#this wasn’t going to make or break me.

[the-hopeless-haze]

Dudes I am sorry to spam your dash with MCR stuff but like. Idk. To me this is truly a lesson in just being kind to myself because like did I need to spend the money on this? No. No I didn’t. I have always always always been restrictive with myself like “oh you don’t need that” and like honestly I think it’s part of the reason why I’m miserable a lot of the time lmao. Like I worked for my money and if I want to spend it on something that’s going to make me irrationally happy like. Good for me? I have every right to do this? I’m an adult now and I have the agency to spend my own money on things that make me happy.

#idk what happened in my childhood that made me like this but I was always very strict and tight with my money #and it’s like. that’s a good thing! #but idk experiences and such are worth it sometimes and I need to break out of that. #i have super bad anxiety so I need the comfort of having a savings account but like #this wasn’t going to make or break me. #anyway take my advice and be kind to yourself today and do something you normally wouldn’t #it feels… very nice #this is definitely one of the best things about being an adult tbh #i am aware I am speaking from a place of privilege here. don’t get me wrong #but like idk this doesn’t just have to be monetary like go for a walk when it’s nice out alone bc you deserve it. #you know? just do something for you. #idk I am… whew

[leverage-ot3]

okay I’ve seen a lot of posts about sterling just being crowley and. guys. the implications just hear me out 😭😭😭

bending lore slightly here BUT let’s say crowley’s body was once inhabited by a human and crowley is possessing the body (maybe he kills the initial inhabitant bc he doesn’t care)

but he still has the guy’s memories. he doesn’t bother keeping up appearances with his ‘ex wife’ because he is too busy building up his hell empire. BUT for some reason he can’t quite identify, he still feels something towards his ‘daughter’. he lets the divorce happen and doesn’t feel the need (or desire) to fight for custody, but he can never quite forget her, to cast her out of his mind for good

some hijinks ensue with the leverage team. it’s mostly because even a grind culture demon wants some off time every once in a while, and for him the insurance investigator stuff is more of a hobby. interacting with the leverage crew is very low stakes for him, and honestly, quite amusing. they aren’t on his level power-wise, but that ford character gives him the mental exercise he hasn’t experienced in, well, he can’t even remember

he can feel their frustration and anger when they learn he has become employed by interpol and feeds off it. it’s great, and relaxing in a way he is never able to achieve while conducting hell-related business

one year he gets wind that olivia is in a really bad situation associated with his ‘ex wife’s’ new husband. he’s selling vital hardware to terrorists, and while that might actually be the kind of chaos he would normally support or be entertained by as the king of hell, something feels wrong about letting olivia stay anywhere near that man

he calls upon the body’s adversaries. he wouldn’t admit it, even under duress, BUT he feels slightly fond of them. nate for the three dimensional chess they play, sophie for her ability to charm and disguise, parker for her chaos and slightly unsettling nature (it’s the autism swag and being bad with human interaction but he doesn’t know that lol), hardison for his unapologetic intelligence and eliot for his hardened violent past and take-no-shit persona (he’s fun to tease)

they perform exactly as he expected, right into his carefully crafted plan. and then olivia is under his care and things get more complicated. he keeps her FAR, FAR away from anything related to the supernatural (heh). no one can find out about her, ESPECIALLY not those imbecile hunter brothers (if for nothing else than the embarrassment in revealing he has a weak spot)

not sure how to work it into this post but I also want to add that somewhere along the way he develops feelings for nate and sophie. the frame up job is near and dear to my heart and you can’t convince me that isn’t fighting as flirting behavior. his interpol persona is more of a side hustle so to speak, but he finds it fun (relaxing, even) to fill that role. there aren’t any obligations of other demons, bothersome hunters, or anything like that. nate and sophie are low stakes, except, they aren’t, really. they make him feel things he can’t ever really remember feeling. his heart beats fast when sophie sat in his lap and cradled his face, his hands sweat when nate gives him that certain smug look. he’s exasperated by the way they can run circles around him like no one else has ever before. they annoy him and get under his skin in a way no one else can and it’s infuriating. but also not, at the same time. maybe he likes it

and then the long goodbye job happens

hear me out and suspend your belief here for a second, because I can’t remember if crowley supernaturally knows when ppl die/are dead or not.

