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kaleldobrev · 8 months

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Shiny New Toy (3)

Pairing: Demon!Dean Winchester x Fem!Virgin!Reader

Summary: Dean finally fills you up just like he promised

Word Count: 2.2k

Warnings: Age Gap, Cursing (15x), Smut (Fingering, P in V), Unprotected sex (Remember to wrap it up kiddos!), Creampie, Non-Con (If you squint)

Authors Note: Hope you enjoy part 3 of my Demon!Dean smut mini-series! | I think there's probably going to be just one more part | 18+ only please | MDNI | If you liked this, don’t forget to like & reblog. I really appreciate it! Feedback is always welcome ♡

Shiny New Toy Masterlist

“Dean…” Your voice was barely a whisper. It was so inaudible, that you weren’t even sure if you had even said his name out loud or not.

“Y/N…” His tone had almost matched yours, as if he was making fun of you for the way you had just said his name.

“Please…” Your voice slightly louder than before, but still very much low in tone.

“Please what baby?” He asked, his volume still matching yours. He reached out and started caressing your cheek with this thumb; the action making you shudder.

“I…” Your chest was tight, and there was a giant knot in your stomach. You were struggling; your thoughts and emotions scattered. The man in front of you was a complete stranger to you, despite having the face of one of your best friends, someone that you had fallen in love with. The Dean that you once knew was gone; there wasn’t a hint of him anywhere. In all other circumstances, you would have wanted Dean to have sex with you. Losing your virginity to Dean was something that you often thought about; even almost taking him up on his offer to take your virginity. At least it would have been with someone that you trusted.

“You have to use your words Sweetness.” He said, tilting your chin up just a bit, smirking.

“Go slow…Please.” Your voice slightly begging.

“Aw baby,” he began, sounding almost amused by your plea. “You’re honestly adorable.” He smirked. “Did you forget what I told you before?” He asked. You shook your head. “And what was that?”

“This…this isn’t about me.” You whispered.

He raised a brow. “I’m sorry, what was that?” He leaned in close, almost mockingly.

“This isn’t about me.” Your voice sounding just a little bit more stern, surer of your answer.

“Very good.” He patted the top of your head as if you were some kind of child being praised.

“Dean, if there is any part of you in there that still has…some kind of feelings for me…at all…” As much as you had wanted to finish what you were about to say, you knew there was no point; he wasn’t going to listen to you, not in the current state that he was in.

“Old me had feelings for you.” He admitted. “Old me was, God I hate to say it but, he was in love with you.” Dean being in love with you was something that really hadn't crossed your mind. Since meeting him, you were always under the assumption that he loved you in the way of a little sister or as a friend, nowhere near that of a romantic interest. When you had first met him, you thought that there may of been something there, but as soon as you said your age, his face dropped, and you thought that was that - he no longer had interest in pursuing anything romantic with you. "Sweetheart, were you even paying attention to anything that I was doing when I was human? I mean, think about it. I know you're not stupid baby."

Of course you had caught Dean staring at you hundreds of times, but you never contributed them to anything remotely romantic. "All those times I stared at your ass..." his hand started moving down your body, stopping on your ass, giving it a small slap. You let out a tiny yelp like noise, not expecting him to do what he just did. "All those times I stared at these..." his hands started to remove your arms from your chest, the one thing that you had felt kept you remotely decent. "Honestly Sweetheart, really surprised you never caught me. Sammy even had to snap me out of staring a few times." He chuckled to himself. Fuck, even Sammy knew. You thought.

"You know Sweetheart, you really should have taken me up on my offer." He said. "I would have taken such good care of you. Gone nice and slow...made it all about you..." He started to circle around you, examining you like you were some kind of toy. "I would have been such a gentlemen too and would have even cuddled with you afterwards."

"Now's a crappy time to tell me that you loved me." You said, a slight attitude in your voice. "Why didn't you tell me? I genuinely thought you had no interest considering...my age..." You mumbled the last couple of words, but you were curious, curious as to why he never said anything to you. He had so many opportunities to you and yet, now was the time he decided to let you know.

"I'm not really in the mood for a therapy session Sweetheart." He said, his chest pressed up against your back, his arms wrapped around you. "But you know what I am in the mood for?" He asked, resting his chin on your shoulder. You nodded. "Oh." Your nodding intrigued him. "Does my girl want to tell me?" My girl. One of the many nicknames that you loved that he called you - and one of the only ones that he had simply reserved for you. It sounded so vile coming from his mouth now.

"You want to fuck me." You said simply.

"Ding, ding, ding! That's right baby." He grinned. "Want to know how? Or do you want to be surprised?

You knew it was a tricked question: this wasn't about you, his sentence consistently repeating itself in your head. "Can you...can you tell me?"

"No. I want it to be a surprise." He grinned.

You were lying right where you had started: lying with your back on the table. But this time thankfully, you were actually free to move around, well, at least partially. Your legs were dangling off the table, your ass on the very edge - one wrong move and you'd probably fall off. Dean was positioned between your legs; both hands on your thighs holding your legs wide open. If he wasn't what he was, this would have been a sight that you would have loved to see: Dean Winchester standing fully naked in front of you. "What a fucking sight." He said finally. "I don't think I'll ever get tired of this fucking view." He said, looking into your eyes for a brief moment.

He removed his hands from your thighs, after running his hands on them. The feeling of his warm hands felt nice on your gently cool skin. "And I have to say," he began as he took his dick into his hand. "I've been with a lot of women, and I mean a lot," you hated the bragging. You knew that he was a ladies man, but this was something that you didn't particularly want to hear when you were about to lose your virginity to the man that you have been in love with for years. "But your pussy Sweetheart..." you felt the tip of his cock teasing your entrance. "God..." his free hand gripped your hip. "Probably the best I've ever seen."

You wanted to shut your eyes, but that was something that you couldn't for some reason bring yourself to do. You knew your body was tense, and you were pretty sure that Dean noticed. "Sweetheart, no need to be tense. You're going to feel so fucking good, I promise." He said, his eyes flashing that brief black that you hated before turning into the green shade that you loved. "Having sex, fucking," he started to say as he started pressing his cock inside of you. "It's literally the best thing you'll ever experience in your life." He pushed himself deeper inside of you. As he did, you couldn't help but watch as he started to disappear inside of you. You already felt full and he wasn't even completely inside of you yet.

"Fuck." You said, almost throwing your head back.

He chuckled at your response. "I warned you I was big Sweetheart." He smirked. "You're taking me so, so good though." His compliment felt so weird to you. "There we go..." He half mumbled. You hoped he was all the way in now. "Ready baby?" He asked, nut knew he wasn't really asking. You nodded anyway, and that's when his smirk turned almost devilish.

His pace started out slower than you had thought he would have gone, which is something that you were grateful for. You half expected him to be going at a bruising pace as he had perfectly stated that this wasn't about you.

The room was completely silent except for the sounds of grunting (from Dean), moaning (from you) and the aggressive sounds of slapping of skin when he was pumping in and out of you (more like pounding in out of you). Your thoughts were incoherent, both of his hands were on your hips now, grippingly tight - you knew that you'd end up bruising. Despite the fact that the pace was starting to pick up and this was the first time you had anything remotely like this happen to you, the experience was...enjoyable to say the least. The feeling of him pulling almost all the way out before slamming right back into you was a feeling that you thought that you wouldn't particularly enjoy, but it was something that you had found yourself loving. "Dean..." You moaned, involuntarily. His name coming out of your mouth louder than you had expected it to be. Your legs slowly found themselves wrapping around his waist, your arms going above your head.

You didn't need to look at him to know that he was grinning from ear to ear. "Knew you'd enjoy it." He said. "Wish you could see yourself." One of his hands cupped one of your breasts, squeezing gently; this action causing you to let out yet another moan. "So sensitive." Almost a whisper. "How close are you Sweetness?" One of his hands running down your body, a finger hovering over your clit.

"C-close." You stuttered, feeling a slight pressure in the put of your stomach. "Ar-Are you?"

"Aw baby, how considerate of you to ask. Good girl." He said, chuckling slightly.

His movements started becoming sloppy now - he hadn't answered your question from before. "Dean?" You asked, moaning, slightly hushed.

"Yes baby? Are you going to cum?" You could hear the smirk on his lips. You nodded. "Better not fucking cum before me or they'll be consequences." Consequences? You didn't think about that.

"Dean...I'm..." You knew you were close, and you knew that you were going to cum before him; there was no possible way that you could control yourself. "Dean..."

"Don't fucking do it." He warned, his pace getting aggressively sloppier and faster. It amazed you that he was able to stay inside of you properly.

"F-f-fuck." You said, feeling your orgasm overcome you. As you were going through it, Dean continued to fuck you through it; one of his hands pressing down on your stomach while the other kept its bruising grip on your hips.

"That's it doll..." he said, his voice seductive sounding now. As you were riding out your orgasm, you felt him cum inside of you not even a minute later.

