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landoncrris · 2 years

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Lia FML please write a smut about coming back from preseason. Or just a blurb but fuck that was good

make up for lost time - mason mount x reader

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warnings: 18+ minors dni. unprotected sex, hair pulling, nipple play, oral (f receiving), spitting, cum play, dirty talk, praise kink, teasing, slapping, choking,,,

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You've been waiting all day for Mason to finally come home from pre-season in America. Since you woke up, time passed terribly slowly, even though you tried to distract yourself by cleaning the whole house and preparing everything to cook Mason’s favourite meal for the next day. But when the clock finally read 8pm, the time he had told you he would be home, you went downstairs after drying your hair in the bathroom.

You sat down on the stairs, dressed only in one of his T-shirts, a red lace bra and matching panties underneath. Something you had ordered especially for that day while he was away, because you could think of nothing else but him finally coming home again. And since he had promised you on the phone that he would fuck your brains out the first night he was back, you thought that would be the perfect opportunity and hopefully a nice surprise for him.

You were busy watching some Tiktoks on your phone, but as soon as you heard a car pull up the driveway, you got up and put your phone on the small table next to the front door. It seemed like an eternity before he finally unlocked the door and entered, but the moment he did, you immediately wrapped your arms tightly around his waist and nestled your head in its usual place just below his chin. This caused his trolley and backpack, which he was holding in his hands, to fall loosely to the floor, and he too wrapped his arms around you with a sweet laugh.

“Hi baby.” he mumbled into your hair. His voice made you look up, his features, which you had only seen through the screen of your phone for the last two weeks, made butterflies rise in your stomach. Your smile matched his, except he had the cute dimples on either side of his cheek. Instead, you wrapped your arms around his shoulders now and whispered a “hi” back before pressing your lips firmly together. The feel of his tongue immediately demanding entry and his hands gripping your waist caused a heat to rise in your body, and the need to feel him even closer grew quickly.

“I missed you so much, Mase.” you murmured into the kiss, to which he only hummed in agreement. But he too felt the same need for you, despite the fact that he had just been on a plane for hours, he felt like he would explode if he didn’t have you right at that moment. Which was why he put his hands on your waist and pressed your back against the nearest wall, making you gasp, your lips separating as you both needed a second to breathe.

You then tugged at the zip of the Chelsea jacket he was wearing, opened it quickly and, with his help, shrugged it off his shoulders. Then you also tugged at the white T-shirt he was wearing underneath and pulled it up as far as possible so that he took the hint and pulled it over his head. As soon as it hit the floor, his hands went to your waist again, but this time under your T-shirt, causing him to he catch a glimpse of your red underwear, which made him smirk.

“You’re so handsome.” you whispered, running your fingertips over his chest as you admired the way his nipples stood perk and his perfectly defined abs, as well as the championsleague tattoo on his side, which view you had missed more than anything. His tan was also stronger than the last time you had seen him, and all of that made you want him even more. When you looked at his face, he still had a smirk on his face, coming closer and wanting to connect your lips again. But instead, you turned your head away and pressed soft kisses to his neck before sinking to your knees, still pressing kisses on your way, down to the waistband of his sweatpants.

“I still have to reward you for that goal you scored.” you smiled, pulling them down so that they gathered at his feet, leaving only his boxers in your way. He was about to protest before you started stroking him through the fabric, causing him to throw his head back with a groan. He was already rock hard in them, as he probably had been the whole flight just thinking about you.

“Please, baby, I just want to fuck you right now.” he said, meeting your gaze. But his behavior quickly changed when you just grinned and continued to kiss his tip over the fabric of his boxers. He then pulled you up with one hand in your hair and turned you around in one swift motion, so that you had to brace yourself against the wall with your hands. “Are you going to let me do that or what?” he breathed close to your ear, knowing exactly what effect he was having on you as he could feel you trembling under his touch.

“That’s what I thought.” he said, after you had nodded in response to his question, struggling to talk as you felt him press against your bottom. Your head turned to look at him as you heard his boxers fall to the floor as well, the tip of his cock bright red and a few droplets of cum already leaking out even though you hadn’t really touched him yet. You pleaded with your eyes as he pushed your panties aside, allowing him access. Although he didn’t need much convincing because he wanted it as much as you did. Causing him to bottom out with one thrust, making you moan loudly, your forehead falling against the wall, no longer used to feeling him inside you.