so nate is in interpol custody and the interviewer is obviously out of her depth. (most people are, when it comes to nathan ford.) he walks in and pours the man a drink, but he’s fuming. somewhere along the way he came to care about the team. hell and suffering is literally in his (official) job description, but he can admit (only to himself) that he admires what they do. it’s not for him, not anything close to where his passions and interests lie, but he respects their drive and purpose. he is also aware enough to acknowledge that they are a family, a group of misfits that never belonged quite anywhere except to each other.

and nate fucking blew it up, ruined it, because his vice is being so obsessed with the end game that he is apparently willing to let his team, his family, the people that anchor him to reality, die because the ends supposedly justify the means.

not this time. not to sterling crowley

he is enraged. he can admit within the confines of his mind that he cares for nate, for sophie, even for the other three (though nate and sophie have somehow made it a hierarchy where they are more important to him. which he will dissect later in private. maybe.)

nate let them die, he let sophie die, and for what? the black book? hell below, crowley would have made things easier somehow, if he knew that this was where nate’s sights had lied. he would have prevented this somehow. he wants to have prevented this. he doesn’t want any of them dead and is too afraid to check and verify because that would make it real. the idea of sophie (or any of them) somehow making it to hell instead of heaven would probably break something in him he might not be able to repare fully.

he yells at nate- he’s angry. hellfire burning in his heart because everything is ruined. the deaths aside (however hard it is to set them aside in his mind), nate will not recover from this, not ever. this will be the start of the end, he is sure. a miserable, guilt-ridden existence where he drinks himself to death and nothing will save him. it plays out in crowley’s mind in a thousand different ways that are beyond painful to conceptualize, even in theory.

the story starts to unravel and there is a game afoot. a solemn, miserable, infuriating game because the con is still in session because parker is alive and in the building- which sets another fire alight in his chest. ‘parker even know you got hardison killed?’ he rages for her grief when she finds out. he knows it will double when she finds out eliot has perished, too, because he isn’t fucking blind.

but nate is a brilliant man, lest he forget too quickly. they are all alive, and somehow still the entire crew slips through his fingers. he’s not even angry (he never would have been- he doesn’t actually try too hard to catch them. it’s about the game, not the consequences). he lets them keep the black book because he’s fucking exhausted and honestly, they more than earned it.

‘now we’re even. tell sophie to drive carefully’. they will never be even, not really. crowley would never admit or agree that being human is the superior state of being, but that have made him feel human in a way he doesn’t actually mind. they keep him on his toes and match him in a way unique to them, they remind him that there are other things than the realm of hell. not necessarily bigger than hell, but maybe just as important in a different sense.

watching the van drive away, something inside him settles. when he walked into the interrogation room that day he thought this was the beginning of the end. it’s not the end at all, not an end to anything. it’s a continuation of their story. maybe, he thinks, a beginning to a new era in it

#before anyone says anything YES I KNOW HOW SPN LORE WORKS I WATCHED IT FOR MANY YEARS #I am just making this silly post for my own (and possibly your) amusement #I’m not digging too heavily into spn plot because I haven’t watched in forever and don’t trust my memory to make accurate commentary lol #also I know it’s probably layed but lied looked better somehow don’t worry about it #sorry this is so long I wasn’t sure where to break it to a read more bc all of it was too important to me 😭💀 #tell me in the comments if you’d prefer a read more and where you think it should go #I haven’t been into spn for years HOW DOES THIS AU HAVE SUCH A CHOKEHOLD OVER ME #eliot spencer #parker #alec hardison #leverage ot3 #parker x hardison x eliot #(background) #nate ford #sophie devereaux #jim sterling #nate x sophie #nate x sophie x sterling #crossovers #leverage x spn #leverage x supernatural #supernatural #crowley spn #crowley supernatural #crowley #leverage #mine #not even queueing this I need it posted immediately. instant gratification #pls like rb comment etc I need the validation #I ended up putting a read more for the long goodbye job

