#took a three month break

[jabthemoth]

I'm back and worse than ever!

#Linked Universe #lu incorrect quotes #lu Hyrule #lu Legend #lu Wild #lu Twilight #lu Warriors #lu Sky #lu Wind #lu Four #lu Time #Jabberings #I started this in October last year #took a three month break #and finished it at 4pm this afternoon while having the Worst caffeine jitters I've ever had #I'm still vibrating like a Chihuahua it's awful #anyway enjoy

[skeletoninthemelonland]

😭😭

#BEHIND THE CODES SPRINGTRAP NOOO #Hi. im posting this here during a break from studying. i'll be back soon though #:] #i plan on making some springdad au animations in the future to better my skills #working on the au helped me get through some stuff irl and honestly im not ready to let go of it so soon #i'd say its different from the aftons suburb one. i had lost interest in it when it became some sort of shitpost #there is nothing wrong in having 'shitpost aus' but ig its not how i wish to view things #i do like ephemeral stuff #things that last for a while and that make you think 'woah. im glad i had the opportunity to see this' are always my favorite #aftons suburb was one of these cases #springdad au is going through the same path. but i trully believe theres more content to come from it #oh and about BTC? #i took a break from it. its been two or three months since that folder was last opened (and if i did open it. i didnt do anything) #its relatively hard to come up with good dialogs when theres also a need to comprehend how different characters express themselves #especially when said characters are older than you. or smarter than you in some way #some of them speak louder. while others will speak through their actions #thought i had to grow up a bit more to understand how these things work. #turns out. that mindset was blocking the whole creative process #anyway. its going to take a while #thank you for your patience

[vargaslovinghours]

EleVeN!11!!1! (1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 10½)

Fuzzy Edgar forever. I don’t remember the context now, maybe there wasn’t any to begin with haha, he’s just so cute with slightly longer hair! And upset :)

Some Diaryfic snuggles ♥ Scriabin can be so sweet to him at the worst time ah, I love Edgar’s hard on his arm and Scriabin’s pulling his hair out of his injured eye 💕

While I was very inspired by the Red Flags meme going around (we’ll get there), I was just as inspired by Mixed Messages - this exchange is so silly and them to me. He’s just trying to flirt back, you don’t have to make it harder! That’s just what Scriabin does haha

🥐 🖕 D:’

What else did you expect Scriabin to do with texting capabilities?? I’m still very enamoured with the thought of Scriabin using emojis and Edgar using emoticons - they are sort of different generations!

Here’s the Red Flags! So gd catchy, damn lol. I was specifically inspired by the X is on a date with themself edits, it was so tempting to consider a Ladyverse version as well haha. Edgar’s uncomfortable smiles were so incredibly fun hehe ♪

Y’see because with that many eyes- you get it

Edgar’s little “Or do I??” makes me laugh haha, anything to get out of this situation!

Waiter Jake ❤️💕💖💞💗 Rescue him!

Very inspired by this one specifically, he’s totally innocent! Not offputting at all! ♥

Alright well good luck with that bye. I love Edgar being menaced into continuing this date hehe ♫

Scriabin just keeping on the pressure for this date to keep going! Slight neg in “Couldn’t you have dressed up a little nicer though? ✨” pft

Brief aside with Scriabin!Edgar out drinking with my OC Mint who has very openly had a crush on the Vargases for a while now, thanks Mint

Honestly it was all just an excuse to turn him down and have Scriabin call Edgar his “landlord” haha; I was feeling nostalgic and went back to reread some old YuGiOh fics and had been so long away that I forgot that was a term used in the fandom to refer to the bodies of people the various Yamis would take over hehe ♪ It felt very fitting!

