ask #asks are sweethearts #toh #the owl house #home hunter au #toh hunter #hunter toh #hunter wittebane #nnstuff #nnart #emperor belos

[princemick]

what are your best f1 fic recs

okay okay, I've done a bunch of fic recs before so I deff recommend looking at them first

BUT here's basically my like 10 fav fics of all time that ive reread or litteraly obsessed about. the ones in red are the ones that I like, see as my personal canon yk.

okay I just finished putting them all in n it might b a few more then 10 but still. yk, okay.

some things you choose by trailsofpaper

(sewis, 5+1 things, mutual pining, angst with a happy ending)

pleaser by alltimecharlo

(martian, sugar daddy au, porn with plot, college student seb)

You Don't Remember Me by FormulaFerrari

(webbonso, amnesia au, angst)

all the while you were stood here waiting by likelylarks

(maxiel, mutual pining, getting together, oranges)

it's lights out and away we go by lewisshamilton

(lando/charles, stripper au, angst, slow burn)

can't stand the heat by toastandvegemite

(dewis, omegaverse, just good, very good dynamic)

License to pretend by Sonnenscheintraum

(nicky/mick, spy au, mutual pining, fake/pretend relationship)

the alps by grandprix

(yukierre, pining, hurt/comfort, getting together)

seasons (waiting on you) by empireoffclouds

(sewis, friends to lovers, slow burn, pining, 2008 til 2017)

It's Friday I'm In IKEA by carocoffee

(dantteri, friends to lovers, basically dan has a realization in an ikea)

yeehaw! by hungerpunch

(dantteri, trans dan!, first time, cowboy dan/biker val, porn without plot)

good to you by TheNorthRemembers

(maxiel, friends to lovers, sike kink, miscommunication, messy)

Hard Year / Good Time / Socks Up / Foot Down by bestliars

(sewis, amnesia au, established relationship, angst n comfort)

hoping for you to come make my world new again by misonikomi

(sebchal, soulmates, mutual pining, miscommunication)

The Cloud That Settles by antimonyandthyme

(sewis, friends to lovers, idiots in love, getting together, the monaco fic)

The mountains, the lake and the mist by Jean____Ralphio

(alex/mick, arranged marriage, royal au, moto gp/f1 paddock, slowburn)

lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all by Quagswagging

(mixed ships, regency era, family, courting)

summer sun after the rain by gentleau (iwanna_seeyou_undoit)

(maxiel, kidfic, found family, fluff, retired drivers)

Oh fuck you, darling by individualist (and the whole series)

(toto/christian, married, 4 + 1, secrecy)

Saltwater and Gasoline by Kaytheologie

(charles/bono, porn with feelings, slow burn, praise kink)

how good it feels to be needed by hibivrooms (hibiscuswings)

(carlando, personal chef carlos, friends to lovers, slow burn)

pointless by stuckonspidey

(schulott, exes to lovers, angst, theyre both dumb)

a secret language (i can't speak with anyone else) by Anonymous

(schulott, friends to lovers, hurt/comfort, callum learns german)

Misalignment by Azzy

(sewis, jealousy, lewis comes out n sebs confused abt it personally)

it doesn't come that easy anyway by greeneyeddisaster

(sebson, college au, slown burn, pining)

#this is me being VERY cirital of the ones I choose btw like these are fics that are like perfect imo that were completely satisfying #these are like the best out of my 140 bookmarks #kyle.answers #fic recs #I genuinly ran through all 141 of my bookmarks to make this yall better appreciate it it took me like 30 fucking minutes #rpf #fic.stuff

[erasedqa]

Communication

Erenxreader

Things get tough for you and Eren, but all you needed was some reassurance.

warnings: a lil sad :c, triggering for some fluffy with some angsty stuff, afab reader, Eren (like always) is mean :c, modern au, a lil toxic, some curse words yk

word count: 965

It was two in the morning, a little too early but your stomach hurts and you need something to relieve your pain. You roll over to see if your boyfriend, Eren, was next to you like always. Snuggled up under the blanket, taking all the covers. Your heart broke as you felt around the cold sheets of your bed to nothing. You sigh in frustration; it's been weeks since you and him have woken up together.

Some days it could've been because he was working early, or it would've been you getting up to jog to clear your mind. Even though you didn't know it, it hurt his heart to have you leaving the bed just as much as it hurt you. But for the past year, you and Eren have been having some pretty bad fights. How late he'd stay out, how often you'd call his number while he was out. Just stupid pointless fights that would never get to the root of y'alls problems.