“Fuck, i know, baby.” he groaned, gripping tightly on to your hips as he could barely move with you clenching around him so tightly. He put one of his hands around you and touched your clit through your underwear, smirking as he heard you gasp his name. He then began to slowly thrust in and out of you, while the other hand touched your tits and occasionally rolled your nipples between thumb and forefinger. All these sensations made you whimper loudly and push your hips back to meet his thrusts, because he felt so good inside you, wanting to signalize him to fuck you even harder, as you couldn’t get a word out.

Though your whimpers turned into pants, when he suddenly stopped moving, his tip sitting against your cervix as his forehead fell against your shoulder. “You feel so fucking good, I can’t last.” he breathed harshly too, biting lightly into the skin of your shoulder as you pushed your hips back so he was as deep inside you as possible while you tried to form a proper sentence.

“I don’t care.” you gave your best in moving your hips yourself so he knew you needed him to keep moving, which needonly increased each time he whimpered against your skin, “Please fill me up, Mason.” and with that, he pulled out of you almost completely before thrusting into you again, making you cry out and your knees buckle beneath you. He was now holding onto your hips again, trying to reach his climax while his head was right next to yours, his moans and groans making you even wetter with each passing second.

“Fuck, I missed fucking you so much.” Mason moaned, now picking up an even faster pace. The moment he hit your G-spot, you clenched tightly around him with a moan of his name, causing his hips to stutter before he reached his high. His cum coated your walls as he continued to curse and moan right next to your ear. You were both panting hard, and you could already feel him getting hard inside you again. But he still pulled out of you and turned you around in one swift movement before his lips met yours and he pulled you away from the wall, walking you towards the stairs so he could put you down on one of the steps.

As soon as you were seated, he knelt between your legs, your kiss being interrupted by you taking off your T-shirt to finally reveal what you were wearing underneath. You were sure Mason’s eyes were threatening to pop out of his head. A moan left his lips and his face immediately came forward to kiss the valley of your breasts as he held your thighs open with his hands. The wet kisses he pressed to your skin made you whimper, already close to your climax from the way he was fucking you, so all you needed now was for him to make you cum, even though you also loved when he took his time with you.

“God, you drive me crazy, you know that?” Mason half moaned as you pressed your tits even closer to his face, by arching your back. In response, he finally slid further down the stairs, his head level with your already dripping pussy. His cum mixed with your wetness in your panties, which made him smile as he took them off, leaving your bare bottom in front of him. He slid two of his fingers between your folds before taking them between his lips and licking them clean with a hum, keeping eye contact with you and watching you squirm before him.

“Tastes even better than I remembered.” he said, and his gaze wandered between your legs again, seeing a little bit of his cum dripping out of you. He leaned down to you and lap up your mixed juices, and just before you thought he was going to give you what you wanted, he pulled away again. Mason’s fingers tapped your cheek while he hovered over you, quietly telling you to open your mouth. When you did, he spat what was left on his tongue into your mouth and watched in awe as your eyes rolled back at the taste.

“Good girl.” Mason smirked and went between your legs again, but kept eye contact with you. His nose brushed your clit, just like he knew was driving you crazy. That proved true as you bucked your hips up desperately, so he finally gave in and stopped teasing you. He began circling your clit with his tongue, parting your folds with his fingers for better access. He hummed at your taste, the vibrations making your head fall back, your hand reaching for the bar of the stairs beside you, for there was nothing else near you.

To make you cum as quickly as possible — after teasing you for what felt like an eternity — he pushed two fingers inside you in addition to his tongue against your clit. The rest of his sperm and the fact that you were so wet made the squelching sounds even louder than usual, almost echoing through the hallway, which was driving him crazy.

“Come on baby, show me how much you missed me.” he mumbled before sucking on your clit, your back arching and a cry leaving you at the sensation. With a good suck of his lips and his fingers curling perfectly inside you, your legs began to tremble around him, your stomach tightening as you felt yourself tumble over the edge. You moaned his name over and over, your hips grinding against his face as he didn’t stop his movements until your moans quietened again. He let you cool down from your orgasm, pressing soothing kisses to your thigh and lower stomach. Until he heard you murmur something he didn’t quite understand, lifting his head to see you already looking down at him with still lustful eyes.

“Huh?”

