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weirdopponent · 11 months
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FRUITS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN GROWING ON THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE
The apple, the classic, bright red like struck skin
fits firmly in your palm.
You crush it in your teeth and between your jaws, it snaps like broken bone.
Scavengers feast on what remains, what you leave behind.
The pomegranate, cut in half, bleeds like a heart
from four chambers, from its severed veins
which it doesn't need anymore, taken from its body like this
The peach falls to the ground and no one catches it in time
and it bruises readily, tenderly
martyred for the health of the earth
The cherry grows in pairs
One holds the other which holds the other back
When you split them apart, the ladder of your ribs aches in sympathy
The apricot shines golden from its perch in the golden sun
reminding you of the guardians blinding halo, its fierce flaming swords
Is it ever blinded? The fruit is sweet on the tongue
A banana?
That's just silly.
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literatecowboy · 8 months
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*opens ur window and sits on your bed* greetings, fellow König enjoyer. Have you ever considered! War God König who has a relationship with the goddess of victory! Reader? Have a lovely day!! *creepy back into my void*
Hi, and thank you so much for being my first-ever ask!! You have handed the steering wheel to a 90 year old lady who should have had her license revoked and we are going on the highway >:)
I pondered this for a little while last night and I really like it! I’m not sure if you wanted NSFW or had a specific mythology in mind so I’m just going to write down the flow of ideas that kinda went through my head. This will be mostly NSFW and the imagery is inspired by ancient American cultures :) I hope you like it, this is my first one and my first time writing real smut!!!
I'm new to tumblr and I don't know if I have to tag you in this for you to see it so I'll do it here just in case :) @polnareffsbouncybaraboobies
Smut under the cut!
Your bare feet made no noise against the carefully chiseled stone stairs of the temple as you climbed them. Lights from flickering braziers illuminated hairless watchdogs chained outside of the temple’s upper room, but they did not react as you passed them by. They could not see you.
Nothing mortal could see you - unless you revealed yourself. It would remain that way for now. You were deep in the heart of the territory of your people’s enemies - a people you had little love for. They worshipped you too, of course, but less…fervently. Their offerings were fewer, more pathetic. It was almost as if they thought they didn’t need your favor.
You brushed past the curtain over the doorway to the inner sanctum. It was smoky inside and smelled of coppery blood and sweet incense. Upon a dais in the center of the room stood a larger-than-life golden statue of a proud warrior holding the head of an enemy to the sky. Offerings of incense, money, food, pelts, and other luxuries surrounded it, but the god they had been offered to almost seemed unsatisfied.
König reclined at the base of his statue, his bare, rippling muscles shining in the firelight. The pelt of a jaguar was secured around his waist with intricate golden clasps and his arms and legs were wrapped in snake-shaped golden bangles. His broad, muscular chest was bare, decorated only with intricate tattoos and warpaint fashioned from the blood of the men he’d slain.
You’d never seen his face before and you could not see it now. He always wore the same helmet - its beak curved down over his face and ended in a sharp point that caressed his chest. A proud headdress of colorful feathers spilled out of the top and trailed down his back. König was terrifyingly large in size and personality - and yet you knew you could sway him to your side.
When he saw you he smiled and sat up straighter, pushing aside his war-club and decorated shield to make room for you on the chaise he lounged on.
“My love, you have been away from me for too long.” he practically purred, standing to his full height. You slunk forward and he embraced you as you traced your fingers across the muscles in his chest.
“You think I have not missed you?” you murmured, meeting his eyes with a teasing smile. He grasped your hips and lifted you into the air, pushing you back against the temple wall as his lips found your neck.
“You are as beautiful as the day we were wed, even all of these millennia later,” he growled, his voice low as he bit gently at your collarbone. You could feel his hardness pressed between your legs and you were glad you’d worn little other than your jewelry to see him.
“I have a proposition for you,” you whispered, wrapping your legs around his waist as he cupped your breast gently.
“Oh? Have you come to seduce me for a favor? I am your husband…you need not resort to such measures…” König trailed, biting your breast and trailing kisses back up to your lips. You groaned softly, and he smiled into the kiss, tracing two fingers over your entrance and ghosting over your clit.
“Already wet for me, hmm? Has it been too long since I have given myself to you?” he growled, kissing you again, more fervently this time as he slipped one finger into you, slowly pumping it in and out.
You gasped and arched your back against the wall, raking your nails down König’s chest. He hissed in pleasure as small beads of blood dripped down his chest and you could feel precum drip onto your thigh.
“Koni…” you murmured, pushing your hips down against his hand as he slid another large finger into you.
“Yes, love? What is it you want?” he smiled against your neck as he kissed and bit at the exposed skin.
“Fight for my people. Guide them to victory - ah! They will give you gifts…fuck…more than you have here. You will be their - oh, fuck, Koni - patron. They will build a bigger temple than the one you have here.” you gasped out. König was quiet, considering it for a moment.
He surged away from the wall with you in his grip, pulling his fingers out of you and dropping you on your back onto the chaise he had been reclining on when you’d come in. He tore the leopard pelt loincloth free from his waist and his cock sprang free.
“Koni, please,” you begged, half for him to be inside you and half for him to protect your people. He crawled onto you and with a single, powerful thrust, pushed his cock into you. You moaned together, your back arching as you grasped at the pelts you were laid on as he began thrusting slowly, pulling all the way out before slamming back in.
“I will do anything for you, my love,” he growled as he bit down hard on your neck, doing his best to leave a mark all of the other gods would see. He began thrusting faster and you raked your nails down his back, crying out in pleasure.
“These people…mean nothing to me.” he barked, pulling your hips closer to his as you bucked forward desperately, trying to take him deeper inside of you.
“They treat me as a secondary god. I do not even have the biggest temple in the city,” he growled bitterly, reaching down to circle your clit as he frantically pounded into you. You could feel your orgasm building and your eyes rolled back as you gasped.
“I will return with you,” he said, looking up to stare you deep in the eyes as you dragged your hands down his chest, smearing the intricate warpaint and leaving delicate handprints behind. “And I will rule with you, and I will fuck you like this in my temple every night.”
You came with a shriek, your back arching and pushing your trembling chest into König. He wrapped his lips around one of your nipples and sucked as his thrusts became sloppier and harder. His hips stuttered as he came deep in you, filling you until your belly swelled slightly with his seed.
You both panted together and he collapsed on top of you, laying his head on your chest as you caught your breath.
“We will not be apart again,” he murmured, gently rubbing your sides as you drifted off to sleep.
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kasienda · 4 months
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Fanfiction Year in Review 2023
I fill this out every year. It’s become a bit of a tradition for me. Allows me to reflect on everything that I’ve written and kinda think about where I want to go next. And I like it better from the ask games because I don’t have to wait for asks to come in and can compare my answers from one year to the next. ^_^
1 List of fics completed this year in the order they were finished:
Displaced (Ladrien oneshot)
No Regrets (Ladynoir oneshot - smut)
You Don’t Have To Pretend With Me (Platonic Adrino oneshot)
Representation Reveal (S5 Adrinette oneshot)
Kisses in the Rain (S5 AU Love Square - technically multichapter, but it’s shorter than many of my one-shots)
Would Trust You With Everything (Adrino multichapter)
Just An Ordinary Girl (Marichat oneshot)
Love Remains (Ladynoir multichapter)
Spin the Bottle (OT4 with cour four - technically oneshot, but it’s longer than Kisses and has more kisses in it. Haha!)
2 Number of words written: 
Written: 166,114 words
Published: 151,018 words (more than twice 2022’s number!! Go me!!) 
Those numbers are incredibly close together because I haven’t been redrafting as much. Those numbers include six one shots, three completed multi chapters. And another four multi chapter WIPs saw at least one update.
And in another fun milestone! I broke a million words published on Ao3 just this last week!! (I've been writing fic since 2003 and everything I've ever written is on Ao3!)