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[levmada]

when will aot fans stop saying hange’s death was a s*icide

just say you have the media literacy of a grain of sand from idiot island and go

#no this makes me so mad… #there are a lot of bad aot takes that go around #but this take couldn’t be MORE diametrically opposed to hange’s character #how can you say hange willingly went to certain death LIKE THEY DIDNT CARE ABT THEIR DUTY AS A SCOUT #when their duty is the exact reason they did it in the first place #they wanted to make it up to the living scouts they feel like they failed by letting the rumbling get this far which includes their dead #comrades #also everyone else was ‘too important’ strategically like the titan shifters the ackermans and everyone else wasn’t experienced enough to #hold off the titans for that long (connie and jean) #at least it would’ve been much more likely that they wouldve died than hange #they wanted it to be ‘their turn’ so that they would feel they DID something for the survey corps when before #they said erwin’s one mistake was making them commander and expressed overall they didn’t do enough #after hange YELLED at jean and mikasa earlier that NO ONE in the scouts would be as selfish as to let the rumbling happen #you REALLY think hange would be selfish enough to hop at the chance to kill themself ? #give me a break #hange zoe #hange aot #snk hange #hange.thoughts

[sailforvalinor]

…well, turns out changing to a Jo pfp is fitting in more ways than one.

#yeah turns out I’m going to be having a Jo and Laurie on the Hill moment. hopefully not to such a dramatic degree but #I went out with The Boy yesterday and I was dreading it so much #and it was fine but then at the end he asked if we could make it official that we were dating #and I asked him to give me a little bit of time to think (which he was super sweet about he did literally nothing wrong) #but yeah I just came to the conclusion within ten seconds of leaving the restaurant that it wasn’t going to work. like I felt nothing when #he asked me that question. and I wanted this to work so bad! it makes so much sense on paper but I’m just not feeling it #and I talked to my dad about it and he said that because the part of the brain that processes emotions is not connected to the part that #processes language aren’t connected that people who are married struggle to put into words why they married their spouse #so if I can’t put into words why I don’t want to date this guy it’s perfectly valid #and I suppose he’s right I just feel terrible about it. like how often do you find a guy this courteous and genuinely good? and like I #think maybe part of what’s bothering me was that there was almost no romance to this. like never at any point did he tell me that he even #liked me. it was just ‘hey we’ve hung out a few times now should we say we’re dating?’ and I’m not trying to rag on him he’s probably just #shy but it rang a little like a business proposition to me #but ugh. now I have to call (because I’m not going to do it over text) and break this poor boy’s heart #it’s a really good thing I have the play and my novel to distract me otherwise I’d be a mess #anyway prayers would be appreciated

[acesammy]

man how do you tell someone you literally do not have the emotional bandwidth to deal with their breakdown

#Like. Hey stop sending me emotionally manipulative texts I keep having panic attacks when I see them <3 #stop calling me 5 times in a row when it’s almost midnight and I have work tomorrow #like I /do/ care about you but I fuxking /cant/ with this #don’t text me shit like ‘I’m jealous that you can engage in your interests bc I don’t think I’ll ever be able to again’ #bro I am GRASPING at the small amounts of comfort drawing and spn are giving me rn what do you want me to DO #I know I shouldn’t ghost #but that’s what I’ve been doing and I just. #fuck me dude I’m trying to put my focus towards finding jobs to apply to. Towards actually making my hours at my #Current job #bc I have family memebers dying and I need to visit them and the family that is around #Ugh I’m just. Maybe this would’ve gone differently if I wasn’t on the fucking brink already #but I am and I can’t and I cannot be the person you’re obsessed with #Anyways I’m on my lunch break crying in a park and I just want to stop existing #lea speaks #can’t wait to go back and work until 7 bc that’s the only way I can think to make my hours to visit my brother next week #Vent

[jellie-the-aqua-puma]

I have a feeling, IF Gojo actually survives this and IF he loses his six eyes ability as some have theorized, we’re going to find out the answer to:

“Are you Gojo Satoru because you’re the strongest or are you the strongest because you’re Gojo Satoru?”