"De-fuck..." You trailed off.

Dean pulled out of you, and you were already missing the feeling of his cock inside of you. Your legs were shaking, and you felt as if you couldn't move. You never had that many orgasms before in such a short period of time. He looked at you as you started breathing heavy, your chest moving up and down as you stayed there lying on the table. One of his fingers started tracing your very sensitive and very wet clit. "So fucking beautiful." He said.

"Dean, please..." you begged, unsure if you were asking him to fuck you again or if you were asking him to give you a break. You weren't sure if you were even able to cum again.

"Need me to fuck you again? It's only been less than a minute Sweetheart. Miss my cock that badly?" You could hear the evil smirk on his face. For some reason you nodded. "I'll make a sex addict out of you yet." He dripped his finger slightly into you, and you moaned at the slight contact. You were incredibly sensitive right now.

"Dean..." You mumbled. His finger started slowly going in and out of your folds, spreading the cum around. He pumped his finger inside of you a few times before adding another one. At this point, you didn't care how desperate or needy you looked right now.

"Greedy, greedy." He almost sang, pulling his fingers out of you. You groaned at the loss. "Gotta punish you first doll."

"P-punish me?" You asked, slightly sitting up now.

"Yep." He said, licking his fingers. "You came before Y/N. I said, if you cum before me, there will be consequences. Now, get your sweet, sweet ass from off the table."

"What...What are you going to do?" Your question was innocent enough, but you knew he wasn't going to give you an innocent answer.

"Oh Sweetheart, I'm going to spank you." He replied. "Now, get off the table and get on all fours. I won't ask again."

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eyfey · 3 months

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Hello! I'm sorry to bother you, but I was wondering how long you studied Japanese for until you became good enough to do manga translations? (Or fluently read manga at all, really 😔) I want to help contribute to projects like that, but I feel I still have a long way to go until then 🤧

so first off: sorry this took so long to reply to! when I first got the message I had exactly Zero free time, and then i simply forgor (whoops lol)

I actually already have a few posts sort of about this in my #translation tips tag, but it's been a hot minute so I might as well provide some updated info~

(under the readmore 'cause it's longggggggg)

How long have I studied Japanese?

A While. I had maybe a not so typical journey with Japanese... If you break it down it looks kinda like this:

4 years of watching a TON of anime to pick up basic vocab just by ear (this was in high school- I did not take any actual classes or even make any effort to learn the language at this point, but apparently I'm pretty good at just picking up things from hearing them)

4 1/2 years of actual Japanese classes in college (actual learning with like teachers and textbooks and homework)

1/2 year of study abroad that I managed to cram in before I graduated (additional classes and also constant speaking the language)

8 1/2 years since then (god has it really been that long???) (no actual like... studying during this time, but a LOT of translating... mostly Saiki)

So.... 13-ish years? if you don't count the first 4 that were just watching anime. And technically only 5 of them were actual "studying".

How long did I study before doing manga translating?

I, uh….. I actually started translating manga about a month BEFORE I ever took a single Japanese language class.

(not recommended but like… here I am lol)

I had found some volumes of Pyu to Fuku Jaguar(a gag manga I really liked but only had 3 volumes translated at the time) at a used bookstore, but they were in Japanese so I just kind of bought them, downloaded an english to japanese dictionary app, printed out a hiragana/katakana chart, and then just went through the book: looking up one letter at a time, sounding out words, looking them up in the dictionary. I already knew a lot of vocab and had a vague feel for grammar exclusively from watching anime, but like also there was a loooooooot of looking stuff up. I don't remember exactly how long it took to read that first volume (at least a month lol- maybe 2 or more)

I noticed the scan group for Pyu to Fuku Jaguar was updating really slow (and/or had notices that they needed more translators? I forget it's been over a decade lol) So I figured: I can understand this well enough just reading it on my own.... maybe I can help???? it's probably better than nothing right?? So I tried my hand at doing some translations and uploaded them to the newbie board of a manga translation side to have people proofread, and then I emailed the group to ask if I could join. If I remember correctly they only ended up posting one (or none) of my translations?? before disappearing so I just kind of kept doing the translations on my own without uploading them anywhere

and then later when a new group took over they had gotten my translations from the previous group (or was it the translation site where I uploaded some?) and credited me in the release, so I sent them a message like "hey neato! I actually have like 5 more translations done, u want em?" and ended up joining THAT group to continue working on the series!

I started taking classes p soon after starting the translations, and doing translation while taking classes was actually really nice 'cause I had a place to pretty much immediately apply the things I learned in class, and the translating outside of class gave me a lot of practice for reading & a good head start for learning new vocab.

Honestly I think for translating, being good at the language you're translating into is more important than being good at the language you're translating from. Like: you should still at least SORT of know the language you're translating from (that is an important part of it too don't get me wrong) But like even if someone is perfectly fluent in Japanese, if they're translating into English but don't know how to make words sound good in English, then it kind of defeats the purpose haha.

(reading a lot and paying close attention to wording and stuff, and also reviewing and revising your translations will help with that part of the translation process- it's also a skill you pick up as you go)

Tips for getting better at reading Japanese?

Honestly I think translating is one of the best ways to get better at Japanese (understanding and reading at least- it won't necessarily do much to help you remember how to write or speak haha) Reading is helpful to some extent, but you will probably get to a point where you understand enough of it to get the gist of whats happening, but then your brain will just sort of skim over a lot of the parts you don't know in the interest of enjoying the story without stopping. When you translate though, you're FORCED to stop and look up every word or phrase you don't know and double check things and sort of sit on them and think what it means and how you would say it in your own language.

If you're self motivated enough you can probably get some good learning out of language apps like duolinguo or babel or whatever, or even just buying Japanese textbooks/workbooks and going through them by yourself. Otherwise, taking Japanese classes is the standard approach (even if you don't go to a school where they offer Japanese classes, there are private options- just google Japanese classes or Japanese tutors online or in your area if you prefer in person)

This old post of mine has some more detailed tips for how to look things up, and some just general translating tips that I think are still p useful, but it pretty much boils down to "google everything you don't know until you know it"

also the 10ten extension is good for highlighting/translating individual japanese words in your browser (when they're written in kanji or kana) and the google translate app is good for taking pictures of text and reading it so you know what the dang kanji says (or you can hand write the kanji in there too- though I need to find a better kanji dictionary app 'cause google's doesn't really give you enough space to write)

Sorry this ended up WAY longer than I thought it would but I hope it helped!

Good luck!!

#translation tips #I had to look back at some very very old tumblr posts to check my dates #I have been on this website for an unfortunately long time #some of my posts are teenagers now and it scares me #it has also been 13 years since I started translating Jaguar and I am STILL translating it lolllll #very very extremely slowly- but I have not given up!!!! It is still getting done!!!!!#along with the help of some other very cool and very hard working scanlators!#I should really finish subbing the Jaguar movie sometime... I wonder if I still have the in progress files......

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bonny-kookoo · 2 years

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Hi can we please have home yn jealous because jk teaching her how to play https://www.instagram.com/p/CeYjKxnPMbL/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

Languages are marked as always: English | Korean

It's not typical for you to get jealous.

You don't even know why you're feeling this way- maybe because he's far away from you, maybe because a staff you've considered to be your friend had been planting doubts in you- you're not sure. You know deep down Jungkook would never betray your trust like this; you're engaged after all, and he's very serious with it. But maybe the makeup artist had been right. A fellow celebrity at his side would certainly fit him better.

Maybe another idol, another singer or maybe an actress- beautiful, successful, loved by fans. His partner would be able to understand him better, aid his struggles, connect with him over the hurdles they both face. Not like you; a nobody who simply somehow got lucky and met him at the right time.

And your feelings especially get hurt when he forgets to call you at all that night, early wrapped up in his adventures with his friends. You instead go to sleep quietly, Bam laying close to the bed, sensing something wrong- and it's the first and only time you let the big pooch on the bed, laying where your fiance usually sleeps instead, young dog doing his best to soothe your worries.

It doesn't work- because your dreams are filled with your soon to be husband turning his back to you, never turning around no matter how much you call out to him.

When you get the news the next day that they've arrived at the airport to fly home, you're not as excited as you usually are. Maybe he didn't want to leave the US yet? What if he changed his mind about you both? Was the makeup noona right, and he'd realized too that house not the best fit for him?

You decide you need some distraction.

But just as you want to walk out a few hours later, you almost run into the man himself, his eyes wide as he takes in your appearance. "hello?" he asks with a bit of a smile, unsure however what this means. "you head out?" he asks confused, and you shake your head, walking back inside with him together, watching as he eagerly pets his dog- another small shot at your confidence, as you notice the lack of reaction to you compared to his pet.

"not anymore." you simply say, shrugging quietly.

