#this was in my drafts since two days

[thefreeblog]

We know baby, we know.

So let's talk about this scene, shall we?

Lets analyse the best Vegas Pete scene we got so far.

Here we see Vegas has just taken care of Pete after having a little panic about him dying. He looks lost and vulnerable here. Pete notices his bruises. Probably Pete knows what has happened, who else is going to hit Vegas here? But he still gives Vegas the agency to tell him if he wants to. So he asks-

Pete: What happened to you?

And as expected Vegas speaks up.

Vegas: My papa just left. He scolded me because I suck. I suck at everything I do. Well, I deserved that. Whatever I do, I can’t seem to beat your boss.

Vegas here does not stop after just saying that his dad beat him up, but he explains why his dad did it. He genuinely thinks he deserved the beating. For him its obvious that since he can't win over Kinn, what else his dad supposed to do? He thinks his dad was right here. Then Pete asks-

Pete: Why do you have to compare?

Pete does not contradict Vegas here or questions him that why he thinks he deserved it. (Probably he himself has had this exact battle with hemself in the past, he understands what Vegas must be thinking ). So he goes for the reasoning behind it, he asks Vegas why you have to win over Kinn, why does it matter? And Vegas replies with this -

Vegas: Everyone just knows that I’m Vegas, from the minor family. Always under the main family.

Pay attention to what he says. He talks about the Family feud, which was his dad's to start with. He never says he hates the main family or Kinn. He thinks or has been groomed to think that as the heir of the minor family its his battle too. He thinks thats the way he can get his dad to love him. By winning what his dad never won. And Pete catches on it instantly and then he says this-

Pete: Everyone has the good and bad part. You’re doing it for your papa, that makes you a good son doesn’t it?

Here he tries to show Vegas that he is doing what his dad has asked him to do, so that makes him a good son already. That should be surely enough right? Its such a smart move of Pete to make the point subtly that the fault is not yours if you fail. You can see Vegas here is surprised by what Pete says, he has never thought that way. Can it be that simple? Really? He cleary can't believe it. So he just scoffs and counters with this-

Vegas: You only look at the world on the bright side. You’ve never gone through what I have.

He tries to tell Pete thats its not easy for me like you. So Pete here gets straight to the point, he tells him that you are wrong, everyone has issues. Even me.

Pete: Who said so? When I was little, my dad force me into boxing, When I lost he beat me up. Until one day, I won.

The way Pete delivers this line is so spectacular. You can see him trying to ramp down whatever he is feeling in the first half of the sentence. The last part he specifically says for Vegas, he knows Vegas is not expecting this. And Vegas really breaks my heart here. He is so hopeful when he asks in his tiny voice, scared of what the answer might be-

Vegas: So he stopped beating you?

Vegas genuinely thinks that his Dad will love him if he wins the Family battle, he just can't fathom that anything else is an option here. So when Pete continues with this-

Pete: No, he still beat me. I found out later that he had been a boxer. The difference was that he never won. And he kept that pain and took it out on me.

Again spectacularly acted by Build. The slight quiver in his lips while he says the last part. (I watched this scene umpteen times and it still gets to me). Vegas has the realisation of the truth about his dad, but he still tries to defend his dad by counter questioning Pete. This is such a classic symptom of abuse in childhood by the ones who are suppose to protect you. (hats off to the dialogue writers)

Vegas: You’re saying my papa sucks?

And Pete here goes for the jugular. He says this -

Pete: And has he ever beaten Mr. Korn? Got it now?

Pete basically tells Vegas here to stop making excuses for his dad, but he tells him the way he would undertsand. If you are a failure and thats the reason your dad beats you then why just he doesn't beat the person reponsible for the whole thing?

And then he says this -

Pete: They don't beat us because we suck, they beat us because they themselves suck.

This is it. Thats exactly how it is always. (Dont even argue, this is the best dialogue of this whole series so far). You can see Vegas going through the range of emotions here, starting from surprise, the realisation, the anger , the sadness , the self pity. While he realises that his dad is the one in the wrong here, he also realises while trying to please his dad he himself is becoming like him. And thats the point where he wants Pete to stop talking so he comes with lame ass comback like shut up you nosy.

