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blindmagdalena · 11 months
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really obsessed with soulmate au’s recently and it got me thinking… what if john’s soulmate was part of the boys? a girl trying to kill him with an entire group of people also trying to kill him… and he’s fated to her? could picture him finding out and just putting his hands on his hips while turning his back to her and doing that click chuckle thing. just in utter disbelief but it is definitely on track for fate’s little play with him and his life lolol
Oohhh, you know, I've never played much with the soulmate au concept, but this struck me just right because I can so clearly see the slow, building meltdown that strikes him when that reveal drops.
The mirthless laugh, shaking his head, the hapless gesture to the ceiling before his hands drop. "Of course. Of course it's you. Why wouldn't it be? I mean—Christ, it makes sense, doesn't it? Every single person who was supposed to love me has-has fucked it, so why—" he keeps cutting into this escalating, unsettling laughter. There's nothing funny about it: you're sure that you're watching someone lose the last shred of their sanity in real time. "Why would my 'soulmate'-", he says, miming big, dramatic quotation marks. "-be any different?" That manic grin has shifted into tight baring of his teeth, a vicious sneer. He closes in on you, stands so near you can feel the heat of his breath when he hisses, "I should put you in the fucking dirt with the rest of them."
It should be terrifying, but it's hard to focus on anything other than the glassiness of his eyes. The sheer devastating heartbreak of it all, telegraphed clear as day in the way he carries himself. His eyes flare red, sizzling up the tears before they can fall. "And then you really will be all alone," you say. Maybe it's the hopelessness of the moment, maybe it's the shock of learning for yourself that he's supposed to be your one and only, but you feel numb. Frayed in a way you didn't know you could be. The crimson light of his eyes disappears in an instant, revealing surprise, followed by a wounded kind of look, before that familiar seething rage returns. "We'll see about that."
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dutybcrne · 29 days
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Imagine if the remaining Khaenri'ahns, due to the influence of the curse or affliction of Abyssal energy they've been exposed to are able to see like. Warped visions of their old comrades/people via the leylines or in domains from first glance, where it would take others direct exposure or even special abilities to even begin to see them-
#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//Kae as a kid seeing like. Spectres hanging around a domain and being creeped out#//Meanwhile bby!Luc is nonethewiser and happily tromping on over to pat the door of the domain to Prove he ain't scared of NOTHIN#//Kae trying not to scream and pull Luc away as he unknowingly makes the spectres part around him (bc his Vision) on his way#//Kae finally breaking through his terror and rushing forward to wrench Luc away when the spectres start acting weird and crowding him#//Cringing as he can almost feel them touching his head; whispering abt his role as Khaenri'ahs last hope while Luc yells at him#//Kae; older now; going to that same domain & being almost greeted by Them as he heads inside to investigate just What was going on there#//Getting a NASTY slew of Visions and torments bc he was WHOLLY unprepared for what they were tryna show him#//Dainsleif being Haunted by all the spectres in the Chasm; seeing shadowy figures everywhere he looks/walks#//Stalking him; whispering to him; calling his name; his title; begging for mercy; to be Saved; when he can scarcely do so for himself#//Bc that Abyssal device drained the HELL out of him; and with it amplifying the energy afflicting him; he can almost make out the faces#//Of each and every shadowy spectre coming at/near him. Can almost SEE the tormented faces of the Husks as they Challenge him#//Of HIS comrades; HIS people; hearing their dying; agonized screams through the agony of the Abyss's corruption#//The more affliction with Abyss energy; the clearer yet more Gruesome the images get#//As if it was always TEMPTATION in order to get the person to corrupt themselves more with it all along#//Baiting the person with things they can be intrigued by; be Desperate enough to seek out; feel GUILTY of and try to 'save them'#//Only to end up Ruined themselves when they fall far too deep into its clutches-#//Eh; idk where I was going with this lmao#//An attempt at horror plottings perhaps#//I do miss being able to fully; tho got a lil practice running Boo.thill hcs
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brainrotdotorg · 1 year
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The reason I don’t make a lot of very insightful posts about studying characters and the world they’re in is because I don’t know enough about jean everything I have to say about Harry and Kim has already been said I feel like I don’t have as much to say about the student communists because I am a bad communist who hasn’t done any of the required reading (lmao) my only thoughts on the RCM as an institution arent very well-developed (and also are through an American bias of what police are like rather than how they exist in Elysium) and I don’t know fucking. ANYTHING about the innocentic system.