I can call him that but don’t you call him that >:(

Angy Scriabin!Edgar, the usual

Handplates re/reading doodles!! Hghgh!!! The theses of these stories of codependent relationships cut me to my very core I’ll have you know 💕 I managed to avoid falling down the rabbit hole of Handplates!Vargas but I was this close, lemme tell you. The subtle shift in phrasing changes so much ;; I love them dearly

A kind-of leftover WOY style Scriabin, since I made his hair all pointy in my first doodles - the WOY style is quite soft and round! He looks very silly hehe

Another song that is, yes, unironically in my Vargas playlist. This is a Nny song to me and you can pry it from my cold dead correct hands. That beautiful facial hair ♪

More Handplates/Vargas, this time obviously inspired by my holiday request 💕💖💞 I honestly rather like how calm Gaster seems whenever he’s in Edgar’s vicinity, he is a fairly unassuming human haha. Is it because he doesn’t laugh very often? Oh no that’s sad actually haha

I’m not done with Blank Slate Ch. 4 just yet - hopefully soon! - but this lineup stands out to me especially since I made it while rereading Handplates. Specifically after Gaster is pulled out of the Void - Gaster having to face the people he loves who have no memory of him really spoke to me in a Blank Slate way - the scenario of being able to completely start over and have never done anything to hurt your loved ones, at the expense of never having done anything to them, as far as they’re concerned, ah! It hurts so beautifully!! That’s one of the central themes I’m chasing so it was so cool to see in that context! Very inspiring ♥

So remember how in my Sims post, one Vargas family ended up with two Todds? Well what if that but actually

Twin Todd AU, just try and stop me

The saddest little twins y’ever did see ahh 💔 Having to share Shmee because there’s just the one of him! Who has a greater need :’0

I actually went and skimmed the SQUEE! comics to get a better grasp on the Casils, I’d forgotten basically everything haha. It seemed in keeping that if they could barely keep track of the one Todd, they wouldn’t bother even differentiating between two :’) Taking Todd shifts to better share the load

At least they have each other! More helpful than a stuffed bear who eats trauma? On par at least?

I also happened to catch this screenshot of the Todds gossiping about their shadow-dad, though I’m not sure who had seen him :0 By now I have found an adoption memory-loss prevention mod - thank goodness :D - but it wasn’t installed at the time! :0 Blue Todd is the Todd who’d already been the Vargases’ kid, Red Todd is newly-adopted Todd :)

Greetings in order! One of the Todds came by to scout out this strange new person

It’s a name to go by, if nothing else

Reporting back from the field, he has served his big narrative influence hehe ♥

Uh, yeah, about that- While I don’t doubt you were seeing double at times, uhm-

Surprise! Double the sons!

Only so much space in this apartment! They’re probably used to sharing a space to sleep weh, the implications of this AU are sad! I have no one to blame but myself haha

I have never been able to give up this twisted love I have for Edgar getting flustered about incredibly silly things and Scriabin chiding him with just his name haha ♥ Real twins do not delegitimize whatever the hell you two are to each other 💕

Who me? An affinity for how names shape identity and what it means to be a whole separate person? In love with this story in particular? You must be mistaken. But really, what would their name(s) be? I also love the subtle differences even just here - one Todd speaks up for the other! Dynamics ✨

1994, 2004, basically the same year innit. Scriabin is so much more on the up-and-up about the latest technology than Edgar, that old man

In which the offscreen is me lol, I was so blown away by how much more advanced the Sims 2 was from the Sims 1 ♥ Scriabin doesn’t need a box with a program in it, he has the absolute funnest toy in the world already!

And isn’t that the most important part ♪

Scriabin immediately makes himself and hooks up with every Sim he can, Edgar uncomfortable and totally not watching a~ny of the animations hehe ♪ Honestly though, the thought of Scriabin being genuinely excited to virtually get it on with any-and-every delights me haha

Look. Look, okay, look- If I could choose what to be inspired by, I would but sometimes

Obviously Scriabin would be a long Furby lol, this exchange can be summarized to “Scriabin no D:” “Scriabin yes >:D”

He’s complaining that Edgar ignoring him sleeping is boring haha

I did briefly lose my mind over how the Furbish word for “I/me/my/mine” is all the same - linguistically it makes sense, self-possessive, but in this, in their context ♥

Based on that one Wojak format - looks into the camera like “Yes. I am in your head. Insanity tracks” pfft