You get up and stretch, putting on your house shoes to see if you could find some sort of medicine to ease your pain. You walked, hand melting into the warmth of your stomach as you grasped it, as if it was some sort of remedy to make you feel any better. As you walk into the bathroom, turning on the light so you could see. You're about to grab your medicine, but then you hear a soft cry. You turn around and peek your head out into the hallway, Eren (who you didn't even notice) was sitting on the floor holding onto his legs that were scrunched up towards his chest, face in his hands.

Your chest burns at the sight, his cries were so soft and quiet, as if he didn't want you to know. You walk over to him.

"Eren..." You speak to him in a warm tone. He instantly wipes away his tears with his bare arm and hands, like he was covering up his emotions. Why?

His face soon turned from vulnerable crybaby Eren to stone cold heartbreaker.

"What?" He said, rude as always.

"I wanted to make sure you were okay, why are you crying?"

"Can you stop bothering me? Fucking annoying." He whispered the last part, making your hope to have a heart-to-heart conversation at risk. He stood up from the ground, towering over you. He looked at you for a while before shaking his head and stomping into the bedroom.

At this point, you were hurt, disgusted, most of all angered. Angered at the fact that he doesn't even acknowledge how hard you try for him. You try to talk, but all he ever does is shut you down. You try to do nice things for him, but he ignores you. You're tired of it all.

Not long after Eren, you stomp into the bedroom. Bad energy and tension circled the tight room you and Eren shared. Nothing could stop you from saying how you felt, nothing.

"Eren, we need to talk."

You say sternly, the opposite of your soft ass demeanor from earlier. You had enough of his bs.

He looked at you, sitting on the bed; just looking, kind of like you didn't matter to him. Like you were nothing. That scared you, intimated you, but you stood your ground in an attempt to get your point across.

"What do you want y/n? I told you to stop b-" He paused, watching as your face became a tint of pink and tears were slowly swimming down your cheeks.

"Eren," you sniffle, "I hate you. I hate this new you. One minute you love me, the next minute you wanna rip me the fuck apart. Ignoring me, leaving at the ass crack of dawn to do whatever you wanna do. I really hate this you Eren."

He frowned, sighed, and got up making a much softer face at you.

"Y/n, please stop crying. I hate it when you cry." He reaches out to give you a hug, slowly making his way towards you. You back up angry.

"Get away from me, you don't love me, you hate me Eren, you fucking hate me."

You repeat the words over and over, like a scratched-up record. It hurt him--but irritated him.

"Y/n, please just stop. I can't do this right now."

"You think I can do this? No Eren, I really can't. I'm tired, I wanted to sleep but my stomach was hurting so I came out to take some meds. Saw you, all I wanted to do was fucking comfort you Eren. For once, to try and make you see I love you."

You look up at him, tears clouding up your eyesight. He looked down at you. Seeing the tears run down your face made him mad at himself. Why didn't he try harder for you, to let you know he knew you were trying for him.

He kisses the top of your forehead, soft and sudden, but yet so warm and comforting that almost gave you non-verbal reassurance that it was okay.

"I love you y/n. I fucking love you, I don't hate you, but I know I show that bad side of me a lot. I'm sorry."

He pulls you into a tight hug as you both cry a little. The tight room you both shared was earlier tense and negative energy. But now it was quiet and calm, and you blushed at the feeling of Eren rubbing your back and waist. You tried to stand your ground, you wanted to ask about all the weird things he'd been doing, but you didn't. No, you didn't have to, this was it. This was all you needed.

"Now, let's go get you the much-needed medicine."

#eren #eren jeager x y/n #eren x reader #attack on titan x reader #aot #aot x reader #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction

[annoying-probably]

Akitouya is the definition of homiesexuals (and more, but sad).

That's my hook line for the start of the post anyways to go into more depth; you can really read them as both being horrificly in love and held back by something or another, a thin veil of friendship. Now, this is not only 5am posting, but also, my opinion. You can read them however you want to. Will they ever be canon? God knows! I am a little to autistic to understand if I am reading something as coding or if it is even there at all yk? No matter what. Whatever. This could also go over anhane but "I'm going on a date with Kohane!" An shiraishi is definitely read far less as coding at this point, honestly.

Anyways.

