#they can hate our home

[janebonbon]

Originally had the best idea for this and then realized I just made him look unintentionally queer and said "fuck it make the pose gayer"

#would you believe me if i told you I made this while being so high rn #Im so mad The one time I can do a fullbody of him is baked to the moon #of course thats the barnaby way isn't it #im never going to be able to figure out how to do a full body of barn again #barnaby b beagle #barnaby beagle #welcome home barnaby #welcome home #welcome home arg #welcome home fanart #welcome home fan art #dolly's art #our art #i hate tags #fanart

[studyblr-perhaps]

12/12/23 || Tuesday

I just have one more exam left and idk why I feel like it already has ended lmao. I am taking this day so easy as if the most exhausting course isn't having its finals tomorrow. Fun fact our prof had a stroke and had an open heart surgery and he came back to campus less than two months after the surgery????? He passed out and hit his head three days ago and had to get stitches but I have a morbid feeling he'll appear to invigilate for the exam tomorrow 💀.

#we hate the prof cause his exams are unsolvable #but mad respect for the bro ngl #he has two dogs at home and still comes to uni so that we can clear our doubts if we have any #studyblr #studying #studyspo #studyinspo #academia aesthetic #academia #aesthetic #misa's undergrad journey #physics #misa tries #study aesthetic #uni #stem #women in stem

[socialist-microwave-laser]

all israelis should simply go back home! it's fine! there's no reason for them to be in palestine! antisemitism actually doesn't exist and it's just an excuse made up by selfish rich money grubbing i mean conniving i mean duplicitous i mean colonizing white people who just wanted a third vacation home. all people that moved to eretz israel are secretly rich actually, and they're all lying about the pogroms, the forced conversions, the kidnappings, the torture, the murders, all the stuff they were "fleeing." it remains to be seen whether they control the media or possibly secret laser weapons in space, but my money's on yes!

#jumblr #medinas israel #gaza strip #i/h #anarchist #xenophobia tw #antisemitism tw #“simply... go back home” is a quote from mohammed zraiy with the one democratic state initiative #the bit about israelis owning multiple homes all around the world is from posters like thyrell radiofreederry and toad-underhill #the examples of things jews fled are all real reasons why jews fled to eretz israel #and my point about “white” people is bc that's just such a betrayal of ignorance about everything involved i'm not even gonna start lmao #even if you consider ashkenazim white which is a whole can of worms the most reliable data (which many people say is still too broad in its #definition of ashkie) says the % of population that's ashkie is 31.8% #no i do not support medinas israel. i hate the government and the government hates me. i'm an anarchist. i am not a zionist. i am #heartbroken and betrayed by everything that is happening in eretz israel and everything i and other jews are seeing our supposed friends say

[miodiodavinci]

the burnout is real lads . . . . .

#which is to say that i came home and just stared at the wall for roughly 2 hours instead of completing my documents #it was at least validating to get to talk to one of my coworkers today #and hear that they're just as burnt out as i am #and usually have to sit in the parking lot for 4 to 5 minutes before they come in because they just don't want to be here that badly #and it feels hard to admit because this is typically thought of as a passion driven profession #and it's like #neither of us have lost the passion for it??? #it's not that we hate our jobs #it's just that we both feel like. we're putting in increasingly more effort week by week but we're just. #no longer getting results. #i mentioned how i feel like my faith in my ability to do this kind of work has just plummeted to zero #not at all helped by my mentor constantly pushing me to go faster and faster but then getting mad when my presentations go poorly #because i went faster or reduced the amount of material or cut the Q and A section down 10 minutes #i just feel . . . . . tired . . . . . . . . . . . #i still need to write three planning documents for tonight #one of which needs to be Really Good because my direct supervisor will be looking at it #but my god #i just want to sleep for three days straight and then stare at a wall for another three #i'm so close to the end though . . . . . #just another 15 of these documents (including the three from tonight) and that about covers my internship #of course then there's also the seminar work and the group project and all the fancy official employment documents #and. the portfolio project (a man screams in agony) #but god . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . #once i'm free from the portfolio it's back to zola work and THEN . . . . . . . . . . #i can finally have a substantial mental health break for the first time since last may ;;; _____ ;;;