3 Your most popular fic:
Not Part of the Plan - I suspect that this is mostly because being a teen pregnancy fic, it’s my most tropiest story this year. Haha! 
4 Your personal fav:
Aftermath - This story has usurped Right Behind You as my favorite. I’ve been able to connect to the raw hurt and grief in this story, and there’s something very raw and human about it that others seem to be able to connect to as well. I think it’s some of my best work, and that is also thanks to an amazing beta in @ladyofthenoodle who has lent her expertise in more than one way in making this one more true to lived experience. 
5 Your fav scene:
It’s so hard to pick a favorite!! I narrowed it down to my three favorites in no particular order. 
The last scene in Ch 5 Love Remains - Chat Noir give amnesiac Ladybug a geography lesson from space. It’s got Whole New World vibes, and I just loved the imagery of it.
Ch 4 of Aftermath - I’m particularly proud of Marinette’s panic attack when Adrien tells her she doesn’t have to keep coming over. Like it feels like it comes out of nowhere, but it just totally makes sense. And how it manifests and how she soothes herself (it’s not healthy, but it’s so GOOD!)
Ch 7 of Would Trust You With Everything - The scene where Chat Noir tries to tell Nino who he is, but inevitably doesn’t. And how Nino reassures him through all that. This scene feels so raw, but so heartwarming in light of Adrien’s fears. And I don’t know - it’s beautiful to me.
6 A fic or scene that challenged you:
I really struggled with Right Behind You this year, though it wasn’t for lack of trying! I had started out the year hoping to go back to an update a month here and I only updated it three times throughout 2023. 
This was incredibly frustrating because the initial drafts of scenes would come pretty easily, but I couldn’t seem to make them pop the way the earlier chapters did. The good news is I think I figured out what the issue was. Most of my writing this year has been speed writing. And a big part of that is just where I’ve been emotionally. I’m very very out of practice in editing and redrafting, which this story and Aftermath both definitely need. 
I’ve only been able to edit Aftermath because I’ve had a ton of help. (Thanks Noodles!) Sadly, it’s harder to find betas for rarepairs, but I have succeeded! (Thanks@coffeebanana!)
7 A line of writing you’re proud of: 
“She wanted to be there to see it. To see him.”
This line is way better in context, but I’ve made myself cry about three times with it. And I refuse to explain it because that would give its power away. Guess you’ll just have to go read Aftermath. 
8 A comment that touched you: 
I can never answer this question without mentioning several!! 
Would Trust You With Everything - this story had a ton of enthusiastic followers - way more than rarepair work usually gets, and I wrote this story right after my life fell apart and all the commenters here made throwing this story together just that much more joyful during a time when I REALLY needed it. (I'm looking at you, @bittersweetresilience, @bbutterflies @flightfoot @coffeebanana and so many others that I don't know your tumblr name!!!) Not Part of the Plan Comments - I added sex ed lessons to the end of each chapter here because there’s so much about fertility and pregnancy that people don’t know if typical pregnancy fics are anything to go by, and this seemed to inspire so many people to share their pregnancy stories!!! And these have been so cool because I’ve learned that these stories just don’t often have an opportunity to be shared. And it’s neat that this story with its accompanying lessons could create a space for that!! Aftermath comments - lots of people who have really struggled with moderate to severe depression have apparently felt very seen by this fic. And that a story that is essentially about two characters who feel very alone and like no one can understand can help people feel LESS alone and MORE understood is simply amazing!! I love this story so much!! AHH!! Here's one from @neurovascular-entrapta that meant a lot to me.
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9 Something that inspired your writing:
Grief and the need to feel things in a distant abstract-these-are-story-book-characters kind of way so I don’t have to feel my actual feelings as closely every moment of the day really kept me writing the whole year long.
10 Your proudest accomplishment (that one scene; finally finishing that one fic; posting your first fic; etc):
My writing has been really raw and messy this year, and I can’t keep tenses straight to save my life. But there’s something powerful about the rawness that I really like even as all the grammatical errors and the lack of effort on the technical side of most of my stories has driven me nuts. 
I am proud of myself for being able to get back into the big projects in these last few months after not being able to face them from April to October. And I’ve started participating in a few writing events here and there again in addition to working on my own pet projects. 
11 Do you have any writing goals for the next year?
Well, I wanted to finish Not Part of the Plan in 2023, which didn’t happen only barely! So hoping the last chapter and the epilogue make it out within the next month. Once that’s done I think I want to try and make Aftermath and Right Behind You my primary focus projects this year. And of course, I’m sure new plot bunnies and writing events will take over my brain on occasion. Last year, I said I wanted my writing to become a reliable mental health tool for me again, and I’m glad to say that it definitely was that for 2023. I hope I’m able to use my writing this year to continue my healing journey. 
And maybe go and proofread all of the fics I finished in 2023 to fix all the inconsistent tense issues to prepare them for being bound eventually!
12 Anyone you would like to thank?
SO MANY PEOPLE!
@jennagrinsoverml for being one of my oldest fandom friends! For becoming a real life friend for all that we haven't actually met in person. For all the times you vented to me and listened and sent me pictures of your family and gushed over pictures of mine. I'm lucky to know you!
@ladyofthenoodle - for showing up in my DMs, For being a most insightful beta, for dragging me into a larger community over and over again, for listening to both my real struggles and my first world problems, for being my friend!!
@thelibraryloser - I don't know how to put this into words. But I very much look up to you. For your resilience through difficult times - you are role-model for how to handle this world with grace and kindness. Thank you for your stories!
@coffeebanana - for being so enthusiastic in the creation process before and after! When I have a story that is getting no attention one comment from you makes it so it doesn't matter. You give me all I need.
@bittersweetresilience and @wackus-bonkus-maximus for just being so kind and enthusiastic and supportive of any idea I happen to be talking about in any given moment. I guess for enabling me. Haha!
@blur0se and @mila-beedoodling for sharing your ideas and inspiring me to create new things!!
@asukiess, @chocoluckchipz, @sariahsue, @miabrown007 for creating so many beautiful things and for being kind and engaging in so many conversations!
And now, I'm really nervous that I'm forgetting someone because this is the first time where I feel like I've had more than three fandom friends. Haha! It's a good problem to have I suppose. In general, thank you to the miraculous community for helping me to survive this year. <3 <3 <3
Happy New Year Everyone!!
I invite anyone who wants to, to fill this out! (Or something similar because I think it can be modified for artwork pretty easily). But if you do, please tag me, so I can be a cheerleader for all you've accomplished this year!
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Round 5 - Catholic Character Tournament
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Propaganda below ⬇️
Hellboy Propaganda
He is literally the beast of the apocalypse. He was forcibly assigned catholic at birth, he deserves this. Now i know the rules said no demons, and that is fair. But here is my propaganda: he is a half-demon AND he absolutely does not want to end the world. He just wants to hang out and beat up monsters and work his job. But catholic guilt and apocalypse stuff always gets in the way. The comic books contain a ridiculous amount of religious imagery, the author was raised catholic, and passages from the bible are occasionally quoted. Hellboy is also portrayed as a messianic figure in conjunction with being an apocalyptic one. He uh, kind of becomes the savior of the new world and its like a whole thing. Catholic imagery appears frequently. Statues of the virgin mary, churches, etc. he also wears a literal cross on his belt, what can i say.
Okay here’s my rant. Hi, hello, propaganda. The last ten issues of the comic literally feature Hellboy going to hell and killing satan. He kills satan, fucks around in hell for a bit, and then blows everything up and its godamn tragic. Forcibly assigned catholic at birth. A bro did not ask for this it just happened. His mom was a witch but tried to become catholic after she died. Kind of a banger move. It didn’t work out for her but she gets points for trying. He tried real hard to save the world and it kind of worked but he did still die and go to hell. But not because he did anything bad, it was just kind of unavoidable. Again, he did blow the place the fuck up when he was done so. Respect.