They do everything normal friends would, they look out for each other, protect each other from their fears, sit next to each other and always seem to understand each other. But there's extra steps to it. It's never just "I want to be friends forever." It's "I want to be by your side forever." VBS' in general theme is partnership, not best friendship. There's a deeper connection flowing under the surface. It's almost telekinetic at points- we can see from card stories, the pre main story ones, Akito says he can't understand Touya's face, and sometime after the main story, he can "understand that stoic face of yours." /Parap. Something that most other people struggle with, with Touya. For one example.

Now, I could debate until the heat death of the universe that they're coded or they aren't- that's anyone's game. I'm not here to force you to think they're a couple. Just they have a bond far deeper than just classic best buddies.

Some would say till death do they part.

Tw! This part will deal with themes of suicide and ideation of such.

Nothing you wouldn't see outside the game.

I'll admit, I haven't read walk on and on or find a way out. I do know the songs pretty well! Infact I haven't done a suspended animation analysis because it seems so cut and dry. Even in the names of the events, find a way out of what? Pointlessness? Walk on and on can be either way. Walking on and on forever because Touya's a little fruity, wanting to be beside Akito forever, or just feeling like everyday is just walking on and on.

The songs aren't a very different story. Utsuro wo aogu, a song about staring into the face of the "void" and smiling. Walking beside it and becoming one with it on occasion. It's as obvious "wanting to disappear" from niigo. But he smiles, because Touya is used to the void, and accepts it as a part of life, of him. Ideally living alongside it. Suspended animation.. well it's all in lyrics itself. It doesn't stop there, though. Ghost city Tokyo, Airhead, au no beats. Probably more I'm missing. Different songs about accepting death, or accepting the idea of suicide. Ghost city Tokyo, specifically, can be read thematically similar to utsuro wo aogu, accepting the idea of living because you've got someone beside you. Aun no beats about not accepting someone's gone. The writers wouldn't pick the songs for no reason, obviously.

They're really both unstable, but stay stable by being together, the others sense of reason. They're guiding the world together, fighting the same struggles separately, but bearing the pain of it together. It's really sweet yet sad, to me. When they fight, the few times we see, you can see how much different they are. That's also from the added stress of the situations, too. I must stress, you shouldn't live for another person- only yourself. But this is obviously the dynamic these two very mentally ill teens have built their trust on- that no matter what, it's them against the world.

I'd even say you can see this sort of gentle pushing in their everyday life, they're guiding each other through teasing and such. Touya is the one who makes Akito study and do homework, out right bullying him into doing it (exaggerating, he does seem way more serious when it comes down to it, though. Kohane sbd 3* SS2?? I think?). They poke at each other to get better, by relying and climbing off each others good points to get better. They hold each other to the exact standard they hold themselves, but, atleast earlier in the story, always held their partner to some unachievable, perfect standard. Now, they're side-by-side, in some 3-legged-race against everyone else. ( This isn't exclusive to them!!!! Antouya and Akikoha and Akian have similar versions of this dynamic, but slightly different. Like akian being more teasing and competitive to grow, antouya being like a supportive pair of siblings who hype each other up, etc etc.)

They're constantly described as being conjoined at the hip, which we even see in cards and animations; they.. really are. In every singular way. Their songs all have sad meanings, it's as if they will follow each other everywhere, no matter what. Which is a disturbing thought with their mental states!! ( I do not believe any of them are okay after Gekokujo, even if they say they are,, ). Id expect to see some big breakdown from one of them, since An just had one, and some big group cry, or something similar or Kohane getting her big leader moment where she pulls them all together. Now they get more hips to be attached with!! They're all close and besties, Akty just had way more time to work on their bond. Almost 4 years in canon!!!! Only a few major arguments and close fun years of healing, fighting the world together. It's time they opened up their views too :) but I doubt they'll get quite the same dynamic with anyone else. They just have that spark that can't be replicated.