But the nail has hit the target. That moment of self realisation is going to be the start of new something. What that is we dont know yet.

#this was in my drafts since two days #after watching the reaction video and knowing how i saw the scene was the way they acted it gave me the courage to post it #this pair is gonna be the death of me #and this is just the start #vegaspete #vegas x pete #bible sumettikul #build jakapan #biblebuild #kinnporsche the series #we dont talk about this scene enough tbh

[pensbridgertons]

PERIOD DRAMA APPRECIATION WEEK 2023

day 1: favorite adaptation + day 2: favorite tv show

jamie and claire + book to screen (in/sp)

#perioddramaweek2023 #outlanderedit #periodedit #perioddramaedit #weloveperioddrama #periodedits #userperioddrama #onlyperioddramas #usersteen #useremsi #usereponine #userjamiec #** #jamie x claire #outlander #otp: there’s the two of us now #this has been sitting in my drafts for a literal YEAR sjkhjgh #so im using this as an excuse to finally post it since it fits the day 1 prompt #anyways making this took literal years off my life but its fine <3 #also dont even know if im gonna have time to do any other days for this week :/ but i will try my best

[panncakes]

devotion

/dĭ-vō′shən/

noun

1. Ardent, often selfless affection and dedication, as to a person or principle. 2. Religious ardor or zeal; piety. 3. An act of religious observance or prayer, especially when private.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #mhokday #jimmysea #jimmy jitaraphol #lasttwilightedit #mine* #bledit #this has been in my drafts since episode 10 or something bc i wanted to add more scenes from the final two episodes #but then they sucked lmao #so i might as well send it into the universe like this #because if there's one thing i will take away from this show it's the devotion with which mhok looks at day and i just think it's beautiful #like a man on his knees praying

[emily-mooon]

Jonathan in my Itakiss AU:

#this has sat in the drafts since august and now I think it’s time to share it with the world #keeping the tags from august cause the facts are still correct #one of the posters of Steve is supposed to be him surrounded by roses #sometimes there will be a panel in shouts where the love interest has some flowers around him #*shoujo (gotta love auto correct am I right?/sarcastic) #since this is a shitpost I tried to make it funny #that’s why you get some cursed looking Steve’s #god I love this au so much (says this while the other aus I have come up with figuratively stare at me #) #I finished drawing this with a horrible headache after a long two hour car ride to meet my younger cousins who live in a different province #it was after I got back home because we were there for the day only #you can tell that I got lazy at some point but it’s a shitpost so I do not care and also it was late at night and I was tired #stranger things #jonathan byers #stonathan #itakiss au #emily shitposts

[un-pearable]

hiya!!! and welcome back to part 3 of my sonic 2 (2022) sparked nostalgia celebration, with the ever elusive tails and knuckles interactions! they’re good kids sega <3

(knuckles & sonic) (tails & sonic) (knuckles & tails)

#sonic #tails the fox #miles tails prower #knuckles the echidna #sonic the hedgehog 2 (2022) #such good kids deserve more one-on-one time their leg of the team sonic triangle is both delightful and desperately lacking content #EXTREMELY excited that the movie let them have their own dynamic it was adorable #very much looking forward to seeing them interact more esp with stuff like sonic drone home #please excuse this being. months late. it was an accident and also it is annoyingly hard to find #tails and knuckles talking directly to each other #one of these is literally from the 2022 fcbd which came out THIS MONTH #for the same reason please excuse the archie one they are also annoyingly hard to find and need like eight pages of backstory explained #if anyone has a good post reboot moment w/ the two of them. please gimme i love them but as far as i know they’ve got #like negative interaction time. sadly #anyway here’s for a new canon with a cute as hell dynamic between all three :] ty for waiting the stupid amount of time it took #for me to finish this. it has literally been in my drafts since day one #text✨

[sophieswundergarten]

So. Everyone who yelled at me yesterday for making a ramble on Reynie going blank and then not resolving it, this is for you: (@lemondropletters, you have been tagged)

Also, it's in a Google Doc because it was definitely too long for a Tumblr post, and ~~I don't know how AO3 works~~

The (vague) premise is that, instead of Constance seeing Curtain's broadcast, they all get to the compound mentally sound, but once there, they split up to look for Mr. Benedict, and instead Reynie finds Curtain. This is the wrap up of what would have happened in the last episode.