But I sure can tell you a lot about the skills and piss/fuck. Which isn’t actually a lot but boy I can tell you
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lavaheadaddy · 2 months
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im on my hands and knees pound my hand on the ground for Jekyll and Hyde to set me free from its clutches
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I bring bad news everyone 😔😔
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ddanmeissu · 2 years
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i need someone i can yell at about my very niche tma au ;w;
(see me playing fast and loose between tma lore and mdzs canon under the cut wheeee~)
this is part headcanon, part drabble, all-around mess. just dont think too hard about it please
the classification of each entity isn’t fully documented yet, smirke’s 14 doesn’t exist, but each major clan has a specific fear that called their founders. there are also some entities haven’t been identified yet so a lot of fears bleed into each other 
they’re still cultivators here. they’re cultivating fear.
golden cores are the physical manifestation of your connection with your god within your body. the more you feed it, the more connected you are to your patron, the more powerful you become.
each clan is a powerhouse to a specific entity but their disciples can be touched by multiple entities (and honestly, i cant make everyone a slaughter avatar) only the sect leader needs to be fully devoted to their fear god
Gusu Lan = Beholding, Qinghe Nie = Slaughter, Yunmeng Jiang = Hunt, Lanling Jin = Stranger, and Qishan Wen = Desolation
wei wuxian was once heavily touched by the hunt. his mother a famous Huntress and rogue cultivator and his father a servant and close friend to the sect of The Everchase
jiang cheng’s Hunt core is slightly weaker but its fine because they are of the same pack. they are partners, brothers in everything but blood, and will hunt down anyone who dares to hurt the other.
jiang yanli isn’t an avatar, not marked by the hunt but touched by the Hive, manifesting more on the love/belonging and family aspect rather than the filth aspect
i have more Thots about the family aspects between hive/hunt and how they are both very possessive on who they call their Persons but expresses it different ways that mirror jyl and jc but that’s for a different post
during their time in the cloud recesses they meet a quiet watcher who wwx immediately zones in on him as his new “prey”.
lan wangji is silent and knowledgeable as is expected from a disciple of the beholding, but there is a certain chill around him that other eye avatars do not have
wwx stalks the poor boy, pounces on him whenever he manages to catch him alone, and is just a general disturbance all-around.
he does not feel the Eyes that sometimes watch him when he is alone.
lan xichen does not need the beholding’s power to see the way his brother looks at the young hunter disciple. he is pleased to feel the cold surrounding the jingshi has lessened. shufu seems perplexed and torn.
wwx’s also has his eye on jin zixuan, the pompous plastic peacock that’s engaged to his shijie. he isn’t actually allowed to hunt him down so he settles on dismembering the lifeless mannequins that he uses as servants.
(playing with the timeline here) they get kicked out when a text is destroyed within the Library Pavilion even though it was just a pornography book (any kind of knowledge is still knowledge) and even though it was lwj who destroyed it (the eye had punished him severely for that).
the desolation!wen are attempting to bring The Scourged Earth into the world. they burn down the cloud recesses “in the name of ‘cleaning up the place’ so that it would be ‘reborn from the firelight.’” ( - directly from the mdzs wiki)
the xuanwu of slaughter is an ancient manifestation of, well, the slaughter and cannot be reasoned with.
(”Lan Zhan, can you See anything?” “No. My connection with The Beholding has been greatly severed.” “Oh. well.. Uh, it’s kinda foggy in here huh? Here have my outer robe, you look kinda cold.” “…Mn.”)
lotus pier burns and jiang cheng loses his core. wwx asks flesh!wen qing for help because only an avatar of the flesh (the boneturner, though that isn’t its name yet) is able to carve open another avatar long enough to take something out and place it somewhere else.
jiang cheng immediately becomes a fully-fledged avatar using wwx’s hunt-influenced core. it manifests as strong bloodlust against the wens, fear of being seen as weak prey by the other clans, (and later, hunting down wwx and other end-aligned cultivators.)
wwx gets thrown in the burial mounds. he is dead for three whole months. and then he wakes up.