Does this rant mean anything? I don't know! Wanted to write something for akty week and saw I had this WIP, so finished it up. Might do a hc post soon :))

#suicide mentions #akty #akitoya #vbs #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #fun fact i dont remember writing half of this #so if it feels weirdly different? that's why #this was written over possibly at most half a year #I THOUGHT I POSTED THIS LAST NIGHT I JUST SAVED IT TO MY DRAFTS AGAIN FUCK #shinonome akito #touya aoyagi #aoyagi toya #shiraishi an #azusawa kohane #vivid bad squad

[marley-manson]

i’m watching severance rn, about halfway through, and i know that despite being in a mild slump for a little bit my mash fandom obsession is nowhere near dead because like 40% of my thoughts while watching are ‘mash severance au’

(except it doesn’t work without some serious worldbuilding changes because i cannot envision a hawkeye who would volunteer for this under any circumstances. also it’s kind of pointless since mash is already a story about people trapped in a 24/7 hellish workplace environment lol but yk. it’s still fun to imagine. mash but the work is weightless and the outside world is nonexistent and the boss is properly a villain)

#hawkeye would be even more ungovernable than helly to the point where they'd fire him rather than deal with it #actually i am very curious whether there's actually a reason they don't just fire helly rather than deal with potential liability issues #(and/or publicity) #from a successful suicide - or why helly doesn't quit after ending up in the hospital #the show kind of... prioritizes characters making believable choices second after style and plot so it might just be a 'shut up and #roll with it' situation #but idk maybe it's an intentional part of the mystery lol #text post #marley on mash

[tired-fandom-ndn]

YES YES YES!!! Especially in Naruto's case it's just... He's an orphan who's orgins aren't disclosed to him, in a world so clan-focused but without a heritage of his own yk? It's just loss. And in a way he doesn't even know what he's lost. And then he finds out about his clan and family, that they exist— except that... they don't. Not anymore. A whole hidden village is gone. The Uzumaki remants scattered throughout the elemental nations. There aren't much of them and

Naruto never got taught his clan's techniques, history, traditions or heritage

Nagato is a descendant of the Uzumaki clan

Karin's mother died when she was young

Between all of that, how much of the Uzumaki clan's history, traditions, techniques etc were preserved? Just how much is lost?

Karin and Nagato would probably know of them the most, but still they probably wouldn't know much.

Is reconnecting even possible for them? With a clan's, a hidden village's, culture being lost to time? Falling into obscurity with no one to preserve it...

Just I HAVE FEELS OKAY 🌷

[original ask]

Yes yes yes, ALL of this.

Naruto, Karin, and Nagato have all lost so much, including each other! There are so few Uzumaki left in the world and the ones that are still alive are either hidden or kept apart by some stupid, pointless war orchestrated by people who just see them as weapons and tools to be used and discarded.

Especially with how desperate they all are to find a place to belong, a place where they can be safe. And if they let themselves stop being manipulated by others, they could have that with each other! They could form a new family in the scraps of what's left of Uzushio! Surviving and thriving in spite of a world that wants them dead!

I think this is why AUs where they do actually go to the ruins of Uzushio and start rebuilding and discovering the hidden stashes of information and cultural artifacts and heirlooms. Because if the shinobi of Uzushio were infamous for their sealing to the point where the other villagers wanted them completely gone, then they HAVE to have had sealed vaults and hidden libraries, tucked away and just waiting for another seal master to come along and open them.

It's something so similar to what indigenous people go through every single day, using the scraps of what colonization left of our cultures to piece together what we've lost and create new traditions. This is especially true for tiny communities, which may only have a few dozen people left if even that many. I think a lot of indigenous people dream of an untouched settlement of our people, some intact city or temple or anything, where we could find the missing pieces of our culture and history. With colonialism and continued "land development" and the realities of nomadic society, that just. . . isn't an option for most indigenous communities but it is for the Uzumaki!

I just want so desperately for them to connect to each other, to find other Uzumaki (because there has to be more, there has to be) and work together to rebuild their culture and community.

#Anonymous #naruto

[tippenfunkaport]

hey hi I'm looking for opinions, open to anyone to answer: if you read an AU that linked to ridiculous diagrams and maps and drawings based on plot-irrelevant details would it improve your overall fic-reading experience? just wondering bc i've drawn a bunch of pointless diagrams every time i get writers block and it would be such a waste not to include them with the finished product yk?

Fanfic is the very definition of self-indulgent. If you want to include it, DO IT, don't worry about what people want! If you did the work and want to share it, I say share away!

[frappe-art]

(And 18 im v interested in frappe art)

I accidentally deleted the first answer I'm a clown

anyway at first I hesitated before reblogging, like "am I enabling Lucy to ask for all of them? is it wise to give her all this power?"