“Bed.” you repeated yourself, this time a little louder so he could hear. That made him chuckle, standing up so he could pull you up by your hands too. He told you to jump so he could carry you up the stairs and into bed, as you had asked him to do, since the stairs were far too uncomfortable for what you wanted to do. The moment he laid you down on the bed, you turned him over, smiling as he complained.

“Just let me make you feel good, Mase.” you whispered against his lips, kissing them once before kissing your way along his jaw. Your hand wandered between the two of you, jerking him off slowly until you regained your strength. When you did, you pressed one last kiss to his lips before turning around so that you were hovering over his cock with your back to him. And he could have sworn he died for a second at the new sight, his gaze fixed on your arse as his hands moved to your hips. But instead of guiding him inside you, you rocked your hips back and forth, spreading your wetness all over him, making you whimper whenever it touched your clit.

“Don’t tease, baby.” he groaned, but as you continued he gave you slap after slap on both arse cheeks, a clear sign that he could just take control again whenever he wanted. Which turned you on even more, so you did as he asked, lining him up with your entrance before slowly sliding down on his dick. You both moaned when he was all the way inside you again. Supporting yourself with your hand on his thighs, you slowly gyrated your hips, feeling him so deep inside you that you felt like crying.

“God you feel so good like that, Y/N.” he was already panting heavily, his chest rising and falling in short bursts while his mouth was hung open. You grinned to yourself, knowing he loves it when you ride him, but even more so now because you’ve never done it like this before. His words gave you a brief boost of confidence so you started bouncing on him instead, whereupon you felt his grip on your hips tighten as he cursed loudly behind you.

“Yeah?” you asked, your own voice sounding breathless now as he felt perfect inside you. You even felt the vein that adorned his side against your walls, as well as the way he twitched every other second.

“Fuck, yeah.” he breathed, he too was close to his orgasm, but you were still moving too slow, wanting to delay it as long as possible. But Mason had other ideas, he pulled you down harshly so that you were lying with your back on his chest, through which you could feel his heart beating heavily against you. His hand moved to your neck, squeezing there gently and without warning he began to thrust up into you. Making you cry out loudly, leaning your head back against his shoulder as the sound of skin slapping against skin grew much louder too.

“You like it when I fuck you like this, don’t you, love?”

“Yes, fuck— please don’t stop.” your hand found his wrist, the other gripped the sheets hard as he now hit your G-spot repeatedly. Your brain began to go foggy with the lust that was coursing through your body, which only increased as his fingers once again found your clit, moved them rapidly back and forth. You could no longer understand a single word he said as he praised you again and again, and without you being able to ask if you could cum, your high washed over you, stars appearing in front of you as your eyes rolled back. You could barely register his moans and groans either, nor how he came inside you right after you for the second time tonight.

“You did so good for me, Y/N.” he said after a few moments of you both breathing heavily into the air. His hand left your neck, brushing the hair from your face and kissing your temple as you hummed. You turned your head to look up at him and give him a small, tired smile that widened as he pressed a soft kiss to your lips.

“Think you can take another round? We still have to make up for lost time.”

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dear-mrs-otome · 1 year

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I posted 1,088 times in 2022

That's 601 more posts than 2021!

748 posts created (69%)

340 posts reblogged (31%)

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I tagged 1,011 of my posts in 2022

Only 7% of my posts had no tags

#mrs o talks - 399 posts

#spoiler - 314 posts

#spoilers - 314 posts

#ikepri spoilers - 237 posts

#ikemen prince spoilers - 236 posts

#ikemen prince - 150 posts

#ikepri - 147 posts

#ikepri silvio - 120 posts

#ikemen vampire - 107 posts

#ikevamp - 105 posts

Longest Tag: 134 characters

#i hope they don't entirely lean on the rio thing because i like him but nit enough to feel bad for wanting to bone his brother instead

My Top Posts in 2022:

Silvio Ricci - PRETEND LOVER Event - Another Terrible Summary

(Yes, he is blushing. And yes, you'd better get used to his red-faced dumbstruck look because it's happening. Often.)

Here is my absolutely irreverent and chock full of hyperbole, only nominally-guaranteed-accurate rendition of Silvio's event story.

