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[toughpaperround]

Wherever You Find Love (It Feels Like Christmas)

A BBC Ghosts podfic for an Advent-ish release in December 2023...

... starting tomorrow night, the first thing we are gonna do is watch a Christmas film every night. I’ve picked out one for each of you especially, something I think you will really like. Kind of like a film advent calendar but I thought of it too late to start earlier.

Written by Sir_Bedevere @breadcrumbsandstars

Read by ToughPaperRound

Rated G, no warnings apply.

Total final length of podfic = 120 mins, 15k words. (See chapter one for link to the 2hr long file)

Wherever You Find Love [Podfic]

part 1 of a series | part 2, 'Magic in the Air' (T, 37 mins) | part 3 (T, 20 mins)

#bbc ghosts podfic #toughpaperround reads #bbc ghosts #button house #Releasing on the dates shown (but in 2023!) where possible #happy advent! #wherever you find love bbc ghosts series #now complete #series complete

[pod-together]

Pod-Together Day 1 Reveals 2023

The Matchmaking Bentley (Good Omens (TV), Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett, Queen (Band)) written by ChrisCalledMeSweetie, performed by Juulna Summary: Crowley's Bentley is determined to make the ineffable husbands' relationship more effable - with a bit of help from Queen.

Just Missed You (Ted Lasso (TV)) written by chainofclovers and gnen, performed by klb, rockinhamburger, petrodobreva, eafay70, Ceewelsh, JanuariumPods, meyml, ToughPaperRound, dairaliz, SSLeif, HowOldAreWe, gnen, chainofclovers, and DryDreams Summary: Ted and Beard, one year later. (They love each other, they will see each other again.) A "found audio" story for pod-together 2023.

Value (Jewish Scripture & Legend) written by Hagar, performed by eafay70 Summary: Le’a is kind as often as possible, but it doesn’t always help ease the sting of life in the shadow of her beautiful sister Rachel.

Lightning (Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms, Sherlock Holmes - Arthur Conan Doyle, Sherlock Holmes (1984 TV)) written by tadhana_writes, performed by gracicah Summary:"Lightning flashed. In that horrible moment of pure light, I saw my mistake."

Things are well. Holmes has returned, life has returned to a quiet lull, and they're in another case. Same thing as always. By the light of a thunderstorm, Watson realises that things may not be the as well as he wishes them to be.

Pay Attention to Me (A3! (Video Game), A3! (Anime)) written by Dokuhan, performed by ChaosKiro Summary: Chikage will swear up and down, left to right, backwards and forwards that jealousy is beneath him. But that becomes a lot harder to say when Sakuya and Tasuku start spending more time together than usual.

camouflage (Twisted-Wonderland (Video Game)) written by roxas_oxo13, performed by Wonderlandian_Geek Summary: “You remind me of myself, I guess.” “Impossible.” “Why’s that?” It's now or never. He’s already not likable; he has to nothing to lose. “You’re good-looking. You’re always surrounded by your flowery little posse. You always have something to say. You don’t know what it’s like to have people avoid you and tell you that your parents are the only thing you have going for you. It’s always do this, try this, be better, until it’s time to do a science project and suddenly you’re hot shit.”

Visit to a Strange World (陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) RPF, 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù) written by FlutterFyre, performed by pezzax Summary: Xiao Zhan awakens to find himself in an impossible situation. He has more questions than he knows what to do with, the biggest being, How do I get home?

Surrender (Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling) written by SanctuaryAngel, performed by SerenaEW Summary: Harry ends his life within the Veil after losing Sirius, and Severus spends every day visiting, wondering if he should follow.

Don the Mantle [text, audio] (Star Wars: Rebels) written by wanderingjedihistorian, performed by Flowerparrish Summary: The world spun as he took in the date before him. Perhaps this was a nightmare of some sort? Or a hallucination? The brief said they weren’t entirely sure what protections the device had on it. Forcing him to relive the assault on Lasan certainly would be a fitting way to neutralize him. Still, that didn’t…that idea didn’t seem right. This felt all too real.

Not Alone (เขา...ไม่ใช่ผม | Not Me (TV 2021)) written by FlutterFyre, performed by Wereflamingo Summary: Not that any of that mattered. Black wasn’t here and – like the rest of them – Sean was hooded, cuffed, and crammed in the back of this van like unwanted luggage. Helpless.

Get A Read On Me (Men's Hockey RPF) written by savvygambols, performed by Beryllinthranox Summary: Roope considers Jason, his broad chest and his strong arms, his big dark eyes and his beautiful brown skin. Jason is a good-looking man and his shirt doesn’t fit at all. “We’re going shopping after practice,” say Roope. “Uh—” says Jason. He rubs his palms on his jeans. His jeans don’t fit. Roope can fix this. Roope can fix all of this. “I mean, I don’t know, Roope. I don’t, like—I mean, you know me and clothes, right? It’s not my thing.” “It wasn’t a question,” says Roope. “We’re going.”

#podfic #fanfic #good omens #ted lasso #jewish scripture & legend #sherlock holmes #a3! #twisted wonderland #the untamed #harry potter #star wars rebels #not me the series #mens hockey rpf

[tinylilemrys]

9 People You'd Like To Know More

I was tagged by @lierdumoa (Thanks! 🌻)

Last Song: "All That You Are" by Solid Audioworks

Currently Watching: WWDITS, Black Mirror, The Golden Girls

Currently Reading: The Book That Wouldn't Burn by Mark Lawrence for my book club, Holes by Louis Sachar because I hadn't read it yet, and The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy because I just love it.