Lapsed Catholic who is literally a half demon and also the rightful King of England that’s right he’s descended from King Arthur on his mother’s side.
Matt
Matt's faith in the show is really important and well explored; one of the first scenes of the show is Matt going to confession (or, well, talking to his priest since he's not really confessing at that point). Matt struggles a lot with what he's supposed to do; everyone's telling him to kill the villain and he kinda wants to, but he literally says: "I know my soul is damned if I take his life". He struggles with his faith and goes with his doubts to his priest, and it's beautiful—also when he finally gets a costume for his vigilanteing he chooses to dress as the devil, lol. (His priest tells him that nothing makes people run to Church faster than the feeling of having the devil on their heels.)
a lot of the show is about how he justifies his vigilante actions with his faith, and whether he's doing the right thing in trying to help people or just using it as an outlet for his anger. the literal first scene of the show has him in a confession booth talking to his priest (who is a really interesting character too). this is not the scene I was talking about but it's such an excellent scene with matt talking to his priest: https://youtu.be/XHZ3NbEIDdw
canonically catholic but dresses like a demon to be quirky
honestly i dont wanna type too much but i feel that matt is a great example of someone who battles with his faith because he rarely loses his faith but rather fights with why he was made the way he was and put through what he was. He believes himself to have the devil inside him but believes that God put him there
ok in the comics barring the most current run matt has Mostly been a non-practicing Catholic that very rarely actually does any catholic Activities but ends up falling back into the Mindset and very occasionally dramatically taking confession (ex. in that one issue where he takes confession, basically tells the father that he is uniquely terrible and is thinking about violently murdering someone and when the father says "you can be forgiven" hes like "AUGFH-- NO!!!!!!!!!!" and runs out) when he's gone through some shit. and i love that its so relatable
This guy so catholic he spends an ungodly amount of time just chilling in the church. And goes there whenever there is a moral conundrum about killing people being Bad even though it would solve a lot of problems and stop said people from killing other people. This happens every other episode. Matt is the Catholic Guilt Guy. There's actually a lot of catholic stuff in the show as a whole. Just a compilation would be like three whole episodes long.
Hes great hes catholic enough to not outrught murder people but not catholic enough to not fuck before marriage hes a bisexual disaster at all times hes besties with a priest might i add hes great hes my special little guy
his catholicism is a huge piece of his characterisation he was raised by nuns in a catholic orphanage, the first scene we ever see him (as an adult and not a flashback) is him going to confession, he is good friend with his priest and has regular debates with him, etc also in s3 he has a huge crisis of faith after he lost A Lot where he stops believing for a while and it's linked to his identity crisis where he actually wants to kill another person (a hard line he previously chose never to cross) and wants to be only daredevil and not matt murdock, when he is both and needs both to exist also when he was a kid his grandmother used to say "watch out for the murdock boys, they've got the devil in them" and it created a surprising lot of his issues
So he's both catholic in the comics and the show but he's More Catholic in the show. Like, raised in a catholic orphanage by nuns (ONE OF WHICH IS HIS *MOTHER*), second scene in the show has him in a confession box kind. Matt Murdock goes out and gets the shit beaten out of him nightly and also beats the shit out of other people and purposefully leaned into devil iconography as his theme. When his nurse friend says, he takes a lot of punishment without one complaint he says "That part's the Catholicism." It is a Core Aspect of his character (at least in the show). He makes me insane. Also the same chemicals that blinded him created the teenage mutant ninja turtles and everyone should know that.
They went to confession to a priest who they had saved as their costumed counterpart and the guy recognized them by the voice, proving that it's possible and everyone else is just dumb
he takes "i wanna fight god" to new and incredibly violent levels, while also being a sweetheart and a goofball
Actually strictly WILL NOT kill criminals. Goes wayyy out of his way to avoid it. Fights with the Punisher about it. Goes to confession booth after nightly vigilante excursions. Feels so much guilt. "How have you been holding up?" "Like a good Caltholic boy" "that bad huh" - actual conversation with his priest
So Daredevil struggles with his mission as a crime fighter because killing criminals goes against his faith. He makes it a point to not kill criminals, believing that even bad people deserve a second chance. This philosophy puts him at odds against The Punisher, who is a relentless killer. As a Catholic myself, while I love the concept of a morally conflicted superhero, I think the worldbuilding around Daredevil is lacking. If he struggles with violence and killing, why doesn't he pray to warrior saints like Saint Michael, Saint Ignatius of Loyola (a former knight), or Saint Joan of Arc? Why isn't there a community of other Catholics he can turn to for guidance, considering New York City has a sizeable population of Catholics? And why are the churches he goes to always empty? Doesn't he know that the Catholic Church supports the just war theory? I think that would have made his burden more bearable.
He goes to church and confesses to punching people and says "imma do it again can i apologize in advance" and the father dude says "no you're meant to stop now" and Matt says "no" and they do this everyday. I'm not remembering it properly but this is a canon interaction i swear
HELLO HI YES I LOVE HIM AND WILL INFOR DUMP ok so. he is a vigalantty and he got named daredevil and he is an orphan and after the age of 12 was raised in an orphanage at a Catholic church and his therapist is his priest via confession abd. also his mother is a nun he has a whole mental breakdown over god and called Job a pussy because he liked god until he got better and liked god again he said "I'm dearedrvil and not even god can stop that now" and he's so cool
matt is a freakish little babygirl who was raised by nuns and definitely has religious trauma. i hate him so much (affectionately)
he’s literally fucking insane about it i don’t know what to say here. he thinks he’s chosen by god to go on some sort of holy quest to save hell’s kitchen. joan of arc ass.
i already know hes in by default j just wanted to give him a personal shout out i love this angsty catholic dweeb
how practicing he is depends on the run, but in my favorite he is quite literally confessing to a member of the last extant order millitant who happens to be a priest at a church in hells kitchen.
i love him for having the funniest version of a trope i usually hate (person gets into confession booth and asks forgiveness not for what they've done, but for what they're about to do). usually this trope just looks silly to me bc like. the priest would just say "i can't do that" and you would have to either awkwardly explain yourself or just Leave. it's funny when matt does it because fr. lantom is probably like "what are you gonna do???" and matt's like "lol. lmao. 😊 hehehe." anyway we love this angry catholic man who dresses up like the devil to beat people up in hell's kitchen
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I'm sure Harrow is lovely and I respect the space lesbians but listen to me. Listen.
Matt Murdock is the Catholic character of all time, and if you make him lose, I am blowing up this website and everyone in it.
He is Catholic. His mother is a nun. He grew up in a catholic orphanage. Half the episodes in the show include him going to confession. When he needs therapy, he talks to his priest. He dresses up as a devil partly because of the Catholicism.
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One time he got godly powers on loan from Heimdall (see below), and he did a lot of good with it, and then the second it was over he just... well. Also see below!
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This man's every coping mechanism is Catholicism.
Please vote for Matt in the @catholic-character-tournament because he's the best and most realistic representation of what it means to be Catholic. Someone who's been punched and bet and crushed by life but still gets up every day to try. No, he's not a nun like his competition but he's not less devoted because of that. Not everyone is called to service. In the day he works at a defense lawyer to help people. Not for the money but to help people not get screwed over by the law. And at night, he dons a mask and beats up assholes when the law fails them. Is he perfect? No, that's the point. Matt is a broken man who is just trying his best to do well and live like Jesus.
He fully embodies the Catholic doctrine of faith and good works. He has faith in what he's doing even if others challenge him. He believes in forgiveness and repenting even when going up against "the devil."
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"The people you murder deserve another chance." ... "No, Frank. To try again, Frank. To try. And if you don't get that, there's something broken in you you can't fix, and you really are a nutjob." "You think God made you a one-man firing squad. But you're wrong. There is goodness in people, even in you. And you're gonna have to kill me, 'cause I'm never gonna stop coming for you, until I take you down."