his hunter core is gone but that’s fine. he is alive not because he wants to but because he has to. when he is awake, he calls upon the dead to exact his revenge. the wens are defeated and everyone is in frightened awe of the new being that he has unwillingly become. when he is asleep, black tendrils of death plague his dreams. He relives the horrible memories of his own and others’ deaths. sometimes he can feel someone watching him but cannot see them in return.
wei wuxian is alive but he is not part of jiang cheng’s pack anymore. he does not follow them out on hunts anymore, doesn’t even bother to stay within the residences. he isn’t part of their pack anymore, abandoned their patron for something else more powerful, and for what? he feels resentment brewing inside him. resentment and fear.
wwx knew not to trust the polished and waxed faces of the jins. all the wen remnants are non-avatars, barely touched by anything other than the fear the jins had instilled by themselves. they do not deserve this cruelty, to be both entertainment and livestock for the rest of the cultivation world. it is true that death comes for everyone, but wwx will not let these people die at the hands of these strangers.
the wens become touched by the End during their stay in the burial mounds. wen ning, with flute music playing in his head, wins an archery game against Death and finally wakes.
 one day a cold mist surrounds yilling when wwx takes a-yuan out on a stroll. He loses him but finds him again clinging to a man in white robes that looks like he wants to disappear. wwx feels himself smile brightly at the sight. (”lan zhan! it’s so nice to see you again! It’s been so cold out today but luckily it’s warmer now!” “Mn.” “You really blend in with the fog with those white robes of yours. it’s okay though because i’m sure i can find you wherever you disappear to!” “Mn.”)
qiongqi path becomes a massacre of plastic mannequins and not!beings. the smell of death and manufactured flesh fill the air like an offering to his unwanted patron, and black tendrils surround wwx and his assailants. It blinds him and he can’t see it, can’t control it, can’t stop it as jin zixuan is pierced through his chest and falls to the ground, dead.
the clans are outraged. they speak in fear of him, they hear of his power over life and death and that he, like the wen fugitives by his side, is trying to bring about his patron into the world. they call for an attack, a bloodbath to take him down once and for all.
and a bloodbath it is. the entire cultivation world against a one-man army. fear rings high in the air and all the Entities are well fed in the aftermath, the most satisfied: Slaughter and (paradoxical to their intent) The End.
later, much later, when the siege is over and nothing is left of his anchor other than a small child marked by death, lwj accepts the punishment lashes and then goes into cold seclusion. the jingshi is completely covered by clouds of fog. no one can See him, the elders only get a debilitating headache when they try to pry too hard. not even lxc, who has become the Eye’s most devoted avatar, can know his brother’s whereabouts. only lan yuan seems to able to navigate through the dense gloom.
the world moves on
jin guangyao’s wide smiles are not conspicuous within the plastic faces and painted lips within lanling jin. If his limbs are too long or if his smile a bit distorted or if he disappears through a bright yellow door and doesnt come back then no one makes mention of it.
No one also notices the webs above them hidden in the high ceilings of lanling jin nor the tiny spiders that skitter around the gossiping servants, spinning and weaving threads of thick silk around them.
it takes years for his brother to come out from the fog and lxc nearly weeps at the knowledge that The Lonely had not forsaken another member of his family. still, lwj has changed. there is a certain chill around him now that persists wherever he goes. though he has always been silent since childhood, his silence now is cold and unfeeling, eyes faraway as if not seeing those around him and only floating through the days. He is not completely alone though and that is enough to alleviate some of xichen’s worries. 
time abates some wounds but certainly not all. there is still an empty cold pit in lwj’s chest but it does not bleed as freely as it did 10 years before. Before, he would have readily disappeared into the fog when the elders comes to look for him, now he chooses to disappear from the cloud recesses and absconds into night hunts. he goes wherever the chaos is, seeking (but not willing to hope) that he might find something that can stir the deadness in his heart.
tbc ?