Current Obsession: TED LASSO. Hyperfixation central right now. A small side of Good Omens too.

Tagging: @asingerofdreams @ahyounggeeklove @beckstraordinary @mathmachickenn @dragonlordofmiddleearth @tk-duveraun @lonelyroommp3 @toughpaperround @taurnachardhin

#tag game #💛

[michellemisfit]

TAG GAME: FANDOM EDITION

Tagged by the wonderful @energievie, thank you my love!

Your Name: Michelle (Mys for short)

Your Age: Just turned 38 🤟

Your First Fandom(s): Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Your Current Fandom(s): Shameless is my current active fandom, but like, you never really leave a fandom, you just get distracted by a new shiny thing. There’s still Merlin (2008) and Shadowhunters (2015) fic open on my phone right this minute. And I go back and read some of my favourite fic from much older fandoms on a semi regular basis. I have hundreds of them saved in word. Because if you love something… don’t let it go! Save the ever-loving shit out of it and keep it on your current laptop as well as on multiple external hard drives for back up!!

How did you first get into fandom? I was looking for someone to talk to, and that wasn’t going to happen in real life. So instead I found myself on a German Buffy Forum, which led me to discover fandom, online friends, and fanfic… all of which changed my life forever.

How long have you been engaging with fandom spaces? Probably since 1998? It was during Buffy Season 1, but when it aired on German TV, so 98/99 sounds about right. I DEFINITELY lied to the ‘are you over 18?’ ticky boxes!!

How often do you read fanfics? Daily. I used to be that kid that would walk to and from school with her nose in a book. Now I’m that adult that walks to and from school reading fanfic on her phone.

Top 3 characters from your current fandom(s): Mickey Milkovich. Ian Gallagher. Lip Gallagher.

Have you ever written a fic for a fandom? if so, shout it out! I have. I’m not primarily a writer, but about once a year I get the urge. Here’s my AO3. Also, if you search very hard you may be able to find some German Buffy/Spike fic out there somewhere, from when I was a child, proof read by my mother, whose main comment was ‘Oh my. You could have a career in erotica…’ (They barely kissed! Sheesh!)

Have you ever drawn fanart for a fandom? Yep. Back in the day I did the full range: Drawings, Icons. Wallpapers. Manips. Fic Banners. Fic Awards. Now I mostly stick with traditional art, and then once a year pumpkins haha Some of my recent stuff is on AO3. You can also find a lot of my art on my RedBubble Page or my Instagram.

Share a personal headcanon that you feel very strongly about: For Shameless? The Gallaghers visited Ian and Mickey in prison. Yes, they are busy, but they love their brother, and by extension they love the person their brother loves! And there is loads of them!! If they visited on rotation, it would only really “cost” them one day a month each. Not a hardship, is it? Also, Lip went more often than everyone else. Send tweet.

You’re trying to convince a friend to get into your current fandom(s) with you. what episode, clip, or scene are you showing them? Depends a little bit on the friend and on what aspect of a show I feel they’d vibe with best. 01x03 Aunt Ginger is a pretty good one. It’s got the full family working together to solve a problem. And it introduces Mandy and the itty bitty murder floof, which is a great bonus!!

And finally, what does fandom mean to you? Absolutely everything. You know Penny Lane’s speech in Almost Famous? “If you never take it seriosuly, you never get hurt, you never get hurt, you always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just go to the record store and visit your friends.”? I followed bands around for about half a decade, and that, and Oasis’ “Please don’t put your life in the hands, of a rock and roll band, who'll throw it all away” were things I tried to live by. But fandom doesn’t work that way. Fandom is all about emotionally investing. Caring too much is basically a requirement. And what makes it safe is the fact that we are all in this together. <3

~

My word that was fun!

Tagging @malec-crazed-author, @ohfreckle, @rutherinahobbit, @deedala, @rereadanon, @toughpaperround, @teawithjelly, @faejilly, @industrious-ian, @orca122, @poemsfromthealley, @allmyfantasiesarethirdperson, @darknutmeg, @glorious-spoon, @hellofavillain, @howlinchickhowl, @katspace, @lynne-monstr, @captainjowl, @crossmydna, @vintagelacerosette, @beatperfume, @nanf1c

#tag game #fandom #Mys stuff #ask Mys #fandom is for life not just for Christmas

[justsmilestuffhappens]

Hi. I was wondering if you might could help me find a story. I have searched for days and can not find it.

Chris is not home. Buck comes over to Eddie's and watches Halloween town because eddie usually watches it with Chris but he wanted to be with friends or something. They make a blanket fort but end up kissing and leading to a little bit more. I think it is storming outside but I'm not sure. I vaguely remember a part of a conversation between them after they start kissing. Buck I thunk tries to slow down to ask if this is ok and eddie takes it the wrong way and thinks Buck wants to have sex and says they can but he doesn't have condoms or something I think. Overall it is a silly heart warming fic.

I asked @loveyourownsmiilee earlier but thought maybe you might know it too?

Of the few Halloween fics I've done none match this. I can't remember any right now I've read matching.