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Please always bear in mind that 1) I claim to be no expert in JP and there are and will be mistakes in this so show mercy on this amateur - and if you see any obvious mistakes, kindly let me know so I can improve 2) I didn't even TRY to make Silvio's dialogue as rude as it is. Always, at all times, assume this man is talking like a foul-mouthed sailor.

Aaaaaand 3) I made this so fucking long. Why did I feel compelled to be so detailed idk - this isn't even really a summary anymore it's just the whole damn event. FML

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So our story starts with Emma walking down the hall and being stopped by a very persistent aristocratic man she’s been dodging for days now - almost a dozen times now whenever she’s found herself alone he’s popped up, ‘coincidentally’, pestering her to have tea or spend time with him.

He tries again today, stating how beautiful it is outside and how she should join him for tea. She tries to make her excuses, apologizing and saying she has a prior engagement, but this stalker says no, he knows that’s not true - she doesn’t have anything on her schedule, he’s already checked with the servants in court.

She’s dismayed and also more than a bit wtf internally, when he presses her and says she doesn’t have any reason to hesitate so they should go. Takes her by the hand, making her skin sort of literally crawl, and tries to pull her off - only to be interrupted by a voice.

“Found you.”

Someone’s hand comes from behind and snags her, hauling her in…and she turns around to find, to her horror, that it’s Silvio there behind her. The tyrant himself, the last person she probably wants to see or have anything to do with because he is patently The Worst.

She can tell already that today is going to be rough.

He’s got his arms around her from behind, caught up too in his fancy schmancy exotic cologne, when he scolds her for making a hassle of herself. She’s one part relieved to be rescued from the creepy aristo guy…and one part full of dread because it’s Silvio that’s saved her and she knows he is far faaaar from a nice man.

He says with a smile how she’d already make a promise to him for the next while, and she’s blankly like….promise??? Prompting him to scowl at her before she’s all OH RIGHT RIIIIGHT THAT PROMISE RIGHT NOW YEP YEP. Realizing that maybe he’s trying to cover for her excuse to the aristocrat earlier.

Silvio’s grinning, but then he turns to the aristocrat and brushes him off, stating he doesn’t know who the guy is but he shouldn’t dare touch someone else’s woman - specifically, this woman is his.

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Cute tsun cute tsun cute tsun alert

252 notes - Posted July 18, 2022

Pace non trovo - IkePri (Silvio)

Fandom: Ikemen Prince

Pairing: Silvio Ricci/MC (Emma)

Warnings: None - not even spoilers really, just speculation

Summary: Silvio sets out to discover what it takes to buy Emma…but the true cost isn’t something either of them expects. (6.7k YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT WHY BRAIN words of snark and fluff, SFW)

Author’s Note: Frankly I’m just tired of looking at this. It’s long and I’ll never be happy with it but I want it out there before Cybird undermines all my ideas. And the gratuitous Italian is all my own headcanon.

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260 notes - Posted July 15, 2022

Silvio Ricci - 1st Birthday (His POV) - Yet Another Terrible Summary

(Silvio: “Cut it out, back off!”)

Here is my irreverent, only nominally-guaranteed accurate rendition of Silvio’s 1st birthday story in his POV.

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Birthdays are the easiest occasion of the year to close a deal. No time to rest, as many merchants come looking for investments - Silvio’s never had any doubts on that matter. In fact, he’s always thought it was the best way to celebrate a birthday.

Until that cheeky woman prodded a sore spot.

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“You’re late,” he tells her, when he finally sees her amidst the hectic preparations for his birthday party. Pissy because she's dawdled when a few hours prior he’d summoned her with an invitation.

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281 notes - Posted July 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ahhh, he looks so happy they both do 🥺 - or at least he was until he realized Emma was faking sleep when she started giggling over him being mushy while she was 😘

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rotblut · 1 year

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What did you think of the last episode of silent? Im waiting for it to go back to a sou and aoba focus

ughhhhhhhh thinking it’s not that deep just a fictional story but writing a super long rant about it all because i’m mad about it........................ OMGGGGGGGGGG SAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE this is gonna be long and messy to read and has all kinds of typos and errors so sorry for that............... but I calmed down now. not mad about it anymore.

felt kinda betrayed at first, felt manipulated into watching something that they promoted differently from what i actually got out of it 💀💀💀💀 felt really let down and the people really need to reevaluate their opinion about this drama after the first 4 eps, because it’s poorly executed. the insulting stuff that was in ep3+4 are hurtfull and insensitive. not just to the deaf ML but also how they treat the FML like an object. with no real personality outside of the guys? like sure that’s the classic yet terrible romance trope (treating the girl like she doesn’t matter) but it’s still terrible to me.