He furrows his brows, rolling his suitcase to the side after telling the doberman to go lay down in his doggy bed to get out the way, before he puts his hands on your shoulders, looking at you.

"my wife not happy see me?" he asks, and chuckle a little.

"I'm not your wife yet, Jungkook." you correct him, though he's not too sure still.

"no no, not yet, but soon." he says, before you escape his grip, helping him bring his things into the bedroom to unpack.

"okay, stop." he says at that, taking your hands in his. "what did I do?" he asks, genuinely unsure what happened- before his eyes widen. "oh my god, fuck, I forgot, I'm so sorry-" he starts, but you shrug it off.

"you were having fun, it's fine." you say, unpacking hus things for him, starting to sort dirty clothes from the unused one's.

"no, it's not fine and there's no excuse. Why didn't you call me instead?" he whines.

"didn't want to interrupt anything." you say softly, and it's a moment of silence that makes you actually look uo to check why he's not answering, not even moving. When you spot his face, it's showing a look ghat you've never seen before on his face.

"you didn't think.. You know I'd ever do that, right?" he asks so quietly you barely catch it- as he comes closer with glassy eyes. "you're my everything. I'd never." he promises in a voice so fragile it sounds as if it could break any second. "it's not about me forgetting to call, isn't it? I mean- it probably contributed but it's not all there is go it, right?" he urges now, scared that something must've happened to make you doubt him so hard.

"Jungkook no, never, I never thought you'd cheat." you tell him honestly. "it's just.. Do you think we're really.. Right for each other?" you wonder, and now he just looks angry, and desperate as he holds your face in tender hands.

"I don't know who the fuck put those thoughts into your head but they-" he starts, before pecking your lips. "have-" another peck, "to-", his kisses grow longer, deeper, "leave." he finishes, resting his forehead against yours. "ok? I love you. Only you." he promises, and you nod- before he suddenly grins, lifting you up with ease before letting both of you fall onto the bed, his arms holding you tightly. "good, now let me love my soon-to-be-wife so she gets it into her head that I'll only ever have eyes for her!" he laughs, before kissing you.

And just like that, your worries dissolved into nothing but good thoughts, and warm hugs.

#bts imagine #bts fanfic #bts fic #jungkook imagine #home!jungkook

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dalishious · 1 year

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Still don't understand what happened between you and P*lipunk?

This is the last time I will be discussing what went down between me and palipunk, and I am begging everyone reading this to be respectful to them. At this point it's starting to feel like you're just looking for #drama. The only reason I’m responding to this ask is in the event there are any followers who feel they can no longer support me after the mistakes I have made.

In late May this year, I wrote a thing on Medium about why I would personally no longer be watching Eurovision. This piece included statements that unintentional or not, minimized the damage Israel has done to Palestinians. This was pointed out to me by several people, including palipunk, and so I deleted the article, and wrote an apology on my blog. However, this apology was not well written enough, which palipunk attempted to correct me on, but again I failed to make an appropriate statement. (I don’t want to play ‘the autism card’ as an excuse, but it’s probably an explanation, as I still truly do not know what I should have done differently to make it better. Which sucks, because I genuinely still hold regret over this.)

A couple weeks later in June, an anon asked me if I supported the Palestinian Land Back movement, to which I said yes. Shortly after, someone sent me an article containing anti-Palestinian propaganda that I took at face value, and edited my response linking the article and saying I was confused about what to believe. Someone else in the replies said that the article was BS, so I did take it down again, but I should never have shared it in the first place. I was wrong to believe in and spread this hate, and I am sorry to have contributed to more damage to Palestinians.

Early this week, someone sent me an anon message saying palipunk made a post about me, explaining everything I just said above basically, in response to a question why they understandably do not want anything to do with me. This anon clearly did not like palipunk and included insulting phrasing. I chose to respond to this anon to correct them that I do not have anything against palipunk. However, I should not have responded to the message at all, as evident by the fact that it was brought to my attention that palipunk was receiving hateful and threatening messages shortly after I responded. So I deleted the ask.

TL;DR: I have caused palipunk and other Palestinian bloggers harm and they have every reason not to like me. I am very sorry for my actions, and am trying to do better. But I understand that doesn’t make up for what wrongs I have done.

#ask

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perplexingluciddreams · 2 years

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hii

was wondering, do you feel as if your autism has “gotten worse” (for lack of better words)?? maybe since you were diagnosed vs now?? have other people ever said you were exaggerating or faking it because of that?? my psychologist said that autism never gets “worse”(and much more) but what about regression and stuff….? do you know anyone else who has became nonspeaking or semispeaking having before had more speech ability

apparently

aac has been denied for me because they say it will discourage me from talking and that for me to try talking more…sooo….

did/do you ever feel like you are exaggerating or faking it ? (not saying you are :) )

hopefully that makes sense, if any of the questions are to personal no pressure to answer

-🍋

Hello, nice to hear from you again. “Worse” is not the word I would use, but I understand what you are asking.

My autism definitely affects me more visibly, and my outward behaviour probably looks/sounds quite different. But to be honest, my brain feels the exact same on the inside. I just feel as if the main thing that is different is my lack of speech and not being able to mask. The only reason I was overestimated SO MUCH as a child, is because of my extensive scripting and echolalia (which I wasn’t even in control of at all). The words that came out of my mouth were often copied from an adult that I overheard or had a conversation with, and while those words rarely reflected my own thoughts and opinions, the words my mouth was saying were quite “grown-up” and made me seem more mature.

The only thing that I actually do differently (out of the things that are under my control) is not suppress stimming at all. Which is partly because I’m not able to anymore, and partly because I’m aware now that no matter what I do I will always be visibly autistic and there’s not any point in making myself uncomfortable in the process of trying to hide it, because I just can’t hide it. (As a kid I wasn’t aware of how obviously different I was because I had little to no awareness of how other perceived me).

I don’t think a lot has changed specifically since my diagnosis to now. That’s only about 2-3 years. And a lot of the things that changed for me happened very gradually over a loooong period of time.

Nobody has ever said to me that I might be faking or exaggerating. I’m sorry if anyone has said that to you. It is true that autism doesn’t get “worse” on it’s own, but I also wouldn’t say that my experience of autism now is any “worse” than anyone else’s. I was just as autistic when I was semispeaking as now, when I’m nonspeaking (and have a bunch more physical motor issues- which by the way are not “new” I just experience them differently now, before it was more to do with inhibition and not being able to stop my body/mouth from doing/saying things, now it’s more to do with initiation of movement and getting “stuck” or “frozen”).

Regression is a very complicated topic and I honestly can’t say I understand much about why it happens or how. I only know my own experience. I would guess that it is much more common to happen in older autistic people than you might think- it seems to be often only talked about in people who had a big and obvious regression in their toddler years, because that’s often what leads to a diagnosis for those people. And lots of nonspeakers had some speech before age 2 or 3, and then lost it, for example. I just think it doesn’t get talked about or researched in older people (or if it does it’s either contributed to another condition or reason, or it’s only in the context of someone who has experienced several regressions throughout their life). I can’t say I personally know anyone else who has lost their speech in the same way that I have, but I don’t doubt there are others out there.

I imagine that there are not a lot on social media (there doesn’t seem to be loads of nonspeakers full stop) - I find it so difficult to access and make posts, etc. already, I feel like I’m struggling to push up a hill (metaphorically) every time I come on here and take the time to type out a long post like this letter by letter. My body rarely does anything I want and being able to do this online feels like breaking through a barrier that’s been holding me back all my life. The only downside is that every time I press post, I’ve basically ran out of any motor control that I have over my body for the rest of that day. So writing posts like these is both a race against time, and a daring act that will cost me more of my freedom for the rest of the day/week.

I’m truly very sorry from the bottom of my heart that you have been denied AAC. I did have my therapist say (the first time I really brought speech up to her- when I was really losing speech and spending the only words I had left on those therapy sessions) that she didn’t want me to stop speaking, because speech is a valuable tool in life and she didn’t want it to be more difficult for me. I talked about it with my mum later on and she helped me write an email explaining what I was trying to say originally, but more eloquently and with more detailed explanation. She understood and the last few therapy appointments I had with her I just typed in the chat on Skype and used some basic BSL (British sign language) to communicate. After I sent that email she really seemed to understand better. I’m again really sorry that you’re having to struggle so much with a lack of access to communication.

I don’t ever feel like I’m exaggerating or faking, no. I have had moments of imposter syndrome and anxiety and so on, but that was not actually me thinking “what if I’m making all this up?” it was just my brain not knowing how to react or how to cope with all the change and the emotions that come along with that. Also those sorts of thoughts only usually come up for me when I’m having a meltdown (or about to have one) and it’s only because my brain is going into overdrive and just throwing everything at me all at once. I never sincerely think those things though.