I was going to ask @toughpaperround if any of their recs for Halloween stories sounded similar enough to what you said

Good luck finding that fic anon

There's literally 244 Halloween buddie fics on ao3, so a big stack to sort through

#fic search #fic finder #answered #asks #buddie #Halloween

[captain--sif]

Ich habe 118 Mal im Jahr 2022 etwas gepostet

14 Einträge erstellt (12%)

104 Einträge gerebloggt (88%)

Blogs, die ich am häufigsten gerebloggt habe:

@mansikkaomenabanaani

@jackironsides

@agnesclementineblog

@aye-write

@toughpaperround

Ich habe 48 meiner Einträge im Jahr 2022 getaggt

#writer stuff – 15 Einträge

#sif talks – 9 Einträge

#not fic – 8 Einträge

#sif writes – 6 Einträge

#fic writing – 5 Einträge

#911 fox – 4 Einträge

#fic – 4 Einträge

#buddie – 3 Einträge

#wattpad – 3 Einträge

#911 fic – 2 Einträge

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#the comment i just gotten was actually helpful in that it made me aware of a problem i didnt know exist in exporting my fic from my editor

Meine Top-Einträge im Jahr 2022:

#5

I can't believe all it takes for me to write for Buddie again is one single episode of season 6 and a tumblr post, after nearly two full years and two whole seasons of not being able to scrape up any motivation except for fandom gift exchanges

14 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 21. September 2022

#4

You’re still my destiny

Another year, another Legacy Day. Apple convinced Raven to step up to the podium again. But Apple still has expectations, and Raven still has aspirations. A lot has changed in this year and just as much hasn't. The girls reconcile with what is predestined and with what isn't. 

Fandom: Ever After High Relationships: Apple White / Raven Queen Word count: 3.7k

Read on AO3, Wattpad, or below:

They have an evening routine by now and it looks a little like this:

They fight over the use of the bathroom, dirty tricks allowed, even though most nights they end up sharing it anyway.

Apple stays in there longer, following her skincare routine meticulously and without compromise.

When Raven leaves the room, she rolls her eyes, pretending like she’s not about to smile, just as Apple pretends not to see it.

It works for them and she’s not about to threaten this peace between them.

Once under her covers, Apple calls out “Good night, Ravie”, just because she can. Because Raven no longer throws curses her way when she says it. Because they are friends. And Apple has fought so hard for this, so by the Book of Destiny, she’s gonna enjoy it.

Raven sighs but she still throws a “Good night, Apple-nova” her way.

If Apple has to pinpoint her favorite part of the day, this would be it.

She always falls asleep with a smile.

Apple had been about to pin up her own hair. She lets it fall back down on her shoulders. She struts over to her friend—  who is she kidding?, her best friend— and takes a look at what she’s wearing.

“If anything, you don’t look evil enough”, she says with a confidence she’s not quite sure she’s feeling.

Sure, she’s confident. And yes, she trusts that today will turn out well. But still, she compensates with a determination that Raven lacks on this day. Apple understands but still, she feels like she needs to be strong for the both of them today. Put on that extra bit of confidence and determination. Remind her that it’ll all be okay. That they’ll be okay.

Raven sighs sadly but proceeds to put on her earrings.

Apple puts her arm around Raven’s waist, careful not to impede her movement or make a crease into Raven’s carefully shaped dress during the hug.

“You can do it!” She reassures her cheerfully. “It will feel a lot shorter than you remember it!”

Apple can see Raven’s lips quirking up for a short second but she’s quick to be back to her former glum expression.

Perfect, Apple thinks, and let the Legacy Day begin anew.

They’re sitting together at this year’s Legacy Day, as it should be. Apple finds, after all, their destinies are very much intertwined.

In front of them are two rows of students that participate in the Legacy Day for the first time this year and Apple can tell that they are nervous too. Some of them look to her as if to confirm that they’re making the right choice in signing their name. She holds her head extra high. Some others are looking to Raven, hesitantly of course. They are all aware of what it means if Raven signs in the book today. Raven set a powerful precedent that needs to be rectified.

Not if Raven signs, Apple reminds herself, when Raven signs.

She looks beside her to the girl in question who is staring blankly to the front where their principal is just about to take the stage.

Gently, she nudges her with her elbow and presents her with an encouraging smile.

Raven doesn’t smile back but her shoulders unclench and when she turns back to the front her stare is no longer blank but filled with a determination that would make most of the student body of Ever After High tremble.

But not Apple White. Because this stare means her destiny is safe.

She is safe. Both of them are.

And she’s waited a year for this.

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18 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 1. August 2022

#3

A Little Push

This is a gift fic for @wolvesofinnistrad for the I’m Your Buddie Secret Elf Gift Exchange. I hope you like it 😊

Eddie overhears Chris' friend making assumptions.

AO3, Gift Exchange Collection Relationships: Eddie Diaz/Evan “Buck” Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley & Christopher Diaz & Eddie Diaz Characters: Eddie Diaz, Christopher Diaz, Original Male Child Character

“If your dad is okay with us playing on the console,” is what Eddie hears through Chris’ door when he passes by. It’s Jacob speaking, one of Chris’ friends, who is spending the afternoon at their place.

Eddie’s first instinct is to say no when they ask, his trust in tech is still not restored, even if Buck has been trying very hard to get him to.

But then again, they have gotten out the console a few times over the last months as a result of this effort of Buck’s, so there’s no reason for him to forbid it, except on principle. And while Eddie can’t afford to be the fun dad all the time, he doesn’t want to be the stuck-up dad either. Especially when appearing too strict in front of his kid’s friends might result in them choosing a different hangout spot than the Diaz house. 

It’s not that Eddie finds anything wrong with Chris going to his friends’ houses, but he’d rather they do because it’s a choice for another kid’s home, and not because it’s a choice against Chris’ home. He doesn’t wish to inflict that on Chris’ social life.

Being so caught up in his own reasoning about what to answer to that query, he nearly misses the second half of Jacobs’s sentence:

“... we could play that game you and Alex have been talking about. Splatoon? You said you have it.”