pushing the leads to the side in favor of the 2nd ML?????? shifting the focus onto him????????????????? it makes no sense to me? what the fuck does he have that’s inconvinient about his life?????? compared to sou what is he really stuggling with because the shit they show is laughable compared to sou or even tsumugi???? acting like he’s the person who’s suffering the most????????? are we watching the same drama??????????? that’s crazy to me. especially because the 2nd ml is a fucking arsehole (and i’m not talking about ship things here) he’s a big insensitive arsehole in general and pissing me off all the time. the way he’s treating everyone and especially mistreating the leads.

atm i view ep1+2 as a minimovie and ep3+4 are something else. I feel the same way as i felt watching extraordianry you back in the days. the way they pushed the 2nd ML into the center and made it about him and not about the leads? 2nd ML is suffering the most and gets the most focus??????????? excuse me???????????

all the shit that he’s saying is so not worth it because of the repeated insensitive actions he’s doing and causing to the people around him. his char is a 26 year old grown adult who has everything and yeah okay people can say *well mentally he could be instable* but really??????? it’s not shown, so no. he’s just annoying and he doesn’t deserve my sympathy because of the lack of empathy towards other people. I feel really manipulated and forced by the narrative into caring and liking a char that’s so obnoxious.

LIKE WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT A NORMAL INSECURE DICK OF A 2nd ML IN A DRAMA THAT SHOULD BE MAINLY ABOUT THE STRUGGLES ABOUT A PERSON that lost his hearing?????? this should be the story about a guy who has to overcome a lot of things in order to reconcile with the people in his life and adjust to it, how traumatic it was for him and his family and for the person he likes and the friends he had to part with and now slowly has to regain their trust. this should be his story and he should be the focus? but he’s so pushed aside and his POV is so hardly relevant because we only get little bits of pieces as of right now.

wasting 2 eps out of 10 on a shitty normal dude is not what i wanted, how he’s telling everyone how he’s SUFFERING and all that shit. how it’s about him??????? his obsession with Sou???????? sooooooooo creepy. i feel like he doesn’t even like tsumugi and just wanted to have her because sou had feelings for her and was starting to move away from him and focus on her because he was spending time with her instead of spending time with him........... repeatedly it’s shown that he’s really rude/insensitive to Sou and Tsumugi. ESPECIALLY TO SOU. and how creepy it was of him to wait for her to be vulnerable and get together with her even tho HE KNOWS SHE STILL LIKES SOU. and Tsumugi in ep 3 being like *I love the 2nd ml.* LIKE SURE. i can tell by how everything about her whole persona resolves around sou. the stuff/food/drinks/interests/music/work related things that she likes and enjoys go all back and are connected to sou. she really doesn’t have her own identity outside of Sou (which is sad but like the writers are not really good at their job).

how all these different chars are always saying aloud how *good of a guy the 2nd ML is and that he never gets angry and takes care of tsumigi” and all that type of BS???????? and then the contradictory actions of those statments about him show a whole different story. Like he’s repeatedly a rude asshole to sou and he’s looking down on Tsumigi and telling her what she should do. and she does it, but then he also gets upset about that???????

and people better not give me the “2nd MLdoes it out of selfless reasons” crap because NO THIS MF DOESN’T. this MF shows again and again what an insensitive, childish, possessive, rude person he is. his whole “good vibes” are BS. IT’S ABOUT HIM HIM HIM and about no one else.

sou doesn’t even care about the 2nd ML the way the 2nd ML cares about him because in ep2 (sou’s POV) made it clear that once he found out about his loss he did not think of the 2nd ML, but only about how it could affect tsumugi. that’s established. so them pushing that male friendship in such a weird way into our faces for 2 whole eps makes no sense. and they don’t even have topics to talk to that’s not about tsumugi?????? were they really bffs in HS because it doesn’t look like it to me.