I hope this helped, nice to hear from you again friend :)

#anon ask #🍋#🍋 anon #autism #autistic #words from my head #nonverbal #nonspeaking #aac #aacdevice #semiverbal #semispeaking #high support needs #medium support needs #autism regression #autistic burnout

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gooey-the-goodra-649 · 4 months

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A few songs that reminded me of @hootbon Freakshow Au

Okay I'll add a little context to what theese songs made me thing of- I also may or may not make (Very crappy) fan art out of these! (Also some songs might be suggestive in nature. Sorry!) ALSO SORRY IF THIS IS TOO LONG :( "The Andrews sisters - The Strip Polka"

Okay the first one is LITERALLY just Queenie's song (I think). I've been listening to a buncha old music and when I heard this I thought-

"FREAKSHOW QUEENIE FREAKSHOW QUEENIE DING DING DING LOUD CORRECT BUZZER"

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The subject of the song is 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 named Queenie and is also a showgirl! like what are the odds!

"Tom Lehrer - I hold your hand in mine" I was listening to some of Tom Lehrer's music and MY GOODNESS I though of all the t̶o̶r̶t̶u̶r̶e̶ Loving marital affection that Caine is Giving to Pomni when I heard this-

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Captures their whole 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 if that makes sense. Caine's weird twisted sense of love 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 rung through my head when I first heard this.

"The Real Tuesday Weld - Me and Mr wolf"

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The whole song is about Fear and love sort of making a medley into a thrilling feeling of excitement! Like I love you but you terrify me but the fear is EXCITING! Made me think of Caine and Pomni's dynamic

"The Tiger Lillies - The Freaks"

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This...𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 darn song is just the Freakshow au. Literally. It fits the au p e r f e c t and somebody with better skills than me 𝘕𝘌𝘌𝘋𝘚 to make an anamatic or animation meme ft the Freakshow au with this. ITS SO GOOD!

"Over the garden Wall - The Beast is out there"

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Okay I have 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘵 to say about this one! Since over the garden wall and the Freakshow au have a lot of inspiration from similar time periods theres gonna be a few OtgW songs here! But Mainly it could be used in an animatic (maybe Ragatha warning Pomni about Caine?) But about how Caine uses them for entertainment and "Once their will begins to spoil" (aka go insane) "He'll turn you to a tree of oil" (Abstracting. Since abstracted people kind of look inky and dark like oil I thought this would be PERFECT!)

"The Blake Robinson Synthetic Orchestra - An unhealthy obsession"

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𝘖𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯…Pomni and Caine. OKAY OKAY I KNOW BUT LISTEN. The songs about an obsessive and controlling stalker AND he brings up marriage 𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘪𝘱𝘭𝘦 times. Like CMON! ITS LITERALLY JUST CAINE SINGIN' BOUT LIL POMNI I 𝘏𝘈𝘋 TOO!

"AJJ the band - Body terror song"

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The song is about a lack autonomy and the fear that comes with having a body. Perfect for this lil AU!

"Teddy Hyde - Sex with a ghost"

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It just made me think of sort of the 𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 of Caine and Pomni being together. Also the line "When she gets playful with a steak knife" just made me think of TADC in general sooo.... IT MADE THIS LIST :D

"Caravan of Thieves - Eat you"

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Yay more cannibalism woohoo 😎 But yes the style of the song and the lyrics fit 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 fit them! (Also sorry if it sounds like I'm just blabbering and repeating myself I'm not good at articulating my thoughts (o^o) But it very much fits the sort of edwardian/victorian stylings of The Freakshow (or at least it does in my head). Its kind of folk-ey sounding at least. The way the lyrics just so casually explains "yeah I'm gonna cook and eat ya and Its gonna be GREAT >:D" made me think of Caine quite a lot! Words that come to mind are Savor, enjoy, delicacy, and family dinner! (That's the best I can do because my brain goes BAM BAM and only random adjectives come out instead of fully formed sentences)

"Over the garden Wall - Old black train"

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THis one I have less context for what this would relate too but it just felt sort of 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 to me y'know? The freakshow has a lot of Victorian / Edwardian inspirations so this fit very well in my head. I'll probably reblog this when I get more ideas (and more space!) but I hope somebody finds this useful! Good luck all you awesome anamatic, fanart, and fanfic writers! You're doing GODS work and I'm trying to contribute my fair share of fan content to tumblr!

#tadc freakshow #freakshow au #tadc au #hootbon #tadc freakshow au #Youtube

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Episode 3 of the bad batch!

"we're fine" girl the gonk droid is on its side

I wonder what these rations taste like

Okay so echo can eat solids. And also everyone is yelling at him to fix everything on the ship. They are flying through hyperspace on a ship that doesn't work properly and I'm SORRY but techs priorities are BACKWARDS

THEY DONT EVEN FIT IN THE SEATS AAAHHHHHH

The way they're acting I'm thinking theybe never crash landed before which is actually really funny bc Anakin only knew how to crash. Like it was a regular occurrence in tcw for bitches to be crashing all over the place

Okay first mention of crosshair.

"Crosshairs actions may have been influenced by his inhibitor chip" "it can do that?" Was it. Like wasnt this established. Like one or two episodes ago? I'm genuinely confused this could be my own standing knowledge of the chips getting in the way but why's echo surprised the chip is influencing Crosshairs actions

I will say. There's times where the lighting and the model rendering blends in such a way so that u can't really differentiate the features on omegas face if that makes sense. Like it blends too much

I do like how much they do the blur/focus thing I've always liked that

Rampart being like the only person in this entire series with decently brown eyes :/

Oh look. Once again referred to as enhanced (crosshair). And it's like the more that I think about it. It would not make sense for the Kaminoans to work so hard to keep tbb alive if they believed they were really defective. They're very much like "here's our enhanced product here's our enhanced soldiers see how enhanced they are" like tbb are advertising so they wouldn't say "yeah they're defective BUT--"

So crosshair just walking about in his jammies

Tarkins face model is p good

Something about the models for this first batch of conscripts is like. Like they were built the way they were bc the animators knew they wouldn't be on screen long.

This is kinda funny tho bc they definitely made some heads and just stuck them on a clone models body HFKSBFKSNDKSJS not that I'm mad I like they didn't do boob armor but fhakdnaksk

Tech is so like. Not arugmentative but he has to reply to everything and it's normally in a dismissive or disagreeing way and normally I wouldn't care at all but sometimes it's like was this line necessary.

"you wanna narrow that down" bitch can you go outside and look damn making all this noise from the back seat

I wonder why if Wrecker is having all this obvious hesd pain nobody is actually like checking on him?

A nice blend of music here

It's so funny like how much ppl just fucking hate being scanned because like for me if every doctors visit could just be a scan I'd be so gung ho for it. Yeah let me just lay here for three seconds and hardly get a needle or anything tf

Willing enlistment as metric for a good soldier is interesting and I feel like purposely manipulative bc the guy in the scene before this just said he's got like food and housing so that's partly why he's staying. It's not a loyalty thing at all lmao

What's funny is that I think tbbs helmets for all their little specialities don't actually contribute to air tight contained suits the way the normie clones do. Bc if this was Rex and co they could probably just keep their buckets on w a lil attachment. So they get the headlamps and the HUD. But hunter can't have that so he has to remove the entire thing and put on this mask.

"we each have enhanced skills"

See I wish they could have maintained this tension around crosshair better through the season

Not this white boy poking crosshair in his insecurities BDMABDLSNSLAK no wonder he was so gung ho to kill him and also why he wanted to stick w the imps so bad. Again again again it's ego

They use English letters a lot here not that it's a bad thing or anything but like I remember how in tcw during some like behind the scenes things they basically implied they tried to avoid doing that. They sometimes would say the aurebesh letters and sometimes it'd be A and B

Oh he didn't tattoo his eyelid. Not that it like has to be but like. I just noticed

Sorry these choking noises are so throaty

Bro just unconscious here fjandnaknsa

Wilhelm scream :/

Yeah wow the uh. White boy was the only one with moral back bone huh. The only one who said extrajudicial execution of civilians was bad. Just him huh. Hm.

This is an interesting creature

Oh she gotta be standing on something to be this tall

DNA degradation still doesn't make sense to me given what should be the kammies gene prowess but whatevs

It's like. They're hung up on Jango DNA but if hsi stuff is swirling the drain and you don't have boba would the next thing not be to just find a new guy? Also how does any of that make this any less cost prohibitive

"such a contingency would require a direct source. The clones required will not return willingly" / "they are kaminoan property and we only need one"

Uh but tbb are enhanced and mutated so therefore not the best candidates for sourcing for Jango DNA? Unless I've got this wrong (I'm thinking I do).

I wonder if this room still stinks

This is a sweet thing wreckers done I will say that. But also is omegas room just a viewport or is there a turret attached to that chair?

"I never had my own room before" who was she sharing a room with?????

