#there's so much shit on my bed

[b0nelessdoodles]

buncha heket doodles cause i love the frog i love her so much beloved big frog

#cult of the lamb #cotl heket #cotl leshy #cotl lamb #cult of the lamb heket #cult of the lamb leshy #id be lying if i said i loved all the bishops cause kalamar exists #fuck you kalamar you know what you did #but this isnt about him ill doodle him another day this post is about my beloved big mean frog lady #i forgot how much i loved heket until i ran through anura post game and just #BIG FROG BIG FROG BIG FROG #also her coming into the cult and just #........................hungry #i love her so much anything for you heket ill give you only the best meals #this was also what happened when i got leshy i forgot how much i love him #these two are just so fun i love these little shits so much #shoutout to me getting all the bishops i had drunk #and heket and leshy started brawling each other and cried when i broke them up #kalamar broke a piece of furniture and i wanted to throw him #and narinder puked instantly and then passed out on the floor instead of actually going to bed #10/10 content get the bishops drunk its fun

[dilfsuzanneyk]

pro-nouns? well, yeah, of course i am. i mean they're kinda important to the english language.

#i should go to bed but no there's too much shit in my drafts and i personally #think they're funny. so you are all going to see it rn #vex rambles

[beescake]

@heydevi bro...... fellow understander...... still not over ur gmod solkat theyre so hrhgrbhggfngh 🥺🤲

#fhgghg i love infecting spreading the disease #slkt literally makes me so ill i'd randomly bolt up in bed like #oh my god......... its. so crazy raw to be abruptly left silent in a room full of your formerly loud and chaotic friends #now reduced to a litter of mere corpses. freshly killed and still bleeding they'd died for such trivial reasons #and all you can do is cling to the only other warm figure in the room who's wounded and unconscious but thankfully breathing #the other lone survivor...... mind blank with panic you drag him with you and fucking run #they're insane. i think abt them every day and still shock myself w how insane this ship is #slkt's relationship around fatalism and mortality is unlike any other hs pair it's actually funny they get dunked on so much by the story #bcs when shit starts hitting the fan they're always trying so damn hard to make their deaths count

[ewwww-what]

They are never beating the cozy allegations.

#conked out while talking about nerd shit #they’re so fucking cringe I hate their guts #/aff #they have the best friends necklaces on by the way I want to point that out specifically #because they are best friends #extremely important to me #I’ve been trying to figure out how to do the whole fantasy height differences thing #so I’m between riz being ball size as he is described #or like #5 feet tall y’know? #he gives me so much grief every time i draw him #I’ll figure it out probably #the consequences of listening to warsh tippy and zelda right before bed #on my behalf #I made this low effort on purpose it is a physical battle for me not to go back and edit it #(I did anyway cause I forgot Fabian’s patch) #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #riz fh #riz fantasy high #riz gukgak #fabian fantasy high #fabian fh #fabian seacaster #undescribed #my art

[master-xochimilli]

Fuck he makes my brain so so mushy, heart pounding so loudly and gets me blushing way too easily!!! I love giving them my entire heart, knowing I'll be treated so so softly and caringly !!!!!

#xochimilli writes #🫀puppy #hehe reading every message she's ever sent to me and blushing so so fucking much even if he's just saying yummy or saying hi #I AM SO FUCKING RAHHHH I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM #i would literally give him my soul and heart for her to keep forever and ever if i could #shit i am just soooooo so aaa romantic love is nice feely #he's my first ever romantic love and i..... jdjddjksksjs fuCK #they're sleeping eeping rn and FUCK I WANNA SLEEP EEP ON HIS FLOOR NEXT TO THEIR BED RAHHHH #I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH IN EVERY WAY AAAAA aaa a a aaaa #if i drew a diagram of my heart.... it would only have their name all over it... #all of it is theirs.... i think i said that already JDJFKFKF #xochi goes crazy in his tags yipppeee #my puppy #🫀💛 #my sweetheart #my boyfriend #my love #ftm t4t #t4t mlm #t4t nblm #t4t yearning #t4t #lgbt yearning #nblm yearning #trans yearning #queer #soft mlm #soft love #puppyboy #kitty boy

[s0fter-sin]

it’s the sound that tips him off.

it’s late, half-past hell by his last count, and mactavish knows there shouldn’t be a single soul in the showers this time of night. though he’s sure if he asked, he’d be told a soul isn’t in there.

just a ghost.