2nd ML is repeatedly harrassing/forcing sou into doing something he doesn’t want to do. he’s acting in a really insensitive way. 2nd ML doesn’t want to adjust to sou’s new situation and he showed that repeatedly so naturally sou shouldn’t have to deal with an ass like him, he has to deal with other stuff, he doesn’t need his ex bff to be such a jerk who’s saying shit like “nothing changed aside from you being deaf* LIKE HELLO???????????????? nothing changed????? NOTHING CHANGED????????????????🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

2nd ML treats tsumugi like shit too. the way he was like *let’s stay together, buy a house, you should do this so you feel better, do that too, you should try this, forcing her to do stuff she doesn’t want to do* AND THEN HAVING THE BALLS TO BE UPSET about it when she does do the thing he asked her to do????? he’s never asking her about what SHE WANTS? he didn’t even tell her about sou and his condition because he was the first to figure it out and was keeping it a secret and guess what? the minute she found out she told him. and the 2nd ml is upset about stuff that’s so redundant. because of his actions and words he’s also antagonising sou when it comes to his cricle of friends and with tsumugi’s brother.

i KNOW it’s a classic trope and all that but dating the girl that your bff dated before?????? sure sou told him he could date her and sou was a huge dick for that and yes there’s 2 to blame because tsumugi shouldn’t have picked the 2nd ml as her new bf but someone else but it’s soooooooooooooo creepy. big YIKES

the episodic arcs also don’t flow well anymore in ep3+4.

tralking about tsumigi??????? girl was so OOC in ep3 it was embarassing. the way they clearly established her char/personality in the first 2 eps and all that and in ep3 tried to downplay her love/devotion for sou down to the point she also made really really insensitive statements to him. I get that she’s hurt but sou was clearly telling her that they shouldn’t meet anymore because it’s awkward and she’s all hurt/upset about him wanting to draw a line and boundaries and instead she behaved really childish like *no wait a minute i don’t love you i love the other guy i only see you as a simple friend so don’t assume shit*?????????😑😑😑😑😑😑?????? so why the fuck is she hanging on to him from the moment they met again????? why is shedoing the most??? also she’s also kinda demanding way too much all at once. she wants her current bf and her ex bf to be friends again even tho they are in such a messy situation??????? ep3+4 was such a turn off i don’t even ship her with sou anymore that much like they really fucked it up badly for me. for now I’m only still watching it for sou but the way i need 4 fucking hours to finish a 45min ep because of so much shit that’s in there. aside from sou i don’t even wanna gif shit like I’m so turned off by it all.

this drama should have been about the leads and should have focused on them and everyone else should have been on the side and not taken center stage away from the leads. the spark is gone. nothing wrong about fmls being in a relationship but the way they executed this shit is just not it. 4 eps in and i don’t see them ending this in a satisfying way. should have put the fucking 2nd ML on that fucking poster big and center if it was about him. if ep 5 is as bad as ep3+4 I’m dropping this. so yes I’m really upset about ep3+4 and hope for the best but not really optimistic about it all. ep1+2 was sooooooooooooo beautiful and i loved it sooooooooooooooo much just for it to be like that. embarassing that i even made gifs and promoted it

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jaanusbooktalk · 2 years

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The Darkness Outside Us by Eliot Schrefer - Book Review

10/10⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫

TWs: death, violence, cancer, blood, vomit, war

(TWs are ranked in order of severity, please take them seriously - especially that death part)

Sometimes you read a book, and there’s a distinct before and after. Before I read The Darkness Outside Us, I was a person wholly removed from who I am now, in the After.

To be honest, I’m still reeling from everything that this book was. Is. At some point tonight I will cry about it for the eighth time. At some point I’ll add it to my Amazon shopping cart so I can buy my own copy instead of this crinkly plastic-covered (now tearstained) one. At some point I’ll call up my best friend to cry about it some more. At some point I’ll make a Pinterest board, a Spotify playlist, anything I can think of to help me capture and share exactly how this book makes me feel. Because I need to describe it to someone, even if that’s myself.

I don’t reread books, as a rule. The last books I reread were the Harry Potter series when I was nine. This is going to be the first book to change that rule. Before I start actually reviewing, I would like to formally apologize to my brother who had to listen to me sob over this book for the past three hours while he tried to play video games in our hotel room. I’m sorry (but not really).

Summary:

“Two boys, alone in space. Sworn enemies sent on the same rescue mission.

Ambrose wakes up on the Coordinated Endeavor with no memory of a launch. There’s more that doesn’t add up: evidence indicates strangers have been on board, the ship’s operating system is voiced by his mother, and his handsome, brooding shipmate has barricaded himself away. But nothing will stop Ambrose from making his mission succeed—not when he’s rescuing his own sister.