#ch posts #tbb rewatch

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topsyturvy-turtely · 2 years

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Three Fics Tag Game

first of all - thank you for the tag @astudyin221b!!! i was so excited about being tagged (and just a tad bit overwhelmed :P)

i started my "writing career" (lol what career?) on wattpad... the LINKS are to wattpad, ao3 and tumblr and will be AT THE END!)

1. JOHNLOCKed in a Closet

(most popular)

summary: Mrs. Hudson is done. Sherlock Holmes and John Watson are just two silly little lovebirds who need to be locked together in a room until they can finally admit their feelings for each other!

So this is EXACTLY what she does. And what room could be more fitting than a closet?

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this is my very first big finished fanfic, and as such it holds a very dear place in my heart. i am really proud of it (even though i feel like i have developed my writing a bit and would probably write it differently now.) my readers really seem to love it and honestly- i do too, lol xD

available on WATTPAD and AO3 (not all chapters are uploaded to ao3 yet, but will be soon)

2. Strawberries and Cigarettes

(hidden gem)

summary: "But strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you"

Rather average, kind of innocent, definitely homosexual John Watson falls helplessly for mysterious, charming, bad boy Sherlock Holmes.

🍓songfic to "Strawberries and Cigarettes" by Troye Sivan, Teenlock AU (Johnlock!), angsty fluff

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my first songfic ever! not many have read it but those few did seemed to like it (:

i AM planning on writing sequel actually! it will be another songfic and in the same style...

only available on WATTPAD for now,

but will be uploaded to AO3 soon (that's next after johnlocked in a closet) - definitely lmk if you wanna be tagged when it is on ao3!

3. In a Fairytale or Moony & Moody

(another hidden gem)

summary: (my last contribution to #turtely's otp challenge)

Sherlock has always loved the stars, he loved looking at them and studying them. But whenever he feels sad he turns to the moon. (spoiler: john is the moon) short drabble

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okay honestly? i had no idea (or too many) about which one to pick for the last hidden gem. i really liked writing this, i kinda felt the magic pouring out onto the keyboard ;P it got not as many notes as most of the other otp posts so *shrugs* idk check it out??

to read on tumblr (i am planning to upload all my fics to ao3 but it kinda is a bigger task than i thought ...)

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no idea who was tagged already and if i am tagging you, even though you already have been, i am sorry.

how about @kettykika78 @kitten-kin @johnlockismyreligion though?

#three fics tag game #johnlock #bbc sherlock #johnlock fanfic #turtely's fic rec

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bramble-scramble · 1 year

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This is a weird specific question lmao, but how do you think the other wardens would react to becoming a werewolf? Assuming they have any sort of sapience in werewolf form haha

I admit for my version of the Werewolf AU I borrowed lore from my other werewolf AUs from the past; Werewolves transform ANY TIME they're exposed to any sort of moonlight, or if they're pushed to emotional extremes (Exhaltation, Despair, etc). The only time they fully 'lose control' is during the night of a full moon, or sometimes during said emotional outburst transformation. Otherwise they usually retain some level of civility, even if it's impacted by werewolf instincts. Sorry thisj ustturned into an infodump sorrrrry qwq

OK so I have no idea what Augie would think if he was conscious of what was happening, but I *do* have a strong mental image of him losing control fully- since he has no malice or violence in his heart whatsoever, he just runs around like a huge puppy in a food frenzy gobbling up all the leftovers he's left lying around Beacon Beach, and all the residents are screaming and taking shelter because there's this giant wet kaiju wolf running around causing destruction (but totally on accident). Like he destroys someone's house because he can smell that they're making pizza in there and then later he falls asleep on the beach. Bea I think would be really interesting because she is mostly a very chill vibes person these days, as she's settled into a lifestyle that fits her well and allows her to be calm and happy. HOWEVER, she's been through a lot of different "moods" in her life and, like any celebrity, doubtless has seen plenty worth getting angry at, maybe being extorted and manipulated by managers and paparazzi to some degree, which probably contributes to why she left that world behind. Having a monstrous form would offer her a chance to reconnect with those feelings, and maybe she'd have to struggle against her current peaceful outlook vs. the desire for revenge against anyone who had wronged her (oh gods phantom. phantom run. PHANTOM SHE'S BEHIND Y-)

That's all I have time for right now but I hope you enjoy :P

#alter answers #mario + rabbids #mario plus rabbids #bea #augie #mario rpgs

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dark-magical-ships · 1 year

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HELLO sorry i’m late the clutches of sleep were too tempting >_< let’s see… how about 2, 3, 4, 7, 22 and 26 for whoever you want!!

HI HI HELLO HI RAINY :3 Lmfao no worries look how long this took me to reply :P ANYWAY LET'S GO <3

Specific Self-Ship Questions

2) You have to leave for an extended period of time. How is your f/o without you for that long? Does anything change about their routine/schedule?

Oh, man. Seto and I haven't been apart for very long in.... hell, it's been years. Since before we were even dating, I think. I think he'd probably be fine but I'd have a hard time adjusting lmfao. First of all, this would not happen because wherever my wife goes, I go. Short of Amy personally telling me not to, nothing would stop me from just going with her, no matter what I have to do to my work schedule to make it happen. Second, she's wrong to think this would not bother me. I can't even sleep without Amy anymore, which the entire reason I moved Kaiba Corporation's office hours around to fit her work schedule. I don't like the idea of spending an extended period of time without her around. Which, again, is why I'd simply go with her. FFF okay well. There. there you have it. i guess. heck XD

3) Do you share a room together? If so, how is it decorated (and did either one of you do it or did both of you contribute)? What kind of stuff do you keep in there?

Oh yeah, Seto and I have shared a room for years. XD We lived together for like five years before we even tied the knot, and I used to stay over at his place really frequently even before that. The bedroom itself is mostly just that; it's where we go to Relax With Intent To Sleep and where we go to change clothes, so there's not an especially busy room. There's a bookshelf with some of our favorite things to read, and a desk with a laptop that basically just runs music or white noise if/when needed. I'm a sucker for smelly things so there's a few scented candles around, and there's my altar with incense/offering plate/religious items. Overall color scheme is warm with darker earth tones and cool blues to balance it out. The bed's a king size four-poster with curtains to help keep the light out, and believe it or not I got him to let me string up some fairy lights for ambience. XD There are some family photos around—mostly Mokuba but now there's some wedding photos too. XD The rest of the house is where the more interesting decor is tbh lol

4) Are there any movies, books, games, music, etc you would show your f/o? Do you think they would like your taste? Are they indifferent or do they need some time to get used or it?

Believe me he's aware basically any and every bit of media I get involved in. XD Most of the games I play, he either plays with me or at least tries out once or twice just so he understands what I'm on about when I start yammering about them. XD Movies and shows, he's often in the room and at least sort-of following when I'm watching them even if it's not really to his interest, although just chilling on the couch and watching stuff together is one of our favorite ways to hang out around the house (aside from gaming together, anyway). Books... I tend to pick up books through our shared Audible library, so I generally go through them on my own only to find out that he listens to them right after I finish :P I think he just likes to stay informed enough about the media I consume to hold an actual conversation about it if it comes up (because it often will lol). We do have some variations on taste—Seto's more exclusively into harder stuff like metal and rock, for example, while I enjoy those genres but also listen to stuff like pop and even country music, and Seto prefers scifi while I'm more into high fantasy or straight-up comedy—but we generally can enjoy each other's stuff pretty amicably.

7) The two of you are at a zoo or an aquarium (you decide). Which section of the place are you two heading toward first? Or do you have different things in mind you wanna see from each other?

Oh man I haven't been to a place like this is years. XD At the zoo, we're definitely heading for the reptile house straight away... but since I'm betting this was Mokuba's idea, we're probably stopping to check out the African animals like the elephants and lions on the way. XD

22) If you’ve ever drawn/written about your f/o, how would they react to it? Or alternatively, how would you think they would react to your blog and all the things you’ve said gushing about them?