Daredevil Season 2 Episode 3
He (tries) to love his enemy. He believes in Elektra and Frank and maybe Dex and their ability to change. To be good. And when he can't, Matt refuses to compromise on his morals. While not quite "turning his cheek" he never scoops to their level. Because they don't get to destroy who he is.
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Daredevil Season 3 Episode 13
All he does is for the love he has to his neighbors, his community. He loves New York. Not for self-fulfilling needs or for the money or for the fame. He does it because he believes in justice. Because the law was created by humans and is inherently sinful.
"But his competition met God and was disappointed and blah blah"
Daredevil is more grounded (at least the show, maybe less the comics). So now, Matt doesn't met God. But he sure gets mad at him. All of season 3 he angry at God for all the trauma he expired.
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"You see, that was me, Sister. I suffered willingly. I gave my, uh... sweat and blood and skin without complaint. Because I too believed I was God's soldier. ( chuckles ) Well, not anymore. I am what I do in the dark now. I bleed only for myself. ( scoffs )" ... "You might hate God right now, but the feeling is not mutual." "No, I don't hate him. I've just seen his true face, is all."
Season 3 episode 1
As a Catholic I don't really want to fight God in a parking lot. Well I do but not in the same way that I've understood (primarily Jewish people but probably other Abrahamic religions) want to fight God in a Denny's parking lot. I want to yell and scream and cry at God and for the feeling to not be mutual. For Him to never stop loving me. As long as I have faith, He will reach out his hand.
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wisteriagoesvroom · 2 months
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for the writers truth or dare thingy:
🎨🍓🍄
-isla
🎨 link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it
it's hard to pick one favourite! gonna shout out some artists whose stuff i loved recently instead, like @dokidokistart, @kiki0716, @greenygay, @28220-c, @hyonibee, @qqlimnn, @mecachrome's chibis and sooo many more. (as u can tell i love an illustration linework style and an anime kinda style.) but yea! we're so lucky to have such talented fanartists on f1blr.
🍓 how did you get into writing fanfiction? 
for f1 rpf... i'd already been active in other fandoms before and then i saw the lestappen lore and was like. holy shit. red and blue imagery? childhood enemies to whatever this is? two of the most talented vroom vroom blorbos of their generation acting like total simps around each other? this goes hard.
then it was the deep and fast drop into landsoscar once i saw what the (extremely talented) other writers were cooking there too!!
🍄 share a headcanon for one of your favourite ships or pairings
uhhhhh the landoscar getaway driver au. which i would one day maybe like to attempt, mostly to practice writing an action-comedy, but let's not get too ahead of ourselves, which is what i tend to do. often.
from this asks game
(thank u for asking @momimf1ne!)
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If it’s alright with you, I’d love to hear more about your version of Chasing Wind! I absolutely love the idea of half the city being inside their can, and all the cool stuff in the surrounding area, and her design!
awww shit i don't have MANY Wind thoughts she's mostly in the bg. but i'm gon try n scramble for smth for u, captn
to her design, a few small facts! they are the iterator who's design has probably changed the least since i've first made one for them two years ago
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her design is HEAVILY inspired by @/inkycorvid, especially the earrings!!! praised be the elder sage for big brain design thoughts
her current outfit is based off of the Rattanakosin dress of Thailand! (simplified to hell n back cuz gods i do have to limit myself Somehow with this kinda stuff else my hand goes caput 🙏. i still have yet to really get the outfit down properly tbh)
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the city being half within them and their citizens genuinely loving them lead to Wind becoming SOMETHING of a teacher to the side of her main jobs as an Iterator. this is mostly the case because i sent this vid to shkika sayin "my Wind vibes" and she replied with
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so now i'm fucked up about it, because this fucca -points at the screenshot- is SO right about that, that WOULD happen. Wind is SO fuckin excited about teachin kids funky stuff like that. Full of Energy
their holy characterization formula is "good-looking jolly young teacher in either kindergarten or first few years of elementary school who knows martial arts" she looks like an absolute sweetheart but can put a man into an involuntary nap with singular karate chop. like she's still a pushover but at some point the hands start flyin
a city within the iterator is practically unheard of
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Wind LOVES their interjections. like every other sentence is gonna have an "oh!" "ah!" "hah!" or smth of the like in it. i didn't headcanon this on purpose she just started doing it herself in her dialogue so i guess that's her Thing now
their positive attitude towards everything ever and their love of kids brought them close to Nish. these two together in one room is like LED headlights on a car. they are so fucking bright you're gonna go blind within seconds
nobody knows how- least of all Suns- but Wind ended up growing very fond of and close to Suns. they converse theory and go through simulations together a lot, when Wind's communications aren't down because of the tornadoes. if this was one of those AUs where the iterators, as their puppets, just hang around, those two would be like constantly at each other's hip. often subconsciously. they are like that one fuckin char dynamic meme
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[some nasty stuff under the cut. you have been warned- it's nothing Particularly graphic but the imagery is Not Fun]
Wind is like the only iterator who took Suns' degression into their Hot Girl Summer arc ""well"" cuz she's just tryin so so hard to be positive to the point of blinding herself to bad things completely later down the line. even Nish was wigged about The Hot Girl Summer arc. The Hot Girl Summer arc is Not A Good Thing
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ignoring Suns' drama: Wind's voice gets shot at some point and as result it becomes reverbated. the reverbs get worse when she's in distress
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barkanon · 7 months
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The days seem to blur by with the blank gray walls and concrete floor. The man inside wasn’t really sure how long he was there; one day, one week? He lost track after the 7th meal of cold rice and beans that was practically thrown through the door.
No one was really sure what he was, and no one wanted to take chances.
~ More under the cut below bc it's kinda long 9around 700 words SLDFKJ)! TW/CW include: References to human and animal death (including family death, and murder ofc), abuse, isolation, and alcohol abuse. Nothing too graphic, but I'd rather list out the warnings just in case! ~
The days seem to blur by with the blank gray walls and concrete floor. The man inside wasn’t really sure how long he was there; one day, one week? He lost track after the 7th meal of cold rice and beans that was practically thrown through the door.
No one was really sure what he was, and no one wanted to take chances.
The door clicked as it unlocked and three officers walked in. The prisoner inside was pushed against the wall and handcuffed by two officers and searched for any potential weapons. The third officer put a sort of muzzle on him, learning the hard way that the man will bite.
Finding no weapons, the officers dragged the shorter guy to another room and shackled him to the table before sitting him down.
Another man walked in, dressed nice though he still wore a badge. Two officers accompanied him in case the prisoner tried anything.
“Name’s Officer Pierce,” the well dressed man said. “May I have your name?”
“Ah, everyone calls me Bark, obvious nickname isn’t it?” The prisoner laughed, though no one else was amused. The room was deafeningly silent, though the man didn’t seem bothered.
“May I have your legal name?” Officer Pierce questioned, his voice a little more firm.
Bark spoke after a tense moment of thought, realizing he would end up losing any fight he tried. “… It’s Issac Baxter. But please, I really don’t like that name.”
The officer wrote in his notebook before looking back up to Bark. “Where are you from?”
“The United States, though I haven’t gone back in a long time..”
Officer Pierce wrote that down as well.
“What state?” The officer didn’t look up from his writing as he questioned.
“South Texas. Grew up rural,” Bark snickered, “farm and all!”
“Hm, what was your family like?” The officer asked casually, though it was clear it wasn’t just small talk.
Bark let out a sigh, his body growing a little tense and restless as he tapped his foot. “Well… I had a mom. I don’t know about a dad. I was raised by this other family - I never learned their names - they had my mom and I work a lot, my mom ended up passing from the heat when I was… 10 or so?” The prisoner wrapped his arms around himself, staring at the ground. “The family’s kids would make fun of me a lot, and the adults never really treated my mom and I well. Thankfully they allowed us to build our own little shelter in the yard, which at least shielded us from rain and hail…”
The officer wrote down notes quickly as Bark spoke. “What kind of farm work did you do?”