#rotating this au hard and fast in my mind's eye#i actually dont know the overlap between the mdzs and tma fandoms but im just assuming there isnt much ???#i kinda got too into it at the end there i didnt know where to stop lmao im sorry im pulling all of this outta my ass dskfjhkdhfk#i still have so many Thoughts for this au and cute lil scenes between these avatar fledgelings#i promise its not all Angst its just that lonely!lwj is a very good source of inspo#is this a fix it? maybe. maybe not.#on one hand i want everyone (except jgs and zixun) to love and be happy#on the other hand lonely!lwj is the entire reason why i thought of this au in the first place#according to the wiki the chinese name for cloud recesses means 'somewhere unknown deep in the clouds'#which is Peak Lonely vibes but i didnt find that out until after i wrote this oops#beholding!gusu lan is staying tho bc i love lonelyeyes!lwj hehe#i almost wrote an entire backstory in the tags about madame lan and how wangji inherited her Loneliness dhsdfkhd#i'll write that on a different post this one is long enough#LANLING JIN IS STRANGER ALIGNED BECAUSE THEY'RE ALL CLOWNS#i was thinking of jzx being replaced by a not!them after qiongqi ambush but hmmm maybe thats for another au hmmmm many thoughts#funfact! in MAG113 decker mentions that only a Hunter can kill an avatar of the End so. do what you will with that knowledge :)#OH HEY I JUST REMEMBERED WWX TOLD LWJ TO 'GET LOST' WHEN LWJ TRIED TO SAVE HIM DURING THE FIRST SEIGE JUST BEFORE HE DIED SO :))))#MY LONELY!LWJ HEADCANON IS GOING STRONG#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#should i tag this as tma? nah#anyways here just take this
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kanona56 · 2 years
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So in doing historical research for Of Infinite Night, one of the things I really wanted to figure out was what Philip's exact ethnicity would be. We all know he's Nigerian but Nigeria itself has MANY subgroups of people, all with their own culture. I spent days looking into it and came to the conclusion that Philip is of Igbo descent.
How did I come to this conclusion, you say? Well, allow me to explain. Prepare for a lesson fellas.
As I said, there are many different tribes in Nigeria but the three dominant ones are: Igbo, Yoruba and Hausa-Fulani.
Igbo:
Educated and hardworking people
Typically more focused on constant improvement
More involved with businesses and more "advanced" jobs
Eager to travel from their community and strive for bigger and better things
Majority Christian.
Hausa-Fulani:
Not generally as focused on higher education
Rural and are generally farmers or marketplace workers
Tend to stay within their community with little interest in leaving what they know behind.
Highly value religious beliefs
Majority Muslim.
Yoruba:
Kind of a mix of the other two
Can be both highly educated or content to stay in their community
Religious belief can vary but they are generally more aligned with the Igbo people
This tribe wasn't very involved in the Biafra War, so I didn't look too much into them and safely ruled them out as an ethnic group Philip could be.
The following is a very general rundown of historical events. There's definitely more nuance in what happened in this war, so just be aware of that as I go into this.
The Conflict
The Biafran War (Nigerian Civil War) mainly happened due to a power imbalance in Nigeria when the country was released from British control. The British, predictably, did not take into account the different tribes and their political and religious beliefs, and so they gave the Hausa-Fulani most of the government power without much forethought or even an attempt for a fair system for Nigeria to choose their own leaders. This caused an uproar for the Igbo people, who as the generally more "educated" people, are well aware of the issues at hand. They felt like they deserved better representation and control over the Nigerian government over the Hausa-Fulani.
It's important to note that it was very likely that the Hausa-Fulani were predominantly Muslim, and so their rule would not align well with other ethnic groups at all. This is the root of the issue that the Igbo people had with the Hausa-Fulani having most of the government at their fingertips.
The Igbo people would eventually attempt to mitigate the Hausa-Fulani's governmental power by assassinating a number of Hausa-Fulani representatives and attempting to place Igbo people there instead. Of course, this would cause another uproar and would fast track both tribes into what would become the Nigerian Civil War. The Igbo, who lives majority in the south, would attempt to secede from Nigeria. They called themselves Biafra.
The actual war actually took place in the northern parts of Nigeria, which is where the Hausa-Fulani people were and still are dominant. We know from Philip's tome that he was living right in the middle of the war when it was happening. Or was he?
The Anti-Igbo Progroms
In 1966, the Hausa-Fulani would commit a progrom against the minority Igbo people in the northern territory. An organized genocide against their opposing tribe. The actual war didn't start until a year later in this area when Biafra in the south would attempt to push back.