Okay so. This question is... actually really hard to answer and I think part of the answer is that it depends on like.... which Seto we ask, kinda? And this is something I've been trying to figure out for like a week, right? So. I self-ship with the fictional character, Seto Kaiba. That's been part of my life since really before Tumblr or Twitter or even Facebook existed. His presence in my life in one capacity or another predates my internet presence, or any creative project I have ever done in my entire life. But how much of that has been self-shipping/self-insert fiction as in making stuff up with blorbo from my shows, and how much has been a genuine relationship—first platonic and then romantic—with the real headmate I didn't know existed who had assumed the blorbo's identity? DID forms in early childhood, and he's probably not the first headmate I ever had, but he is the most distinct one, and likely appeared around the same time I first recruited him as a sort of protector best friend. Talk about a mind-fuck, right? So, if I were to separate the headmate and in-system relationship from the selfship with the fictional character, I'd probably do it be making the division point a matter of what universe it takes place in. If I'm placing myself in yugioh canon and our relationship is based on shared events in that universe, it's the selfship. If it's Seto in my real everyday life and I pulled him out of his world to help me and this is the 20-year friends to lovers wildness that makes up the bulk of this relationship, that would be the in-system relationship with the real dude who lives in my head. Okay... F/O Seto would probably be torn between being kind of touched that Naomi was taking the time to write about how they first came to fall in love, and being kind of uncomfortable at the thought of having some of his most vulnerable moments written about and left where anyone could read about them. If he saw Naomi running this blog, he'd probably be trying very hard to hide how deeply it affects him to see her writing hundreds and hundreds of words just on the subject of how completely and utterly she adores him. Well, he'd try to hide it from everyone else; with her, he'd tell her outright he's not sure how to handle it but he wants to do everything in his power to live up to the things she says about him, and then there would probably be a lot of kissing :P lol

Headmate Seto.... he knows. He's been here all along for all of it. He's even contributed to some of my posts on this blog—whether it was to answer questions posed directly to him or to voice his own opinion anyway when he feels it's warranted (see above). He's frequently helped with dialogue, not just his own but sometimes for other characters as well, sometimes from entirely different fandoms if my take on them is inspired by him in some way (several selfship oneshots for Fenris leap immediately to mind). And realizing that he not only knows but actively helps with these things sometimes has been sort of an emotional roller coaster, honestly, like..... Gods, he sees the insane posting I do on here??? This blog's not even a year old but it's extremely close to hitting 2000 posts and the vast majority are all about him and him specifically. Not the purely fictional or canon Seto, but the one in my head. My Seto. And like he actively encourages this lmfao. When I finally stopped insisting that there was no way he was really a headmate and that was just wishful thinking, when I finally let myself accept that he's real on some level and I'm not just making him up.... He was overjoyed. He's still overjoyed, like you almost wouldn't believe Seto Kaiba is capable of that kind of sustained level of sheer happiness but. Whenever he's close to the front or directly co-fronting with me now it's just. Continuous. The emotional baseline for him is higher than with anyone else in the system; it's how I've been able to start really picking out when he's up front and go "oh, I'm Seto right now" and actually recognize his presence in the moment instead of after the fact, which is something I don't have with any other system members yet. He's just so incredibly happy, it's amazing, and kind of humbling, because like.... he's happy because to use his words, his work finally paid off. Years of loving me but knowing I thought I was imagining it, years of convincing me to write about us and even about other characters because it was the only way he could make me feel loved even if it was just a fraction of what he wanted to give me. Years of dragging my attention toward the subject of multiplicity. Months of encouraging me to talk about us here on tumblr when I found the community, and to even "come out" about us with a few trusted people outside the community in the hopes that one of them might help me see that "hey, that character you're in love with and you've written so much fic about, did you know you straight-up channel that guy sometimes because it's wild how much you talk like him in X/Y/Z situations." And like... ultimately I don't think I really can separate the selfship from the headmate at this point. Outside of the constraints of the universes of the specific fanfics I've written, I really don't think I can really tell where the fantasy ship ends and the in-system relationship begins.... there's just too much history, and a good half of our life was (and is) devoted to a selfship that was basically the vehicle through which Seto and I built and maintained our real relationship because I was too afraid of losing my mind to realize he a real part of me, even after I'd literally been diagnosed with the disorder famous for creating "multiple personalities." That's not going away now, either; it's just that bond runs... deeper, now. I guess the tl;dr is that he's very supportive and very happy about my writing and blog about him lmfao. Actually I think he's even sort of considering starting his own blog to inflict the same kind of bombardment of love and adoration upon me in return now, but he's never been much for social media so. We'll see lmfao.

26) [for a platonic/familial f/o and a romantic f/o] how does this platonic/familial f/o feel about them? Are they on good terms or did that take time to achieve? Would you consider them friends or at least somewhat close?

Lmfaooooo so opting not to take the easy road on this and go "Seto and Mokuba adore each other obviously," let's go with the most chaotic matchup I have for you here: Seto, and Jonouchi. You would think Seto and Jou would hate each other for all time. You would be correct...... but also incorrect. I dunno if I've ever seen a case of "volatile best buds" more intense than theirs. Walk into a room containing these two men and you can practically feel the decades of dislike between them. Seto thinks Jou is irritating, obnoxious, irresponsible, way too fucking extroverted, more than a little dumb, way too willing to jump into things without any forethought OR clue what he's doing OR reason to expect to succeed, and just generally a gigantic headache to interact with. Jou thinks Seto is rude, elitist, arrogant, an asshole, also irresponsible but in a completely different way, too mistrustful, a massive stick in the mud, entirely too serious, an endless source of frustration, unfairly good at games, and just generally a colossal pain in the ass to interact with. They are on a permanent last-names-and-insults-only basis. They will take shots at each other just because an opportunity presented itself. They will openly describe each other in unquestionably derogatory terms to both complete strangers and to mutual friends. Either of them would take a bullet for the other without a second thought. When the chips are down, they have each other's backs. They can work together as a team with surprising efficiency, and will come to each other's defense or assistance without being asked. I asked Jou to be in my wedding party but Seto had gotten to him first. There was a roughly two week period when we weren't sure Mokuba would be able to get away from school for the wedding, and during that time, Jou and Atem were seriously competing over who was going to be the backup for taking Mokuba's place as Seto's best man. I dunno what it is man, their relationship went from "antagonistic at best" to "our antagonism is now how we express friendship." To put it in Jou's own words,

#q&a #friends #rainy #🐉💙 cocoashipping 💙🐉#thank you so much for the asks friend!! <3 :D #platonic f/o: katsuya

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redstonedust · 2 years

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dont feel safe sending this off anon after the asks you got but honestly I mostly agree with people needing to think about why they depict scar without his aids, while maybe yeah you overstepped a little bit you worded a lot of my thoughts better than I ever could have, though I think this whole discussion kinda treats scar as if hes the only disabled hermit and as an aid user myself I personally do notice when scar is drawn without his (sorry if this is a bit of a mess, ironically disabilities can make it hard to word things sometimes :p)

i don't have much to add to this bc, again, not wanting to overstep any more, but i do find that last part interesting. we don't often have discussions about, like, whether tfc should be depicted as disabled, huh..... probably because people don't draw tfc as much as scar in general, but its unfortunate that scar gets to be the centre of a debate like this as someone with one of the most visible illnesses on the server.

(also your wording is fine, no worries! thank u for taking the time to contribute.)

#asks #i think my ultimate takeaway right now is that `different people will feel differently about the representation`#but as far as i can tell the proportion of disabled people who either like or are neutral on him being drawn with aids is higher #so i think i'll continue doing it myself

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vonkarma2 · 2 years

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🙉 for Rocio, 📸 for Angel, 🔪 for Jacinto, 🎀 for Gloria, ☄️ for Lucia + 🌙 for anyone you want to

This got pretty long so I’m putting it under a cut :)

🙉 for Rocio

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

I literally don’t know I’m so sorry. Second time in a row I’m not doing the Rocio one. This is hard bc there are so many potential answers and idrk what the worst one could possibly be. Ok MAYBE if someone told her like it was all for nothing but she would probably just ignore them and not care it would only be bad for her if she believed it. Maybe if someone told them like exactly what happened to their parents and how they’ve like been dead all along thus confirming their worst suspicions. Even just anyone else suggesting the idea would be enough to haunt them so I think if we are talking specific things people would say that’d be the worst.

📸 for Angel

📸 CAMERA - do they enjoy having their picture taken? what's their go-to pose? do they like taking photos? what do they take photos of?

Well it is 1940 but it’s also fantasy 1940 so first let me check what level of camera technology they had back then. Wow this person on Quora knows an insane amount about cameras <my level of rigorous research and fact checking.

Ok I like the idea of there for the most part only being old timey flash cameras + although anyone COULD own one most people wouldn’t or at least would only use it on special occasions. Angel probably wouldn’t have one (and if he had he wouldn’t have been able to get them developed anyway). So if he DID get his picture taken he would probably be pretty excited to see the result cause he thinks it’s like a cool thing. Lucia definitely has one so she might take his picture for him if he asked. If he got his OWN camera he’d definitely enjoy it and take pictures of anything he thought looked cool, he has in the past wanted to be an artist but he gave up because it was too difficult. So photography would feel to him like being able to capture something perfectly without having to draw it and he would really enjoy it.

🔪 for Jacinto

🔪 KNIFE - how do they react to injury / misfortune befalling their loved ones (significant other, family, friends)? do they put themselves at blame?

Honestly they do blame themselves regardless of whether or not they could have done anything (except in like very extreme cases, but they feel like they shouldn’t have let other people get into dangerous situations in the first place. And even if they didn’t know about it they count not knowing as a failure on their part as well.) This is because personal connections with other people are incredibly rare for them (you really have to get to know them and they really have to get to know you, so you’d both have to be extremely mutually interested in doing so, and there typically is no reason for this to happen, so they’re pretty much entirely isolated :P oh well) so they view it as their responsibility to protect other people and keep them out of danger, since they see that as the main thing they can contribute to other peoples’ lives. If they fail this they feel like they have offered absolutely nothing to the other person and get very guilty over it.