I’m not sure where Gege is going with JJK at this point, so I don’t know what purpose that would serve given everything that’s happened, however, I can’t lie and say that I am absolutely not looking forward to it being the latter (You are the strongest because you are Gojo.) which I wholeheartedly believe is the answer to that.

#meaning that it wasn’t the techniques that made him strong #he made the techniques strong #Gege I have some major beef with you right now #but if we do end up finding the answer to that I will concede to your mad geniuses #I never knew or understood why Geto said that until just now #I was like “what a stupid thing to say when you’re breaking up with me - hater” #but now I see there might have been more to that #because we’ve seen Gojo is highly intelligent and creative capabale of performing feats like no other #he can’t do that just because he inherited the technique #didn’t Kenjaku kill the last six eyes user #the man absolutely makes the ability in this case #which we can parallel with Kenjaku’s use of Geto’s body #Geto didn’t know how potential. he was special grade for a reason but didn’t know he could inherit techniques #Kenjaku did. he brought that out. #that damn toji. Geto. why did you have to go #but thank you Geto for asking this question #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #jjk Gojo #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu #kenjaku #jjk kenjaku #spoilers #spoiler #jjk spoilers #also. where tf is Kenny? no way Sukuna is the big bad guy

[glittertimes]

I do not want to hate men in a way that leans into transmisogyny or ignores how men of color are harmed by harmful gender stereotypes. But this month has made me really really hate men. Oh bell hooks we are really in it now!

#I broke up with my shitty partner this month and then I stayed with my sister in nyc for a week bc being in my house depresses even me even #when I’m not going through a break up loll #and like I explored the whole city by myself and like the only times I felt genuinely unsafe were when this record store employee kept #trying to get me to look at CDs behind the counter and told me to stay and hang out and tried to get me to take off my mask #bc he wanted to see my face and then the time I went to my sister’s friends party #and I was already falling asleep bc I wasn’t used to the time change and this guy wouldn’t stop trying to talk to me #and he put his hand on my knee as he got up from the couch and I was just so grossed out by him the entire time #personal #everyone’s says cities are unsafe but unhoused ppl and public transit don’t make me feel unsafe shitty creepy men make me feel unsafe lmao

[saphira-approves]

SOOOOO HAPPY but also so so sad because nasuada is mortal 😭😭😭

Listen. LISTEN. IT’S OKAY. IT DOESN’T MATTER. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT THE LOVE IS THERE OKAY. LIFE MAY BE FLEETING BUT LOVE IS ETERNAL AND MURTAGH IS LOVED BY SO MANY OF THE DEAD ALREADY WHAT’S ONE MORE.

#murtagh spoilers #this has been the one thing that made me hesitant about them as a pairing but like #it’s the same tragedy we’re going to see play out with roran and katrina and eragon. eragon’s going to outlive them #just as murtagh is going to outlive nasuada #the difference is that (arguments about how much of love is choice aside) if murtagh cared about how much that could hurt him he could #break it off. the only reason he’s really made any steps toward that have been to protect nasuada’s position. if they can make it work #i think he will throw himself into it 100%. eragon doesn’t have that flexibility with the stronghammers. he GREW UP with roran #and now he’s going to outlive him! #the inheritance cycle right now is an epic tale of romance and victory but soon it’s going to turn into tragedy and THAT IS OKAY #WE’RE GOING TO BE OKAY. THEY’RE GOING TO BE OKAY. because what matters is that THE LOVE IS THERE #BECAUSE IF THE LOVE WASN’T THERE NEITHER WOULD THE TRAGEDY #BUT IF YOU TAKE AWAY THE TRAGEDY ALL YOU HAVE IS FARCE #galbatorix tried to take away the tragedy by *not caring* and that! was! his! downfall!

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[nightly-ruse]

Yknow something I didn’t realize about warrior cats? They don’t actually ever write the bonds between parents and kits. For being a series that almost always writes characters love interests and kits they never show the bond between a parent and child. They never show a parent teaching a kit, rarely telling stories, spending real time with them, or even grieving the loss of kits.