#I'm sorry if it's also garbage #My brain hasn't been letting me sleep the last two days so I've just been working on this #And also I've never tried writing fic before so it is highly likely to be bad #But it was certainly a fun experience! #I was like “Oh I'll just rewrite that first post in this new format and then add the notes I had in my drafts” #And from there it somehow spiraled into a five and a half thousand word mess #But I think I learned some things! #And I'm sorry Miss Perumal isn't more help I got caught up in the emotion and I just really wanted the kids to work it out themselves #Especially since Reynie is normally the driving force for those kinds of solutions #But without him it took a lot longer than I expected #Also be warned I use a lot more em dashes then I think I'm supposed to #And I was trying the technique of mostly using the adult's formal names since the main perspective is the kids' #But the point is that I did it. I tried. #And if it's terrible then I will just never do it again #I'm sorry I didn't know how to end it so it's kind of vague and abrupt #I hope it's fairly in-character I tried really hard but messing up character voices terrifies me which is why I've never tried this before #I am genuinely so sorry if this is hot garbage it certainly feels like garbage #Okay shutting up now. Again my apologies #the mysterious benedict society #mbs #reynie muldoon #kate wetherall #sticky washington #constance contraire #miss perumal

[mattodore]

#river dipping #every time i unlock my phone i get stuck for ten minutes just staring #anyway.............. hello nkjdfjdkfn #vanished friday night and then i've been SUFFERING #cramping like you would NAWTTTTTT believe #ever since then and haven't logged in to do anything other than read some quotes from literate passion which >:) i now have an epub for #so i'm going to read that soon i'm excited it's like 400+ pages i think so <3 #but god the amount of ibuprofen i've taken the last three days...... #the amount of SLEEP???? i've been getting??????????? insane #anyway. #i finished putting together a nav. post for mobile users but i like my pinned too much atm so for now it'll sit in my drafts #and i think my avpd is kinda getting to me so i'm having trouble getting myself to interact atm </3 #um. #so give me some time to check my activity and actually reply back #this post is fr just bc i don't want to leave anyone hanging but i'm also like. unwell atm kfdnjghkdnh #i will for sure be back sometime in like... the next day or two? #but for now i'm just going to stay offline for a bit #um. so like......... just don't be surprised if i'm pretty quiet in the tags on posts and stuff when i do? idk. i'm hoping the avpd is #just acting up bc i'm not feeling well? otherwise...... well. #f in the chat to pay respects #like i'll push my way through it anyway bc i've learned it's the only way to keep myself from having an Isolation Spell #but it's still pretty tough to do... anyway. love you all <3 miss you dearly MWAH #the disorders............ they're just winning out rn #.............also now you can see how long it normally takes me to type out the tags that i do. like yeah this took twenty minutes #i reread what i type a lot before i even think to hit post

[thephdpensieve]

A bit of everything: festivals, journals, rage scribbling and a hospital visit

Update for the week of 11th (Sun) - 17th (Sat) November

Uneventful on a large scale, but filled with tiny events.

My flu had gotten worse this week and I had fever. So I went to the university clinic to get a nebulizer dose (that's me in the picture with the mask) and some cough drops.

Sunday was Deepavali (or Diwali), the Indian festival of lights. I and my friend went to our other friend's home for celebrations. We had a great time with their family - my friend, her husband, in-laws, aunts, uncles and a cute fluffy doggy! It was so good, but I still had fever and I was napping at their home all throughout the day. We came back to the hostel watching fireworks all along the way. A wonderful evening <3

Great news: I got selected for a workshop in Europe!! They also awarded me a full Registration Grant and a partial travel grant! I just feel so happy (still can't believe it though) and I'll share more details with you guys soon.