And that just makes Eddie halt again. He was just passing by, he’s not supposed to stop to listen in on Chris’ conversations with his friends. But Chris doesn’t have Splatoon. Eddie is reasonably sure about that. Chris has played it because Buck owns it, and they played it at Buck’s place, but Chris doesn’t have the game.

Buck probably bought that game for Chris, but… Who is Eddie kidding? Buck most definitely bought the game for Chris. But more specifically, he bought it for himself to play with Chris, so Eddie doesn't think it counts as Chris’ game.

“It’s not at my dad’s place,” Chris says, and now Eddie has confirmation that Chris thinks of Buck’s game as his. There's no other place Chris could play a game and rightfully believe it to be his, and huh, now Eddie’s contradicting himself.

“Oh,” Jacob says, “I didn’t know your parents were divorced. I thought it was just your dad and you.”

“It is,” Chris replies, and Eddie only stays to see how Chris handles the mention of Shannon, “and they didn’t. My mom died.”

“Oh, I’m sorry.” Jacob really does sound sorry, so Eddie makes to leave. He listened in on their conversation for too long already. “Where is your game then?”

“It’s at Buck’s place.” Eddie nods along. Yeah, okay. Buck probably told Chris that it’s his. He’ll back Eddie when he doesn’t want Chris to play on tech, but he’ll also make sure to keep an age-appropriate game on hand for when Eddie does allow it.

“Ah, right,” Jacob replies when Eddie can still just barely hear him, like he knows who Buck is. And yeah, that’s fair, seeing how much time they spend with him, and also thinking back to shortly after the tsunami, when Chris talked about it to his peers. He remembers that conversation with his teachers. Chris’ classmates probably remember it too.

“Your dad’s new girlfriend.” Eddie doubles a few steps back. His girlfriend?

“Buck’s not a girl.”

Eddie waits. But that’s all Chris replies. What he wouldn’t give now to be able to see how Chris reacts instead of just having his voice to go on. Is Chris considering how he follows up on that, pondering what exactly Buck is to the two of them? Or is that all he plans to say anyway?

But Eddie can’t see Chris, only hears Jacob interrupt what Eddie hopes is a thinking pause on Chris’ part, and will therefore never know.

Why does he care anyway? It doesn’t really matter what label Chris gives them. Kids get stuff like that wrong all the time. Chris thought he and Ana weren’t married yet, when the two of them could not have been more obviously not meant to work.

Then again, maybe it does matter that Chris seems to not be quite sure how to label whatever Buck is to Eddie. And maybe it matters even more that Eddie himself thinks that there’s wiggling room in how Chris could define what they are to each other. And doesn’t that beg the question of what Buck is to Eddie?

He’s my best friend, Eddie tells himself. It’s true, he knows that it’s true.

But there’s more than this one facet to their relationship. They’re partners, at work and… at work. Partners at work. But if Eddie’s being real with himself? They’re also partners for a lot outside of work. Buck has games at his place that Chris considers his. Eddie trusts Buck with Chris over anyone else. Chris goes to Buck when he’s upset with Eddie. Buck backs him on his parenting decisions, but he also teases him into loosening them if he thinks Eddie’s being unreasonably strict, as he did with the video games.

Fuck, Eddie realizes, they’re also partners in parenting, of all things.

It doesn’t have to mean anything. And it doesn’t, necessarily. Children have godparents for reasons like this. To take care of a child when its parents are no longer there. That’s why Eddie wrote Buck into his will.

Except that it feels wrong to think of Buck this way. He’s also who Eddie wants at his side when it comes to parenting, yes, even while he’s still alive. He wants Buck at his side for work too, without question. But he also wants him at his side, for whatever else life throws at them, for better or for worse.

And whoa, isn’t that cheesy?

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31 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 6. Januar 2022

#2

I Made This Family All On My Own

Watching them, Cirilla has learnt that sometimes “I hate you” means “I hate you”, but sometimes it can also mean “I love you, but I hate that I do”.

Or: After the events of season 2, Geralt decides to stay at Kaer Morhen, where Cirilla tries to connect to Jaskier, and to make sense of the relationships between Geralt, Yennefer and him.

AO3 Fandom: The Witcher (TV) Relationships: Yennefer/Jaskier/Geralt, Cirilla & Jaskier, Cirilla & Vesemir, Cirilla & Yennefer, Cirilla & Geralt

Cirilla starts to learn that emotions are a complicated thing. Surprisingly, it’s the witchers in her life that have the best grip on them, considering she once tried to become one to get away from hers.

Vesemir tells Geralt he should’ve trusted him; that’s how they show each other that they care. Geralt is the first to tell Ciri he loves her, once he got over himself, and Vesemir follows shortly after. She’s come to think of him as her grandfather even, and she thinks that Vesemir has come to grips with having a granddaughter in her too.

Yennefer is a little more difficult. She says things like, “I’d sacrifice everything for you”, so Cirilla thinks she might love her, but Yennefer refuses to say it. Cirilla isn’t sure she’s able to. She doesn’t know how Yen would react if Ciri were the one to say it first, either.

Jaskier is a wholly different egg to crack. Mostly, because she doesn’t really know how to act around him at all. He says, “You’re the child surprise, I heard so much about you,” but she’s got so much else on her mind that she doesn’t really care. It doesn’t even bother her when he says “like father, like daughter,” seeing as she doesn’t mind being compared to Geralt, even if Jaskier obviously means it in a bad way.

But she thinks they both fucked up their first impressions that way, and now, in the halls of Kaer Morhen, they don’t really know how to act around each other. She’s known Geralt for a while now, and he teaches her to fight. She’s known Yennefer for a shorter time, but still longer than Jaskier, and Yen teaches her about magic. But Jaskier and her barely knew each other before, and they don’t have much time to get each other to know each other now, either.