And it’s @jaspravex with the steel chair!! I hadn’t drawn any of them in like a month and then all of a sudden- I was 1000% not expecting to be hit with such a huge wave of inspiration but gosh and dang did this line of thought light me up. The implication! The jealousy! Wow that’s a lot all at once I wasn’t expecting ♥ Somehow these two never ended up on my shipping chart, dynamics I swear haha ✨

There’s September through February for the fourth go ‘round! Wild when I put it like that :0 Like clockwork, these lads ♪

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Sketchdump #Edgar #Scriabin #Jake #Todd #Shmee #Nny #There's a few errant things in here as well - The Sims 2 - Handplates #......Furbies #Look it's fine don't worry about it lol #Oh this one was so nice to edit <3 I've made it once <3 <3 When was the last time I could say that about one of these ♥ #And you know what that means right? Other than the fact that I've gotten a bit better at making these without breaking them lol #It means my art production is finally actually properly for realsies slowing down! Not as many to compile over a three month period! #That last one really did surprise me that inspiration hit me upside the head after quite literally a month of nothing #Even my scratch pages hadn't taken precedent for a bit! And yeah this technically still isn't all of what I've made in the meanwhile lol #Once I finish Ch. 4 of Blank Slate there might be another :) Or I might let it go for another chapter or so ♪ #Either way! Only took - when did I first go on hiatus lol #July of '22 so a year and a half-ish lol #To finally start to taper off - this is tapering off this is my airtight example of tapering off lol #Handplates and the Sims 2 were my big driving forces this time around hehe <3 Who knows what will catch my attention towards them next! #Lots of Todd AUs around here when I look huh :0 He is best boy he deserves the attention ♪ #As always I'll be back in April as well for my personal Vargasversary and to be a sap hehe ♥ #Never empty of thoughts or love! Just progressively quieter - for now ♪

[asteralien]

not to be like “i miss college” even though i do but mostly i think i miss being smart. before depression and life events had chewed up and partially swallowed my brain. just getting to problem solve and think, being Very Into something as the norm. i know being an english major is basically the easiest thing you can be at the undergrad level but i do feel like that was the one and only time in my life where my natural state was actually a pro instead of a con. i graduated with the highest honors and absolutely no one cared but i cared

#aster chat #family life exploding exactly one (1) month from graduation is still just. it. god. it was almost seven years ago and it still hurts #SO much. i had worked so hard to graduate with the honors i did #i took a 400 level history class in my 2nd semester with one of the hardest humanities profs and i got a B #i basically lived in a break room for a whole semester because my misophonia was so bad with my roommate at night #i stashed pillows and blankets behind a couch and slept there to stay sane enough to write my papers #i got so close to Ending Things three times and DIDN'T #my professors LOVED ME #and then graduation came and it was just. over. #went right back home to sit between my parents as much as i could and get yelled at and watch everything go down the drain #like as soon as i walked out of college i stopped existing except as something for my parents and my job to use up #like. i know it's cringy to still be thinking about college but that was the last time i mattered as myself. you know #people liked me because of my brain! my thoughts! not for what i could do for them or for a paycheck #me qua me #okay lmao Antidepressant Time bye #no offense but my english classes wouldn't have made me feel weird about saying 'boon' instead of 'pro' up there #i changed it to not sound like an assclown but my profs would have thought it was funny.

[amurder-ofcrows]

i forgot how fucking draining going to therapy is. i was there for an hour, all we did was make a safety plan - something i’ve done SO MANY TIMES BEFORE because ive been suicidal since i was 11 - and now im laying down while physically shaking because im so overwhelmed from the session. and we didn’t even touch my trauma today (which is a big reason im going to therapy again) because we knew we wouldn’t have time to put me back together AND do the safety plan, so guess what we’re doing next week… so glad my sessions are at 5pm because there’s no way i can do this kinda shit and then go back to class

#who forgot to tell me that therapy is hard??? #i did this shit for 8 years at least once a month sometimes even three times a week and yet i’ve forgotten how hard it is #i took a 7 month break from therapy and suddenly im a fresh baby again #- r #suicidality tw #therapy tw