#dark academia #gradblr #chaotic academia #gradschool aesthetic #phdblr #phd aesthetic #phd life #phdjourney #100 days of productivity #Building consistency #grad school motivation #I had this in my drafts since two weeks ago #Couldn't post because I was busy and also stuck in my head ironically

[chelshiart]

happy halloween! no don't check the calendar, it's fine it's fine

i've got a weakness for characters dressing up like other characters, what can I say :P

#the chronicles of chrestomanci #the murderbot diaries #millie chant #christopher chant #conrad tesdinic #asshole research transport #iris tmbd #diana wynne jones #martha wells #beauty and the beast #howl's moving castle #the iris and peri one has been sitting in my drafts for ages since i missed posting it on halloween #let's say that team chrestomanci every so often steals the show at prendergast's costume parties #and peri always has inside scoop on the best locations in the university to source candy from #also guess who has been playing the 'be our guest' sequence from the batb 30th anniversary on loop for the past two days lolol #chrestomanci

[vampireimiko]

might have to start writing for the boys and genv ☝🏾 HEAVY ON GENV SINCE THERES HARDLY ANY FICS ON HERE😭

#spirit talks 🖤 #I binged those for the past #two weeks ago far #i finished gen v like 2 days ago #anyway #since i have no show to watch #ill definitely be writing more #mortal kombat wise btw ! #still got requests and stuff i have cooking in my drafts

[gamesxd]

Sneak Peak at my animation! Part 2!

[Fanfic by RogueDruid: Hero Class Civil Warfare]

[Animation by: Me (gamesxd)] 😊

#hccw #HCCW #my animation #animation based on fanfic #hero class civil warefare #boku no academia #my hero acadamy #Still have like hundreds of frames to draw but im happy to day its like 90% done well at least the final outline #the sketch and the overall rough draft of it has been done 100% since like two years ago! lol

[beautifel]

the way i’m truly so beyond help

#i’ll tell you guys a secret. i have not added a single letter of text to my thesis draft since my last meeting with my supervisor which was #at the start of december and now it’s february and i have to send the more or less finished version of those two chapters #in a few days #which means i’m well and truly fucked and my supervisor has had to practise enough patience already #i for real don’t know what to say yall i have exhausted my options theres no excuse to be this behind #man this is gonna be so humiliating and we all know how i handle my humiliation haha . i’m in danger #i’m decompensatinggg like the way my body is gonna crash soon and i havent even got anything to show for it #like if i were crashing becasue i stayed up late to do lots of necessary work then id at least have done the work #instead i get all the health decline of a beyond stressed student without doing any of the work #like it’s so humiliating to be such a disappointment and failure helpmndksdj just kill me omg

[goldeneyedgirl]

Can we get a little snippet of STL pretty pleaseeeeeee. I’m about to go back to college as a 28 yo (obviously nothing wrong with that) but something about knowing this fic started when I was in college the first time is making me super emotional and nostalgic. Super excited for the next chappie!!

Congratulations! I went back to uni at 26 and listen, it's so much better when you're older. I had way more fun and way more perspective about what and how I was learning. I also gave 0 shits about what anyone thought of me by, like, mid-second year.

Also wow, I'm horrified that much time has passed. Academically I know I started in 2017 but goddamn, that's a long time. Just redefining the slow burn in new and weird ways, I guess.