8) uuuh this is already hard but I think lineart and sketching! like, in general. I just feel like my drawings are more expressive when only in rough form, more dynamic. If I have to choose tho I'd say hair and sometimes hands (I'm weird that way)

9) since I'm quite content with my lineart, the most of problems come with coloring, especially color painting. thats the part I'd loved having someone teaching me the most. 90% of my art is self taught and I managed to learn anatomy and proportions through experiments, books and other artists speedpaints but man. color theory, shading, lights are hard. also my pc works against me bc its screen makes everything a bit lighter and bluer than ANY other device known to man

another thing I'd love to understand better are backgrounds. architecture school taught me (half assedly) perspective and composition, but often when I draw i try to use complex scenery to get used to doing it digitally and not with 3d softwares. those are also the drawings I end up not posting because I'm not satisfied with ;-;

14) uuh I'm not sure how to answer this one. up until I was 14/15 I really liked making realistic portraits and drawing animals, but then I went through a loooong art block where I hated everyone of my drawings, so to improve i started copying other people's art, screenshots and fanarts. after a while I was so unsure about what to draw that I thought I forgot how to draw original things.

just recently, like 2 years ago, I started watching jojo, and its artstyle and colors were so weird, and the fanarts so beautiful, I started trying things on my own, bought a thick sketchbook and started filling it with drawings that progressively were more personal and I decided than at the end of the sketchbook i would have bought a graphic tablet. and since then, I've been fighting with colors lmao

I don't always feel inspired, sometimes it's really frustrating and it feels pointless, but I think right now it's one of my happier periods, artistically speaking (and you and the things you write and your reactions have a huuuuge part in it, you have no idea)

16) if the most fun is composition, sketching and lineart, the most daunting is color painting. I love finding shades that go well together, but sometimes it is stressing, because I feel like I'm ruining the vibes of the sketch and the painting is completely different from how I imagined it :/ and also for all the reasons above, like, yk, my asshole of a pc.

18) a big big dream (not really a project) is to use illustration experience for architecture, or architecture knowledge to work in illustrated books, animated series or fantasy/sci fi movies backgrounds, but it's something that's still very abstract in my mind.

the more concrete project you already know about obv, and it's one of the things I'm more excited about, is collabing with you for your next big project!

basically, for everyone not aware, I'm going to illustrate Lucy's next long wip, a jujutsu kaisen gang au, satoru's prequel story of her oneshot rabid dreams, and I'm so excited about it that as soon as it's out I'm never going to shut up about it >:3

thank you for the ask lucy! (and you know u don't have to wait for an ask game for listening me ramble about art lmao)

#ask game #also known as frappè rambles about art more than dante simps for beatrice #charmspoint

[transmascnepetaleijon]

yk i can cook up some really nice and elaborate and interesting aus but sometimes my aus are so fucking confusing and pointless it makes me question why i do this

#i have a godstuck au im making with a sollux i know #and then i have an au that doesnt have a name but goes basically like this: #dave and karkat meet up at this rock bar club show thing. the Talk. it gets Emotional. dave says ''lets get the fuck out of here'' #and so they do. theyre both thinking about making out w each other in the car while they drive off this super ultra mega gigantic highway. #karkats like OH FUCK THIS FUCKING SHIT OH MY GOD. and so he just goes for it #and daves like woah w huhw hhuwha- but gets into it #theyre still in a moving car though so they almost crash dont crash oh my god a truck a truck a trUCK DAVE TURN THE FUCKING WHEEL WERE CRAS #welp look at that theyre flung off a cliff damn #so they crash and the car is a fucking wreck and theyre both like ''well-'' ''-SHIT.'' #so theyre in the middle of the woods in suits walking around with the same chemistry as a couple who had a messy divorce even though they #were never even married #they also find an abandoned amusement park and make out there its pretty nice #and thats like. all of it #thats literally it #what the fuck right #txt

[mwolf0epsilon]

Consider: AU where after a violent revolution takes place, only Simon survives.

There's only so much a fragile soul can take before it crumbles into ash and dust.

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[[MORE]]

All of Simon's friends were dead. With them they took what little he'd had of his heart and soul, leaving behind a twisting deep seething hatred that burnt away everything else to ashes and dust.

And from that dust, from those ashes, rose a horrific mockery of a phoenix. A sickly mottled blackbird with a void in its heart, hunger in its eyes, gore in its beak and violence in its talons...

He lived, lived through countless deaths and the destruction of his kind. The destruction of his friends, his family. Simon had lived because he'd been too weak to be more. To do more. Too weak to kill the deviant hunter on that damn rooftop...