It isn’t aided by Jaskier’s relationships to both Geralt and Yennefer being significantly complicated, either.

Geralt and Yennefer snap at each other all the time too, but she’s seen them kiss at Nenneke’s, so she’s reasonably sure they love each other. Cirilla can understand that magic, politics, and betrayals make things difficult between them, and that they might take some time before they can fully trust each other again and actually love each other openly. She assumes it might take even more time before they do it in front of her.

Watching the two of them, Cirilla has learnt that sometimes “I hate you” means “I hate you”, but sometimes it can also mean “I love you, but I hate that I do”.

It’s with this in mind, that Jaskier’s place in this family, and yes, Cirilla has taken to calling them that, at least in her head, for her own private enjoyment, gets complicated.

Geralt and Jaskier are friends now. Geralt was loath to admit it at first, saying he refused to acknowledge that for a long time, but “he grows on you, like a fungus”.

“You’ll like him too, soon enough, once you get to know him,” Geralt says, fondly, and it seems oddly important to him. Cirilla doesn’t think too much of it at first. She managed with all of Geralt’s brothers too. She’ll manage with a new strange figure in her life, if Geralt wants her to.

But then she’ll hear Jaskier call Yennefer a “bitch” and Yennefer call Jaskier a “bastard”, and Cirilla thinks one of them will leave or make Geralt choose between his love and his friend. She fears Geralt will be miserable, even if he’ll try to hide it, because he is just as happy as her to have them all together here, as a family. And while Ciri might not know Jaskier enough to miss him, should he be the one to go, Geralt does.

Then, the next second, Yen’ll call him a “heart-broken fool”, and he’ll tell her “you’ve gone soft-hearted” in the same tone of voice, with the same amount of venom in their voices, and Cirilla will think “now it’s really all over, they’ll either kill each other or leave”, but they’ll just huff and turn around, a shine to their eyes that might look like respect or understanding if she didn’t know better.

For a while, she thinks it’s just the two of them tolerating each other, because they have seen what Ciri did: that Geralt would miss either of them - and they both love him enough to ignore the other for his sake, until Ciri notices that in their fights Geralt and Yennefer both look at Jaskier the same way they look at each other during their own fights.

Cirilla thinks it must be complicated loving someone you’re so desperate to hate. 

Still, hearing Geralt’s “You’ll like him too, once you get to know him”, and seeing Yennefer failing to hate Jaskier as much as she seemingly wishes to, doesn’t make it easier for Cirilla to actually get to know him, or make sense of what Jaskier sees his own role in this family to be.

Asking Geralt doesn’t yield much more than that, though. He plainly acts like Jaskier and Yennefer don’t act like they hate each other, and he seems to believe that Ciri and Jaskier will just get closer without any of their further input. Considering Jaskier’s personality, this might be true, if the two of them would naturally spend enough time in each other’s company. But when they do, it’s usually shared with Geralt and Yennefer, and as loving each other seems to be the worst thing that could’ve happened to the three adults in Cirilla’s life, it doesn’t really lend itself to that. Their dinner tables are slowly calming now, forgiveness settling over the three of them for things they won’t tell Ciri about, but it doesn’t happen fast enough.

She fought for the respect of Geralt’s brothers, she’ll take it in her own hands to get along with Jaskier too.

“Why do you call him a broken-hearted fool?” she asks Yennefer one day while mixing a potion. Potion-making always lends itself to talking, and Cirilla has asked Yen a lot of things over time. She’s been told about Yennefer’s childhood, about how she met Geralt, what else she’ll teach her, but Yennefer seldom talks about Jaskier. Mostly she just calls him “the bard”, which Cirilla thinks is neither a positive nor even neutral term coming out of her mouth, but even that went from “resigned derision” to “resigned fondness” over the weeks they spent in the workshop.

Yennefer snorts, but has the decency to look a little guilty. “Have you ever listened to his songs?”

Cirilla shakes her head. “I’ve never been around when he played.”

“If you did, you’d know.”

And while that is just as mysterious as anything else she knew about Jaskier before, with the exception of the theoretical facts about how he got to meet Geralt and Yen, it gives her an idea on how to make Geralt happy. Maybe even all three of them.

“When will you teach me how to play the lute?” she drops on Jaskier one day, when she catches him alone.

He jumps, as if startled, and despite him hiding it, she can still make out the “just like her parents. Just expects me to drop everything on her whim.” But then again, with Jaskier, you can never be sure he didn’t want you to hear it.

“I didn’t know you wanted me to teach you. Didn’t figure you wanted my presence at all.” He sizes her up. “You’re a princess. Weren’t you taught music too?”

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55 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 22. Januar 2022

Meine #1 des Jahres 2022

We’ve Been Losing Sleep

Rating G, 4.7k words, Buddie, 911

This was inspired by episode 6.01 and some thoughts I had after reading this tumblr post of @vampydiaz

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There’s something about building a life around people that’s so very fragile to changes in their emotions.

Buck is not a stranger to that. He knows that despite how strong he thinks their little ecosystem of people is, it’s still a family that they built around the 118. He hasn’t forgotten how off-balance everything and everyone in his life had felt when Eddie and Chimney hadn’t come to work. He’s not so naive as to believe his own actions and emotions can’t have the same impact.

In theory, that is.

In practice, it still takes him by surprise when Chimney drops down on the couch in the middle of the shift, furtively looking around as if to check that no one else is listening, and asks him "So, Buckley, as Eddie’s best friend, would you happen to know what’s going on with him? He’s been weird the last two shifts." and the only thing Buck can think of is that Buck didn’t hang out with him.