“Animals, mostly cattle,” Bark started. “That’s actually how I ended up collecting bones, any sick animals that would pass, I would wait for them to rot a little and then take what I could salvage! It took days but it would be worth it..”
The detective grimaced at the imagery before continuing his questions. “What happened to make you leave that?”
The silence was deafening as Bark tried to figure out his words.
“The… one of the adults would get drunk and.. violent. But I had enough. I took a shovel and hit him, and he didn’t get back up. The adult woman heard and… I knew they’d probably kill me for that, so I hit her as well. I think I still have the man’s skull, it’s got a large crack down over the left eye..”
The man hesitated before writing it down. “What happened after that?”
“I ran away. I don’t remember where I went. I’m pretty sure I ended up crossing into Mexico for awhile…”
Bark continued to recount the crimes and places he went, fleeing countries whenever he would be caught. He confessed to 56 murders, and said he was ‘unsure, but probably did’ murder another 60. He also confessed to 10 recent murders that happened the previous night, yet he adamantly denied the murder of the two inside the home.
After the interrogation, Bark was returned to his cell to serve his sentence in isolation.
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presidenthades · 8 months
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I am doing very minor revisions of Daemon’s Handbook (mostly formatting and continuity errors), and I wanted to do some behind-the-scenes commentary before too much time passes and I forget my original thoughts. Here’s Chapter 7!
(Note that these commentaries aren’t canon to the verse until/unless the author writes them into the series. I might change my mind on a few points later, but these are the thoughts I had while writing.)
If I had to pick a favorite chapter to write, it’s this one. It’s the first post-time skip chapter, so we get to behold all the children (now young adults) in full horny mood.
Also, Alyssa develops a personality, and BOY is it a personality. I originally planned to make her a female version of Aegon III, who is very quiet, but it occurred to me that a hellion would be more fun (and torturous for Daemon, which is the real goal in this fic).
Aegon and Aemond are supposed to return directly to King’s Landing and wait with their family to receive the Dragonstone party, but Aegon decided he couldn’t wait to see Jace again and Aemond only required mild convincing to go along. And yes, the boys took a bath first in some river so they look nice and groomed~
One of Jace’s biggest character quirks is anxiety. She has ALL the anxiety. Comes with being an eldest sibling and second in line for the throne. I don’t consider her shallow, but she perceives her appearance as an important part of her political and social toolkit because the society they live in puts a lot of stock in appearances, especially women’s. So she’s finicky about looking the right part for every occasion. (Also she wants to look nice for her husband whom she hasn’t seen in three years, nothing wrong with that.)
I made Luce a knitter, partly because I’m a knitter and I like incorporating my interests, and partly because I wanted to give her a textile craft that wasn’t embroidery. I hope I’m not being too biased when I say that in this era, knitted products (like socks) are more useful than embroidered products (like fancy handkerchiefs). The practical value of knitting, and it being an acceptable craft for ladies even if it’s not as popular as embroidery, seemed fitting for Luce, who isn’t super conventional but also not a complete rebel. I also really like the imagery of her sending flowery socks to the Stepstones for Aegon and Aemond and Grandpa Corlys to wear.
Daemon is fit for his age, but he’s in his 40s and he’s got a lot of old battle wounds, so chasing around toddlers is fairly strenuous. Also, toddlers are FAST. Alyssa is closer to three than two, and she’s spent her entire life trying to keep up with her older sisters, so she’s got a fairly good sense of balance and isn’t stumbling around as much.
“Pretty girl” is 100% Aegon’s pet name for Jace, and I’m using it gratuitously in one of the sequel fics, which is Jace and Aegon-centric. (I’ll have an update soon on what I’m writing next, but I’ve decided to break down the epic longfic idea into multiple, more manageable mid-length fics.)
Aemond thinks Alyssa is spooked by his eyepatch and scar at first, but she’s actually falling in love at first sight. 😂 She’s got heterochromia so she probably *likes* that his eyes aren’t symmetrical either.
Aegon and Aemond are no longer afraid of Daemon! They’ve seen a lot of shit in the Stepstones, so their middle-aged uncle seems like less of a big deal now. Poor Daemon.
Aegon and Aemond are currently 18 and 16, so I made their stomachs black holes like most teenaged boys. They also have been eating a lot of rations at the Stepstones, even as royal princes, so a “plain” meal at Dragonstone seems awesome.
I have nothing to say about the melons, except that I’m very sorry for Lucera 🥲
Idk why but there’s something about Jace being very dutiful and proper that attracts messy rebels like Aegon and Baela. Opposites attracting, maybe? Kinda like how Luce is on the wilder side but Aemond is super put-together. I’ve thought about a crackish scenario where Viserys messes things up (as usual) and betroths Jace/Aemond and Luce/Aegon. I think Jace and Aemond would get bored with each other while Luce and Aegon might accidentally kill each other.
Jace and Aegon know their siblings are being stupid about their feelings for each other. Jace tries not to meddle (she doesn’t like it when Daemon meddles so she resists the urge), and Aegon makes fun of Aemond in the half-hearted hope it’ll goad Aemond into doing something.
I like to imagine that Luce eventually invents double-entry accounting in this universe. I also think she’s a big fan of the abacus, which is a more visual way of keeping track of numbers. She also likes charts and graphs in general.
The three dragonglass daggers that Luce orders from the blacksmith are for her, Jace, and Joff. (Luce loves all her sisters, but she has a special place in her heart for the three of them who are full-blooded sisters.) Purple for Jace (royal color for the future queen), green for Luce (like the sea and Velaryon colors), red for Joff (Targaryen color, nice and bloody). She isn’t expecting her sisters to use them as weapons; she wanted to make a gesture before Jace’s official wedding, since it marks a huge change in their lives.
I keep describing Luce and Aemond’s relationship in this fic as Pride and Prejudice-esque, and I stand by it. Miscommunication, ego issues, awkward flirting, a failed first proposal. One commenter described Daemon as the anti-Mrs Bennet, trying his best NOT to let the girls marry. 😂 And if we keep the analogy going, Clement Celtigar is Mr Collins while Otto is the closest thing we have to Lady Catherine de Bourgh.
I established in the beginning that Daemon is very bad with feelings. This scene where he tries to comfort Baela is part of his character arc and emotional growth, but he stumbles a few times more before the end of the fic.
I am very pleased that so many readers pinpointed Joff/Daeron as black cat and golden retriever energy, because I was definitely going for that. Daeron spews a lot of word vomit in his one line of dialogue, but you might notice he mentions “I got that thing you really wanted.” See the final scene in Chapter 11 for “that thing.” 👀
Jace is making PR a priority in her reign (and before her reign). She’s observed how loyal the Dragonstone smallfolk are to the Targaryens and wants to spread that loyalty to the realm’s smallfolk in general. This is why she and Aegon do the flight into the city, and why she has her Princess Diana moment on the way to the wedding.
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kerocola · 4 months
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Hi Kero! I just wanted to let you know I am so excited for Eyes/On and any projects you make in the future. Curious what the inspiration(s) to create a semi-long form project like this was?
It's a long one!
I had a failed story I was working on called Lilypad Mall that never did see the light of day. It had a 11 page work document and focused on my frog girl Keroline. Looking back, the project was really unfocused and all over the place, designs didn't have much connection between each other.
Ultimately I scrapped it back in 2021 as I lost interest in it and left to do other things. Focusing on character design practice and whatever I was going to do with the vtuber design I had made.
The whole vtuber thing was going to be general whatever streams of me working or me playing games, with a small animation series meant to tell a backstory of how the character came to be. The basic rundown of that story was first person torture, but I kinda ran out of ways to show body horror and torture from a first person view and tell a story on the side. This is where the name "Eyes/On" came from! I simply kept it because I couldn't think of a better name after the story shifted.