he almost chokes on the thick steam filling the locker room; humid and hazy and the perfect cover. or it would be, if the man collapsed in the far stall cared about hiding.

mactavish hates himself a little for the low sigh that falls from his lips. he wishes he wasn't so disappointed; that the promises he's heard over and over and watched be broken as many times hadn't wedged their way into his heart and convinced him that maybe, maybe this could be the time it sticks.

he doesn't know what's worse; the disappointment or the lack of surprise.

he holds his breath through the steam and leans over the limp body; stinging hot water hitting his back, instantly soaking through his clothes and already starting to burn. he flicks the tap enough to take the bulk of the heat out and straightens; a groan startling out of the man beneath him at the sudden lash of tepid water.

mactavish crouches, knees clicking and hooks a hand under his bicep to pull him up straight against the wall. if there was any vomit on his skin, it's been washed away by the pelting stream and he supposes he can count himself lucky for that. he tilts his limp head back and slips his fingers into his mouth; holding down his tongue and ignores the way it lazily jolts under his fingers to check his airway.

clear.

another small victory.

mactavish pulls his fingers out and cups his chin, keeping him tilted up and moves in the way of the water again so he can pull at his eyelid.

the eye he's met with is cloudy, so dilated there's hardly a ring of blue left.

he sighs again; hand falling away and letting his eye fall shut. "god damnit, riley."

riley moans, all his weight resting on the hand holding his jaw.

"aye, 'm talking ‘bout you," he grunts tiredly.

he lets riley's head fall forward to grab his arm, pulling him away from the wall to sit behind him; propping his body up against his chest. he leans his head back over his shoulder, keeping his face out of the water and his airway open just in case he hasn't actually finished throwing up.

he takes the rag riley'd half-managed to soap up and mechanically runs it over him; cataloguing new bruises and cuts and checking if the old ones are healing. sickly yellow fingerprints ring his hips, red splotches paint his ribs; too new to have settled into the deep purple he knows they’ll become.

riley slowly makes more noise as he rubs life into his body; still lying limp against his front but his head's starting to roll restlessly on his shoulder. he swipes between his legs and carefully doesn't think a single thing about what he finds.

"sean?" he rasps and mactavish's hand stills; eyes falling shut. he bites his check, hand clenching around the rag tight enough to shake and breathes hard out his nose.

he doesn't say a word, just forces himself to go back to cleaning.

he's not sure what would come out of his mouth if he did.

riley isn't conscious enough to hear him anyway.

he runs his fingers over his inner elbows for tracks and manages to muster some relief when he doesn't find any. seems to be a pill and booze night; far from the worst condition he's found him in.

he rinses him off, running a curtesy hand over his shaved head only for it to fall back to his jaw; his thumb stroking over the thick scar carved into his cheek.

"you gotta stop doin' this," he whispers.

he isn’t sure if he’s talking to riley or himself.

mactavish gathers up riley's too-light body into his arms and turns off the shower. his head lolls into his throat and he throws a towel over his dripping body and another over his shoulder. it doesn't stop him from tracking water all the way to his quarters but he'd like to see someone try to put in a complaint about it.

he lays out the other towel on the bed and sets riley down; moving his body into the recovery position in an all-too familiar routine. he dries him enough that he won't soak the covers as he pulls them up to his chest and kicks the waste bin within grabbing distance of the bed.

he goes to pull off his sodden clothes when a different noise makes him freeze.

a low sniffle.

mactavish slowly turns back to the bed to find riley's eyes squinting open; glazed with tears as he kneads at the covers.

he stares at him for a moment as he looks around the room and those hazy eyes lock on him for the first time. "cap'n?"

he swallows. "aye; s'just me, riley."

his hand pokes out from under the covers and for all the promises he's made himself - all the “never again”s and “this is the last time”s - at the end of the day, he's weak.

he sits on the side of the bed and takes riley's hand in his; already so cold after nearly boiling himself alive.

"y' mad a' me?" he sniffs.

mactavish runs his tongue over his lip and slowly shakes his head. "no, i'm not mad at you."

"prom'se?" he pushes.

he reaches out and caresses his temple with his thumb. his hand almost covers his head and it cuts like a knife to remember just how small riley is. "aye," he says, hushed. "i promise."

riley's eyes fall shut, voicelessly murmuring 'promise’ to himself over and over.