"Uh, no, n- not that I can think of", he says instead, because admitting to Eddie reacting to Buck avoiding him would mean admitting to avoiding him would mean admitting to the reason he’s avoiding him. And if he were ready to admit that, Buck wouldn’t be avoiding him.

Chimney looks at him for so long that Buck fears he doesn’t believe him, but then he just shrugs. "If he doesn’t even tell you…," he starts, but doesn’t actually finish. "Maybe you should ask him about it. I think Cap worries, seeing as we all thought Eddie was better now after going to therapy."

"He is better," Buck says, and even he can tell that it was too defensive, too close to snapping at Chim. He gets the lifted eyebrow that he expected earlier. Buck expects Chimney to see through him to what he actually feels, but no. After a second, he just throws his head back and groans.

"The only thing I achieved is to make you worry too, didn’t I?", he asks, and it’s not really a question. More of an assessment of the situation.

Buck sighs, not really knowing what to answer, still grappling with the fact that his actions have consequences, but Chimney takes it as confirmation and leaves this thread of conversation behind.

Buck is grateful, he is. If only, with Chim declaring the conversation over, it was also over in Buck’s head.

Chimney wasn’t even wrong: Buck was worried now. Because Buck had made a conscious decision. He’s well aware that there’s something about building a life around people that’s so very fragile to changes in their emotions. That includes your own.

And there’s no one in the 118 that Buck has built his life around more than Eddie and Christopher.

He felt his emotions shift, or well, maybe shift isn’t quite the right word. Buck suspects these feelings have been building for a long time, hidden under the surface, a perfectly logical progression of the way Buck and Eddie have been developing alongside each other.

He needed a step back. To sort out his thoughts and feelings before he did something brash and regretted it. He needed to make sure that his emotions would not affect this life that their trio, as well as the 118, have built around each other.

There was care in the planning of this step back. No risks taken. Eddie wasn’t even supposed to notice it. Buck didn’t even actively say no to any plans. When Eddie — or Chris — asked him to, he showed up. He just — didn’t actively bring up his own. There should have been no way this would disrupt their friendship, nevertheless the team dynamic.

Still, Bobby and Chim noticed, and were surely not the only ones. So Buck — Buck has to grit his teeth and deal with his feelings head-on, on his own, without dragging his family into it. It’s not their fault that somewhere along the line he fell in love with his best friend.

Determined, he stands up and smiles at Chim before leaving to go look for Eddie. He finds him at the gym, going at the punching bag a little too hard. And yeah, Buck thinks, wincing, as he leans against the pillar closest to him, there’s definitely something going on with Eddie.

"Hey," Buck says, softly, so as not to startle him. There’s still a little jump in Eddie’s step before he turns around to face him. "You wanna grab some breakfast after our shift?"

"Yeah, sure," Eddie says, smiling at him. There’s a crinkle around his eyes that makes Buck think he hasn’t slept all that well lately. It makes his stomach sink. He’s not yet ready to confront being the cause of it, so he doesn’t ask, but the urge to reach out and fix it is so strong, he nearly caves.

Tomorrow, he promises himself.

  Breakfast ends up being a team affair, with Hen and Chimney joining once they get wind of the plan, which… is okay. Buck appreciates the added distance and reprieve, even if it goes against the purpose of the breakfast. He relaxes in the knowledge that at least he was the one initiating the meet-up, despite the way it devolved out of his control, hoping against hope that it would calm the waves of what had thrown Eddie so off-balance at least a little.

By the end of the meal, he’s convinced himself that the best action is to follow Eddie home and just spend the whole day with him and Chris. No doubts about his commitment to being in their lives.

That’s before Chimney says to him: "You’ll be home later, yeah? Maddie wanted to drop by," and what can he say to that? Despite not needing to, ever since she has Chimney and the rest of their support system around, he’d still drop nearly everything for his sister. So if she wants to come around and he doesn’t actually have any other plans yet? Then he’ll be at home.

He can let Eddie catch a few hours of sleep (which, by the look of it, he desperately needs) and then come around after Maddie passed by. Except-

Well, except: now it’s three days later and Buck thinks the universe must have conspired against him, because he still hasn’t seen Eddie outside of his shift and hangouts with the whole team. He’s seen him less even than during the few days that he was actively trying to see him less. Besides making him realize how bad of an idea that forced distance had been (because you never know when life would just keep you apart), it has also come to a point where he’s lying in his bed, phone on his chest, fingers flying over the keyboard, typing "I miss you".

"I can’t write that," he tells himself once he stopped typing, "it’s too obvious. He doesn’t deserve to have to deal with my feelings. That wouldn’t be fair to him."

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[sweatersinthesummer]

B-I-N-G-O

I'm a day late, but I kept track, so I'm going to post, darnit!

I couldn't get a blackout (unless I counted my own podfics) so here's my diagonal line from upper left to bottom right (and maybe a few others.) I listed the podficcers here but please go read and kudos and comment on the original fics as well!

My favorite ship: (which is zimbits) A Bunch of Flours by ToughPaperRound This was a delightful fic, read delightfully by its author. Once, some friends gave me flours for my birthday which is a fond memory, so that's another point in its favor.

Canon divergent: Tongue Tied by HowOldAreWe (not to be confused with the other Tongue Tied, which is also great but has a very different vibe, ifyouknowwhatimean.) 🔥 Great fic, read by a favorite podficcer.

FREE SPACE! Go listen to my podfics now. I am shameless, I know. Sue me.