In order to survive the ship’s secrets, Ambrose and Kodiak will need to work together and learn to trust each other . . . especially once they discover what they are truly up against. Love might be the only way to survive.”

TL;DR - Have you seen Bananafish? Have you read They Both Die At The End? They have nothing on this. (The blurb was dumb so this is what y’all are getting 😭)

Edit one hour later-

Spotify playlist:

Pinterest board:

If you want emotional damage, listen to the playlist while reading 🤲🏼❤️‍🩹

There is a terrible lack of fanart and general fandomness about this book so the sole two pieces of quality fanart I could find:

And yes, I did talk to my bestie for two hours about this.

Let’s talk representation:

There’s only really two human characters in this book and it takes place thousands of years into the future, where there are only two countries: Fédération and Dimokratía. From this it’s difficult to identify the ethnicities of the characters. They are both queer, thought at this point in the future they don’t really use labels like “gay” or “pansexual”. Neither are white, which is clear from the cover and descriptions of the characters.

This means this section is shorter, but my one commentary on the rep is that Ambrose’s skin is described without food terms (aka caramel, coffee, etc) which yes, is the bare minimum, but also appreciated💘

Also I’m just happy that we get a gay love story about space where the main plot line is not the romance - it’s a thriller/mystery/sci-fi elements!

Edit: HAHHAHAHAHA my whole review past this point just got deleted I hate everything fml 😃😃 I was literally right in the last section too

*deep breath* we move on 😌🪷🧘🏽‍♀️

What I liked:

This is one of those books that’s really hard to review without major spoilers, so this section will also be short (since this is a spoiler free blog).

I loved how space was depicted in this book. The prose was beautiful and the story overall really renewed my faith in humanity and made me wonder about what makes us human.

I also loved how the characters grew, developed (and broke down), and how they reflected the hope we search for in the world & each other. There has never been a more fitting name for a book than The Darkness Outside Us, because Ambrose and Kodiak were the light for each other.

At the very beginning of the book there are two black pages, which I’ve put below:

It took me a while to get it.

On a space ship in the middle of endless nothing, the only indication Ambrose and Kodiak had that they were alive was each other. This was what kept them from going insane.

They only knew they existed because there was someone else to perceive them.

(You can see how this gave me an existential crisis now right?)

Ambrose also, understandably, has multiple existential crises throughout the book (because of the nihilistic tendencies in his personality 🧐?) as shown above.

Although I did rate this a 10, some people had some issues with it (that I realized after listening to a podcast review) that I wanted to acknowledge:

- suspension of disbelief

- Ambrose’s character at the beginning (a little self centered)

- too much space stuff & it was confusing at times

- the ending (redacted for obvious reasons but basically abrupt/random)

Note: the people who brought these up still rated the book 8/10 or 3.5/5 overall, despite what they disliked. I didn’t have any of these problems (aside from the Ambrose one which I attributed to deep seated self image problems) but everyone will read it their own way so I wanted to include them as a heads up!

Here is the link to the Spotify podcast review if you’re interested (be aware there are MAJOR SPOILERS!!!)

What brought it to a 10:

This book led me to ask some pretty big questions-

“Would I have done the same in their shoes? Would anyone?”

“If you could do it again would things be different?”

“What makes us human?”

“How do you know you exist?”

“What brings people together/what keeps them apart?”

“How much can people withstand before they go crazy?”

It’s a book that is sad, yes, but not in a way that you’ll regret reading it after. You’ll be grateful the universe (and maybe me 😉) helped put it in your hands.

Finally, I’ll let some random people (courtesy of Tik Tok comments sections) tell you what they thought:

“This book has ruined me and cured me and murdered me and hugged me all at once” -@ihathdroppedmycroissant

“I listened to the audiobook version and it had me sitting upright in my bed all night starting at the wall” [email protected]

“I just finished this and I’m still gasping for air” [email protected]

Do with this what you will.

I sincerely recommend to fans of:

They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera

Osamu Dazai (the author)

Simone de Beauvoir & Jean-Paul Sartre (poets/key figures in Existentialism)

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller

Psychology AKA why ppl do sh*t

Philosophy AKA why ppl do sh*t but fancy✨