🎀 for Gloria

🎀 RIBBON - how would they fit into other worlds / aus? what aus would you like to try out? what fictional world would they fit / not fit into?

She is in a couple of aus, not doing particularly great in either of them:

-Star Trek au (yeah yeah cringe and all) she’s a Bajoran who was able to escape off the planet during the occupation, pretty much exactly the same personality except slightly more mature and significantly more traumatized.

-in the alternate universe where Tiago lived and Jacinto and Kyungsun were killed,

So I guess she would be the best off in the universe where Kyungsun lived. Actually if all of her parents lived that’d probably be the best. She would do the best in an au where everything was fine she’d flourish there basically. As for other fictional worlds ummm I think she’d be a good Pokémon trainer. Pokemon world is pretty much a utopia that is threatened with destruction every few years but she wouldn’t care so that’d work out as well. And then taking care of animals with superpowers would give her something to do.

☄️ for Lucia

☄️ COMET - what do people assume about them? are they right?

She’s pretty shy and awkward (I know I’ve literally said the opposite of this in the past I basically changed a lot abt her character but do not worry her current state of existence is permanent) and when talking to people she is very sincere. She comes across as smart or at least knowledgeable to a lot of people which is pretty much true but she gets easily frustrated during arguments so it makes people think she’s pretentious or arrogant when she really is not at all (she’s actually very insecure it’s just that 1) when she does believe in something she believes in it really strongly and expresses it immediately 2) she gets frustrated easily and whenever she gets frustrated she gets emotional easily. It’s very embarrassing to her).

🌙 for anyone you want to

🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

For this question I’m going to do some side characters I don’t talk about as much so I can spend some time developing them as well :)

Salem: She doesn’t really know and is deeply frustrated by this. She wants to be able to do whatever she wants without being controlled by other people or any kind of rules at all, but she also wants someone to understand her and feel bad for her. And also forgiveness for all the bad shit she’s done. So basically all these things at once, and she wants them really badly. The problem is that she WOULD do anything to achieve them, but she kind of can’t either because they’re impossible or because she wants them to be genuine and as such can’t force other people to do them.

Tiago: Actually very straightforward, just to not be alone. Like with a positive close relationship with someone else not just literally being around people, he’s had shitty toxic friendships and familial relationships in the past and does not want to repeat any of that. He tends to give up on individual attempts at this pretty easily though, like he doesn’t have a lot of social skills and he doesn’t want to bother anyone or get them to hate him, so he tends to stay on his own. If he did meet someone he trusted though he’d really commit to them he’d make sure to be helpful and really nice to them, not just out of a fear of them leaving but for the most part just to express his appreciation or whatever.

Joseph: During the story what he actually wants is for everything to go back to normal. He is literally 13 and feels like he has to prevent a war/coup/series of illegal and unethical experiments/arms race singlehandedly, so he feels like he HAS to do this bc no one else can bc no one else has the information that he does and he doesn’t know if he can trust anyone/whether he’d be putting them in danger. But what he wants is for this to have been a dream and none of it to have happened in the first place, or even just to get amnesia and forget everything so whatever happened wouldn’t be his fault.

Victor: During the story his greatest wish is just to survive, he would LIKE to escape and he would LIKE to be supported or helped by someone else, but all of that is secondary to the desire to stay alive. It’s almost compulsive how often he is thinking of this. He would do almost anything (short of like killing a child but he’d kill someone his own age) even though he would not want to at all and he’d feel really bad about it, he’d be able to justify it by saying he needed to do it to accomplish his most important goal, that being not dying.

Laura: Hmm probably to be respected or to be taken seriously, when she was younger it might have been to change the world for the better but as she got older the need for respect became more powerful and kinda drowned that out. She would go very far including lying to and betraying people, and would even consider killing someone if it was necessary (although it like. Probably would not be), but she wouldn’t hurt anyone she considers to be innocent, at least not directly.

#thanks for asking these :) they were really good questions #Sorry it took me so long to answer also I was really busy #and I might have forgotten. For a couple of days #my bad my bad hope you don’t mind 😔#my ocs

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proof A part 01

jessica moloney is evil in person. she's a filthy rotten, horrible malevolent individual with nefarious connections to extremely vile, depraved, and revoltingly sickening monstrous beings.

james campbell bower may have become a victim of human trafficking.

https://archive.is/wip/DD3E3

Hi Jamie Campbell Bower fans of Twitter/X, please look at this VERY important post regarding someone who’s been grooming minors in this fandom (you all know this person)

https://archive.ph/Us7DM

This post is about Hannah @/jamiebowerserenity. Which, as some of you may know, was my “best friend” in 2022 - start of 2023.. I’m going to start off by saying that our friendship was not perfect at all, and i see that now. She has groomed me, manipulated me a whole lot.. There’s a lot to fucking talk about as it was a whole year of her manipulating me and doing a good job of it because i was incredibly vulnerable at 16 & 17. I simply can’t talk about EVERYTHING because of the space Instagram has for captions… So i’m going to talk about everything i can that she’s done to me in simpler forms. She tried to manipulate me into isolating myself from my sister- my own family?! she tried to manipulate me into leaving my friends. She talked about such sexual things in front of me (which includes sexual things about herself) She would spread such fake bullshit like “Don’t sexualize Jamie!” and HEAVILY sexualize him in private which made me very uncomfortable. She once sent me photos of her thighs, bare stomach, and feet.. At the time i had only just turned 17, and i was so blinded to see how wrong it all was because i was IN LOVE with her.. She really lead me on for a very long time and it really fucked with me.. I would fall asleep crying about her often.. She kept her friendship with me VERY private.. She always wanted me to repost and share everything that she posted, and i felt forced to do it.. whereas when i wanted her to share my posts around about the petition she only did it twice.. Another thing: With the Bring Back ‘Will’ Petition, She never contributed much!! It was my sister Jenesis and I’s idea and we didn’t know how to create a petition so she did it and slapped her name on it, only shared it for TWO weeks and gave up and began promoting her YouTube channel.. Most of those signatures were because of My Sister and i, and all of you continuing to fight for a second season and sharing it around!! Hannah might be petty enough to delete the petition because of this post.. And if she does, i’m so sorry that this will all feel like it was for nothing. For a whole year it’s meant something.. (Read pinned comments)

https://www.instagram. com/p/CyEcq2Vv0Do/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng%3D%3D&img_index=1

https://archive.is/RgbKg

Please read these, after finding out that one of my good friends Hannah has groomed and has done other disgusting things to @keplerdarling . I’m honestly so disgusted I can’t even explain. Knowing I was friends with her makes me sick. Hannah’s @ is jamiebowersfan.

YOU ARE A GROWN ASS ADULT YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT YOU DONT SAY STUFF LIKE THAT TO MINORS AND THEN WHEN YOU GET CALLED OUT SAY THAT YOU WERE JUST PLAYING AROUND

“Im just a silly person sometimes” literally colleen ballinger, u need to get out. You arent safe. You are a danger to kids and probably still are under cover

#jamie campbell bower #jamie bower #jessica moloney #jess moloney #jessicagate #jessgate #fashiongate

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— TOKYO REV ## RANDOM HCS

alternate title: tr men and random headcanons i have abt some of them

characters included: ran haitani / sanzu haruchiyo / hanma shuji / manjiro sano / baji keisuke / takemichi hanagaki

warnings: a bit suggestive / mostly sfw tho / crack cocaine for sanzu / humour / gn! reader / ooc maybe?? idk thats up to u to decide lol

a/n: these were the only characters i could think of hcs for off the top of my head shhh. n e ways weewoo my first official contribution to the tr fandom, enjoy :p

% SHUJI HANMA %

he's the type to fake bang you.

doesn't matter where you are, who you're with or what you're doing– the moment he sees you bent down, hes getting all up behind you and thrusting full force 💀

you've had to start kneeling and squatting down to reach for things instead after one incident. living in fear everyday that hanma may one day pull a bluff on your poor, vulnerable ass right in front of your friends and family 😟

"shuji PLEASE im trying to take this dish out of the oven"

"hm? sorry~. i cant help myself when you're all bent down like that just for me ♡ "

you burned your fingers and almost dropped your lasagna all over the floor

all he did in apology was pat your ass and said "it looks good babe 😘"

you still dont know whether he was talking about your ass– or the lasagna

probably both.