"I’ll ge’ bett'r," he slurs and between one breath and the next, he's out.

mactavish sighs, running his hand in a final pass over his head and stares at a face that looks so much younger in sleep; bruised and sallow skin hidden in the shadows. "i know you will."

he presses a slow kiss to his forehead, shutting his eyes against the grief that wells in his heart and gets up to pull a chair over to the bed; settling in for another long night's vigil of watching his broken lieutenant sleep, ready to tilt him over if he throws up, eyes locked on the slow rise and fall of his chest fearing tonight may finally be the time it stops.

#drug use #tw drugs #guess whos back on her 09 shit #its me bb!!! #anyway 09 ghost who’s just completely messy #if he’s not on an op then he’s at clubs drinking & taking anything he can get his hands on #mactavish knows what he gets up to and hates it #hates watching him destroy himself stumbling back to base with no memory of what - or who - he’s done #hates seeing him prod at bruises knowing he has no idea where they came from #mactavish is more pissed that whoever riley was with just left him like that and that riley is totally fine with it happening #more than once he's found him almost od'ing half passed out in his room or the showers #and every time riley will slur out apologies and promises mactavish knows better to believe #riley knows how much it hurts mactavish to see him like this but its just so painful to live in his head #he can’t help but try and get out of it the only way he knows how #this is pre relationship btw just to make it all hurt a little more #ghost never remembers how he ends up back in his own bed after a bender #the whole point of them is to forget #he’ll end up missing days at a time and never question what happened to him in the meantime #if he thinks hard enough sometimes he can pick up flashes of a familiar voice rasping in his ear and big hands moving his body #but it’s hard for him to believe they’re anymore than drug induced hallucinations of what he really wants #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #talk to me ghost #we’re a team. ghost team #09 soapghost #09 ghoap #soapghost #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod

[esaari]

honk

#idk if this fandom is alive anymore but here's burnt toast man #shall i tag this shit.......... sure lets tag this shit #payday 2 #payday #hoxton #was thinkin about how therell be another one of these games and felt the sudden urge to draw the fave again #payday tumblr sure was fun to be part of back in the day #anyways i'm off to bed... been insanely tired today and hopefully i'll get to some of the art on my to do list #tomorrow i meant to say. hope to get to it tomorrow lol #i have some nice ones there. though. mostly ones i won't be able to post here lmfao #maybe throw in oc with pride flag thing on this list so i'll have sth posting worthy. #in a non related note at the end here i just finished playing tlou on the pc and it was so much fun... never did finish it on the console #just watched others play through it #i smell an AU but i'll keep that to myself because whomst cares #honk honk good night

[khaire-traveler]

Ok, I'm burnt out, pretty grumpy, and having a really hard time, so I'll be turning asks off for awhile. Posting will be more sporadic. I know I don't have to announce things like this, I figure I'll let people know so they don't think I'm ignoring them or anything. I'm just having a shit time, y'all.

Take care, everyone.

#personal #blog post #sorry for literally just coning back from a posting a break and leaving immediately after #shit just really fucking sucks today #I've been having a shit time throughout this entire move #but the moment we got on the road and the moments after have been fucking hell #i didnt sleep well most of these nights either #as I've been sharing a bed with my mom #and she's used to a bigger bed so she keep stealing blankets and kneeing me in the side #I'm just having a shit time #even spirituality has veen difficult lately #i haven't been able to feel the presence of any deities and that's been reallt hard #because it feels like I'm praying without reason sometimes #but i try to push through those feelings #but i also just feel bad that i keep asking and asking for hwlp without being able to give offerings atm #i just don't feel well #and there's not much i can do about it

[tricoufamily]

i have legitimately done nothing but code today i haven't slept more than four hours for the past three nights and my final final project still is nowhere near done idc sim break (this was a terrible idea)

#help is out there for my Blonde Man affliction.......but i will not be seeking treatment today #oh man. oh man there is so much shit to do jesus #i'm going to bed. anyway #ts4 #ts4 cas #the sims 4

[spaciebabie]

honestly bro I think the funniest thing Abt being autistic is that I can't tell when people are trying ta be friends with me it just like doesn't click. ppl will all of the sudden start talking ta me and I'll be like, "hm why is this person talking ta me so much all of the sudden do they want something I mean I guess I'll go along with it"