This iteration of Eres was also primarily evil, focusing on her being a mad witch focusing on experiments and making monsters. This whole project was really ambitious and made me realize I dunno if I could stream that often!
So I focused on retooling that story into something else and salvaging the designs. You could say that Eyes/On has been in the works since 2019! As for the current iteration of the story, it's heavily inspired by the shows and music that involve a larger world with tons of other life taking place in it.
Things like Made in Abyss, Houseki no Kuni, Somali and the Forest Spirit, The Ancient Magus' Bride, music from the talented Mamyukka with songs like 蒼の海底都市, アストロノミア, あやかしばなし, and the whole Evilz album.
There's definitely more, but this post is already getting long enough! But I got a little more left to say.
For the side project, it's main inspiration is mostly from my own feelings, partly my dreams, and Yumi Nikki. If it ever does end up becoming a bigger thing I've got a lot of ideas for imagery and designs that I can't do for Eyes/On that I'd love to use for it.
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memento-morianon · 5 months
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(Image description: several small drawings of different textile patterns, with captions and descriptions next to them. The captions of each, from left to right and top to bottom, are as follows:
Orc embroidery, on tanned hide or leather. Lots of angular patterns, evokes animal trails, mostly straight lines. dyed leather, hair, and sinews. The patterns shown are all small and repetitive, much like animal footprints or simple geometric shapes.
Gnomish weaving. Focused on nature imagery, geometric, repetitive patterns for everyday stuff, elaborate sun/moon/mountain imagery for important stuff. Mainly earthy colors. The patterns shown here depict a few simple nature motifs that imply moving water, grass, and abstract critters. Below these are more intricate an detailed images of a mountain, three moons, and the sun.
Elven embroidery, on woven cloth or tanned hide. Lots of freehand curves, mostly plant imagery, tiny stitches for smoother lines, very texture. greater detail for formal things. Colorful. The patterns here depict many curving lines and dots, similar to vines and ferns. Towards the center, there is a flying bird near a block of texture similar to tree bark.
Goblin weaving, mostly for baskets. Very geometric, tight layered weave, so many zig zags. watertight, sealed with tree resin. The patterns shown here are repetitive angular shapes and zig zag lines, following square and diamond weave shapes.
Dwarven beading, on leather or woven cloth. Very geometric, but also kinda kaleidoscope. So much texture, evokes mountain imagery and stones, more beads = more formal. Metal, wood, and stone beads. The patterns here are made of many small lines and circles and other simple shapes, packed close together in directional lines that form large shapes. Some of them mimic a woven texture.
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Decided I needed to practice textile designs so I can make unique visuals on my characters' clothes.
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nakimochiku · 6 months
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that fic meme
How many works do you have on AO3?: 142
What’s your total AO3 word count?: 408,786 (ooh. Not bad?)
What fandoms do you write for?: all. Hell baby i write for fandoms im not even IN. But at the moment, mdzs.
What are your top five fics by kudos: All this time I was just waiting for you (moon knight), These Violent Delights (moon knight), That a Ghost should be so practical (Hamilton), I don’t want anyone else (when i think about you)(moon knight), what we hate in others (we see in ourselves)(attack on titan)
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?: i do cause i actually just really really wanna talk to people!
What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?: probably I Call The Shots(snk), everyone died. Or Keep Pushing (snk), everyone is GOING to die.
What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?: probably Found a Place to Rest my Head (saiyuki), cause no one dies and they adopt kids.
Do you get hate on fics?: on this one particular Hannibal fic
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?: All kinds. Partial to anything with any kinda dirty talk/praise kink. Literally cant write smut without that featured. After that, a lot of D/s tones.
Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?: I’ve actually never written a crossover?! Like at most ive written “ y characters in x universe” like. Typical hogwarts au or some shit. Craziest of those i’ve written was a sentinel/guide au for spn.
Have you ever had a fic stolen?: probably not and im not sure id care even if i did.
Have you ever had a fic translated?: Yep!
 Have you ever co-written a fic before?: Nothing that ever got published. Mostly shooting shit with friends.
 What’s your all-time favorite ship?: Impossible to answer. Changes on every rewatch even of old favs. But i can tell you my ship dynamic! Rivals to friends to lovers. Gimme some rivals to ship ANY day.
What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?: This University Au for moon knight that is sitting half finished in my Docs is fucking haunting me.
 What are your writing strengths?: Putting my whole pussy into whatever it is i’m writing. Also, imagery and extended metaphors.
What are your writing weaknesses?: Cohesion. The ideas are there but smoothing them together is so tough!
Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?: I wish i could do it because it adds a flavour of authenticity to the fic but… i also know i hate reading it, and if i can suspend my disbelief and IMAGINE the character is speaking a different language when im told they are, thats enough.
First fandom you wrote for?: Technically Yugioh, but never posted. So Officially, Naruto.
Fave fic you’ve written?: impossible question BUT gun to my head for an answer, i think i did a DAMN GOOD job on Artemis Agrotera (the walking dead). Some A+ imagery and extended metaphors there.
tagging any mutuals who haven’t done this yet. But also specifically @first-renegade
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yeyinde · 1 year
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I’m not sure if this question is going to make a lot of sense (im kinda drunk whoops) but do you have a sort of thesaurus/dictionary you use? I’m absolutely in love with your imagery, I’ve been trying to get back into writing lately as a way to help with mental stress and your writing just has this vibe to it that feels like it heals my soul. is it possible to learn this power? Have you just picked up all these gorgeous synonyms from years of practice? Granted English isn’t my first language so finding these words myself seems to be extra hard for me, if you have a tool that could help a girl out I’d be infinitely grateful lol
Hiya!!
I mostly learned this in primary school, I'd say! We had this amazing French teacher who would assign us words each night for homework and we'd have to find as many synonyms and antonyms as we possibly could, so it sort of carried over from that!
Also, I get distracted very easily when I'm writing, and most of the ones I found were through procrastination because I'd look a word up, and go down as many synonym rabbit holes as I could just to avoid finishing a fic 😅
I don't have any particular app I use (mainly because most of them are seldom updated/poorly maintained). I've tried a lot of them but nothing beats the instant answer of word + define in google and its etymology page on Wikipedia.
To keep track of them all, I just add all the words that look/sound pretty to me on a massive Google doc. It makes things so much easier because you can categorise them however works best for you! I keep them neat by just adding little keywords I can search up. (Like, emotions and then a list of subcategories; or actions; or words for "x, y, z."). I found most of the words I use by just clicking random words and their synonyms or by seeing a word in a fic or a poem, or a novel that stood out to me.
And ahhhhh, you have no idea how incredibly happy it made me to read the lovely things you said! 'Just has this vibe to it that feels like it heals your soul'?! Stop!! Nice things are not allowed to be said about me and my sloppy writing! 😭
Thank you so much!!! 🖤 I really hope this helps!
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fumifooms · 2 years
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Byclair take, + prompts
Hear me out hear me out... Will x Lucas.
Ok so? Chemistry? Decent potential there. Healthy, interesting dynamic? Def there. Can u have an arc about internalised homophobia, like byler? Def, on both sides. Can Lucas deserve Will & be an unwavering good friend worst case scenario? Ya
Okok now let’s go into the specifics
Ok because Will’s character/whole arc is about healing through trauma & accepting change/letting go, and self-discovery too ig, while Lucas’ is like, accepting himself and strenghtening his identity and convictions and stuff... Lucas can be Will’s constant and support while Will is Lucas’ moral compass and his anchor, his reminder that being different isn’t something to repress, but most of all, a reminder of who he used to be as a kid when he allowed himself to just be.