(That makes her squeeze her eyes tight because yes, things would be very different. She can still see those old visions, the very first ones, where Alice Cullen smiles across a sticky Formica table at a wary old vampire, and gets her first kiss ten minutes later in a dark alley. The ones where she doesn’t have any scars, and wears new dresses and shiny shoes, and gets to be bashful when the Major’s hand settles against her back. And she wants that kind of different. Not the kind of different that means the Major wouldn’t know her, wouldn’t be with her. That terrifies her.) // (There was a sense of security in it; those days before he started falling apart. She had a certain amount of confidence in her place and that life back then. Chalk-maps and training, the Major’s gaze like a security blanket around her. That there was some kind of respect there, an understanding between them. That they both understand he was her architect; the blank slate of his needs and desires. Now it’s a terrifying thought, that she was so willing to let him bend her to his will that she went in blind. But that’s her thinking back. She’d do it all the same, a hundred times over. Not out of a altruistic desire to protect him. But because she is selfish and he was hers as much as she was his.)

#asks #my fic: shadow to light #if my uni hadn't messed up my assignment dates spectacularly there would be a fresh new chapter on wednesday #instead i'm writing essay drafts; the joys of academia i guess #i mean i'm answering tumblr asks #but priority one is producing two assignments in three days #and listen i refuse any chapter under 10k that just seems stingy especially since we're getting so close to... #mary-alice: i'm allowed to want things again? can't remember anything i ever wanted #also mary-alice: i would like an esme hug and the major. that's it. that's the wishlist

[daisywords]

not joking about the "world's slowest writer" in my pinned post btw like not only can I only get myself to write once in a blue moon, when I do actually write it feels like I'm trying to squeeze frosting out of a bag but instead of cutting off the corner there's just. a hole poked with a needle and what I mean to say is that it's like 20 minutes a sentence sometimes lol

#anyway hooray for the *checks docs* 928 words I have to show for the large swaths of writing time I have taken over the past two days #actually never mind post canceled I got 358 words of that scene in act 3 that's actually not too bad as a total #anyway I cannot stress the amount of story and worldbuilding progress I have made since then #but it's frustrating that um. in my chronological drafting I started act 2 when I was visiting my sister for the birth of her baby #and now I am visiting again and the kid can literally walk #and I'm *still* working on act 2

[ihateitheretaylor]

Break my soul in two looking for you..but you're right here..If I can't relate to you anymore..then who am I related to?...and if this is the long haul,how'd we get here so soon?...Did I close my fist around something delicate?..Did I shatter you?.....and I'm sitting on a bench in Coney Island,wondering, "Where did my baby go?",the fast times, the bright lights, the merry-go. Sorry for not making you my centerfold,over and over.. lost again with no surprises,disappointments close your eyes..and it gets colder and colder.... When the sun goes down,the question pounds my head. What's a lifetime of achievement if I pushed you to the edge,but you were too polite to leave me?....Do you miss the rogue,who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?..will you forgive my soul,when you're too wise to trust me and too old to care?....'Cause we were like the mall before the internet,it was the one place to be. The mischief, the giftwrapped suburban dreams. Sorry for not winning you an arcade ring,over and over. Lost again with no surprises,disappointments close your eyes..and it gets colder and colder. When the sun goes down.......were you waiting at our old spot, in the tree line, by the gold clock?Did I leave you hanging every single day?..Were you standing in the hallway with a big cake?Happy birthday...did I paint your bluest skies the darkest gray?..A universe away....and when I got into the accident,the sight that flashed before me was your face. but when I walked up to the podium,I think that I forgot to say your name......I'm on a bench in Coney Island,wondering, "Where did my baby go?"..The fast times, the bright lights, the merry-go. Sorry for not making you my centerfold,over and over. Lost again with no surprises, disappointments close your eyes,and it gets colder and colder..when the sun goes down..when the sun goes down...The sight that flashed before me was your face... When the sun goes down but I think that I forgot to say your name, over and over.Sorry for not making you my, making you my making you my centerfold.

-Coney Island by Taylor Swift ft.The National

#this whole frigging song #i love it #taylor swift #coney island #i listened to last kiss yesterday evening #and has been humming since morning #taylor you are brilliant. #this has been saved in my drafts for two days here i go #lyrics

[yummeera]

i need you guys to read sakamoto days. FOR HIM.

#miratxt #asakura shin i love you so bad #those last two pictures happen two pages before he gets his ass handed to him by a middle aged woman #sakamoto days #this has been in my drafts since like.... august