[greater-amaurot-polycule]

Scenes from the hypothetical Scumbag Caucus run of Shadowbringers, wherein through time travel shenanigans (???), our slacker heroes of the ancient world, Ariadne, Icarus @hermits-hovel, and Erasmos @azure-dragonsinger, end up in the First instead of the Warriors of Light. Or something. Mostly an excuse to piss off Emet-Selch. Panthea @whatsthisascianbullshit is also here, 15 minutes late with a frappe.

#everything is totally under control #'i hate you i hate your friends i hate this stupid shard-' #'i mean you can go home if you're not having fun' #anyway let them pet the Goode Boye eros #panthea #ariadne #icarus #erasmos #our collective oc emet selch

[sysig]

Did you expect Rescuing Rusty in 2023??? (RR is @zeejax‘s ♥) (Patreon)

Trick question! Even I wasn’t expecting Rescuing Rusty, but since it was up next on my fics to vet for construction, I had to give it a reread!

Didn’t it turn out lovely 💕 There’s not a lot of sky-related imagery in RR, but I couldn’t not go with this colour - it’s an even richer rust colour IRL :D

The spine ended up being big enough that I was able to sneak in two bookmarks! One for Zoom (the black) and one for Rusty (the red)

Even though they sit separately, Rusty’s still crosses over Zoom’s hehe ♥

#My art #Rescuing Rusty #Rusty #Zoom #They get a digital doodle since I was rereading while in the digital warmup mindset haha #They just barely snuck in! Good for them ♥ They are still good lads :) #Nowadays the miasma of positive feelings has gotten very fuzzy and indistinct but boy do I still remember how Big those feelings were lol #NPG good! EX good! NPG and EX being friends good!! #Rescuing Rusty is charming as always :) It's a snuggle-up kind of fic I just feel cozy thinking about and reading it ♪ #It's funny as well since I started rereading before picking out the cover - looking for which one would be the most thematic lol #And I ended up just reading a few chapters all at once 'cause I was having a good time with it! Oops reading lol #It was also an experiment >:3c Since out home printer is kinda ehhhh currently - the poor old thing haha - I took a trip to the library #Our local library allows up to 10 free greyscale prints a day so ♪ Slowly but surely I'd walk to the library and come back 10 pages richer #I've figured out how to take books out of the library and not have to return them! Libraries hate this one weird trick! #Lol ♪ #So yeah :D Other than the cover and the first page (since I hadn't figured if the library could use the Minecraft font yet - they can!) #This is a ''free'' printed book :D I mean - other than walking to and from the library and construction and ribbons lol #The guts of the book were paid with taxes lol ♫ #It was well worth it :) It's good to walk! #And I am happy to have it physically :D

[homeless202]

EY's reaction to finding out HJ used to steal as well when he was younger is so interesting.

How excited he was abt it:

From EY's pov, this straight A student he thought was perfect and never did a single wrong thing in his life, just confessed to having a criminal background. EY used to look down on HJ for his self-righteous and goody-two-shoes behavior. In his eyes, 'good' people like that don't last long bc they're 'sensitive' abt (in his eyes) insignificant stuff, and they often criticize and judge people like him too quickly. That's why he was so curious abt HJ and tried to figure him out, and why he pissed him off so easily. To him, it's a mystery how people like that still exist and manage survive.

One of EY's sources of frustration towards HJ was how EY thought, HJ thought, he (HJ) was better than him (EY) <- which was partially true, HJ did think "I'm miserable, but at least not as miserable as him". But HJ admitting he used to steal showed EY that HJ was not that much better than him. That he's not as stuck-up and 'holier-than-thou' than he previously thought. He had character.

After finding this out, EY gained a lot more respect for HJ. Especially after hearing his story abt how he managed to quit. HJ became a person EY could truly look up to that day.