#like I am privy ta the fact that this happens but I can't recognize it in the moment #spacie spoinks #I make friends on accident djdjdjjdjdn #I think that talking 2 me is much like headbutting against a brick wall like it'll break eventually but it's gonna take awhile #and also your head will suffer irreparable damage #I'm soooo fucking dense dude 😭😭 #also like. I can tell when ppl are nervous but I can't place why #so like when someone nervously comes up 2 me and starts fucking talking about the lore of garnarak or some shit #b/c they just wanna have a conversation #just like #this is really cool bro but I'm confused asta why you're telling me this #not malicious just genuine confusion #then like a month later I'll be like WAIT THEY WERE TRYING 2 BE MY FRIEND??? AND TALK TA.ME ON A SEMI REGULAR BASIS?? WHOOPSIE #well opportunity for a friend lost b/c I'm just so fucking dense 😭😭😭 #can you tell this has happened a lot djdjdndndnndn #anyways. I should get out of bed

[ganondoodle]

i kept trying to draw anything, literally anything but i feel like the little package of skill i have build myself just fell and scattered across the floor, anytime i try to grab ahold of a piece of it it slips through my fingers like wet soap

on days like these i wish i had been smart enough to be anything else but a mediocre artist, but im not, im not even smart enough to be decent at the only thing i call myself to be able to do, im never going to be able to draw like i want to and i struggle to make peace with it

#ganondoodles talks #i hate hate hate feeling like this #this ... utterly helpless worthlessness #the world is shit and turnign shittier by the second and i cant even find refuge in the one thing i can do #i know i know dont trust what you are feeling after 9 pm bla bla #i have had ups an downs but this far i havent fallen in a long time #i am nothing without art #and i cant even do that #however much it doesnt matter anyway #i feel like i am mentally starving #i know this feeling will pass #but i still feel it right now #i feel like im being ungrateful towards the many people that have answered my previous post too bc i couldnt even do a single silly little- #-thing #i cant even put into words what it feels like #overstimulated brain explode egotistical feeling of worthlessness in a world that doesnt care about human life or creativity #meaningless #im going to bed and will be embarrassed about this when i wake up #but it still feels so very real right now #wasting time and tears

[scatteredpiecesofme]

I woke up this morning with a random thought in my mind.

In S3 I want a Wilmon intimate scene in Wille's room, in Wille's bed, but with the boys positioned with their heads towards the window (I'm going to elaborate, give me a minute).

We know that Wilhelm sleeps with his head on the window's side. But each time he is with Simon, both in S1 and S2, they lie in bed in the opposite way (their heads towards the door of the room). In S1 I thought it was just for logistic/cinematic purposes: August wouldn't be able to see and film Simon's face if they were lying on the regular side: from outside the window he would only see their feet. In order to shoot that scene they needed to lie the other way round. But then they repeated this in S2 and it started to feel like a pattern.

I remember some analysis posts where a symbolic/metaphorical meaning was suggested. Something about them breaking the rules. In pursuing a queer relationship Wille does the exact opposite of what is expected from him, of what his role would impose him to do. Just by being in love with a guy and acting on his feelings, he defies the whole system on which monarchy and tradition are based. The two boys being positioned in a reversed way, then, could be the visual representation of their actual circumstances.

We don't know for sure if this was the authors' intention or it's just us, the fandom, reading too much into it, but I loved this interpretation and sticked to it. Given the level of attention to details in yr, however, chances are that the choice was intentional.

In that perspective, in S3 I would really like Wilmon to be intimate and happy together lying in the 'regular' position, as a metaphorical statement about their relationship being equal to and having the same validity and dignity as any other (and by 'other' I mean straight), as well as the representation that something has shifted in their dynamics (as it actually has, with them now being together and out).

That said, I will gladly take any intimacy scene they give me, in whatever context, place, and position. Just let them be happy and carefree for a split moment!

#I'm aware that in S3 there will be so much drama and higher stakes and shit pouring left and right #that both the writers and us viewers probably won't have time to focus on such a lesser detail as their position in bed #(provided that we get to see them in bed at all) #(but if they don't give me a proper amount of intimate and happy wilmon scenes I swear I'll sue them all) #anyways this is just a tiny thought I had before drinking my morning coffee #and I barely function before coffee #so don't take it too seriously please #young royals #young royals meta #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #wilmon #yr s3 #random thoughts on a sunday morning

[chipistrate]

People really need to give Steel Wool a break sometimes, man- They messed up with Security Breach and now people act like EVERYTHING wrong with modern fnaf is all exclusively their fault when it's really not.