Sounds odd with the grief part esp as there are big cases of characters who have lost kits but like it’s not shown that much and then just written off (like Sparkpelt, Squirrelflight, Leafpool, Palebird, Goldenflower, Graystripe with either of his litters)

#idk it just kinda bothers me #if you going to at least give every cat a love interest maybe actually right the love part of parenthood #I mean I know fandom thinks Firestar was a great papa but he really didnt interact a crazy amount or wasn’t shown interacting with either of #his daughters which sucks #it’s like parents are more mentors occasionally showing up for a word of advice or comfort #and then nothing else #this is sprouting 100% from watching slimecicles’s pov in qsmp #cuz he plays the role of a dad grieving his daughter fighting to get her back breaking apart when she’s gone #then exiling himself to try and make up for killing his daughter’s best friend #it’s dedication. real love. and I’ve just never seen that in this crap cat series #ruse rambles #warrior cats #wc #the purple text time

[ahalliance]

sometimes i remember that 10’s story arc is about a happy person who’d just started learning how to love life again progressively losing everything and everyone they’d loved and in the end dying terrified and alone. lol

#and despite it all they were still the doctor . amen #jay rambles #doctor who #10th doctor #this isn’t a neg post or anything either 😭 im just. blorbo from my show breaks my heart #this is a point in my ‘out of all the docs to have back for the 60th 10/14 makes the most sense’ list #like… the only doc who wasn’t content to go gets another chance…. they get a chance to say ‘im ready to go’ or some shit…… #let blorbo from my show die happy #this calls for a 10th doctor era rewatch me thinks #watched nine a while ago and 11 a bit more recently

[milo-is-rambling]

Need to stop making jokes about my grief and depression but then literally who would I be anymore.

#idk who I am if I’m not constantly making fun of myself and all my problems #and usually not dealing with them #my sadness is like a bandaid that I refuse to rip off and instead I’m just peeling it agonizingly slow and it’s also somehow peeling all of #the skin off my body at the same time and I become a live wound of a person #I wish I had my shit together enough for college or living on my own bs sometimes I think the only thing that would fix me would be picking #me up and putting me in a different state somewhere up north closer to my friends and like that’s all I need to fix me #if I wasn’t so painfully isolated life would be stellar but i can’t ever bring myself to reach out and I’m afraid constantly that everyone #hates me and is wishing I’d stop bothering them wahhhhhhhh I hate it !!!! my brain is evil!!!! I hate that it’s attatched to the rest of me! #my mom will be like. you don’t take responsibility for yourself and your feelings and you wallow in them and you blame your brain instead of #fixing yourself and I’ll be like. 😐. so how do I stop? and she’s like. idk. #I feel like my head is on fire I’m pausing my tolerance break tonight I’m gonna go get some mystery weed from my moms weed tray and pack a #bowl and probably cry some more #why did the year and a half dad death anniversary have to happen on such a humid day I just wanna walk thru the woods and cry and smoke

[dix-rose]

It’s such a foreign concept to me that bad people get to be happy. I know we as people make our own happiness but I don’t understand how people who went out of their way to hurt people get to be happy while the people they hurt have to suffer with what they did to them.

#stupid shit #I lurked again #I want her to suffer so much which makes me a bad human being but it is truly not fair #it’s not fair that we live in this narrative that she’s the uwu soft I just love to spread kindness girl #even though we ALL KNOW she wasn’t #it was a stupid TikTok I watched of hers #she went through each month one by one and ranked them based on what happened and it was SO sugarcoated #‘my friend group started to fall apart (for the best)’ #yeah maybe it fell apart because you were lying to everyone about being sexually assaulted???? #and that your BEST FRIEND tried kissing you when everyone knew damn well that she would NEVER because she loves her boyfriend to death #or what about the time where you cheated on your then boyfriend with two #maybe three other guys??? #and what about you calling off work every other day claiming you were sick but you really just didn’t want to come in??? #then you have to take a leave of absence because you were too sick to stand up but I guess not too sick to go to Disney #weird huh #then she goes on how she ‘found happiness’ being closer with her family and old friends #yeah I guess you had to do that because everyone knew all of the shit that she’d do #I hope your boyfriend breaks up with you because you deserve nothing homegirl ❤️🥰🫶🫰

[poppyseed799]