#it's like. after hj admitted to stealing. him and ey finally were on equal footing. hj wasn't on a pedestal anymore as the good student #just a high school kid like ey. which made ey look up to him more bc: #'hey. this guy is just like me and look where he is. maybe i can get there too one day' #but ey doesn't believe he can actually get there seeing how he never planed on living past 20 #which is why he still keeps getting frustrated with him #and why HJ's words always hit hard when he fucks up -> the person you look up to tells u u can't change? ouch #THERE'S SO MUCH DEPTH HERE i think i'll pick this topic back up later in a new and more extensive post. i'll save the details for that #no home #no home manhwa #집이 없어 #webtoon #stealing arc #multipart #details #meta #eunyung baek #haejoon goh #ey hj parallels #what if i say my ability to read ey's character is bc i kin him? what then? will i become fish fodder? #i love-hate how similar our thinking patterns are

[merriadoc-brandyfuck]

Some of you haven’t cried while listening to Chords by The Amazing Devil and it shows

#GOD #YOUR LIFE BWGINS BY LEAVING AND OUR LOVE IS SHOWN IN THE LETTIBG GO #WE BUILT OUR CASTLE JUST TO WATCH THEM WASH AWAY #KNOW WELL ALWAYS LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOURE LEAVING US BEHIND #I went through a phase where I would listen to it for hours on end #I cried on a bus because it started playing #it’s so beautiful #I love this band so much #the amazing devil #YOU KNOW THEY LOVE YOU #BUT I RAGED #WE TRY #SO MUCH #YOU DID #BUT SO DID THEY #Madeleines Ah Bollocks #THEY MIGHT LAUGH BECAUSE YOUR LEAVING BUT NOONE WILL SING YOUR NAME WHEN YOU COME HOME #WELL BE ALL THAT YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELVES SO YOU CAN GROW #YOUR LIGE BEGINS BY LEAVING AND OUR LIVE IS SHOWN IN THE LETTIBG GO #WE WERE THE WINTER NIGHTS SO YOU COULD BE THE MORNING SNOW #Madeleine Hyland #Joey Batey #tad #Ruin #that album is so

[silenthillbunni]

📖🖊❄️

#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind #1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like #2) ​i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read #but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really #3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me. #everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored #and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing) #i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money #then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/ #ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is #im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything #4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it #everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :(( #i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it #5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them #except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/ #but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again. #i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333

[chelseahotel2004]

my personal philosophy is that every landlord ever should be painfully exploded into a million pieces. My landlord in particular

#our apartment is legally considered uninhabitable right now but he’s not answer our calls because he’s ‘on vacation’. i hope you die nick #we did a bit of digging on him and apparently he forcefully evicted all of his disabled tennants without due cause and raised the new rent #by $1000. they ended up living in tents on their lawns. can you imagine trying to go home and having all ur locks changed and told to #die on the streets. i hate this man so much. anyways.

[riahchan]

,

#I'm already having high anxiety and existential dread in general #on top of my health issues #and I had to have a meeting with 3 bosses today where they were cranky about nitpicky details #then my coworker mentioned working on her exit strategy from the school and I almost started crying #I don't blame her a bit because the admin at our school is terrible and I also hate it but I don't know what other job I can do #with my health that pays wellish and let's me work from home

[soldier-poet-king]

Woke up >:( and it's like. Oh I need to LEAVE. I need to ESCAPE. Not even just The Parents now but bro1 is making this house actively hostile to life with the way everyone has to tiptoe around his maybe breakup and moodiness and like sure he's not actively aggressive but why are all my routines and habits having to be altered so he can mope and be angry and moody and sad and become an alcoholic and possibly give himself an ED because we can't just sit him down and have a normal human conversation nooo bc he's the favourite child and therefore we just have to wait and deal until he's *ready* on his own. Which has not happened in his entire 23 yrs of life. But y'know. I can keep waiting ig.