Set outside of Samwell: Guest Relations by HowOldAreWe. Look, generally I am not a Bitty/Kent fan - anything that interferes with zimbits just feels wrong, but this one, I'll make an exception for.

Set at Samwell: From Me to You by PhagePods. I love crafty!Jack! And fluff! And Christmas!

Okay, so that's my bingo. But I'd be remiss if I didn't mention some others that are fantastic (and I haven't finished listening yet so there might be a part 2 to this post!)

My other favorite ship: we could still be lovers by cottagepodfics. Okay, listen, zimbits may be my number 1, but following closely behind is Patater. How is it that two characters we don't really see that much in canon can be so perfect for each other? Don't ask me. But it's true. (Also this podficcer does a great Alexei, which can be challenging. Trust me.)

Main character of color: going in and out of focus by chonkytheslur. A beautiful piece of magical realism featuring nurseydex.

Read by the author: Man Oh Man, You're My Best Friend by lincyclopedia. Okay, first, FAKE DATING yessss. And friends to lovers. Yesss. And there's something special and personal about something read by the author.

Podficcer's first recorded work: ten. by dairaliz. You'd never know this was their first podfic! A sweet post-canon zimbits.

As you can see, I have a lot to catch up on! I'm almost done with the epic 11 hour podfic of the fest, which is bittersweet. (Why can't it last forever?) (Okay fine I did the artwork for it, so I might be biased.) So expect a part 2!

@podfic-please

#omgcp podfic #omgcp podfic fest #podfic recs #omgcp bingo #check please #omgcheckplease

[toughpaperround]

'Magic in the Air', a BBC Ghosts podfic by Sir_Bedevere

Read by ToughPaperRound

Rated T

5k words or 37 minutes long

New Year's Eve always leaves Pat feeling a bit sorry for himself. Luckily, this year, he's got the Captain to distract him.

'Wherever You Find Love' part 1 | part 3

#bbc ghosts podfic #bbc ghosts #patcap #pat butcher #the captain #podfic #toughpaperround reads #new year's eve fluff #wherever you find love bbc ghosts series

[milenadaniels]

911′s Use of Sexual Content and EddieAna

I’m still thirsty and still procrastinating so have more analysis! (Also help me procrastinate by participating in the very important thirst study here!)

I was reading this most excellent addition to our growing body of work on the relative possibility of canon Buddie sex scenes and thinking thoughts. To sum up the original analysis, we have determined that, for whatever reason, there is a sudden and sharp decline (near absence) of sexual content in 9-1-1 past early season 2.

What @toughpaperround​ pointed out is that we could, in the absolute, take the EddieAna homework scene as one source of sexual content and you know what? I AGREE! And what’s more, I find it extremely interesting. Let me blather on about why:

Let us point out that in the development of all other relationships on the show, physical intimacy has been a staple:

HenRen have multiple scenes in their bedroom, kissing

Bathena started season 2 hot and heavy with making out and still routinely kiss

Madney was founded on the most adorable kisses and Pinned is like an homage to their physical closeness

Veronica/Albert was visually implied to have had sex by his coming out of her shower

And though they’re over, the couple that started the show: Abby x Buck - it was actually a point of their relationship that they resisted physical intimacy...until they didn’t

I’m even going to throw in Buddie where we’ve had 3 whole hugs, more than we’ve seen Buck have with anyone and we know physical intimacy is very important to him

So I think it’s fascinating that while EddieAna is unarguably the new “developing” relationship on the show now that Madney have been moved into the “safely endgame” column, their claim to sexual content is a fakeout of implied sexual content (the panning from the abandoned supper to the trail of abandoned shoes, etc.) that gets immediately and summarily kiboshed two seconds later and replaced with literally the biggest turnoff for most people: math homework.

(People have spoken at length about this scene and the significance of EddieAna being literally cockblocked by Christopher/Buck so I won’t go over it again.)

I’ll just leave it at pointing out that season 4, to my knowledge, is mostly devoid of any sexual content and yet it acts as the stage for the (very rapidly) developing relationship of EddieAna. And instead of developing their sexual/romantic intimacy like the writers have done with every other romantic couple on the show, they went “lol naaah we don’t want that”.

And then Eddie goes through one of the biggest traumas of his life, and instead of giving us a scene where Eddie wakes up and they share that first on-screen kiss or develop any intimacy there, they....just don’t...instead they show Ana to be as vital to his recovery as the chair she camped out on. And when he gets home, she gets the same cheek kiss he gave Abuela.

All this to say I’m more convinced than ever that Ana was either always planned as a stepping stone in Eddie’s journey or became one fairly quickly after the date episode. I find it fascinating the lengths they’ve gone to to distinguish EddieAna as a couple that doesn’t get the same treatment as every other developing couple on the show.

An in relation to the original analysis linked at the start, I think this doubly improves the odds of canon Buddie getting on-screen sexual/romantic intimacy because we would know pretty much immediately that they’re endgame, which means they’d get all the bells and whistles Bathena and Madney did (dates, kissing, implied sex scenes).

P.S. There is always the consideration that EddieAna haven’t been shown as sexually intimate because the writers are pursuing an asexual relationship but I would argue we haven’t seen any indication of that identity emerging for Eddie as of yet, though it of course doesn’t preclude it in the future.

#buddie #tagging it that because this analysis will appeal to buddie fans moreso dare I say than eddieana fans #if there exist any of those anyway - y'all have my sympathies #911 meta #my meta #my posts #is this far enough in the tag listings to tag the actual ship #and not have it show up in their tags? #eddieana #buddie meta

[oneawkwardcookie]

Rules: answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to get to know better/catch up with.