Waking up in the junkyard after being used as a tool to track down his people's safe haven was hard. Finding out Markus, North and Josh had been slaughtered was even harder. Realizing he was the last living deviant android in Detroit was the very last blow he could take. It wasn't fair.

He'd done everything in his power to keep them alive. Had hidden in a derelict freighter for two years bidding his time and sparing parts and thirium he couldn't spare, and then somehow he'd lived when his life had been completely worthless in the grand scheme of things.

He was nothing, completely and utterly irrelevant in light of who he followed.

His soul was dim where Markus's had been radiant with beauty and hope, cold where North's was fervent with passion, and incomplete where Josh's had been so full of knowledge and kindness to spare.

It felt so agonizingly unfair that he'd failed his mission as a caretaker not once, not twice, not even trice...

He's failed relentlessly. Was incapable of keeping anyone safe.

And that thought filled him with a rage that burnt brighter than a thousand suns.

There used to be androids in the junkyard. Terrifying mangled androids that put themselves back together but we're never quite right in the head again. Simon had feared them once, but now he was the very same boogeyman that hid under the YK-series's cots at Jericho.

A Scrapper. Scarred and ferocious. A predator that hid and waited until the time was right.

The newer androids are blank slates. Easy pickings when they don't know to be afraid (can never be afraid) when walking past the fences. Simon strikes them when they least expect, drags their bodies into his home, and savages them to quell his anger.

Feed the beast so that it is appeased. But it's never gone, instead it grows.

AX400s, PL600s, AP700s, WR400s, WR600s, EM400s, PJ500s... So many faces stare blankly at him from the construct he calls a home. The walls are made of bodies. Faces that remain in frozen screams, faces that can never utter another word. They're nothing to him. Just numbers and statistics. Camouflage in this twisted wonderland he lives in.

He thought he saw North once, but her face had been so badly bashed in that he'd hoped not. It didn't stop him from taking her body back home and trying to bury it.

Josh he finds only in pieces. Looks for the parts of the puzzle every day so he can bury him too.

Markus was never thrown out. Sometimes Simon wonders if that's worse. Knowing Cyberlife has his body.

He finds the bodies of several RK800s. He always destroys what little remains of them. The deviant hunter deserves no pity or respect from him. It was his fault, all of this...

Aside from these rituals of sorts, Simon isn't active for most days. Hiding and stewing in his rage is all he can bring himself to do, until it's necessary for him to hunt again. He's killed all of the other Scrappers already, so he resorts to taking the newer androids that hit the markets. Secretly he hopes the humans will find him so they can put him out of his misery.

He knows that if they do he'll be quicker and stronger than them anyway, so in the end it'll be a pointless endeavor. Blood will be shed and he'll still remain.

The chain-link fence rattles and the PL600 shifts and creaks. He's an old model, even if salvage has upgraded him considerably. There's a fight just around the corner and Simon hopes against all odds that he'll finally get some rest. Will be able to fall through the blissful veil of death.

The odds aren't in the trespassers favour however. Because as much as Simon wants to die, he also craves vengeance against humanity.

He's not a phoenix that rose from the ashes of ruin. He's the crow with murderous intent.

#eps writes: #fanfic #detroit: become human #detroit become human #dbh simon #angst without happy ending

[bthump]

it'd be so cool if we could see the "physical" embodiment of griffith's darkness, kinda like guts' beast. we'd have a greater insight into his character. (sure we have femto but still, having him interact with that darkness back when he was human would be cool)

I completely agree! I’m absolutely enamoured with the idea of Griffith’s inner darkness like literally haunting him the way the Beast of Darkness haunts Guts.

tbh since we see Femto ourselves I don’t think we necessarily need to see human Griffith having conversations with him to understand his relationship to his own inner darkness. Like I think we get lots of insight into that with his self-harming and guilt issues, and his contradictory behaviour between like, being glad that Guts killed a child vs asking if Guts thinks he’s cruel.

Femto is pure self hatred and denial of feelings imo. The part of Griffith that wants to be distanced and untouchable and just not care.

But I mean it would still be a lot of fun to see and I would love to see how Griffith deals with his inner darkness being personified and getting a voice. Like how he responds to that could be a really interesting insight into his character I think.