I feel like life series fanon jimmy is kind of mischaracterized and there’s an easy way to make sure you’re doing it right: he has a lot of unearned confidence

#the tags is where I’m going to ACTUALLY say stuff LOL!!! #but like I love life series Jimmy mkay. he’s got that curse of dying first and all. which is what I mean by fanon cuz curses aren’t real #but a lot of fans make it like Jimmy accepts the curse? or even acknowledges that it’s real. which bugs me a bit cuz No He Does Not #(side note tho. I’m not mad about it. I know ppl wanna explore the concept of someone cursed to die first and that’s what they’re doing) #but like Jimmy would just be so in denial about it okay. even if you managed to convince him he would be like ‘..BUT SURELY THIS TIME’ #and this relates to ranchers too. I love ranchers ok. mostly cuz my sister does tbh LMAOO she loves them. but ranchers fan content isn’t #what I’m looking for cuz it’s so often stuff like.. Jimmy being like ‘I’m sorry I’m cursed’ and Tango being like ‘it’s ok love u anyway’ #but it’s really more like ‘CURSED?? NO! WE WILL WIN!’ which I think is MORE fun for the aftermath of their death. meeting in the afterlife. #I NEED to see ranchers content where they keep denying that the curse is real then Jimmy dies and they’re ghosts or whatever and Jimmy’s #like ‘oh no. we didn’t break the curse. tango probably hates me now. he only liked me cuz we thought the curse wasn’t real.’ and tango to be #like upset at first as anyone would be when they die. but then he like notices the way Jimmy is acting and he’s like ‘no.. ranchers 4 life’ #???? what am I saying. hire me for writing fanfic I totally know what I’m doing. #anyways what I’m saying is Jimmy is the canary but he’s the canary that’s like ‘SURELY I can sing for the miners the whole way THIS time’ #he is NOT the canary who says ‘WELL time to eventually stop singing in this cave’ #HOWEVER I do think that although he has loads of unearned confidence and is in a constant state of denial. he does also have that crumble #sometimes. so it’s not totally ooc imo for him to act like that. but it would be rare moments and also mostly post death #ANOTHER SIDE NOTE I WANNA SAY. I HATE the way I’m saying this as if it’s fact. it’s my personal analysis and just because I think it’s right #doesn’t mean I want to present it as undeniable fact. I could be misinterpreting. if you want to interpret life!Jimmy’s character different #then go on ahead. I don’t hate fanon Jimmy I just wish I saw more like how I see him. that is all. #ok I lied I also wanna add that I’m bad at explaining things ESPECIALLY personalities so it’s possible that I didn’t convey what I wanted to #say properly too. sorry. OKAY NOW THAT IS ALL.

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#oc: vharion #metroid oc #for the audience of me and my besties and mutuals <3 INTRODUCING THE FIRST OF THE BELOVEDS #i was going to do the other cast members but i don't have fcs for them yet and i just finished prime and was like I GOTTA YELL jsjaa #this is also a part of my master plan to get y'all to play it and make clowns so my clowns can have besties hehe <3 #these clowns have been on my heart since i was like? little? a little bit emotional about them returning to the fold ! #scheduled q #tungle mucked with the quality but he’s my baby and i love him 🥀❣️😭 #(i also meant to schedule this akajjzjz but it’s fine 🥀) #he couldn’t wait hehe <3 🥀 #he turned back on so much for those he loves to learn they thought him a monster anyway 🥀😭 #he aided in the overthrow of his father bc the empress would have zeroed his betrothed for starters! #and becoming the minister of the yllic forces of zebes and trying to zero THEM was another thing :’) #(he wasn’t trying to he was under the impression s*amus was the catalyst of his suffering?) #(like he wasn’t aware her memories were erased and blamed it on the Hunter. his brother who he didn’t know WAS his brother -> #he thought was a traitor (there’s a whole other thing on his brother but!) ) #and the thing is they were both raised by the c*hozo and are two sides of the same coin him and the hunter! #they SHOULDNT be enemies but events and upbringings later on made them that! they should be besties! #a bit of a commercial break from the t*lou and a*soiaf dears for him <3