[blissfulstatic]

i started all of these games at wildly different times, took varying levels of breaks partway through each of them, and then finished all of their achievements in the same two days

i don't know what to do with myself now

#buenos dias short people #tunic was like. i played to maybe halfway. took a months long break #when i picked it back up i didnt remember what i was doing so i started a new file and played like a third #months long break. but this time i resumed the second file and played through to the end #the game is very cryptic but starting over gave me a handle on the mechanics and what was important #outer wilds took like four tries even though i knew it would be good i just wasnt hooked #the game is about knowledge even more than tunic like knowledge is the whole deal and it comes slowly at first #but when it hit it really hit. god damn #please play outer wilds #spyro? um. it was good #i don't know that i took any big breaks from it? there were some but a couple weeks at most #spyro levels are not particularly complex. or content rich. and i really felt that 60 hours #playing the whole trilogy all back to back can really burn you out #its a collectathon you're bound to spend a good while just wandering around to find that one last thing you missed #and i didn't know i could left stick for sparx to point out the nearest gems until like halfway through 2 so that was a time waster #im not saying it wasn't a good game but spyros moveset is like. glide fire charge and you do this for three games #until they throw in random nonspyro playable characters in 3 and they all control really bad and weird. but its still mostly spyro #i could have taken big breaks between each game and it would've been better probably but its a collection im gonna roll to the next one

[penguinzzz]

Been gone cuz I've been exploring fandoms lately...I've decided to draw Zuko?

#atla art #my art #atla #atla zuko #prince zuko #idk #also ive been doing alot lately so i havent been posting that much. #when school is over i promise to post ALOT. #also isnt zuko so bbg? #i decided that i wanted zukos scar to ve bigger #cuz #yes #also i took a break for three months cause my phone exploded #and i had to resist the urge to draw fanarts :( #oh and i changed my artstyle cause i cant find the brush use been using #cus the brush ive been using is on my other phone #that exploded. #and i cant find any other brush that match the one im using and it doesnt really fit my previous artstyle.. #i wanna curl up in a corner omfg

[wholesomecryptidart]

breaking out of art block with some art related to OC lore featuring a younger version of my OC Henry (plus a redesign for him that i've been meaning to do for a while now)

#I love him so much sorry it took you like 37 years of being alive to be able to catch a break #OC #original character #ocart #Henry #waaah i don't know how to tag oc art #this is for my project Red Like Roses which is very dear to me even though i only make anything related to it once every three months #red like roses

[prettyboykatsuki]

i literally cant believe how close i am to being done

#fight scene is almost done + p/rn + minor epilogue and im . thats it. i just need to edit a bit and . wow #thank you ame and the three people i know for sure who will be reading . means the world #im literally not even sure what ill do when its over #sorry this is one of those projects that like #alters me at a metaphysical level i really think its challenged me as a writer more than ever #its not even my longest project its just the one ive put the most thought into #its dc so again. not expecting TOO much but. wow. #i promise i will be online when im recovered like kjfdkhgkjfdgd #its taken me 8 months to finish this fic . like okay #i took a break to format for part one #est. final wc is like 34k ish maybe more #wowowow

[pallases]

#personal #i miss having a best friend like it sounds so pathetic but there’s no other way to put it… i miss having someone to share an earbud w on the #bus and to go driving around town and picking up fast food w and someone to invite over to hang out and play video games and make art w and #spend the night and honestly just text back and forth w without restraint… #i literally have no one to hang out w for the whole summer like 😭 there’s my one roommate i’d feel comfortable w hanging out w one on one #but she’s in another state wrdhdjf and the other one lives really close to me and i love her too but our conversations without the other #roommate can feel so stilted sometimes 🙈 #im sure i’ll meet up w her at some point this summer but i want to give it some time so i’ll actually have things to talk abt LOL #then there’s my old best friend who if i reached out to her im sure she’d find the time to hang out but she also hasn’t really reached out #to me since like november and there was like a solid three months where i would send her posts that reminded me of her and she never replied #to me so. i don’t know #we did end up running into each other on campus before spring break and she offered me a ride without prompting and we listened to into the #woods the way home and sang along and it was FUN it was good and we decided we should try to get back into the swing of things but then we. #did not so. yeah i don’t know! was it bc finals took over our lives or bc we really have moved onto separate paths who knows. anyway