Now, in Philip's tome, there's a piece of dialogue that confirms a few things to me:
Endless stories of death, destruction and mayhem. He didn't understand any of them.
"They hate us. Why? Why do they hate us?"
"Because the radio and the television tell them to."
"What did I ever do to them?"
"You were born in newly created Nigeria, that's what you did. You were born a Northerner!"
Philip asks why he's hated, and the answer he's given is that he was born in newly created Nigeria as a Northerner. So... that would sound like he's Hausa-Fulani right off the bat. Right?
Well, let's remember what we know of Philip in general:
He likes chess and math.
He thinks analytically
Throughout the tome we can discern that he's a critical thinker
His grandmother consistently attempts to keep Philip focused on educational things like his math and chess
We can assume through what we read going through Philip's thoughts while all this is happening that Philip is actually an incredibly sharp, smart boy. He's not stupid, he knows what's happening. He questions it and ponders on it.
Eventually, Philip would manage to leave Nigeria entirely, and as his base lore so elegantly says right off the bat:
Philip Ojomo came to this country without anything than hope for a new beginning.
Which tribe aligns the most with all of these traits?
The Religious References
There's talk from Philip's adoptive mother Funanya over this "Angel of Death" vs "Angel of Mercy". At first glance, we can assume this to be references to what might be tribal beliefs. Traditional entities. I don't think so, though. I think these angels are a cultural flair to what we're all pretty familiar with in our own worlds.
The Angel of Death is the devil. Satan.
The Angel of Mercy is the lord. God.
In other words, I think these are just another label for Christian entities. Take a look at how Philip and Funanya speak of them.
Tome 4 - Conviction: Algebra of Infinite Night
Philip hears his grandmother's voice. "Death plus destruction equals good business for devils disguised as humans."
Philip grinds his teeth and answers the disembodied voice, "They should all be killed... those who pay for murder and those who profit from murder...!"
Funanya stares at him. "Philip... don't say such things... they are trying to take our humanity from us and that is the one thing they cannot take unless we give it to them!"
Philip feels his face harden, "I don't want a sermon. I want my family back. I want them to pay for what they did!"
Funanya puts a hand on his shoulder, "Pray to the Angel of Mercy that we survive so that we may bear witness!"
Philip stares past her at the growing night, "I'd rather pray to the Angel of Death and watch them suffer. Forgive, and be forgiven. I can't! I hate them! How can they take money to do such things?"
"There will be justice, Philip. They will not get away with their crimes!"
Philip doesn't say anything. He doesn't say anything because like his father he believes that those with money, those who can afford killing crews and the quantities of kerosene required to burn humans by the thousands, can get away with any crime they choose to commit - even mass murder. She can pray for mercy all she likes. He'd rather pray for vengeance.
Talk of sermons, prayer, atonement and forgiveness. For me, this has a lot of Christian undertones. What do you think?
Also, after looking up her name, I have learned that Funanya means "love" in Igbo.
The Conclusion
With everything I have pointed out here, I think it is safe to say that Philip is ethnically Igbo.
He was among the unfortunate population of innocent Igbos living in Hausa-Fulani territory during the political mayhem which would turn into a war.
He's a Northerner in newly created Nigeria - in other words, a northern Igbo boy in the new Nigeria released to and ruled by the Hausa-Fulani. That's why he was hated. That's why his people were dying and being killed around him. Philip not only lived through this awful war, but was also a victim to a genocide of his people. He survived the killing crews of the anti-Igbo progrom in 1966.
TLDR: Philip is Igbo guys. Thanks for listening to my Ted talk. 🥲👍
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narwhalandchill · 2 months
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85 surgically implanted psychiatry degrees and still lost the fight against clinical depression and existential nihilism day 1. everyone point and laugh please
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birchbow · 1 year
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Do you have any set thoughts as to what happened in PoF vs Homestuck Canon? Like... did sburb not exist? I feel like dreambubbles still do, 'cause imo that explains gamzees dream with Sufferer. I just wanted to know bc beforus trolls kind of set the ball rolling for alternia history to happen, but that was still through sburb, wasnt it? Hell idk, it's been Years since ive re read homestuck and I aint abt to start now lmao
Hmmmm this is somewhat spoilery territory but also hard to bring across in-fic because it pertains to the meta-concept of this fic being an AU so I suppose I'll just lay some cards out on the table!