Like yes yes pot and kettle when it comes to moodiness. But I See Doctors. I take Meds. I take Responsibility for My Actions and develop Coping Skills and Apologize and Don't Take It Out on other people. I actually CARE abt people other than myself and how my actions impact them, even if they're ppl I don't like or who have hurt me before.

#also when My morning routines are altered. brain scream #but no i can just cope with active mental distress from diagnoses brain disease #so the bitchy little baby can mope and stay out all night drinking vome home and puke and then be a bitch #when he has to go to work at 6am #like ues i feel bad i liked his gf hes sad #but also. like. not to be like well hes apathetic and selfish and callous but ... #he also made a joke abt abortion at dinner yesterday bc our 16yr old cousin is expecting #and it was so awful??? she WANTS this kid??? #ugh ugh ugh ugh #i have a horrible strained relationship with each of my brothers #but each one is a different flavour of bad or dysfunctional #and this one. this one. i cant even get into it. #i love my brother. i need a shovel to love my brother #my parents both complain abt their adult child younger siblings #and then like. trear bro 1 like this which will make him become an adult manchild #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #truly. i need to fuckin move out. i need it #ill lose free food and rent monies and free laundry and utilities and ooen backyard garden space #but oh my god the emotional toll this is taking on constantly tiptoeing peacekeeping #IM FORCED INTO LYING BY OMISSION. I HATE LYING. IT MAKES ME WANT TO DIE. #franposting #we're supposed to share a car all summer and commute together sans our father #i might just take the bus. even tho i have to leave almost an hour earlier #i don't trust him. or his moods. esp when mildly hungover at 6am. and without our father there to moderate? #this sounds horrible but im a little afraid. (plus i cant be late everyday all summer bc of him) #like. once again. fuck me. i am the ONLY responsible child and i get so much shit

[dirt-str1der]

just wanna say im obsessed with your mind and i read your posts about kiryu like the morning paper. thank you for your service

(Sweats) e-even the ones about him laying eggs ?

#Thanks for the ask ! #HIIIIII thank you for reading my posts im really a serial rambler so that is no easy feat. i just had a lowkey nightmare that was insect #based so its nice to think about different kinds of eggs once in a while. sorry for the eggs i just learned the word gravid and i cant stop #saying it !!! i literally opened tumblr to make another post about kiryu i was gonna say he was probably antisocial in his childhood which #is really a miracle any girls managed to notice him at all. and i believe that he was very dismissive of his clothing and appearance because #you know when youre young and trans and havent realised it but you just randomly hate everything about your appearance and dont even knowwhy #i think his hair was always too long and too shaggy and he would let nishiki comb it sometimes because he really could not stand his mane #and sometimes when it gets wayy too long and shitty the sunflower caretaker would drag him outside and just cut a chunk of it off with a #knife and kiryu would have shoulder length hair for a little while... anyway i need to give him a little girlfriend like how rikiya had one #when he was in school because all trans guys need a little girlfriend or an all girl group of friends to be his girlfriends when hes a kid #so he can carry their shopping bags and wait for them outside the changing room etc and kiryu cant resist a girl so he gets a letter from #nishiki and he tells him yeah this is probably a prank to have you wait there for hours or there might be guys waiting to ambush you and #beat the crap out of you. and kiryus like Nobody beats the crap out of me except our dad. and goes to meet this girl and he actually agrees #to go out with her and this is the thing that keeps him in school because otherwise he would literally not go. like hed walk with yumi and #nishiki and the rest of the kids at sunflower that he doesnt care about to remember the names of. and he would just wave them off at the #gate and wander the town in his school uniform and then after school he’ll meet nishiki and possibly yumi at the gate (yumi probably makes #other friends but its a Must to walk nishiki home because he’ll get lonely) and when kiryu starts going out with this girl hes obligated to #walk her home so he already broke rule one but nishikis like happy for him But he has to walk home with some other random guys now and #eventually theyll broach the topic of ‘his psycho sister’ and nishiki literally has to beat a few guys up to defend kiryus honour and when #he comes back with news of how unpopular kiryu is with the rest of the guys because he looks better with short hair than they do and has a #girlfriend whos super cute. kiryu is just like damn did you commit social suicide to protect my honour? youre my best friend. but whatever #kids get over it fast. but parents dont!! and kiryu walks his girlfriend right to her front door and soon enough her parents are going to #find out that the boyfriend she keeps gushing about is a girl and straight up take her out of school to make her stop being gay and kiryus #like but ... im a boy ... punches the ground and screams to the sky. anyway enough about dysphoria simulator im here to talk about this guy #when hes a bit older because im salivating and shaking over the thought of his bootyass rip kiryu you woulda loved thongs. i think hed hate #ripped jeans but only because he thinks theyre a waste of manufacturing. its literally better for the world that kiryu decided 2 transition #because can you imagine if she was a girl and needed to wear a bra? like she would literally have an itchy back all the time which would #give her a hair trigger temper which means kamurocho a&e room will be very healthily plush indeed. god my battery is dying i need to take a #shower noww anyway really thank you for the nice message you are so sweet ... hi ...