Actually there’s a fic that depicts Femto (and some of the other godhand) as like a voice in his head, Heat by Crimstar, if you haven’t read it. Personally I don’t completely agree with the author’s interpretation of Femto/Griffith’s inner darkness, they kind of have it encompass his possessiveness and feelings for Guts while I’m big on Femto being a stark contrast to/denial of his feelings for Guts, even the less ~healthy~ aspects lol. But yk, it might be worth looking into if you’re into that kind of thing.

tbh what I really would love to see is an AU where Griffith ends up with a brand and has to deal with his inner Femto a la Guts’ post-Eclipse. Like an evil hawk in the corner of his mind, telling him it’s nbd to use people to attain his goal and that it doesn’t matter how many people die for it because he’s already standing on a mountain of corpses, telling him he’s already irredeemably evil so it’s pointless to resist, telling him he’s better off without Guts because Guts made/makes him weak, that kind of thing.

tho ngl… Griffith already has such a low opinion of himself that I can’t actually imagine him resisting it for very long lol, especially since I’m assuming his dream is dead too along with having been sacrificed. If Guts is also around having survived a sacrifice, like if it’s an AU where Casca got the behelit and they both survived her Eclipse, then I could see him hanging on because of his relationship with Guts and because Guts is an affirming opposition to his inner darkness (assuming Guts actually says some of the right things in this AU). But man idk actually talking to Femto would fuck him up real bad. Like, one “you’re already a monster dude, stop denying it” and boom, destroyed. Griffith doesn’t have Guts’ stubborn contrary resilience lol.

Even just the fucking ghosts would get to him lbr. Like one night of this and Griffith would give up and end up possessed:

I don’t think Griffith can do this stubborn fuck you thing Guts does:

Like tbf Guts also has a low opinion of himself, it’s nothing but sheer contrariness that keeps him resisting the ghosts and the Beast of Darkness etc, but yeah, imo Griffith doesn’t have that stubbornness to help him out.

So yeah in this theoretical AU I think Guts would have to be there with him as a counterpoint or Griffith wouldn’t last two days with a brand lol.

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Have you really dropped the wip from last year?? I guess I'll have to grieve now, it sounded like a masterpiece in the making, but it's alright, all your stories are masterpieces

Well.... I had technically had 2 wips last year ? 

the first one was the 1930s treasure hunter au that was going to be my big bang (ft. ex raf pilot louis & old english professor harry) ... the big bang kinda died and then the new one’s deadline was too tight for me. there was NO WAY i was gonna be able to make it happen so i just... stopped working on it ?  i wouldn’t say this one is 100% abandoned, i’m just focusing on tbow for now.

i guess part of me felt like no one was really interested in that one..... like... it was very self-indulgent and while i love writing for myself, i just didn’t have the energy for the amount of research i knew i was going to have to do for it. esp. with the timing? i was working on it just as i was moving to the uk and it was a very intense and overwhelming time, yk ? and like.... the thing about having one of your characters be passionate about something you're passionate about it is that it’s really easy to lose yourself while writing it. once i spent 2h researching the pronunciation of an old english word for that one tiny scene of the fic and it was so pointless because no one is gonna fucking pronounce a word in a dead language while reading my fic yk. so like... it would take forever for me to write it. IDK IDK. talking about it now does make me want to dig it up tbh but my creative priorities have really switched and a lot of my time is dedicated to original fiction anyways so...

BUT the wip i was ACTUALLY talking about and that i have abandoned was the lighthouse au. ft. journalist harry showing up to a tiny scottish island to investigate a series of strange & gruesome murders... and ft. sculptor louis who everyone on the island seem to think is the culprit for ~reasons (his whole family was murdered and everyone thinks he got away with it). i was writing that one for the litelarry challenge ( my quote was : “Behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something tragic.” ― Oscar Wilde) but i dropped cos im garbage *shrug* anyways i was gonna work a myth angle where like.... the bodies tell the story of a myth or a fairy story or something like that... idk. my notes from the document eloquently include : 

Everyone wears wool, Louis is always in wool turtlenecks.

Louis is a sculptor who makes sculptures of folklore and mythical creatures and no one trusts him in the village because you can’t fuck with fairies and all that shit

Louis lives in a lighthouse that also serves as his studio

so yk it was gonna be................... quality lol. 

anyway i don’t even know what i’m saying anymore. i’m fond of both ideas tbh but i guess i loss steam/interest :(:(  thank you for being kind about my stories though

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