[alexeithegoat]

[click for better quality]

Jedi Master Plikh’adi’razna and Padawan Tal Hardin

I love them, your honour

bonus vers. beneath the cut:

detail shots:

no background / lightsabers and line art

#my ocs #plikh'adi'razna #tal hardin #star wars ocs #alexei draws #chiss oc #twi’lek oc #jedi oc #skulk squad #star wars fanart #this… this took a while #i stayed up way too late #anyways i love these two #first time drawing lightsabers #hope it paid off lmao #i do apologise about the detail shots having icons in them #i dunno how to make them disappear on sketchbook #also also i really feel like I’ve come in to my own when it calls for digital art #just three or so months ago I didn’t have a clue #i had a looooong break of traditional art and got back into it to doodle my ocs #and now look at them 😭 #needless to say I’m really proud of myself #okay that’s all! #and thank you gen for the background help 💜

[kiwipuffstims]

🔥❄️🔥-❄️❤️‍🔥❄️-🔥❄️🔥

Skraelroc stimboard bc I am AWFUL about them

#beloveddsssss #skrael #bellroc #skraelroc #i started this like three months ago #bc i closed all the tabs that had the credit links in them by accident 🫠 #so i took a mental health break (rage quit. i rage quit because i was about to scream) #and managed to track down the links!! took like two hours tho #gold #brown #red #paint #blue #melting #painting #fur #stim #blacksmithing #white #bones #bandages #fire

[kteenys]

me in january: i am going to continue working on diversifying my reading this year!

me in february: *begins to hyperfixate on a series written by a cishet white mormon man where each book is 1200+ pages*

#i took breaks while reading wok to read other things!! but like in the three months it took me it was my primary focus #and now i'm on wor and kinda don't want to put it down #welp #mine

[snirtsnirkarts]

whit eboy moment

#ranboo #ranboo fanart #boobers #snirtsnirkarts #can you tell I took a big break before this one and the last one #there was like three months in between these two

[consulaaris]

the score for my LSAT retake comes out tomorrow and i’m not having a funky fresh time lol :o)

#have been legit shaking with anxiety all afternoon/evening lmao #the retake was on paper and pencil which did help my eyes #but the actual testing session was a nightmare that took over 4.5 hours when it’s supposed to take less than three #got yelled at by a proctor who clearly didn’t know wtf he was doing. nearly had a panic attack in the middle of my final test section. #but to mention the loud as fucking street construction going on the entire time :o) #it was about the worst standardized test experience i think i’ve ever had lol #and if i paid all of that money and went to all that stress to score worse i think i’m just gonna break down #but my applications are due at the end of this month so i have to use whatever score i get :o) #this is fine :o) i say being very not fine :o) #*not to mention. i’m not retyping all of that lol #i should’ve kept that damn 163 and sucked it up shdjjdj #also i literally wasn’t even allowed to leave my room during the ‘break’ to use the bathroom lmao proctorU fuckers go die challenge #(they are supposed to let you out. mine did not.)

[sollucets]

wheres that post thats like. [emerges from google docs covered in blood] anyway oowu4. done. i think. just editposting now

#this is very dramatic for 4.5k of them going to a street market lmao. #sometimes it’s like that! #consistently i never have any idea what bits will fight me the hardest #i rewrote ‘circuit breaker’ nearly three times #refractions took a month break in the middle. #part of the promise’s initial conversation sucked ass So Hard #choices’ last part (the library scene) beat me to death in the docs #none of that i expected lmao. things i expect to be hard are always just #yknow difficult but doable instead of imminently life-ending #shrug #i fully expect ch6 of oowu to be the worst to write but [points upward] who fucking knows lmao #its also possible that my general state of affairs is interfering. and by possible i mean. really likely #its been a long long week #rowan chatter