[procrastinationaccount]

I'm going to lose my fucking mind

#For context: I was going to make a post complaining about how lesbians don't have enough good musical theater duets #(like we have the love songs from 'The Color Purple' which're alright but doesn't match the passion or desperation present in the book imo #'Changing My Major' which is a great love song but doesn't hit that sweet duet spot #'Dance With You' and the last verse of 'You Happened' from The Prom are sweet but the girls barely get to actually sing about each other #Honestly 'Oh Well' from Love In Hate Nation comes closest to what I want but it ends on a bittersweet note unless you see the show live #If only Elphaba and Glinda were canon... #But anyway. I can't believe that there's an adaptation of The Color Purple coming in the year of our lord 2023 and this is #how they're talking about Shug Avery. Her *role model*. Lock up your *husbands*. Ick. Pfaff. #I mean they're going to be gay. You can't get around that. But Shug is the love of her life. Can we please talk about that in the character #Don't mind me I'm just over here overreacting #From what I've read one of the biggest adaptational changes in the musical is her reaction to Shug's affair. #Like in the book Shug is the one light in her life. I sobbed myself to sleep over her nosedive in self-worth when they took a break #In the musical she's just...fine with it? I get why that's more satisfying emotionally but I still think it undermines their relationship #I don't get the curse thing either. I'm a little fuzzier on this part but in the book doesn't she just leave him and she's able to thrive? #Then when he asks her to get back together she's able to just know that the worst with Shug or alone is better than the best with him? #This book man. I hate that there isn't an adaptation as devoted to the Celie/Shug relationship as the book is. #Hate that the only recommendation I've seen calling it a sapphic book was from someone who thought that Celie's letters were to her lover #I remember watching this steamy adaptation of a Shakespeare play in soph Eng and seething because they only kiss once in the 1985 movie #Ig I can't expect too much from 1985 but...it was in the book! It was one of the most important parts! They don't even live together in it! #This was all to say I wast a lesbian 'Green Green Dress' a lesbian 'Home' a lesbian 'Natasha & Anatole' a lesbian Legally Blonde finale #The list goes on #I'm sure The Color Purple (2023) will be a good adaptation and movie. I will not pop blood vessels while watching it. #Maybe I should just avoid press releases and the movie will surprise me in a good way.

[sugdenlovesdingle]

i texted my cousin asking if she wanted to go see the love actually 20th anniversary with me on friday or saturday FOR FREE for my birthday

her: sounds fun but i'm busy

me: ok when aren't you busy then? we'll go another time. i can get free tickets until december 31st.

her: *no answer*

#i know she has two kids that she can't just leave home alone #but come on #a night out to the fucking cinema?? #in our city #for free #these kids have a dad #that they spend every other weekend with #surely she can work something out with him #i'd ask my friend who i always go see shows and stuff with #but she lives in another city #and trains between there and here are a bitch this weekend #i guess it's just going to be me #and my animals #again #just like last year #and people wonder why i hate this time of year