#Chip Chatter #especially when the issue literally WASN'T ATTACHED TO THEM AT ALL!!! #People really just say shit I stg #there's probably one person who'll think this is about one particular post #this post is a culmination of things #the twitter bs going on right now about modern lore and some people pinning all the blame on steel wool even though they don't write the #lore. A conversation I had yesterday with some people where one person kept blaming and shitting on SWS for the smallest of things #The fact that any time I try to talk about a small issue with modern fnaf in any fucking way I'll have people tell me shit like #“it's steel wool what were you expecting” regardless of if the problem was even their fault #and just generally people giving Steel Wool so much shit and most of the time it being over fucking nothing #Like I GET that Steel Wool fumbled with Security Breach oh my fucking god that was almost 2 years ago can we MOVE ON!!!! #They're improving!!! They fumbled one game and a lot of the factors involved weren't their fault anyways!!! Can we give them a fucking #break and just move on with the rest of the series already!!! I'm so sick of hearing people complain about SB when it's been almost 2 years #and Steel Wool is showing nothing but signs of improvement #Cough uhm anyways #of course you can criticize Steel Wool and I'm not saying they've never done anything wrong ever #just don't needlessly shit on them especially if the problem was out of their hands. #Rant over I'm going to bed

[excali8ur]

You ever look through your follower list and realise how many people are following you who you absolutely cannot stand.

So anyway. Time to do some spring cleaning. Bioessentialists & transphobes get the fuck off my blog. Ace and aro exclusionists get the fuck off my blog. SWERFs and “no kink at pride” types get the fuck off my blog. Right wingers get the fuck off my blog. Antisemites get the fuck off my blog. None of you are welcome here.

(And if none of this applies to you, you’re totally welcome here!)

#personal #Bleh. #I hate having to do these posts why can’t people just be decent #I’ve been lazy though #Now I’ve got blogs following me who have bios threatening to mutilate ‘AMAB people’ if they interact #Fucking disgusting. Eat shit & delete your blog #I know this is my art blog not my personal blog so people aren’t really gonna get much of a sense of who I am from it #But I wanna make it clear I’m not willing to interact with people who think that stuff is okay. #I wasn’t even looking through my followers for this stuff I was looking for petty fandom reasons dghdvdjd #Ugh #Anyway. Going to bed #ALSO. THIS ISN’T REBLOG BAIT #I’m just trying to scare off some people from My blog #Just so you know-

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Yall Danny pretends to be a dead mermaid just to fuck with people who don’t know anything about ghosts

People seeing his ghostly trail and calling it a tail. Maybe some dudebroblondechick asks “so do we all loose our legs when we die?” And hes just shocked for a moment before realising the gold he has struck. “I am a dead mermaid whos tail was stuck in trash floating the in ocean.” Maybe hes really acting it up “I couldnt escape and died” as he wipes a nonexistent tear.

Well enough people have asked about it that it’s a whole thing on the web. People claiming no hes not a mermaid look heres a photo with legs and then people saying that the leg photos are doctored by the government to hide the mermaids from the public. The mermaids we are clearly at war with because why else would our government keep letting us pollute like this. It’s clearly a war tactic to basically enlist people without having them know but having them consume so much plastics.

The attempt to remove plastic straws? Clearly a cry for help from the mermaids reaching out to humanity on California duh.

Sam loves it because now more people are becoming aware of their own part in polluting the world. But she also hates it because most of the crap going around is borderline flat earth esk theories. “Why did it take the illusion of having a big naturals mermaid bf to get people to start cleaning up the oceans”

Anyway long story short the most popular theory is that Phantom has both legs and a tail and is actually a catboy alien ghost cover up.

#danny phantom #uhhhhh how do I ship this #crack? #plastic bad #someone give me tags to use im confused and so very tired #I was readying blackbutler fics like two seconds go cause I have been playing phasmophobia and we keep getting demon #thats right baby I was halfway thru a fic and though holy shit danny is a mermaid before coming to tumblr and fighting a war #TUMBLR WILL NOT STOP ME #I WILL NOT BE CONTROLED BY THE MAN #my arms hurt so much from holding me phone for like three hours #still sad about the fnaf post #there I poured my heart out in the tags I think I got it #almost bed time three more hours

[dangopango00]

Missing twst and being in love with myself hours, i fear

#twst wonderland #twisted wonderland #disney twst #wtf is going on now what the hell #twst yuu #art #twst memes #stuck in bed bc im on the rag so i decided to draw #book 7 twst #book 6 twst #malleus draconia #idia shroud #I just came back for sebek canon hair down and see so much shit happening #also quickly turned around to acknowledge rollo existence #atp my acc is just a dump for whatever #akyuuji #kyuuji