SO: the POF universe has some blurry edges overlapping with canon but overall is I suppose best explained in the original comic's context as a doomed timeline? Just in the sense that like..... Okay, example. The historical seer or prophet who started the cult of flesh saw visions of two godly-powerful beings, one red and one green, one raging and one mirthful, bound into physical flesh and raised by a purpleblooded troll with the symbol Makara. In my head, whoever started that cult was in a similar boat as the Signless, except they saw flashes of SGRUB and Gamzee raising Caliborn and Calliope. What they saw was real! In another universe hardly connected to theirs, which would never come to pass in their timeline.
Similarly: the Signless still saw visions of Beforus, still started his rebellion, still got killed the same way, but in this universe there's no time loop. He both was and wasn't created by SGRUB, because he can't have been created without it, but in this universe SGRUB didn't exist. In a sense, I have invaded this universe like Lord Fucking English and snipped the time loop off to hold in my grubby little hands lmao. Signless was no longer created by the game! He was created by me. I am paradox space now. The demon is already here.
All this to say, Gamzee's Signless dream was not actually a dream bubble per se. More a combination of the previously-established Makara ability to dream up semi-real beings with individual will and personality, combined with the elixir Gamzee was forced to drink, combined with the Signless's status as a Seer, specifically of Blood--I don't really intend to make it explicit what amount of Kankri is still extant, or if it's just an especially intense and lingering dream! Dream bubbles are not jossed in the PoF universe but I'm also not willing to sign off on that being the sum total of what's going on in that scene, haha.
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thankstothe · 10 months
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House driving a car into a house is a metaphor to represent his self-destructive tendencies. How easily walls broke speak to the fragility of his mental state. And the fact thats its a living room shows us what he thinks about that concept.
Not 100% sure tho, still working this theory, need something more substantial to confirm
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reigningmax · 9 months
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29 yrs old and your reading comprehension is so bad :( read that quote again and tell me where did charles implied checo has a different car or that rb is sabotaging him? that question was made by plenty of other people given perez flop season in that rocketship? Even max was asked that question and his answer was v similar to this one that charles gave.
Not everything is an attack to max, especially that, it's silly coming from you, also the i love charles but bit is so funny might as well not say it at all!
oh no how will i ever survive that an anon didn't understand what I was saying!
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mustangs-flames · 1 year
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HTB adult Mark's new anxious/nervous tic is rubbing at the scars on his face whenever he's stressed. Like, legit rubs at them until the surrounding skin turns red. It's been so bad at times that Thatcher has had to actually grab Mark's hand and physically pull it away from his face.
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theageofsims · 6 months
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William's maker (well -- sort of. Game wise, I am, lmao.)
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eisthenameofme · 6 months
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I have Got to stop leaving random enamel pins face down on my floor
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eeunwoo · 8 months
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#actually also#I was thinking abt this bc I can’t sleep and like.#u guys prolly remember my bestie m///ika and I’ve never talked abt it properly but like#we were best friends for abt 6y before she ghosted me bc of a new boyfriend (army guy which is already 🤢 but yeah)#and like before she ghosted officially she basically met another group of girls and a guy online and they all have regular meet-ups and#hang out. which is fine. but it’s such a slap in the face bc they’re like. all rich lol#like they say they’re not but if u can afford regular trips across the country. hotels and restaurants and parties. u are rich#and I already know she’s rich but yeah I thot our friendship kinda looked over class status lmao#but to see her make friends strictly w rich people and suddenly forget all her morals re other stuff has been. hard on me to deal w frankly#I unfollowed her on all socials bc it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that she ghosted me even tho I asked her a few times to just tell#me if she doesn’t want to be my friend anymore. bc I saw it coming bc when she made other friends and got the new bf she started pulling#away. and I know ppl grow apart but we never really did. she just decided I wasn’t good enough. completely out of the blue decided to stop#answering my messages. idk#my trust issues skyrocketed since then#we were so close I was supposed to teach in the usa and we were gna move in together like it was that deep#and yeah idk. I think abt it every so often bc. it’s upsetting#like#I thought she cared abt me lmao but#I guess I’m basically only good to make ppl feel good abt themselves and then if anyone else comes along I immediately get ditched#it’s an awful existence to have#mrow.org
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