Tagged by @tulipintulle (thanks Tulip!)

Three ships - Flynn x Eve (The Librarians : I’m finally on board), Pardison (Leverage), Irving x Jess (The Resident: I’m only up to season 2 episode 9 but I’m already loving them)

Last song - Last full song was Len - Steal My Sunshine, but the current song is Khalid - Better

Last movie - still Quantum of Solace from Monday.

Currently watching - The Resident; Loki; Love, Victor; The Librarians (I always forget to count that 😅)

Currently reading - Northern Lights (one day, this year, I might finish it)

Currently craving - Churros and a painless knee. Also, pre-emptively craving people not being loud outside my window tonight, but I already know that’s a lost cause (England still haven’t scored a goal of their own lololol)

Tagging: @acejuddryder, @novemberhush, @parrishthieves, @toughpaperround, @lovelessmotel, @diazchristopher, @hmslusitania, @sopheliza25, @ashavahishta

#tag game #thanks tulip #i thought the match started at 9 so went to the shops at 8: no wonder it was so quiet!

[ralfstrashcan]

Tag Game - Artist Edition

Rules: It’s time to love yourself! Choose your 5 favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world. Tag as many writers/artists/etc as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

Tagged by: @silver-latin-and-salt​ and also @thelightofthebane​ (that thing you tagged me in in May XD)

Tagging: @toughpaperround​ @lynne-monstr​ (only if you want to of course ;D)

1) Fortress of Shadows (Sparks of Light) [Malec, 4k royalty arranged marriage AU]

The war between Alicante and Edom is short-lived. The nephilim's runes and swords are no match for magic and fangs and claws. Alec stands stone-faced beside his mother's throne, watching with clenched teeth as the king of Edom parades through the heart of their castle, radiating power and magic and indifference. He demands land and crops and an obscenely skewed trading agreement for the future. “And,” Asmodeus lets his eyes wander over the crowd in the room like a predator lazing under the sun, seemingly languid but unable to hide the dangerous spark lurking underneath. He stares right at Alec. “You.”

I really like this one, mostly because I can still scarcely believe I actually managed to trick my muse into writing a complete AU haha what a personal triumph XD

2) i bruise easily (so be gentle when you handle me) [Malec, 1k soulmark trope, mostly canon compliant]

Every souled creature bears a mark on their ankle, a symbol that reflects the core of their being, their very essence. Once you fall in love with someone their mark appears somewhere on your body and never fades til the day you die.

Magnus's skin has borne no more than seventeen marks for the past century. Two weeks after he meets Alec Lightwood an eighteenth blooms into existence.

Writing this was an experience. I knew what specific atmosphere I was going for with this fic and I think I got it right, so that’s neat.

3) leap of faith [Malec, 2k PoV of a canon scene]

Blinking his eyes open languidly he scans the room for the source of the mysterious sound and finds it on the couch across from him in the form of a Shadowhunter sprawled out awkwardly on the cushions, feet crammed against the armrest, his left arm hanging off entirely and his lips parted around a faint snore. Alec Lightwood, eldest child of Robert and Maryse Lightwood, and walking, breathing contradiction.

[Magnus's POV of the morning after their accidental sleepover in 1x06 (technically 2x18).]

I can’t even really say what it is about this fic that I like so much? I just like it haha. I think it has some nice phrasings and I like to re-read it.

4) Look I know this is cheating but I honestly really like all of my Untamed fics so far? I’m inordinately pleased with them, much more than I am with my average Shadowhunters fic. Idk. The Untamed demands and inspires me to write very flowery with lots of lyrical descriptions and parallelisms but also with a sharp focus on character study. These fics take longer than Sh fic to write and are much shorter, but I really enjoy the results so far.

5) Inspired by my two dear taggers I tried to think of something artist-y I did outside of fic writing and realized I actually did XD I’m a huge crocheting enthusiast and a few months back I did some Untamed-inspired character aesthetic ribbon thingies and damn, I love them. Barely a day goes by that I don’t thread a few of them into my hair. Have a look!

Yunmeng Siblings! aka Wei Wuxian, Jiang Cheng, Jiang Yanli

TWIN JADES!! THEY OWN MY HEART!! aka Lan Xichen & Lan Wangji

Troubled Masterminds aka Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang

And of course Songxiao! The bright moon and gentle breeze Xiao Xingchen + The distant snow and cold frost Song Lan. (Obviously I couldn’t keep these two separate if I tried, hahaha)

#shameless self advertising #shadowhunters #the untamed #i wrote a thing #character aesthetics #and that's a tag i never thought i'd use haha #yesterday i was decked out in wwx jgy and nhs #today it's the twin jades #BECAUSE THEY OWN MY HEART #DID I MENTION THAT #BECAUSE IT BEARS REPEATING #I LOVE THEM #*runs off into the distance wailing incoherently* #tagging game

[depthandcharacter]

Tag 9 people you’d like to know better/catch up with.

I was tagged by the lovely @novemberhush so here we go! Thank you Last song: Thnks fr th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy

Last movie: The Open House

Currently watching: I’m mostly catching up on old shows and doing rewatches lately so this is a mess but Criminal Minds, Leverage, Supernatural, Merlin, Teen Wolf. And I’m also super excited about The Haunting Of Bly Manor coming out soon

Currently reading: One Of Us Is Lying by Karen M. McManus

Currently craving: Sushi

I’m tagging anyone who wants to do this, including @theladyandthewolves @benjaminrussell @seylaaurora @eddiediaz-buckley @meisterdani @toughpaperround @spookybuckleystrand @xpaperheartso @theseventeenstairs

#tag game