% RAN HAITANI %

he makes deez nuts jokes along with his brother rindou LMAO

thinks they're sooo fuckin funny. oh? your legs are broken? lol deez nuts are next 🤣

and whats worse is that rin backs him up too with a shit eating grin, both giggling like lil kids who just made a joke about poo

has never actually fallen for it whenever someone tries though

and even if it were to happen, you wouldnt know.

given the way he just stands there like 🕺 right after he finishes you off with his baton for humiliating him like that in broad daylight

rin: "🙄 cant believe you fell"

ran: "i didnt fa-"

rin: "for deez nuts."

ran: 😃

not only did he fall for deez nuts twice on that day, but he smacked a hoe with his baton twice too

hurt his ego knowing rindou pulled it on him without missing a beat

if you ever asked, it never happened <3

% SANZU %

ACTUALLY served crack before he served his country.

has definitely snorted cocaine off your ass crack to make things more exciting

though one time, you caught him snorting sugar off the kitchen counter. having temporarily taken away his coke stash after he kept waking up next to you high as hell

a credit card, 10,000¥ bill and nose all lined up to take another hit

"what are you doing?? you know you cant-"

"its not."

"huh? the hell you mean its 'not' 🤨"

"its sugar, princess. here~ try it"

"no thanks-"

told you to shut up as he scooped some up with his finger n stuck them in your mouth anyway

it was sugar.

he was snorting glucose up his nostrils.

"WHAT THE FUCK 😃."

you still think he mightve done it just to spite you since youre so worried about his health

you gave him back his shit after that

so it was either him high off the rocks or...yeah <3 he was definitely in a silly goofy mood that day

manz is actually deranged 🚹 middle child behavior if ive ever seen it

% BAJI KEISUKE %

never make a 'your mom' joke at this guy.

ever.

the first n last time some sleezy highschool kid tried to do it to a pre-k baji, they limped outta there the next day looking like they got mauled by several street cats

just never- dont. dont even utter a word about his mom unless youve been feeling alive'nt recently

you can talk smack about baji but never about his momma :<

ranted to peke j about it that night as he was falling asleep

"and i pummeled that asshole! right in his ugly ass mug 😤"

peke j: mrow

"no one!... can talk shit about my mom like that...*snores*"

peke j: mrow

% MIKEY %

still orders the McDonald's happy meal even as an adult

does NOT eat the apple slices :<

he's also another person who enjoys pulling deez nuts jokes on unsuspecting victims...or at least used to ://

*is busy munching on dorayaki*

"hey you know suna?"

"whos that? 😐"

"suna or later deez nuts gonna be in ya' mouth"

k.o'ed on sight. absolutely hates deez nuts jokes now after he fell for one.

draken laughs everytime he recalls it, and mikey refuses to answer any random questions since then

% TAKEMICHI HANAGAKI %

asked chifuyu one time after he did the devils tango with hina on their wedding night

if it was gay to think of another man during it.

"hey so i was wondering... is it gay to think of mikey while i was having sex with hina?"

?????

"huhhh 😕 takemitchy, man i– i mean..bros before hoes right? 😄"

"yeah!! youre right!"

both sat there in silence after

then hakkai walked in, holding his phone that still had mitsuya's now updated side profile picture as his lockscreen

takemichi cried that night 👍🏼

taglist: @katsukichu

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peppermint-toads · 3 years

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Hello! I just had an idea

If you’re comfortable can you write something where it’s poly marauders x fem!reader and the reader doesn’t like degrading and they don’t know that and degrade her during sex and after she gets upset?

Absolutely love your writing btw!❤️❤️

cw: poly marauders x fem! reader, degradation, cursing, crying, piv sex, nipple play, reader has established safe word, angst

an: i wrote this really late last night just pretend it’s good

You were splayed out on your back with James by your head, Sirius between your legs, and Remus fondling your tits.

“Feels so good, puppy,” Sirius praised as he filled you up over and over again. Three pairs of hands were caressing your flesh, pleasuring you in ways you never thought possible. Remus rolled your nipple between his thumb and pointer finger, kissing around your sensitive bud. You could feel his hot breath tickling your soft skin. James’ touch was sickeningly sweet, stroking your cheek gently.

You could’ve sworn you were in another dimension, pleasure this good was too impossible. You had to be dreaming. You closed your eyes and allowed ecstasy to take over your entire body.

When out of nowhere, “Taking me so well, just like the dumb little slut you are.” Sirius grunted, his cock still disappearing inside your cunt. Your eyes flew open, “A w-what?” Your voice was drowned out by the sounds of skin slapping against skin and strained groans. Dumb? Slut? No, no, that wasn’t right. You waited for him to correct himself, but he never did.

Desperately, you carded your fingers through Remus’ hair, pulling him from your breast. “Rem, please, tell me I’m a good girl, tell me I’m your good girl.” You pleaded. He tsk’d, “No, puppy, that wouldn’t be very honest of me, now would it?” He gave you a look of fabricated sorrow, pouting mockingly.

Your mind was reeling. Did Sirius really think you were a slut? Did they all think that? Maybe the whole school did, you couldn’t tell through your bleary mindset.

“I-I’m sorry!” You choked out, breasts bouncing as Sirius continued pounding into you.

“Aw, that’s our pathetic whore.” James cooed, still caressing your features. You were so confused by the conflicting nature of his tone and the vile words that spilled from the usually sweet boy’s mouth. “Jamesie, you too?” Tears spilled from the corners of your eyes, rolling down the sides of your face and into your hair.

“I’m gonna — fuck! — fill up this dirty pussy.” Sirius’ grip was harsh on your hip bones, suddenly all too crushing. “You’ve been so bad, mutt, been such a filthy girl.” Remus breathed against your skin, contributing to your quickly crumbling mindset.

Sirius stilled inside you, his balls nestled against your bum as he painted your womb with his spend. He rolled off of you, exhaling harshly in an attempt to catch his breath. Remus trailed a final line of sloppy kisses up to your clavicle, his spit glistening in the low light of his dorm. You pushed away from all three boys, sitting up on the mattress.

You needed to get away from them, too embarrassed and ashamed to remain in their presence any longer. Stumbling from James’ bed, you made a straight path towards the bathroom. You turned on the shower and slunk to the floor.

Your hands cupped your face as you began hiccuping into them. Your small tears crescendoed into violent sobs, and you silently hoped the shower was enough to dull the sounds of your wailing.

The flowing water did nothing to hide your sorrow. The boys could hear you through the thin door that separated you.

“I’ll go,” James said decidedly, as he was probably the boy with the most sensitive nature.

He rapped gently on the door, “Love? Can you let me in, please?” You knew you could either let him in, or he would unlock it himself with one simple word. Deciding you needed the control, you cracked the wooden door open, only one of your eyes becoming visible to him. He squeezed through the door with your permission.

“Jamesie,” you sniffled, wiping your tears away on your arm. He grabbed you by your upper arms, guiding you to sit on the toilet lid. He was kneeling quickly, hands finding familiar places on your cheeks. “What is it, my love?” You gave him a pitiful smile. “You guys don’t want me anymore,” your lips quivered. “Siri-Sirius said I’m a slut, and Rem said I was bad.” You broke down at the end of your sentence, slinking down to your knees in front of James. Your arms wrapped around his neck in search of comfort, despite deciding he didn’t love you.

“A-and you, you think I-I’m a p-pathet-ic whore!” You wailed into his bare chest, snot and tears smearing onto his skin. “No, angel, you’ve got it all wrong, promise.” He rubbed small circles onto your back, shushing you softly. “Want me t’go get them?” You didn’t answer, but James wasn’t looking for one, anyway. He slipped out of your grasp to lean out of the bathroom, “Boys, in here, now! And bring her some clothes for Merlin’s sake.”

Sirius and Remus appeared seconds later, Sirius with two shirts in hand. “Want yours or mine, puppy?” You pointed to his shirt, and he helped it over your mussed tresses. “There we go, poppet. All better.” Remus said softly, sinking to the ground where you sat. “Sit on my lap?” Remus patted his thighs and you crawled to him. “Y-you think I’m ba-ad.”

“No,” Remus frowned. “Didn’t mean that, you’re our perfect girl, hm?”

Sirius hummed in agreement, turning off the running shower. He smoothed your damp hair from your face, sighing. “Am I a good girl now, Si?” You whimpered. He scooped you from the tile, forearms supporting your bum as your legs wrapped around his waist.

“You’re always a good girl, you see. The things we were saying- we didn’t mean them. It was supposed to make you feel good.”

“Didn’t like it, Si.” You spoke into his neck.

“Sh, sh, we know that now. It’ll never happen again, yeah?” You nodded, his bare shoulder cold against your cheek. “You’re cold,” you muttered, and Sirius smiled.

“C’mon, precious girl, let’s get you to bed.” Remus was behind you now with a hand placed on your lower back.

“Who d’you want to sleep with, sweetheart.” Remus’ voice was low and sweet, soothing your every worry.

“Jamesie,” you were tired, and it reflected in your tone, barely loud enough for Sirius to hear.

James gave a cocky grin to Remus behind your back, knowing he’d have bragging rights for the next few days, and he hauled you off to bed.

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