I’m a elmax shipper so Max isn’t an obstacle to me, and if she is that can be good angst/character arc material there. Like! Ya want parallels? I’ll dish ya parallels of Will letting his love for Mike go & Lucas accepting that him and Max aren’t good for each other romantically
Dynamic? Ok they actually mesh soooo well, like think about it. [Skip the whole paragraph if u don’t want my take on other Will ships, no bashing i just find them boring srry, idk i like comparing ships when explaining my like of one in particular, it just clicks to me. I’m aware this paragraph might turn ppl away but I just wanna share thoughts :( ] Will shipped with any of the other kids is kinda milktoast. Mike? Cute/emotional symbolism and narrative but tbh not much substance /chemistry in practice (imo, no bashing intended), Will likes Mike’s kindness and idealism but them dating would kinda just be Will being cute about liking Mike and them holding hands and doing things together ig but,,, talking? Idk how one would write byler dialogue tbh it feels like kinda just prose, mostly bc that’s what it’s meant to be in canon i think- like, a narrative instead of a ship. ANYWAYS I GOT SIDETRACKED. Will with Dustin? Twilight Sparkle x Pinkie Pie energy which is cute, but again if u dig deeper there’s not much to exploit besides aesthetics. They could banter and Dustin would crash Will’s dnd games and they could have cute wild & free spirit x prissy rigid thinking soft artist imagery & interactions but like,, they wouldn’t really bring anything to the relationship, esp not something that their friendship doesn’t already give. Will with Eleven? Well, sibling dynamic now, but they’d always kinda just have been the 2 misfits having an understated soft romance n being sidelined lowkey. They could hurt/comfort but bot much else, and again this is smth that a friendship does already, and better i think. Will with Max? This one is actually kinda interesting to consider, esp if u think about them both having upside down personal haunting trauma, but that’s mostly bc Max & Lucas are similar in personality/character anyways, which is one of the reasons the lumax ship kinda fails at being interesting and endearing (to me).
But Will with Lucas? It fits so well.
It’s the "we’ve been friends for years but we’ve kinda grown distant lately, but even now when we don’t hang out much and spirits of the past are haunting us, I can see your pain while no one else does". It’s "I understand how you’re hurting because you want to fit in, because I wish I could, too". It’s "we’re both kinda getting sidelined from our friend groups, aren’t we, and we’re both not fitting in with the others quite like we did before, and we don’t play d&d together much anymore, really, and we’re lonely and stuff but we see each other and idk, i find it easy to click with you, like I always have. Wanna go grab an ice cream?"
It’s the best of every world!! Fluff?? Very doable! Angst? Soo easy! Poetic hurt/comfort inner monologue, my beloved? Super tonally compelling. Platonic instead of romantic? Also such untapped potential, but the relationship being of a romantic nature does bring something to the table!
Logical yet bold Lucas. Soft yet driven Will. Lucas being there to comfort Will unconditionally, but also being able to confidently tell him, when he’s having self-doubts, that it’s all bs. Lucas reassuring him that heartache isn’t the end of the world when he notices his love for Mike, ever observant, then Will doing the same for him when he goes through his last breakup with Max, and a connection forming from there. Them just hanging out, alone the two of them for whatever reason, because everyone else has a lover, or they just feel like it, and they hang out and talk and chill. Will and Lucas having one on one d&d sessions!! Because the others aren’t available for Will’s schedule and wants, and Lucas misses it, and also he’s always loved the ingenious creativity of Will’s campaign ideas and the passion with which he roleplays. Lucas, the out of place jock, and Will, the bullied misfit. Gimme the AUs!! Gimme the slow burns!! Gimme the secret pining narratives!! Everything would be SO good
Ok hot take but not really, but I was lowkey pissed at how the season just, doesn’t talk about Lucas and sports at all? The show kinda implies that he joined the basketball team and everything just for the brownie points with the popular crowd, to be accepted and all, but does Lucas just not care about the sport?? Does he not like basketball?? Is he naturally gifted to have landed that winning score or did he spend many hours desperately training to have a chance of popular kids accepting him? We don’t know!! Why don’t we know when that’s like, such an obvious loose thread?! I always kinda just thought that he, y’know, wanted to do basketball on the basketball team but the way it’s all done and how Lucas says something like "I should never have joined the team bc they suck and i have u guys" in the last ep, I was like?? So was the basketball just an extra to making the team or? To be clear, there’s nothing wrong with that narrative, it’s actually really compelling. But the thing is that the show doesn’t address it at all, it kinda implies it but doesn’t state anything or does anything with it so it kinda just dies a no closure death and feels off and ruins the potential when all the cards right for it was laid out Actually that last criticism is a common flaw i’ve found throughout the season tbh. Putting all the crumbs necessary for a cool pay-off, then just doing nothing with it or worse, dismissing them and going back on them.
ANYWAYS where i was gonna go with that is, Lucas teaching Will how to play basketball and do scores and them playing ball together, even if Will is clumsy and shy/reluctant about trying sports <3 Lucas chilling on Will’s bed head on his laps, prob listening to music or audiobook or thinking about life as Will draws. And when Will wants to show Lucas his drawings, Lucas immediately shifts his focus on it and is genuinely invested in them and loves it, and it rekindles his love for fantasy and d&d that he thought he had lost. And maybe Will allows Lucas to be soft, after all. With Max, he wanted to be though and worthy, to prove he could be the best boyfriend, that he shouldn’t be dumped, that he was as cool as her and that her brother shouldn’t have seen him as someone she shouldn’t hang out with. With the rest of the gang, he has to be smart and bring something to the conversation, keep them safe, be useful, offer reasons for why he wants to do some new things instead of playing d&d with them, why he hangs out with them less lately because of inner turmoil he doesn’t wanna share, the insecurities of having to be more mature, more adult, more responsible and irreproachable, and of needing to conform to be accepted where you think it matters. To keep appearances up, to have it both ways and overlook shady behavior of your new pals until they threaten your real, old ones who you debate on ratting out or saving them at the cost of your safety and status. And now when you look at all of them, you can only hope they’re ready to forgive and forget the time you ditched them for assholes and had to be pushed to the brink to go back to their side fully, hope that you can one day forgive yourself. Hope that Max can love you, and that maybe this time you’ll feel whole when you convince her to get back together with you, because you dedicate all you have to her and if she doesn’t want that then maybe you can never be enough for anything. He has so much to prove.
But with Will? Ya, he can chill with Will. Doesn’t mean angst disappears, it just means that he feels less pressure and in a way, they’ve seen the worst lows of each other in a way that feels liberating, instead of putting standards and expectations on their shoulders. And maybe Lucas can let himself be a dork, if Will is there being the hugest dork of them all and is still so lovable and amazing and thriving. And as Will rambles about his new convoluted worldbuilding and campaign ideas to Lucas, Lucas entertains the visions of fantastic grandiosity and dragons and heroes saving the world with the power of goodness. And he loves what he sees, what he says, and he loves the voice, and he loves the way he rambles and talks about it all with such a spark, passion that Lucas himself had become to think was impossible to muster for anything anymore, and he loves him, and maybe that means he can bring himself to love himself, and love life. And they chill in Will’s room, and life is good and sweet and they’ve both found someone they can truly, fully enjoy being in love with.
I LOVE THEM I AM SOLD GUYS I HAVE SPOKEN MYSELF INTO SHIPPING THEM AND I SHALL MAKE TUMBLR ESSAYS
I never ever thought i would be galaxy braining about Lucas Sinclair out of anyone but. That just goes to show how everything can be passionating with the right fanon spice
Lucas is an interesting character, and Will is too, they’re both flawed but so lovely, and idk Lucas in canon just was never really given the right environment to shine and thrive as a character you will want to ship and write fics of and stan in my experience, but Will x Lucas? Reborn potential & i love it sm
Also like, idk, Lucas has such good Eleven step-brother vibes & potential? It’d be so fricking good and funny. Lucas is such a good straightman & sassy voice of reason i love him (which is more than I could say about my feelings about him like 2 hours ago lol. Canon why are u set on reducing him to the boring sidelines)
Okok, Fumi out, rarepair rant over. They came to me in a flash randomly during a work shift and I am so glad for that blessing
... Excuse me have I been writing about them nonstop for almost an hour
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13. Is there a trope you wouldn’t write if it was the last trope on earth?
15. A Hollywood producer tells you that they want to film just one of your fics. Which fic would you want it to be?
13: So originally I was going to say ‘ABO’ but I’m not sure that’s a trope. And then I got reminded of one that puts me in a frothing rage every single TIME. Ahem.
I really hate the trope where a strawman ‘pacifist’ is put in just so they can be converted to violence later in the story. And it’s so common. It really bothers me, partly because I am a pacifist. And I don’t think it’s a position you arrive at without thinking about things a lot. The world, our global society, is so structured to support violence that an absolute rejection of it is radical. And I don’t think anyone gets there without thinking a lot about what violence is, what it does, what the alternatives are and mean.
So I’m never adding to that noise. Pacifists when I write them are going to be committed to their ideals and behave like pacifists. Whether that’s dismantling landmines or feeding the hungry or just standing in front of an occupying force and saying ‘Shoot me’.
Violence in fiction can be fun. And stories that use violence don’t have to take it seriously. But if they’re trying to take it seriously, if they’re bringing in arguments against violence… then I think you kinda need to actually show those arguments and demonstrate those beliefs in practice.
That’s just me.
And my endless frothing weasel rage.
15: This is a toss up between And do Abominable Things With Grace (Hannibal/Pacific Rim crossover that’s mostly about unethical medical experiments) and Three Forms of Love (Elsa/Mulan Once Upon a Time that’s about love and duty and cultural differences).
I think out of the fic I’m proud of and I’d like to see transformed they’d have the most interesting imagery in live action. Larceny, Jailbreak and Running Red Lights would, obvs be better as an animated piece. And some of the pieces I love most (Another Man’s Freedom Fighter) just would not work as live action without changing them hugely. They’re too introspective.
Abominable Things as a live action would be incredibly trippy. And gory. And unlike anything I’ve seen in live action. Because it’s an action movie from the perspective of imprisoned test subjects. And because of the way I used the Drift would lead to some interesting pov confusion.
Three Forms of Love as a live action would work almost like an Arthurian romance. A lot of intricate costumes and sweeping shots. A lot of visual detail. Hell just seeing the ice creep over Mulan’s armour, a little at a time, as she falls for a Queen and doesn’t want to admit it to herself. The conversation they have about freyja vs skaldmaer vs idisi, all those quiet longing moments in the dark.
Maybe I’ve been listening to too much Gawain and the Green Knight but having written it out I’m going with Three Forms of Love. It would look beautiful.
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THIS IS SUCH A HARD QUESTION!!! I rlly rlly loved Swing My Way, but im SUCH a sucker for Off the Record... The best ship you've written for MMMM I lowkey can't pick, this one either but I think CM!Y/N and Changmin are sUCH a win!!! Something I remember vividly from reading one of your fics THE DANCE SCENE IN OFF THE RECORD... the imagery was absolutely incredible and just loved that the thing that brought the lovers together led to their first kiss... What made me the most emotional after reading the presence fic u wrote for beomgyu... god the subtle sadness,,, hurt my soul SO good... What I like the most about your writing How defined you make the universes in ur fics! liu honestly felt so grounded, and it makes reading the continuity rlly easy across fics. A fic i'm excited for you updating/posting OUGH this is so hard to choose, im probably most hype for The Reveal and Hot Commodity rn.... just seeing the small snips in each of the other fics makes me SO tempted to know and read... but then i remember u haven't written them out to post yet and im like "oh." A character/ship I didn't enjoy/think about as much before you wrote about them Surprisingly Hyunjae and Chanhee! Esp after reading Simple Gifts,,, like ive always seen Chanhee more of like... bestie energy but that fic did a complete 180 for me and i was like "DAMN OK! Cute as fuck!" A fic of yours that i've re-read Any time u've done sr or reposted others' reactions, i don't notice until ive reread the fic and gotten to the tags at the bottom lmao If i've ever shared/talked about your fic to someone else OH i wish. im mostly sitting in private squealing and reacting where no one can see me...
AHH oh my gosh 🃏 anon !!! thank you so much for ur lovely ask :'))) it's so nice to hear from u again !!
omg i think i would be biased to say i agree w u that i liked cm!yn and cm 🤧🤧 but all of them are self-inserts for me 🤣 im so glad u liked otr and swing my way tho :')) im always so nervous when i release fics if people will like them or how i portrayed everything </3 THE DANCE SCENE AND THE PRACTICE ROOM KISS (´Д⊂ヽ i am actually so happy i thought of that for their first kiss skfbkefnkf i just knew their first was gonna be the catalyst to get them to finally talk abt /that/ elephant in the room LOL
rAAAH presence....... me and that fic are kinda love-hate in away (_ _;) she almost didn't make the cut, but im soo so happy that u found comfort in it!! hearing that always makes me happy i posted it <3
NOOOO STOPSJFBJDNF AHAHHAH cuz i also forget sometimes that i haven't written the fic and i wanna say something related to the plots but no one would get it :')))) THEY'LL BE WRITTEN EVENTUALLY THO ISTG
omg simple gifts 🫂 my baby 🫂 my unplanned masterpiece skfnenfbnf lol that sounds like she was like an unplanned pregnancy 💀 low-key she was ANYWAYS—
HELLO I LOVE U THANKS FOR RE-READING SO MANY THINGS EVEN THO ITS LIKE ON ACCIDENT LOWKEY 🤣😭 sending hugs and kisses !!! 💖
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Okay so before I fucking faint of exaustion as a side effect of being stupid and sleeping only 4 hours, I want to talk about how surprised I was in the process of trying to archive my old phone's notes.
So, to put it simply, I used the notes app as the to-go writing app since 2018. Yes, I still used it as a, you know, notes app (and would doodle on it sometimes, but I didn't archive those), but it was mostly made out of random, unfinished texts.
Thing is, I never fucking finished these texts because I thought they were stupid, and that my writing abilities were embarrassing and probably resembled something out of wattpad. Hmmm... thing is (part 2) that... some of it was actually pretty fucking cool. I mean, yeah, I was always shit at writing romance, and some of the texts were cringe edgy stuff a 12 year old would make, and the notes were full of poems and songs in broken english (I got better at writing english from 2019 to 2021), besides some porn I found locked (which I archived for shits and giggles aka make fun of younger me in some years), but there was some very good shit too.
I mean, it was no masterpiece, it was very flawed, many times I lost track of the story, it had kinda of a more aesthetic-based thing than a thematic-based thing (in other words, I'd write the best emotions and imagery I could convey, and would abandon the work if the images started getting "not right") but... that's actually very important to me. I actually learned how to write extreme emotions from this overly-edgy time period of my writing style, where I'd keep the text as simple as possible, but would try to convey as much image and feeling as possible too. I am now thinking about one of my recent works (a piece of fanfiction which you can find here), although it not being... fantastic, it has great influence of that time period, with the changes that I actually learned a lot more and managed to convey even more grotesque feelings by mixing words together (shoutout to my friend for helping me with things like texture and sound and taste, I think he made the story even more grotesque by suggesting this to me). I think that, although I was very ambitious, that was a very experimental phase for my writing, and that I am still on the experimental phase, but with different things. You get the idea? I have some stories here from 2019 that were just lines of dialogue that were just practice for writing things such as despair, comfort, melancholy, imagery.... it's all very sweet to think about, how much I wrote and how something I was embarrassed of was actually of surprising quality (not great but decent yk).
Perhaps one day I'll try to rewrite those bits of text, to see if I made progress with the years. Visual arts are more easy to compare old from new but I think I can do that with text too.
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